#and today is a random day isn’t it? idk maybe it’s not but it seems random lmao

[kiwikiwiandkiwi]

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[yenqa]

angel

synopsis — sunghoon can’t seem to figure out if you’re human or an angel.

warnings — sunghoon is a lil tipsy but sobers up quickly (also idk how tipsy people act so sorry), mentions of drinking, reader is called pretty and has a purse

pairing — sunghoon x (implied) fem!reader

wordcount — 1197

a/n — happy late bday sunghoon! hope he had the best birthday ever

inspired by the song “angel” by keshi! also not proofread sorry

Sunghoon wasn’t having the greatest birthday of all time. After 21 years of his life he decides he likes this one the least.

It’s weird, he was supposed to be drunk and having fun at Jake’s apartment until the clock hit ungodly hours of the day, but instead it’s 9pm, and he’s more tipsy than he would like to be at a random bench in a park.

It’s not like he was kicked out or anything, but Jake’s apartment had become too stuffy for him and the smell of alcohol overwhelmed him and they had invited way too many people for his liking, so he decided it was best to go on a walk alone. He had no idea how or why he was now sitting on the bench.

Sunghoon has always been a people watcher, he enjoyed seeing others smile over news he had no idea about, or watching someone quickly walk to their destination, creating make-believe stories of where they’re going and why they’re going so fast.

There’s not many people around—scratch that, Sunghoon can’t spot anyone, but his vision is too disoriented to be trusted.

That’s when his eye catches you, strolling down the stone pathway—Wait were those angel wings?

His eyes squint towards you, unable to differentiate if you were wearing a scarf or were an actual angel from heaven, but he saw the grin on your face and figured you could easily pass for one.

You happily plop down on the other side of the bench, eyes scanning the scenery around you.

This immediately sobers him up, and he fixes his posture. Glancing over to him, you give him a smile, asking “What are you doing here so late at night?”

He’s unable to comprehend that you’re talking to him, as if the alcohol had come rushing back to his head and made him unable to think or even say anything to pretty people like you.

He finally finds his voice, replying, “It’s my birthday, and I’ve been out with my friends all day, but I needed some space for a little.”

Gasping at the mention of his birthday, you rummage through your purse, also saying “Why didn’t you say so! I don’t have a gift for you.”

He chuckled, shaking his hands, “You don’t have to give me a gift, we don’t even know each other's name yet, angel girl.” Looking up, you can feel warmth fill your cheeks at the name, quickly snapping out of it to search for something you can do.

“My name’s Y/n, what’s your name, birthday boy?”

Letting out an Ah-hah! You showcase a small lighter proudly in your hands, he mumbles your name to himself a couple of times, forcing it to go to his sober mind so he remembers everything.

You push the lighter, letting a flame fill the metal part, scooting next to him, you gesture for him to blow the fire out.

He smiles, blowing it out in one go, you clap your hands singing the words happy birthday over and over again. Maybe this birthday isn’t so bad.

“Sunghoon.”

“What?” You tilt your head slightly.

“My name, it’s Sunghoon.”

Nodding, you place the match carefully into your bag, “Well, Sunghoon, how does it feel to be—wait how old are you?”

You silently pray that you aren’t talking to anyone over the age of 24, crossing your fingers in your pocket and anxiously wait for his reply.

“I’m 21 today, got my first sip of alcohol!” He jokes.

Mentally letting out a sigh of relief, you make sure he isn’t left curious, “I’m 20! But anyways—how does it feel to be officially 21?”

He takes a breath, unsure where to start.

The truth is he’s terrified of growing old, having more responsibilities than he could ever imagine. Every year he’s inching closer to a time where he’s supposed to be successful, but all he feels is that he’s failed to do anything.

“Can I say something kind of personal?” Sunghoon decides it’s much better to be safe than sorry.

You nod, a soft smile grows on your face, “Tell me anything! I’m here to listen.”

“I feel kind of scared? I don’t think I’m ready for those kinds of responsibilities.”

Feeling bold, you gently take one of his hands, cupping it with your hands. His cold hands contrasts your warms ones, but you don’t mind.

“I think you’re underestimating yourself, Sunghoon. As you grow older—yes you’ll have more responsibilities but it’ll join your routine, then when you find that you have lots of responsibilities you’ll be so used to it that you won’t even notice a thing!”

He nods, taking in your advice word by word, “I guess I never really thought of it that way, thank you, I’ll keep that in mind.”

You hum in reply, and a wave of silence washes over you two.

Turning your face up, you relish at the sight of the sky. Though the city won’t ever let the stars shine, you can still admire the moon, glimmering in the dark sky.

It's almost a full moon, and you swear you’ve never seen a sight prettier.

“The moon is beautiful tonight, isn’t it?” You ask.

Sunghoon’s eyes widen slightly, but you don’t look over at him. He’s not sure that you understand the true meaning of it, considering you just met. So he brushed it off, agreeing with your question.

Though it’s hard to focus on the moon when there's a person right next to him, emulating a warm aura that he can’t help but mistake for something mystical.

You two sit in silence, both admiring the surreal sight ahead of you.

You finally look back at him, warmth filling your cheeks when you catch that he wasn’t even facing the moon the whole time. Looking away, he raises a hand to cover his face, you giggle, looking away just as flustered as him.

A sound of your cell phone rings through your ears, you begrudgingly pick it up, muttering an apology to him before answering the call. He doesn’t eavesdrop but he can tell it’s something important.

He’s proven right when you put the phone down, a frown on your face when you explain, “I gotta go—I’m so sorry! My sister needs urgent help with something, but have an amazing birthday Sunghoon.” You wave goodbye standing up and taking a few steps away.

He grabs your arm before you can go, turning you around so you’ll face him.

“Will I ever see you again?”

You chuckle, opening your bag to pull out a pen and an old napkin. Writing your number, you hand the napkin to him, leaving with the same grin that you had when he first spotted you.

He watches as you walk away, calling back your—what he assumes—sister to address the situation. He slouches back down when you’re out of view, checking the time he’s realized he’s been out for too long, so he races back to Jake’s house.

Walking back in he spots Jake, the boy hastily walks over to him, asking “Bro—where were you? We were looking for you.”

Sunghoon lets out five words, “I just met an angel.”

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[ye4gerism]

Something about guys and chubby babies just have me in love (prob because I want a chubby baby with curly)😭. I know you kinda covered it in dream of fish but what do you think curly would be as a dad. Something about him seems fatherly for like a kid or a baby. Or maybe it’s just the he looks 35 and married. Ngl if it was me I’d be keeping him waiting with a baby but then I’d have the guilt like damn I want kids but I’m scared. But also it only takes two to make a family so it’s not like we wouldn’t have one. Also some other random question I have is what type of music do you think curly listens too. Idk why that question was just on my mind to ask you. Hope you had a easy day today happy holidays and happy almost Christmas if you celebrate 🎄

hi! sorry for the late response. i decided to take a small break for the holidays (happy belated xmas and happy holidays btw)

i think curly would really enjoy rock. i love scorpions so i’m going to say curly loves scorpions and his favorite song is woman. i feel like he might also indulge in jesus christ superstar - he’s not a big musical fan but appreciates the rock elements. obvs he’d love gethsemane.

ok parenting hcs - so i actually have a parenting story in the draft (hi anon who asked for that!) and i was planning to do some parenting hcs depending on how i felt, so i’ll keep this brief!

i feel like reader and curly would probably have two - they’d plan the first and their second born would be a surprise. first baby would be girl and curly turns into an absolute big softy for her. he would be a little firm though and make sure that baby is disciplined and knows how to follow rules.

he’s the type of dad that’ll bring home little trinkets from his trips and maybe take baby out of ice cream after school even if he isn’t supposed to. he’d participate in her little tea parties and her little doll storylines. and he builds everything omg - barbie dollhouse, swing set, everything.

when baby’s a little older, he definitely pushes her towards sports and even she ultimately decides that she wants to do something different, he’ll still show up for her.

[kissboybyler]

this is so random and probably not a good analogy for what i want to say but whatever-

today at school i was talking with one of my classmates and for some reason i started rambling about tumblr (she had no idea what it is) and byler (or st in general, i didn’t know how she’d react to byler) and how wonderful it was being part of a fandom, and another classmate heard us and joined us and said “oh yeah tumblr! when you mentioned in class one day that it was the social media platform you use the most i was like oh what, because id heard of it before but i never knew of someone who actually used it. So id thought id download it and check it out. I deleted it an hour later tho”

And yeah that sounds a bit silly, but the only thing i could think of while he was talking was that- we have no idea how much we impact/ influence other people in our lives on a daily basis. Maybe this is not that great an example, but for me, that day id thought no one was paying attention and my classmates were probably making fun of how weird i was. But look! I don’t know, it just got me thinking that there are so many people who perceive us on the daily, people who think about what we said, people who notice the way we speak and move, people who think about us randomly during the day, people who have picked up on our quirks and made them their own.

Isn’t it a bit beautiful? How we are all parts of the people we’ve met? I think it is.

PS: he asked me why i had tumblr and i said that i was part of multiple fandoms and he was like “oh like- like the ghost?” and i was like “that’s a phantom”😭 idk i thought it was funny. Also he said he never watched s4 because s3 bored him 😞

also another classmate of mine asked “when’s s5 coming out?” and the moment i was about to say “autumn 2025” my other classmate said “2027 or something” and i was like, fair enough, it seems like that at this point😭

[strawbeerossi]

A Secret Girlfriend. (Spencer’s Version)

Idk this was a cute thing I thought of while listening to Enchanted while getting ready for bed.

My writing is so rusty but I hope y’all enjoy it. Maybe this’ll inspire me to write more, we shall see.

Word count: 1.1K

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“Spencer. You need to listen to the whole discography to appreciate her in all her glory.” Y/N said, looking to her boyfriend as he was raising an eyebrow and looking over all the Taylor Swift songs in a playlist that his loving girlfriend put together. “Do I? I don’t want to make it seem like I don’t respect her talent because I do, it just doesn’t seem like my thing. Scratch that, it isn’t my thing.” The male crinkled his nose, a smile on his face. It wasn’t like he wouldn’t listen, mainly because he was always happy to do whatever made Y/N happy.

“Try before you deny, Reid.” Y/N huffed while letting her arms cross over her chest, a smile still gracing her features, knowing it wouldn’t take much convincing at all. “I really think you’ll like her music. It’s comforting in a way, plus she is truly one of the most sweetest people ever. She’s got a beautiful voice too.”

The thing was, Y/N was right. Spencer did like her music because of the comfort associated with it. However, the comfort wasn’t because of the melodies, the beautifully crafted bridges, or even the impeccable vocals. It was because this music reminded him of his girlfriend. The way that she’d be screaming ‘Enchanted’ while taking a shower or how she’d make him dance with her to ‘Lover’ in their shared kitchen.

That comfort was something Spencer took with him everywhere, even to the point where he’d have one earbud in while listening to one of the random albums he’d decided on. Which of course, Y/N made sure to make him have all of the ‘Taylor’s Version’ of the albums that were out already, the woman playfully threatening to beat him with her shoe if she seen anything different.

It was currently a Friday at the office, a quiet day where they were mostly getting caught up with desk work and written evaluations. Spencer had his earbud in, the album of choice today being ‘Speak Now’, mainly in anticipation for the long awaited ‘Taylor’s Version’ that Y/N was over the moon about, it being her favorite album out of all the others. He wasn’t even paying attention, being so used to being at home and having some awful duets with Taylor, unable to stop his mouth from singing along to ‘Mine’. The song had caught a few glances, however Penelope was the one who actually coined on what he was singing.

The rest of the day, there was a little bit of light gossip between the rest of the team, mostly because none of that were really expecting Spencer to be singing any of the songs that blondie had. Which there was already a theory; Spencer had a girlfriend who they hadn’t met yet. Penelope was fully convinced of it. Someone was introducing this music to Spencer because he wouldn’t just willingly listen to something he wouldn’t normally indulge in.

Little did they know, that theory would be proved right a couple weeks later.

The highly anticipated Eras tour was something that everyone had to fight in the trenches for, Y/N being one of the people who spent her whole day in a waiting room, getting the best tickets she could get her hands on. There was a reason why she needed Spencer to listen to this music in the first place, the two going together after Y/N surprised him with the tickets, her excitement being too high for Spencer to even think of denying going.

He’d ended up telling Emily that he was going to see his mom, giving him that night without interruption or fear of having to make his girlfriend leave early because he had a case. Now, these rumours reached the unit chief, the woman not saying anything about her suspicions as she allowed Spencer the time off. Although she had a good idea that he’d be spending that time with his little secret girlfriend that he thought he could hide.

What Spencer didn’t anticipate though, was who had the seats right beside himself and Y/N. They’d made it fairly early, mainly because Y/N had floor seats so the two had to get there without the crowding when it came to getting to their seats. Which they’d made it to their spots without a hitch, something she needed to brag about because Spencer had said some sort of statistic of how there was a chance they wouldn’t have had to fight through crowds to sit down anyway.

“Was I right or was I right?” Y/N asked, a cocky smile on her face while she was sitting down with her boyfriend, her hand reaching over to hold his as she was bouncing with excitement. “I’m so glad you came with me tonight. I mean it. I was so worried I’d have to come alone or sell the other ticket. You’re the best.” She sighed in content while leaning over to kiss her boyfriend’s cheek.

Spencer was opening his mouth to speak before he was frozen in place after hearing two very familiar voices. “Oh come on, Garcia. I agreed to come with you tonight and you’re gonna bully me the whole night?” Luke asked, a laugh leaving his lips as he was trailing after Penelope, the blonde scoffing. “Of course I am. You know that I have been looking forward to this for weeks and with JJ being busy and Spencer being god knows where, you were my very last choice.” She spoke while trying to humble the male, although Luke was rolling his eyes with a smile gracing his features soon after.

Don’t look over. Don’t look over. Don’t—

“I love your dress!” Y/N gushed, leaning over to look over at Penelope, unknowingly calling attention to Spencer even though he was mentally begging for Penelope to not pay much attention to him. It wasn’t that he wanted to hide his girlfriend, far from it.. He just knew how the team was when it came to significant others and their coworker’s relationships. They were too nosy, as good as they meant by it.

“Thank you! Oh my god, your bottoms!” Penelope grinned while looking over at Y/N, although through her peripherals, she seen a very familiar face. Instead of calling attention to him just yet, she was instead keeping light conversation with the woman who was on the other side of her coworker.

It was later in the concert though, Y/N being fully captivated by the show in front of her as she was happily screaming along with lyrics and dancing, one hand in Spencer’s while she was keeping her gaze on the stage. That was when Penelope decided to say something, her elbow nudging Spencer’s side to get his attention before she was smiling from ear to ear up at him. “I knew it. You didn’t just randomly start listening to her!” She yelled over the music, making Spencer blush while laughing. “You picked a good one!” Penelope called soon after, to which Spencer was looking over at his girlfriend who was having the time of her life.

Yeah, yeah he did.

[xxchaosjojoxx]

I would like to make a penguin x reader request if possible. ( Sorry if its too specific or hard to follow along)

One where reader forgets penguin, maybe bc of a devil fruit user, hypnosis gone wrong, or a concussion, or something like that. Penguin tries everything to try to help them remember him but nothing works. He tries sharing memories, recreating how they met, making thier favorite food, trying to spend as much time with them, etc..

Idk I'm stuck between reader remembering him by the most random way like him sharing a fun fact about one of the readers favorite interests, maybe watching penguin get pranked or reader looking at something that maybe penguin gifted or made to reader.

Also just wanna say that I love your works!!!! Can't get enough of them and I never get tired of re-reading them.

First of all thank you for your request. Knowing that you love my work makes me really happy. Thank you so much <3 I hope I could do your request justice and you enjoy it.

Forget me not (Penguin x f! reader)

This was supposed to be a happy day. Penguin prepared everything. Today was your one-year anniversary. Before the Polar Tang could dock at the port, there was a no-name pirate crew. Attacking you guys. Law and the rest could fight them easily off.

Before the pirates escaped the scene someone charged a beam towards Penguin.

You screamed his name while running towards your boyfriend. With a jump you pushed Penguin away, getting hit by that mysterious beam.

“NOO!” Penguin screamed while watching your body collapse on the deck.

Penguin crawled towards you, hugging you tight. “Wake up love. Please.” Penguins voice was trembling. Tears were forming in his eyes.

Law and Shachi couldn’t help but stare in shock towards you and Penguin. Penguin broke down, sobbing slightly.

Shachi clenched his fist, turning towards the ship. “COME BACK HERE BASTARDS!” He screamed, jumping down into the ocean, attacking them. Law’s eyes were furious, as he walked towards the railing of the Polar Tang. “Room-Shambles” his voice was cold and thanks to his ability Shachi was back on the ship. “Captain…they need to pay.”

“I know Shachi.” One glance and one move was enough and the other ship was sinking.

Shachi and Law rushed towards Penguin and you.

While Shachi tried to comfort Penguin, Law did his best to examine you.

A soft ground escaped you and your eyes fluttered open.

“Y/N-chan!” As soon as you opened your eyes completely you scanned the people around you.

“Are you ok Y/N-ya?” Law asked and you couldn’t help but blush.

“Are you my prince charming?” You asked and everyone around you flinched.

You wrapped your arms around Law’s neck.

“G-Get away from me, y/n-ya.” Law tried to remove your body from him.

You looked at him with dreamy eyes. “Y/N is my name? It should be a crime to be such an attractive man.”

Law flinched and tried to get away from you. “Get a grip. Shachi! Penguin! Do something. Your girlfriend is crazy right now.”

You turned around seeing two young men in front of you.

“My my why are there so many handsome men here?” You observed Shachi and Penguin carefully and crawled towards Shachi. “So you are my boyfriend sweetheart?”

You asked with a sweet voice. Shachi couldn’t help but take a step back, laughing nervously with a giant blush on his face.

“N-No you see. Ehh, it's him. Penguin is the man of your dreams.”

You blinked, turned towards Penguin. “You are Penguin?” He nodded.

“You sure that neither you or him are my boyfriend. I can’t even see his face.”

You asked while turning towards Shachi. Penguin could feel a sting in his heart.

“Seems like an annoying devil fruit ability. I have no idea if and how we could fix it. I will try my best.”

“Memory loss? Mhm maybe this isn’t too bad.”

You said while trying to stand up. Penguin and Shachi were fast to help you, but you only accepted Shachi’s help. “Not against you, Penguin hat but I don’t believe that you are the best catch I could get.”

Penguin was awfully quiet the whole time.

“Hey stop being a bitch. I get the feeling that not only your memory went towards a trash can but also your whole personality.”

“Shachi!” Law and Ikkaku, who joined the group from afar, said in unison.

“Stop it Shachi.” Ikkaku said.

“Oh you’ve got a temper. I like that.” You said and tried to close the distance between you. Shachi gritted his teeth, shoving you against the ground with his hands on your neck.

Everyone was shocked at this sudden outburst from the red-hair.

“How dare you insult him like that?! GET A GRIP!”

Penguin was so hurt and in trance, he didn’t even realize what was happening. Everything felt like a nightmare.

Everyone screamed, trying to calm down Shachi who was on a rampage.

Law and Bepo tried their best to get him away from you.

But Shachi was stronger than Law and Bepo at that moment.

“Don’t make me use my ability!”

Law tried to deescalate the situation without any harm. He was pretty exhausted.

“She forgot me…?” It was Penguin’s sad voice that calmed Shachi down.

Shachi stood up, after looking towards his best friend.

“Apologize. Or I will make you regret ever joining us in the first place.”

Shachi said. His voice sent a shiver down your spine.

“Shachi, it isn't her fault. This wasn’t her intention to lose her memory” Ikkaku said.

“I’m not talking about this shit with this fucking memory loss. I’m talking about her attitude towards Penguin.”

Shachi was still above you. He let himself get dragged inside from Bepo.

“Make sure he takes a cold shower. I will try to find a way to reverse it.” Law said, patting Penguin on his shoulder while being on his way towards his room.

“The best thing you could do is try to recreate things for her to remember.”

Ikkaku, Penguin and you stayed behind. Ikkaku was soon on the ground beside you. “I’m Ikkaku. Your best friend. Are you hurt?”

You looked at her. “No…he was scary.”

The other woman smiled softly. “I know he was probably hurt. Normally he isn’t like that I promise.”

“Can you help me get up, Ikkaku? I guess my legs stopped working right now.” You asked nervously and soon enough strong arms were on your body. Penguin held your body bridal style.

“Allow me to escort you towards your room.” His voice was calm without a hint of emotion. You couldn’t see his facial expression at all.

“Ok…” Was all you could say. The three of you were on your way towards your room.

There was a silence among you, until you entered the room. Penguin let you down your bed. “T-Thank you. Sorry for acting so rude back there.”

Penguin stood there, looking at the ground without saying a word. Without reacting to your words he went towards the door. Before he could leave and close the doors he looked at you. You were sure to see a glimpse of his eyes for a moment.

“Maybe you don’t remember me right now, but I’m going to make you remember! I know you’ll remember me!” With that the door closed and you were alone with Ikkaku.

A light blush was on your cheeks and you couldn’t help but smile a little. “Maybe he is a good catch.”

Ikkaku giggled. “He sure is. Try to get some sleep. I will help you remember us and him.”

You looked at her. “Please do.”

The next morning was quite stressful and full of anxiety. You still couldn’t remember a single thing. Ikkaku explained some of the basic things. About your crewmates, your daily activities.

As you entered the dining hall everyone was there and as soon as they saw you, it went silent.

“Don’t be like that guys. Try to act normal for her to remember us.” It was Penguin’s voice. He held a plate with pancakes in front of you. “This is your favorite breakfast.”

he smiled as soon as you accepted it. “Thank you.”

Jean Beart, Clione and even Hakugan talked with you. Telling you some stories and adventures. You enjoyed it but nothing rang a bell for you. You could hear a scoff at the end of the room. It was Shachi and he was staring at you.

You couldn’t help but flinch. “Relax Missy. I won’t bite.” Shachi soon joined your table, telling you a lot of inside jokes and pranks you two played on Penguin from time to time.

After some time passed everyone left the dining room for their daily activities.

“Even though you suffered from memory loss, there is no excuse for you to relax while the rest works. You have cleaning duty with Penguin the whole week.”

Law said and soon enough you and Penguin were alone in the kitchen. Cleaning the dishes and everything else. No one said a word. You glanced over towards Penguin, he sure seemed really nervous around you. “What’s wrong with that determination I saw yesterday?”

Penguin turned right in an instant. “I…I have no idea how I should do it.”

“Tell me about yourself or about us.”

“Mhm.” He thought about it.

“We had our first anniversary yesterday, but well. Didn’t go like I planned.”

Both of you felt a sting inside your heart. “You like my date ideas. Like last month, when we went to the amusement park. Or the one when we fell asleep during night watch. We cuddled the whole night.”

Penguin had such a bright smile on his face when he shared his memories with you.

After you finished your cleaning duties he still shared some more memories with you.

“Sounds like you cherished our time.”

Penguin looked at you andagain you saw a glimpse of his face.

“I cherish you. Now and forever.”

“I’m sorry for not remembering anything. And for acting like a bitch yesterday.”

“Don’t mention it. Well I try to find Law. Maybe he has an idea how to fix this problem.”

“You didn’t find a solution captain?”

Law frowned, looking frustrated. “I can't find anything at all. Did sharing stories with her help?”

“Not at all.”

“Is there anything about you she loves the most? Maybe showing this might help her.”

Penguin felt happy. “There is! Thank you Captain!”

Penguin tried to find you. “She went outside. Catching some fresh air.” Bepo said and soon enough Penguin rushed outside.

Penguin remembered Law’s question. Hell yeah there was something.

As he went outside you were standing at the railing, looking at the ocean.

“HEEEEYYY Y/N!!” Penguin shouted and you turned towards him.

As he ran towards you, he stumbled and fell on the ground with a loud ‘bonk’.

His hat was flying off his head. “Oh god Penguin.” With fast steps you ran towards him, catching his aht mid air and crouching in front of him.

“Is everything ok?”

“Do you remember me now?!” He looked at you and you could see his face crystal clear. His blue eyes, reminds you of a sapphire and his short black hair clinged onto his forehead. He was really attractive. You couldn’t help but feel hot.

“Sadly not, but showing me your face was a good idea.” You smiled and offered him his hat.

Penguin now sat on the ground. “Showing my face was not the plan. You loved my clumsy nature the most.”

“You fell on purpose? Doesn’t that hurt?”

“It does but I would endure all the pain in the world if it means for you to remember me.”

You laughed. “You are such a silly goofball.”

You tried to place his hat back on top of him at this moment he turned towards you.

“Say-” and with that your lips were connecting.

You both parted away with a “sorry”.

The hat was now on his head but his eyes were clearly visible to you.

“Is there something I can do? Do you have an idea?”

With a light blush you nodded. “Yeah…can you maybe wait for me here? Just for a few minutes.”

You stood up and ran inside the Polar Tang. A few minutes passed and you came back. You were panting while holding a gift in your hand. “I dunno why but I had a flashback just now.” You handed him the gift. He opened it and saw a scarf with a cute little penguin at the end. ‘For my beloved Penguin.’

“You did this for me?”

You nodded “I guess so. But I didn’t know what exactly it was. I just knew that there was something hidden under my bed.”

You sat down beside him, catching your breath again. “I still don’t remember anything.”

He held your hand. “We will find a way. "I promise." You both smiled at each other.

“I have another idea.” Penguin tilted his head. You caressed his cheek while capturing his lips. He was confused and even though he knew the best thing was to step back he couldn’t deny his instincts. His hands were on the back of your neck, pulling you towards him. After you distance yourself you look at him. “I remember that you liked my strawberry lip gloss, Pen.”

“Huh? D-Did you call me…Pen..?”

“Pen…I guess I found a good way to remember you.”

You gave him a quick peck on the lips.

Without saying anything he captured your lips once more. Caressing your cheeks. You felt something on your face and as you opened your eyes you realized that he cried. You pulled apart. Wiping away his tears. “I am sorry Pen. I wanted to protect you back there. Not hurting you more.”

“I’m sorry for crying. But I…I’m so glad that I got you back and that you are safe.”

“Thanks for being there for me.”

You hugged him and he hugged you back so tightly you were scared that he might break some bones.

“Please don’t tell me you have to kiss us in order to remember us.” You could hear Shachi’s voice behind you. He was smirking at both of you. “Glad your back.”

You giggled. “Thanks for caring about Pen while I couldn’t.”

“Don’t mention it. I will leave you lovebirds alone for a while.”

You gave Penguin a loving and sweet forehead kiss. “Maybe we should kiss some more. So I can remember more.”

“You don’t have to tell me twice, princess.”

[the-worms-in-your-bones]

The last of the Gallifrey short trips notes: Erasure

There are earthquakes on gallifrey (i mean idk why there wouldn’t be, planets are going to planet after all, but still feels like something to note)

Heartshaven has a wine cellar → there’s gallifreyan wine, wonder if it’s any different to human wine since human alcohol doesn’t really affect time lords, or is it just for the taste

Also why were they at heartshaven

The house is not well reinforced → commonality among houses, or just heartshaven

Narvin: says something heartfelt, narvin immediately after: i never said that

‘The rise of the killer cats of ginseng … the cia didn’t handle that one at all well, but luckily we made sure no record exists today’ → ??? please tell me more about this

‘A rare moment of a time lord cover up that actually benefited all gallifrey’ → i do wonder what the extent of what they had to cover up was, like did this involve just deleting some records, or deleting some memories (or maybe even people, let's be real here, though i guess they wouldn’t exactly remember if that happened since they would have never existed) and how did it benefit gallifrey, save them from embarrassment? Prevent it from destabilizing their society and/or government? What are we talking here

Loyalty meant everything → the blind trust of gallifrey and its institutions (this is somewhat just part of how narvin is, but also we see this with some other time lords in the invasion of time, so i wonder how common of a trait the whole blind loyalty thing is among time lords)

‘I don’t know how many years it goes back, i was younger then’ → i’m begging the writers to stop being allergic to telling me narvin’s age, please anything but he’s at least two hundred (my personal headcanon is anywhere from 600-900 by the start of the series, which isn’t exactly a small range, but it’s fine, i can deal with that) (← lies)

‘The high council had been monitoring a world’ → i wonder how much the monitoring of potential threats (and/or whatever is of interest) falls to the high council and what falls to the cia, when does it become enough of a thing for the high council to get involved vs when is it just something for the cia to deal with

There’s an apc net prediction, so maybe that’s when the high council gets involved, otherwise it’s just the cia monitoring things for themselves

‘Universes, all of them’ → the time lords have some amount of power and control over other universes, or at least have access to them, this would make sense as we see the everything with the axis

‘One of my seniors’ → narvin isn’t yet at the point of being only a step or two below vansell yet, but as is mentioned later, he’s above the status of junior agent (trying to figure out how the various agencies and organizations on gallifrey work one step at a time, this would be a lot easier if the writers weren’t constantly disagreeing on things, but alas, what else is to be expected)

‘Matrix keepers rarely got involved with the day to day running of the capitol, preferring to spend their days observing and seeking the ability to read truthful timelines from the cloister wraiths. For the head of their little clique to emerge from the catacombs was a sign, and not a good one’ → so yes the matrix houses all of time lord knowledge and can to an extent predict the future, but it seems that these things are very jumbled, the matrix keepers keep to themselves, presumably spending that time trying to interpret the matrix, because it seems that unless you have control over the matrix (like say the president would) it’s hard to navigate or get accurate information from (which would make sense given what we see of it in the show, it’s just a jumble of random things, bits of memories smashed together), also the ‘truthful timelines’ bit, does the matrix predict events along multiple timelines, can they see all the possible futures? I wonder what learning to differentiate between a possible future and a probable one is like, like what makes a future more likely to happen then another and how does one learn to discern that (also kind of love the whole ‘well if they thought it was important enough to actually tell us about we’re a bit fucked aren’t we’ like sure they might just use technology to communicate their findings/predictions, but it is a little funny to me to imagine that they stay down there until they encounter something possibly apocalyptic)

‘This was the sort of job for which you’d normally summon a junior grade time lord’ → i need to make a chart of time lord ranks or something (also the ‘give them a time ring’ part, junior time lords don’t have tardises? (i actually think i’d heard that somewhere before, but idk where it was) if this is the case, i think it makes it a bit funnier that vansell gives narvin the time ring here)

‘Be back in a nanosecond’ → again, don’t actually know where it comes from (if it comes from anywhere at all and isn’t just popular headcanon) but isn’t there something about time lords sticking to the passage of time on gallifrey even if they don’t other places, so like if gallifrey experiences a week of time they also do, unsurprising that the cia would be breaking this rule if it exists (also just like stick to the fucking bit and call things spans)

‘Gallifrey disappearing, indeed the entire rassilonian time era being lost’ → interesting the implication that if the rassilonian time era didn’t happen that gallifrey would just be gone (at least that’s what i’m taking this as, it could very well be that that era didn’t happen because gallifrey disappeared) (also when is the rassilonian era (the past???) i should maybe figure out the gallifreyan timeline, or like at least some of it)

‘It is narvin’s destiny’ → guy just wants to do his job, keeps getting sucked into prophecies and shit, this is so funny to me

‘Vansell was strange at the best of times’ → not really lore relevant at all, but i do love that they take pretty much any opportunity to insult vansell, designated guy that no one likes

‘He produced a time ring and slid it on my wrist’ → time rings bracelet sized then (or can they come in different sizes)

‘Very rudimentary time travel’ → like sure there are levels to all types of technology, but i’d love to learn about the differences between advanced vs rudimentary time travel, would i understand any of it, no i’m not a physics guy, but i still think it’d be interesting

And there it is, the whole ‘no one else can have this power but us’ thing, like oh these other people are using time traveling abilities to change history, they’re erasing people from existence, possibly even planets, can’t have them doing that, only we’re allowed to do that

‘Any measures’

Yeah if we can’t stop them from using time travel to erase people from existence we’re going to show up and use time travel to erase them from existence → it’s moments like these where i wonder if they even hear what they’re saying, or if they’ve just accepted that this is perfectly okay for them to do because they figured it out before everyone else and know how to use time travel responsibly (probably a mix of both honestly)

‘Time tots, no children, just children’ → okay yes, narvin not knowing what children are for a second is funny, but this does have some interesting implications, it could go one of two ways a) time tots are exclusive to time lords, so other species kids aren’t called that, which is likely for the obvious reasons of why would anyone else call their kids time tots, but then if this is true, it also feels like narvin would probably be less quick to correct himself (though maybe not because he’s cia and it’s his job to know about things, os it’s very plausible he would know this), or b) time tots and children are distinct things on gallifrey, time tots is used to talk about only those who are going to become time lords, and likely this comes with different treatment, time tots are meant to learn things for when they go to the academy, children however, well given how obsessed time lord society is with status, i doubt much care would be given to those who are predetermined to not become time lords

Time lords can identify species by telepathy (well, i’m assuming given the condition that they actually know the species in the first place)

Narvin also seems to be able to tell that the doctor is the doctor → time lords identify each other telepathically rather than by appearance (would make sense given regeneration) and given the doctor’s status as a renegade and ex president, it would make sense that a cia agent would know his psychic signature (yep, next line supports this, the doctor’s famous now, though i guess that happens when you air out your divorce across the citadel and then get the planet invaded after becoming president and then leave an alien there)

‘Arresting him, and taking him home, was very high on all cia priority lists’ → idk, the fact that i know narvin just isn’t going to even make much of an attempt at arresting the doctor is really funny to me, guy who simultaneously is good at his job and also sucks at it

Narvin just tries to tell him he’s under arrest ‘in the name of the high council’ → kind of interesting, just the assumption that most time lords would just obey something like this (at least that’s what it seems) and the bafflement when that doesn’t work (something something, your average time lord is very bad at thinking for themselves)

This is narvin’s first off gallifrey mission, yet he seemingly has passed the rank of junior time lord (wonder how one does that)

Time ring translates much like a tardis would (something something time lord technology very heavily built on the fact that they are a psychic species

Narvin briefly confused by the fact that the doctor is wearing colors that don’t align with his chapter → the institutions of time lord society are so baked in that he just doesn’t consider anything else could be true for a moment (this does make me curious about casual everyday clothes though, are they all in chapter colors? Also like what is narvin wearing, i truly just imagine this man in his cia robes 24/7)

Narvin’s never been off world before → i mean he did say this was his first off world mission so that makes sense, but idk it was technically a possibility

Also he just doesn’t know if colors exist on other planets → they aren’t told things about other worlds, they say that they sit and observe, but they don’t even do that do they, most time lords don’t learn much about worlds outside of gallifrey, why would they, that could make them want to leave

‘Who knew what similarities to time lord culture there were across the stars’ → similar to my above point, if they learn about other cultures and see that there are similarities it makes it harder for them to keep their status as gods over time, because they start to see that those people that they looked down on are actually people and not just lower beings

Has to cite legal clauses and all that, even if they mean nothing to the people he’s saying them to → something something it’s all about ceremony and tradition among the time lords

‘How much damage he had done to the reputation of the time lords and gallifrey’ → i’ve said this many times before, and i’ll say it again, but everything with the time lords is about perception, the actual reality of a situation does not matter as long as they can make the people they want perceive it how they want them to perceive it, and that’s the real reason that renegades are dangerous, not because they’re out there interfering with timelines and other species, the time lords already do enough of that (despite what they say), they’re dangerous because they are interfering in a way that isn’t approved of by the time lords, that doesn’t fit within the neat image that they have built for themselves

‘The only people responsible enough to utilize time travel’

‘Only time lords can sense them’ → something something being exposed to that much time energy changes the dna of a species and the time lords have spent so much more time around time than the other temporal powers that they are more adapted to it than pretty much any other species

‘Sub coordinator narvin’ → i forget what i was going to say here, something something rank, something something narvin’s timeline (?) (actually how does the doctor know narvin’s rank, i don’t think i remember him saying it, is there some sort of difference in the uniform, or does the doctor just know who narvin is (something in narvin’s psychic signature?))

Time rings can remotely access the matrix

Time lords can spot time breaches/scabs in time → though it does seem to need training to actually be able to do as narvin refers to have been trained to do it for the cia

Time lords can psychically translate things without technological assistance, but do seem to need to concentrate

‘Legendary time lord’ → they’re seen as kind of mythical creatures

‘As a member of the cia i’m not particularly trained in negotiation’ → you know narvin, i would love to know what you are trained in (actually it seems to be a lot of seeing through illusions and using psychic abilities to see and know things others might not, as well as intelligence gathering, timeline reading, and how to interfere in the timelines, but it is a lot more fun to make fun of them for being bad at everything for an organization that is supposedly very powerful)

‘What i am reasonably well trained in is being straightforward, blunt, and using the fastest solution’

‘President of the high council of the time lords’ → look i’m not going to write it down everytime they say the president’s full title (probably) but i would like to know just what being the president of gallifrey entails when it comes to who you rule over

‘Just pride at a job well done’ → time lords trained both to suppress emotion/empathy and see other species as lesser, so that they care less when they are responsible for their destruction

‘Over these past few years’ → how long of a period of time does the gallifrey series take place over, because that’s a hell of a lot of stuff to happen in just a few years

‘A better time lord, a better gallifreyan’ → little gallifreyans and time lords being different moment

[mngo-jii]

Okay but I really need to fill the gap as to WHY Daniel was casually carrying Amortentia around during that erumpent event. I don't think he'd use it, but maybe it's because his smell just like MC? 👀

Perhaps the reader finally gives into their curiosity and asks over why Daniel had *that* potion, and he gets too flustered to even give an excuse? Btw I really loved your crushing hc, these were adorable! 💖

“ AMORTENTIA. ” d. page

wc: 1k

letter ✉️: i rlly was also wondering how i’d turn the amortentia scene into a fic without having him turn into a maniac and use it on reader 😭 ty for this idea 🙏🏻 idk if i did it justice though because this kinda sucks um *scratches head*

“Right. Let’s see. I’ve got... Amortentia, that’s a love potion, definitely not. Essence of Dittany, hm... Ah, here we go. A calming draught.”

You narrow your eyes at a peculiar potion he just mentioned. Yet the situation at hand is more important than the question as to why he has the most powerful love potion in existence. You digress.

Of course, it’s not hard to catch onto how Daniel is a potions prodigy. It’s particularly impossible to miss it. Given how much time he spends in the Potions Classroom brewing maybe nearly every potion in existence. Sometimes, you tend to question how he doesn’t get exhausted from the hours he spends in front of the cauldron. But you suppose it’s just a passion of his that differs from everyone else’s.

Like how Lottie, herself, can spend hours painting anything that comes to mind. A wave of creativity just happening to hit her at some random time, like how the light shines oh-so perfectly down into the classroom windows, or when she realizes how fascinating the flames look when she casts the confringo spell.

But there are times she exhausts herself too, like times she’s mentally drained from an art block she’s been desperately trying to escape.

You’re not sure if you’ve ever seen Daniel tired of creating potions. It’s quite impressive—no, farther than that, that you sometimes find yourself admiring how well he can work his way around the cauldron with little to no errors.

And because of how well he ferments potions and how much time he spends on doing so, it’s no surprise to find that he has quite the collection of distinctive potions. However, he always either gives them away, displays them on the Potions Classroom shelf, or keeps them somewhere in his dorm.

So why did he so casually carry Amortentia, of all potions, in his pocket?

Of course it isn’t as bad as the Death potion, but your point still stands!

After that day you couldn’t help but let your mind wander on the possibilities on why in the world he would have such a powerful potion easily-accessed. After all, he doesn’t seem like the type to use it on someone. Actually, does he even have a ‘someone’ to use it on, nevertheless?

Maybe it’s not your place to ask. But as time goes by, you can’t look at Daniel without being reminded that he literally has the most formidable love potion known to man in his pocket.

“...W-What are you looking at?” He asks you, aware of your unwavering, however thoughtful gaze.

“Daniel,” you lean towards him, taking note of the crimson hue spreading his cheeks, “Is there any reason for you to be carrying the Amortentia potion right now...?”

Daniel visibly panics. He stammers out an incoherent response that’s cut off by Professor Flitwick.

“Please pay close attention to the instructions. Today we will be learning a disarming charm known as Expelliarmus.”

The two of you gently shuffle back to place, turning your attention to the man standing atop a very thick book. You suppose he can answer you later.

Daniel scampers to collect his belongings the very second Professor Flitwick dismisses class, unbeknownst to you. He scoots towards the very edge of the table and races out the door, stumbling into the hallway for an escape as if he had just seen a dementor.

Very quickly, he scans his surroundings, paying no mind to his classmates who barely glance at him as they walk by. He decides to draw himself a little farther from the doorway and towards the stairways of the Defense Against Dark Arts classroom, where he presses his side against the wall.

Unluckily for him, you just so happened to be reaching to grab his hand right now, making him feverishly twirl around to face you.

“Daniel, I’ll keep it a secret, I promise !” you whisper-shout, bouncing a little in place.

“It’s nothing—” He backs away from you in an attempt to escape your clutches, but you only step forward.

“Then why run? Why are you sweating so much?” You furrow your eyebrows, clearly concerned for your friend who is, yes, sweating bullets now.

“It’s just—”

“Pleeease tell me, Daniel.”

“I—”

“Pleeease.” Now both of your hands are grabbing his. You muster up the best pair of puppy eyes you can do at the moment, and lean yourself towards him trying to get him to just tell you.

Daniel’s face, which is inches away from yours at this point, is basically red.

“It’s— I— For—..” Why is your face still leaning in?! Why are you so close?! Haven’t you heard of personal space? (He kind of doesn’t want you to back away.) He shuts his eyes.

Before he could process it, his mouth moves on his own, blurting out the reason of which was not on your list of possibilities at all.

It was like a survival instinct.

“It smells nice...! It smells like you—your-robe-that-you-lent-to-me-last-week.”

Daniel wishes the floor would swallow him up.

He barely opens his eyes when you slowly let go of his hands and back away, and he only snaps them open when he hears a familiar hysteric laughter from above and behind him.

He slowly turns around, as if he hadn't already known who it is.

“You cannot be serious!” Robyn wipes a comical tear from her eye as she dramatically leans over a stone wall, “Ahhh, you’re daft, Page!”

Daniel doesn’t bother to say anything as he somberly stares at her above the staircase. His arms falling limp and his entire body stiff.

“I can’t believe I witnessed this at such a perfect timing...!” She drunkenly makes her way down, clapping her hands slowly in such passionate amusement despite the silence between you and him. “I can’t—” She pitilessly snickers at Daniel.

She gracefully turns to the opposite side of where you two came from and slowly disappears into the halls, her voice fading out in the distance—“I can’t wait to tell everyone else about this!”

Daniel stares as her figure slowly shrinks in his vision, as if he were trying to make her explode with his mind despite the distracting and repetitive sounds of her claps and cackling.

However, he’s taken aback when he feels a familiar piece of clothing gently wrap around his shoulder. He looks over, noticing that you’re no longer wearing your robe.

“I’ll gladly keep lending you my robe if you want me to...”

a/n: this is short ohmyy im sorry 😞

[gor3-hound]

Nyxy Baby Haiii!!! I love your bg3 theme sm!! It’s super pretty I love it sm, especially the astarion pfp :33

Also saw that anon talking about the person giving the fart asks and I wanna chip in this as someone who’s been dragged into this by the fart anon.

Anon your opinion on this situation is wrong. The fart anon is doing it to purely harass us, myself included. I’ve had to delete too many of their disgusting ass asks despite not even being a writer. This anon is doing it for the point of harassment and it’s annoying alongside the fact it’s just fucking weird since fartplay isn’t something any of us like😭 that anon is an obsessive freak who needs to get a life since they spend too much of their time doing this.

Maybe that anon is into that stuff or whatever but to go harassing multiple people about it multiple times a day/week relentlessly is rude when it’s in our no section. Also comparing it to people who write incest is such a stupid thing to say since people who write incest fics do not go round into others inboxes requesting this stuff especially when they know it’s something someone isn’t comfortable with. Your take is bad and you lack basic comprehension skills :3

Sorry this is so long and I’ve put it on your inbox nyx but I’m just fed up of the situation and the fact that anon is trying to not make it seem so bad is pissing me the fuck off😭 anyways ily nyx <33

omg hiiii!!!! tysm i love astarion sm <3 he's the cutest ever i'm in act three now and... i'm obsessed with him we're dating i'm gonna kick you-know-who's ass as soon as i get the chance :3

also last thing i'm gonna say about the anon thing like... ever bcs i don't wanna clog the dash n idk why i'm getting so many random asks today BUT!

literally my problem isn't the kink. it's the spamming and disregard for people's blog limits. when it's getting sent to almost every. single. blog i follow, it's too much. i have them blocked n it still manages to slip through, but i don't complain. tbh it doesn't even really annoy me that much, only ever bothered me when i was tagged in others blogs, but everyone seems to realise that its a fake ask anyway so idec anymore. idek why that random anon sent the para to me today, bcs i haven't replied to an anon like that in forever, but we move.

i'm mean ig what can you do.

[absolutely-not-my-main-blog]

Random Risk E. Rat Notes before I go scrolling my dash at last

-The gang all singing together in the opening, I am kissing them on the lips

-The timing of that opening felt off though, the pacing/timing of the whole episode felt a little off.

-Dennis vaguely mentioning the noises in there, no I am not gonna blow this out of proportion and daydream overstimulation scenarios, I'm not, I'm not (that's a lie).

-Kinda dog-coded Frank again with the water, can't wait to read the essays on that.

-I find it really interesting they decided to team up Dee and Frank once again this season, though I'm too tired to formulate thoughts on why, I just... it's interesting. There's something there... something.

-Charden kicking the wall together, they're so stupid (affectionate) <3

-You can do whatever you want, the parents not around, I wonder if Mac's parents would just like dump him there so they wouldn't have to deal with him for the day and he'd end up in that timeout room a lot because he was angry, he needed a way to let out his anger... the fake gun he wanted to get with the tickets, oh guns again this season, I've got thoughts now for another post, don't mind me, very unrelated.

-I find it interesting the different levels of awareness, how they're all still stuck in the past because it's what they always knew, but on some level can understand why things had to change, especially when confronted with something they recognize as bad that say Frank still doesn't, yet they still cling to it because that's how it's been done, tradition, legacy, they don't actually want what what was there, the punishment? the guilt? even the rat boobs, but they want to cling on to it because they fear change, because if it changed, that means it was wrong, like how it changed from Frank's day, and then they have to face that their childhood memories of this one safe haven were not all roses, so they try to force the past back into the present to prove it was better then... and things go horribly wrong, because some things are better left in the past... seen through rose coloured glasses, but what happens when they do come to the surface, when they see it in new context, just like the whole show lately slowly becoming more tragic in hindsight with each passing detail. This episode reminds me of Big Mo in a way.

-Partly on that above note, for real, Charlie and Dennis sound so unenthusiastic/uninterested in those rat boobs, like an ace and a gay man looking at them just because they think they should, they think that's how it's supposed to be.

-Mac in the feelings room saying he's angry, and he feels misunderstood, unheard, just in this instance or in general, throughout? (Unheard, as he's not supposed to speak.) Misunderstood as our perception of him and his actions this season may not be as it seems. I also find it interesting he's separated from the gang again... And he still feels the need to be punished and feel shameful... maybe he thinks he doesn't deserve that relationship with Donald or Dennis, or... idk, just... much to think about. That theme of denial... needing to deny and look back to cope. To believe his parents still loved him, feeling guilty and being punished is what kids are supposed to go through and he’s not allergic to nuts and Dennis isn’t Johnny. (Also, off topic, Mac with his lil juice box, adorable.)

-Sending Dennis to the Feelings Centre immediately btw

-"I don't 100% understand what satire means." Dee, voice of Reddit today.

-In my mind, Dennis took the ear plugs :) noise sensitive dennis real to me

[moonlight-fan2008]

Moonlight rewatch for millionth time

Episode 4 random thoughts and feelings I had while rewatching again: cause I’m bored and have nothing else to do or watch. And I love this show

“When it’s Beth calling I always pick up.” Mick’s such a softie

Also a week has passed by since episode 3

“Probably wouldn’t use that term today if I was you [in reference to graveyard shift]” Mick is unintentionally sassy sometimes like I know he’s being genuine with that, but it comes off as a little bit sassy

Beth to Mick: “You’re a delicate flower Mick St. John” me whispers “yes he is”

I know it’s acting but I love how Beth and Mick look at each other

“Seems like he can get the jump on just about anyone” 🫤 okay like what’s that supposed to mean?

That dirty DA must have been so relieved that there was a phone call from that cop, Colden’s phone to Amir’s phone that must have been the biggest break he was hoping and praying for

Mick’s always so soft and gentle with people, with Ilene when she comes to him for help, when he’s rescuing Julia from Lee Jay, with Leni when he’s trying to convince her to come back to L.A with him, how he treats Audrey, his brief time with Tierney to name a few and it’s so annoying he calls himself a monster like a person who is truly awful doesn’t constantly worry that they’re a bad person nor are they gentle with others.

I know Beth was blaming herself and Josh for those brief moments that she thought Mick was dead. Like I think Josh took it as a you think I’m capable of doing something illegal like that but I think Beth’s anger towards him was more like you forced me to bring him on this case so we’re/you’re de facto responsible for his death

I like that they sprinkle in little tidbits of Mick’s human life like mentioning he survived the “Battle of the Bulge” (which took place between 16 December 1944 – 28 January 1945) in this episode then bring up other parts of WWII he was a part of like he was a medic when he’s helping Josh, or that he was on the queen Mary during her time as a war ship in the episode Click, and everything that took place in episode 15

I know this is a serious moment and Mick’s on deaths door but what random ass “motel hell” in the middle of nowhere has a mini bar? I feel like that’s the last thing they’d have but I don’t travel much or very rarely out of my state so what do I know?

Beth once again dropping everything to help save Mick

I feel like some of Mick’s shame and guilt are sometimes deeply ingrained religious trauma in a way. Like he’s always apologizing and feeling guilty for something. but whether or not he considers religion bad or not, is something different. He at least seems to have positive feelings about going to church every Sunday with his parents.

Idk though he just has like that stereotypical Catholic guilt thing to him. I say Catholic guilt because he’s been to confession before as we see in episode 12:04 AM and confession (I think) is primarily a catholic thing

I love Alex’s acting when he thinks he hurt Leni, the poor man is shaking and looks like a mess and you can see the shame in his body language and eyes.

“I guess I am a delicate flower” 🥹 yes you are

I love how much Beth trusts Mick to offer up her blood to save him. Like he think he’s a monster and he’s going to hurt her some day but she knows he’s not and he’s just screaming at her to get out because he’s so ashamed of what he is and he can’t even look at her at some points

And Beth’s like I’m trying to save you damn it! You’re not a monster

Like look at them ❤️

“Not your blood! not like this!” I still can’t get over this line, it’s very brief and isn’t really touched upon in later episodes well at least in so many words but it’s very telling about Mick’s character. Josef later teases Mick that he’s a romantic in the abstract but when it comes to the reality of fang on flesh he’s a bit more… Mick cuts him off but I think Josef may have said something like aloof (maybe? Idk if that makes sense) I think Mick either wants to be completely separated from the person who’s blood he’s drinking or it has to be something very special.

He’s had a few freshies but we only see one, a redhead in the second episode and I would say the encounter is very formal despite the intimate nature of feeding someone your blood. Then in Episode 16, after he’s drinking Simone’s blood he says it’s not a big deal and they weren’t making out. Which is a very interesting comparison because making out is itself an intimate act.

So Mick probably had some romantic fantasy built up in his mind of how something like that would have happened with Beth.

*Yes maybe I overanalyzed the scene but I don’t care

I wonder if Leni was able to hear them arguing and what was going on in her mind during that conversation:

I know Mick probably thought Beth would never want to see him again but I think a part of him really hoped and wanted to see her again. Like when she knocks on his door he perks up a little bit like a puppy or kitten with their owner returning home.

[justthisgirlsworld]

This is such an embarrassing thing to admit but I have to get it out! Ya girl is suffering alone!! So today I was waiting for my friend's class to be over in college and a random guy came up towards me and just like OUT OF BLUE said he thought I was cute and wanted to take me out sometimes, he said he wanted to take me outany times and even asked for my number but i was so shell shocked!! While talking to him all I could think was about my crush, my crush and I we have this weird thing where we both never talk but we both look at each other intensely like just stare for months and months we have been doing that, we just stare... His friends know we like each other, his female friends hate me with burning passion and talk shit about me but that's besides the point.

I wanted to talk to my crush so badly but he is never alone so today when this new guy came and confessed and while getting his number all i could think about was my crush, I don't even remember this new guy's face to be honest, then I saw my friend and I was running towards her and practically semi screamed at him with excitement saying "A GUY ASKED ME OUT!!" And I have her details all excited and my crush was also around and idk why I said it so loudly but umm... Now after 5hrs of the said event I think I can conclude that it was my desperation attempt to make my crush jealous... This crush has affect me so much! Before this I was happy dying single and never ever thought about even cooking for a man, I used to hate men because every man was a disappointment but this guy comes in one day and to me he is the most kindest and prettiest man alive, if he tells me to bark I'll do it no questions asked! Fr I will bark for him 😭

But besides that I shouldn't have said that loudly to make him jealous because today he ignored my eye contact... For months and months EVERY SINGLE DAY we'd stare at each other but today he just walked away and I feel guilt for using this new guy as a "bait" I don't even remember his face but he seemed so innocent like I was his first love or something, I felt horrible for using him as a bit to make him jealous and I feel so pathetic because it's been 6 months and I still can't even muster up to talk to my crush... Idk what to do now. Any advice or just anything would be very helpful.

Hey sweetheart! Wow I completely get where you’re coming from.

Honestly, it’s so normal to have this urge to want to make your crush jealous. Especially if you’ve not had much contact with him other that looking at one another, it’s probably your subconscious wanting him to say something, anything to you lol.

This isn’t exactly a death sentence for your relationship with your crush however. Perhaps you should try talking to him, being friendly. If you have any classes together, maybe you could politely ask for some notes. Or maybe if you’ve recently completed any exams, you could ask him how he’s feeling about the results?

You didn’t exactly profess your love for this new guy in front of your crush, so he probably is feeling jealous!

As hard as it is, just try talking to him. There’s never any harm in trying :)

Let me know if there’s anything else I can help with babes.

[its-ashley-95baybe]

I waited to send this until the day finished because I wanted to wait and see if we ever got anything more.

Are the things that tomdays are posting seem weird to anyone else? Or just me? I noticed it today. First off, they shared a tweet that claimed Tom and Z were at this place this guy had a birthday tea. Now no one should just blindly believe any tweet, especially tomdayas. They have def gotten burned in the past. But this was really odd or sus to me because we have had days of Zendaya being seen shopping with Darnell, her grandma, noon, and her grandma’s boyfriend. But suddenly, there isn’t a pic? I feel like that’s odd. And make me not fully believe it.

And then there is this video they shared earlier. They claimed that it was Tom and Daphne. But it was weird. First off, it’s a slowed down video and it’s very cropped. The only thing you see is a blonde woman and then a man walking away. You only see their backs. You can’t say that is Tom and Daphne, it could literally be anyone. Plus again you have days of Z being photographed. Now you don’t see Z? You can’t even see her grandmother? Tomdayas also didn’t post the original video or even say where they got this video. What if this is just a random video of someone and tomdayas are saying it’s Tom and Daphne? The other thing that points out how weird that video was, was a shipper literally asked tomdayaland what they were looking at. They couldn’t figure out who Tom was or what was happening. Tomdayaland had to point it out and when she zoomed in, even more so you can’t see who it is. And tomdayaland said, “this is the best we got.” Really? Again, we KNOW that when they are meant to be seen they are. If this was truly Tom and Daphne we wouldn’t we have a clear shot? That shows it’s them?

I just feel like tomdayas know that it’s weird that Daphne has been in London and not seen with Tom. When Daphne was first seen at Wimbledon tomdayas were so excited. They were saying that Daphne has never been to London before and this means that it’s for something big. To go from that to it’s 6 days later and Tom isn’t even seen with her? Daphne isn’t seen at his play? Yeah, that doesn’t look good. Idk. Maybe it’s just me. But it’s just interesting and also odd to me that tomdayas are sharing things that claim to be Z or Tom or other family members, but also it’s not things that can be 100% proven.

This post is everything!!!

[httpiastri]

Hello love!

It's been a little while, so first of all-Happy belated birthday! I saw the messages on the day and wanted to write a little something, but then I got so busy 🙈 so I wish you all the best, for all of your wishes to be fulfilled and a great year overall!

I really like the new layout, it seems so calm 🩵

I feel like my life has been so busy lately, I barely had time to catch my breath. But for now, I am incredibly happy to be here and getting to know me again in a completely different environment. My host family is so lovely and last weekend I met some nice au pairs that live really close to me, so now I am not even alone anymore haha!

Being here also means that I am kinda always out and about, so I only watched fp3 yesterday and the start of the f2 race today. It's a shame it got cancelled so soon :( but safety first of course!

I won't be able to watch the F1 race tomorrow, but I am still hoping for some Lando magic. I really want him to win the race, but I also want to be there and watch it live? But it will be Max's win anyways lol!

In the last ask you said you were planning dropping out of uni- I am sorry to hear that, even though its probably for the best if you don't like the subjects. I don't know how people react in your country with news like that, but just remember that it's most important to be happy with what you do! (Who knows? Maybe you want to do a year abroad somewhere as well?)

I will probably catch up on all the writing you uploaded in the last couple of days and go to bed then- I am exhausted 😴

-✨

love! hello!! thank you so much, i hope you get a lovely year too 💘 and thank you! my old theme was so random shssjhs i do enjoy this a bit more !!

aw it makes me so glad to hear that you are happy and that the people around you are good to you. and i love the positive mindset! it must be really challenging but you’re doing so well 🥹 and oooo you met some people!! that’s lovely !!! are they from a lot of different countries or is it all kind of similar? if you get what i mean shsksjs

yeah it must be hard to keep track of all racing when you’re so busy… i was disappointed about them cancelling f2 but i do think it was a good choice, it didn’t seem very safe. it just sucks that they can’t like postpone sessions instead of cancel them :( like i get that it’s because of the schedule on the track but it still sucks! for everyone probably

!! crossing my fingers for lando tomorrow !!!! hoping for maybe a little rain (but not so much that it’s dangerous) for tomorrow’s f2 feature so arthur can get some easy climbing…. pls he deserves some points 🙏🙏🙏

hmm well in my country i guess it’s kinda like… not super weird to not go to uni? or at least it’s common to take a few years off to work and stuff after high school. the good thing about sweden is that school doesn’t cost anything so i have no debts and won’t lose any money for dropping out, which i guess is a big problem for people dropping out in other countries. we even get paid to go to school here, and tbh i was gonna use that money to pay for rent but that’s not happening now…. so well 🫠 but yes thank you, i will try to remember that!! <3

to be honest, i’ve thought a lot about moving to another major city or even going abroad, because recently i feel like this place isn’t for me in some way. i applied (and got accepted) to a school in the second biggest city, but i have too many responsibilities here this year that i just can’t escape from so it just wouldn’t work out 🥲 but i really do think that moving abroad is going to be the goal for me for the future! idk how but im gonna try to make it happen lmao!! i shall take inspiration from your braveness 🥰🤭

awh, i hope you get some good sleep and dream sweet dreams of our boys!! 😚😚😚

[1-deadgirlwalking-1]

4/7/2024

okay okay today is a good day. very good day. for the last two days i’ve been sleeping until 2-3pm and then staying bed all day, but today my dad woke me up at like 9:30am and by 10am i was actually up. we went to home depot and got screws for this car part my dad is fixing and wood for a ramp to connect the chicken run and the coop. i went with him to see if they had the foam i need for my project (fursuit partial :D) and they did but in the wrong thickness, i need half inch and maybe 1 inch for the details if it’s not too expensive. but they only had like. 5 inch or something. it was really thick and also dirty cause people kept putting their foot on it and pressing down to see how dense it was, LOL.

after that i got some chocolate pretzels and an energy drink. “chocolate pretzels” looks like it’s spelt SO wrong but it’s not… anyway then we went home and i went inside, i started watching rise and then when i got to insane in the mama train i was texting my friend and started unprompted infodumping to them about my rise of the tmnt AU. lol. i sent like 5 paragraphs that all almost hit the text limit. and then they said i was out infodumping donnie and called me autistic. (not a malicious or “haha ur weird” way, it’s cause i’m actually autistic and acting autisticly.)

i decided after i finished typing up my last giant paragraph i would copy and paste all of that into a doc and organize it so i can show my uncle, after we finish the show of course. basically like an outline with all of the events and plot of my AU. i was working on that when my mom came into the kitchen with some scraps and asked me to take it to the chickens, then do the dishes when i got back. which she’s been asking me to do for 2 days now and which i just finished doing 2 seconds before writing this paragraph. i’m very sorry mama, i kept genuinely forgetting and i feel bad.

after i gave papa the scraps i was checking out the coop, yesterday he installed a super fancy door on the chicken coop that opens and closes automatically at a set time, it even opens back up if it senses a chicken under it so they can’t get hurt. we tested it out with some sticks. anyway earlier he finished the ramp that goes up to it and started adding chicken wire windows so there’s more fresh air coming into the coop. he also added a piece of wood that will act as a curtain so like when it’s nice and daytime you can prop the wood up and the windows are open, then when it’s cold or night time you can put the wood down and it hangs in front of the windows, keeping all the cold air and predators out.

i took the puppy for a walk because neither of us liked having her just tied up to the bench outside the greenhouse/coop on a short leash. papa said he’d like to make a little wire run for her between the trees, while she’s still a baby and can’t run off on her own. once she’s older she won’t need to be leashed up but as a baby she keeps chasing the chicks and her and my sister’s dogs haven’t warmed up to each other i think so they might have issues if they try to take them out. idk. she just can’t go off on her own as a baby. but it’s sad to have her on a lil leash. also while i was walking her i had shorts on which is a horrible mistake to make when walking the dog because she kept jumping on me and trying to bite my legs off. it doesn’t hurt so bad when there’s fabric between teeth and my skin but when there isn’t it is very painful.

also apparently papa’s bee are swarming which means they’re just up and leaving. he said he had split them earlier, (when you simulate a swarm, and make them think they already did it, so they don’t fly off into some random place and make a new hive.) and he thought he did it right but they’re swarming anyway. he’s set up new hives but they seem to not like them i guess, and he also has a few traps in the trees and hopefully the bees will swarm into those so that he can just move them back to where the regular hives are and they’ll think nothing of it.

also my mom wants to know whether or not when we got on our trip later this year if i wanna go to the zoo with my sister and nephew or a bus tour with my other sister and mother, and i’m not sure yet. i’m still deciding.

i’ve totally been slacking on my kana which make’s me think i’m going to be horrible at keeping up with Anki, (doing the moeway 30 day method) i’m probably gonna have to adjust this method for myself a bit because it requires actual discipline / commitment, like missing a single day sets back your progress a ton and makes it significantly more difficult to get back on track, and i don’t have that at the moment. i’ve also got most of my schoolwork caught up but haven’t studied at all. i only have one computer science lesson left to do. i totally bombed my computer science test and got 56% on it, which set my grade back from about a 91% to a 79%. a single test should not affect my grade that heavily, like seriously wtf. how did i got from an A to a C over ONE assignment.

anyway… that’s my day so far. will update if anything else happens

nothing else happened that’s my day. goodbye!

[wildweirdly]

Long ramble about random life stuff

On the weekends I usually go visit my girlfriend but she has a test on Monday so we decided to skip seeing each other so she could focus on studying. Fortunately I’m in a better place than I used to be so I haven’t been feeling lost or abandoned because of it but I do feel a level of displacement.

I tried reaching out to my crush but they’re busy, so idk what I’ll be doing for the remainder of my weekend. Overall I’d like to force myself to do chores but I get so anxious about cleaning when other people are around so idk. On top of that my energy is low cause I messed up my blood sugar with dinner. Trying to remedy it with coffee and hard cider currently.

On the positive side my boyfriend is off tomorrow as well so we’ll have the whole day together. The hard part is gonna be avoiding the urge to go out and spend money (I made a few mistakes so I’m flat broke till the 11th lmao) :X

So far I’ve had both my girlfriend and a coworker of mine offer to let me borrow money but I worry I’d just spend it on food I should be avoiding so I’m trying to just live through the brokenness with what I have. Besides, it’s my own doing that ended me up here so I want to take responsibility for that.

I’ve also been doing some reading today so maybe that’s a thing I can do in my down time now. Through some observations my coworker made I sorta re-realized that I’ve been doing the self detrimental people pleasing thing at work and so I’ve been taking time to do some reading/“research” on the fawn trauma response and how it relates to some of the problems I’ve been dealing with.

Also aforementioned crush recommend a couple of things to read and I managed to check one of them out before my mind ADHD-ed the information into the void. So far it’s been interesting but I haven’t gotten very far. I’m hoping that reading it might be able to lead me to a some sort of dialogue or something, idk.

Both my crush and my girlfriend are literary driven with interest in psychology and philosophy and I’d like to feel like I’m on more even ground with them. Currently I don’t know much on either besides the fuzzy memories of bits and pieces I learned in high school which isn’t very useful. Besides that I like feeling smart and lately I’ve felt like an idiot so maybe reading something “bigger” will allow me to ease up on myself.

The cider I’m drinking tonight is disgusting but I’m thankful I have it. I hate to say it but I sometimes feel like alcohol helps level my anxiety. Could just be a placebo though, I dunno. I try to be cautious cause my liver is already a little broken (thanks diabetes!) and my family has a history of alcohol issues so if I drink I limit myself to one a night (unless I go out, cause when I do I allow myself two).

Honestly I’m surprised how well I’m doing given that I’m off two out of my three psych meds. I never really planned on abruptly stopping but my psychiatrist has been ignoring my request for a refill on my anxiety meds and so it snowballed. If I have to be real about it there’s been some tension between my girlfriend’s anti-med views and my own reliance on them so it’s hard not to worry part of me is doing this to please her or “prove” myself in some way. But on the other hand my antipsychotics were fucking up my blood sugar in ways I’m still trying to recover from and I don’t feel different without them so I guess it’s a net gain. Why really shocks me is how normal I’m able to feel without my anxiety meds. I had some idea that they weren’t working properly for me and my psychiatrist seemed unwilling to look into alternatives so it also feels like it’s pointless to be on them, Yano? Like if they aren’t gonna do anything I really don’t see merit in taking them. The other one I’m on is an antidepressant and I have no intention of trying to alter that cause it genuinely helps me so yeah.

I’ll probably write another thing tonight but we’ll see.