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Moonstruck | 성훈 🖤 엔.하.이.픈 (。•̀ᴗ-)✧
Paring: idol!Sunghoon X M!reader
Genre: Fluff. Synopsis: Taken a week vacation in the UK that Jay suggests to find out that, he's not the only child, he had another little brother?
Non proof read English is not my 1st.
This is a work of fanfiction, do not throw unnecessary tantrums on this nsfw/sfw blog. ©Shuenkio
A/N: Forget to mention m/n have the punk/hip-hop style in dressing, black from head to toe you can imagine ;) btw English here is a bit cheeky, hope you don't mind.
The World Tour comes to an end, the boy band group "ENHYPEN" gets a chance to take their own break, vacations and personal doing. It is a blessing and relief that they all get time to rest, after doing concerts non-stop, they're gonna spend time in their own way.
On the other hand, in the dorm, Jay, one of the members chit chatted with his teammates if they wanted to go on vacation in the UK. Positivity, they are all immediately drawn and agree to the suggestion idea. The boys had never stepped foot in the UK before, so why not ? Even better, Jay would pay half of the tickets too, isn't that Great? Only idiots can decline this offer.
After flying a few hours from Korea to the UK, it finally arrived. The land of the united kingdom, known as the British country. It's like entering another side of the world, people have their own unique remarkable, people speak British English, chaos and busy days, with the high technology here. This is gonna make one of the best memories ever.
Moving on to Jay's place. Actually it was one of his parents places here. After hearing Jay would bring his teammates in, his parents happily flying over the moon, quicker than the speed of light, arrive in the UK to prepare and welcome them, not to mention they have a private jet that's why.
Knocking on the tall well-built traditional door, all 7 guys greetings by Jay's parents, with a warm hug and kiss. While taking a peek inside, it is like taking a vacation in a damn golden castle. Everything is decorated in luxurious furniture, the light, the floor, and it's hella large, just imagine a mansion like.
Settled down inside, Both of Jay's parents went through the kitchen to prepare a lot of meals for the family, and the guests but that's not the case, they're all family too. Admire in the surroundings, Jay would be given them and show them their guest bedroom, and what to do and don't until most of them are in their own guest room, left Sunghoon who was there, standing alone like a lost puppy in his mate's house.
"Uh Jay-ah, where can I sleep for tonight?"
"...hmmm.. all the guest rooms are full now for them so maybe my brother's room, come on let me show you, I hope he won't be mad"
Sunghoon blinks, furrow his brows confused as Jay mentioned he just has a brother knowing all along he is the only one, when he said that, it makes no sense.
"brother? ... You had a brother? I thought you were the only child?" Said while walking, as Jay guided him to M/N room.
"it's a long story, I didn't tell you all for a reason, haha now now we're here" Knocking on the door, Jay speaks calling, for M/N name. Later, the door opened, revealing a boy who was dressed, in a very... Different style, that quickly grabs Sunghoon's attention.
"JAY?" You happily shout, knowing Jay home after waiting for him for days, greeting him with a hug, which is soon returned by him.
"M/N! How I miss you. How are you? Are you doing great?"
"well yeah I am, I'm very good and I hope you're doing okay too" You respond, crossing your hands in. Then your eyes land on a taller pale guy, behind Jay. You might know him, but he probably doesn't.
"oh, is he Sunghoon hyung?" Mutter, you peeking behind your brother's back, to see clearly. Sunghoon who was an introvert guy, feeling and surprised that you know his name, mixed with awkwardness in this kind of situation, especially with strangers, but does he have to get used to it? It's Jay's brother after all.
"you know a lot don't you? Yeah He's the Park Sunghoon that you like the most" like the most? Sunghoon's face turning tomatoes, as he is puzzling. feeling like his heart Sprint away from his own beat, so you do like him? Well when fans confess they like Sunghoon, it's just a normal reaction but when He knows you like him, it's weird, different feel from those fans. or maybe he is just shy ? Or super shy?
"Hi! Sunghoon hyung it was nice to meet you, I'm M/N" bowing down in a respectful way, you suddenly switch language once you greet him, which once again makes Sunghoon feel dumb like a lost sheep. There's so much information going on here.
"O-oh yes... M/n... Good to see you. Your Korean is nice I'm Impressed" Sunghoon greet back, feeling more used to and ease once you speak to him in Korean. After all those greetings, Sunghoon just stood there, didn't know what to do next as he watched Jay and You, asking about their days.
"oh right, Sunghoon you must be wondering. Actually he was my adopted brother. We had him when I was pre-teen. But I understand most of you guys don't know about him because we like to gatekeeping him Haha well today all the members would know, don't worry—
He is half asian and europe also, that is why he has a unique style, from his head to toe isn't it cool haha. Punk style but you'll get used to it, I know ni-ki is gonna love him—
Okay I talk too much, so M/n mind if I borrow your room for a few days? For Sunghoon? All the guest rooms are full, can he stay with you" Jay state, after the small talk. Meanwhile, M/n agree to his brother request, not that he was a creep, it because of the situation, also who wouldn't? It was the Park Sunghoon.
"Sure, hyung can sleep in my room. I'm all good"
"Thanks bud, now Sunghoon? You can settle in here— oh right... Sunghoon?" Jay called, Sunghoon catches himself zooming out to your appearance, it not everyday to see someone looking good in such style, black from head to toes. Seeing such reactions makes you chuckle, as Sunghoon snapped out, ashamed with a blushing red face before getting inside to load away his stuff.
"Right, Right I hope you don't mind me M/n"
"I should say that, hehe since you're the guest, just asked me don't be shy, I'll do it"
"Thank you ha" seeing the two of you getting along well, Jay's warm smile appears as he leaves the room, and gone downstairs.
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In the rest of the evening all the boys and family, get to know you better, as you introduce yourself as Jay's adopted little brother. Jay was right when he said You'd be ni-ki favorite, because once he saw you, he imma befriended you. Exchange the number, ask about your Style, and talk for hours about stuff ni-ki wanted to know. While the other member was also surprised when they realized that Jay was keeping you well in the basement for the whole time and none of them knew about it. It can also be reasonable because of that gorgeous handsome face you got there, that catches every member's attention.
Jake would ask you to chat with him in English as he wanted to learn how to talk in British too, and so is Heeseung. Your accent makes their knee weaken with that soft tone of yours.
Jungwon would also be talking to you too, asking this or that and often joking about your brother why he is a comedian in the group. Sunoo would compliment your skin tone, the skin you got on your face stunned him in a way that he can't help, but to ask what's your skin care routine.
But for Sunghoon, He just laughed and giggled along, when the members asked or talked to you. He was so shy and afraid to make conversation with, and he had nothing to talk about. He was devastated to get to know you well just like the other but then it clicks when he learns that he'll spend every night sleeping on the same bed with you.
Yet that's fine. On the first night, you asked him if he wanted to sleep on the bed alone, if he was a light sleeper you can move to the couch but Sunghoon insisted, both of them should be on the bed. He was the guest anyway he didn't want to burden anybody.
And so on, Sunghoon got a more private chance than others when it comes to talking, especially at night when it's just the two of you. Most of the time, all night he would ask this and that, and do you have a girlfriend or boyfriend, about your life and personal thing which you happily respond to. Sunghoon was your bias of course, you would tell him everything, admire his million dollar face while you talk so, people would fight for him.
As the days passed on about a week. It's time for all the 7 members to go back to Korea. You help them pack their stuff, and so do your parents and Jay. The past few days, they are spending time with you by talking, going out, shopping and the Disney land date, it was such a good snapshot in time to get to know them all better. Before they leave you give each of them a promising and memories gift to remember this precious time together, the boys happily satisfied accepted and their heart melting to the gesture. You were so sweet.
However, for Sunghoon it was different. Even though it's just a simple gift he clearly enjoys more than the rest, and he promised he will cherish this gift for a long time.
"Thank you m/n letting me stay in your room, you're so... Cool and nice, sweet, like Jay. Here, I have my PC card haha I know it's not much but I hope you like it" gasp, you feel like you're about to ascend up to heaven as Sunghoon gives you back a gift, a rare PC card that you wised to have.
"oh my GOSH thank you hyung, I love it so much thank you woah it's sighed? I'm going to be crazy!!"
Laughing. Everyone finds the moment cute and adorable as you express yourself as a fan. Soon the time will come, you wave goodbye to the seven guys as you watch them disappear in the plane.
"Good luck hyung!! See you sometime later"
"yess" they all said in unison, enter the aircraft with a warming heart. On the way, Sunghoon can't help but to say it out loud.
"I like him, Jay"
"ehhh"
"No Sunghoon hyung, I like him first he was my buddy!" Ni-ki argue.
"ey ey ey he was my British guy before all of you guys, he was my first" Jake burst in playfully.
"but I do really like him, in a way"
"...."
"well— what "
#enhypen#enha x male reader#enhypen x male reader#sunghoon fluff#sunghoon x reader#park sunghoon#sunghoon#sunghoon scenarios#enhypen sunghoon#enha sunghoon#enha imagines#enha x you#enha fluff#enhypen scenarios#kpop x male reader#enha x reader#enha scenarios#enha fanfic#enhypen fanfiction#enhypen fluff
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"Bellara would be a better partner for Neve than Lucanis, because she'd bring joy into Neve's life-"
[insert the BIGGEST Cassandra Pentaghast UGH you can imagine]
First of all: Why is Lucanis incapable of providing joy. The man is funny as fuck, cooks, knits, probably loves more animals than just wyverns, clearly is capable of putting up with ridiculous family and loving them anyway, and loves his friends a normal amount. His first trip upon gaining freedom is to go buy presents for everyone. Please get over yourselves.
Second: Bellara idolizes Neve. She almost isn't a real person to Bel for much of the beginning of the game, and that makes Neve uncomfortable. Neve corrects Bel several times, though she's gentle and kind about it (as she is with everyone). Neve regularly sees things that would demoralize most people, and continues to do her job anyway. She compartmentalizes. It's not that she lacks the ability to enjoy life, or perceive joy. But I don't think she'd enjoy having someone by her side who was endlessly disappointed by the kinds of jobs she takes. She enjoys making people happy, not bringing them down.
If you want to headcanon the two of them getting together for adorable reasons, no one can stop you, but the posts I've seen arguing this fact have once again all come about because people are very uncomfortable with Neve/Lucanis and I can't believe we all have to spend so much time defending this *possible* canon pairing all because you're worried about her "coming for your man" while romancing him.
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his favourite part of your body - OT7 (idol AU)
☄. *. ⋆ Mark
• your lips: you have pretty plumped lips and you usually wear lip gloss. you often catch him staring at your mouth while you talk.
• "sorry what were you saying baby?"
• he often gift you new lips products. you don't buy them anymore since you met him💀
• "that's the new lip gloss, isn't it?"
• he wants to kiss you 24/7.
• "plaese, baby, just a peck"
• you make sure to put on some lip gloss before getting on your knees and giving him head.
• "god, baby. you know me so well"
☄. *. ⋆ Renjun
• your hands: you have soft and slim hands, you like to wear gold jewellery. he likes to play with your hands when you're talking, they're just addictive.
• once he got turned on by how you were turning the pages of your book.
• he gift you new rings every now and then.
• "i like this new hand cream. is it peach scented?"
• lots of kisses on your knuckles.
• there's a reason if he loves to interwine your hands together before you two climax in bed...
• you're much smaller than him and seeing your little hands on his body makes him go feral.
• "look at you... c'mon, honey, use your pretty hands on me"
☄. *. ⋆ Jeno
• your whole body: you're not super skinny and he fell in love with your curves instantly.
• he loves to just rest his hands on your belly and he loves your thick thighs.
• "tonight i dreamed about dying suffocated between your thighs. i woke up with the worst boner ever"
• he asks you to sit on his face at least once a month.
• you're not insecure about your body and he finds that even sexier.
• you sometimes steal his credit card to buy new coordinated lingerie and he thanks you every time.
• your ass cheeks are his favourite anti-stress. he prefers the right one, for some reason.
• "they fit perfectly in my hands, it's crazy"
☄. *. ⋆ Haechan
• your neck: you have a pretty long neck and you never forget to wear your signature scent... and he happens to be in love with it.
• he loves to fall asleep with his face buried in your neck while you lazily run your fingers in his hair.
• "i would gladly die here, like this"
• you became a master in the art of covering hickeys.
• he loves how you always wear your silver necklace, it compliments your skin so well. it's just the cherry on top.
• "i just want to crawl inside your skin. this close is not enough"
• lots of kisses starting from your collarbones all the way up to your jawline.
• "so fucking sweet. you're something else, istg"
☄. *. ⋆ Jaemin
• your back: he fell in love with you at first sight seeing you in a fancy black dress that left your back uncovered. since then, that's his favourite thing in the world.
• he gives you back massages to turn you on but in the end you fall asleep and he's the one hornier than ever.
• he has plenty of pics of your bare back in his phone gallery.
• "look! look how perfect you are"
• you picked up the habit of laying on your belly on the bed, so when he comes in he excitedly lays on your back and hugs you. you can't move anymore.
• kisses. kisses. kisses. bites. other kisses.
• your back is the reason he loves to take you doggy style.
• "god, you're so beautiful from here, princess"
☄. *. ⋆ Chenle
• your legs: you're a volleyball player so you have pretty muscolar legs. there's a reason he loves to watch you play in those scandalous shorts.
• "are those even legal?"
• he gives you rubs from your ankles all the way up to your thighs, he just loves to touch them in every way possible.
• you once apologized because you didn't have time to shave properly and he looked at you like you were crazy.
• "what are you talking about? i love this, you're so hot"
• he loves to bring your legs over his shoulders while he's on top of you.
• when he's on tour he often asks for some pictures.
• "you know what i want, (y/n). take off those pants for me"
☄. *. ⋆ Jisung
• your butt: he'll never admit it but he literally drools over your ass.
• he literally can't watch you play volleyball because what if he get caught staring at your ass by chenle? That's a no.
• you got him the first boner just by sitting on his legs.
• "i'm not obsessed over it... i like it, of course i do... it's you"
• he loves to hug you from behind for a reason.
• he always asks for your permission to touch it and would never do it in front of other people.
• you once sat on his dick turning you back at him and he came in that exact moment.
• "fuck- what was that? do it again"
#nct#nct dream#nct dream imagines#nct fanfic#haechan#haechan imagines#huang renjun#jaemin imagines#jeno lee#jeno nct#nct mark#mark lee#renjun nct#nct dream jeno#nct jeno#lee jeno#jeno#jeno x reader#nct dream haechan#nct haechan#lee donghyuck#nct jaemin#na jaemin#jaemin#chenle imagines#nct dream chenle#nct chenle#chenle#park jisung imagines#park jisung
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something that really annoys me is when antis make fun of joonie when he words things in english a certain way. like this man is self taught. he learned an entire language by himself, and has been translating for the whole group since debut; even when translators are present bc it's become expected of him. like one thing we're not going to do is downplay his intelligence because his sentence structure in a self taught second language was a little off in a casual live. western kpop stans keep showing their asses n its wild.
#and its so wild bc likeeeee#none of these idols even have beef#its the fandoms#and they bring the idols into it for no reason#and its saurrrrrrr interesting how whenever western stans wanna poke fun#it always comes back to language#or attempting to boost white western artists in charts solely to bar asian acts from achieving things and breaking records#funny how it always comes back to appearances#like noses or eyes hmmm#weird how that happens#weird how it always comes back to that#u suck n if i could pelt u w tomatoes i would
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I've been thinking about Tarn in the future of tfone, and how he'd probably have heavy connections to Megatronus Prime and the IDEA of Megatron, so to speak
I've been thinking about him as a twisted up recreation of Megatronus Prime, one that ultimately grossly misinterprets who tfone Megatronus was in favor of utilizing his favored traits and symbolism. If that makes sense?
#transformers#maccadam#transformers one#tf1 megatron#tarn#should i give tf1 tarn an honorary tag??#tf1 megatronus prime#megatronus prime#in my mind tfone Megatronus would greatly disapprove of tfone Tarn.#he'd disapprove of his image coming to represent Tarn_ Megatron_ and the decepticons#that idea of trying to bring back your idol but he turns out wrong because you were doing it for the wrong reasons#(and because it's ultimately a different person who looks like him)#slightly inspired by Cyberverse tarn too btw#i hope you see what i mean#tf1 tarn
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sticks bloomfes rui and anni4 nene into one of my aus
#have i ever talked about the robot au here? i dont think so#long story short its that kind of au with no core story where i just play around with everyone in it#its a pretty standard kind of chill scifi au tbh. lots of robots around that do various kinds of jobs#everyone in the cast is either human (most of them) or an idol robot (the remaining handful)#nene is an older generation idol robot that was meant to be shut down and destroyed#and while the former part did happen they were not destroyed just abandoned instead#and a few years later rui found them and restored their body as best as he could and reactivated them#now theyre friends. some guy in his mid-late 20s and the robot he lives with. and also sometimes tsukasa is there. ruikasa 👍#in the case of this doodleits like... rui gets invited to a robotics showcase thing and brings nene along with him to it for obvious reason#but nene was not in the best condition and rui wants to present himself a little more nicely in case it can help him make connections#so they both get fun little makeovers. nenes is a lot more temporary than ruis is but thats fine with both of them lol#project sekai#nene kusanagi#rui kamishiro#tsukasa tenma#ruikasa#w1f1 sketches
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Sorry I've been obsessing over the au, I was actually planning to draw these a while ago but... mental health
@a-narcissists-warren im sorry for tag im sorry im sorry ☹️☹️☹️☹️ screams and runs away
#art#artists on tumblr#osc#object show#object show community#object shows#osc community#object show art#IM ACTUALLY SO AFRAID TO TAG FOR SOME REASON#lIKE SORRY BUT BRINGING YOURSELF TO TAG YOUR IDOL IS NOT EASY#WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME
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happy no yo-kai watch announcement ig. uhhh.
take more yo-kai watch/persona 4 crossover art (i wanted to draw more but this took like an hour alone)-
#doodles#yo-kai watch#ykw#persona 4#p4#jibanyan#nate adams#teddie persona 4#teddie hanamura#yosuke hanamura#yosuke and teddie being brothers is so real to me. i'm definitely not biased *kicks me being a teddie kinnie under the rug*#i mean that's not the only reason but i AM biased-#i'll probably draw more ykw/p4 stuff i have lots of shenanigans in mind tbh#like the investigation team being extremely confused by teddie talking to jibanyan#(i feel like him being a shadow and also his eyes being lenses according to him would probearbly let him do that naturally#but the rest of the investigation team would probably need their glasses from the tv world#i feel like those would probearbly dually function as yo-kai lenses iirc the exacts of why they work#which i probably don't it's been like two months since i started playing p4 a lot of the exact details are kinda lost on me now tggcgxhfb-)#also teddie casually bringing up that one of his friends is an idol and jibanyan fanboying#(next harmeowny is better in his opinion but risette is also very poggers)#probably more too idk. anyways#i have intense p4 brainrot it's great i love funny fog and tv murder mystery game#‚‚‚ just realized i accidentally spoiled p4 stuff earlier in the tags without thinking-#so uh. oops-
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it’s so insane how some of the ot6 fans are reacting to the news of seunghan coming back because i think for a while, they really thought they won. they thought he was gonna be another idol who was gonna get kicked out for doing normal human shit that for some reason, bothers them to the core. things he did PRE DEBUT were bothersome to this people.
but then, he came back. if it wasn’t for the members constantly supporting him behind the scenes and the fans who were constantly reminding sm that they cared about him and wanted him back then maybe this wouldn’t happen and it’s truly sad to think how these crazy fans who have no life almost controlled the narrative yet again.
i am glad seunghan was not another victim of this. it must have taken a lot of courage and self determination to continue despite being slandered by the media and the ot6 fans and also other kpop stans. all of this to say, that i hope another situation like this doesn’t happen again. it’s too normal in this industry to punish idols for being human but i hope this starts a shift in the right direction
#i was just thinking abt this#i’ve seen so many of these ot6 korean stans talking shit#and harassing him but sending death wreaths to sm#(apparently they are gonna be fined for it lmfaooo)#but yeah i was just thinking about how people#punish idols for small things#and then think they are victorious when they kick them out#these companies just let that shit happen and it’s all bc#these fans are too parasocial and have no life#and for some reason their opinion matters more than#the opinion of the majority of the fanbase#it’s annoying#i hate how this is normal and it truly makes no sense#i was one of those fans that was waiting for him to comeback#and even tho i was losing faith i always hoped that one day#we were gonna get a confirmation of anything#even i was fine with the idea of him leaving bc the past months#must have been harsh on him#and i don’t think anyone would want to comeback in these conditions#but i am glad he had support from the members#and was determined to keep going#all of this to say WE CANT LET WEIRDOS WIN !!!#and i hope after this situation shit starts to change#this is proof that if you keep pushing it brings results#tris.txt
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I don’t typically like when star trek characters reference legacy characters just to talk about how great and perfect they are but I do like this route where even though Tuvok calls him a great visionary in the end he brings Spock up to say he argued with him. I think this is the way of the future. Lean in. Star Trek characters should say things like ‘An old man cut me off in space traffic the other day. I think it was McCoy?’ and another should nod and shake their head like he’s always doing that shit
#'I met Jonathan Archer and he smelled like wet dog?? Seemed nice though.' <- more stories like this#Also since Janeway idolizes ppl like Sulu I want her to occasionally bug Tuvok for more stories about working with him after she finds out#that they were alive at the same time on the same ship and have Tuvok begrudgingly tell her I don't know...we didn't talk much and I was#busy at the time...one time Kirk sneezed on the bridge. It was quite loud.#<- what he doesn't say is that Tuvok had a handkerchief but did NOT give it to Kirk bc he was concerned about being called a suckup again#Tuvok what do you MEAN you 'spoke out against [it]'??? You aren't a politician??? HEHEHE did you write an open letter???#Tuvok old man moments...Tuvok's children cringing: dad please DON'T bring up your initial opposition to the Klingon-Federation alliance#Tuvok's low estimation of Klingons...B'Elanna..you sit back. I'LL get him!!!!!#I mean everyone in star trek ever like every non klingon character has a low estimation of Klingons for Some Reason*#*You Know.#but I'm a Tuvok girlie so it's my job to rake him across the coals for it from time to time v_v#-sniffs and salutes- gotta kill that old man for my babygirl -fires a cartoon canon at him and he flies into the sky and becomes a star-#love you Tuvok <3#Tom I smashed with a mallet#cartoonishly large for whimsy but just overall more gruesome
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I never post about it here but since the one year anniversary of its conception was on July 5th i figured I'd post some drawings that i haven't shared here of my persona 4 older nanako AU
The last two drawings are unfinished but i figured I'd post them anyway cuz i like them :3
The story is in a very vague state right now but if you have questions about any of this please ask......i would love to talk about this with people.
The fact that it's been a year since i started working on it is crazy to me and I've improved a lot in various ways. I wish i posted about it here more but because the story is in such an early stage (and also cuz my art isnt that great) i feel afraid to put it on my blog :,) hopefully I'll post about it more now though cuz i really wanna start on developing a much more comprehensive plot to this which posting about it might be the extra push i need.
#peep the sixth image i did that shit in mspaint#also peep the older yu and yosuke designs!!! i finally did them a while ago and i really like them :)#im giving Yu a cane cuz I'm allowed to it's my AU and i get to give this mfer a mobility aid if i wanna#nanako's idol outfit took ten billion years to design but the final design made it worth it#another reason why the story isnt super comprehensive yet tho is cuz i wanna finish p4 arena (+ultimax)#cuz i wanna know how they bring back the midnight channel in that so i can figure out how to bring it back in this AU#also cuz there's just a lot of details and things i need to write before really starting to write it all out#i gotta rly get on it tho loll#persona 4#p4#nanako dojima#gremlin nanako au#art#i want this to reach more people but idk what tags to put......:')#persona 4 au#gremlin art#whatever lol idk how to do tags#yu narukami#yosuke hanamura#just realized theyre in this post so i can tag them lolll
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Idol Star Athletics Championships, yall better be careful
If Minho finds out that golf is one of the new sports added to the games, he might just be tempted enough to come out of retirement and kick all of the 4th gen idols’ asses
#shinee#minho#idol star athletics championships#golf#watch that be the very reason that they’re adding golf to begin with#i would love to see a 32 year old minho just kick the 4th gen idols’ asses#isac isn’t the same without minho winning all the medals#bring back the good ol days
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what do i have to do to get people to read my stuff actually like im not about to get in everyones faces begging for attention but i dont understand how im expected to make FREE fandom content without much feedback on my work
#ignore my ranting but im actually so fucked disillusioned#like why are there so many people who scream about supporting each other and lifting up small creators#and they never do it themselves unless its their friend#sorry i dont sit at the popular table but i never expected that it would impact my reach this much#my newest fic has more hits but less kudos and less comments than my first#it's so obvious people only interacted on my first fic *because* it was my first fic#and thank you so fucking much to the people who have given me kind words#and literally religiously rbing my stuff because you think im worth listening to#this isn't about me crying because im not popular#people with bigger followings are naturally going to get more attention#but the only reason ive started posting my fics is because all these POPULAR BLOGS were like 'we support each other here!!!'#'were a big family were not a big fandom so any time someone posts it brings a smile to our faces!' blah blah blah#like youre out here lying for clout you literally only leave feed or kudos if its your fucking friend 😭 not even if its good#i guess id rather have less people interacting if it means the feedback i get is genuine and not just blowing smoke up my ass#but it still hurts to write a fic that flops and then write another fic thats over 3x longer than my first fic#WITH A PREMISE THAT POPULAR WRITERS HAVE WRITTEN ABOUT BEFORE AND BLEW UP FOR IT AND PEOPLE IDOLIZE THEIR WRITING#so im expecting to get more feedback and constructive criticism because it's a concept that a lot of people seem to love#only to get EVEN LESS FEEDBACK THAN ON MY FIRST FIC#like sorry to everyone who genuinely likes my writing i actually love you so much#but im very rejection sensitive and don't plan on continuing this. it seriously hurts me. it triggers my abandonment and selfhatred shit ba#like im sick to my stomach that another thing im passionate about is sucking the life out of me & i cant even get my foot in the door#donut rebagel this thanks and goodbye
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i made an oc thats at least nicknamed "Stupid" and im constantly thinking about what a power move that is tbh
#toy txt post#i miss it i should play w her more often but it was going to be for a dnd thing that ive all but abandonded bc i feel like#i cant. do that but it sucks bc i had some cool fun concepts and characters but it was hard enough back then when i was just insecure and#knew nothing about dnd and was intimidated by the mechanics but wanted to try dming for some reason but now i just straight up dont know#what to do but i really enjoy those characters. i should just unlock the secret channelsand scrap the dnd game idea for now and keep the#concepts and im sure i could come up w something if i ever actually learned anything about that shit#anyway. my point being. im obsessed w my character i made up and you should be too cos its good shit#toxic anarchist half dragon demigod with authority issues whos an alloaro clown named Stupid Cupid.#i think her pronouns were whatever but also it/she? when i say toxic i mean it did have a bit of a Clown Cult.#Cupid i think is possibly its given name and Stupid was her clown ass addition and yes i do know of the song and yes it is on its playlist#obsessed w all the stupid overpowered characters i made in that universe. they were such good concepts. gulliver obviously. charybdis#silas (cupids father + previous (now deceased) god of chaos)#cupids mother who i dont think i had a name for yet but she was supposed to be kind of a neutral lawful (in a rules lawyering way)#moon paladin who hatefucked the god of chaos after failing to kill him which she was trying to do out of devotion to the moon#and she supposed to have what i can only describe as chainsaw powers? and she destroyed every gun in existence and killed anyone who knew#how to make them until there were no guns left bc silas kept being annoying w guns and was trying to use them on the moon. for reasons#so she really pissed him off and impressed him before she finally got to him and tried to kill him. and if she was even a minor god instead#of a 'mortal' it wouldve worked and thats the only reason he didnt die from her. and then her child. stupid cupid the clown#grew up and had issues and started a clown cult and wandered around usurping warlords and dictators before putting her aim on silas#and trying to kill him. but failing not bc she was mortal but bc he outsmarted it. but he couldbt bring himself to kill it so he had her#put to sleep for a thousand yrs until someone else killed him(he pissed off a stupid seagull druid who lured him into the path of Charybdis#who he'd ALSO pissed off and Charybdis mega killed him and then the gull druid was made the new god of chaos just to have someone fill the#roll but then they kind of suck at it? they did not want that much responsibility altho the immortality is nice. when they took over they#released cupid whos a bit of a legend but then the vibes are super weird bc cupid Definitely wants to usurp and take on the mantle of#chaos deity and gulliver idolizes her but doesnt feel great about just handing that over to it? and cupid has to grapple with not being the#one to kill silas. almost everyone she knew is dead. her mom isnt. the world has changed a lot. she finds out her cult is still going and#gets excited? but they have Changed. it disgusts her now. they are not the radical clowns she intended. the vibes are weird. she denounces#that and tries out piracy. she manages to get the moon paladin living chainsaw power?#despite not being aligned w their ideology at all. wow nepotism. then it was going to spiral into some fucking meta galactic shit and have#well. ran out of tags. anyway i miss this character i should figure out what im doing w this universe cos theres no way im dming rn 🙃
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ok so what if. hear me out on this one. midoteto suicide pact.
#ok so maybe i saw some translations from the current event#and i mean. i think constantly about how in motor show he joked that he 'wasnt any good at being depressed'#i feel like tetora doesnt really know about this kinda stuff and has a very narrow view of what depression is#like hes the type to think depression and being suicidal are the same thing. that you cannot be depressed if you dont wanna die.#which is why hes 'not good' at it#he DOESNT wanna die#at least he doesnt think he does#but he says in this event that if hes not loved or even liked he has no reason to exist.#and with everything rst has been thru with chiaki making everything a chiaki problem and not a rst problem and tetora#taking the fall for it more often than not as the leader of the yumenosaki division who is probably the most affected by those decisions#his help being constantly shrugged off by someone whos supposed to value teamwork above all else#that GETS to a guy#it gives the impression that he ISNT cared for. that he ISNT loved or liked or important to people.#and thats one of the worst side effects of chiakis stubbornness.#and with midori nothing ever seems to go in his favor#he was unwillingly put in the idol course because of his looks which hes super self conscious about#dude skips meals and avoids certain food groups in hopes he'll stunt his growth and probably has ever since he started growing like this#his genes failed him and now hes stuck in a position he never wanted to be in. he gets a lot of modeling work#which he hates bc it brings more attention to his looks#he was pulled into rst bc he had to go somewhere by a man with a hero complex as tall as midori#he stayed more out of convenience than anything. he stayed so chiaki wouldn't make a fuss about it#and while he did come to genuinely enjoy being an idol and came to love his unitmates#he still feels that inferiority constantly#and i think#in an emo way#it would be poetic if they felt they were the only people who would miss them if they died#so they die in each others company alone so that they arent without the one person who cares for them#ensemble stars#enstars#tetora nagumo
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hating someone for legitimately no real reason and just because u can and just dont like them is actually so freeing
#not to bring kpop up but i rly dislike one specific idol#has she done anything wrong? no i just dont vibe n its not like id ever attack her i just do not lik#im a big supporter of unsolicited hatred#obv as long as u arent like attacking or trashing them for no reason like u dont have to be positive or neutral on every1 until given reason#u can just be a hater
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