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B-127 being significantly older than everyone else. B-127 knowing some of the older bots personally, having vague memories of what things were like Before, being surprised that the archives aren't publically available anymore, B-127 who doesn't remember his own age because it's been so long but he remembers enough to know Orion (Optimus, Optimus his name is Optimus now) and Elita are so young to be given so many burdens
B-127 is older than all his new friends. But he doesn't remember how he got to Sub Level 50. He doesn't remember what he was like Before. That building is new. What happened to the road that lead to ____? Where is ____? Was his cog taken at emergence like everyone else? Or was it taken later? Is there a reason he thrives with violence? Did he really lose his mind down there, or was he always programmed to be just a little stab happy? He doesn't know. He doesn't know.
Hey Optimus! You don't mind if I stick a little closer than usual right? There's just so much noise and colour up here haha. Has it always been this bright?
#transformers#transformers one#b-127#bumblebee#I simply think b-127 being older than everyone and having A Little Less Sanity is far more compelling#than all the constant 'what if he was a baby tho?' AU's#miss me with the infantilisation when instead you can properly explore the after effects of stir crazy isolation#self-aware enough to know his self made 'friends' aren't alive and aren't real#yet at the same time lost just enough of his mind to treat them as real people anyway#it's soooo fascinating to me I want to shake him in a jar
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Shen Yuan getting transported into pidw isn't "the system punishing him for being a lazy internet hater," but instead representative of "step 1 of the creative process: getting so mad at something you decide to go write your own fucking book" in this essay I will
#svsss#scum villian self saving system#shen qingqiu#shen yuan#the fact that people think scum villain#-a series that examines and criticizes common tropes in fiction-#is somehow against criticism or being a little hater is wild to me#especially since shen qingqiu never gets punished for being a hater#heck- he's still a little hater by the end of the series#he mostly gets punished for treating life like a play and like he and the people around him are characters#(or in other words- he suffers for denying his own wants and emotions and his own sense of empathy)#I think some of y'all underestimate how much writing/art is inspired by creaters being little haters#like example off the top of my head-#the author of Iron Widow has been pretty vocal about the book being inspired by their hatred of Darling in the Franxx#I think my interpretation of Shen Yuan's transmigration is also supported by the fact that this series is an examines writing processes#side note- though i understand why people say Shen Yuan is lazy and think its a valid take it still doesnt sit right with me#i am probably biased because my own experiences with chronic pain and depression and isolation#but ya- i dont think Shen Yuan is lazy so much as he is deeply lonely and feels purposeless after denying parts of himself for 20ish years#like yall remember the online fandom boom from covid right?#being stuck completely alone in bed while feeling like shit for 20 days straight does shit to your brain#the fact that no one came to check on him + he wasn't exactly upset about leaving anyone behind supports the isolation interpretation too#+in the skinner demon arc he describes his life of being a faker/inability to stop being a faker now that he's Shen Qingqiu#as “so bland he's tempted to throw salt on himself” and “all he could do is lay around and wait for death” (<-paraphrasing)#bro wants to be doing stuff but is stuck in paralysis from repeatedly following scrips made by other people#another point on “Shen Yuan isn’t lazy” is just the sheer amount of studying that man does#also he did graduate college- how lazy can he really be#he doesnt know what hes doing but he at least tries to actively train his students#and he actually works on improving his own cultivation + spends quite a bit of time preping the mushroom body thing#+he's experiencing bouts of debilitating chronic pain throughout all this#but ya tldr: Shen Yuan's transmigration is an encouragement to write and not a punishment and also i dont think its fair to call him lazy
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sixshot nation are you hearing me
#I miss him a lot. I liked him a ton in headmasters.#i liked what we saw of him in idw too but you know. not a ton there to work with beyond a lot of extrapolation. I will work with it anyway#he holds a sentiment that nothing will ever bring him joy beyond violence but at the same time he hates the isolation it brings#he's lonely but it's self imposed. he has the terrorcons but he doesn't know how to forge a connection with them#it's bittersweet that he never really found happiness in the end.#I can understand why he's not explored as a phase sixer and I honestly don't think it was necessary. I'm fine with how it is. however.#/I/ will do the exploring. consider he's probably the most medically altered decepticon in their ranks#what even is a self-regenerating dark matter fission cell anyways. let's think about this together#er I also have a made-up connection between him and overlord but that's a story for another day.#maccadam#sixshot#transformers#nerm art
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y'know what let's do it. have Jack Drake accused of murdering Janet for a different flavor of drama and whump
he was in a coma and then wheelchair-bound for weeks/months after the incident you say? he was FAKING, it was all arranged, a ploy to appear helpless and sympathetic, how else could he have woken up and recovered so smoothly from the same poison that killed his wife
new evidence is produced of a suspicious payment trail from before the hijacking, leading from Jack's DI funds to accounts that appear connected to the Haitian cult/cartel responsible for the Drakes' kidnapping and Janet's tragic demise
the widow of the Drakes' personal secretary, Jeremy Whatzizlastname, and other employees all come forward and wag their tongues about the alarming frequency and escalation of the fights between the deceased and her aggressive, belligerent husband in the lead-up to that final fateful trip - how they were openly arguing about divorce
mysteriously, this relentless mud-slinging media blitz only begins after Drake Industries starts to go downhill and CEO Phil Marin comes under investigation for embezzlement/insider trading...
since it's post-NML the scandal blows up even further. the press hounds young Tim Drake, the iconic NML Kid known to all as the face of re-opening Gotham after the quake. muckrakers gleefully tear apart the recent image of a desperate, loving father who was broadcast on national television putting all his resources and influence toward bringing his lost son home
...actually. doesn't Drake Industries going broke happen right in the middle of Bruce Wayne: Murderer? (checks notes) aha, Robin #100 so lmfao yes, it does.
GOOD EXCELLENT PERFECT, Tim's father figures can both be accused of murder simultaneously 😈 and then the Bats have to divide their efforts and resources between exonerating Robin's dad and attempting to clear the civilian name of an infuriatingly uncooperative Batman…
#post tag#Tim Drake#Jack Drake#dcu#I couldn't remember Phil Marin's name or the exact issue of his one (1) appearance#so I went to AO3 and scrolled through scintilly's 'now the little red lighthouse knew that it was needed' to find it lol ¯\_(ツ)_/¯#but ok would Bruce break from his self-isolating spiral at all to try and help exonerate Tim's dad#especially since he obsessively investigated the Drake hijacking while trying to rescue them to begin with#I feel like....no lol#of course he'd work on it don't get me wrong - more than the 0% effort he put into clearing Bruce Wayne's name certainly#I don't think he's capable of not trying to save his children's parents#but given how hard he was shutting everyone out at the time and how being doubted or questioned just made him turtle harder#I can see him stubbornly investigating solo and communicating jack squat to anyone else#maybe on some level he'd want to wrap Jack's case up with a bow and drop his proven innocence in Tim's lap with a tinge of pettiness/hurt#like “see?? you thought me maybe capable of murder but I did this for you. I'd do it for anyone facing injustice but I did this *for you*.”#and this would drive literally everyone insane because yes good thank u Bruce now PUT THAT SAME EFFORT INTO CLEARING YOURSELF >8E
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a common theme I like to explore is the unlikable guy - unlikable in a mundane way, he's not a serial killer and isn't trying to take over the world, you don't get that degree of separation from him, this is someone you can and probably have met irl. pushy annoying inconsiderate weak bigoted toxic etc. this is who we're reading about today. and he's not necessarily going to improve either. i find that people react to "evil" and "just kinda shitty" characters very differently, usually hating the latter more - a vampire who kills people is whatever but some guy cheating on his gf provokes a stronger disapproving response. i think it's interesting how the closer to home you hit, the smaller the bad act is on the scale of badness. anyway it's really obvious why this is and I am partially just retreading very well trodden ground but it's this sort of kneejerk negative response to mundane shittiness I like to explore more than I do "he did commit the atrocities and I love him for it" style stories
#fondly remembering the time i wrote a character cheating and how it made people more upset than the killing and murdering#and that wasn't even bowman. his cheating was much worse lol. yay adultery#anyway this post was more about horsey pascal since i drew him yesterday#his character is all about loneliness and isolation and how it usually turns someone into a self absorbed prick#instead of a tragic wilting flower
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Assigning some ocs TMA fears! (Again. But it's ok I'm relistening for the 3rd time and I have a better grasp on things lol)
Finn: The Lonely
Clyde: The Eye (ofc)
Silas: The Slaughter
Blaze: The Desolation
Morrigan: The End (I kill him in every single universe except one and that's cause I was bribed into letting him live ok-/hj)
Alastair: The Buried (he's part kelpie ya'll they drown people... he's like if Simon Fairchild was a Buried avatar ngl XD Trinket said he gives Simon vibes)
That's kinda all I've got for now XD Anyways go listen to The Magnus Archives guys
Tagging: @distant-velleity @br3adtoasty @rainesol @theleechyskrunkly @jovieinramshackle
@galaxies-and-gore @cyanide-latte @cynthinesia @officialdaydreamer00 @krenenbaker
@offorestsongs @kitwasnothere @elenauaurs @boopshoops @inotonline
@1dont-really-know @kazumify @minteasketches @elysia-nsimp @skrimpyskimpy
@casp1an-sea @offorestsongs @tixdixl @poisoned-pearls @the-trinket-witch
@ramshacklerumble @ghostiidasponk @thegoldencontracts @sillyslipperybananapeel @cloudcountry
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@authoruio @jewelulu @raguiras @moonyasnow @skibidibabygirl
@quartztwst @yuizenihaswriten @oya-oya-okay @kirans-wonderland @coffinkissez
@idikeis @s-t-y-x @minutewondertwist @random-twst-and-oc-stuff
#i made a tma au on the riofy server#it is very important for me to tell you that aurinelle is an avatar of the buried#and that he and finn share a domain and are married#with the added flavour of both of them being possessive and obsessive over each other#and feeding on each other cause auri's obsessive clinginess makes finn feel like he's being suffocated (and auri likes to squeeze him too)#and finn's habit of self-isolating for days on end makes auri feel lonely af#but it all loops around in a weird way and neither of them want to separate and they're strangly happy as they are?#anyways yeah they live in a creepy old house on the moors by the sea in scotland and it and the moors around it is their shared domain#it's isolated enough for finn to be fine but close enough to a tourist trap town to attract some thrill seeking victims#teeheehee#quinn quips#finn clearcove#octavinelle#blaze dugal#savanaclaw#clyde sentry#ignihyde#silas clearcove#morrigan clearcove#alastair blair#twisted wonderland#twst oc#tma au
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I just think Hunter was obsessed with Willow and didn't even know it during the period from any sport in a storm to labyrinth runners. They maybe don't talk as often as they could, they're both busy and have conflicting schedules, so when they do talk, Hunter absorbs everything she says.
After roughly 3 weeks of texting (hexting? I feel like the kids would call it hexting), He knows that her favorite colour is orange, she likes her tea with extra milk and a bit of honey during winter, she likes working out to the noisiest angriest music in her playlist, her dad Gilbert is a construction witch who specialises in pottery, she used to listen to breakup songs and think about her childhood best friend (Hunter doesn't know it's Amity) and she actually has a mild pollen allergy despite being a plant witch and has to take potions for it.
He casually drops all this info piece by piece during their stay in the human realm and willows like. Well I can't not marry him. It'll have to be a winter or fall wedding to account for her allergies </3
#ramblings of a lunatic#the owl house#toh#hunter toh#willow park#huntlow#Hunter is often ignored and hides and compartmentalizes his identity in order to survive and be respected = his love language is listening#he doesn't just go quiet around Willow bc he's shy (tho that's definitely a factor) he's also like wow everything you say is amazing#i want to listen to you 24/7#(Willow realizes this and thinks back to how often she was ignored and isolated-#-and how it made her feel worthless and she's like. i must make him my bride)#i haven't rewatched in a while so i can't exactly tell how much of this is self indulgent and how much is like. actually character accurate#it's in limbo but it feels true to me#we don't know the details of their text exchanges beyond him sending her (presumably) a cute pic of flapjack#I've seen ppl argue that they didn't talk much over text bc she's slightly suspicious of him at first in labyrinth runners#but tbh I've always chalked that up to the general mindfuckery going on at hexside at that time#ergo she couldn't immediately trust that this was actually Hunter until he mentioned something specific about Gus#so i like to imagine it was semi-frequent chatting but i payed lip service to the idea that it wasn't super duper close#playing both sides so I always win etc etc#this is really just a covert way of babbling my willow headcanons
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the trees grew because i bled there – eric larocca
[TEXT: They laugh. I don’t. Instead, my eyes perform a makeshift surgery on my husband—from the broadness of his shoulders to the narrowness of his tapered waist. I split him open in my mind and watch his organs spill out like rotten pieces of fruit. Rummaging through the jewel box of carnage I’ve arranged in the center of his fileted chest, I search him for the moment it happened—the moment his love for me became an obligation. The horrible moment it no longer was a necessity and instead became a responsibility. Whether it resides in the marrow of his bones as yellow as amber or whether it’s woven into the latticework of his motorway of arteries, the moment exists deep somewhere inside him. Sadly, it’s something my hands cannot locate no matter how assiduously my fingers comb through the shining sculpture puzzle of his internal anatomy.]
#the rotten fruit metaphor and 'jewel box of carnage' made me think of north...#hope he's doing okay i miss him & gotta send an email soon....#just been dealing with the mental health rot™ thats making me self isolate worse lol#but anyways yipppieee intestines and unrequited love <333#cryptcites#eric larocca#the trees grew because i bled there
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Do you think Erik would be more of a vampire or a werewolf (in a AU I guess) (and also what do you think Charles would be?) I lowkey imagine Charles as little red riding hood if Erik was a werewolf.
i feel like they're both pretty vampire coded...... if we must assign them vampire or werewolf......
#snap chats#i mean did charles not isolate himself in his estate for years after korea..... og 60s interpretation anyway..... vampire shit i tell you..#also Some vampires can have telepathy/mind control..#wait on that note i was reading X-Men Adventures or w/e and magneto being all#'i can twist the metal in your brain to do whatever i want' i lit yelled 'shut the fuck up' LMAO IM SICK OF THIS MAN AND HIS POWERS#i think werewolves are too 'wild' for either charles or erik- even erik during his worst years#erik has too much of a type of 'elegant' air to him. plus he loves his castles jvALEVJAKLJ#like i really cant. justify attributing werewolves to either charles or erik...#when i think of werewolves i think of a loss of control and brutish power- things i cant see with charles/erik#i feel like i always equate shame with werewolves too for some reason.. maybe the whole 'dont look at me/stay away' thing#or at least shame-until-given-a-reason-to-not-hold-back-anymore yk but not important#a point could be made for charles when he was self isolating but that was more so. post-war/My-Legs-Just-Got-Broken depression vJELKVJEVLK#i mean charles exercises RESTRAINT with his powers and knows people dont like his powers but he's not exactly. ASHAMED yk what i mean#i could prob make more vampire comparisons if i sit here long enuogh but ive rambled too much TL;DR they're both vampires
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also before i forget my hot take is that cas would be totally fine with jack becoming god because of his big push in season 15 to help jack achieve his destiny
#i think this can coexist with what vic said about jack making a sacrifice just like cas taught him#he'd be fine with the powers and with the self-isolating just not both at the same time#it just made me remember 'cas wouldn't want that for jack bc jack is his widdle babyyyy'#and i started running down that rabbit hole#cas would support that actually. and vocally did. in the show#spn#okay night night
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should be sleeping but instead I'm thinking about how much Vash has been treated with love and care and kindness, even if he doesn't think he deserves or outright tries to deny it
it doesn't get shown as much later in the manga (but also everyone is busy and freaking out by that point so...), but early on we get to see glimpses of him having fun and getting fed treats (and sheltered and comforted) from casual, everyday sources. He carries the weight of every mistake, screw up, injury and death around his neck like a millstone, but very rarely does he ever knowingly allow anyone else to lighten his burdens—and when he does it's often under the guise of a mask.
But despite that all he is so incredibly cared for—kids willingly play with him to the point that they expect him to show up, strangers shelter him and cry when he leaves them, people willingly choose to risk life and limb and stand by him against his brother. Even his scars are testament of small acts of kindness imo—yeah they're proof of people hurting him (or just terrible, rotten luck), but he has a couple of really deep scars that might've taken him out if he didn't receive some form medical treatment; his body has incredibly enhanced healing but also he very clearly has limits to how well it works. Plus some of them have been very obviously patched up by a regular nml doctor working with what they have (I do not believe ship 3 would graft a metal grate over his chest because that just seems like a pain to work around with any sort of metallic equipment tbh), which means someone may have seen him get hurt and then willingly chose to help him afterwards, regardless of the circumstances.
So despite the cruelty he is forced to witness and experience all the time, he also gets to absorb so much love and little acts of kindness regardless of if he wants to acknowledge it or not.
Basically I guess what I'm trying to say is this: Haha Get Loved Idiot
#trigun#trigun maximum#thinking about Vash and how he's rarely ever truly alone...even when he tries to self-isolate people care for him........ough#also unrelated has anyone else ever gotten woken up by a loud noise their brain made up#I was falling asleep and I accidentally visualized a metal pan hitting a metal wire rack and the non-existent sound jolted me awake....why!
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botw was a good story about coping w/ tragedy, the dangers of expectations and pedestals, and how to live after disaster
totk could have been such a good story about generational trauma, coming to terms w/ grief, and how to really on others after a life time of being alone but it just...wasnt. it had so much potential to build on the themes of botw and give a good thematic close to zelda and link's archs and it set all that up but just...did not
#loz#tears of the kingdom#man its jsut! everybody and their mother knows the game was disappointing#but ti had SO MUCH POTENTIAL it set up some rlly good stuff but just left it there#zelda and link both were in opposite positions!!! zelda was finally in a supportive environment and leaning how to be confident#only to have that support system ripped away and be forced to lose her fmaily AGAIN#link was self isloating chasing the barest rumor of zelda focused on HER. in botw he barely thought about her but in totk?#in totk most quests were focused on that quest or improving hyrule in some way#he slowly is building a support system even as he self isolates as hyrule comes together as a community and link SHOULD have learned to rel#more on those around him who also missed zelda and wanted to help. they set that shit up. but he didnt!!!#he was alone in a crowd! and zelda was vindicated in her belief that she can only help those around her through sacrifice#and that her own abilities were rlly not important compared to link which is A WEIRD FUCKING MOVE NINTENDO MADE#erm anyway yeah waitng for the totk rewrite fic to drop and give me everything i need and more#trix posts
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my thing is i don't Really like all the retconning going on in fionna & cake but also, f&c Finn is a fucking Dreamboat & while i think to an extent that he's not bottom-heavy Enough, he's also exactly the kinda man that his 12 year old self would've wanted to be & that alone makes me wanna consume him, like LOOK AT THIS THING

#jeremy shada did an excellent job making this character the closest thing i had to a fictional crush#the retcon of prismo being the author of f&c#like it Made Sense to me that it was ik via the dual-sided blade of madness & self isolation & whimsy#& blah blah blah retcons won't please everyone idk i'm only 4 episodes in#but god the fact that this character Grew Up With Me#the ways i would suck & fuck him#who said that#usfw#adventure time
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i don’t think pax would ever consider the elvhen gods his gods. he was raised in a human empire with human gods. there were no dalish clans carrying stories of them to hear. the elves of the empire long adopted the imperial pantheon. or, those who incorporated both, kept to themselves. he was too human, some told him. they were an incredibly tight-knit community. his mother didn’t know, either. the arnes were still a human family that routinely married in elves to cultivate magical talent. they cared for little else beyond the prestige of that talent. he would be interested in learning the elvhen language, though. lysona only knew a few words like atish’an , da'len, mamae, and vhenan. she always wanted to know more. after awakening in thedas, his contact, at first, was limited to the sabrae clan and zathrian’s clan. he … only approached a few clans after but never stayed long enough to learn much from them. felt he was a danger to them and was an intrusion. he was better alone ( he was never alone ). now, if romanced by a lavellan inquisitor - mislyn, by default - he does become interested the gods and is willing to participate in any daily rituals or ceremonies if asked. though, still, he is more interested in learning the language.
#❪ ⋅ ✹ ⋆ —┊ ❛ v. what yet lingers [dragon age] ❜ ❫#❪ ⋅ ✹ ⋆ —┊ ❛ study. ❜ ❫#❪ ⋅ ✹ ⋆ —┊ ❛ ooc. ❜ ❫#( one of pax’s overarching themes is a deep seeded feeling of alienation )#( and his possession has only made it worse )#( hunger wants him isolated. makes it easier to break him down and destroy any sense of self )#( anyways anyways anyways )#( yeh )#( it isn’t a huge gut punch to find out the Truth about the elven gods for him )#( his gods are still the cyrodilic pantheon )
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tbh i don’t even think miguel’s breakdown rant about miles’ existence as “anomaly” spiderman causing the death of 1610 peter is even about peter, or even quite abt miles. it’s about the idea that somehow 1610 peter could’ve shut down the collider if it weren’t for miles, even though miles’ presence didn’t actually affect peter’s death in any way. it’s about the idea that peter could’ve prevented a reality - that is, anomalies getting slingshotted throughout the multiverse - that miguel feels like he’s buckling under the emotional burden of (”And all this time, I have been the only one holding it all together!”). But even that’s not quite it, it’s about the fact that Miguel has been sitting on the resentment of feeling like he’s utterly alone in this burden, when in reality he’s not. When he created a structure designed to help share that burden between people who should understand it the most. But he won’t - can’t - ask for help bearing the emotional burden because it’s not even quite about the anomalies, it’s about Gabriella. But you deserve to suffer for it, you deserve to hurt. You dwell and grieve her and a mistake you won’t forgive youself for over and over again, all while hiding away and refusing to confide in the people who care about you how badly you’re spiraling, all while a part of you resents them for not knowing, even as they couldn’t know.
#this is only one component of what i read in his breakdown personally but its an interesting one. its not blaming miles for gabriella.#miguel never shifts that blame. he bears it wholeheartedly. but what i think he offloads onto miles in that scene is the resentment thats#been building - that he CANT acknowledge because doesnt he deserve that suffering? how else do you atone? - a resentment that he#feels so alone in what he does EVEN AS HE CREATED THE SYSTEM TO SHARE THAT BURDEN WITH EVERYONE ELSE#and they WOULD share it with them. but he won't confide because he's a chronic self isolator. because i don't think miguel can disentangle#himself from the fact that a part of him doesnt want to be in pain anymore#because he believes that pain IS the price he needs to pay for what he did. even though it was an accident.#so he offloads that resentment onto miles. blames him for peter's death because he can't acknowledge that resentment for what it is#because miles' very existence lights a beacon of doubt that every choice he made believing SINCERELY it would protect people may have been#in vain. and youve doomed those you wanted to protect all over again#ANYWAYS. is this anything fkjdshfkjsdhfkjsd#tunes talks spiderverse
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Been getting such good grades in social interractions lately i am soso very happy
#went to an event where most people were either strangers or acquaintances and i had fun with them...... gf had his 18th party and i was at-#the peak of my extroversion fr. i made conversation with everyone i befriended the people i didn't know i made a point of including people-#who were a bit more isolated from the rest into the fun i was loud and took space and it was fun...... i have a friend i met in comics-#class and since now he moved out for uni i assumed we'd lose contact since most of our interractions were in class but instead i've been-#texting him regularly..... i've been talking here and there with the younger School Queers...... i tried looking as friendly as possible-#everytime someone came up to me when i was cosplaying at the local con..... i texted my turkish friend first yesterday.... hang outs with-#my closest friends hitting as always but that's a given. yeah. been cool#my boyfriend says that 'i've met too many assholes who sucked the self esteem out of me and i'm a very likeable person'. dunno what he's-#talking about /j
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