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the-breloominati · 4 years

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its late at night so of course its time for some laying awake in bed thoughts

one of the things I absolutely despise doing is when theres like a discussion or smth and at the end the teacher's like "alright now write a summary of what you discussed" or smth like that and I swear to god

every

single

time

as soon as they say that my brain just incinerates the past however long and im just sitting there trying not to get too stressed out cause I know I have to write something to get a grade but what the fuck do i do

words?

never heard of 'em

not even once

#and its kinda the same sometimes when they explain an assignment or smth #cause i was listening the entire time #and i was hearing everything #but as soon as they turn us loose to do our work all of it is just /gone/ somehow #and this is kinda unrelated but even if i want/need to ask a question its so fucking hard to #like i usually avoid talking to people because it usually makes me really anxious when im talking to people i havent know for a while #like even just being around people i dont know is hueghhhhh sometimes #but anyway funny story so in one of my classes this past year we'd do this thing where after we took a test we'd take it again in groups #and the teacher would write the grups on the board right #so first of all im kinda nearsighted (it fluctuates) but i usually dont feel like pulling out my glasses unless i have to so im just..#squinting a bit at the board #and other people already having stood up and going and finding their groups got in the way so it was even harder to see #and i should mention i gave up on making an effor to learn peoples names a looong time ago #and peoples names werent really said enough in this class for me to remember them well right #so you can imagine my discomfort when seeing my name next to 3 or 4 other names that i dont recognize and dont know who they belong to #so id usually turn to the person sitting next to me (who i thankfully kinda knew) and ask them #and if they didnt know and there wasnt anyone i knew close enough to ask id just.. wait until things sorted themselves out a bit #and keep in mind this entire time i have this feeling of 'ohshitohfuck everyone knows and theyre s t a r i n g at meeeee ohgeezohno'#and id bring my sketchbook or some paper with me bc /maybe drawing will calm my anxiety/#and i mean it usually helped a bit so at least there was that

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