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baekhvuns · 2 years ago

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Lmao my friend turned her TV once and France scored then she switched the channel, came back and another goal for France akgsuahajjsjs I didn't care who won, so I wasn't in shambles I also didn't watch the match thoroughly, but I still felt some kind of tension especially during penalties. Ahhh that sucks for PSG, hopefully the management gets their shit together.

Omg the stadium view?!?! Baek do you have a big backyard, maybe they can play there

Pique is the villain seriously, I'm glad he's gone. I couldn't believe miss Shakira got with him?! Though she's not doing well these days, girlie 💩

I used to be a big Ronaldo fan, yes. Please Pepe was out of control 😭 chill and calm was never in his dictionary

And you didn't reveal your true colours to me then... 🐍that's why I can't watch PSG 😭 I didn't spend years seeing Ramos playing against Messi and Neymar to now see them together. I'm hateful 🔫 but what's going on with Benzema and France NT 😭 but also Zidane might be their new coach? 👀 I do love that bald headbutting man, ngl

Yep agreed about Mbappe, sadly there are some good players who just cannot work in a team if they're not the centre of attention. His skills are good, but he needs to think more, his head isn't always in the game.

Pretty sure Wooyoung would get RED, remember him during Kingdom's sport's day? Wooyoung in his Ramos era.

Every webtoon guy is a Hwa look-alike lmaoooo. Act Like You Love Me apparently gets a bit better, but it's still bad, the beginning was fun, but over 90 chapters in and this shit is insufferable. I read comments from Korean fans and they're pissed as well. I hate most of the characters at this point, it's TB 2.0. Buuut I read spoilers about For My Derelict Favorite and it doesn't seem to be going downhill so fingers crossed!

All the bear emoji users assemble, who do we have, Kai, Seulgi, Jongho, Beomgyu... they need to fight, the ultimate 🐻 battle

No one needs new SuperM members unless it's Key 👀 EXO's freedom era let's gooo

Wait BAP getting plagiarised, what?

I didn't know what to expect from that Devil Wears Prada thing, but? I agree, he looks cuter than Miranda though sjudishsjansjhshs

Not to be like this, but why wasn't Hwa featured in today's collab, he literally did the Rush Hour challenge 😭 come to think, he's never been in any collab, neither vocal nor dancing (except for Kingdom but it featured everyone so it doesn't count). My friend pointed out that he's in a weird position he's either treated as a vocalist, dancer and rapper or neither, so he gets kinda omitted... and Wooyoung wasn't in Rush Hour as well 🤔

But Hwa's full leather fit and Mingi's too wow

Ohhhh he's a pianist (his ass is not playing but 🤩)

AAAAAAAAAA WANT. Ha ha ha I have normal feelings about this

YSL model Park Seonghwa (real) I keep forgetting to re-read model Hwa...

Ok ok bestie listen because, Yunjin opera and Kazuha ballet?! And they covered The Boys? Ive did Karaaaaaa, someone covered WG too I think

CUTE also D-100?! 😭😭😭 April 2nd omg a day before Seonghwa's birthday you know what he should do to celebrate... anyways Taemin finally ended our torture we have a dateeeeeee! - DV 💖

hi hello!!

LMFAOOOO 😭😭😭 i rly blamed france scoring on anything breathing at that point 😭i think the final had a very unsettling feeling (even w the city who hosted it) to it that increased at penalties, maybe it was mbappe’s face that was so relaxed and calm, scoring easily as the previous winners to agrentina’s hunger to bring the trophy in after decades,,, it was really a fight to the END, what a final but in the most unsettling way,,, hopefully psg does better! they got the best players they gotta make it useful!! also this tweet so true

Omg the stadium view?!?! Baek do you have a big backyard, maybe they can play there //// Pique is the villain seriously, I'm glad he's gone. I couldn't believe miss Shakira got with him?! Though she's not doing well these days, girlie 💩

KCHCKCLC I WISH I DID but theres a better one just an hour away! not w the mountain view but def the entire skyline and super pretty <33 no bc pique meeting with messi and suarez for christmas 😭😭 may b he’ll beg for him to come back to barca ANS then messi to convince ney to come and the world will heal,, fhsjdhsj miss shakira is still doing better then him 🤚🏼

I used to be a big Ronaldo fan, yes. Please Pepe was out of control 😭 chill and calm was never in his dictionary

NO FUCKING Y SHAKDHWKDH I SMELLED HIS FAN OFF OF U BFKWHDSK WHAT A COINCIDENCE A MESSI LIKER AND A RONALDO LIKED HAVING A CIVIL CONVO DBDB

LMFAOOOO NO BC PSGS GOOD THEY GOT THEM AND DI MARIA ITS RLY ENTERTAINING TO WATCH IT AS A WHOLE DBDBDB the beef of mbappe w messimar, the neymar messi giggling and the fight w defence 😭😭 HATEFUL FBWNFHWK NOOOO THE BENZEMA FRANCE THING IS SO MESSY BUT FUNNY GBDNFBNE HE DIPPED AFTER THE BALLON D’OR 😭😭😭 zidane ayo 👀 hoping for a mourinho and guardiola return,,, the 2026 wc is so confusing the math is not mathing 😭😭

absolutely 100% !!!!! he’s predictable and it won’t take long for ppl to notice (and they are) before they start eating him up bdbdbd his head is always to just win 😭😭

Pretty sure Wooyoung would get RED, remember him during Kingdom's sport's day? Wooyoung in his Ramos era.

RBQKDHQKHDQKJCJCJC WOOYOUNG RAMOS ZLATAN AND PEPE MIX add neymar for the drama and the winks, he’d ask the goalkeeper where to shoot for pen’s just like him 😭😭😭😭

seonghwa perfect face agenda is shown every time i open a webtoon and it’s always a replica of him in a diff hair colour,,,, OKAY BET IM READING THIS AND SO FAR SO GOOD,,, TB TROPE HAS RLY TAKEN OVER EVERY FIC ATP COME ON GIVE THE BEST GUY A CHANCE 😭😭😭 webtoon y/n’s <<<< fic y/n’s

All the bear emoji users assemble, who do we have, Kai, Seulgi, Jongho, Beomgyu... they need to fight, the ultimate 🐻 battle /// No one needs new SuperM members unless it's Key 👀 EXO's freedom era let's gooo

ADDING SHOWNU TO THAT, not cat fight just beats going head to head,,, UR SO RIGHT EITHER KEY OR CHANGMIN !!!!! exo freedom era 😭😭😭 everytime i open twt i see them and ive or make sure it’s not an edit 😭😭 traumatized forever

Wait BAP getting plagiarised, what? ///// I didn't know what to expect from that Devil Wears Prada thing, but? I agree, he looks cuter than Miranda though sjudishsjansjhshs

yeah! right here! BDSNBD if miranda was cute,,,,, hear me the fUCK OUT fashion designer hwa and his intern 🤚🏼but it’s his ex 🤚🏼

wait….ur kinda right ive never seen him in a collab,,, he’s like on a cusp between so many positions that in the end of the day he’s like no where, will put myself into delulu and say he doesn’t participate in them bc he will steal all the attention <3

Ohhhh he's a pianist (his ass is not playing but 🤩) //// AAAAAAAAAA WANT. Ha ha ha I have normal feelings about this //// YSL model Park Seonghwa (real) I keep forgetting to re-read model Hwa...

if he steps on the piano in the mv, that is peak taemin core! STOP BC HE LOOKED SO GOOD IM AFRAID LEGO CAN FUCK OFF I NEED A DIOR AMBASSADORSHIP !!!!!! …..omg….that is indeed model hwa….u keep forgetting to read and i be re-reading that fic like my life depends on it, reminded me of that mingi hwa runway video and this,, convinced this is a look he’d wear as a model in the au

Ok ok bestie listen because, Yunjin opera and Kazuha ballet?! And they covered The Boys? Ive did Karaaaaaa, someone covered WG too I think

THW WAY I FUCKING SCREAMED AT THEIR PERFORMANCE FINALLY AFTER SO LONG ITS THE SONG AGAIN !!!!!! no bc lsf can do a horror concept so well, like a black swan concept and yunjin’s doing opera 😩😩 IVE DID KARA 😭😭😭🤚🏼 GGS DOMINATING

CUTE also D-100?! 😭😭😭 April 2nd omg a day before Seonghwa's birthday you know what he should do to celebrate... anyways Taemin finally ended our torture we have a dateeeeeee! - DV

WE FINALLY 😭😭😭😭 FINALLY 😭😭😭 KNOW HIS RELEASE DATE 😭😭😭😭 I THINK THE DATES APRIL 4TH BUT CLOSE ENOUGH TO HWA’S SCREAMING HE’S FINALLY COMING BACK 😭😭😭😭😭 STOP IT 😭😭😭

also just turned christmas when i finished this so merry christmas to u!!!

and. correct.

#✉️ : ask #dv 💖 anon

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plounce · 4 years ago

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what if gay CATS........... were gay PERSONS

(info on this au under the cut)

theyre all shitty young adults just kind of. getting through their early 20s as best they can. or as much as they can. maybe things will get better someday, but right now they’re kind of spinning their wheels

magic exists but like eh it’s not a big thing don’t worry about it. it’s around but like whatever. not many people have it and it’s mostly just like. a curiosity or a party trick

demeter and bombularina are together, tugger and mistoffelees are together, bombularina and tugger occasionally fwb, it’s cool and aboveboard and it’s all fine

demeter:

bisexual with a preference for women. 24 years old

semi-psychic (not as powerful as tantomile or coricopat). tends to have vague and confusing prophetic dreams

dropped out of grad school for sociology due to trauma and ensuing intensified mental illness. kind of bitter about it, but tries to get through every day. general anxiety disorder even before all that

very nervous around most men she doesn’t know & trust

currently working at a barnes & noble starbucks, which sucks. she recently became the assistant manager, which turbo sucks because now she has more work for only like a buck raise, but at least she’s getting reliable shifts

her go-to therapy is cutting her hair with scissors. her hair is fried to all hell from regular bleaching

she’s learning how to crochet because she’s decided she needs to do something physically productively creative with her hands to distract herself from Stuff

bombalurina:

bisexual. 24 years old

got her bachelor’s in english two years ago and hasn’t found a job in her field and has kind of given up on it for now

she’s been bartending for like four years, does freelance editing work on the side. will occasionally write listicles for clickbait sites if she needs extra cash

literally any extra money she can save goes to tattoos. her right sleeve’s almost done

has natural red hair but dyes it cherry red

a hedonist to cope but is also just a natural hedonist. likes a good bath

i know that like the typical thing fandoms say about female characters is “doesn’t take shit” for the girlboss points but she truly does not take shit anymore. she used to take people’s shit sometimes but at this point in her life she’s tired and she has a girlfriend to be protective of. she has a couple people whose shit she will take (mostly just tugger) but besides them (and having to practice basic customer service to keep her job) she’s tired of other people’s shit! enough!

my personal take on bombalurina is a mix between the riot grrrls of the 90s and 80s punk girls, and then a dash of the greaser chicks from grease. i saw that spiked collar and my brain went OH okay i can run with this somewhere fun. same for demeter, but less so - she just has the piercings.

demelurina:

bombalurina met demeter in college at a women’s activism club, noticed her because of her dimple piercings and was like “oh someone else with a lot of metal in her face, i’ll sit next to her”

they were each other’s first off-campus roommates and were close friends. made out a couple times, but it was mostly a lot of sexual tension. there was a lot of bombalurina staring at demeter while she or demeter made out with someone else

demeter was on and off with her high school boyfriend munkustrap and bombalurina was like “oh he’s so much more stable/calm than me and she needs that, i party a bit too much for her, i shouldn’t try anything” so she just sort of. lets their almost-there peter off

(this is all bombalurina’s internal thoughts - demeter always was interested in her, but thought she was too boring for bombalurina. so neither of them thought they could pursue it)

bombalurina graduated and moved somewhere cheaper further away from campus. they kind of drift apart

munkustrap and demeter peter off and he moves away for a job (they’re still good friends, it was a very amicable breakup) and then demeter gets with macavity, which is a deeply toxic situation for her and sucks hugely and throws her whole life really off track. won’t go into further details

she finally manages to break up with him and calls bombalurina at like 2 am asking if she can pick her up, and also if she can sleep on her couch, it’s okay if that’s not okay, she just. really needs a place she feels safe, and her gut is telling her to. and of course bombalurina says yes

bombalurina also knew macavity and had also made out a couple times with him at like parties and stuff (see: staring at demeter as she makes out with people). something about transference of feelings - bombalurina was into him for a couple moments because he and demeter had a thing.

this is due to me interpreting the song “macavity” as actually about bombalurina wanting to fuck demeter and her singing as a half-repressed expression of that. i use my really good wlw brain to reach that conclusion. it’s kind of a non-competitive version of eve sedgwick’s take on the love triangle. (<-- normal thing to say)

but anyway demeter stays on bombalurina’s couch and she tries so hard to stay on track but eventually she just has to drop out. bombalurina helps her with that too. she’s just really supportive even as demeter’s life is at its lowest point. when she gets home from bartending she gets demeter to go to sleep

she just Stays with her and makes her smile and reminds her that her life isn’t over, there’s still things in her day to enjoy, to keep her trudging forward

bombalurina is roommates with tugger at this point - he also recently dropped out and demeter knows him because he’s munkustrap’s brother, so he’s Trusted and also is like “hey it’s okay that you dropped out, im here and im chilling and you like me and respect me at least a little, and you have a bachelor’s degree at least!” (more on him later)

demeter is like “oh god ive been crashing at their place for so long not paying rent, theyre gonna ask me to leave, im such a freeloader, they wont take my attempts at paying rent” but then bombalurina and tugger are like “hey! the lease is almost up! we found a pretty good 3 bedroom, do you wanna have your own room for real?” and she nearly cries because 1. the RELIEF 2. oh my god you want me around???

cut to bombalurina helping demeter put together an ikea dresser (tugger got banished to the kitchen to make crystal light lemonade for them because he’s useless with a screwdriver) and demeter has two epiphanies:

1. i thought i was ready to d*e four months ago and here i am making a dresser to put clothes into in my new apartment where i live and feel safe and loved. im still not happy but im still alive and im making a dresser

2. holy fuck im back in love with my best friend, and ten times more than i was back then.

so she like kind of freaks out because she’s already imposed so much on bombalurina, how could she impose her FEELINGS on her like this, oh no oh no oh no

meanwhile bombalurina’s back in love with her even MORE and she’s also like no... she’s already dealing with so much... i don’t want to make her uncomfortable or feel unsafe in her own home especially after her recent relationship trauma... i just want her to feel safe around me...

you might think tugger as their roommate would be like “JUST KISS” but he is in fact pretty oblivious because he is self-absorbed. mistoffelees on the other hand..

eventually they do have a big confession of feelings after demeter has a bad day and it’s very dramatic and they make out in the rain. and it’s like. well this is a movie scene. but also im cold and damp. let’s head inside our home and get warm and dry :)

and then they go inside and and talk through everything, all their feelings (not just their romantic feelings but like ALL their feelings) and their shared histories and bombalurina is like “do you think you’re... ready for a relationship right now? like that would be a good thing for you?”

and demeter considers it. she does stop and think. and then she says, “with anyone else... probably not. but it’s you. and i feel so safe around you, and we’re already so close. you make the future feel more worth it. you make more days alive feel not just tolerable, but something to look forward to. and knowing you’ve loved me all this time... it’s nice. it’s good. i’m - i’m understating it so much, it’s more than nice, it’s just - it’s a lot. i wish i had noticed back then.” “hey, hey, don’t blame yourself. i’m the one who never said anything.”

anyway. everything works out, and they start dating for real :)

tugger:

bisexual. 22 years old

dishwasher at the same bar bombalurina works at. she got him the job. he keeps bugging her to teach him bartending tricks and on slow nights she will agree to

he dropped out of their four year, but he managed to secure an associate’s in communications before he dipped

trying to be an ig influencer hotboy and hopefully get modeling jobs from that but his phone’s camera sucks shit so his account isn’t really going anywhere. but he continues to post his low resolution shirtless selfies

trying to cope with being the failure son who does not have a fancy nonprofit job with a salary and healthcare by being self-absorbed and self-aggrandizing

it works about 60% of the time and 60% of the times that it doesn’t he’s able to hide it

he dropped out right around when bombalurina graduated and he was like HEY! ARE YOU LOOKING FOR A ROOMMATE WHO DOESN’T CARE IF WE LIVE TEN MILES AWAY FROM CAMPUS? WELL HAVE I GOT A SOLUTION FOR YOU: ME!

to which bombalurina (who has fooled around with him here and there and thinks he is funny little man and genuinely goodhearted, and also he has rockin abs as a plus) says munkustrap already asked me if i need a roommate and if i do to consider you, because you don’t want to move back home. in other words: yes, you little idiot

they do fool around with each other but they are both very understanding that it is strictly platonic and for fun, especially once they become roommates. they both do not desire each other for anything serious

he did have a bit of a crush on each other when they met (hot punk older girl who’s friends with his brother) but 1. it dissipated pretty quick after they fooled around for the first time because it was not a very serious crush 2. she was in the middle of being in love with demeter so she was focused on that, emotionally

he got his ears pierced a couple times in high school but bombalurina inspired him to get a couple more. she went with him when he got his nose pierced

demeter has always understood that him and bombalurina are strictly fwb, has never been an issue.

she and him like to bleach their hair together when their hair schedules line up (he bleaches his way less often then she does), but she refuses to use his fancy conditioner that keeps his hair unfried because it’s expensive, even though he tells her to go ahead and use it, please, the health of her hair is giving HIM anxiety, demeter please. please demeter

mistoffelees:

gay. 20 years old

has magic. it’s pretty good magic but again: magic is not a big deal in this concept

a bit spooky. skulks around. a bit of a bitch but also very very nice. chooses when to speak

he has postings on craigslist and fiverr about finding lost objects and people with magic. like a gig economy private detective

side job is a waiter at a fancy restaurant

sometimes he gets paid VERY well from the private detecting, depending on the client. he does ask his psychic friends (tantomile & coricopat) to give a quick glance over on some of the more suspicious clients just to make sure he isn’t finding someone who should not be found by that person.

doesn’t go to college. is roommates with his sister victoria, who’s a freshman and studying dance. moved into town with her so she wouldn’t have to live in the dorms by having a guaranteed roommate.

tuggoffelees:

the general vibe i want for these two is mistoffelees walking around town or driving around in his shitty toyota camry while tugger tags along because he’s bored and thinks this is cool as shit

the general tone of the au is “magic isn’t a big deal” except for tugger, who thinks mistoffelees’ magic and his magic freelancing is the coolest shit ever. this is mostly because he just likes mistoffelees. “there are people who can do cooler shit than me, tug” “yeah but i don’t KNOW them also theyre not as COOL as you” “you had to explain to me how instagram reels work”

idk how they met i just think tugger shows up at his and bombalurina’s apartment one day (this is when demeter has moved in but they havent moved to the 3br yet) with this dude to dash in and pick something up and bombalurina is like “uh. who’s this” “oh this is mistoffelees he’s SO GOOD AT MAGIC” [mistoffelees nods hello] “okay bye bombalurina see you at work!!!” “uh. later”

after that he just shows up a lot. sort of ambiguous if theyre dating or what for a while before bombalurina straight up asks like “hey does the dude you’re dating know we fool around” “the dude im - what?” “... the little magic guy who keeps using our hot cocoa mix. misty.” “oh. uh. we aren’t dating.” “... do you want to? because you’re kind of all over him constantly” “um. well! haha, if i wanted to, i could! haha!” “yeah get back to me on that”

tugger trying to use his ig clout to get mistoffelees more work even though 1. he has no clout 2. mistoffelees has a very stable client base. but mistoffelees appreciates the effort. the self-promo guy promoing someone other than himself... the highest expression of love...

mistoffelees is A Nonthreatening Man plus he’s pretty obviously gay so demeter is chill around him pretty quickly. when mistoffelees is over they’ll sit on the couch where demeter sleeps and watch documentaries quietly while she crochets

they both occasionally say spooky shit at the same time because magic stuff. bombalurina and tugger are both torn between “that was cool as fuck” and “god that’s unnerving”

just a lot of tugger following mistoffelees around on his jobs and mistoffelees letting him because he’s fond of him and them occasionally getting into minor peril and interesting shenanigans, but it is 90% fetch quests

i think the first time they met tugger was taking selfies in front of a hydrangea in a public park and he saw mistoffelees walk up with a shovel and start digging in one of the flower beds and he thought he was hot so he went over and offered to take over on the shoveling to look strong and masculine and he ended up digging up a skull, which mistoffelees picked up and said “thanks” and then walked away

mildly terrifying but also very interesting and tugger’s days are kind of boring and dishwashing kind of sucks as a job to do like every night and he is a person who thrives on novelty so. moth to a porchlight

i think they do start making out for fun here and there and then a while later theyre out on one of mistoffelees’ jobs and someone asks “who’s the guy with you” and mistoffelees replies “oh that’s my boyfriend, don’t worry about him” and then it’s like. “HUH? I’M YOUR BOYFRIEND?” “uh. yeah? i assumed. is that okay?” “i mean yeah of course i think you’re great! how long have we–” “oh like a while.” “oh. uh. cool!!”

they just hang out a lot. mistoffelees enjoys teasing him and enjoys his warmth and bombasticity and tugger likes watching and helping him solve little mysteries around the county because it’s always something new. they’re kind of a comedy duo. they just enjoy spending their time together and following mistoffelee’s internal magic gps to find lost dogs and lost necklaces

yeah right now this au is just vibes and just sort of. continuing forward with your days and your weeks and your months. just young adults hanging out

#cats the musical #mr mistoffelees #rum tum tugger #demeter cats #bombalurina #tuggoffelees #demelurina #chirps #bird in the hand

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sideblog-666-thousand · 4 years ago

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Euronymous Interview in Decibel of Death, ‘87. English Translation. Ft. Euronymous’ depraved torture fantasies involving Coca-Cola.

‘Decibel of Death’ was a French fanzine from the 80s. It’s first issue was released in ‘86, and by the summer of ‘87, it switched over from French to English-language. This has been my favourite interview of Euronymous for a long time now, so I decided I’d translate it to English so that other, non-francophone, people could enjoy it too. This issue in particular is from February of ‘87, and was their fourth issue overall.

I’ll add a link to where you can find this, and other D.O.D scans, below. If anybody wants me to translate more French, or Russian, interviews, feel free to PM me.

Note: NDLR is the editor’s notes. Any commentary or context by me will be in bold and in parenthesis, so feel free to totally ignore it. If something is between “« »” it’s because it was already written in English to begin with.

Disclaimer: if some of the sentences sound like the energizer bunny is hooked on an iv rig full of pure meth, don’t blame me, I did my best. Take it up with Euronymous himself. Also, I’m not excusing Euronymous’ poor behaviour, I’m just saying his poor behaviour is kind of entertaining.

Without further ado...

D.O.D: And once again, here’s Norwegian Mayhem. If you remember, we presented them to you back in the May issue of D.O.D. Since then, they released a new demo titled “Death Crush”!! Because of this event, we decided to ask the guitarist of this rather sinister band a few questions.

D.O.D: Okay, there’s been more than a few line-up changes in Mayhem. Can you tell us what the current one is?

Euro: Alright, there’s me on guitars, Manheim on battery, Necro-butcher on drums, and our session vocalist, Maniac.

D.O.D: And what is the medium age of the group?

Euro: We are all 18 years old.

D.O.D: How long has Mayhem been around for?

Euro: Mayhem has been around since August of ‘84 with this line-up, before that, I played in another shitty metal group that was also called Mayhem. The other members also played in a crappy band before we all met.

D.O.D: How would you describe your music?

Euro: Ah, well, it’s like a wall of sound played at extreme speed all mixed with the sound of a chainsaw!!

D.O.D: In your opinion, who are the biggest posers on this planet?

Euro: That definitely has to be the Swedish group ‘Europe’. «Fuck them!!» I hate this band!!

D.O.D: Ha ha, what would you like to do to make them suffer?

(This is the exact moment where the interviewers realize that Euronymous is literally fucking insane. The editor censors some of the things Euronymous says because he has a very vulgar manner of speaking, so, brace yourselves. To make it abundantly clear— I didn’t censor any of this, if it was me, I’d let him continue swearing ‘til next year if he wanted to. Take it up with D.O.D!)

Euro: First of all, I’d cut them and make them eat their own (bleep)!! Then, I’ll fuck them in the ass with an empty bottle of Coke, and if they’re still alive somehow, I’ll drown them in their own piss!! (NDLR: I’d do the same to a few guys in Germany and Switzerland!!) But all of this is reserved for their guitarist, drummer and bassist, I have a far crueler torture for their singer, for him, I’m simply going to break his mirror and steal his perfume!! Haaaaafuckinghah!!! (NDLR: ahahahaha, this is so much fun!!)

D.O.D: Okay, Euronymous, onto more serious topics, who composes the most in Mayhem?

Euro: It’s me and Necro, but sometimes Manheim comes up with good riffs, he actually wrote most of P.F.A (Pure Fucking Armageddon)

D.O.D: I believe thrashers reacted pretty well to your first demo, right?

Euro: Despite the zero sound of this demo. It's true that it's actually the hardcore thrashers that appreciated it, although it was the others hating it that gave us an enormous promotion like with 'Metal Forces'.

D.O.D: Has there been groups that have influenced you?

Euro: Of course, early Venom has really inspired us, although we don’t sound like them in any way. We’re also influenced by bands like Hellhammer and Sodom.

D.O.D: Mayhem is a common band name, what do you think of other Mayhem (such as NYC Mayhem, Mayhem (WC), Mayhem (Oregon))?

Euro: NYC Mayhem* are excellent, I adore them! (NDLR: me too!!) and they call themselves NYC Mayhem. But as for the other Mayhems, they stink, «fuckin’ shit», like the Mayhem that’s on Metal Massacre VI*, they really stink, their music isn’t destructive like ours is at all, they don’t deserve this name, I hate them!!

D.O.D: I heard you guys played a show, how did that go?

Euro: It was really «cool», it was at a small rock festival that had around 3-400 «discofucks» (NDLR: this is the censored translation) and when we went on stage with our first session vocalist “Messiah”, we broke a bass over their mouths!! We gave these idiots hell!! Ha ha!! (I’ll link the show he’s referring to below)

D.O.D: And how did your other gigs go?

Euro: For now this has been our only show!! And we don’t know how the crowds will react at the prospect of future gigs.

D.O.D: Fair. Since we’re talking about future gigs, what will those be like?

Euro: They’ll be full of occult things, we’ll play in complete darkness and there’ll be red blood spots, chandeliers, smoke, and pig heads on stakes, it’ll be totally thrashing!!

D.O.D: How’s the Norwegian thrash scene? It’s pretty dull, no?

Euro: Right now, «it sucks», there’s no audience, but it seems to be going in the right direction with bands like Vomit*, Septic Cunts, Decay Lust, and Flowers in The Dustbin.

D.O.D: And what kind of things are your lyrics about?

Euro: depravity, like tearing someone’s (bleep), eating worms, and all those fine things!!

D.O.D: What are your favourite bands?

Euro: Really hard question, there’s so many good bands coming out but I think the bands I like the most are old Venom, Deathchamber, Sodom, Necrophagia, Destruction, Death, Kreator, Poison. (No, not THAT Poison)

D.O.D: Do you ever listen to hardcore?

Euro: «Yeah» I like Chaotic Discord, Septic Death, UK Subs, and others. It hasn’t been that long since I went to see Disorder and it was awesome!!

D.O.D: Are you considering going on tour?

Euro: No, not exactly. But soon we’ll play at a Norwegian thrash festival. We’ll also play at a thrash festival in Copenhagen, and probably do a few shows with Kreator/Necrophagia in ‘87.

(No, this isn’t a typo on my end, it actually says ‘87. There’s two reasons why this might be the case. One, it could be an error on the part of the editor, who deserves an interview of his own, or two, it could be an error by Euronymous himself since the interview might have been conducted in January. Euronymous could have mixed the years up as one sometimes does. However, ‘Death Crush’, the demo, actually came out in March of ‘87. What the interviewer and Euronymous are referring to as ‘Death Crush’ is likely ‘Death Rehearsal’, which is exactly what it sounds like, and was taped back January of ‘87.)

D.O.D: I heard you guys are recording a new demo, is it ready?

Euro: We just entered the studio to record the second “Death Crush” demo, but at the moment, we only have three songs. I’m also unsure of whether or not we’ll have enough money to record anything else, and the vocals still haven’t been put to music!!

D.O.D: There’s some rumours that you guys were contacted by certain record labels, is this true?

Euro: It’s true, we got a letter from Axe killer records saying that they were interested in us but they never listened to our music and I also sent them our demo tape but I don’t believe we’ll be receiving any letters from them now!!

D.O.D: Do you have anything to add?

Euro: Of course, «fucking ARGHHHH!!»

There, that’s all :)

If you’re interested in some of the asterisks I put in, here they are in order of their appearances:

*Unlike most of the bands Euronymous named in this interview, NYC Mayhem (and later as Straight Ahead) never released more than a few demo. They were a straight edge band from, you guessed it, NYC— Queens to be exact. Despite never releasing a full album, their sound inspired some grindcore and death metal bands, notably Carcass. They were also straight edge, which makes Euronymous’ mental breakdown over the Mayhem that was on Metal Massacre very, very ironic. Especially considering he was pretty straight edge himself, especially back in 1987– outside of maybe smoking some pot.

Here is their 1985 demo, https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=t-3geR1JbY4

*Metal Massacre is a series of compilation albums starting in 1982, released by Metal Blade records. Typically, these were independent and unsigned bands. Some notable ones include Metallica on the first edition with ‘Hit the lights’. Slayer in ‘83 with ‘Aggressive Perfector’. The ‘84 edition had Voivod, Overkill, and Hellhammer.

The one which Euronymous is referring to, however, is the one from ‘85. Here it is, the timestamp is 14:19 https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=HqwfsLvLvuY

It’s really not that bad— certainly not worth the double exclamation points.

*If you don’t know who Vomit are, you must not know much about early Mayhem. They were another thrash band who shared rehearsal space with Mayhem. Torben Grue and Kittil Kittilsen (what a sad fucking name) were also ‘in’ Mayhem at some point. Kittil once shaved off his eyebrow, but I don’t know why. Here is a picture of the dork:

The show Euronymous is talking about: https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=mjay2Lmj9C8 yes, this is the show where Euronymous flashes his ass. I think it’s funny because he talks big but he seemed very hesitant to do it, and practically ducked backstage afterwards. Necro, on the other hand, was very proud to have broken his bass.

Well, that’s all I have. If you read this far, I hope you enjoyed the additional notes I left. Outside of a few more interviews of Mayhem, I also have a few obscure Emperor interviews that were posted to the internet in late 90s. There’s an especially funny one where Faust is allowed to interview Ihsahn and Samoth from prison. He’s sarcastic the entire time, refers to the readers as ‘morons’ and proclaims everyone should all die in a nuclear war with the same energy you cross yourself with. Overall, it’s a funny read. I also have one where he interviews Varg, and Euronymous (separately) for his own ‘zine back in the early 90s. Actually— I have A LOT of interviews of Faust for some reason, including two where he’s actually on camera. I might post them if I feel like it, or if somebody wants them. Is anyone here an especially big fan of Faust?

Last but not least, here is the link to the ‘zine:

http://france.metal.museum.free.fr/revues/fanzines/decibel_of_death/04/page_03.htm

#euronymous #mayhem #interview #black metal #true norwegian black metal #I typed this out so it’s mine #Euronymous interview #gee I really hope nobody else posted a translation of this because it took forever #can we make haaafuckinghah a thing?

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asleepycoyote · 3 years ago

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My prompts

So I have written some prompts that you can ask to use. I will continue to add more. The ones that have italics or look like 'this' can be anyone's dialogue. I just added it so you know it's not only one person talking. To ask, you can just request the number of the prompt/s you can ask for multiple prompts, but please don't add too many. The ones that have a period at the end of the numbers, don't mind that. That's for me to remember something. Okay, anywho, take your pick :D. Remember you don't have to request one of these, you have your own idea, that's good! I'll be happy to write it! If you have a certain gender you want the reader to be don't forget to ask! You can also request me to add prompts to the list too! Okay so here's the prompts :)

1 "Oh no."

"What is it? What happened? Who died?"

"I think I just felt an emotion."

"You have GOT to be kidding me."

2 "Excuse me. I have to go make a scene."

3 "They're like a hurricane in human form."

4 "Fix it."

"It's a ransom note: I don't care about grammar!"

"There is no excuse for bad grammar."

5 "What does the little blinking light mean?"

"It means... wait blinking light?"

6 "What letter comes after 's' in the alphabet?

"T?"

"Ooh, yes please!"

7 "Why is there a magical portal in the bathtub?!"

8 "I love you from the bottom of my heart, but I don't trust your cooking. Stay out of my kitchen."

9 "We can't have a crisis- my schedule is already full..

10 "How long have you been standing there?

"Longer than you'd like."

11 "Small fire! I said to set a small fire! This is not small!"

12 "I want to go home."

"And I want to go to the moon. It ain't happening, sweetheart. Time to accept that."

13 "It's really not that complicated."

14 "Close the door."

15 "It's three in the morning."

16 "Why are you helping me?"

17 "Just trust me."

18 "What are you thinking about?"

19 "Someday you'll thank me for kidnapping you?"

20 "Who sent you here?"

"I wasn't sent here... if anything, it was an accident."

"Made by whom?"

"Myself, I suppose."

"You sent yourself here on accident?"

"Well, I certainly didn't come here on purpose..."

21 "I just want to be happy."

22 "Can I sleep over? My parents are fighting again."

23 "Why won't you let me help you?!"

24 "You know we make a pretty good team."

25 "You're a horrible liar."

26 "You're freezing. Come here."

27 "I'm saying that because I care about you!

28 "Sing me a song please.

29 "I can explain./!"

30 "Come here."

31 "The real treasure was the memories we made along the way."

"I almost died!"

"Ah yes, that was my fondest memory."

32 "They're crying, what do I do?"

"Go comfort them."

"How do I do that?"

"Start with hugs."

"With what?"

33 "Somehow you don't even have to open your mouth to make my head hurt."

34 "Stop waking me up in the middle of the night."

35 "Any shorter and you'd probably fade out of existence."

36 "I fixed you breakfast. I know it's just a bowl of cereal, but it's the only thing I can't burn."

37 "You just gave off the impression that you want to murder everyone you look at."

38 "It's not my birthday."

"It's definitely your birthday."

"Give me a calendar and I will prove it to—oh. Never mind. Happy birthday to me."

39 "Bold of you to assume I wouldn't just summon a trans-dimensional entity to help me avoid all my problems."

40 "I'm not human. I never was. So, why are you expecting me to act like one?

41 "Everything here can kill you, but I can do it most efficiently."

42 "They took my wallet. Yes, just my wallet. Well.... maybe my passport too."

43 "I don't think of you as a protector. More like a friend."

44 "You deserved that."

45 "Shh, shh. You were dreaming."

46 "I won't leave you behind."

47 "You should be in bed."

48 "What's our exit strategy?"

"Our what?"

"Oh my god, we are all going to die."

49 "Oh my god, you're taking up the whole bed."

50 "I could keep you safe, they're all afraid of me."

51 "I trusted you!"

52 "I know your secret."

"You're gonna have to be more specific there, buddy. Which one? I have a lot of skeletons in my closet."

53 "Who gave you that black eye?!"

54 "Everyone keeps telling me your bad guy."

55 "Why? Because I don't want you to get hurt, that's why!"

56 "You're scared of that, aren't you?"

57 "Come on, when have my calculations ever been wrong?"

"Well-"

"Shut up, that was one time."

58 "Enjoying the view, sunshine?"

59 "While I do enjoy the silent treatment, I wasn't aware I had done anything to you."

60 "I think that's enough."

61 "They deserved it."

62 "What... is this?"

63 "You can't be serious!"

64 "I'm not sorry!"

65 "Who are you?"

"Oh sweetheart, I'm your worst nightmare."

"Wait a minute. Your that guy that tripped over my shoes on the bus this morning and said thank you-"

66 "Just because I'm helping you doesn't mean I care, your death would be a minor inconvenience. That's all."

67 "You owe me."

68 "Don't make me come in there."

69 "Don't touch me."

70 "That wasn't funny."

71 "I am fully convinced you never graduated kindergarten."

72 "Am I doing it right?"

73 "For God's sake! Who have you killed now?"

74 "Do you even know how to fly this thing?"

"Normally, I'd lie and say yes, but considering the fact that I almost flew us into that building, I'm going to assume you know the answer."

75 "What are you doing?! Don't eat it!"

76 "Feel free to admire me."

77 "You're insane!"

"I know! Isn't it great?"

78 "You don't know a thing."

79 "The truth is I never loved you."

80 "Is this a game to you?"

81 "Stop yelling at me."

"I'm not yelling at you! I'm just... being abnormally projective in the vocal region!"

"Otherwise known as yelling..."

82 "Don't ever forget me. Please?"

83 "I screwed up."

84 "You're my regret."

85 "No, sir. I am not underestimating the kidnappers. YOU are understanding my grandmother."

86 "Stay away from the llama."

87 "No one visits my grave anymore... wait. I don't even have a grave!"

88 "Tuna shamed."

89 "Well, I can scratch that off my bucket list."

"Who puts getting arrested on their bucket list?!"

90 "I-I can't stop it. I'm sorry..."

"It's okay, it's okay. Just breathe. You don't have to be sorry for anything. I got you."

91 "What am I supposed to tell my parents? 'Hi mom and dad, I ,snuck out past curfew, almost died, discovered I can teleport, and now I'm joining a gang of superheroes.'"

"Maybe don't use the word 'gang'."

"You think that's the part they'll have the most trouble with?!"

92 "Give me the wallet or I shoot."

"No."

"What do you mean no? I'm serious, I will shoot you."

"Let me repeat myself. No."

"Um... okay I guess."

"Aren't you going to shoot me?"

"I don't know. This hasn't happened before."

"Well, until you do, wanna grab a bite to eat? I'm starving."

93 "Watch me."

94 "I thought you were dead."

95 "You're never going to let that go, are you?"

96 "Was that supposed to hurt?"

97 "You have to leave right now."

"I love you."

99 "I hate you.

100 "I didn't catch your name."

"I didn't throw it."

101 "How long has it been since you last ate something?"

102. "No, don't look at me!"

103. "How many marshmallows can you eat?"

104 "Why did you kick so much in your sleep? Are you constantly dreaming about soccer?"

105 "Destroying lives, one person at a time."

106 "Why exactly do you need chloroform at 2am.

107 "Just breathe."

108. "STOP EATING MY LASAGNA FOR CRYING OUT LOUD!"

109. "I don't understand why you should feel the urge to do that."

110. "I trust you."

"Wow, that incredibly... stupid of you."

111 "You broke my heart and all you can say is sorry?"

112 "You can't really blame me can you? You can only blame yourself."

113. "You keep painting me as the villain."

"Because you are the villain."

114. "Who could ever love someone like you?"

115 "I never stood a chance, did I?"

"That's the sad part - you did once."

116 "I've missed this."

117. "Who are you to tell me how to live my life?"

118. "Are you going to yell at me too? I guess I do deserve it."

119 "I don't want to have another surgery."

120. "Quit touching the IV."

121 "I was going to say something mean about them, but decided against it."

122 "How do you like raisins? How do you feel about a date?"

123. "Are you going to stand there or are you going to kiss me? I'm tired of lying to my diary."

#my writing prompts #dialogue prompt

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noemifm · 4 years ago

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( twenty-three, cis female, she/her ) ✉ ― hey babes, have you met 𝑵𝑶𝑬𝑴𝑰 𝑪𝑶𝑹𝑫𝑨𝑺𝑪𝑶 ? they’re 𝒗𝒂𝒄𝒂𝒕𝒊𝒐𝒏𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒆, a few villas down from where you’re staying. you might hear 𝐝𝐨𝐧'𝐭 𝐜𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐦𝐞 𝐮𝐩 𝐛𝐲 𝐦𝐚𝐛𝐞𝐥 playing from their villa, it’s their favourite song. yes, they hear that they look like 𝒅𝒆𝒍𝒊𝒍𝒂𝒉 𝒃𝒆𝒍𝒍𝒆 alot, actually ––– it’s really uncanny. their friends back home in 𝐦𝐚𝐧𝐡𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐚𝐧, 𝐧𝐞𝐰 𝐲𝐨𝐫𝐤 say that if they were on a tv show, their trope would be 𝑻𝑯𝑬 𝑨𝑴𝑨𝑹𝑨𝑵𝑻𝑯 how funny is that? ✎ ellie, 21, she/they, gmt.

hi, my angels! it's me, ellie, back at it again... this time bringing my troublemaking, chaotic daughter, noemi to stir up the pot. if i'm not here you can find me over at jadon mosley ( @jadonfm ) but down below is a few basic stats of my daughter, her bio and wanted connections that i’d die to have filled. anyway, i love her and all should too. ♡＾▽＾♡

⟨ * 𝑭𝑰𝑳𝑬. ￫ layer i 𝄪 basic info .

𝐋𝐄𝐆𝐀𝐋 ��𝐀𝐌𝐄 ￫ noemi aida cordasco. 𝐊𝐍𝐎𝐖𝐍 𝐀𝐒 ￫ emi, mimi. 𝐄𝐓𝐇𝐍𝐈𝐂𝐈𝐓𝐘 ￫ italian, english, scottish. 𝐆𝐄𝐍𝐃𝐄𝐑 + 𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐍𝐎𝐔𝐍𝐒 ￫ cis-female + she, her. 𝐒𝐄𝐗𝐔𝐀𝐋𝐈𝐓𝐘 ￫ bisexual, with no preference. 𝐇𝐎𝐌𝐄𝐓𝐎𝐖𝐍 ￫ manhattan, new york city, new york. 𝐏𝐀𝐑𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐒 ￫ alexander cordasco, father. aliyah cordasco ( neé kennedy ), mother. 𝐒𝐈𝐁𝐋𝐈𝐍𝐆𝐒 ￫ francesca cordasco, older sister; aged 27. juliette cordasco, older sister; aged 25. luca cordasco, twin brother; aged 23. 𝐄𝐃𝐔𝐂𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍 ￫ private school education, high school graduate & graduate of parsons school of design. 𝐎𝐂𝐂𝐔𝐏𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍 ￫ model, aspiring fashion designer.

⟨ * 𝑭𝑰𝑳𝑬. ￫ layer ii 𝄪 background information .

okay i'm not going to lie, i've had no time to write an in depth bio like i did for jadon – however, down below is a few pin points until i have time to write something that i actually like! triggers: n/a.

￫ born into a big family of fame, it comes almost naturally to be drawn to attention and live in scandals. not necessarily her scene, but somehow still manages to get dragged into anything her siblings do and often has to defend the cordasco name.

￫ speaking of family, her mother was a big name in fashion during the 80's/90's, and her father was a designer in italy. they met on set of a photoshoot and the rest is honestly history. they're still pretty prominent in the industry and all of the cordasco children have taken an interest or have had a gravitational pull towards design, modelling or photography. ( for inspiration / comparison, think of the crawford-gerber family )

￫ was essentially born into the world with it paved out for her – usually seen as something negative, but she took to it like a baby to a bottle. from as long as she can remember she's been surrounded by cameras, paparazzi and people asking her personal questions. she doesn't necessarily love the negative attention, never has, but will still continue to deal with it due to her last name.

￫ her childhood was pretty standard, it became clear early on that she had to keep certain things to herself if she wanted to succeed. her parents and siblings all have a very supportive relationship between each other, not a single drop of maliciousness or toxicity in their household. it's healthy and that's how we like it! she attended a private school in new york and went on to get accepted into parsons school of design to hopefully follow the footsteps of her father and make her mark on the fashion world like he did.

￫ had a rebellious stage when she was eighteen but got it sorted out by the time of twenty. she was the girl who would leave the club at 6am, dilated pupils and all as she attempted to pick fights with anyone who looked at her the wrong way. it was easily one of her lowest points and she saw that would affect her the most during her future years; code for her growing out of it – mostly.

￫ parties when she can, slips up every so often when it comes to substances and will instantly regret it the next day but it's all in good company with her friends. has various outbursts when under the influence, but that would boil down to being an aggressive/angry drunk ( takes after her mother on that one ) more than anything else.

￫ is honestly rather self aware and doesn't take anything for granted when it comes to her wealth or status. she's always sure to show her gratitude to her name when it comes to opportunities that come to her, and is currently signed to IMG models international ( she's got a pretty face, can you blame her? ) along with working on a fashion label with her twin brother, luca.

⟨ * 𝑭𝑰𝑳𝑬. ￫ layer iii 𝄪 personality .

self aware bitch. knows her worth and won't let anyone tell her different. she sometimes has a god complex in thinking she's better than anyone else, but is quickly humbled by either her friends, siblings or parents – and when that fails, tabloids knock her down a few pegs.

she's naturally flirty and it's probably gotten her into trouble a few times. accidentally lets people think something might happen between them even 99.9% of the time it's just friendly conversation.

the amaranth because she's hard to forget, for one way or another she'll stay imprinted in your mind – her personality, looks, etc. and she thinks that's pretty neat :)

⟨ * 𝑭𝑰𝑳𝑬. ￫ layer iv 𝄪 wanted connections .

MY MIND IS DRAWING A BLANK SDKFJSDFHSDFD . hmu for wanted connections / plotting <3

#villasintro #broooooo putting things into words is so hard i can't 🤡#anyway. my worst work ! <3 #sdfdjkhdfd i'm so sorry u have to read this x #⟨ * 𝑭𝑰𝑳𝑬. ￫ introduction 𝄪 noemi cordasco.

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kingjasnah · 5 years ago

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actually. actually let’s talk about diversity in fantasy let’s give that a go. im mad and im gonna be that way for a while

don’t want to read all this? fair. tldr: fantasy writers who rely not only on the medieval europe model but also hide behind historical accuracy in 2020 (fuck it, from ‘95 onwards) are lazy and unimaginative and should be held accountable no matter how many white 20 year old dudes jerk off to whatever power fantasy is embedded in the plot. so lets chat about that lads. (slightly) drunk rant under the cut

now prelim shit: we know fantasy is used both as escapism and as a way to deal with various traumas via magical metaphor. staples of the genre. even if jk rowling busted out the laziest and at times offensive metaphor for ww2 and racism ive ever seen, she still adhered to time and true tropes. whatever.

so why have we, in this post game of thrones era, become insanely obsessed with realism? i can hear sixty 20-something year old men crying at me rn like oh ohh oh its based off the war of roses oh wahh all medieval fantasy fiction is based off england and the crusades anyway so women should get raped and people of color should be demonized its not racism its xenophobia and also gay people dont exist and disabled people are systematically killed off and if we stretch the magic fixes mental illness thing a LITTLE further we have straight up eugenics.

we all know where the england but myth thing came from. now the thing about tolkien is that while i will always absolutely love lotr, looking at the LAZY state of fantasy? damn i kinda wish he hadn’t revolutionized the genre. the bitch was still racist. he still didnt give a shit abt women (eowyn was just a vehicle to show how much he fucking hated macbeth anyone holding jrrt up as a feminist icon for that needs to sit the fuck down and explain to me why i can count the woman speaking roles in lotr, a story with a name and fleshed out backstory for every minor character, on one hand but thats! another post). he had something to say abt class with sam i’ll give him that but he is still 100% NOT what we need to hold our standards to in 2020.

i dont want to talk about old school fantasy, like 80s early 90s cause theres literally no point. its sexist, racist, ableist for sure, this we know. david eddings (not even that old school tbh) can rise from the grave and explain himself to me personally and i still wont forgive him for ehlana.

so let’s talk historical accuracy. quick question. who the FUCK gives a shit? WHO is this elusive got fan who’s out here like blehh actually??? this method of iron production is TOTALLY anachronistic of the time. ummm these vegetables in this fictional world were NOT native to english soil so how are they here? cause i know this is the classic argument but ive never actually met someone who cared about the lack of dysentery as much as they care abt the women getting raped on screen/page.

god forbid you have to worldbuild for a second god forbid you can’t rely on the idea of fantasy readers already have in their head god forbid you have an original idea god forbid you spend more than two seconds thinking about ur setting (oh i should mention i dont....really blame GoT for its setting cause of how long ago it was og written but trust me i sure as hell blame grrm for writing a 13 yr old giving ‘consent’ to sex with a grown man within the first couple of chapters)

If we accept the basic premise of fantasy as escapism, and i AM drunk so i will NOT be finding fuckin. quotes and shit for this but come on tolkien said it himself and as much as i’ll drag him he crafted the simplest and most powerful fantasy metaphors on the board rn. But if we know its escapism. If we know. then who is it escapism for? certainly not for me, the gay brown woman who busted through all of GoT in 10th grade.

modern fantasy lit used as an excuse for that white male power fantasy is literally disgusting. calling historical accuracy is so fucking dumb ESPECIALLY cause we, as ppl in the 21st century, KNOW women have been consistently written out of the story. poc ppl, gay and trans ppl, anyone with a god forbid disability has been WRITTEN out of history as we know it, INCLUDING the fucking war of the roses so HOW can we hold up testimony we know is flawed to support our FICTIONAL. STORY. just to??? support the white power fantasy?? literally noah fence but if you are a white guy who felt really empowered by every time jim butcher described a woman tell me: how do you think that’ll hold up in classic HisToRiCaL fantasy. you think thats a fucking noble pursuit? or are you grima wormtongue out here.

(side note: jim butcher stop writing challenge i dont need to know abt every woman on page’s nipples. anyone who hides behind subgenre like that? ‘ohhh its a noir story thats why hes sexualizing everyone’ shut the fuck up an author isnt possessed by a fuckin muse and compelled to bust out 500k they have agency and they have choice and they MADE the choice to reserve said will for none of their female characters)

which brings me to point 2: target audience and BOY is the alcohol hitting me rn but WHO is this for? this isnt the fucking 80s we know poc and other marginalized folk read fantasy FOR the escapism. on god ive had a cosmere focused blog for nearly three years and. im just gonna say it im interacted with A LOT of yall and ive managed to talk to VERY few white straight ppl as compared to everyone else.

like....who deserves to see the metaphor on homophobia or racism. joanne rowling? the bitch who literally tried to sell us happy slaves and the disgusting aids metaphor and the worst case of antisemitic stereotypes i ever saw in an nyt bestseller? yall think that was for US? or was it for the white guilt crowd.

literally white people can find any book about them that they can relate to. but hmmm maybe theres a reason gay women care so much about stormlight archive’s jasnah kholin, a brown woman who’s heavily coded as wlw. or kaladin, the FIRST fantasy protag ive ever seen with clinical depression. hmm i wonder why a bunch of millennials are vibing all of a sudden. im not saying sanderson is perfect--but its the best ive seen from a white author tbh

maybe theres a reason a lot of poc vibe with a literary way to express trauma, and maybe thats why i specifically get so pissed when its not done well. theres a REASON books about outcasts pushing through and claiming their own lives are popular with people who arent white and straight and able bodied. Junot Diaz had a point. maybe lets STOP catering to those assholes who think theyre joseph campbell’s wet dream personified. ive lost respect SO many authors who are objectively talented. pat rothfuss can write so beautifully that ive cried to bits of name of the wind but literally i will never pick that series up again (not just because of the felurian. women in general tbh. mostly the felurian ngl) cause 1) i personally KNEW men whod jerk off to that shit and 2) there was no need for it there was no plot reason for ANY of that shit

so like obviously thers an issue with authors of color specifically not getting recognized for fantasy and genre work but on god??????? im still mostly mad at the legions of white authors churning out the same medieval england chosen one books year after fucking year. have an original thought maybe. also im sorry that you as an author lack the basic empathy needed to examine the way that women? or any group of people that youre explicitly writing about see the world and would specifically see YOUR made up world.

yes your fantasy should be diverse, but more than that it should be kind. if you as a writer cant respect groups of people who deserve it....what the hell are you doing in a genre that traditionally is about finding ways to express injustice through metaphor? tolkien’s hero was sam. fantasy was NEVER about the privileged. yall know who you are so stop acting so fucking entitled. peace out.

#disclaimer ive had a bit to drink. and instead of getting ridiculously emotional like normal and plud in a trek movie #im mad! surprise shes mad now. not at BS specifically dont worry this is still a cosmere stan zone but im mad and im gonna talk about it #if no one reads this ur valid but if you do im gonna be mad or another two hours before i force myself to #man idk feel free to talk tho #this is so stupid im sorry i got so heated i plugged in the BoP soundtrack #and like just #well youll see

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brunhiddensmusings · 5 years ago

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an issue i have with movies

or, rather, that the movie industry has and im calling them out on it that the movie industry makes stupid assumptions about what does or does not work while ignoring the real reasons why a movie succeeds or fails because that would take too much effort and thought despite ‘filmography’ being a legitimate course of study that i would really hope that people paid tens of millions of dollars to make movies have some understanding of and/or hire people with the relevant degrees because i KNOW when a movie like ‘midway’ flops hard the reaction of the movie industry is ‘i guess people dont like historical war recreation dramas’ instead of looking a bit harder and realizing ‘i guess people dont like a movie with no main characters, nothing to tie the existing cardboard cutout characters together beyond a vague setting, and a strange inability to make anything its showing on screen relevant as a plot rather then just listing things that happened with no explanation, narrative, or point of reference character’..... although im okay with ‘WW2 movies’ being put back into dormancy because theres more then enough of those and they have kind of messed up how every other war movie made after saving private ryan functions ive seen this time and time again that a movie that is badly made flops because its badly made, and the film industry then acts like some other element is why people avoided it its kind of crazy to think now but before LOTR came out the film industry had considered fantasy movies to be toxic for years, despite the 80s and 90s having some very well loved fantasy movies like ‘willow’, ‘neverending story’, and ‘labyrinth’ because of the number of really shit fantasy movies produced in that time. or if not shit then at least movies that didnt do well until much later when people started enjoying it for different reasons like ‘legend’.... but the sheer number of fantasy movies at the time that were given mediocre budget, garbage writing, and the only saving graces were how much effort the lead actors tried to give their inarticulate screams as the stabbening commenced made the industry think ‘i guess people dont like fantasy movies’ instead of ‘i guess people are not impressed by corny stories with no setup and are ultimately destined to be reviewed by drunk youtubers who heckle B-movies’. yall remember ‘deathstalker’? cause there were like 40 of that movie, conan was a rare gem in a sea of halfassery and then AFTER lord of the rings they try a fit of fantasy movies trying to cash in on this ‘hip new trend’ and while a few of them are okay, most of them are pretty blatantly trying to copy what LOTR did by the numbers as shamelessly as possible, then theres also quite a few that limply flop over the line of mediocrity until movies like ‘your highness’ where the drunk prince wears a minotaur wang around his neck as a battle trophy and ignores sexual molestation by a wizard (ah yes, great comedy recounting those times a wizard touched you when you were a young boy, hilarious for the whole family) ultimately bring people back to square 1 instead of asking ‘maybe if we made a -good- fantasy movie again instead of throwing larger piles of money at bad ones’ and so have movie genres been thrown under the bus for the failings of individual film studios making openly shitty decisions instead of acnowleging that a movie lives or dies on if its GOOD rather then by ‘i guess people dont like full costume period movies anymore’ and its the death of so much potential on the example of costume period movies you may have heard Lindsay Ellis talk about pirates of the carribean on this exact kind of concept, if you hadnt i will gladly add a link to her video on it upon request, but the point is that the assumption at the time was ‘people dont like pirate movies anymore’ because of the dearth of mediocre low budget and shit writing pirate movies made in the 60s-80s, and building on that people kept assuming that what we today would consider the ‘interesting bits’ about pirates of the carribean such as the zombies and jack being a loon the filmmakers at the time were considering ‘ruining the movie’. now i have many complaints about the pirates of the carribean franchise but the first movie is a cinematic classic that fully stands on its own merits, yet i would have been bored to tears trying to watch the version that would have been made if the cut out the zombies, curses, crazy people, and.... really what would be left of that movie? and yet still it happens time and again like clockwork when a robin hood movie is made once a decade, its either only alright or a complete flop, and then nobody wants to make that movie again for eight years then they make another robin hood movie copy/paste that last paragraph but replace ‘robin hood’ with ‘king arthur’ because holy damn are there a lot of bad robin hood/king arthur movies out there. granted theyre public domain so nothing to stop them but when will people learn? literally only two king arthur movies were unanimously good and one of those was monty python and the other was a disney animated classic. literally only three robin hood movies were any good and again one was a disney animated classic and one of the others was Mel Brooks making fun of the Kevin Costner one if public domain was the key element there then you would expect them to keep pumping out..... oh yeah, i forgot the movie where the frankensteins monster does parkour in modern cities to kill gargoyles was a thing, and the beauty and the beast remake where ‘the beast’ is a rich kid in suburban america who is ripped but bald and covered in tattoos and theres some shit about prom.... uuuuuuuugh, theres actually a lot of these ‘reimaginings’ that while the idea of reimagining a timeless classic is cool, they ultimately handle like a steaming turd and then, again, claim its that it failed not because they made a moist cowpat but rather it failed because nobody today likes the frankenstein monster- i for one would argue that an audience today would LOVE a faithful reimagining of frankenstein that really digs into the meat of that premise instead of making him a large green zombie that goes ‘fire bad’ and lets people get dug into the byronic shenanigans of that time im losing my train of thought but moral of the story is that people who make movies will always blame them failing on the -type- of movie it is rather then that they made a bad movie or draged something on way longer then it should be (just because one well written gritty retelling of batman did well does not mean every superhero movie must be dark and gritty without the well written, just because some of the marvel movies put the ‘fun’ back into comic movies doesnt mean we need 34 of them) blegh, i should have used visual aids for this but its too late to figure out what to use now discussion encouraged

#movies #filmography #genre #holywood #i have no idea how to tag #i really should have used visual aids for this

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pepperful-qt · 4 years ago

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answer every multiple of 10 for the ask game, and what time is it there? i hope youre not staying up late ;-; -👽

hey love! it's uh,, after midnight 👉👈 and wowie wow das a lot let's go

10. What shoe size are you?

like 9-10 depending on the shoe,, heh

20. Are you a good actor?

hmm I'm a good liar and I roleplay in d&d, does that count :> im pretty bad in front of the camera lmao

30. What's your favorite sport?

sooo i played soccer for 12 years of my life, and it holds a special place in my heart. i still love watching it tbh💞 but watching I loooove figure skating & gymnastics,, those mfs are so impressive

40. If you could go back in time and change one thing what would it be?

if we're talking history then ofc save the library of Alexandria! who knows what knowledge and history was lost.. either that or there's a lot of artists that died from sickness n stuff and I feel like they could've done a lot more

50. If you could live anywhere, where would that be?

New Zealand!! or more realistically Vancouver. as long as there's mountains and forests nearby I'll be happy

60. Do you like scary movies?

YES absolutely!! despite most being mediocre these days im a lowkey adrenaline junkie and loove tension and thrillers

70. What football team do you support?

lol🤦🏼‍♀️I don't follow american football so I'll go by the other definition, in which case the US women's national team💙

80. Have you ever had a secret admirer?

idk you tell me anon~😏 JK ahaha I think so? if by that you mean a crush. he was real awkward about it though 😳

90. What has been your worst haircut/style?

LMAODJFKFK we don't talk about middle school. when I was a little kid I had bowl cut bangs 😑 but I blame my parents for that lol. i will admit one time I cut a part of my hair with a hole puncher just to see if it would work. it did.

100. Do you have a strong local accent?

lmao kill me so it's not the strongest ive heard but when I went to college some ppl definitely called me out with some words😗 if anyone's learning english don't mimic the midwestern accent it's the most annoying thing

110. What is your dream?

to be able to live freely and let my creativity run wild without care. i want people to remember my name and be inspired by what ive done and contributed to the world💙

#if you knew my sleep schedule you'd be so disappointed in ne #this is normal dw💞#👽 anon #ask game #ty anon lovely!

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allthingsfangirl101 · 5 years ago

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Secrets Chapter 27: Confession

Masterlist

Stiles's POV

I walked into my father's room, softly closing the door behind me. "Hey," he said as I walked in. He saw the look on my face and gestured for me to come in.

Tears filled my eyes as I walked over to him, burying my face in his chest. I silently sobbed as he soothingly rubbed circles on my back.

Once I had calmed down a little, I pulled the chair over and sat down. "How's Bailey?" My dad asked after a few minutes of us sitting in silence.

"We aren't sure," I said softly. "The knife was electronically charged which means she isn't healing like she should be. But, at the same time, she is healing. We aren't sure what's going to happen."

"Stiles," my father started, but I cut him off.

"Derek and Scott can't even take away her pain. Derek told us that if there were other jinns around, they would be able to help her but. . ."

"But she's the only one," my dad said, finishing my thought. The only thing that could be heard was the constant beeping of the heart monitor my dad was hooked up to.

"Stiles," my dad said, breaking the silence. I looked up at him, unable to hide the tears. "Bailey is going to be okay. She's a tough girl."

"But what happens after?" I asked, my voice breaking. "We barely got her here this time, but what about the next? Or the time after that? And the time after that?"

My dad tried to interrupt me, but I quickly felt my anxiety building. "When we were little, I promised Bailey that I would take care of her. Well, I haven't. I didn't do anything when her father continually abused her. I didn't do anything when Derek bit her. I didn't help her learn how to use her powers. I didn't protect her from the hunter. I didn't stop her from facing the pack of alphas. And now, I can't even help her get better."

"Stiles," my dad said, grabbing my hand. "None of what has happened to Bailey is your fault. You didn't know about Derek just like how you didn't know about her dad. Even though you didn't stop her from being kidnapped or from going after the alphas, you were there to help her. You were there for her when she needed you."

"But I. . ." I started.

"But nothing," my dad said, shaking his head. "You have always taken care of Bailey to the best of your abilities. She wouldn't blame you for whats happened and neither should you. You are a good person, Stiles. You are exactly the young man your mother and I always wanted you to be."

Even though I knew he was right, I couldn't stop feeling guilty. Not because of it being my fault, but because I wasn't truly there for her. After everything that has happened, Bailey thinks I hate her. She thinks I'm angry with her because she didn't tell us the truth. To be honest, I was. Until I watched her turn herself in to protect my dad.

"I just hope she wakes up soon," I whispered as I slowly looked up from my hands.

"She will," my dad said. "And when she does, you are going to tell her the truth."

"The truth?"

"About how you feel," my dad said with a knowing smile.

* * * * *

Bailey has been in a coma for almost a week now and I haven't slept. Every time I tried to sleep, I would see nothing but the alpha stabbing her and her falling to the ground, almost lifeless.

It's gotten to the point where the nurses on Bailey's floor recognize me. They never say anything to me. They just send me sad smiles as they continue to care for the patients. Melissa was the only one who ever told me how Bailey was doing. Each time, she tried to sound optimistic, but as the days dragged on, I could tell she was having just as hard of a time as we all were.

Derek never left the hospital. He constantly sat outside Bailey's room, almost like he was guarding her. Scott said he thought I looked like shit until he saw Derek.

The second the elevator doors opened, I saw Derek sitting in the same chair he's been sitting in since Bailey was first brought into the hospital. He looked up as I walked down the hallway towards him.

"How is she?" I asked like I ask every day.

"Slowly improving," he shrugged. He then added under his breath, "Like always."

I debated for a second whether or not to sit outside with Derek or walk into Bailey's room and sit next to her bed.

"You might as well go in," he said. "She's still sleeping."

I didn't say anything as I slowly opened the door. I froze in the doorway when I looked over at Bailey, still sleeping peacefully in the bed. I looked over my shoulder to see Derek watching me. He looked past me at Bailey with a sad expression on his face. I was about to close the door but stopped.

"You were right," I said, clearing my throat. "Everything that has happened in Bailey's life led her to being a jinn. If you hadn't taken her in and trained her, she. . . I would've lost my best friend."

He glanced back at Bailey before standing up and facing me. "Something tells me you wouldn't have just lost a best friend." He sent me a knowing look before turning on his heel and heading towards the cafeteria.

"Damn werewolves and their stupid ability to hear heartbeats," I muttered as I walked into Bailey's room and shut the door behind me.

"Hey, Bails," I said softly as I walked into her room and sat in the chair next to her bed. I looked her over, my guilt building as I saw how pale she was.

I gently reached forward and took her hand in my, careful not to accidentally touch the IV. Tears immediately filled my eyes as the image of the alpha stabbing her played over and over in my mind.

"I'm so sorry, Bailey," I said, my voice cracking. "I know you probably don't blame me, but I do. I was so angry at you for keeping it a secret. I honestly don't know why I was, but I shouldn't have been. If you could just wake up, I promise. . . I promise I will never leave you again. I'll sit down and listen to everything. I'll ask questions. I'll help in any way I can. I'll even listen to the stories of how Derek trained you. I can't say I won't get mad at him, but it's a start right?" I scanned her face as I let out a small laugh.

"Just. . . Please wake up, Bailey. I need you. I know you did all of this so I wouldn't lose my dad, but what if I lose you? Who's going to take care of me then?"

Suddenly, my dad's words from a few weeks ago re-entered my mind. "To be honest, your mom and I always thought you two would make a good couple. You're mom used to say that she was 90% sure you would end up marrying Bailey Harrison."

I looked at her and was overcome with this strong feeling. It took me a second to realize it was love. I scooted my chair closer as I used my free hand to gently move the hair out of her face. My hand cupped her cheek, my thumb rubbing it softly.

"I promise I am going to be right here when you wake up. I'm not going anywhere. Ever." I leaned down and pressed a small kiss to her forehead. "And when you do wake up," I whispered, leaning my forehead against hers, "I'm going to finally tell you how much you mean to me."

I sat back in my chair, my hand still holding hers. Soon, I felt myself slowly falling asleep. Just as my eyes were about to close, I felt Bailey's hand that I was holding move slightly. I jumped up, now fully awake, and watched her. I waited, paying close attention to every little feature. I gasped when I felt Bailey's grip on my hand tighten before it loosened up again.

"Bailey?" I said, gently. "Come on, Bails. Wake up."

I waited eagerly as Bailey's eyes slowly fluttered open. I sucked in a breath as she turned towards me.

"Stiles?" Her voice came out soft and raspy.

"I'm here," I said as I sat forward. I reached up and put my free hand on her forehead, slowly running my fingers through her hair.

She tried to sit up, but I gently helped her lay back down. "Take it easy there, sparky," I said making her smile. "You're still healing."

We just stared at each other, neither one of us saying a word. I should probably get Melissa, but I was too focused on being relieved that Bailey was awake to think straight.

I cleared my throat before asking, "Do you remember what happened?"

She thought about it for a minute before sighing. "Yes," she said slowly. "At least I think so. Your dad and Scott's mom were taken by the pack of alphas. . . Are they okay?" Her eyes widened as she started to panic and tried to sit up again.

"They're fine, Bails," I said as I helped her lie back down. "Both of them. What else do you remember?"

"We. . . We were fighting them and the leader came at me. . . He tried. . . He. . ." Her eyes widened as realization flashed across her face. She slowly looked down at her stomach as she whispered, "He stabbed me. The blade was electronically charged. Even as it was in me, I could feel the electricity sucking at my magic. I can still remember the hum. . ."

I reached over and cupped her cheek in my hand, lifting her head up. My heart sank as I saw the tears streaming down her cheeks. "You're okay," I whispered, catching a tear with my thumb. "It took you some time, but you eventually healed."

"Time?" She asked softly, tilting her head to the side. "How long?"

"About a week," I said as I slowly dropped my hand from her face. I saw fear in her eyes, causing me to scoot my chair closer.

"I'm so happy you're awake," I said softly. "I don't know what I would've done if you hadn't. If I lost you. . ."

"But you didn't," she said gently when I didn't finish my thought. I looked up at her, looking into her eyes as I tried to gather as much courage as I could.

While my right hand still held her left, I reached up with my left and cupped her cheek again. I took a deep breath before leaning in and slightly pulling her to me. My breath got caught in my throat as I felt her lips touch mine. Our lips instantly started moving in sync. The kiss was slow but so much was behind it.

We pulled apart and pressed our foreheads together to catch our breaths, my hand slowly leaving her cheek. Once my breathing had gone back to normal, I pulled away and looked into her eyes.

"Bailey," I said, my voice getting caught in my throat. "I have to tell you something."

She looked at me, waiting for me to continue. The small smile and the way she was looking at me gave me the courage I needed to get out the next few words.

"I love you."

The silence that followed my confession made me feel uneasy. I saw a brief second of surprise flash across her face before she smiled. She reached up and cupped my cheek in her hand.

"I love you too, Stiles."

I leaned forward and pressed my lips to hers. I smiled as our lips started moving in sync. "I'm so sorry," I said pulling away, looking down. I took her hand in both of mine as tears threatened to fall.

"What do you mean?" She asked gently. I looked up at her to see her sending me a soft smile.

"I was so angry at you for not telling me what was going on. I shouldn't have. . . Everything I said and did, I am so sorry. You needed me and I left. When you were hurt at Derek's apartment, I was so angry. I shouldn't have left. I don't know why I did. I just. . . I felt like it was all my fault. Like if I had known, I could've stopped it."

"Stiles," she said cutting me off. She grabbed my chin and pressed her lips to mine. I closed my eyes, enjoying the feeling of her lips moving against mine.

"Come here," she pulled away and whispered as she patted the bed. She scooted over making room for me as I stood up. I laid down next to her, instantly pulling her into my chest.

"I don't blame you," she said softly. I started subconsciously rubbing her back and running my fingers through her hair. This feeling, having her close to me, I never want to get rid of it.

"Promise me something," I said looking down at her.

"Anything," she smiled.

"Promise that from now on, no more secrets. From either one of us. I want to be there for you through everything and in order to do that, I need to fully understand what you are and what you can do."

I smiled as she let out a small laugh. "Then you, mister, have a lot of catching up to do."

#dylan o'brien #dylan o'brien fanfic #stiles stilinski #stiles stilinski fanfic

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niixell · 5 years ago

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"lets get personal." answer as many as you wanna! if thats meands allof them tn go for it!!!

Hell Yeah imma do all of them!!!! ty!!!!! sorry some of the answers are really boring or short

1. you and Jennifer-bulow, Chlorine-twenty one pilots, missing you-all time low, water fountain-Alec Benjamin, blame it on my youth-blink-182. It was difficult to choose 6 songs cause usually i just put a playlist on shuffle, but this is pretty good representation of whats in it

2. uhhhh, probably Phil Lester cause I look up to him alot and I want to know what’d he’d be like in person

3. ofc it was “this book is gay” the line is “wowsers, this whole gay thing is a lot more complicated then Glee lead us to believe”

4. ngl, how fucking gay i am for certain people

5. pretty boring, it’s “yeahhh”

6. not completely naked, but not in full pajamas

7. i can pop 3 of my fingers completely in and out of their socket

8. Girls, guys, and non-binary pals are fucking attractive and pretty and nice and im rlly fuckin gay.

9. yup, one of my ex’s did, it was rlly sweet

10. no clue, air drums woulda been yesterday though

11. not rlly, nope!

12. probably, not that i remember though

13. don’t got one

14. wanting to go inside or im at the ocean

15. behind behind behind, i hate being on camera

16. currently...uhhhhhhh......P!ATD probably

17. How are you? “I’m ok”

18. not rlly nope, do believe some people defiantly deserve it though

19. its extreamly complicated. Toby’s my name, and I’m bored

20. Weakness is probably my anxiety. Strength would be...... I can pick up new talents up pretty quicky i guess

21. don’t have one. got people i admire, but not a crush

22. yup, in the lake during the summer once

23. Now that I think about it....I don’t know

24. so, so, so many things. I am an absolute gremlin

25. depending on the people, only time im on the phone is playing mc though so. phone ig

26. maybe? im still “becoming”

27. love: the crunch of refrozen snow. hate: the bus engine which sucks cause i gotta ride it every day

28. what if I fail

29. Ghosts yes, 99% sure my house is haunted as it used to be a doctors office in the 1920s. Aliens 100%. youd have to be an idiot to think that theres not some sort of other life in the entire universe

30. My computer that im typing this on with both arms

31. apple pie filling that I made

32. alberta

33. west west west west west

34. i don’t have an opposite gender

35. the meaning of my life is to study some fucking orcas

36. creation of something new

37. sometimes!

38. pretty grey and boring. maybe rainy, im not sure, im not by any windows

39. 4:28, though it feels like 7. today has gone so slowly

40. Yes and yes. though i only bumped someones truck while learning to park so it wasnt to bad

41. the book needed for # 3!!

42. enh, kinda?

43. not rlly.

44. film? idk but watching something? im watching bnha right now for the 3rd time

45. ive broken my arm and sprained my ankle but im not sure what was worse

46. yeah!! i was in mexico and they would come land on me!

47. well. Orcas. Bnha. thats pretty much my entire personality

48. Panromanic Demisexual

49. that I cheated on my ex which is compleate bullshit

50. yes!!!

51. sometimes and depends on the situation

52. Aquarius!

53. i need to save it but i spend it. im sucky at saving

54. some food cause im a hungry bitch

55. love<3

56. nope

57. 3 as of current

58. yup!!

59. at school and at work. glad thats over

60. a pan flag hanging on my ceiling

61. yeah. my feet are cold

62. ORCAS

63. i dont really have one. i just hang out with people who like the same stuff and we bond over that

64. shes probably at her house while talking to me on discord rn. hey look @krarshadow, youre part of the asks I told you about

65. @seriously--fuck--you @krarshadow @official-lucifers-child @thatsthat24 @kitkatthegaybean

66. no clue

67. having a shower i think

68. morningstar

69. nah

70. some of the time. other times im an annoying little shit who shouldn’t be allowed to interact with anyone

71. save the dog and run to work on time. then get fired for refusing to get rid of the dog

72. tell certain people, hang out in my friends classes and not bother with my own, enh, id just be sad I wouldnt see my friends again

73. love as love builds trust

74. I really dont know. I have a playlist called “calming???” and that helps make me not sad

75. ***-***-2083

76. communication. this goes for any kind of relationship, not just romantic

77. i dont know!!!! romantic stuff is confusing and telling the different between liking someone and liking someone is sometimes fucking difficult

78. oh hell yes. one hundred percent

79. wanting to study orcas as a tiny child. its given me something to always look towards and work for

80. 8-91/2

81. i don’t want on. mix my ashes with glitter and throw me into the ocean

82. Sonder, its a pretty boring word but the meaning is cool. “ The profound feeling of realizing that everyone, including strangers passed in the street, has a life as complex as one's own, which they are constantly living despite one's personal lack of awareness of it. “

83. blood

84. *screams are heard in the distance*

85. You and Jennifer apparently

86. blue. but like a Logan Sanders or Tuesday blue

87.

88. my dad

89. situational. there are ones i don’t want to answer, but nothing i can think of where im scared of the truth

90. kill all but one and strap that one on a table and unwrap and dissect it

91. shapeshifting (gotta love that definatly creative answer from a trans person right there)

92. seeing orcas

93. my fucking childhood trauma

94. what the fuck. do people actually wanna sleep with them???? thats creepy as fuck man

95. Tofino, BC (no surprise there, its really easy to see orcas off the coast)

96. Its my fatherrrrrrrr

97. uhhhhh, no, but i did right after getting out of the car once

98. many times! real fun! i quite like plane rides if i get my own space

99. Fuck terfs. Trans rights

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omeliashepherdhunt · 6 years ago

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Leaving Landstuhl pt. 7

It was a new feeling to be the patient instead of the doctor when she got to Grey-Sloan that morning. It was weird and even a little unsettling to Amelia.

“O, will you help me tie the back of my gown?”

“Of course.”

The room was stiff with tension. She would never admit it to him but she was petrified. Amelia wouldn’t be able to live with herself if something happened to either babies. She was also feeding off of Owen’s stress and anxiety over this.

Once Amelia was set up in the bed, it was just a waiting game. One of the fetal nurses would be in to wheel her to the O.R within an hour or two since Robbins was running late in a different surgery.

“Can you come lay with me?”

Owen was apprehensive to do so. She looked so small in the bed, especially with the monitors, wires, and IV all around her.

“I don’t know if that’s the best idea...”

“Please. I’m starting to get a little nervous and you help keep my nerves down...”

“Okay. We just need to be careful.”

Amelia felt the bed shift once he laid beside her and he carefully draped an arm across her belly, minding where the monitors were.

“You’re gonna be okay, Amelia. You’ll just fall asleep and wake up with it over. Robbins is the very very best. She will be able to help you and help Mattie.”

“I know. I just want it to be over. I want to be able to go home as soon as possible.”

Owen kissed in between her shoulder blades when he found himself without words and sighed as he took in the scent of his wife. Her conditioner was a fragrant Moroccan oil — his favorite of hers.

It had been maybe thirty minutes before Arizona walked into her room, sat on the foot of the bed, and gave one of Amelia’s hands a quick squeeze.

“Sorry, I had an emergency surgery first thing this morning... Now I know you two are worried and stressed. However I was taught by the best and now I’m considered one of the best fetal surgeons out there. This is a small procedure all things considered and you’ll only be under for all of 90 minutes.”

To be honest, Arizona was rather nervous herself. It wasn’t that she doubted her ability to do the transfusion, but it wasn’t everyday your patient is a fellow surgeon and department head. Robbins had grown quite fond of Amelia which didn’t help her nerves. She’d even go as far as saying they were becoming good friends. Not to mention if anything were to go wrong, she had to answer to Owen. While she wasn’t afraid of him, she still hated confrontational encounters.

“The crew is about to come in to wheel you to the O.R. I’ll see you there. Owen, I’ll find you in the waiting room afterwards.”

When Amelia started to wake up, she instantly needed water. Her throat was sore from being intubated but no one was in sight. She pushed the call button and waited for a nurse to walk in. However no nurse came. Dr. Steinmetz came waltzing in with his cocky demeanor.

“Look at you. You look amazing, Shep. Pierce will make her rounds but your heart and your daughter’s heart are in tip top shape. You’ve been doing alright?”

“I’m fine. Where is Owen?”

“So you’re still with Hunt?”

“Yup and you’re still with Clara I heard.”

Otto crept closer and closer to her which made the hair on her arms stand up.

“I never thought you’d become a mom. You never wanted a kid when we were together.”

“I’ve always wanted kids, just not with you. I was 5 weeks pregnant when you beat me that night. I took so many blows to the stomach; there was no way that baby would make it. When I got to the motel and went to shower, there was blood trickling down my legs. You killed the baby.”

Amelia felt bile starting to rise up her throat. It wasn’t a side effect from anesthesia. It was due to Otto and talking about what he did to her for the first time ever.

“You selfish brat. Of course you wouldn’t have told me. That was my kid.”

“Your kid that you killed. I won’t apologize for something you did. Get the hell out of my room.”

She was quick to push the emergency button on the remote for her room. She could hear the rapid beating on the machine of her heart beat increasing the longer Otto was in there.

“So feisty. You’re delusional Amelia. You’ll figure out soon what you’re missing out on when your babies are born. Half junkie and half Hunt. What a shame.”

Before she knew what was happening, Otto stumbled to the floor while Owen kept his fist up.

“You’re a fucking disgrace. Stay the hell away from Amelia. I heard everything you said, you sick son of a bitch. Get the fuck out of here!”

Dr. Steinmetz practically crawled out of the room while holding his jaw. Owen immediately ran to hug Amelia.

“I didn’t think you’d be awake so soon. I was walking back here when I heard the signal and saw on the screen it was from your room. Are you okay?”

“I’m fine. I just wanted water.”

“This isn’t your first pregnancy?”

“No. I’m sorry.”

Owen kissed her forehead then moved to pour her some water.

“You have nothing to be sorry about, babe. He was the monster who did those things to you. I’m going to talk to Bailey ASAP about his job. He needs to stay far away from here and from you.”

“I know. I was so scared.”

“I don’t blame you. How are you feeling?”

“Fine. Tired. I want to sleep. Everything went well?”

“Yep. Mattie is already showing drastic improvements.”

“Lay with me?”

“Again?”

“Yes. I feel safest with you around.”

Owen’s heart felt warm with her declaration. It was good she wanted him around because he loved protecting her.

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booksfornamjoon · 6 years ago

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BTS’ lyrics as Nietzsche’s aphorisms (Part II)

· You can check part I in here ·

Of all the literary influences that characterize, directly or indirectly, the discography of BTS, Nietzsche – like Schopenhauer and C.G. Jung–, are continuously present in what we could call Bangtan’s world philosophy. The imaginary that surrounds their compositions, of high symbolic and conceptual complexity, establishes relations with the works of universal literature and manages to connect and approach, uniting the educated discourse with the mainstream discourse, an audience of all kinds. For instance, one of those works is Beyond Good and Evil, written by Friederich Nietzsche in 1886. In the aphorisms included in this book (Chapter IV, entitled Maxims and Interludes) we can see to what extent the lyrics of BTS drink from the philosophy of this author, considered one of the most important thinkers of the nineteenth century.

79 · A soul which knows that it is loved but which does not love itself reveals its bottom layers - its deepest stuff comes up.

It’s my fate. Don’t smile to me, lie to me, because I can’t get closer to you, there’s no name you can call me. You know that I can’t: show you me, give you me; I can’t show you a ruined part of myself, once again I put a mask on and go to see you, but I still want you (The Truth Untold).

80 · A matter which is explained ceases to concern us. - What does that god mean who advised "Know thyself"? Does that not perhaps mean "Stop being concerned about yourself! Become objective!" - And Socrates? - And the "scientific man"?-

Who says a dream must be something grand, just become anybody. We deserve a life, whatever big or small, you are you after all (Paradise).

81 · It is dreadful to die of thirst in the sea. Must you then salt your truth so much that it can no longer - quench your thirst?

I just started walking and ended up at the sea. I’m looking at the coast from here, there’s endless sand and the rough wind, but I’m looking at a desert. I wanted to have the sea so I swallowed you up, but I’m even thirstier than before. Is what I know really the ocean? Or a blue desert? (Sea).

82 · "Pity for everyone" - that would be hard and tyrannical for you, my neighbour.

Follow the sound of the pipe, follow this song It’s a bit dangerous but I’m so sweet. I’m here to save you, I’m here to ruin you. You called me, see? I’m so sweet. Follow the sound of the pipe..., I’m takin’ over you (Pied Piper).

83 · Instinct - when the house is burning, people forget even their noonday meal. - Indeed, but people later haul it out of the ashes.

When you called me I became your flower. As if we were waiting, we bloom until we ache (Jimin, Serendipity).

88 · We begin to mistrust very clever people when they become embarrassed.

Gonna breathe a little slower, cuz my life and my rap, they’re usually too fast (RM, Forever Rain).

89 · Dreadful experiences lead one to wonder whether the person who undergoes them is not something dreadful.

On the other side of the famous idol rapper stands my weak self, it’s a bit dangerous. Depression, OCD, they keep coming back again from time to time. Hell no, perhaps that might be my true self, Damn, huh, feeling estranged in reality, the conflict with ideal, my head hurts (Suga, The Last).

90 · Heavy, melancholy men become lighter precisely through what makes other people heavy, through hate and love, and for a while come to their surface.

I collect myself that's shattered beneath the moonlight. I call you moonchild. We are the children of the moon. I breathe the cold night air: yes, we're livin' and dyin' at the same time (V & RM, 4 O’CLOCK).

91 · So cold, so icy that we burn our fingers on him! Every hand that grasps him pulls back! - And for that very reason some assume he's glowing hot.

Kiss me on the lip, lips. This is a secret between the two of us. I am addicted to the prison that is you, I cannot worship anyone else besides you, I knowingly drank from the poisoned chalice (Blood, Sweat & Tears).

92 · For the sake of his good reputation who has not once - sacrificed himself?

Even if I’m slow I will walk with my own feet, because I know this path is mine to take. Even if I go back, I will reach this path eventually. I never, I will never, I will never lose my dream (Lost).

94 · Maturity in a man: that means having found once again that seriousness which man had as a child, in play.

I don’t have biceps or pecs, I don’t have a super car like Batman, the ideal hero is my fantasy, but all I can give you is Anpan. I’ve dreamed of becoming a hero like Superman, I ran with all my strength, jumping high up in the sky. I’m not afraid of little things like bruising my knees, innocent fantasies of my childhood (Anpanman).

95 · For someone to be ashamed of his immorality: that is a step on the staircase at the end of which he is also ashamed of his morality.

I am still the same person I was before. I am here, the same person I was from before, but an overgrown lie is trying to swallow me whole (Jimin, Lie).

97 · What? A great man? I always see only the actor of his own ideal.

Rappers who act arrogant, my flow job that takes them all and toys around with them. If you try to damage me with simple words like that I only become stronger (Suga, J-Hope, RM & Supreme Boi, Cypher Part 3).

98 · If we train our conscience, it will kiss us at the very moment it bites us.

Yes I hate you, you left me, but I never stopped thinking about you, not even a day. Honestly, I miss you, but I’ll erase you, because it hurts less than to blame you. I try to exhale you in pain, like smoke, like white smoke. I say that I’ll erase you, but I can’t really let you go yet (Spring Day).

99 · The disappointed man speaks: - "I listened for the echo, and I heard only praise -"

Me, a shadow behind the stage. Me, in the depth of darkness. I didn’t want to show everything including my pain, but because I’m still unaccustomed I just wanted to make you smile, I wanted to do good, so thanks. Believing in someone like me, dealing with these tears and wounds, so thanks for becoming my light, for becoming the flower in the most beautiful moment in life (2!3! Still Wishing For More Good Days).

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claurps · 6 years ago

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all the numbers you haven't done yet :)

why are you like this???

1. Would you have sex with the last person you text messaged?

2. You talked to an ex today, correct?

3. Have you taken someones virginity?

no, i dont think i have

4. Is trust a big issue for you?

yes

5. Did you hang out with the person you like recently?

6. What are you excited for?

traveling this year

7. What happened tonight?

if i dont cancel plans, ill catch up with a friend and have a few drinks

8. Do you think it’s disgusting when girls get really wasted?

tbh yeah and when guys do it too, like can yall chill

9. Is confidence cute?

yes

10. What is the last beverage you had?

coffee

11. How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust?

one ish

12. Do you own a pair of skinny jeans?

i own like 3

13. What are you gonna do Saturday night?

stay in bed

14. What are you going to spend money on next?

probs food

26. Is your current hair color your natural hair color?

no, im a fake blonde and you can tell by my horrible roots

27. Would you be able to date someone who doesn’t make you laugh?

oh hell no, which is why i ghosted the last guy i went on a date with

31. Honestly, do you hate the last boy you were talking to?

i don’t hate him, he was just really clingy and had to let that go

32. Does the person you have feelings for right now, know you do?

i dont got feelings

33. Are you one of those people who never drinks soda?

no but i should quit

34. Listening to?

alone by halsey

35. Do you ever write in pencil anymore?

yes bc im always making mistakes

36. Do you know where the last person you kissed is?

far away i hope

38. Who did you last call?

@benterps

39. Who was the last person you danced with?

some random person at the club lol

40. Why did you kiss the last person you kissed?

bc we were on a date

41. When was the last time you ate a cupcake?

i cant remember

42. Did you hug/kiss one of your parents today?

no my mom went to work before i woke up

43. Ever embarrass yourself in front of a crush?

probs

44. Do you tan in the nude?

no too shy for that

45. If you could, would you take back your last kiss?

fuck yes

46. Did you talk to someone until you fell asleep last night?

yes

47. Who was the last person to call you?

the red cross lol they want my blood

48. Do you sing in the shower?

yes

49. Do you dance in the car?

yes

50. Ever used a bow and arrow?

51. Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer?

senior year of high school

53. Is Christmas stressful?

yup

54. Ever eat a pierogi?

66. Cheetos Or Fritos?

cheetos

67. Peanuts or Sunflower seeds?

peanuts

68. Favorite Taylor Swift song?

don’t blame me

69. Ever take dance lessons?

when i was little

70. Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing?

yes, loving forever and ever

71. Can you curl your tongue?

yes

72. Ever won a spelling bee?

never participated in one

73. Have you ever cried because you were so happy?

yes

75. Do you study better with or without music?

with

76. Regularly burn incense?

77. Ever been in love?

nah

78. Who would you like to see in concert?

i think ive already seen the people i love but i wouldnt mind a RBD reunion tho

79. What was the last concert you saw?

jessie reyez

80. Hot tea or cold tea?

cold

81. Tea or coffee?

coffee

82. Favorite type of cookie?

chocolate chip

83. Can you swim well?

yes, did swimming as a sport when i was little

84. Can you hold your breath without holding your nose?

yes

85. Are you patient?

i think so

86. DJ or band, at a wedding?

87. Ever won a contest?

yes

88. Ever have plastic surgery?

89. Which are better black or green olives?

neither

90. Opinions on sex before marriage?

you do you boo boo

91. Best room for a fireplace?

living room

92. Do you want to get married

i do

#long post #answered #benterps

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