#and there's nothing wrong with that XD you don't need to create all the time if you wanna watch the mandalorian or play something else

[idrinkteawhenifeeldeadinside]

Pit Babe episode 3 rewatch/live commentary (part 2)

Made a minor edit on part 1

Be petty Charlie, be oh so petty XD and yet he still take the time to reassure him that he did nothing wrong (which, by their agreement, he didn't)

The few second Babe take to just breath while deciding if he should share his past with Charlie, if he trust this boy enough to do it. All that while looking right into Charlie big puppy eyes.... who is not blinking, just starring at Babe.

The little smile once he took his decision

I already talked about the toys car but damn ...and he's being so careful with it

For all his boasting about "eating alpha bla bla bla" Babe seem to not like Charlie's mentioning it. Once again rising the question "how did Babe really perceived his past sex*al relationship ?" + the comment about "a fake image that was created".....Nope, not going there tonight (it's currently 1 a.m and i already cried enough today)

The boy who play Kid!Babe is so cute and good actor.

Not gonna lie, in this situation, i too would have trusted Tony.

Guess we know where Pete got his quirk for archery...

He's so happy by making his "Dad" proud

And a round of applause to the make up team to make them look so much younger in the flashbacks

Oh Kenta.....

At fist, Charlie question made me laugh and then i realized, what else could he ask.....

And that Way talking, not Babe

Yeah sure, tell yourself that Babe! To bad Charlie is already down so bad for you.

Once gain that some pretty heavy promises Charlie "stay with you, take care of you".....wait that sounds like......nah, never mind

Please, you already are Babe.

And him seeking reassurance from Charlie. And his smile when he gets it.

And this is the exact moment knew he was irrevocably in love with Babe

Do you think Babe put his legs on Charlie's lap ?

For all the series (bl and other) this first kiss is one of my favorite sheer intimacy between them, the softness in their eyes, the smile the gentleness in their movement and touch...

Hi Jeff !

Now i really need to know, is that an Apple product placement ? Also did Lenovo agree to be in the Omegaverse vroom vroom ????

It took me approximately 5 rewatch before noticing Alan behind the desk, sipping his coffee

The "swick swick" of the shoes on the garage floor 🤣

"Why is that old man so close to me ?"

Hiiii Dean!!!!! You're so cute, and beautiful and i love you 🥹

And i want your jacket

He's so eager to please and prove himself to Alan

Liar

And this is when the fracture begins

Don't take your frustration on Jeff , please !

Sniff kiss !!!!

Jeff, are you okay ? .....Of course not, it's probable is first "intimate" interaction with anybody except Charlie

You know someone is really cool when they're wearing sunglasses inside and it doesn't look entirely stupid.

Hiii Pete

Is that really something that Pete can agreed upon alone as a new executive vice president ? And if not, how did he convive the board members ?

Pack photo !!!!

Hiii babies !!!!! (yes i'am talking about the bonzai)

Sonic green jacked, that it, that all i have to say!

No really how did Pete got the green light for this partnership ?

1rst Hiiiii Kim!!!!! 2nd, Benz hands and nails

Hiii Winner (yes i will keep doing that for the rest of the series)

And lets fall once again in the WinnerKim/Kimwinner pit (pun intended i guess) And dom!Kim is back !

*cough*Kim is wearing blue *cough*

Also that a pretty stupid think to do Winner...Who smoke in a garage ???

Why is he so cute one moment an assh*le the next

For someone named Winner, he surprisingly doesn't react that badly at being called a loser

Or maybe it's because it's Kim.....

Yes let's manhandled him....You should do it more Kim

That's very convincing Winner

Rude! Maybe next time someone should stop him from doing that...with a kiss ???? No .....okay

Side note n°? : while i was watching the WinnerKim scene, the song "Tunnel" by Mingi (Ateez) started playing and made the scene so much more dramatic 😅 bur also the song is strangely fitting (or maybe that just me) -> Here the link (you can put the english subs):

[FIX OFF] Desire Project #1 'Tunnel' | ATEEZ(에이티즈) 민기

And now i want an Ateez/PitBabe collab🥹

So cute, he's so tiny

Ah la la Kim, rule number one, don't trust the rich ! And you're to good for your own well-being

Can i have a Charlie please ?

Oh please Babe, your loving it! You didn't even hesitate before drinking it.

Two things : 1) next time take off your day clothe before laying on that bed Charlie (yes, even if the sheets and up in the washer by the end of the night) 2) for once i'm not mad at the light still being on, after all Babe was waiting for Charlie to come back.

Hiii tiddies !

The toys !!!!!

And my favorite par of the scene -> the clock continuity.....it's beautiful

He's so gentle and so, so in love

Playing with his hair

Scent mention, yeah!

Pavel face is truly beautiful. The contrast between the sharpness of his jaw with the softness of his cheeks. His moles, His long eyelashes. The shape of his eyes

And somnophilia -> check i guess

Dream ->yes, sweet -> not the word i would use

Charlie letting Babe giving him his little welcome peck before going for the kiss

That was a close call between the headboard and Charlie's head

Way

Hiiii NorthSonic

Sorry Nut :

I'm literally falling asleep on my keyboard.....Bye bye

[insertsomthinawesome]

Sorry if this doesn’t make sense but how do you… art? Like from looking at your art, there’s just so many different fandoms and it’s all fantastic!! How do you not stick to one or feel like you *have* to stick to one? Sorry

Aw Friend! No need to apologize! :D You asked your question plenty politely! That's a really interesting question actually, and I'm fascinated to be asked it! Because I actually do know the kinda thing you're talking about! or at least I have experiences that feel like they line up with what you're asking. A lot of its... growing up? I guess? And not in the sense of like. becoming an adult. but the non-stop process of growing and learning more about life. When I was younger, an actual child, I just Did it. I drew whatever I wanted, whenever I wanted. I didn't question hoping to a new interest or drawing different fandoms. I just did it. But the older you get the more complicated a lot of things get right? 😔 That was true for me.

I actually spent several years terrified, of moving on. Of leaving old fandoms behind. There was one fandom I actually forced myself not to leave for like... 2 years? Because I was afraid of all the projects I wouldn't complete, all the stories I wouldn't tell, all the art i wouldn't make. But honestly that was a horrible decision? It burnt me out of the specific fandom SO BADLY. Its only been around this last year that I've been able to enjoy things around it again without an overhanging shadow of stress.

I was still scared to fandom hop after that incident tho. Despite having gotten burned by caving to my own fears. It wasn't until I got into Trigun that I actually started to get less scared. A friend I met in that fandom, someone who was older than me, told me that... things have a way of coming back around. If you know the song "Everything Stays" From Adventure time? She said it was like that song. You will inevitably get older. But these things won't be gone. And you can always come back to them :) That clicked in my brain... and it took a bit longer, a bit more time of accepting that fact for me to find peace... but honestly? I kinda have now. At least for this moment in time. I wouldn't be surprised if the fear comes back around again, fear is funny and insidious like that. But I have the tools to beat it now :) The other two things I would mention are these: For starters: this might be obvious? But I'm a hobbyist artist. I don't make money off of my art, I don't sell it, I don't need numbers or clout in order to pay my bills. I'm completely free to do my own thing! Ain't nothing wrong with making a living off of your artwork and if that's the path that you want to walk GO FOR IT. But that path does have its own challenges. Because I don't walk that path, I am free to make whatever I want, without worrying about how it might reflect on my finances. The other thing is...

PERFECTIONISM...

THIS, NASTY LITTLE VILE COCKROACH, WILL RUIN YOUR ART LIFE SO BADLY ITS INSANE. It will ruin your NORMAL life super fast too 😔 it is an insidious little shoulder devil telling you, that you will be happier if you just do it the "perfect" way. IT IS SO SO SO SO SO SO WRONG. That is the key to the door of endless procrastination and broken dreams. SFLJSLF to get less metaphorical about it though: If you're always waiting for the perfect moment to make art for a fandom, to leave a fandom, to join a fandom (in this case i just mean "Get into the thing that interests you" when I say "Fandom") or create literally anything, you will be waiting forever. I know because i have been :') And its made it very hard to draw both in my past, and right now this very day.

Truthfully i'm still working on that one??? I've had some epiphanies recently that have helped a lot with my perfectionism... but I haven't tried drawing since having them? (drowning in the new Honkai Star Rail Patch WHEEZE) So uh. Not sure If I'm over that hill yet xD But yeah, if that's one piece of advice i could give you to take seriously, its don't chase perfection, in ANYTHING. Especially art. It will never be enough for you. And if you're doing it for other people, it will never be enough for them. Art is wonderful and messy, and human. And that is okay.

Its taken me a lot of soul diving and thinking and a lot of help from outside influence and kind people for me to figure this stuff out too. So don't feel bad to ask for help kay? We all need help. A lot xD I'm still not like, the king this stuff either. There are a lot of smaller, more niche, fandoms, I want to draw for, but still haven't, because of my own anxiety and embarrassment. There are fandoms I haven't drawn for because I don't feel like i have the adequate amount of information to be, ""allowed"" too (which is totally a fake standard btw, there is no barrier to entry for when you're "allowed" to draw something). I'm working on these problems every day.

Oh actually one last note: People can influence how hard it is for you to draw for a bunch of fandoms too. If you know you'll get made fun of for drawing something, its hard to draw. If you know you'll get praised for drawing something, sometimes that makes it easier to draw. Both of those things can mess you up BAD. Constantly drawing for other people (when its not a deliberate gift) can make you feel really upset and angry, and dissonant with your artwork.

But it can be equally as hard to realize nobody will share your enthusiasm if you don't draw what they like. That's not a judgement against anybody's friendships, we all got our own interests, and nobody can be 100% Invested in everything their friends enjoy. But It can make it a bit more emotionally challenging sometimes. And it can be hard to like?? Emotionally deal with that? in a way it makes art that you know will perform well, either with your friend group or online, like... "Candy". Its tastes good, but it doesn't give you long term energy (ie there's nothing wrong with it, but its not sustainable as your only form of sustenance) Meanwhile making art that is purely self indulgent is like eating a full and healthy meal. It gives you that long term energy of personal satisfaction, and your enjoyment and happiness also doesn't inherently hinge on whether or not other people appreciate it like you do. Obviously there's no issue if what you genuinely want to draw would also do well online/with your friends!

ANYWAYS, yeah, I'm still maturing and learning and growing with a lot of my opinions and perspectives and emotions on this stuff? Its definitely easier said than done, and while from the outside it looks effortless... I understand why you'd be struggling anon. I hope you can figure it out for yourself too! Best of luck :D also i could go on and on and on about this topic for years because alsjdfaksjdflJSDJGSD ooohhhhhhh boy I have learned and witnessed and thought many a thunk.

[piracytheorist]

Violence ask game for SxF. Hmm... I think I knew your "topic that brings up the most rancid discourse", so I wanna know your opinion about either "22. your favorite part of canon that everyone else ignores" or "25. common fandom complaint that you're sick of hearing" please? 😳

To counter your point I would actually not say what you think I'd say for "topic that brings up the most rancid discourse" because from my experience there is no discourse around that matter. It's just some fans of a certain character firmly stuck on their headcanons and for some reason the rest of the fandom just rolls with that to the point that the latter might come to the former's defence if you dare point out some objective truths about the text.

And look, I get that there are some toxic assholes on the bird app who have nothing better to do than attack those fans, but I say it with the most genuinely kind intentions, if they feel attacked by someone simply not liking their blorbo or ship and pointing out some very well structured character flaws... they're in a very big need of a break from social media. I'm not being sarcastic or patronizing when I say they need to go touch grass. I used to be the kind of person who would see any criticism of my favourite character or ship and take it as a personal attack, and I know now it was NOT a healthy reaction, albeit understandable with the amount of toxicity in my then fandom. And that was a far more toxic fandom, trust me on that. People have the right to dislike anyone's blorbo and to make analyses and talks about how the character is not perfect. Babying a group of fans by protecting them from that idea can only lead to even more toxicity. So uhm idk if that answered your question XD

I've already answered #22 here but another thing I like from canon is how oppressive Ostania's government feels but there's very little focus on that. I understand why people would choose to focus on romance over the political situation, but I don't see the canon story being able to end with a simple "And then the Forger family fled and lived happily in a neutral country". I don't see the story ending without the cold war ending too. Again, I get it, not every fanfic needs to be so meticulous about it, there's no right and wrong way of enjoying the story or creating derivative works. It's just something I don't see that often. It's not a bad thing.

And on "25. common fandom complaint that you're sick of hearing" again, I'm not very active in the fandom, but whenever there's a complaint about how slow the story is I'm this 👌 close from commenting "This story isn't for you." The point of the story is to have a slow burn for the family, to show how they bond through small moments and experiences. The point is to have Twilight slowly shed his spy persona and little by little reveal who he truly is, and then get shocked at how much he's changed since the beginning. You cannot do that fast. You cannot create family bonds after one intense experience. You cannot have Twilight and Yor have a deep, meaningful connection from one moment to the next. You cannot have intense identity reveals without the feeling of betrayal of "I've known that person for so long and everything about them was a lie" that only can happen if they've spent a lot of time and small moments together. And you absolutely cannot have Twilight, who's spent a decade suppressing his feelings and true self to the point that he'd forgotten what his actual purpose to be a spy was, suddenly be all happy and giggly and lovey-dovey within the span of a week (nevermind that in my fic I did that, fics are a different matter). If people want a quick found family story with a romance that develops within a couple weeks they have to find a different story. SxF is not here to do it fast, SxF is here to do it real. It's fine if some don't like it and wanna bail. But they shouldn't demand that the story does something the way they like it. They have to find that sort of story on their own.

And it's not like we don't want all of that development to happen. We want to see the family grow close, to see them come together happily after identity reveals, to see Twilight allow himself to feel and love and be loved... but all in due time. It's a long-term commitment. It's the slow burn that does it :D

[millenniallust4death]

I saw your post about tell me what time it is and what youre thinking abt. No idea if that meant asks or not. But anyways

It's only noon and I'm fuckijg tired. Thinking abt dropping out. Thinking abt quitting so much rn. Thinking abt getting a GED and getting the fuck out of this school. I'm so tired. I don't give a shit about my grades why does everyone else. I literally just need to pass I'm going to art school? I don't need to get anything above a 75% in my classes in my own personal opinion. I wouldn't be considering dropping out if the week of school I missed didn't fuck up my entire term. I don't give a fuck about high school okay I'm young I get that but I am fully capable of making my own decisions and suffering the consequences. Being my age is about learning from your mistakes and being able to absorb that info its not about making perfect choices and doing everything just right for your 30-year old self. I'm so tired of school pushing the narrative that you need to make all your major life decisions right now and they Cannot Be Wrong how Dare you be Unsure about your Massive Life Choices.

If you follow my blog then you know that I permanently feel weary and 100% done with everything so I can relate to your message. Your words tell me that you feel overwhelmed and frustrated with high school. Yeah, high school is a total drag but at the risk of alienating you, I would strongly encourage you to persist and ultimately, graduate. I think education is the ultimate investment in yourself; one, no one can take away from you.

I have several degrees and all of them have involved suffering through pointless courses.

In high school, I spent a year of my life learning about the succession of a sand dune in biology. I'm a hit at beach parties.

In my undergrad in chemistry, I had to take a philosophy course where we spent four fucking months proving that a table was a chair. Every lecture, I fervently longed for the grave.

In grad school for chemistry, I had to take a photochemistry course where I learned about bilirubin in excruciating detail. I was an inorganic chemist and didn't give a shit about babies turning yellow.

But nothing will ever top the pointlessness of a course during my MLIS degree (ie. library school) where I spent four miserable months studying the implicit and tacit knowledge processes in the movie, Working Girl. Solidified millennial lust for death as my core personality.

During my data science program, I spent four months studying quality function deployment, a management technique that originated in a 1970s Japanese shipyard site. I can't even make this up.

I didn't provide these random examples to say, I suffered and so should you. More, I understand how meaningless education can seem at the time but you've got this! And as trite as this sounds, I took a skill, a process, or way of thinking from every course listed above. I can't express how irritated I was when I sketched out a house of quality (part of quality function deployment) before I created a prompt design course last year. XD

Perhaps my mutuals will add some words of encouragement to this post.

[sadistic-kiss]

VERY LONG COMMENT!

Appreciation Comment + comment on the chapter ( basically me rambling for a very long time) ♡

The way I dropped everything I was doing the second, I saw the notification for House of Alpha chapter 14. (≧ヘ≦　)

I remember finding the series when there were only 3 chapters out, and I've never been more grateful to have found it! I absolutely adore the series (and all of your other work too! I found you through Bloody Summer on AO3~) (σ≧▽≦)σ

I love your ideas, your style of writing, the plot, the cringe, and 2nd hand embarrassment I get when reading. I adore you! Did I say how much I adore you? Well I absolutely adore you! ( ≧∀≦)ノ

ANYWAYS, enough rambling about how much I adore you and your work, LET'S TALK ABOUT CHPATER 14!!

When the explosion went off and I started freaking out along with Raven... I was about to fight whoever was going to hurt my babies (the alphas are everything but babies but they're my babies!) (ノ｀Д´)ノ彡┻━┻

Then, when I read that Nanami was injured and was bleeding, I was about to throw hands at the monster! Luckily (but still unlucky), it was just the poison... I need Nanami to be healthy again!! =(っ*´□`)っ

And then Satoru.

I'm biased since Satoru is my favorite, BUT THE WAY, MY HEART BROKE WHEN HE THOUGHT WE HATED HIM!!! I was screaming and crying no and how much I loved him. I need to hug my baby and smother him in my love. ｡･(つд`｡)･｡

AND THEN THE ENDING OF THE CHAPTER! Had me screaming from the kiss, and now I'm so excited for the next chapter! Time is moving too slow for me, I want to know what happens next, and I absolutely can't wait! (Take your time. This is just me being annoying–) 。。(〃_ _)σ∥

I seriously can't believe this story came to you in a dream. Why can't it happen to me too!? I seriously can't imagine it. If the story came to me in a dream, I would have been so upset when I woke up! Like, let me go back to dreaming where I can have hot guys in my personal space! (´□`; 三 ;´□`)

OK, LAST COMMENT I PROMISE!

This is actually my first time ever commenting despite reading and liking everything from you, so I'm just going to say, FROM NOW ON, I will leave a comment (on tumblr) on everything! If I don't, come and scold me because I need to smother you in affection for creating these masterpieces!! No, seriously, please remind me if I ever forget to smother you in affection because you absolutely deserve it! I'm counting on you to remind me if I forget to comment!

ﾟ+.ヽ(≧▽≦)ﾉ.+ﾟ

PS: Did I tell you how much I love you and your work?

PPS: You actually were one of the 2/3 writers who inspired me to start writing! Although it's still a work in progress because it's easier to imagine than write and because I'm procrastinating–

PPPS: I LOVE YOU FOR EXISTING AND CREATING THESE MASTERPIECES. I'M DETERMINED TO SMOTHER YOU IN AFFECTION!!!!

*Squeals and cry at the same time*

I like to type my response while reading a long comment but I’m already giggling and smiling like a damn idiot 🥹

I’m so glad you found me~ bloody summer was such a long time ago oh wow 😂. I have changed so much since my friend and I started that one. Sometimes I read it and hiss a bit, it is quite dark. I might rewrite it in my style? (Is that a writing style? I dunno I’m kind of new to this lol.) I was once a sadistic bean but I am now turned into a mushy chef 👩‍🍳(I swear I blame gege it’s his fault and I will raise my fist to the sky till the day I rest). Maybe I should change my name to chef’s kisses XD.

*giggles and kicks my feet some more* I swear i can’t stop smiling while reading this my cheeks hurt 😭.

Ooo~ just in case someone didn’t read chapter 14 yet I’ll put a spoiler warning hehe 🤭

⚠️House of alpha Chapter 14 Spoiler warning engage ⚠️

Yes 🥺, they are our psycho little pack but we must take care of them because they are silly and stupid at times.

I know our poor Nanami baby 😭🖤 (we are doing our best)

I’m bias about all the characters, my daddies can do nothing wrong XD. Gojo feeling sad because he’s feeling left out makes me do tha aaaahh~ poor bebe~

House of alpha is one of those stories where I’m writing a chapter and have to stop myself because I’m writing into the next chapter. I had planned to make chapter 14 longer but it was already peaking 4k and you know Gojo is going to want more from that kiss because he’s greedy 👀~. I also had fell asleep like right after I posted hahah. I was so mad when my work didn’t save I stayed up all night to finish it so don’t worry I’ll try to get that next chapter to you ASAP~ I do have two children that are not yet out the house (Looks at Desert Rose and House of Alpha stories) I must love them both equally so the next post will be for Desert Rose ~ don’t worry she’s almost old enough lol (not me treating my stories like kids XD) 🖤

Oh! Yes! I have very interesting dreams. I have so many ideas that I have to close off because I need to finish the stories I have lol. I like to focus on one or two stories at a time.

So~ I don’t think I can tell you how fucking hilarious it was when i ran away in my dream from the omega house. In my dream I actually was on the boat getting ready to sail. I was leaning on the side looking out at the beautiful ocean while taking a deep sigh. Like damn those were some hot ass alphas, I’ll never get that experience but oh well~ The captain sounded the bell for us to go but then stopped mid ring. that’s when two men stepped up beside me. Sukuna was snacking on fingers (he was a lot more gruesome in my dream. Like he actually killed miwa in my dream because he got pissy of the food she served him so I made sure to save her in the actual story and made that part part of the game story if that makes sense) while Toji just leaned on the side to admire the view with me. And Toji was like nice view Huh? And sukuna was like yeah imma stop you right here I don’t like boats get the fuck off And I looked at them like WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU GUYS DOING HERE?! And toji was like oh we were just seeing where you were going but let’s stop it here prime omega. And the complete shock I felt when they told me they chose me sent me flying over board as I swam away and ran because I just can’t accept nice things XD. yeah hehe my dream was more of the smutty bits and plots lol I don’t want to spoil it 🤭.

But when I woke up I was left in awe. It was like i watched a really good movie but I can’t tell anyone to watch it because it doesn’t exist so I gotta retell the story like tenacious D singing their tribute to the greatest song in the world but it was the greatest reverse harem issekai in the world 🤣🖤. I was like the people must know of this story !

Omg! 😭 this comment was already worth a thousand comments hahah! And I love to spoil so please don’t feel obligated, it just makes me so happy to even read this 🖤. I waited till the morning to read it since I was super tired when I finished chapter 14 I wanted to make sure I could really indulge in your comment. I saw it before bed and couldn’t stop smiling because I wanted to read it this morning lol. I feel like I just drank a cup of coffee and I’m so excited to start my morning so thank you, this meant a lot to me. You could have literally put I love you and I would have been grinning all day 🖤🤭.

Oh! I love love love when others are inspired to write so please if you need help let me know! I write stories I want to read 😭😭😭! I have bookmarks of fanfics that haven’t been updated since last year, I am desperate for more fanfics haha!

Oh wow I typed so much I am so sorry sometimes when I get excited I can’t stop typing XD

P.S: I love YOU and will do my best to spoil you with more to eat. I love to feed and please👩‍🍳🖤

[aesolerin]

Did you ever hear about that digital presentation/lecture one of the Red Hook fellas gave on how they put together the game visually and inspirationally? (Fun Fact: Jester turned out the way he did because Bourassa hates the DnD Bard stereotype, lol) I'm mentioning this in particular because he went over Leper as an example in terms of symbolism incorporated into his design

(which, side tangent to that: Leper's blocky and metallic aesthetic was inspired by Iron Man! the more you know, lol)

This was put out onto YouTube before Red Hook made it fully clear DD2 was gonna be a thing, which made it all the more notable when people later realized that one of the pictures used on that slide was of Leper's DD2 character design. So, everything he was talking about here was likely with Leper's canon DD2 backstory in mind. This is important because:

One of the points Bourassa mentioned was the fact that Leper has a "broken sword for a broken man".

That by itself is already brutally sad, but rest assured! It gets worse if you think about it long enough. After all, do you remember when that happened in his backstory? If not, lemme stop being coy for a moment to help you in drawing some conclusions:

The Leper's sword broke in killing off his advisors.

It wasn't the diagnosis that got to him. Neither was it leaving his kingdom behind. It was in breaking the oath he made to himself that he would protect everyone in his kingdom. Because, treacherous or not, his advisors were still part of his kingdom. It was only a small handful of people, sure. And yes, it's true that they couldn't be trusted to take actions in good faith once he was gone. And it likely was the right thing to do, at the end of the day.

But justifications don't erase the stark truth that he murdered his own subjects in cold blood.

And THAT shattered him (and his sword) more than a simple diagnosis or self-exile ever could.

Because, the thing is: someone can believe that their actions were objectively the best possible option and justifiable, while considering those same actions subjectively horrifying and unforgivable. After all, murder is still murder no matter the motivation, and some folks deeply take that to heart.

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Of course, this is only true if I remembered that presentation correctly, as I haven't tried to look it up to verify it, lol. You got any thoughts on it, yourself? Assuming you hadn't already realized that on some level, of course - for all I know, you could have drawn this conclusion a long time ago and never brought it up because you thought it was obvious! xD

Or, on the other side of it, there's no reason you should feel the need to change how you characterize our fave Leper buddy, y'know? Though, imo, it's not particularly contradictory to how we normally characterize him. This is just another angle you could look at him from if you wanted to in your writing, shippy or otherwise!

(Though speaking of shipping: this creates another interesting level to think about Leper's dynamic with Jester, no?)

(Maybe Jester needs to get his king to forgive himself by comparing their past actions. If Baldwin finds nothing wrong with what Sarmenti did, which was spurred on by a much more selfish - if entirely sympathetic - motivation, why should Baldwin go about putting his own actions on a pedestal of guilt? Unless he's implying that he's supposed to be morally better than Jester, which I'm p sure both of them would hate to draw as a conclusion.)

(Or maybe Leper sees it as another way they can understand each other that others may not grasp. That while they may be stained by their past actions, it doesn't make the two of them inherently unlovable or deserving of suffering. It's a burden they can help each other bear due to their own personal experience with it.)

(Or maybe Jester is tired of all this masturbatory self-flagellating fuckery and would much rather he and Leper get down to something a bit more literal in its sexual nature. Wouldn't put it past the Silly fella)

thank you much for providing that link to the video! which i will in turn provide in full, because it is a very fun and thought-provoking talk overall, not just the Leper stuff!!

(and, as someone who's played lots of bards, ☹ [but i will point out i've never played one of those horny bards at least])

i do very much agree that retaliating and killing his traitorous advisors was a huge turning point for Leper, and a source of at least some degree of internal conflict for him.

was it a moment of freedom and liberation, finally justified in doing something about those poison-tongued sycophants?

was it a moment of horror and regret, killing treasonous-but-still-subjects of his?

was it a moment of resignation and cold calculation, defending himself against attackers seeking to kill him?

was it a moment of inevitability and hollowness, knowing something of this magnitude was bound to happen after his diagnosis?

some bits of all four? fluctuating day-by-day, nightmare-by-nightmare?

as Bourassa said, a broken sword for a broken man. no matter the literal golden facade he puts up, Leper is still a broken man looking for something as he battles the horrors of the Hamlet/the world. at least this is an unexpected connection he shares with Jester, right?

i will admit it's not something i've commented much on in my fics, as Jester's trauma is just so much more, but i certainly have thoughts!

way back in my first DD fic, Dreams, Jester notes that royal blood on their hands is something they share, and Leper smiles as he says “Hence the beauty I see in your bloody finale. Such cruelty and abuse should be responded to in kind."

in Bow, something about the assassination attempt seems to have severely fucked up the Veiled Emperor's sense of trust.

believe me friend, when it is finally revealed, i am going to have so much fun 😊

these are some wonderful(ly painful) thoughts you've shared, and again thank you for putting this talk on my radar!!

[quinloki]

serious question for you and other fanfic authors, is it bothersome to like, binge leave comments of an authors work? like does seeing the same name comment the same type of thing on fics ever annoy you? I have authors I am obsessed with but I don't want to seem creepy or annoying

With very rare exceptions (and everything has exceptions so don't fret overmuch), artists love feedback. And when I say feedback, I don't mean critique - there's a time and place for that and that's never after something has been posted/shared. (the one caveat being if it's explicitly requested by the artist.)

When I say feedback I mean, if you liked it, say something.

It's okay to not like something you've read/seen/watched, but in those cases just don't share it, don't like it, and don't recommend it - if it really bothers you, block the source and move on. Leaving a negative comment could cause unintended consequences, so I would personally recommend avoiding them.

But if you liked it - whatever shape that took - leaving a comment is a wonderful thing. Sharing it is too! You don't even have to say anything if you don't know what to say.

BUT! To get to your specific concern - "seeing the same comment, the same type of things on fics, ever annoy you?"

If you see something and see comments are left and those comments are what YOU would also want to comment, then comment. You can even say "I know everyone else has this but," and then say your piece.

I love stuff like that personally. I love having created something that provokes a steady reaction across all sorts of people. It means, intentionally or not, I managed to nail a concept/emotion/response, and I can learn from that. (Or just bask in the chaos and enjoy my hard work XD )

If you feel like you're leaving the same comment on everything you read this, that's okay too \o/ Sometimes I don't know what to say, the details elude me, and there's nothing wrong with "I really enjoyed this, thank you" and leaving it at that.

I, personally, love the whole gamut - from the Play by Play where someone leaves a comment like they were taking notes and just highlighting all their favorite parts, to the Complete Feral Gremlin which is nearly incomprehensible except that they derived some deep emotion from what they read.

I will admit, there is one kind of comment that can be creepy, and I cannot think of any artist I know, be they pictures or words or otherwise, that enjoys it.

The comment that is sexual toward the author.

Look, for me, you can admit you needed a cold shower after reading something I wrote. You can even admit you had to go get your rocks off because it was so good. That can be a bit TMI for some peeps, so I wouldn't start there with a new author XD

But hitting on or propositioning a creator just because they do saucy content, is flat out creepy.

I've had people come to me with specific questions about kink and bdsm and I've stated I'm okay with it, and I've provided feedback in the ways they've wanted. I've had people come to me wanting advice on writing smut, and I don't mind giving that.

But woe unto the troglodyte who wanders into my sphere trying to hump my leg without my consent.

And speaking of consent, you can always ask a specific author before you leave a comment. There's nothing wrong with poking someone and saying "Are you okay with feral comments, or should I tone it down a little?" If you're concerned about it, an inquiry (like this!) never hurts.

But I tell you, I get one comment over and over on my Quicksand story that gives me Such Life.

"I wasn't a fan of Crocodile until I read this."

Ah, that's the good stuff.

[cdroloisms]

8, 13, 3, 25, 26, 27, 30 for the ask game!

8. Which character do you think is most different to c!Dream?

Oooh uh I'm not very good with superlatives. Hmm...

Lazy answer tbh but because I can't think very hard, I'd say c!Sam in a lot of ways? Which is funny particularly bc c!Dream seems to be under the impression that they're a lot more similar than they actually are until Shit Goes Down. c!Sam and his choosing c!Dream over the entire server versus c!Dream's ruthlessness being applied to everyone and absolutely not sparing himself. c!Dream's general dislike for power structures versus guy who thinks he was born to be listened to. c!Dream's ambivalence w/ morality (and his spiral into thinking of himself as pure evil, after. well. a lot of things) versus c!Sam's defining literally everything based off his batshit moral code and I Am Good isms. I think they want similar things in some ways, but unlike, say, c!Dream and c!Tommy (who I think have much more similar ideas of what a peaceful server would look like), c!Sam would make Samville The Peaceful Town Where Nothing Goes Wrong As Long As You Listen To Sam and have an underground torture bunker. God c!Sam is so batshit

(For some more answers, probably c!Sapnap in terms of conflict resolution? Uhhh c!Punz is p high up there in terms of motivation. I'm sure there's others that'll come to me eventually)

3. What's your favorite c!Dream era?

Prison arc, sorry. I'm predictable. But for eras that I think are chronically underrated, Pogtopia-c!Dream will always always always have a place in my heart. We don't talk about this man enough fr. I need to go back and just binge all c!Dream content especially pre-Vassal bc god that man breaks my heart.

25. If c!Dream had to join an existing/former DSMP country or faction, which one would you choose for him?

The Syndicate, probably! Well the Syndicate if I'm trying to be niceys otherwise I'm shoving him on Sam's island or in Las Nevadas to kick my feet as the world burns. But yeah I've always had a very soft spot for Syndicate c!Dream--my guy is so scared all the time man :[

26. What do you think is c!Dream’s greatest strength?

Hmmm...probably his intelligence? He's damn smart and he knows how to utilize it well. He's a hell of a fighter and he's a hell of an opponent even when his brain is a little twisted up in itself in fear, he knew how to play around people's perceptions of him and create an absolutely batshit plan and pull it off. The Revolution, November 16th, Staged Finale...he knows what he's doing and he sure as hell does it well.

(Thinks about how all three of those include accounts of him intentionally putting his allies in positions that would put them at the least amount of risk, between c!Dream's overcaution in the Revolution and doing the duel himself, the nonsense with the traitor/there is no traitor that kept people's eyes off Wilbur, Staged Finale being explicitly a plan to protect c!Punz...man.)

c!Dream is smart enough to cook up a plan and ruthless + determined enough to go through with it Whatever It Takes, and yet he's still honestly pretty cognizant of the risks and acts to minimize it (especially risk to those working with him). c!Dream is competent and that has always been a big part of what I like about him

30. In 3 words, how would you describe c!Dream?

Hmmmm. I'm really bad at these types of exercises XD I'd say...

Scared, Ruthless, Responsible ?

[gloryride]

WIP WHENEVER

I was tagged by @alphanight-vp @chevvy-yates @just-a-cybercroissant @rosapexa thank youuuuuu !

I have things but not visuals, just ideas and talking.

>> VP

I have anything to show, the last big project was the CP Birthday and took all my energy. I cleaned up my vp idea and i have ... 72 lines XD If you want an idea (sorry it's in french) :

>> WRITING

I'm in mood for writing, but it's chaotic, i have many MANY drafts on my phone and pc with some paragraph, just idea, a dialog, nothing full. But i can show you one of them

So, just another snippet of Virgile/Eve fic, i really need to finish this chapter, but translation takes lot of time (i can't full write in english)

"You never asked me what's my job." He coughed several times under the glare of the other disdainful customers before catching his breath, avoiding her look. This must have made him suspicious in the eyes of the woman in front of him; he always looked like a child caught at fault when confronted with moments like this. Virgile remained silent and Evelyn resumed, resting her elbows on the table, not giving up. "Because you're not interested? Or you know and you don't want to talk about it?" More than red, he was turning crimson. His gaze was on the restaurant's décor, the sleek modern style, the chrome accents to underline the white walls where hideous gaudy pictures were hung to make it look like art … everywhere but on her. Unable to escape, trapped by his chair and his lunch, he finally took a breath, and whispered, "I already know". She didn't seem offended, quite the opposite. "Thanks to NetWatch or…?" He cut her off with a firm gesture, finally turning his gaze towards her. "I would never use my job to get information on someone. We're adults, we can… talk." He sighed, his leg trembling and his hands twisting as if he were telling a shameful secret. "Because I've been to Clouds before and met you there." He thought he'd never have this conversation, Evelyn talked little about her private life and he'd hoped she'd continue to do so without having to justify anything. His heart raced and his hand caressing the back of his neck betrayed his nervousness. For her part, she continued to smile, almost amused, then took on an air of conspiracy as she moved a little further forward. "And you're ashamed of something?" Her steady voice sought information, perhaps she was imagining what they might have done. Virgile had difficulty swallowing before answering, his gaze shifting. "I don't know," he replied. "Is it wrong to take advantage of someone's unconsciousness to get rid of problems?" "By get rid of your problems, do you mean … sex?" Virgile's face froze and he opened his eyes wide. With a sudden movement, he almost spilt his drink. "What? No! No ! " He saw her laugh as he tried to calm down. "I never wanted to… with a doll."

>> MODS

I have ... 5 XL mods waiting to finish XD 2 old mods i port in XL, 2 clothes and 1 thing. I don't like to talk more about it bc they're not finish, not much pics And now i'm done with npv commissions until february, i can mod for myself. So i need to :

update NPVanessa (new tattoos, new clothes, new hair)

update NPV Oscar (new clothes - young version)

redo NPVirgile (with his style i created for him)

redo NPV Isao (i borked him and now he has a wardrobe)

redo NPValentin (new body with Gymfiend, new clothes)

finish NPV Mieko

Would like to finish Enzo's scars on his hands too, and so update his npv too. I also want to finish my custom npcs for Eve for example (maybe release it ? idk) i want to learn to do props, i failed for CP bday, i found a plan B I want to learn to port clothes, i bought some because they were on sale but that's it I want to learn custom poses bc i have ... 3 sets in mind ! ... i will never have time until february XD

tagging (no pressure of course !) : @breezypunk @medtech-mara @cybervesna @nananarc @mhbcaps and anyone who wants !

[idsfantasy]

Hope you have a lovely night as well! I think you make an excellent point, I guess the reason me and other people feel so tired is just that the ideas there are good, but the fact there hasn’t been a clear commitment in the actual games is frustrating. Like getting fed breadcrumbs with no actual bread.

I really like the concepts as you propose and think they have a lot of potential but I don’t know if I trust Scott to follow through anymore, because he is very hesitant to confirm these things within the text and thus can walk back at any second. I mean we know for a fact that SB’s entire premise was rebuilt after some theory videos, which means that the original trajectory from Help Wanted wasn’t really followed through on, which will naturally create some gaps. Each game kinda addresses or reexamines criticism and themes from the last, so I’m worried that the next couple games will come out, and since androids have become so reviled by the community, it’ll be outright debunked and all that setup will have been for nothing. I really hope I’m wrong, and I have hope that won’t happen, but sometimes I worry the process of theory-crafting and posing wild mysteries around the plot of the games is placed above actual character writing and thematic ideas. Idk. The movie was very good though and I liked it, and I think HW2 also looks very fun. We’ll see. We’ll see.

Good luck fighting in the trenches soldier, and Godspeed.

That's fair! I do agree that we'll need more information, but since we are still getting continuations of the story, my guess is we're going to get more of the info we need as we go.

As for SB's premise being rebuilt, I don't actually think that's the case. Sure, Mat may have guessed some things about the story, but it was never stated that he got every single detail right, just implied that the finished product wasn't what he'd expected based on his theories. Given it seems like a lot was cut for time, I think that's the issue, not changing things to prove theories wrong.

But yeah, I am hoping that the backlash to robot people won't cause a heel-turn. Though I am somewhat hopeful given Scott has seemingly stuck with it even after the backlash it got in the novel trilogy lol.

Thank you XD

[runawaymun]

Just wanted to get back to the answer you gave for question 23 and say that while I’ve been out of the game for a couple of years now because of life, I have read every chapter of Boundless Sky and after every chapter I make a mental note to comment but I never remember to do that because somehow I’m always in a hurry.

I remember when I started reading Stars and I followed through the process since I believe chapter two, and I had never read such a thought through and well structured fic before and it totally stole my heart. Your fics keep inspiring me and now I’m getting motivated to start writing again.

Honestly the way fics and comfort characters get us through difficult times is something I will never stop being amazed by. Stars got me through an incredibly tough year filled with death and new beginnings and twelve hour days. I could have had the worst or longest day ever and still feel excitement and joy about a new chapter at the end of the day and before going to bed I would read it and end my day with a smile. And of course we need to remember that we’re talking about a pretty heavy hurt/comfort fic which I think isn’t the way most people would want to end their day with xD

Is there something wrong with me? Probably. Do I mind? Not really. Tomorrow I will start writing again because that’s absolutely what I need right now. Ooooh I am so excited about everything and I totally forgot why I was writing this in the first place, but I want you to know that you inspire me and just keep rocking!❤️‍🔥

Ahhh sorry for taking so long to respond, I wanted to give this the attention it's due. <3 First of all you are never obligated to comment! Please don't feel pressured at all. I am lovingly placing each (slow-to-update) chapter in your hands. You are very dear to me.

And god. Thank you so much. I think one of the best things ever as a writer is hearing that my art inspired someone else to make art. There's really nothing better than that. IDK I just adore humans I adore the way our brains work I adore how we can get inspired by other people & art is inherently collaborative and art begets art. It's collaborative between the viewer/reader and collaborative between other writers, and honestly like. The idea that I could inspire someone to start writing again means so much to me! There are so many times in my life where I felt discouraged and walked away from writing or art for a while, but then there is always a piece of art or a fic or a book or a film/tv show/video game that makes me want to start again and it always saves me every time so-- it's lovely to be able to pass it along.

;-; and I am so glad that Stars/Boundless Sky has been comforting. It's been so comforting and cozy for me too (despite all the crazy stuff we're getting into with Boundless Sky). Just-- yeah. I know I will miss hanging out with the fam when it's over (not that I won't write more). But I'm just so glad that it has been helpful and comforting to read!! Honestly that's my goal that's always my goal like-- to be able to create something a reader can escape into? For me that's the highest form of my art so like, the fact that it worked for you means so much, really. Thank you.

<3 <3 <3 YESSSS GO WRITE YOUR HEART OUT. I hope that you are still writing. Sometimes breaks are good. Nothing blooms all throughout the year. I hope that you've been able to enjoy it and make something you love -- and if you haven't I hope you'll gently push yourself through until you do. Sometimes the faucet gets a bit stuck and it can take a while for new stuff to come out, but once it does it's just the best feeling.

Thank you so much for this, really. <3

[hacked-by-jake]

Just wanted to say: thank you❤️

I love the way you're dealing with this whole Moonvale thing and share your opinions - it feels good that someone who's a little more active in the fandom wants to see the positive aspects and share them with the fandom

I too am sad by how all of this turned out but I do believe that we still need to see the positives! Like, I really love Moonvale's story and the videos with Eric and Adam are awesome! They gave me the creeps and made me excited for more :)

I think we should just wait and see how they handle episode 2 and just maybe have a little faith that they at least listen to some of our criticism and make changes

Aww, thank you so incredibly much for your kind and loving words. Really, it feels incredibly wonderful to read that I'm absolutely glad you seem to think so. I don't want to ignore the bad things at all, because as I said, it's important to talk about it. Because without talking, what should change? But yes, on the other hand most of us are here for entertainment, for an escape from reality and to see things they enjoy. And I want to try to do both things as best as possible.

As I also said before, critism is good, but we all have to be careful not to slip into a rage and hate spiral, otherwise it's not healthy for all of us.

For now, I fear we really can't do much anymore. Keep up the reminders about things that went wrong because we have to show that this is important and nothing to just push away. But yes, we can't do much more than hope and see what time brings. The topic won't leave Everbyte that easily again and they have time to rethink many things until the next episode appears. 💚

Spoiler

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As for me, I also enjoy the story so far. A lot, actually. And it's absolutely interesting. At first I was critical about that as well. And I don't mean the characters now, because I do think they can improve that a bit. But the story itself is interesting and has lots of potential.

To me, it feels like they're concentrating more on the mystery this time. Duskwood was more pure thriller-style but Moonvale looks more like a deep mystical thingy.

I have to say, especially Adams acting was incredible in my eyes. The first call was so good and interesting. First the relief, then tears and fear. Many people making jokes about him. And I mean, I somehow understand why. But I think his whole appearance created the perfect atmosphere. I needed a couple of minutes to warm up with Eric, tho, but then it was better than I thought before.

And if they improve some things I will definitely enjoy Moonvale a lot. I'm even sure it can be as good as Duskwood.

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We do need to have faith and just hope. A lot. But as I said, I somehow missed the Everbyte we "knew" before but I'm sure they're still there and I hope that everything will turn out good in the end. 💚

Again, thank you very much for sending the ask. And specially for the kind words. It means a lot to me and if I can make some person feel good with some things I do here, then I'm completely happy.

Thank you a lot for your time and sharing your thoughts and opinions with me and us. I always enjoy it. And I enjoy getting more positive asks about Moonvale as well. (That doesn't mean I don't like the look there asks with criticism, please don't get me wrong. I appreciate every kind of ask. (Please don't send me hate xD))

Have a great day/evening/night, Anon. Take care of yourself and stay healthy and safe. 💚

[imakemywings]

For the tolkein bingo, as you said you love sinda, celegorm and feanor

Haha nice play Anon

Feanor:

Feanor is probably actually one of my favorite Tolkien characters XD I don't stand either by "Feanor did nothing wrong" nor "Feanor did everything wrong" because to me the tragedy of his character is that he was good and he did a lot of good things for the Noldor but he also was susceptible to being corrupted by Melkor and having his abilities turned to terrible ends.

He's just so interesting. He has always struck me as someone who is not especially easy to get along with, and yet we know he must be able to inspire significant loyalty, based on how many of the Noldor are swayed to his argument for leaving Aman and how intensely his children adhere to his aims. Hell, the kids were eager to take the oath after Feanor did!

He feels so much all the time and he's terrible at processing that and he's so invested in learning and discovering and creating and he can be a real asshat but boy when he went down he went down hard and it was fantastic this boy really imploded in on himself like a dying star and sucked in everything around him too.

I don't think the Valar victimized Feanor and I don't think Feanor victimized his kids. I don't think Melkor is 100% responsible for what Feanor did, but I do think it's relevant to remember the text explicitly refers to the "corruption" of Feanor by Melkor, which has always made me think Melkor's influence drove Feanor to do things he would not have done otherwise. Not that that makes him not responsible for those things, but merely as a reflection on his character. I think he spends a lot of time in Mandos being horrified by both his own and his children's actions.

Anyway I could ramble about him a lot longer but I'll leave it there lol

Celegorm:

Celegorm is a character that initially I was very willing to write off as one I just didn't like and wasn't worth thinking about, but I've returned to him since then.

Frankly, I tend to believe all of Feanor's kids have a prominent douchebag streak and that was present even in Tirion. They were all talented, royalty, ambitious, and very smart people--they were probably fucking insufferable. Still, Celegorm and Curufin in particular seem to speedrun the Feanorian path from "general douchebag but still likeable" to "irredeemable asshole."

But why?

My general belief is that it's because Celegorm, after Alqualonde, essentially surrendered any version of this story where he and his family are the heroes. He saw them as villains at Alqualonde and just embraced that as their new identity. They're the dangerous violent Elves on a quest and he will use that to his every advantage, whereas I think some of his brothers--Maedhros and Maglor in particular--were still hanging onto this idea of nobility in their duty and being good (or at least not awful) people.

This is where you get things like his reciting the Oath in Nargothrond and plotting to use Luthien to force Thingol to ally with the Feanorians (the closest we get to a threat of Elf-on-Elf sexual assault in the book), chasing down Luthien and Beren for the crime of escaping that shit plan, and pushing hard for the Second Kinslaying. Celegorm basically accepts that they are not good people and is then willing to use that wherever he can to get what he wants/what the Feanorians need. If he had survived Doriath, I think he would have been on board for the Third Kinslaying.

So now I find him kind of interesting for his general awfulness and moral bankruptcy. He's someone who will smile at you while he puts a sword through your gut. I love the idea of Celegorm as someone who is disarmingly jovial even when angry, which definitely leads to people underestimating him (Curufin is the only one who can tell unerringly when Celegorm is pissed) and mishandling him. I think there are times when he is tormented by what they've done, but he doesn't want to think about that, so he crushes it down to embrace their new status as amoral war criminals and never really reflects much on all that because he doesn't want to deal with it.

[hanako-san]

all my posts about Daikon where I criticize her or hate her - Just read them if you want why

This post is being created so that I can simply copy it when the time comes for daikon. Honestly, I'm not going to make excuses for my hatred towards her. But I decided to do it because in the end I get one and the same thing. This post will be long because I wanted to write it when I finish a certain stage, and that's exactly what happened and I think this post is necessary and thanks to this I won't repeat myself when the time comes.

Daikon is hated, which is an unusual phenomenon apparently in this fandom, especially here. Actually, it's not surprising because I've never once seen a daikon being hated or anyone complaining about her actions and deeds. Only sympathy and all hatred for this 'evil' Hanako, making her a victim.

Yes, this 'sweet, perfect, charming, beauty' yashiro nene has haters or people who just don't like her, not only this 'evil' Hanako.I am one of them. I'm really not ashamed to admit it.

1) As Hanako Stan, I have no obligation to love the daikon and this ship. Why? Hanako isn't the reason I hate her. I know this fandom likes blames everything on Hanako and not the daikon, but it doesn't work that way. I'm not denying it, I hate her, I'm literally disgusted by the way she treats Hanako, but that's just one of many reasons for my hatred, and Hanako is just a factor in my hatred growing, but she doesn't really have anything to say about it. It's convenient to blame Hanako for this, but not this time. Take Hanako out of history and my hatred will remain with me. Why? Since the only person who arouses such strong contempt and hatred in her and literally disgusts me, and I hate her to my core, the person responsible for my such strong hatred is Yashiro nene aka daikon. Surprised? Because I don't. My hatred came with time. I used to love her and this ship, but there are things about her that really piss me off, and I'll give those reasons later when I finish everything I have to say. I changed my mind because I can't tolerate her behavior. I don't care about her personality and age, these are not enough reasons to give any pass, I don't feel sorry for her because she is a "naive girl". You can't count on my sympathy. I'm cold and ruthless towards her, but Hanako has nothing to do with it, so this "no one forces me to hate nene" is not true, the only person who forces me is yahsiro nene. Therefore as Hanako I have no obligation to love her, just because he loves her doesn't mean I should too. It doesn't work that way. I will not be nicer to her because she is a girl, because of her character or age.

There is absolutely no point in blaming Hanako for my hatred. It's time to look in the face and realize that it's time to put the blame on yashiro. Her cheerful, loving and naive nature doesn't appeal to me. It's funny to me that daikon stans have a problem with my hatred and daikon stans also contributed to the explosion of my hatred. so FTW XD

2) What Hanako did and what I think. This is my private matter. I don't need to be reminded of what he's doing because I know it and I completely accept it, whether I like his actions or not. Hanako always He has no problem apologizing, he takes full responsibility for what he does ,again has no problem admitting guilt, and I'm proud of him. He does something consciously, knowing that he is doing something wrong, but he KNOWS it and will not hesitate to do it. He's not a coward and that's why I admire him. He is not morally pure and has his flaws, but he completely agrees with that. Whether I like his actions or not is entirely up to me. I will support him no matter what I think because he deserves it. I understand why he does it and I don't think he's selfish, his actions are not selfish, it's complete bullshit, he always does something with someone he loves in mind, but I've written so many posts on this topic that you can really just go through it to find these posts. I wrote the last one a few months ago and I really don't intend to repeat it here - for me it's a closed topic. The only person who is selfish is me, because I only care about HIM, his feelings, making him happy, etc., I only pay attention to him and I will stand by his side. Hanako is important to me here, he is my number one and I will take care of him first and it's high time for it to be talked about. Just because I don't criticize him for his actions doesn't mean I don't have negative thoughts about his actions, but I do. I completely ignore it and don't care. I'm here to support this boy and I have no intention of stopping, no matter what I think. I'll support him, okay? And I know perfectly well what he did and I really don't need to be reminded. I think turning a cat's tail to whiten a daikon is pathetic. She also has bad deeds, and the narrative describes her attempts to whitewash her for her sins, but this will never happen. She also considers herself innocent, but that doesn't mean she is. She's guilty as hell there! But no one has ever done what I did and started pointing out at her, expressing hatred and venting about it. Everything went to Hanako. The fact that Hanako is also complicit in certain actions does not mean that the daikon is pure as a whistle, because she is just as guilty as he is, the fact that she is ignorant and does not listen is none of my business. I'm not going to put all the blame on him when I don't think so and I know he's not entirely to blame for the daikon's actions. Just because she's 'naive, sweet, amorous' doesn't mean you can let her do anything and ignore her because that's who she is. That's not how it works. She did a lot of bad actions and deeds before and she still does them and there is no problem and turning everything back on Hanako won't help. It's time to understand this. I've said it so many times and this is the last time I say it.

3) daikon and Hanako's relationship is one big joke. The more I re-read in English or in my language, the more I become convinced of it. I see these changes in daikon, but what's the point if they are only temporary. I won't tolerate her trampling on him and her 'love'. jokes. They shouldn't be together and I've been thinking about it since p.p. arc. I gave her enough chances that she didn't deserve and that's enough. My tolerance and kindness also have limits. Just because they are canon doesn't mean it's a good ship, as AR wants to show. Her care for him. If she was like that, she wouldn't rely on him all the time, she would start listening to him and stop blaming him for a lot of things that were her fault, but she never once apologized to him, and when she did, it was disingenuous because she went back to that behavior. She was too used to Hanako taking everything upon herself, which ultimately made her innocent. She can't even respect Hanako. And I really don't care about her temporary changes where the AR for the plot will show that she 'loves' him when later it is the way it is. I'm tired of waiting, it's over 100 chapters. Enough already!

4) It's none of my business if I frustrate or scare anyone with what I do with daikon. Seriously, not mine. Am I mean and rude? I do not care about it. I also had to go through my hell when I silently hated daikon and was indifferent to it. Writing such things is pointless and I don't know what the purpose is, arouse some sympathy in me that my posts hurt someone? Stop manipulating me with your hurts feelings in any way, it's pathetic. I don't care about it.

WHY I HATE DAIKON - POST IS HERE

others posts - X, X,X,X,X,X and my FIRST POST is HERE

I often repeat myself in posts, and in the newest one at the top I added many of my thoughts. complementing the thoughts I said earlier, like n that I don't think Hanako is selfish because this witch wants to live. These posts are enough to send a clear signal that I despise her to the core.

Finally, I consider her and my hatred to be over. When I want to write something about her, now what I have done is enough. If someone still doesn't understand, it's not my problem. This collection of posts about ' the queen of innocence' will be on my blog in links.

[askastarion]

Altaire feels Astarion flinch and pull away from his touch, so he lowers his hands to his side, balling them into fists, "I didn't lose just my vision back then, Astarion. I also lost a part of my soul. Just as you did the night you turned," he justifies, his voice low and steady.

"I may have saved the other children like me, but I—I wasn't able to save myself," Altaire tried to keep his voice steady, but he found it breaking midway, recalling that horrid night once more.

Their tadpoles connect once more involuntarily as Altaire tries desperately to block Astarion out from the deepest depths of his broken heart.

—The young tiefling fell to his knees as the children he just saved scurried past him towards their newfound freedom. The dagger that was clenched tightly in his hand now slid out of his hand and onto the ground below with a clatter. Young Altaire's head lulled back, showing a tear and blood streaked face, "I swear..." the young boy mumbles at first, "I swear I'll kill them all. I'll kill anyone who preys on the weak."

There was a moment of silence before young Altaire bursts out laughing and screaming at seemingly nothing, clutching and pulling at his hair and face desperately.

"DO YOU HEAR ME GODS? I'LL FUCKING KILL THEM ALL. THIS...this...is my vow. Since no one came to save me...I'll carry that burden for others in need and be their savior, I swear on my life." He screams at the top of his lungs, but as realization hits, his voice becomes quiet—pathetic even because if the gods couldn't save him, could he even save himself let alone the people around him?—

Altaire finally manages to break away from the tadpole, blocking Astarion from seeing anymore. A pained expression twisted across Altaire's face, "My master abused us too. Used us. I—I had no choice... I had to kill the nobles. I had to save them. I—" Altaire couldn't finish his sentence as he started trembling, fighting back the tears that threatened to fall. Gods, why was he so weak?

Finally swallowing heavily, Altaire continues with a shaky breath, "I'm far from those things, Astarion. There's a darkness festering inside me...I can feel it, but you?" Altaire pauses for a moment before tenderly reaching for his face once more, and upon finding it, Altaire presses his forehead against his, "Astarion...I see you. You're not any of those things your Master made you do. You're no monster. You were simply trying to survive anyway you could, and that's the most basic human principle." (Insight Check: Successful!) Even though Altaire may not be able to physically and visually see Astarion, Altaire is telling the truth. He sees Astarion for who he really is, not a vampire spawn, not the monster Cazador created, but simply a person. Simply him.

@tavvattales @astariondisapproves (just so I get notified of a reply xD)

Astarion reeled from the vision, gripping his head for a moment as the sting of the tadpole faded, and he turned to face Altaire. This time, he didn't flinch as his companion reached for his face.

"Altaire, you-... You still," he gasped, focusing on gathering together his words. "I don't think you did the wrong thing. You needed to kill those people to-... To stay safe. To save yourself and other people." He felt a lump rise in his throat. His own hand rose to the hand on his cheek and he placed it atop Altaire's, forcing himself to breathe.

"Maybe that darkness lives inside of you, but. I think you're still-... You're-... Like a precious gem I can't touch. Like a piece of goodness in the world that I shouldn't be allowed. Like a sunbeam."

"Ah. But... That's your point, isn't it?" He felt himself chuckle sadly. "You can't see it, and neither can I... Fine. I get your point. I don't know if I can believe it but... But I know what you mean."

[previous post]

[starguardianniom]

The Guardian experience of Baldur's Gate 3: Or how to make a good character enough that you need to play them for your next run because of how much you're drooling over them

Me doing an Astarion Origin run but then also deciding to do another normal Tav run at the same time and then I create the Guardian and then I need the Guardian to become my character next playthrough so I make another one with her, and then again when I do a new Guardian I love her so much I once again make another run with her. So I have an Astarion Origin run and 3 Tav runs, 1 as a tiefling named Niom Lamboise (yes I used my username for it and I love her so much and don't ask the name means nothing I kind of made it up in my last year of high school by the first name being me writting a word a bit wrong and the second one being me mishearing something and I heard Lamboise and I thought "huh that's a cool name"), one as a drow named Larune Clothonis who probably looks more like my own personal vampire woman fantasy to be honest (made the name up entirely I have no time to check the drow dictionary I named my female Ninetales Larune back with Pokemon Legends Arceus and when I started typing for a last name the word Clotho appeared in suggestions on my Playstation and I added the is at the end for some extra elegance not sure if I pulled it off but I like it), and the third one as a githyanki named Naa'Ri (again made it up don't ask me what it means I just had for some reason the name of one of the new League of Champions' champion's name Naafiri, and I just shortened the name), I have it bad for pale, pointy eared women wearing very dark lipstick, my lesbian heart is running in circle over them.

I swear when I made Niom's guardian I took half a dozen pic in character creation just to have her face back perfectly for when I needed to create her again for her own playthrough, rince and repeat with her guardian and the one after hers. XD

Keep in mind I haven't even finished act 1 with Astarion, but then made 3 ladies back to back in one day and proceed to go recruit him first.

And my bisexual side that loves only fictional men is currently in love with Astarion.

I think I'll need to send the pics on youtube so then I can have them brought here.

I had half a mind to make them Dark Urge, but then I was like nah I love them too much to put them through this so they'll just be part of races that have it hard, tieflings have it hard, evil drows also have it rough given their history, and githyankis are basically all a race cult toward their queen, so.

I love this game.

Now if I stop making new characters and actually try to finish the game, that would be nice.

Wish me luck.