#and then two weeks later i'm back in the fucking building and then i'm like oh okay
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SYD take a fucking bow. How does it feel you absolute icon at having written one of the very best Pitt fics of all time ever. the entire series has me gasping and sighing and laughing and giggling and crying and in fucking shambles.
I loved the job specificities. I loved how much it told us about the characters. You either do this for a job or your research was so thorough someone should hand you a degree. I loved how much that situation informed us of the characters. It was nothing short of absolutely fantastic. It was like meeting Jack all over again outside the show. Just. Brilliant.
I have so many favourtie parts it's utterly insane, every other line made me feel things.
A man who rewrites the rules not because he doesn’t care—
But because he cares too much to follow them.
THAT'S JACK. He cares far too much and has a bleeding fucking heart.
This man is exhausted. Unshaven. Probably hasn't eaten in twelve hours. And yet every move he makes now is poetry. Violent, beautiful poetry. He’s not a man anymore—he’s a scalpel. A weapon for something bigger than him.
my heart, he has it entirely. I love the way you paint him.
Jacket folded over the back of the stool, sleeves pushed to your elbows, fingers already flying across the keyboard of your laptop. You’re building fast but clean. Sharp lines. Conditional formatting. A crisis-routing framework that looks like it was written by a task force, not two people who met five hours ago in a trauma hallway soaked in blood.
This was the best date ever. I knew before he confessed later in the fic that this is where he wanted to ask her out. I knew. You've written it wirh such care like of course, of course, this is where he'd lose his heart to her. Standing. Fucking. Ovation.
“I just didn’t know how much I needed you until you stayed.”
I sighed, felt my throat tighten from the emotions.
“You make it easier to breathe in that place,” he adds. “And I haven’t breathed easy in years.”
Another favourite because my god does that man need a moment to breathe, to actuallynfeel the air in his lungs.
And for the first time in weeks—maybe longer—you don’t feel like you're catching up to your own life. You feel placed. Like someone made room for you before you asked.
I SCREAMED out of want, yearning. Yes, this. It's a need. And the way you wrote it too, with the flow that made it seem effortless. The care that Jack put into thinking for her and accomodating her took my breath away.
With a man who saw your strength before you ever raised your voice.
BITING MY FUCKING FIST I WANT THAT MAN SO BAD
“I looked at you,” he says, “and I thought, ‘If I ask her out now, I’ll never stop wanting her.’”
I couldn't breathe.
His thumb traces the side of your face like he’s still getting used to the shape of you. His mouth moves like he’s learned your rhythm already, like he’s wanted to do this since the first time you told him he was wrong and made him like it.
I'm in love. So complete in love with the way you write Jack Abbot. And th3 way you write Jack Abbot in love.
Jack crosses the threshold slowly, like someone walking into a church they haven’t set foot in since the funeral. He doesn’t speak. Doesn’t kiss you. Doesn’t offer a greeting. His movements are mechanical. His body’s tight.
I'm in love with the way you paint images. I love the way you describe and unfold and guide.
He looks down. Then back up. “I think I was afraid you’d get bored of me. That you’d realize I’m too much and not enough at the same time.”
I wanted to hug him so bad.
He nods. “Yeah. But you make it feel like home.”
SCREAMING CRYING THROWING UP
This is the man you’ll build every room around.
I had to take a very deep breath to dmsteady myself. Love like this makes me lightheaded.
“I know I leave shit everywhere and you color-code spreadsheets because it’s the only way to feel okay. I know you’re steadier than me. Smarter. Better. But I need you to be mine. Fully. Officially. Before I ruin it by waiting too long.”
best proposal ever. i could read it again and again and again.
“I’ll wait. Years, if I have to. I don’t care when. But I need the word. I need the promise.”
i—
This man.
The way you write him.
Hate him for not existing. You deserve one of those magic pencils from the kids shows that make whatever you write come alive. I'd trap you in a basement and make you write Jack Abbot content until we all had one in the flesh.
Slide it on yourself, right there, while he’s still inside you. It fits perfectly.
The ring on your finger. And his cock inside you. Both a perfect fit. Poetic asf.
This was perfect. I'm in love with it. I don't even have the words to explain how much. I wanna live in your brain. I wanna crawl inside your walls. Wanna be your best fucking friend.
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Irregularities
prequel to the life we met series (part one ✧ part two ✧ part three ✧ part four)
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summary : A federal audit brings a sharp, brilliant compliance officer face-to-face with Jack Abbot, a rule-breaking trauma doctor running a shadow supply system to keep his ER alive. What starts as a confrontation becomes an alliance and the two of them fall in love in the messiest, most human way possible.
word count : 13,529
warnings/content : 18+ MDNI !!! explicit language, medical trauma, workplace stress, injury description, mention of child patient death, grief processing, alcohol use, explicit sex, hospital politics, emotionally repressed older man, emotionally competent younger woman, mutual pining, slow-burn romance, power imbalance (non-hierarchical), injury while drunk, trauma bay realism, swearing, one (1) marriage proposal during sex
Tuesday – 8:00 AM Allegheny General Hospital – Lower Admin Wing
Hospitals don’t go quiet.
Not really.
Even here—three floors above the trauma bay and two glass doors removed from the chaos—there’s still the buzz of fluorescent lights, the hiss of a printer warming up, the rhythm of a city-sized machine trying to look composed. But this floor is different. It's where the noise is paperwork, and the blood is financial.
You walk like you belong here, because that’s half the job.
Navy slacks, pressed. Ivory blouse, tucked. The black wool coat draped over your arm has been folded just so, its lapel still holding the shape of your shoulder from the bus ride over. Your shoes are silent, soft-soled—conservative enough to say I’m not here to threaten you, but pointed enough to remind them that you could. Lanyard clipped at your sternum. A pen looped into the coil of your ledger notebook. A steel travel mug in one hand.
The other grips the strap of a leather bag, weighed down with printed ledgers and a half-dozen highlighters—color-coded in a way no one but you understands.
The badge clipped to your shirt flashes with every turn:
Kane & Turner LLP : Federal Compliance Division
Your name, printed clean in black sans serif.
That’s the only thing you say as you approach the front desk—your name. You don’t need to say why you’re here. They already know.
You’re the audit. The walk, the clothes, the quiet. It’s all part of the package. You’ve learned that you don’t need to act intimidating—people project the fear themselves.
���Finance conference room’s down the left hallway,” says the woman behind the desk, not bothering to smile. She’s polite, but brisk—like she’s been told to expect you and is already counting the minutes until you’re gone. “Security badge should be active ‘til five. If you need extra time, check with admin operations.”
You nod. “Thanks.”
They always act like audits come unannounced. But they don’t. You gave them notice. Ten days. Standard protocol. The federal grant in question flagged during the quarterly compliance sweep—a mismatch between trauma unit expenditures and the itemized supply orders. Enough of a discrepancy that your firm sent someone in person.
That someone is you.
You push the door open to the designated conference room and are hit with the familiar scent of institutional lemon cleaner and cold laminate tables. One wall is floor-to-ceiling windows, facing the opposite hospital wing; the rest is sterile whiteboard and cheap drop ceiling. Someone left two water bottles and a packet of hospital-branded pens on the table. The air is too cold.
Good. You work better like that.
You slide into the seat furthest from the door and start unpacking: first the laptop, then the binder of flagged ledgers, then a manila folder marked ER SUPPLY – FY20 in your handwriting. You open it flat and smooth the corners, spreading it across the table like a map. You don’t need directions. You’re here to track footprints.
Most audits feel bloated. Fraud is rarely elegant. It’s padded hours, made-up patients, vendors that don’t exist. But this one is… off. Not obviously criminal. Just messy.
You sip the lukewarm coffee you poured in the break room—burnt, stale, and still the best part of your morning—and begin.
Line by line.
February 12th: Gauze and blood bags double-logged under pediatrics.
March 3rd: 16 units of epinephrine marked as “routine use” with no corresponding case.
April 8th: High-volume saline usage with no corresponding trauma log.
None of it makes sense until you hit the May file.
May 17th.
Your finger stills over the page. A flagged case code—4413A—a GSW patient brought in at 02:11AM, code blue on arrival. The trauma bay requisition log is blank. Completely empty. No gauze. No sutures. No chest tube. Not even surgical gloves.
Instead, the corresponding supply usage appears—wrong date, wrong bay, under the general medicine supply closet three doors down. The only signature?
J. Abbot.
You sit back in your chair, eyes narrowing.
It’s not the first time his name has come up. You flip through past logs, then again through the April folder. There he is again. Trauma-level supplies signed under incorrect departments. Equipment routed through pediatrics. Trauma kit requests stamped urgent but logged under outpatient codes.
Never outrageous. Never duplicated. But always… altered. Shifted.
And always the same name in the bottom corner.
Jack Abbot Trauma Attending.
No initials after the name. No pomp. Just that hard, slanted signature—like someone in too much of a hurry to care if the pen worked properly.
You lean forward again, grabbing a sticky note.
Who the hell are you, Jack Abbot?
Your phone buzzes. A reminder that your firm expects an initial report by EOD. You check your watch—8:58 AM. Still early. You’ve got time to dig before anyone notices you’re not just sitting quietly in the background.
You open your laptop and search the internal directory.
ABBOT, JACK. Emergency Medicine, Trauma Center – Full Time Contact : [email protected] Page: 3371
You hover over the extension.
Then you close the tab.
There are two ways to handle something like this. You can go the formal route—submit a flagged incident for admin review, request clarification via email, cc your firm. Or...
You can go see what the hell kind of doctor signs off on trauma supplies like they’re water and lies to the system to get away with it.
You stand.
Your shoes are soundless against the tile.
Time to meet the man behind the margins.
Tuesday — 9:07 AM Allegheny General Hospital – Emergency Wing, Sublevel One
You don’t belong here, and the walls know it.
The ER hums like a living organism—loud in the places you expect to be quiet, and disturbingly quiet in the places that should scream. No signage tells you where to go, just a worn plastic placard labeled “TRAUMA — RESTRICTED ACCESS” and an old red arrow. You follow it anyway.
Your heels click once. Then again.
A tech throws you a sideways glance. A nurse barrels past with a tray of tubing and a strip of ECG printouts clutched in her fist. You flatten yourself against the wall. Keep moving.
This isn't the world of emails and boardrooms and fluorescent-lit compliance briefings. Here, time is blood. Everything moves too fast, too loud, too hot. It smells like antiseptic and old sweat. Somewhere nearby, a man is moaning—low, ragged. In another room, someone shouts for a Glidescope.
You don’t flinch. You’ve sat across from CEOs getting indicted. But still—this is not your battlefield.
You square your shoulders anyway and head for the nurse’s station, guided by the pulsing anxiety of your purpose. The folder tucked against your ribs is thick with numbers. Itemized trauma inventory. Improper codes. Unexplained cross-departmental requisitions. And one name—over and over again.
J. Abbot.
You stop at the cluttered, overrun desk where five nurses and two interns are trying to share a single charting terminal. Dana Evans, Charge Nurse, gives you a look like she’s been warned someone like you might show up.
“You lost?” she asks, not unkind, but sharp around the edges.
“I’m here for Dr. Abbot. I’m conducting an internal audit—grant oversight tied to the ER trauma budget.”
Dana lets out a soft, near-silent laugh through her nose. “Oh. You.”
“Excuse me?”
“No offense, but we’ve been placing bets on how long you’d last down here. My money was on ten minutes. The med student said eight.”
“I’ve been here twelve.”
She cocks a brow. “Well. You just made someone ten bucks. He’s at the back bay, not supposed to be here this morning—double-covered someone’s shift. Lucky you.”
That last part catches your attention.
“Why is he covering?”
Dana shrugs, but her expression flickers—tight, guarded. “He’s not supposed to be. Got a call about a kid he used to mentor—resident from one of his old programs. Car wreck on Sunday. Jack’s been pacing ever since. Showed up before sunrise. Said he couldn’t sleep.”
You blink.
“You’re telling me he—”
“Hasn’t slept, probably hasn’t eaten, definitely hasn’t had a civil conversation since Saturday? Yeah. That’s about right.”
You process it. Nod once. “Thank you.”
She grins. “You’re brave. Not smart. But brave.”
You leave her laughing behind you.
The trauma wing proper is a maze of curtained bays and rushed movement. You keep scanning every ID badge, every profile, looking for something—until you see him.
Back turned. Clipboard under his elbow, talking to someone too quietly for you to hear. He’s taller than you’d imagined—broad in the shoulders, but tired in the way his weight shifts unevenly from one leg to the other. One knee flexes, absorbs. The other does not.
You recognize it now.
You walk up and stop a respectful foot behind.
“Dr. Abbot?”
He doesn’t turn at first. Just adjusts the pen behind his ear, flicks a switch on the vitals monitor. Then:
“Yeah.”
He looks over his shoulder, sees you, and stills.
His face is older than his file photo. Harder. Faint stubble across his jaw, a constellation of stress lines under his eyes that no amount of sleep could erase. His black scrub top is creased at the collar, short sleeves revealing tan forearms mapped with faded scars and the pale ghost of a long-healed burn.
You catch your breath—not because he’s handsome, though he is. But because he’s real. Grounded. And already deciding what box to put you in.
You lift your badge. “I’m with Kane & Turner. I’m conducting a trauma budget audit for the grant you’re listed under. I’d like to go over some of your logs.”
He stares at you.
Long enough to make it feel intentional.
“Now?”
“I was told you were available.”
He huffs out a laugh, if you can call it that—dry and crooked, more breath than sound. “Jesus Christ. Yeah. I’m sure that’s what Dana said.”
“She said you came in before sunrise.”
Jack doesn’t look at you. Just scratches once at his jaw, where the stubble’s gone patchy, then drops his hand again like the gesture annoyed him. “Didn’t plan to be here. Wasn’t on the board.”
A beat. Then: “Got a call Sunday night. One of my old residents—kid from back in Boston. Wrapped his car around a guardrail. I don’t know if he fell asleep or if he meant to do it. Doesn’t matter, I guess. He died on impact.”
His voice doesn’t shift. Not even a flicker. Just calm, like he’s reading it off a report. But his fingers twitch once at his side, and he’s standing too still, like if he moves the wrong way, he might break something in himself.
“I’ve been up since,” he adds, almost like an afterthought. “Figured I’d do something useful.”
You hesitate. “I’m sorry.”
He finally looks at you, and the hollow behind his eyes is like a door left open too long in winter. “Don’t be. He’s the one who didn’t walk away.”
A beat of silence.
“I won’t take much of your time,” you say. “But there are significant inconsistencies in your logs. Some dating back six months. Most from May. Including—”
“Let me guess,” he interrupts. “May 17th. GSW. Bay One unavailable. Used the peds closet. Logged under the wrong department. Didn’t have time to clear it before I scrubbed in. End of story.”
You blink. “That’s not exactly—”
“You want a confession? Fine. I logged shit wrong. I do it all the time. I make it fit the bill codes that get supplies restocked fastest, not the ones that make sense to people sitting upstairs.”
Your mouth opens. Closes.
Jack turns to face you fully now, arms crossed. “You ever had a mother screaming in your face because her kid’s pressure dropped and you’re still waiting for a sterile suction kit to come up from Central?”
You shake your head.
“Didn’t think so.”
“I understand it’s difficult, but that doesn’t make it right—”
“I’m not here to be right,” he says flatly. “I’m here to make sure people don’t die waiting for tape and tubing.”
He steps closer, voice quieter now.
“You think the system’s built for this place? It’s not. It’s built for billing departments and insurance adjusters. I’m just bending it so the next teenager doesn’t bleed out on a gurney because the ER spent two hours requesting sterile gauze through the proper channel.”
You’re trying to hold your ground, but something in you wavers. Just slightly.
“This isn’t about money,” you say, though your voice softens. “It’s about transparency. The federal grant is under review. If they pull it, it’s not just your supplies—it’s salaries. Nurses. Fellowships. You could cost this hospital everything.”
Jack exhales hard through his nose. Looks at you like he wants to say a hundred things and doesn’t have the energy for one.
“You ever been in a position,” he murmurs, “where the right thing and the possible thing weren’t the same thing?”
You say nothing.
Because you’ve built a life doing the former.
And he’s built one surviving the latter.
“I’ll be in the charting room in twenty,” he says, already turning away. “If you want to see what this looks like up close, you’re welcome to follow.”
Before you can answer, someone shouts his name—loud, urgent.
He bolts toward the trauma bay before the syllables finish echoing.
And you’re left standing there, folder pressed to your chest, heart hammering in a way that has nothing to do with ethics and everything to do with him.
Jack Abbot.
A man who rewrites the rules not because he doesn’t care—
But because he cares too much to follow them.
Tuesday — 9:24 AM Allegheny General – Trauma Bay 2
You were not trained for this.
No part of your CPA license, your MBA electives, or your federal compliance onboarding prepared you for what it means to step inside a trauma bay mid-resuscitation.
But you do it anyway.
He told you to follow, and you did. Not because you’re scared of him—but because something in his voice made you want to understand him. Dissect the logic beneath the defiance. And because you're not the kind of woman who lets someone walk away thinking they’ve won a conversation just because they can bark louder.
So now here you are, standing just past the curtain, audit folder pressed against your chest like armor, trying not to breathe too shallow in case it looks like you’re afraid.
It’s loud. Then silent. Then louder.
A man lies on the table, unconscious. Twenty-five, maybe thirty. Jeans cut open, a ragged wound in his left thigh leaking bright arterial blood. A nurse swears under her breath. The EKG monitor screams. A resident drops a tray of gauze on the floor.
You don’t step back.
Jack Abbot is already at the man’s side.
His hands move like they’re ahead of his thoughts. No hesitation. No consulting a textbook. He pulls a sterile clamp from a drawer, presses it to the wound, and shouts for suction before the blood can pool down the table leg. The team forms around him like satellites to a planet. He doesn't yell. He commands. Low-voiced. Urgent. Controlled.
“Clamp there,” Jack says, to a stunned-looking intern. “No, firmer. This isn’t a prom date.”
You stifle a snort—barely. No one else even reacts.
The nurse closest to him says, “BP’s crashing.”
“Pressure bag’s up?”
“In use.”
“Give me a second one, now. And call blood bank—we’re skipping crossmatch. Type O, two units.”
You shift your weight quietly, moving two inches left so you’re out of the path of the incoming trauma cart. It bumps your hip. You don’t flinch.
He glances up. Sees you still standing there.
“You sure you want to be here?” he asks, not pausing. “It’s not exactly OSHA compliant.”
You meet his eyes evenly.
“You invited me, remember?”
He blinks once, but says nothing.
The monitor screams again. Jack lowers his head, muttering something you don’t catch. Then, to the nurse: “We’re not getting return. I need to open.”
“You want to crack here?” she asks. “We’re two minutes from OR three—”
“We don’t have two minutes.”
The tray arrives. Jack snaps on a new pair of gloves. You glance down and catch the gleam of something inside him—a steel that wasn’t there in the hallway.
This man is exhausted. Unshaven. Probably hasn't eaten in twelve hours. And yet every move he makes now is poetry. Violent, beautiful poetry. He’s not a man anymore—he’s a scalpel. A weapon for something bigger than him.
And still, you stay.
You even speak.
“If you’re going to override a standard OR protocol in front of a compliance officer,” you say calmly, “you might want to narrate it for the notes.”
The entire room freezes for half a second.
Jack looks up at you—truly looks—and his mouth twitches. Not a smile. Something older. A flicker of amusement under pressure.
“You’re a piece of work,” he mutters, turning back to the table. “Sternotomy tray. Now.”
You watch.
He cuts.
The man survives.
And you’re left trying to hold onto the version of him you built in your head when you walked through those double doors—the reckless trauma doctor who flouts policy and falsifies entries like he’s above the rules.
But he’s not above them.
He’s beneath them. Holding them up from below.
Twenty-three minutes later, he’s stripping off his gloves and washing his hands at a sink just past the trauma bays. The blood spirals down the drain in rust-colored ribbons. His jaw is clenched. His shoulders sag.
You step closer. No fear. No folder to hide behind now—just your voice.
“I don’t know what you think I’m doing here,” you say quietly, “but I’m not your enemy.”
Jack doesn’t look up.
“You’re wearing a suit,” he says. “You carry a clipboard. You track numbers like they tell the whole story.”
“I track truth,” you correct. “Which is a lot harder to pin down when you hide things in pediatric line items.”
He turns. That gets his attention.
“Is that what you think I’m doing? Hiding things?”
“I think you’re manipulating a fragile system to serve your own triage priorities. I think you’re smart enough to know how to avoid audit flags. And I think you’re exhausted enough not to care if it lands you in disciplinary review.”
His laugh is dry and joyless.
“You know what lands me in disciplinary review? Not spending thirty bucks of saline because a man didn’t bleed on the right fucking floor.”
“I know,” you say. “I watched you save someone who wasn’t supposed to make it past intake.”
Jack pauses.
And for the first time, you see it: a beat of surprise. Not in your observation, but in your acknowledgment.
“Then why are you still pushing?”
“Because I can’t fix what I don’t understand. And right now? You’re not giving me a goddamn thing to work with.”
A long silence stretches.
The sink drips.
You fold your arms. “If you want me to report accurately, show me what’s behind the curtain. The real system. Your system.”
Jack watches you carefully. His brow furrows. You wonder if anyone’s ever said that to him before—Let me see the whole thing. I won’t flinch.
“Follow me,” he says at last.
And then he walks. Not fast. Not trying to shake you. Just steady steps down the hallway. Past curtain 6. Past the empty crash cart. To a supply room you didn’t even know existed.
You follow.
Because that’s the deal now. He shows you what he’s built in the margins, and you decide whether to burn it down.
Or defend it.
Tuesday — 10:02 AM Allegheny General – Sublevel 1, Unmapped Storage Room
The hallway leading there isn’t on the public map. It’s narrower than it should be, dimmer too, the kind of corridor that exists between structural beams and budget approvals. You follow him past the trauma bay, past the marked charting alcove, past a metal door you wouldn’t have noticed if he hadn’t stopped.
Jack pulls a key from the lanyard tucked in his back pocket. Not a swipe badge—a key. Real, metal, old. He unlocks the door with a twist and a grunt.
Inside, fluorescent light hums awake overhead. The bulb stutters once, then holds.
And you freeze.
It’s a supply closet—but only in name. It’s his war room.
The room is narrow but deep, lined wall-to-wall with shelves of restocked trauma kits, expired saline bags labeled “STILL USABLE” in black Sharpie, drawers of unlabeled syringes, taped-up binders, folders with handwritten tabs. No digital interface. No hospital barcodes. No asset tags.
There’s a folding chair in the corner. A coffee mug half-full of pens. A cracked whiteboard with a grid system that only he could understand. The air smells like latex, ink, and whatever disinfectant they stopped ordering five fiscal quarters ago.
You take a breath. Step in. Close the door behind you.
He watches you like he expects you to flinch.
You don’t.
Jack leans a shoulder against the far wall, arms crossed, one leg bent to rest his boot against the floorboard behind him. The right leg. The prosthesis. You clock the adjustment without reacting. He notices that you notice—and doesn’t look away.
“This is off-grid,” he says finally. “No admin approval. No inventory code. No audit trail.”
You walk deeper into the room. Run your fingers along the edge of a file labeled: ALT REORDER ROUTES – Q2 / MANUAL ONLY / DO NOT SCAN
“You’ve built a shadow system,” you say.
“I built a system that works,” he corrects.
You turn. “This is fraud.”
He snorts. “It’s survival.”
“I’m serious, Abbot. This is full-blown liability. You’re rerouting federal grant stock using pediatric codes. You’re bypassing restock thresholds. You’re personally signing off on requisitions under miscategorized departments—”
“And you’re here with a folder and a badge acting like your spreadsheet saves more lives than a clamp and a peds line that actually shows up.”
Silence.
But it’s not silence. Not really.
There’s a hum between you now. Not quite anger. Not admiration either. Something in between. Something volatile.
You raise your chin. “I’m not here to be impressed.”
“Good. I’m not trying to impress you.”
“Then why show me this?”
“Because you kept your eyes open in the trauma bay,” he says. “You didn’t faint. You didn’t cry. You watched me crack a man’s chest open in real time, and instead of hiding behind a chart, you asked me to narrate the procedure.”
You blink. Once. “So that was a test?”
“That was a Tuesday.”
You glance around the room again.
There are labels that don’t match any official inventory records you’ve seen. Bin codes that don’t belong to any department. You pull a clipboard from the wall and flip through it—one page, then another. All hand-tracked inventory numbers. Dated. Annotated. Jack’s handwriting is messy but consistent. He’s been doing this for years.
Years.
And no one’s stopped him.
Or helped.
“Do they know?” you ask. “Admin. Robinavitch. Evans. Anyone?”
Jack leans his head back against the wall. “They know something’s off. But as long as the board meetings stay quiet and the trauma bay doesn’t run dry, no one goes looking. And if someone does, well…” He gestures to the room. “They find nothing.”
“You hide it this well?”
“I’m not stupid.”
You pause. “Then why let me see it?”
Jack looks at you.
Not quickly. Not dramatically. Just slowly. Like he’s finally weighing you honestly.
“Because you’re not like the others they’ve sent before. The last one tried to threaten me with a suspension. You walked into a trauma bay in heels and told me to log my chaos in real-time.”
You smirk. “It is hard to argue with a woman holding a clipboard and a minor God complex.”
He chuckles. “You should see me with a chest tube and a caffeine withdrawal.”
You flip another page.
“You’ve been routing orders through departments that don’t even realize they’re losing inventory.”
“Because I return what I borrow before they notice. I run double restocks through the night shift when the scanner’s offline. I update storage rooms myself. No one’s ever missed a needle they weren’t expecting.”
You shake your head. “This is a house of cards.”
Jack shrugs. “And yet it holds.”
“But for how long?”
Now you’re the one who steps forward. You plant yourself in front of the table and open your binder. Click your pen.
“I can’t pretend this doesn’t exist. If I report this exactly as it is, the grant’s pulled. You’re fired. This hospital goes under federal review for misappropriation of trauma funds.”
He doesn’t blink. “Then do it.”
You stare at him. “What?”
He steps off the wall now, closes the space between you like it’s nothing.
“I’ve survived worse,” he says. “You think this job is about safety? It’s not. It’s about how long you can keep other people alive before the system kills you too.”
You inhale, hard. “God, you’re dramatic.”
He smirks. “And you’re stubborn.”
“Because I don’t want to bury you in a report. I want to fix the goddamn machine before someone else gets chewed up in it.”
Jack stares at you.
The flicker of something new in his expression.
Respect.
“Then help me,” you say. “Let me draft a compliance framework that mirrors what you’ve built. A real one. If we can prove this routing saved lives, reduced downtime, and didn’t drain pediatric inventory, we can pitch it as an emergency operations protocol, not fraud.”
His brows lift, skeptical. “You think they’ll buy that?”
“No,” you say. “But I’m not giving them the choice. I’m giving them math.”
That gets him.
He grins. Barely. But it’s real.
“God,” he mutters. “You’re a menace.”
“You’re welcome.”
He turns away to hide the grin, but not before you catch the edge of it.
And then—quietly—he reaches for a file at the back of the shelf. It’s older. Faded. Taped up the side. He places it in your hands.
“What’s this?” you ask.
“The first reroute I ever filed. Back in 2017. Kid named Miguel. We were out of blood bags. I had a connection with the OR nurse who owed me a favor. Rerouted it through post-op. Saved the kid’s life. Never logged it.”
You glance down at the file. “You kept it?”
“I keep all of them.”
He meets your eyes again.
“You’re not here to bury me. Fine. But if you’re going to save me, do it right.”
You nod.
“I always do.”
Tuesday — 12:23 PM Allegheny General – Third Floor Charting Alcove
There’s no door to the alcove. Just a half-wall and a partition, like someone once tried to offer privacy and gave up halfway through. There’s a long desk, a broken rolling chair, two non-matching stools, and a stack of patient folders leaning so far left you half expect them to fall. The overhead light buzzes faintly, casting everything in pale hospital yellow.
You sit at the desk anyway.
Jacket folded over the back of the stool, sleeves pushed to your elbows, fingers already flying across the keyboard of your laptop. You’re building fast but clean. Sharp lines. Conditional formatting. A crisis-routing framework that looks like it was written by a task force, not two people who met five hours ago in a trauma hallway soaked in blood.
Jack stands across from you.
Leaning, not lounging. One arm crossed, the other flexed slightly as he rubs a knot in his shoulder. His scrub top is wrinkled and dark at the collar. There's a faint stain down his side you’re trying not to identify. He hasn't touched his phone in forty minutes. Hasn’t once asked when this ends.
He’s watching you.
Not like you’re entertainment. Like he’s waiting to see if you’ll slip.
You don’t.
“You ever sleep?” he asks, finally breaking the silence.
You don’t look up. “I’ve heard of it.”
He makes a sound—half laugh, half breath. “What’s your background, anyway? You don’t have the eyes of someone who studied finance for fun.”
“Applied mathematical economics,” you say, still typing. “Minor in gender studies. First job was forensic audits for nonprofits. Moved to healthcare compliance after a board member got indicted.”
That gets his attention. “Jesus.”
You glance at him. “I’m not here because I care about sterile supply chains, Dr. Abbot. I’m here because I know what happens when people stop paying attention to the margins.”
He leans in. “And what happens?”
You meet his eyes.
“They bleed.”
Something in his face tightens. Not defensiveness. Recognition.
You go back to typing.
On your screen, the Crisis Routing Framework takes shape line by line. A column for shelf code. A subcolumn for department reroute. A notes field for justification. A time-stamp formula.
You highlight the headers and format them in hospital blue.
Jack watches your hands. “You make it look real.”
“It is real. I’m just reverse-engineering the lie.”
“You ever consider med school?”
You snort. “No offense, but I prefer a job where the people I save don’t flatline halfway through.”
He grins. It's tired. But it's real.
You type another line, then say, “I’m flagging pediatric code 412 as overused. If they run a query, we need to show it tapered off this month. Start routing through P-580. Float department. Similar stock, slower pull rate.”
He nods slowly. “You’re scary.”
“Good. You’ll need someone scary.”
He rubs his thumb along his jaw. “You always this relentless?”
You pause. Then look at him.
“I grew up in a house where if you didn’t solve the problem, no one else was coming. So yeah. I’m relentless.”
Jack doesn’t smile this time. He just nods. Like he gets it.
You shift gears. “Talk me through supply flow. Where’s your weakest point?”
He thinks. “ICU hoards ventilator tubing. Pediatrics short-changes trauma bay stock twice a year during audit season. Central Supply won't prioritize ER if the orders come in after 5PM. And once a month, someone from anesthesia pulls from our cart without logging it.”
You blink. “That’s practically sabotage.”
You finish a formula. “Okay. I’m structuring this like a mirrored requisition chain. Any reroute needs a justification and a fallback, plus one sign-off from a second attending. If we’re going to pitch this as protocol, we can’t make you look like the sole cowboy.”
Jack quirks a brow. “Even though I am?”
“Especially because you are.”
He laughs again, and it’s deeper this time. Not performative. Just… easy.
He moves closer. Pulls a stool up beside you. Watches the screen over your shoulder.
“Alright. Let’s build it.”
You glance at him sideways. “Now you want in?”
“I don’t like systems I didn’t help design.”
You smirk. “Typical.”
“Also,” he adds, “I’m the one who’s gonna have to sell this to Robby. If it sounds too academic, he’ll assume I lost a bet and had to let someone from Harvard try to fix the ER.”
“I went to Ohio State.”
“Even worse.”
You roll your eyes. “We’re naming it CRF—Crisis Routing Framework.”
“That’s terrible.”
“It’s bureaucratically unassailable.”
“Still sounds like a printer manual.”
“You’re welcome.”
He chuckles again, and it hits you for the first time how rare that sound probably is from him. Jack Abbot doesn’t laugh in meetings. He doesn’t charm the board. He doesn’t play. He works. Bleeds. Fixes.
And here he is, giving you his time.
You scroll to the bottom of the spreadsheet and create a new tab. LIVE REROUTE LOG – PHASE ONE PILOT
You look at him. “You’re gonna log everything from here on out. Time, item, reroute, reason, outcome.”
Jack raises a brow. “Outcome?”
“I’m not defending chaos. I’m documenting impact. That’s how we scale this.”
He nods. “Alright.”
“You’re going to train one resident to do this after you.”
“I already know who.”
“And you’re going to let me present this to the admin team before you barge in and call someone a corporate parasite.”
Jack presses a hand to his chest, mock-offended. “I never said that out loud.”
You glance at him.
He exhales. “Fine. Deal.”
You close the laptop.
The spreadsheet is done. The framework is real. The logs are ready to go live. All that’s left now is convincing the hospital that what you’ve built together isn’t just a workaround—it’s the blueprint for saving what’s left.
He’s quiet for a minute.
Then: “You know this doesn’t fix everything, right?”
You nod. “It’s not supposed to. It just keeps the people who do fix things from getting fired.”
Jack tilts his head. “You really believe that?”
You meet his eyes. “I wouldn’t be here if I didn’t.”
He studies you like he’s trying to find the catch.
Then he leans forward, forearms resting on his knees. “You know, when they said someone from Kane & Turner was coming in, I pictured a thirty-year-old with a spreadsheet addiction and no clue what a trauma bay looked like.”
“I pictured a man who didn’t know what a compliance code was and thought ethics were optional.”
He grins. “Touché.”
You smile back, tired and full of adrenaline and something else you don’t have a name for yet.
Then you stand. Sling your laptop under your arm.
“I’ll send you the first draft of the protocol by morning,” you say. “Review it. Sign off. Try not to add any sarcastic margin notes unless they’re grammatically correct.”
Jack stands too. Nods.
And then—quietly, like it costs him something—he says, “Thank you.”
You pause.
“You’re welcome.”
He doesn’t say more. Doesn’t have to. You walk out of the alcove without looking back. You’ve already given him your trust. The rest is up to him.
Behind you, Jack pulls the chair closer. Opens the laptop.
And starts logging.
Saturday — 12:16 AM Three Weeks Later Downtown Pittsburgh — The Forge, Liberty Ave
The bar pulses.
Brick walls sweat condensation. Shot glasses clink. The DJ is on his third remix of the same Doja Cat song, and the bass is loud enough to rearrange your internal organs. Somewhere behind you, someone’s yelling about their ex. Your drink is pink and glowing and entirely too strong.
You’re wearing a bachelorette sash. It isn’t your party. You barely know half the girls here. One of them’s already crying in the bathroom. Another lost a nail trying to mount the mechanical bull.
And you?
You’re on top of a booth table with a stolen tiara jammed into your hair and exactly three working brain cells rattling around your skull.
Someone hands you another tequila shot.
You take it.
You’re drunk—not hospital gala drunk, not tipsy-at-a-networking-reception drunk.
You’re downtown-Pittsburgh, six-tequila-shots-deep, screaming-a-Fergie-remix drunk.
Because it’s been a month of high-functioning, hyper-competent, trauma-defending, budget-balancing brilliance. And tonight?
You want to be dumb. Messy. Loud. A girl in a too-short dress with glitter dusted across her clavicle and no memory of the phrase “compliance code.”
You tip your head back. The bar lights blur.
That’s when you try the spin.
A full, arms-above-your-head, dramatic-ass spin.
Your heel lands wrong.
And the table snaps.
You hear it before you feel it—an ugly wood crack, a rush of cold air, your body collapsing sideways. Something twists in your ankle. Your elbow hits the edge of a stool. You end up flat on your back on the floor, breath gone, ears ringing.
The bar goes silent.
Someone gasps.
Someone laughs.
And above you—through the haze of artificial light and bass static—you hear a voice.
Familiar.
Dry. Sharp. Unbelievably fucking real.
“Jesus Christ.”
Jack Abbot has been here twelve minutes.
Long enough for Robby to buy him a beer and mutter something about needing “noise therapy” after a shift that involved two DOAs, one psych hold, and an attempted overdose in the staff restroom.
Jack hadn’t wanted to come. He still smells like the trauma bay. His back hurts. There’s blood on his undershirt. But Robby insisted.
So here he is, in a bar full of neon and glitter, trying not to judge anyone for being loud and alive.
And then you fell through a table.
He doesn’t recognize you at first. Not in this light. Not in that dress. Not barefoot on the floor with your hair falling out of its updo and your mouth half-open in shock.
But then he sees the way you try to sit up.
And you groan: “Oh my God.”
Jack’s already moving.
Robby shouts behind him, “Is that—oh shit, that’s her—”
Jack ignores him. Shoves through the crowd. Kneels at your side. You’re clutching your ankle. There's glitter on your neck. You're laughing and crying and trying to brush off your friends.
And then you see him.
Your eyes go wide.
You blink. “...Jack?”
His jaw tightens. “Yeah. It’s me.”
You try to sit up straighter. Fail. “Am I dreaming?”
“Nope.”
“Are you real?”
“Unfortunately.”
You drop your head back against the floor. “Oh God. This is the most humiliating night of my life.”
“Worse than the procurement meeting?”
You peek up at him, hair in your eyes. “Worse. Way worse. I was trying to prove I could still do a backbend.”
Jack sighs. “Of course you were.”
You wince. “I think I broke my foot.”
He presses two fingers to your pulse, checks your ankle gently. “You might’ve. It’s swelling. You’re lucky.”
“I don’t feel lucky.”
“You are,” he says. “If you’d twisted further inward, you’d be looking at a spiral fracture.”
You stare at him. “Did you really just trauma-evaluate my foot in a bar?”
Jack looks up. “Would you prefer someone else?”
“No,” you admit.
“Then shut up and let me finish.”
Your friends hover, but none of them move closer. Jack’s presence is... commanding. Like the bar suddenly remembered he’s the person you call when someone stops breathing.
You watch him.
The sleeves of his black zip-up are rolled to the elbow. His hands are clean now, but his cuticles are stained. His ID badge is gone, but he still wears the same exhaustion. The same steady focus.
He touches your foot again. You flinch.
Jack winces, just slightly.
“I’ve got you,” he says.
Jack slips one arm under your legs and the other behind your back and lifts.
“Holy shit,” you squeak. “What are you doing?!”
“Getting you off the floor before someone livestreams this.”
You bury your face in his collarbone. “I hate you.”
He chuckles. “No, you don’t.”
“You’re smug.”
“I’m right.”
“You smell like trauma bay and cheap beer.”
“Don’t change the subject.”
He carries you past the bouncer, past the flash of phone cameras, past Robby cackling at the bar.
Outside, the air hits you like truth. Cold. Sharp. Clear.
Jack sets you down on the hood of his truck and kneels again.
“You’re taking me to the ER?” you ask, quieter now.
“No,” he says. “You’re coming to my apartment. We’ll ice it, wrap it, and if it still looks bad in the morning, I’ll take you in.”
You squint. “I thought you weren’t off until Monday.”
Jack stands. “I’m not, but you’re coming with me. Someone’s gotta keep you from dancing on furniture.”
You blink. “You’re serious.”
“I always am.”
You look at him.
Three weeks ago, you rewrote a system together. Built a lifeline in the margins. Saved a hospital with data, caffeine, and stubborn brilliance.
And now he’s here, brushing glitter off your shoulder, holding your sprained foot like it’s the most obvious thing in the world.
“I thought you hated me,” you murmur.
Jack looks at you, something unreadable flickering behind his eyes.
“I didn’t hate you,” he says.
He leans in.
“I just didn’t know how much I needed you until you stayed.”
Saturday — 12:57 AM Jack's Apartment — South Side Flats
You don’t remember the elevator ride.
Just the press of warm hands. The cold knot of pain winding tighter in your foot. The way Jack didn’t flinch when you leaned into him like gravity wasn’t working the way it should.
He’d carried you like he’d done it before.
Like your weight wasn’t an inconvenience.
Like there wasn’t something fragile in the way your hands gripped the edge of his jacket, or the way your voice slurred slightly when you whispered, “Please don’t drop me.”
“I’ve got you,” he’d said.
Not a performance. Not pity.
Just fact.
Now you’re here. In his apartment. And everything’s still.
The door clicks shut behind you. The locks slide into place. You blink in the quiet.
Jack’s apartment is...surprising.
Not messy. Not sterile. Lived in.
A row of mugs lined up by the sink—some hospital-branded, one chipped, one that says “World’s Okayest Doctor” in faded red font. A half-built bookshelf in the corner with a hammer sitting beside it, a box of unopened paperbacks on the floor. A stack of trauma logs on the kitchen counter, marked with highlighters. There’s a hoodie tossed over the back of a chair. A photo frame turned face-down.
He doesn’t explain the place. Just moves toward the couch.
“Feet up,” he says gently. “Cushions under your back. I’ll get the ice.”
You let him settle you—ankle elevated, pillow beneath your knees, spine curving against the soft give of the cushion. His hands are firm but careful. His touch steady. No wasted movement.
The moment he turns toward the kitchen, you finally exhale.
Your foot throbs, yes. But it’s not just the injury. It’s the shift. The collapse. The way your brain is catching up to your body, fast and unforgiving.
He returns with a towel-wrapped bag of crushed ice. Kneels beside the couch. Presses it gently to your swollen ankle.
You wince.
He watches you. “Still bad?”
“I’ve had worse.”
He cocks his head. “Let me guess—tax season?”
You smile, tired. “Try federal oversight for a trauma unit that runs on scraps.”
His mouth twitches. “Fair.”
He adjusts the ice. Shifts slightly to sit on the floor beside you, back against the edge of the couch.
“Thanks for not taking me to the hospital,” you murmur after a beat.
He snorts. “You were drunk, barefoot, and covered in glitter. I figured they didn’t need that energy tonight.”
You laugh softly. “I’m usually very composed, you know.”
“Sure.”
“I am.”
“You’re also the only person I’ve ever seen terrify a board meeting into extending a $1.4 million grant with nothing but a color-coded spreadsheet and a raised eyebrow.”
You grin, despite the ache. “It worked.”
He looks at you then.
Really looks.
“Yeah,” he says quietly. “It did.”
Silence stretches, but it’s not awkward.
The hum of his fridge clicks on. The distant wail of a siren threads through the cracked kitchen window. The ice burns through the towel, numbing your foot.
You turn your head toward him. “You don’t talk much when you’re off shift.”
He shrugs. “I talk all day. Sometimes it’s nice to let the quiet say something for me.”
You pause. Then: “You’ve changed.”
Jack’s eyes flick up. “Since what?”
“Since the first day. You were—” you search for the word, “—hostile.”
“I was exhausted.”
“You’re still exhausted.”
“Maybe.” He rubs a hand over his face. “But back then, I didn’t think anyone gave a shit about the mess we were drowning in. Then you showed up in heels and threatened to file an ethics report in real-time during a trauma code.”
You grin. “You never let me live that down.”
He chuckles. “It was hot.”
You blink. “What?”
His eyes widen slightly. He looks away. “Shit. Sorry. That was—”
“Say it again,” you say, heartbeat ticking up.
He hesitates.
Then, quieter: “It was hot.”
The room stills.
Your throat goes dry.
Jack clears his throat and stands. “I’ll get you some water.”
You catch his wrist.
He stops. Looks down.
You don’t let go. Not yet.
“I think I’m sobering up,” you whisper.
Jack doesn’t speak. But his expression softens. Like he’s afraid you’ll take it back if he breathes too loud.
“And I still want you here,” you add.
That breaks something in his posture.
Not lust. Not intention.
Just clarity.
Jack lowers himself back down. Closer this time. He leans forward, arms on his knees, forearms bare, veins visible under dim kitchen-light glow. You’re aware of the space between you. The hush. The hum.
“I’ve been trying to stay out of your way,” he admits. “Let the protocol speak for itself. Let the work be enough.”
“It is.”
“But it’s not all.”
You nod. “I know.”
He meets your eyes. “I meant what I said. I didn’t know how much I needed you until you stayed.”
Your chest tightens.
“You make it easier to breathe in that place,” he adds. “And I haven’t breathed easy in years.”
You lean back against the couch, exhale slowly.
“I think we’re more alike than I thought,” you murmur. “We both like being the one people rely on.”
Jack nods. “And we both fall apart quietly.”
Another silence. Another shift.
“I don’t want to fall apart tonight,” you whisper.
He looks at you.
“You won’t,” he says. “Not while I’m here.”
And then he reaches for your hand. Doesn’t take it. Just lets his fingers rest close enough that the warmth passes between you.
That’s all it is.
Not a kiss.
Not a confession.
Just one long moment of quiet, where neither of you has to hold the weight of anyone else’s world.
Just each other’s.
Sunday — 8:19 AM Jack's Apartment — South Side Flats
You wake to soft light.
Filtered through half-closed blinds, the kind that turns gray into gold and casts long lines across the carpet. The apartment is quiet, still warm from the night before, but there’s no sound except the faint hum of the fridge and the scrape of the city waking up somewhere six floors down.
Your foot throbs—but less than last night.
The pain is dulled. Managed.
You shift slowly, eyes adjusting. You’re on the couch, still in your dress, a blanket draped over you. Your leg is elevated on a pillow, and your ankle is wrapped in clean white gauze—professionally, precisely. You didn’t do that.
Jack.
There’s a glass of water on the coffee table. Full. No condensation. A bottle of ibuprofen beside it, label turned outward. A banana and a paper napkin.
The care is unmistakable.
You blink once, twice, then sit up slowly.
The apartment smells like coffee.
You limp toward the kitchen on your good foot, using the back of a chair for balance. The ice pack is gone. So is Jack.
But on the counter—neatly arranged like he planned every inch—is a folded gray hoodie, your left heel (broken but cleaned), a fresh cup of black coffee in a white ceramic mug, and something that stops you cold:
The new CRF logbook.
Printed. Binded. Tabbed in color-coded dividers. The first page filled out in his slanted, all-caps writing.
At the top: CRF — ALLEGHENY GENERAL EMERGENCY PILOT — 3-WEEK AUDIT REVIEW. In the corner, under “Lead Coordinator,” your name is written in ink.
There’s a sticky note beside it. Yellow. Curling at the edge.
“It works because of you.— J”
You stare at it for a long time.
Not because it’s dramatic. Because it’s not.
Because it’s simple. True.
You pick up the binder, flip to the first log. It’s already halfway filled—dates, codes, outcomes. Jack has been tracking everything. By hand. Every reroute. Every save. Every corner he’s bent back into shape.
And he’s signing your name on every one of them.
You run your fingers over the paper.
Then reach for the mug.
It’s warm. Not fresh—but not cold either. Like he poured it minutes before leaving.
You sip.
And for the first time in weeks—maybe longer—you don’t feel like you're catching up to your own life. You feel placed. Like someone made room for you before you asked.
You limp toward the window, slow and careful, and watch the street below wake up.
The city is still gray. Still loud. But it’s yours now. His, too. Not perfect. Not quiet. But it’s working.
You lean against the frame.
Your chest aches in that unfamiliar, not-quite-painful way that only comes when something shifts inside you—something big and slow and inevitable.
You don’t know what this is yet.
But you know where it started.
On a trauma shift.
In a supply closet.
With a man who saw your strength before you ever raised your voice.
And stayed.
One Month Later — Saturday, 6:41 PM Pittsburgh — Shadyside, near Ellsworth Ave
The sky’s already lilac by the time you get out of the Uber.
The street glows with soft storefront lighting—jewelers locking up, the florist’s shutters halfway drawn, the sidewalk sprinkled with pale pink petals from whatever tree is blooming overhead. The restaurant is tucked between a jazz bar and a wine shop, easy to miss if you’re not looking for it.
But Jack is already there.
Leaning against the doorframe, hands in his pockets, like he doesn’t want to go in without you. He’s in a navy button-down, sleeves pushed up to the elbow, top button undone. He’s not hiding in trauma armor tonight. He looks clean. Rested. Still a little unsure.
You see him before he sees you.
And when he does—when his head lifts and his eyes find you—he stills.
The kind of still that feels like reverence, even if he’d never call it that.
He says your name. Just once. And then:
“You came.”
You smile. “Of course I came.”
“I wasn’t sure.”
You tilt your head. “Why?”
He looks down, breathes out through his nose. “Because sometimes when things matter, I assume they won’t last.”
You step closer.
“They haven’t even started yet,” you murmur. “Let’s go in.”
The bistro is warm. Brick walls. Low ceilings. Candles on every table, their flames soft and steady in small hurricane glass cylinders. There’s a record player spinning something old in the corner—Chet Baker or maybe Nina Simone—and everything smells like rosemary, lemon, and the faintest hint of woodsmoke.
They seat you at a two-top near the back, under a copper wall sconce. Jack pulls out your chair.
You settle in, napkin across your lap, and when you look up—he’s still watching you.
You say, half-laughing, “What?”
He shakes his head. “Nothing.”
You arch a brow.
Jack clears his throat, quiet. “Just… didn’t think I’d ever sit across from you like this.”
You tilt your head. “What did you think?”
“That you’d disappear when the work was done. That I’d keep building alone.”
You soften. “You don’t have to anymore.”
He looks away like he’s holding back too much. “I know.”
The first half of the date is easier than expected.
You talk like people who already know the shape of each other’s silences. He tells you about a med student who called him “sir” and then fainted in a trauma room. You tell him about a client who tried to expense a yacht as “emergency morale restoration.” You laugh. You eat. He lets you try his meal before you ask.
But somewhere between the second glass of wine and dessert, the air starts to shift.
Not tense. Just heavier. Like both of you know you’ve reached the part where you either step closer… or let it stay what it’s always been.
Jack leans back, arm resting on the back of the chair beside him.
He watches you carefully. “Can I ask something?”
You nod.
“Why’d you keep answering when I texted?”
You blink. “What do you mean?”
“I mean—you’re good. Smart. Whole. You didn’t need me.”
You smile. “You’re wrong.”
Jack doesn’t say anything. Just waits. You fold your hands in your lap. “I didn’t need a fixer,” you say slowly. “But I needed someone who saw the same broken thing I did. And didn’t flinch.”
His jaw flexes. His fingers tap the edge of the table. “I flinched,” he says. “At first.”
“But you stayed.”
Jack looks down. Then up again. “I’ve never been afraid of blood,” he says. “Or death. Or screaming. But I’ve always been afraid of this. Of getting used to something that could disappear.”
You exhale. “Then don’t disappear.” It’s not flirty. It’s not dramatic. It’s a promise.
His hand finds the table. Palm open.
Yours moves toward it.
You hesitate. For half a second.
Then place your hand in his.
He closes his fingers around yours like he’s done it a hundred times—but still can’t believe you’re letting him. His voice is low. “I like you.”
“I know.”
“I don’t do this. I don’t—”
“Jack.” You squeeze his hand. He stops talking. “I like you too.”
No rush. No smirk. Just this slow-burning, backlit certainty that maybe—for once—you’re allowed to be wanted in a way that doesn’t burn through you.
Jack lifts your hand. Presses his lips to the back of it—once, then again. Slower the second time.
When he lets go, it’s with a softness that feels deliberate. Like he’s giving it back to you, not letting it go.
You reach for your phone, half on autopilot. “I should call an Uber—”
“Don’t,” Jack says, low.
You pause.
He’s already pulling out his keys. “I’ll drive you home.”
You smile, small and warm.
“I figured you might.”
Saturday — 9:42 PM Your Apartment — East End, Pittsburgh
The hallway feels quieter than usual.
Maybe it’s the way the night sits heavy on your skin—thick with everything left unsaid in the car ride over. Maybe it’s the way Jack keeps glancing over at you, not nervous, not unsure, but like he’s memorizing each second for safekeeping.
You unlock the door and push it open with your shoulder.
Warm light spills out into the hallway—the glow from the lamp you left on, the one by the bookshelf. It’s yellow-gold, soft around the edges, the kind of light that doesn’t ask for anything.
Jack pauses at the threshold.
You watch him watch the room.
He notices the details: the stack of books by the bed. The houseplant you’re not sure is alive. The smell of bergamot and something citrus curling faintly from the kitchen. He doesn’t say anything about it. He just steps inside slowly, like he doesn’t want to ruin anything.
You toe off your shoes by the door. He closes it behind you, quiet as ever. You catch him glancing at your coat hook, at the little ceramic tray full of loose change and paper clips and hair ties.
“You live like someone who doesn’t leave in a rush,” he says softly.
You tilt your head. “What does that mean?”
Jack shrugs. “It means it’s warm in here.”
You don’t know what to do with that. So you smile. And then—like gravity resets—you’re both standing in your living room, closer than you meant to be, without shoes or coats or any buffer at all.
Jack shifts first. Hands in his pockets. He looks down, then up again. There’s something almost boyish in it. Almost shy. “I keep thinking,” he murmurs, “about the moment I almost asked you out and didn’t.”
You swallow. “When was that?”
He steps closer. His voice stays low. “After we wrote the first draft of the protocol. You were sitting in that awful rolling chair. Hair up. Eyes on the screen like the world depended on your next keystroke.”
You laugh, soft.
“I looked at you,” he says, “and I thought, ‘If I ask her out now, I’ll never stop wanting her.’”
Your breath catches.
“And that scared the hell out of me.”
You don’t speak. You don’t need to. Because you’re already reaching for him. And he meets you halfway. Not in a rush. Not in a pull. Just a quiet, inevitable lean.
The kiss is slow. Not hesitant—intentional. His hand finds your waist first, the other grazing your cheek. Your fingers curl into the front of his shirt, anchoring yourself.
You part your lips first. He deepens it. And it’s the kind of kiss that says: I waited. I wanted. I’m here now.
His thumb traces the side of your face like he’s still getting used to the shape of you. His mouth moves like he’s learned your rhythm already, like he’s wanted to do this since the first time you told him he was wrong and made him like it.
He breaks the kiss only to breathe. But his forehead stays pressed to yours. His voice is hoarse.
“I’m trying not to fall too fast.”
You whisper, “Why?”
Jack exhales. “Because I think I already did.”
You press your lips to his again—softer this time. Then pull back enough to look at him. His expression is unguarded. More than tired. Relieved. Like the thing he’s been carrying for years just finally set itself down. You brush your thumb across the line of his jaw.
“Then stay,” you say.
His eyes meet yours. No hesitation.
“I will.”
He follows you to the couch without asking. You curl into the corner, legs tucked beneath you. He sits beside you, arm behind your shoulders, body warm and still faintly smelling of cologne.
You rest your head on his chest.
His hand moves slowly—fingertips tracing light shapes against your spine. You think maybe he’s drawing the floor plan of a life he didn’t think he’d ever get.
Neither of you speak. And for once, Jack doesn’t need words.
Because here, in your living room, under soft lighting and quiet, and the hum of a city that never quite sleeps—you’re both still.
And neither of you is leaving.
Sunday – 6:58 AM Your Apartment – East End, Pittsburgh
It’s still early when the light begins to stretch.
Not sharp. Not the kind that yells the day awake. Just a slow, honey-soft glow bleeding in through the blinds—brushed gold along the floorboards, the edge of the nightstand, the collar of the shirt tangled around your frame.
It smells like sleep in here. Like warmth and cotton and skin. You’re not alone. You feel it before your eyes open: the quiet sound of someone else breathing. The weight of a hand resting loosely over your hip. The warmth of a body curved behind yours, chest to spine, legs tucked close like he was worried you’d get cold sometime in the night.
Jack.
Your heart gives a small, guilty flutter—not from regret. From how unreal it still feels. His arm shifts slightly. He inhales. Not quite awake, but moving toward it. You keep your eyes closed and let yourself be held.
Not because you need protection. Because being known—this fully, this gently—is rarer than safety.
The bedsheets are half-kicked off. Your shared body heat turned the room muggy around 3 a.m., but now the chill has crept back in. His nose is tucked against the crook of your neck. His stubble has left faint irritation on your skin. You could point out the way his foot rests over yours, how he must’ve hooked it there subconsciously, anchoring you in place. You could point out the weight of his hand splayed across your ribcage, not possessive—just there.
But there’s nothing to say. There’s just this. The shape of it. The way your body fits his. You shift slightly beneath his arm and feel him breathe in deeper.
Then—“You’re awake,” he murmurs, his voice sleep-rough and warm against your skin.
You nod, barely. “So are you.”
He lets out a quiet hum. The kind people make when they don’t want the moment to change. You turn in his arms slowly. He doesn’t fight it. His hand slips to your lower back as you roll, fingers still curved to hold. And then you’re facing him—cheek to pillow, inches apart.
Jack Abbot is never this soft.
He blinks the sleep out of his eyes, messy hair pushed back on one side, face creased faintly where it met the pillow. His mouth is slightly open. There’s a dent at the base of his throat where his pulse beats slow and steady, and you watch it without shame.
His eyes search yours. “I didn’t know if you’d want me here in the morning,” he says.
You reach up, touch a lock of hair near his temple. “I think I wanted you here more than I’ve wanted anything in weeks.”
That gets him. Not a smile. Something quieter. Something grateful. “I almost left at five,” he admits. “But then you turned over and said my name.”
You blink. “I don’t remember that.”
“You said it like you were still dreaming. Like you thought I might disappear if you stopped saying it.”
Your throat catches. Jack reaches up, runs a thumb under your cheekbone. “I’m not going anywhere,” he says.
You rest your forehead against his. “I know.”
Neither of you move for a while.
Eventually, he shifts slightly and kisses your jaw. Your temple. Your nose. When his lips brush yours, it’s not a kiss. Not yet. It’s just a touch. A greeting. A promise that he’ll wait for you to move first.
You do.
He kisses you slowly—like he’s checking if he can keep doing this, if it’s still allowed. You kiss him back like he’s already yours. And when it ends, it’s not because you pulled away.
It’s because he smiled against your mouth.
You shift again, stretching your limbs gently. “What time is it?”
Jack rolls slightly to glance at the clock. “Almost seven.”
You hum. “Too early for decisions.”
“What decisions?”
“Like whether I should make breakfast. Or pretend we’re too comfortable to move.”
Jack tugs you a little closer. “I vote for the second one.”
You laugh against his chest. His hand strokes up and down your spine in lazy, slow passes. Nothing rushed. Just skin and warmth and quiet.
It’s a long time before either of you try to get up. When you do, it’s because Jack insists on coffee.
You sit on the bed, cross-legged, blanket pooled around your waist while he pads around the kitchen in boxers, hair a mess, your fridge open with a squint like he’s trying to understand your milk choices.
“I have creamer,” you call.
“I saw. Why is it in a mason jar?”
“Because I dropped the original bottle and couldn’t get the lid back on.”
Jack just laughs and pours two mugs—one full, one halfway. He brings yours first. “Two sugars?”
You blink. “How did you know?”
“You stirred your coffee five times the other day. I watched the way your face changed after the second packet.”
You squint. “You remember that?”
Jack shrugs, eyes soft. “I remember you.”
You take the cup. Your fingers brush. He leans in and kisses the top of your head. The apartment smells like coffee and him. He stays all morning. You don’t notice the time pass.
But when he kisses you goodbye—long, lingering, forehead pressed to yours—you don’t ask when you’ll see him next.
Because you already know.
Friday – 12:13 AM Your Apartment — East End, Pittsburgh
You’re awake, but just barely.
Your laptop is dimmed to preserve battery, the spreadsheet on screen more muscle memory than thought. You’d told yourself you'd finish reconciling the quarterly vendor ledger before bed, but your formulas have started to blur into one long row of black-and-white static.
There’s half a glass of Pinot on your coffee table. You’re in an old sweatshirt and socks, glasses slipping down the bridge of your nose. The only light in the apartment comes from the kitchen—low, golden, humming.
It’s late, but the kind of late you’re used to. And then—three knocks at the door. Not buzzed. Not texted. Not expected.
Three solid, decisive knocks.
You sit up straight. Laptop closed. Glass down. Your feet find the floor with a soft thud as you cross the room. The locks click one by one. You look through the peephole and your heart stumbles.
Jack.
Black scrubs. Blood dried along his collar. One hand braced against your doorframe, as if he needed the structure to hold himself up.
You don’t hesitate. You open the door. He looks at you like he’s not sure he should’ve come. You step aside anyway.
“Come in.”
Jack crosses the threshold slowly, like someone walking into a church they haven’t set foot in since the funeral. He doesn’t speak. Doesn’t kiss you. Doesn’t offer a greeting. His movements are mechanical. His body’s tight.
He stands in the middle of your living room, beneath the soft spill of light from the kitchen, and doesn’t say a word.
You shut the door. Turn toward him.
“Jack.”
His eyes lift to yours. He looks wrecked. Not bleeding. Not broken. Just… done. And yet still trying to hold it all together. You take one step forward.
“I lost a kid,” he says, voice gravel-thick. “Tonight.”
You go still.
“She came in from a hit-and-run. Eleven. Trauma-coded on arrival. We got her to the OR. Her BP was gone before the second unit of blood even cleared.”
You don’t interrupt.
“She had these barrettes in her hair. Bright pink. I don’t know why I keep thinking about them. Maybe because they were the only clean thing in the whole room. Or maybe because—” he breaks off, jaw clenched.
You reach for his wrist. He lets you.
“I didn’t want to stop. Even after I knew it was gone. Her mom—” his voice cracks—“she was screaming.”
Your fingers tighten gently around his. He finally looks at you. “I shouldn’t be here.”
“Why?”
“I didn’t want to bring this to you. The blood. The mess. You work in numbers and deadlines. Spreadsheets and order. This isn’t your world.”
“You are.”
That stops him. Jack looks down.
“I didn’t know where else to go.”
You step into him fully now, arms sliding around his back. His hands hover for a moment, unsure.
Then he folds. All at once. His chin drops to your shoulder. One arm tightens around your waist, the other wraps up your back like he’s afraid you might vanish too. You feel it in his body—the way he lets go slowly, like muscle by muscle, his grief loosens its grip on his spine.
You don't rush him. You don’t ask more questions.
You just hold.
It takes him a long time to speak again.
When he does, it’s from the couch, twenty minutes later. He’s sitting with his elbows on his knees, your throw blanket around his shoulders.
You made tea without asking. You’re curled at the other end, knees drawn up, watching him with quiet presence.
“I don’t know how to be this person,” he says. “The one who can’t hold it all.”
You sip from your mug. “You don’t have to hold it alone.”
Jack lets out a sound that’s not quite a laugh. “You say that like it’s easy.”
You set the mug down. Shift closer.
“You patch up people who never say thank you. You hold their trauma in your hands. You drive home alone with someone else’s blood on your shirt. And then you pretend none of it touches you.”
He looks over at you.
“It touches you, Jack. Of course it does.”
He doesn’t respond. You reach for his hand. Laced fingers. “I don’t need you to be okay right now.”
His shoulders drop slightly. You lean into him, resting your head on his arm.
“You can fall apart here,” you say, voice low. “I know how to hold weight.”
Jack breathes in like that sentence pulled something loose in his chest. “You were working,” he says after a beat. “I shouldn’t have come.”
You look up. “I audit grants for a living. I’ll survive a late ledger.”
He smiles, barely. You move your hand to his jaw, thumb brushing the stubble there.
“I’m glad you came here.”
He leans forward, presses his forehead to yours. “Me too.”
He kisses you once—slow, still tasting like exhaustion—and when he pulls back, it feels like the world has shifted a half-inch left.
You don’t say anything else. You just get up, take his hand, and lead him down the hallway.
You fall asleep wrapped around each other.
Jack’s head pressed between your shoulder and collarbone. Your legs tangled. Your arm around his middle. And for the first time in hours, his breathing evens out. He doesn’t flinch when the siren howls down the block. He doesn’t wake from the sound of your radiator clanking.
He stays still.
Safe.
And when you wake hours later to the soft grey of morning just beginning to yawn over the windowsill—Jack is already looking at you. Eyes soft. Brow relaxed.
“You okay?” you whisper.
He nods. “I will be.”
Jack watches you like he’s learning something new. And for once—he doesn’t try to fix a single thing.
Two weeks after the hard night — Thursday, 9:26 PM Your Apartment — East End, Pittsburgh
The second episode of the sitcom has just started when you realize Jack isn’t watching anymore. You’re curled into the corner of the couch, fleece blanket over your legs, half a container of pad thai balanced precariously on your thigh. Jack’s sitting at the other end, your feet in his lap, chopsticks abandoned, one hand absently rubbing slow circles over your ankle.
His gaze is fixed—not on the TV, not on his food. On you.
You pause mid-bite. “What?”
Jack shakes his head slightly. “Nothing.”
You raise an eyebrow. He smiles. “You’re just… really good at this.”
You blink. “At what? Being horizontal?”
He shrugs. “That. Letting me in. Making room for me in your life. Turning leftovers into dinner without apologizing. Letting me keep my toothbrush here.”
You snort. “Jack, you have a drawer.”
He grins, but it fades slowly. Not gone—just quieter. “I keep waiting to feel like I don’t belong in this. And I haven’t.”
You watch him for a long beat. Then: “Is that what you’re afraid of?”
He looks down. Then back up. “I think I was afraid you’d get bored of me. That you’d realize I’m too much and not enough at the same time.”
Your heart tightens. “Jack.”
But he lifts a hand—like he needs to say it now or he won’t. “And then I came here the other week—falling apart in your doorway—and you didn’t flinch. You didn’t ask me to explain it or shape it or make it easier to hold. You just… held me.”
You set the container down. Jack shifts closer. Takes your foot in both hands now. Thumb moving over your arch, slower than before.
“I’ve spent years patching things. Working nights. Giving the best parts of me to strangers who forget my name. And you—” he exhales—“you made space without asking me to perform.”
You don’t speak. You just listen. And then he says it. Not softly. Not theatrically. Just right.
“I love you.”
You blink. Not because you’re shocked—but because of how easy it lands. How certain it feels.
Jack waits. Your mouth opens—and for a moment, nothing comes out. Then: “You know what I was thinking before you said that?”
He quirks a brow.
“I was thinking I could do this every night. Sit on this couch, eat cold noodles, watch something dumb. As long as you were here.”
Jack’s eyes flicker. You move closer. Take his face in both hands. “I love you too.” You don’t say it like a question. You say it like it’s always been true.
Jack leans in, kisses you once—sweet, grounding, slow. When he pulls back, he’s smiling, but it’s not smug. It’s soft. Like relief. Like home.
“Okay,” he says quietly.
You nod. “Okay.”
Four Months Later — Sunday, 6:21 PM Regent Square — Their First House
There are twenty-seven unopened boxes between the two of you.
You counted.
Because you’re an accountant, and that’s how your brain makes sense of chaos: it gives it a ledger, a timeline, a to-do list. Even now—sitting on the floor of a house that still smells like primer and wood polish—your eyes keep drifting toward the boxes like they owe you something.
But then Jack walks in from the porch, and the air shifts. He’s barefoot, hoodie sleeves pushed up, a bottle of sparkling water dangling from one hand. His hair’s slightly damp from the post-move-in rinse you bullied him into. And there’s something different in his face now—lighter, maybe. Looser.
“You’re staring,” he says.
“I’m mentally organizing.”
Jack drops beside you on the floor, leans his shoulder into yours. “You’re stress-auditing the spice rack.”
“It’s not an audit,” you murmur. “It’s a preliminary layout strategy.”
He grins. “Do I need to leave you alone with the cinnamon?”
You elbow him.
The room around you is full of light. Big windows. A scratched-up floor you kind of already love. The couch is still wrapped in plastic. You’re sitting on the rug you just unrolled—your knees pressed to his thigh, your coffee mug still warm in your hands. There’s a half-built bookcase in the corner. Your duffel bag’s still open in the hall.
None of it’s finished. But Jack is here. And that makes the rest feel possible. He glances around the room. “You know what we should do?”
You look at him, wary. “If you say ‘unpack the garage,’ I’m calling a truce and ordering Thai.”
“No.” He turns toward you, one arm braced across his knee. “I meant we should ruin a room.”
You blink. Then stare. Jack watches your expression shift. You set your mug down slowly. “Ruin?”
“Yeah,” he says casually, totally unaware. “Pick one. Go full chaos. Pretend we can set it up tonight. Pretend we didn’t already work full days and haul furniture and fail to assemble a bedframe because someone threw out the extra screws—”
“I did not—”
He holds up a hand, grinning. “Not important. Point is: let’s ruin one. Let it be a disaster. First night tradition.”
You pause.
Then—tentatively: “You want to… have sex in a room full of boxes?”
Jack freezes. You raise an eyebrow. “Oh my God,” he mutters.
You start laughing. Jack covers his face with both hands. “That’s not what I meant.”
“You said ruin a room.”
“I meant emotionally. Functionally.”
You’re still laughing—half from exhaustion, half from how red his ears just went.
“Jesus,” he mutters into his hands. “You’re the one with a mortgage spreadsheet color-coded by quarter and you thought I wanted to christen the house with a full-home porno?”
You bite your lip. “Well, now you’re just making it sound like a challenge.”
Jack groans and collapses backward onto the rug. You follow him. Lay down beside him, shoulder to shoulder. The ceiling above is bare. No light fixture yet. Just exposed beams and white primer. You stare at it for a long beat, side by side. He turns his head. Looks at you.
“You really thought I meant sex in every room?”
You shrug. “You said ruin. I was tired. My brain filled in the blanks.”
Jack snorts. Then rolls toward you, props himself on one elbow. “Would it be that bad if I had meant that?”
You glance at him. He’s flushed. Amused. Slightly wild-haired. You reach up and thread your fingers through the edge of his hoodie.
“I think,” you say slowly, “that it would make for a very effective unpacking incentive.”
Jack grins. “We’re negotiating with sex now?”
You shrug. “Depends.”
He kisses you once—soft and full of quiet mischief. You blink up at him. The room is suddenly still. Warm. Dimming. Gentle. Jack’s smile fades a little. Not gone—just quieter. Real.
“I know it’s just walls,” he says softly, “but it already feels like you live here more than me.”
You frown. “It’s our house.”
He nods. “Yeah. But you make it feel like home.”
Your breath catches. He doesn’t say anything else. Just leans down and kisses you again—this time longer. Slower. His hand curls against your waist. Your body moves with his instinctively. The kiss lingers.
And when he finally pulls back, forehead resting against yours, he whispers, “Okay. Let’s ruin the bedroom first.”
You smile. He stands, offers you a hand. And you follow. Not because you owe him. But because you’ve already decided:
This is the man you’ll build every room around.
One Year Later — Saturday, 11:46 PM The House — Bedroom. Dim Lamp. One Window Open. You and Him.
Jack Abbot is looking at you like he wants to burn through you.
You’re straddling his lap, bare thighs across his hips, tank top riding high, no underwear. His sweatpants are halfway down. Your bodies are flushed, panting, teeth-marks already ghosting along your collarbone. His hands are firm on your waist—not rough. Just present. Like he’s still making sure you’re real.
The window’s cracked. Night breeze slipping in against sweat-slicked skin.
The sheets are kicked to the floor.
You’d barely made it to the bedroom—half a bottle of wine, two soft laughs, one look across the kitchen, and he’d muttered something about being obsessed with you in this shirt, and that was it. His mouth was on your neck before you hit the hallway wall.
Now you're here.
Rocking slow on his cock, bodies tangled, your hand braced on his chest, the other wrapped around the back of his neck.
“Fuck,” Jack groans, barely audible. “You feel…”
“Yeah,” you whisper, forehead pressed to his. “I know.”
You’d always known.
But tonight?
Tonight, it clicks in a way that guts you both.
He’s not thrusting. He’s holding you there—deep and still—like if he moves too fast, the moment will shatter.
He kisses you like a vow.
You can feel how wrecked he is—his hands trembling a little now, his mouth hot and slow on your shoulder, his body not performing but unraveling.
And then he exhales—sharp, shaky—and says:
“I need you to marry me.”
You freeze.
Still seated on him, still connected, your breath caught mid-moan.
“Jack,” you say.
But he doesn’t stop.
Doesn’t even blink.
“I mean it.” His voice is low. Hoarse. “I was gonna wait. Make it a thing. But I’m tired of pretending like this is just… day by day.”
You open your mouth.
He lifts one hand—fumbles behind the nightstand, like he already knew he was going to crack eventually.
And pulls out a ring box.
You blink, heart pounding. “You’re kidding.”
“I’m not.”
He flips it open.
The ring is huge.
No frills. No side stones. Just a bold, clean-cut diamond—flawless, high clarity, set on a platinum band. Sleek. A little loud. But elegant as hell. The kind of thing that says, I know what I want. I’m not afraid of weight.
You blink down at it, still perched on top of him, still pulsing around him.
Jack’s voice drops—tired, exposed. “I know we won’t get married yet. I know we’re both fucking alcoholics. I know we argue over the thermostat and forget groceries and ruin bedsheets we don’t replace.”
Your throat goes tight.
“I know I leave shit everywhere and you color-code spreadsheets because it’s the only way to feel okay. I know you’re steadier than me. Smarter. Better. But I need you to be mine. Fully. Officially. Before I ruin it by waiting too long.”
You look at him—really look.
His eyes are glassy. His hair damp. His lips parted. He looks like he just survived a war and crawled out of it with the only thing that mattered.
You whisper, “You’re not ruining anything.”
He doesn’t flinch.
“Say yes.”
“Jack.”
“I’ll wait. Years, if I have to. I don’t care when. But I need the word. I need the promise.”
You lean forward.
Kiss him slow.
Then lift the ring from the box.
Slide it on yourself, right there, while he’s still inside you. It fits perfectly.
His breath stutters.
You roll your hips—just once.
“Is that a yes?” he asks.
You drag your mouth across his jaw, bite down gently, then whisper: “It’s a fuck yes.”
Jack flips you—moves so fast you gasp, but his hands never leave your skin. He spreads you beneath him like a prayer.
“You gonna come with it on?” he asks, voice wrecked, forehead to yours.
“Obviously.”
“Fucking marry me.”
“I just said yes, idiot—”
“I need to hear it again.”
“I’m gonna marry you, Jack,” you whisper.
His hips drive in deeper, and you sob against his neck. Jack curses under his breath.
You come first. Soaking. Gasping. Shaking under him. He follows seconds later—moaning your name like it’s the only language he speaks.
When he collapses on top of you, still sheathed inside, he’s breathless. Raw.
He lifts your hand. Looks at the ring.
“It’s too big.”
“It’s perfect.”
“You’re gonna hit people with it accidentally.”
“I hope so.”
Jack presses a kiss to your palm, right at the base of the band.
Then, out of nowhere—
“You’re the best thing I’ve ever done.”
You smile, blinking hard.
“You’re the best thing I ever let happen to me.” You hold up your left hand, wiggling your fingers. The diamond flashes dramatically in the low light. “I can’t wait to do our shared taxes with this ring on. Really dominate the IRS.”
Jack groans into your shoulder. “Jesus Christ.”
You laugh softly, kiss the crown of his head.
And somewhere between his chest rising against yours and the breeze cooling the sweat on your skin, you realize:
You’re not scared anymore.
You’re home.
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#I'm still waiting for the formal offer letter but let me tell you how i got this job#a hiring manager reached out to me on LinkedIn asking if I'd be interested in the team he's building#so i was like yeah I'll throw my hat in#i had an easy coding screen with him (valid palindrome lol)#then i had a screen with another manager around QA practices#then i went through four more interviews as part of a 'final loop'#one was a more difficult coding question. one was design a test framework. one was QA-behavorial#and the other was communication + collab behavorial#each of those six interviews was a 45 minute video call btw#this all took like. three months lmfao#then a week after that i heard back that they didn't want me for that role#but that one of the guys i interviewed with is a hiring manager on an adjacent team and he really liked me#when i looked back at my notes sure enough that guy is the one who ended our call with 'i hope i get to work with you!' lol#so they wanted to put me for this other slightly less technical role#and i was like yeah sure why not i liked that guy too lol#so the next day i had one final interview with a senior leader asking about my priorization and conflict resolution skills#which makes sense since this is a more cross-functional communication role with lots of talking to developers#and that guy was awesome and definitely someone I'd work for#so a few days later i got the verbal offer!#i will also add that during all of this i also went to the final stage for a different team at the same company#but was plain out rejected from that one lol#plus i did beginning screens for two other roles as well and didnt make it as far#all this to say i did like... over a dozen interviews with this company since October lol#and i studied like CRAZY. i spent hours on leetcode and hours putting together stories from my experience#i worked very very very hard and it finally fucking paid off!!!!!#back in october i said to my wife 'i want to get a job at (company). i think that will be my goal now.'#and she was like lol ok. but i kept getting interviews and studying for them#working harder than i ever did in college even lmao. and she was like oh wait you're really serious#and then she helped me sooooo much by taking care of the kids while i studied and stuff like that#but yeah i did it. i put my mind to it and i fucking did it!!!!!
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friend-of-a-cat · 7 months ago
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The Gender Crisis™ is still Gender Crisising™ but I don't have time for that right now lmao.
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luludeluluramblings · 7 months ago
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tbh I’m more intrigued by the idea of college-age Reader getting pregnant while unmarried still living in the manor and NO ONE has any idea who the father is (maybe she does, but she’s withholding that for now or maybe he’s not in the picture?) and it’s the biggest freak out ever. that just seems so fucking wild and potentially hilarious to me. and nobody noticing she’s pregnant until she’s farther along? or them finding out randomly?? imagine:
damian: you look pregnant. what is wrong with you.
reader: i am pregnant though
the batfam: ????????!!!!!!!!!! and then she proposes that now that she’s old enough and starting a new chapter in her life raising a baby and all she should just move out! (cue everyone disliked that meme)
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Neglected!Pregnant!Reader x Yandere!Bat Family
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Part Two ☁️ Part Three ☁️ Part Four ☁️
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A/N: Okay, I think I'm about to become a Pregnancy!Reader writer. Which, I'm not mad about. Kind think it would be fun, but I know the trope isn't for everyone. So, if it’s not your thing, I’m sorry.
A/N: Some of this is based off of things from my own pregnancies.
A/N: Oh, no. Frick, I wanna make this a series now. Check the bottom, cause I have a plot idea for this and I want opinions on it. I spiraled, this was supposed to be a quick blurb. I got carried away. Gonna build up to the yandere shenanigans because I’m turning into a writer with a million WIPs.
A/N: Tagging @skay-ali because I like their The Forgotten Daughter series.
Warnings: Fem!Reader, Very minor Yandere Themes (like barely there), minor NSFW, graphic descriptions of pregnancy and medical procedures, Vomiting.
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You don't really remember that night it happened. But, it only happened once and after you swore you'd never drink again. The hangover after that night had been one of the worst of your short life.
In fact, the sticky feeling between your legs and bitter taste on your tongue had also added to your decision to swear of these college parties. Luckily, you have enough of your memory to remember that you and your partner from that night had both been willing even when wasted. Even if you couldn't remember their name. Or, their face.
It takes you a while to notice. One missed cycle wasn't anything to freak out about, and it was exam season. The stress had probably caused the nausea. It wasn't until you were heading down to breakfast one morning and smelled the burnt eggs in the kitchen that Stephanie had burnt that you realized something might be wrong.
You, of course, ignore it. It was just a fluke. Burnt eggs weren't appetizing to anyone. But, then you nearly faint walking through the perfume section after looking to restock your favorite bottle of scent.
The doctor you finally went to another week later had asked about your cycle and the last time you had been intimate with someone. That's when the reality of things started to set in. You hadn't even thought to do an at home test to check. Your doctor was kind though, saying they could just do a quick urine sample and blood test just to make sure. It might be something else.
The next few minutes felt like ages. But, when the Doctor came back to tell you the positive results you panicked. Not as in panicked as in you broke down, but you threw up a mask. You're good at doing that. You must get it from your father.
When she asks you if this is good news or bad news you can't help, but blurt that it's good. Great even. Which causes her to beam at you. Before you know it, you're being handed a complementary diaper bag with formula and tiny bottles while being given the rundown on your possible due date and future appointments. You nodded you're head along with the information, sliding the paper's into the diaper bag as she hands them to you.
But, then she turns to you with delight and tells you that the Ultra Sound tech has an opening and you're just far along enough they can do your first ultrasound. It'll only be a thirty minute wait.
After nodding along once more, you go back into the waiting room. Holding your new bag with white knuckles and falling into deep thought.
This is happening. But, how? Are you even fit to be a parent? You've hardly ever been loved. How are you going to love someone else? How are you going to do this? What will the family think? What will your few friends think? You don't even remember who their father is. This is impossible. You're not ready. You'll never be ready. That churning feeling is in your stomach again and you feel that single piece of toast you had for breakfast about to come back up.
The thirty minutes fly by with those thoughts in your head. They still swirl in your head as your go back into the ultrasound room.
It's dark, but the tech had few soft lights on in the room. Its actually kind of... cozy.
What's not cozy it the tech telling you that she's going to stick a wand up your bits so you could see the baby. Your eyes screwing shut at the cold invasive feeling.
But, when you open them, she turns the screen for you to see. It's almost amazing how fast the image appears on the screen.
And, their moving. Actually moving. You end up laughing at the sight, causing the screen to flicker and the little blob to move. When the nurse plays the heart beat you can feel yours stuttering in your chest.
Watching them bounce in there with each laugh, it’s easy for the next words to spill out of your mouth.
“Oh, I’m gonna love you.”
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Every step after that feels remarkably less lonely. It’s not just you anymore. You have someone who you’re going to love.
You don’t bother telling the Family. Bruce would just lecture you on being reckless while the other’s would judge you for it.
Honestly, you don’t care if they did. This is your baby.
Funnily enough, for a house full of detectives and highly intelligent vigilantes no one actually notices. Not even Cassandra. It’s a bit insulting how much they don’t pay attention. But, your symptoms soon make it so you don’t care.
The waves of exhaustion, the way everything smells strong and certain things make you want to gag. Heartburn that burns your throat. The subtle cravings that make you cry when you can’t fulfill them. Thankfully you finished your exams because you were too tired to even move from your bed most mornings due to strange nightmares.
Eventually, someone does notice. And, it’s not anyone you would expect.
Of all things you cried over on the pantry floor, it had to be salt and vinegar chips. They hadn’t been what you wanted, but it was too late to go get french fries and a smoothie at this hour in Gotham. And, you stuffed them down your throat with angry tears.
It was Stephanie of all people to find you. You gave her a sharp glare when she seemed to grow wide eyed. Normally you avoid her gaze, but you were quite pissed about having chips in your mouth and not fries. As her eyes grew wider, your nose wrinkled in further annoyance at her.
Just as you’re about to tell her off, she speaks.
“Do you— um, want something else?”
It’s pitiful how fast your snarl turns into a pleading pout.
“Yes, please. I want fries. I want Jokerized fries so badly.” You practically blubber when she gives you a pointed nod towards the car garage.
It takes you a bit to get off the floor despite the fact that your bump is hardly noticeable, but Stephanie noticed the extremely subtle curve.
“How far?” She asks hesitantly, looking from the bump to your face.
You also hesitant for a moment, looking up at her with tears on your cheeks and a serious look in your eyes. “14 Weeks.”
Her eyebrows raise and a wiry pout appears on her face. “Damn. You’re smaller than I was at that time, so not fair.”
The slightly surprised that information gives you almost makes you pause. But, if you had you would’ve probably toppled back down to the pantry floor.
“Explain on the way?” You ask, still a bit nervous. The two of you had never been close since you moved into the manor less than a handful of years back.
“Sure.” She grins, leading the way.
As you both walk, she whispers. “Does Bruce know?”
“Don’t know. Don’t care.”
“Ah.” Stephanie managed to hide the winces from you.
When you two finally make into the car, you’re already feeling better about life. You’re about to have your fries, and possibly a shake too. You didn’t expect to have any company, but surprisingly it’s nice.
Stephanie drives, and get the fries to go. Munching on them as Stephanie drives you back to the manor. Her sharing her own pregnancy experience.
"Wait, so Tim dated you when you were pregnant with another dudes kid? Babe, forget being me being small, you got game."
"Damn right I do." She says smugly, stuffing her own fries in her mouth. "So, um, do you wanna talk about what happened with you?"
And, just like that your mood shifts.
"No."
"Oh- Oh! I'm sorr-" She starts up, and you can tell she's assuming the worst.
"Don't you start, Stephanie." You interrupt with a pointed glare. "I don't want to talk about it because it's none of y'all's business."
That makes her cough on her french fry. "Wait, wait, what do you mean? Don't you want help?"
"Nah, I got it." Comes your stubborn reply, glaring out the window as you dip your fry into the cheesecake milkshake.
"... You should tell Bruce." She suggest after a moment of awkward silence.
"What? So he can ignore his grandchild, too?" Your filter is none existent with your hormones all out of wack.
"He doesn't ignore you-"
"Oh, yes the fuck he does." Your firmly state. Growing a bit heated. "Y'all all figgin do."
Stephanie is about to roll her eyes, chalking your words to you just being unreasonable. But, then the thought starts to creep upon her with each passing building when she realizes this is the first time she's actually hung out with you. Ever.
"I'm sorry." She murmurs to you. The silence falling over you both as the cars continues back to the manor.
"... I'm only forgiving you because you bought my fries..."
"Really?! That's all I had to do?"
"What? I was desperate for this- Wait! Hang on. Stop the car. Stop the car-"
"What? Why?! Are you- OH! Fuck!"
You ended up regurgitating up all the fries you had just eaten. Right into your lap.
"Oooo, that's nasty." Stephanie says, cracking the windows.
"Is it bad that I still want to eat them?" You mumble to her, eyeing the remaining fries.
"Please, please, wait till we get back or I'm gonna hurl, too."
"Fine." Comes your reply. Your eyes drifting shut for a moment. "If you tell anyone I'm gonna tell Cassandra about your crush on her."
"How did you- Frick, you are more like Bruce then I realize." Her voice going from panic to begrudging realization.
"Now, that's offenseive."
"Oh, come on. You're kids gonna have some of Bruce's DNA too."
"Eww. Eww. Don't remind me."
The banter between you both coming back with ease.
When you make it back to the manor, parting ways for the night. You feel at ease. You may have made have finally made a new friend in all this and gained a pillar of support.
As you shower and finish off your fries, you can't help but think about the apartments you had been looking at. Wondering what Stephanie will thinking of your nursery ideas.
Down in the cave, Stephanie slowly walks down the steps. Realizing this might have just gotten complicated.
"You okay, Steph?”
“Yeah. Yeah, I’m okay.”
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A/N: Soooooo, what if, and hear me out, wee add some baby daddy drama to this?
A/N: Please note, I write a Reader that DID NOT grow up with the Bat Family, which means we could have some really really juicy drama here. But, we could just keep the options limited to just close friends of the Bat family.
A/N: What do y'all think? Baby Daddy drama? One of the Bat Boys the Daddy? One of the other vigilantes? Should I do a Baby Daddy poll? I just feel like this is an opportunity.
A/N: Also, Stephanie was a teen mom in some comics from my research. Which I think adds to this and gives her a better chance of bonding with Reader until shit goes down.
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motomamita · 2 months ago
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Could we get some König with a SERIOUS breeding kink? Like- it’s all that’s on his mind with the reader- I love your work sm
bf!könig × female!reader
warnings: +18, smut, breeding kink!
from a very young age, könig knew he wanted to be a father. he loved the idea of ​​having a family, a wife and son to take care of.
his relationships throughout his life didn't last long because as soon as könig found out his partner didn't want children, he ended the relationship. he didn't want to waste his time with someone who didn't share his desire.
until you came along. the perfect girl to bear his heirs and with whom to build his precious family. the children loved you, and you had a natural gift for caring for them.
every time you and könig went to the park, the children would crowd around you, asking you to play with them or asking a thousand questions about how you and könig met. könig simply watched you, imagining you playing with his children.
so, könig began planning and doing everything possible to get you pregnant as soon as possible. he would take you shopping at the mall, and the two of you would discreetly end up in the baby clothing section, where he would show you the tiny clothes and tell you how nice it would be to be able to dress his children like that.
or when one afternoon he started telling you about all the negative effects that contraceptives had on your body.
"don't you think it's better to stop taking it? i think having a baby isn't as harmful as the effects of those pills, right?"
könig became so insistent that you decided to stop taking the pill, under the promise that he would always use a condom.
in his spare time, könig would read online about the best positions for getting pregnant and which month of the year was best to avoid experiencing pregnancy symptoms. he would spend hours watching videos of new parents, their advice and experiences, imagining himself in that situation with you.
the key moment was when he took you to meet his family for christmas. all the women in his family accepted you as one of their own, making könig feel even more confident that you were the woman of his life. especially when his grandmother approached him and whispered:
"she's perfect, when will you give me a great-grandchild?"
a week later, könig had already bought a house for the two of them to live together. strategically chosen in a private area with a kindergarten just a few blocks away. that night I'll fuck you on the new mattress.
"your pussy is squeezing me so good. you really want my cum, huh?"
you bounced on his fat cock while your breasts bounced on his face. könig gripped your hips, helping you keep the rhythm and groping his skin possessively.
your clit thumped against his belly button, drawing eager moans from your mouth and encouraging you to keep bouncing. both of your juices trickled down könig's cock to his balls, making the most pornographic sound.
"let's start our little family, i'm going to give you my cum and you're going to give me the most beautiful children."
you tried to form words, but they wouldn't come out. könig wrapped his arms around your waist, pulling you toward him and thrusting into you hard. you lay back against his chest and let könig fuck you until he finished inside you.
"take it, baby. good girl, good job, mama."
the weeks passed, and könig took advantage of every moment to fuck you and fill you with his semen. it wasn't long before your period missed and you were forced to take a test.
positive.
by then, könig already had a long list of baby names.
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wow-thisismylifeiguess · 5 months ago
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AU where Bruce isn’t Batman and the ‘Brucie’ persona is mostly real, but he’s also not an idiot and well aware that his kids are vigilantes
Bruce, “I just wish Dickie chose a better costume than that. I mean, look at him! He’s like a traffic light.”
Alfred, “I believe it’s a similar outfit to one his mother designed for him when he was younger.”
Bruce, “….nevermind, I take it back. He’s my beautiful baby boy and his outfit choices are definitely not atrocious.”
Bruce, “Jay…mind explaining the bruises on your wrists?”
Jason, “Oh…yunno how it is.”
Bruce, stares
Bruce, “If your partner is hurting you-”
Jason, “NO, it’s nothing like that! I promise, it was….consensual?”
Bruce, “Is that a question or statement, kiddo?”
Jason, “Statement.”
Jason, later, grumbling to Dick, “Sometimes I feel like he’s onto us…”
Dick, “No way. We cover our tracks super well. You just need to come up with better excuses for your bruises. I mean, BDSM? You?”
Bruce, upstairs, listening through a bug he planted, “Dumbasses.”
Bruce, “Why is the Drake child in my home?”
Jason, “He’s a friend.”
Dick, “I think you’re choking him a little, B.”
Bruce, who has Tim in a bear hug, “Am I choking you, buddy?”
Tim, muffled, “Not at all.”
Bruce, “TALIA! YOU’RE HERE! Why are you here.”
Damian, “Why am I here?”
Talia, “We have a son. Here. Take care of him.”
Damian, “I will not stay w a man like…like him.”
Bruce, “What’s that supposed to mean?”
Damian, “You’re pathetically human and weak. I have nothing to learn here, Mother.”
Talia, “He’s beaten me before.”
Damian, “What?”
Dick, “What?”
Jason, “What?”
Bruce, smiling dreamily, “Such good memories.”
The kids find out he knew everything from the start when Dick has to pick up a drunk Bruce from a party. They arrive back at the Manor and Bruce won’t stop clinging to Dick.
Bruce, “Noooooooo! Don’t leave me! Don’t put on that ugly costume!”
Dick, “W-what?”
Bruce, sniffles, “It’s better than the Robin one, but come on, chum. You can do so much better than that.”
Dick, “You…know?”
Bruce, still crying, “Of course I knew! Good at covering your tracks my ass!”
Dick, “Do you know everything?”
Bruce, wiping his face because his vision is blurring and there’s two Dicks standing in front of him. Fuck, he’s dizzy, “Jason’s outfit is better. Tim’s is atrocious. But at least you gave Dami pants.”
Dick, “BRUCE!?”
Bruce, “Nooooo, don’t yell. My head hurts.”
Sitting in what Bruce has decided to call the Bat Cave because, helloooo, the bats?
Dick, "How long have you known?"
Bruce, "Oh, you know."
Jason, "From the beginning???"
Bruce, "I'm not stupid. Alfred, why does everyone think I'm stupid? My own kids think I'm stupid."
Tim, "Mr Wayne-"
Bruce, stares at him
Tim, "....Bruce. We don't think you're stupid. We just thought we were being...sneaky."
Damian, "Hmph. All of you lack training in stealth. Unlike me."
Bruce, "Dickie, how am I supposed to not know when I adopted a child acrobat and 'oh, look! a pint sized vigilante who can do flips off of buildings!'"
Jason, snorts, "Pint sized."
Bruce, "Jaylad, you started using guns a week after I signed you up for a firearms class."
Tim, tries very hard to hide a laugh
Bruce, "Timmy, your bedroom is covered in pictures of Gotham you'd only get from being on top of buildings."
Damian, scoffs
Bruce, "Dami, you trained as an assassin. Of fucking course you're a vigilante."
The kids, "....fuck. We suck at this."
Bruce, waves his hands in the air, "Don't worry about it. You're all bad at covering for yourselves, but me and Alfred handled it. Anyone who might've even got an inkling of who you might be have been...dealt with."
Jason, "Did you kill them?!"
Bruce, "What? No. Of course not. Right, Alfie?"
Alfred, "....of course not."
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cinnawonbabe · 3 months ago
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ATTENTION, PLEASE! (1)
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pairings: professor!heeseung x student fem!reader
warnings: teacher x student relationship, forbidden affairs, smut, oral, both receiving, anal play, praise and spankings, legal age gap
overview: y/n was just like any other college girl, crushing on the young and attractive literature professor at the university she attended. one day she’s asked to come back after class and things get a little steamy. who knew being a teacher’s pet was fun?
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it was the first day back from spring break and to say y/n was excited was an understatement. she was overjoyed to see her friends again. while she was getting ready for her first class of the day, literature, and finishing the last touches to her makeup, her friend winter called. y/n answered, putting the phone on speaker so she could multitask talking and finishing getting herself ready.
"girl where are you? class is about to start," winter whisper-yelled through the phone. y/n checked the time, seeing that she was in fact behind schedule.
"fuck, i'm gonna be late," she said, rushing to put her shoes on. after making sure her uniform was neat, she grabbed her bag and phone before running out the door.
"and who are you trying to look cute for?" winter joked with a laugh upon y/n switching the call over to a facetime.
"no one. i just felt the need to dress up today. is the professor there?" she answered while speed walking over to the building her class was held in.
"no. they haven't arrived yet, so you're lucky for once," winter said with a laugh. "hurry though, i saved you a spot," she added and y/n hummed in response as she approached the building.
she made her way inside, picking up her pace so she wouldn't be that late, but ultimately made it to class.
"fucking finally. you're here," winter laughed, taking her bag off the seat next to her for y/n to sit in. "still no professor?" y/n asked and winter shrugged not knowing herself.
you know, after 15 minutes, if a teacher hasn't arrived to class after the set time has passed, class is canceled?" one male student in the back stated.
y/n turned back to see it was one of the football players. most students got to talking with excitement as it was getting close to that 15 minute mark while others were upset that they didn't get to see the professor today, y/n was one of the students who was pretty bummed out.
just when some students were packing up their supplies, the classroom door opened up.
professor lee heeseung rushed in class. "sorry for the wait guys. i was in an important staff meeting about the fair we're having for the homecoming events next week and we kind of got carried away." he said in between breaths.
he took off his blazer and set it down on the podium that was situated in the front of the room. he rolled up his sleeves. "anyone else feeling a bit hot or is that just me?" he asked, chuckling to himself.
all the girls, including y/n, couldn't help but stare at him. watching him intently.
he has to know what he's doing. he just knows how attractive he is. y/n thought to herself.
"no it's hot in here sir. me and my friends think the air conditioning unit has stopped working." one female student stated.
heeseung nodded his head in acknowledgement, "oh i see. i'll have to make a complaint about that later. let me write that down so i don't forget." he said walking over to his desk situated in the corner of the room.
he pulled out a sticky notepad from one of his drawers and grabbed a pen from the cuphold on the desk and scribbled a mental note to himself there.
"okay, considering i was way behind my schedule. i'm going to give you all a break and just let you either stay here to make up work or you can just leave. it's completely up to you all." heeseung said, looking around the classroom after he placed the notepad back on his desk.
most students didn't hesitate to collect their things and bid heeseung goodbye or thank him for his kindness.
of course he smiled and bid those goodbye before turning his attention back to the few students that did decide to stay. which consisted of a two male students, one being a literature major and the other that just so happened to be asleep and the rest we girls that just wanted an excuse to stare at the professor.
"assuming that you all are here for help and to catch up on work so feel free to ask me any questions, okay?" he said once more before heading back to his desk.
y/n watched his backside as he headed to his desk and wondered what his back muscles looked like under his dress shirt. once he sat down he looked back towards the class, catching y/n stare. she imma looked down in embarrassment and busied herself with her studies, not catching the little smirk that made his way on his face.
y/n felt movement beside her and looked over to see her seatmate fixing herself up before calling out to the professor. "professor lee? i need help on one of the older assignments you gave. can you give me a but of assistance with it?" y/n heard her ask.
he nodded and signaled for her to come to his desk and so she did. getting up from her seat, swaying her hips purposely in the process.
she bent over his desk, showing her cleavage to him as she placed her paper down for 'help'.
that's usually how things goes. most girls go out there way to get his attention but from all the things y/n has seen, it doesn't seem to work. he wasn't phased by it and just gave her the help she needed before he sent her back to her seat.
another girl failed. y/n of course hasn't. in fact, she never tried to because she was too scared and too shy to even hold a conversation or even ask him for help but that never stopped him from trying to talk to her.
he had taken an interest in calling on her sometimes for questions she never volunteers herself from.
usually that would end up with her stuttering to answer it or having her frozen from being put on the spot.
after a while of sitting in a somewhat silent classroom, heeseung cleared his throat, gaining everyone's attention. "attention everyone class is just about over and my next class will be here soon." he stated, looking at his wristwatch.
everyone packed up their things and headed out of the class. y/n was just about to leave before she was stopped by heeseung's voice suddenly calling out to her.
y/n stopped where she was near the classroom door, turning to him as he sat at his desk. "yes, professor lee?" she asked. he motioned for her to come to him, waving his hand in a signaling gesture. she was hesitant at first, she wasn't sure if she should or not. she swallowed her own pride and made her way over to him.
"so i wanted to talk to you to see if you'd like to help me later with gathering things for the art and theatre club. they'll be doing most of the creative work and i promised the directors that i'll head to the storage area in the left wing and get the supplies they needed. i can't do it myself, so would you like to help a poor old man like me?" he asked with pleading eyes.
y/n was a bit speechless as to why he chose her out of all people. he wants me to help him? she thought to herself. there was no way out of all the girls in this class, he chose her. she stood there unresponsive for a bit, lost in her own thoughts. it began to worry him a little bit from her sudden quietness. "it's okay if you don't want to i can always just ask-" he couldn't finish his sentence as y/n interrupted him with a slightly raised voice. "no!"
she realized the tone and volume of her voice and felt hot from the embarrassment. she didn’t notice the change in his demeanor, a slight smirk appearing on his face knowing his plan was working.
"uhm i meant no it's okay professor lee, i can help you. i don't mind at all!" she stated a bit too eagerly.
she mentally cursed at herself because of it but nonetheless, heeseung didn't seem to mind. "great!! just meet me back here around 7pm, okay?" he smiled softly, causing y/n’s heart to flutter. he definitely knows the effect he has on her.
she nodded her head in agreement before flashing him a small smile in return. “yes sir,” she retorted before walking out the classroom door. she was lost in her thoughts once again, geeking over the fact that he wanted alone time with her. this was truly a dream come true.
her thoughts soon interrupted by her best friend winter spooking her, “hey!” winter yelled a little bit as she approached her. y/n grabbed her chest as she calmed herself down. “my bad, didn’t mean to scare you,” winter joked before bursting out into a fit of giggles, earning a slap on the arm from her friend. “that’s not funny win,” y/n stated, rolling her eyes playfully as she walked off with winter following close behind her. “so what was that all about?” she asked, jumping in her face as she interrogated her. y/n gently pushed her back, smiling wide as the scene replayed in her mind. even though it just happened moments prior to this conversation, she couldn’t help but reminisce about how he chose her. winter nudged her, bringing her back to reality. “soooo are you going to tell me why hot stuff over there held you back?” she questioned again but y/n only giggled in response, causing her bestie to groan at in annoyance. “its nothing really, he just wants me to help him with something for theatre class and i told him i would,” she replied honestly.
winter stared at her intensely, looking for any glimmer of doubt. she was trying to see if she was lying to her or not. y/n stared back at her clueless as to why her best friend was seemingly trying to intimidate her for some reason. is she jealous? she thought. ultimately, winter shrugged it off. i guess she was being truthful. “well good luck and make sure you use a condom, i’m not ready to be an auntie just yet,” she laughed, nudging her friend. y/n’s eyes widened upon hearing those words leave her mouth. before she could smack her friend, winter took off running, satisfied with the reaction she got from her bestie. y/n followed shortly behind, yelling out threats to her friend as she did so.
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time seemed to have moved on so fast. it was already 7pm and y/n was making her way back to professor heeseung’s classroom. i hope this doesn’t look suspicious. she was having second thoughts. maybe this was a bad idea. she didn’t want to get caught up in something that wasn’t true, even though she wished it was. she didn’t want people to think she was having a secret affair with her teacher, but then again she didn’t actually mind it at all. she longed for him to caress her ever so gently. she wanted to feel his lips against her own but who didn’t? every girl on campus wanted a piece of him but can you blame them? he’s in his late twenties teaching hormonal nineteen and twenty year olds. a lot of his students were fresh out of highschool so seeing a young professor was like winning the lottery.
eventually she made it towards his classroom door, peering inside. it was dark and the only form of light was coming from the hallway where she stood. she scanned the room as best as she could but there was no sign of him. maybe he had forgotten. as she was about to walk away she ran face first into something or someone. she looked up and was face to face with heeseung himself. oh god. she thought. a light blush painted her face as she realized how close they were so she took a few steps back. “sorry, i should’ve been paying more attention to where i was going,” she apologized, her eyes averting her vision everywhere but his.
the view was astonishing to him. their slight height difference boosted his ego. it empowered him. he knew exactly what he what he was doing. y/n was timid and kept to herself. she wasn’t like the other girls he taught.
everyday a female student would force themselves onto him any chance he got. he was used to all the attention he gotten. he may not have shown it but he did enjoy it. so it was weird that y/n never seemed to try. he knew she found him attractive but she never seem to give him the time of day. so he started making moves. calling on her during class even though she never raised her hand, taking initiative to talk to her after class whenever he could because he knew it made her heart race. the innocence she portrayed had drawn her in. it was something he had to obtain, more so, alter it. he wanted her to be his, to hold, to control. that’s exactly how they ended up here. he falsified the ‘i need help’ teacher act. he knew she would fall for it. she was oblivious to it all.
he stared at her for a moment before he spoke, “it’s okay, i was just heading in,” he stated before moving passed her and towards the door. he unlocked it and entered the room, holding the door open for her. “are you joining me still?” he asked tenderly, his voice soft and sweet. it made her heart skip a beat. he was pure gold to her. a soft hearted, well-mannered, absolutely beautiful, educated and elegant man was spending alone time with her. she was head over heels for him.
she hummed in response and followed in right behind him. upon entering he closed the door, discreetly locking it without her noticing and flicked on the lights. “i hope you don’t mind, i have to gather up a few paperwork before we head that way, is that fine?” he asked, making his way towards his desk. he sat down, picking up groups of scattered papers that sat disorganized on his desk. he neated placed them into piles before putting them in his briefcase that he brought with him. y/n walked closer, gazing over at him. she watched
him quietly, fiddling with her fingers as she did so. she couldn’t help but think about what winter said earlier. imagining her professor fucking her on this desk right now.
images of him pounding into her core flushed her mind, making her core leak from the slight horniness that had taken over her. she was so lost in thought she couldn’t hear heeseung calling out to her. he then cleared his throat, finally gaining her attention. she looked up at him, face flustered. she looked absolutely stunning to him; no, beautiful actually. he wanted to ruin her. “you’re one of my best students?” he asked, getting up from his seat and walked over to the front of his desk where he leaned up against it.
she was dumbfounded, “i am?” she asked innocently, her brows furrowed slightly in confusion. heeseung found it adorable, she really didn’t have a clue in the world. “precisely. you’ve never been the type to throw yourself at me. that’s what i like about you,” he continued, making her all flustered again. he truly was enjoying this moment right now. “i’m just not the kind of girl. you’re my teacher not a love interest,” she said truthfully, but he didn’t like that response. he knew better than that and so did she. they both wanted each other more than anything right now.
he began to loosen his tie, then slowly unbuttoned his dress shirt. “is that really how you feel?” he asked, finally pulling his shirt open, revealing his toned abdomen. she stared in awe as she watched him strip in front of her. his shirt sliding off his shoulder and falling to the ground. her eyes trailed down his figure. he was a sight to see that’s for sure. she noticed a tent forming in his pants and she audibly gasped unintentionally. a smirk appeared on his lips. gotcha. he thought.
she didn’t know how to react in this very moment. what was she supposed to do? her very attractive literature teacher was standing shirtless in front of her. that’s every girl on campus dream and yet here she was living it.
“i-i don’t know if this is appropriate professor,” she stuttered, averting her gaze towards the floor. she stared at her sneakers until another pair of shoes came into view. she froze. too scared to look up now knowing how close he was to her. he took his hand and gently tilted her head upward so they were facing each other. she gulped, now meeting eyes with a different side of her professor. and truth be told, she was enjoying every second of it. “i want you more than anything right now,” he said, disregarding her previous statement of whether this was appropriate between the two. he didn’t care. nine years wasn’t that big of an age gap for him. she was nineteen and he was twenty- eight years old. how bad could this be?
he looked her in her eyes, searching for any sign he needed to know what his next move was. there it was, like a flicker. he smiled mischievously, pondering his next move but was surprised by her crashing her lips onto his.
she kissed him hungrily. she couldn’t hold it any longer. she needed him right now.
heeseung snaked his arm around her, grabbing her thighs to signal her to jump. she did, jumping into his embrace and wrapping her legs around his waist as their lips danced in one another.
he carried her to his desking, next faltering this kiss. he sat her on the edge, slipping his tongue in her mouth and explore every crevice of it. she moaned into the kiss, sucking on his tongue as he fiddled with the hem of her shirt. he broke the kiss, pulling her shirt over her head, taking it off and tossing it on the floor.
y/n took that time to catch her breath before he smashed his lips back on to hers. she grabbed his belt loosening it up but before she could pull them down he stopped her, grabbing ahold of her hands, “not so fast baby, lets take it slow.”
she whined, disappointed and desperate. he laughed, placing a small and shirt kiss on her lips. he unclipped her bra, sliding it off her. her breasts we plumped and perky. just how he liked them. he attached his mouth to one breast, sucking and swirling his tongue around her nipple. she bit back a few moans that threatened to slip out. she felt elastic. she knew what they were doing was so wrong but it felt so right. the adrenaline rush she got from this turned her on more. at any given moment they could be caught by anyone, a dean, a security guard, or a fellow student passing by.
she didn’t care at all, it thrilled her actually. fueling her desires even more. she watched and he alternated between each of her breast, leaving love bites all over her chest before proceeding to kiss down to the hem of her skirt, he didn’t care to take those off, he wanted to fuck her in her cute little uniform skirt so he pushed them up to get a better view of her leaking core.
a small chuckle left his lips upon seeing how soaked her panties were just from them kissing. she felt a little embarrassed hearing him laugh and tried to shut her legs but he stopped her from doing so. “don’t hide baby, she’s beautiful. let’s she was she looks like without these in the way,” he reassured her, sliding her pantines to the side to get a better look and her dripping core.
her little cunt made him go crazy. he looked up at her as he licked between her flaps. the warmth of his tongue sent shivers down her spine. he placed small kisses on her clit, edging her on. he wanted to tease her and have her begging for more.
y/n was too impatient and grabbed a fistful of his hair, shoving his face into her leaky cunt, heeseung obliged, giving her what she wanted. he began to eat her out, sucking on her clit and flicking his tongue in a way that made her toes curl. soft moans escape her mouth but she didn’t care. everything felt so good right now. place her legs above his shoulders and started to slowly grind against his face. the pleasure building up as she felt ecstatic. she threw her head back, moaning loudly as she continued to hump his face. he watched her as she got closer to her climax, he took two of his digits and plunged them deep into her pretty little cunt.
a loud gasp was heard from her, feeling his fingers deep inside him. he thrusted them faster, curling them as he hit her sweet spot, earning beautiful moans from y/n. he absolutely loved it. he was marking what was rightfully his. he continued his pace as she grew closer to her climax. he sucked a little harder on her clit, humming, sending vibrations to her core. a familiar pit grew in her stomach.
she was close, so so close and couldn’t contain it any longer. she screamed, forgetting where she was for a moment. her back arching as she squirted into his mouth, causing him to choke a little bit as her juices hit the back of his throat. she rode out her orgasm and she grinded on his face more before falling back onto his desk breathless.
heeseung stood up, dropping his pants to the floor as he looked down at her tired little figure laying on his desk. “we’re not finished yet, angel,” he said, stroking his long and thick member in his hand. she looked up, her eyes widened. there was no way in hell that was going to fit in her. “can daddy have some head baby?” he asked softly and she nodded, getting off his desk and kneeling before him. he cooed, watching her doe eyes stare up at him. he was loving this view of her better. she parted her lips slightly as he began to slap his cock against her face.
“open your mouth wide baby,” he instructed and she obliged, parting her lips more as s
he slid his cock right in. his breath hitched in his throat. the warmth of her mouth engulfing his seven inches did something to him. he let her take control, watching her bob her head on his thickness, taking every inch and girth of his cock. “yes baby. just like that. you’re doing so good for me,” he praised, encouraging her more. she forced herself to deep throat him, gagging as she did. he grunted at the feeling of her throat hugging his member, her gagging made the feeling even better.
her eyes started to brim with tears as his cock hit the back of her throat, drool dripping down her chin.
she took her hand and stroked him while sucking him off. this pleasure alone could’ve made him cum but he was determined to last. he grabbed her by her hair, pulling her off him to keeping him for cumming then and there. she winced from the harsh grip but didn’t stop it. she liked how rough he was getting. it turned her on even more.
he bent down crashing his lips onto hers. he didn’t care that she just had his cock in his mouth, he was a real man like that. kissing her hard and tasting himself on her before he pulled back. “open your fucking mouth!” he exclaimed, and she did without hesitation. he spit in her mouth and she swallowed it so effortlessly. “you like that my nasty little slut?” he asked and she whined in response.
he slipped his cock back into her mouth, fucking her throat hard, she choked out a cry around his member. he didn’t care. he kept fucking her mouth hard and deep, moaning loudly. “fuck just like that baby,” he said once more. he felt his climax coming soon so he pulled right back out. “bend over my desk,” he ordered. she got up slowly, her legs wobbling a bit. he couldn’t help but laugh, “don’t laugh,” she pouted and he cooed at her, he helped her lay her stomach flat onto his desk, her bottom side completely exposed.
he bit his lip at the sight in front of him, rubbing his hands against her firmly plumped ass cheeks. he needed to mark them. he took his big hand and smack down on her ass hard, causing a scream of pain and pleasure from y/n. this was all so new to her. she never knew she’d like being treat like a fuck toy by her hot professor. he brought a side of her she didn’t know she possessed. he lashed at her ass a few times, the classroom echoing from skin slapping and cries coming from y/n. who knew being a teacher's pet could be so fun.
handprints now decorated her ass and he was more that pleased to know that it was because of him. only he could have her like this.
he positioned himself at the entrance of her core, “spread for me baby,” he told her softly. she reached back, grabbing her ass cheeks and spread them open; giving him more access to come right on in. he spat between her crack, using his dick to wipe it down towards her cunt before sliding the tip in. they both moaned out in pleasure upon contact.
she felt every bit of his cock slide into her tight little cunt before he bellowed out. his whole member filled her to the brim. he sat there for a moment, letting her adjust to his size before he began to move. slowly thrusting in and out of her, he pace precise and steady.
the desk began to squeak against the floor as he thrusted harder than before, yelps of pleasure falling from her lips. he was digging into her guts. it felt like his tip was touching the inside of her stomach. her moans encouraging him to go harder. he dugges his cock deeper into her, her ass clapping against his skin. the room filled with the sounds of them fucking. he hoped they wouldn’t get caught but parts of him did. he wanted people to see the whore he was making out of her. he wanted people to know who she belonged to. he felt her wet cunt hug his girth, bringing both of them to their high, he fucked her harder, sliding his thumb in her ass. she screamed once more from the unexpected intrusion. fuck. he thought.
the pleasure was becoming too much for her, she couldn’t handle it any longer. both her holes were filled, a sensation she never knew she needed. “fuck baby i’m gonna cum,” he said and she could only moan out incoherent nonsense in response. that drove him nuts. he picked up his pace, fucking her to her climax. she cried out loud as the pleasure was unbearable and came hard once again.
this drove heeseung to his climax as well, cumming deep and hard into her. they hadn’t worn a condom. his cum filling her deep and oozing out with every little thrust he gave before him finally pulled out. he placed a kiss on her back before watching his thick load spill right out of her cunt. he didn’t care that they didn’t play it safe. to be honest, baby didn’t sound that bad to him. she was stuck with him regardless.
he reached over to the tissue box on his desk and began to clean her up and help her get dressed before dressing himself. she sat back up on his desk, her makeup ruined from all the sweat and tears she indured with getting her brains fuck out.
“you’re mine princess, got it?” he stated, pulling her close. she tiredly hummed in response, too warn out to say a word. a small smile formed on both of their faces before they snuck back out and went their separate ways.
the next day rolled around and y/n was heading to class where she met up with winter. “so how was it?” winter asked, and y/n furrowed her brows. “how was what?” she asked and winter laughed.
“how was it when you sucked his dick?” she joked, causing y/n to freeze. how did she know? did someone see us? she thought. winter nudged her friend. “i’m just joking god. i know nothing happened. you don’t have it in you to do something of that nature,” winter assured her, causing her to relax again. she didn’t know after all. y/n laughed, “i don’t think i could ever do anything like that,” she lied.
their conversation was cut short upon professor heeseung entering the class room. “good morning everyone!” he greeted, and most of them greeted back. him and y/n locked eyes momentarily, causing her to blush and look away before he began today’s lesson.
winter grew a little suspicious of that little encounter but said nothing.
if only she knew what was to come in the near future.
THE END!!
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vauer · 6 months ago
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𝐀 𝐍𝐞𝐰 𝐁𝐞𝐠𝐢𝐧𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠
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Reader x Jinx
SUMMARY: you are a thief who steals from people who are passing through your town. this time you came across the wrong person. that didn't stop you from fucking her though.
CW: sub!Jinx, fem!reader, cunnilingus, fingering, squirting, some kind of plot(?), fastburn
(English isn't my first language, sorry for any mistakes💌)
men and minors dni.
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Jinx moaned softly as she kissed her new friend's thin lips. The edge of the countertop rests uncomfortably against her lower back, forcing her to arch her back and make a dissatisfied mumble, only to hear a quiet chuckle in response. She couldn't believe how quickly this girl had managed to win her over.
A couple of weeks ago, a strange woman came into her small workshop. You were pretty and looked to be no more than twenty, but your piercing gaze was too intently and sharply jumping over various details of the interior, studying the situation. And you were wearing some ugly kind of wig.
“I haven't met you here before. May I know the name of such a charming lady?” your eyes sparkled playfull. Your intonation and body language put Jinx in a stupor. Since she faked her death and fled to the edge of the world, away from Piltover, changing her appearance, she has not yet received any attention from anyone. Jinx wasn't really sure if it was sarcasm, because she didn't look her best right now: crookedly cropped hair had grown back and looked even more untidy, and bright blue hair roots were starting to grow out from under the purple dye. And that's not to mention the oil and dust stains on the clothes.
“Powder," Jinx said after a couple of seconds of reflection. Lately, she's been using her old name to avoid attracting attention.
“Like baby powder or gunpowder?” you grinned annoyingly, leaning slightly on the table.
"Like gunpowder," Jinx replied grimly, rolling her eyes.
"Then you can call me Fuse," you grinned again, winking. Despite your outspoken flirtation, Jinx didn't miss the way your gaze appraisingly scanned her hideout.
"I have a business here, not a dating club," she grumbled, lazily rolling a blue hexteck ball around the table. Jinx chuckled inwardly, noticing how your gaze immediately eagerly darted to the jewel, as she suspected.
A couple of days later, she finally caught you trying to sneak into her workshop late at night.
“Are you looking for this?” Jinx appeared behind you, inserting a blue ball into the gun and pointing it at you.
“Rather for you,” not confused, you took a seductive pose, leaning on the table. “Jinx, right?”
“Well, how did you find out?” She rolled her eyes, pouting and moving closer to use the edge of the gun to push the hood off your head. Well, at least you weren't wearing an ugly burgundy wig right now. "I don't want to kill you. I'm kind of done with it.”
“Who else would have this round blue thing but Jinx? You're almost a legend. Almost,” you shrugged. You didn't seem to care much about the hextek-loaded pistol next to your temple. "You don't have to hide your identity here. No one cares who you are.”
"Except for you, of course," Jinx rolled her eyes.
“I don't care either. But I can say that you are too charming for the inadequate maniac they call you," you grinned flirtatiously again.
The shot cut off the edge of your bangs.
“Shut up!” Jinx said tiredly, going upstairs to sleep. Anyway, there was nothing to steal from her except the blue ball.She earned a couple of coins by repairing all kinds of utensils for the residents of the city, and that was all her money.
You had been coming to her several times a day for the past two weeks, but at least hadn't tried to steal anything. You just stared at Jinx while she worked, fixing something or building custom devices. After a while, you started chatting about little things, you brought her a snack when Jinx sat in the workshop for hours without leaving. She had to admit that she liked such a quiet life much more than the hustle, intrigue and dangers of Piltover.
Day after day, and at some point Jinx found herself pinned against her own desk, whimpering softly in need as your deft hands pulled off her top, tracing the contours of her tattoos with your fingers. You leaned to her neck, leaving weightless kisses on the pale, almost transparent skin.
Jinx's knees were already buckling with impatience and excitement, and a fog of lust filled her head. Squeezing the thin skin of her thighs, you lifted her up, setting her down on the table. You lips gently touched the skin between Jinx's breasts, saying one word.
— Perfect.
Jinx flinched, her eyes widening. Then a purple flash followed and she practically hung on to you, wrapping her legs around your waist and kissing you deeply, simultaneously taking off your top.
Meanwhile, you reached for her pants, pulling them off along with her underwear. Jinx leaned back, supporting her reclining position with her hands. Her stomach was trembling slightly with excitement as your lips dropped a kiss just below her waist.
Finally, you wrapped your arms around her hips, lifting her legs and pressing your lips to her wet and throbbing flesh, making Jinx moan and arch her back.
Your soft tongue explored her folds inside and out, knocking more whimpers and moans out of her and causing her muscles to contract from overexcitation.
"You're doing great for the first time," you purred, pulling back slightly to run a finger over her sensitive clit, lightly teasing her entrance before gently pushing two fingers inside. Jinx tensed slightly, but then relaxed, and feeling pleasantly full, began to move her hips towards your hand. The wet sounds only added to their excitement.
You smiled contentedly at the sight of Jinx’s eyes closed with pleasure and her bitten lower lip. When you curled your fingers upward slightly inside her, Jinx screamed at the unusual sensations, breathing heavily.
“What is it?” She mumbled plaintively as you plugged her with a wet kiss, continuing to move your fingers inside her. You showered Jinx's chin and neck with soothing kisses, feeling her inner muscles begin to contract, bringing orgasm closer.
You accelerated your movements slightly, pressing your fingers against her upper wall and applying pressure to her swollen clit. Jinx didn't have time to figure out what happened when she felt a clear liquid squirting out of her on her thighs and stomach. Blushing, she tilted her head back, allowing the orgasm to swallow her.
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A few weeks of being alone and talking to herself had loosened Jinx's tongue. She desperately wanted to brag about how brilliantly she had convinced the whole of Piltover and her own sister of her death.
“And then I slipped out through the ventilation and hijacked the airship while they mourned the dead and me,” Jinx enthusiastically talked about her adventures, while you lazily braided her short hair into small pigtails.
“And then where did you put it?” you asked.
“And that's beside the point, as far as I remember," Jinx narrowed her eyes in displeasure. You grinned, pulling her closer to your chest.
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monimccoythings · 1 month ago
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I think worst!Logan is the kind of man to fuck you through the entirety of your pregnancy, he can't help it, your spiced scent, the gradual changes in your body, but more specifically your belly swelling big and round with his child, it's all driving him insane with lust. He's just acting on pure instinct, you just look too beautiful and smell too damn good.
Honestly, you have zero complaints about his behavior, because I'm sure worst!Logan would be the most attentive of partners; after he got his second chance in this new universe you are the best thing that has ever happened to him, he's not taking you for granted, not now, not ever.
He takes care of all your cravings, as weird as they can get, he soothes your aches, shuts down your insecurities, builds all the baby furniture with his own hands, keeps his drinking and smoking habits away from you and your baby, and most important of all, he keeps you nice, full and sated.
Those six post partum weeks are pure hell for him, but he takes them like a champ, he won't even touch himself unless you are the one touching. He loves you too much for that. He'd sure as hell be counting down the days until he can enjoy your body all over again.
The second you three return back home from the doctors check up and put your little baby to sleep, he's pouncing on you, to make up for lost time.
And you two are back at it again. You won't stop, not that you wanted to anyway. You believe yourselves to be invincible, too lost on each other's bodies and pleasure to even think about using protection (though I have a feeling that Logan just likes to go raw).
Four months later, and you're pregnant again, and that's when you think that maybe, maybe you and Logan should have been more careful.
But how could you deny him when he looks at you with those bedroom eyes and chiseled muscles.
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koralira-kira · 2 months ago
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CAUGHT IN 4K ⋆✴︎˚。⋆k. bakugo⋆✴︎˚。⋆
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pairings : k. bakugo x reader
genre : crack, slice of life, secret established relationship
synopsis : For months, Y/N and Bakugo have vehemently denied any romantic involvement, brushing off their friends' relentless suspicions. But when the duo continuously ditches group plans at the exact same time, the squad smells something fishy. Determined to uncover the truth, Mina and the gang launch Operation: Busted Lovebirds, a full-blown spy mission complete with disguises, walkie-talkies, and the worst secret-agent skills imaginable.
Their investigation leads them on a wild chase through cafes, parks, and trains—culminating in what they believe is undeniable evidence of a secret relationship. But just when they think they’ve cracked the case, Y/N and Bakugo drop a bombshell: they knew they were being followed the whole time. Oh, and they’ve been dating for five whole months.
Cue the collective meltdown.
warnings : nothing (but lemme know if there's any)
wc : 896
notes : Doing another fic! (as if i don't have my finals tomorrow🤡) Anyways hope you enjoy this one LOL. This not rlly one of my best works cuz of the upcoming finals situation going on, but hey! at least i got to write this thought out. I'm rlly finna be busy around this week and the next fam, cuz school rlly be hurtin me rn (pray for me).
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“We’re Not Dating!”
It had been months. MONTHS of relentless teasing from their so-called “friends.” Every time someone so much as breathed in Y/N and Bakugo’s direction, there’d be smirks, winks, and not-so-subtle comments.
“Come on, just admit it already!” Kaminari whined, flopping onto the common room couch.
“We ain’t got time for your shitty fantasies,” Bakugo snapped, arms crossed.
“Yeah, you guys are delusional,” Y/N added, rolling her eyes.
And yet, something wasn’t adding up. Because every single time there were group plans—arcade nights, mall hangouts, even a simple movie night—both Y/N and Bakugo would mysteriously back out.
“I got something important to do.”
“Same, can’t make it.”
It had become a pattern. And patterns? Patterns were SUSPICIOUS.
The Investigation Begins
Mina was the first to piece it together. “Guys, do you realize that every time we hang out, they suddenly have an ‘important thing’?”
"These two have been avoiding group plans at the exact same time for months. MONTHS!"
"Coincidence? I think the fuck NOT," Kaminari added, pointing accusingly at nothing in particular.
Sero furrowed his brows. “You’re right. It’s like, synchronized.”
Kirishima rubbed his chin dramatically. “Ain’t that kinda… odd?”
“We need to get to the bottom of this,” Uraraka said, slamming a hand on the table like they were in some FBI meeting.
Jirou smirked. “Oh yeah? And how do you propose we do that? Interrogate them?”
Mina’s grin was borderline evil. “No, Jirou. We follow them.”
Silence.
Then a chorus of “OOOHHHH” filled the room as everyone leaned in closer.
“That’s actually genius,” Kaminari said in awe.
“Of course it is,” Mina replied smugly. “We’re going undercover.”
A few minutes later, the friend groups were split into teams, armed with walkie-talkies (because, obviously, espionage is nothing without proper communication).
“We tail them the next time they ‘coincidentally’ ditch our plans,” Mina explained. “Everyone, get your disguises ready.”
And so, Operation: Busted Lovebirds was born.
It started with Y/N leaving the dorms. Hoodie up. Casual outfit. Very suspicious.
“Target has left the building,” Uraraka whispered into her walkie-talkie.
“Copy that. We have visual,” Jirou responded from a different location.
Meanwhile, on the other side of the campus, Bakugo was heading in the exact same direction—also in casual clothes.
“Bro, he’s going the same way,” Sero said, squinting through his sunglasses.
“They’re so busted,” Kirishima muttered.
And so the chase began.
The squad, dressed in the most unsubtle disguises imaginable (think sunglasses, hoodies, and even fake mustaches for some reason), followed Y/N and Bakugo through multiple stores, on and off buses, and even into random side streets.
The entire time, the walkie-talkies were alive with whispered updates:
"Suspect is currently looking at flowers. I repeat, flowers. Is this a date thing? Are we looking at romance??"
"Negative. Subject has walked past the flowers. I repeat, NO FLOWERS PURCHASED. Romance is still questionable."
The groups followed through alleyways, parks, and even boarded the same damn train just to keep up with the two. They were like a squad of extremely unskilled secret agents.
“Status update?”
“Target is stopping near a coffee shop.”
“Target is ORDERING COFFEE.”
“SHE PICKED A TABLE FOR TWO.”
“…DO YOU THINK IT’S A DATE?”
Mina glared at Kaminari. “No, she’s obviously planning to have a deep philosophical discussion with herself. OF COURSE IT’S A DATE.”
Fifteen minutes later, the bell above the coffee shop dinged.
And in walked Katsuki Bakugo.
Silence.
Then—
“TARGET TWO HAS ARRIVED.”
“HE’S SITTING ACROSS FROM HER.”
“HOLY SHIT.”
Phones were out. Pictures were taken. Evidence secured.
Following the Lovebirds
The “couple” continued their day, completely unaware that their friends were on their tails.
Coffee shop? Check.
Walk in the park? Check.
Mini shopping spree? Check.
Train ride back to the dorms? Check.
The spies had seen ENOUGH.
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The next day at school, Y/N and Bakugo sat at their usual lunch table, completely unbothered.
Too unbothered.
The entire squad, however, was dying to spill the tea.
“So…” Mina started, barely containing her excitement.
“So?” Y/N raised an eyebrow.
“We know, you sneaky little bastards,” Kaminari said, pointing dramatically.
Y/N blinked. “Know what?”
“We followed you,” Jirou smirked, pulling out her phone. “Busted.”
The two glanced at each other, then at the group.
And smirked.
“Yeah, we saw you idiots,” Bakugo said nonchalantly, taking a sip of his drink.
Silence.
“EXCUSE ME?” Mina nearly choked.
“Yeah,” Y/N added. “Like, after the second train, it was obvious.”
“WHY DIDN’T YOU SAY ANYTHING?!” Sero cried.
“Because it was funny watching you all stumble around like a bunch of morons,” Bakugo snorted.
Uraraka gasped. “So you mean to tell me we went through all that for nothing?!”
“Oh, it wasn’t for nothing.” Y/N smirked. “It was very entertaining.”
“But wait—how long have you guys actually been together?” Kirishima asked, eyes narrowed.
Bakugo leaned back with a cocky grin. “Five months.”
Five. Months.
Dead silence.
Then—
“FIVE MONTHS?!” Everyone collectively screamed.
“You guys are the worst,” Mina groaned. “We were out here thinking we cracked the case when you’ve been dating this whole time?!”
Bakugo just smirked, throwing an arm around Y/N’s shoulders. “Better luck next time, dumbasses.”
And with that, Operation: Busted Lovebirds ended in absolute defeat.
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corkinavoid · 10 months ago
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I just found this in my notes
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Apparently, I woke up at 5:23 in the morning, wrote it down, and went straight back to sleep. Trust my hyperfixated ass to still be making content even as I'm unconscious.
Anyways, yes,
DPxDC Trust Me, I'm an Engineer
Danny is half-ghost, but he is also a child of two mad scientists who spent the better part of their lives elbow deep in building all kinds of stuff out of all kinds of junk. Imagine what their kid, who loves science and engineering as much as they do, if not more, can accomplish?
When he moves to Gotham, he decides to leave all the heroics behind, hanging up his cape. Surely, he will be fine - Gotham has, like, what, six? seven? ten? vigilantes of its own. They don't need any more, and, besides, Danny is fairly certain he doesn't work that great in teams.
But there's just... so much crime happening.
Danny doesn't want to get involved, not really. He's retired. But he wants to help somehow!
So, he starts building unconventional devices for self-defense. A rubber duck that shoots lasers out of its eyes? A fork that turns into a shocker? A rice cooker that defends your home in case of an attack? A pen that transforms into a gas mask? You name it, he can build it.
It escalates quickly. Someone asks him to upgrade a baby carriage to a full impenetrable robot that will protect the baby inside it, and Danny decides why not. It's for safety. He installs countless safety measures so nothing could be triggered by mistake, and even though by the end the carriage doesn't look that much different, it proves effective in the first serious accident. In fact, it is so effective that it saves a total of five hostages, including the baby inside it, who didn't even cry because there are soundproof shields inside and recordings of the baby mother's voice.
Danny builds more of those carriages. Then he switches to home defenses. Then someone asks him to make brass knuckles that turn into a gauntlet shield in case of attack. Danny does a thorough check to make sure it won't fall into the wrong hands, but he ends up making it.
It doesn't take too much time for him to start making full-on robotic suits for people. Bulletproof, running on clean energy - Gotham has plenty of residue ectoplasm - with built-in defense mechanisms and stuff.
It is at this point that the Bats start taking a closer look at his inventions. Before that, they thought it was just some Rogue in the making, and they kept an eye on Danny, but never once has he created anything with the purpose of offense instead of defence, so they let it slide. But then Tim gets his hands on one of the suits and comes back to Bruce, nearly salivating over it.
A few weeks later, Danny gets an internship at WE. A year later, he is invited to work with the JL.
And that's when it hits him.
M e c h a s.
He can do real, actual mecha-suits for heroes. He can make them fit those heroes perfectly, enhancing their strengths and negating the weaknesses.
No alien invasion fucks with Earth anymore, because when they do, the JL just grabs their Danny Fenton Suits and whatever evil aliens were aiming to take control are annihilated in no time.
Maybe Tucker joins him along the way. Maybe Danny has an arms race with Lex Luthor, maybe Cyborg bonds with him over the mechanical rambling. What I'm saying is, cool robots for everyone!
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venomvalley · 3 months ago
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you and sevika share a double-sided dildo.
18+ only (pwp, sex toys, ass play, whiny!sev)
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Sevika is an amazing lover. Attentive, accommodating, adaptable. She gives you what you want, and more importantly, she gives you what you need. But your favorite thing about having sex with her?
She's adventurous. Every week, introducing something new to the bedroom just for the hell of it. Bindings, impact play, anal, toys upon toys of all shapes and sizes and uses. Vibrators and dildos and butt plugs, and it's a good thing that you each have your own preferences for bottoming or else you might fight over who gets to do it.
Which gave her the idea that led the two of you here: flat on her back, knees tucked toward her chest as you bounce on one end of the double-sided dildo stuffed inside her pussy. She has the perfect view of your ass, of the way you swallow down the toy, silicone slick after your first orgasm.
At first, you didn't understand the appeal of using this thing. It seemed more inconvenient than sexy to find a good position that accommodated both of you. But now? Oh, you get it. Like you're both fucking each other, the toy rocking inside you with each desperate tilt of her hips (as best she can folded up). You bottom out and her puffy pussy grinds against yours, the pad of her thumb circling wet over your other hole.
You shudder out a moan, arching back against her touch, begging for it. "Fuck, please, Sev, just—"
Her thumb slides into your ass up to the first knuckle, and you collapse forward on your elbows. She plants her feet on the bed and rocks up into you with a breathy whine, spreading her other fingers over your asscheek to guide your movements, meeting her thrust-for-thrust.
Beneath the skin, you simmer to a boil, nerves alight with sensation. Too much and not enough and just right all at the same time. You press your calves against each side of her body to add strength behind each bounce of your hips. The mattress squeaks out a familiar rhythm, just barely drowning out the squelch of your wet cunts and the slap of your ass against her pelvis.
She's loud tonight, sensitive. Mocks you for being so wet, babbles about how pretty you look stretched around her cock, whines when your thumb catches on her fat clit. It's cute, really. How hard she tries to remain in control even after you reduce her to putty beneath you. A sweaty mess of pleasure.
Heat builds in the pit of your belly as she rocks even harder against you, until each slam of her hips jolts your body. Behind you, her breathing heavies and stutters, pussy fluttering around the toy.
She grits out a, "Fuck, I'm—"
And you're gone. The orgasm that travels up your spine rends you bone-deep, freezes the breath in your lungs. Full-body and languid, muscles giving out beneath the onslaught of purring pleasure.
You come down from your high panting, face-first in the sheets. Sevika doesn't sound much better than you, her hand soothing over the swell of your ass as she huffs and sighs.
Usually, you engage in some teasing banter after a good round of sex, but your thighs are killing you and Sevika's made a gushing mess of your ass and thighs and the sheets beneath her. So you'll save it for later.
For now, you discard the toy at the end of the bed and shove her out of the wet spot for a lazy cuddle.
"I need a nap," you grumble, cheek squished against the curve of her shoulder.
She grumbles in agreement, then immediately relaxes beneath you. Already asleep.
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nozo-muu · 3 months ago
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Hello Zero, Could you do a hot David Corenswet scene? the new Superman Something like him feeling jealous of the male reader.By the way, I would like to know if you write for DC too
Thank you so much for the ask! To be honest, I'm not the biggest DC watcher/reader so this might be ooc, but I tried my best. Also, I don't really write for DC since, again, I'm kinda out of the loop, but you can always ask!
YOU'VE CONVINCED ME, SUPERMAN
Pairing: Top!Superman/Clark Kent X Bottom!male reader
CW: Sex, Jealousy, Oral (reader giving), Ass eating (reader receiving), creampie?
Author's note: I don't know how to feel about this...
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Metropolis was sunny as always. The sun beamed through the windows of the redaction office. Clark was working on a news article about a mysterious figure spotted multiple times over the last few weeks whenever chaos struck the city. 
He knew who that was, a vigilante he had “worked” with a couple of times to fight off some bad guys. He had to admit, he was talented, his energy manipulation magic was impressive. And the way he fought hand to hand… Gosh, it was a sight for sore eyes. 
“Breaking news!” He turned to watch the TV they had in the office. “An attack has been perpetrated on the intersection between Rowan and Mains Street. The attacker has already destroyed multiple police units.” 
Upon hearing that, Clark made his way towards the stairs that led to the rooftop. He needed to do something. Once he got undressed, revealing his suit, he leaped off the edge of the building and flew towards the place of the incident. 
The area was surrounded by police cars, trying to contain the danger, which honestly wasn't going to accomplish much. 
He flew down, landing on his feet. There wasn't that much mayhem… some upside-down cars, cracks on the ground, and some nearby stores with shattered windows. 
There was a figure though, a big silhouette, almost animal-like. It had shards of some kind of crystal all over its back.
“I would be careful if I was you” 
He looked around, seeing you levitating off to the side. 
“The bastard's got some strength. And those shards… Kryptonite maybe? I wouldn’t touch them if I were you.” You say, approaching the broad man beside you.
“Kryptonite? How is that possible?” 
“Beats me.” You shrugged. “As long as you don't attack his back, we should be good.”
He nodded understandingly, preparing his attack while you immobilized that thing with your magic. You could have gotten rid of the threat on your own perfectly, but you wanted to see him. He was so fine, it was like skipping dessert if you didn't look him up and down after a fight. 
The threat now being eliminated, you walked over to the police cars where a head of police approached you two. 
“That thing shouldn't cause any problems anymore. I've gotten rid of its body. There shouldn't be any more issues, officer.” 
Clark stood silent behind you.
“Thank you, thank you. I don't know what we would have done without you.” 
“You probably could have handled it too, I'm sure of that.” You replied smiling. 
There you were again, making small talk with some random guy. He didn't know why, but he hated it when you did that, always having flirty remarks and comments, and smiling at strangers. 
Some passers-by were shouting your names, and of course, you went and took pictures with them, smiling and being friendly. 
He hated it. 
Once everyone had started to dissipate, you went back to his side. He was silent…
“What?” You asked, raising an eyebrow. 
“Nothing, I just need to go get my clothes.”
“I'll come with you. We can go watch the sunset later or something.”
He grunted. He didn't want that, he wanted to fuck you then and there. To show you you were not about to go around flirting with everyone. You weren't together or anything, but he wanted you to be only his. 
When you landed on the rooftop of the building, he took his clothes and made his way towards a broom closet where he had been putting his discarded clothes to go pick up at a later date. 
That's when an idea crossed his mind. He quickly took your wrist and locked you both inside the broom closet. 
“What are you -” you get cut off by his lips on yours. He was a surprisingly good kisser. 
“Let me fuck you.”
“What?”
“Let me claim you.” He keeps kissing your neck. 
You moan at the sensation, and seeing that you're not pushing him away, he takes that as a yes.
He starts getting rid of his and your clothes, leaving you as naked as the day you were born in that dark room. 
He starts planting kisses all over your torso and neck, leaving some marks here and there to show that you are his. 
He slightly pushes your shoulders down, enticing you to get on your knees. 
You oblige and kneel in front of him, instinctively taking his member into your mouth. You started licking around the tip, slowly making your way down the shaft. The sensation made him tremble and groan…
You kept sucking his cock until you felt him push you away slightly. It was now all wet and ready, but your hole still needed some prep.
“Turn around for me.” 
You did as he asked, now facing the door separating you from the outside world. Clark got on his knees and spread your cheeks apart. He spat on your hole, slowly massaging the liquid around your entrance. He approached his face and started eating you out. Once he felt you were ready to take him, he got up, embracing you from behind and whispering in your ear.
“Can I fuck you now?” 
“Yes.”
He kissed you one final time before lining himself up with your entrance. He slowly pushed in, making sure to not hurt you. You moan at the feeling of it stretching your hole. He paused for a little so you could get used to the feeling of it.   
“Can I move?”
“Mmhmm” You nod, not being able to form a coherent sentence. 
He started moving slowly, but then sped up, remembering all those fuckers you had flirted with. In a way, fucking you was a win against those nobodies who thought they had a chance with you. 
The pace was perfect, rough but gentle enough to not hurt you. He kept hitting your spot, your cock leaking from the pleasure. For an alien, he sure knew how to fuck a man’s ass well. 
He then pulled away a little, turning you around.
“I want you to face me.”
You nodded, and he took you in his strong arms, pressing you against his muscular torso. You straddled him while being suspended in the air, his member lining up with your hole. He inserted it again, this time hitting deeper because of the position. He started kissing you while you bounced on him. 
He took your cock in his hand, and using the precum he rubbed your tip, before starting to stroke you while fucking you. 
“Clark…” You moaned in his ear.
“I’m also getting close, pretty boy.”
You kept that position until you both hit your climax. You came first, your cum coating his hand and your abs. 
“Can I cum inside?” He asked sultrily. 
You hummed, still kissing his neck and leaving the occasional bite mark from pleasure on his neck and collarbone. 
That’s when you felt it, the warm liquid filling your hole. He pulled out his thick member and rested you on a table as he kissed your forehead. 
“You okay?” He asked. 
“Yeah. You fuck like a pornstar…Damn.” 
He chuckled softly at the compliment. 
“That means you’ll only flirt with me from now on then? “
“Fine, you've convinced me, Superman.” 
He smiled. He officially had you for himself now. And if you ever started your little games again, he’d jealous fuck you again and again until you understood. 
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sturnsdoll · 1 year ago
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𝖶𝖨𝖲𝖣𝖮𝖬 𝖳𝖤𝖤𝖳𝖧 -`♡´- -C.S
(HEADCANNONS!)
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pairing: chris x (gf) reader, some reader x bsf matt and nick <3
summary: how chris would support his girlfriend before, after, and through wisdom teeth removal, as well as being under the influence of anesthetics!
warnings: fluffy!headcannons, dentist, mention of teeth pulling, little blood, slight mention of needles, anesethetics, established relationships.
authors note: kind of a blurb more than hc's tbh? it was a little rushed! sorry!
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₊⊹⤑ you had been talking about how nervous you were for a couple weeks now..
₊⊹⤑ so it was no surprise when the whole car ride there, you were holding your boyfriends hand and avoiding the topic of what you knew was coming.
₊⊹⤑ chris had been reminding you everyday that besides the needle, the rest of it you wouldn't even remember. he ensured that him matt and nick would be there the entire time if you needed a hand or two.. or three to hold.
₊⊹⤑ with some encouragement (and chris lending you his grey zip up to wear for emotional and physical comfort) you did manage to enter the building just to get it done and over with.
₊⊹⤑ while the IV was intruding your skin, chris stayed next to you, asking about what flavour of ice cream you'd be getting after as a distraction from the needle.
₊⊹⤑ from there on, the process itself you had no memory of but chris stuck close by the entire time incase you needed anything or for some reason woke up.
₊⊹⤑ "hey sweetheart how'r ya feeling?" chris would ask while gently holding your hand when you come to your senses
₊⊹⤑ confused, your instinct was to sit up but chris would immedietly usher you to lay back down, letting you know that they're done working on your teeth.
₊⊹⤑ "why dtha fack is this bullshit still in my fucking arm then HUH?" your words wonky from the cotton in your mouth and the haze of anesthetic.
₊⊹⤑ "shh, were in public stop cursing like a sailor" "dude, nobody under like 100 says 'cursing like a sailor'" "yeah, what he thsaid!"
₊⊹⤑ chris would of course glare at you for agreeing with matt. but his thumb soothingly rubbing your hand tells you that he's obviously not too mad.
₊⊹⤑ you would leave later then you should have because everytime a password was given to you, you'd forget less than five seconds later..
₊⊹⤑ "it was ass right?" "no, it was GRASS sweetheart...."
₊⊹⤑ everything that came out of your mouth had the doctors and the triplets giggling.
₊⊹⤑ when it came time to take the IV out, chris thought that a 'got your nose' joke would be funny to distract you with. it was... definetly distracting at least???
₊⊹⤑ usually you were sweet to your boyfriend but something about anesthetic had you more than arguementative today.
₊⊹⤑ chris would try complimenting you "you look pretty even like this"
₊⊹⤑ "i KNOW i do. stop being corny you sthtoopid fuck" chris's jaw drops like he's offended but you don't care because nick's contagious laugh brings out your own laughter out as well.
₊⊹⤑ "i thought i was supposed to be the stupid one right now, not you"
₊⊹⤑ "maybe YOUU need to see the dentist about all those terrible jokes that come out of your mouth."
₊⊹⤑ you had no filter, just having fun rebelling against your usual niceness to your loved one.
₊⊹⤑ then finally the car ride came.
₊⊹⤑ now you leant on chris' shoulder to take a nap
₊⊹⤑ "thought i was stupid?" he questions, arm coming around to pull you in closer. "shhhh i'm sthleeping" the inpedament on your speech makes him giggle. "I SAID SHHHHHH" "jesus. my bad sleepyhead"
₊⊹⤑ the whole car ride he was making sure you didn't need your gauze changed, asking if you need water, offering you chapstick. you had to tell him to shut up at least 100 times before he'd relax, telling him you could put your own damn chapstick on. (you ended up asking him for help two minutes later...)
₊⊹⤑ the whole rest of the car ride was filled with you zipping up and down the zipper of your boyfriends sweater you had on, mixed with your favourite artist playing as you attempted to sing along
₊⊹⤑ the second you entered the triplets home, you rested on the couch with your legs over your boyfriends lap, singing a song that everyones pretty sure doesn't exist..
₊⊹⤑ "i love... YOUUUUUUU, i lovovovovovee YOUU, all three of YOUUuUuU-" "someone sedate her again." nick jokes while handing you an ice pack you'd previously asked for.
₊⊹⤑ "want me to hold it on your jaw for you bab- oh" before he can finish speaking you're gripping his wrist, leaning toward him "wanna know something?" you ask eagerly "hm?" "I LOVE YOU!" "i love you more"
₊⊹⤑ matt and nick didn't enjoy the next 30 minutes of the predictable arguement at all. ₊⊹⤑ once the delusion of the anesthetic wore off, you were just plain tired. nick and matt had both chosen to chill in their own rooms by now.
₊⊹⤑ the second you mentioned wanting to lay down, chris curled up behind you with a blanket over the two of you. he held you tight, muttering in your ear about how good you did today and how proud he is that you went.
₊⊹⤑ "sorry for calling you stupid" you apologize with a sweetly apologetic smile.
₊⊹⤑ "aw, it's okay. i know you didn't mean it-" "wellll sometimes.." "nevermind i don't forgive you."
₊⊹⤑ he'd make sure your favourite cartoon was on and that he held your ice pack on your sore jaw till you eventually drifted into sleep.
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tags ᥫ᭡: @pettydollie @mattsrod @sturncakez @sturniololovesss @sturniolosstar @sstvrnioloo @watercolorskyy @sturniol0s @6ix9inewiturmom @sonicsmacks @orangela
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alchemistc · 2 months ago
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He'd had a dream about this, once. Sweat still cooling, sheets tangled at his feet, a view of Eddie Diaz's bedroom ceiling.
Sue him - Tommy's not the first guy who ever had a raunchy dream about a straight friend. For a few weeks there, both Diaz and Evan Buckley had featured heavily in his rotation. And then Evan had tried to murder his best friend and Tommy had kissed him about it and now...
Tommy shifts his weight. Slides his hand across the sheets - Evan's sheets, still familiar even if the location has changed. Christ, why had Eddie never scraped the popcorn off his ceiling? It's an easy job, really, even if it is painfully boring and time consuming, he could -
The hand that curls around his neck, just under his jaw, is light, careful, still possibly covered in Tommy's cum.
"I missed you," Evan says, and Tommy feels the panic bubbling under his skin, a miasma of humming thrumming reminders that this had been a bad idea from the start. That "randomly" running into his ex three shots deep at the bar had been one of his shittier plans, fueled by his own tipsy jealousy at seeing Evan's drinking partner grinning at him for a good hour while Tommy got progressively worse at pool.
He opens his mouth to let Evan down. He can't do this There's no world where this changes anything. For Christ's sake, he'd only done it because the possessive monster inside of him had heard Evan introduce him to Ravi Panikkar as 'my... Tommy' and the rest of his brain had left the fucking building.
"Everything is so screwed, Tommy. Eddie, and Maddie, and - I just. I want to work on this. I want - I know I didn't say it right before, but everything went to shit that day and if we could just..."
He's always done this. Fucked Tommy to the brink of brainlessness and then proceeded to talk a mile a minute like the sex they'd had was inspirational and energizing. Tommy'd been endeared by it from the start. He still is.
He fucking hates that.
"I can - we can go slow. You set the pace, Tommy, I promise."
"Buck," he starts, and everything in Evan shuts down all at once.
He's done a poor job of keeping that line drawn in his own head - all these months later and he still thinks too much about him, still thinks of him as Evan, and it's a shitty thing to do when they're both fully aware that it's something of a treat for both of them - that name that's been mostly Tommy's since the day Buck found himself at the academy with three Evan's and grinned his way through a nicknaming process.
Evan's hand unfurls from its spot, fingers slipping from where they'd been working at his earlobe. He's gone from soft and pliant glued to Tommy's side, to stiff as he rolls away, sheets travelling with him, and Tommy doesn't fight it when they shift free of him, leaving him bare as the day he was born.
At least he's got his trusty fucking walls. Those at least will keep Evan from glancing up and seeing him break his own heart in two twice over.
Evan rolls to a sit, heaves his legs over the bed. In the soft light Tommy can map out the constellation of moles on his curved back as he drops his head into his hands.
The silence is deafening.
"I, uh ... I think you should go?"
Tommy's certain he doesn't mean for it to sound like a question. He's also certain Evan Buckley has never once in his life been anything but a novice at hiding emotion in his face, body language, voice.
He's pretty sure they could do this a hundred times and Evan might just let him.
Tommy doesn't speak as he gathers his clothes. Doesn't speak as he steals furtive glances around the hem of his T-shirt, doesn't speak as he realizes he didn't even make time for cleanup so he's definitely driving home with the evidence of this night still fucking on him.
Evan's still cradling his head in his hands when Tommy shoves his foot into a boot, not bothering with laces because maybe he'll just fucking trip on the curb and fall into oncoming traffic. It might be the better option.
"I'm -."
"Don't," Evan says, just loud enough for Tommy to know he's barking around a phlegmy throat. "This is worse, just so you know. It was already bad, Tommy..."
Tommy expects there to be more, but there isn't anything. Evan's shoulders heave, and Tommy grabs his keys and phone off the side table, and he blinks and he's somehow out the door, eyes stinging and blood rushing in his ears and he honestly shouldn't be driving but he's not gonna leave his fucking truck here.
He's not entirely sure how he makes it home. He comes back to himself with scalding hot water washing away the evidence of his fuck-up, throat sore and jaw tight and his phone blowing up on the bathroom countertop.
He shouldn't feel the vindication he does that at least this time he milked enough emotion out of Evan to make him send fourteen - his phone buzzes again - fifteen texts in a row.
He feels it anyway, and just to dig the knife deeper into his own chest he shuts his phone off for the night the moment he's towelled himself dry.
Tomorrow. He'll figure it out tomorrow.
He's been telling himself that for five months - a year - his whole fucking life. Maybe one day he'll be telling the truth.
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jackabbotsfakeleg · 26 days ago
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Dark is The Way, Light is a Place.
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Ongoing Series Synopsis: As a board-certified clinical psychologist working at PTMC, you were expecting to see patients of the hospital. But by some twist of fate, you end up seeing several ER doctors for individual therapy. Pairing: Michael "Robby" Robinavitch / Jack Abbot/ Frank Langdon x Psychologist!Reader Genre: Angsty, existential, dark, and sometimes fluffy therapy sessions. A/N: I'm a clinical psychologist so this is a planned series to explore what therapy sessions might look like with some of the Pitt crew. Planned for at least Robby/Abbot/Langdon but open to incorporating others. I hope you enjoy, thank you for reading
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Robby has been in the elevator hundreds of times– transporting patients, rounding with Jack, taking the “long way” to the roof for a much needed shift in perspective. 
But he’s never been to the eleventh floor. This building, this hospital, he knows it like the back of his hand–a second home. But the eleventh floor is foreign to him- Behavioral Health.
There’s a hard rule about the “soft” sciences and the ER– They come to you. Doctors aren’t transporting patients in five-point bed restraints who bite in an elevator. The Psychologists and Psychiatrists come to the ER for the consults, the medication orders, the 72-hour hold evaluations. He’s joked about them before with Jack – bats hanging in the rafters, waiting for the next crisis to swoop in.
And yet, here he is. The eleventh floor, at the eleventh hour. 
Robby hesitates when the elevator dings and the door opens - a moment of apprehension about the inevitable reveal of the skeletons in his closet - It’s not too late to head back downstairs, no one would know you were even here, not even Jack. And he wouldn’t blame you. 
He’s pulled from his thoughts as the elevator doors begin to close, bumping against the outside of his arm. He’s already got one foot out the door- an unconscious step towards finding out where the wild things went. He bites the bullet, and steps out, turning the corner towards room 1122.
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“Thanks, Doc,”  Jack opens your office door and steps into the hallway, turning back to confirm, “I’ll see you next week?”
There’s something about the way he wears his sadness -like a badge of honor of all of the things he has survived. His sessions are exhausting and existential. He holds his trauma in his hands and wrings it out like rain. He speaks about death–his own and the people he’s lost. He talks about ending it, in a very matter-of-fact, this-is-what-it-would-feel-like way, and backs away from the ledge when he recognizes that the feeling in his body is actually fear. 
“Same time as usual. But Jack, you fucking call me if you need me,” Your tone is serious and empathetic, a directive for the man who talks about darkness like his soul was forged there, “Dark is the way…”
“Light is a place,” he replies, closing his eyes and taking a deep breath. He repeats the mantra under his breath several times, before turning to walk down the hall. 
You stand to close the door when you’re met with a familiar face, Dr. Robby, waiting outside the door. 
“Michael,  I’m so glad you’re here.”  
He locks eyes with Jack, an unspoken greeting,  like one of the great bromances of the 21st century. For a second, you imagine the two of them hugging, but instead, they acknowledge each other with a nod, Jack reaching out to squeeze Robby’s shoulder, as if to say, “I’m proud of you.” I’m sure they’ll compare horror stories on the roof later. As Jacks walks off you watch Robby’s expression change to something unfamiliar - anxious. He looks over his shoulder, as if he’s making sure no one else saw him come up here, stuffing his hands in the pockets of his hoodie. 
The stark contrast in presentation is unsettling. You’ve seen him work downstairs, confident, calm, collected. Here, he’s softer, uneasy, wounded. Heavy is the head that wears the crown 
“Come on in,” You smile, holding the door open for him to slip past you and into your office. You can hear the audible sigh of relief as the door closes behind him, hands still stuffed in the pockets of his hoodie, “this your first time?”
His back still faces you as he takes in his surroundings, hesitant to sit. He studies the diploma’s hanging on the wall, an exercise in distraction. Maybe if he spends his time pointing out things about you, you’ll run out of time to talk about him.
“On the eleventh floor? Yes.” He points to the certificate on the wall, and finally turns to look at you  “Board certified, huh?” 
He keeps you at arms length, wants to talk about anything but the reason why he’s here. You could make small talk with this man all day, he’s got the bedside manner for it, wears being “just fine” well, with smile lines to prove it, charismatic, attractive, a good guy. 
“I meant therapy, Michael.” 
He nods, sheepishly, “That easy to tell? Although I’m not sure if I should be wasting your time. There are far worse off people than me” 
“Sit.” You motion to the couch, and he initially ignores your command. His attention turns to the sound of staff running past your doorway and down the hall, likely responding to a crisis. Emergencies are his thing, always running to put out a fire, not even recognizing that he too, is engulfed in flames. 
“I’m happy to discuss you ‘wasting my time,’ and the fact that you have had your hands balled up in fists in your pockets since you got here for the next..” you look at your watch, “55 minutes. But not until you sit.” 
This time, it’s a directive. It catches him off guard, the slow recognition that he, for once, is not in control of what happens here. He apologizes, removing his hands from his pockets after your pointed observation, and takes a seat.
You take a seat opposite of him, matching his posture,  “Why don’t you tell me why you’re here.”
“I haven’t been sleeping well” His answer is short and to the point. a real nothing-to-see-here vibe. He folds his arms across his chest, briefly glancing at his watch, “I told you, I’m probably wasting your time.” 
"I wouldn’t want to be anywhere else, than wasting this time with you. Humor me, you’ve got my full undivided confidential attention.” 
He inhales and rubs a hand over his neck, avoiding eye contact with you, “Found myself on the roof like Jack.”
There it is.
“I really need to start having office hours up there.” You lighten the mood, before diving back in, “Okay, you’re on the roof, then what happens? You get close enough to the edge to think about jumping?”
“Jesus, no.” He retorts, like the thought of diving off the roof is the most outlandish shit he’s heard all day. Not Robby. Not cool, calm, collected Robby. He’d never do something like that. Right?
“Therapy only works if you’re honest with yourself. We’ve all thought about jumping, Michael. doesn’t mean you intended to.”
“Touche,” He’s still trying to feel out the process, unsure of how safe of a place this is.
“Let me show you something,” You turn to your desk, rummaging through a disheveled pile of papers, for a blank sheet of paper. On it, you scribble a mantra, handing it to him.
“Dark is the Way, Light is a Place.” He says it aloud, slowly, eyebrow raised, looking to you for an explanation.
“It’s from a poem by Dylan Thomas.” You explain, “The gist is that there’s going to be so much pain in this lifetime, but that doesn’t mean it is not worth losing a single moment of it, because at the end of the day, there is going to be hope. But I need you to dig deep into that pain, anchor yourself there, let me sit in it with you.” 
You can see him at a crossroads in his head. Choose to make this all about sleeping and surface level bullshit and leave with his sanity and some semblance of wellbeing, or bare his soul to someone he’s just met, to anchor himself in the pain, to share it and reveal what’s hidden in the darkest places of his mind, and leave with his soul wide open, exposed, and raw, with the promise of an eventual catharsis.  He chooses the latter. 
“For the first time in my career, I didn’t want to come back here” his voice cracks, “I felt like I was drowning. I couldn’t pull myself out of it. For days, I felt this sense of darkness, this hopelessness.”
“You felt scared” you reflect, but he shakes his head silently for a few seconds, drawing a deep breath in before continuing.
“Being on the roof, wondering what it would feel like at the bottom, Fuck. I felt at peace with that.”
He watches your face when he says it, looks for you to flinch, or your eyes to widen. He waits for the recoil, for you to hit a panic button. You maintain eye contact, softening your expression, sitting with his words.
“That must have been really hard, and really hard to share. I’m really proud of you for allowing me to sit with you, with this.” 
“Dark is the Way, Light is a Place.” He repeats, and for the first time in a long time, he feels proud of himself too. 
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