#and thank you for the hugs 💙💙💙💙

[barmadumet]

It was one year ago today that THIS happened (which apparently gave my father a heart attack on my behalf 😅), and I thought maybe it time to finally share this photo here; I hadn’t even shared the detail photos of all the themed accessories ❤️💙

This was my 2nd time meeting them, and I totally choked. Didn’t even look at them. Just pitifully hugged them, as I tried not to cry, and ran away 😂 It was just too much with the BOTH of them focused on me. I had first met them individually (which I handled much better) and had them sign those magazines that you see on the shirt I’m wearing 😍 (20 yrs ago, those covers dominated my summer of 2005 🖤�� Life changing!)

I had shared these photos from that same con, but here they are again for this anniversary post:

Despite my photo op fail (I really was an emotional mess; I think I had a sense of foreboding about my dad somehow), this con was INCREDIBLE. Moots. Friends of moots. Their spouses. There was over a dozen of us all together, and memories were made that I will cherish all my life.

It was six king cakes that I sealed for freshness and transported four states over 🤩 I feel very fortunate that the boys came so close to home, and likewise, I am so thankful to my friends who traveled far and wide so we could support one another through this epic event 🫂

⚜️💜💚💛

[hero-of-the-wolf]

You’re really having a rough go. If you need to, you can slow down. It’s not good to push yourself to the point of burnout. For your wrist ice it multiple times a day and if you have a brace for your wrist it will help a lot.

Giving you some hugs. Remember to drink some water

Yeeeaaaaahh I'm okay tho, really 😭

I'm mostly just really annoyed by my wrist bc I literally have no idea what I even did to it and I NEED it bc I'm gonna be performing at the funeral and that's scary enough as is but I need to practice and actually be able to perform and sksbskhsnsbs it's the worst timing ever ough 😭😭😭😭 the pain otherwise is very very manageable and it doesn't even hurt when I'm wearing the brace, promise 🫶

[savage-rhi]

💙🫂🍰

[andy-clutterbuck]

Andy at Walker Stalker Con Atlanta 2017 requested by Anonymous

[ruvviks]

hiii bones i desperately need to know more about the time seb and cassidy got chased by the NCPD and then hit by a car in front of the hospital i'm sorry i ended up getting obsessed with a small detail

HIII RENA THANK YOU SO MUCH it's honestly one of my favorite encounters of them all 😭 for context, there's a total of 28 encounters between january 2077 and december 2077; this encounter is the 13th encounter and it happens in the end of june 2077 (which, if you're interested, lines up with the in-game events in my canon with vincent and would happen around the same time of the parade; so while all of that serious business is going on you got these two clowns getting hit by a car SBHGFDJGDFJGD)

basically what happens is that for once, cassidy is not out to kill seb; he's having a moment in a bar and seb happens to show up at the exact same place, then believes that cassidy did in fact show up there to kill him (which usually is indeed the case) and this prompts a fight between the two which ends up escalating rather quickly into a full-blown bar fight. fun!

that is until the ncpd shows up and starts to arrest people left and right but naturally so, since this is night city, the cops end up getting dragged into the bar fight as well. at some point seb and cassidy manage to stumble out of the bar (well. one of them gets flung through the window and the other stumbles out of the bar) and one of the few still standing cops in the midst of the chaos and panic ends up arresting them?? sort of??? but also needs to call for reinforcements and he ends up just. handcuffing them together. oops

and then they need to run the fuck away from the cops because cassidy is wanted dead or alive by maxtac and kang tao and lowkey militech as well and seb is wanted very much dead by arasaka so if either of them were to get captured by the ncpd they'd be in a bit of a pickle. a big one

so! cue to a chase scene through night city (i feel like it's important to mention once more that seb is 1.99m tall with silvery gray hair that stands out in a crowd and cassidy is 2.01m tall with peach pink hair that. you guessed it. stands out in a crowd) in which they're mostly trying to outrun several ncpd vehicles but also around every corner they try to kill each other. while still being handcuffed together. on more than one occasion they would also end up falling into each other's arms and touching hands and all the other gay shit you'd expect from me and andy in our writing but that's not important right now

the chase ends pretty abruptly when they've managed to outrun the ncpd but they're still trying to fuck each other up which results in them running into traffic and then getting hit by a fucking car right at the entrance of the hospital =D obviously the driver is very worried and checks them in at the hospital so they can get looked at. they're still handcuffed together. no one questions it it's night city. they're now stuck in a waiting room for about 45 minutes with crying children, arguing couples, staring elderly people, etc etc, WHILE handcuffed to their arch nemesis. and they can't even kill each other about it

as funny as this whole idea is, the scene ends with them outside the hospital and amanda (seb's best friend and another member of the cobras, his gang) unlocks the handcuffs for them. and cassidy makes eye contact with seb very briefly. and then starts walking backwards and quickly turns around and leaves. and that's where it ends

because despite the fact that yes he does really need to kill this man, at that point it's become much more than just that contract that he signed with his mysterious client. with both seb and cassidy the other is fascinating to them and it's kind of become a game; they're each other's equal in combat which has RARELY happened before, it's kind of like enrichment?? obviously it's also infuriating and they're both going insane but at the same time it would by then have become something that they both rely on. creating intricate rituals to be close to another man etc etc

it's kind of like. violence as a love language honestly. like knowing what the future holds for them and all this is just. slowly but surely transforming into something entirely else than just two guys trying to kill each other because they both know that it's never gonna happen. they know the other isn't gonna kill them and they know they'll never be able to kill the other so really what does that all mean then? what's left? they could easily stop but that would mean they won't ever see each other again because well they're enemies. they can't suddenly become friends. they're both just kind of. waiting i guess?? to see where it goes. because maybe one day things will be different... not that they would ever admit to anyone let alone themselves that they would like for things to be different but like. it's about the subconscious yearning of it all. do you see the vision

anyway this got very long but i could've gone on for longer because. as you could probably guess. andy and i wrote out shit like this for every single encounter SBHGJMKFDGBFDJGKDF and then!!!! we have entire LISTS of jobs and targets for the later eras (this here is what we call killing era on account of the. well. there's a significant lack of killing but it's about the attempts i guess) with again. so much detail. THERE'S JUST SO MUCH WE HAVE SO MUCH TO SAY

[foxy-kitsune]

took them long enough but FINALLY!!!!!!!

[hide-your-bugs-away]

The best day of my life, not gonna lie 🥹💙🎹✨️

[inkcat1987]

Oh I'm sorry... by cute I mean you're nice to look at if that helps? Or you're very huggable? Don't worry Anonymous magic can't harm anyone unless used to *stares at Elizakai and Swiftmitsu who ive been haunting* (Get called out lol)

-Idiot anon

"s-sorry"

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[lizardlover-skylarglamrock]

Hello!

Pain and suffering. (Read as: pixel art is hard, although I have no regrets.)

So I just…grabbed a spritesheet of H’aanit from Octopath Traveler, some art of Skylar, traced over the spritesheet on a different layer, and…(hands you an Octopath sprite I tried to make)

Now, did this take me an hour? Yes. Am I planning on doing the entirety of the spritesheet? Also yes. Also, sorry if it’s blurry… :’)

SHE'S SO LITTLEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!

I've always wanted a sprite! Seen them around Tumblr before but never actually made or got one... until now! :D!!!!

[the-scarlet-witch-22]

but honestly just knowing your also going through something similar makes me feel less alone. It really sucks doesn’t it. Like I just don’t get why parents are like that so much. And for the religious trauma honestly same my mother is very religious (muslim) and my dad well he’s just an abusive alcoholic. But I’ve learned that who gives a fuck anymore honestly be happy it’s too tiring giving a fuck!! But my god the lightbulb moment I had when I read your stories was something else especially the conductor ones, like I was really mean to my current gf before I knew I was lesbian. But seeing her push reader away I was like holt fuck that’s what I do! Anyway I’m happy with her now but I owe that to you I really do. It’s crazy how words can change peoples lives.

I’m so sorry about your situation I wish you nothing but happiness you really fucking deserve it you’re an awesome human being 🩵💙

Hi hi anon <3

I'm glad if nothing else, you're able to know that you're not alone. I know how isolating all of this can be, but I think one of the best parts (only sometimes) of fandom spaces is we're able to find like-minded individuals that we can relate to. I'm so sorry that you have had to go through any of that, and I know that isn't saying much, but please know if you ever need ANYTHING or to vent that my blog is always a safe space. It's hard sometimes having to make our own families as we get older, but surrounding yourself with people who love you for who you are is worth it. I'm so happy to read that you have your gf and that you guys are happy together, that's so beautiful and wow!! <3 The world is such a scary and sad place, so I'm glad that you aren't having to go through any of that alone. (I also will say I write a lot of my fics based on my experiences/mistakes/regrets/etc and that particular part in Chaconne was very...intentional hahaha but I'm glad it hit home with someone else honestly).

Again, sending you so much love and I'm thinking of you and your gf- sending you so much happiness!!!! I hope all is well and again, thank you so much for the kind words- it means so much more than I could ever type out xoxo 💖

[nat-seal-well]

Reading about your fics, there are so many things I'm looking forward to reading!

About "hello my old heart", what is Adam's introspection about?

The fic where Nate learns about video games sounds amazing, haha! If you have a snippet to share, I'm here for it <3

Hi!! Thank you, friend 🥰💙

“hello my old heart” was mostly inspired by A’s fear of letting anyone in. It went really well with the song. I was listening to it on a Wednesday shift, because on those days I go in at 3 AM and listen to my music for like four hours while I work before the store opens, and that day I was listening to The Oh Hellos and the idea just kinda showed up and punched me in the face.

The song talks about building walls around your heart, which is, as we all know, what A does. A lot of the fic is about Adam trying to understand his own emotions, and how they end up slipping through the cracks anyway no matter how hard he tries to keep them back.

Since I’m me (and that means I’m constantly thinking about life and death and then scaring myself with it multiple times a day) I also wanted to write a little bit about the process of becoming a vampire, because there’s the brief pause in the middle where the heart stops. Which tied into all the other ideas, and then one thing led to another… y’know. I’ve been working on it very slowly but steadily, just because that sort of writing style takes more time for me. It’s one of the ones I want to have finished soon, though! :)

And the video game fic was inspired by two things: Ns inability to use electronics, and the fact that I feel like they would like animal crossing, if they could ever figure out how a switch works. It is gonna be fluffy and silly and lots of fun, haha. There’s a little snippet under the cut 🥰💙

Occasionally he thinks of himself as a scholar. A collector of knowledge, which of course is ever-expanding. One of the wonderful things about humanity is its desire for more. Humans are hungry, starving constantly for an understanding of everything around them. They stare up at the Universe to demand it give them answers, and in this insatiable hunt for science, the technology they create are things Nate never even thought to dream of.

He has learned much over the course of his very long life, and it is likely he will learn more. But this thing currently sitting in his hands, he fears, may not be one of them.

Brows furrow as he turns the device over. It’s relatively flat. And rectangular. When the Detective first handed it to him, he thought it was a phone, only it’s significantly larger than the average cellular device. And these days, phones are almost all glassy, black “touch screens.” This thing is only mostly screen. It has colorful little ends on either side—one blue and one red, if you hold it horizontally—with little knobs and buttons, but they don’t do anything when he presses them.

There has to be a way to turn the thing on. That’s how these kinds of contraptions work. Nate just needs to find it.

It’s easier said than done.

“Oh, come on, now,” he says to the machine as he fiddles with one of the knobs, and the screen remains a stubborn black. The only thing on it is his own frustrated expression in the reflection, staring back at him. “You have to work somehow.”

“You’re talking to yourself, Nate, did you know that?”

[hero-of-the-wolf]

sending hugs again 🫂🫂

your cat seemed so precious, i’m sure she had a wonderful time with you ❤️

lots of love ❤️

thank you 🥺

she's laying on my lap rn 💔

[sentientstump]

before I got a tumblr account I would just keep all the blogs I freqeunted open in my tabs, inlcuding yours. This means that now, whenever I try to go to just tumblr.com, I end up on your blog becuase appently I' ve visited it most. Which is fun, b/c you have a good one :D

this is so.....,,

yeah i have no good enough word to describe it fully but it's definitely awesome!!! 😭😭 i really appreciate it in these trying times! (⁠人⁠ ⁠•͈⁠ᴗ⁠•͈⁠)

[moonchild-in-blue]

hii, i didn’t get a picture of it but the aquarium where i live has really pretty blue and purple lights tonight and it made me think of you 🩵

Hello!!! That's very sweet of you 🥺 💙💜

Let me pull a uno reverse and share one my aquarium videos! I wasn't going to post this one BUT it had a very pretty blue light, and this ask reminded me of it so!

ALSO - here's a red / black (dark) photo from that day as well for you, since I know you like red ❤️

(i hope tumblr doesn't crush the quality too much :/)

I hope the rest of the day is kind and gentle to you 💫

[stormyoceans]

also i have this for you <3<3<3

CASSI YOU'RE AN ANGEL A LIFE SAVIOUR A GODDESS AMONGST MEN MY PERSONAL HERO AND THE ONE TRUE MVP!!!!!!!!

i hope you don't mind if i post this but i feel like we don't talk about this pic enough. when your nong/co-star/friend's love language is physical touch and he's having a very tiring day so you let him rest on your shoulder and pat his head while you walk to help him recharge his energy. you know. as you do.

GOD I LOVE WHEN THEY EXHIBIT THE MOST BEHAVIOUR

[napping-sapphic]

<3 storm hugs 🫂 (if u want em)

Thank you for the storm hugs!!! 🫂🫂🫂😭😭❤️❤️❤️!!!!