#angst lives in my soul

[angstandhappiness]

DUDE

Betrayal

Since I established a relationship between both TOWW, Kittens and Lamb I imagine how betrayed they must have felt when they realize it was basically a lie (well not all but they think it was all a lie). He just used them, manipulated them and played with their feelings.

So the fight was extremely emotionally charged. For everyone involved basically.

Lamb obviously spared his life, but they were not really happy.

It'll take them roughly a decade to heal and recover before they notice they are still infatuated with each other....

[merakiui]

SKULLY HAS RAIDED MERA'S BLOG!!!???

Skully over shining Zuzu?

UNFORTUNATELY...... yes,,, (˃̣̣̥ᯅ˂̣̣̥) WAAAA I AM SO SORRY, ZUZU!!!! My heart is just too big and I fell for the dead guy with his Victorian rizz and kiss addiction. I couldn't help it...... he charmed me. This obsession is terrible, dear Izuna!!!! OTL he's completely taken over my brain,,, a parasite that I can't shake!! >:(

He's so precious,,, my beloved King of Halloween, oh how I adore you most ardently. <3 I wish him nothing but peace and happiness forever hehe.

[magic-owl]

Why am I the person who both likes happy ending stories where everyone gets along and then also when I walk into a new fandom pet shop to pick out my new favorite blorbo I always end up walking out with War Crimes Georg

[theelderhazelnut]

Rise Of the Villains: Darker than Black

Warning(s): None, a little bit angsty.

Pairing: Ombra x Quan Chi

Characters(s): Ombra, Quan Chi, and Kia is mentioned.

Word Count: 384

Summary: She doesn’t want to give in to her feelings.

Writing Taglist: @afraidofrabbits @vivilovespink @scentedcandleibex @confidentandgood @spacestephh @inafieldofdaisies @carlosoliveiraa @bloody-arty-myths @zoetheneko @admin-pipes @mitsuko-saito @krysta-cross @elderglocks @cassietrn @ashrahswings @imogenkol @middlechildwhoescapedthebasement @darialovesstuff @ninibear3000 @aceghosts @sinclxirx @gavincruikshanksexhusband @voidika @orbitinytheworld @strangefable @cloudofbutterflies92 @valyrra @simonxriley @thedeadthree @miserable-homo-momo @malicedragoness @la-grosse-patate @sweet-samnang @mediocreshake08 @tommyarashikage

His dark, tall figure emrged from around the corridor. The leather overcoat hung comfortablly from his broad shoulders. How envying. His crimson eyes were two flickering stones in the dim light of the hallway. They lingered on my for a second. Oh, how I would claw at that one second and clutch it to my chest.

He was here, yet further away.

His eyes traveled down to my feet. A half smile tugged at the corner of his gray lips, a single line immediately creasing his cheek.

He knocked on the door. I wished that room and anyone who was in there wouldn’t see the morning. I would gladly brainwash Hotaru to accomplish that goal.

Quan Chi exhaled deeply. “Tell Kia I will be meeting her at seven in the morning.” The narrow hallway was consumed by his deep voice.

“I won’t be here.” I hid the defensiveness in my tone, but it briskly coursed to my hand as it held onto the door handle a bit tighter.

He nodded, but didn’t look away for even a second.

“So I won’t get the chance to see you.”

My beart skipped a bit. My lungs were clenched, empty of air. Was that what he really wanted? So simple as that?

Leaving, the best solution. Always. If I looked away, this whirlwind of emotions in me would perish, gradually. And I would be safe again. Numb, again.

I walked pass him. His gentle grip landed on my wrist. I lifted my arm, but controlled it just in time before I would yank it away, similar to a child who was afraid of a simple physical contact. My arm remained in the air, and his grip loosened, but it never left.

He didn’t speak a word, nor did I. He kept staring at me, not once blinking, until I lowered my arm. His hand descended, and hovered over mine. I clenched my fist, but he didn’t back away.

“Tomorrow. In the castle’s garden.”

“I have nothing to talk about.”

He held my clenched fist. “Then at least listen to me.” And finally, his eyelids fluttered ever so slightly.

I had came to the realization that, no matter what, my ears would twitch in his direction, wide open to drink in his every word, but only from a distance.

[i-am-literal-nightmare-fuel]

I am a sick dog and I need you to put me down.

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[xpiester333x]

As someone who ships souyo and akeshu lemme tell you what a wild difference those ships are.

The drama in souyo is like, occasionally overcoming internalized homophobia. Pure and wholesome friends to lovers.

The drama between Ren and Akechi is that they will literally be the death of each other. Enemies to hate rivals to enemy lovers.

[just-sp-in-inginthevoid]

Analyzing volume covers

Number 20 & 17 – Kakucho and Izana

Kakucho’s volume cover was inspired by his name (鶴蝶; Kaku-cho, crane – butterfly). Cranes symbolize longevity, luck/good fortune, good health, loyalty (/fidelity. They’re monogamous and usually mate for life), peace and wisdom in Japan. Cranes are believed to live a thousand years (note : ‘a thousand’ doesn’t necesseraly means 1,000 but rather ‘a lot’ – it can more than that. Same for the ‘a thousand’ kanji in Senju, Haruchiyo and Chifuyu) and in China they even symbolize immortality. It seems they are also related to gratitude/returning favors. Butterflies symbolize beauty, transformation, resilience too (all because of how catterpillar change into butterfly ; that they overcome harships). They are close to the idea of life and death as butterflies are believed to be spirits from the deads coming on earth for the last time in the form of a butterfly. Other symbolism they carry are good luck/fortune and prosperity, as well as happiness

There are also waves/a bit of water in the clothes design. This carries the meaning of renewal, cleansing, the flow of life, power/resilience and luck as well.

As I see it, Izana’s clothes have peonies and clouds patterns.

Peonies are seen as the king/queen of flowers and also symbolize honor, bravery, courage, good fortune, wealth and prosperity. Clouds symbolize hope, change and proximity with the gods

[carsaadi]

Recent doodles ive been proud of featuring @guard-en 's LumberJackAss/Jackie!!

[avidvampirehunter]

I know we are sad about Hiyori but can we take a moment to appreciate the sheer blessings of Yato-suffering we have received for the past three chapters? I can't be the only one reveling in all this delicious ✨ angst ✨

[khruschevshoe]

Lucius Spriggs (In the Gravy Basket)

I think I might be scared

Of the world and the way it makes you feel afraid

And I found Jesus, what a liar

So, I trade licks with muddy waters

And I, well I found what's best for me

And now I see no tragedy

And now I won't be packing little pistols

No, no, no more

-Mother Mother, Little Pistol

He knows that heroes get punished for their hubris. He knows that heroines are turned into spiders, that dryads are turned into constellations, that men have to bury their lovers on the battlefield.

He knows what fate awaits those who dare to question gods.

That's why he ran from his father. That's why he wasn't surprised when Blackbeard drowned him.

Lucius Spriggs’ fate is to question and be punished for it. Sisyphus was condemned to forever push that boulder up the hill, failing for all of eternity; Lucius was punished by an endless cycle of being held just on the edge of life, precariously clinging to a cliff face like Prometheus while his lungs are slowly clawed open by seawater.

The water hits his waist, his chest, his shoulders.

Maybe this is his way out. Maybe this is the way he finally manages to escape the purgatory that Blackbeard sealed him within.

Maybe this is the way he finally accepts his destiny.

Lucius sits down and lets the water close over his head.

-aletterinthenameofsanity, you're brave because they broke you (yet broken still you breathe)

So this fic came up and ripped my heart out of my chest. It has a happy ending, thank god, but it's probably the darkest fic in this series? It basically tackles all of Lucius' backstory in this 'verse (abusive childhood, guilt over running away and leaving his little sister behind, his borderline suicidal thoughts when he is kept in the trunk in the hold during Blackbeard's kraken-era, etc.) by putting him in the Gravy Basket and making him face the end. (It also has a killer little subplot about Jim and Archie fighting/killing god (Blackbeard) right as Olu, Pete, and Stede arrive back onboard.) The religious symbolism is INSANE in this one, not just in Blackbeard terms but also there's a sprinkling of greek myths and the like as well. A really great exploration of Lucius' trauma and what a darker/less comedic take on this storyline/the gravy basket could have ended up with (though thankfully still with love and kindness and community coming through at the end).

@polikate @possumsmushroom @yuenity @bricksbloggyplace

[the-hilda-librarians-wife]

Plotting fanfic is a hobby in and of its own. Tell me a single thing better than choosing a theme and using it to weave together silly little words to form a Concept

[yoonnamjin25]

Ok but I need a post canon, Arthur returns, slow burn, Merthur, kind of fic where we can acompany our beloved king through the different stages of grief he will go through when Merlin tells him he's been dead for over 1500 years so he lost his kingdom, knights, friends and wife. A fic where we can see Merlin introducing Arthur to the 21st century and its technology that he insists is just magic, Mer-lin, I know it, I'm no fool. I know magic when I see it. A fic where we can see Arthur still struggling to fully trust on Merlin again because yes, he forgave him and he doesn't really care about the magic (except he does because Merlin's eyes look so beautiful when they are gold and where did that come from, Arthur Pendragon? Merlin, beautiful? Ha! The clotpole must've been right when he told you you shouldn't drink a third cup of that dark, strong, addictive beverage) but he still can't get over all the years of constant lies and deceiving, and Merlin feels guilty af so he tries to win his trust once again day by day and keep the promise he made to himself that day he finally confessed his magic to Arthur to not lie to him ever again. A fic full of fluffy moments between merthur where we can see them fall for each other harder slowly but surely until one day, after 3 or 4 months since Arthur came back, he finally kisses Merlin. And then they kiss some more. And more. And they are so happy grinning like idiots between kisses because finally they are on the same page. And everything is perfect. And Arthur suddenly loses his shirt somehow and things are getting heated although everything is still so soft and sweet and tentative. And then the doorbell rings. They ignore it at first, Arthur's orders, but the person behind the door is insistent so they have to stop so Merlin can go and see who it is. And when he finally opens the door, his jaw almost hit the floor because the person in front of him is no other than the fucking Queen of Camelot, his first and beloved friend, Guinevere Pendragon, the long ago dead widow of Arthur Pendragon, king of Camelot, whom he's been making out with seconds ago. And then everything goes downhill coz Gwen sees her husband and Arthur is so shocked to see her again and then they are hugging and smiling and kissing and glowing with happiness and then there's Merlin, with tears in his eyes as he sees them reunite again. As he sees Arthur reunited with his true love. And when the king finally takes a moment to process everything that is happening while having Guinevere laughing crying in his arms, his eyes find Merlin, his Merlin, the one he had in his arms minutes ago and everything comes crashing. Reality hits him so hard he can't even breathe for a second. Because he was happy with Merlin and even though he hadn't yet admitted it out loud, he knew, deep in his soul, that he was in love with him, but then Guinevere is back! His beautiful, amazing, sweet and wonderful queen who he loves with all his heart is back from the death and how is that even possible???

Phew! A fic full of drama and angst and hurt/comfort and tough decisions that Arthur will have to make eventually because he loves them both, but he only can have one and that is breaking him apart because he is a righteous man at heart and he knows that as a married man, his choice should be clear as water, but his soul is screaming at him because it wants something else, someone else, and he doesn't know what to do as he knows whatever he decides, one of the two people he loves the most in his life will end up brokenhearted. But life is unfair and cruel to everyone. Even to legendary kings.

So.

Can someone please write it?

For me???

Pretty please???

[theelderhazelnut]

🌹🌹🌹 <3

for every "🌹" received in my inbox i'll post one random sentence of a random WIP i'm currently writing

This is from the second whumptober drabble I’m writing:

“Go. Go and never look back.”

His words landed on my head like metal hammer. He collapsed on the chair, and his hand covered his eyes as he leanedhis elbow on the surface.

[aces-and-angels]

me after choosing to read all the sad endings for ilw first: 

[captainbrookeworm]

One wolf inside me: Shores of Restless Souls is gonna start off kinda angsty and then get fluffy as it goes along as Morro gets more comfortable with everyone, so now that I'm like halfway through I gotta turn down the angst.

The other wolf: Okay but consider - last chapter. Flashbacks. Wu angst. Garmadon angst. Specifically, Wu and Garmadon angst that parallels Lloyd and Morro angst. Just like tons of angst. Full throttle on the angst mobile.

The first wolf, in tears: You son of a bitch I'm in.

[siriusly-the-best-bi]

Alright sk8 fans who find this, I want you to know as a Reki kin and an actual skateboarder, this winter I have tried snowboarding for the first time and am having a wonderful time imagining my experience in a cute ass renga fic thank you and sweet dreams