#and then the idea of wearing eyeliner but having like. stubble and acne

[flareguncalamity]

i’m sure someone on here has said this before, but i think cis tiktok really took “feminine in a masculine way” and ran with it without realizing that the appeal of being feminine in a masculine way to genderqueer people, especially afab genderqueer people, isn’t just looking hot or whatever. it’s specifically the discordance of being perceived as masculine and performing femininity.

Like, you see cis women on tiktok with the caption “trying to be feminine in a masculine way!” and then they’ll wear these super femmey suits with their hair back and like. that’s cool i guess? i’m glad you feel confident. but the angst that genderqueer people feel over wanting to be feminine in a masculine way is derived from how this feeling almost seems like an impossible goal. like, femininity is standard for women, so when people perceive you as a woman and you dress feminine there’s no perceived deviance at all. you’re just dressing and acting like how a woman should, according to the audience of people who see you on the street. The part you feel that you lack when you say ‘in a masculine way’ is the part where your femininity gets to be nonstandard.

there’s almost a kind of grossness to when cis men in particular do femininity. it ranges at times from “haha ironic comedy, isn’t it so WEIRD and WACKY when men wear skirts???” gross to something almost demonic (like how men wearing makeup were treated at the height of the satanic panic). there’s like, falseness. like the femininity is separate from you somehow, as a facade, and that there’s some kind of clash between the femininity and the person underneath. and i’m not saying those are good things- the opposite, it’s really, really bad that we treat gender deviance this way. but the longing for this experience as an afab genderqueer person is the longing to exist in a role that is non-normative without sacrificing the things we love about femininity, and to be able to be feminine without having that related back to some quintessential nature of your gender as determined by broader society. I honestly feel like Natalie Wynn described this really well when she said that for her, as a woman, there’s no “de-dragging” where the womanhood falls away from her and she ceases to be feminine in a way that a drag queen might after a performance is over. I think what genderqueer people want when they want to be feminine in a masculine way is to have that ability, to have their femininity be a costume that they can take off at will.

anyways all this to say that i don’t think cosplaying as modcloth-workwear girlboss is going to help me achieve my gender euphoria goal of old church ladies sneering at me in derision every time i wear a dress. although honestly that is a great idea for a drag queen character

[polyklok]

I’m gonna be posting physique/appearance headcanons for all the members first, including a version I made using this picrew! First up is our boy-

Nathan Explosion, physique/appearance

Pickles

Skwisgarr

Toki

Murderface

28 years old, though a lot of people assume he’s older

6’4, the second tallest member of the band (After Skwisgarr, obviouslies)

258 lbs and built like a wall. Very wide, low center of gravity. Sometimes jack-off fans will run into him and just…bounce back off. A fucking tank couldn’t knock this guy over.

He looks chubby, and while he is very soft, but he’s actually quite muscular underneath it. Strong boy.

His hair is perpetually greasy. He washes it regularly, he just has an oily scalp and is too lazy to fix it. He doesn’t mind.

Also, let’s be completely honest, that shits dyed. He was born with light brown hair and began dying it and growing it out as soon as he got an allowance when he was a kid. Now, he makes klokateers check it multiple times a week to make sure no brown roots are visible.

Mf scowling all the time like-

Resting bitch face? He’s got resting demon face.

Speaking of face, he’s very adamant about keeping it clean-shaven. He doesn’t like the itchiness of stubble.

I’m obsessed with him having a slight underbite! The idea is cute to me

He got gauges as a celebration for completing the first Dethklok album. He only changes them about once a month.

Fans send him lots of plugs, both bought and homemade. It goes viral in the fandom every time he changes them, ESPECIALLY if it’s something a fan custom-made. It’s considered a great honor.

He doesn’t like wearing any other pants besides jeans, extremely picky about it. He and Charles once got into a fight about wearing dress pants at a formal event (he still wore jeans).

Actually, he’s very specific on how he likes his clothes (and everything else in life) and buys at least three of something once he decides he likes it. It just so happens that his dad is the same way, so he has a lot of kooky pun-based graphic t-shirts he wears around the house that used to belong to his dad.

He wears eyeliner, paints his nails, shaves his legs, and you can’t do anything about it!

Seriously though, Nathan shaves and moisturizes his legs. He loves the smooth, clean feeling afterwards. It’s how he treats himself on his more self-conscious days.

Everywhere else is still hairy though. Hairy arms, hairy chest, hairy stomach, hairy-

He actually has a skincare routine. After starting band life, he figured he needed to clear his face up, since he had acne from oily skin. It’s nothing fancy, but it helps, and he’s very strict about sticking to it.

Even buys special face paint for the shows so it doesn’t make his acne worse.

Unlike other bands members cough cough Murderface cough cough he actually showers every morning. Right after a show, as well. He just hates feeling gross.

He gets a custom cologne made so he always smells like a mixture of blood, smoke, and…coconut?

It’s strange but it honestly really works for him.

His hands are fucking huge, could probably engulf your whole face in them.

At the same time, really soft. Soft, huge, warm hands. Like a bear’s paw. But less claws. He clips his nails every time he paints them.

Overall, very large and very special guy, 10/10, would totally recommend.

[findingthewaytohoseoksheart]

Sunshine Smile

"Why do you always hang up before you get ready for bed? I want to fall asleep with you". It wasn't a big ask. At least you didn't think it was. Why was he so embarrassed, then? (Otherwise known as: that one where Hobi has a retainer and it's cute)

Fluff/established relationship

Based on this concept I sent to @etherealmins because I needed to write it...I just needed to.

“Why do you always hang up before you get ready for bed? I want to fall asleep with you”

Hoseok paused, hand still held up to his face where he was absentmindedly playing with the starting scratches of stubble. Eyes that where looking out towards the night time view of his hotel room turning to face you through his phone screen. It was late, his hair was still damp from his after concert shower, dressed in an old black shirt and jeans, a small stain on his collar from where he had dropped his dinner moments before, making you laugh as he pretended to pout, wiping away the offending sauce with a paper napkin and making a point of wiping nonexistent tears from his eyes with it after.

This had been you routine for the last week and a half, calling each other for dinner, eating together, chatting together, even if you were miles apart. He told you about his day, you told him about yours. Sometimes the other members would join, stealing bites while he was busy talking, teasing him about how soft he became when your face popped up on that screen. But most of the time you would eat, wash your face, brush your teeth, get changed and crawl into the comfort of your sheets while he excitedly told you about how he nailed this move, how he saw this really cool fan banner or how proud his was of Jin-Hyung’s dancing. Your eyes would drop, you would slur your responses, slowly falling asleep to the lullaby of his voice. But he would alway hang up just before you fell into a peaceful slumber. He would always wish you a good night and blow you a kiss that you sleepily caught and pressed to your lips before he hung up. He never moved from his armchair, never prepared for bed, never laid down alongside you, let his eyes drop as you left your phones to run out of battery, silently filming sleeping figures to no one. And you didn't understand why.

His life was a busy one. The rare occasions he could spend time with you he was clinging, arms always around you no matter the activity, the place, the time. He had fallen asleep beside you before, curled tight around you like a protective mother bear, body heat warming you to an almost uncomfortable level. He didn't have an issue being barefaced around you. He didn't care about his morning breath, his pimples, his messy hair. So why didn't he fall asleep with you during your long distance calls?

You missed him. Deeply. You didn't show it very often. You didn't let him know how badly you ached for him, how some days you found yourself tearing up for no reason other than you couldn't drop by the dorm and give him a cuddle before practice. You didn't want to look needy, you didn't want to seem desperate. But you where. It was hard not to miss him, it was hard to be away from someone you loved so deeply for so long and so often.

Absence makes the heart grow fonder.

Wasn't that the saying? It was accurate, almost upsettingly so. With each passing day your heart grew for him. You loved him, more and more, with each passing second. Your chest hurt, your head hurt. He was coming back in two weeks. You didn't think you could survive. You may have spent your free time looking up flights, calculating how much spare cash you had, how many days of holidays you had accumulated at work, under an impossible dream of visiting him, curling up in those hotel sheets and finally resting your swelling heart. But it was impossible.

So, you took what you could get. Finding closeness any way you could. That's why you wanted to fall asleep with him. That's why you wanted to prop your phone up on a pillow, resting it on his side of the bed and fall asleep with him. Trick yourself into thinking that he was here, beside you. But he kept hanging up. That's why you asked. That's why you waited until you were ready to sleep, until you knew he was also ready to fall into a blissful slumber.

You didn't expect the shy blush that filled his cheeks as he looked down at his lap, avoiding your eyes as shaggy hair fell across his forehead. You hugged your pillow to your chest, waiting for his reply with bated breath. He sighed, a long suffering sound, rubbing long fingers against his lips.

“I'm...embarrassed, I guess”

His voice was small. Talking with his chin to his chest, looking up at you through a curtain of bangs. You smiled, tucking your chin over the pillow in your arms.

“Embarrassed?”

You prompted, watching him curiously as he leaned back in his chair, puffing out his cheeks as he gathered his thoughts, staring at the hotel ceiling. Finally he looked at you, nodding to himself as he stood up, carrying his phone to the bathroom as he propped it up on a folded hand towel and went about his night routine. You watched in silence as he scrubbed away the last remnants of foundation and eyeliner, applying toner, moisturiser, medicated cream and a few wayward acne patches on to the emerging valleys of his cheeks. He brushed his teeth, smiling at you with a mouth full of foam, making you laugh as he smiled and spit, wiping his lips and moving back to the room. He got changed, playfully throwing his shirt over his phone so you couldn't watch and removing it once he was in his silk pajamas. But that's when he hesitated again. Phone leaning against the bedside lamp, him sitting on the edge of the mattress with his makeup bag on his lap, digging around for something he was reluctant to pull out.

“Hey….”

You pulled his attention to you. Eyes looking up to lock with yours, that blush on his cheeks slowly growing. You blew him a kiss. He laughed.

“I love you”

Your voice was soft. The affirmation pure and raw. His lips stretched wide, pearly whites lighting up the dimly lit room. That seemed to give him the confidence he was looking for as he finally pulled out a little black container, popping the plastic open and pulling out a clear retainer and sliding it into his mouth, fitting the moulded rubber to his top teeth snuggly and putting the container back away. He didn't look at you, lips pushed out slightly as he mimicked your set up, phone against his pillow, resting on your side of the bed, his spare pillow hugged to his chest, hiding his mouth behind the soft linen.

You tilted your head, a fond smile gracing you face. You knew he had braces when he was younger. You had seen the photos, kissed his cheeks as you called him cute as he huffed and insisted that he got to see your cringey teen photos next time. But it never occurred to you that he would wear a retainer. But...it was adorable. Your hands ached to trace his lips, to run through his hair and reassure him that he was beautiful, stunning, cute, angelic. You want to kiss him, wanted to hold him. But instead you spread an open palm on the empty stretch of mattress between you. Biting your lip as your heart thumped in a sympathetic longing.

“This is what you were embarrassed about?”

He nodded. Mouth firmly shut.

“Why?”

You could see the internal battle he had with himself. His forehead wrinkling in thought as he closed his eyes and nodded, moving his pillow up further to cover the lower half of his face completely. He sighed. You waited.

“...just...don't laug-th…”

You face lit up, eyes wide and mouth pulled into the brightest smile. He had a lisp. Not a massive one but...noticeable. The retainer pushing his tongue into an awkward position. He groaned, hiding his face in his pillow, his voice coming out muffled as it fought against the feathered filling.

“I knew this was a bad idea. Th-op, I can hear you trying to hold it back”

Again, that little lisp. You hugged your pillow tighter, pretending it was him. Wishing it was him.

“The only thing I'm holding back is an impulse to buy a plane ticket over there so I can kiss you and tell you how adorable you are right now”

His eyes popped out from behind his hiding place, wide and innocent. He watched your fond expression, scanned your face for any dishonesty. His shoulders dropping from their tensed position when he could find no trace of mocking.

“Th-eriously?”

You nodded. His eyes crinkled in an unseen smile.

“This is why you always hung up? Because you were afraid I'd finally find out your secret to your sunshine smile?”

He barked out a laugh, throwing his head back enough to finally reveal that smile. Pearly whites now covered in clear plastic but not dimming the light they emitted at all.

“There it is...I missed that smile”

He tucked his pillow behind his head, rubbing long fingers against itching eyes. He was beautiful. You didn't want your heart to grow fonder. You wanted him, here, in your arms, that sunshine smile lighting your dim room not some far away hotel with no one to appreciate it.

You watched him slowly drift off to sleep, watched how his lips parted, pouted and puffy. You watched him shift and wriggle, getting comfortable. You watched him for once. He didn't watch you. You didn't hang up. You watched him until your eyes stung, until sleep forced them to close, forced you to follow suite into the comfort of dreamland alongside him.

[princesfitness]

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Tips Every Woman Should Know About Beauty

TIP! If you’re going to use an artificial tan, exfoliate your skin beforehand. This eliminates your dead skin cells and smooths out your skin.

If you want to be more attractive, you need a great beauty routine. This means learning all you can about being beautiful. You can get going with the ideas in the following paragraphs.

TIP! No matter what your skin looks and feels like, it is important to wash your face at least once a day. No matter what, you must always take off your makeup before beginning your cleaning routine.

It is imperative that you exfoliate before using self-tanning products. This takes off dead skin and smooths out your complexion. This will make your artifical tan look smoother and more even. It will look like a natural sunkissed tanned body!

TIP! Take care to prepare your skin by removing unwanted hair or stubble the day before you plan to apply your faux tan. Shaving or waxing will give you the best results.

Washing with a mild cleanser at least once a day is key. You should use a makeup remover before starting your cleansing, though. If you don’t, you may experience acne complications.

TIP! Always use a daily lotion on your face. Having greasy or oily skin doesn’t necessarily mean your skin is well moisturized, so make sure you still use a daily lotion.

Here is a way to make your eyes attractive and appear larger: just brush on dark mascara. It is best to use a waterproof product. Single-use mascara wands can be used to separate and define lashes and remove clumps and excess mascara.

A puffy brush with matte powder can help you blot out facial oil. You can enhance your cheeks by using some shimmery powder on them.

TIP! Use a highlighter or moisturizer that contains a gold or warm pink undertone to infuse life into your dull winter skin. A cosmetics sponge is key to applying makeup to your brows and your cheeks.

If you have a square-shaped face, use a coral or creamy rose blush to soften the angular appearance. Use the blush on your cheeks, applying it with your fingers. Then fan it out toward your temples in a soft, tugging motion.

TIP! Even the color of your hair and its style can be changed to make a face seem narrow and slender. A haircut with long streaks can help create a slender look for your appearance.

Set aside time every day for exercise. You will stay youthful-looking and healthy by moving around. It is a vital part of any beauty regimen. Fifteen or twenty minutes of healthy activity every day should do the trick. Simple activities such as vacuuming or walking around the block can help keep you active.

Eye Shadow

TIP! A matte brush is optimal to use versus a shimmer brush. Shimmer blushes can highlight any imperfection.

Add a little shimmer to your eyes with a shimmery eye shadow! Glittery eye shadow provides a sparkling effect that makes your eyes stand out. Use a shimmer that is similar to your skin tone. It’s fun to try new colors as well as different ways to wear them. You’ll love the new looks that you come up with.

TIP! Invest in makeup brushes. An expensive makeup brush that does the job will be beneficial in the long run.

The best way to keep the eye skin healthy is to use a special eye cream that contains moisturizing agents. By keeping your eye area moisturized and healthy, you will be able to avoid dark circles, fine lines, and formation of wrinkles.

TIP! Wear sunscreen to retain your skin’s youth and beauty. Contrary to what most people believe, it is important to still wear sunscreen in the wintertime.

Conditioner shouldn’t be used daily for thin hair. In fact, using it once or twice a week would be plenty. Conditioner helps your hair, but also makes it heavier and flat. Try to put a limit on your conditioner use if you desire hair that is shiny and bouncy.

TIP! Use a SPF 15 sunscreen daily, even during the winter months. It is a misconception that UVA decreases in strength during different seasons.

If the skin on our face is very dry, you should consider seeing a beautician for an extra intensive moisturizing treatment. This can give your skin the nourishment it needs. Using herbs, minerals, and vitamins will help your skin look better and stretchier.

TIP! You will never look like models you see in magazines. The idea behind beauty is to be your own personal best, not to be competing with touched-up photographs of so-called perfect women.

Use liquid eyeliner if you want the look to be more dramatic. It is easy to make your eyes dazzle when you use liquid liner. As you select brushes, go for those with angled bristles that can make sharp, clean lines.

TIP! People judge you by your beauty, but no two people will judge you the same. Stay confident, and beauty is something that will come naturally.

Do not think you have to look like the model you see in your favorite magazine. Beauty isn’t about competing with others, but about showcasing your own confidence. This philosophy can help you in a number of important ways.

TIP! Using eye drops can keep your eyes bright and beautiful. You will not look as sleepy and you will be more refreshed in the end.

Working on your appearance can be very rewarding and hopefully you now know how to go about the process. Use the solid suggestions from the article above to feel confident and more beautiful every day.