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Went to the doctor and got diagnosed as allergic
#he said it's both dermatographic and chronic urticaria#and the chronic one just has no real cause#I'm just an itchy bitch#allergies
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What better way to practice new prosthetics then to piss of the bitch that got you to need them in the first place!
In other news, my pirate ocs Gali and Ido (with a third Meridi not present) who are the two sides of the fulmini cult escapees :P
A bit of backstory under the cut since they're the only fuckers I have WITH a backstory! Which btw does detail cult shit so :P big fat warning for that-
The inciting incident on Petropia that introduced it's modern underground population to the surface named the Surface Craze was in all due part because of fulmini interference at the behest of the High Override, who saw what was initially just a planet entirely made of quartz-like crystal the Override Fleet could use as a power source. Having instead found that the planet was not only populated but by a species of the living variant of that same quartz-like material - electrical properties and all - but that additionally they can regenerate their crystalline body so long as they have the energy to pull from.
Seeing this as a solution to the fulmini's energy crisis - a perpetual machine at it's finest - the High Override sought to heh... acquire some petrosapiens for themselves. To their collective benefit, a community of petrosapiens had found their faith and world shattered, previously having been extremely devoted to the Sugi religion (derived from the ancient texts of Thuugi back when their tongues were long enough to be bitten off). Instead of needing to drag away dissenters who fought tooth and nail against the invaders, this community had already shifted their faith onto the false prophet of the High Override, which already had them fall into the Coupled Override head over heels.
The cult has now expanded it's pool of prey, and like the unwilling fulmini who gives the High Override their tithe (their minds, their central colony), the petrosapien cultists pay with their arms.
50 years (or the closest equivalent) into this arrangement, 50 years Petropia spent experiencing the surface for the first time in generations, Ido was born into the cult far away from the planet she should have known as home. Any doctor worth their salt had enough brains and stubbornness to not fall into faith-based trust of the Coupled Override, so between the lack of those and the remainder pseudoscience physicians left to echo chamber themselves, when Ido began developing Excessive Compression Disorder (ECD, a nerve-equivalent disorder that causes tension fractures throughout a petrosapien's crystalline structure) despite the rather obvious visible signed she went undiagnosed and improperly treated. At the age of 200 - a petrosapien's coming of age, and 50 years after Petropia's destruction - it was Ido's time to pay her tithe and begin her offerings to the High Override.
Gali - her sacrifricant - was to sever her arms below the elbow, as was procedure. What wasn't was the near explosive response from external pressure, or the last compressive force needed to completely shatter what had already started to break.
Cutting people's arms off is technically already a violent act however, though the lower arms survived the procedure as expected, the elbow and even upper arm had scattered shards of glass-fragile crystal in a visceral radius and physically severed through the sacrificant's central colony; then Gali was abruptly severed from the High Override after they felt as if a limb began necrotising. Sacrificants nor executioners really need an active memory to do their jobs, so Gali didn't need to have memory for however long their colony was one with the High Override's. Forcefully amputated from the larger system like an infection without any of the memories of being apart of said system however, kind of rewinds a colony back to the people they remember being long before any interference.
While Ido was caught staring wide-eyed, fearful, and newly lacking the limbs she thought she could regenerate easily - her arms try and try but they shatter like glass, crumble like sand, and she violently shudders like gravel grinding into each other - Gali regained access of their long unused senses and found a sea of hostile enemy combatants staring back. With all the training of a military general with none of the present self-awareness to realise they were the cause of the currently very panicky rock's lack of arms, Gali almost like a flick of a switch reverted to the many rules of engagement regardless of the fact that they were sporting exposed central colony that may or may not have been another's with their own collection of memories.
Seeing to rescue someone who had all their rights to fear them, Gali and Ido fled to the stars.
With a few language barriers mixed with someones learning they haven't spoken much longer then anyone thought they did, discovering how planets that were meant to be each other's home have been destroyed and irrecoverable, and learning the before and after to the horror story that is the High Override and their cultist network of external nerves and collective colony, Gali and Ido may or may not have gotten arrested :P
And they probably would have been tried for crimes neither of them could particularly understand not having learnt any of the common universal languages, up until the point the prison ship was raided by a collective of pirates only working together for equal cuts of the profits (the Plumbers used a prison ship to transport the Annihilargh while they still thought it to be a threat, what's to say they wouldn't simultaneaously transport prisoners - aka, the fucking point - with some high sought-after McGuffin). The pair would meet Meridi, a galvan with a penchant for mechanics and especially the kind that deceives an observer like - for instance - an android suit.
Meridi isn't here but gist is, she pilots both her own ship and an android resembling a human, and spies a pretty prize of walking talking taydenite. Instead of scoring a deal, she takes into consideration (perhaps with a cold calculation rather than a warm sympathy) the condition of ECD affected crystals and how much effort it would take to actually refine it and deems turning Ido into pocket change isn't worth it. In fact, further taking note of the explosive volatile footwork of crystallokinesis with the additional muscle of a fulmini veteran, actively helping Ido (and Gali by proxy) would potentially turn out more of a profit.
Gali isn't in dire need for hiding, but Ido uses shadow and a human-mouth jaw mask as tools to conceal what price her skin costs, while Meridi attempts to make prosthetics for a species that doesn't have nerves that also takes into account the unstable electrical currents produced by the compression of crystalline motor functions.
A bit of a tangent in a very long not-even-bothering-to-summarize backstory, I want to talk about petrosapien prosthetics, at least ones that can have 'motors' like Ido's arms (not like Chio's leg). With no external muscles to help strap in and extend the remnant of tendons humans have running through limbs, petrosapien exoskeletons do not offer the same interconnectivity and do not have easy ways to extend what had been cut off. Myoelectric limbs again by human standards also do not fit petrosapien nervous systems either, especially since the only nerves they have are in their equivalent of the central nervous system which also interacts with internal organs, the peripheral nervous system of a petrosapien operates with the highly structured yet individually unique non-standardised crystalline formations and compression. What Meridi does however is take material from Ido's crystal to create the joints in a conductive copper rod prosthetic (insulated in rubber to prevent harm to others), where Ido's compression triggers electricity to run down to remotely compress the crystal joints, which compress under the pressures of electricity and send the signal to be compressed again until motility is achieved.
And that is a lot of context :P woops- I either make no backstory or I make this convoluted piece of moving puzzle pieces, the duality of man I suppose :P
#gali#ido#fulmini#petrosapien#ido is hiding the fact she's a petrosapien in the same way tetrax hides the fact he's a petrosapien :P#oc#ben 10 oc#ben 10#fanart#cult#cult mention#the cult details are under the cut but they are mentioned to be ex-cultists in the caption#so it turns out i did end up using something from that mega collection of images#lowkey (highkey actually) i was inspired to give ido a human-mouth mask from that one cover of thunderstruck#thunderstruck guzheng cover by moyun i believe- i do hope it's not like a facial corrective mask and i'm taking that and using it wrong#but moyun covers her face in all videos so forgive me if i'm completely enamoured with the mask design#gotta be honest with you- i made the concept of ido (pirate petrosapien) based on that mask alone#before i had settled on other half of an ex-cult duo#let alone bringing another older actually a pirate character to create another fucking trio#gali as a fulmini uses plural they/them by default but ido with her fulmus/petropian pidgin accidentally single pronouned gali as she/her#gali doesn't mind it she'll just say it's the plural she/her and they'll nod like it makes sense#(anything can make sense when you're one of two people actively speaking a pidgin language out of necessity)#it's not because gali has 'hair' those are the equivalent of exposed nerves (a fun prank to play on your friend *immense pain*)#but those are parts of other's central colonies with their own memory overriden or not#gali mayy or may not have the fulmini equivalent of a dissociative disorder (more osdd than did if anything)#but the functional equivalent in fulmini biology is quite literally caused by having someone else's brain attached to you#more akin to a male anglerfish than childhood neuroplasticity developing coping mechanisms#and introducing excessive compression disorder! a petrosapien chronic illness! yipippie!!!#i know functionally ecd (or this fictional version if humans have their own ecd acronym taken) isn't a problem real people face#but even in a fictional setting i want to be respectful and hopefully it was?
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âlucifer iâve got a migraineâ you say
âokay. come hereâ he says and drills a fucking hole right into your skull
you sigh in relief. âthank you.â
#brought to you by: iâm having a fcuking migraine and canât sleep#this is what the migraine fic is going to be guys. just sou know#should i do. a cw warning.#cw gore imagery#i think? would work best. idk yâall#cw gore#like just to be super safe in case one of u guys has a vivid imagination and can spiral into imagery lol#obey me fanfiction#<- i think this post can count for this tag because i use quotation marks and thereâs a character interaction.#iâm an official obey me fic writer guys xox. writing in second pov is actually really easy oddly enough lol#does anyone else in this fandom get chronic migraines. do u have an overwhelming soft side for lucifer because he gets them too#like itâs not overly expressed in game but i like that heâs a miserable character and gets migraines because haha *points* thatâs me.#when he psssed out from a migraine and lost all his memories⌠so real of him. and we caused that.#youâre welcome babe. me next
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canon vlad and danny meeting roleswap danny and vlad would be funny bc rs!danny would side with canon vlad for a cornchip and the opportunity to piss off rs!vlad. canon vlad will just be like omg a danny that knows evil AND will side with me (he does not know that rs!danny is ALSO willing to betray his ass for a smoothie). and canon danny and rs!vlad are like see what i have to deal with. except canon danny would take a lot longer to warm up to rs!vlad but he would go. wow you look weird when you arent powerade blue. and rs!vlad will have his worldview enabled that danny is capable of good
#canon vlad gets his evil kid but Watch Out#i think rs!vlad and canon danny would have a very interesting friendship cause theyre so normal#like when rs!vlad looks at canon danny he sees that his danny can also be like that he just needs to try harder to reach his good side#and canon danny sees a vlad thats capable of moving past his hatred and being a decent person. its the potential u see in ur enemy#anyways rs!danny is like a chronic backstabber and switches alliances depending on how funny his partner is#also rs!vlad would bribe rs!danny with a burger to get him on their side. it works btw.#dp roleswap au#i did flanderize rs!danny a bit sorry he has no real loyalty but he would actually be more independent#but he tends to fufill a henchman role for a lot of ghosts and has canonically only betrayed one ghost#basically heâll work for u if u offer somethinf in return. like pissing off vlad.
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mentally ill people who for whatever reason end up wearing the same exact clothing so many days in a row that it begins to disintegrate and will still not stop wearing it until itâs literally just scraps of fabric VS. those weird shitty rich people who ââcanât be seen in the same outfit twiceââ human dichotomyÂ
#poast brought to you by my pants that are missing an entire leg and completely open in the back and the front almost#to the point they could not really be considered pants anymore (I wear lots of layers so i have shorts under them but lol)#I tore them again sitting down and it made me introspect about when it's time to throw clothes out and how everyone has different standards#and etc. Like how some people will get stains on clothing and just throw it away#.where others will keep wearing stained stuff if they have an attachment to it. etc. etc.#or like One hole in jeans is okay but 20 holes is Crossing A Line - unless they were made that way as a fashion trend#which then made me think about those people who like.. change clothes multiple times a day and never want to rewear stuff#and just have a constant stream of fast fashion etc. Anyway. not a real dichotomy. just being silly. i like to think about humans behaviors#brggghghb.. still not being very productive as I just keep having flare up after flare up of various chronic issues I have so I'm feeling#sick like every few days but always for different reasons. As if something has increased the general inflammation in my entire body#and its just bopping around making different things worse here and there. but I'm not sure of any underlying cause.#theorectially could always be stress since I am often stressed but I don't feel stressed more than usual. I have no infection markers#on blood tests and my covid tests so far have been negative. I guess my body just felt like 'hey happy new year. would you like.. uhm...#some... Problems.. as a treat? OuO''#I mean I'm lucky at this point that I don't have a condition that makes me completely bedridden or something and am grateful for that but#having so many smaller issues in the background overlapping all the time can be ehxausting and make it feel like a larger issue#because you just never get a break. once one problem clears up it's another. etc. modifying diet. supplements. doctors. new issue. new modif#ications. new doctors. new this#new that. etc. For my body to reach some sort of non-inflammed stable state I feel like I'm going to have to just be suspended in a gladd#*glass antigravity chamber for 3 years eating nothing but basic gruel and iv liquids. something so bland and so untriggering of anything#that literally nothing can be inflammed or etc. lol.. Though I'd probably still somehow have joint pain even with nogravity.#ANYWAY... I did finally edit a new sims video. for the few of you that follow my sims youtube. I have costumes totally ready to post I just#literally havent had the energy to queue up the photos. STILL WORKING ON EVIL WORLDBULDING SLIDESHOW task of epic proportions#. other videos. other stuff. I've had to spend some time on social stuff since I really ned to get started finding friends in the potential#places I'd like to move so I know people when I get there. as it takes me like years to trust someone. but hjgh... I am so like. inherently#unrelatable to the average person. at least the avg people on friend making sites and stuff. I even made a perosnal compatibility quiz#but again.. thats something most people don't do lol... ''buhh just text snapchat me & get to know me through conversation why should i take#a 15 minute quiz up front?'' shut up. i woudl LOVE to take a custom compatibility quiz before talking to someone. its efficent. you will nev#er get it. that is a positive to me. if only anyone else did that. if only. (I'm being jokingly rude. its perfectly reaosnable for people to#have different standards and communication styles. etc. etc. lol) ANYWAY.. tldr me sleepy and feel bad no productive wehh
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When I was in vet school I went to this one lecture that I will never forget. Various clubs would have different guest lecturers come in to talk about relevant topics and since I was in the Wildlife Disease Association club I naturally attended all the wildlife and conservation discussions. Well on this particular occasion, the speakers started off telling us they had been working on a project involving the conservation of lemurs in Madagascar. Lemurs exist only in Madagascar, and they are in real trouble; theyâre considered the most endangered group of mammals on Earth. This team of veterinarians was initially assembled to address threats to lemur health and work on conservation solutions to try and save as many lemur species from extinction as possible. As they explored the most present dangers to lemurs they found that although habitat loss was the primary problem for these vulnerable animals, predation by humans was a significant cause of losses as well. The vets realized it was crucial for the hunting of lemurs by native people to stop, but of course this is not so simple a problem.
The local Malagasy people are dealing with extreme poverty and food insecurity, with nearly half of children under five years old suffering from chronic malnutrition. The local people have always subsisted on hunting wildlife for food, and as Madagascarâs wildlife population declines, the people who rely on so-called bushmeat to survive are struggling more and more. People are literally starving.
Our conservation team thought about this a lot. They had initially intended to focus efforts on education but came to understand that this is not an issue arising from a lack of knowledge. For these people it is a question of survival. It doesnât matter how many times a foreigner tells you not to eat an animal youâve hunted your entire life, if your child is starving you are going to do everything in your power to keep your family alive.
So the vets changed course. Rather than focus efforts on simply teaching people about lemurs, they decided to try and use veterinary medicine to reduce the underlying issue of food insecurity. They supposed that if a reliable protein source could be introduced for the people who needed it, the dependence on meat from wildlife would greatly decrease. So they got to work establishing new flocks of chickens in the most at-risk communities, and also initiated an aggressive vaccination program for Newcastle disease (an infectious illness of poultry that is of particular concern in this area). They worked with over 600 households to ensure appropriate husbandry and vaccination for every flock, and soon found these communities were being transformed by the introduction of a steady protein source. Families with a healthy flock of chickens were far less likely to hunt wild animals like lemurs, and fewer kids went hungry. Thats what we call a win-win situation.
This chicken vaccine program became just one small part of an amazing conservation outreach initiative in Madagascar that puts local people at the center of everything they do. Helping these vulnerable communities of people helps similarly vulnerable wildlife, always. If we go into a country guns-blazing with that fire for conservation in our hearts and a plan to save native animals, we simply cannot ignore the humans who live around them. Doing so is counterintuitive to creating an effective plan because whether we recognize it or not, humans and animals are inextricably linked in many ways. A true conservation success story is one that doesnât leave needy humans in its wake, and that is why I think this particular story has stuck with me for so long.
(Source 1)
(Source 2- cool video exploring this initiative from some folks involved)
(Source 3)
#we can save the world just maybe not in the way weâd planned#long post#scicomm#conservation#lemurs#wildlife#ecology#animals#vet med#veterinary medicine#One Health
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Last night in bed and this morning, as I was brushing my teeth, I wondered what I would tell my neurosurgeon today.
I shouldn't have worried, because once I started, it all came out. That my pain is mostly moderate, but it's there every day. That it intensifies when I'm standing or sitting up. That I'm worried about what it will do to my back once I am psychologically fit to go back to work. That I can't eat at a table without pain. That I mop my floor on my hands and knees because that way I can keep my back straight and it won't hurt as much. That if I've spent too much time standing, I lie on the couch in the evening and the base of my spine is burning. That on the good days I worry I'm making it all up. That on the bad days, I realise I'm not. That people seem to get annoyed when I express my pain, but how can I not? That others are surprised I "still" have back problems, even if I've told them before that this is forever. That it's exhausting and mentally taxing.
She listens to me, and I say sorry for unburdening, but she says it's fine, because of course it's fine, she sees people like me all the time. People who get used to the pain. People who bite through it. People who think others have it worse so why complain. People who adjust their life as much as possible until they bump into things they cannot change. Of everyone I know who does not have to deal with this, she understands.
And she says we'll do another scan and see how things are, and it's no surprise I'm in pain given the state of my spine, and do I need a prescription for pain meds.
And I leave a little lighter than when I entered her office.
#neurosurgeon#back problems#back pain#chronic pain#pain#physical health#sometimes I forget that my spine really is That Bad#and people around me don't realise because I'm just walking and talking like everyone else (mostly)#I'm not saying that pain isn't real unless there is a physical cause for it (that we can find)#I'm saying in my case there is a physical cause that we can see so I shouldn't think it's NOT real#we'll see on the new scans how it has developed over the last two years#in my head I'm already relativising like it's not radiating to my legs so it can't be that bad#no it is it's as bad as you think it is oedie#you had pain today just from putting the fucking laundry in the fucking washing machine#stop minimising it sigh#a story every day#2 october#2024#sorry everyone this one is about my back again :')
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Dick suffers from a chronic case of "younger siblings disease".
Nothing his is actually his, he'll buy a nice pair of pants and get the chance to wear it twice before one of his younger siblings takes it.
His oversized hoodies? All gone whenever Jason is in a crop top mood. His cute sanrio pijama pants? Cass took most of them and uses one of his shoe laces to tighten them instead of buying her own, because his stuff is "more comfortable". His shoes are free real state, Steph and Tim have a field day with them, Dick once found his Nike a1 valentine's pair stuffed with socks on the tip bc it didn't fit Steph but she still needed them to make the cutest fit ever.
Damian likes to say he doesn't steal Dick's clothes, but whenever a jacket or sunglass goes missing 80% of the time it'll be with Damian's stuff. Duke is a heathen he was all timid and shy at first, but Dick's beanies, tshirts and scarves are all gone whenever he has the chance
And Dick wouldn't have a problem with lending his clothes to his siblings, but they also steal his clothing from each other and then fight over who had it at first which always ends up with him having to confiscate the thing that caused the dispute at first, the cycle just repeats
Bonus :. Bruce tried to borrow a hoodie once, every kid fought him over it bc it was off limits since everyone also wanted it and he couldn't just disturb their system like that
#dick grayson#jason todd#dc comics#batfam#damian wayne#cassandra cain#stephanie brown#duke thomas#tim drake#bruce wayne#headcanon
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This is the kind of shitty trope that can only be worth anything but a purposeful and mindful inversion of the trope, which not everyone can pull off well, though I believe it is possible.
Another separate example of a shitty harmful trope that only truly becomes worth anything when it is inverted is the trope of "a timeskip has happened, and now to show that the character has turned into a pathetic disgusting loser, they have become FAT." -- This is my least favorite trope of all time, and it genuinely makes me lose some of my will to live.
But the inversion of that trope is like the end of the novel series my wife is writing, in which there is a timeskip and the main character is now chubby -- and this is framed as a clear sign of healing and growth for this character who has been underweight and malnourished for 3 books up til now!! -- As a fat person trying to recover from an eating disorder, this makes me feel seen and happy and loved! (I LOVE MY WIFE.)
Similarly, with the "disability reveal illiciting fear and pity" thing, it's like @cripplecharacters said: the issue is the fear and pity, especially when framed as an obvious and natural reaction from neutral or good characters.
And now before I list some ideas for inverting the trope, I wanna give the caveat that if you are not representing a disability that you have, you should first and foremost ask yourself why you want a remarkable reveal of the character's disability in the story in the first place:
-- What function does it serve? What feeling is it meant to evoke from the audience? (Fear, pity, shock, or disgust = bad answers.) Is this a matter of making disability a spectacle[bad]? Is this a matter of body horror[very bad in relation to disability]?? or is it a genuine educated attempt to represent someone from a community you aren't a part of[has the potential to be okay]???
Ideas for inversions:
The people expressing shock/pity/disgust/fear are explicitly framed as FUCKING ASSHOLES for doing this, who are eventually INVALIDATED by the larger narrative, which is committed to proving them to be in the wrong by centering the disabled character as a hero. -- The disabled character is a bigger character than any of the assholes, with their own inner life, active agency in the story, and pain response to being treated poorly. Perhaps they make the assholes look like ignorant fools in the very same scene! (Note: if you are representing a community you are not a part of, this kind of nasty prejudice is NOT OKAY TO PUT IN JUST FOR ~FLAVOR~. You need to have something to SAY about it with your storytelling beyond "isn't that just so sad that some people are mean to cripples??", or else you're a hack for ***exposing your disabled readers to a painful reflection of their own trauma for no good reason.***)
The disabled character has their own inner life and active agency in the story; and when they reveal their disability, it is met with delight and excitement - perhaps by another major character with a disability who feels pride and comradery over this in their current situation.
It's possible to have a good scene where someone reacts wrongly with pity/ignorance to a disabled character, and then the disabled character (a full character who is in the story for more than just this purpose) carefully and generously explains why this is harmful -- with the ableist character apologizing and meaningfully changing their behavior. But tbh it is more likely that this will end up as a stilted and unnecessary scene if you are not a disabled person yourself. Especially if you aren't consulting actual disabled people.
There is no grand reveal, but rather a simple acceptance and even celebration of disability. Characters have totally awesome wheelchairs; people with scars and unusual body types have loving partners and active sex lives; characters are not considered unworthy of being the story's hero just because they are disabled!
The Jaws Effect is dangerous and even deadly, but the flip side of that coin is GOOD representation for us, in which we get to be full characters that have hopes and dreams and fears outside of just being disabled setpieces for abled characters to react to!
If showing wheelchair users as inherently miserable only serves to make real wheelchair users actually miserable because abled people end up thinking that our lives are hell and therefore we need endless harmful "hLep" and dangerously dehumanizing pity that veers into eugenics......
Then the opposite of that would be to show how FULL our lives can be! How we are still entire complex humans, who don't need to be magically turned into abled people to remain a part of the story!! Our chairs are GOOD and offer FREEDOM, and showing a wheelchair user going about their life and being part of the story can go a long way towards communicating that, even without focus on the disability itself as part of the narrative!
How could I do a "classic disabled reveal" (Example: The guy reveals that he has a mechanical limb and the spectators feel pity/scared) in a better way, without using the tiring tropes and drama?
The thing is, you can't.
The tired trope and the drama, is, in fact, the 'pity' and the 'fear' spectators feel at seeing a disabled person and a sign of their disability.
That is what's tired, not the dramatic moment of the reveal. The reveal itself is whatever.
The tired trope is that disabilities and signs of them are something you should be scared of, that you should pity, that you shouldn't be seeing or have them being shown to you.
And this trope is not harmless, and it hurts real disabled people in the real world. It extends to people's feelings about real disabled people, the way they treat real disabled people. It contributes to thinking that disability is something inherently scary, bad, and required to hide. Disability is neutral, not the end of the world.
Someone having a disability is not automatically scary nor something to pity. Someone having a visible disability is not automatically scary nor something to pity. Disabled people are just people living life. Disability is a part of their life, our life.
Here is a post on the "Jaws Effect." Please read it and take it into consideration.
Hope this helps you understand.
â mod sparrow
#original#disability#writing#writing disability#writing disabled characters#disabled writer#wheelchair user#or well. person who needs a wheelchair and has needed one for 5 years but docs denied it bc they believed I'd suffer more for having one#a real world example of how demonizing wheelchairs can hurt real people. I've been stuck inside since 2019 and it has been Hell.#I didn't go anywhere but physical therapy for YEARS i couldn't grocery shop i couldn't go to clubs i can't stand without agony#the day i get that chair may be one of the happiest of my life.#ableism#ableism cw#anyway my graphic novel will be called The Blacksmith. its about a guy who becomes and STAYS disabled AND remains the goddamn protagonist#none of this 'i cured the disabled character cause i didn't wanna write a cripple' coward shit#David discovers disabled community and trains to learn the high level skill of living with a disability and it has a happy ending#bc i am permanently disabled and i need to see a story where being permanently disabled is NOT the tragic end of a character's story#bc if i healed him it would just be to make abled people feel comfortable and to tell other cripples that there is no story with room for u#david will experience limited mobility and chronic pain for the rest of his long life full of love and adventure#david will NEVER be as fast a blacksmith and artificer as he once was and YET his best work is still ahead of him#David's experience is a harsh wakeup call that the society he lives in abuses and exploits disabled people and he becomes#an indispensable part of the revolution. he continues to fuck. he continues to grow. he falls in love. he remains the hero of the story.#it's absolutely going to kick ass#The Blacksmith#eating disorder mention#fatphobia mention#I LOVE MY WIFE
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(Article I want to bitch about on my own blog and not put it in the tags.)
I suspected that the devs were super chronically online for various reasons and choices but this basically confirms it. Like oh my fucking god I'm being so genuine and real but they really, REALLY need to log off. You cannot approach any piece of media trying to appease all of the fans, it will never, ever work. Fandom is not a monolith, fans are not a monolith, people will bad faith read your story for fun, or good faith read it, and still come away with an entirely different take than you intention. "Death of an author" is a real and true concept.
"Wipe out a Dalish clan in all three games" is a CHOICE. In Origins it is considered the evil option of the three endings for the quest, you have to encourage the werewolves to want to kill them. In DA2 you're defending the person that the clan has been told is a pariah among the clan AND is now blamed for getting their keeper killed. In Inquisition it is a rather convoluted war table mission, but there are ways to resolve it with no death. But these are choices! The game doesn't give you a gun and leave you no room to avoid it. Taking the choice out isn't a win! It's bad game design for a roleplaying game!
"None of the Dalish would take the side of the evil gods" is not the "win" you think it is (also I guess city elves get shafted again but that's expected) because it flattens any sort of nuance, motivations, messy interactions, or just flaws? In general flaws? Going from one extreme to another in terms of "good" and "bad" is not the "win" you think it is!!! All you've done is removed character agency!!!!
I can't suspend my disbelief enough to accept the entire build up of Inquisition to Trespasser with elves leaving their homes to join Solas only for the reason they're not running around being "oh he'll end the world". Like, how could their lives get worse in that case? Sure, the extremely powerful being claiming to be right out of the mythos said his plan will cause thousands of deaths and the world as you might know it but I'll just head back to my home in the alienage where humans can do whatever they want to me like burn down my home or kill my family with no repercussions. Or I guess since the city elves are practically nonexistent, that was never considered lmfao. Or hell just, elves wanting a grab at power? For selfish reasons? Or well-intentioned reasons? You know, nuance??? Like, fuck dude.
#this mindset shows the EXACT problem with the approach to veilguard when it comes to the âheroâ aspect#and how they pushed a deep divide in âgoodâ and âbadâ and it is so painfully obvious#because you listened to fans#if there is a future for da the devs need to stick to their guns or grow a backbone or just...SOMETHING#even though i'm sure ea had some hand in it but the article is really showing on the writers side of the problem#veilguard critical#datv critical#bioware critical#dragon age critical#dragon age negative#veilguard spoilers#da4 spoilers
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yeah itâs good seeing people talking about building community and putting focus on community care right now but to be quite honest i donât want to hear shit about âcommunityâ from you if you wonât even wear a mask to keep from spreading a debilitating and deadly virus. weâre still averaging ~5,000 confirmed covid deaths a month in the U.S. (the real number is much higher, considering that testing is grotesquely underreported, plus the fact that dying from complications caused by covid doesnât statistically count as dying from covid). millions of people have long covid and might be living with debilitating symptoms for years, if not for the rest of their lives. covid has destroyed so many peopleâs immune systems and people are getting sick more often, and getting sicker than they used to. disabled, chronically ill, and immunocompromised people deserve to be able to exist in public without having to worry about catching an illness that could further disable or kill them. kids deserve to go to school without catching a devastating vascular infection over and over and risking their long term health and quality of life. people deserve to be able to go to a doctorâs office or hospital without facing such a high risk of getting covid while theyâre there. so many people truly donât have the option to exist in public life anymore for fear of what this virus might do to them or someone they live with. yâall are talking a lot right now about how the government doesnât care about us and wonât protect us, and i hate to tell you that that includes protection from covid. the government completely gave up on covid years ago at this point, and theyâre not going to change course anytime soon. wearing a mask is genuinely one of the most important forms of community care you can personally, single-handedly contribute to right now. should we also be pushing for better air filtration and ventilation, paid sick leave, free healthcare, and better vaccines and treatments? yes! but those things will take time, and will only happen with a lot of organization. you can wear a mask and do your part to reduce transmission right now though, and that will make a difference in your community, even if it might not seem like it. the point is, respectfully, if you truly care about community and looking out for other people, doing something as simple and effective as wearing a mask is a great way to not only visibly show solidarity, but also make a real, meaningful effort to protect our collective health and wellbeing. youâre gonna have to actually make an effort to care for your community instead of just saying words on the internet, and wearing a mask would be a good start.
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Request: Skz accidentally finding out one of readerâs kinks⌠could be a drabble or text! <3
oh my godâŚyes. happy birthday to međ
18+ below the cut peeps
all characters depicted in my writing are from my own imagination and do NOT in anyway represent nor reflect the people in real life :)
âŠpairing: hyung line x gn!reader
âŠgenre(s): smut
âŠwarnings: swearing, unprotected sex, kinks: hair pulling, spit, choking, humiliation. penetration (not specified what hole. this one is for all the delulus out there)
âŠauthorâs note: yeah, smut. just nasty smut. mAy have gotten carried away with this. mAy have had some revelations. mAy be chronically down bad for hyunjin after thisâŚand EYE wrote it.
âŠpart(s): next
chris | hair pulling | 0.9k (955) words
You were laying on the bed next to Chris. You watching the newest installment of the Bridgerton series, and he playing Pokemon Go. Your friends and the boys constantly tease the two of you saying that you act like a couple when really you arenât. Chris gets annoyed, much more than he likes to admit, at the constant allegation. However, you donât pay it any mind. If anything you add fuel to the fire.Â
PingâŚpingâŚping
You groan loudly and press pause on your show.Â
âIf you could be so kind to turn the ringer on your phone off? Iâm trying to watch a sexy scene and your pinging is taking me out the moment!â You say turning your attention to Chris, his eyes still glued to the screen.Â
He just hums in response but makes no move to flip the switch on the side of his phone.Â
PingâŚpingâŚping
He chuckles lowly before swiping the notification up to continue his battle. You crawl over to him and snatch his phone from his hand. It seems you will have to see for yourself just who is blowing up his phone.Â
âY/n give it back!â He reaches over to grab the phone but you turn your whole body away from him, laughing as you curl up tightly trying to read the notifications.Â
âMy my my, who is Aaliyah?â You gasp dramatically. âI miss you so much baby, canât wait âtil I can see you again, need you bad Channieâ You mimic in a high pitched voice.Â
âY/n Iâm serious just give it back!â He growls. It has now turned into a scramble of sorts. You underneath, curled up in a foetal position. Him, on top as he tries to pry your body open to retrieve his phone.Â
Chris accidentally releases his grasp on you and in that moment you roll from underneath him. Planning to escape out of his room, you hastily make a move to climb off the bed.Â
It all happened so quickly. The grab. The noise. The drop of the phone. The awkward silence.Â
In your attempt to flee, Chris had grabbed you by your hair and yanked you back. You could have wailed, could have screamed, but you did neither. No, what you did was far worse.Â
You had released a guttural moan.Â
You. Moaning because Chris pulled your hair.Â
Neither of you dared to speak, nor look each other in the eyes. You were embarrassed to say the least. Your best friend had just discovered that you have a hair pulling kink. He on the other hand took one too many deep breaths to calm himself. He has never heard you make a noise like that before. Much less because of him.Â
âI, ahem- your phone. Iâm sorryâŚyou can have it back.â You say keeping your eyes glued to his bedsheets as you slide the phone over to his leg.Â
You go to retract your hand quickly so that you can go get a glass of water to cool yourself down. He grabs your wrist almost instantaneously. Not letting you get far at all.Â
âLook at me.â He demands. You do as he says, slowly bringing your eyes to meet his. You donât have to look down at his chest to detect the way it rises and falls heavily.Â
He gently runs his hand all the way up your arm, an agenda clearly on his mind. Youâre frozen in place as you feel his hand creep to the nape of your neck, his fingers spreading wide as they make their way into your hair.Â
Without warning, he tugs your head back harshly causing another involuntary moan to fall from your lips. A soft gasp is released from Chris, clearly enjoying the way you react to the action.Â
You guess thatâs how you found yourself in this predicament. Knees no doubt bruising as you take Chrisâ cock repeatedly down the depths of your throat.Â
His hand was embedded deeply into your hair, gripping it tight and using it as a leverage to fuck himself into your mouth.
âFuck~ just like that Y/n. Mm, mâgonna use you as my personal fuck toy. Forget all the other girls I see. Just pull your hair whenever I need you huh? I donât know why I didnât think about it earlier.â Chris says more to himself than to you, releasing a small whine.Â
The picture that this will leave in your mind is sure to be one that will fog your brain for the next couple of months at least. You never really thought about Chris in this way. Perhaps in the beginning stages of your friendship, but it quickly went away when you found out he was a manwhore.Â
Nothing wrong with that of course, you never had any reason to judge him for it. But god if this is what you were missing. You most definitely would not mind being his personal fuck toy. Platonically of courseâŚ
Your eyes are currently watering, as you gag and swallow. Making Chris grip your hair tighter making you moan. That was the breaking point for him as he unloads into your mouth. Not giving you any chance to waste a single drop.Â
He releases his hold on you, slowly pulling out of your mouth before slapping the tip on your cheek a couple times.
You look up at him, your glossed over eyes making him coo at you as he strokes your head softly.
âI hope your head isnât too sore yet, âcause Iâm gonna use it to fuck you back onto my cock, okay?â Chris says with a devilish smile.Â
Forget the sexy scene on television, youâre currently living in the sexiest one of all!
minho | spit | 0.6k (673) words
You and Minho are getting ready for bed after a long day of camping activities. Youâre going back home from Korea tomorrow night so you wanted to spend as much time with your best friend as you could.Â
Even if that meant agreeing to do whatever he says for the last few days you shared together. Surprisingly, it was a lot of fun. You went fishing and caught a fish. You learnt how to build a campfire from scratch. Went kayaking and almost tipped it over. Let Minho spit in your mouthâ
Wait, what?
You shake your head to come back to reality. Minho swirls water around in his mouth before spitting it out into the sink.Â
He wipes his mouth as he looks up at you, your gaze seemingly transfixed onto his mouth.Â
He still tastes the toothpaste in his mouth so he leans back over the sink about to spit, but then he looks up at you. Holding your unwavering gaze.Â
He spits slowly, the saliva descending down into the sink. As it disconnects, he licks his bottom lip smirking at you.
You watched the whole ordeal, obviously. Which explains why you suddenly squeeze your thighs, shifting from one foot to another.Â
âEither Iâm living in a dream right now, or you, Y/n, are simply filthy.â
âHuh?â You say blinking rapidly.Â
âHuh? Huh?â He mocks, walking over to you.Â
What is wrong with you? Snap out of it! That is your best friend, you definitely should not be thinking about him spitting in your mouth as you get pounded by his dick.Â
âI can practically hear your thoughts. That or youâre speaking aloud.â He smirks, now inches away from your face.Â
It seems you finally regain consciousness as your hands claw at the sheets. Minho pummels you from behind at a relentless pace, making you drool.Â
You hear him chuckle, his hand falling beneath your chin to catch any saliva before bringing it up to smear on your mouth.Â
His hand moves to the underside of your jaw, forcing your head back. Your view of him now upside down as he doesnât slow the pace.Â
âAre you gonna admit that youâre a filthy little slut who likes spit?â He teases, smiling down at you.Â
You can only mewl in response, heâs got you going dumb and he certainly enjoys it.
Bringing his hand up to your cheeks, he squeezes gently. Getting you to open your mouth. You do, even going as far to stick your tongue out.Â
âOh look how obedient you are.â He spits into your mouth. His hold on your jaw releases as he moves that hand to cup your chest, hoisting you up so your back, though arched, is against his chest.Â
He fucks up into you. The sound of skin slapping against skin and both of your moans fill the tent. Those other poor people are no doubt just trying to enjoy their family camping trip, and here comes the two of you; unapologetically loud as shit.Â
âM-MinhoâŚmâclose.â You whine. He just chuckles in response, stroking that sweet spot inside of you to push you over the edge.Â
It isnât long before youâre quivering on him, your body already becoming limp as your eyes roll into the back of your head reaching that sweet release. Before you can lavish in the feeling, youâre pulled off of him and he guides your head back to his pelvis.Â
âYouâre gonna swallow every last drop I give you mâkay? No spitting this out sweetheart.â Minho says as he moans. Pumping himself faster as he unloads his seed into your mouth which you gladly swallow.Â
He uses the tip of his cock to smear any remnants of his climax on your lips. He smiles down at you, praising you for doing such a good job whilst also saying how dirty you are.Â
This will certainly make your relationship with him all the more questionable. Letâs hope it wonât be the only thing that clouds your mind on the flight home!
changbin | choking | 0.8k (898) words
You and Changbin are in the park having a cutesy little picnic. You may or may not have forced him to come with you since your other friends cancelled at the last minute and you had prepared so much. Itâs good that you and Changbin are so alike because neither of you like to waste any food.Â
You have both been snacking on some grapes, when you look down and see there is only one left on the vine. Quickly whilst his attention was elsewhere, you pluck the grape from its vine.Â
You turn your head as you go to put the grape into your mouth, but a firm hand on your wrist stops you.Â
âYou swear youâre like a ninja.â Changbin laughs as you turn to look at him with squinted eyes. He just shakes his head, his other hand held out awaiting the grape.Â
You look at his hand, the grape, his hand again and then back up to his face.Â
âIf you think Iâm giving you this grape, then you are surely mistaken.â You say, youâre tone curt.Â
Changbin looks at you, before shaking his head overzealously. You look at him confused.Â
âWhy are you shaking your head at me?â
âSorely.â
âWhat?âÂ
âYou said surely mistaken. Itâs sorely mistaken, doofus.â He says before bursting out into a fit of laughter.Â
You look momentarily taken aback, a quiet âohâ coming out of your mouth before you look at Changbinâs laughing state.Â
âFor that, Iâm taking the grape.â He says, plucking the grape from your hand and putting it in his mouth. He starts to chew it teasingly in your face, closing his eyes as he does so.Â
Successfully irked, you lunge towards him from your seated position. Unfortunately for your lacklustre skills, he easily manoeuvres you so that your back is against his chest as his bicep and forearm enclose your throat.Â
He squeezes playfully, well aware that the two of you are in public.Â
âNice try, munchkin. Youâre gonna have to be faster than that.â Changbin gloats.Â
You bring your hands up to hold his arm, your hands barely able to enclose his whole forearm. You try to pry his arm off but itâs to no avail as he doesnât budge.Â
He squeezes tighter, his mouth moving closer to your ears.Â
âYou know Iâm not even trying right?â He teasingly whispers into your ear.Â
âBin unhand me.â You plead.Â
âWhat, youâve given up already?â
âIf you squeeze my throat any tighter, I am not responsible for theâŚsounds that will come out of me.â You say tapping his forearm.Â
Changbinâs eyes widen slightly as he realises what you meant. He releases you and you crawl back to the other side of the picnic blanket, fixing your outfit and your hair, pretending like you didnât say what you just said.Â
âYou mean to tell me that me choking you was turning you on?â He asks with genuinity.Â
You turn to him, shrugging a little. The way you act so nonchalant clearly has an effect on him as he tries not to get turned on himself.Â
It didnât work, for either of you, as you find yourself in the back of his car sitting on his legs as his fingers pump viciously in and out of you.Â
âShh, you gotta be quiet. Donât want people to start getting suspicious.â Changbin speaks into your ear.Â
You do your best to be quiet, but you donât trust yourself so you put a hand over your mouth.Â
âFuck youâre gripping my fingers so tight. Mm I canât wait to ruin you. âCause Iâm gonna. Yeah, fuck you clenched when I said that. Want me to ruin you, donât you my sweet?â Changbin purrs.Â
Your other hand grips his thigh, the coil within the pit of your stomach starting to tighten. You remove your hand from your mouth as your breath starts to quicken, small whines being released here and there.Â
âBin, I canât hold it.â You whine.Â
âYou donât have to hold it sweetness. Come for me.â He says his hand going to your neck and pressing on the sides of your throat.Â
The restriction of air and the squeeze of his hand mixed with his fingers has you seeing stars. Your moan caught in your throat as you orgasm. The lack of air prolongs your release and unfortunately for Changbin, you make a mess all over the backseat of his car.Â
He smiles as he watches you get lost in the pleasure. He loosens his grip on your neck and relishes in your pants as you try to catch your breath.Â
âWell Iâm going to need to deep clean my car, but it was so worth it.â Changbin says, rubbing you through your high and placing a soft kiss to the side of your head.Â
You move yourself off of his lap, momentarily looking out the window to see if there were any wanderers that got too curious. Taking a deep breath your eyes meet Changbinâs and he looks at you with a sweet, unwavering smile.Â
âWhatâs that look for?âŚâÂ
âOh nothing, just thinking about all the places mâgonna fuck you when we get back to mine.â Changbin says, his smile widening even more.Â
Oh wow, youâre in for a long night ahead of you. Better hope those grapes gave you enough energy for the rest of the day!
hyunjin | humiliation | 1.4k (1446) words
Hyunjin is teaching you part of his dance routine in the studio. You were bored, and teaching somebody helps him to recount the steps.Â
For the most part, you were able to keep up with him. Picking up the steps with ease until there was a particularly hard move.Â
You can see the frustration building on Hyunjinâs face as you keep messing up this step. The one he tried to teach you fifteen minutes agoâŚ
âY/n no. Lift your arm like this, this.â He says demonstrating the correct way to do it.Â
You copy the motion. You think that you are nailing it and that he is just being too pedantic which explains his elongated sigh.Â
âHyunjin, I don't know what you think Iâm doing wrong. Iâm literally doing it the way you do it!â You say, now getting frustrated at him and his perfectionist ways.Â
He looks at you through the mirror, scoffing and doing the dance move how you did it. Clearly over-exaggerating the way you did it.Â
âDoes that look right to you? No, it doesnât. Itâs not even a hard step Y/n and youâre struggling to do it.â He says, walking back over to the laptop to replay the song.Â
This is embarrassing. You should feel embarrassed. Yet you hide a smile. Thereâs something about the way Hyunjin gets riled up and then proceeds to belittle you for clearly not being a professional dancer like he is.Â
Ridiculous isnât it?
âOkay letâs go from the top.â Hyunjin says, counting the both of you in.Â
The song plays and you both dance to the rhythm. Everything was going swell until you purposefully messed up a move that you know you have no trouble doing.Â
âOh for fuckâs sake!â
You wish you could take a mental picture of Hyunjinâs scowl and print it out. He looks at you, almost pitiful as he turns down the music, his hands on his hip as his tongue pokes the inside of his cheek.Â
âWhat are you fucking inept or something? Whatâs going on? You donât know your left from your rights? Hm? You need me to teach you the alphabet whilst weâre at it?â Hyunjin taunts, now walking towards you.Â
You say nothing, looking up at him with eyes as innocent as you can get them.Â
âCat caught your tongue? Or have you just become so dumb that you canât even speak anymore?â Hyunjin speaks lowly, backing you into the full length mirror.Â
He raises a single eyebrow at you, waiting for you to say something. He huffs out a laugh when he realises youâre not going to respond, but rather cower beneath him.Â
You really are spoiled arenât you? It seems it is so because you got whatever you wanted from this. One moment he pinned you up against the wall, you shoving your tongue down his throat. Then he was shoving his dick down your throat. And now here you are, on all fours, forced to watch as he thrusts harshly into you from behind.Â
âThis what you needed hm? You just needed to be fucked didnât you. Naw, dumb babyâs just too stupid to ask for what they want so they decide to piss me off instead huh?â Hyunjin grunts landing a smack on your backside.Â
You moan embarrassingly loud, jolting forwards slightly as you feel the impact of his hand on your flesh.Â
The song plays in the background adding to the already sexual tension that is in the dance studio.Â
Hyunjin stops thrusting, looking at you in the mirror as you stumble a little. The rhythm of thrusts throwing you off as your hips stutter in their movement.Â
âYouâre gonna fuck yourself on my dick to the beat of the song. See if youâre not completely useless. It would be wise not to piss me off further so if you do a good job, maybe Iâll be nice.â Hyunjin says crossing his arms.Â
You wait to see if he was bluffing, looking back at him only to be met with a raise of his eyebrow. You turn back around, meeting his gaze in the mirror. You tune your ears to the song and start throwing it back to the beat. (yâall why this make me bust out laughing okay sorry continue.)
For the first two counts of eight, you were doing pretty well. Matching each beat with the sound of your bottom colliding with his pelvis. He watches you intently as if it were you dancing. He bites his lip, holding back his own moans.Â
The chorus of the song comes along and you miss a count. You try to catch up by speeding up your movements, but that just feels too good. Hyunjin tsks at you.Â
âYou canât even do this correctly. How embarrassing Y/n. Is there anything you can do without my help?â Hyunjin says shaking his head as he grabs both of your arms.Â
You clench around him at his words, making his tough exterior falter ever so slightly as he curses under his breath at the way you squeeze him so tightly.Â
He holds your arms like handles as he repeatedly slams you back onto him. Your eyes roll to the back of your head and then close tightly as he reaches deeper, continuously hitting that sweet spot inside.Â
âYou better open your fuckinâ eyes and watch as you take what I give you.â He says, his tongue coming out to wet his lip as he smirks mischievously.Â
You flutter your eyes open, meeting his gaze in the mirror as your mouth hangs open releasing silent moans. Who knew that being humiliated would turn you on to the point it has? You watch his face contort into concentration. Sweat pouring down his face and falling onto your lower back.Â
âHyune, just like that, please. Iâm so close.â You whine.Â
He tilts his head, one of his hands releasing your wrist to reach beneath you and between your thighs, rubbing you quickly.
âOh yeah? And you think you deserve it?â He teases.Â
You nod relentlessly, not even caring for his permission as you spasm around him as he lands a particularly powerful thrust.Â
As he watches you come undone on him he scoffs a laugh, shaking his head before chasing his own release.Â
âMm, whereâd you want it? Inside? So it drips down your thighs for everyone to see? Ah fuck, yeah I think so.â He says, small whines leaving his throat.Â
He pushes your body all the way down as he now lays on top of you, rutting into you. He lifts one leg up to ground him so he can reach deeper, the rocking motion overstimulating you as you convulse around him once more. You choke out a sob, tears starting to run down your face.Â
He catches your expression in the mirror, the tears streaming down and it sends him over the edge. With one final rock, he stills as his cock twitches deep inside of you. Painting your walls white deep inside.Â
He rests his forehead on the back of your head. Both of you spent as the sounds of heavy breathing and the song fill the room.Â
He slowly pulls out of you, both of you whining at the loss of the warmth. He rolls you over, placing a kiss to the underside of your jaw.Â
âY/n? Are you still with me?â He asks, glancing over your face and down your body. He sees some of his cum trailing out of you and he uses his fingers to push it back in. Fixated on the way your hole envelopes his fingers so accommodatingly.Â
He only stops when he feels your hand push his chest and he chuckles lightly.Â
âYou know you really donât take orders well. I think I need to train you.â He says, brushing a stray hair out of your face as you finally open your eyes and look up at him.Â
He hums softly, admiring you before getting up and sorting himself out so that he is decent to the eyes of the public again.Â
âGet up. That wasnât a reward, youâre going to just have to dance with my cum running down your legs now. The quicker you get the choreography, the quicker youâll get to shower.â Hyunjin says walking over to the laptop and restarting the song.Â
He leaves you to get yourself up on wobbly arms and you smile to yourself. He should know by now that you most certainly do not put up without a fight.Â
Hopefully you donât âaccidentallyâ mess up any more of the moves and make him belittle you againâŚ
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you know it's love when you both have to take care of the other in a 24 hour time period
#yesterday i was sick and overtired and just really emotional and crap and he took care of me and helped me sleep eventually#today he has severe back pain and had to go to the ER :^(â¤ď¸â¤ď¸â¤ď¸â¤ď¸ and i have been taking care of him all day#being with him means taking on his chronic pain and health issues and thats ok with me. i will love him and help him thru anything#i am ljke 100% ready to marry him as silly as that sounds cause its only been 4 months but like. i KNOW. but im waiting heheheh#one year!! we date for one full year before i decide for real that i wanna marry him (but i do hehehe)
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pushed too hard. mv1. SMAU + written.
max verstappen x chronically ill! reader
in which max's girlfriend has a very valid reason for not attending the races but the public doesn't know. and when the hate gets too much she pushes herself too hard.
author's note: so i have written this completely from experience, so the reader has elhers danlos syndrome (which i also have) but if you suffer from a different chronic illness please do imagine it as that.
warnings: chronic illness. hate. hospitalisation. injury.
face claim: katie douglas
y/ninsta posted a story tagging maxverstappen
written: y/sister managed to get a picture of me as soon as i woke up to find out that max won the bahrain gp with a twenty second lead. i am such a proud girlfriend rn.
maxverstappen replied to your story: good you are awake i'll facetime you rn. i miss you and the cats.
user1 replied to your story: if you really were a good girlfriend you would have been there supporting him
maxfan: you are such a bad wag you didn't even stay up to watch the race.
you had woken up on a high. you had turned your phone on to see all the messages informing you of your boyfriend's impressive win and you had even managed to facetime max before he went to bed. it felt like a good day. but then you made the mistake of opening social media. people on twitter were doing what people on twitter do best, talk shit. your eyes scanned over the screen as for the millionth time people picked apart your relationship and called you every name under the sun. they saw you as a villain that just did not support her boyfriend and that could not be further from the truth.
if you could attend every race you would but that just was not plausible. you suffered from elhers danlos syndrome and on top of that you had chronic fatigue. the elhers danlos effected your joints making every day painful to some degree. yes there were good and bad days but there were never pain free days. both of your knees had been operated on and you were awaiting surgery on your ankle due to frequent dislocations. the simple description of elhers danlos is that you had fault collagen, this collagen is what makes your connective tissue so your connective tissue was faulty and therefore your joints had a habit of dislocating and causing you a hell of a lot of pain. it was a domino effect the constant pain that you were in made you incredibly tired and that is where the chronic fatigue came in. max often called you his sleepy girl because you needed at least one nap per day to function properly.
you knew the problems you were having with max's fans could be solved by you telling them what you suffered with medically but they did not deserve an explanation from you. you should be allowed to live your life how you want to without thousands of strangers telling you that you were doing it wrong or that you were a bad girlfriend. you wanted to keep your medical issues private and max completely understood and supported your decision to do so. so instead you had to deal with all the hate. you just had to remind yourself that these people did not know the real you and if they did they, hopefully, would not treat you like this.
y/sister posted a story tagging y/ninsta
written: y/n finally left the house for the first time in five days and it was just for a snack run.
maxverstappen replied: is she having a bad week, she only eats reese's when she is a lot of pain
y/sister: i didn't tell you this but she is not doing well at all, she slept all of yesterday and then today the internet hates her because she wasn't at the race.
as the saudi arabian gp came and went max was busy with stragety meetings and such this meant that instead of coming home for a few days like he had previously planned he stayed out there and was going to go straight from there to australia and at this point you were really missing your boyfriend. the hate had not subsided either. it was just a very difficult time for you. one night where you had just been scrolling through twitter reading through the cruel things that people had been saying about you, you hit your limit. there was no way that you could deal with this for the rest of the season. so insteadyou decided to do something about it.
the morning you needed to fly to australia was when you realised that this was a bad idea. you had woken up in enough pain to down a horse, joints aching and head spinning. but danny had pulled strings for you. he had arranged everything just so that you could surprise your boyfriend and there was no way you were going to cancel when the plan was already in motion. so instead you just grinned and bared it. the flight was okay, luckily daniel had booked you a first class seat.. but sleep was hard to come by due to your body not being used to sleeping while being in flight. you were already tired when you landed in australia. due to the lack of notice the only flight daniel could arrange got in late on the saturday night. so you had booked a hotel next to the airport and arranged for a car to pick you up in the morning.
it had been so fucking hot in your hotel room and that meant that sleep was incredibly difficult to find. you tossed and turned all night only getting five hours of low quality sleep. in the morning you had pulled on a comfortable outfit and made your way out to the car that daniel had arranged for you.
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f1wags: y/n y/ln has arrived to her first ever grand prix. y/n has been dating max verstappen for 18 months and had never been to a race before. but today that changes. she is not dressed in usual wag attire instead in an oversized shirt and bike shorts with a red bull cap. she may not be dressed like the others but we are happy to see her in the paddock
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user30: we wait for her to show up and she comes wearing that. what an awful wag
user31: go on girl. give us nothing.
user32: i'm actually so happy she is here. i love y/n and have never understood the hate i think she is the cutest
the red bull garage was incredibly easy to spot. your eyes found danny loitering outside having a meaningless conversation with your boyfriend, "i got you a present mate. as it is my home gp i decided to spoil you", danny spoke and max raised an eyebrow.
"whatever it is i am sure that i don't want it", max responded
"i wouldn't be so sure", you cut in and max turned around instantly at the sound of your voice a wide smile gracing his features.
"oh my god, y/n", he spoke as his arms engulfed you in a tight hug. "what are you doing here love?"
"i wanted to surprise you"
"well consider me surprised"
you laughed softly as you followed your boyfriend into the red bull garage he gave you a tour of the garage and you followed him clinging onto his arm. he was used to having to hold you up so leaning on him did relieve your aching joints. max knew all about your medical issues he had helped you with them for over a year. he knew that coming to australia was pushing your body past its limits so every so often he made sure to check in on you. make sure that you sat for a little bit before interacting with the rest of the team. however when he left to go and race there was no longer anyone in the garage that knew about your medical issues. and this is what led to you being stood all of the race. stragestists and other people who you gathered were important to the team took the seats, while you stood towards the back of the garage.
it was around lap twenty when your left ankle began to properly hurt and your eyes felt heavy. a clear indicator of fatigue and your body telling you that you needed to rest. but your boyfriend was racing so well and you wanted to be able to watch him. the race continued for a few more laps however just as max started the thirty first lap your ankle gave way, dislocating from the strain of you being stood on it when it was already under pressure. you crumpled onto the floor a yelp leaving your lips as you fell but you were unable to put your hands out to soften your fall so you ended up hitting your head on the hard ground. this was enough to knock you out. first aiders ran over and called the ambulance into the paddock but you next regained consciousness inside the ambulance, on the way to hospital. alone.
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f1updates: as the drivers go into the 4oth lap of the australian gp an ambulance was spotted leaving the paddock with full lights. sources say the ambulance was parked outside of the red bull garage, but no one knows who was inside of it when it left the paddock
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user35: the stress finally got to horner
user36: shit i hope whoever it is is okay
user37: the red bull garage do look rather stressed
"well done max you have just won the australian grand prix", christian had called over the radio. he felt guilt twinge at him. his girlfriend had been rushed to the hospital thirty laps ago but christian had made the decision to not tell max until the end of the race. he knew that the dutch driver was going to be mad when he heard the news. christian decided he needed someone else to tell max what had happened. "daniel can you come find me as soon as you are out of the car", he had intercepted the racing bulls radio just to give daniel the message, christian knew it would be better to have bad news coming from him rather than himself.
"thirty fucking laps ago", max spoke pacing back and forth in front of one of his closest friends. "you are trying to tell me my girlfriend had an ambulance called on her thirty laps ago and no one told me. she is in a foreign hospital. alone and probably scared shitless", max ranted to danny.
"i know man, christian just asked me to tell you. we can go to the hospital after the podium ceremony"
"oh fuck that i'm going now"
"you aren't driving", daniel knew better than to argue with max in that moment. yes christian would be pissed to find out that max was skipping the podium ceremony but daniel was not going to stop him from leaving. instead the two man snuck out the back of the paddock and to danny's car. the two racecar drivers got to the hospital in record speed with max running up to the front desk asking the nurse where he could find you. he was ushered through the hospital to a ward.
you were sat in a private ward you ankle elevated, an ice pack on your head and fluid iv in your arm. "max. you won.", you spoke softly. you had the television on and the grand prix on, you had just watched footage of a frantic christian looking for the driver that was now in your room.
"that does no matter my love, what happened?"
"i just pushed myself too far max. i forced myself to stand the whole time and my ankle dislocated, the doctors want to operate on it soon. and when i fell i gave myself a nasty concussion", you explained and the look on max's face could only be described as broken.
"oh my love", he spoke softly pressing a kiss to your forehead.
"i just didn't want the fans to think i was a bad girlfriend. that you deserve more than me", you spoke quietly, "they all hate me because i can't go to races", you spoke tears forming in your eyes but max's thumb quickly wiped them away.
"they don't hate you. they just don't know you honey."
"we should put out a statement, tell them what has been going on with me"
"you just read my mind my love"
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y/ninsta: a long awaited health update. after a week in hospital i am now finally back home from australia. i am expected to have surgery on my ankle in the next couple of weeks. and i am on a strict diet of hourly lollipops because my blood sugar was low. i just wanted to say a massive thank you to max who literally ditched his own podium ceremony (sorry christian) to be with me. i am so incredibly lucky to have you and i love you with all of my heart, even if i am pissing you off while i'm on bedrest.
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maxverstappen: you could never annoy me
y/ninsta: even when i try to walk when i'm not supposed to
maxverstappen: y/n sit tf down
danielricciardo: so glad to hear you are doing better
y/insta: thank you for bringing me take out every day i was in australia
user40: the world owes this girl an apology. you all bitching and moaning about her not being present just to find out that she has a chronic illness. some of you should be really embarrassed rn
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shigaraki bf hcs pt 1
he is so chronically online. he def has a reddit account
one time he called you a beta during a fight and then immediately cringed at himself
he loves being called pretty, or pretty boy. he won't admit it but it does things to him to hear his s/o say such nice things about him
he definitely has a thing for thiccer girls cause every incel gamer boy does, come on now. be real. every gamer has a thing for thighs
speaking of thighs, he loves to lay on your lap and play on his switch or sometimes his ds.
he's basically nocturnal
his favorite drink is the ORIGINAL monster energy. like straight up battery acid
he texts like it's 2002. says shit like xD, blep, rawr, :P, etc.
whimpers
loves watching you do your makeup/skincare, and will ask you to do his (your lotion feels nice on his skin)
his hair is so soft but tangles so easily and you have to brush it out cause he'll forget to
once joked about you getting under his desk, (wink wink) and when you did it, he had an anxiety attack cause he didn't believe you actually would
biter. not even sexually, he just bites a lot, probably out of cuteness aggression but maybe he's just weird.
when he realized the two-fingered gloves work to stop his quirk from activating, he held your hand for a full day. like he dragged you everywhere.
so so so clingy and paranoid, needs lots of reassurance
metal head for sure.
has the kitty gaming headphones and isn't even ashamed
little spoon ;-; also one time u scratched his back to help him fall asleep and now you HAVE to scratch his back EVERY NIGHT otherwise he won't fall asleep.
#shigaraki headcanons#mha shigaraki#shigaraki x reader#shiggy is such a cutie patootie i wanna eat him#tomura x reader#shigaraki tomura#tomura shigaraki#tenko shimura#myhcs
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Facial Differences that You Should Consider Representing in Your Writing More
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As it has been said many times on this blog before, facial differences are a very wide spectrum - thereâs thousands of conditions that cause it, and theyâre often extremely different from each other! Itâs an incredibly diverse category almost by definition. ButâŚ
In books, movies, and our inbox, it seems that a traumatic battle scar is the only facial difference that exists. I find this rather frustrating because I would like to see the real life diversity to be actually considered by writers when creating characters - and thatâs exactly what this post is for. I hope that by making people just aware of the myriad of options they have, I can help a bit.Â
This isnât to say that you shouldnât write characters with scars, itâs to say that thereâs more for you to consider. Just like not every physically disabled person has hip dysplasia and not every neurodivergent person has epilepsy, not every person with a facial difference has scars!Â
Of course, this list isnât exhaustive - no such list exists, it would be like âlist of every disability everâ, it simply canât be done. This is just a dozen random facial differences that I would like to see incorporated into characters more often!
Facial paralysis Exactly what the name implies. There are many types of facial paralysis - complete, partial, bilateral, unilateral, chronic, acute, and it can affect the whole face, or only part of it. Sometimes it can cause problems with speech or dry eyes (mostly the latter), but itâs frequently just primarily a visual difference. A person with facial paralysis might be completely unable to make facial expressions at all if itâs severe, or have a lop-sided smile and inability to raise an eyebrow or control an eyelid like me. Causes include cranial nerve damage (especially the 7th nerve, which is called facial palsy), Bellâs palsy, MĂśbius syndrome, or multiple sclerosis! It can be congenital, like in my case, or acquired, like in most cases - mostly due to stroke. Here I would write something about the current media representation being good, bad, or what tropes to look out for but I donât know a single character with it. So :-)
Anotia/microtia Microtia is a congenital facial difference that affects the outer ear(s) - as the name implies, theyâre smaller than average; anotia means a complete lack of them. This usually will also result in being d/Deaf or hard of hearing in that ear, as the ear canal can be smaller or closed (depending on the âgradeâ). People with microtia who decide on using hearing aids will usually wear a bone-anchored hearing aid, which looks very differently from the âregularâ HA; itâs worn with a headband. Microtia can be the only facial difference that a person has, but it can also be a part of Goldenhar syndrome, Treacher Collins syndrome (mentioned below!), or hemifacial microsomia.
Congenital Trochlear Nerve palsy I have a subtype of this, and because it happens to have the most boring name in existence I have never seen anyone talk about it, certainly not see a character with it. So! CNIV palsy (again, an incredibly catchy name) is a disorder of one of the very-easy-to-damage nerves that allow eyes to move. It causes constant double vision, severe strabismus, and progressive facial asymmetry. A person with CNIV palsy will have a 24/7 head tilt to the side and will have their chin tucked in, which causes said asymmetry - facial features on the side of the tilt will sag down, the eye will âsunkâ in, and because itâs congenital, the jaw can grow to be misaligned (like mine!). Over time, it causes neck pain and kyphosis, so add chronic pain to that. Trochlear nerve palsy can be congenital, acquired, traumatic, and even extremely rarely genetic (thatâs me! allegedly <1 in a million). However, most acquired cases are only temporary, and âfix themselvesâ with the passage of time. Again, I would love to write something about CNIV palsy representation, but Iâm fairy confident it doesnât exist : )
Sturge-Weber syndrome The most visible part of SWS - that you might be familiar with - are port wine stains! In this syndrome, they tend to be large and generally cover the forehead-eye area. Around 15% of people with any kind of port wine stain on their face have Sturge-Weber syndrome, and even more when it comes to larger ones. Most people with SWS will have epilepsy since childhood, and many will develop glaucoma (which causes blindness) if the PWS is around that eye. Hemiparesis (one-sided weakness) can also sometimes happen on the opposite side of the PWS. Here is a short article about media representation from a person with SWS!
Cystic Hygroma Also known as lymphangioma, it is a bump that mostly happens on a personâs lower face and/or neck. Itâs almost always congenital and a result of a blockage in the lymphatic system (thus lymphangioma). Sometimes, if it affects the mouth or jaw, it may cause a speech disability where the personâs speech might not be fully understandable, or cause an airway obstruction; this generally means that the person has to have a trach tube in their neck to breathe. Here is a short article about living and growing up with cystic hygroma by Atholl Mills!
Congenital melanocytic nevus A complicated name for a specific kind of birthmark! Melanocytic means related to melanin, so itâs a black or brown birthmark that can show up on any part of the body and be of almost any size. Sometimes it can be hairy as well. While CMN doesnât usually cause any problems, people who have it have a higher risk of skin cancer, epilepsy, and brain tumors. Here is a short article on representation - among other things - by a person with CMN!
Ptosis Ptosis is actually really common - I can almost guarantee that you have seen someone with it - but for some reason it never shows up in media, unless itâs to show that a character is under the influence or vaguely creepy. Ptosis is simply a drooped eyelid. Itâs caused by damage to the third cranial nerve, which can be congenital, acquired, traumatic, etc. Itâs very common in myasthenia gravis and CHARGE syndrome. In most cases ptosis is a visual thing, but it can sometimes cause problems - for me, it partially obstructs my vision and for some people who acquired it later in life that can cause pain (due to having to constantly lift the eyebrow). Ptosis is often misunderstood, and people tend to make bizarre assumptions about those of us who have it - even Wikipedia cites âlooking sinisterâ as a symptom (not that I particularly trust Wikipedia as a source, but it shows the general publicâs view quite well). In real life, we are normal people and all these âdrunk/high/rude/evilâ associations arenât true at all.
Treacher Collins syndrome You have probably seen a person with TCS at some point, as itâs not that rare. This is a genetic, congenital disability that affects the development of the face. The bones of the jaw and cheeks are underdeveloped, eyes have a downturned shape, and microtia/anotia is often present as well. A lot of people with Treacher Collins are d/Deaf or hard of hearing. Sometimes, the small jaw might cause problems with breathing, which is why a lot of people with TCS will have a permanent tracheostomy tube in their neck. Similar to ptosis, eyes in TCS are often seen as âlooking sadâ, but thatâs an incorrect assumption - thatâs just how they look like. The main and only big representation of TCS in media is that one awful movie from a few years ago, that was literally just inspiration porn featuring an able-bodied actor based on a shitty book, made by an author with some sort of abled-person guilt. Very cool, donât do that.
Crouzon syndrome Crouzon syndrome is a type of craniosynostosis; a congenital condition where a personâs skull fuses too early. There are other disabilities that can look somewhat similar, like Pfeiffer or Apert syndrome, but they are different! CS will affect the person's skull - it will be taller than usual, eyes - they will be large and bulging, midface - it's often smaller than average and can look sunk in comparison to the jaw and forehead, and more! Sometimes people with Crouzon syndrome are d/Deaf or hard of hearing (very common with craniofacial differences), or experience long term effects of hydrocephalus, which happens fairly often. Here is a short article by Mikaela Moody about movie representation - and her piece on how it to be trans while having a facial difference, which I relate to a lot and wanted to share:-)
Phthisis bulbi Phthisis bulbi is something that I have mentioned on this blog before, as it logistically should be represented way more often in fiction than it currently is. It's also known as the âend-stage eyeâ which is a pretty metal name. This is an ocular difference that can result after trauma to the eye. It can also result from a million other things, but trauma is apparently the most common thing to happen to an eye in fiction, so. With phthisis bulbi, the eye shrinks, sinks, and everything inside becomes stiff; this is permanent, and the eye isn't functional anymore - it's blind and unable to move. The only treatment is to have the eye removed, especially if it causes pain. If you're writing a character who got a Hot Sexy Scar over their eye and still has that eye, they probably should have this (and yes, the âshrunk and sunkâ part is mandatory, you can't just make the eye lighter and call it a day).
Frontonasal dysplasia Frontonasal dysplasia is a congenital facial difference that affects the structure of the face. While it's a spectrum with a lot of variety, most people with FND will have hypertelorism (eyes spread widely apart), a flat and broad nose, and a cleft going through the middle of the nose. Other facial clefts (not necessarily just cleft lip) are also common. Sometimes, someone with it can also have cranium bifidum (meaning a brain/meninges that protrude through the skull, similar to how spina bifida works), or intellectual disability related to the potential absence of corpus callosum. Rarely, limb differences can also be a part of it; absent tibia, extra toes, or clubfoot. Again, Iâm unaware of any representation of FND outside of âscary birth deformityâ on medical shows :--)
ParryâRomberg syndrome PRS is also known as progressive hemifacial atrophy, which is a much more descriptive name. Itâs an acquired facial difference that people just get for unknown reasons, mostly before the age of 20 and usually between 5 and 15. Generally, PRS is considered to be slowly-progressing, but this can vary pretty widely between different people. As the name implies, it causes atrophy in the face, which affects everything from skin to fat and muscles to sometimes even bones. Some people will also experience skin darkening, alopecia (hair loss), or trigeminal neuralgia (very severe nerve pain) on the atrophied side. The difference between the two sides can be very pronounced, with a visible line between the halves showing up on the forehead. Again, no existing rep that I know of :-)
And as always, I recommend this short PDF that in my opinion any writer who wants to include a character with an FD has to read. Additionally, you can also check our #face difference tag, this primer on facial difference, or this piece on making sure youâre not contributing to disfiguremisia.
Also apologies for the amount of âidk what to say about already existing rep because it literally doesnât exist afaikâ but I hope it illustrates the problem :-)
Happy Face Equality Week!
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