#angels characterization

[i-bring-crack]

May the wrinkles on your face be the silk that adorns you as a roman emperor covets the frills of his tunic, and may your hair be filled with the grease of olives and sunflowers and may your back not be scared to show the dimples as the earth does to its mountains, and may your skin bask in its different colors as the sky that unconvers each tunic of blue by the hour, and may your lips be filled with the smalll crumbles of their everlasting dryness warning me of your mortality, and may the nails on your body break unevenly like the stone who smooths itself to the timelapse of eons, and may your hair be sprawled wherever it may be like the persistent flowers that crawl upon your window so you can bless them with your existence.

No matter. I will still love you, I will love you forever, for there is no one as perfect as the imperfect you.

[charrfie]

I recently had a clinical trial related dream and wanted to draw some moments from it. Below the read more I've included my dream journal entry of it and another bonus sketch!

The dream takes place after the events of the game itself, where angel and lee had been living together for roughly a year now. They settled into a schedule and were well accustomed to their daily rhythms. Angel, however, had used this time to start considering what they wanted to do with their life. Now that they weren't reliant on a paycheck to paycheck life, they could consider options and career paths that actually brought them joy, weren't detrimental to their health, and weren't too demanding of them. And so, for the first time in a long while, angel considered going back to college. Lee was quick to encourage them! They didn't know what they wanted to do quite yet aside from being in a creative field, so they planned to go in for general courses and eventually settle into a certain path. Unfortunately for lee, the college they would get into was states away (a couple days drive), and so he missed them terribly but still cheered them on in following their passions.

At first, they had some difficulty making friends. They weren't eager to open up and were afraid that if they did make friends there, they would eventually get burnt out from school a second time and leave them behind. Their favorite class in the first weeks turned out to be a film class! Their roommate also ended up in this same class, and so as luck would have it, they became fast friends despite angel's worries. She was a very adri-equivalent character.... though she WAS someone else in this dream. Unfortunately though, angel would also go on to make enemies with a girl in the same class that was incredibly rude to them for no reason, sabotaging them throughout the semester, tripping them, talking smack about them in front of their face, etc. Even going so far as to spread rumors about angel that almost got angel suspended from the school. It was probably transphobia or something idk; there's no other discernable reason for the random hatred campaign she was running. Thankfully, angel was still well-liked by their classmates and teachers. But it did wear on them.

Lee calls to check up on them often, always offering to make the drive up there in case angel needs anything, though angel is quick to assure him things are working out. They do confide in him about their bully, which he can tell is bothering them, even if they brush it off. He's worried sick about them being so far from home and having to deal with that.

As the semester nears it's end, and angel is getting ready to go back home in a couple weeks for break, they begin making a breakthrough with their bully. Again, for no discernable reason! All of a sudden she's nicer to them, even if there's traces of malice in their interactions with one another. Maybe school WILL be alright, they think. If this works out. If it's all settled. Maybe she's starting to see me as a person instead of a freak to harass.

With the closing of the semester comes two things: one, finals are due. In angel's film class, they're meant to bring in a final film they've shot to present to the class. As these presentations are happening, they're set to have a party in class, with everyone bringing different foods to eat while the watchparty happens! Two, after finals are completed, the last two weeks of the semester will be spent on a field trip where everyone will stay at a fancy hotel and get to go on museum trips to learn about art/film. So of course, angel excitedly speeds to class the morning of the watchparty, only to stop in their tracks when they see a very suspicious looking lee that is painfully aware he is not doing a very good job of hiding. As angel walks up to him, he visibly deflates, trying to excuse it with "I just wanted to make sure you were okay, I was worried." Angel gives him a hard time about it, saying "you couldn't have waited two more weeks?" Despite their teasing though, they feel bashful about the fact that he drove all that way with the intention of just checking on them in secret and driving back home immediately after. So they tell him that they have to go to class, but once they're done then they can let him stay in their dorm room, he only needs to busy himself in the meantime.

They make it to class at the last minute, film hard drive and brownies in hand. Considering that they've been talking about lee all semester with their classmates, they're eager to mention that he's visiting the campus today, so everyone's free to meet him if they want. They do note, however, that their bully isn't in class today, and they're admittedly a bit relieved because- even if they've been making progress with her- they still would rather not send out an open invitation for her to hang out after class. As they settle down and the first films are being pulled up by the teacher on the projector, somehow (AND DON'T ASK ME HOW, ITS JUST DREAM LOGIC) the projector screen at the front of the room suddenly lights up with security camera footage of a random hallway at the school (WHY DID THE TEACHER HAVE ACCESS TO THIS AND WHY WAS IT THE COMPUTER DEFAULT????), and on it is lee chasing down angel's bully into a stairwell. The teacher does not make note of this because she's having too much difficulty figuring out technical problems with plugging in the students' hard drives, so angel darts out of the classroom unnoticed, along with other class friends that follow them.

While I don't remember the exact details of the conversation that followed, angel explained to everyone that they needed to find those two before anything bad happened, and the group split up. Cue running around the school montage! Angel kept trying to call lee in hopes that they could distract him and find out where he was, to no avail.

Out of breath and awfully dizzy after 15 minutes of sprinting around the campus, angel shakily walked out onto a random balcony to get some fresh air and sit down, only to find lee sitting out there already. A lee with........ blood on him, they found. It wasn't a lot, just enough to notice it on his face and a few drops on his shirt. But it was enough to get angel mad enough that they forgot about their dizziness. As soon as lee noticed them, he looked at them silently like a sad, wet puppy who knows he's about to get in trouble. And he was. Bc angel was fucking pissed, not frozen and terrified like the last time they found brandon's body. Not only were they furious over the fact that the day they had been so looking forward to got interrupted by this, not only were they furious that lee had done this AGAIN after promising he wouldn't ever, but the fact that they had been making actual PROGRESS in the relationship they had with this girl and had other ways of addressing it was really the cherry on top. So they fully let into him for it, getting angry enough that they were brought to tears.

Again, the details of the conversation are fuzzy, but I do remember at one point lee said "the people that have passed me on this balcony keep asking ME if I'm alright because they think I've just had a nose bleed," kind of cluing angel in on the fact that he very intentionally didn't clean himself up because he knew he wasn't supposed to do this again and wanted to self sabotage by getting caught before angel could see him. Angel doesn't know what to say or how to handle the situation at all, so they tell lee to just go back to their room, exasperated, and they'll figure out what to do about this later.

There's a bit of a time skip after this point. I know angel returned to their room at some point, only going back to class to tell their teacher that they weren't feeling well and needed to leave early. I can't recall what happened to any evidence of the murder, but it was never an issue. And for the next few days angel makes lee follow them around EVERYWHERE, even on their field trip, bc they don't trust him not to go off and do something stupid (either to someone else to himself). They even make arrangements for him to come on the field trip with them because they don't want to let him out of their sight.

The rest of the dream is the fuzziest (and also I'm tired of writing), but it revolved around the two slowly trying to repair their relationship. Even after the field trip was over and break had started, angel said that they didn't want to go back home and wanted to spend more time away from the house, thinking that maybe their distance from lee at college had perhaps allowed him to spiral into his unhealthy thought patterns again, which he never mentioned over the phone since he wanted to make room for angel's grievances, considering how much they are dealing with. Maybe being on vacation might help. And despite how heavy everything in the dream was prior to this, it eventually lead to some especially cute moments between the pair. Also I remember tammy from anthology of the killer being there at one point for some reason. The end that's all I'm writing. Thank you.

[graceofgondor]

for everything thats good and pure can this fan base PLEASE stop characterizing charlie as a witless man whore like its SO tired

[aeeeyese]

i need more eren fics where he acts like the stupid loud loser he is rather than a nonchalant fboy 🫤

[kyndahot]

Angel is a completely different person at work vs in their personal life.

Super stoic, super serious at work. They don’t talk much, their appearance is always crisp and put together. They aren’t rude to their coworkers, they’re very polite and they’ll give them small smiles to put them at ease during a conversation but they keep to themselves otherwise.

One day, one of their coworkers invites them to dinner with a small group of their other coworkers and encourages them to bring a plus one if they have one. Angel has been itching for more interactions outside of the pack in general so for the first time they take them up on it and bring David.

And, to the surprise of everyone but David, they become sooo chatty when they sit down, engaging with everyone with a big smile, they’re holding David’s hand while they wait for the food to come out, just being their usual self—the one we get to see most often. Their eyes are softer, brighter and the group instantly becomes less tense in their presence.

Back at work, they’re still pretty quiet compared to their normal but they initiate chatting with their work friends more now and they smile a little more. They seem more approachable and Angel is happy to see how much going out with the others changed the atmosphere at work. They didn’t hate their job by any means— but its work and they aren’t exactly… excited? About going to work ever? They do it because they have to, not because they’re especially passionate about it. Angel has and never had the idea of a “dream job”, they don’t dream about working for the rest of their life up until retirement.

Its much of the same feelings they have about cooking. They know how to cook but they avoid it like the plague because it stresses them out to no end—especially when they’re doing it while they’re starving. In short: Survival & obligation vs actual enjoyment!

That being said, they find themselves less anxious about getting up when their alarm goes off in the morning. They hit snooze just a little less than they used to and David is happy to see them enjoying themselves a little more.

[null-doesnothing]

if I said that I think Amanda was a near equally horrible parent to Spock as Sarek was but just in a different way, would I get pelted with rocks or what

[ultrainfinitepit]

Day 5: Shroud for Sancta’s Angeltober 2023 (by @sancta-seraphina)

[stratoqumulous]

k… kel omori (weeps softly)

[milktearoyalty]

angel xavier with the power of light.

angel xavier, who has been walking the earth for over 200 years.

angel xavier, who despite not being sociable, is like a magnet to the people around him.

angel xavier, who is loved by animals.

angel xavier, who is always complimented on his beauty.

angel xavier, who has an alter ego that fights wanderers and protects people, like the guardian angel he is.

angel xavier, who is a hero, reverend and idolized as a prince, a evol officer, a deepspace hunter, or lumeire.

[swaggycheese]

She’s so cute I can’t take it

[lenaellsi]

it's honestly a bit odd to me that so many people have jumped on the 'aziraphale will be pulling all the strings and playing politics in heaven' train. like I think it's true that the metatron is underestimating aziraphale's intelligence and ability to disrupt the second coming even while separated from crowley, but I also think the idea that aziraphale is going up to heaven with a clear idea of how he's just been lied to, an understanding of how much danger he's in, and a plan to stop it is a huge reach.

frankly, aziraphale is very vulnerable to manipulation. I'm thinking now of neil’s post with the diary entry from before the edinburgh minisode where he was duped by two humans, the whole thing with the nazis in 1941, and his sponsorship of shadwell's various obviously fake agents (sergeant milkbottle, etc.). he's not nearly as savvy as fanon tends to portray him. he takes people at face value, especially people he thinks of as Good. (that's not a dunk, btw--I find these things endearing, and a sign of aziraphale's innate wish to see the best in people. I just think that sometimes the BAMF protective aziraphale of fanon overshadows the slightly more naive aziraphale of canon. and honestly, I also think TV aziraphale is just a bit softer than book aziraphale, though he is capable of stepping up when it counts.)

and he's a bad liar! I know it's a meme in the fandom that aziraphale lies all the time, but he doesn't like it, and he's bad at it. he gets nervous and comes up with terrible excuses and the only reason he ever gets away with it is because the people he's lying to are idiots (gabriel), have their own agendas (god, the other archangels), or trust him to be honest (crowley).

aziraphale's real strength is his ability to take sudden, completely unexpected action. that's one of the things that crowley admires most about him. "he's unpredictable," is what he says to nina, and it's true! aziraphale's greatest moments of rebellion have always come from spur of the moment decisions, not intricate plans. (if anything, crowley is the planner--the arrangement and the thwarting of the apocalypse, their two longest cons, were both his idea.)

aziraphale gives the sword away because when he is forced to make a decision under pressure, he tends to land on the side of rebellious kindness. shielding crowley from the rain in eden, lying to gabriel to protect job's family, defying the quartermaster and returning to earth via possession during the apocalypse, blowing up his halo--he does these things because he's following that same impulse. when aziraphale has time to over think, he frets and fusses and is paralyzed by indecision. (or worse, he falls back on what heaven has taught him.)

TL;DR: I don't think aziraphale has any sort of grand plan other than a generalized "make things better," and I certainly don't think he is planning to betray heaven. he might try to come up with a plan once he figures out how bad things are going to get, but my bet is that what will actually disrupt the second coming is an absolutely bonkers off the wall decision that no one, crowley included, could ever predict. and I think it’ll happen, as it usually does with aziraphale, just after he accepts a difficult truth that fundamentally shifts his worldview—in this case, his final rejection of the idea of “good” and “bad” people, and of the entire morality system of heaven and hell.

[bansheehale]

Allison Argent was a teenage girl manipulated by and excluded from the narrative. She made violent mistakes. They were the mistakes her manipulators wanted her to make. Her story is one about invisible abuse and breaking the cycle. She’s not perfect. She’s not a saint. She’s a teenager unlearning destructive patterns.

[critterishere]

Ok I really gotta stop drawing this guy’s skinsona😭😭.. (ignore the bird.. pretend she isn’t there)

why do you have a gingersona as well?? 😭

[technovillain]

Every time you draw Gisu an angel gains it's wings

i know she don't PLAY about back to the future.

[fizzyrodeo]

i'm seeing a lot of emerging posts shipping charlie/angel or vaggie/angel... why? in vaggie's case it's lesbian erasure, and doesn't angel antagonize her for amusement? also, why would you ship angel with someone who either grossly underreacts to his trauma/abuse or oversteps their boundaries in assisting him? i don't watch hazbin hotel so if i'm missing something please let me know...

[ihavethegrimoire]

For my part, I don't even think Gojo letting his guard down was some example of fatal hubris. Gojo haters want to act like he deserved to die. And Gojo defenders act like he never could have made a mistake in his fucking life. You're all wrong.

Has none of you been given a difficult task and at the beginning you're like "I can do this" (cope) but then you get into it, you start succeeding, you feel like you're getting the hang of it. "I can do this" (genuine) and then sometimes you're plain unlucky, you let your guard down and slip up in a major way. You fail. You lose.

In Gojo's extreme circumstances, he died.