#angstcorp

[natalievoncatte]

| This is an act of pure self indulgence, because this one made me sad.

This was a new thing, fragile and beautiful. These moments had always been awkward before- Kelly wasn’t often at the Tower, but when she was she would give Alex the classic gift for luck and Nia and Brainy would have their little moment and Lena would awkwardly stand there and wish Kara good luck or something before they all ran off to fight the alien or… whatever.

Now it was Lena’s turn and she was going to savor it. She sauntered up to Kara, enjoying the look of surprise on everyone’s faces as she placed a soft, chaste kiss on her lover’s lips. Kara deepened it, bracketing Lena’s waist with her powerful hands. Standing there in her boots and cape, Kara was like a storybook night, even grinning like a teenager.

“What the hell was that?” Alex blurted.

“You all do it. Can’t I give my girl a good luck kiss?” said Lena.

Alex gaped at her. Nia began to giggle and Brainy nodded slowly, a secret smile on his face.

“How long?” Kelly asked.

“About five years,” said Lena, “it just took a while to figure it out.”

Kara nuzzled her nose into Lena’s hair and a deep rumble buzzed in her chest as she purred in delight.

“Is she purring?!” said Kelly.

“She does that,” Alex sighed. “Come on everybody, cowboy up and let’s get this guy bagged and tagged. I want to be back here for our victory dance in twenty.”

Lena stood next to Kelly and watched them leave.

“Have you ever thought about going with them?” said Kelly. “You’re a billionaire witch, you could probably-“

They were both cut off by the resounding boom behind them, and Lena whirled as a portal opened right in the middle of the Tower.

Lena watched in shock as Kara walked out. Not her Kara, another Kara from another timeline, a sickly, wounded woman with half her face and her arm and leg missing, replaced by sleek blue metal, and a blazing chunk of Kryptonite where her heart should be.

Kelly let out a shocked yelp and danced back, but Lena stepped forward.

“She won’t hurt us,” said Lena.

Then, she saw what Kara was carrying. Who she was carrying.

The Lena in her arms was not a mirror image. She was older, thinner, short hair streaked with gray and a patch over one eye, and she hung limp in Kara’s arms.

“Help her,” Kara rasped in her mechanical growl. “Please, Lena. Don’t let her die.”

“Come on,” Lena said, to Kelly. “You’re a doctor, you can help me.”

“I’m a psychologist, Lena.”

“Fine, you’re smart and you have hands. Kara, bring her to the medbay.”

“You’ll have to show me. We didn’t have one of these in my world.”

Lena nodded and led them down to the level below and directed Kara to lay… Lena on one of the beds and waved for Kelly to bring her instruments.

“What happened?”

“There was another me there,” said Kara. “She was wrong, broken… not like me. She took over her world, her Lena died, she kept mine like a pet.”

Lena looked at her.

“The Kryptonite has its uses,” Kara said, coldly.

Lena pressed a hand to her other self’s shoulder, shaking her gently.

“Lena,” said Lena. “Lena, can you hear me?”

“She has a pulse,” said Kelly, “but it’s faint. She’s breathing.”

“The Other,” said Kara. “She said she implanted some kind of device in her chest, triggered it before I…”

The Lena on the table convulsed, foamy spittle spraying from her mouth. It took Lena and Kelly to keep her from bucking off the table as Kara clutched the side of her head and wailed in rasping torment.

“Please don’t let her die, I can’t live without her. Please not now please.”

“She’s not going to die,” said Lena.

At that very moment, Kara -her Kara- walked into the medbay with Alex. As she approached, the protective Kryptonite suit formed and snapped into place around her.

Alex drew her alien pistol and aimed at the Other Kara.

“Get away from them.”

“Alex, no,” Lena shouted, stepping between them.

Her Kara gently pushed Alex’s arm down, sweeping her aim away.

“What happened to you?”

Other Kara rasped, “Lex. Killed me. Metallo protocol. Sent Lena to the phantom zone. Help her.

Alex holstered her weapon and rushed over, gently moving Kelly aside.

“Fuck, she’s not breathing, something is choking her. We need to get a breathing tube in.”

“Lena, do you have your watch?” said Kara. Her Kara.

“Yes.”

“The Fortress. Now.”

Lena nodded and stepped away from the table, activating her portal watch. The portal boomed open and Kara gently shouldered her cyborg doppleganger aside and took the dying Lena in her arms, and rushed through the portal, and Lena followed.

The cold was a shock but Lena didn’t care as the adrenaline roared in her veins.

“Follow me,” Kara said, before blurring away into the Fortress.

Lena ran after her, Alex and Kelly in tow.

“What is this place?” Kara rasped.

“The Fortress of Solitude,” said Lena. “Kara’s cousin built this place with Kryptonian technology from his pod.”

“Cousin?” said the cyborg. “Pos?”

“Don’t you have all this stuff on your Earth?” said Alex.

“No. I was teleported to my Earth, not sent aboard a pod. There was only enough energy for me… Kal-El was supposed to join me but…”

“He’s here,” said Lena. “In our world, he lived and became a hero like you. He’s the Superman.”

Cyborg Kara stumbled, skidding to a stop as she stared up at the massive statues of Jor-El and his wife, Lara Lor-Van. Clark’s parents.

They finally caught up to Kara, who placed Lena gently in one of the pods and pulled down the canopy. A soft hiss of air was followed by a hollow thrum as the machine came to life.

“She’s in stasis,” said Kara. “I’ll run scans and we can collect samples, find out what’s wrong.”

Cyborg Kara let out a strange, rasping sound, pained and guttural. She was sobbing.

Kara, still protected by her suit, stepped in and put her arms around her counterpart, pulling her into a hug.

“We’re going to save her. I promise.”

“Please. Please just let me speak to her one more time.”

“We’ll do more than that. I promise.”

“Kara,” said Lena. “Let me look at her.”

Kara stepped aside. Lena stepped close to the cyborg, a deep pang of sadness exploding in her chest as the broken woman turned away.

“Don’t look at me.”

“I have to if I’m going to fix you.”

“Fix me?”

“I can replace the Kryptonite as a power source for your cybernetics, repair some of this damage. If you’ll let me.”

She looked at Lena uncertainly. Kara put a hand on her shoulder.

“Your Lena is going to need you, and you don’t deserve this pain. Let us help you.”

“…alright.”

“Alex,” said Kara. “Take the portal back to the tower. Call everyone. I’m going to send a message to Clark on Argo.”

Lena led Cyborg Kara away to another lab and motioned for her to sit down, then began going over her with the benefit of Kryptonian technology.

“My God,” Lena whispered.

The cyborg had to be in constant agony. Her mechanical components had taken damage her flesh would have shrugged off. When she took a blood sample, she found that the very Kryptonite that kept her alive was turning her blood corrosive, and her superhuman healing and a healthy dose of nanites were keeping it in balance, but did nothing to spare her the pain of the radiation.

It was a losing battle. She would eventually rot from the inside.

“I need you to lie down, and to trust me.”

She began by fabricating a new power source. The Kryptonite had never been essential to the Metallo Protocol- the point had been to make the subject deadly to Superman.

Once she had it online and modified to fit into the power plant on Kara’s chest, it was simply a matter of carefully lifting the Kryptonite core out and swapping out the connections. Once she had the wiring done, all she had to do was lock the power supply in place.

Lena sealed the Kryptonite behind a Kryptonian force field, containing its radiation.

Once she did, Cyborg Kara sucked in a sharp, shocked breath.

“It doesn’t hurt,” she whispered, “it doesn’t hurt.”

“I’m not done,” Lena said, gently. “If there’s one thing I know, it’s my own work.”

It took hours. She started on the most painful parts for Kara, carefully repairing and rebuilding joints and connections between her organic and mechanical systems. It really was a wonder. Her counterpart was a genius.

Obviously.

She fixed the speaker in her throat last, making her voice clearer if not perfect.

“Thank you,” Kara murmured. A tear of dark blood flowed down her cheek and her chest shook with relief. “Part of me was afraid I’d die before she wakes.”

“I wouldn’t let that happen.”

“I left her alone, Lena. She was trapped in that awful place and the… other… me was a monster. She hurt my Lena.”

“Kara,” said Lena.

“I did something terrible. I had to, she made me. She made me.”

Lena gently dabbed the crimson streak from her cheek. “Hush. It’s okay. It’s over now, you’re safe with us.”

Cyborg Kara swallowed and looked at her, just looked at her, and Lena felt a jolt ripple through her. She looked just like her Kara, looking at her as if she made the sun rise.

“Come on, let’s see where we are with, um, me,” said Lena.

The mood was somber when they walked back into the chamber. Kara no longer needed her Kryptonite resistant suit, so it didn’t activate.

Lena’s counterpart lay in the stasis pod like some futuristic Snow White, eyes closed, frozen. Cyborg Kara pressed her intact hand to the glass.

Kara put her hand on it.

“I won’t give up on her,” Kara promised. “I swear it.”

“I know you won’t,” said the cyborg. “You’re me.”

Alex stormed into the room.

“Okay,” said Alex. “Kara, I called in a favor. Can we move this pod?”

“If we have to,” said Kara. “Why?”

“We’re taking her to Themyscira,” said Alex.

Yes, I will write a third one, and probably publish this on AO3. I can’t let it go, lol.

[lychniis]

Dude, I thought you said "COVID safe space" at first and I was SO confused. Like????? Is your blog vaccinated??? I am so dumb, I swear.

wha-

oh god you're the second one who told me this and i am screeching XD. sorry if i might have incited some mass confusion here ( granted my fabulous self does this quite often ). i just like crows. that's it, that's the plot, even though...like most of the crow population kind of hates me and my cat because of some cat shenanigans and bird mauling. but i like crows very much.

HOWEVER, hmmm yes my blog is vaccinated and sterile to a point of blindness ( jk jk ).

[anantaru]

People are there complaining about huge dicks being unrealistic and sending hate about it while the true unrealistic stuff when they read those stories is them ever being loved. Losers.

BYE YOU‘RE FLAMING THEM IM SCREAMING literally agree and love you for saying it

[futiledevice]

Said “I’m fine”, but it wasn’t true
I don’t wanna keep secrets just to keep you

[magnet-and-steel]

Post 5x07...

Kara doesn’t grasp it, no. I honestly don’t think she does. So, that’s the next step - Kara has to really think about how she treated Lena. Asking Lena before she went if she was going to try and kill her just solidified for me that Kara needs to honestly grasp what it does to Lena to hear her, still after all this time, ask her if she’s going to Luthor now.

Probably a hugely unpopular comparison to make but: Kara needed to hear this, like this, as much as Mon-el needed to hear the anger Kara still held over how he treated her.

I’m actually kind of relieved the show has dragged Kara’s treatment of Lena out into the light - because it was clear to me after 4 years of character development that one of Kara’s most consistent character traits is that she looks for the best at all times - often at the cost of identifying problems, serious, serious problems, that need to be identified right under her nose. I *love* that the show is addressing this regressive trait in Kara’s character, in the same breath that they are addressing Lena’s eroding ability to defend herself from the accusations of Luthoring, and why she’s started just going ahead and acting the part - that needed to be addressed in the narrative right alongside Kara’s fear of facing reality. For her to have thought that a tearful apology was the bandaid, when she knew deep down it wasn’t... I’m just glad Lena’s finally shown her the truth. It was clear Kara wasn’t going to get to it any other way.

Kara asking Lena why Lena didn’t just come to her to have her explain it? Ouch. I truly feel like Lena should have confronted her, but the flip side of that coin is that Kara feebly pushing back on this by lightly suggesting it’s sort of Lena’s problem for not prompting Kara to _explain it_? I was unamused, but I get that Kara doesn’t have a good frame of reference for this level of fuckup. And this is a grand one.

The fall has to come, and both of them have to be divested of these bullshit attitudes that were written into them early in the series - Kara’s that Lena might be shady, and Lena’s that Kara deserves to be on a pedestal. Both of them needed those images SHATTERED before they can rebuild anything remotely good together. I’m glad the shattering has come.

Next, I expect Kara to internalize all of this and take it out on the environment and baddies around her - yet another Kara trait that the show’s pushing to get Kara to recognize. I like it. Kara needs to dust herself off and hear what Lena’s told her, and she needs to look at herself and figure out why she lied beyond the desire to protect her identity. She lied for years - only to Lena. Why? Once she has that knowledge, then she can go look Lena in the eye and talk to her, and she can tell her why. Kara needs to not just hear what she’s angry about, but understand what she did.

Kara doesn’t know the Crisis is coming, so this is going to all be interrupted. I kind of feel the reason we saw Lena skip out of the fortress in a portal was so we’ll expect Lena to portal away when the Crisis comes, leaving Kara to think Lena was killed, and lost to her forever. We’ll get to see a Lena-less Kara on a new Earth, grieving a woman she can’t get back, an opportunity she pissed away. She will have to then confront the fact that, even as a superhero, she can’t fix all the problems, and she can’t make it just be alright again. What could make a superhero fall from grace, and leave superhero’ing behind? That could be it.

Imagine if they meet each other again on Earth-1, after the Crisis, but they think each other are different Karas and Lenas? Imagine their reunion being a cold comfort - talking to each other each other about mistakes they can’t ever change, about having lost someone they realized they loved only too late to save them, and the regret they’ll be filled with over having cast away the time they had with each other, while they still had it.

[angstcorp]

HOW THEY FALL IN LOVE WITH YOU

Summary: Oh no, they're falling for you. How did it start, and how do they react?

Author's note: Fluff two days in a row? What am I doing. This is AngstCorp not FluffCorp.

Characters: Ayaka, Ayato, Diluc, Kaeya, Zhongli

Warnings: Gender neutral reader, Ayato being slightly manipulative, mention of Zhongli feeling possessive.

It is a very natural and progressive process with AYAKA. You start by being friends and it all evolves from there. She feels at ease when you spend time together, and she'll try to see you more and more. At first, she struggles with being herself when it's just the two of you, feeling like she needs to keep up the appearances but it's so hard to resist you.

She wants you to meet her, the real her, she wants to bare her heart and soul so you can embrace her as she truly is. And as long as you respond positively to that, she'll let herself fall in love. It's slow, but kind and beautiful, and you'll make many tender memories together before the start of your relationship that you'll fondly recall when you're snuggling on the couch many years later.

Things are a lot more complicated with AYATO. Yes, you catch his eyes and his interest, but he has his position and clan to think about, so he'll have to do a background check on you and maybe observe you to know your true intentions. He tends to take his distance with his feelings and tries to rationalize them. Everything is calculated at first, from where you meet, how he follows the proper courtship steps, how he acts with you, etc. It's not fake per say, but it lacks spontaneity and some sincerity? He'll stop the more he sees you having more genuine and open interactions with other people.

He'll feel a pang of jealousy in his heart, so he'll try to be less calculating the next time he sees you. After that though; the very moment he gets in tune with his emotions, there's no coming back. Ayato will get addicted to this feeling in less than five seconds. He will be desperate to get more and more of you, more of your smile, more of your laugh, more of your gentle touch. The man will have to learn how to control himself all over again when you're in the same room, lest he starts looking at you with loving eyes and the softest smile in front of important people.

DILUC absolutely denies everything and completely ignores his feelings. You're a dear friend and he is simply worried about you, like a good friend should be, and that is why he spends so much time with you, to watch over you and make sure everything is alright. Yes he carries your bags, yes he buys you gifts when he thinks you would like them, yes he makes sure to walk you home when you're alone and it's already late, but it's all friendship. Luckily, Kaeya is here.

There might be tension between them both now, but he still knows his adoptive brother well and it's very obvious to him what's happening exactly. He sees it as his job to give Diluc the push he needs to make him face his feelings. He has quite a few cards up his sleeve, like flirting with you, or having someone else flirt with you, or encouraging you to take a few weeks of vacation for travelling, whatever it takes. When Diluc has no choice than to recognize that yes, he is hopelessly in love with you, he is just unable to pretend anymore. He loves you, he needs you, he wants you. His courtship will be very stiff and quite awkward at first, but give him some time and he'll be the softest partner you could hope for.

KAEYA on the other hand, knows very well what's happening from the very beginning. He knows. He sees all the signs, and he recognizes them for what they are. How his heart skips a beat when he sees you, the butterfly in his stomach when you smile, how he can't stop smiling for hours after seeing you. However, he will be very hesitant to let it grow any further than that. Kaeya has secrets, and they cost him his brother already, he doesn't want to lose you to them too. So for some time, it's going to be weird. Kaeya will switch between being kind and soft with you, and being colder and putting some distance between you.

You can confront him or not about his behaviour, but the moment he realizes he is just hurting you acting like that and being so damn indecisive, he'll stop his nonsense. Who is he even kidding? If he didn't manage to stay away from you before, it's not going to change now. Expect an apology, and a genuine proposition to start over and to please give him a chance to make amends? He'll see himself as a fool for ever thinking he could resist you.

ZHONGLI had a lot of lovers in his long life. It was always people he cared about truly, but there was never a romantic attachment to them. No one he would consider his mate. So he recognizes all the signs when he gets interested in you, and after some consideration, he decides that he would very much like sharing that special bond with you too. Besides, it's the first time he'll have a lover while he lives amongst mortals so he is quite excited to discover that with you. He truly thinks it'll be the same as it has ever been with everyone else.

He is, however, completely and utterly WRONG. It starts simply enough, getting to know each other better, spending time together, slowly building a strong bond, something solid to start your relationship on. He is totally unprepared when all his instincts awaken and it feels all his being is caught on fire. The trigger could be anything, like you getting hurt, seeing someone flirting with you, or simply seeing you wearing one of his gifts on you, but suddenly his soul is a dragon and he is holding you close to his chest, growling possessively. When he manages to calm down and after much confusion from both you and him, that's when he knows he is fucked and this is nothing like before, and it's way too late to go back now.

[darkangstcorp]

Rules

BYF/DNI

This is a sideblog of AngstCorp, so I will follow back/send asks from there.

Just don’t be a horrible human being (no sending hate, no harassing, no being an asshole, all that stuff you know the drill).

This blog is here for dark content. Not everything will be NSFW so I don’t mind minors following or interacting but please be careful with what you’re reading. Just please don’t interact with anything NSFW.

This blog might contain yandere, obsessive behaviour, torture, violence, abuse, etc. It won’t be glorified or romanticized, but it might get graphic.

Nevertheless, everything will still be properly tagged and under a read more when possible.

Don’t start drama or any kind of discourse here, I really do not care for it and you’ll just get ignored and blocked.

I am over 28. If it bothers you, then by all means, don’t follow this blog.

About requests/What I write

I only write reader insert. I try to stay as gender neutral as possible, but in case it is not, I will tag it. In case of NSFW, most of it will be M/F with maybe some exceptions.

I am busy. I write mostly for myself, but I might do a couple of request here and there.

I write only for my favourite characters, unless it’s for friends (and if so anything is fair game). You can find the list here.

I do interactions, drabbles, headcanons, sometimes scenarios. I do not do match-ups.

This blog is for dark content. I might write or reblog: yandere, obsessive behaviour, violence, abuse, etc. I am fine with any topic (no trigger or anything of the sort), but not everything is of interest to me. If you’re not sure, you can ask.

I am not a native English speaker so you might find mistakes in my works. You can point them out if you do it nicely!

[anantaru]

Please, please, PLEASE, let Diluc have that high ponytail in game too, I am BEGGING.

he does bby !!!!

[grantcatz]

Here we go. Angstcorp

“brutal, raw, and heartbreaking” “a lot of angst” “past trauma” OOK angst incoming guys

[angstcorp]

ALRIGHT MY DUDES, THE POLLS ARE CLOSED.

Thank you all who took the time to answer them, it means a lot. <3

The results are: you want mostly headcanons and drabbles, and Fluff and Hurt/Comfort or a mix of everything. So that's what I'll do!

I'll make the event post a bit later today!

ALSO GUYS. GUYS. GUYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYS. My dudes. Buddies. Listen.

THE BLOG IS NAMED ANGSTCORP. I KNOW I WROTE A LOT OF FLUFF BUT DO I NEED TO REMIND YOU YOU'RE HERE TO SUFFER AND ENJOY THE PAIN. I think I've spoiled you too much.

GUYS. WHEN. HOW. WHY. I-

Thank you all for that. ;o; I hope you're enjoying the ride so far!

I'm thinking about doing a little event to celebrate, and I'd like to have your input on what you would like too! So I made two polls to give you a voice!

First of all, what genre would you like? (closed)

You have Fluff, Angst, Hurt/Comfort, and Smut. I put an "Others" field in case you want to give your own ideas.

Second of all, what kind would you like? (closed)

You have drabbles (short stories), headcanons (what I've done so far on this blog), and interactions (you send a sentence to a character and I write their answer). I also put an "others" field for the same reason as above!

Depending on the results, I'll make (or find) a list of prompts and we can do this little celebration!

Thank you all again! :D