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wilnotwill · 12 days ago
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was reading one of the posts @crierofcarcosa made abt og noel and charlie and it got me thinking, charlie was around when the first all quiet on the western front movie came out. the book too. i wonder what he wouldve thought about it. if he wouldve been able to bring himself to see it in the first place, if he wouldve walked out halfway thru because the memories were too much to bear, if he wouldve avoided it all together. hes never seen it through, no matter if he tried or not.
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diaphanoushyperfixation · 8 months ago
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⚠️arcane season 2 episode 6 spoilers⚠️
Song: who live, who dies, who tells you story- Hamilton
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dawdlecentric · 2 years ago
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Yeag...
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mayasaura · 1 year ago
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Man it is a bold choice for the second game to just pepper in little asides that oh yeah btw Edgeworth's fucking dead. Yeah no he died off screen between games. No, you don't get to know how. Phoenix is too fucked up about it to tell you anything
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deuynndoodles · 1 year ago
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there's something that just rlly fucking sucks about burnout. like? i'm not even doing much. 5 hours of class a week where i sit down at an easel and draw. then i have an assignment over the weekend that's less than 2 hours long. and i'm still exhausted. i can't draw like i usually do because my imagination + ability to craft compositions is used up. it really makes me wonder if i'll ever get anywhere in life, if this is what gets me down
anyway. i have a bit of a buffer of posts but after that idk how long it'll be. just an fyi
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pollen · 10 months ago
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hi fellow neurodivergent people
i hate to jump on the "i think i might have adhd" bandwagon, but if i think i might have adhd, how do i bring it up to my care team as a 28-year-old cis woman who was a massive overachiever until i couldn't keep up the ruse anymore?
#idk what happened when i got laid off it seriously is like my brain BROKE i cannot do anything#i have not done much of anything in a year. and i think it's bc my coping mechanisms were 1. self-medicate but ESPECIALLY do that while#2. overcommitting. because it kept me busy and distracted. i excelled in school because i could focus on it without it giving me anxiety#school was honestly almost the only thing that didn't give me anxiety as a kid. and i never felt quite Right like i didn't feel like i fit#in with my peers. i've always felt like a human being that isn't a person. like something's not quite right. i excel but i feel like i'm#doing it wrong because it's SO hard for me. i graduated my BA and BS programs with a 4.0#but it came with the cost of alienating all of my friends and family and becoming really reclusive and weird and distant and anxious#but i really just wanted to do well at the one thing i felt i was good at. which doesn't seem like something i should take note of#idk. my life feels like a claustrophobic box. i feel like i'm buried alive and i can't get myself out because i can't work#because i can't focus. but maybe i'm just stupid and lazy and want everyone to take care of me forever so i can continue laying around doin#fuck all. which i do a lot because i'm chronically ill. idk. like is there ground to stand on here. i literally have zero friends rn#and i feel so so so sos so anxious any time i am working because i worry i'm going to do something wrong or forget to do something or make#lots of mistakes that get me in trouble. i'm so scared of making mistakes it keeps me from doing anything at all. but i get so anxious bc#i'm not doing anything! i'm wasting time! and i can't focus on anything when i AM working because i have to get up and pace#like i HAVE to move around or i start to feel like i need to peel my skin off like i'm an orange#like. is it anything at all. or is this just me being someone who has Other Stuff going on
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kottaniq · 1 year ago
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I missed her...
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orphiicheartd · 2 months ago
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Of those who went to Playful Land, Vil came out of it with a surprising aversion to all things puppets. And a constant Urge to scratch at the right side of his face, fearful of feeling wood rooted in there rather than human skin. Even months afterward, he'd still feel a certain ick when dealing with anything related to puppets and will have a blatantly obvious fear response to finding even stray sticks in his hair.
He wasn't really able to stomach having ribbons on his wrists or even wearing harnesses for commercial or modeling gigs he did that year for a bit either. He'd tossed the clothes from Playful Land in the back of the Film club's costume shed, as he didn't want them to go to waste even still. He'd even asked the other's willing to give theirs up to store them in there too. He doesn't think he would be able to use them for anything, though, as just the idea of wearing that ensemble again is Abhorrent to him. Even the mere thought of Epel try one on left him feeling nauseous.
#hc; vil#//Couldn't sleep alone for a bit. Stayed w Rook bc if he woke up in a Panic; Rook would be THE ideal person to calm him & not judge or pry#//Ace and Jack in particular also left with a bad impression of the place; even if grudgingly admitting Some of it was fun#//Not that they'd Ever want to go through all THAT again; they both swore on it & to Never let the other Freshies get such ideas either#//Both also 100% had their fair share of scolding from actually scratching at their faces where the masks were rooted in#hc; ace (twst)#hc; jack (twst)#//Kalim thought it was fun; tho he did feel a familiar numbness over it for weeks after; the same way he usually did after being kidnapped#//Naturally; he didn't tell Jamil or anybody else that; bc to him it was another experience he had to suck up and bear like always#hc; kalim#//Floyd and Jade both were more amused by the peril they experienced; and even told Azul in great detail how they actually fretted over#never seeing him again; had Fellow been successful in turning them all into puppets and selling them off to the highest bidder#//They have no idea why Azul of all people got more stressed about that than they were#hc; jade (twst)#hc; floyd#//Ortho came out of it adding Fellow's personality & motivations to his database and learning to be more conniving out of it; so he's chill#//Though now he Also knows a great deal about experiencing 'fear' than he ever had before. It's just puzzling!#hc; ortho#//Leo; like Vil; ended up utterly unable to think back to his time at Playful Land as fun; considering Everything#//And likewise does also scratch at his face a little on occasion; tends to dig his claws into his skin more though#//As if he's actively feeling for any remnants of wood to be buried deep in there; and to ground himself that there aren't#//For him in particular; he got terrible episodes of sleep paralysis for weeks after; forced back into the feeling of his body stiffening#//He of course fronts everything is okay; but he Hates the feeling that he actually wound up more affected by it than he'd care to admit#//Esp considering Jack was in danger--that's the part that GOT to Leona the most. Even kept a careful eye on the lad more afterward too#hc; leona#//Lils brushed it off like nothing; considering his life experiences. More than anything; he felt guilty in not being able to DO much to#prevent the youngins from being taken or frightened by the experience; since he'd gotten captured so early on#//He did try to check in on everyone after with the subtlety of a freight train; but didn't exactly Pry further when refused#//Not like he has any better coping mechanisms than the others do; he'd take their words of handling things themselves as truth#hc; lilia
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mwagneto · 1 year ago
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unfortunately for everyone involved im hitting the exact right combination of summer melancholy + extreme mental illness spiral + late july/august + insomnia that makes me rewatch shadowhunters. sorry in advance
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deus-ex-mona · 1 year ago
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the constant emphasis on the can of alcohol though… it’s like it’s telling us that yuko’s too deep in her vices/self-indulgence that she’s completely oblivious to how much her younger son loves and cares for her…
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peaches-bee · 1 year ago
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I missed the puscifer concert because I was depressed
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doonarose · 2 years ago
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I dunno, I kind of want Season 3 to have skipped over a bunch of stuff so we can start with Aziraphale in heaven, plotting to overthrow all of it from the Metatron down, stop the second coming, and move back to earth as soon as possible. He's assembled a secret army made up of a bunch of other like-minded demons and angels, who, he has discovered also just want to have niche hobbies and play at the boundaries of humanity. They only needed to be slightly tempted into it and now they all have their own little human obsessions and have promised that when they go to earth, they'll only be working the smallest of miracles and curses which Aziraphale is quite confident will inevitably all just cancel each other out.
Crowley's mostly worked out his Point, and has begrudgingly made friends, some drinking buddies that he can rile up and call names and it's not quite the same as having Aziraphale around but he's no longer passively suicidal all the bloody time. He probably coaches a junior football team, or volunteers at an animal rescue a day or two each week, and runs multiple twitter accounts stirring shit up online. He's got a job, one he takes quite a lot of pride in, running the Alnwick Garden where the collection of poisonous plants has tripled during his tenure and the number of humans passing out has only doubled. There has also been a remarkable increase in the number of both meet-cutes and divorces occurring within the gardens that the Times once tried to report on but the journalist and all her notes disappeared before going to print. Crowley organises small expeditions to the unexplored corners of the world, always able to find some underground cavern or lush rainforest or barren desert that somehow all of humanity has missed. And within them, new plants for him to catalogue and, on occasion, vaguely eldritch, albeit thumb sized, new beasts.
So by the time we see them coming back together, they've done their personal growth and we can see that and, importantly, they can see that, and so all that's left to do is communicate with each other properly, which will likely be screaming for about twenty minutes, making out for about another fifteen, and then a lazy hour of quiet apologies, confessions, and secrets. Then they stop the second coming (while holding hands, and kissing, and flirting and beaming) and live happily ever after.
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lesbian-hannibal · 1 year ago
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I FUCKED UP
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hillbillyoracle · 1 year ago
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Bought Tetris on Steam about 12 hours ago. Apparently I then played it for 10 of those hours. I am the calmest I've been in weeks.
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casualhedonists · 1 year ago
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DATING IS SO HARD WTF
#vent to follow in the tags lmao#like. what????#people!!! chill the fuck out!!#i had some dude unmatch with me bc i didn’t respond to him YESTERDAY#and like it’s not that big of a deal we’d only just matched but like?? patience is a fucking virtue?? and i have a life?#he was all like come back :((( then two minutes later he was like ok sorry for bothering you bye and then LEFT#like. fine if you do that but the message?? what??#anyway it came at a bad time bc. a bitch is already in crisis rn#cause i kinda feel like my irl friends hate me for some reason and i already feel bad that i’ve been so busy i’ve not been able to#talk to them that much#and i was supposed to go on a trip with my friend but that’s been postponed (not her fault or mine)#and my car still won’t start. we tried to jump it today and it didn’t do anything#anyway i’m like rapid cycling through major emotions and it’s like mimi chill the fuck out#and listening to way too much phoebe bridgers i know the end#also i’m in crisis bc i’ve made up with like. my oldest friend who used to have a crush on me and when i told him i preferred girls he like#stopped talking to me for a while#that was years ago and now we’re slowly becoming friends again but i feel so much guilt over it for no reason#and i get into avoidant episodes as a coping mechanism and like. i feel like im going into one atp#okay okay vent over im okay lmaoo#sorry folks hope your days going better than mine <3#。・:*˚:✧。 mimi speaks!
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angelstrawbabie420 · 11 months ago
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crazy how i have no one
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#like yes i have my internet friends and i adore them ofc#but i have no fucking one irl#and i mean no one. my mom’s side of the family is all dead and the other side is uber christian and doesnt give a fuck about us#i only have my brother#and i need help and support so horribly bad but i wasnt there for him when he needed me#so why the hell should he be there for me. he shouldnt#im going to have to rely on myself this time and i cant do that#i dont trust or believe in myself whatsoever#i think im fucking horrible and useless and repulsive#and idk how to be nice to myself bc ive never felt that and i dont know how to self soothe#i dont have the energy physically or mentally or emotionally to learn#and idk what to lean on anymore if i want to quit abusing substances#realized recently how much i do that.#and for how long. a decade. ive been acting like a 13 yo this whole time#idk how to move past and grow up. god i absolutely need to see my therapist again. if she’ll have me#i fear ill be rejected tho ive left and came back several times and last time she said ‘ofc ill take you back youre my person’#whatever that means. ive been an anomaly to every therapist/psych ive been to apparently they all mention how weird i am and how they cant#figure me out. like damn me too doc!#i want to email her so bad but i wont be able to see her until my insurance goes thru and i dont want to get free labor out of her if i dump#all the trauma ive sustained since i last saw her on her yw#but i want to get better i dont want to live like this anymore i cant do it#any of it#my coping mechanisms are all self destructive and i want to grow past that#but i need help and i dont have it. not really#whatever i guess. first step call and see wtfs going on w my insurance#i feel like i need help even for that . i feel so utterly incapable of everything snd i always have#i can do it. i can do it
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