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Itâs still bizarre to me that for a show that âhandles trauma wellâ it seems to refuse to acknowledge that victims canât simply drop a coping mechanism if theyâre still in that abusive relationship. Hence why I donât trust YouTube therapists that praise the scene. Because any rational therapist would go âCharlie. Angel dust would have an easier time getting sober, stopping the drug use and literally getting himself raped and abused on purpose if you did something about his abusive behaviorâ.
Honestly instead of that cringy DARE campaign ass scene with drugs. Why doesnât Angel dust actually consume them, and then the angels see why heâs like this and realize hey, maybe itâs hard for people to rehabilitate themselves if we force them into places where they canât protect or defend themselves
I really do think this is because Viv herself is a desert when it comes to empathy. It's always about herself, what she needs, what she relates to, and when it comes to tackling anything more complex than that, it's always like something you'd expect a kid in middle school to write. It's not that Charlie's sheltered and incapable of getting her head around a concept like harm reduction and balancing Angel's drinking and drug addictions until they can get him away from his rapist, it's that Viv is and can't.
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you must have this many dead friends to ride
it's TDOR (well, it was). unable to sleep, i read through all the deaths reported in the 2022-23 trans murder report (a year out of date, I don't think they've released this year's one yet.)
I'm not quite sure why i felt i should do this. if it's a gesture for the victims... well, if someone murders me one day, i don't think it will mean much one way or another if someone in faraway country reads a brief two sentence report that a 30-35 year old trans woman with 'other' occupation was found tied up with burn marks or something. nevertheless, it is the time of year for this ritual.
most of the deaths are reported in central and south american countries, largely due to reporting bias, though there's more reporting now from countries like India and Pakistan - almost nothing from east asia though, probably due to language barriers. it's hard to draw much of a conclusion about anything since many of the reports don't say much, the stats are subject to extreme sampling bias, etc etc. but the general types of story are: "her partner murdered her", "she was killed by gunmen on the street/in her house", "there was an argument and the other person decided to kill her over it", "the mob killed her for extortion reasons", 'her body was found in some awful condition", "the cops killed her" (including Tortugita, who they shot 57 times at the 'cop city' protest), and of course good old "explicitly anti trans hate crime" (which covers Brianna Ghey, the one death from my country, and several from the US).
my murdered sisters are in most cases very young. younger than me.
the statistician in my brain wants me to acknowledge that i don't know the degree that trans women are specifically subject to murder for being trans women or by abusive partners etc, and how much it's "just" about being poor and racialised and living in a place where paramilitaries, gangs etc routinely murder people. sex work is a dangerous line of work for many reasons, but it's also going to be the case that a lot of us are sex workers so even if we were all equally likely to be murdered, a huge number of the dead would be sex workers, just as many of them were beauticians.
but honestly, even bearing that in mind, a whole lot of sex workers were killed.
there is something particularly ghoulish in talking so drily about death statistics; the website uses the painful phrase 'concerning trend' in regards to the demographics of people killed (overwhelmingly trans women, sex workers and not white), as if a perfectly proportional series of murders would be less 'concerning' somehow, but what exactly are you supposed to say? it is of course a window into who a society is comfortable getting rid of, but we already knew that. there's a reason that a sex worker is the go-to plot-inciting murder victim in fiction.
collating death reports like this... in part it is done as a matter of political advocacy, saying 'look, we are being murdered by the hundreds [multiplied by some nebulous but significant underreporting factor]'. but of course, if that's our goal, we are holding our deaths up against, for example, the tens of, likely hundreds of thousands of people killed by violence in Gaza, Sudan and Ukraine in the last year - events which have already divided the world into people who can't stop it, and people who can but don't care to. and what do we want done about it? to beg the state to come down and apply its monopoly on violence more stringently? often the police are the ones killing trans women.
so what remains is ritual. we light candles, and read out the names of strangers who nevertheless have this one important thing in common with us, the ~global community~ of trannies and such - this was a person who refused to take the awful role they were given, asserted their own will to change their body, managed to live a life at least partly on their own terms, and then got killed over it.
but we don't have time to tell the life story, no time to describe the mess of relationships and aspirations that drive a life; there is no time to imagine what feelings we shared, what they enjoyed, what stories we might have laughed about if we'd known each other...
we have time for 'found dead in a car'.
if that.
in my country, we face a very different threat distribution - i don't really expect anyone i know to get murdered (though it's not impossible, there are people I'm close to who have been viciously attacked and there was little to do to stop the attacker coming back), but I'm sure Fall won't be the last of my friends to die by suicide. if we are 'fighting like hell for the living', our project here is more about trying to build lives that are worth living for, and weathering whatever fashy deluge is coming down the political pipes. what does fighting like hell even mean here? i think i used to think i knew.
but this night at least, I'm remembering my friend Fall, who we lost back in 2022. I made this page about her, and the feelings that came up from her death, with writing from friends who knew her better than me. I'd be grateful if you read it and helped some part of her memory live on. (apparently they wrote a little memorial for her in the recent translation of ShĆnen Note: Boy Soprano which she worked on.)
I never got to ask what Fall thought of all these TDoR rituals - it's one of many things I didn't get to talk to her about and I bet she'd give me something unexpected to think about, formed some ingenious connection. or maybe she didn't think much of it! but it's as good a reason to think of her as any. she was awesome, she should have been given a much better hand by this world, and it is more shit for not having her in it.
I bet the friends of any of the 321 people on that list, and everyone on this year's list, would be able to say something pretty similar.
entropy always gets its way. but I'll hold onto what I can of her, my fragment of her ghost, for as long as we can. i guess that's the point of the ritual. hold onto our ghosts. tell each other that, one day, they'll stop accumulating so fast.
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ââ The camera woman zooming in on the bright red Lightning McQueen crocs he was wearing. ââ Âż? JSLSJSKSSJ
ââ not even in private but in an interview with multiple cameras pointed at himââ :D
ââ You fought a straight face, holding in laughter and trying to stay as serious as you could, but you were about to break any second.ââ CUTEE
ââ âYouâre the best F1 driver Iâve ever interviewed.â
âIâm the only F1 driver youâve ever interviewed.â KAJSAJSJSJAJ
ââ finalizing the last public appearance the two of you would have next to each other. A bittersweet ending.ââ oh :(
ââ But you always had the Jason laying with you on your couch. Feeding each other dinners, taking motorcycle rides late in the night. ââ I would even accept a whole book about them just full of moments like this
âAfter all, you gifted me something soâŠspecial.â (?
ââItâs almost like you want to see me.â SHHH
âIâll come back when I win, itâll be our little secret.â AAAAAAAAAAA
ââ the cameras focused in on his face and your reactions.ââ caught in hd jsjsjsj
ââ He was his playful self, the signature half smirk trying to get you to blush, but his eyes were soft when he glanced over to you.ââ I want to keep this little moment in a place where I can rewatch it every time I want
ââ you leaned toward Jason, pausing to eye his figure up and down, gleefully watching him pay attention to your every word. Your smile getting wider at how easily he was wrapped around your finger.ââ aaaaAAAAAA
THESE TWO FLIRTING AND I FEEL LIKE I'M THIRD WHEELING
ââ Jason lit the hallway to opportunities for you.ââ Aw :,)
ââ Happy, but bittersweet.
You reminded yourself that Jasonâs off-season was ending.ââ noooo :(
ââ You let Jason fake his ignorance through certain tasks, giving him any reason to get you close to him.ââ kssksksj
ââ You would have to watch him race lap after lap on live television like the rest of the world. Â He was leaving soon, you knew he would be busy, it was inevitable, but you wanted as much time before he left.ââ Iâm happy heâs going to race again but also Iâm going to cry
To reply to your note in the beginning about being good at writing angst, I can tell now, I can feel it sksjsksk
ââ Jason unconsciously acknowledged, resting his hand over yours around his stomach. Rubbing the fabric of his gloves onto yours.ââ MY HEART
ââ It was green, but you stayed there, no other traffic surrounding you.
Just you and Jason.ââ this whole scene was so pretty
ââ Maybe you could wear Jasonâs clothes after a nice warm shower.ââ hehehe :D
Why did I think they were going to find something they wonât like once they get to his place, I hate it
ââ You suddenly remembered the last time you and Jason were enclosed in a garage, close to each other, messy from a hard day of distributing winter jackets and food to those who stopped byââ HEHEHE :D
âThereâs no volunteers to interrupt us now.â Iâm going to faint
ââ The feeling of your lips, your sides, his body between your legs?ââ I fainted I swear
ââ You could only laugh as Jason desperately tried to get the shirt through your arms.ââ GIGGLING IN THIS VERY MOMENT, I LOVE THEM
âI want to turn you into a mess.â Please take everything
ââ After a shared warm shower, Jason gave you a nice pair of his dry clothes.ââ Mission accomplished
ââ You walked around his place, relaxed after JasonâsâŠexpertise.ââ KSJSKASJSJSJ
âIâm happy youâre here.â MY HEART
ââ Jason chuckled, hugging you from behind smelling like the same soap in your hair, his face nuzzling into your neck. (âŠ) When you walked around, Jason following you like a ducklingââ heâs so cute aaaaa
ââYou more than liked it. It smelt like Jason. A smell youâll never grow tired of.ââ How can I get inside this fic please I need answers
ââ Matching plushies, a book you picked randomly, a bookmark you gifted him, and a tiny paper frog you made while waiting for your table before dinner.ââ MY CRYINGGGG
ââ He was more clingy than usual tonight.ââ I canât help but worry about whatâs about to come when I should be enjoying this
âWhen I asked around about it, they said Wayne Enterprises had it delivered.â Ugh no
ââ Taking over the hard work he had volunteered for months.
Another sanctuary was being taken away from Jasonâs grasp.ââ Nooo:(
ââ Shared kisses, lost in each otherâs presence, too occupied to notice the multiple buzzing sounds from Jasonâs phone.ââ OH NONONO
ââ It was a photo of his Lightning McQueen crocs on the plane. A big contrast to the fancy carpeting, expensive seats, and an up-to-date screen playing the childrenâs movie.ââ SJSJJS I love him
Iâm so happy heâs back racing
ââ The difference in your lifestyles hitting you. He was a rich racer, traveling the world in one of the most expensive suits in modern racing. (âŠ) You feltâŠsmall. (âŠ) How far was this relationship going? (âŠ) Should you follow him? (âŠ) What about your job?ââ honey donât go that way :(
ââ (Handsome) Mr. Todd: fast is the only way I go. you, especially, should know that ;)ââ this man I swear
ââ Jason was busy going to opening days, press conferences, driving on the racetrack. His replies were becoming sparse.ââ Stop aaaaa
ââ âI just sawâ paper frogs thatâvendorâthe street andâgrab some.â Jasonâs voice went in and out of your mind, fighting the urge to sleep.ââ Iâm happy he found some free time to call
ââ Apparently, it had been a video call, but you hadnât realized after you woke up this morning.
Jason not only heard you embarrass yourself, but he saw it too.ââ noooo JSJSSJSJ
ââPutting on the shirt that smelled like Jasonââ <3
Racing Hearts Pt. 4
f1!driver!jason x reporter!reader
A/N: hello my gremlins <3 i wanted to share with u guys that i successfully moved YAY so that explains the update being slightly behind and the less responses iâve given to comments (i read them all i swear <3) BUT HERE IT IS \(^o^)/ i took way too long to edit and rewrite the way i believe the story should go, im having so much fun with this series and i want to thank all of u who are supporting it from the beginning or saw the updates as they came. ENJOY the fourth chapter of the Racing Hearts series (ALSO THEREâS 300 FOLLOWERS WOW đ„č THANK U TO ALL THE PEOPLE THAT LIKE MY PAGE AND CONTINUE TO SUPPORT MY CRAZY SAD WRITING AND MY DRAWINGS i love reading your funny comments, unhinged reblogs, and talking about your favorite parts of the story, it really gave me the push to write and contribute to the jason todd community) and i just wanted to remind yallâŠi havenât forgotten about that hurt/comfort tag :)
Check out the Racing Hearts masterlist! It shows all the updated chapters and upcoming ones <3
Tags: banter, agonizing fluff, hurt/comfort, strangers to friends to lovers, spicy if u squint, weâre hitting halfway thru the story so let me introduce what i do bestâŠangst HAHAHA
Word Count: 4.1k
âIn all of my career, I have to say that I never thought I would be standing here wearingâŠthese.â Jason looked down to his feet.
The camera focused on the two of you standing next to one another, the lens following Jasonâs stare toward the ground. The camera woman zooming in on the bright red Lightning McQueen crocs he was wearing.
You sheepishly admired the shoes, proudly smiling back up to Jason. Bewilderment plastered on his face as he couldnât believe you actually gifted him Lightning McQueen merch, not even in private but in an interview with multiple cameras pointed at him.
What a predicament he was in. He was definitely not offended when you told him how similar the red car and he were.
âItâs a small thanks from the company for completing your third interview with us.â You smiled brightly at Jason. âAlso consider it as a way for us to say âgood luckâ for your upcoming season.â
Jason couldnât believe it as he laughed. No matter how much time he spent with you, you always surprised him in the best ways.
âYâknow, I thought the Cars jokes were going to fade out, but youâre a bad influence on my fans.â Jason lightheartedly teased you, stomping his foot enough to let the crocs light up.
You fought a straight face, holding in laughter and trying to stay as serious as you could, but you were about to break any second. You bit the inside of your cheeks to prevent yourself from smiling, internally promising yourself that you would make sure to get a picture of him later.
You already had his new contact picture picked out.
âI couldnât think of any other way of showing you my support.â You nodded your head proudly.
âReally? Nothing else?â Jasonâs eyebrow rose, his tone sarcastic.
âYouâre the best F1 driver Iâve ever interviewed.â You smirked, watching the shoes sparkle.
âIâm the only F1 driver youâve ever interviewed.â Jason looked at you in disbelief.
âAnyway! Weâre closing this as the last part of our series, Iâm glad you were able to be a guest before you get busy putting on the RedBull uniform again, I know your fans will really enjoy thatââ You wrapped up the finale, finalizing the last public appearance the two of you would have next to each other. A bittersweet ending.
But you always had the Jason laying with you on your couch. Feeding each other dinners, taking motorcycle rides late in the night.
âThis canât be the last time I see you. Youâre my favorite interviewer.â Jason lulled his voice, rephrasing your earlier comment back at you. âAfter all, you gifted me something soâŠspecial.â
You paused, shocked at Jasonâs forwardness with you, the timber of his voice adding an underlying flirty tone to him.
Youâve never talked to him about the public appearance about the two of you. Could you go public?
Itâs for the camera. You silently told yourself.
âYou have to win for me to see you again.â You smirked, quickly playing along with his attempt to fluster you.
âThatâs too easy, you could try to make this a little harder for me.â Jason chuckled lowly. âItâs almost like you want to see me.â
Oh my.
âSo much talk for someone who hasnât started his comeback season.â You playfully rolled your eyes. âYou also didnât start your last season smoothly, so donât talk so confidently.â
âBut who sat at my last press conference celebrating my win? I donât end things so easily.â Jason tilted his head as he looked down at you, tension increasing. âIâll come back when I win, itâll be our little secret.â
Jason winked at you, the cameras focused in on his face and your reactions.
You raised an eyebrow, trying to decipher between the RedBull Jason on camera and your Jason.
He was his playful self, the signature half smirk trying to get you to blush, but his eyes were soft when he glanced over to you.
You calmly gave in, maybe it was for the camera or maybe it was for you.
âAw, thatâs so sweet, but I donât think I could keep that a secret.â Your polite smile opposing Jasonâs mischievous one. âI donât think you realize but,â you leaned toward Jason, pausing to eye his figure up and down, gleefully watching him pay attention to your every word. Your smile getting wider at how easily he was wrapped around your finger. âIâm a reporter, I canât keep that beautiful face to myself.â
âBut Iâm really good at keeping them.â Jason stepped closer, eyes never leaving yours.
His eyes beamed a playful hue to them.
You cleared your throat, looking at the camera woman who also stared in awe.
Crap, the office was going to get suspicious.
âYou should focus on winning first before you make any promises.â You coughed, diffusing the atmosphere Jason created as the film crew watched. âThen call my business number and you donât have to keep any secrets.â
Once the camera stopped rolling, you resumed your professionalism. Saying goodbyes and getting final pictures for the website and both social medias.
All the previous interviews went well. The fans saw Jasonâs personality in action, gaining more attention and love for the racer. Jasonâs management team was satisfied with you and the attraction he was gaining before the season started.
It gave him the right press he needed to put him in the spotlight.
After Jason left with his management team, you finalized the video upload that his company agreed to. Your draft for a new article about Jason to be edited and reviewed for the upcoming week. It was business as usual.
Getting work done during the day, then meeting Jason for the evening.
When you got back to your desk, you organized yourself to overlook the release date for the final interview and reviewed for the next big project to tackle now that your work with Jason was finished. Multiple meetings with project managers and your team.
Work was picking up for you, managing larger projects, interacting with larger faces.
Jason lit the hallway to opportunities for you.
Your phone lit up next to your laptop, distracting you from one screen to another.
(Handsome) Mr. Todd: pick you up at 6?
You smiled to yourself. Happy, but bittersweet.
You reminded yourself that Jasonâs off-season was ending. You wished time could slow down.
ââ âGosh, youâre so clumsy.â You adjusted Jasonâs helmet. All the time spent with him reflected in your familiarity with the motorcycle helmet.
âOnly for you.â Jason stood there, leaning down to let you reach around his head. Watching you worry about the two of you.
Jason had kept his promise to pick you up.
Most of the time he waited on you to get back from work. Sometimes pushing the boundaries and secretly meeting you for a quick lunch. Meeting him far from where your coworkers frequented.
Your first encounters were hidden behind the idea of work, finding answers to questions for interviews, or suggesting new places to eat.
It was like you couldnât be apart from one another.
Oh, how you can change a man.
You let Jason fake his ignorance through certain tasks, giving him any reason to get you close to him.
But you gave into his every attempt. Not fighting against his clinginess.
Your roles would switch soon, he wouldnât wait for you after tiring days of work. You would have to watch him race lap after lap on live television like the rest of the world.
He was leaving soon, you knew he would be busy, it was inevitable, but you wanted as much time before he left.
You sat behind Jason, his body warming the front of you as you wrapped your arms around his waist.
Holding onto him close, wearing the helmet he got you, feeling his solid stomach shift the motorcycle as you rode around the city. You were getting used to your new lifestyle, despite the hidden secrets you shared.
He couldnât announce a relationship after you were waiting for the last installment of your interviews.
The timing wasnât right and the meetings this would cause for you and Jason were going to give you a headache.
You heard the motorcycle engine interrupt your thoughts.
Jason slowing at a red light. He stopped, placing his feet on the ground to stabilize the two of you while you waited. The red glow reflected onto Jason sitting in front of you.
The streets were almost empty. Gotham barely waking to the darkness, a city that never sleeps.
âJay.â You hesitated behind him.
âHm?â Jason unconsciously acknowledged, resting his hand over yours around his stomach. Rubbing the fabric of his gloves onto yours.
âI want to stay with you longer.â You calmed your voice, careful in verbalizing your feelings.
âYou want to drive around more? I think we can drive byââ Jason continued to rub your wrists. Cars passing in front of him, the opposing traffic keeping you still.
âNo, I donât want to leave you tonight.â
Jason paused, his hand resting on yours, no longer moving. If the cars werenât in front of you, crossing the intersection, you would have thought time was frozen.
Jason tilted his helmet back, to get a look at you.
You donât know what he was looking for, your face covered by a protective helmet like his was, but he found what he needed when the light turned green.
It was green, but you stayed there, no other traffic surrounding you.
Just you and Jason.
âWant to come to my place?â Jason kept his black visor on you. âI have a killer TV to watch Cars on.â
You chuckled. Squeezing his waist a little more.
âBetter have a good speaker for playing Life is a Highway.â
Jason smirked, hidden from your eyes as he watched you lean back into his warmth.
The humid air covering the two of you into summer clothing. Thinner fabrics and showing more skin.
Jason wore a simple fitted thin long-sleeve, matching the look of his helmet and gloves. It made a great view of his broad back.
A quiet exhale as he looked forward again, revving his engine to life to make a quick turn, opposite of your home.
You were racing the rain as Jason was taking you back, but after you spoke the magic words, how could he send you back home?
The dark summer rain clouds were no longer behind you, the two of you heading straight for them as you watch Jason take you down new streets, an unfamiliar path to Jasonâs place.
âI donât think youâll make it to the living room before then.â Jason quietly spoke to the light drizzle hitting your bodies
âWhat did you say?â You couldnât hear above the engine.
And he was right.
After you were soaked to the bone, fabric sticking to your form, water droplets falling down your skin. A glossy sheen from the harsh rain falling all around you.
Jason had pulled into his garage.
He was in the same state, wet clothes stuck to his skin. The water from you and the motorcycle dripping onto the concrete floor.
You pulled your helmet off, the only dry place.
Once Jason parked the bike, he took off his helmet, placing it on the nearest work table. Your body shivered as you threw your leg over to maneuver yourself off.
You looked down at your state, smiling in disbelief at being caught in the rain.
Maybe you could wear Jasonâs clothes after a nice warm shower. You internally thought to yourself. Excited to enter Jasonâs place. A new location unlocked.
When you put your helmet next to Jasonâs, you could finally take in all of him.
Black shirt tight from the weight of the water, his hands littered with scars, free from the gloves. His hair dry, but messy.
All his muscles more prominent.
You stood in awe, your chest rising from the breaths you took. Humid air invading the inside of the garage, elevated from warm summer nights.
The sight of Jason reminded you of the professional pictures taken of him, leaving his Formula 1 car after a race. He was sweaty, running his hands through his hair with a towel in hand.
After all the time you spent together, it was your favorite photo of him. You secretly saved it because there was something about the look on his face, happy to win, alive on the track.
How attractive he looked was a definite bonus in your opinion.
Jason glanced over to you, finally realizing the state the two of you were in. He slowly looked you up and down, lost in the same visual you were in awe of once you saw him.
You suddenly remembered the last time you and Jason were enclosed in a garage, close to each other, messy from a hard day of distributing winter jackets and food to those who stopped by.
A slight warmth increasing on your face.
Jason stepped closer to you, hands grabbing for your waist to pull you in. His hands reaching under your chin to stretch your neck to adjust to his height.
Breaths mixing as your lips touched only from the movement of your lips unconsciously opening, ready to kiss him.
He waited.
Letting the pressure build as he spoke.
âThereâs no volunteers to interrupt us now.â Jason lifted you, letting you sit on the surface of his work table. His arm swooping everything off as he cleared enough room for you.
You could hear objects fall, but you couldnât care less as Jason stepped between your legs. Quickly, but carefully rubbing at your legs with his palms, his hands getting closer to the blurs of where your thighs met your waist.
Everywhere felt great that you didnât know where to focus.
The feeling of your lips, your sides, his body between your legs?
You could only huff between the intensity he was igniting in you.
âJayâinsideâitâs cold.â
Despite your words, you didnât bother to move. You kept touching, feeling everything before Jason lifted you again, the placement of his hands as he carried you, lifting the edges of your shirt.
The feeling of a mattress beneath you as you uncomfortably tried to peel the clothing off your body.
Jason chuckled at your frustration. You couldnât bother to give him a snide remark as he also struggled to get your soaked clothes off.
When lifting the shirt didnât work, you tried rolling the fabric, but it only bunched just below your sleeves.
You could only laugh as Jason desperately tried to get the shirt through your arms. Tangled in the mess you both created that you were left with a heavy shirt stuck around your biceps.
âWhy is there always something stopping me from seeing all of you?â Jason laughed as he kneeled above you, his shirt completely off at some point along the way to his room.
âI donât think a pair of wet clothes are going to stop you now.â You smiled at him, glancing up at his figure through the darkness. Only the city lights creeping through the blinds, illuminating his skin.
âFuck, youâre gorgeous.â Jason yanked your entire shirt off your arms.
You sucked in a breath at his desperation, memorizing the look of his face as he leaned down closer.
âI want to turn you into a mess.â He whispered into your mouth, kissing down your body.
Overwhelming gasps and breaths left your mouth the more he touched your skin.
âI want to touch you too.â You exhaled, trying to coherently express yourself.
âNext time, sweetheart. I want to focus on you. Everything I want is you.â Jason moved your hair out of your face, stuck from the sweat covering your skin.
The night filled with you repeating Jasonâs name, no distractions keeping that man off of you.
After a shared warm shower, Jason gave you a nice pair of his dry clothes. You walked around his place, relaxed after JasonâsâŠexpertise.
What you werenât prepared for was just how normal his apartment looked. It felt like yours, but bigger, a little more luxurious like it was bought with the intention of having better quality to last longer.
You hoped he had no plans of moving anytime soon.
You stood in the kitchen in awe.
âYou have a kitchen island.â You whistled in excitement. âFormula 1 money is good, huh? Maybe I need to pick up a Redbull uniform.â
Jason chuckled, hugging you from behind smelling like the same soap in your hair, his face nuzzling into your neck. You continued to speak.
âNo, I canât steal your fame.â You whispered to yourself. Jason feeling the vibration of your voice the longer he leaned into your neck.
âIâm happy youâre here.â Jason mumbled into you, ignoring everything you said.
âMe too, Iâve been curious where you live.â
âI invited you before, but I guess weâve always gone to your place.â Jason smiled into your skin. âWhat do you think?â
âIts veryâŠJason. I like it.â You glanced around.
You more than liked it. It smelt like Jason. A smell youâll never grow tired of.
His apartment was slightly bare, the space a little too large for the one man, but that was charming too. It felt like you were able to occupy that small empty space in his life.
When you walked around, Jason following you like a duckling, you noticed the small knick-knacks you bought with him on your dates.
Matching plushies, a book you picked randomly, a bookmark you gifted him, and a tiny paper frog you made while waiting for your table before dinner.
You felt cherished, looking at the physical representations of your memories together.
He grabbed you again, wanting the closeness. You fell back into him, the small paper frog in your hand, made from old receipt paper.
Jason resumed his prior back hug, absorbing your warmth.
He was more clingy than usual tonight.
âHow was your trip to the charity today? I forgot to ask you about it at dinner, it must be hard to take a break from them to race again.â You leaned into him more.
Jason buried himself further. Not a great hiding spot since he was larger, but it was the thought that counted.
âI would love to hear about it.â You put the frog back on the shelf, letting it watch the two of you.
âIt was good, I got to do one final check to make sure everything would be good when Iâm gone. ButâŠâ Jason hesitated, squeezing you a little tighter.
You waited, rubbing circles on his forearm.
âI had noticed a lot of stuff come in, itâs a good thing, but it wasnât like our usual haul. I didnât recognize it as the stuff I brought over either.â Jason breathed, agitation filling his voice. âWhen I asked around about it, they said Wayne Enterprises had it delivered.â
Jason went silent. He was tense.
âI always tell that old man to fuck off. He never listens.â Jason sighed.
The last thing Jason wanted was another check from Bruce. Taking over the hard work he had volunteered for months.
Another sanctuary was being taken away from Jasonâs grasp.
âI canât stand it.â Jason whispered. His eyebrows taut.
You maneuvered your head back to kiss him on the cheek.
âIâm sorry, I know that was the last thing you wanted to happen.â You soothed.
Jason leaned in for more kisses.
âDonât worry, Iâm feeling better already.â He exhaled, his shoulders relaxing. Jason smiled into your skin, his voice returning to normal. âBut looking at those damn crocs every morning makes me mad.â
You laughed as he grew bolder, pushing the topic aside as you leaned to the floor buried from Jasonâs affection surge.
If he was deflecting, distracting himself from his hurt then you could let him kiss you a couple times to distract himself.
Shared kisses, lost in each otherâs presence, too occupied to notice the multiple buzzing sounds from Jasonâs phone.
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Once the public release of the third and final interview was released to your companyâs website, the usual flood of comments embraced the look at the two of you.
You lost yourself in the positive comments, ignoring the negative ones, but that was the price of social media. It was the evils of publicity.
You read comment after comment about the excitement to watch the fresh new season. Iconic racers coming back to their playing field, excited to reveal new car designs, getting the opportunity to collaborate with anyone and everyone.
As the time for Qualifying reached you, the temperature fully warmed and Jason wasnât next to you to enjoy it.
He had conferences, practice drives, and flights to catch. Now that he was past elimination, it was time to test his fastest time.
It wasnât even the peak of the season, but you were missing him.
You sighed into your phone, a small vibration felt in your palm. A message from Jason appeared.
It was a photo of his Lightning McQueen crocs on the plane. A big contrast to the fancy carpeting, expensive seats, and an up-to-date screen playing the childrenâs movie.
You smiled to yourself in your desk chair, but a small prick to your heart struck you.
The difference in your lifestyles hitting you. He was a rich racer, traveling the world in one of the most expensive suits in modern racing.
You feltâŠsmall.
The two of you hadnât talked about what would happen once he started racing full-time again.
How far was this relationship going?
Would you follow him to his races around the world? Should you follow him?
Would you officially announce anything?
Was this an off-season romance? Only an off-season romance?
What about your job?
âHey, we need to be there by one. Should we grab a quick lunch?â Your coworker called out to you, interrupting your pessimistic thoughts to yourself.
âYeah, Iâll be right there. Meet you in the lobby?â You locked your computer, grabbing your key badge, ready to go out of the office.
You quickly typed out a message, taking advantage of Jason still on his phone.
You: Hey slow down try to give the other guys a chance
(Handsome) Mr. Todd: fast is the only way I go. you, especially, should know that ;)
You blushed, quickly putting away your phone to catch up with your team.
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Jasonâs performance during qualifying went as expected. He performed in P1, claiming and boasting as he usually did. His time seemed to be getting faster, raising the competition standards for everyone.
You only shook your head as you looked at the results on your phone, a small smile on your face.
Jason was busy going to opening days, press conferences, driving on the racetrack. His replies were becoming sparse.
You: I knew those crocs were good luck charms
No read receipt. No reply.
You kept yourself busy at work. Falling into a routine.
You checked your phone again during lunch. No messages.
Your apartment felt empty when you came home, no lovable man standing in the kitchen.
Still no reply from Jason. It wouldâve made you sad if you werenât so tired.
Your phone rang as you got ready for bed. Letting your head hit the pillow as you heard Jasonâs voice in your ear.
âI just sawâ paper frogs thatâvendorâthe street andâgrab some.â Jasonâs voice went in and out of your mind, fighting the urge to sleep.
His voice was too soothing.
âThatâs nice, Jay.â You slurred.
âSweetheart? Are you awakeââ His voice started to get farther and farther.
You couldnât keep your eyes open and your dreams filled with you sitting in the stands, watching Jason race.
Wind hitting your skin, watching the flags fly in the air, engines roaring past you.
He was so far away and kept driving further away from you.
You jerked awake. Looking for your phone in the blankets.
You had fallen asleep while on your first phone call with Jason since he left.
âShit, I wanted to hear his voice.â You shook the blanket in the air until your phone fell from it.
You looked at your call history. Apparently, it had been a video call, but you hadnât realized after you woke up this morning.
Jason not only heard you embarrass yourself, but he saw it too. You quickly opened your messaging conversation.
You (Yesterday): I knew those crocs were good luck charms
You (Today): iâm sorry I didnât know it was a video call
(Handsome) Mr. Todd: donât worry about it, I got to see u when your phone fell off your face
âNooo!â You screamed to yourself.
Your face fell in your hands as you read the messages coming in.
(Handsome) Mr. Todd: I got something out of it HAHAHA
(Handsome) Mr. Todd: letâs talk next time
(Handsome) Mr. Todd: I wanna hear your voice
You sighed.
Getting up to start your weekend, putting Jasonâs live race on the TV screen.
Putting on the shirt that smelled like Jason.
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Ugh, sorry, one last political point because itâs the day for it and this is bugging me.
Democrats and people on the left in the US have got to knock it off with this whole, âAll Trump voters are obviously stupidâ thing.
Iâm sure itâs satisfying to believe, but it is simply not true, and making assumptions about your opponents that arenât true is how you lose elections.
Half of the voting population of this country is not stupid and it is ludicrous to insist on believing that. Trump voters include doctors, lawyers, business owners, people with PhDs and graduate degrees, and people who attend college courses for fun. They are, unfortunately for many of us including yours truly, our parents and relatives and I at least know for a fact in those cases that they are well educated, well traveled people.
Assuming these people are just stupid and uninformed is, in fact, stupid. It a simplistic view of the world that is going to make your platforms lose if you embrace it and refuse to look deeper.
In practice, people engage in politics because they want the greatest happiness and prosperity for the largest number of people that they care about.
Everything after that is just haggling over price.
For example, the Left/Democrats might believe that the great amount of happiness and prosperity is brought to the largest number of people they care about when an advanced degree is available to everyone without leaving them in crippling debt, when people can age with social services that allow them dignity, when billionaires and companies cannot exploit their workers, and when peace and just causes are allowed to flourish around the world, including the education and enfranchisement of women, and the long term health of our planet. I personally believe that brings long term prosperity to us all.
Left and Right wing voters right now both probably agree that everyone is happier and more prosperous if they can afford a house and have a job that covers their needs and then some. How to get to that is the sticking point that they disagree on.
Right wing voters also want prosperity for themselves and those they care for and what they disagree on with the Left is how to achieve that. Iâm not going to go into their platforms here because the whole point of this post is not assuming things about your opponents.
Now in order to persuade people to hold more Left leaning views, you need to make the case for why what you care about is a thing that they should care about and, more importantly, how it enhances the happiness and prosperity of them and those they care about.
Otherwise, you are asking them to vote against their own interests, which no one engages in politics to do, at least not on purpose (even if it is the ultimate outcome in many cases).
If you donât care about making this argument to opposite side, then fine, youâve already lost and you deserve to keep losing elections.
You deserve to lose because youâre not making a case for why anyone should support your causes in order to gain happiness and prosperity for themselves and those they care about, including expanding the field of people they care about, and it is ludicrous to expect people to do that without being persuaded either intellectually or emotionally.
This is what finding common ground and building coalitions is about, even if you donât agree on every point. And if you self isolate and stick to your purity, you deserve to lose because politics is about how we govern large groups of people towards a common goal that, ultimately, is best simplified as the goal of their greatest happiness and prosperity.
Good faith politics is negotiating over what that means. Because resources are finite we canât all get everything we want all at once. And not everyone agrees on everything so you need to prioritize the best possible allotment of happiness and prosperity for the short and long term, and thatâs when we get into the nitty gritty of all the horse trading that happens in politics etc etc.
And you get into things like billionaires having outsized ability to enact their own happiness and prosperity but hereâs the thing, many people especially on the right go along with those views because they believe (rightfully or not) that those goals will increase their own happiness and prosperity as well and if you donât agree youâve got to explain to them intellectually or emotionally why that is and provide and alternate platform or path for them to gain it that is more effective by at least some measure of that value.
Anyway, at the risk of this becoming a political science thesis from someone who isnât a political scientist, just an amateur academic, tl;dr please knock it off with assuming everyone who disagrees with you is stupid, it is a losing proposition and it doesnât get us anywhere near the goals we want to achieve politically, ie, the greatest happiness and long term prosperity of the people we care about.
#us politics#it also makes family conversations easier#when you start with hey we all want happiness and prosperity#and then you can acknowledge where the hard stops are#where you have to agree to disagree#but starting with we canât agree on anything or youâre just stupid is a nonstarter
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habeas corpus â detective comics #1086
(ID in alt!)
#loved this back up feature so much and seeing that bruce timm shit made me annoyed enough to actually transcribe it#first the way hes depicted as having to stand trial and ARGUE and fight for the rights of using the coin#rather than it just being a compulsion and something he must do before a decision....#like every time. every time when he's 'leaving it up to chance'âthats a time when harvey won. thats a time when harvey fought for the right#to use the coin and make it at least a 50/50 chance instead of 'crawling away until the hard part is done' like two face pushed for#every single time. regardless of the results regardless of knowing theres only a halfway chance of it actually achieving anything#or lessening the damage two face can/will do. every time hes fighting for and still believing in a fair trial and that everyone deserves on#it isnt him being weak. it isnt him avoiding responsibility. its him fighting and forcing and pushing for it as hes internally at war#with himself 24/7. even when two face wins he doesnt give up & continues to fight for what he believes in despite the injustice done to him#the way he tells Judge Janus that it isnt about HIM (himself!) while defending the right of existence to the jury of other societal rejects#the way he gestures to himself only at the very end. he asks the judge does that sound like anyone he knows and janus replies in two faces#voice but harvey keeps going. he keeps fighting for others. but at the end in actually acknowledging two face being part of him#(and by extension harvey being part of two face) and how harvey is fighting just as much to have a place as two face is#(but more within his own mind & upholding his belief system still despite knowing how it continues to fail them) and just FUCK#and two faces snaps! how theres no jurisprudence system above there either ! just no one will admit it!#how harvey knows!!! look what happened to him when he was doing the right thing!#look how many criminals and mob bosses paid their way out! look how the police are corrupt!#but still believing in it and how a system has to be in place despite being a direct victim of it as well and just GOD#I LOVE YOU GOOD HEARTED AND WANTING TO HELP PEOPLE HARVEY DENT YOU WILL ALWAYS BE FAMOUS TO ME !!!!!!!!#taking away how he genuinely wanted to help people and bring wrongs to rights takes away literally everything hes built on#it takes away the entire fucking tragedy of his character (and in many ways it changes how bruce himself operates and believes because#harvey WAS a good man doing everything by the books. he was trying to bring justice in the 'right way' and believed in the system. he was#what people tell bruce he should be and look where it got him. look how the system failed 'even the good ones' because the system itself is#corrupt. it isnt flawedâit was operated to oppress and thats why it cant just be fixed but must be entirely rebuilt and why bruce must#operate outside of it. it also gives more depth because harvey is one of batmans first and biggest failures. he didnt protect him.#he didnt save his parents as a helpless child (as bruce) but he couldn't save his parents as BATMAN.#it wasnt just random chance like his parents tragedy but this was calculated and something bruce didnt stop. its ALWAYS going to eat at#him if he could of prevented it by telling harvey his identity. by doing something different. by being more prepared or somehow#knowing it was going to happen. harvey is the face of tragedy in so many ways that cant fit in these messy rambly tags but its ALLL!!!!!!!#bc harv was (and still is despite it all! despite two face!) a good man!! because he originally was a glimmer of hope to bruce & the city!!
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"difference." So instead of acknowledging radicalization is to blame and saying "maybe we should stop being sexist pieces of shit" you decide to pull whataboutism and present men being radicalized in the most bad-faith way possible to paint women as "purer" even when radicalized? Okay, Hun.
No, they really don't. Andrew Tate is an influencer who already has tons of money. Even if they "boycotted" him, it would change nothing. People don't need money to post on social media and influence the younger generation.
"what did women ever do to deserve it." To deserve men turning against feminism? Rampant man-hatred. Sexism. You cannot be bigoted to people and expect them to treat you like you're worthy of support. If you mean "rape threats" tho, then nothing. Those aren't okay no matter what. But neither is saying you want to kill all men. And that's pretty fucked up too. XD tho I'm sure you'll have an argument for why it's different.
Most of them ARE decent people, and thankfully most women aren't sexist ass hats. But most FEMINISTS are.
Okay, you don't have to worry at night. That is pure paranoia. Men are the vast majority of violent crime victims. And unfortunately there is no world where you will not have to defend yourself. Men could vanish and you'd still have to worry about being attacked by a stranger.
Like it or not, it is small. You CLAIMING every woman you know was victimized by a man does not make that true. XD
"a man's rights have never been up for debate" are you fucking HIGH??? Men's are up for debate all the fucking time! Men don't even have reproductive rights in the first place! Women can sue little boys for child support if they pregnant from raping them! Men's rights are ALWAYS up for debate. You'd have to denying reality as hard as you POSSIBLY can to think otherwise.
You're not helping yourselves. You're actively driving away the people you need to be on your side. All because you'd rather be vengeful than do anything to change what's happening. That's not helping yourselves, that's self-destruction.
Not to mention, feminism is funded by a lot of men, and not just via the government giving them funding. XD you're not helping yourselves if you're doing so via men's money. That's like the child of a rich influential family thinking they're living by their own merit despite still using their family's money for all of their expenses. It's ludicrous.
Caring about the rights of the people you expect to care about yours is not "being their mommies." It's actually trying to move forward and do something about inequalities and societal issues.
Men haven't been, and will never be oppressed.
I'm so full of rage whenever one tries to speak to me about social issues, complains about the suicide rate, the draft, whining how in this day and age men are not being catered to; so used to being adored by doing the bare fucking minimum.
They think they are oppressed? It's laughable. Maybe I'll listen the day a man gets barred from travelling or leaving the house without a female guardian. When he has to cover every inch of skin, including his face and not speak in public. Where they are forced into underage marriages or killed in honour killings. When a man gets denied an education, a bank account, his reproductive rights. When male children are abandoned or killed at birth for no reason but their gender. Perhaps when they are the most raped, murdered, abused and trafficked gender.
Only when they finally get a taste of what women have been enduring for centuries, under their hands and laws, maybe they will finally understand just a little bit.
Until then, I simply refuse to care.
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if your fave says that someone makes them happy btw. the least you can do is believe them. if they say that they feel safe and a bit calmer and theyâre getting a chance to heal. you gotta respect that. even if you have your own concerns and reasons not to be happy about it, in the end itâs their well-being and they have a right to live and to tell their own story however they choose. and if you refuse to believe basic evidence thatâs right in front of you, you donât deserve to scrutinise their life or who they have in it.
#thereâs few things that I think are worth policing. but imo this is disrespectful and invalidating and if you donât like someone#you can acknowledge the bad parts of them without twisting obvious information. say youâre concerned without assuming you know#everything. and I beg people to learn what the signs of abuse are before you start inventing things that just. arenât there. or arenât abus#please please please stop conflating symptoms of mental illness or neurodivergence with abuse! we get ostracised and villainised enough#like of course it CAN turn toxic and abusive if itâs not managed. but you canât assume that when thereâs no evidence of it but evidence to#the contrary. someone having a relationship where they can be themselves match my freak style and unmask. thatâs healing. and maybe#we donât know that it hasnât turned bad if they donât say and any time it could!! but as fans we have power with the words we say en masse#to trigger things like paranoia in people who are already vulnerable!! and they would be wouldnt they? is it so hard to leave them alone?#just be careful in the culture you create around these things. thatâs all I ask. I know tumblr is the best place for rants. letâs keep it i#the fringes of the fandom though. and also stop using ablest terms. and weâre doing amazing. for the most part. sorry for the long rant#hope someone relates to the tags I guess. and in the meantime Iâve gotta find the courage to use the block button. I never have before#props to you if you guess who Iâm talking about or maybe it was a generalisation. you might never know
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these things are always happening to the ones i like :////////
anyways the lighting in this dungeon is so nice
didn't get any good pics bc i was too busy dungeoning but so pretty...best dungeon music so far goes to snowcloak though btw
#ffxivposting#i knew it was coming bc i tried to use the google search bar as a spellcheck for his name (LOL) like a DUMBASS because in the suggestions..#i was like no!! no!! but he's so funny!!!!!! and the second he showed up in game again i started taking screenshots of me n the bestieee#it wouldnt be accurate to say that i am Emotional about this but i am like aw man...but he was so funny...insert montage of All The Memorie#was crazy seeing her looking so distressed in a cutscene. girl me too! he was so funny </3#the loud ass screenshot sound effects throughout the cutscene were funny though.this is who i am#altogether i have like 150+ screenshots of this game thus far.serious shit#IN OTHER NEWS:#- i cant stop laughing at finding out that a.lphinaud is in fact 16 years old. like i was guessing he was 17 or so but man it checks out#so hard. smart fella or not of course the sixteen year old boy naively founded a private army. it checks out so hard. hes cute :)#- since the tail end of arr patch quests ive been checking npc dialogue of relevant characters and thats a bit of a goldmine sometimes#- the first time aymeric(?) (not double checking via google ive learned my lesson) showed up i joked that he was going to be an akc type#and well no. he's really not. but i did cackle when it was revealed that he was a bastard child. clocked him on accident#- addicted to dalamud red dye. was funny when estinien started rocking his blood red armor like omg now we're Extra twinsies!#funny to me when they acknowledge the whole drg class stuff. like ah yes the Other azure drg. sorry estinien this feels like stolen valor#this is just what happens when u play f.fiv multiple times when u are r like 6. and also just think lances are sexy.#- can't wait to find out where tf the rest of the scions went. hi guys. you wont Believe what happened while you were AFK!#that's right! dragons! and then theyre like I Haven't Seen The Light Of The Sun For An Ambiguous Amount Of Time...cowabummer!#i keep joking abt needing to do a wellness check on urianger but honestly hes fine hes living it up in the sand. hes doing fine#- anyway can someone do a wellness check on ysayle(?).#- i've unlocked flight in a couple zones! thankkk god. some of these places are ROUGH to navigate without it sometimes.#- my keybinds are rough. also i have a gauge now. havent gotten to use it bc of level sync but anyway this feels like school#dont worry chat i only do duties with other real players when i Literally Have To Because They Make Me#- anyway. very ? about what theyre going to do with the rest of this story. intrigued. and quite sleepy i must say.
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initially this post had some commentary about interests right now. and then it turned into a ramble about personal healing in the tags. so the interest post is going separately.
#i have been possessed by my fourteen year old self.#except now i am *way* less ashamed of my interests#<- oh wow when you're in a place where all your interests that are unique to you are shamed constantly you stop enjoying them#there were so many things i hoarded as ''just mine'' because i was scared that they'd be stolen from me in one way or another#because either it'd be co-opted and i'd have to confirm to their view of said interest. or i'd be shamed and belittled for enjoying it#there are so many little things now (even wider than like. media interests. like literal aspects of myself) that feel wrong to share becaus#the only way to keep it safe was to keep it close to my chest#there are a few names i'd love to go by but as soon as i think about actually telling someone it i feel like i might#(and sometimes do) have a panic attack about it#which is stupid!!! the people around me now love me!!!! and i love them!!!!!#all that to say. being able to post about armand and dm is kind of like. a rebellion i guess#tvc and specifically armand were so important to me because back then i kind of saw myself in him? v. jaded and disconnected with the world#and seeking someone to bring them forward and into a new space to try and reinvent themself#and wanting someone to love them hard enough that it encompassed everything#i wanted to be what daniel was to armand and what armand was to daniel#<- very healthy way to think about the world and relationships btw <3 i was so normal and fine and this was not a sign something was wrong#god this turned into a bit of a vent thing huh.#i'm not like. feeling big feelings i should clarify. i feel like i'm examining them from a distance and taking notes like a scientist lol#it's a thing of like. knowing how unhealthy everything was and acknowledging that i'm healing. slowly; sure. but i am healing#i got to play a game one of them had tainted last week. it was hard and fun and i had big feelings when i was playing#because it was a little triggering. but i did it. i managed. i felt better for it.#i told my partner about one of my favourite bands back in 2021 and now they listen to them too and that's a little bit of joy#because it was one of the things that was deemed ''bad'' and that i can share that with someone now and feel safe to love it is good#and being able to be as obsessive and hyperfixated as i am right now without it being unsafe is really really lovely#and it is making me lean into it! i can engage with this without guilt! i want to fuck that old man!#it's silly and difficult and big and great and awful and complicated. but it's allowed to be. i'm allowed to be.
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No one asked, but I'm still going to elaborate on this cuz why not.
It's useless, don't do this It's hubris to try He's ruthless, you knew this I told you, didn't I? He's abusive, elusive The truth is, he lies
I know you don't want to let go
This can obviously be from any single book after the first one. We see Percy try and try again to convince Annabeth that Luke is wrong and evil and she will not listen. It's especially obvious in the fourth book where their main conflict is how Annabeth wants to give Luke a second chance, but Percy doesn't think he deserves one.
Annabeth has known Luke for years. He was her only support left in camp that was with her from the start. She idolized him he was her everything she didn't want to see and/acknowledge all the changes, the negative ones that he went through with time. She didn't want the person who she saw as family to leave her, so she ignored it. She ignored how bitter Luke became after his quest, how he was never the same again because she didn't want to lose him like she lost everyone else. She's fighting an impossible battle of wills, yet her Hubris doesn't let her go down so easily.
Then we have Percy. Someone who has lived in an abusive household, who has seen how toxic relationships work. He knows how hard it is to leave someone who is toxic and yet means so much to you. He tries to get her to see reason. He tries to avail her senses, her hubris, but it just doesn't work. Annabeth is ironically trapped in a careful web of lies and love that she never wants to get out of.
And just like before I can see that you're sure You can change him but I know you won't
The devil doesn't bargain He'll only break your heart again It isn't worth it, darling He's never gonna change He'll never be Prince Charming He'll only do you harm again I don't mean to meddle But the devil doesn't settle No, the devil doesn't bargain
Annabeth tried so many times to convince him to change him only to ultimately fail. She feels like only she can stop him.cuz surely their time on the run together meant something to Luke as well.
Percy doesn't feel happy about the fact that he is right. He doesn't gloat. Instead, he feels so sad for his friend, because thats what they are friends before they were anything else. Percy has seen how no one was there for Annabeth, and he wants to be there for her, to protect her from Luke and his schemes, but he can't. Because he can never replicate what she had with Luke. He plays the role of a concerned friend, but his concerns get sidlined because of everything else.
I'm not one to lecture Talk down to a friend I don't mean to pressure Mean to condescend But I just want what's best for You in the end I know you don't want to let go
Again, he doesn't want anything bad for her. He knows she's hurting, and he wants to take away the hurt from her to let her know she has him on her side. But the circumstances and emotions don't convey them. Instead, Annabeth feels like Percy is just jealous or that for the first time, he feels like he knows something she doesn't and that he doesn't kno what she Thalia and Luke were, so he doesn't have the right to lecture her on this.
The song 'Devil doesn't bargin' by Alec Benjamin, is literally just Percy warning Annabeth against Luke and telling her to stop trying to change him.
#that's all I could cook up at the moment#haven't read the book in a while or seen the show so a few things might be off#character study#annabeth chase#percy jackson#luke castellan#percy jackon and the olympians#song inspired
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man.
#i had this whole post ive been trying to formulate for so so long. abt my issues w ceewilbur and ccwilburisms and#to clarify i do like cwilb he is one of my faves. ik it may seem i wanna bite his arm off smtimes and i Do but#its mostly bitterness directed to the stuff Around him if that makes sense. yk the response to lots abt him#the way the overcompensation abt how he can be villanized swinging into a state where he Cant and never Did and wrong and if you critique#or acknowledge it you get snipped at and demeaned and treated like its a targeted hit on the mentally ill when its like#a mild disagreement with one of the most popular characters in the fanbase Easily#and w cc wil i do think he is just sm guy. im sure he's a nice dude idrc abt the ccs usually but he seems alright enough even tho he has v#goofy ahh takes and opinions but that doesnt make you Evil#but when i dive into what really has made me feel so alienated and snippy its. llmao its the racism yeah lol its super very much the racism#its very very prevelent and very common and very unchallenged. and it like. upsets me so bad its why i keep bailing on making my actual#full detailed post abt it. cuz everytime i try to formulate my thoughts i just get upset and frustrated i wanna rip my hair out#its hard not to feel like im talking to a wall when its so common and unchecked and. ive seen rightful critiques of these spaces and how#ppl interact with them Openly Mocked and brushed aside and treated like 'petty sensative internet drama' that ppl need to 'just get over'#sorry man im a fucking đČđœ i cant exactly log off and Stop Experiencing Racism. and sorry that me feeling alienated and tired and sad abt#it is an inconvenience for you llol#and like idk. im not upset w anyone in particular this isnt a call out post or vague who give a shit and.#eh maybe im stupid but i really really believe a lot of ppl arent doing it on purpose#its just bein parroted ik i get it but#am i rlly not allowed to be tired? why should it feel like my responsibility to hold ppls hand and go hey mb treat poc and darker skinned#ppl like ppl. maybe you should examine why you need so many things made palatable to you through conventionally attractive whiteness first#idk. idk!!! am i crazy who fucking knows#but it has been weighing on me stupid style so bad#the shrinking fanbase and primarily yk common stragglers has just. rlly felt like a magnifying glass to my already existing issues abt it#idk man. idk im tired and im at work its 100°+ and my head hurts so this is all yr getting. lea me alone#and again this isnt a vague who Cares. just wanted to get it off my chest finally#huri.txt#discourse#<- ig
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gojo never imagined an arrange marriage with you, but now youâre all he can think about.
he thinks about you when heâs training, when heâs seated at his round table, when heâs in his bed, everywhere, every time, youâre all he can think about.
and youâre oblivious to it.
you heard the gossip everywhere you walked, about the girl gojo was pleading with his family to marry. how much he loved her, how beautiful she was, how much more elegant she was compared to you. you knew you were never his first choice, not even his fifth, but it hurt even more when everybody acknowledged it.
you stopped wearing your wedding ring, started acting like you were just another person there. luckily gojo didnât seem to be in any hurry about making heirs, so pretending like you two were working things out didnât even matter anymore.
you find yourself alone most of the time. your maids were kind and patient, but they had so many things to do throughout the day that you felt awful pestering them to walk around the estate with you.
eating dinners with gojo became normal, but most of your other meals were in silence, always feeling like a speck of dust in the large dining hall.
one day when youâre walking around aimlessly you stumble across the training grounds, the open space below you filled with men swinging wooden swords back and forth at each other.
it wasnât difficult to find your husband, his white hair hard to miss in a crowd of others. he didnât notice you watching from above, and so you stayed hidden, not knowing if the men were picky with who watched them.
he was swift and agile. everything he did was precise and with meaning. no wonder he was named the best warrior of the north.
you found this to be more entertaining than walking around the gardens for the tenth time or watching the cooks assemble the next meal, so you didnât even notice how gojo looked up to see you, somehow slipping away without you knowing.
you were in a state of watching but not really thinking, almost jumping out of your skin when you heard his voice behind you.
âdidnât know i had an audience,â
you yelp, flinching as you look behind you to see your husband all sweaty, panting slightly as he moves his hair away from his face. you eye the stairs that led him up here, wondering how you couldâve missed that.
you laugh sheepishly, giving him an apologetic smile as you pick are your nails.
âiâm sorry,â you scratch behind your ears, feeling heat rise to your cheeks under his intense gaze. itâs unfair how pretty somebody can look, especially after training for an hour straight, âi was just walking around and i saw this.â
he waved it off, shaking his head as he leaned his sword on the wall.
ânot a problem,â his eyes shine, âi just wouldâve tried harder if i knew my wife was watching.â
my wife.
the words fall so smoothly from his lips you wonder how many times heâs said it before. with malice, hatred, necessity?
you smile a little bit, eyes crinkling around the edges as you look away briefly, not noticing the way gojo chased after your cheerful face.
âhowâd you get up here? where are your ladies?â he asks suddenly, looking around at the fact that it was just you up here.
âmy what?â you say, looking up at him through furrowed brows.
âyou know,â he waves his arm around as if that would help, âyouâre ladies in waiting,â
you scrunch up your nose a little bit, something he noticed you did when you were confused.
âoh, well, my maids are working right now,â you tell him, noting that he still didnât look any less confused.
âno, not your maids, your ladies,â he tilts his head to the side, âthe girls your family sent them up to help you around.â
you stare at him, unblinking.
âthe girls that are your friends, the ones that help accustom youâŠâ gojo trials off when he realizes heâs not getting anywhere with you.
you feel even more embarrassed than when he caught you watching him, hating the way you were clueless at yet another thing in this life that no one explained to you.
âthe girls you hang around with?â he finally lands on, hoping this jogs your memory.
you shake your head, eyes wide as you fidget with the fabric of your dress. his eyes fall onto your finger, lingering on the fact that youâre not wearing your ring.
âwho do you spend your time with throughout the day?â gojo seems even more lost than you. heâs seen you withâŠ? well surely that one timeâŠ?
âby,â you swallow, embarrassed, âby myself. i walk around a lot.â you admit sheepishly.
âyour family didnât sendâŠ?â he answers his own question with his silence.
this entire time youâve been alone?
he opens his mouth to speak but somebody beats him to it.
âsatoru! get down here! weâre still not done!â his friends shouts from below, and you look over your shoulder to see all the men staring at the two of you.
gojo stares at you, unblinking.
âi,â he swallows but canât find any words.
you canât either.
he leaves you there, running down those stairs as he shouts at the other guys to resume what they were doing. that entire day he was off his balance because he kept looking up to see you there, but you werenât.
maybe you were just walking around, like you said.
#gojo x reader#gojo x you#satoru x reader#gojo drabble#jjk x reader#jjk drabble#gojo angst#arranged!gojo
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wait so you're telling me this whole time i could've just said "stop being racist" & racism (at least among white people) would instantly disappear? why didn't i think of this sooner
#for the record no one is ''letting their people run around being racist''#if people are racist it takes more than just scolding or explaining to get them to stop#it's an entire mindset that requires deprogramming. it's like saying it's super easy to just quit a cult you grew up in#it isn't. that shit is In There & it takes a lot of work to better yourself#even if it feels more righteous to assume otherwise & shit on people for ''not trying hard enough''#considering the post in question is unrebloggable i'm assuming this is just a rant post that is oversimplifying & overgeneralizing#for the sake of ranting but also like. what are you talking about#i do not control the racism unfortunately. & doubly unfortunately i love to acknowledge the nuances even if it pisses people off#one of which is that skin colour does not equal white & ''poc'' does not equal ''can't be racist''#not to discount anyone's feelings but because i truly believe there is a lack of nuance currently & it leads to misinformation#& even just really weird aggressive mindsets where people care more about punishment than they do clarification or real justice#like you can complain about a certain group of people all day but in the end you cannot expect something like what this OP is asking for#''why aren't lesbians controlling TERFs?'' idk man maybe because that's just not possible#& you're also assuming that TERFs are all lesbians instead of being a mindset effecting tons of people outside the queer community even#okay rant over i'm fucking tired#okay i just checked their blog & they're a teenager x-x
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Not in the US so can't speak for what's happening there, but I've def noticed here that healthcare workers are struggling with dealing with sicker patients than they felt they were getting before covid and lots of them are mentioning a lack of immunity thanks to lockdowns. every time I hear it I can't help but think that the increasing desperation thanks to years of underfunding that's really beginning to have an impact since covid (because the pandemic served as the last straw on the camels back there AND because it showed our government that they could neglect the vulnerable to the degree that they were dying by the thousands and still nobody bothered to blame them.) Is a contributing factor in this and I don't understand why nobody is mentioning it???
We're getting sick because we've spent decades being bled dry and now we're hungry, stressed and being worked to the bone. Meanwhile we aren't getting any kind of return on the money we're pumping in to the healthcare system and our governments aren't doing shit to address health inequalities or any of the factors contributing to everyone's poor health.
If you look at covid death statistics, if you look at which countries are currently suffering from supply problems; a job market bursting with unfilled vacancies, civil unrest and protests, strained healthcare systems, and all the rest; the countries at the top are those that have allowed capitalism to call the shots for the past century, more than the rest. That is why the UK and America have been so badly impacted. Its no accident that we are paying so heavily, this system started with us. We forced it on the rest of the world and now, we're the first to pay the price. There is a direct correlation between the impact being felt post covid and a countries wealth divide and I'm tired of everyone ignoring that.
I look around me and People are going hungry, the food they can afford to buy is lacking in basic nutrients, of course people are sicker! Even if you can afford them, the shops keep running out of vegetables! Our health system was already breaking and then, we were hit by a pandemic it was completely unprepared for (tho it should have been) and now, people are getting way more ill than they need to before they finally reach hospital. When they get there, the hospitals are understaffed (thanks to years of underfunded budgets and the extreme stress so many health care workers were put under), we keep having drug shortages because our country keep straight up refusing to pay how much things cost, and what they are willing to pay, goes to pay about ten profiteering middle men at each stage of the supply chain.
People are massively stressed thanks to the cumulative weight of a completely broken capitalist system and those in charge are more worried about lining their pockets for as long as they can until the whole thing collapses, rather than actually trying to address any problems. Stress IS something that's known to weaken immune systems so why are we blaming something that MAY affect them??? Extreme rises in energy costs have meant everyone's spent a winter without adequate heating (even those that can afford it are revolting at the increase and so are trying to cut costs by using less energy.) Again, insufficiently heated homes are also known to affect immunity. And that's just the people who still have safe homes! Masses of people have been made homeless recently thanks to rising rents and mortgages which were already unaffordable, our housing stock is largely dangerous, with homes falling in to disrepair because landlords are barely regulated and when they do break laws they go unprotected.
Is anyone surprised that so many people are getting so ill and not getting better? Cause I'm not.
It's startlingly obvious when you start looking at the health divide between those who have spent 40 years subject to the whims of poorly restricted capitalism and those able to opt out. Medical technology is improving, but healthy life expectancy is now dropping year on year, because there are more people living here without the capital to turn away from jobs that will break them, than there are those whose inherited wealth opens doors away from employers that'll ask you to pay the price of bodily health, so they might strengthen profit margins. Its just basic averages. 1% of our citizens are standing on the backs of 99% of us and wondering why more and more of that 99% are getting sicker and sicker. The labour market for working class people has been allowed to drain its workers dry for years now. The progress made in the early to mid 20th century has slowly been worn away at, with the labour laws we fought for, only being accessible for an ever decreasing number of people. The laws are still in place but no low wage employer bothers to follow them any more than they have to. Do you know how many people I know who've been working without breaks, going unpaid for extra hours, been forced to follow unsafe working practices that they know are illegal and then being forced to lie to protect the employer that put them in that position? The people being broken by companies raking in billions, as they flaunt labour laws, don't have any means to access justice! If you complain, you lose your job. If you take them to court that costs money and that company is willing to drag out proceedings for years till you run out of the money needed to keep things going.
When i look at how much money is being wasted in government budgets, while the people responsible for making that money, see little return; I can't help but think of various theories for why certain societies in history have collapsed. (If you want to be really worried about the state of things, read the Wikipedia page on societal collapse. Spoiler: most of the potential causes of societal collapse have already begun in America and the UK. That guy who wrote that article saying America was already past the point of collapse might have been right.) One theory behind the bronze age collapse is just that... societies became too complex. A society where the 1% are given too much power over the 99% becomes one great big pyramid scheme. Unnecessary burecracy at every level (designed to squeeze as much wealth possible for the person overseeing that level) results in those at the bottom, working themselves to death and still going hungry. The theory goes that there comes a point, in societies like that, where the workers look at how they are living and just...walk away. They decide that the security once offered by that society isn't worth what it's costing them and fuck off to become farmers, preferring a life of hard work and little security, to what they had been living. Without the workers, the system breaks down. The only people getting fed are the ones growing the food. All this stupid stratification. Allowing every supply chain, business and institution to become unnecessarily complex just so on each level the people in charge can let their mates get a foot in on the profits. All these middlemen. Business consultants. Supply chains allow for a product to be sent back and forth from country to country just so more people get a cut. Its no different to any other pyramid scheme so why the hell are we allowing it.
We need to start telling our politicians to show some goddamn accountability for this shit. Stop accepting them skirting responsibility for being at best: Inept and at worst deliberately negligent. We all need to stop supporting a system that's hurting us all. In the hope that we might be one of the lucky ones. That's not the reality of things. We'll only get out of this hole we've inadvertently dug ourselves in to, if we stop fighting each other and work together to demand change.
You know how sometimes you catch someone in a lie, and so they tell an even bigger lie to try and cover up the first lie they told?
Well, thatâs happening right now.
Last winter, a handful of celebrity doctors went on mainstream news networks to assure us that Omicron was âmild.â They carpet-bombed us with articles and tweets, doing their best to brainwash everyone.
They were wrong.
In the end, real science junked that idea. An article in the Journal of the American Medical Association showed that Omicron killed more people than previous variants, even when adjusting for other factors. Another study by doctors at Massachusetts General and Harvard Medical found that Omicron was just as deadly. In fact, âthe risks of hospitalization and mortality were nearly identical.â As it turns out, the entire idea of âmildâ Omicron was based on an old, flawed idea known as the law of declining virulence, developed by a doctor who was studying tick-borne disease in cows. It was debunked decades ago.
Most epidemiologists know that viruses donât magically evolve to become milder. Virus evolution is random and chaotic.
In some cases, viruses evolve to become more deadly.
A handful of actual scientists tried to explain all this last winter, including disease experts at Johns Hopkins. A handful of other established experts spoke out against this myth. As a microbiologist at Penn State told Politifact, âYou canât just say itâs going to become nicer.â They were largely ignored, because everyone already sort of believed the misinformation. If they knew it was based on a study about cows, they probably wouldâve thought twice.
This year, the makers of âitâs mildâ are back.
Theyâre selling âimmunity debt.â
We should be skeptical.
Schools and daycares are sending letters home to parents talking about this âimmunity debt.â Theyâre saying that healthy children are getting sicker, even dying, because they werenât exposed to enough germs over the last two years. Newspapers and TV stations across the country are running with it, proposing it as a âpossible reasonâ for this yearâs explosion in pediatric hospitalizations. Meanwhile, major medical organizations have sent a letter to President Biden urging him to declare an emergency over an âalarming surge of pediatric hospitalizationsâ due to a range of respiratory viruses, including Covid.
A lot of people are drinking the âimmunity debtâ kool-aid.
After all, Americans have believed for generations that getting sick is âgood for you.â We think our immune system behaves like a muscle. We worry that if weâre not giving it a workout, weâll get weak.
Itâs a myth, just like the law of declining virulence.
Hereâs why.
#to be clear#i do not think that the answer is waiting for a violent revolution#this is far from the first time humans have found ourselves in this kind of mess. if we look at all the times this has happened in the past#well. on that scale the French revolution may as well have been yesterday and look what's literally happening in france rn#killing the 1% has absolutely no lasting impact and the cost to get there? is mostly shouldered by those that system was opressing#and no. i don't think we should all just walk away from society and become farmers.#i know the current system is breaking us but desperation does not account for logic. most workers do not have the ability to grow a steady#food supply. that's why we built societies in the first place. different people are good at different jobs#here's what i do think: the society we've built belongs to the workers. it's the fruit of our labour#not those who have drawn invisible lines so they might argue that they own our labour. we all need to think about that. when we vote#they are there because we put them there. they know it even if you don't. stop giving power to people without your best interests at heart#the reason workers in france have had a better time of things than in the US till now? their government are scared of them#until now. the French government have had little doubt in the fact that they are where they are. because their people are allowing it#they haven't pushed too hard because they know if they do. theyre gone.#lets bring a bit more of that energy to the rest of the world in 2023. exercise your vote and when they're pushing it. let them know.#our governments are getting militant and trying to prevent protest because they are scared. they know they have little power.#it's the equivalent of a schoolyard bully throwing a punch. in the moment. they seem unstoppable. but they aren't.#there are more of us than them and they need us to cooperate for any of this to work. if we walk away: they have nothing. they know that#there is only one way out of this. that is via slow incremental positive change and not giving any ground when it comes to#the value of human life. while we're fighting each other. we're too damned busy to consider fighting the 1% taking advantage of us all#stop fighting any of the 99% and start acknowledging that if you start helping the people in this with you where you can#(yes even if you don't like them)#the 1% are heavily outnumbered and there's no benefit to any politican who tries to serve them while the 99% know who holds the power#we let this happen. though we didn't know it. but we don't have to keep letting it happen. not if we remember who the real enemy is#start demanding accountability from those sacrificing the good of the many for the few. do what you can to help any one you can and start#expecting the same from everyone else. you don't need to like or agree with people to accept that their life has value and fight with them
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logan howlett x f!reader
SUMMARY: You give Logan head for the first time.
WARNINGS/TAGS: mdni - smut 18+ implied age gap. dirty talk. kind of inexperienced reader. oral sex (m receiving). face fucking. dom!logan. a tiny bit of degradation. he guides you through the whole experience (shocking!!! i know)
AUTHORâS NOTE: HI PALS!!! yes i'm alive and kicking. yes university is killing me. so recently iâve been OBSESSED with this man and i needed to write something for him. english is not my first language and i may have made some mistakes (if you encounter any you can tell me, i won't mind it). comments/likes/reblogs would be highly appreciated. i've got sooooo many ideas to write and i'm finally getting my hands on them. i missed you all so fucking much. hope you enjoy this!!!
Itâs common knowledge that all humans have needs. Try as you may, thereâs a primitive side that you canât spare yourself from. You, as everybody else, have urges.
âLogan,â you basically mewl his name, five letters that roll off your tongue with little effort. He doesnât seem to acknowledge you, his kisses growing harsher on the delicate skin of your neck. Threading your fingers through his hair, you decide to try again, speaking a bit louder this time. âLogan, please.â
âWhat is it, honey?â he says, bitten lips still pressed to your pulse point. As you remain silent, he looks up at you, those big, brown eyes that you love so dearly almost completely dark now. âDo you want to call it a day?â
His question catches you off-guard. You cup his face, thumbs caressing his cheekbones, suddenly afraid that he might pull away from you. âNo! Not at all. Thatâs- thatâs not what I want at all, actually.â
âWhat do you want, then? You can tell me,â he kisses you on the lips, softly at first. What starts as nothing more than a sweet kiss turns into a needier one, his hard on poking you through your shorts. âCome on. Tell me, baby. What does my sweet girl want?â
âI want to suck you off, Logan,â you whisper as you latch your mouth onto his, and you can feel how he visibly tenses beneath you. His breath hitches in his throat when you grind your hips. âI really need it.â
From the very beginning of your relationship, you had made things crystal clear: you didnât have much experience on this territory. For a man his age, he was totally understanding. He knew you had your own times, that for him to take you to bed would take longer. Truth be told, Logan was willing to go to the ends of the world for you. There was no use in forcing anything.
At present, the bulge amid his legs becomes even more noticeable as you get off his lap, playing with his belt. âCan I?â you ask him, amazed at how straightforward youâre being.
Logan stares at you, so far panting, lust glowing in his eyes. âShit, youâre gonna be the death of me,â he mutters as he helps you undress him. His worn out jeans end up pooling around his ankles, and you locate yourself in between his legs.Â
Youâre on your knees, hands folded in front of you. Suddenly, it hits you, the shame of it all. How badly you want him, how desperate you are to feel the weight of his cock on your tongue. How many nights youâve dreamt of this moment, unable to stop that unbearable need of touching yourself every time you thought about pleasuring him.
Thatâs what you truly want. For him to use you.
âWhatâs wrong, princess? Weâve talked about this a lot of times. You know what to do,â you canât help but stare at his crotch as you listen to him, and then he raises your chin with his finger, your lips parting unconsciously. You blink slowly at him, eyelashes fluttering together. At last, he seems to understand what youâre trying to tell him, and he raises his eyebrows, that cocky grin of his taking place where it belongs. âYou want me to guide you, donât you? Want me to tell you what to do? Know you like it when I go a bit off the rails.â
You moan at his words, squeezing your eyes shut and nuzzling your cheek up against his palm. Slick gathers in your panties as you push your thighs together. âPlease. Tell me what to do.â
âTake it out,â he instructs you, and you do as youâre told. Grabbing him by the base, you pull his cock out of his briefs. He twitches in your hand, and heâs so, so incredibly big.Â
You stroke him once, testing the feeling. This you know how to do. Youâve given him hand jobs millions of times, although this one feels particularly different from the others.
He takes hold of your fist, applying a bit of pressure. âIâm sorry, baby. I think you got it all wrong. Iâm the one who makes the calls here, okay?â he grunts, his brows knitted, and you only nod, salivating at the sight of his cock already leaking precum at the tip. Logan licks his lips, curling his hand around yours. âYou do as I say. Now, stroke me. Nice. And. Slow,â he punctuates each of his words by moving both your hand and his in unison around his length. âThatâs it, darling. You just need someone to boss you around from time to time, ainât I right?â
One thing to know about Logan: heâs so full of himself on a daily basis, but he just gets worse in bed.
âMy mouth,â you hover your lips over the head of his cock, all shiny and soft. He has let you go, both of his arms now flexed behind his head, as if he were appreciating how pathetic you must look on your knees, begging for him to allow you to taste him. âLet me.â
âNot yet,â his hips follow your tormenting pace, seeking the warmth that your skin radiates. He grits his teeth, biting his lower lip. Youâve no idea how a man so strong can become putty in your hands like this. âGreedy girl. Iâm beginning to think youâve set me up. Only a slut would get so worked up about having a cock in her mouth. What happened to my innocent girl? Gone with the wind, huh?â
âPlease, Lo. I need it so bad,â you are whining, peppering his thighs with kisses. You inhale his musky scent, getting dizzy. âGive it to me. Iâll be good.â
Out of nowhere, Logan grabs a handful of your hair, forcing you to arch your back. He scrutinizes your face, studying your blissed out demeanor. âI donât doubt that. Iâm sure youâll be good. Otherwise, weâll keep on trying. We have all night, and you have a good memory, just need to put it to use,â as he taps your lower lip with his tip, you catch him smirking. He repeats that same motion until he has you shivering from the excitement of being stuffed. âShow me how much you need it. Go easy on it at first, okay? Donât want you choking beforehand.â
Youâre more than happy to comply.
Your tongue darts out to lick at his head, enveloping it between your lips. The salty taste of his precum invades your tastebuds, and you moan as you trace the veins of his cock with the pad of your thumb. âTastes so good, Lo,â your voice sounds distant, almost unrecognizable to your own ears.
âI know, bub. Such a nice fucking mouth, canât believe youâve never done this before. I guess youâre a natural,â shaky fingers place a strand of hair behind your ears, patting your head as if you were a dog in heat. âDo you feel like bobbing your head a little?â he asks you, and you prepare yourself, attaching your mouth to his head once again. âGood. Thatâs good.â
With that being said, Logan fists your hair once again and shoves your face down, his hard cock tickling your throat. Your whines and his rapid breaths are the only sounds to be heard in your bedroom. He grins as he takes in the sight of you. âOh, sweetheart. You look so beautiful with your mouth stretched around me,â his index finger taps your cheek and he feels the outline of his own cock. âYou know I can smell you, right? Youâre fucking soaked, baby. Think youâll leave a stain on the carpet? Youâd clean it off with your tongue, wouldnât you?â
You have no idea how heâs coming up with these things, but youâre far from annoyed. In fact, youâve never been this wet. Your underwear must be ruined at this point, and you wish Logan would tell you to touch yourself.
After some minutes of bobbing your head up and down, he pulls you off his cock and you breathe through your mouth for the first time in a while. As you gasp for air, Logan kisses you, tasting himself. He massages the back of your neck, his cock throbbing between the two of you. âYou tired?â
Your glossy eyes widen. Shaking your head, you go for his balls this time, sucking one of them while toying with the other. Logan buries his hands in your hair for what must be the hundredth time in the night, unable to stop himself. âF-fuck, thatâs it. A pretty girl like you just gets what she needs,â he praises you, and you return to his length, taking as many inches as you can without hurting yourself. Tears shimmer in your eyes, yet you canât bring yourself to care about that detail. Youâre far too focused on Loganâs grunts and growls. âKeep that up and Iâll come. You heard me? Youâre gonna make me fucking come, bub.â
His words ignite a fire inside you. You use your hands, your mouth, everything that you have to pleasure him. Heâs getting closer and closer, thighs shaking when you pay special attention to his tip. Logan responds to each of your movements, and as you feel every coherent thought fly out the window, you try to take him all the way down your throat, breathing through your nose and swallowing around him. He cants his hips up, brutally fucking your mouth. Like a dog without a leash, Logan seems to get lost in the warmth that envelopes his cock, chasing his own release. âYouâre such a good girl. My good girl. Nobody will fuck this mouth ever again. Iâll ruin you for any pathetic guy that tries to get in your pants. Youâre fucking mine, darling. Oh, f-fuck. Fuckfuckfuckfuck-â
Youâre met with his happy trail once he spills his hot load inside your mouth. He keeps you trapped there, his cock twitching and spamming through the aftershocks of his orgasm. You donât think twice and swallow what heâs giving you. Some of his cum slips from your lips, falling directly onto the carpet. Even Logan seems surprised when he doesnât stop coming.
He helps you stand up after a moment, kissing you as soon as he gets the chance. He licks into your mouth, squeezing the flesh of your hips. Logan lifts his eyebrows, relishing how cock-drunk you must look. âI think you nearly killed me. And thatâs a lot to say coming from someone who cannot fucking die.â
You plaster a smile on your face, hugging his wide frame. âSo, was I okay?â
His jaw goes slack, and he lowers his head to capture your lips in another kiss. âYou were fantastic. I could easily get hard again just from thinking about it,â his fingers trace the buttons of your shirt, tugging at the fabric of it. âWhat if you let me focus on yourself for a while? Youâve already done enough, baby. Let me take care of you,â he rubs his hands on your thighs, reaching for your drenched panties. âPerhaps we could try something else today. That pussyâs begging to be fucked.âÂ
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How i mastered the art of persisting & how yall can too
hello my luvs, lemme tell u, its been a rlly eventful last 2 weeks in terms of me undergo a drastic shift in my mindset and WHEWWWWW, i thought it was time to share with yall
storytime
this past year i told myself i would adopt a strict mental diet where i wouldn't let doubts stop me or anything and lemme tell you, it was such a rocky road. There would be periods of me affirming that i was a master shifter, seek validation from the 3D and then start dwelling in my old state again. This cycle of giving up continued until i came across these posts. I then deeped how i've been overcomplicating manifesting & shifting to the point where i would give up so easily on my new states because "persisting was too hardâ when it rlly wasn't. Anyways, lemme share my favourite tips & advice i learnt.
THE ADVICE & TIPS
stop associating emotions w/ states
Once i stopped associating me doubting, being frustrated, etc with my state, i found stuff x10000 EASIER!! I be affirming when i'm sad/frustrated because my emotions do NAWT define me. If something happens in my life, i allow myself to acknowledge it then i affirm on loop that "everything gets better" and the very fact i am a master manifestor.
manifesting will exist whether u like it or not
whenever i feel like "giving up", i remember that no matter if i "give up" on my desires or not, the law of assumption will still operate in the same principle of dominant thoughts materialising ur reality. So that really made me think, why would i not take advantage of knowing about the loa and manifesting everything i want? Like once you find out about the law of assumption, there is no turning back so u might aswell utilise it.
you can never lose your "manifestation powers"
Sometimes i be having thoughts "what if i lose my manifestation powers" and its like?? i will always be able to manifest easily & so will you. You can never "lose" the ability to manifest. Its a LAW. Meaning you will always be able to do it
pick a staple affirmation & loop it no matter what
After utilising robotic affirming, i've felt so much more FULFILLED then i ever did. Trust me when i say, pick one affirmation (e.g. "i am a master shifter") and keep affirming through your doubts, random thoughts, etc. Litreally when you deep it, affirming is basically thinking and thinking is super duper easy. So picking one affirmation and continuously repeating it is so easy even when you feel like your having sm doubts (trust me, once u get in the habit of js affirming, things feel sm easier).
you don't need to believe to manifest
Before some of yall come at me, lemme tell yall something. When i got more serious about the loa this year, i overconsumed a sh!t ton of loa content stating in order to manifest your desires and it made me feel so frustrated whenever i felt doubts/overwhelmed when affirming for my desire. The belief bit will follow natrually while persisting, dont focus on beliving in ur manifestation, keep repeating you have it & your belief of it will feel more natrual as you keep repeating it (if that makes sense)
the 3D isn't the end, keep persisting
I made a post about this but to keep it short & simple, your 3D circumstances aren't permanent. Just because you may be experiencing the opposite of what you want in the 3D, doesn't mean it will stay like that forever and your manifestation "won't work". Keep affirming bb <3
okie that's it for the post <3 i'll probs make a pt2 if i got anymore advice?? but hope yall liked it ;3
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