#and the image ID is poetic

[dysfunctionalcreature]

so I was listening to Little Dark Age by MGMT and these lyrics kinda reminded me of this conversation Jon and Basira have about Daisy in TMA 178 The Processing Line...

[mishy-mashy]

What point is there in ruling the world, if the people you want in it are already gone?

The goal to rule the world is hollow now. All For One wanted a world where everyone existed for his sake.

Yet, the one person (possession) he wanted most by his side, as the one whose dreams inspired him to find his own, and the first person AFO declared them to, is already gone.

[spoiledsunflowers]

The Lament for Icarus, Herbert James Draper // The Prodigal Son, John Macallan Swan // The Fight Between Icarus and The Prodigal Son, Cameron Beck.

[ursamajori]

[id: art of siffrin from the game in stars and time, at the favor tree looking forward; eye wide with an expression that is tired, haunting, threatening. /end id]

> "Do you know something?"

[fromdove]

MY JASON TODD PHYSICAL APPEARANCE HEADCANONS !

welcome to my ted talk. go ahead and sit your semi-literate goblin ass down and take notes, because i am about to paint you a portrait of this man so vivid you’ll think i dipped my brush in the lazarus pit itself.

HETEROCHROMIA. one blue eye & one green eye. im a very big and firm believer on this. this is my religion. this is my prayer. jason todd's eyes are my gospel, and I am the devoted disciple on my knees at the altar. he's always had them, before the lazarus pit & AFTER the lazarus pit. (although after the lazarus pit id like to point out that his eyes got a bit brighter especially the green!). i saw fanart once of this—just one image—and it was enough to send me into a trance. my jaw unhinged like a snake

LARGE SHARP ALMOND EYES. eyes sharp enough to cut!! real real real. sharp enough to gut someone in an alley. you get looked at by him and feel like you need to apologize for crimes you haven’t committed yet. yup that. they soften when he looks at you tho bc ur his amazing angel faced baby.

HIS GODDAMN JAWLINE. the kind you see on statues. could cut diamonds. so perfect. brutal. Pythagoras would rise from the grave with a boner, calculator in hand, shaking and crying overwhelmed by the sheer geometry of him. drooling. weeping & erect.

6'4!!!!!!!!!! MY MAN IS TALL. A GIANT. GARGANTUAN. and that’s the final word. idgaf. don’t come in here with that “canon says he’s 6’0” nonsense. fuck canon. canon is a lie built by cowards. they've screwed up my babies too many times to count. my Jason ducks under door frames and casts shadows over people trying to insult him. he intimidates every man in a ten-mile radius just by standing up.

BULKY. (not crazy bulky like those steroid obsessed body builder protein-powder-in-the-veins monstrous freaks but still jacked af. (like in this picture: click here and here) . he’s jacked like a Greek statue, like a renaissance painting of a war god.

white streak. white streak 24/7 for the rest of infinity. all night. every universe. every reboot. i don’t care. Non-negotiable. he got it from the one and only pit. he tried to cut it, dye it, tried everything to get rid of it at first but it just kept growing back and the dye would never work on it somehow ??/ so he just gave up lmao

OKOK his nose. my fave nose to picture jason with is an sightly upturned nose with a bump in the middle. do you guys know what kind of nose im yappin about? here is a visual: click here

ive seen fanart with jason with the j scar and i just think it fits his character and backstory. yes it was from that makeup-smeared tragedy of a circus reject. but fuck him!! this is about jason peter todd. my baby is still hot af anyways so.

SHARP CANINES. BITE ME WITH THEM. LORDDD MOTHERR GODDD. Carnivore-coded. was he born with them? is it a lazarus thing? either way theyre sharp little bastards. He tries to be careful, he reallyyy does but sometimes, mid-kiss, they slip. he nips you. he pulls back, eyes wide, guilt-ridden. you’re breathless. he spews like a million apologizes coz the last thing he wants to do it hurt u. but u dont care bc it feels so goddamn good... STOP ME)

Full lips that look like they’re always swollen from a brawl or a kiss.. with a slight cupids bow. god. yes. the corners/edges of his mouth are sharp (does that make sense?? help). he also has scars extending from the corners that look like smiles, they only stretch a few centimeters out. not that long at all. joker’s parting gift, poetic as it is cruel. OH AND he has the Toji scar !!! this one right here: click here

dark brown hair thats wavy & fluffy heeheheh (2c textured.) not straight, not curly, that luscious in-between mess that stays tousled and tragic and stupidly sexy no matter what. fluffy. thick. ruffles in the wind like he's some sad, angry prince. you run your hands through it and he pretends he doesn’t melt. he is NAWT a victim of the male pattern baldness epidemic. bye no no no no he doesnt bald thanks to the lazarus pit.

THICK DARK & FULL STRAIGHT BROWSSS. IDCCC THIS MAN HAS THICK BROWS. These brows have seen things. They furrow when he’s pissed (which is like always lmao), They’re intimidating, god-tier brows kinda brows. oh oh and theyre also kind of upturned !

his fingers. jesusususususus. Veiny. Long-fingered. Calloused. Worn. His knuckles are always scabbed (from fights). His nails are short, His fingers could snap a neck, but you just want them on your throat for different reasons. And the rings? Thick, heavy, sharp. Some brass. Some iron. they double as weapons. like i just know if someone pisses him off the rings are going to hurt like straight up fucking hell.

this man has long lashes. like long enough to collect dew. Thick enough to cast shadows. curled at the tips. his lashes are criminal. like wtf. theyre the kind that make mascara cry. they frame his eyes and face perfectly

scars all over. he has the autopsy scar on his chest, he has scars on his back too. his face, arms, legs, everywhere. bullet grazes, knife cuts etc..his entire body is a war journal basically

he has eye bags and dark circles which is a given considering what he does and his lack of sleep. They're not “oh, I pulled an all-nighter” eye bags, theyre bruised purpulish blue with a bit of red. u can seen some veins. his eye bags r a little puffy. this paired with his sharp eyes make him look very very intimidating to others but not to u, bc wdym intimidating? he's my angel?? he would never hurt a fly?? tf?

a few extra's!!:

A slight scar on his eyebrow from a fall off a fire escape in crime alley when he was 12. Never stitched it (despite the constant nagging from bruce & alfred). he said the blood made him look cool. (my angel baby i love him)

a voice that’s deeper than you expect. gravelly. like he chewed cigarettes for breakfast and chased them with glass. but it dips soft when he says your name. unbearably soft. traitorously tender.

faint cigarette burn on the inside of his left forearm. from back when he thought pain might be the only thing that made him real. said it was an accident. it wasn’t.

A barely-there tremor in his right hand. Old injury. Nerve damage.

[papenathys]

PSA FOR ADDING "ALT TEXT" TO IMAGES

Please stop putting inside jokes and witticisms in your alt text and image IDs. They do not help disabled people at all and confuse us. Alt text is for conveying the details of the image only. It's a necessary aid, not a space to put *wink wink* references in the hope that able bodied people will get it. This includes things like:

example: the image of a horror "deer" type monstrous entity, like the deer from annihilation or hannibal. don't caption it as "not deer" or "is that a deer? is that a ghost? who can say?" it's not funny or poetic, it's just fucking obnoxious for someone with no/low vision.

a fan art of katara from avatar the last airbender, wearing her usual outfit. DON'T CAPTION IT: "Katara in her usual outfit" describe the character and the outfit, even briefly. write: "katara, a dark skinned indigenous girl with dark hair and blue eyes, wearing a blue and white tunic, dark coloured pants and a blue betrothal necklace".

do not use weird fonts, emojis or the like in your caption. they are not easily read and often confused by alt text reader.

If you have thoroughly described the image, go ahead with jokes in context (for example, say, an exaggerated cartoon of Jeremy Allen White, you have described that his eyes are portrayed to be "uncannily blue", now you can make a joke about the blue eyes): but keep in mind, can the disabled person understand it without necessary context, given the way you have presented it? If not, are you using visual aid not for us, but to make inside jokes with non-disabled folk?

[ please do not be an edgy, ableist asshole on this post. ]

[scatterbrainedbot]

I AM SPINNING I AM PACING I AM FULL ON FROLICKING IM SO EXCITED

@d1sc0rd1a THANK U FOR THESE TAGS

okayokayokayokay so pretty much all of these questions will be Officially Answered properly in the character design/intro pages im working on but also i am physically vibrating with excitement about the fact that you noticed all these details and i have very little self control so! lore dump time!!!

(minor tw for mentions of leos self-harm/self-destructive anxious behaviors and unhealthy coping skills)

- mikey does indeed have curly fur! i believe he would be considered a 'rex' rat (pictured on the left) for this trait? though the curls can be more easily seen on mice (pictured on the right). or, at least it seems that way. have not delved too deeply into the details of rodent genes and husbandry, but id assume its the same sort of mutation considering curly haired mice are also referred to as rex sometimes? either way hes a extra floofy bby 🧡

-as for raphie, unfortunately being more fluff and less shell than the average rapheal comes with its downsides. especially if you and your brothers occasionally encounter things like territorial dogs, hungry cats, or sewer crocodiles while exploring places ur dad said not supposed to go. (most of his scars will have more ninja related stories, but his ear i think got messed up from something very animal. probably around age 11 ish? old enough to sneak out from dads protection but young enough to not fully know how to handle himself alone against real danger. thankfully his ear injury looks worse than it actually is for the most part, as the damage was largely to the outer ear. his hearing wasnt super affected, except that he now has a bit of a harder time being able to track/pinpoint noises origins if its on his right side.)

-also yep! dons got some glasses that just clip/rest on the bridge of his nose! theyre mostly just for home use, as they do fall off if hes knocked around. in the field he has some goggles he tends to use (theyre helpful as they have multiple additional functions like heat-imaging, extra zoom/telescoping, and recording capabilities. but also theyll give him headaches if he wears them for too long without breaks). contacts are theoretically also an option but he absolutely hates the sensation of putting them in. so sometimes when hes tired he'll just not bother with either clips or goggles and just squint and struggle. leo hates when he does that lol.

-speaking of leo, he is def an anxious baby :) he has a few patches of fur missing on his hand cos he has the tendency to tug on it while hes thinking. he yanked and chewed on his own tail a lot when he was younger too, which is why when hes older he usually wears some wraps to cover the scars left from that behavior. he finds those scars specifically to be kinda embarrassing and shameful because they werent from any battle or life-lesson, just his own 'inability to control himself'. all of his brothers have repeatedly called him out on the fact that that is not a healthy way to think about his anxiety or mental health, but leo insists hes fine. hes kinda convinced himself that a proper warrior always has control over his own body* and his own thoughts, thus he should be able to just like willpower-brute-force his way into 'being better'. (this line of thinking pisses raph off so much he has to leave and go hit something)

Splinter also tries to talk him through some of that internalized guilt/shame/everything, but splinters very metaphorical, poetic, and indirect when it comes to talking about Big Things, which combined with how much leo gets caught in his own head, makes it kinda hard to gauge how much these talks actually help

*this is made extra fun considering leos also ftm trans, so he is faced with a body that fundamentally disobeys him perhaps more than the average rat-man.

-and im still going back and forth between a few species for splinter, but im leaning mostly towards an African Spurred Tortoise! they have these beautiful if kinda subtle geometric shell patterns and are the third largest species of tortoise in the world. the only thing that doesnt fit perfectly with Splints is that (allegedly) their lifespan in captivity is around 50ish years, whereas im p sure Tortoise Splinter is well over 75, probably closer to 90 when the boys are born and hes mutated into Old Man Papa.

but maybe hes just a particularly long lasting African Spurred Tortoise.

the Hamato family has taken very good care of him for many decades after all. :)

(well. until everything all fell apart, that is.....)

[razzafrazzle]

never gave hodge a proper ref... behold a silly lil fella

[image description: a reference image for a gravity falls original character named hodge podge, a yellow and teal yin-yang-shaped dream demon with asymmetrical eyes and a jester hat. he's holding a teal magic wand that resembles the hand of eris symbol and has a cloud of yellow magic emanating from it. next to him is a drawing of him "pre-sillyfication", where he is black and white and lacks his hat and asymmetrical eyes. on the other side of him are blurbs stating that his pronouns are he/it or any neopronouns, that he is gay and transmasc, and the following: "demon from an unknown dimension with a penchant for waxing poetic about chaos and order. has a mutual rivalry with bill cipher that teeters between hatred and frenemies. obsessed with the number 5 and philosophy. contradicts itself frequently." end id]

[sageandscorpiongrass]

hello <3 could you please do a webweaving on losing someone you love? thank you!

Either way, you're not coming back.

For whatever reason, I really struggled with this one. I wasn't sure if you meant loss as in dying or loss as in leaving, so I tried to make it applicable to both.

tender is not a bad word, K.C Cramm | Planet of Love, Richard Siken | A Self-Portrait in Letters, Anne Sexton | Count the Almonds, Paul Celan | Come Over (Again), Crawlers | A Valentine That Can’t Be Sent, Rosmarie Waldrop | Poetic Regulations, Mahmoud Darwish | Intimacy, Hanif Kureishi | @/small-planets | The Torn-Up Road, Richard Siken | Instructions for the End, Jen Benka | Norwegian Woods, Haruki Murakami

[transcriptions and image ID in alt text]

[belit0]

Modern Mafia au

The twins snooping on Raizen phone while he sleep dkkdfk and face call Fuyumi. Saying hi to her before putting the carema on the sleeping Raizen kskxkdk. Saying

"Hi Fuyumi-chan! Can you watch big brother Raizen for us?"

Fuyumi being unsure just said "okay"

Fuyumi on the other side muted herself from the call so she doesn't create any sound to disturb Raizen, and she proceed to play Minecraft kdkfkf

How would Raizen react? Waking up and saw his phone on call kdkdkckc

JASHDKAHSDSADHJ MY POOR RAIZENNNNNNNNN

Raizen’s room was dim, the curtains drawn just enough to let the afternoon light bleed in, golden and quiet.

His uniform jacket was draped over the back of his chair, his schoolbag half-zipped and forgotten near the desk.

He lay sideways across the bed, one arm dangling off the edge, face buried in a pillow, hair slightly messy from the way he’d collapsed after school.

Silence didn’t last long.

The door creaked open with all the stealth of a horror movie—then promptly banged against the wall.

-You take his legs, I’ll take his head.- Inari whispered, loud enough for it not to be a whisper.

-He’s got Face ID. Just bring it close to his face!- Hikari hissed, holding Raizen's phone like it was a sacred artifact.

Inari leaned over their older brother and shoved his face to the side just enough to line it up with the phone.

-Unlock successful. Look at that. Like stealing candy from a sleeping older brother.

-Which we’ve also done.- Hikari reminded, already digging through his contacts like it was an Easter egg hunt.

Then: -Ohohoooo, what do we have here~? -“Fuyumi ⭐”? Oh? OH? Raizen you looooser—

-He likes her! You don’t just add a star. A STAR, Hikari!-

-Call her. Face call. Right now.-

-We shouldn’t...- Inari paused dramatically. -We must.-

The screen flashed.

Calling.

Then connecting.

Fuyumi’s face appeared, bathed in soft blue light, the faint clicking of a keyboard in the background.

She blinked slowly at the two grinning twins, then at the image they’d angled the phone toward—Raizen, fast asleep, one leg twitching from a dream, hair messy, his expression oddly peaceful.

-Hi Fuyumiiii~,- the twins chorused, in perfect mischief harmony. -Can you watch our brother while he sleeps? He needs supervision. He’s emotionally unstable.-

Fuyumi blinked again.

Slowly.

-Okay.- she said, deadpan, then muted herself.

The soft background noise vanished.

She tilted the phone slightly so she had a better view of Raizen’s sleeping face… and returned to her Minecraft, quietly building a moss-covered library inside a mountain.

//

Raizen stirred, his brow creasing faintly, body shifting with a sigh.

-...You’re loud again.- he murmured, voice low, almost inaudible. -The leaves don’t care if you’re late...-

He stilled again.

But across the screen, Fuyumi, still watching in silence, only blinked once, briefly pausing her game.

//

When Raizen finally woke, it was all at once.

He blinked hard, confused by the strange weight of attention in the room.

He sat up halfway, rubbing his face—then stilled completely.

His phone was propped up beside him.

FaceTime.

Still on.

Still connected.

Fuyumi was there.

Watching.

His heart dropped into his stomach.

She blinked slowly, chin propped in her hand like she’d been there for a while.

Which, judging by the timer on the call, she had.

Raizen stared.

Then sat up straighter like it might fix something.

-...Why are you on my phone.

-Inari and Hikari called me.- Her tone was matter-of-fact, as if she hadn’t just watched him sleep for over an hour. -They said you needed watching.-

Raizen squinted at her, still foggy, then at the call timer again. -You stayed?-

-You were asleep.

He stared harder.

His jaw tensed.

Fuyumi tilted her head. -You talk in your sleep.-

His entire body froze.

-What.

-You said something about leaves not caring if someone was late.

A beat.

-It was kind of poetic.

Raizen groaned and dropped back onto the bed, dragging the pillow over his face with a muffled:

-God. Why didn’t you just hang up?

-You didn’t seem like you wanted me to.- she said quietly.

He peeked out from under the pillow, ears flushed red.

-I was asleep.

She didn’t answer.

Just gave that tiny, unreadable half-nod she always did when she wasn’t planning to argue.

He turned his face to the side, avoiding the screen entirely now.

-This is the worst thing that’s ever happened to me.

Fuyumi blinked.

Raizen felt like fainting.

[xiaoaetherposts]

Aether helps Xiao in his grief.

Xiao wrote a poem because of Aether, in which he and his friends, the Yakshas appear in poetic images.

Xiao said his heart feels much calmer for which he could express his feelings of grief.

And Aether has commemorated by lighting incense in Pervases's shrine, and he said before he is always willing to be by Xiao's side.🥺

Another kind gesture of Aether towards Xiao, with which he preserves the memory of the Yaksha named Pervases.❤

Zhongli to Xiao: "You can find the way with the Traveler's help." 🥺

The manga panels are from the Genshin Impact Comic Anthology (japanese manga book, miHoYo games comic, ID Comics/DNA Media Comics).

It's officially licensed by miHoYo in 2021.❤

Twitter(X): @xiaoaetherposts

[greenhorn-art]

to catch a sunbeam with white moonlight

Author: orphan_account [this work has been orphaned and is no longer associated with it's author]

Fandom: 全职高手 | The King's Avatar

Rating: General Audiences

Category: F/M, Gen, M/M

Words: 55,720

At a Glory convention, Dai Yanqi meets Ye Xiu who is helping Su Mucheng buy her favorite doujinshi. They surprisingly hit it off as they browse through all the doujinshi about their peers and talk about Glory.

About the book

FONTS: EB Garamond (body text, title), Roboto (body text - electronic), Bebas Neue (title, headings), Alfie (title), Segoe UI Symbol (scene breaks - 'gear without hub')

IMAGES: Sunflower (Rawpixel, ID: 2687359), lightning (Rawpixel, ID:10200699)

MATERIALS: Domtar Earthchoice (textblock - 20lb, cream, 11x17 cut down to 8.5x11), Recollections paper pad (endpapers - Dark Watercolor Florals), Iris bookcloth (covers - Eggplant), Verona bookcloth (covers - Hot Toffee), Ribbon (covers - 1/4", shell grey), embroidery floss (endbands - 209 Very Dark Lavender), leather cording (endbands - 1.4mm), Ceramcoat acrylic paint (painted edges - metallic silver), Anita's acrylic paint (painted edges - 11038 Purple), Reeves acrylic paint (painted edges - Violet & Crimson & Blue Lake, Payne's Gray), waxed linen thread (sewing textblock - 30/3, white), Books by Hand (glue - pH neutral PVA)

PROGRAMS USED: Affinity Publisher (typesetting), Affinity Designer and Affinity Photo, LibreOffice Writer (QR codes), Bookbinder-JS (PDF imposer)

BINDING STYLE: Split-board binding, French double-core endbands

(Belated) Binderary Book 2024

My first year participating in Binderary and I'm 2/2 with my goals, albeit slightly late (even with the added leap day).

Goal No. 1: Bind a book!

This fic is an orphaned work, with no author available for me to reach out to. Convenient, since it was a last-minute decision.

Goal No. 2: Finish typesetting the fic that got me into this whole bookbinding/fanbinding hobby!

Bad Boys JEDI Style is a 217 chapter, 908k word "comedy of errors: in which our heroes are recruited to film a reality holo-drama". Much to my despair, the fic I loved had been deleted from every site it was uploaded to, and I was left kicking myself for not having downloaded a copy from AO3.

Shout out to Kam and Lofe, whose wonderful Binderary demos were put to use in the making of this book! Kam's French Double-Core endbands demo was super helpful, sizing up the 'textblock' and components made it easy to actually see what's happening with the sewing. Loffe's demo introduced me to the split-board binding technique and, sleep-deprived hiccup notwithstanding, I think I might find it easier then bradel style binding! Need to bind more books to know for sure (such a hardship 😔).

In other new-s, I took my dad's recent workshop baby for a spin. The bookbinding plough works like a dream! I tried a hidden fore-edge painting for the first time (just a solid colour), but the purple is lost under the Payne's Gray basecoat I applied to the silver painted edges. Adding ribbon to the cover was also new (mostly due to the fact that I never remember until the endpapers are already pasted down).

On the Design

Cover

This is a Team Thunderclap!Ye Xiu AU, so the cover was based on Team Thunderclap's uniforms from the donghua (from the one screencap of the team I found, see below): purple across the shoulders and forearms of their jackets with a yellow stripe down the centre. I added silver ribbon as a nod to the white of the jackets as well as the grey gear of the team's logo. Also in reference to the title: yellow=sunlight, silver=moonlight.

Title Page

The title page stumped me for a while. While brainstorming title page design ideas, I thought about what the title means. In English it's poetic but nonsensical, so I wondered if maybe it held some meaning in Chinese?

As it turns out, it does. Kind of. Maybe. (If I stretch and reach for it, it makes sense). According to a quick search of one webpage for each query, "'White Moonlight' usually refers to a person or thing that is elusive in the heart, has always been loved, but cannot be touched" or "an 'unforgettable first love'." The sunbeam itself might be Ye Xiu, the figurative ray of light, the hero, the gaming idol. Or 'catching a sunbeam' could refer to how "sunflowers turn their heads to catch every sunbeam."

The potential meaning I have cobbled together is how Dai Yanqi turns Ye Xiu's head and captures his heart by sharing the (SanXiu-ified) story of Su Muqiu, the aforementioned white moonlight. Is this what the author intended? Who knows. But it does seem plausible enough to inspire me.

I ended up using both the idea of sunflowers and Thunderclap's uniforms (again). Lightning referencing the team's logo, and also the white colour of a flash of lightning which is kind of like moonlight. The logo's background is blue, as is the uniform as seen on the cover of the manhua featuring the captain Xiao Shiqin (see below), so I made the background blue-purple.

Endpapers

The (not-actually-)sunflowers carried over to the endpapers, as well as the grey colour from the gear in Thunderclap's logo.

Endbands

Kept these simple. A solid purple, as close as I could get to the bookcloth. I didn't want to draw attention away from the stripes on the covers or the silver edges.

Probably could've gone for thicker cores.

The text

For the scene breaks I used a special character of a gear. The cog also looks like a sun. Which is fun because it can reference Thunderclap, the title (sunbeam), and my design choice of sunflowers.

I reused the lightning image at 50% opacity as a background to set apart the backmatter.

Misc.

Recently, I've begun to increase my efforts of preseving fanfiction and safeguarding the stories I love from purges and takedowns. (Sparked by the December 2023 scandal about Sony announcing an upcoming removal of content including the movies and TV shows that people have purchased).

This fic has been archived via the Wayback Machine at https://web.archive.org/web/20240215155152/https://archiveofourown.org/works/37414021?view_full_work=true.

Also, curses be upon Rawpixel. Since the time that I had downloaded the images, they have now be placed behind the premium user paywall (along with a number of other graphics and elements that used to be free).

[elfdyke]

ROE AND PEWTER 20!!!!!

20. What is their best memory together?

well id definitely need to consult adri on this one BUUUUUT <3 one of my favorite ‘memories’ they share is when they visit pewter’s family in act 2. we’ve talked about it being during wintertime, and maybe its the first time roe ever experiences snow (where the sun elves are from is very warm to temperate year round). so its this brand new rather whimsical thing for roe to enjoy, pewter gets the comfort of being back around her family for the first time in presumably over a year at this point, and they kind of just get to take a little bit of a breather before things get intense (thinking this is happening towards the end of act 2, which results in some crazy shit and roe and pewter breaking up). BUT IDKKKK ITS JUST SO SWEET FOR ME TO THINK ABOUT <3

roe getting bundled up in pewters winter clothes from when she was a child bc they would fit roe 😭 so cute… roe getting to see pewters childhood room, her beloved stuffed toy that is so freaking old and decrepit and roe is kind of stunned by, maybe roe reading some of pewters childhood diaries. LMFAO SO FUNNY TO ME. waxing poetic about her struggles in the orphanage right next to her battling with puberty induced lust. roe like i. maybe i shouldnt be reading this. pewter taking them both into town and idk.. DOING A LITTLE SHOPPINGG <3 RAHH SORRY I FEEL SO SILLY THINKING ABOUT THIS AT ALL it makes me so happeee.

take some doodles from this moment, they make me feel like im gona explode into gore

(2nd image by @wiisnorkeling2006 ofc <333)

[smile-files]

a rundown of pl bluesky henry for the uninitiated, since he's a different (yet related and not mutually exclusive) characterization of henry to the one i've been dabbling in lately:

henry's occasionally antagonized by his superego, which, in certain high-stress and/or high-guilt scenarios, manifests as a separate voice in his internal monologue sounding a lot like a hybrid between his own adult self and mr ascot (in contrast to his id, which is a blend of his child self and randall and which is much less distinct); this superego refers to henry in second person and chastises henry for doing the wrong thing, which usually amounts to him doing anything remotely self-indulgent and/or not in direct accordance with another's best interest, and makes him hypervigilant of how he might be (or is) hurting his loved ones

largely instigated by the temporal paradoxes which have, among other things, taken randall away and returned him in a horrifically painful manner, henry has experienced a guilt spiral in which he believes his desire for randall's return directly and necessarily hurts randall, and, through a warped understanding of a certain time travel loop, believes he dooms himself to randall's hatred in the past by abandoning him in the present

in accordance to the above two, henry questions his relationships to those closest to him: among other things, he fears he has assumed a greater level of closeness than is really present, and wonders if these relationships are HIS at all (this causes him to obsess over what level of formality he should be referring to his loved ones with)

henry (eventually) enters a romantic relationship with dalston! yay! but the path to that is incredibly tedious given how henry thinks for a while the very notion of the relationship to be some sort of personal, selfish, aberrant delusion of his; and at the same time, he keeps thinking about his own issues, including his inability to deal with said issues, and pushes dalston away out of fear of involving him in a life he thinks is doomed for tragedy - but this doesn't work for long, since dalston is (thankfully) stubborn as all hell

on a related note... across timelines, henry has a 50/50 death rate. his relationship with dalston is one piece of the puzzle helping prevent him from choosing to shuffle off the mortal coil in this timeline

henry sleeps next to the corpse of an incarnation of randall! henry tries to trick himself into believing he's just asleep! henry wakes up and almost immediately has a panic attack!

henry practically goads an incarnation of randall/the masked gentleman into trying to kill him! he fails but ends up in a month-long 'coma' through which he isn't allowed to die (the 'coma' is only indirectly caused by this incarnation of randall)

henry is trying to parent the daughter whom an alternate version of him has; to some extent he's still disturbed by her very existence, given how she was conceived for the sake of maintaining this other henry's public image, but tries his best to give her a good childhood

worth noting too is that henry (as far as he can surmise) somehow has this strange device implanted in his brain which allows him to hear others' voices from afar and have his own voice heard over those same distances; the device can malfunction, giving him intense migraines, and has trouble hearing voices from people within, say, the akbadain ruins (which, relating to the azran's connection to the time stream, raises whether the device is somehow also azran technology)

henry has an... uncharacteristically poetic internal monologue

[sirenium]

If you ever feel invalidated by an exclusionist, please remember this post because I can assure you they don't know what they're talking about💀

⚠️trigger warning for of course exclusionist dumbassery, also this gets rant-y⚠️

I swear exclusionists have the most incoherent thought processes known to man dude cuz what is this shit

[ID: purple header text reading he/him lesboy flag/ hesboy flag! Under this text is plain black text reading based on these two flags: •reclaimed lesboy •he/him lesbian. Under this, red, bold text reads DNI, followed by rad inclus, terfs/transmeds, anti he/him lesbians & she/her gays, male/men "lesbians" in black plain text. End ID]

'Lesboy flag' and 'no man lesbians' in the same post... my brain is melting. Also... these people 'reclaimed' the term lesboy? Just to exclude a group of people who are lesboys? You do know that lesbians who also consider themselves men are also included in the lesboy term? Apparently not to these people. Butches who also consider themselves men? Sorry, not lesbians anymore. Multigender man lesbians? Nah sorry you're men so you can't be lesbians./sarc

[ID: blue header text reading Demiboy lesbian flag! Beneath this, quote text (at least I think that's what it's called) reads I couldn't decide on which ones to choose, so I'm posting all of them! Beneath this, much like the previous image, OP starts off their DNI with a bold red DNI, followed by black plain text. This text reads mspec "lesbians", radinclus, terfs/transmeds, radfems, men/male "lesbians", anti he/him lesbians and she/her gays. End ID]

Is that,, not excluding demiboy lesbians? Oh my bad, it's fine cuz they're only 'partially male' and therefore aren't ACTUALLY icky men invading lesbian spaces!/sarc

Also can I just say how fucking entitled it is to be all like 'mspec "lesbians"' with the quotes and shit? Like oh my god get over yourself, you aren't the leader of the lesbians™️ [trademark]. Bro thinks they're part of the lesbian council or some shit. 💀

Besides that, this has got to be one of the funniest examples of exclusionist stupidity I've ever seen. I can't get over it bro: 'demiboy lesbian flag!' 'Fuck off icky man lesbians!' In the SAME. POST. BAHAHA–

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It's rare that I feel the need to take screenshots and talk about them on my blog, but these are so poetically idiotic that I had to make a whole post dedicated to them. So yeah, sorry about your braincells lmao. But just know you're valid regardless of how you identify as a lesbian, and these are the types of people who think otherwise. Needless to say, they aren't really that credible.

[ID: a DNI banner with a purple background with lighter purple text reading DNI: system/queer exlusionists, TERFs/SWERFs, truscum/transmeds, anti recovery for harmful paraphilia, anti otherkin, anti self dx, pro cringe culture, pro-lifers, anti xenogender. A more detailed DNI is in my pinned post. A transparent png of Shadow The Hedgehog can be seen on the right, beside the text. He's holding his hand to his chest, his body facing the text and his eyes looking off to the distance. End ID]

[please-picturemeintheweeds]

speaking my truth! I love the official lyrics of MBOBHFT! I think they are poetically superior! She uses the word “part” again in “broken parts” (maybe I just was scolded for redundant word use too often in school lol) and also she shifted the rhyme scheme of that line to pair “sand lot” with “box, better off, and I’m not” rather than repeating a word and sticking it with the zinger couplet “heart and broken parts”.

AAA(C/B)AABCCBB

It makes “stole my tortured heart. Left all these broken parts” stand out a lot which emphasis the album title and enforces the concept of a relationship pattern that gets explored on the album. Sand lot is a nostalgic image and suggests that love’s a game. That was the worst part doesn’t give any new info.

just say when, (A)

id okay again (A)

he was my best friend (A)

And that was the worst part (C) // down at the sandlot (B)

I felt more when we played pretend (A)

than with all the Ken’s (A)

cus he took me out of my box (B)

stole my tortured heart (C)

left all these broken parts (C)

told me I better off (B)

but I’m not (B)