#and then the other part of my brain is like well logically the cost of living here is stupidly high and everyone is struggling

[chris-prank]

Ya i need to punish Dr. Seraph for ruining my plans/ripping my hero suit. Clothes are very expensive these days :(

So we tear his off and pound into him :3 !! ^^ ❤️❤️💯💯😍😍🔥🔥

Sub Yandere villain sidekick x Top GN hero reader

CW: NSFW, doggy style, top reader and slight teasing

So I got carried away and ended up writing around 1K words of smut…

Just like last time the reader is GN, it’s vague enough so you can choose if the reader has a dick or a strap-on.

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“Do you know how much it costs to make a superhero suit? And don’t even get me started on the anonymous fees!”

Real frustration could be heard in your voice as the unpleasant memories of dealing with your supplier came to mind. But you swiftly chased them away to focus back on the man tied up under you.

“I’m s-sorry, if I k-knew I would ha—”

You placed your finger on his lips, shutting him up immediately.

“I don’t want shallow excuses or explanations, I want you to repay me properly.”

Dr. Seraph looked up at you with confusion. He knew what your intentions were, you had made them abundantly clear, yet he couldn’t connect the dots. How is him being tied up with bondage tape directly related to destroying your suits? Furthermore, he was wondering why you even had bondage tape in the first place! The mad scientist wasn’t complaining of course, but it’s not like it was efficient to apprehend criminals in any way, except…

You must have brought it with you just for this specific outcome! That’s it! You had planned on taking him for yourself! Oh, how quickly he convinced himself this was the truth and how flattered he was about it. And no matter how insane this conclusion was, he was indeed right.

He waited for you to take your finger off him to ask for clarification, but before he could open his mouth you effortlessly flipped him on his stomach, making the man yelp. You weren’t finished as you grabbed his hips, pressing his backside against your pelvis. That was enough to make this genius's brain go blank. He was already turned on by the predicament he had found himself in, but now a primitive desire had taken over any sense of logic he still possessed.

“Since you seem to love ruining my superhero suits, I think it's time for me to do the same with your uniform. That's the only punishment I’ll accept.” You caress his waist back and forth before adding, “I’m sure you’re fine with that, right?”

“Mm..y-yes.” He responded with a feeble voice.

You smiled to yourself, happy that he was so responsive. You took a handful of the fabric in your fist and pulled. His pants ripped apart like paper, making you feel like you were unwrapping a birthday gift. You tore until every inch of his private parts was exposed. The man gasped at this vulgar sight and buried his head back into the pillow.

You, on the contrary, admired your work. In this position, Vincent had the most perfect arched back and his ruined pants gave him a particular disheveled look. Soon enough, you had taken off your suit from the waist down, tossing it to the side without a care. A rush of excitement came to you when you felt Dr. Seraph pressing himself against your groin while letting out subtle whimpers.

You grope both of his ass cheeks as a response, before spreading them apart. With precise movements, you poured lubricant on top of it and prevented it from leaking all the way down by spreading it on his asshole. You stopped and instead rubbed your tip against his entrance to make it wet as well. After you were done, It was slightly glistening in the dim light of the room. By now, his noises had gotten louder, his legs trembling in anticipation.

“Are you ready Vincent?”

Hearing you say his real name made his cock and hole twitch.

“P-please, p-put it in.” He whined, impatience filling his voice.

He had already put aside the fact that this was supposed to be a punishment. He didn’t care if you destroyed his clothes, he had other ones, but there was only one you. Hell, he would let you tear down his entire wardrobe if it meant he could be fucked by you every night.

You grab his hips with one hand, making sure he would stay up right, and you positioned yourself with the other to stuff him full. Vincent threw his head back and cried out a lewd moan as your cock disappeared in his ass. You weren’t even down to the base that he was already gripping the sheets, nails digging through it. You also noticed it had gone in easy, a bit too easy even considering the lub.

“Someone has been preparing himself for me.” You teased, sinking deeper inside him.

Blood shot directly to the man’s face and to his cock, much to his embarrassment. He was already rock-hard, but the simple fact of implying that he has been stretching his insides for you, almost made him cum on the spot.

“Nggf…I-I didn’t…A-aahh! Mng—”

“Oh but you’ve been fucking yourself at the thought of me, haven’t you?” One of your hands grabbed onto his dick, giving it a few strokes while you added, “don’t worry I’m not mad.”

Vincent tried to hold in a sob by biting down his lips, as the mix of both different kinds of pleasure assaulted his nervous system. Though, nothing could prevent the tears from rolling down his eyes and into his mouth while he tried to answer you, emphasis on “tried”.

“Y—Mngh…” He couldn’t finish his sentence, as he felt your pelvis against his butt, meaning ou were completely inside him.

You waited until the mess of a man had visibly relaxed, before pulling back and thrusting inside again with more speed. The sounds of flesh smacking together and Vincent’s moan filled your ears like a melody. The way you bucked against him without mercy was contrasted with your thumb gently rubbing his hips in a praise like gesture.

There was one thing that was bothering you, as you glared at the upper half of his body. You had rolled up his coat a little when you were massaging his waist earlier, yet it wasn’t enough. You took the base of his uniform and ripped it in half all the way to his neck, the roll of your hips never faltering. Satisfied, you bent down and kissed his newly bare shoulders.

“That’s much better, don’t you think?” You took the chance to nibble there too, “And now your outfit is ruined, just like all my suits.”

“Nnhg Uh-uhh.” Whines and moans, mixing together as Vincent wished to speak.

You smile against his skin, satisfied with this little punishment.

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I tried to match your freak, so I hope you enjoyed it 💅🏻

(Oh and I can tell you that Dr. Seraph will have a lot of explaining to do the next day when he arrives in a wheelchair at a meeting.)

[radioactive-earthshine]

I think sending Jason into space, specifically working with Vril Dox II in L.E.G.I.O.N. would be good for him and his character, and it would also be good for L.E.G.I.O.N. as well because it would make it fresh for new readers and give them a reason to care about it. Because L.E.G.I.O.N. is, as we now know, active in the main continuity but had been dispersed due to the United Planets plot.

They could actually launch this first as a new R.E.B.E.L.S. series and it follows Vril, his son Lyrl, Jason, and a few other select members as they work to reform L.E.G.I.O.N. and fight against the prevailing fascism of the United Planets which is working with Waller to isolate Earth.

So this series could reestablish a workable continuity for the space community which is important for the mainline universe.

What this would also do is give Jason a real opportunity to be developed in a space where Gotham is not a factor. It would let him grapple with his issues, his hangups, his questions of morality and use of force, his feelings of betrayal and anger etc etc all in the company of people who have also varying degrees of the same feelings.

Vril is a very morally dark grey personality who suffered extreme abuse at the hands of his own father and people who once wanted nothing more than to kill "Daddy Doxest". With the influence of his dear friend The Durlan he was able to dream about a better future and a better society where injustices are corrected, often with extreme measures that the Justice League of Earth would never think to do. His methods are lethal, they are underhanded, they are evil in some ways but always with the best of intentions. Not to get too much into his lore, he has gotten significantly less a cunt and no longer is actively trying to kill his father at all costs (as if DC would let him kill Brainiac).

His very meshes well with Jason because he could be a surrogate example of a Batman Jason wanted and never saw, but they also share a rage and an anger that mirrors each other.

Vril would enable him.

Lyrl, Vril's son - is also a little cunt that tried to kill Vril multiple times for multiple reasons through Looney Tunes comic logic. He too is on a shade of dark grey, who also suffered at the hands of his father who lobotomized him to save his life (sound familiar????). The lobotomy was reversed in Lyrl and comic events unfolded around him and Vril and they both managed to come to a neutral truce and understanding to just... exist.

We haven't had much development on either of these characters since R.E.B.E.L.S v2 ended pre-Flashpoint and House of Brainiac (2024) only showed us that they appear to be working together civilly.

Lyrl is closer to Jason's age and has a lot of that more youthful outrage of betrayal coupled with tempered violence that he's worked through for the most part.

ANYWAY my point is, throwing Jason into space with other people that aren't good or evil (mostly) who also have father-figure issues and complex relationship to family, morality, their ideas of justice and what a good society looks like might actually help make Jason develop.

And if you have a shipper brain Lyrl/Jason might not be so bad of a ship and they would both enable, compliment and contrast each other and make each other see other sides of themselves they didn't know they had.

But I mean, this is just me rolling things around.

[burningarsenic]

The entire bullshitted and edgy backstory my brain came up with for Tullius:

He was born in Anvil to a long line of Legionnaires. His first name is Tiberius, named after Tiber Septim due to his father's affinity for the man. His father was a strict man, a Legate in the Legion and he was determined to make a warrior out of his son. Tullius was taught to use a sword ever since he was old enough to hold one, but his real passion lied behind the mind. He was great at chess, logic and more often than not used clever, almost slimy tactics during training

When he was 12, his father took him to the Imperial City, specifically so he could live and train in the Legion's barracks. He wasn't an official part of the army yet, but he was exposed to all the good the bad and the ugly that came with military organization. This allowed him to quickly climb the ranks in the army when he was allowed in

It's not that the Legion wasn't his passion, but he sometimes wonders if this really is the life he wants, or if he's in the position he is now purely because he didn't know any other life

By 26 he was already a bright, young Legate. It was a quick promotion because of his family's ties to the Legion. I imagine he wasn't closed off and antisocial back then, he used to frequent local inns and often escape the walls of the City to wander around with a new woman he'd found himself attracted to (and a few men, but he'd never tell anyone about that)

What changed him, like many others, is the Great War. Due to most of the commanding power being urgently called to different garrisons, Tullius was left managing a relatively small group on the outskirts of Anvil in a farming settlement. The military was stationed there to make the Dominion reconsider attacking the flanks, as well as to scout out any potential dangers

Unfortunately, the outpost served as a show of the elves' destructive powers. There was a group of Altmer wizards that cast a series of fire runes over the settlement (totally stole this idea from a fanfic because its COOL DAMMIT), which, the moment a person even as much as moved, all the runes immediately got set off, engulfing everyone and everything in flames

Tullius barely survived the encounter, mostly because he was on the lookout outside of town and wasn't burned as heavily as the rest. The memory haunts him, however, as he escapes to the Imperial City before it's siege

The memory haunts him so bad, in fact, that it drives him crazy, earning him the patronage of Sheogorath for a while. The war goes by in a blur as he throws himself into work and planning, trying to forget everything with an unhealthy amount of alcohol. After the war is over and peace is achieved (though at what cost) he decides to try and end his life. It's unsuccessful and he's almost kicked out of the legion for it, because a leader trying to kill themselves is a bad thing for soldier morale (and overall the whole thing is buried)

Except Titus Mede II has a serious, and perhaps less of an Emperor-Subject talk with him, which alleviates some of the weight on Tullius's shoulders. It doesn't erase it, but it at least makes life bearable. For his outstanding military achievements (largely because his coping mechanism is doing nothing but his job), he's awarded the title of General shortly after

Idk i like sad old men

[yakool-foolio]

what are the themes of Rain Code? What's the message?

Much like a lotta other media, Rain Code is chock full of many different themes that people can read into. Some are more prevalent than others, and everyone can have their own interpretations, so I'll do my best to talk about a few themes I personally found and dove into.

For starters, one of the biggest messages in Rain Code is that you don't have to take everything on by yourself and it's okay to rely on others for help. Yuma and his bonds with Shinigami and the NDA detectives carry this message in the palms of their hands. @/alfiely-art wrote an excellent post about how this applies to a lotta the male characters especially. Having a support system to fall back on when your burdens are too heavy carry on your own is something everyone should have in their life, lest all that pain is bottled up.

There's also the message that some truths are hard to face, but in the end it's better to confront them and find a way to reach a personal satisfying conclusion. This was sparked by Yuma's change to the WDO's creed as he resigned from his position as Number One, revealed at the very end of the game (and is noticeable throughout chapter 4 and 5). This coincides with some aspects of the logic vs. emotion and love vs. hate themes present as well, which I've rambled about in this older post.

To toss one more theme in here, I wanna talk about a theme I don't think anyone has really delved too much into, but has kinda been rolling around in my brain for long enough that it's stuck with me longer than I thought it would. There's an underlying theme of inheritance in Rain Code. The more obvious aspect of this is the homunculi. They inherit the memories of their human originals and carry on with their lives like they are those humans, unaware that simply getting to live relatively normal lives came at the cost of losing their originals by being brutally killed off and eaten by themselves. This is also reflected in none other than Hitman Zilch, inheriting the persona of a detective (and the speculatively many other people he's impersonated as a part of his job) in order to deceive the others on the train and have the upper hand. And last but not least, Yakou inheriting his wife's glasses, then letting Yuma inherit his WDO hat and cloak (which I rambled about extensively here) that he still wears even after leaving Kanai Ward. It's subtle moments of sweet remembrance and living on for the sake of others. Carrying the torch of those who've passed and taking their legacies with them. For the human originals, for the hitman victims, for the chief detective.

[genshingorlsrevengeance]

Could you do headcanon for M4A1, AK-15, HK416, and WA2000 with S/O saving them but it got them into a coma and have amnesia

(GFL) M4A1, AK-15, HK416, and WA2000's S/O having amnesia

Apparently the case of amnesia we see in video games and whatnot are 99% of the time temporary, and only in extreme cases of trauma are permanent. Learned something new today!

M4 would have rather gotten shot than hear the question her S/O asked.

(S/O) "W-Who...are you?"

She is absolutely devastated when the medical officers tell her that S/O had suffered amnesia. They had shoved her into cover as they were caught in a explosion that sent them flying.

She was already blaming herself, but now it went doubly so now they had forgotten who even they were.

They don't even remember working for Griffin, which made it that much harder to explain what situation they were in.

She doesn't bother even trying to explain T-Dolls, or what she was, there was no need to confuse them even further.

What she does do is show them pictures of AR Team and S/O together, in a vain hope to help them remember faster.

(M4A1) "Are you feeling alright, S/O?"

(S/O) "A-A little. Thank you for always stopping by and trying to help me. It can't be easy."

(M4A1) "Truth be told...It's not. But even if there's some slim chance you can regain your memories from me speaking with you, then I'm taking it.

She has the other members of AR Team drop by to see if that doesn't help.

They lost their memories because of her. For a T-Doll, that was the same as getting killed.

It was her responsibility and new mission to make sure they get it back.

She won't stop until her lover is back in her arms.

15 fails to hide her shock when S/O looks at her with unfamiliar eyes.

(S/O) "E-Excuse me...where am I?"

(AK-15) "Amnesia...?"

She was surprised their injury was so severe that amnesia had formed. She immediately has the medics try to find the issue with their brain, before realizing she was scaring S/O.

15 moves to hold their hand but stops herself, remembering that to them, she was a stranger.

(AK-15) "...Pardon me."

She understands their injury in a logical way. There was a chance they would not remember, but there was a high likelihood they'd remember after several weeks.

15 tries her absolute best not to panic or stress about S/O. She falters here and there everytime she goes to speak to them.

She knows its a waste of time to ask if they remember, since she'd know when they'd get their memories back.

Instead she appears whenever the medics try to help them jog their memory, never forcing anything upon S/O.

Though she feels its a personal failure on her part. She's supposed to be the best of the best, and she was saved by a human.

And 15's failure costed her S/O.

(AK-15) "I will be here with you however long it takes, S/O. This is my responsibility as well."

416 is paralyzed when S/O fails to recognize her.

It was her fault that they had become like this, all because she got too cocky, and S/O had to save her.

It stung her pride, but most of all her metaphorical heart shattered, realizing she had taken S/O for granted.

She was completely at a loss, no coy words her sharp tongue could throw out at them or anyone else.

416 doesn't sugarcoat the truth with S/O, speaking as plainly as she can.

(HK416) "You don't remember me, but know this. You mean a lot to me, and I mean a lot to you. I don't care what we do, we're getting your memories back one way or another."

She's surprised when the rest of 404 wants to help her with S/O, considering this was a personal problem.

But she thanks them inside her heart. She wasn't sure if she could do this alone.

WA's eyes fill with tears when S/O's once loving gaze stares at her with confusion.

(WA2000) "You...don't remember me?"

(S/O) "I-I'm sorry but...I don't."

She knows there's no one to blame but herself. She wasn't checking her surroundings, and S/O paid the price for her mistake.

As much as the resentment for herself grew, she put it aside. S/O needed her more than ever.

She completely throws out her pride, trying anything to get S/O back, begging Springfield and the Commander for help.

In S/O's presence, her usual tsundere words are completely absent. She was going to save that when S/O got their memories back.

(WA2000) "You moron...If you don't get your memories back I-...I-I..."

She mutters these words to herself, not wanting to think about the alternative.

[solarsleepless]

hello all

basically, i'm going to be watching bsc episodes and listing down the autistic traits i see in kristy. i may have a bonus part for the other girls but i'm mainly going to be focusing on kristy as she is my favourite.

without further ado, let's do this

Episode 1

right off the bat we get the line "I was doing the most talking, as per usual." autistic people have a tendency to dominate conversations or to "monologue"

also, mary anne is kristy's only friend at the very beginning. most autistic people find it challenging to make any new friends, both due to any communicative issues and because they don't want to change up their routine. kristy is clearly just fine with having only mary anne as a friend, which is shown in later episodes

"it was boiling in there, like surface of venus levels hot and he just kept droning on and on" autistic people are wayyy more prone to sensory issues than most other people, and that can include temperature, especially if they start sweating, which for many people causes sensory distress. autistic people also find it hard to concentrate for a myriad of possible reasons, including filtering out information our brains deem 'irrelevant' even if they're not

"If he was such a genius, why didn't he say all people?" autistic people tend to have a strong sense of justice and a black and white view of things, having very clear ideas of what is right and wrong in their head. yes, kristy's a feminist, but her willingness to correct him without a care for manners reads as autistic to me

"except apparently, i raised my voice, and didn't raise my hand." manners, even well remembered ones like raising your hand, can sometimes be forgotten by autistic people if it's something they're passionate about: in this case, kristy's need for correction and fairness overrode that

"[the boys in the back are] wiping sweat on each other, but somehow, i'm the disruptive one" autism in AFABs is often seen as being rude or disruptive despite them often just being passionate about the subject. also, sensory issues again?

"claudia and mary anne and i used to hang out all the time. but that was before claudia decided she was more into boys and clothes than us." another example of how kristy has had very few people in life she considers friends and has stuck with them for most of her life. also, possible rejection sensitive dysphoria made kristy see it as bigger than it actually is, because they seem to be fine when they interact, like nothing happened

in the next scene, we see kristy helping david michael with a puzzle. puzzles are often enjoyed by autistic people due to being structured, logical, visual and with a clear end, all of which are treasured aspects of things for autistic people.

stimming!!! lots of stimming. when explaining her new concept which she has clearly quickly hyperfixated on, we see her pacing and fidgeting with her hands as well as gesturing. also, having a strong moral code and wanting to put in effort for kids to be happy

she seems pretty startled when stacey appears, and is a little upset when it's obvious claudia has told her about the club idea: autistic people find it hard to find their footing after their expectations of how something would go are thrown off, but kristy's new hyperfixation overrules this change of plans

even though her need to infodump and talk about this new idea made her not lose her cool, she's visibly still unsure when stacey suggests things. even afterwards, she tries to... "villainize" feels to strong a word, but tries to make reasons for why she disliked her even though it's obvious she was just taken off guard

"maybe new people weren't an invading force to be repelled at all costs" here we get to see how much kristy detests change—even when it's beneficial, she'd rather stick with one or two friends. pay special attention to the wording: "at all costs". kristy will always try and evade change

another sign of her intolerance for change is how much she just dislikes watson, even though he seems like a nice guy. she doesn't want to accept that he is going to a fixture in their lives because it will mean that her family will change a lot, at least in her view (though i will say she has a lot of abandonment issues and trauma from her dad leaving her which shifts her perception on any guy her mom dates)

also from here on out i think we can see a clear hyperfixation on business and law, judging by her attitude and comments later on about the club

this whole dinner scene just feels very autistic to me: she takes what her mother says about "feeling okay about it" very literally and bulldozes any attempt of conversation. she is not okay about the idea of her mother marrying watson and she doesn't understand the social cue of her being more gentle about it. she genuinely doesn't understand why her mom would ask about it if she, in kristy's perspective, was not going to listen to her, when kristy is the one not listening to her over a misunderstanding.

this might be more of a me thing, but kristy trying to send her mom an email to apologize just feels really autistic to me, as it resonates hard with me and what i've done in the past. i used to leave messages in google translate for my parents to apologize. idk but its worth looking at

"i'm bossy, get used to it" shows that not only is she fairly controlling, but she's also aware of this fact. i couldn't find much research on this, but many autistic people are bossy or controlling so they know what to expect and so that things go exactly to plan.

kristy's lack of tact and sense with the phone. just. that.

claudia remarks that she's starting to remember why she stopped hanging out with kristy so much—because she's controlling and "bossy". this is partially due to feeling like everything that happened with her dad was out of her control and so it intensified the shittier he became, combined with that, autistic people can tend to come off as too much. also, rejection sensitive dysphoria—stares off into the distance and doesn't talk.

autistic people tend to be very trusting of others, taking lots of what they say at face value, and struggling to comprehend why someone would lie to them. despite only knowing stacey for a short amount of time and not even completely liking her, she's devastated when it turns out stacey was lying to them.

"this whole situation has spiralled out of my control, and that's a feeling i really, really hate." same points that have been made above—absolute control over what happens when they're involved is a big thing for autistics so they know completely what's going on. add on her trauma about her absent father, and it makes sense why she acts the way she does.

more about the trust!! she trusts stacey to not only know about her hyperfixation but also to be directly involved in it—that's a really big deal for us autistics!! it means we Trust you!!

more hammering in about kristy's control issues. i'm glad i've only seen One (1) fic demonizing her for it but at the same time that's one too many

kristy being just. so blunt. i love her. "you're controlling my THOUGHTS now?" "yes." a lot of autistic people don't see any reason to not be honest most of the time.

is just. dead serious about the "i should resign before i'm impeached".

more bluntness!! "when mary anne gets scared at something you think is silly, do you make fun of her and call her a baby?" "yeah, sometimes." "oh. but you're still her best friend, right?" "yes." but also, bluntness isn't always a bad thing. kristy just casually throws in the "i love you" because she thinks it at that moment and means it, so she sees no reason not to say it because it's true.

more finding it easier to say stuff like "thank you" over text than in person, just like the "i'm sorry" earlier

additional notes:

mary anne is autistic too!! we see her stimming, though, stroking the end of her braid during her convo abt the club with stacey, kristy and claudia. also her just letting kristy speak a lot feels autistic but idk how to explain it. also, she's good with visual organization, such as keeping things orderly in a google docs and writing minutes. i feel like she'd rather her do it than anyone else, that way she can help the club and make it easier for her to concentrate on the club itself. also, stacey and even claudia, her childhood best friend, both remark that she doesn't speak a lot. she definitely isn't nonverbal, but she absolutely lets people talk over hers and seems to find it more comfortable to not speak, at least early on. i could only find stuff for nonspeaking and nonverbal autistics, but i've had several periods where it wasn't uncomfortable to speak, but i was much more comfortable not speaking, which i think might be the case for mary anne, though it could be a mark of her simply not knowing what to add.

claudia CLEARLY has adhd!! she doodles and fidgets a lot, and many adhders turn out to be artists due to their creativity and excess energy that they expel via doodling. she draws on her shoes, and the teacher remarks that she "wouldn't want another failed quiz on your average", indicating her struggle with school, which we see even more of in the coming episodes, and people with adhd tend to have poor academic perfomance, mainly for their struggle with executive dysfunction skills.

claudia also spells "prety grate" instead of "pretty great" in her email to kristy. judging by this and later scenes in the series, it's possible she has dyslexia and/or dyscalculia, which has been reported to more or less have a 25% comorbidity with adhd

janine is also pretty obviously autistic-coded; her room is very dimly lit, she hardly ever leaves it, has flat affect, doesn't pick up much on claudia's social cues, has a special interest in computer and tech and whatnot, has a very extensive vocabulary, and butts in on conversations with her advice without asking before leaving after they get what she's saying

and that's it for episode 1 !!!! tell me what you think, and i'll see you all with part 2 very soon :)

[inventors-fair]

Darn Good Duplicates: Modified Copies Runners Up!

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Our runners up this week are @corporalotherbear, @hypexion, and @melancholia-ennui!

@corporalotherbear — Warped Reflection

Simple, but effective. Excellent use of kicker, too, because while a slightly more expensive Clone effect is perfectly serviceable, you're really after the effect of paying the full seven mana. Getting an improved copy that does away with the original is quite good, and I love it as a sort of callback to good old Evil Twin. Good catch putting "another" in the ability as well, to avoid weird corner cases where the target is removed some other way and the token is forced to kill itself. It's solid, it's strong, it's cool, I really like it.

@hypexion — Scream Tear

So, from what I've managed to glean, the name was intended to be a play on screen tearing, specifically because of Duskmorn's glitch ghosts and their association with television screens. I admit I didn't really get that on first viewing, but it still felt perfectly evocative even without that knowledge. A rift like a tear in the surface of reality that emits a noise comparable to screaming still makes perfect sense in my brain. This is a very neat twist on an Oblivion Ring, adding a really interesting dynamic. On the one hand, being able to leverage whatever creature you've imprisoned yourself is strong, but the fact that the enchantment itself transformed means that you have to put it at more of a risk of removal or death in combat to fully take of advantage of it, which threatens to release whatever's under it. There's a lot of nuance here for both players when it comes how to approach it, and that's my favorite kind of card.

@melancholia-ennui — The Notorious Snatcher

So, immediately, I'm a bit dubious about the use of "The" in the name here. It's not legendary, so how many The Notorious Snatchers could there possibly be? At any rate, funny how Afterglow keeps coming up, eh? Good to see you're still experimenting with it. This definitely feels like a design enabled by Afterglow rather than just showing it off, and it's also uniquely Afterglow. After all, getting a second copy of this effect is quite strong, but the interesting part is that it actually makes the creature more vulnerable to being removed, which therefore makes the effect less powerful. I'm a bit dubious of the Afterglow cost being white, however, just because I'm not entirely sure monowhite should have access to this kind of effect if they manage to dump this straight to the graveyard. I'd be interested to hear the logic behind it, certainly.

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That's about it. As usual, I'll be taking requests for additional commentary in our Discord. See you there! —@spooky-bard

[hislittleraincloud]

More proof that Wyler is garbage and Wyler people are gross...there was a promising gifset of a S2 AU where the creator has Joel Glicker enter Nevermore and starts dating Wednesday (😃😃😃😃😃), but then the whole thing revolves around Tyler TURNING INTO A STALKER like this:

Because having a violent stalker who threatens your boyfriend IS SO FUCKING SEXY AMIRITE? Surely even Netflix Wednesday would find someone threatening to kill someone she likes/loves HOT, right, because she reacts so well to assholes threatening the people she loves. My hope for that 'story' is that Wednesday would protect Joel with her life, given that she opened herself up enough to actually date him and love on him publicly as shown in the other gifs in the set (which I love, those are brilliant).

I don't really have beef with the creator of the gifset, its story potential is excellent, so long as Wednesday serves up Tyler's comeuppance for trying to kill her. (By that time, his Hyde brain had already taken full hold, with all of his gaslighting 'romantic' pretenses dropped.) However, unfortunately since it was posted by a Wyler stan, I don't think its story would be going in that logical direction, since it seems like they're tryna romanticize his stalking.

But that's not the half of it...the rest is in the comment replies about Joel and it makes me sick

You're fucking 🗑️

ABSOLUTE 🗑️

Fuck that monster.

Stalking in the manner that is portrayed in that potential storyline is not a positive thing. It's not sexy. It's villainous, and it turns Tyler into a full-on villain. (Jesus, he ain't even cute! He's the type of 'teen heartthrob' that mag editors have been foisting on tasteless teen girls for decades, only for the girls to grow up, reflect, and say "WTAF was I thinking?"...like Kirk Cameron...not really cute either, but the lot of us who thought he was just facepalm at our own embarrassing teenie bopper lack of taste. Plus, Tyler LOOKS like his Hyde 🤢**) And Joel did absolutely nothing to deserve that. Joel is to be protected at all costs.

My guess is that none of y'all ever had an actual DV situation where there was a stalker. I have. It's part of that whole attempted murder accusation. That bitch stalked me. Stalked AND kidnapped me from our school at knifepoint. She threatened to murder my cat. She broke into my house and chased me with a fucking butcher's cleaver. I WAS 15 YEARS OLD. It was not fun or entertaining, and it ruined my life as it was back then.

Anyway. Yeah that was triggering to me, given my experience w a stalker (and actually, I had two stalkers at the time...yeah, high school was hilarious 😒). But violent, threatening stalkers are bad and TLDR: Joel is Wednesday's first canon kiss, and she liked him. Don't ever come for Joel, or I'll come for you.

**On the flip side, Xavier/Percy is odd looking too, but he's got the type of face that fits with the oddness of Addams Family lore. He is very unconventionally attractive, while Tyler/Hunter is the definition of mid.

[tessabennet]

So. *wiggles eyebrows* You're saying if I ask real nice, you'll give me ALL the spoilers? I'm SO VERY tempted right now to ask a million questions and have you spoil the shit out of your own fic. 👀

But where's the fun in that? So much of the excitement of reading the series is in finding out how you're going to deal with certain events/characters/canon fuck-ups and how you're ultimately going to turn this ship around.

So, I will refrain (so generous of me, I know!). Still, if you feel so inclined, can I ask 25 & 35 for the ask game?

Also, since I'm writing this in a sort of vegetative state from my sickbed (yes, please pity me, thank you!), can I ask for a line/snippet from one of the future parts, pretty please?

Thank you!🥰

Noo, J, sorry to hear you're sick. Hope it's nothing too serious 😧

Your restraint is greatly appreciated btw, I know how hard it must be 😜😁 So, here we go with the asks:

25. What is a weird, hyper-specific detail you know about one of your characters that is completely irrelevant to the story?

Bucky's favourite drink is a Mamie Taylor. He never much got to drink it, because the places they usually went to before the war didn't really do cocktails (more like beer and hard liquor, you know?) He rediscovered it in the 21st century, by which point it had also become Steve's favourite - because, well, nowadays the drink is called a Buck.

35. What’s your favorite writing rule to smash into smithereens?

Write what you know is the obvious answer. Like... no? Sir, this is comic book logic. I'm no brain surgeon or neurologist, I'm going on pretentious name dropping and wikipedia alone. I've only been to a tiny fraction of all the places I name in the series; I only know Brooklyn by google maps street view. I never once ran an international intelligence agency or worked as a black ops agent. How the fuck would I ever write anything if it was just me and my life experience??

The other thing I've seen as ""advice"" before is to not use semicolons. Which, fuck that. You can pry those from my cold dead hands because I need them and we're bound for live, it's a love story, etc etc.

As for the snippet you asked for, of course you'll get one! A long one even, right under the cut. It's from the latest chapter I wrote, only just this morning.

I really hope you'll feel better very soon!! Gute Besserung ❤️‍🩹

Because Steve moved back to the Heights. Once he'd found the place, he knew there wouldn't be another choice. He's just a few streets away from the place where, before the war, he was the happiest. Just a few block away from his and Bucky's old place.

A few years ago he probably wouldn't have been willing to pay for his new place. Able, maybe, but too stubborn to give in to the insane prices that a place in Brooklyn will cost in this century.

Except the prices have gone way down since the Snap. Fewer people in the world means fewer people with the kind of money that can afford a condo like this. In fact, the apartment Steve got here is probably way below the kind of place he could afford. He started realising way back when he first moved to DC that there's a whole new world of apartments that he could afford, way more luxurious than this one. He never cared for that shit, and he's not starting now.

This condo's more than enough, really. It's a quiet street, relatively speaking. It's only a short way to work. He's close to Cadman Plaza, which opened in 1939, when he and Bucky were still living in Montague Street. It feels familiar. Steve sometimes goes by the War memorial on his way home. Somehow, that feels way more sincere than the showy statue of Captain America in Prospect Park. After all, Captain America never lived in Brooklyn; he never set foot in it, not really. In Brooklyn, Steve's ever only been some guy. A mouthy one, yes, but nothing special.

Bucky would disagree on this. But that's not the point.

[sociallyawkwardsociety]

"Everything Happens for A Reason" My take on what is going on and what this has always gone on!

This is my crazy or not so crazy take on what’s going and what has gone on for time and it's the most logical explanation that works for me.

We are having a Polar shift; hence the earth is getting hotter, no climate change as we know it, this is a natural occurrence where the Earth’s Magnetic field weakens, sometimes completely flips. This in turns means Earth and everything on it is subject to harmful Cosmic Rays, hence why radiation medicine is being developed, energy weapons, Atlantis type monopolises are being built in Saudi and China, Psychedelic’s are being synthetically altered to help people cope with the coming changes. I will be adding to the listed categories to back up and look deeper into each concept. I ask myself why and where did this epiphany come from so much that I feel a sense of exploring and sharing my views.

The famous Triangle, a triangle of three - Elon Musk (Alien)Space X. Elon and the non vaxed are off to hang out in the Atmosphere, like Noah, he takes all living organisms and genetic coding of h all the creatures that we need to balance the ecosystem, drip feeding it but by bit to Earth when it is safe to inhabit again, he is the alien “god”, or really a former citizen of the previous Polar Shits…… stay with me!

The Bloomsburg bunch, our friends and nemesis’, Bill Gates, Jeff Bezos & Mark Zukerberg, are off to the Kingdom of Saudi Arabia where #NEOM, Saudi's Super Town project is being constructed. This has a time scale to be completed by 2039 ( wow I’ll be 60 years young then). Why in the desert? Well because Sand has properties that can protect from Cosmic radiation. Ol’ Bill Gates bailed out Alwaleed, a Saudi Arabian billionaire businessman, investor, philanthropist and Royal from being a prisoner of the state and now is basically Gates' monkey. This is of course an in route for the Psychopaths to build a 75-mile-long mirror-encased Line skyscraper, with a cost of $1 TRILLON DOLLAR. This futuristic city with tropical rainforest and an abundance of luxuries is designed to see this community see out the cosmic storms and until we have a fully protective magnetic field again.

Let’s not forget the Chineses /Mongolians ( maybe Russians and Trump) and the modern Ming Dynasty, they will settle in the “ghost” cities in China, these construction were built for a purpose, with American money?? Well that doesn't make sense!

This is all about survival of the fittest, the Higher Archy it has been their legacy, to live in such a" bubble" in their cities of Atlantis, with the Outlaws AKA you and me, destroying each other as resources run out and desperation to survive takes over…human instinct, animal instinct, each and every living organism’s instinct!!!

Every part of the East /West / Alien triangle are storing food, medicine, salt, water, fuels etc, so each entity can survive the cosmic radiation for 300-1000 years until the protective magnetic force across the world restores.

However, good old Elon and the Space X (are from the future) are they are the time travellers? This sequence hasn’t happened once in time, it's in and been a continuous cycle hence why knowledge isn’t lost and energy never dies. We dream in the past and the future, babies dream how come? This is all extending from a week of time I had alone to truly think and tap into what is the point in life and what is actually going on?

The great Pyramids, I believe, were used as a protective hang out when the ancient civilisations had to see out the Polar Shift back then. The Mayans elite of that time, but Space X has always been, as they will always be one stage ahead and I don't know about quantum Physics but this element is along those lines, and I will be looking into this brain expanding concept and gain a better understanding and write about this, I don’t even feel mad, just yet.

This brings me onto Weather Control. This need to control weather is because of everyone having to live in a contained environment to see out the 300-1000 years of lock down. Weather is needed and although it’s developed by the ‘Elites for their Utopias ’  it will be one of the only things that will benefit the Cave men who have burrowed into the depths of Caves ..

Wind is needed - Sandstorms, did you know sand can protect from cosmic rays! It will keep the air moving in the coming volatile climate. Rain of course because water would run out and also to dampen down the radioactive dust in the atmosphere.

Keeping the cycle going, genetic coding and primal instincts, once we die we die, but every cell that is reproduced from us, our parents, children for generation is our real identity and binary code so that’s why it will always be what it will always be, if that makes Sense and whatever we go through is leading us to the next cycle for infinity.

I haven’t got a clue if this is anywhere near how it is, but this makes sense to me, and that is healing in itself. I don’t feel any animosity in my life as it really is all so insignificant in the great circle of life and that’s the only thing that is round. We are all just trying to survive, and everything does happen for a reason ...we may not have been here as physical beings before but us like our muscle memory that lives in cells so does brain and emotional and characteristic genetic memory. I’m quite excited to see if we get to live like outlaws Mad Max style or it’s a big load of bollocks but by the goose bumps that resonated from drawing a conclusion then I’d love to think I have a grasp of the bigger picture.

Please read through my other articles and send any comments or requests on what you would like to read about me via the contact link. 

Be safe, be lucky and blessed… keep it real, we aren’t physically here for a longtime.

[botchallthethings]

Thanks for the support! I really appreciate it <3

Unfortunately this makes me sound terribly cold-hearted, but someone at my Club gushes over another lady who makes hats for preemies and there’s always the underlying suggestion that I, too, should make hats for preemies. There is one problem. I have no desire to do that. Whatsoever. That’s about the most boring thing I can think to make short of dishclothes.

Could I do it at an activity? Certainly. Get together once a month or every few months, crochet up as many hats as we can, chat? sure thing. On my own time, make preemie hats? Sorry, the desire button does not exist.

[the-heaminator]

👀

ATP this au is very half baked but bear with me here. Half baked in the sense that I've never done anything for it but it haunts my thoughts.

Ie the lobotomy au because nation biology is a bitch like that.

A few other thoughts that I am not coherent enough to plot out.

first off so lobotomies were particularly popular in the 40s and 50s, a time where logically Arthur would not be very stable, and like a lot of lobotomies were performed for no reason other than to make the patient more docile and less "difficult" and to an extent it does work, a lobotomy being the removal of part, or sometimes the whole of the prefrontal cortex, the part of the brain that is (to date) known to do many things, it plays a central role in cognitive control functions, and dopamine in the PFC modulates cognitive control, thereby influencing attention, impulse inhibition, prospective memory, and cognitive flexibility.

Which means that removing it makes him more docile and calmer, and supposedly gets rid if his problem of seeing things, at the rather steep cost of partial memory loss, change in personality (often very severe) loss of impulse control and high distractability.

Like this could be seen as an improvement for a short period of time, no longer is he ranting raving and talking to things that aren't there, but then he starts becoming apathetic and his usual difficulty to accept change just isn't there, as well as personality changes that could range from him becoming too trusting, almost childlike in certain aspects, to manic and quite mad, sometimes forgetting he had eaten and would keep eating more regardless.

This becomes a problem very soon because I mean just look at the above paragraphs and tell me this isn't worrying, he gets reset, and his brain heals somehow, which raises the questions of will everything go back to normal or will some of the side effects persist, like will his memory still be a bit shit for a couple decades afterwards, it could he used to explain a lot of the shit he got up to in the 60s and 70s, lack of impulse control and all that, and just hnghgg

Also how would this effect the people around him in long and shirt term.

Theres also the fact that this is what would happen if it went correctly, they used a fucking ice pick half of the time, it could easily fuck up and kill, but for the purposes of this it could hit somewhere where it most definitely shouldn't, the hypothalami or pituitary glands for example. Like I want a nation physical subject, or a cadaver I'm not choosy. But they're fictional so what do I do.

[ursbearhug]

One of the main reason I no longer try to argue with the folk who purchase The Antisemitic Fear Mongering the game, is because it's bascially talking a wall.

Every possible argument you make they strawman like their life depends on it (which it really does because the moment they realise they did something wrong is the end of all, instead of - ya know - apologise and go on do better) and the argument they do understand, will unlogic out to you until you die from brain malfunction. Like in Sims 3 when you asked another sim to divide 0 and they just set ablaze and die.

Examples? "Hey by purchasing the Fear Mongerer the game you help a billionaire racist and xenophobic trans-exlusionist ruin lives of milion other people" and they hit you with "well, there is no ethical consumption under capitalism" (strawman; they are aware that your argument is unbeatable because it warrants 5 minutes long Google search to prove that, yes, JK Rowling is indeed that horrible of a shell of human being, therefore they take the "purchase" part and decide to fight this bit because you cannot refute them)

Or the new one I see a lot on Tumblr; "well, I donated 3x the cost of the game to "Poor organisation trying their best to shelter trans folk" so my purchase of the Racist and Anti-Semitic narrative the game is justified". No, it's not. Even if every buyer, somehowly, manages to donate triple the amount of games price, we're talking about what? 600 per buyer? To a lowly organisation scrambling for money because they fight against something that most people would rather look away from? Versus a millionaire author collecting royalties? This is also a moment where I really want everyone to step into academic field and try to write 1 (one) paper that would go through the Copy Right program without a single problem on their first try and maybe, just maybe, they'd realise how royalties, copyright and copyright theft works. Also I really, really want people to understand it's not The Witcher situation; where the author gives away the rights to the mark. Even if we ignore (which is pretty hard to do) JK Rowling's words about "folk who helps Harry Potter, help me" (or whatever the fuck) and treat that just as a "I don't want to feel horrible so I'm saying words", she still racks up obscene cash from people who's reading capabilities didn't evolve past 1st grader or are so hung up on their childhood and unable to let go. Bitches will make fun of people for buying and being invested in Pokemon and have "uwu I'm such a ravenclaw" in their profile bio and not a single spark between their last remaining braincells would be ignited in the spawn of this event. You're not ravenclaw, you're just an imbecile.

And even when you go neck deep into the issue of the game being antisemitic and not actually transphobic, they'll still manage to use their lack of common sense which can and will numb you into state of unconsciousness.

It would be easier, and better, if they just straight up admit they don't care and would rather play the poor (not really considering the price tag) man's version of Dark Souls but with wands and magic and Harry Potmaker veneer. I would have lesser beef with that because at least we're being transparent and honest, instead of making weird hills to die on that make zero sense and make all the logic roll in its grave. Like, really, just say you'd rather pay for this game and play it with 0 critical thinking involved and be done with it. It will not lesser the bullying some folks are willing to go with, but it will lessen the headache you're inflicting with your absolute lack of awareness and empathy.

[i-love-love]

I know this is a joke, but in case anyone perusing the notes is looking for actual advice I figured l'd chime in with an unreasonably long manifesto. (My credentials, if they matter to you, are a minor in creative writing and being 25% of the way through my MFA, as well as being a published poet!)

Write a lot. All the time. 60-80% of it will be bad (even more at first). The remaining 20-40% is what makes it worth it. I know everyone and their grandmother says this, but don't roll your eyes — they all say it because it is, unfortunately, true. And because it took me a while to figure this out: you're going to write a lot of poems that are almost entirely bad with one little nugget of brilliance and poems that are mostly genius but they're glued together with gross mud. A big part of getting better is figuring out A) the difference and B) how to separate the brilliance from the slop.

Also, unfortunately, if you want to write good poetry you do have to read a lot. Mix it up— old stuff, new stuff, ~important~ poetry, Instagram poetry, stuff you like, stuff you don’t like. All of it is helpful. BUT there’s a secret part of this, and it’s that you have to think about the poetry you read too. Skill doesn’t just enter your brain through osmosis (actually I guess it kind of does, but it’s a terribly slow process). The main functions of reading to better your writing are 1.) you find out what your options are in terms of stuff you could try, 2.) you find out what you hate, and 3.) you find out what you like. Figure out what’s really working and what isn’t. For my grad program we have to write 20-40 pages of specific analysis every few months— for each book on your reading list, you write an essay analyzing exactly one specific craft element. Examples of ones I’ve done recently are how consonance contributes to meaning and tone in The Raven, Whitman’s strategies for imagery in section 15 of Song of Myself, functions of metrical changes in The Tempest, efficacy of the points of view in Carol Anne Duffy’s The World’s Wife, contrast in Amy Gerstler’s The Soul Looks Down on the Body, and narrative tension in Ross Gay’s Spoon. Now, I’m not saying you need to write a five page essay for every poem you read (although if you feel like it, go nuts, it can’t hurt you), but thinking very critically about how different elements of craft and technique work (or don’t) in the stuff you’re reading will help you understand how to use those techniques in your own work.

Which leads me into my next point— technique!! I am of the belief that poetry is the most unfair genre to work hard to master, because every single person on planet earth can write a good poem purely on accident. It's surprisingly easy to stumble into brilliance. This can make you a bit bitter if, say, you pay a university the cost of a luxury car in order to learn how to write really good poetry. However, study isn't pointless, because it teaches you how to reliably write multiple good poems. This is because you gain an understanding of technique, which is how you transform a cool idea into an engaging piece of writing. Learn it. Love it. Find out what tools you can put in your toolbox and how to use them individually and together. Here's a super non-comprehensive list of techniques and elements you might consider learning how to manipulate:

Rhyme (end rhyme, internal rhyme, slant rhyme, visual rhyme)

Assonance, consonance

Meter

The line (length, enjamoment, end stops, stanza breaks, consistency vs variance, caesura)

Imagery (sensory, metaphors and similes, tenor and vehicle)

Forms (there are too many to list here, but examples are sonnet, haiku, sestina, etc.)

Punctuation

Avoiding abstraction

Internal logic

Narrative (plot arc, character roles, tension, resolution, really any techniques you can find in narrative-based forms of writing)

Repetition

Title

Point of view

Endings and beginnings (of lines, sentences, stanzas, the piece as a whole)

Next up— work with others. I loved college workshops because I had a really spectacular professor, but I know that's not everyone's experience. At any rate, share your writing with other people— and try to get a variety! In undergrad, I only felt satisfied with my work when it was successful with three audiences: 1) poets who were stronger writers than me (prof, classmates), 2) writers who weren't as strong as me yet (other classmates), and 3) people who knew nothing about poetry (friends and loved ones). There were things I could learn from all three! They helped me to spot what was working well, what wasn't work as well as l'd hoped, problems I wasn't even aware of, solutions for problems I could figure out, connections to other works (mine and others'), and ways I could improve upon all of the above. In a writing group you also get the benefit of helping other people with their work. Pedagogical theory has a ton of info on why, but basically you learn best through teaching the material to others. You get way more effective with using simile (for example) in your own writing if you're able to explain why your peer's use of it is successful or unsuccessful, and help them figure out what would improve it. Another perk is that you can make friends :)

Recommendation number 5: read craft books. Many of these unfortunately are very redundant, because they'll generally try to cover a lot of the same basic ground in case you haven't heard it before, but it's still worth it to read a variety because they often have additional advice/info which you don't find in all the others. My favorite is The Poet's Companion by Kim Addonizio and Dorianne Laux, and I know another very popular one is The New York Writer's Workshop's Portable MFA in Creative Writing. This is kind of a fast track to learning technique— you get a lot out of analyzing other poems, workshopping, and experimenting on your own, but books like this do a lot of the hard work of figuring out what's going on and explaining it to you. It's not a substitute, but it's a great supplement.

Additionally— revise a ton. Most of writing successful poetry is not actually writing but editing. Many writers receive a lightning flash and immediately scribble down an entire poem. Usually this has a lot of great components but needs significant refinement to take it from a brain blast to a finished piece. Perfect sonic technique, tension, imagery, clarity, line, etc. rarely all arrive at the same time as inspiration. (The cool part though is that as you endlessly practice all of the above, more and more of these techniques will appear accidentally in your first drafts!) The revision process is typically where you end up utilizing all that craft stuff you've been working so hard on from the earlier tips on this list.

Moving on from the general overview type advice, here are some rapid fire tips for people who enjoy writing poetry but want to take it to the next level:

I'm a grade-A bitch when it comes to this one but PLEASE, for the love of god, abandon the no capitalization/no punctuation gambit. It was cute when e e cummings did it, but it's no longer original and very rarely if ever serves to add depth, meaning, clarity, or interest, especially for newer writers who are just doing it for the vibes.

Show, don't tell. Stay away from abstractions, and replace them with concrete images. "Life can be scary" or "I feel sad" don't take your reader anywhere- extrapolating on the evidence, sensations, results, etc make your piece much more engaging. For proof, check out the poems Good Bones by Maggie Smith and Mid Term Break by Seamus Heaney, which both respectively address those abstractions I mentioned in a much more interesting way.

Get opinionated about other people's writing!Old and new! (Myself? I love the Romantics, but I can't stand the Beat poets. I think Siken is one of the most brilliant writers the world has ever seen, and I think Jos Charles writes some of the stupidest, most fart-sniffing drivel ever published.) This helps you zero in on what you do and don't like, which helps with A) finding more poetry you want to read, and B) refining what you focus on in your own writing. It also enables you to participate in dialogue with the poetic community.

Next time you can't figure out what's going wrong in a poem, go in deep and force yourself to justify everything. Every word. Every punctuation mark. Every line break. Every image. Every bit of sound play like rhyme and alliteration. Every single thing. Explain why each and every one is necessary to the poem as a whole, and cut out or change everything you can't clearly detail a function for. This exercise is a pain in the ass and you have to be willing to be brutally honest with yourself, but it really helps.

Try out writing a poem every day for as long as you can manage. They will not all be good. Many will likely go into your "crappy first drafts" folder and never see the light of day again. This exercise rocks though because it gets easier and easier to come up with something on the spot every day, and it gives you a gigantic pile of drafts you can start to refine into workable, quality pieces.

Consider enrolling in a course or certificate program through a college, rec center, or writing institute. Having a good fit with the instructor and other students is important, but you'll likely learn a lot.

So! No one asked me for any of that and it is very long, but nobody ever accused me of brevity. Anyway— go forth. Learn about stuff. Write a bunch of bad poetry until it turns into good poetry!

people who write poetry are so scary literally how the fuck did you do that

[princesscatstronaut]

cool just all of my greatest fears at once awesome love that for me

so my heat hasn't been working for a few days. another relevant fact is that my apartment is a huge depression hole of messiness and trash. so before I called the maintenance folks, I wanted to have things more cleaned than they currently are. another relevant fact is that my lungs are so deconditioned bc of the multiple (and sometimes bi-yearly) bouts of pneumonia that I got during grad school due to stress. cleaning and/or taking out the trash is really hard and now I'm somewhat disabled and need help with these tasks. I hadn't started getting someone to come cleaner for me, bc I had just started at my job and wanted to save a little before that. but now that my heater needs fixed, there's no time.

to be logical, I have no data that says anyone at the management company for my building cares at all about how messy my apartment is. I've lived here 7 years and have always paid rent on time. but in the rental situation I was in before this apartment, I was renting from a private individual who threatened to evict me bc of not cleaning enough. I managed to clean enough that they had no problem renewing me for another year, so it must not've been that bad. either way it was a huge shame and I have landlord trauma about it. being seen as so messy that I shouldn't even be rented to, this is one of my greatest fears.

so when I placed the maintenance request last night, I assumed it would take a day and that I would have a little time to redd up more. however, the maintenance person came within an hour of posting it so I had to frantically make a path to the furnace. and then when he asked if there was a clear space in the bedroom for a space heater (so that it wouldn't catch fire), I couldn't provide one. and since I've been living with the temp at 61F for a few days, I have plenty of blankets so I'm fine with it. one more ping of shame. the guy then called the hvac guy and they're supposed to come around this afternoon.

the minimum I want to get done before they come around is to clean the little boxes and the bathroom. other than that, I'm not going to push it. I still have to work today, after all. I have to get a summary slide deck to our collaborators by the end of the day and have lab meeting around 3. I will have all of the analysis done in about an hour, then I just need to figure out how to interpret the results. but I think I can get that done by 3, so I'm not super worried about that. the hard part (running this program that I've been fighting with for 2 weeks), I did yesterday. luckily I'm so good at bash scripting that I can run all of this stuff in a script and do work *WHILE* I have a major panic attack about how messy my apartment is.

so yeah. last night was all fight-or-flight. didn't sleep super well. haven't taken my brain meds yet. haven't started working on the bathroom yet. my work-work is in progress and seems to be going well. I think that's pretty well automated at this point.

I woke up early-ish so that I could have time to clean a little, but now that I'm working on work stuff, I don't want to stop and do something else, even if it is automated. hopefully they can fix the furnace today, its supposed to be like 15F outside next week, and I don't know if the ambient temp will be warm enough to keep the pipes from freezing.

but this panic made me realize that I need help to get this cleaning taken care of. and yes it'll cost money, but I do have a decent income now. and with the new money coming in every month, I can make this happen. a few years ago, I had a cleaning company come around and dispose of a lot of cardboard and trash that I couldn't take out bc of my lung issues and occasionally my bad knee. they were really kind and fast. it costed a bit of money but it was well worth it. I'm going to call them to come around again. normally they work with hoarders and so they have to go through every item to see if the person wants to keep it or not. I'm not a hoarder though, so I bag everything up that needs to go out and then they take it out and bing-bang-boom, we're done. I'm like an anti-hoarder, I know what I want to keep and toss, I just don't have a body that lets me do that easily anymore.

as I said, I have no indications that the rental company would evict me for the messiness. but my internal shame about it is so high, and my past landlord trauma, that these facts are not registering very well. if they do ping me, I think I should have some amount of time to make it better. like a week would be enough, I think? and I can ask for accommodations for my disability in the form of the time I need to get cleaners to come help. or, worse comes to worse, I make enough money now that I can just get a different apartment and call movers. I don't have a backup apartment ready, but I think it would be possible. probably very expensive right now, but what can I do about that. but I hope it won't come to that. we'll see. hopefully the hvac guy won't care that much. and if the landlord does get mad, its not like I'm damaging anything that's a permanent fixture, its all *my* stuff that's gross, so like, whatever.

so yeah, its basically all of my fears all at once and I'm trying not to panic, but its not working very well. the cleaning tasks I want to do before the hvac guy gets here should take less than an hour, so it won't be that bad. and then I can focus on work. bc that's what pays the bills.

[mod-maki]

Idk if I can request again, but I’ll try it out.

If I can, may I have Makoto, Hajime and Nagito with an S/O who acts like Junko? The crazy personalities, the insane mindset, has zero logic but is actually very intelligent, talks about despair a ton, a//bus3s her sister, all that stuff.

(Not really) Plot twist!: Their S/O is just super bored with life and wants something entertaining, even if it costs their own life.

Again, if you want to decline this or anything, that’s okay. Take your time and remember to take care of yourself!

-ymlmb anon

I’m glad you tuned back in, Ymlmb anon. This request seemed nice. <3

(Also should I start adding cute pictures for the characters I write? I’m seeing everyone else do it and it got me thinking.)

Makoto, Hajime, and Nagito W/ a Junko-like S/O.

Makoto Naegi

Pretty much is unable to calm you down in the beginning of your relationship.

You’re messing with his brain! All of the despair talk and switching personalities in just 5 seconds drives him insane!

He wouldn’t express how much you make him crazy though. He’d just show exhaustion from your chaos.

He loves you so much, but he’d do anything to atleast try to change your ways.

But..he’d probably fail. So the best he could do is just refrain from getting you and the others hurt.

“Oh..You’re just bored.” Makoto scratches his head.

He would take you to amusement parks, arcades, all that stuff!

He loves going on rollercoasters! Even if he’s very afraid to go on extreme ones, he’d do it if you’d enjoy it (..maybe)!

Even if he strongly disagrees with your views, he still loves you!

Hajime Hinata

“..My God..”

He can’t look away for a second without you lighting literally everything and anything on fire.

He surely gets upset with you. He can’t handle the thought of you enjoying despair.

Why would they? You should start making sense, S/O!

But deep down, he knows he can’t change your thought process. It’s upsetting to think about but it’s true.

Very much like Makoto, he really wants to keep both you and the rest safe. He doesn’t want any harm being done.

To keep you entertained and busy, he brings you…

*Drum roll*

….Board games.

You looked bored out of your mind, so he decided to bring you to a movie theatre instead!

But that wouldn’t go well, after in the middle of a movie you decided to yell out spoilers for it.

It was something small for you, and you would usually go all out.

But the two of you ended up getting kicked out.

He was sad and slightly angry sure, but he knows that it’s just you. So in the end, he lets you have the privilege of choosing we’re to go (There are a lot of rules made by him on where to go, mind you).

Nagito Komaeda

Say sike right now.

You like being despair to others? Okay let’s see about that.

At this point, he relies on his luck more times than before.

Whenever you two are together, it’s a cycle of you creating chaos, to his luck contradicting it.

You set fire in a beautiful garden? That’s okay. Shortly after, he comes along and rain falls from the sky.

Nagito knows that his luck can go after the despair you bring. That similarly works with his luck cycle aswell.

The despair you bring can make people’s hope shine ever so brightly soon after!

Yeah, both of your guys’ brains are messed up.

He’s so upset with you being on depair’s side and he’d go to very far lengths to change that.

Every time you start rambling about despair, he’d start talking about how amazing hope is afterwards.

Think of it as a competition of persuasion.

He figured that you’re only like this because it fills your boredom.

Someone like him can’t entertain his love in anyway, right?

Well, his luck seems quite interesting to you. The way it comes so unexpectedly and how extreme it can be.

He has mixed feelings, but atleast he doesn’t have to do anything that really harms people (For the most part).

He loves you but absolutely hates your mindset. But hey, atleast he has some solutions to the problems you bring.