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myfaenwy · 1 year ago
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WIP title game!
tagged by @starsscarmyceiling (love you!)
Rules: post the names of all the files in your WIP folder, regardless of how non-descriptive or ridiculous. Let people send you an ask with the title that most intrigues them, then post a little snippet or tell them something about it. Tag as many people as you have WIPs.
this is about to be embarrassing bc my titles are sooooo bad before i post them
Posted WIPS
1. Series: But when I hold you I hold everything that is which are slowburn Merrical one-shots after Jedi: Fallen Order, including ‘Let me be your everlasting light’ 🍳 (they cook and make googly eyes at each other); ‘This is the story of your red right ankle’ 🚀 (Merrin gets kidnapped without any damsel in distress bullshit); I am aching now to let you in’ 🥂 (they go to a bar and make googly eyes at each other); Merri(n) Merri(n), quite contrary, how does your garden grow?’ 🌻 (they play in the dirt and smooch); and ‘A fever you can’t sweat out’ 🪲 (this one is difficult to explain in one sentence but there is archaeology, bug bites, and some smut lulz) and I guess this is cheating a little because I don’t think? this is a work in progress anymore, but, meh.
2. Series: you and I are the light that endures which are Merrical one-shots after Jedi: Survivor, including ‘that time on Nar Shaddaa’ 🥺 (an angsty pine-filled expansion of a throwaway line from survivor)
Unposted Wips
3. calandmerrinluthenaphra 🏔️ (Merrical one-shot which will have action, adventure, romance, and an archaeological dig?)
4. calandmerrincockpit 💦🔥 (Merrical one-shot that will be v nsfw involving the…cockpit)
5. reyfinnrosejannah 🌈 (a little cutie Rose/Jannah one-shot where they will all go to Coruscant so that Rey and Finn can try and find Jedi stuff from the temple) although i suppose this is building on there is a road, there is a way (a Finn/Poe/Rey fic) and oh it was a funny thing, to be the ones who’ve seen a Jacen Syndulla/Rey fic with lots of good Jedi!Finn
6. we’re more ghosts than people 🤠 (Merrical Cowyboy AU) which actually has a real title because its co-authored by the amazing @starsscarmyceiling
so absolutely no pressure tags and yah, i’m duplicating some with katie @believe-in-alderaan @wayfaringjedi @acedilfdin @vox-reginae @fancyfrey @jan-uarys
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greyeyedmonster-18 · 2 years ago
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Hey Dr. Grey. Do you have any tips for coping with anxiety in fandom spaces please? I would really value your advice.
oh, hello, anon.
i am...going to respond to this but i am first going to say its felt like the past few days my asks have gotten a bit nosy in regards to my...personal boundaries with fandom/who i talk to in fandom/why i do, why i don't etc etc etc etc. and that is fine, but will respond in a way that maybe is perceived to be more on the rude side. i am likely to be way more personable in DM's and asks i can respond privately to. this admittedly feels like its fishing for information and i'm not sure why? but, we shall respond.
--i don't know what...part of the fandom is bringing you anxiety, sweet anon, and i am sorry it is. fandom should be fun. i repeat, fandom should be fun. but sometimes it just straight up isn't, and im sorry. i'm...going to address this generically? because i honestly need more information about...the anxiety source to provide any sort of tips.
i am also going to be disclaimer this as: i'm generally not a person who gives to fucks what other people think of me. like if someone wants to talk? okay, have a nice day, so glad i gave you something to talk about. and i care....very little what a group of internet strangers, who are just here to read about gay wizards, think about me based on what i post. but here are...some tips that i use for having a better...online experience?
uhm...first tip is curate your experience. if there are people here causing you stress and anxiety (it might be people you follow, people who don't follow but see on your dash, certain ships, certain groups? idk) filtering and blocking. im very liberal with the block button, and i have no qualms about it. if someone is stressing you out/making you anxious and you're not sure why-- block them. if someone cares that i have blocked them, i have never gotten feedback about it so uh...i think people can move on, ya know?
*the rest is below the cut to avoid dash spam
second, "people aren't thinking about you the way that you're thinking about you"-- so here's the deal. im not going to sit here and be like "yah fandoms don't talk shit about other people in the fandom!" because that would be a lie.
we absolutely do. in our own separate little discord servers, but the thing is its usually about fandoms that don't...interact. example: i talk shit about the Pro-Snape fandom all the time! I don't get them! Ship and Let Ship but also what the fuck was hot snape summer. (and im not going into their asks and their pages, and being like WHAT THE FUCK), i am just ???? in my own little crew. and they're probably over in their crew being like "have you seen Grey's page, they don't even write snape ever." and its HORRIFYNG to them, but like....whatever? I don't care what they think.
but, people aren't thinking about you and your works and your blog the way that you're thinking about it. another wolfstar writer or page is someone we cheer on. we're all too wrapped up in our own unfinished WIP'S and silly little headcanons and lives to be concerned with what someone else is doing. if someone is shitting on my wolfstar or moonchaser or whatever in their own private little servers, good for them. again, so glad i gave them something to bond over! i'm building community through hate and i love that! but i love my wolfstar. and my 11 friends do too (or if they hate it, they're not telling me to my face, which is alright by me). that's all i can care about.
third, i love a good boundary. i really and truly do. and i know there is a pressure on tumblr and in the fandom communities to be like WARM AND INVITING AND CHATTING WITH EVERYBODY AND GETTING TO KNOW EVERYBODY all the time, but like...that's fake. you don't have to do it, if you don't want to! have two friends, have 8000 friends, whatever you want. if the people and the pressure and the NOISE is whats bringing you anxiety....tone it down.
you don't have to talk to everyone. you don't have to update every week. you don't have to respond to all your comments. you don't have to write a novel in the authors notes. you literally don't have to do anything you don't want to do. it is your space. you make your home however you want to make it. fandom is supposed to be fun.
make it fun again anon.
(also, i will reiterate that if you DM me, I will not bite. and can respond to this more appropriately.)
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painterofhorizons · 3 years ago
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Floating Day WIP
Lovely @chyrstis and @theoriginalladya tagged me for the floating day WIP and as some actual writing has happened within the past four days, I am gladly able to share some. ^.^ Thanks for tagging me!
Will tag everyone who wants to share something. Yes, that you! @sheeplessthings @jedirangerpenguin @foofygoldfish @hunnybadgerv @chyrstis @theoriginalladya @shadoedseptmbr @shudder-shock @calendergirlff (are you still in the writing game, friend?) @swaps55 @rpgwrites @jediwalkerw @urrone
So, this is something that, lets say lets see where it takes us. :D Not sure yet where or how it will fit into the actual story, and it combines/reworks some earlier ideas and it’s pretty much a what if with different outsomes that I will play with. And it starts like this:
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Alex had spent an undefined amount of time sitting at the kitchen bar table staring at her own hands when she heard a sound coming from the hallway. Immediately her heartbeat fastened, hands covered in cold sweat.
Play it cool, she told herself, it’s no big deal, just play it cool.
As if that was so easy. Because fuck, this was a big deal.
“Hey.”
She met Dave halfway between the front door and the kitchen. He kissed her hello and Alex tried her best to play it cool, with little to no success.
“Hey”, she said, trying to sound somewhat confident and normal. “I made” - dinner - “how was” - your day - “sit. We need to talk.”
Not the ideal way to start this conversation, but was there one, really?
Dave raised his brows but followed her order without second guessing it.
“Everything okay?”
Well, that was most likely a matter of definition. Alex shot him a look that could be read as everything ranging from sorry, I broke your favourite mug to we have to sell the house and leave the state, don’t ask any questions.
“Yah. Yah, I- no. Yah.”
At least Dave didn’t react to that senseless stutter. Alex sighed. She had been thinking about what to say and how to word it since she knew he would be back home this night, but her brain wasn’t capable to come up with any way that was even slightly convincing, not to speak of clever, eloquent or sensitive. And whatever she had said so far didn’t fall in any of those categories.
“No one is hurt or anything”, she made sure to clarify when Dave only gave her the same questioning but patient look he had since he’d sat down.
“Good.”
Alex took a deep breath, but it didn’t help. Well, at least nobody was harmed. That was probably a good thing.
“Everyone at work okay?”
“What do we need to talk about, Alex?” Dave asked instead of answering her rather distracting question.
“Yah… Well.” Alex shifted her weight from one foot to the other, hands buried deep in the pockets of her jeans. This moment had come sooner than she had hoped for - even though the last two days had been way too long for her taste. “Yah. There’s not really a sensitive way to put this so I’ll just put in on the table.”
Both metaphorically and literally spoken.
She took a seat at the opposite side of Dave and slid a used pregnancy test over to him.
Time froze. Alex could hear the non existent clock in the background going tick. Tack. Tick. Tack. One round and another and another, while Dave just stared at the small piece of plastic in front of him. His general calm attitude became noticeably less - it didn’t fade completely, Alex was pretty sure that was impossible for Dave or at least took more than the current situation - but some of it faded. He was still calm, but Alex could tell the difference.
“That-“
“It’s the third test from a different brand within two days”, Alex cut him. “I sure can get a fourth, but I doubt that will change the outcome.”
Dave looked up from the test and met her look. The expression in his face made Alex laugh, even if just for a second. A stranger wouldn’t notice it, Dave was subtle, at least more subtle than she was, but she knew him well enough to know exactly what he was hoping for. He was looking for a sign for how she was taking the situation, and how he was supposed to react now.
“Don’t give me that look!” The laughter faded into a grin that faded into a small twitching of the corners of her mouth. At least he had involuntarily cheered up the situation. “I don’t know what to say either, okay? This takes me as off guards as you. I don’t know how, or when, or what the fuck we are supposed to do now. But yeah. Welcome home, I guess.”
Dave slowly nodded.
“So. You’re pregnant.”
“Or so it seems.”
Another slow nod followed. Knitted brows. Familiar knitted brows that - fuck, she had missed him twice as much within the last week. Even if she had no clue what to say or do right now.
Dave folded his hands and the ever so calm and controlled manner of him changed into the same helpless and overwhelmed vibe Alex felt.
“I think I need a drink.”
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grisdidthis · 4 years ago
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CHAPTER ONE: FIRST SIGHT
AKA, blessed fucknuggets, why do these fools feel the need to put themselves through high school, my sources tell me that the US school system isn’t all that to begin with, what gives?
PREVIOUS ENTRIES
(Warning: this got long. Looooong. Hence, cut, so that I don’t murder your dash like Edward doesn’t murder Bella in this chapter.)
Welcome to the first entry of a live-read that no one asked for, in which I’ll go through the first chapter of Midnight Sun, i.e. a retelling of the first Twilight book from Edward Cullen’s POV. Not to be confused with Grey, a retelling of the first volume of a Twilight fanfic with the serial numbers filed off, or the Life and Death edition, a retelling of the first Twilight book in which Bella Swan is genderbent into a dude called Beau, who utters the immortal line “I knew I must look like a gorilla on a greyhound.” Which still tickles my humerus to this day.
I’ve waited for this novel to drop so long that at some point I’d stopped waiting. If by some freaky turn of chance you stumbled on this without knowing about the hoopla surrounding the publication, here’s a Wikipedia link. The gist is that the first few chapters of the WIP got leaked, the author got upset, the book got shelved until ??? and no further information about it was forthcoming until a while ago, when out of the blue arrive the news that it’s getting released in August.
My first thought was “Oh, yay, something actually NICE is happening this year!”
My second thought was “Please let it be good, so that I can laugh outrageously at [name redacted] for mocking my enjoyment of this series!” And. Look. I know what’s said about Twilight with regards to its literary merit and Stephenie Meyer’s abilities as a writer. A lot of it is admittedly accurate. However, the metrics by which I measure the value of a book are a) did it entertain me? and b) did I gain anything by having read it? And yeah, those are personal and subjective items, but objectivity is a lie, Jesus enjoys using toasters to take selfies, and if ten years ago I hadn’t been looking for a place to post my 50k+ epic Renesmee-centric fanfic, I wouldn’t have met the people who are currently my best friends.
Which is to say: I’m too attached to this series to give a fig what color the prose is. Deal.
And yet. Me hoping that Midnight Sun would be good, in a way that people who don’t have my level of emotional investment might acknowledge, wasn’t… that farfetched?  Because the last book Meyer released before this one, The Chemist? Is an improvement on all her previous work. A huge improvement! It’s competently written! The characters read like they were intended to be flawed, messy people.
The main romance isn’t the kind of fucked up that Bella and Edward’s is, where you can pen treatises on why they’re omg so unhealthy. It’s the kind of fucked up where five seconds after meeting her love interest, the protagonist drugs him unconscious, kidnaps him, sticks a urinary catheter up his ding dong, straps him to a table and tortures him for information until the guy’s ex-CIA identical twin drops a plane on the barn they’re in and crashes through the ceiling all “HANDS OFF MY BABY BROTHER YOU DISCOUNT MATA HARI!”
Then they all make friends and go on a road trip together because a shady government organization is after them.
That’s not a fucked-up relationship that you write an essay analyzing the fucked-up-ness of. It’s something you stare at, stunned and, if you’re me, torn between thinking “Holy shit, this is so my brand of heroine!!!” and “How much crack was Auntie Steph on when she wrote this?” And it’s beautiful. I want ten more like it. So my hopes for Midnight Sun are tempered by the knowledge that, being a retelling of an established narrative, it can’t go all-out with the batshit. But I’m still optimistic that some part of it will give me that warm “Awww, you’ve come a long way from where we first met, author! Good on you!” feeling.
Now let’s (finally!) get started on the chapter proper.
…oh wait there’s an author’s note.
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…uhm. Yeah. My dreams. About those. *fixed stare at faraway bonfire* Actually, let’s not talk about those and just move on to Edward Not Liking High School, thank you. Yeah. That’s good.
Edward Cullen doesn’t like high school. Edward doesn’t like that people think. Edward doesn’t like that the human student body is beside itself with the arrival of some new chick. Edward thinks his adopted siblings are super basic. (Rosalie = shallow, Emmett = simple, Jasper = psycho two seconds away from jumping off his chair and going on a rampage.) We don’t get to hear his utterly unbiased assessment of Alice, because she butts in and starts a one-sided telepathic convo about how Jasper is two seconds away from jumping off his chair and going on a rampage. You know. Normal sibling stuff.
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WHY DO YOU PUT YOURSELF THROUGH THIS HASSLE, WHY!
(Let me take this opportunity to share my pet crack theory that Carlisle Cullen is secretly the most twisted, evil vampire in all of vampiredom, and that the sending the young ones to high school bit is something he does solely because he gets his evil fix by feasting on the emotional toil it inflicts on them. Also why he’s a doctor; he can ignore the call of blood, because being surrounded by the pain of patients and their loved ones already keeps him fed. I mean. He was chilling with the Volturi way back when, and Aro gives off a handsy vibe. No way he didn’t get his mind read in every which way, and if that happened - if he were reaaaalllyyyyy that nice, why would he still ping them as a threat of any kind?)
(This has holes in it, I know. And clashes with my other pet crack theory, which posits that the whole immortal child/Let’s Catch Them All: Cullen Edition was in fact the fallout of a Very Bad Italian Breakup, with Aro being the pissy ex who wants sole custody of the kids.)
Whatever. It still makes more sense than them going through “the inert state between active periods” when. My dudes! College is right there. Some places you can even sit out 90% of lectures and still get your diploma if you don’t feel like faking one, so Jasper would be all set! And you can pick different subjects! Diversify! Why must it always be med school rehashes, there are other worthy professions! And whole fields that are useless for getting-a-job purposes, but still interesting and enriching for those who have the luxury to pursue them. Let Emmett do Viking Studies, for fuck’s sake!
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This amuses me much more than it rightfully should. I’m a child.
The Cullen clan tries to pep talk Jasper into not getting his murder on. Jasper is like OMG WILL YOU GUYS LAY OFF, while Edward is busy doing his judgy Edward thing and thinking to himself that Jasper should accept his limitations, that it’s a bad idea to have him at school at all, blah blah bleh, and you know what, I’m with you there, Ed.
Although we all know that this is just setup for the irony that will ensue as soon as Bella the Delicious klutzes her way into his line of smell.
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Oh yah! Enter Bella. Edward can’t hear her thoughts. Jessica Stanley is a b-word. Edward wonders whether not being able to butt into the new girl’s head may be a red flag for vampire Alzheimer. Biology class next! The teacher is a man “of no more than average intellect” and, lord. It’s lucky that Edward is the mind reader in the family, because imagine if it were one of the others and they had to put up with listening to him bitch about the world at large, nonstop, at all hours of the day. And night, since these guys don’t sleep. Angela Webber is the only soul in the whole school whose thoughts have the Edward Cullen seal of approval. I feel sorry for her. I also feel this weird sense of hey, this all seems familiar in senses other than being a retelling, have I been here before?
Wait.
WAAAIIIIIITEEEEE.
*googles for the old version*
*runs first chapters through copyleaks*
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*kubrick stare* MEYER, YOU LAZY SO AND SO, HOW COULD YOU!
*slams head on desk*
Well. At least I know what I’m in for. HONESTLY! It’s been. It’s been THIS MANY YEARS since the leaked version appeared, and that was a first draft, how in the… she’s way better than this, now! Was this novel produced in a terminal state of $#%CARING#NOT?&FOUND?! Is half of it just going to be the same old thing with a thin veneer of polish? I’m.
*sigh* You know what, I’m okay. We’re just going to call this first part a re-read. It’s been ten years, so I remember not a whole lot of the specifics, so at least I won’t be bored. BUT COME CHAPTER 13 I EXPECT TO BE SWEPT OFF MY FEET, DO YOU HEAR ME?!
Biology. Bella walks in right past a fan and gives Edward a throbbing throat boner. How awkward. Then she goes and sits right next to him and saucily tosses her hair around like he’s not actively plotting her murder and that of the rest of the class. The cheek of the thing!
Fortunately, Bella’s tasty ass is momentarily saved by a stiff breeze.
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…I think we may have found the solution to Jasper’s control issues. The Cullens just need to start carrying air freshener around and spray the murder out of him every time he starts looking peckish. It would look weird if anyone else did it, but since they’re all pretty and rich, it’s more likely that the trend will catch on and cause Febreze sales to skyrocket.
Anyway. We’re not done victim-blaming Bella for…
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…at least another couple of pages, but at least Edward gets his head out of his ass long enough to recall that hey, vampire! Oxygen is optional! But he still spends another lot of words grumbling about what a hassle it is to be forced to hold his breath in order to dampen his murderous urges. This is why you are a virgin, Edward. No, I don’t mean the planning the assassination a classmate’s assassination, plenty of serial killers still manage to get laid heaps, consensually, even! It’s the fact that you’re this much of a buzzkill that’s the issue.
Live, laugh, love, you dumbass disco ball!
Yep, he’s still on about how he’s going to kill her, totes kill her, he feral dangerous vampire, rawr. The miracle of adequate indoor airflow only got him to railroad a quartet of brain cells into thinking up smarter ways of snuffing Bella out. Now he wants to lure her to the forest. No, he’s going to kill her at home! He hates her! No, he hates himself and is projecting!
So he flees to his car, plays some calming music, breathes in and out and thinks about his family and how disappointed they’d be in him if he were to help himself to a Swan shake. Well, I’m nobody to shit talk anyone’s self-soothing routine. I’d probably throw in a truck of food + a bath, but he’s had 100+ years to figure out what coping mechanisms work for him, so let’s just let him do his-
Edward.
EDWARD.
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…do you actually think this is an appropriate time to start a ginger-off with some random desk lady? Yes, we know you’re the One True Redhead To Rule Them All. (Though Kvothe from Name of the Wind may beg to differ, and I don’t know who would win that fight.) I mean, really? You pull this crap when you just barely talked yourself out of a murder? And then you call her eyes flat! What!
One of my favorite comic book series, Y the Last Man, features a scene where two characters discuss what it is that truly binds people together. One of them presents the argument that stronger bonds are formed not by shared love, but by shared hates. By which they mean not a kiss-kiss-slap-slap, enemies-to-lovers relationship dynamic, but like… you, being someone who really hates coleslaw, having a partner who likewise hates coleslaw, with whom you can indulge in tireless verbal roastings of coleslaw and who will never get tired of your complaining, because the fire of their loathing burns every bit as hot as yours.
I’ve always felt that this concept resonated with me deeply. And if you apply it to Bella and Edward, by its standards, they have the real deal. Go through the namesake chapter in Twilight-the-book, and you find Bella thinking similarly judgy thoughts, being irked by the same shit that no one normal would bat an eye to, going “Ugh!” and “Gah!” at everything that makes Edward wince internally. So their love will be eternal for sure. Perhaps not in an epic way. They’ll live boringly ever after, until they’re ancient and onion-skinned and lurking at passerby humans through the geraniums on their windowsill, exchanging “Holy crow, I can’t believe she bought a hydrogen engine car just to show off!” / “Awful! She should know that thinning the deer population so that they produce less flatulence is the most sound way of controlling toxic emissions!” And then probably gazing at one another like idiots for an ice age or two.
Edward wants to be moved out of Biology class. Goes back and forth with the desk lady, who obviously wants to tap that, because of course she does. Every hot-blooded woman within spitting distance must crave his alluring icicle, even as he mentally eviscerates every minuscule detail of their appearance.
Except Bella, because she’s soft, translucent, deep-eyed and edible. And, I mean. You can complain all you want about “you’re different from anyone else I’ve ever met, you’re SPECIAL, better, more beautiful, more everything!” being a dead horse of a trope so old and beaten that by all rights it should have turned to smelly glue, but. That pony is still kicking. And by kicking, I mean selling. And it sells because being made to feel special, even if it’s happening by proxy while you’re immersed into the thoughts of a fictional character, is nice. Readers enjoying that experience and seeking out fiction that provides it shouldn’t be considered so… mock-worthy as I’ve seen it be, in discussion of works that feature the trope prominently.
Which doesn’t mean that it wouldn’t be nicer if Edward’s narration were focused solely on elevating Bella, instead of also viciously kicking down everyone in the vicinity. Man, we get the message, okay? You don’t need to act like you’ve swallowed a Simon Cowell before coming in for school.
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I swear, it’s almost a relief when Bella interrupts, heralding the triumphant return of the throat boner. Edward’s thoughts about the people around him are actually LESS gratuitously bitchy when he’s contemplating how to best murder them.
At least this time he is able to extract himself from the situation and flee speedily. (Which… in Biology, what exactly was preventing him from asking for a bathroom break? Or just saying he was feeling poorly and getting the fuck out of there?)
He meets the sibs. Only Alice has any clue of what is going on because visions, and she doesn’t explain anything to the others, who just stand there baffled while Edward decides to get his shiny ass in his shiny Volvo and run off to Alaska. Probably because it would ruin the serious mood of the scene if she told them and Jasper started doing happy cartwheels at the prospect of no longer being the only fuckup in the family.
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END CHAPTER. Same time tomorrow, hopefully, and I’ll TRY to be less longwinded. Try. 
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nouveauweird · 5 years ago
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MEDIA INFLUENCES FOR MY WRITING (IN GENERAL)
I was tagged by Yah Yah of @fluoresensitive​ (thank you!). Since I’m not actively working on a single wip I chose some early and major influences for my work overall rather than just one project. These medias span from childhood to very recently! 
As you can see I am very much influenced by the science fiction and crime genres. Some of these works I was introduced to through school, others through chance or recommendation, and they all left lasting impression. The following WIPs take the strongest influence from these medias: The Puppeteer Plague (sci-fi thriller), Of Rust & Redwood Lungs (space opera? drama), Define Vitality (post apoc drama), Hyacinth Stalks (crime thriller).
TAGGING: @bebewrites - @blossomov - @skeletongrrl - @glittcrpeach - @queenie-dragon - @halohidings - & anyone who wants to tbh
This got long so I’ll put all of this under a cut!
The Magic Treehouse series by Mary Pope Osborne. These were a childhood favourite of mine, a mix of science and fantasy and adventure that made learning something empowering for children. 
The Pyx by John Buell. This pulp fiction has been lurking on my family’s bookshelves forever, since it’s one of my grandfather’s novels. I need to reread it to appreciate it properly because it’s been like 10 years. 
The Chrysalids by John Wyndham. I read this in grade 9 and fell in love with its subtle science fiction elements, its post-nuclear apocalyptic setting and the children who find themselves with tele-empathic abilities that make them a target of their hyper religious communities... 
The Host. Probably read this midway through high school after the Twilight craze had died down, but have reread it about 4 times and it makes me cry every time. Say what we will about Smeyer and silly hetero love triangles but she did some really cool worldbuilding with this, and those ideas have followed me ever since. I probably think about this book every time I shower, don’t ask me why.
The Stand (expanded and uncut edition). My dad has a few favourites, and among them are this book and Dune. He convinced me to read it when we were stuck in a cottage for two weeks when I was 14. I got the name Perion from this book, which I gave to one of my most treasured original characters. I also take inspiration from some of the plague and post apocalypse elements but little else.
Level 26: Dark Origins by Anthony E. Zuiker. I watched way too many crime shows as a teenager, and though I think the CSI shows were not so bad, this novel written by the executive producer was real bad. I absolutely shouldn’t have read this at 15 years old it was so fucked up, but it was also the first book to immediately hook me in in the prologue and held me in a tight grip of suspense the whole way through. I’ve never been more fucked up by a book before. The sequel is pretty good too. It is actually media based, and has codes every few chapters that you can plug into the official website where there are short clips shot with real actors that provide additional subplot to the book.
Fringe (2008-2013). This was my favourite show which I was so invested in I recall my sibling coming in to console me during a particularly intense season premiere bc I was sobbing so hard. What they did with some of the science fiction in this blew my mind, and some elements have followed me into my work now. 
Obscura by Joe Hart. I read this last year, and I’ve never really finished a book and wholeheartedly said that it deserved to have a TV adaptation. It’s narrative is suspenseful the sci-fi elements are compelling and the stakes are intriguing. It’s set in space, the main character is a mother, and the twist is fucking delicious.
Bloodchild by Octavia E. Butler. I read this for my sci-fi themed English class last year and was riveted. I haven’t read anything like it before. The whole class reacted strongly to it. I loved the alien species and I love the dynamics between them and the humans, who have become refugees on another planet, and a valuable resource too. Fucked up but in a very compelling way.
The Southern Reach Trilogy by Jeff Vandermeer. I started the first book at 9 pm before trying to go to bed, and got through the first 100 pages, I had to get up and go talk to by sibling Andy because I was so thoroughly skeeved out by the world Vandermeer had created. I put a lot of trust in this story, because the perspectives shift in the following books and I really wanted more from the Biologist, but ultimately it remains one of my favourite series and a huge influence for my science fiction work. 
Alien (1979) & Aliens (1986). The first “scary” movie I was introduced to as a kid. The monster/alien concept stuck with me and I rewatch the first two films (we ignore every subsequent film). Puppeteer Plague pays homage to the Xenomorphs, and in another WIP (Mare Levest 40) I named many of the crew after Alien Franchise characters.
iRobot (2004). Another action/sci-fi I was introduced to as a kid. It still startles me even though I know the story and have watched it many time. The robots were fucking cool. Spooner’s prosthetics are a major influence in Of Rust & Redwood Lungs (which is a Mars Settlement political drama).
The Expanse (show and books). I only recently got into this series, but it’s become a big inspiration for me for my own space opera wip. I have taken influence from The Martian, The Space Between Us, Interstellar and many other space-based medias for this piece, but The Expanse was the one to really dig in deep with the worldbuilding and I have a lot of respect for it especially because of its diversity of characters, but also representations of various sexualities. 
Runners Up: Panic at Rock Island for its plague themes, The Mentalist and Lie to Me for their unique approaches to crime, Terra Nova for its unique worldbuilding and for also making me fuckin sob during the finale (also shout out to the livejournal fanfic community I was in for that fandom, lmao, I gave Lt. Reilly the first name Laura and someone put it on the wiki), and Bioshock, The Last of Us, and Horizon Zero Dawn for worldbuilding elements. 
I legit didn’t realise I had so many sci-fi influences, damn. You’re a trooper if you read this far.
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1-50 :D (for xxx: Blurred Lines; 42: Aokise Songfics (Need You Now); 46: Try- and Keep Trying; 47, made up title: In the man behold a child) ❤️
1) How old were you when you first starting writing fanfiction?
Oof.  12 ish? FFNet But we don’t speak about it; the site or the writing :P
2) What fandoms do you write for and do you have a particular favourite if you write for more than one?
Right now, I’m more invested in aokise / knb fandom and well, once invested, it’s hard to pull my focus :P Other fandoms I’m interested in writing in as of the moment are Owari No Seraph (Gureshin :P) and Seven Deadly Sins (man, that’s lovely hell)
3) Do you prefer writing OC’s or reader inserts? Explain your answer.
Probably OCs? I haven’t written OC’s in a while but heck, reader inserts sounds kinda of awkward to write :P
4) What is your favourite genre to write for?
…is angst with a happy ending a genre?(Otherwise maybe coming of age?)
5) If you had to choose a favourite out of all of your multi chaptered stories, which would it be and why?
Blurred Lines is the only one that has an actual plot :P and is multi chaptered :P. It’s also got a couple of my favorite tropes such as mutual pining & simultaneous obliviousness. To be honest, I normally don’t edit my works before I put them out (sometimes I’ll get a loving friend to look at it tho :PPPPPP) because I can’t bear reading what I’ve written without cringing, but yeah, I thought Blurred Lines was pretty good :D in terms of writing skill because I’ve been able to read it again aha and I thank all the wonderful people who showered me the work with compliments.
6) If you had to delete one of your stories and never speak of it again, which would it be and why?
LMAO WHAT MAKES YOU THINK I HAVEN’T ALREADY? If I delete stories, it’s always for the reason I’m disappointed with it in hindsight, or xD embarrassed I produced such poo.
7) When is your preferred time to write?
Night time becuz I like to procrastinate, it’s quiet and the dark is cozy.
8) Where do you take your inspiration from?
Other writers/stories, canon material, music, random insights at odd times, prompts sparked by single words or little phrases, prompts from sites or book quotes or from friends and epiphanies, and then mostly I don’t :P 
9) In your Blurred Lines fic, what’s your favourite scene that you wrote?
Chapter 5, the (two I guess?) scene where Aomine’s really upset and Kise makes it his job to take his mind off of it; it’s a memorable moment for both of them because Kise’s determination and hard work really gets to show (SEIRIN GAH; jskghjkghg sg lgsg gsjlsd) in front of two people that mean a lot: himself and Aomine, and for Aomine, it’s an example of how he can be weak and injured too, and is so much more than some give him credit for.
10) In your fic, why did you decide to end it like that? Did you have an alternative ending in mind? Nah, I really liked how it ended actually :) Happy after endings are my favorite :)
11) Have you ever amended a story due to criticisms you’ve received after posting it?
I’ve only gotten harsh criticism once or twice and man, you should’ve seen me RAWRR in their faces :P. Sometimes self criticism- ex: dislike of plot- will get me to edit though; and then there are just times where I’ve been lazy but reading the work, I’ll see flaws that definitely have to be changed and will proceed to do so.
12) Who is your favourite character to write for? Why?
Aomine and Kise are the most fun imo. I go wild with both because of the complexity to both their characters and simply, the inspiration you can see from different works of other authors (Ex: MoustachePenguin wrote JustBreathe with Kise who had crushing depression and KaijosCopyCat wrote When It Rains, It Rains Bullets, where Kise is actually more jaded than Aomine is); point being said, there’s enough material to make a lot reasonable.Kise is fun for his masks and layers; Aomine is great for his relativity. And of course, you can always find a way to knit in angst of some sort :P 
13) Who is your least favourite character to write for? Why?
Lots man. Kuroko, Murasakibara-
14) How did you come up with the title for the xxx? - You can ask about multiple stories. 
SO. Remember how it was planned as a one-shot aha :P I’d gotten 3 chapters and ½ written out before I said screw it and posted them before gradually working on the rest :P 
Anyways, I’d only then finished on a final summary, and with one of the parts being “Lines Blurring”, I thought heck let’s roll with that.
Oh also! Had a hard time getting that summary out. gotta thank my special, one and only snowflake.
15) If you write OC’s, how do you decide on their names?
- Likes to indulge myself; I’ll base OCs of some real characters, then twinkle with the name little bit, maybe adding extra letters or finding names with similar meanings?
- It also has to do with how the name tastes. You know how some words just flow better? (Connotation and all that :P) but like, Jewel over Gem, Crystal over Jewel, Ruby over Everything, etc. etc. etc. etc. etc.
16) How did you come up with the idea for xxx?
Was a prompt- (voldetort :P)
but i was given an open ending option and then i took it and ran with it and turned it into angst with happy ending :P
17) Post a line from a WIP that you’re working on.
Kise stuck out his tongue, Aomine smirked, and they let Momoi laugh herself dry.
18) Do you have any abandoned WIP’s? What made you abandon them?
Yah, who doesn’t? :PP (atop of the temporarily abandoned WIPs :PPP) Either loss of enthusiasm, lack of ability (time, but mostly procrastination :P) to write, or post-insights that lemme realize the story is unsatisfying to the point of repulsive :P
19) Are there any stories that you’ve written that you’d really love to do a sequel to?
Maybe Blurred Lines? Struggle them through 2nd year of school, relationship where it’s so much more precious than a regular, “we-just-began-a-”relationship” because of the stakes. (But then I’d have to like write a conflict???and my inability to be creative would hinder that :P)
20) Are there any stories that you wished you’d ended differently?
I haven’t really “ended” any stories of worthy length, but for Blurred Lines :P. Which had an okay ending in my opinion, though maybe hurriedly carried out XDI imagine when I do get to finishing more/other stories, I might? Because I can be impulsive. :P But then again, I take a heck long time to procrastinate; and sometimes that means more time to think about how a story wants to go- in these cases, I don’t, usually :)
21) Tell me about another writer(s) who you admire? What is it about them that you admire?
I am heck into lots of writers.
Roch; VanillaDaydreams22 (tumblr) and just VanillaDaydreams (ao3) is a great friend and writer :P with a lovely, descriptive style of fluid writing.
A famous one would be moustachiopenguin - wrote lots of heart wrenching stories; aha we both know :P So, imagination, use of plot, detail, etc.
And then there’s an up and new coming one; her name starts with a Y and ends with a U.
22) Do you have a story that you look back on and cringe when you reread it?
Literally all of them. :P Anything from over 4-6 months in particular is a bit of, no thanks :P
23) Do you prefer listening to music when you’re writing or do you need silence?
I prefer music, even though sometimes it’s not helpful and actually, is a hindrance :P but music always helps the mood~
24) How do you feel about writing smutty scenes?
Laughs.
25) Have you ever cried whilst writing a story?
Writing? Nah. Reading? Heck, few times.
26) Which part of your Blurred Lines fic was the hardest to write?
All of it cause I didn’t want to write it, I wanted to waste time~
- In the later chapters, carrying out Aomine’s realization for feelings was a little difficult; I had Satsuki sort of catalyze his action, because he’s pretty heckin determined to get Kise in his unconscious mind; Satsuki’s rejection just enforces the feeling he needs to express himself, though hard. But I occasionally would wonder whether Aomine was made too soft, or OOC in general.
27) Do you make a general outline for your stories or do you just go with the flow?
My impulsiveness pushes me towards flow; but for fics requiring detail, general outline help XD no matter how “general”.
28) What is something you wished you’d known before you started posting fanfiction?
Maybe just the fact that the fandoms I’d get to were in existence :D like how some of us talked about, would have been pretty cool to write with the other gazillion of fan- tho, then again, wouldn’t trade them for you guys aha
There’s a lot of things I’ve learned from it and only with the actual writing action have I come to understand the things :P
29) Do you have a story that you feel doesn’t get as much love as you’d like?
Maybe Lazy or No Questions Asked. Lazy, because it was the first time I’d written something short but with a bit of story to it still, y’know? :P And then No Questions Asked because I just love the trope of uncertainty and obliviousness and pining in the middle of aokise.
30) In contrast to 29 is there a story which gets lots of love which you kinda eye roll at?
Honestly? Say It. It was short and okay but like, plot-wise? Not sure if it deserved all the kindness it/I got XD
32) Are any of your characters based on real people?
I haven’t written any OCs in a while! I imagine one I get back to doing so, they could be :P
33) What’s the biggest compliment you’ve gotten?
Not quite sure. I have shit memory sometimes aha, but all the support is good :D
34) What’s the harshest criticism you’ve gotten?
On one of my first fics, which I’d written 24 chapters / 40K (GASP I KNOW :D IT’LL NEVER HAPPEN AGAIN *SMILES THROUGH THE TEARS OF SAD*) I was told the other chapters should be deleted because it was so bad. But like, the reader had posted said criticism through at least half of the work so :P and a couple of chapters later, said, “This is better! But change everything before this.”I actually got a lot of help/reviews becasue I’d asked for them from various authors aha and fandom was popular and lively; the criticism just went straight through my ears I think. XD
35) Do you share your story ideas with anyone else or do you keep them close to your chest?
I like getting a second opinion if I’m insecure about the idea (often, you guessed right
36) Can you give us a spoiler for one of your WIP’s?
No.
jkjk :P I currently have 4 active WIPs. 1. SECRET (for fanzine :PP), 2. As Long As You Love Me (CJ’s prompt) 3. Some Stuff Has Actually Changed 4. Oops I Did It Again
37) What’s the funniest story you’ve written?
What is humor explain??!?!?
38) If you could collab with any other writer on here, who would it be? (Perhaps this question will inspire some collabs!) If you’re shy, don’t tag the blog, just name it.
- You silly.- Roch + CJ- You, super lovely
39) Do you prefer first, second or third person?
3rd for the most of it. I’ve never written with 1st before but I’m considering it for a work that’d require an extensive cast. 2nd also strikes me as fun though, because of this angsty story I’d read where Kise was the narrator but done through 2nd? 2nd also seems very poetic and I’d like to try it out some day for fun :P
40) Do people know you write fanfiction?
Yeet :P
41) What’s you favourite minor character you’ve written?
Nijimura, Jellal, you name it XD all of them??? You know my tendency to avoid protagonists :P
42) Song fic - What made you decide to use the song Need You Now
It’s a quarter after one, I’m all alone and I need you nowSaid I wouldn’t call but I lost all control and I need you nowAnd I don’t know how I can do without, I just need you now
Angsty and perfect for pining ships.
43) Has anyone ever guessed the plot twist of one of your fics before you posted it?
LMAO I’ve never written a fic long enough for a plot twist to occur; B) I DON’T WRITE PLOT?? XD
44) What is the last line you wrote?
A victory, Kise should think, should be thinking. What is there instead is empathy, but sadness anyways. Oh Aominecchi…
45) What spurs you on during the writing process?
Not much. There are periods of time when I don’t want to write at all and I will find excuses of any kind to get off my laptop, or stay on, and just not write aha. What helps is typically at night when I feel semi-tired, I’ll be motivated to write enough to be a pleasant thought before bed.
46) I really loved your Try and Keep Trying fic. If you were ever to do a sequel, what do you think might happen in it?
GoM have a Winter Cup Banquet and there’s alcohol there. AoKise has done a lot more pining and both gotten better at hiding it. They meet awkwardly at the event becuz of their friends talking to each of their friends and then suddenly disappearing while AoKise are startled, staring at each other. Cautious tense talk tried to be made easier by both of them; Kise makes a joke like, “Alcohol would make this a little easier, right Aominecchi?”
And Aomine blurts out stupid becuz high strung, smth like, “Is that what you thought the last time?”
AND THEN, Kise is also high strung right, so his reply is probably something dumb; maybe a few more lines and then:
KISE ACCIDENTALLY CALLS HIM ‘DAIKI’ AND THEY BOTH JUST FREEZE AND BLUSH PROFUSELY BC THEY’RE REMINDED OF THE KISS AND FDSJFS AHO REALIZES KISE DID N O T FORGET - and he’ quick to press Kise for an explanation but Kise is sure this is going to lead to heartbreak, that Aomine’s frantic (heart beating at 12432 beats a second) and desperate (to know becuz becuz if Kise- if Ryouta-) demands of Kise to tell him the truth are from a place of piss/fury. When Aomine realizes Kise is only shying away from his emotional cornering/words more and more, Aomine does the only thing he can think of and kisses Kise again and again and again.
Kise realizes he means it, Aomine is almost heartbroken over how Kise couldn’t understand he meant it; both are overwhelmingly overjoyed becuz c’mon. MUTUAL pining, not just pining :P and then THAT turns into cautious, hopeful, cautious prompts for dating.
47) Here’s a fic title - In the man behold a child
(Uni AU)Aomine pines after Kise’s ass and he constantly sends him is inviting him: “C’mon Kise, kiss me and I’ll shut up forever.” and “C’mon Kise, I’d be a great fuckbuddy. No string attached but sex. I’ll be gone immediately.”, lots of, “C’mon Kise. I’m fun. I’ll give you want you want, what you need.” and more earnest and genuine stuff, “I know I sound like I’m kidding, and maybe parts of me were…but I meant it when I said I love you. And I’ll wait until you finally hear I’m fully serious.”
Eventually, Kise comes to realize he is serious. The fact that Aomine really has matured as a person over time and that he really loves Kise.  Who also realizes maybe a little bit of the fact that he’d never needed a real relationship because Aomine sort of checked off all the boxes; and so, (poetically aha; i thought of this at last moment XD) child Kise is also revealed in man Kise for being oblivious and little bit scared (because that’s what teens/kids are good at Aha?)
Ofc, then Kise finally says yes, though hesitant still; Aomine takes him slowly through love and all the good stuff :P
48) What’s your favourite trope to write?
Angst with a Happy Ending, Mutual Pining/Obliviousness & Uncertainty, Friends to Lovers, Friends to Lovers to Enemies to Friends to Lovers, anything with a slight of it’s hard and if we’re not being told we’re gonna make it through, how can i be reassured now that we will; but you’ve got friends to rely on so it’ll be okay OTHERWISE KNOWN AS Angst with a Happy Ending :P
49) Can you remember the first fic you read? What was it about?
Something from Warrior Cats
50) If you could write only angst, fluff or smut for the rest of your writing life, which would it be and why?
(Both both is good)
YOU CAN’T MAKE ME CHOOSE.
But like, if angst with a happy ending counts as angst??? Than that :PFluff is good but you have to have a reason that makes it even sweeter :P
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hencethebravery · 7 years ago
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Hello, friend. xo
2. Is there a trope you’ve yet to try your hand at, but really want to?
Honestly, I can’t think of any offhand, so this answer falls a bit flat, but if there’s any you think you’d wanna see me try, well… you can always request that. :*
15. If you could choose one of your fics to be filmed, which would you choose?
Def one of my fluffy CC fics, like the “barista + bookshop owner AU,” which would just be an absolutely delightful romantic comedy (starring Colin and Josh, obvi), or “CS 0155 Data Witchcraft,” which would have fucking whack cinematography and sound editing.
28. Share three of your favorite fic writers and why you like them so much.
You mean aside from u? With ur careful understanding of character and establishing mood and humor and intimacy and all that jazz with just ur words alone? Yah, so besides you, ya idiot: @seastarved, who writes like a legit landscape artist from the mid-19th century; @shoedonym, whose both fanfic and original prose is legit to be admired and whom also seems to understand CS in a way that speaks to me deeply; @mahstatins, who can write fanfic like they’re action movie trilogies I’d watch as a kid (maybe not as smutty), but comforting and snippy and so dang solid, idk how she does it with 2 babies; @the-reason-to-sail-home, infusing all of her fanfic with her obvi love of fairy tale and romance and magic and who grows as a writer like a freaking weed. Oh, yah, and @academicpunk, who has to this day written the single greatest Kastle fic on Ao3, and if u haven’t read it yet idk what the fuck ur doing with urself.
37. Talk about your current wips.
SIGH, tbh. I’ve got two Timeless fics in the works currently, one which is really nothing more than a character study (but which is giving me a hard fucking time), and another AU where Lucy doesn’t crash her car in a bog and joins a rock band and meets this dumb soldier-boy home on leave in some gross bar in Texas, and they fight about politics and then fall in love, durr. 
I’ve mentioned this before, but a CC Enchanted AU that’s already got a fucking moodboard but which also requires the actual words to accompany it. Another modern CC AU for the Spring 2k18 Follower Appreciation on my personal blog detailing their relationship from kiddos to adults (because you can absolutely write hundreds of those for the same fucking pairing).
As far as CS is concerned, I’ve got another request fic in the pipeline that’ll probably have to do with Emma being some kind of retired-goddess that Killian still prays to because he doesn’t know any better, and, of course, “The Pirate and the Oyster Shell,” which I want to finish with all of my diddly dang heart, but which might remain in limbo forever.
And we won’t even touch the original WIPs, ok? Alright.
Ask me about fic writing!
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elianabwrites · 7 years ago
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Get to Know Me
Hey there friends! Long time no talk, I’ve been uber caught up in with stuff. Anywho, I’m bummed about not getting any of the asks that I’ve been reblogging so I’m going to answer some of the questions I’ve seen floating around. So, here yah go some unsolicited info about yours truly.
1.Is there a story you’re holding off on writing for some reason?
YES! It’s not even on my WIPs page but it’s loosely called “To the Seventh Power” (very loosely named) and I am decidedly not writing it because I am scared that I won’t be able to accurately portray DID in my main character.
2.Favorite genre to write?
Fave genre is fantasy and I love romance as well but I am partial to all of them to be honest.
3.Your weaknesses as an author?
It feels like everything writerly related is a weakness at this point if I’m being honest but I think that dialogue is pretty horrible.
4.Strengths as an author?
I’ve heard that I’m good at description.
5.What order do you write in?
I usually write out scenes as they come to me because they come so vividly and if I don’t get them down they’ll disappear into the universe.
6.Favorite character that you’ve created?
I honestly have no frickin idea. Kaia and Elowen from my WIP Blood Will Run are my current loves. Elijah is also a favorite, he’s from By Any Other Name. Matthias from Prophecy . . . Not is my fave anti-hero too. I love like aaaalllllll my characters from The Anomaly Series. Halle, Tauri, Reigan, Prynne, Ptolemy, and Matteo are absolute loves of my life. The newbies on the block Ruth, Farrah, Chester, and Lazarus from my shiny brand new WIP Radford Lane.
7. Character you were most surprised to end up writing?
This is such a cool question honestly. I think that Kaia has really surprised me the most. Actually, all of my characters from Blood Will Run have surprised me. This story sat in my mind for such a long time and everything recently clicked into place so it’s all brand new, shiny, and wonderful but these characters really just blossomed and opened up to me and I love all of them.
8.When asked, are you embarrassed or enthusiastic to tell people that you write?
I think it depends on who I am talking to but I am just naturally embarrassed by everything so of course this embarrasses me too. Especially, because I think that I’m a horrible writer.
9.Why did you start writing?
I don’t remember I was so young when I started writing stories. My first completed work that I was proud of was titled Ella the Elephant.
10.Are there any characters who haunt you?
My darlings in The Anomaly Series have been haunting me for about 8 years now so there’s that. 
Now, talking about characters that are not my own. On my 13th birthday the TV show Once Upon a Time premiered. I loved that show so much. So much. The characters Regina Mills and Emma Swan have inspired and moved me so much during such an influential time in my life. Their story, the untold one, is what sparked my creation and writing back to life, I love those two idiots almost as much as they love each other and their untold story haunts me too.
So, that was fun. These questions were taken from the post “send an ask: get to know your author” you should check it out, I’m reblogging it as well as posting this.
Feel free to message me or send an ask!
much love,
eliana b
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loveinpanem-blog · 7 years ago
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Sneak Peek! - Playthings by buttercupbadass
From a New Author, Buttercupbadass:
Thank you LIP for having this new authors month.  It’s given me the opportunity to write again.   It had been years since I’ve written anything other than business emails. To get my creative juices flowing again has been a real treat.   The further I get, the easier the words are coming.  I never thought I’d share it with anyone though.  It’s been a big leap for me and my mentor has been nothing but supportive.  Thanks to @katnissdoesnotfollowback for your time and encouragement. So here goes, my fist ever published fan fic, a sneak peek of my WIP, “Playthings”.  It’s an angsty Hayffie piece set during an Everlark wedding.  Here’s hoping you enjoy it.   -Buttercupbadass ************************
“Haymitch!”    Effie’s voice breaks his through his revelry.   “Haymitch, I owe you an explanation.”  She sits on the arm of his chair, not looking at him but staring straight ahead into the fire like he is.  “ I can’t stay at your place because I’ve been seeing someone.  I wanted to bring him to the wedding, introduce him to the kids.”
“I knew that – that you had a boyfriend not that you wanted to introduce him to the kids – It’s not just some guy, is it Effie?   You’re serious about him, yah?”
“Yes, I suppose so.   He’s …”    
“He’s what you always saw yourself with.” He finishes her thought nodding in agreement.  “It was bound to happen eventually to one of us.”  Haymitch had no idea it was serious and the news is a kick in the gut.
“We’re OK though right?  We’ve been getting along while planning the wedding. We’ll get through this and still be friends.”
“About as much friends as we ever were, sure.” 
“Tell the kids I went home. “  He gets up moving to the front door.  He stops and turns back to her  “Just do me a favor, yah.   I don’t want to meet him.  Keep him away from me.”
She wants to argue he was being childish but maybe it’s for the best.  If he’s drinking, there might be a scene.  The kids deserve a perfect day.  Before she can agree she interrupted by the kids shuffling out of the kitchen, heading to the stairs.   They are pressed together back to front with Katniss’ head back on his shoulder as he devours her neck.   One of his hands is splayed across her exposed stomach, pushing her hips back into him.   His other hand is tucked down the front of her jeans.    He moans into her ear as Katniss giggles.    They freeze as they notice Effie standing near the front door.   He tries to pull his hand out of Katniss’ pants but it gets caught so she simply covers it with her own and holds it in place.
“Effie!  We thought you went to bed.”  Peeta stammers as his face slightly reddens.
“Not yet Dears.   Don’t mind me.  I was just talking to Haymitch.
“We thought you left an hour ago.”  Now it’s Katniss’ turn to redden.
“Leaving now.”
“Nite then.”   They say as they try to run up the stairs, still joined at Katniss’ jeans.
“How do you sleep with that in the same house?”  Haymitch looks at her and motions to the stairs.
“Believe it or not it’s not as bad in the house as it was across your yard.  I get the feeling though that tonight I may need earplugs.”    Haymitch laughs and his eyes catch hers.   It’s the first time they’ve locked eyes since the last time he took her to the train.
He remembers standing face-to-face staring each other down.  Tears were welling up in both of their eyes but so was a fierce determination not to back down.   It was true they wanted different futures but at that moment they both wanted the same thing, the other to give in.    They both left the platform broken that day.
“Safe trip back”  He says echoing his last words to her that day and heads out the door.   She recognizes the words and her breath stops.   She remembers that she knew with those words, it was over.    He had always asked her to call when she got home. His dismissive “Safe trip” said so much more.  It said she wasn’t his to worry over any more.   He’d let her go.
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starlightinvasion · 7 years ago
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WIP meme
@alliope tagged me
Ok im gonna use this to blab about my D&D AU because i dont really have much else?
Basically the SE cast are all in high school and going through all sorts of different problems in their lives but the one thing they look forward to are their weekly d&d sessions where they meet in someones basement or something? And they all create characters and go on this whole fictional adventure with each other which helps them figure out themselves as well? All while relationships and stuff are growing?
-I kind of think Kid would make a good DM but I also really want him to play, idk. I was also thinking- trans boy kid
(Like he would probably be the only one capable of DMing well with 0 experience, unless i made it like... someone thats not one of the main meisters and weapons.)
-and i should probably pick a character thats going to be the main focus but i dont know who yet
-as far as shipping goes i know i want deathstar and to focus on that a lot more than i did in my previous fic but i dont know if im going to make it soma or croma. Djjsjs
-im also confused about a lot of things in d&d so if i do write it, its going to take me a while to figure out how to like... be the DM and several other players at the same time.
-i might ask for input regarding everyones classes, races, alignments, etc, it has to be like... not what I think they would be, but what THEY think they would be. If that makes sense. What sort of class they would choose for themselves.
-I feel like tsubaki would make a good cleric and black star would probably be a rogue because *assassin*, but ill have to figure the rest out
-yah especially if someone has more experience with dming/ playing then i do feel free to talk to me about it cause i only have the one session with my friends in which i am confused quite a lot of the time fjfjjdjs
-???????
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painterofhorizons · 4 years ago
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Floating Year WIP
What better way to end a year then with writing? And what better thing to work on than the one I had most fun with this year? So with 6 minutes left until new year here, have a snippet of the continuation of the sparkling dildo story, aye? :D Alex’ first time going to a sex shop. Because.
Have a good one, folks, and see you on the other side.
They had just entered the store when Alex leaned over to Dave and muttered quietly “This… isn’t exactly how I imagined it.”
Dave laughed. “Is that so?” With a surpressed smile #frozen to the corners of his lips he added “By the way, you don’t have to whisper, right?”
Alex cleared her throat, shooting him a somewhat annoyed, somewhat amused and somewhat embarrassed look. “Right. Of course not. I know, right? And I have no idea what you are even talking about.”
They had hardly been here for ten seconds and Alex wasn’t sure this could become more embarrassing at any point. She didn’t even know why it gave her so many unwelcome emotions at all, like - she was the least prude person she knew? And if she would be here with Tonks or Garcia, it would probably just be really fun and silly and -
No. Just imagining being here with Garcia gave her a stroke. But with Tonks? Fun. Totally fun. No doubt about that. With Dave though? Maybe that put a little too much unexpected pressure on her. Not only being here, but being here for the first time under the careful watch of her husband, who knew her better than she knew herself.
Dave could read her just like he always could read her. “Relaxe” he whispered. “And if you don’t want-”
“Shut up and let’s - yah. Whatever we are doing.”
Alex took a breath and told herself not to act out shy in here. There was literally not a single reason for that, right? So she could as well try to enjoy it. Considering she was generally someone who liked shopping as a leasure activity… Which she definitely did not. Part of her still did not see why they were here at all, but if it made Dave happy, she would give it a shot nevertheless.
At second sight, the shop still looked very different to what the part of her brain had imagined that had thought about it. This place was super straight and clean with white being the dominating colour of everything but the actual goods of demand. And still it made a rather welcoming and warm impression on her, maybe because of the cleanliness the place withheld. White walls, white straight furniture, nothing playful or pink or red - but it did not give the location a sterile feeling. It looked… classy. Even the toys that Alex could see were well chosen in their appearence, not too many different colours, not to speak of any really screaming colours. In the end, this place was the complete opposite of the intensily eye shocking thing Garcia had given her with best intentions.
With a smirk, Dave sideeyed her. “While we’re at it. Where did you think I would take you when we made this plan?”
Alex frowned, not getting how he could even ask that. “I don’t know, like - I mean I never thought any of this would happen between us, okay? Now that you ask and I think about it, yes, this is probably exactly where I thought you would take me, like, if I had ever thought about it before which I did not have so stop asking such dumbass questions.”
Another chuckle escaped Dave.
Alex’ sarcastic undertone stayed with them for a little while, while she tried to getting used to the situation. “Great. Awesome. So, now that we’re here, what do we do? Is there a directive for shopping in a place like this?”
“I strongly doubt that.”
“Great. Then go and lead the way or something.” Alex gestured wildly at no specific direction. “And just for the record, this is the craziest shit we have ever done, okay?”
Dave bit back a response. Considering all the things they had done, said and seen since they knew each other, he would indeed very much argue with Alex on this one. But not right now, and it was very amusing to see this quite unexpected side of Alex.
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painterofhorizons · 4 years ago
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Floating Day WIP
not really the official version, just the super rough ideas we just talked about, dear @sheeplessthings​.
Not really meant for the general audience, because I can give you better stuff, guys. xD Just ignore this. Simply the most convenient way to throw loads of text at my dear @sheeplessthings​ tonight.
Okay so the Dave-as-the-audience-thing, which indeed was written last night after we talked about that article. It needs to be reworked, of course, but I do think Dave serves well as a mirror for the audience here, because he indeed doesn’t know shit.
Alex? Hum? I have never considered how different we are. Dave’s words came out of the blue and #versetzen Alex a deeply felt shock for a moment. Her face mirrored that overwhelming fear that suddenly #überfallen her. For a moment she was so buffled, torn between several different reaction (all of them were to some extent shocked or anxious) that she didnt manage to say anything in return. Dave could read her nonverbal response, though, and apologetically #hob seine Hände. No! No I didn’t mean to - what the heck are you thinking rn? I dont know, that the next sentence is that youre breaking up with me? Alex responded in a slightly higher tone than usual. It’s usually my job to worry about that we are very different, okay? When you start doing that, that makes me anxious as fuck. Dont do that. No! Oh my god, no, I didnt mean to - I - that is the last thing that was on my mind. Dont scare me like that. I scare you?? How about you just scared the shit out of me? Alex took a deep breath, trying to calm her little heart down. Okay so why are you saying that then? If not to break up with us? Holy shit alex, dont scare jump me like that. I would never consider breaking up. No matter how different we are. So how come? On the flight back last week I was recommended a documentary about the end of leningrad and life in post soviet russia. Felsbrocken fielen von alex herzen ab. So you just realized that I’m not the pretty new yorker girl I never pretended to be? Dave laughed. No. No that isnt it. I just… I never thought much about how different life must have been for you. Alex shrugged. Yah. You mean with all the different economic, social and political stuff of a freshly broken down system? Like, communism and stuff? I… yeah. Well. Thats on you then, I guess. Youve never talked with me about it. Youve never asked. Was it that simple? Was it only that because he never asked - and he did never ask because she never seemed alien. When they met in london, alex had been living in london for quite some years, so maybe that was why she had never seemed… communist really wasnt the word he was looking for after watching that two hour documentary. I mean, you can just ask, right? Alex shrugged again. She was a bit #überfahren by daves sudden realization, and wasnt sure what to do with it immediately. Of course he could just ask. Alex had always been aware of just HOW different they were, and especially in their upbringing. But in the end she herself had never done research about how new york in daves time had been. She just always had been aware it was most likely very different than what she had lived in in her times. Something specific on your mind? Or like - do you want me to write you an essay? Dave was probably as perplex as alex in this very moment. It was a very strange situation between them, so for the time being, they just pretended none of this had happened and went on doing their everyday stuff.
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And the other spicey thing. ;-) Set in the time when Alex is on rehab after the Anderson drama.
Know what I really miss? What? You. Us. Sex, damnit. Dave laughed. Same here. I’m pretty sure though we will survive it. Easy for you to say, old man, Alex teased him, making Dave chuckle. I’m pretty sure you’ll get the job done without me in the meantime. Nah. I tried, but… Guess I’m mind blocked a bit here. Well… You don’t have to abstein from me completely. Have you ever had phone Sex? It's not like I've been in this kind of situation before, Dave. Alex said with a Hauch of sarcasm. When she heard a quiet chuckle at the other end, the corners of her mouth zuckten Verräterisch. No I have not, she answered his question more firmly and with more patience. Would you wanna try it? Would she? Alex was up for all kinds of stuff when it was two warm bodies involved and in the same location. Alone at the other end of the country with a phone lying next to her? Yah, she said. Why not. I'll probably suck at it, but yah. We can try that. Like rn or what? No, v she heard Dave say in a deeper voice. Like a date. What do you do tomorrow night? Probably the same as every night. The sarcastic response crossed her lips faster than she could stop herself. But Dave knew her and knew what he got himself into and contrary to Alex he was a patient man. Good. I assume you got time then. I assume the same, she mimicked his Wortwahl, but had to smirk. This would probably completely change the usual roles they had. Alex didn't think she would or even could be the driving force in it without making it super awkward and abtörnend. Well, if anything, at least it would be interesting. + What do I do? Nothing as you are sitting on your bed holding your phone, Alex said dryly. Okay what would I do if we had real Sex now? He korrigierte himself, knowing that making this even remotely work would cost a lot of patience. But he was more than willing to be patient. Isn't it more of what would I do? Or is this role change how it works? Dave couldn't help but giggle. There's no rulebook for phone Sex, Alex. We can do what we want. And I figured you could be more inclined# if you're thinking about it as a two people involved rather than trying to get yourself going all alone. Uhum, Alex replied as dryly. Your into that, be honest. The smile on Dave's face stayed. That kind of sarcastically teasing suited her - and she wasn't wrong about it either. Have you made yourself comfortable? A few seconds of silence followed. Do you want the sexy answer or the honest one? Where are you? Kitchen. Made myself a tea when you called. But if you give me a minute I'll be ready over in the bedroom.
Maybe that was the starting point they had needed. Not directly jumping into action but instead having a casual conversation about the day and the weather and work. dave hadnt done this often either, but definitely had more experience in it than alex. and he was going to make sure she enjoyed this, or they wouldnt do it. end of story. Twenty minutes later, after finishing the tea and some cookies and all everyday topics talked through, Alex felt comfortable enough to try things out.
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