#and then reworked them. and i lowkey feel like. i might just do that again. if i were to go back.

[moe-broey]

Miitopia.........

[dipplinduo]

Scrapped Content for The Dichotomy In Our Hearts

Where have I been? Ah. Well. Would you believe me if I told you I have been writing and rewriting the same chapter across this past like...week? xD

I have been working through a series of ideas for chapter updates, but I've been very very stuck on The Dichotomy In Our Hearts.

When I tell you. I have written this one scene. OVER AND OVER. LOOOOL.

Ultimately, I've realized the voice of DIOH comes from a sweeter/reflective/"grow through growing pains" kind of tone. Not as much of a conflict-driven/angsty/"Kieran can you please chill the edge bc you're lowkey toxic chain'd" one, like with what you might see me write in Sweet & Sour Dipplins. And lemme tell you, it feels sooooo good to have this breakthrough, because one thing I've been actively trying to do with DIOH is distinguish it from S&S D across the board (but especially with Kieran & Juliana's characterizations & dynamics).

So that being said, I'm gonna rework the last two chapters. I was originally going to have them come out as part of a bigger update in general, but if you've been following this story you've honestly waited long enough, lol. So! I'm prioritizing this. Next update from me will come out within a few days with the conclusion of this story. <3 In the meantime, I figured I should share some of the scrapped work I had - it's a good scene on its own, but you'll see a different version of this scene play out in a more effective way within Chapter 4. :)

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Kieran huffed out a breath of the furious storm that had festered inside of him. He had hoped his time decompressing in the frosty woods would freeze over the raw cut to his already withering pride, but it proved to no avail as he walked along the cobblestone pathway to his home. He relished in what remained of the short-lived comfort he obtained through casting himself to the shadows as his home’s lingering lights began to expose his wounds back to the watching world. The rays were an anomaly for this time of night; his grandfather had always had a strict rule of dimming the house before bed, and Kieran was highly certain it was too late for people to be awake. 

He braced himself with a careful inhale as he quietly stepped up to the shoji before him, and the door felt like a paper barrier between the last of his solitude and judgment itself. They couldn’t have been waiting up to lecture him some more, could they? At this point, he didn’t need any punishment beyond the torment of his self-criticism. He knew he was rash and reckless. He knew he was lucky the little boy was okay. 

He just wished he was better. It was another moment he could’ve used to prove himself, but he blew it. Again.

 The guilt already gripped into him mercilessly. It seemed as if the history of his inexcusable failures enjoyed repeating themselves - no matter how hard he tried to remedy them by pushing himself - and it seemed as if the world would do anything but retire the spotlight from him while he dug his grave further into the lifeless ground. The real salt in the wound was the dramatic irony of how he had failed this time, though. 

Once again, his efforts were fruitless. Once again, Juliana had stepped in so effortlessly. Once again, she is showered in praise while he is showered in shame. 

And of course she bore witness to his humiliation.

Kieran clenched his jaw tightly as he slid the shoji. He remained stealthy, but still nonetheless moved swiftly to rip the band-aid off to whatever awaited him indoors. He squinted his sensitive eyes against the blaring, toasty lights - they were more powerful than what had seeped through to the front porch - and the illuminance from the lamps refracted warm hues off of the yellow-orange walls. Minus the scattered lights, the house was void of his noisy family members. They must’ve all retreated to their beds as Kieran would reasonably predict.  As Kieran’s vision adjusted to his bright and tidy home, his movements slowed to the sight before him. He stepped inside in a manner that was as Dedenne as he attempted to survey the situation.

Juliana was curled up against the kotatsu in an awkward position - one that looked far from comfortable. It appeared as if she had fallen asleep entirely by accident; she had donned her usual attire instead of the pajamas she was meant to borrow, and she was sitting up rather than lying down into the kotatsu’s blanket that poorly covered her lap. Her back was hunched over so she could rest her cheek against her forearms, which were somewhat sprawled along the wooden surface of the kotatsu. Her Deerling-like eyes remained sealed shut as Keiran inched closer, and there was a subtle droop in her parted jaw as she softly breathed. Odd touches of flyaways and frizz decorated her waved, somewhat messy hair, and Kieran noted slight creases that wrinkled in a hidden gray underneath her eyes. 

Was she waiting up for him? 

It was yet another moment that felt stolen and improper. When he observed her, he could see nothing but a much more vulnerable aspect of his rival that he felt he wasn’t meant to experience.

It was yet another moment that felt stolen and improper. When he observed her, he could see nothing but a much more vulnerable aspect of his rival that he felt he wasn’t meant to experience. She was supposed to be unyielding and ruthless with limitless capabilities. An obstacle in his path that he could overcome to clear his conscience.

Kieran bit the corner of his lip and exhaled slowly - the bewildering tugs of emotions on either end only added to his already building frustration. He quietly snagged the patchworked, quilted blanket that was draped along the plush sofa nearby her - why she couldn’t just resign herself on that at the minimum, Kieran didn’t know - and carefully wrapped it around her narrow shoulders. As he turned to leave, a gentle touch around some of his fingers caused him to gasp. 

“Ki…Ki-”

Kieran’s mouth suddenly felt dry as his heart skipped a beat. 

“-eran,” Juliana finished, and the weird sensation in his chest rallied heat around him. Why was he imagining she would call him…?

The touch around his middle and ring finger became a soft grip as Juliana stirred and began rubbing her face. Now that she was awake, reality struck him back into his senses and he suddenly felt as restless as he was in the woods. 

Kieran tried to keep his voice even as he spoke. "Juliana, it's late. Ya’ should go to bed," 

Juliana blinked sleepily as she sat up, still holding his hand. "I was worried about you," she murmurs. "Are you okay?"

Kieran nearly pulled his hand away as the realization dawned on him. So this was what it was all about: pity.

She was the hero who looked down on him and pitied him before anything else.

The epiphany was a coarse grain of salt rubbing in his wounds, but it was somehow the easiest and most sensible thing to believe than any lingering alternatives. "Why do you care so much?" he snapped, immediately regretting his harsh tone but feeling unable to stop himself. "You don't need to pretend to be worried about me."

Juliana flinched as she became more alert. “Why would I pretend to be worried?”

“Don’t play dumb,” Kieran spat as he snatched his hand away. 

“Why are you trying to pick a fight with me?” Juliana asked firmly as she rose, a hint of anxiety in her defensiveness. “Is this about Peacharunt?”

“It’s about way more than that.” Kieran tightened his fists as he steadied his gaze on a chair cushion, readying his words like canons. “You won again. Ya’ always do. I don’t need your pity as a consolation prize.” 

“I’m not trying to pity you,” Juliana countered. “I just know that things have been hard lately, and I-”

Kieran turned to face her, his voice almost trembling as the pain in her face brought out some of his own. “That’s why ya’ came here in the first place, right? I just mess everything up left and right. Ya’ just want ta’ keep an eye on me and fix my mistakes. ‘Cause I’m so horrible.”

Juliana stepped closer and spoke softly enough to make the hair behind Kieran’s neck raise. “Kieran, you’re not horrible at all. But you’re acting like you are, and you keep pushing people away. You’re pushing me away.”

Juliana’s cries fell on deaf ears as the anger flared inside of Kieran, directionless. An ugly mix of self-loathing, resentment, and deep-seeded insecurity oozed uncontrollably as he spat out his words. "Stop beatin’ around the bush, everyone knows that I can't ever measure up to you!” His voice cracked with the weight of his emotions, and he turned away again, unable to face her and complete his thought. How even his own grandparents trusted her battle skills over his.

“This isn’t a competition. I’m not trying to compete with you,” Juliana breathed unevenly, as if there was something unsteady brewing in her.

Kieran's eyes narrowed, his frustration boiling over. "Ya’ think it's not a competition? It's always a competition! Everyone is always comparing us, and I always come up short. Do ya’ even know what that's like?” Kieran continued as Juliana opened her mouth in protest. “Ya’ don’t. ‘Cause you’re always the hero everyone wants and loves. You are perfect,” Kieran spat as an insult as he ran out of breath. 

A pulsating surge of shock struck Kieran as his rival’s voice grew uncharacteristically intense. "You think I'm perfect? You think I don’t have struggles? That I don’t actually care about you at all?” Her voice cracked before becoming small and hushed. “How could you say such a thing?”

His eyes danced between hers in anguish, and he messily attempted to somewhat soften his outburst as he recalled her smile under the fireworks. “If you had any flaws they’d just be a work of art.” (MAKE CONTRADICTION MORE FLUID)

“I thought you of all people would know that I'm anything but perfect!” Juliana cried out, tears bursting down her face. “After everything you’ve seen me struggle with.”

As he witnessed the seams of her composure become undone, Kieran felt as if he was sinking, too. The tension in his fists released as he was taken aback, rendered speechless. 

Juliana continued to fall apart before him, using both of her hands to wipe her face repeatedly as her voice trembled. “I don’t fit in at the academy. I miss being at home. And the only person that really feels like a home is the one person I’m pitted against. You’ve seen me fail over and over again with all of these things. You’ve seen parts of me I haven’t shown anyone else. But you... you act like I’m this flawless person who just waltzes through life without a care. And it hurts, Kieran. It hurts because I care about you so much, and you don’t even see it.”

Kieran’s eyes widened as he was hit with a sudden sense of clarity. He began to blink rapidly as he recalled the intimacy and affection he had misread as a threat. Her giddiness, her eagerness to accompany him and cling to him, her interest in his thoughts and moods. A tingle ruptured inside him as he pieced everything together. 

She…liked him? 

It felt like a haughty deduction, but it was the only way he could make sense of such strong feelings. He wasn’t sure what to make of it - what he was even supposed to do with it. Kieran hesitantly reached out an arm around the shaking girl’s back and nudged her forward. His hyperawareness grew as she collapsed into him as she sobbed, curling her fingernails around arms. It felt as she was slipping down, and Kieran unintentionally dropped to the floor with her as she buried herself against him. 

It was a moment he was entirely unprepared for and could never predict. There was a part of him that felt good - as if his damaged ego was stroked and given value. There was another that raved about the attention he was receiving, to have someone fight because they cared. There was another part that was disgusted at himself for those feelings. There was another that couldn’t make sense of Juliana and her multidimensionality. Was he wrong about her? Does he have the right to be mad at her? Is he even mad at her? Why would she have a crush on him, if she even did? Kieran felt as if he was short-circuiting from the swirling contemplation. 

He was ages away from speaking as Juliana continued to blubber. “I don’t know what I’m supposed to do! I don’t know how to make up for what happened with Ogerpon! And it breaks my heart to keep seeing you get so angry without knowing how to fix it!” 

"Juliana, I..." he starts, staring aimlessly at the wall behind her as his voice trails off. “I didn’t realize…” 

"Of course you didn't," she weakly replies against him to the point where it was difficult to hear. "You're too busy seeing me as this perfect person who has it all together, like everyone else. Well, I'm not. And it hurts, Kieran. It hurts.” She repeated, nearly nonsensical.

(Below are notes that follow the direction of the scene):

Kieran feels guilty and hugs Juliana awkwardly

I'm sorry/angry at self / feels disarmed by Juliana's crying

His thoughts eventually grow quiet as she sags further against him and nearly falls asleep 

“We should both go to bed” wanted to escape but didn't want to leave, conflicted 

(J) I’m sorry if I was being too much

(K): Thats the second time you said that/improved ability to observe Juliana

Was she afraid of taking up space? Starts to see how difficult that must be

Closes door abruptly, holds his hands to his face where Juliana touched him

~EMBARRASSED EMO ~ / Reflection on duality of relationship

[bunnys-beetlejuice-blog]

giggles and explodes. okay. that anon talking about the fic they wanna write made me dig up some old google docs where i was throwing some ideas around and honestly i’m tempted to write so..

lowkey one of them was loosely inspired by your bj deetz au (which i am forever grateful for i still need to finish reading that) and a few other ones i’ve read that i can’t fully remember — where he’s taken in by charles and emily. emily dies. he’s also pronounced dead — but then he wakes up, screaming, only answering to a different name — beetlejuice. years pass and he gets snatched in the night by juno because he’s old enough to become her heir now and a lot of shit happens, they have to go into the netherworld despite knowing nothing about it this time round, etc. also the maitlands are british exchange students here i dont know if that’s anything useful but. i can do that! wow i love writing. joy of AUs means i can just DO that. it’s relevant to the plot i promise its like loosely framed around college. also miss argentina is in the netherworld i love her so much

another one was like. eventually he decides that he’s going to go back to the netherworld to search for his dad after living with the maitland-deetzes for a while but ultimately gets hella lost and or stuck there. again everyone has to haul his ass out from in there with the help from miss argentina (did i tell you i love her so much). it is a huge wip at the moment i might rework some of the plot a little bit but its just feels all around honestly i want to kick him in the gut and then help him stand back up again and this fic is me doing that

honestly the best fics are ones where you toss his ass around like a ragdoll for a few chapters before kissing it better lmao which is basically the bj deetz au i really had him in my maw and was shaking the shit out of him. i was working thru some stuff

[ectonurites]

Idk why but I sort of just assumed New 52 Teen Titans and all the stuff involving Tim and Cassie, etc, back then had been like. Erased from continuity, never happened, all memories of it gone. Maybe that’s the only way I can reconcile how bonkers (derogatory) everything was and how inconsequential and irrelevant it is now to current continuity (also like. How else am I supposed to make sense of stuff like how apparently Tim’s parents were still alive? But now they aren’t or at least I assume they’re not, bc they haven’t been mentioned or anything in that capacity since?? Like. Does Tim remember his New 52 personality and backstory change outside of like his memories of Young Justice being messed with? When did his personality and backstory actually revert back to Pre-Née 52? I have no idea! They haven’t gone into depth or even mentioned it in a throwaway line afaik!! I need to make it make sense istg)

See, in general I feel you because this whole thing was handled messily, but I have a few things to try to say in response that aren't necessarily in order you brought them up, but, yeah. Also all of this is kinda moot now that after Death Metal everyone does remember everything to some degree, and they even acknowledged the New 52 team during that big splash page of all the Titans teams, so like it's definitely considered stuff that happened to some degree

(Dark Nights: Death Metal - The Last Stories of the DC Universe)

but like. Okay:

Even though a lot of stuff from New 52 Titans doesn't get brought up after, some parts of it do! The most plot-relevant example I can think of is during the Super Sons of Tomorrow story, because basically the whole reason Raven & Gar decide to work with Titans Tomorrow/Savior Tim is because of their connections with modern day Tim from when he led the Teen Titans (in the New 52)

(Super Sons (2017) #11 & #12)

Which like, this was a story in 2018, already a few years into Rebirth. The moment Rebirth happened it's not like every New 52 Teen Titans thing just disappeared, I mean hell the last issue of Teen Titans Vol. 5 actually came out after Tim had 'died' in Rebirth Detective Comics

(Teen Titans Vol. 5 #24)

So it's just this weird thing with a lot of contradictions, right off the bat. In terms of personality basically as soon as Rebirth started they were trying to shift Tim closer back to his previous self, but the first time we actually learn about his history being restored to his old one is during Lonely Place of Living:

(The New Titans (1988) #60, Detective Comics (2016) #965)

Which takes place after he'd been 'killed' and plucked out of time by Mr. Oz. When he'd been taken in the first place, this line always sticks out to me:

(Detective Comics (2016) #940)

Which when trying to make things... make sense in the mess that continuity is, has always felt like at least partially an admission that restoring Tim to who he was required changing so many things because of all the strings attached to the New 52 version of him, it wasn't as simple as just altering his personality. Things like those parents, and any other parts of his history that involve other people, were complicated for the universe to try to 'restore' to their previous state because of how they were altered, so taking Tim (and I imagine those things by extension) 'off the field' was the simpler solution.

While he's 'off the field' with Mr. Oz It's just kinda... the way I rationalize it is that the universe reworked itself as it needed and it just required that extra time with him out of the way to readjust properly, so that when he comes back things have been altered to his original reasons for becoming Robin & everything there, but while his origin was restored other elements of his history since the New 52 had happened stayed more or less the same (bc like other stuff from before the New 52 like Young Justice didn't get restored until later)

In general it's all still very confusing and trying to apply too much logic to it is hard, and ultimately I think they were just trying to retcon what they wanted to and not worry about details from before that they didn't want to... but I kinda imagine it like events from New 52 Teen Titans are still foggily remembered by him, but in probably a weird dissociative way bc there are these differences between Tim now and the Tim that lived through those events. Other people who didn't have quite as big of changes that effected their time as Titans (like Raven and Gar as shown above) might remember things more clearly.

A little off topic but with what you asked about if Tim remembers his memories changing, I feel like he probably wouldn't because there's been no indication of that, but some characters have been shown to be like... aware that things get altered. For example: Miguel, who had been put in some kind of stasis and has clear memories of The New 52 Teen Titans, but also is lowkey aware that things have been altered and rebooted.

(Red Hood and the Outlaws (2016) #30 & #32)

In general: it's confusing! A lot of it I think they just want to shove under the rug until they decide 'oh actually we want to use this little detail again' and that us as fans are probably putting way more thought into it than the people at DC themselves are. I hope any of this made at least a little bit of sense!

[sunlithope]

Was that [HENRY CAVILL]? Oh no no, that was just [CLARK KENT], a [CANON CHARACTER] from [DC]. They are [THIRTY TWO] years old and [ARE] aware that they are not actually from Washington DC. Too bad they can’t stray from this city for long.

i had an absolute clown moment and forgot to send in a hiatus request, but I'm back now! and figured it’s as good a time as ever to update a bit, throw in some possible connections, and also put a slightly reworked background down. way way way too long of a post under the readmore

How long has your character been here?

It’s been a few months now. Superman made his first public appearance a few weeks after Clark arrived and is a publicly known figure, if a taciturn one. He shows up, quietly helps, talks to any victims and first responders, but hasn’t done that introductory interview. I imagine when the Planet showed up they published a profile on him.

What’s your character’s job?

Clark is a journalist on the Daily Planet. While the bulk of his pieces are normal city stuff, he has been angling his way into a few more investigative pieces. Being Superman is also taking up more and more of his time.

Where has your character been pulled from in their fandom?

A year after the events of Superman: Birthright! The tl;dr of this origin story is that it’s where most of Man of Steel’s inspiration/vibes come from, but ends with Clark not having to kill anyone and the general public opinion cautiously optimistic instead of terrified. Many details below for other DC muses in backstory.

Has any magic affected your character?

While he can leave town to help with worldwide disasters, the further away the stronger the pull back to Washington. An hour helping with an apartment fire in Baltimore and he’ll feel no side effects, but six hours in Yunnan helping to dig a town out of a mudslide and he’ll be tired until he spends a few days back in the city.

Other information

If your character has enhanced senses, they might notice that this reporter guy’s a little odd (a very slow heartbeat, doesn’t really smell like a human, etc.)

There’s like a total of 5 gifs of Cavill as Clark with his dang glasses on, so if he’s not in the Suit please imagine him with glasses

again more information below but the summary is, compared to the DCEU Superman, he’s a little more approachable and less stressed; compared to CW Superman he’s much more reserved

while I do generally like the DCEU movies there’s just... too much stuff in them I disagree with or would have to rework. SO, since it’s Comics, I’m using the time honored tradition of taking stuff I like/think makes sense and lowkey ignoring the rest...

...but somehow i’ve managed to not see any of the CW shows (Smallville, Supergirl, and Superman and Lois), so he’s going to be ignorant of those characters until they meet here.

my mans literally runs on sunshine

Possible connections

Colleagues: not just other journalists or Daily Planet staff, but investigators, detectives, (noncorrupt) police officers; if the job involves hanging out around newsworthy sites then your muse may have noticed the tall guy who seems to have a nose for trouble and who sometimes seems to just slip away when no one’s looking, or Clark may have approached your muse for a quote or perspective.

Neighbors: Clark lives in a single he can barely afford on the top floor of a small, modest building. He’s a quiet neighbor and would be a good one but for the fact that he’s a horrible morning person and will cheerfully say hello to your muse when he passes them or whistle his way down the stairs at the crack of dawn. I feel like his neighbors think he grows weed because he's had at least four weird specialist sunlights delivered (he’s just trying to regrow some Kryptonian tech)

Interviewees: When the Planet came to Washington, not all of its staff did, so Clark’s been working overtime as the staff works to reorganize. His main beat is the city, but he has been pinch hitting for every department from politics to food.

People he’s helped as Superman: While Clark’s not always around or able to respond, he does as much as he can, and there’s a growing number of people in DC who he’s helped. These would probably be interactions on the quicker side, but he’s perfectly willing to walk or fly your muse home if they ask.

People he’s stopped from Doing Crimes: So long as no one’s being hurt, Clark would prefer to talk to criminal muses and ask them to stop or return stolen goods. If they do he’ll let them go with a warning. If your muse is hurting someone, though, he’ll intervene more forcefully.

Backstory; basically what you’re expecting

This Clark landed on Earth as a young toddler and was pretty sick for his first year or so. Jonathan and Martha were loving and well-meaning parents but were afraid; Martha of Clark getting taken away, Jonathan, far more graphically, that the government would experiment on him. Needless to say they emphasized hiding his abilities and Clark internalized this a lot, to the point of wishing he was ‘normal.’ Jonathan died of a heart attack Clark’s senior year. Clark went to college for two years but ultimately left to travel the world looking for other metahumans or hints to where he came from while scraping together a living, at first from manual labor, eventually finding journalism, all while trying to save people’s lives without revealing himself. He completed a degree in journalism with correspondence courses and class credits here and there. Eventually he got a recorded message from Jor-El and Lara working, which let him grow the Fortress. Having met a ton of everyday heroes in his travels, and with the support of his Ma, Clark decides to step into the sunlight and help people openly instead of secretly, although he decides to keep quiet about the alien part. His debut: destroying two militarized Lexcorp helicopters that have ‘malfunctioned.’

This nearly ends in disaster when Lex Luthor realizes he can turn people against the newly minted Superman. Lex plays on xenophobia and Superman’s rather reserved public persona, and then engineers a false Kryptonian invasion via Comics Book Technology and paid actors, claiming Kal-El is an advance scout. There are a few casualties, but not nearly the scale of devastation in the DCEU. Since then, Clark’s been humbled, working hard to figure out the safest ways to help.

(this is a mushup of 70% Birthright, 10% a few headcanons and 20% details from. uh. Superman: The Animated Series, Man of Steel, Lois and Clark: The New Adventures of Superman, Superman Smashes the Klan, Superman: The Movie (1978), and The Adventures of Superman radio serials. yes i do have citations 😔)

[mmjungmi-blog]

hi this is jungmi and she’s a shameless, spicy troublemaker TM. follow below the read more for more information (and some plot stuff) or back to her page for a more in depth about. my dm’s are a good place to go too, and i have a discord if you want that! btw i’m sky, i also write the old man and yes, i am reworking this intro because it was terrible before, maybe because i wrote it originally on like 2 seconds of sleep in 4 days. ANYWAY ━

some things

second oldest of the KWAK FAMILY six children. (canonly: kwak 2) 26, not very tall, (like 5′3″) currently she’s in her 90′s main character’s best friend fashion mood.

graduated ju jak (she acts and acted then, like a baek ho HIGHKEY), and currently doing freelance work as a writer for the magical community. because of her family name ( and family baggage ) she has a difficult time finding reliable work, and therefore can be seen outsourcing and writing about every topic under the sun, from gossip on the major families, to magical creature rights, to potion making or even cooking. her name is all over the place, and she writes under pen-names, too. 

literally everyone thinks she is like batshit crazy, and they're only like a quarter wrong. like, idk 10% wrong. she’s always into trouble. in yosul she was in x10 the trouble, professional prankster, bad girl and forever ready to fight.

she was a chaser in quidditch all the way up to varsity but dropped out shortly after seriously hurting herself and during her time in recovery she literally reassessed her life.

jungmi is lowkey anti-boy. if he isn’t her brother or a celebrity crush, she’s allergic to all boys and doesn’t trust them on instinct. you have to convince her, like really sell her. otherwise she’s just like; what’s a B-O-Y idk what you mean...

she's very good at remembering secrets and sussing out information. don't trust her with something unless you're absolutely certain you want her to know, she never forgets anything ever. 

she's the most zero chill you'll maybe ever meet in most cases. seriously she’s insane, she never hesitates.

she loves to fly very much.

still gets passionate over all the friends she made even if she fell out of contact with her. like, she’s the kind of person who comes back after a long break acting like nothing changed and not a day passed by.

i think saying she's a little rough around the edges might be putting it lightly, but she means well. her heart is in the right place believe it or not (even if she doesn't always seem to have all her marbles). she's a good girl and cares genuinely with her whole heart. she’s passionate, warm-hearted even if she can’t express her feelings well, a fighter with a lot of spirit and moxie and will support you with an iron fist.

her little brother nicknamed her 'old man/big bro" because she's more like a stupid older brother who makes bad puns and terrible dad jokes than an older sister most of the time. ie. junsu : “how do i look noona?” (in his baek ho robes for the first time) jungmi, not even looking : “with your eyes lmao.”

she is always getting into trouble, literally always. she’s THIS close to having a criminal record at this point. she’ll beg you to save her honestly, she can’t go to the police dept again or it’s going on her record LMAO.

expressively hard on herself to a degree where if you knew you’d be like damn girl do you need to talk abt something or?

competitive. will fight you over everything, anything, anywhere, any time.

potential plots

friends who sneak out together.

someone she can drink with.

also, a connection that she goes to for fresh information, on your family or whatever you got really, she’s not picky. networks make the reporter amirite.

someone who has a crush on her siblings so that she can give you the shotgun dad treatment.

someone who has a crush on HER so that she can be an oblivious fool.

a one night stand that popped up again and she would rather throw herself into the sun than talk to you again yet...here we are.

you’ve seen her play quidditch back in the day. maybe you were even a fan and then she quit and wtf man...why’d you quit. (basically just a serious re-connection plot actually, this would be lit don’t let the tone fool you)

best friends???

ex relationships or crushes.

please teach her how to express her feelings in a healthy way the girl needs therapy.

maybe she played a prank on you and you either love her for it because she’s spicy and that’s neat or you want to fight her and that’s okay too.

...you actually fought her once because you said something bad about one of her sisters and she punched you in the jaw (you’re a WIZARD jungmi, at least throw a spell) her: punches harder.

[larksinging]

now that you’ve been playing her for awhile longer are there any particular dynamics you want to expand on or just explore to begin with with margot? or just plot stuff you’ve thought of since the last ask

hmmm

ill start with the obvious, her stuff with the other hannibal cast is stuff im looking forward to doing more with. 

starting with alana, just... getting the chance to develop their dynamic on screen but also developing their dynamic from such a different context is really interesting? honestly i feel like you dont often get the chance to do this sort of taking character from an earlier canonpoint but going in a similar direction and seeing.... how that works out. and aslo just exploring a ship that starts with some casual but overt attraction to start with, and playing with that. but okay on a more specific level, i always enjoy getting to the point of “characters tell each other the gritty details of canon the other doesn’t know” and doing those reactions, and with this especially some of those details are. pretty intense! sorry margot is just going to be so surprise pikachu if she ever finds out alana was seeing hannibal. where was i going with this. but yeah uhhh building up trust is always fun. and, with until dawn plot and/or murder mystery plot and/or something else?? i think itd be fun to give them some kind of excuse to have to team up to do something serious. because cmon

ill put both of tony’s potentials in one section, so starting with will. will is another character who id be really interested to see how their dynamic develops on denny? their relationship in canon is both so nothing AND really intense simultaneously. and the chance for them to actually deal with that and have a dynamic in a less dire circumstance could be interesting, because i feel like they really could be friends? idk something about their interactions made me feel like margot genuinely got along with will underneath everything, or as much as she does with anyone. yeah. okay and then FREDDIE, wow, thats a wildcard, like theyve never met in canon but clearly would’ve known of each other. i should talk to tony about planning things, since there’s a lot like -- margot might be one of the only people on the cast that doesn’t immediately have a reason to dislike freddie. which lends them an... interesting dynamic, whether its margot being slightly more friendly, or developing something more antagonistic like the others, but. i feel like i dont need to say much since freddie is just such a bombshell of a wild card that she encourages plots anyways

as for other potential castmates.... it really depends. i know josh was thinking of picking up hannibal again, and that’d be really interesting, since... margot doesn’t have as much of a stake in hannibal as the others, but she has enough and she’s involved enough that she can’t help but care. i guess SHE gets to be the wildcard in the situation like that. anyway it’d depend on which canonpoint hannibal and what he was planning to do

okay for a more GENERAL idea. it would be fun to get her involved in something more high-powered, but there’s no easy parallel to “inheriting the family estate and reworking the business to be more humane”. getting involved with the nonhumans might be a good way to kinda do that, though that might be a bit more slowburn since nonhuman stuff is usually more lowkey. hmmm. who knows, maybe like.... after a few tenser moments she might even get more involved with the mld, like maybe in a pr position? i feel like margot would be good at pr, shes the right mix of chilly and charming. there aren’t too many organizations rn that she really has the qualifications for and would get involved in. hmmmm, i don’t know.... 

she’ll probably be involved in murderplot SOMEHOW, though ill save that for the other ask. i don’t think she’d be a victim, but maybe a close brush at worse...

in the meantime ill pick out a few characters i also think she could get along with. there’s camille, since they both kind got along before and have the same hat of a terrible pig-oriented history. though it’d be best if they didn’t talk about siblings, whoops. and also felix, because oh my god finally i have a character whose interaction with the mld wouldn’t be negative. especially when she gets closer to alana, having a sort of “you’re the coworker(/boss???) of my friend” dynamic would be interesting? well. “friend”. anyway. oh and villanelle, if shes getting dragged into hannibal drama i really want the (confused math lady) moment of that. and i think... she might be pretty sympathetic towards someone like harry

i don’t think she’d really take anyone in, since her relationship with children is uh. very complicated and emotionally raw. maybe, maybe in the right condition. but maybe it’d be fun for her to have her talk to some of the other characters who do, like cordelia. idk i have a soft spot for the idea of people with shitty relatives getting to meet people who are much kinder. hmnn. though again shes prone to be nicer to the nonhumans, so thats probably where he more supportive and kinder instincts go. margot can’t help but coo over firepaw, 

mostly though let her be happy, i don’t wanna put her through TOO many traumatic moments because she’s had plenty of that in her life. otherwise i think theres just a general lot of interesting emotional things to do with someone in her position, whos very suddenly given a lot of freedom and how she chooses to deal with that

[masteredshadows]

it’s not munday but I’m FREE I’M FREE I’M FREE so a long ooc post under the cut that you have no obligation to read but is just me fulfilling a need to babble to what appears to be a willing audience + update on writing and my intentions with threads (the first bit so you can read that then disappear)

tl;dr: my rushed artwork + inevitably broken promises to write

#long post warning / !!! if you’re on mobile and read mores are still fucking up I just saw a post that said you can block tags on mobile through settings > filtering or something like that now so yeah! do it! 

first! writing wise -- I’m not making promises to write tonight or even tomorrow or even sunday but I will be able to return to writing soon! and I really want to and now that I’ll be brute forcing myself onto a sleep schedule that isn’t stay-up-for-twenty-four-to-forty-hours-then-collapse-for-twelve I won’t be exhausted anymore and hopefully my writing will be up to a reasonable standard

I also have time and a desperate desire to read which should help with quality

my tentative plan is work through my asks first then anything saved in my drafts (minus headcanons and drabbles because I have several in there) then work through my thread tracker then creep through my activity + put a call out for anything missed

-- call out for anything missed starts now! if you have something you’d like me to reply to I’d like to think I have them all either in my thread tracker or drafts but there’s no harm whatsoever in reminding me now --

and I’ll intersperse drabbles in between as well as do stuff for other blogs under the same general order-schedule

I’d also like to lowkey plug @voidivus bc I want to open him up at one point but don’t feel like writing with people I don’t know lmfao

secondly! discord

I uninstalled it some time ago because of a sudden resurgence of depression but that was largely caused by assignments and now that that stress is free I’ll reinstall it soon tm

not yet

I don’t want to yet

but I’m tentatively saying monday, maybe, unless I really desperately get the urge sooner

that’s all dependent on moods though

thirdly! art art art! art!

I’m not necessarily happy with it but I don’t hate it

it being the two assignments I submitted for my course that I have yet to upload here (the first was that purple and orange girl from a while back)

i’m slapping them in this post bc why not

the above is a piece of environment concept art 

there are things I would change still if given the time but they would mostly require reworking it from the ground art so, as it stands, I’m content with it

I learned a lot from working on it and think I might try to do another environment piece over break in order to try to apply what I learned

I still need to push my value ranges further and my colours as well, alongside making heavier use of photobashing, but, yeah

then a comic which ... I’m definitely gonna find the time to eventually bring up to a standard I’m content with

stylisation is not my strong suit and I really need to study anatomy + I did the lighting for this entire thing in probably twenty, thirty minutes total at the very most

but hey! comic that’ll be super difficult to read when it’s forced into such a small format of a post

transcript:

Hi! Welcome to Maria’s general supply, How can I help you? (which i’m now realising I fuCKED up lmao too late to change it that’s what I get for pulling three all nighters in a week)

Uh-- Thanks. You sell, well, everything, right? I need... Food. Something filling, but small.

Bread. Bread would be good.

Coming right up!

--Also some cold medicine.

No problem.

That’ll cost--

 Y’know, I have a funny story about that whole ‘paying’ thing.

I’m not going to.

(WOW so EDGY 

again. im saving the PSDs and fixing this up at one point when I have the time)

HELP!

GET HIM!

I don’t see him...

He couldn’t have just disappeared.

I’m pretty sure he actually disappeared.

That is very impossible.

I mean, do you see any shady thieves?

(panels can’t be seen -- he climbs out of the garbage bin)

What am I supposed to tell the precinct? 

You’ll figure something out.

It’s me.

Big bro! (totally not stolen from p4 hahaha what)

Hey, little guy! (wow woW BAD) I got you some meds, and hopefully enough food to tide you over until I can get some more.

You can sleep. I’ve got your back. 

I’ll always be there for you.

Always.

there’s a lot I’d change about the comic

for one, it’d be a lot better in full colour than black and white or at the very least shading that takes into account the uh... I can’t remember the proper term but the base values of the materials, skin, etc, rather than just lighting

that said I only started polishing this at around 11 pm yesterday, so for about twelve hours of very on and off work, I think it’s alright (I had the general layout of the panels decided before, but the vast majority of the polishing happened last night)

the biggest lesson not learned is time management, but that’s an issue that plagued me all throughout IB but that I’m working to try to fix

nonetheless, this needs better values, more accurate anatomy, more consistency, and probably colours

and more natural dialogue and a better font.

you can also visually see how early I started working on each page last night/this morning and which pages were most polished before I started lmao

but it’s my first comic, and I’m not necessarily upset by it, I’d just like to take the time to bring it up to a polished state which I can be proud of.

regardless! that’s all where I’ve been

you’ll get your regularly scheduled edgelord soon, though probably with a few personality and portrayal and maybe a soft reset first

I’ll debate on that still

[lwbluedice]

Masterpost for my Stories and Ocs!!!

A spoilerfree list of most of my Ocs and stories (reuploaded here on my main blog)

Includes:

- Name of the story and state it’s in

- short summary/facts

- Character names

If you want more information abt any of them(like a description or a pic) or abt the stories, just message me/ ask me!  Also feel free to ask me to draw them ( for example in the color scheme thing or sth)!

Note: The stories are all written in german so if you don’t speak that language i can’t send you the original documents but i can try summing them up for you!

I bet this is not everything and i will add stuff but yeah!!!!

Hotaru (first draft is finished)

- Abt two men that are linked through a surgery called “synchronisation”, which basically connects their minds and bodies, so they are forced to work as a team. Ea is an ex-soldier and Cain was a hacker, but due to the fact that they can’t stand each other, they also didn’t share their pasts with each other. To pay someone to unlink them, they become bounty hunters and kidnap the girl Ai and her robot Subaru, which is one of the old military robots, called Hotarus (high technologised, operating, transforming, artificial intelligence, ranger units). They are connected to a human ranger and can transform into what the ranger wants them to transform into.

The Hotaru headquarters exploded 10 years ago and since then the Hotarus are super rare on the black market.

The two men plan on selling both the girl and her robot and let’s just say it all doesn’t work out that well.

Ai Hoshino

Ea

Cain Bishop

Subaru

Dr. Chandra Natarajan

10 A

10 B

and other synced pairs

George Watton

Asha Watton

Elaine Bishop

Christopher Bishop

Haruto Hoshino

Shiori Hoshino

The Pleiades. A Hotaru Unit.

Atlas/ Emmett Hunter

Maia/ Ilya Neverwinter

Elektra/ Hailey Gray

Taygete/ Daiyu Ghou

Alcyone/ Charlotte Gryffith)

Caelano/ Sora Aurora River

Merope/ Imogen Harrington

Sterope/ Elizabeth Bresley

Additional Characters for the (maybe Sequel) in which the grown up Ai will try to find out who attacked the Hotaru Headquarters

- Skya

The day the world turned white ( first draft is finished, working on it)

To stop global warming some scientists basically caused a new ice age. On the long run this might be very effective but the former countries, now sectors, are hit by strong ice storms, called snow white. To stay safe huge bunkers, the Safe Cities, were built and the local fauna and flora were stored in Arks, to preserve them.

Usually an alarm sounds before all citizens are brought into the SCs, but this time Reese and her best friend Yuki dont manage to get to the vehicles on time and are left behind. They seek shelter in a private bunker outside of town that Yuki found out about recently. Suddenly a group of boys their age knocks on the door, because they were also left behind and followed the girls.

Al, the brothers Eli and Isaac, Gil and Henry become the new bunker-mates and the group has to survive one year in the bunker, until the storm is over.

( I have a blog for this story, just search for The day the world turned white! There are pics and some posts for example abt which patronus/spirit animal the charas have!)

Reese/ Therese Wells

Al/ Alexander Glover

Yuki Sarah Brooke

Eli Green

Isaac Green

Gil de Santos

Henry Summers

The Sun will always rise (The sequel, probably forever unfinished)

About a group of rebels, the Sun Children, that are sworn enemies to the government and its ways to cope with Snow White.

Takes place abt one/two years after Tdtwtw.

Lucy and Aidan are kicked out of an underground organisation that stays in the cities underground system during the storm phases and the two wander around in the snow until Michael and Rin pick them up and bring them to the Sun Children. From looking into the snow directly to maneuver, Lucy has turned snowblind.

Yeah the plot is… not 100% existent.

Characters:

Lucy

Aidan

Michael

Kate

Gil

Bo

Finya

Rin

The XII Games ( First book is finished, i started the second one, unfinished)

A story abt spaceships that let slaves fight in games, if they win a certain number they are “free”. Cassidy makes it and is sold to a women, Trisha, that takes her home onto her home planet, where Cassidy lives a nice life and learns abt her heritage. One year later she meets Tobias again and she and Trisha are brought to a planet that is basically the universes capital. Cassidy has to take a more important role in the uproar of a war, than she ever imagined.( The cast members are mostly human looking but are other, non human, races)

Cass (Cassidy ) E’ Alandril

Tobias

On the slave ship:

Neala

Sam ( Samuel)

On Anterra:

Trisha  Willowrish

Max ( Maxwell)  E’ Alyndral

Lukas

Tori

Khorr

Keri

Wil

Quinna

On the Space sparrow:

Zach ( Zacharyas) Gryaan

Benj ( Benjamin) Bottledom

Rashka Hyrelian

Oreadh Urunna'ur

Butcher

Kagrim

Kyluur

Irian Ashcott

On Capital Estellar:

Galea ( Galeandrih Fiyur’ Ihal)

Iyal

Wren Fawell

Luasia  

Luminor the Shining

Fallen Angels ( A trilogy, one and a half books were finished, reconcepted)

We don’t talk abt this but it was one of my first stories i truly wrote.

Abt fallen angels saving the world or sth. It’s super clichee and just ugh.

The newer version would cancel some charas and make it abt rebalancing Darkness and Light in the worlds. With a more diverse cast and also different magical races. And a way less creepy Adam.

Eve/Evelyn White

Adam

Peregrine/Perry

Ray/Raven

Sera

Colin

Robin

Raphael

Ky/ Kyron

Gabe/Gabriel Frost

Bree/ Gabriella Frost

Indigo ( haven’t written it yet and i don’t know if i ever will, but have drawn stuff. I lowkey wanna see this as a comic)

A story abt a clan of shapeshifters, called Indigos. They are basically human that can shift into dolphins and their clan lives on an island near Australia. Its a modern story and the gang consisting of our local gay dolphin girl Keerie, her cousins Akash and Arjuun (younger brother, older sis), and Ky ( adopted as a child, japanese heritage, a different breed of dolphin idk) lives their “normal lives” with lots of shenenigans and drama.

Some day Keerie falls in love with Navy, the daughter of the owner of the local Aquapark (that the clan suspect also does illegal stuff like snatching wild animals).

Keerie

Arjuun

Akash

Ky

Navy

“Neo Alcatraz” ( reworks of a very old story)

To put it simply, there is a pack of scientists that bionically enhance children and send them off to different countries to basically be local superheroes. Our gang was kinda left behind bc the countries rather took the newer, better versions and here they are now, a bunch of supernatural teens facing the (not so) everyday struggles of life.

Atalanta

Chi

Callie

Lee

Victor/Konrad

Gemsona (just art)

Larimar

- has water powers and her backstory bases on my private/old Squads life story and a lot of me thinking of drawing music videos for her but never doing it

Anthea (art and headcanons)

- my Dnd Oc

The Bender Girls ( art and headcanons)

- basically some Avatar the last Airbender Ocs i made once

Daiyu

Hotaru

Yura

Sündenfall / Sinfall (short story)

A short story i wrote for a competition which is basically every crime series but magic.

Harvey is immortal, he dies and is revived, and solves crimes through it. Paige is basically his assistant and the case they are on is abt a person that kills magical beings and “arranges” the victims fitting to the seven sins.

Ilya Winter

Harvey

Paige

Delphi

Sphinx

The concept charas, that had a different storyline ( they were basically a team of magical beings that would solve cases… rather unconventional.) I considered reworking them into the new Fallen Angels concept:

Ilya

Harvey

Timothy

Worth mentioning:

Project Alpha (script, some art):

The script for a shortfilm i once made with my friends. A school class has a plane crash and only a few students survive, they all embody a different character archetype (the sunshine, the soziopath, the smart one etc.) They try to survive and are put through weird psychological mind experiments like the trolley problem.

To be honest, the concept had and still has a lot of potential and we just hadn’t the opportunities to rly set it the way we anticipated. The shooting day was super fun, though! Still laughing about the outtakes

Astral Chronicles (some art and a few chapters, unfinished)

A story Idea i still like but probably wont write like this because of copyright problems. Its basically a giant Crossover.

Its abt people who have an Astral( mostly a literature figure) they embody when they are dreaming. Their body stays in bed and is vulnerable but the Astral can basivally run around and has special powers. If the Astral dies, the person wakes up but i think when the body dies the person dies too? idk.

The Protagonist embodies Alice and there are also the White Rabbit, Peter Pan, Tinkerbell usw.

There was also some kind of conflict? I dont remember.

If i would ever rewrite it the Astrals would be embodiments of the Zodiac signs.

(does this even fit?)

The Fanfiction thing i wrote abt Peter Pan/ Jack Frost

- like i have tons of short drabbles and the start of a fanfiction and honestly i liked the ideas i had a lot

The ones we better not talk abt:

Part Hunter

Basically there was a being named eternity/aeterna that was shattered into oarts (like in TRC)

and chosen ones have to reclaim them.

The ones that basically die are turned into guardians, like Time and Space ( they had animal companions they were fused with i guess)

Melody is the current part hunter and has a tragic love story, her animal is a tiny horse thing??????

Idk

basically a long story in which i used my dreams as base for the episodes

The nameless story

Actually super interesting but too many charas and a too tiny will to draw action scenes or write them.

Like its based around a super popular game in huge spheres/buildings and the teams wear some anti gravity outfits and shoes and can walk on the walls and shit and can basically attack using elements/illusion/ conjure monsters idk.

And the main team had an opponent team that basically specialized in the 25272 other elements and some day they just fused teams idk.

There also was some prophecy shit abt the anchors, ppl that can control all elements the same???? Idk

Element guardians

- basically four teens that control the elements and do shit together

- at some point i gave all of them dragons

- still thinking abt this sometimes

- The originals:

Luna: the shameless self insert , earth, pony girl, bland blonde i think

Katy: Air, best friend, bubbly

Dan: The jock. Fire

Nick: The emo. Water

At some point Katy became Skye and Dan and Nick got other names but yeah-

Talent Academy

The story thats basically a ripoff of Alice academy. Like a school with hierachie between the students and ranks and shit and different houses and the students have powers IDK

If you read through all of this, bless you for showing interest in my stories ;) And hey, if you want me to rant about any of them, just send me an ask or a message!!!