#and that the room would feel small

[deathbyclown]

Against the advice of several family members I will be painting my room dark!! They do not understand the desire to be in a dark cozy little hole like a wee creature. I deserve to live like a fuzzy animal tucked underground between the roots of a tree, sleeping curled up with my partner, our little rodent hands holding onto one another as the world moves and sways above us.

[bunnieswithknives]

I feel bad for neglecting Hazel so much, I do have many thoughts about her.. and also a mermaid au that im probably not going to do anything with

[watchfuldeer]

last night i went to a really fun and informal fundraiser evening with jesse and lucy at westminster school, where they were interviewing each other. i got to ask a question which i’ve mused upon for some time about tom, shiv and greg. enjoy! full transcript under cut

Transcript

me: so i’m gonna have to look at what i wrote down.

jesse: that’s alright, you’re highly in credit since you know more about the show than us. more about john berryman.

(laughter)

lucy: tell us what we’ve done wrong so far!

me: god, no. i wouldn’t! so my question, this is a character based question, and one thing that probably got a bit subsumed in the fourth season just because everything was happening. but i’d like to know more about tom and shiv, and also greg. because my read on the situation between the three of them is that greg is a source of marital strife (laughter) that shiv never noticed, and what would it have taken for shiv to notice the depth of greg’s presence in their marriage.

jesse: uh huh.

me: and tom’s attachment to him.

jesse: uh huh. sometimes you get little bits in life or you see something and you’re like, i wish we were making the show, because i suddenly do want to hear shiv say ‘greg you’re a source of marital strife’.

(laughter)

jesse: that’s like, when you’re like, that’s gonna be in, we’re not gonna cut that.

lucy: absolutely.

jesse: (doing greg voice) wh-wh-what?!

(laughter)

lucy: yeah. well we enjoyed that, didn’t we. we had a scene in america decides, which was the only scene between shiv and greg.

jesse: oh yeah.

lucy: the election episode in the final season where she takes him into a little room and threatens him.

me: ah, but it’s jealousy over lukas, over the greg and lukas thing, and it’s like, have you forgotten your husband, who is also very attached to this limpet?

lucy: yeah. i would also say that there are marriages in which a third party is not an unuseful thing, as well. not in a forgiving way about infidelity, but i would say that there are things that tom can express with and at and on greg (laughter) as it were, to greg, that are useful because he’s both a - you know the great, the interesting thing about tom is that he’s both a courtier and a bully. he’s that rare combination of someone who you totally believe as being almost like (mimes bowing and doffing cap) ‘oh yes sorry thank you yes ma’am’ and also like, ‘i’m gonna kill you’ and that juxtaposition is what makes him so interesting.

but in his marriage to shiv he has no real way, until quite late i guess in the final season, where we explore it, to hold power over her and to use that part of himself. so he’s accepted the acquiescing, he’s accepted the role of courtier in that marriage, and greg is quite a useful place where he gets to express all of that, the bully in him so that maybe it doesn’t have to come out in the marriage. which might be bad, because perhaps it should do and then the marriage would’ve ended much earlier, yknow, when shiv would just be like ‘i’m not dealing with you challenging me in any way’. so it’s not until that balcony scene i think where he really challengers her much at all. possibly the beach scene, where he sort of says that he’s considered leaving her, and how that would feel. but with aggressive challenge? it’s all directed at greg, and greg is allowed to be the place where all those feelings go.

me: but the affection - there’s also affection between them.

jesse: YEAH. and i think that’s the other thing maybe you’re alluding to is like, she… i think, some things you know you’re putting in the show because you talk about them and other things just naturally occur, and audiences and people tell you what the show is and what you put in there and you didn’t even realise, but i think we were aware of this - she’s oblivious. her obliviousness is a big part of her wealth and her upbringing and… so there’s something homoerotic going on between greg and tom.

me: i mean it’s not for me to say.

(laughter)

jesse: and does she… i think there’s two ways of reading that, either she’s oblivious, and that’s intriguing and possible. the other is that she sort of - there’s a scene in, you know that one, in the sun valley media conference in argestes, where we wrote a bit where shiv shows up unexpected and tom’s sort of flirting with someone, and it never really landed that much. i think we were like, oh this really gonna, shiv’s gonna spark up when she sees him flirting with someone. and it’s one of those things where you were like, you know what? i don’t think she gives a hoot, really, does she.

(laughter)

jesse: it’s like, she hasn’t got that, that’s not in her belly, that fear of loss.

lucy: no.

jesse: so i think that goes, that probably goes for a same-sex relationship or flirtation as much as it does for with a woman.

lucy: i think that’s true.

jesse: like she really… even if he was like - and this is not the way that tom would be like - ‘i think i’d like to sleep with greg’, i think she’d be like (mimes looking at watch) ‘when?’.

(laughter)

jesse: (as shiv) ‘not when i’m in the city, that’s weird, tom’.

(laughter)

jesse: i don’t think she’d have any fundamental objection to that.

lucy: that’s true. i think jealousy is quite a low status emotion.

jesse: yes.

lucy: and i think that she would struggle to feel it.

(jesse laughs)

lucy: even if it was present in some way, she would never be able to access it because it would put her too much at a disadvantage. so i think yeah exactly that, it would be like, ‘oh i guess you’re going to fuck that boring woman now are you, tom’ or do that, like… she has to be here (mimes one hand above another hand) so jealousy can’t really be accessed by her. so she might be irritated by greg, but in the way you would be by a mosquito.

me: to her detriment.

lucy: to her detriment, sure, ultimately yeah.

[mollysunder]

The whole discourse about whether Mylo was right about Powder really just sidesteps that the metric these kids are measuring themselves against is both unrealistic and unfair. None of them should be out robbing apartments, they should be in school!

But they can't be in school because they live in Zaun and public education doesn't exist for them. Instead, most kids have to pull their weight in some way or other, whether it's in the mines, a factory, They are all children but they all think they need to be as good as the young mythologized version of their father figure.

Most eleven-year olds aren't particularly good at anything, especially robbery, but because this is Zaun that doesn't matter. Your dad might run a bar, but his real job is being a crime lord that runs a black market through the district with the bar as a hub. It doesn't matter most teens and preteens aren't natural prodigies at fighting and theft, you've got to put the work in.

If Mylo and Powder were on a little league soccer team or whatever, and he had the same complaints an adult would tell him to not take things so seriously and just use any failures as a learning opportunity. Unfortunately for both of them, this is their jobs, this is their life, and the only adult in it has delegated the responsibility of mediation to another child.

[skellydun]

why is being an adult so difficult!!!

[uncanny-tranny]

Me as a kid (would later realize I'm Very Aro): why would you SHARE a bedroom with somebody, even IF you're married. :/ What if the other person snores? What if they don't have the same décor skills as me? What if they (also) hog the duvet ://

[brown-little-robin]

I think I'm in the "conscious incompetence" stage of being a social animal in the real world and it sucks so majorly. bro what do you do after you realize you're bad at socializing and then in-person interaction gets harder because you know you're failing at it now.

[lilmeowmrow]

supercut

[thelilylav]

The Big Three ☠️🔱⚡️

[tinycoded360]

If I had money to spare this would be my splurge, I mainly want the skeleton man in the scuba gear and then put it in my living room or right by the entrance to great visitors or would be robbers 😜

[sneeb-canons]

mind's room changes based on his thoughts and mental state

heart's room changes based on his feelings

soul just.. has a normal room

Headcanon #224

[outlying-hyppocrate]

well. did you fucking miss me.

[gloomyloomy]

i love the seraphims so much?

and i feel like doffy and laws seraphims interactions would be so funny and they would be the angriest troublemakers

[sarcasticmirage]

okay y'all but listen to feel better by Penelope scott and think about yoohankim and feel ur heart break

[risingsunresistance]

i took a bunch of pictures from tommy's stream earlier but i dont feel like adding them to my bot yet so they're just sitting here on my desktop till i do that

[fatehbaz]

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