#angsty angry jily

[gigglesandfreckles-hp]

From the prompt list..."I miss the old you."

from this prompt list

“Are we going to talk about it?”

James doesn’t turn, even as Lily follows him, hot on his heels. She can almost see his eyes rolling, even from behind. “Sure, Evans. Let’s talk about it.” 

“You know, Potter, talking generally involves eye contact.”

He spins around abruptly, and she almost slams into him. “Oh, my bad. I thought you didn’t want to look at me. I thought I made you sick.”

They’re both seething, anger pulsing between them like a live wire. Those old familiar edges and barbs—ancient weapons they grew quite accustomed to using against each other in fifth year—are reeling their ugly heads again. Neither of them knows how to navigate this, now that they’re dating, now that they’re supposed to be able to work through these conflicts instead of succumbing to them. It’s easy to revert back to the old weapons, put away in favour of affection, but not under any real sort of lock and key.

“It wasn’t me, Lily,” he says, for the tenth time at least. “I told you—”

“But they listen to you! You may not have fired off the spell, but Black and Pettigrew—”

“You know, that’s one of my personal favourite things you do, Evans,” he says harshly, his eyes narrowing. “Bringing out the last names like they’re not your mates, too. Like—”

“Are you listening to yourself?” she demands, stamping her foot. Her hair whips around her face, a vibrant red curtain barely containing her fury. “You literally just called me Evans.”

“Of course I’m listening to myself! One of us has to do it, since you’re so averse to hearing a word I ever bloody say.” His hands are clenched into fists, his knuckles white with restrained anger.

“That’s not fair.” Her voice wavers, a tiny crack in her armour, but she stands her ground, fists planted on her hips.

He throws his hands up, the motion sharp and full of frustration. “None of this is fair! Least of all you accusing me of attacking another student when you know I haven’t done that in—”

“That’s not my point, James.”

They’ve been going in circles for the better part of the day, since Lily went to visit Hestia in the hospital wing and found an incapacitated Mulciber in the next bed. She’ll admit to having been hasty in her accusations of James and his mates, but his face had given her everything to know she was right on the money. He’s been avoiding her ever since, though not very successfully, as they have every class and meal together.

It’s not the first time this has happened recently. Not the Mulciber thing exactly, but the fighting thing. The arguing-without-any-true-solution thing and she thinks he’s growing as tired of it as she is.

James runs a hand through his hair, a telltale sign of his frustration, making it even messier than before. “I miss the old you,” he says, his voice low, and it might just be the most hurtful thing he’s said to her yet.

“I don’t,” she says, immediately, eyes blazing. “The old you was despicable. Arrogant, reckless, dishonest.” She looks up at him, her voice trembling with anger and hurt. “How can I miss him when he’s standing right back in front of me?”

[kquil]

HELP?

i have a series that i've been planning on and off for the past year or so and i've finally got the first chapter written. being my perfectionist self, i feel as though i need to keep planning some more things but there's a part of me that really wants to just get started and, sort of, force myself to begin or else i'll never get the series written since there isn't that sense of urgency or encouragement to keep going when i have other things to do

the series is called: Divorcing Orion Black

it'll be my take on a Harry Potter fix-it-fic set in the marauder's era where reader is transferred into the Harry Potter universe and forced to replace Walburga Black, her main aim is to give sirius and regulus a better life by being a better mother than Walburga ever was. But, it's never easy considering the limited knowledge people have on the marauders era and because... the true Walburga never really...left?

the focus will be on platonic relationships as well as all the comfort and fluff in the world considering how dark and sad and angsty the marauders era characters' destiny ended up being

potential series summary : You just got transferred into the world of Harry Potter and you've been put into the shoes of Walburga Black. Splendid… You need to escape this toxic family so your first order of business is divorce AND YOU'RE DEFINITELY TAKING THE KIDS!

tags : son sirius black/mother reader ; son regulus black/mother reader ; isekai au/transfering worlds au ; walburga black is evil ; not reader though hehe~ ; hurt/comfort ; fluff ; platonic fluff ; second chances ; reader basically adopts remus, barty crouch jr and peter pettigrew ; peter pettigrew redemption arc? ; but he never betrays the marauders in the first place so... ; remus gets a better life ; reader becomes a semi-political figure to help werewolves + house elves ; reader assumes a male alias ; alternating chapters from different povs directly effected by reader's actions ; reader is a powerful independent business woman and single mother ; reader is a milf ; reader secretly hates dumbledore ; reader hates orion black ; reader hates JKR (we all do) ; divorce ; mentions of child abuse (physical and mental and emotional) ; mentions of neglect ; angry reader ; canon jily ; mentions of wolfstar ; regulus being a precious baby ; sirius has his moments too ; reader being a powerful trio with minerva and pomfrey ; reader potentially adopting the black sisters (bellatrix, andromeda and narcissa) ; reader adopts everyone! ; there'll be ocs ; reader leaves to live her dream cottagecore life ; happy ending! ; i'll add more tags in the future

fair warning ; this series is not gonna be canon compliant, naturally, reader will make sure of that haha!

i predict that the series will be around 25 to 30 chapters long? maybe more?

if i post the series now, i'll aim to post a new chapter per month, on the first day of every month

if i post the series next year/2026, i'll try to make sure i'm able to post twice per month (one chapter per two weeks)

taglist : @melinajenkins @aastonishment @until-i-found-you @corp0real @celestcies @lovelydoveval @inlovewithremusjohnlupin @calums-betch @futurecorps3 @hihihi1112 @simpingforthe80s @yrluvjane @chaosofmanyfandoms @storyofaromance @loving-and-dreaming @somewereinthegalaxi @ashreblogsficshere @cassandra-nerezza-black @stray-bi-kids @ttkttt @notasadgirlipromise @desikudisworld @volturissideslut @arilxup88 @ghostgardn @rosalyn-s @seungtelevision @raevyng @rosaleenablack @samanddeansannoyingsis @marina468 @mess-is-my-aesthetic @zesnuts

[stonecoldhedwig]

Fic List

I have not done an updated fic list in a while, so here it is! I want to finish up my WIP this year, and then in the works I have a Dating App AU Jily fic (Remus is a dairy farmer?); another Oxford Chronicles installment; a massive Jily Hogwarts era thing; a Lily Luna/OC Quidditch AU; and about 19 other ideas.

WIP

A Great Many Things (M, eventual E; Alicia Spinnet/Oliver Wood; canon compliant; probably my favourite OC ever)

Celandine (E; Wolfstar, Jily, Blackinnon, literally every ship ever; open relationships; magical AU)

Coming, Evans? (M, but eventually E; magical AU inspired by Around the World in 80 Days; Jily and Wolfstar)

Highgate Mews (M; established Wolfstar, Jily & Dorlene; Muggle AU; part of the Marauders Map series)

Honeybee Mine (M; Muggle AU; Jily and Blackinnon; James Potter keeps bees)

The Shoelaces Case; or, the many ways to spend your 37th birthday (M; Blackinnon; magical AU; time travel)

Use Your Best Colours (T; canon from Hedwig's perspective; it's so stupid)

Multi-Chapter fics (completed)

In Love and Death We Don't Decide (M; eventual Blackinnon and Jily; Hogwarts era fic)

Miracles series (James Potter as the Boy Who Lived):

A Bitter Little Eucharist (T; established Wolfstar and Jily)

The Marauders' Map series:

Hepburn Avenue (M; text fic; utter chaos as the Marauders meet the girls at uni)

Canterbury Lane (T; Wolfstar; Remus checks Sirius out in a car)

Costa del Sol (T; text fic; established Jily and Wolfstar; the gang go on holiday; currently unfinished for a really petty reason and tbh, probably staying like that)

Caraway Street (E; established Jily and Wolfstar; the post-uni years)

Peverell Hall (G; fluff; James Potter's idyllic childhood)

The Oxford Chronicles series:

The Paintbox (M; Blackinnon, background Jily and Remadora; Muggle AU)

Jily One-Shots

A Little Bloom of Hope (T; Muggle AU; flower shop)

Better Ways (G; pre-relationship)

James Potter and the Case of the Lacy Black Bra (E; everyone lives)

Last Rites (E; canon compliant; emotional smut)

My Heart is Overcome (Gen; canon compliant; fluff and angst)

The Parting Glass (T; fluff)

The Way the Light Looks (T; fluff, but in an angsty setting)

Blackinnon One-Shots

Confession (M; love confessions)

Oceans and Glaciers (E; ok, it's actually a 2 shot, but hey ho; very explicit)

Wolfstar One-Shots

Mosaic (E; 8 one-shots with a lot of different kinks, I guess)

Snowed In (T; first kiss; Hanukkah; Jewish!Remus)

Until It Shines (G; mild angst but also very fluff; canon divergence)

Hinny One-Shots

A Lesson Overheard (E; first time[ish]; canon compliant)

A Place for Hidden Things (T; canon compliant; post-canon; sad but with a happy ending)

Opaline (E; post-war; angry sex and unhealthy coping mechanisms)

Three Gnomes in a Knitted Trench Coat (G; technically canon compliant; a bit of a crack fic tho)

Misc. One-Shots

Afternoon Delight (E; Colin Creevey/Draco Malfoy; yeah, I hate myself too)

Enough Pizza to Feed a Horse (G; canon compliant[ish]; the OotP girls hang out)

Giving Us Doomsday (T; angst; original OotP celebrating New Year)

God Bless the Shed, and All Who Sail in Her (G; fluff and humour; the Potters being Potters)

hoax (G; Marlene/Gideon; angst; implied cheating)

Remember that You are Dust (M; 2nd person POV; the universe addresses the Marauders at the time of their deaths)

The Theory of Relativity (T; established Jily and Wolfstar, previous Remadora and Blackinnon, but not in a misogynist way; Lily is enby)

Rabastan Lestrange/Narcissa Malfoy fics

coney island (M; angst; sex; adultery)

The Burning Edge of Dawn (M; angst; who is Draco's dad?)

Collabs

All's Well That Ends Well (even if it takes four years) with a lot of people (E; Wolfstar; angst then fluff)

WIP: The Secret "Oral" History with @jennandblitz (E; 1980s university; lots of drugs; we affectionately call this Coke Fic)

WIP: We Were Electrified with @siriusly-sapphic (M; how the Lestrange twins became the worst people ever)

[kay-elle-cee]

Happy birthday fellow swiftie!

Hope you got lots of presents at last nights show!

There so many prompts I wanted to send but let’s go with 50. Rudely barging in on a White vail occasion. (Possibly petunias wedding) or whatever comes to mind!!!

Have a great birthday week!

Hi there, and thank you so much for the birthday wishes! I definitely have not been able to stop talking about the Argentina shows 😅

I loved this prompt! Hope you enjoy some non-angsty Order!Jily (yes it's possible, don't look at me like that!). You can read here on ao3 or below the cut!

Taylor Swift Prompts Follower Milestone Celebration

A high giggle rips out of her throat as James’ lips tease the spot beneath her ear. She clamps a hand over her mouth, widening her eyes in mortification as a few gazes turn their way.

She doesn’t push him off of her, though.

They’re in the back of the stuffy, overcrowded ballroom of Stoneborne Manor as a wizened wizard performs a few incantations at the front altar. The bride and groom seem unaware of the interlopers’ presence, stoically staring at the officiant with stiff shoulders, draped in the finest traditional robes their centuries-long-lineage can buy.

Lily struggles to stay attuned to the crowd around them as James’ hands move up her sides, a breathy moan drawing a few more eyes their way. James nudges a strand of blonde hair back from her ear with his nose, lips brushing the dangling pearl that hangs from her lobe.

“How’re we doing, Lil?”

Her eyes flutter open to scan the room, noticing a few of their spectators have nudged the acquaintances next to them. A lecherous mixture of intrigue and disgust stares back at them, but those at the front of the hall are oblivious.

“More,” she breathes, running a hand through the dull brown hair that’s taken the spot of her favorite inky curls. “Let’s give them a show, P–”

His mouth crushes into hers before she can blow their cover, a deep groan reverberating against her lips as he pushes her back against an ornate column and slots his thigh between her legs. The sudden sensation pulls a high, keening sound from her throat, and she can feel James’ smile against her lips.

“What in the—”

“Merlin and Morgana—”

“Excuse me.”

Lily opens her eyes to find James’—a strange, icy blue—already locked with hers, the triumphant spark within them undoubtedly James. He gives her lips a final peck before spinning around and Lily demurely ducks behind his shoulders, attempting to play the mortified lover card as the whole chamber stares at them with rapt attention.

A short, irate wizard is standing before them, face red with indignation while his wife—a tall, wispy woman—looks down her nose at them with disgust.

“Our deepest apologies,” James speaks, lowering his head in contrition. “It’s a lovely ceremony. Very…inspiring.”

Lily has to press her lips to his shoulder blade to keep her laugh from sliding out. The fucking cheek. 

The woman’s voice is high-pitched, though she strains to keep it to a whisper. “You two need to vacate the premises immediately.”

“We have an invitation—”

“That hardly matters,” the man scoffs, and Lily’s eyes find the two new figures slipping their way past the altar, unseen. A relieved breath fans out against the back of James’ dress robes and she pokes her head out from behind him to address the angry couple. 

“We’re so sorry,” she says, fingers twining with James’ and tugging his hand. “Come on, dear, we’ve done enough here.”

“I should say…” the short witch murmurs with disgust as James follows Lily through the door of the ballroom. They walk in silence for several seconds that stretch between them, palms clasped tightly together.

His voice comes as a whisper. “They’re in place?”

She nods, looking up at him. Though cloaked in Transfigurable disguises, she can read his expression clear as day—the worry etched into strange features, the want that still sparkles in foreign eyes—and she’s confident he can see the same in her.

He exhales a shaky breath, thumb softly stroking along her skin as he pulls her body a little closer to his. “When this bloody thing is over, Lily—”

“I know,” she whispers, rising up on her toes and placing a soft kiss to his cheek, not trusting herself to do anything more.

[angelicamerlinbarnes]

PLAYLIST: Severus Snape & Lily Evans & James Potter

It’s Nice To Have A Friend (Taylor Swift)

Hate You (Seann Bowe)

You should be sad (Halsey)

Pancakes for Dinner (Lizzy McAlpine)

I Hate That You’re Happy (Tiny Little Houses)

Call Your Girlfriend (Clara Mae)

Green (Cavetown)

Cloud 9 (Beach Bunny)

Someone You Loved (Lewis Capaldi)

I Almost Do (Taylor Swift)

Visiting Hours (Ed Sheeran)

It'll Be Okay (Shawn Mendes)

Hailey (WRENN)

I Have Questions (Camila Cabello)

[adenei]

Hola! Are you still taking Tswift prompts if you are is there a chance you can use the prompt:

13. “Fight for what we’ve worked for all these years.”

I love your writing and I finally decided to jump on the Jily express train and I’m telling myself why I didn’t join sooner. Although I’m glad that you have your writing on A03 so I’ll check them out, since I’ve been mostly reading through tumblr

Hi anon!

Thanks so much for the prompt. I've got some prompts in here, and I am accepting, but only writing when the inspiration comes to me. I've got some side projects with other fics I'm working on, so I haven't had a lot of time to drabble. But I was able to use this one as part of my challenge for the IWSC Competition's writing school on FFN.

Should probably warn you it did not turn into a happy ending, and I am crying along with you, BUT it's Jily?

I hope this doesn't scare you off from ever asking for another prompt again! I don't normally get this angsty!

Read on AO3 || FFN

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Don't Let Them Win

“Leave me alone, Potter. I’m done.”

Lily turns and storms off while James stays rooted to the spot where he’s standing in the middle of the long corridor. He’s not convinced she’s done. She never has been; she never will be. Their relationship means just as much to her as it does to him—he knows this—and she’d have to be Imperiused to let the Death Eaters’ decree forbidding marriages between Pure-bloods and Muggle-borns stop them.

Yet, the further away she gets causes his confidence to weaken. He has to do something to draw her back, so he calls after her retreating form.

“So, that’s it, then? You’re just going to give up?”

He waits, knowing how much she hates to lose and when she doesn’t respond, he continues to goad her (though it’s against his better judgment).

“This isn’t worth fighting for? We aren’t worth fighting for? Even after everything we’ve worked for all these years?”

Finally, James’s words break through the barrier Lily’s thrown up in an effort to ignore him and walk away. She halts and turns around, her long, auburn locks whipping around in matched ferocity with the blazing look on her face. Angry sparks fly from the tip of her wand, matching her demeanor. He’s in for it now.

“That’s not what this is about and you know it,” she snaps.

James throws his hands up and rakes them through his already messy hair, making it more unruly with each swipe. “Then what is it about? Please, Evans, enlighten me.”

Lily groans in frustration and takes off again to avoid his question. This time James chases after her, determined to get some answers. He almost misses her dart into an empty, abandoned classroom, but his movements are agile and he slides through the slit in the doorway before she has a chance to lock him out.

The door clicks shut and in an instant, Lily’s wand is pointing at James. He throws his hands up in surrender, thinking she’s going to hex him, but instead she casts a locking and silencing charm on the door. He’s not sure how long he has to convince her she’s wrong, so he launches into pleading his case.

“Lily, you can’t do this. You can’t walk away. It’s as good as letting them win!”

She crosses her arms across her chest before James can reach out and take her hands. “It’s not about letting them win. It’s about you and your need to be chivalrous; your need to protect those closest to you. If I stay with you, you’ll somehow manage to get yourself killed, and I won’t be able to live with the knowledge that it’s my fault.”

“That’s not—”

“Yes, it is!” Lily cuts him off. “ Just look at your track record. There’s Sirius, who you invited to live with you during school holidays so he didn’t have to go back to his wretched home life; Remus, who you learned how to become an Animagus for, risking your life every month to make his transformations easier; Peter, who you welcomed into your group of friends because he had no one else, even though it wasn’t the most popular of decisions at first. Need I go on?”

James clenches his jaw tighter as she runs down her list. He wonders when it became wrong to show loyalty and devotion to those he cares about. He’d do anything for any of them, which is what leads him to his next bargaining chip to keep his girlfriend.

“So, what do you want me to do? Not join the Order? Stand on the sidelines while others fight for me? If it means I can be with you and we can hide away until this is all over, I’ll do it. Lily, you mean more than anything to me.”

Tears fill Lily’s eyes as she looks up at him. In a hushed, broken voice she whispers, “I know.”

James holds his arms open and steps toward her, wishing only to provide comfort. Lily steps into them gratefully, wrapping her arms tight around his middle. They stay in each other’s embrace for who knows how long. Lily’s tears soak into James’s robes but he doesn’t care, so long as she’s close.

“Please don’t do this. We can make this work.” James breaks the silence.

It’s his final plea. He presses a soft kiss to her crown and waits with bated breath for her answer. After several agonizing seconds that feel like minutes, she pulls away.

Her lip quivers. “I’m sorry,” is all she can muster, leaving James with the verbal gut punch before lifting the spells and escaping the privacy of the classroom and the comfort of his arms.

All James can do is listen to her footsteps echo until the distance becomes too wide to hear them anymore.

This can’t be over.

Yet, despite how desperately James clings to the tiny glimmer of hope the thought provides, he can’t ignore the seeds of doubt poisoning his brain slowly, surely, until he wonders if she ever loved him at all.

[roonilwazlibimagines]

Hi! Ik it might take you a while to see this but here goes :) Can I request a Sirius x Reader, post-hogwarts (but when Lily and James were still alive) and reader and Sirius are in a toxic relationship where they truly love eachother but things are just always on and off, yk? And nobody ever knows wether they’re going to walk into the room all lovey dovey or walk into the room screaming at eachother, and you can decide the ending but please make it angsty :)

Pairing: Sirius Black x Female Reader Word Count: 4.7k Blurb: James and Lily plan a get-together to tell their friends some exciting news, but it doesn’t go to planned.  Warnings: Lot’s of fighting and yelling, toxic relationship and swearing, little bit of Jily where she keeps slapping James on the chest but it is playful and I couldn’t resist writing it I’m sorry.  A/N: Everyone in my inbox: ‘please write a part 2 to worst of you’, Me: *writes a fic with the same plot but at a different time*

Everyone seemed to freeze as a loud popping noise was emitted from outside the Potter household. It was an unusually warm January night and the Potter’s were glad the weather had held off for their usual ‘get-together’ with their school friends. 

“Five galleons that they’re angry at each other,” James’ smirk was soon replaced with a frown as Lily playfully slapped his shoulder. 

“James! They’re our friends, don’t be so mean,” she tsked and shook her head, standing up to let the visitors in and missing Remus’ slight nod to James. 

James, Remus and Peter sat in the Potter’s lounge room seemingly frozen as they anticipated the state in which their friends would arrive. They really didn’t intend to be so mean to them. They cared and loved for them and had practically grown up as they had spent most of their Hogwarts life with the both of them. Sure a lot of that time was spent separately, but it was still spent together.

They had begun dating in their fourth year, they were both young and in love and they were both the other’s first, well, everything. They broke up at the beginning of fifth year and Sirius had done it. Something about not wanting to be kept down his entire life and needing a change - the reasons seemed to blur after a while. They had remained friendly with the both of them, but neither of them could stand to be in the same room as the other so that made it quite difficult to spend time with either of them. Until just before Christmas when the odd couple got back together because during their time apart they had realised that there was no one else for them. Until the second week back at school when she claimed to come to her senses and had realised that Sirius was never going to change and she could not spend a second longer with him. That was, of course, until after exams during the small Common Room party when they had woken up to the two of them in Sirius’ bed. All was well until about a month later and then it became hard to keep up with their odd relationship. 

It wasn’t that they didn’t care about them - because they did care about them both very much - but it was hard trying to keep up with them when one minute they were having a screaming match in the Gryffindor Common Room for all the first years to gawk at and the other they were cuddled up on Sirius’ bed pathetically telling the other everything they loved about them. 

Everyone was concerned (more intrigued) about what would happen to the odd couple after Hogwarts but nothing seemed to change. They weren’t dating when they officially graduated Hogwarts but by the next week when James invited them all over for a graduation celebration they were practically joined at the hip. That was, of course, until Sirius realised that he was free now that he was out of Hogwarts which led to a very loud screaming match on the Potter’s front porch where the three boys and Lily were sat in a similar position to where they were now: silent and nervous as they listened to their friends crying outside. 

“Bit awkward that they bought a house together now, isn’t it?” James’ voice was unusually high as he tried to make light of the very awkward situation they were in when they heard a popping noise and realised the screaming had finally ended. Similarly, Lily had playfully slapped his shoulder and scoffed, going outside to go and comfort her crying her friend. 

After that break-up James had asked Lily what she thought they did now that they lived together as opposed to Hogwarts where they could break up and get together as much as they pleased, both having their own dormitory to resign to at the end of it all. Lily had, once again, playfully slapped his shoulder making him exasperatedly ask, ‘what?! I’m curious,’ and so was Remus and Peter. 

“Well don’t tell anyone this but she told me that they have separate rooms and sometimes when it’s really bad Sirius goes to The Leaky Cauldron.” Lucky Remus and Peter weren’t just anyone. 

Now it had been over a year since they had graduated and the odd couple were still on and off and were currently just getting over a break-up which had also occurred at the Potter household during their last get-together. But apparently Sirius had come to his wits and came knocking at her door at two in the morning begging for forgiveness and they were just about to see whether or not it had worked. 

“Sorry we’re so late,” the three boys looked at each other; eyes wide, “Sirius couldn’t decide what to wear.”

“I just want to look the best for you.” They heard a giggle and a smooching noise as Lily reassured them that they were hardly late. Remus smirked as he stood up and reached his hand out to a disgruntled James who sighed as he fished in his pockets for five galleons. 

James didn’t plan on making this a game (especially not with the amount of money he was losing), but how could they not when they knew that the two ‘lovers’ would walk in either at each other’s necks and fighting or at each other’s necks and leaving a few ‘marks’.

“Hi everyone,” she was beaming and cheerful and she came around to give a big hug to everyone with Sirius trailing behind her and doing the same, “we missed you so much.”

 The Potter’s had two single lounges on either side of a three-seater lounge all facing a small table and a fireplace. James and Peter were sat on either side of the three-seater with Lily resuming her place in the middle and Remus on one of the single-seaters. 

“C’mere love,” Sirius mumbled in her ear as his hand wrapped around her wrist and led her to the other single-seater, sitting himself down and bringing her to sit on his lap. She leant her head on his chest and he put his arms around her waist. 

She felt content. She was sure that no matter how strange and chaotic their relationship was, her and Sirius were meant to be together. They were the other’s first love and when she fit so perfectly into his embrace how could she ever think otherwise? 

Sirius let out a sigh and a small smile formed on his face. He wasn’t really sure about anything in his life but this just seemed to make sense. He gave her a little squeeze before pressing a kiss to the top of her head. Sure they had their moments, but isn’t love about getting through them all? 

Lily cleared her throat, trying to bring the attention of James, Peter and Remus to anywhere else but the odd couple. They were being anything but subtle with James and Peter’s bodies completely turned to face them and Remus practically off his seat all trying to get the best view of the time bomb sitting in front of them. 

“So, what have we all been up to since the last time we saw each other?” Lily regretted the words that left her mouth as soon as she said it, but she smiled confidently at them all as if she hadn’t said anything wrong. 

Of course, the last time they had all been together that bomb had gone off and they all had front row seats. 

Really, they should have seen it coming. Her cheerful smile was a blank expression and Sirius’ teasing comments were replaced with a, ‘they don’t know we broke up, just smile and act like everything is fine’ which they definitely weren’t meant to hear and which the odd couple definitely didn’t achieve. 

They had joked about it afterwards that it was the shortest amount of time it had taken them to start fighting. 

“Lily this wine is amazing, where did you get it from?” Sirius was sitting as far away from her as he could manage, their distance - lounges away - contrasting to the close proximity they were in now. 

“Oh, I got it from The Leaky Cauldron as a gift from Tom,” Lily seemed like she was about to continue before she was cut off. 

“I’m surprised you haven’t tried it if it’s from The Leaky Cauldron,” she couldn’t contain the smirk forming on her lips, “don’t you spend a lot of time there, Sirius?” She was going to stop there, she really was, but seeing Sirius’ hand clench on the arm rest seemed to ignite something in her and before she knew it she was asking, “or where you too busy fucking whatever whore came in that you didn’t have time to try their wine?” It took James, Peter and Remus every fibre of their being not to start whooping and shouting because as much as they loved Sirius, it was quite hilarious.

“Yes, I was actually,” Sirius stood up, “best sex I’ve ever had.”

“Oh shut up!” She stood and got up in his face. There was a moment of silence with Sirius’ glare challenging her sneer. Then, in a mumble which the rest of them could hardly make out he asked, “do you think I could have a word with you outside?”

“Gladly.” 

It was more than a word. It was actually a lot of words. A lot of mean and nasty words which they all could hear as they sat inside in a similar position to where they were the first time they had fought like this when they first left Hogwarts. It was oddly silent in the house, with the only noise being their two friends screeching at each other outside. 

“You’re the one who sent me to The Leaky Cauldron,” Sirius’ voice was shrill and loud. 

“Well maybe if you stopped acting like a child I wouldn’t have broken up with you,” her voice somehow was louder than his. 

“Well maybe if you weren’t always so serious about everything then I wouldn’t have to.”

“You always fucking do this Sirius,” her voice started out softly but it rose towards the end. 

“Whatever, I don’t need this,” he sighed and with a quick, “fuck this,” Sirius disapparated and soon she was awkwardly walking into the lounge-room, tears threatening to spill as she excused herself and went home for the night. 

“Well Sirius and I got back together,” she let out a small laughm turning her head to Sirius who was playfully rolling his eyes at her. 

Peter’s eyes widened, Remus almost choked on his drink and James cleared his throat as Lily laughed with her friend and gave James an encouraging kick to the shin so he would laugh with her. 

“Thank Merlin we did,” Sirius whispered, pressing a soft kiss to her nose as everyone let their awkward giggles die down. 

She knew what everyone thought of their relationship. People might say that she was dumb for constantly going back to Sirius, but they didn’t know him like she did. Sure they all had front row seats to their constant bickering and fighting but they weren’t there when they got home and were tangled up in each other's arms with Sirius telling her everything he loved about her. But, of course, she wasn’t naive enough to think that the people around them hadn’t spoken about the eventful ending to their last ‘get-together’ and so why not address the elephant in the room?

Sirius also knew what everyone thought of their relationship. But he didn’t like people knowing the details, he was very private when it came to his relationships and why did people need to know anything about it? 

But he still smiled at her because this was their friends she was speaking to, they were like family and maybe it was okay if she let slip a few details about their relationship. 

“Obviously, last time we were here it was a bit different,” she turned around to face everyone else, a small smile forming on her lips as Sirius hummed and made a conscious effort to unclench his jaw. “But Sirius came home and apologised and we made up and trust me, we definitely made up,” she giggled before opening her mouth to continue. 

“Okay, I think they get it, love,” Sirius let out an awkward giggle as he spoke through gritted teeth. 

“Well if they can hear us screeching on their front porch then they can-”

“Well they didn’t have to hear us screeching on their front porch.” Her head snapped around to look at him smiling sweetly at her.

“What is that meant to mean?” She squinted her eyes at him as he took his hands off her waist. 

“Nothing, my love.” Sirius let out a deep sigh before pressing a soft kiss to the top of her temple. They were finally in a good place and he really didn’t want to pick a fight with her right here in front of their friends. Again. 

She glared at him hoping that he would understand how mad she was at him for picking a fight and then ending it as if it was all her fault. 

There was an awkward silence before James cleared his throat and everyone’s attention was brought to James. 

She felt a heat rise to her chest in embarrassment as she realised how pathetic their little row actually was and as James opened his mouth to start speaking she mumbled an ‘I’m sorry’ to Sirius who brought his arms back around her waist and whispered an ‘it’s okay,’ before softly kissing her cheek and bringing his attention to James. Maybe he had overreacted. 

“So I know Lily and I always invite you over for little ‘get-togethers’ because you’re our family and we love you all and we want to stay this close forever.” He turned to Lily and placed a hand on her thigh. She put her hand over his and beamed. They all looked around at each other and smiled in an acknowledgement that they were family and they did love each other very much. 

“And while this is all very true, James and I actually invited you because, well,” her and James looked at each other and let out a breathy laugh, “we are going to be extending our family.” Their beaming faces turned to look at their friend’s confused ones before Lily almost screeched, “I’m pregnant!”

A chorus of cheers broke out in the small living room as everyone got up to hug the new parents. 

“Lily, oh my gosh!” she let out a squeal as she hugged her best friend before continuing, “I’m so excited for you, congratulations!” She hugged her tight before letting go and Lily grabbed her hands and placed it on her tummy both of them giggling in excitement. 

Peter, Remus and Sirius gave their congratulations to James, waiting until the two girls broke apart so they could congratulate Lily. 

“Congratulations, mate,” Sirius beamed, patting him on the back before continuing, “can’t wait to meet the little baby and teach them everything you won’t.”

Their previous little feud had been completely forgotten by the majority of the room, fortunately overshadowed by the good news from the soon-to-be-parents. Once everyone gave their congratulations they resumed their positions across the lounges, a sense of excitement filling in the room as everyone was still beaming at James and Lily. 

“Now we want you to know that choosing the godparents was a really hard decision,” Lily’s hand was wrapped around James’ arm as she looked around to everyone individually in the room, “and we don’t want anyone’s feelings to be hurt, because James and I will have more children.”

“That we will,” James smirked, turning his head to press a soft kiss to Lily’s head. Despite their smiles, their friends scrunched up their noses in disgust and playfully rolled their eyes. 

“But we had to make a decision,” they were trying to be sympathetic but the smiling faces of all their friends were infectious and they knew that no one would be offended, “and the godparents will be,” James paused for dramatic effect before turning towards the odd couple in the single-seated chair, “you two!” 

She stood up and beamed at Sirius, grabbing his face in her hands and pulling him in for a kiss before bringing her attention to James and Lily. She pulled them both into her arms and kissed their cheeks, both them letting out a chorus of ‘thank you’s’, ‘I love you’s’ and ‘I can’t wait’s’.

When they sat back down Sirius’ grip on her waist was much tighter and this time she placed her hand over his and gave it a big squeeze. 

“We promise to be the best godparents ever,” she gushed, a large smile forming on her face. 

“Yeah, we’ll let them do everything you won’t let them do,” Sirius continued making everyone laugh. 

“I don’t doubt that you will,” James and Lily shook their heads knowing that as much as the odd couple would live up to their promise, they would never put the baby in actual danger. Well not any real danger. 

If they were being honest, which they would never be to the odd couple, they really weren’t convinced on making them godparents. It wasn’t that they didn’t trust them, they would trust them with their lives if they really had to. Well, they would trust them individually. They were amazing friends individually, but when they were together it seemed only a matter of time before they would explode and as they had experienced from the last few years, they really didn’t care who ended up in the destruction. 

When James and Lily had discussed the topic of godparents it was quite obvious that the odd couple would be the perfect choice because Lily wanted her to be the godmother, being her closest friend and all, and Sirius, who was basically James’ brother, was perfect to be the godfather because he was her boyfriend. . 

Well, at the time he was her boyfriend, but that was not long before they had the massive fight at the Potter’s and their concerns about them being godparents began to grow. 

“Maybe it will bring them together?” James had suggested innocently, shrugging his shoulders and earning a playful slap to his shoulder from Lily. “What?”

“Oh yes that will be great,” Lily beamed sarcastically at him, “I can’t wait to introduce our child to their fighting godparents only to have them go off and fuck in a closet and forget about their godchild!”

But Lily was convinced on having her as a godmother and James was convinced on having him as a godfather and it would have been a bit weird if they had given it to her and Remus and that probably would have led to another fight. 

So they decided to wait until they were in a good spot until they broke the news to them and when she had owled Lily to tell her that Sirius had apologised and they were thinking about getting back together, Lily was ecstatic to hear this (for the first time) and immediately sent out owls to come to their house in two days. She didn’t want to leave it too late in case they broke up again. Usually it lasted a little longer, but honestly who knew with them. 

Maybe it was wrong on their behalf, but godparents didn’t technically need to be together anyways so all that mattered was that they were together when they told them as this was the best case scenario with the least risk of them getting into a fight. 

But even though it was the least riskiest, there was still a risk. 

“And you were going to ruin their announcement,” Sirius chuckled, squeezing his arms around her and making her unsure about how she was meant to take that comment. 

Everyone suddenly went quiet. 

“What do you mean?” She raised an eyebrow but she hadn’t turned to look at him yet. 

“Oh merlin,” Lily whispered as all smiles were wiped off their friends' faces as they braced themselves for the explosion. 

“You tried to pick a fight with me just before they announced it,” Sirius explained, still seemingly innocent to what the outcome of his comment was going to lead to. 

“I didn’t try to pick a fight with you.” She turned around to face him, giving him a confused look but still trying to force a smile. 

“Really, well it seemed like you-”

“You were trying to pick a fight with me, you always do.” She furrowed her eyebrows together as their friends stared intently at her seemingly unable to take their eyes away from the emerging disaster in front of them.  

“I do not,” Sirius huffed, getting defensive as he took his arms away from her waist. 

“You’re picking one right now!” Her voice was getting louder and her expression angrier and Sirius let out a sigh. 

“I’m sorry, love,” he pressed a kiss to her forehead and went to continue before he was cut off. 

“No,” she stood up, “you’re an ass Sirius Black.” She could feel the tears start to pool in her eyes and she wasn’t sure if it was due to the anger or the embarrassment. “You always pick a fight with me and then you apologise as if I’m the one being annoying.” 

Their friends shared a look as they all seemed to shrink back into their seats, their previous excitement getting lost in the explosion. 

“Well at least I’m not the one who always has to make a scene in front of our friends.” Sirius stood up and waved his hand around to their friends who all moved their eyes away before she could turn around and see them staring intently at them. 

“Oh fuck off Sirius,” she rolled her eyes and sniffled as she felt a tear fall down her cheek, “do you really think they can’t hear us when we ‘take it outside?’” She asked, teasing him for always wanting to do so when it was obvious they would be able to hear. 

“Can you just fucking stop?” His voice was booming, “Tonight was about James and Lily but you just couldn’t handle the attention not being on you for more than two minutes, could you?” He was pointing at her and she squinted at him, a few more tears falling down. 

“How dare you?” Her voice was beginning to tremble and she hated that he would think he had gotten to her. She wanted to turn to James and Lily and apologise for being such shitty friends and tell them that she was really happy for them, but it was easier to pretend that they weren’t there. 

“What? Speak the fucking truth?” Sirius taunted, stepping closer to her so their faces were inches apart. “Well congratulations because you ruined their announcement.”

“How dare you accuse me of being such a shitty friend when you’re the one who is always picking a fucking fight with me!” Her voice started soft but as she continued it got more heated and soon she was yelling at him. Sirius clenched his eyes shut and took a deep breath. 

“Fuck this,” he mumbled, “fuck this,” his voice got louder, “you always fucking ruin everything for me.” He leant down so his face was even closer to hers before standing back up and clearing his throat. He finally addressed the rest of his friends as she angrily wiped the tears from her cheeks. “I’m sorry that your announcement has been ruined, I’m really happy for you, mate,” he gave a sincere look to James and Lily, “and I am honoured to be their godfather. But I think it's time I went before anything escalates.” 

“I’m so happy you get to be the bigger person again,” she spat at him, but he didn’t acknowledge her words. 

He walked around the room and gave his friends a hug goodbye, congratulating them once more before giving her a dirty look and apparating to The Leaky Cauldron. 

He leant against the doorframe and took a deep breath. He really didn’t like fighting with her, as much as he did it and as much as people probably thought he liked it, he really hated it. But he just couldn’t help it. She knew exactly how to get his blood boiling and he knew exactly how to push her buttons but that was just because they knew each other so well. Too well, probably, considering their history. 

More than anything, he felt horrible for ruining his best friends, his brothers, announcement. He would never admit it but he did know that the fight wasn’t just one sided. It never was. He would get a room and write an apology to his friends immediately. Maybe they could celebrate together, with just him, to save any more dramas. 

There was the thought in the back of his head that he would be a godparent with her, but he decided to push it to the back of his head. He wouldn’t be able to sleep if he let his worries bubble to the surface. He wanted to be the best role model a godfather could be to this baby and at the moment he felt everything but. 

His heart ached as he replayed the image of the tears falling down her cheeks as she yelled at him and for a moment he considered apparating back to their house and holding her until she stopped crying and forgave him. 

He wiped the tears off his face and walked into the pub. 

She was mumbling out apologies any moment there was a silence. . 

“We are horrible friends, I am so sorry.” She wrapped her arms around both of them as they patted her back and told her it was okay, checking for the umpteenth time that she didn’t want to stay with them instead of going to a presumably empty house. “You’re too kind, but I just really want to go back to my comfortable bed.” And with one horrible attempt at a convincing smile she apparated back to her empty flat.

She threw herself on the bed and let out a muffled scream into her pillow. She hated that he knew exactly how to get her blood boiling and even though she knew exactly how to push his buttons, he had definitely initiated it tonight. 

She hated fighting with him, she hated the horrible twisty feeling she got in her tummy that always made her feel like everything inside of her was going to come out and she hated that he had the power to make her feel like this. 

But this time it was worse because even though they had fought in front of their friends many times, they had never brought so much attention to themselves when it really shouldn’t have been. She felt horrible and decided that first thing tomorrow she would owl Lily and meet up with them to properly celebrate. At least it would give her time to get a gift. 

Her mind wandered to the baby and how she was expected to be their godmother. Not that she wanted anything more than to be the best godmother the little baby could ever have, it was just that right now she didn’t know if she would ever be able to do so. 

For a moment she wanted nothing more than to have Sirius’ arms around her, shushing her and kissing the top of her head and stroking her back and telling her that everything was going to be fine. But she wasn’t sure that they were ever going to be anywhere near being fine. 

Back at the Potter’s the four friends sat in silence. No one knowing what to say. They shared a few looks and many sighs, but the tension was still leftover from the explosion and it seemed that no one knew what to say and no one really knew how to deal with the aftermath of the explosion. 

“So does this mean I get my five galleons back?” James asked innocently.  Lily shook her head and playfully slapped his shoulder as James whined when Remus shook his head. 

[ao3feed-jily]

More than Enough

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by Talia (liaskisses)

Lily isn't jealous of James's new girlfriend, she's not! (she is)

Words: 1114, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English

Series: Part 16 of The Marauders

Fandoms: Harry Potter - J. K. Rowling

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences

Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply

Categories: F/M

Characters: Lily Evans Potter, James Potter, Sirius Black, Remus Lupin

Relationships: James Potter/Lily Evans Potter

Additional Tags: monopoly, Game Night, Jealous Lily Evans Potter, not together, angsty jily, angry jily, flowerpott

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[embrassemoi]

(1/5) Ugh walburga and orion... can someone send them to azkaban or maybe hex them? Or, i don't know, punch them in the face muggle way? Admittedly, I always imagined that they would be softer towards regulus, bc of the way sirius talk about them in the ootp but I actually liked this interpretation, where things became diffrent for regulus after he became the heir of the family. I like reading about him, we already know he will become a deatheater but I can't wait to see how and why he will go

Whenever I think about Regulus' home life, I 100% believe that Regulus is the golden child. Orion and Walburga love him, but they won't hesitate to do things to keep him 'in line' whenever they feel like he's not listening or 'losing' focus. He's held to an incredibly high standard now that Sirius is gone, I think that perpetuates a lot of wrath from his parents If he ever disagreed with them. But yeah, I think they're soft for him too.

(2/5) down that path? Is it because he belives in blood purity (he is friends with mc but snape was friends with lily and we all know what happend), is it because his family forces him to? His friendship with mc is an interesting one as well and now that mc knows about his family's stance on blood purity, I'm wondering what this will mean for them. I kinda agree with james on his warning. Also james asking regulus to move in with them and refusing to reveal sirius' secrets even though they are

(3/5) no longer friends was great. I think prankster james is great but seeing his more serious side during time of hardships adds a whole new layer to him and you can see how he will go from idiot teenager to great man everybody talks about in the books. Okay moving on, Sirius' situation broke my heart again. I know they have every right to be mad at him but... ugh I can't help it. Part of me wants them to make up immediately since they will die/go to prison/live as a rat/live in isolation in a

James' arch is happening! Ngl, it's been tricky planning and writing how he's going to change but I think so far it’s working out so I’m not worried.

LMFAO I FEEL SO BAD FOR SIRIUS. I'm torturing that poor man.

(4/5) couple of years. I just want them to be happy while they can. Speaking of fighting, lily!!! I know she feels heartbroken but also I feel so sorry for mc, she thinks she lost a friend and even compared their situation to her mother isolating her (in the previous chapter). I know it's hard for her now but I'm pretty sure she will be happy when she is in a loving relationship with james while mc, sirius and remus suffer in an angsty love triangle (evil laughter). Also what's going on with

I've stated this before so don't consider it a spoiler, but yeah. James and Lily will end up together no matter what. I know a lot of my readers are kind of iffy about her feelings towards the MC (because they want Jily) but since I wrote her as a bisexual/unlabelled women, I want to explore that a bit before she's with James. She's just a young teenager with feelings for someone else that isn't returned. Everyone goes through it and in Lily's case, it's hitting harder because the MC is not only one of her best friends, they share the same dorm, always around each other, but she's also a girl! It would be scary as fuck! she may not even feel valid in her sexuality!

And I was trying to write in mind that Lily and MC are still clearly friends but the MC is kinda just done at the moment. She's just confused, angry because well, didn't they just go through something similar a couple months ago? But this time, there's ‘seemingly’ no reason as to why Lily’s acting the way she it.

And omg... you don't understand how exciting I am to write the angst between Remus and Sirius over the MC. PLEASE, I WANT THE ROMANCE TO HAPPEN NOW! ANGST NOW PLEASE!

(5/5) Marlene? Why did she sounded jealous when she was talking about how lily and mc are inseparable. Did she have a crush on lily before? In an earlier chapter she looked hurt after lily moved towards mc when marlene tried to wake her up. Or maybe she feels like mc stole her friend? I don't think she had feelings for mc bc she encouraged her to go after sirius (but lily did a similar thing too). But still, I love her and dorcas together and also how marlene is a sister for younger students -🌸

also, not a spoiler: Marlene does not have feelings for the MC or Lily. her actions will be explained at a later time. Probably sometime soon.

And ugh her and dorcas :D and Marlene having a soft spot for children! like I also imagined Marlene to be like a mixture of James, Sirius and can be 'mean' sometimes but she's a softie around kids.

[the-dream-team]

Paper & Read!

Thanks for the ask, lovely :)) 

Paper: What are your feelings on comments asking for updates?

Hahahaha I get a kick out of them! I mentioned this in the last ask, but I went YEARS in between chapter updates towards the end of writing Snowflakes and the amount of angry update comments I got were... WILD. And warranted, I thought lol. I think it’s silly to be demanding when people have an update schedule or if they post regularly, but I usually interoperate them as just being excited about what comes next!

Read: Name the fic you've left the longest comment on and why.

I used to leave such long, rambling comments on this fic on Mugglenet Fanfiction called I’ll Pick You Up which was a super angsty jily fic (they’re characterized wayyyy differently than we’re used to) but there was a whole murder mystery aspect that I couldn’t get enough of at 14. 

These days I wish I left longer comments, but I tend to either binge read and keyboard smash or pick a smaller detail to elaborate on!

[marauders70s]

for the character ask: remus lupin ! (also ily💗)

@blaisezabinj not sure if you’re saying you love Remus Lupin (and I wholeheartedly agree) or that you love me in which I am genuinely shocked. 

I also JUST got this inbox from @notsoinnocentcinnamonbun so this is for you both

Remus Lupin

fancast Andrew Garfield

NOTP Remus and either James, Peter, or Lily. (Heaven forbid Severus). It would just seem weird and incestuous to date James or Peter. And even though they would get along peachy it would be backstabby for Lily and he to get together.

BROTP Lily and Remus. Their relationship is everything you should have in someone who shares your interests and listens to you. I love them. I like to imagine they have a book club with tea parties and that Remus was so afraid of Lily finding out about being a werewolf but she doesn’t care, “not one jot!” she cried fiercely. That’s when Remus knew James better marry that girl, because she was far, far too good for him, and if Remus was being honest James was his favorite brother.

OTP Wolfstar forever. I mean who ISN’T on this ship by this point?? Literally WHO? JK is (probably) on this ship.

Second choice pairing I also like Remadora. I think that being bisexual is totally valid, even if you’re an uneven bi like me (recently came into self-realization). I also think that loving more than one person is valid, because your love will always be unique in so many ways. 

Fluffy pairing I think Remadora is the fluff ship I love. I think Remus would just be anxious and full of self-loathing. He’s the last one standing, his life has been nothing but tragedy and heartbreak, and he can’t understand why anyone would ever want to be with him, much less someone vivacious and whole like Tonks. And so she makes it her personal mission to make him love himself. And Remus loves it. After a lifetime of being the caretaker, he lets his broken soul be nurtured by buttered toast and slow sex and rock ballads and one day he bursts into tears because he realizes that the person Tonks reminds him of is Sirius - if Sirius had lived long enough to outgrow the horror of his childhood and the loss of his family, and hadn’t left Azkaban a psychologically tortured and broken man. But strangely, that makes Remus and Tonks even closer. 

Angsty pairing Wolfstar in the war years. When Remus goes to spy for the werewolves and starts living rough, under bridges and strung out on needles trying to prove himself, trying to go deeper, trying to run harder under the full moon and scared because Padfoot isn’t there to keep him in check and taking wolfsbane is weak (true 70s/80s angst), and he comes home in shreds and Sirius just takes out the kit and says quietly, “Let’s see the damage,” and how Remus just flinches at Sirius’ offhand handling of “damage” and he gets snappy and angry, and Sirius, so full of self loathing and anger, guesses the truth at once: “you liked it.” And Remus wants to die in his lover’s arms, breaking apart at the monster he is.

Favorite poly ship For some reason I cannot even imagine without screaming in laughter trying to have a swinger party between wolfstar and jily. So that’s out (but please picture it and die laughing). I think Sirius who likes girls more than Remus does (but they both like them) would be happy to ask a stranger to their bed.

Weirdest pairing adult Remus and almost anyone is a very strange idea to me. There was so much to deal with and Remus was so delicate, I just can’t imagine him pursuing anyone.

Send me a character ask!