#and were just. being a hater about arm pit hair and hair care
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i canât believe that thereâs genuinely people who judge people solely off of looks
#like i didnât think it actually affected how ppl saw things but then i got this friend thatâs in that way#and iâve been hearing another personâs experience and they directly like#said#that if someone doesnât look aesthetically good they donât like them#and were just. being a hater about arm pit hair and hair care#and idk i feel like that i see lack of bodily care as such a mental health thing#and maybe itâs just bc iâve been shamed my entire life for things despite ppl thinking iâm conventionally attractive#but itâs like#huh#and i understand just hating someone for hatings fun#but like#dot dot dot#idk i mean like of course ppl do this but i guess i just thought that majority of the people werenât going to start getting cruel about#some of these things#like idk unwashed hair comments and such. i mean like u should take care of urself but itâs crazy seeing lack of self care and going#thatâs why i hate them#mod caden#but i swear the whole donât judge a book by itâs cover has been reallly embedded in us#but it feels super like. playing into a lot of social prejudice ?#like ablism and racisms and misogyny and general more toxic western american beauty standards#^ and fatphobia#like why must body hair be a problem just bc itâs not to ur likingâŚ
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A Mile in My Shoes | KSJ Oneshot
Pairing: Platonic!Seokjin x Reader
Summary: You hate Kim Seokjin, that arrogant bastard, and he hates you just as much...right?
Genre: Body swap!au, enemies to friends, Fluff, angst, Solo artist!Seokjin, Solo Artist!Reader
Warnings: N/AÂ
Rating:Â PG, content wise, teen for language
Word Count: 9k words
Network: @castlebangtanâ
A/N: Yay! 100 followers celebration finale!!! Thank you everyone! Iâve got some other stuff cooking as well so hopefully Iâll be more active!Â
Other: Masterlist
Kim Seokjin. You hate Kim Seokjin. Why? Well, it was sort of his fault.Â
      The flashing lights of the award ceremony, the buzz of the crowd, the packed audience, did nothing to subtract your attention from the person on stage. With a bedazzled white t-shirt and violet purple hair, Kim Seokjin sang on stage. His charisma was no doubt exquisite and his singing technique was divine...but he was a total ass.Â
      It suited him, being the number one pop star in the past year; and he was still growing. He was a prideful creature and had been sweeping the award shows, your awards being stolen from right out under you. You were sure that he was out for you ever since the misunderstanding a few years ago.Â
     You werenât actually sure why he still hated you. You had worked your ass off to try and fix what was wrong, but he had ignored you. So, technically, the feud that continued was childish and completely his fault.
      Alright, maybe you fed into it a little, but you were still annoyed and quite honestly tired of it. Jin was a handsome man. His personality was anything but.Â
      You rolled your eyes as Jin did a hip thrust, to the screams of his fans. The cameras were still focusing on you throughout the experience, your feud well known. He came right up to the edge of the stage and looked you in the eyes as he spoke.
âDid you see my bag? Did you see my bag? My bagâs filled with trophies. How you think bout that? How you think bout that? Haters are already giving up. My success is already so golden-â
      You tuned him out, a small fire of rage boiling in the pit of your stomach. Why was he still holding onto this stupid feud? If anything was clear, Kim Seokjin hated you, and you hated Kim Seokjin.Â
       The after party was a nightmare. You sat at the bar, drink sloshing around lazily in the glass. Heavy bass drummed against your frame. Kim Seokjin was the center of attention, his broad shoulders and puffy lips high above the crowd.Â
âHow are you feeling, Y/N?â A reporter shoved a microphone into your face.Â
       You groaned, not responding. You had a terrible conscience. If someone asked you a question, you felt obligated to answer truthfully, maybe thatâs what got you into this mess. It was just easier if you kept quiet. The last thing you wanted was to add onto the feud even more.Â
       Seokjin surveyed you out of the corner of his eyes. You always stole the spotlight, even when he had swept the awards. You were still the one getting interviewed the most, getting the most press. They all wanted to know your reaction. He hated you for that. At the same time, he admired your self restraint.Â
âJin, what do you think about winning all the awards you were nominated for?â A reporter appeared. The broad shouldered man waved to the security.Â
âWho let paparazzi in?â He muttered under his breath as the reporters were escorted out.Â
        A part of Jin really missed being a newer artist, like you. He couldnât just write and produce his own songs anymore, he had a team for that. Everything needed to be approved by the higher ups and he always had to be happy. Meanwhile, you had made a name for yourself by saying what you wanted and making the music you wanted. Sure, you didnât win awards, but at least you had that freedom. And he was jealous of that.Â
        He brushed away the revelation and weaved his way through the crowd. The party had died down a little and his little posse had trickled out. His little gang of friends had left or were doing something else.Â
        Taehyung was with Jungkook ordering and consuming copious amounts of food. Namjoon and Yoongi, well known producers, were huddled over a notebook and whispering lyrics to each other. Hoseok and Jimin had each gone home early.
       Hoseok claimed he needed to practice, being the main dancer for Taehyung, and Jimin claimed he needed to check on his pets. You were sitting alone at the bar, ready to fall asleep, but your night wouldnât be complete if you didnât have a run in with Jin.Â
âDrowning your sorrows?â Jin plopped into a seat, leaning against the bar with a smug smile.Â
âWho says Iâm drowning? Iâm doing just fine.â You threw back the last sips of the drink.Â
       He eyed the empty glasses littering the counter. The bartender was slowly going through and cleaning them up. Jin was a little worried, but he...he didnât like you, as a person. You were self centered and hypocritical, but perhaps he was the same.Â
âHow many of those have you had?â
âUnimportant.â You gestured for the bartender to pour another and the man looked warily at you.Â
âI think you should stick to water, miss.â The bartender smiled gently.Â
âNah.â You shouted, not realizing how loud your voice was. âJust do your job and pour another.âÂ
      Jin sighed and put a hand over your glass, gently peeling your fingers back. âNo, heâs right.â He said sternly and handed the glass back to the bartender, who looked thankful.Â
âYouâre an asshole, Jin. Just let me be sad without gloating for once.â You deflated, slouching in your seat. He scoffed and looked away.Â
âYouâre just being a sore loser. I won every category I was nominated for. How many categories did you even get nominated for, let alone win?â He bit back, drumming his fingers on the table.Â
âFuck you.â You pointed at him, finger pressed hard against his chest.
     Then you stood from your seat, shouldering your bag, and stormed out. Your phone pinged with unseen messages, all from your manager.Â
      Jin rolled his eyes, but he did regret his words slightly. It had been so long, he wasnât even sure why he was mad at you anymore. Why were you in a feud with him anyway? The man checked his phone. Three schedule reminders popped up and he grimaced. It was already 1 A.M. and he needed to be awake in five hours. He stood and bowed, saying his goodbyes to his friends, and leaving the bar.Â
       He waited outside for his driver to pull around the block. It was quiet, the muffled pounding of the bass inside the bar leaked out. He wished he had your guts once in a while, to just say what he wanted. He wished he could be like you, just for a moment.
       A light streaked across the sky, a comet passing by. His eyes widened in awe as the meteor shower began. It was...beautiful.Â
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       Meanwhile, you were lazing drunkenly over the window sill in your living room. The house was dark, the curtains open to allow for moonlight to trickle through. Some may be scared of the dark, but you always liked it. The peace of being alone, surrounded by nothing to distract you except your mind was appealing to you. Why? Who knew. You ran your finger along the dusty window sill.Â
You glanced at your phone. Your agent had messaged several times.Â
Why didnât you win anything, huh?
Next time, you better win an award orâŚ
Theyâre going to pull you from the label.Â
They thought you were going to be big, Y/N. Itâs such a shame.
So many people were rooting for you. Maybe in another life.
      You groaned and powered off your phone. How annoying. Your career was going down the drain, you had followers, but your music wasnât getting the right platforms. It seemed that no matter how much you tried to get recognized, no one else cared. Your only worth was your feud with Seokjin.Â
âGoddamnit, Jin. Would you lend me just a bit of fame? Just a little? Let me breathe, give me a break.â You hissed under your breath.
      You took a few steps back and collapsed onto your mattress. The meteor shower began, the brilliant streaks of white lit up the sky. It felt like the world was laughing at you, blessing you with such a beautiful sky on the worst night of your life.Â
       This was not his house. Jin sat up straight. He felt different for sure, but then again, he did drink a bit last night. The man stood, wobbling slightly. How much did I drink? He thought, stumbling to the bathroom. Did he catch a ride with someone? He didnât remember much. What did he do?Â
âHello?â He called out hoarsely, only to yelp in surprise.Â
       His voice was high. High and female, definitely not his voice. It was also...familiar. Jin threw open the door to the bathroom hurriedly. He rushed to the mirror, only to shriek in surprise.Â
       Thatâs not my faceâŚ.OH MY GOD THATâS NOT MY FACE. He internally screamed, stumbling back. You were staring back at him. He rubbed his arms and looked down at his body. He felt his cheeks heating up. Yup, this was...this was a womanâs body. But how?
        He slapped his hands over his cheeks. His face, his beautiful face! Okay, so that was a little vain. Jin studied himself. No, You were certainly...not hard to look at, that was for sure. He patted down his body. Then there was a ring from the bedside table and he vaulted over to pick it up. Your phone was ringing, his number flashing boldly.Â
âY/N?â He whispered.Â
âOh my fucking god, seokjin, what did you do this time?â His voice hissed over the line.Â
âThis has to be a nightmare. Oh god, please wake up.â He cried slapping his face.Â
âHey! Donât ruin the merchandise!â You shouted.Â
         Then another realization hit him. You could ruin his career. He needed to accept that this was happening and get his priorities straight. You were in his body. You had all the power...and you hated him.Â
âNice clothes, Jin.â Your sarcastic drawl crackled through the speaker. Even he could hear it, despite it being his own voice.Â
âTheyâre all custom fit.â He bragged, marching over to your closet. âWhat do you have in here? Trash? Oh, this could easily pass as a paper bag. Was beige in style when you picked it out?â He said snarkily, throwing some clothing behind him and onto the bed. He ignored your protests.Â
âJin! Get! Out! Of! My! Closet! Also you better not have touched my body you perv!â You shouted so loud that your voice broke off.Â
âWhat? Iâm just doing some reorganizing. Besides, you think I want to touch your body? You flatter yourself.â He said, throwing another beige item out of the closet. He pretended he didnât hear you scolding him from over the phone.Â
 âItâs like you only shop during fall and then go into hibernation.â He commented. âWhich is likely, considering how many albums youâve released.â He muttered, but oh boy had you heard him.Â
âAt this point, I donât care, Jin.â You grumbled over the line. âIâm about to be dropped anyway.âÂ
       The beige sweater in his hands tumbled to the ground. Sure, he knew you had been struggling, but was it really that bad? He was at a loss for words. The man took a deep breath in.Â
âWhy?â He asked, concern evident. He slowly put down a pair of blue jeans.Â
âIâm not as successful as they thought I would be.â You explained, defeat in your voice. âIf I donât win an award at the next show, Iâll be dropped. Also, why is Taehyung crashed on the couch?â
       His eyes widened. A lot of the group crashed at his mansion after a long night out. It was easier than driving them all to six different locations.Â
âShit.â He muttered. âOkay, just, just act normal, alright? Iâll be there soon and maybe we can explain this to them.â He whispered, hanging up and searching through your closet for a decent outfit.Â
      This was not how you wanted your morning to go. You stood, dressed casually and waiting by the front door anxiously. Your arms were crossed and you tapped your foot. Taehyung stumbled around behind you.Â
âSo youâre telling me that youâre Y/N and not Jin?â He asked.Â
âYes.â You said shortly, having already explained it a million times. âYouâll see when he gets here.â
Taehyung took a seat at the counter, his blonde hair falling in waves around his face. He drummed his fingers on the marble surface. His dark eyes glanced you over.Â
âHow much did you drink last night, Jin? Are you feeling alright?â
âFor the thousandth time, Iâm Y/N, not Jin!â You huffed angrily.Â
âOkay, okay, youâre Y/N then.â He held his hands up. âBut just let me know when your little act is over, okay?â He winked.Â
        You resisted the urge to scream in rage at his lack of understanding. With the twinkle in his eye and the mischievous look on his lips, you couldnât tell if he was messing with you or genuinely not believing your story. Your lips twisted into a deep frown and you stalked over to him, ready to talk some sense into him when the door flung open. You turned around, face shifting.Â
âAish, a frown really doesnât look pretty on my face.â A voice came from the doorway. Your voice. You were used to looking up at Jin, now you looked down. Was that really how you looked? You felt self conscious suddenly.Â
âAre you trying to give me wrinkles before 30 or something?â Jin sighed, leaning against the door. âBesides, why didnât you lock the door?â
âThatâs my fault.â taehyung piped up, suspiciously looking between you.Â
âYah! Taehyung you really need to be more careful about that! What if someone tries to break in while Iâm asleep! And technically, youâre breaking in.â Jin huffed.Â
Taehyungâs eyes widened. âNo way, thatâs totally something Jin would say. Are you shitting me?âÂ
âIâve been trying to explain this to you for the past 30 minutes, Taehyung.â You paced angrily.Â
âItâs not breaking in if I have a key.â Taehyung smiled lazily, flashing the golden piece of metal. âBut are you being serious? That youâve...switched?âÂ
âWhy else would I be talking to him.â You gestured to Jin with your head, annoyance staining your features.Â
âThis is why I donât scowl.â Jin chimed in, walking over to you and smoothing out your face. âIt looks awful.â His fingers brushed against your cheek.Â
âAwful? Iâm offended. This is my body youâre talking about.â
âTechnically itâs mine. So donât go commit arson or something while youâre in there.â Jin crossed his arms.Â
âTrust me, I have bigger things to worry about and do.â You shot back.Â
âWill you guys just shut up?â Taehyung slapped the counter, causing your attention to shift once more. âHow the fuck are you guys going to change back? Jin, you have a million interviews this week about the awards show and Y/N has, I donât know, songwriting to get to?âÂ
âAh, fuck you to, Tae.â You frowned.Â
âAm I wrong?â
âNo.â You mumbled in response.Â
âAnyway, I think I can fake it until we can figure this out.â You said, lifting your chin. âIt wonât be too hard to act like a narcissistic ass who pretends not to be.âÂ
âHey!â Jin shouted his protests. A ping from a cellphone caused you to jump. Jin recognized it and began to search his pockets before realizing he was you.Â
       You seemed to get the memo and you pulled out the phone in your pocket. It buzzed with a calendar reminder.Â
âAn interview in an hour?â You said quietly. Then you dropped the phone onto the counter. âOh my god, thereâs an interview in an hour.âÂ
âItâs really weird to see such expressions on Jinâs face.â Taehyung mused.Â
âShit shit shit.â You, wait no, Jin said. âThatâs the one to discuss the music in my album and talk about the awards show. Since it doesnât seem like weâre going to solve this in an hour, donât fuck it up.â
âExcuse me, itâs my album now and I will say what I like.â You pursed your lips.Â
âI donât expect you to understand the lyrics and songs in my album.â
âThe lyrics written by your team of lyricists? Yeah, I wonât think twice about the meaning of âgirl you look so fireâ.â You air quoted.Â
âYou think youâre so much better because you write your own lyrics, huh? Well, itâs ridiculous. Stop trying to be an outsider when youâre very much in the public eye.â Jin stated, but his words held a ring of truth.Â
        You were, indeed, very popular, why did you feel the need to be âspecialâ and pretend to be all unique and weird? It drove him mad and he counted it as another reason he disliked you. You didnât respond to his statement, instead remaining silent.Â
        Yes, you were fuming inside, but it was only because you felt like kicking yourself. There were so many times you had been offered premium spots, but you had turned it down, thinking it was too mainstream or times when you could have made a chart topping song and instead you chose the more casual songs.Â
âFine.â You admitted defeat. âI understand where youâre coming from. Iâll try my best not to fuck this up.â You said earnestly. âBut in return, please just...donât look through my desk.âÂ
âWhy not?â
âItâs personal. Should there be another reason?âÂ
âFine.â
âDo we have a deal?â
âDeal.â
      The interviewer was an idiot. He only ever asked you the most obvious of questions. Thereâs no depth or deeper meaning heâs looking for other than for you to gloat and cause more drama with...yourself.Â
âYou completely swept the show this year.â The man lightly clapped and you mimicked it.Â
       You were already sweating under the pressure of the lights and the knowledge that you had to sound like Seokjin. Not only did you have to sound like Seokjin, but you also had to give the right answers.Â
âThatâs amazing. Youâre one of the fastest growing artists of the century. Itâs incredible, really. How does it feel, knowing that millions have their eyes on you?âÂ
       Suffocating. Itâs so hard to breathe. Was this what it was like all the time? You almost felt bad for Jin, but at the same time you wanted to roll your eyes. The interviewer was just trying to butter you up so that you could spill any juicy secrets.
        Sadly, you donât think he would buy the âI switched bodies with my arch nemesis and now weâre here.â secret.Â
         Speaking of which, how did you get into this mess in the first place? And how were you going to get out of it? Was it something to do with your wish the other night? The meteor shower? But according to all the body swap movies youâd seen before, he must have wished for your life as well. Which seemed absurd. Why would the Kim Seokjin want to forfeit his life to body swap for some nobody artist like you?Â
âItâs honestly such an honor, you know?â You tried your best to respond like him. You could almost see him face palming. âItâs surreal. I still canât believe itâs happening.â You continued. âEveryone remember to stream Dynamite!â You plugged, flashing a dazzling smile.Â
       It seemed to be the right move because the crowd went wild.Â
âNow, Jin, you havenât mentioned Awake, your latest song. I know Dynamite and Mic Drop have been huge successes, really, but Awake you rarely mention. Maybe you can give some insight into your thoughts behind the song? I know I want to know.âÂ
        Okay, maybe you were wrong. The interviewer was smart as shit. And now you had to analyze Jinâs lyrics. You had heard the song a couple times and it honestly wasnât that bad. You could make something up and continue on with the interview. You remembered he mentioned once a while ago that it was completely written by himself, no lyricists, nada. So you supposed you should honor that.Â
âAs you know,â you started carefully. âAwake is one of the few songs completely written by me.â You kicked yourself for your wording, but forged onward. You took a deep breath, thinking for a moment.
 âItâs about...itâs about struggling with insecurities. Iâve always felt like my voice wasnât good enough, my music would never make it, that I donât cut it in the industry. I feared I would just be another pretty face stuck onto generic pop music.â You found yourself rambling, releasing some inner frustration you had in yourself.Â
âAwake was my form of release. I pushed all my negative thoughts and energy into the song. My doubts, my fears, and what I long for. It speaks of my...my desperation to continue, even when I felt like things were bleak for me. Something inside told me to keep running, keep creating, and I did. Thatâs why Iâm thankful Iâm able to be where I am now.â You concluded. âAnd thatâs why Awake is such a personal song to me.âÂ
        Obviously, a full lyrical and psychological breakdown of the song had not been what the interviewer was expecting, but he seemed pleased nonetheless.Â
âWow, so it must mean a lot to you?â
âYeah.â You answered half heartedly, feeling emotionally drained from that speech.Â
âSo I heard from the daily idol that-â
         His words muffled and you answered his questions monotonously. Why had you gone into so much detail? It was like a switch had been flipped. The lyrics werenât bad. In fact, the song was good and you could see yourself easily sobbing over it, but it just had to be written by Jin. It was such a shame, yet at the same time, it showed that Jin could write meaningful lyrics if he wanted to.
          The only reason he needed a lyricist team, you concluded, was pure greed and laziness. That only gave you more reason to dislike him, but, as the song said: My happy times asked me this question; You, are you really okay? it asked me. And after all of that, were you really okay with hating Kim Seokjin?Â
Your phone pinged. You glanced down at the screen to see one text from Jin.Â
Did you mean what you said?
        Jin was really hoping you hadnât completely fucked his career. He was also hoping that your agent would stop texting you for one minute. Instead, he was bombarded with questions like âare you writing?â âWhat are you doing to improve?â âYou better win more at the Grammys, got it?â âAre you going to lose to Seokjin again?â âWhy arenât you answering?âÂ
         He wanted to slam his head into a wall. Why would you ever put up with this? He mindlessly scrolled through earlier texts. At first, it seemed the relationship started off alright, but every now and then toxicity would come through on the agentâs part.
          Soon enough, it just devolved into you not answering her texts and her berating you. From your attitude, however, her berating was as good as yelling at a wall. Even he knew that you wouldnât budge. But...you loved your career. That was obvious enough. You loved your job, you loved making music. What would happen if that got taken away?Â
         Well, it wasnât happening on his watch. He refused to be the reason you lost your job. So he did what he promised we wouldnât. Jin searched your desk drawers. He had a feeling he knew what it was you were hiding, but he wanted to make sure. It was better to beg for forgiveness than ask for permission in this case.
         He rummaged around before he pulled out an old and tattered, leather bound, notebook. Inside were songs and lyrics dating all the way back to when you would have been in middle school. The handwriting got progressively messier, but your lyrics were...beautiful.Â
         As he read over them, he was swept into another world. From cloudy skies to hazy summer afternoons, he read through your journey. The songs were cheesy at first, but then they slowly delved into darker subjects.Â
         You wrote your mental health struggles, your relationship issues, your anger, everything was placed in this one leather notebook. It felt wrong to hold this much power, this much information, in his hands. Yet, they were technically your hands. Did he feel bad? Yes. Was he ever going to bring it up? No, because he valued his life.Â
âY/N? Open up, Iâve got to brief you on the photoshoot!â A voice shouted from the front door.
         Jin looked up, startled, and gently placed the journal where he found it. Then he rushed to the door.Â
âWho are you?â He barked.Â
âItâs Lisa, who else? Now open the door, we donât have a ton of time!â Her voice was hurried, so he reluctantly opened the door.Â
âA photoshoot?â He breathed, confused.Â
âYes, the big photoshoot for your comeback. Did you hit your head or something? This is all youâve been talking about for the past month.â The girl, Lisa, rolled her eyes.Â
âMore like switched bodies with my worst enemy.â He grumbled.Â
        The blonde haired girl narrowed her eyes and he remembered his place. You were doing a good job at pretending to be him and it hadnât even occurred to you, it seemed, to try and ruin his career. So the least he could do was to return the favor.Â
âWhat?â
âSorry, nevermind.â He waved it off. How did you usually act with people? He never could tell. You were always snarky with him, but after reading your lyrics and walking around in your body, you didnât seem to carry yourself that way.Â
âWell, as your agent, I really need you to get it together, alright?â
âYouâre my agent?â He gaped. After seeing the way she treated you, it was all he could do to stop himself from rushing at her.Â
        But he wouldnât have the same strength he had when he was in his usual body. It was a little concerning how casual and easy it felt to be in another personâs body. It was like it was growing on him and he didnât like it one bit. Jin was getting comfortable and the feeling of unease had been lost on him.Â
âIndeed I am. Y/N, are you sure youâre alright?âÂ
âIâm fine. Really.â He managed. The man settled himself on the couch while Lisa went over the requirements.Â
âSo weâre looking here for a more mystical approach. I know itâs a lot different from your usual no nonsense approach, but this could be good in repainting your image and getting you into more drama. A little birdy told me Jin is doing the same concept, so hopefully youâll attract some buzz.âÂ
âShouldnât IâŚâ He wasnât sure how you spoke or treated your agent, so he fought for the right words. âShouldnât I look into distancing myself from the Jin drama?â
       To his surprise, your agent furrowed her eyebrows. Lisa seemed appalled by this.Â
âY/N. Weâve been over this. Jin is keeping you relevant, keeping you in the public eye. Your feud causes people to draw sides and therefore, we get more publicity. So donât you understand? Jin is the reason youâre anybody.â the woman sniffed. âFocus on getting as many followers as possible before I set up the formal meeting to settle it, okay? Trust me, this is a mutually beneficial feud.âÂ
       Jin frowned. You had all these beautiful lyrics, songs that meant something. Was the feud really that important?Â
âSo Iâve got some reference photos here.â Lisa threw a pile of photos onto the table. Jin just stared. How did they get these? They werenât even released yet.
âWhere did you get these?â He still had to get used to the higher tone of your voice and it was quite honestly disconcerting. It felt like he was nervous all the time.Â
âYou know I have my connections.â She winked.Â
       Jin picked up a laminated photo and turned it over in his hands. He didnât know what to say, this was all insane.Â
âHello?â The woman snapped her fingers several times. âYou okay? Itâs like youâve been replaced or something. Hellooooo? Y/N? Are you in there?âÂ
âYou donât know how right you are.â He mumbled.Â
âWhat?â
        Jin blinked rapidly, trying to regain your sense of personality. Right, right, how did you usually act? He hoped he hadnât just royally fucked you over. Sure, this may not be his body, but he felt a sense of responsibility, being the temporary caretaker.Â
âAh, nevermind, nevermind.â He waved it off with a little laugh. The woman narrowed her eyes at him, but continued on.Â
âYouâll arrive on set at least two hours prior in order to get you all set up. Then weâll shoot. Youâll have a fifteen minute break and then weâll do it again. Then youâre free. I know itâs a lot harsher than youâre used to but-â
âThatâs all?â He was happy to be in your place at this moment. You had it so easy!Â
âYeah, as I said, itâs a little intense but-â
âPshhh Iâll be fine.â He reassured her and though she looked skeptical, she just nodded and gathered her things.Â
âBe there, 6:00 P.M. Goodbye, Y/N.â She dipped her head and slipped out the door, slamming the wood behind her. The wall shook.Â
âWhat a sourpuss.â He let out a sigh of relief and deflated, leaning against the couch. His phone buzzed.Â
      Taehyungâs number flashed on screen. He mentally prepared himself and then picked up the call.Â
âHello Y/N, or should I say...Jin!â Taehyungâs mischievous voice crackled through the speaker.Â
âGod, I donât need another reminder.â He grumbled.
      He had successfully pulled off the âI hate everything about thisâ look. But in truth, he didnât hate this. It wasnât so bad and it was a nice vacation.Â
âYeah, yeah, anyway, I did some research and well, the truth is, I found nothing.â Taehyung admitted. Before Jin could register this reality, the man on the other side continued. âBut thereâs gotta be a time limit. Maybe some other kind of limit. Iâll look into it.âÂ
âGet on it, Kim.â Jin barked, growing tired of the conversation. âIf you have nothing else important to say, just hang up.â
âWow, so mean, Jin, to one of your closest friends too! Maybe Y/N was right about all that asshole stuff.â
âSee!â You echoed from the background of the call.Â
âIs that Y/N? Y/N! Get on the phone right now, we need to have a talk about this!âÂ
âDonât you have a photoshoot in a bit?â
âYeah, so?â
âAw man,â Your voice came through clearer as Taehyung passed you the device. âI was really looking forward to it.âÂ
âLooking forward to stealing my concept?!âÂ
         There was a long pause and you let out a long sigh. âIâm sorry, Jin. I didnât know until last week and it was too late to change.â Your voice was soft, gentle, and, dare he say, guilty?Â
         He smoothed the wrinkles between his brows and paced between the couch and coffee table.Â
âItâs fine. You obviously donât control your life.âÂ
         You actually felt hurt by that. Your expression went stony and cold, your grip on the device tightened.Â
âYet youâre the one with every single part of your day scheduled down to the second.â You pulled the phone away bitterly to look at the piling notifications.Â
âIt helps keep me on task.â He defended lamely.Â
âWhy? It just seems...stressful. You have no free time. Honestly, itâs reckless, thatâs what it is. One day youâre just going to collapse. Youâre such an idiotic ass, you know? And donât think I canât feel the soreness in your muscles, Jin, because I can-âÂ
         His hands clenched into fists. Who were you to judge his lifestyle? Sure, heâd made fun of your wardrobe, but he hadnât tried to insult you as...a person.Â
â-If I stop moving, I feel restless. Itâs better to just wake up and gogo go until I canât, then fall asleep. Do it all again. If I stop moving, it feels like death. Was that what you wanted?âÂ
âNo Jin, I didnât mean to pry I-â
âJust stop talking. I never thought Iâd see the day I was sick of hearing my own goddamn voice.â He said coldly and hung up.
        You didnât understand at all. And how could you? Sure, you were in his body, but it wasnât like you had the years of training instilled in your brain or the knowledge that he accumulated through the time heâd been a star. He checked the time. The photoshoot was soon, and he planned to be there right on time.Â
 âWhy did you give me the stupidest smile.â You groaned, arm falling over your eyes in embarrassment.Â
âHey, I work with what I got and I worked you hard. This just must be all you got.â Jin huffed, leaning back in his chair. âAnd what was up with that speech about Awake?âÂ
âI meant every word.â You said firmly.
      He was quiet for a moment, not having a retort. You didnât like dragging things out and it was bound to come out sooner or later.Â
       What terrified you was how easy it was to be Jin. It was like trying on clothes, but these fit better than anything youâd ever worn. Sure, it had been disorienting in the beginning, but now youâd learned so much about Jin. How he liked his coffee, what shoes he wore for which events, what his favorite shirt was, how he treated his staff, etc. The more you found out about Jin, the less you had to hate about him. Still, his ego was insufferable.Â
        The whir of the fan in the room rotated and filled the silence. The greenery of his house was nice, but you preferred the âIâm poor and want to be fashionableâ feel your apartment had. Thus, you had agreed to meet with Seokjin to discuss the situation at his, your, place. You didnât want to think about him rooting around your things, but honestly at this point, you might as well be naked around each other. It wasnât like you hadnât seen it by now.Â
âI keep thinking about that night, Y/N.â Jin mumbled. âWhy were we switched that night?âÂ
         You remained silent, pulling your arm away from your face and staring at the white ceiling. There was a crack in it that ran all the down the hallway. The paint was fading as well, giving away to the garish blue you had covered a year ago. There was still a stain in the left corner because Jennie had once projectile vomited up there when she had too much to drink. You shuddered at the memory.Â
âMaybe it had to do with the meteor shower.â You shrugged.Â
       The new depth of your voice wasnât disconcerting anymore and seeing him walking around in your body was fine, as long as he wasnât screwing anything up, you could care less.Â
âMaybe.â He hummed in response.Â
âYou know I still hate you.â You said, but you werenât sure.Â
        You wanted it to be that way, desperately, but nothing could be the same after whatever this was, was over. You wanted to go back to hating Seokjinâs guts.Â
âI do too.â He responded, but there was a lack of bite.Â
âI hate you. I hate your arrogant ass, your ego, and your guts.â You rolled over, locking eyes with him.
        He was gazing at you, amusement in his features. You thought that you should look amused more often. Since the feud broke out, you usually wore a scowl or frown.Â
âBut I hate myself more for being jealous of you.â You pointed at him. âDonât you understand? Having an ego is a blessing. Being arrogant is a privilege. Normal people donât get to just go around, brag about their accomplishments and be rewarded for that.âÂ
          He laughed softly, the high pitched noise tingling your ears. There were parts of him that showed through, even when he was in your body.Â
         The first was his mannerisms. They were always more egotistical than what you usually went for. It was like he physically couldnât choose wording that sounded humble.Â
         The second was his smile. He still smiled the same way, lips peeling back to reveal pearly white teeth. It looked so unnatural on your face, but it suited him, always had.Â
         The third and final one was his laugh. He would still laugh the same squeaky windshield wiper laugh. It was contagious.Â
          The man stood and took your finger, which was still pointed at him, and slowly lowered it. He wrapped his hands around your own and held on tightly.Â
âNow why would you be jealous of me?âÂ
        You forgot his eyes. Despite them being yours, his eyes did not change. In his eyes, you saw sincerity, an emotion you once thought too complex for him.Â
âIâve lived in your body for well over a week, Jin. You have a busy schedule and Iâm exhausted at the end of every day, but...thereâs security in that. You donât have to feel like youâre hanging onto the end of a string thatâs about to break 24/7.âÂ
        He nodded, seemingly mulling over your words.Â
âIâm jealous of you, Y/N.â The man said. It was so odd seeing words forming from your lips that you had not made. âIâm jealous of the way you can do what you like, the way you can speak your mind and no one cares. Iâm jealous that you can make the music you want. Y/N, Iâm jealous because your lyrics are beautiful, meaningful, and youâre allowed to sing them.â He continued on gently.Â
âYou saw my lyrics?â Your throat went dry.Â
       Those lyrics were your safe haven. They had been invaded by foreign eyes, yet you didnât really mind it. He was in your body, living your life. He would have found it sooner or later.Â
âYes, I did.â He dropped your hands. âIâm sorry, I know I said I wouldnât-â
âNo, Jin, itâs...itâs okay.â You smiled. Your gaze wandered, trying to looked anywhere but him.
âNow where do we go from here?â
âWe just do our best, I think, roll with the punches.â
âThe awards show is only a week away.â
âThen we do our best.â
âAnd if we donât ever change back?â
âJin,â You caught him firmly in your gaze. He froze and you wondered if thatâs really what you looked like when you blushed. âWeâll do our best and everything will work itself out, Iâm sure of it.âÂ
âI trust you, then.âÂ
       The makeup artist brushed another streak of gold across your cheekbones. You held perfectly still.Â
âAlmost done!â The artist squeaked, brushing over your chin now. The fine tips of the brush tickled your face and the gold dust floating through the air made you want to sneeze.Â
        The roar of the crowd was a dull thud in the background next to your heartbeat. You were up next, the act before you just finished up. You could see the stage and the lights set for your turn.
        You had spent the past week memorizing every detail, memorizing the lyrics, practicing your instrument of choice. It had been hectic, but it would be worth it. You were going to show the world you were a changed person. You took a deep breath, shaking out your arms and legs as the makeup artist drifted away.Â
         You tried not to sweat or breathe too heavily as the large screens lit up to announce the next artist. As much as you wished it was your name showing up on that screen, it was not. Your name would be later in the program. No, right now, you were Kim Seokjin, superstar, worldwide handsome, and the most awaited performance of the night.Â
âKim. Seok. Jin.â The announcer said, letting the stadium fill with cheers. You could only ever dream of this success and you thanked Jin for lending you his body.Â
           On the stage, a grand piano rose to the top. It was empty, just waiting for someone to play it. You knew he was watching in the audience, waiting for his song to play, waiting to see how you sang it. You were thankful his vocal capabilities carried over to you through his body. You walked on stage and it was so quiet, you could have heard a pin drop. The audience was rightfully confused.Â
          The past week, you had been brainstorming a way to make his piece stand out against the generic pop songs of the others. Blaring music just didnât seem...it didnât seem right for this song. It deserved a slower, more subtle production. So you set about learning it on piano. You had practiced until well into the morning every night and you were exhausted, but you knew it by heart.Â
          You sat on the bench, the wood creaking loudly. It was like the audience had faded away and you were alone, practicing over and over, singing until you couldnât any more. You smoothed out your pants and took a deep breath, hands hovering above the keys. Then you looked at the camera and gave his signature wink. Which led to a roll of laughter and shrieks from the crowd. Then it went quiet once more. You could have sworn you heard his laugh.Â
          You played the first chord. Then the next. No going back now. Contrary to the audienceâs belief, no dancers would come out halfway through, the music wouldnât suddenly kick in. No, this would be the breather, the quiet song amidst the chaos. You took a deep breath, begging and praying for his godly stable vocals.Â
âItâs not that I believe it, but that I want to try holding out. Because this is all that I can do.â You began to sing Awake.Â
         The song that helped bring you closer to its creator, the song that reminded you of the beginning of this mess. Yet, it no longer felt like a mess and more like a blessing. You had never thought it would be going on this long, though. Maybe Jin was right, maybe this would be forever? You played the next notes, hands dancing over the keys in a practiced and steady rhythm.
Three Years Ago
âOh, Jennie, please can you grab my lyrics? I left them on the desk, theyâre really messy so you should recognize them!â You called to your friend. She nodded and hurried back inside to fetch the papers.Â
         At BigHit Entertainment, you planned to be a producer, nothing else. You wanted to produce music, make tons of money off royalties, and retire early. That was the plan, until they suggest you try out to be an idol.Â
         You didnât work well in a group, far too stubborn, so they set you on the solo track. You were currently writing your first album and your debut was coming up fast.Â
          The entirety of your body ached. Your legs were sore from running and your feet hurt from standing all day. Your arms screamed in pain when you tried to lift anything due to the amount of dance practice youâd been in.
          The thing that was the worst, was your throat. You werenât a singer, okay. You sang a bit, but not a ton, and even with vocal lessons, singing for upwards of four hours a day was taxing on your body. The things that really helped were your friends and sleep.Â
           Sadly you got neither of those things. Without being in a girl group, you barely knew anyone and you had maybe four hours of sleep a night with studying and practice. Besides, you had maybe one person you could consider a friend; Jennie. And you had another you could consider a rival.
            Kim Seokjin. Multi-talented, sculpted like the gods, and arrogant as shit. He only ever rolled his eyes when you were around and he never had anything nice to say to you or anyone else. He kissed ass as well. Just another thing you hated about him.Â
Okay, so hate was a strong word, but you very much disliked him. He just never seemed to like your guts, no matter what you did. At first, it had been intimidating, but now it was just annoying.Â
âWell, well, well, Y/N.â Speak of the devil.Â
âJust get it over with.â You groaned, turning to face the handsome prick. âWhat do you want?âÂ
âJust some company.â He said innocently. âIâm waiting for the bus to the dorms as well.â He explained, brushing a hand through his hair.Â
âSure. Well, I hope you enjoy silence, because thatâs what I love best.â You dug around your bag and withdrew your earbuds.Â
         You plugged in your phone and popped in one bud just as Jennie came running back. She was barely sweating, even after running up and down the stairs for your notes. Cardio was intense for the more dance based girl groups.Â
âHere you go!â She said, oblivious to the tension around you and Jin.
âOh thank you.â You shot her a weak smile.Â
âBye!â She waved, rushing out the door to her waiting members.Â
          You watched her leave, begging her to stay with your eyes. Once her van was pulling out, you sighed. Great, now you were stuck with Jin. You glanced down at the papers. Oh shit. These are not your papers. You cursed under your breath.Â
âWhatcha got there, Y/N?â He broke the silence, peering over your shoulder.Â
           You immediately slapped the papers to your chest. What if he thought you were stealing? When could you sneak back and put them away?Â
âLet me see.â He whined, craning over your shoulder before finally stepping in front of you. âIs it lyrics? Itâs okay, I just want to hear!âÂ
âN-no!â You stuttered, folding up the papers. âJust schoolwork I forgot.â
      He narrowed his eyes, the playful look gone. Maybe you should have just told the truth.Â
âShow me what you have in your hands, Y/N.â He said darkly, his voice smooth and monotone.
       You felt like a child about to be scolded. When you didnât respond, he reached forward and plucked it out of your hands.Â
âOh I see. So now youâre just stealing from me.âÂ
âWhat? No!â
âThen why do you have my lyrics in your hands?!â
âI was going to return them I swear!âÂ
âYeah, right.âÂ
Before you could explain yourself, he strutted outside. âI wonât forget this, Y/N.âÂ
       A paper fluttered to the ground and you rushed to pick it up, but he was already gone. The paper was in a puddle and you hurriedly scooped it up. The ink was already ruined. At the top of the page, the words Awake by Kim Seokjin were bleeding down the page.Â
        The audience was hushed, confused by the somber tone. Still, many people had smiles on their faces or perhaps a little tear in their eyes. You continued the song to the end. The melody carried over the quiet stadium like a ghost. The haunting appeal drew more in every second. Televisions from around the world tuned in to watch, eyes glued to the screen. So this is what it feels like to have the worldâs eyes on you.Â
         Backstage, Jin watched the performance silently. His eyes remained on the screen, even through his makeup and wardrobe. His own sweet voice pierced the room. Was that how he sounded? He always joked that he was âthe best singerâ but in his heart, he never believed it. The man smoothed down the dress. It complimented your body well, and he was reminded that this was indeed your body and not his.Â
         Whenever someone called âJinâ or âY/Nâ, both of you would turn around. It was actually pretty funny to watch. Your agent cursed.Â
âHeâs going to sweep the awards again with a ballsy performance like that.â Lisa muttered.Â
âI never knew my song could be sung like that.â He murmured. Then he straightened up, playing your part dutifully. âItâs too slow, honestly.â he rolled his eyes and Lisa snickered along with him.Â
âHalf of the staff are sleeping.â Lisa mused, before turning back to check over her list.Â
Jin took a deep breath. âLisa.â He turned to the woman, who didnât even look up. âI want to end the feud with Jin. Itâs unnecessary and hurting my career and reputation beyond repair.âÂ
       The woman blinked a few times. Then she laughed.Â
âThatâs hilarious. If you can somehow convince Jin to let that happen, then by all means, be my guest, but Iâm sure he also realizes how necessary you are to building his career.âÂ
âIâm sure heâll agree.â He said coldly, lacing his fingers together. Lisa narrowed her eyes before turning back to her list.Â
âLike I said, only if you can convince him, because I wonât.âÂ
-
       The piano slowly faded to silence. You held your breath, standing and bowing. It was quiet for a moment, then a roll of applause fell over the audience. It felt like waves crashing over your body. You smiled sheepishly, blowing a kiss to the camera for fanservice points. Then you exited the stage where Jin, I mean, you, were getting ready to go on next.Â
         He eyed you as you stepped out. Then, just as you were about to slip by, he grasped your arm.Â
âGood job.â His voice was quiet. You nodded at his words, taken off guard. He dropped his hand and you softly whispered back.
âI never stole your music, you know.â You said, saying what had been on your mind for the past three years.Â
âI know.â He said, his grin fading.Â
âGood.â You said stiffly. âGood luck out there, Y/N.â
He shot you a cocky smile and strutted out on stage.Â
 âFor best artist of the year, the nominees areâŚâ The announcer stood on stage, a golden envelope in hand. âKim Seokjin.â
        A roar of applause came from the crowd and fangirls squealed loudly. You winked at the camera and then face forward. A short montage of Jin played on screen.Â
âY/L/N Y/N.âÂ
       You watched a compilation of yourself and applauded their work. They made you look pretty nice. There was a similar ripple of applause.Â
âKim Taehyung.âÂ
        The same occurred, but he remained stoic throughout the montage. His eyes flicked warily over between you and Jin.Â
âAnd Jeon Jungkook.âÂ
          Rinse and repeat.Â
          You held your breath.Â
âAnd the winner isâŚâ
          You made eye contact with Jin across the way. You were seated directly in front of the stage and he was seated further to the left. He smiled and nodded. You felt your heart rate accelerate. Was it you? It was the last award of the night, it had to be you. And yet, you would never feel that rush of applause, never get to make that speech, because of this stupid curse. Maybe it was your fault for wishing it.Â
âY/L/N Y/N!â The announcer shouted and you watched Jin stand from his place.Â
            You watched him step up the stairs careful not to trip on the dress, and take a stand at the microphone. In his hands was a trophy, itâs cool metal gleaming. How many times had you wished to hold that trophy? To feel the weight of it in your hands.Â
âHello.â He spoke, the mic rang a little and he chuckled. âIt is such an honor to be receiving this award. I would like to thank my parents, for supporting me,â Now that was a bold faced lie, but you let him off the hook.Â
âMy agent, for helping to boost me to success, and all the hardworking staff at BigHit for making this dream come true.âÂ
            It was the usual speech. Boring. You would have made it far more memorable. You tried your best not to let jealousy blind you in this moment.Â
âBut my real speech here is for anyone who feels they canât do what they like. You see, I know a girl who writes beautiful lyrics, lyrics that take you to another dimension and music that does the same.â
âYet, our industry does not reward simply passion for the craft, it rewards your dedication to your company and the ability to follow directions.â
âWe, as artists, need to learn how to inspire confidence in ourselves and others, so that we can make the music we want to.â He took a deep breath. âYour greatest fear...maybe even your greatest enemy,â He found your eyes in the crowd.Â
âMay be your greatest weapon.âÂ
         And in that moment, he took a step forward towards the mic and you felt a tugging sensation. You blinked and you were standing at the mic, your eyes trained to the crowd.Â
           You were you again. And you got to enjoy the standing ovation, the swell of the crowd like a rising tide. Yet, your eyes still went to him. You didnât hate Kim Seokjin anymore.Â
           You admired him, you were jealous of him, but you found yourself liking him. That laugh of his, which you would have thought annoying, was now a tally mark of reasons why you enjoyed his company.Â
           You found him in the crowd, despite the dimness of the lights. He was still seated, getting his bearings. A smile easily made its way onto your face and you met eyes. The man simply smiled at you and raised his glass.Â
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Hey! I just read a couple of your drabbles and I LOVE THEM!đđ
So if you don't mind, could you please do a Harringrove drabble/ficlet based on either of the two (or a mix of both, if you can) Twenty One Pilots songs "Tear in My Heart" and/or "Smithereens"?
Because, for me, Tear in My Heart is very Billy and Smithereens is very Steveđđ
Thank you!!đ
Ok so love this and you have an amazing mind, just so you know.
This is like a 2 in 1 fic post so :))))
So smithereens and steve work so well together, like
âI go step to a dude much bigger than me/ for you I know that I would get messed up, weigh 153/ For you I would get beat to smithereensâ
Like this is just Steve's personality. He got into a fight every season and barely ever wins without intervention. And like i could see him just being so overcome with emotions that he just does what he knows, which is self destruct.
Like with his fight with Jonathan, he almost accepts that Nancy was too good for him and thinks that he might as well take other people with him.
Then with Tommy in the parking lot, itâs not really a fight, but it shows that he has a conscience and fixes his mistakes.
Then with his fight with Billy, he only tries to protect the kids, even if heâs losing miserably.
I could 100% see steve having snuck into billyâs room during the night once (before he really knew about neil), not to do anything nefarious, but just that he had a really bad nightmare, because there was a small power outage, and billy is really good at helping him sleep afterwards.
And let's just say that Billy's alarm clock (which is always set for 5:30am, half an hour before Neil wakes up just to give him peace of mind) doesnât go off because of the power outage.
And Neil comes to wake up Billy for school because he hasnât woken up yet, and sees Billy spooning Steve and both boys are snoring and pressing bare chest to bareback, and so deep asleep that Neil lets them sleep, letting them wake up on their own.
And they do. Billy wakes up around 8am, feeling insanely well rested. He smiles and squeezes Steve before turning to sit up from his bed to look at his alarm clock, thatâs blinking on and off and reads 3:18am, but the sunâs up and⌠the house is quiet.
Billy feels the dread settle deep in his chest, and swears he could cry if he were .000000001% more worried.
He hears the creaking of work boots walking around the house and knows, just from the tension lingering in the air, that itâs just an angry Neil pacing in the kitchen/ dining room and waiting for Billy to wake up.
He doesnât know whether to wake Steve up and tell him to escape out of the window and run or just let him lay there anyway, itâs obvious that Neil already saw.
He letâs Steve sleep and throws a shirt on and slowly walks out of the room into the pits of hell, seeing Neil turn to him with an angry face a brighter shade of red than a firetruck.
As slurs are screamed and Billy is thrown into the walls and has family tchotchkes launched at his face, Steve wakes up after a particularly painful shove makes the wall shake, pushing a single picture frame fall off the wall on the other side.
Steve shoots up after that loud bang and hears a wail and muffled yelling before something else hits the wall. He grabs his shirt and puts it on as he walks out the bedroom door, seeing glass shattered on the hardwood leading to the family room, but what he sees around the corner is so much worse.
Billyâs bleeding in about twenty different spots, body curled in a ball in the corner of the kitchen, Neil standing over him, but turning to Steve with a grin.
Steve feels his blood boil as dots connect and loose ends are tied up, making the connection between Billy's bad nights and the new bruises heâll sport under his shirt. The way he tries to hide it when he flinches at loud, authoritative men who are bigger than him. Why he told Steve to never call his house and why he is the way he is.
So Steve doesnât think for another second before launching himself at Neil, slamming him into the floor, but thatâs about as much as he wins that fight, because Neil is slamming him back and beating him the same way he did his son.
And billy, letâs admit it, is probably much stronger and a better fighter than his dad, but itâs so hard to fight back against an abuser that has controlled your life for so long. Even when you know you could win and that they deserve it, neil hargrove is still his dad and he could never get it into his head to hit him back.
But Steve was trying too hard to take him down because he was doing the wrong thing and losing terribly, never having won a fight once in his damn life.
Billyâs sitting up against the wall, ribs in excruciating pain and vision blurry, but he sees Steve getting up and kicking Neil once before backing up, and Billy sees his camaro keys in the dish by the front door.
So he stands up as fast as he can, ignoring the dizziness as if that would make it go away, grabs steveâs arm and shoots to the door, grabbing the camaro keys and shooting outside
He takes the driverâs seat, despite his dizzying head, just knew that heâd have to drive for a few miles then they could reevaluate, and Steve was clumsily getting into the passenger side.
Billy had only just started the car when Neil came rushing out the door, screaming threats and slurs as if that would make them stop their escape.
The camaro backed out of the driveway and shot down cherry lane in record time, going to the center of town, the least likely place Neil would cause a scene.
It isnât until Billy puts the car in park that he can bear to look at steve.
Heâs got a bloody nose and his shirt sleeve is torn off, hair disheveled from both sleep and the fight.
But billy looks so much worse.
Heâs still hunched to the left from his ribs, heâs got tons of cuts along his arms, legs, and face from, what steve suspects, the broken glass on the floor. Heâs also got this wild-animal-look in his eyes. One that screams, I escaped alive, but at what cost?
âBill-â
âWhyâd you do that?â
âWhy-- Iâm sorry are you asking me why I attacked your dad when he was kicking you while you were, literally, on the floor?â
âYe--no, I-- but you got hurt, whyâd you do that?â
âBilly, what did you expect me to do?â a shrug is all he gets in response--âIf you saw my dad doing that to me, can you honestly expect yourself to stand there and watch it happen, or walk away and let it happen?â
Billy turns to face the grocery store--Melvadâs-- that they were parked in front of.
âItâs all weaving together in my head. All the bruises, the jumpiness, how you like to control things, it all makes sense, but what doesnât make sense is why you wouldnât just tell me, Bill,â
âAnd what exactly would you have been able to do about it, huh? You gonna take care of the situation or some shit, Steve? Trust me, Iâm used to it and--â
âBut you shouldnât have to be âused to it,â Bill, thatâs abuse, and you donât deserve that shit, not ever,â
Their conversation is halted by a tap on the glass by Steve's window, and the boys turn to see Joyce Byers looking more motherly than ever.
Steve rolled the window down.
âThe hell happened to you boys?â she asked but corrected herself with a shake of her head, âDoesnât matter, just come in to clean up, weâve got bandages and antiseptic, free of charge,â
Billy wiped away the tears he didnât know had formed and nodded to her, âWeâll be out in a minute, Mrs. Byers.â
âJoyce, please,â she demanded softly.
âJoyce, of course,â Billy offered a subdued smile.
She walked off and Steve rolled the window back up.
âThank you,â Billy spoke quietly after a moment. âIâm glad he didnât hurt you worse,â
âBilly, for you I would get beat to smithereens,â
âWell of course you would, you weigh like 100 pounds, not like you could put up much of a fight,â
âHey! I gave him a black eye, thank you very much!â
âOh, well, my bad, baby, then maybe you weigh 150, huh?â
Steve grumbled from the passenger seat, â153,â
Billy chuckled and grabbed Steve's hand over the console, locking eyes and smiling at each other, enjoying their small moment.
âWe should probably get in there before Joyce comes out herself?â Steve sighed as he moved to take his hand out of Billy's.
âOne more minute, please,â
Steve just tightened his grip on Billy's hand and moved towards the center of the car to rest his head on Billy's shoulder, Billy's head falling onto his.
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Billy and Tear In My Heart thooooooooo
Like it fits him so well, again this is amazing.
I also see billy as a resident hater of america and itâs fucking government becuase, well, they have a history between his myriad of speeding tickets and, oh what was it, oh yes, the tentacle monster that impaled and possessed him.
And in California, thereâs no cold weather where he lives, so thereâs not exactly potholes to avoid.
The first time he drives into the cooler states and has to avoid potholes, he decides that his car deserves a vacation after this.
But the potholes become the biggest issue after he and Steve start dating.
Heâs absolutely enamoured by this boy, because who wouldnât be. He respects Billy's limits and can hold his own in arguments, and they fit together like missing pieces of a puzzle.
Steve has changed Billy, not that heâd admit it, but heâs softer now and all of his sharp edges have been baby-proofed. Theyâre still there and dangerous, but theyâre more difficult to be stabbed by.
All the cracks in his heart have been filled with gold, like Kintsugi (a Japanese technique of repairing broken pottery with gold).
And Billy can complain and complain about Steve's clinginess, about his intrusion into his life, and his persistence to stay, but deep inside Billy's never felt more loved or cared for in his life.
But these damn potholes might just make him lose it.
Because billy is anything but a bad driver, he can control the car even when itâs going 45 over the speed limit, but now that steve falls asleep after their movie dates or when theyâre coming back from barbeques with the party, Joyce, and Hopper, heâs driving the speed limit.
Which is just appalling.
But some of these potholes are so deep you could dive into them and not hit the bottom.
Like what the fuck, Indiana?
And, one time, Max is with them after a barbeque when Steve falls asleep and Billy slows the car down to what feels like snail speed, but is just the speed limit.
âWhy are we going so slow?â Max asked as she leaned forward from the backseat to whisper to billy.
âSteveâs sleepinâ,â he said, as if it was the obvious reason.
âYouâre whipped,â
âShut up, Shitbird,â
Max leans back into her seat with a grin on her face at the absolute mush her big, tough brother has turned into for Steve Harrington.
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Chapter 5, Near-Death-Experience
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âSo,â you ask, leaning into the middle console, âWhat happened?â Bella purses her lips for a moment.Â
âUm⌠a lot?â She starts, eyes still locked on the road, âHe said âhiâ to me at the beginning of class, I guess, so that was new.â You nod, âHe also called me Bella instead of Isabella, but no one else has done that? Like⌠he even corrected Mr. Banner when he called me Isabella.â You shrug, holding your head in your hand as you lean back against your door.
âMaybe since weâve been here for a bit, he heard from everyone else you like being called Bella?â Bella nods, though her expression was disbelieving.
âMaybe,â she concedes, âBut I donât think so?â You shrug, making a movement with your other hand to queue her onwards. âHe asked me a lot of questions, I guess. He tried to make small-talk about the snow at first, but I donât like snow. He figured it was difficult for me to live here in Forks. Said I was âhard to readâ for some reason.â You shrug again, though she couldnât see it.Â
âWell, he doesnât really know you, right? Just because Mom and I can read you doesnât mean someone new can, I suppose.â She sighs,Â
âThat makes sense, I guess. But⌠thereâs something else.â You lean away from your door to sit up straight.Â
âWell?â you prompt after a short silence, âWhat is it?â Bellaâs fingers tap against the wheel anxiously.Â
âWell⌠have you noticed his eyes? The color change, I mean.â You freeze. Edwardâs eyes had changed too? You noticed Jasperâs since he sat next to you, but you hadnât noticed his brotherâs change from across the room during lunch. Bella glances at you, âWhat? Whatâs wrong?â You shuffle in your seat, leaning back against the door with your arm.
âWell⌠I just.. I noticed the same thing with his brother, Jasper. He sits next to me in Psych. His eyes used to be really dark. Like, really dark. Now they kind of match his hair, like a golden color. I didnât say anything about it, but itâs kinda weird.â Bella is obviously surprised by your comment.Â
You drive the short rest of the drive home in contemplative silence.
Youâre able to get most of your homework done before dinner, and Bella helps you with the Algebra after dinner. Dinner, speaking of, was the usual silence you were now used to. You doodled for a while before you decided to go to bed.Â
The next day, you woke up to a surprise. The overcast, green-tinted light you were used to waking up to had cleared into bright, filtered light. You got dressed before you looked out the window and walked back to your closet to get your boots. On the other side of the glass, there was a snowy and frozen wonderland. Fern-like designs of frost hugged the edges of the glass on your window, every needle was coated in crystalline ice. The driveway had become an ice-trail of possible future concussions and a trip to the ER.
You came downstairs to see Bella making a bowl of cereal. You gasped in horror when you saw her drink orange juice straight from the carton while making your own cereal when she finished her own bowl. Bella sat in her chair practically vibrating with nervous energy as she waited for you to be done with your breakfast.Â
âWhatâs with you?â You ask, shoveling another spoonful of Cheerios into your mouth while Bella gathers her thoughts.Â
âI guess Iâm just, kind of excited?â You nearly choked on your cereal. Y/n Swan, the beloved sister, died by shocking news and breakfast. A little ball of dread reappeared in the pit of your stomach.Â
âExcuse me,â you ask, still coughing a little bit, âBut why on Earth?â You already knew the answer as soon as she nearly killed you with your own surprise and food, but you asked anyway.Â
âI⌠Agh, I know itâs stupid!â Your sister admits sheepishly, âBut⌠I guess to see him.â You scoffed, this time not nearly dying.
âYup, sounds very, very stupid. You shouldnât trust someone who lies about their eyes,â You note, raising your eyebrows at Bella. She nods her head, but you can tell her attitude hasnât changed much. You sigh and finish off your milk before standing to rinse your bowl out in the sink. You and Bella grab your bags and prepare to leave, fearing the worst for the journey ahead.Â
You guided Bella to the very front of the truck, holding onto each other as supports to make the short way to the truck. It was only when you and your sister parted to go to your respective sides of the vehicle when Bella nearly toppled. Luckily, she caught the mirror of the door on the way down to steady herself. You laughed, relieved when you both made it into the cab without injury. Bella wasnât nearly as amused.Â
Bella drove carefully through the icy streets without difficulty, but still slowly, which you were glad for. The last thing you needed was for your father to show up at the site of a crash after carving a path of destruction through town. Despite this, the little lump of dread on your stomach was growing bigger and heavier.
When you made it to school, you got out of the warm cab, you noticed Bella stop at the back of the truck. You make your way to her side curiously. Did she find something on the ground? Standing beside her, you see what sheâs looking at. Thin, silver snow chains had been fixed to your tires. You realized, like Bella seemingly had, that Charlie had gotten up early and put them on the truck for the both of you. This small act stunned you. Your mother had never done anything like this to take care of you, in fact, Bella had always been the one to take safety measures and care for you. Bella leans up, tears welling up in her eyes. You lay a hand on her shoulder and try to smile through the mini-wave of emotions.
A loud noise abruptly tears through the quiet air of the parking lot. You turn your head to see behind you a large, dark blue van skidding on the icy blacktop, and itâs headed right towards you and Bella.
You knew you wouldnât have any time to run, you wouldnât even have time to push Bella out of the way.
 Nothing was in slow motion, but you were fast enough to manage one maybe final act.Â
You turned to Bella, her brown eyes wide and looking off away from the van at the crowd, and wrapped your arms behind her. One arm reached up and held the top of her head, the other crossed from one shoulder to hold the other. You were already on the outside, Bella was between you and the corner of the truck. You knew you were going to die. The chances of being pinned between the truck and a van probably werenât very high, but maybe youâd be enough of a barrier to at least get your sister out alive? You hoped so.
Right before you expected to be smashed by the oncoming Frisbee-ing vehicle, you were pushed. You felt your wrist, the one behind Bellaâs head, hit the concrete with sharp pain. Something cold and hard was pinning your back down. You hadnât even blinked when you realized you were on the ground next to a tan car Bella had parked next to. You barely had time to look up and see two white hands thrust forward to stop the van from hitting you, pushing into an already deep dent in the side of the body. Then, like a blur, one hand reached to hold under the van and the other pulling you away, your legs swinging and hitting the tire of the car beside you.
And then, it was over. For a moment, it was silent after the van settled and the glass popped. After that short silence, pandemonium. Many voices started yelling at once, the most you could understand was several people yelling your names. That was when you realized there was someone else there. You looked back behind you to see none other than the bagel-hater himself, Edward Cullen, holding you against his side, you sandwiched between both him and yourself clutching Bella to you.
âBella?â He repeats, âAre you alright?â Bella groans and tries to escape both of your grasps, but you held onto her, as did Edward.
âIâm fine,â she groans. She looks up to you and realizes who you were being held against and immediately struggles to sit up against you. You help her sit up gently with Edwardâs white hand guiding her back.
âBe careful,â he warns her, âI think you hit your head.â Bella reaches a hand up to her head, placing her hands against a spot above her left ear.Â
âOw.â Bella mumbles, sounding surprised. You sat up as fully as you could and gently looked about Bellaâs face, your hands holding her jaw as you searched for any more irritated spots of impact or scrapes. Thankfully, she seemed fine.
âThatâs what I thought,â Edward hums, almost sounding amused? If you werenât in the head space of just trying to make sure you and your sister were alright, you probably would have at least turned to glare at Edward, maybe even yell. Bella mumbles, still wincing as she held onto the side of her head,Â
âHow in theâŚ?â She shakes her head and her voice trails off before looking back up, âHow did you get over here so fast?â Edward makes an expression of what you knew to be feigned-confusion,
âI was right next to you, Bella,â he says, his voice no longer exhibiting a humorous inflection. You steady Bella as she begins to push away to sit up and Edward unwinds his arms from around your side and Bellaâs and scoots as far as he can in the very limited space in between the far too-close vehicles. You turned your back to press against the side of the tan car behind you, one hand on your sister's shoulder as you both looked over to the boy beside you. The way he was looking at you and Bella was bizarrely off-putting. The way he almost looked to be sincerely confused, he truly wore the expression of authentic befuddlement, but not quite. You looked into the golden hues of his eyes and knew that couldnât be right. His gaze was too hard, too much like he was pleading you to just stay quiet or just go with it. He wasnât confused. He knew exactly what had happened and what Bella was asking.Â
Edward shifts his gaze to you, his expression slightly harder in some way, guarded perhaps?Â
Youâre snapped out of your speculative train of thought by voices. Now that everything had stopped, you realized there was screaming. Different voices screaming Bellaâs name, screaming your name. Funnily enough, you werenât able to pick out anyone calling for the Cullen boy beside you in the noise.
A crowd rushes up to the vehicles, crying faces and yelling greet you as you look up to them all.Â
âStay put!â Someone instructs loudly, but you canât see who.Â
âGet Tyler out of the van!â Someone else shouted. There is a dizzying amount of movement around the vehicles as you look back to Bella as she tries to stand up. Both your hand and Edwards place themselves on opposite shoulders before she can elevate herself.
âSomebody said to stay put just now Bells,â You remind softly as she lowers back down the few centimetres.
âBut itâs cooold,â she whines. Edward snickers behind you, but Bella cuts him off, âYou were over there. You were by your car...â her voice trails off once again as she looks up into his eyes. Edward drops his smile and instead presses his lips into a hard and narrows his eyes, frowning ever-so slightly.
âNo, I wasnât.âÂ
âI saw you,â Bella insists. Over the argument you hear deeper voices, teachers, arriving to the scene.Â
âBella, I was standing with you, I pulled you out of the way.â It seemed he was trying with all his silent might to convince your sister other from the truth. Bella breaks her gaze from Edwardâs and looks at you. You could practically see the vicious curiosity burning behind her brown eyes. You turn to look at Edward and realize he had been staring at you. His nearly pleading gaze making contact with your own vision causes a strange panic to stir in your chest.
âYou⌠you couldnât have been there.â You say, âYou werenât there even when I turned and grabbed BellaâŚâ Edward, obviously displeased with your answer, looks between you and your sister with a guarded panic,Â
âBella, Y/n, please,â he pleads softly. For some reason, his gentle voice aggravates the panic already present in the back of our mind, though you canât tell why it did.
âWhy?â Bella almost glares at the boy across from her. Obviously, you were alone in your sudden feeling of alarm.
âTrust me,â you begs again, his forceful gaze shifting from Bella to you before returning back to your sister.
âWill you promise to explain everything to me later?â Edward lets out a sharp sigh at your sisters continued pressing,
âFine,â he snaps.
âFine,â Bella echoes with her own angry tone.
You look between the two teenagers with worry. The far off sirens were finally in the parking lot. You could see flashing red and blue lights reflecting off of the wet asphalt and snow and edges of the vehicles around you. Through the wailing sirens and abrupt feeling of panic, you have a feeling the rest of the day was going to be a disaster. Though, how much worse could it get from here?
Turns out, much worse.
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AGoT Chapters 14 - 18
If you want to follow along, I'm tagging my ASoIaF reading as tonya rereads asoiaf.
Chapter 14: Catelyn III
Catelyn is cracking. Her world completely stopped. Thankfully Robb is there to try and pull her back.
Sobbing, she pulled her hand free of his and covered her ears against those terrible howls. âMake them stop!â she cried. âI canât stand it, make them stop, make them stop, kill them all if you must, just make them stop!â
I think this really highlights that, although sheâs married to a Stark and her children are Starks, there is a part of them that she will never share. Much like Tyrion and the others, she seems to regard the direwolves with⌠trepidation.
Looking on the scene where the man comes to the tower to kill Bran and I have to believe that itâs not a coincidence that he almost slits her throat but she stops it. I knew that Branâs direwolf would save the day, but Iâm so glad that we see her fighting hard to live. Iâm also very glad that, after her rest, sheâs back to being the woman that Winterfell and her children need her to be.
Yeah, I have my issues with her, but I canât help but love her as well.
Catelyn gave her firstborn a challenging look. âIf you are to rule in the north, you must think these things through, Robb. Answer your own question. Why would anyone want to kill a sleeping child?â
While I love that sheâs teaching him this now, this is shit they should have been teaching him from a young age. Heâs the heir to Winterfell, he should have been trained. Again, I love Ned at Cat, but theyâve coddled their children too much.
I fucking love that Catelyn is figuring this shit out, but why wasnât someone figuring it out while she was in her grief fugue? Why do they not have a paranoid asshole always suspicious? Okay, Iâm not sure if this really earns the âfucking northern foolsâ tag, but the fact that Robb wasnât trained does, so weâll wave this one in as well.
Iâd like to mention that Catelyn riding off to take care of shit fills me with joy. We know itâs not going to work, but I still love it.
Chapter 15: Sansa I
Age 11
Not gonna lie, Iâve been waiting for this chapter. Itâs going to hurt, because I know whatâs in store for her, but sheâs still my baby. Granted, she starts out as a prissy, entitled, stuck up baby, but the Oompa Loompas had a song about where that comes from.
The septa was not appeased. âYouâre a good girl, Sansa, but I do vow, when it comes to that creature youâre as willful as your sister Arya.â She scowled. âAnd where is Arya this morning?â
âShe wasnât hungry,â Sansa said, knowing full well that her sister had probably stolen down to the kitchen hours ago and wheedled a breakfast out of some cookâs boy.
Iâd like to point out two things here: Itâs obvious that the septa uses Arya as an example of how âbad girlsâ act in order to make sure Sansa stays in line. Itâs possible that her mother does the same thing. You know what this does? Pits sisters against each other. However, Sansa still covers for Arya here, knowing that her septa would probably not look favorably on Aryaâs actions. If Sansa really was a nasty bully like people claim, she would have relished the chance here to get her sister in trouble.
Reading this chapter it just drives home both how young both Sansa and Arya are and how sheltered. Sansa was raised to be such a proper lady and all of her septa and motherâs teachings seemed to have made her look down on anyone who was below her in station. And Arya doesnât seem to realize that she canât just get away with anything and everything.
One day she came back grinning her horsey grin, her hair all tangled and her clothes covered in mud, clutching a raggedy bunch of purple and green flowers for Father. Sansa kept hoping he would tell Arya to behave herself and act like the highborn lady she was supposed to be, but he never did, he only hugged her and thanked her for the flowers. That just made her worse.
This right there. They are traveling with the King and his family, but Ned doesnât even try to reign in his daughter. This shit is part of what leads to everything going wrong, IIRC. Yet another subtle example of questionable parenting in the series. If you coddle your children, theyâre headed for a world of pain.
This scene where Sansa is terrified by Ilyn Payne, notice that Lady reacts. This shows that Lady and Sansa were already bonded. Just imagine what that means for her losing Lady when they were already that close. I think, because Lady is lost so early in the series, people like to dismiss what that meant for Sansa. Of course, a lot of those people like to pretend that sheâs not really a Stark at all.
Iâm amused that Sandor was under the impression that he was the one who frightened Sansa. Did he not notice she was shaking and terrified before she turned around and saw him? Hell, he had to grab her shoulders before she turned around.
And then there comes Joffrey playing the part of the gallant prince. For a girl fed a steady diet of fairy tales and songs then told she would marry a wonderful prince, he had to have seemed like a dream. My poor baby. She does manage to find her feet, even feeling foolish, and pay a compliment to Cersei.
âI can answer,â Sansa said quickly, to quell her princeâs anger.
Even though sheâs infatuated with Joffrey, sheâs quick to want to head off his anger. Given that her father doesnât seem one to fly off the handle, you have to wonder if sheâs getting some sort of subconscious feeling that heâs temperamental and thatâs not a good thing. Of course, this could just be a throw away line that means nothing.
He drew his sword and showed it to her; a longsword adroitly shrunken to suit a boy of twelve, gleaming blue steel, castle-forged and double-edged, with a leather grip and a lionâs-head pommel in gold.
I just wanted to put this here to compare it with how Robb was reprimanded the chapter before this:
ââŚNever draw your sword unless you mean to use it. How many times must I tell you, foolish boy?â
Yeah, I donât think Joffrey was all that well trained either. When Sansa thinks to herself that âher prince would never love her if she seemed stupidâ you really have to wonder this shit that everyone put into her mind when they were training her to be some lordâs trophy wife. Yeah, Iâm bitter, what of it?
You remember when I said that Nedâs indulging of Arya helps lead to everything going wrong? The scene at the Trident is exactly what Iâm talking about. Arya knows damn well theyâve been interrupted by the prince, but she yells at him like they were in the North and he was just another lord up there. Hell, she even starts throwing rocks at him. If Joffrey had killed Arya, I doubt a damn thing would have happened to him. And Sansa, whoâs been fed on a steady stream of songs and fairy tales is no help as she yells at both of them that theyâre spoiling everything.
Iâm pretty sure that Nymeria saved Aryaâs life here. I have no doubt that Joffrey would have killed her, and she was weaponless and backed against a tree. As soon as Arya attacked Joffrey, Iâm sure Mycaâs fate was sealed, and as soon as Nymeria attacked him, a direwolf was going to have to die.
When I finish this book, my wrap up post is going to talk about how this chapter shows the core of what character traits in both Stark girls that are going to be sharped, honed, and perfected for where I think their story will ultimately end up in the series.
Chapter 16: Eddard III
You know, all the people who claim that Sansa is the reason that Lady and Myca diedâŚ
What the fuck did you think her word would do?
Cersei was damn determined to have a pelt and Lady was the only direwolf around. Robert clearly didnât give a fuck and, even if Sansa had sworn up and down that Arya was telling the truth, Cersei would have still demanded and Robert would have given in. And Myca was already dead.
Lady didnât die as a punishment for Sansaâs imagined sins. She died because Joffrey was humiliated and Cersei couldnât stand that. She died because Robert had no fucking backbone.
Man, Iâm a fucking huge Sansa fan and even I donât think she has as much power as some of her haters seem to think she has.
Chapter 17: Bran III
Okay, Iâm a sucker for a good dream sequence and this opening one is fucking wonderful, IMO.
He saw Sansa crying herself to sleep at night, and he saw Arya watching in silence and holding her secrets hard in her heart.
Okay, I feel slow, but what secrets is he talking about here? Unless itâs about where she had Nymeria. If thatâs not it, someone please let me know. I have more questions:
One shadow was dark as ash, with the terrible face of a hound. Another was armored like the sun, golden and beautiful. Over them both loomed a giant in armor made of stone, but when he opened his visor, there was nothing inside but darkness and thick black blood.
These three are, Iâm assuming Sandor, Jaime, and the third Iâm guessing is Gregor. Am I right in that? I mean, heâs a giant of a man and the âdarkness and thick black bloodâ would fit with his death via Oberynâs poison and the removal of his head.
As we go through this dream and see Bran realize that the Night King is coming and heâs told thatâs why he has to live, remember this is a SEVEN YEAR OLD CHILD. Sorry, my babies suffer so much.
âCan a man still be brave if heâs afraid?â he heard his own voice saying, small and far away.
And his fatherâs voice replied to him. âThat is the only time a man can be brave.â
Now, Bran, the crow urged. Choose. Fly or die.
Death reached for him, screaming.
Bran spread his arms and flew.
Yeah, Iâm gonna be over here crying for a bit. Okay, Iâve got a scary confession. I can see an endgame for Arya, Jon, and Sansa after the battle with the Night King is over. I can see the roles they could play in the world after. I donât remember seeing what role Bran would play, and that scares me. Because, what if he ends up like the three eyed raven?
Chapter 18: Catelyn IV
ââŚI had to beg Brandon to spare Petyrâs life. He let him off with a scar.â
How much of these books would be different if Brandon had just went ahead and killed him. Seriously, just think about it. You know how I said I wanted all the men around Daenerys impaled like Vlad did to his enemies? Petyr should be right there beside them, suffering because the damn pike didnât go through his brain. Iâve got some damn feelings on this.
 Thatâs all Iâm reading for tonight, but Iâll definitely be reading more tomorrow. Probably another ten chapters at least. A Jon chapter is next!
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03: No Rain Drops On Roses
Andyâs blood was boiling. His icy blue eyes were locked onto a man near the side of the stage. He was clearly out of place among the young screaming fangirls that made up the majority of the audience. He was probably around their age, dressed in a black jean vest and âIron Maiden T-shirt. He had a long black beard and several facial piercings. He clearly wasnât here to see Black Veil Brides, all throughout their first few songs he was flipping them off, and mouthing the word âfaggotâ at Andy.Â
Ashley noticed the man, flipping him the middle finger back. Typical hecklers, they had been showing up at their shows since the start. Something about pretty boys in makeup really got under the skin of metalheads. Most of them were just club regulars who liked to make their disapproval known. Ashley didnât think much of them, not everyone is going to like you. As long as they werenât hurting fans, he could care less. Andy on the other hand... it just seemed to eat at him.Â
The word faggot had always been somewhat of a trigger word for Andy. It was the word of choice for all the bullies that relentlessly went after him his whole school career. His memories of middle and high school were filled with the taunts of the âcoolâ kids. In high school, someone even spray painted âfagâ on his locker. Thatâs what he got for being different, for not looking like the all American jock.Â
Even after he lost weight, even after being âemoâ became cool, it never stopped. It was the main reason he dropped out when he was sixteen, he just couldnât take it anymore.
Fat, stupid, ugly, loser, freak, devil worshiper, worthless, heâd heard it all. Faggot, that one bothered him the most. He kept telling himself that it wasnât true, they were just saying that. They were just trying to hurt him. Couldnât they see? He had more women begging to fuck him than they ever would.Â
Being in a band, being in the public eye; it was just like high school. Only somehow worse... He got called the same names. The words affected him just as much.Â
The song ended, and the stage lights came on, lighting up the crowd. âHey, hey, can I get everyone to be quiet real quick?â Andy asked, setting his eyes on the man.Â
âThis motherfucker has been flipping us off the whole show,â he said, pointing out the guy. The hoard of fans turned their attention to him, booing and yelling things.Â
âYou got a fucking problem with me tough guy?â Andy challenged, walking up to the edge of the stage.Â
âYeah, I donât like fucking faggots!â the man yelled back, smirking.Â
âFaggot? You think Iâm a fucking faggot? You fucking wish you fat piece of shit! Suck my fucking dick!â Andy yelled, the anger finally boiling over.Â
The fans started to cheer and chant his name which only fueled his adrenaline. He felt someone grab his shoulder, pulling him back a bit, âAndy... thatâs enough just let it goâ Ashley whispered in his ear.Â
âYou think youâre just going to come to our show and fucking call me a faggot? You must be fucking in love with me or something. So why donât you go home and fucking jack off to this?â the younger boyâs normally calm voice was laced with spite.Â
He felt hysterical and out of control like someone else was speaking. The man lurched forward towards the stage. Before he could make it more than a few steps though security was on him, wrestling him towards the exit. The fans went wild, once again chanting the singerâs name.Â
âThatâs right get the fuck out of here!â Andy yelled before taking a deep breath and trying to compose himself. âIâm sorry everyone, I just get a little heated sometimes.âÂ
The rest of the show went without incident, but Andy couldnât calm down. With shaking hands he left the stage, the adrenaline and rage still pumping through his veins. He slammed his fist into the wall of the green room, the force leaving a slight indentation.Â
âHey, hey, hey, thatâs enough.â Ashley proclaimed, grabbing the singer by the arm and pulling him back.Â
âLet go of me!â Andy screamed, jerking his arm free.Â
The next thing he knew he was slammed against the wall, Ashley had both his arms pinned. âFucking cool it kid, itâs a fucking heckler let it go!â he growled. Despite being shorter, Ashley was stronger than Andy.Â
âYou canât keep fucking blowing up to anyone who calls you a name. Youâre an adult act like it.â âWhy am I just going to let someone call me a fucking faggot?!â âOh my god Andy, itâs a word.â Ashley rolled his eyes, letting the singer go.Â
âYeah, and I got called it my whole fucking life. Excuse me for standing up for myself.â âWell, it looks really bad when you fucking fight people like that on stage. That shit could cost us opportunities, who wants to work with a band that throws a hissy fit on stage?âÂ
Logically, Andy knew that Ashley was right. It was a bad look to fly off the handle over little things, and venues didnât want to book artist that did that. Emotionally though, Andy couldnât accept it. It cut too deep.Â
âFuck that!â Andy spat.Â
âOh yeah, fuck our careers. Get a grip on yourself you sound like a child. Why do you even care what they think? Just ignore them. You know what they say isnât true so who cares?!âÂ
Andy shook his head, digging through his bag for his pack of cigarettes. His hands were shaking as he struggled to light it, inhaling deeply. He waited for the rush of nicotine to calm his nerves, but it wasnât cutting it tonight. He tried to keep the tears from falling. He wasnât even sad, he was just so fucking angry. Mostly at himself, Ashley was right he shouldnât let someone make him act like that.Â
âJust sit down and cool off for a bit, weâve still got the signing to do,â Ashley said before leaving the singer by himself.Â
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Andy watched as Ashley flirted with the busty bartender. It was after midnight, and all the fans from the show were long gone. All the bands on tour had decided to get drinks at the bar across the street to celebrate the first show. They were all pretty plastered at this point, all except Andy and the guys from Motionless in White.Â
Since he wasnât drinking that left him at a table all by himself, sipping on a diet coke. He had no interest in the drunken foolery and desperate attempts to bed the hostess that was going on. He flipped through tweets about the show, mostly fans talking about how he âsure did show that hater.âÂ
âHey, is this seat taken?â Andy looked up to see a man standing in front of him. He looked like he was in his 30â˛s, with long brown hair tied back in a messy bun. His arms were covered in black tribal tattoos, and he had emerald green eyes.Â
âUm, I guess not?â Andy replied, taking another drink of his soda.Â
âAwesome, just so you know Iâm not a creep or anything. I was at your show.â the mystery man flashed a smile, showing off his pearly white teeth.Â
âOh, really?â âYeah. I mean itâs sort of my job. I work at the venue, Iâm one of the sound techs. I liked the set though.âÂ
Andy smiled, âThanks.âÂ
âSorry about that guy by the way. Heâs a regular, and he likes to try and cause a scene with bands he doesnât like. Iâm Ryan by the way.â he said, extending a hand.Â
Andy hesitated before shaking it. âIâm Andy.â
âSo why arenât you over there with the rest of your band Andy?â the way the man said his name made a shiver go down the singerâs spine.Â
âI donât really drink, itâs not my thing.â âThatâs respectable. You smoke?â Ryan asked, holding up a pack of cigarettes.Â
âYeah.â âWanna go outside then? You seem kind of bored in here. Plus itâs quieter out back.â âSure.. why not,â Andy said, a million questions running through his mind.Â
Who the fuck was this guy? And why did he give a shit about him? Either way, if it meant free cigarettes, then Andy would entertain whatever it was this guy wanted to talk about. He probably was hoping to snag a gig as one of their tech guys or something for a future tour.Â
Andy followed Ryan out behind the bar. The cool night air was refreshing compared to the stuffiness of the bar. Ryan handed him a cigarette, lighting it for him.Â
âSo you liked our show?â Andy asked, breaking the awkward silence.Â
âWell I mean, I liked you,â he smirked, leaning against the brick wall of the bar.Â
âUm, thanks?â Andy blushed, nervously messing with his hair.Â
âIâm not really into glam-rock, but you held my interest.â he chuckled. Andy could feel the manâs eyes on him.Â
Andy finished his cigarette before tossing it onto the concrete. His heart was pounding in his chest, but he kind of liked the feeling. He felt the rush of hormones go through his body. This guy wasnât looking for a job with the band that was for sure. He stepped closer to the man, almost as if on autopilot. His brain was screaming at him that he should go back inside, but he didnât obey.Â
âYouâre very beautiful.â Ryan purred, letting his burnt out cigarette fall to the ground. He wrapped a hand around Andyâs waist, pulling him in.Â
âIâve been told that before.â Andy smiled, draping his arms over Ryanâs shoulders.Â
The older man leaned in, hesitating only inches from Andyâs lips. Andy closed the distance, locking lips with the other man. Ryanâs hands drifted down to grab the singerâs ass. Andyâs mind was racing, how did he end up here? Like this? He didnât want to stop though, he wanted more. He was beyond starved for affection.Â
âMm- fuckâ Andy moaned into the kiss. He shut his eyes, feeling himself get hard as Ryan kissed down his jawline, nipping at his neck. Their lips found each other once again.Â
Ryanâs hands were all over Andyâs body. Slowly though the euphoric feeling started to fade as the reality hit the singer. âOh god what am I doing?â he thought, feeling the panic rise in chest.Â
âS-Stop!â Andy yelled, pushing the man off of him.Â
Ryan gave him a bewildered look before he could even get a word out Andy ran back into the bar. He felt like he couldnât breathe, what the fuck was he doing?! He felt a sick feeling sinking into the pit of his stomach. He needed to get out of this place... now.Â
âWeâve got to go!â Andy stated, practically grabbing Ashley by the collar. The rest of the band was nowhere to be found, probably already back on the bus.Â
âWhat? Why?â Ashley stammered, clearly not wanting to leave the hostess heâd been charming the whole night.Â
Andy looked behind him to see if Ryan had followed him inside. He hadnât, but that didnât make him feel any better. The sick feeling was getting worse, and he could feel his gag reflex starting to kick in. âWe just have to go now!â Andy insisted.Â
He bursts through the doors of the bar that led out front. Ashley followed closely behind him. âWhat the fuck Six? What are you freaking out about?âÂ
Andyâs legs were shaking as he braced himself against a trashcan by the curb. He pushed his hair back before throwing up the little heâd had to eat that night. The images from minutes ago kept flashing through his mind as he struggled to catch his breath.Â
He dry heaved a few more times before finally managing to calm down enough to get a deep breath in. Ashley was standing a few feet away, staring at the singer.Â
âWhat?â Andy asked, wiping his lips.Â
âAre you really not going to fucking explain all that? Dude I was this close to banging that chick, and you freak the fuck out and pull me away?!â âI want to leave. Where are the other guys?â âOn the fucking bus, Andy what the fuck?âÂ
Andyâs heart was still beating wildly in his chest, and he started to feel sick all over again. âI-I just really need to get out of here.âÂ
Ashley sighed, realizing that something was clearly wrong with the younger boy. âOkay, well youâre not going to throw up anymore are you?âÂ
âNo.. Iâm fine. I just had.. a panic attack or something. Letâs just get on the bus.. please?â Andy said, looking around frantically.Â
âBus it is then, but you owe me.âÂ
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*All My Fault* Newt x reader
â Anonymous asked:
Do you think you could possibly do an imagine where the reader and Newt are best friends but when Newt meets Tina he starts to ignore the reader. During the battle with Graves Newt gets really hurt while protecting the reader and Tina tells the reader to back off because it's her fault. Can the reader act like everything's fine but slowly stop eating and sleeping because of guilt until Newt notices. Lots of angst but a happy ending please. I hope this isn't any trouble. Thank you!
â This does include a salty, mean Tina. So beware. Take note I am not a Tina hater! But if you donât like Tina written in a negative light, then this probably isn't for you >.< Thatâs all! Carry on ^_^
Your stop in New York City alongside your best friend, Newt Scamander, had become a bit more adventurous than you two had initially planned. Unfortunately, some of Newtâs creatures had escaped his magical case and were scattered throughout the city. With the help of the new âfriendsâ you had made, you tried to work together to recapture them.
You didnât dislike the new people you had met. In fact, Queenie was perhaps your favorite. Her constant smile and bubbly personality were welcoming and you warmed up to her rather quickly. Jacob, the no maj, was friendly and caring; someone you definitely enjoyed being around. Tina, however, seemed to capture Newtâs attention quite quickly and ever since he had spend nearly most of his time with her. Besides the fact that she had tried to turn you both in to MACUSA, Newt seemed to fancy her and seemed to pay less attention to you which honestly made you feel pretty awful. Newt had been by your side for years and you couldnât imagine your life without him. He was like the sun in the sky and the stars at night for you.Â
You were currently in search of one of Newtâs creatures, the Demiguise also known to you and Newt as Dougal. You were inside a Department store that was adorned in Christmas decorations and you were all huddled behind a giant mass of decorative wrapped gifts.Â
âTry not to be predictable...â Newt whispered. You noticed Queenie, Jacob and Tina eye each other in confusion. You smiled to yourself knowing exactly why Newt had said that.Â
âY/N, go with Queenie and Jacob.â Newt motioned for you to follow the two as they were making their way in the other direction. Giving him a look of anger, you frowned and noticed how he didnât tell Tina to move. Opening your mouth to object, Newt scurried away, Tina close behind him.Â
âFine... Iâll go go with them.â You mumbled angrily to yourself. Quickly, you pushed yourself up and quietly made your way in the direction Queenie and Jacob had gone. Catching up to them, you watched as Dougal appeared and in a moment of bravery, Jacob grabbed the Demiguise and instantly became dragged through the store. A loud crash echoed as he was knocked in to a display toppling it over.
âJacob!â Watching as Queenie ran to his side, you stayed over in the corner watching as Newt and Tina ran by.
âExcellent work, Jacob!â Newt hurried past him and ran up a flight of stairs. No one seemed to notice your absence and honestly, you wished you could just disappear and blend in with you surroundings like Dougal could.Â
After a few moments, Tina and Jacob followed behind the others and you decided youâd better too. Rushing up the stairs, you watched Newt slowly creep up behind Dougal. Without even a moments notice though, chaos erupted and everyone went in to a panic as the Occamy they had finally found went in to a state of panic.Â
âRoach in teapot!â Newt shouted. Hiding behind shelving, you watched as the rest fought to catch the cockroach. Luckily, within moments the roach was caught, thrown in to the tea pot and the Occamy was placed back in to Newtâs case. You watched as Tina looks up at Newt asking him if that was everything.
âThatâs everything.... and thatâs the truth.â Newt waited a moment and you watched as Tina smiled at him and Newt smiled back. Your heart literally broke as you realized how Tina had replaced you. She was the one who made Newt smile now. She was the one Newt probably spent his time thinking about and wanting to be with. The pit of your stomach began to ache and you fought the tears that tried to escape your E/C eyes.
Newt had found a new best friend.
Moments before you were all inside Newtâs case when suddenly Frank, Newtâs Thunderbird alerted you all he sensed danger. Now on the rooftop of Squireâs, you all looked down at the mass chaos ensuing down below. The obscurial was destroying everything in itâs path.Â
Everyone seemed to was for Newt to speak and when he did, your heart shattered.  âTina, Y/N.â He turned to face you both. He threw his case in to your hands and reached in to his pocket. Pulling out his notebook he knew he kept all his information about his creatures in, he handed it to Tina. âIf I donât come back, look after my creatures for me. Everything that you need to know is in here.âÂ
âNo!â Handing the case over to Jacob, you stomped over to Newt. âYouâre going down there alone!â You were shouting at him and it not only startled him, but yourself too. Hardly did you ever raise your voice at the kind Magizoologist, but right now, you needed to grab his attention that for days now seemed impossible to get. Looking angrily in to his eyes, not only were you mad about his decision to go down there, but also that he had so easily entrusted Tina and you to care for his creatures. What was Tina going to do? If anyone here were capable of taking care of them, it would be you! How could he even think Tina was the right person.Â
âNewt, you know this like no Obscurial you've ever seen. Itâs too dangerous!â Grabbing a hold of his arm, you tried to keep your grip. Newt looked at you, then Tina, before pushing his arm away and apparating away.
âNO!â Tina and you seemed to shout in unison. Quickly, Tina thrust the notebook to Queenie before apparating as well. Angrily, you took your wand out of your coat pocket and instantly did the same.
You watched helplessly as Newt and Graves battled in the subway station. Spell after spell was being thrown. Unsure of what to do, you looked over at Credence watching as the tears and the fear in his eyes grew. It was only moments now before he would explode again. Your attention was turned back to Newt as you watched Graves throw his arm up in the air and point his wand at Newt. Fear was growing inside you and lifted your wand ready to cast at Graves.
âCONFRINGO!â You watched as the spell was cast from your wand. Graves turned to you and quickly moved. Your spell hit behind him causing the wall to explode and cast rubble flying everywhere.Â
âNEWT!â Tina, on the other end of the subway station, ran over to where Newt was now lying. To your horror, you looked over and saw him on the ground, lying motionless. What had you done?
Graves lifted his wand one last time, ready to aim, when Aurors came spilling in alongside Madame Picquery. The battle continued and you watched helplessly as they Aurors destroyed Credence and then battled Graves. Once he was relieved of his wand, you quickly ran over to where Tina was now cradling Newt in her arms.Â
âN-newt?!â Falling to the ground beside them, you instantly noticed the blood on his vest and jacket. âOh my-â
âNewt, itâs okay..... Itâs gonna be okay...â Tina had tears streaming down her face as she watched Newt struggle to keep his eyes open.Â
âI didnât mean to- I had no idea- I was trying-â Your throat felt as though it were closing and the pain in your chest was almost unbearable. Lifting your wand, you put it over his wound ready to cast a healing spell when Tina angrily swatted it away.
âYou donât think I tried that!? He needs more!â
Unable to speak, you looked at Tina who angrily looked away and back at Newt. He was seriously injured and it was all your fault. You were careless. Now, all you could do was sit there and look at your best friend who was in so much pain and suffering and there was nothing you could do.
Sitting inside Newtâs case, you were hunched over on a stool inside his hut staring at the ground. It had been almost two days since the incident and Newt had been doing fairly better. The rubble that hit him caused a pretty nasty gash, but overall, he would be fine in good time.Â
Tina, however, hadn't left his side at the bed they set up for him at the apartment and spent nearly every waking moment sitting beside him and watching as he rested. You had emerged a few times to try and see him, but Tina would insist it wasn't a good time or you should try later. Queenie was around, but was rather sad due to her recent forced good bye to Jacob. You felt alone and all you wanted to do was hold Newt in your arms and apologize.
It was late evening and you decided you would try again to see Newt. Pushing the case lid up, you stepped out and noticed Tina wasnât in the room. Feeling a rush of relief, you quietly made your way over to Newtâs bed. Gazing down at his freckled face, you watched him sleep. Sitting down in the chair beside the bed, you gently moved his cinnamon hair from his eyes and paused when he stirred just a bit. It brought you comfort to see him resting and not being in agonizing pain anymore. You searched for his hand, wanting to hold it, when Tina reappeared in the room.
âHe needs rest.â Setting down a bowl of warm soup, Tina looked at you with cold dead eyes.Â
âI just... heâs sleeping and so I wanted to... I was just making sure he was-â
âHonestly, what were you thinking?â Tina interrupted.Â
âWhat?â
âThe whole situation was unpredictable. You should have waited for MACUSA to show up and handle the situation!â
âI didnât know they would show up or when they wou-â
âYou didnât think at all!â Tina spat.Â
Tears began to sting your eyes and you felt yourself crumbling under Tinaâs harsh words. Standing up, you brushed past her and made your way out of the room. You had hoped to find Queenie but assumed she was either in her room or out. Besides, she was dealing with her own heartbreak and you didnât want to bother her with yours.Â
Letting the tears fall, you sank to the floor and hugged your knees close. You don't know how long you cried for, but your eyes and body ached.
âMummy will be back soon....â You were trying your best to take care of Newtâs creatures in his absence. It had been days since you last left the case. You had hardly slept or ate. Your eyes were in a constant state of pain from crying and you felt absolutely horrible. You struggled to keep your balance as you lifted the bucket of feed to take to the mooncalves. Your eyes were heavy and your legs felt like jello. Setting it down, you fell to the floor. Your hands hit the ground harshly and you felt the rocks scrape your palms.Â
You pushed yourself up and noticed you had ripped your skirt. You didnât care though. Lifting your hands up, you examined the cuts but your vision was so blurry. Dropping them, you fought to stand up. A gentle hand startled you as you looked over to see Dougal appear beside you and help guide you to the hut. Thanking him, you plopped down on the cot and stared at the ceiling. It was so quiet, given the sounds of the various creatures beyond the hut door. You missed the sound of Newt mumbling as he worked at his table or how he would shuffle about and sometimes bump in to think because he was so preoccupied and not paying attention.
Closing your eyes, you attempted to sleep full failed once again. Just like all the nights before, each time you closed them all you saw was the replay of Newt getting hit by the explosion and the blood that stained his clothes. Tinaâs words played over in your mind like a broken record and you fought to turn it off. You knew it was all your fault. She was right. Why didnât you just wait?Â
Rolling over on to your side, you let the warm tears roll down your cheeks as you stared off in to the distance. You wondered how Newt was recovering and if he was mad at you. Surely Tina told him it was your fault. The fear of him being angry with you only made your tears worse. Struggling to breathe, you cried as you held yourself.Â
Another sleepless night.
Newt had finally gained the strength to stand and walk. Tina had left the room to prepare some food for him when he decided to go looking for you inside his case. Tina had mentioned you'd been down there and he decided to check on you and his creatures.
Clutching his wound with one hand, Newt gently and slowly descended down the stairs in to his case. Landing gently, he walked through the hut and out in the habitats. Looking both ways, he searched for you but didn't seem to spot you. He figured maybe you had gone out and decided he would then go visit his creatures.Â
Hobbling over to Frank he didn't realize you were near his habitat hunched over and fixing something.
âY/N?â
Jumping, you turned around and came eye to eye with Newt. Seeing him clutching his bandaged wound along the side of his body, you winced at the slight sight of blood seeping through.Â
âNewt!â Backing away, you hung your head down trying to avoid looking at him.Â
âI- I was coming to see you... I haven't seen you and wanted to be sure you were okay.â His gentle eyes looked at you but you kept your gaze down.
âIâm- Iâm fine.â You lied.Â
You sensed Newt scanning you with his eyes. He knew you too well and knew you weren't okay. âAre you hurt at all?â He asked, reaching out to you.
Backing away with your arms hugging your waist, you answered quickly, âIâm fine.â
Staring at your feet, you suddenly saw Newtâs hand rest under your chin and gently raise your head up.Â
âMerlin...âÂ
Looking up in to his eye, you saw the sadness that swept over him.Â
âYou look as though you haven't slept or eaten in days...â His voice was almost a whisper. You pushed away from him turning around quickly. âY/N, please look at me...âÂ
âNo.â
âWhy?â Newt stood there, waiting for your response. You closed your eyes trying to fight the tears that were fighting to fall down your face. You finally answered him.
âI can't because.... because itâs all my fault....â It was as though your body had finally broke free and you burst in to uncontrollable tears. Your breathing was labored and your whole body was shaking. You felt so weak and you suddenly fell to the ground. A pain seared through your chest and your head felt as though it were hit by a ton of bricks.Â
Falling beside you, Newt ignored the pain in his side and instantly wrapped you in his arms. It broke his heart to watch as you tried to break free, pushing him off, but your weak body was no match. The pain in his side only grew, but he didnât care. He would hold you for however long it took for you to be okay, regardless of how much pain he would have to endure.Â
He rested his head on top of yours and let you cry. Your shaking body and labored breaths seemed to only grow and he closed his eyes to fight back his own tears. Your cries stabbed him like knives in his heart and the feeling of you trying to resist him made his chest feel as though it were full of needles.Â
He only hugged you tighter.
Neither one of you knew how much time had eventually passed until you had finally calmed down. Newt felt your body go limp in his embrace and he looked down at you. Your eyes were closed and your pale face was stained in tears. Dark circles were under your eyes and he noticed the scrapes on your hands.Â
âY/N...â He said your name in such a way of sadness. Holding you in his arm, he used the other to wipe the tears from your eyes. Finally, you opened them and looked up at him.Â
âIâm so- so sorry, Newtâ You choked. He looked down at you in confusion and tried to understand why you could be sorry.Â
âFor what?â He asked.
âI did this to you. Itâs my fault. I shouldnât have tried to help. I should have waited for MACUSA like Tina said and then all of this could have been avoided.â
âNo.â The words left his lips without even a second thought. Your eyes shot up at him in confusion and you tried to understand. How was he not mad? âThis is NOT your fault, Y/N. You did what anyone else would have done. You tried to help me and Iâm grateful for that. Youâre my best friend and I love you.â His lips curled in to his signature lopsided smile as he looked down at you. You fought for a moment trying to convince yourself he was telling the truth and not just trying to make you feel better. You knew Newt all too well and knew he wasn't one to say things he didn't mean.Â
âI love you tooâ You replied. He kept his eyes locked with yours and after a few moments he finally began to stand, taking you with him. âYou need to eat.... and you need to sleep.â Brushing your H/C hair from your face, he cupped your face in his hands. Your weak eyes looked back in to his and you nodded. Newt gently took a hold of your hand and kissed it. Smiling back up at you, he looked in to your E/C eyes and whispered, âIâm the luckiest man to have you in my lifeâ.Â
Smiling at him, you walked behind him as he made his way back to the hut and out of the case. Following behind, you emerged and found Tina standing there. She looked unamused and was about to speak when Newt looked back at you and said, âYou can sleep next to me.âÂ
Without looking up at Tina to see her face, you walked over to the bed and got under the covers. Newt followed after and smiled down at you. He looked up at Tina and with a stern look asked, âCould you bring us another bowl of soup?â
OOOKKAAAAYYYYY. I really enjoyed writing this one. I hope you guys like it ^_^
#newt scamander imagines#newt scamander#newt scamander x you#newt scamander x reader#fantastic newt imagines#fantastic beasts and where to find them#fantastic beasts fanfic#fantasticbeasts
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