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A dead boy with a cricket bat and a magic backpack: if you wanna get to him you have to go through me!
Another dead boy who spent over 70 years in hell AND clawed his way out of it, is an insanely skilled magic user, doesn’t even notice when he’s burnt by iron, and got up and started walking around like he was in barely any pain after being trapped in a machine for half an hour that evaporates other ghosts in SECONDS: :3
#edwin is fully able to protect and defend himself and thats one of my favourite things about him#despite being bitchy and ‘feminine’ and very stereotypically unmasculine hes one of the most powerful characters in the show#and its so amazing to see#he doesnt NEED charles to protect him#but he knows its important to charles that he protects him#and if something is important to charles edwin will never try to take it from him#tldr: these ghosts gay as HELL#pun intended#dead boy detectives#dead boy detective netflix#dead boy detective agency#edwin payne#edwin paine#charles rowland#payneland#putting the PAIN in edwin paine#that SHOULD be a tag
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Visions
#i have so much love for botw link#he remembers nothing but the weight of the sword#he is willing to take in incredible amounts of pain and responsibility just to understand himself and his previous life a bit better#its not as if he’s not responsible and courageous#but this iteration of link has lost so much-even before the game it seems taking his destiny has made him quiet#dunno remember who was it who wrote#‘the sword became a needle snd with the thread of destiny; it sew his lips’#but apart from the desesperation of looking for a trace of himself in all things#he is also guilty and scared of what his past holds#anyways i should write a fanfic not pour this into tags#botw#breath of the wild#link#legend of zelda#master sword#animation#procreate dreams#link botw
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Wip of Spiderman's berserker mode-
When Spiderman is in a legitimate holy fuck life-or-death situation, (or when his spider senses go from 0-Thanos Just Popped in and is Gunning for me) his body automatically burns its entire store of venom in one big burst, giving him a massive boost in all his powers for 10-15 minutes.
This is the ultimate state of fight-or-flight. He can't control when or if it happens.
When he's in burn, Spiderman's only objective is to survive- either by putting down the threat or getting away from it as fast as possible.
During burn, everything is enhanced- his speed, his strength, his healing factor, etc. He feels little to no pain and fights with the single goal of coming out alive on the other side. He's not necessarily mindless, but he also doesn't hold anything back and will fight to kill if that's what he thinks will give him the best chance of survival.
In this state, he's powerful enough to go toe-to-toe with a fairly serious Thor. However, going through burn is EXTREMELY traumatic for the body, and coming out of it is just as dangerous as going in.
When it's over, Peter is pretty much catatonic/comatose for a few days while his body heals- and basically as powerless as a civilian while his body restores enough venom to put him back into a balanced state.
To date, it's only happened twice (and is the original reason he caught Kraven's attention.)
TLDR: Spiderman's venom works on himself as well, but in a more extreme fashion.
#hunting!spider#spiderman#peter parker#i imagine its also accompanied by a super eerie and painful sounding howl#It's all hearts in Wade's eyes watching Spiderman take on thor until he watches the man's ribs get crushed and hes STILL fighting jesus-#tfw Wade forces Spiderman to go into a burn when HE dies- and now has to be much more careful with himself as a result#he cant control it- its completely autonomous#also tbc even if his healing factor is amped like crazy he can still be killed- and he can’t like regrow limbs or anything#hunting!spider art
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Shen Yuan getting transported into pidw isn't "the system punishing him for being a lazy internet hater," but instead representative of "step 1 of the creative process: getting so mad at something you decide to go write your own fucking book" in this essay I will
#svsss#scum villian self saving system#shen qingqiu#shen yuan#the fact that people think scum villain#-a series that examines and criticizes common tropes in fiction-#is somehow against criticism or being a little hater is wild to me#especially since shen qingqiu never gets punished for being a hater#heck- he's still a little hater by the end of the series#he mostly gets punished for treating life like a play and like he and the people around him are characters#(or in other words- he suffers for denying his own wants and emotions and his own sense of empathy)#I think some of y'all underestimate how much writing/art is inspired by creaters being little haters#like example off the top of my head-#the author of Iron Widow has been pretty vocal about the book being inspired by their hatred of Darling in the Franxx#I think my interpretation of Shen Yuan's transmigration is also supported by the fact that this series is an examines writing processes#side note- though i understand why people say Shen Yuan is lazy and think its a valid take it still doesnt sit right with me#i am probably biased because my own experiences with chronic pain and depression and isolation#but ya- i dont think Shen Yuan is lazy so much as he is deeply lonely and feels purposeless after denying parts of himself for 20ish years#like yall remember the online fandom boom from covid right?#being stuck completely alone in bed while feeling like shit for 20 days straight does shit to your brain#the fact that no one came to check on him + he wasn't exactly upset about leaving anyone behind supports the isolation interpretation too#+in the skinner demon arc he describes his life of being a faker/inability to stop being a faker now that he's Shen Qingqiu#as “so bland he's tempted to throw salt on himself” and “all he could do is lay around and wait for death” (<-paraphrasing)#bro wants to be doing stuff but is stuck in paralysis from repeatedly following scrips made by other people#another point on “Shen Yuan isn’t lazy” is just the sheer amount of studying that man does#also he did graduate college- how lazy can he really be#he doesnt know what hes doing but he at least tries to actively train his students#and he actually works on improving his own cultivation + spends quite a bit of time preping the mushroom body thing#+he's experiencing bouts of debilitating chronic pain throughout all this#but ya tldr: Shen Yuan's transmigration is an encouragement to write and not a punishment and also i dont think its fair to call him lazy
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"Huh."
#as with every game with some human mind stuffed into a machine i need to ask if he still has human instinct left in there somewhere#also i don't really think ordan would eat elegantly like some royalties anyways#you know the more i read about ordis the more i like him#i mean i never thought his talking is annoying like some people do apparently#but after going through the cephalon fragment thingy my thoughts about him-#-turned from “ominously happy” to “murderous but also kinda cute happy”#and you'd think it should be the other way around#hey if he has erased his memory a lot of times and probably has gone through the same reasoning-#-every time he chooses memory erasure rather than self destruction because he would probably also remember the previous attempts#will he someday choose the other option instead because of all the pain he endured?#(hopefully not i actually like him it's not destiny 2 i hope DE don't just yeet characters off their game that frequently)#also i like how he can take up some ordan karris knowledge by treating it as some stories / facts about others but not about himself#neat but he probably would have to erase his memories more often because it's still about ordan karris i guess#warframe#warframe operator#warframe ordis#ordis#my art
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we should make Nico more fucked up, actually. enough woobifying him. that boy should be covered in blood and viscera
#pjo#riordanverse#nico di angelo#we've done ''nico ships where his partner coddles and takes care of him while he heals from the innumerable trauma''#now let's do more ''nico ships where his partner helps him move past his trauma and enables him to be gay do crime''#more nico ships where nico is having his big 3 kid force-of-nature moments and his boyfriend goes ''HOT''#whatever happened to ''Will and Nico's first date was killing a man together. also Michael was there''#even stuff like. [tsats spoilers] getting all your negative attributes physically ripped out of you and turned into immortal creatures#that perhaps could leave you Changed! give me Nico who had the darkness taken from him#and it leaves him just a little unsettlingly bright and empty like a partial husk of himself#give me Nico whose cacodaemons can reabsorb back into him like he's their walking nest to hide in and emerge from whenever they please#he's just left an unsettling host for shadow monsters of pain and trauma#that's just one avenue. Nico's the spooky guy let him be spooky!#im constantly rotating just normal Nico operating on underworld laws/logic/mortality in my brain#make him WEIRDER
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alright,,,,,is this newyears gift,,,,,, i dont no. but maybe it's late enough that i'll be able to forget that i drew this 😁😁😁😁 mttpoly doodles. whoever sees this sees this
#triglycercule kist is real i know someone that will be very happy with this#you dont know how badly i wanted to squeeze a horrorkiller on somewhere focusing on horror's spine#horror sane spin still on my mind. underneath that zipped up jacket is a crop top hand made by horror himself ‼️‼️‼️#auagahhhhhbtheyre all so stupid can you tell i didntbknow what to do for kist (but its nice and i think its cute and a little fitting)#did not finish (or start) the killer analysis so idk anything about him fully still#like this is a tad bit more platonic leaning (something i'd put in my fic) but i still like it#because killer's very aware of everything that will go on and dust has a no murder streak#and something something killer doesnt wanna have to deal with the pain that is dust's emotions#dust knows damn well killer doesnt mean to be nice but he's being nice anyway#and in my eyes dust is nice(ish)est of all of them (and respectful too i think) so he says thank you just because#it takes killer like 3 weeks to figure out how to respond to dust's thank you. i am too tired to figure out what he said in return#NOT EVEN THAT TIRED BUT I GOTTA STAY UP FOR THE SAKE OF STAYING UP‼️‼️‼️‼️ gotta wait until 2am...... then untitled2987601111 awakes#i'm seeing people read horrortale or like mtt stuff and i am very happy ✨✨✨ mtt nation is swell and the three pillars of it are smitten#(for each other)#everyone looks so weirdly good in this but whatever. time to post!#untitled29876011111 gets the full edition 😁😁😁😁😁#tricule art#thankfully its the middle of the night so nobody will see this x3#killer sans#dust sans#horror sans#murder time trio#murder time trio poly#horrordust#kist#horrorkiller#mtt poly
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have been in a qijiu/qiyuan mood lately, and i was thinking about an au where shen yuan, upon transmigrating, actually loses his memories. he wakes up and has no idea who he is, where he is, who the man at his bedside is. not a clue. the only thing he has is his muscle memory, his sharp recognition senses (he's experiencing a lot of déjà-vu), and blurry fractions of memories that he can't quite make out.
thing is, the memories of both shen yuan and shen jiu aren't actually gone, they start to intermingle, to mix up, a little sister in princess pajamas beside an older brother wearing dirty rags, a bright screen that displays mountain peaks and glittering caves. he's kind and generous the way someone who has never had to worry about food or money is, but he gets vicious and defensive when someone gets too close. sometimes he says cruel things and doesn't even understand why himself.
neither identity fits anymore, both names right and wrong at the same time. it's just... shen qingqiu.
and while everyone else might adjust to this just fine, yue qingyuan does not. because that is shen jiu, but it isn't, but it has to be, but not always. he gets flashes of his childhood friend when shen qingqiu gets viciously defensive over nothing, when he scowls and scoffs and rolls his eyes when he thinks people can't see, but then he smiles, and laughs, and tilts his head in a way that is completely foreign. he likes beasts. shen jiu never liked beasts. but he loves tanghulu, like shen jiu. sweet sugary things. the first time xiao jiu cuddles up into his hug, he cries.
the way he sometimes clings to yue qingyuan when he has a bad day can't be him, but then he says "qi-ge" exactly like shen jiu would and damn near snarls at anyone who gets too close, and he's aggressively possessive the way he was when they were kids. but then he pulls away and apologizes, like shen jiu would never do.
and he never demands anything, scrubbed clean from roughness and filth and selfish want, will act perfect and smiling and pleasant, never burdensome. like he's completely forgotten where he came from, what he was. like the pampered nobleman's son who could afford to be kind. the only time his old self comes fully back up is when he feels threatened or scared or angry, like a trauma response that kicks in to protect himself. and then yue qingyuan starts to wonder if maybe it is. maybe the shen jiu he knows was only ever fear and self-preservation, and the one he is now is a shen jiu without the chains and shackles and scars.
yue qingyuan doesn't know if he's happy for him, if it's for better or for worse. he does know that he feels protective and responsible for this new version xiao jiu has become.
meanwhile shen qingqiu, even when he regains enough of his memories to realize he was once a different person, doesn't know who he is anymore. both, maybe. or neither. he feels bad for taking away yue qingyuan's friend, but in his heart he can't help but think qi-ge is his brother, and no one else's. when he manages the peak he feels like he's taking credit for another's accomplishments, but he remembers suffering for it, he remembers what it took to get there.
#more guilt for everyone!#yue qingyuan being so touch starved and desperate that he takes advantage the first chance he has#by cooking and making tea and holding his xiao jiu#shen jiu calls him qi-ge and he KNOWS what that means#but he can't bring himself to say anything when shen jiu is seeking comfort in him#he wants to be shen jiu's place of home and comfort so painfully desperately badly that hell take anything and not let go#and shen qingqiu struggles with the intense need to be close to yue qingyuan. to be held and comforted#because he feels so terribly lonely and rejected and abandoned#even when he knows that part of him has no right to feel that way because it has nothing to do with him#anyway i was in the mood for pain#hope you like it#svsss#scum villain#qijiu#qiyuan#shen jiu#shen yuan#shen qingqiu#yue qingyuan#amnesia au
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There is a platonic explanation for all this. Right?
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#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#lan wangji#[accidental kiss] is a purposeful misspelling to reference an old meme. I will blast anyone who tries to correct me with the crunchiest png#The kiss looks like wwx is biting lwj's cheek....It *does* have the consistency of a soft marshmallow so he's not in the wrong.#Once again: wwx was never *ever* oblivious to the implications of the situation. On the contrary: this entire scene + the prior shows-#that he very much understands that this looks gay to the viewers.#He just doesn't think its possible to be loved like that. *Especially not by Lan Zhan.*#Do people forget that LWJ had 13 years to process his feelings VS WWX's (give or take) week?#This is the moment he realizes wwx has feelings and he HATES HIMSELF FOR IT. He feels like he's betraying lwj's trust!#The demi feeling of having spent so long in a comfortable platonic relationship and then getting struck by the 'oh shit' moment.#Its not a soft 'Oh' - Its a 'Oh god they are going to hate me and I can't bear that. I need to be so normal about this or else'.#Pour one out for all of us who've had to go through the trials of trying to conceal the painful realization of deeper affections.#Anyway. *both* lwj and wwx fall in love kicking and screaming and miserable and clawing at the walls about it.#Continuity acknowledgement: wwx's hands are unbound at this point but I had a hellish time with blocking and this was a bit easier.
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INTERVIEW WITH THE VAMPIRE ❧ i bet on losing dogs.
#interview with the vampire#iwtvedit#iwtv#louis de pointe du lac#claudia de pointe du lac#lestat de lioncourt#the vampire armand#daniel molloy#madeline eparvier#tusermich#edits#please no one point out the fact that these are not symmetric in numbers#it's taking all of me not to redo this from scratch cause of this i'm in physical pain#but it took too much time and i need to let go of perfectionism lmao#this came to me in a vision...#the idea of louis' life being this constant maelstrom of love and betrayal#a circle of violence and lost causes#as a victim and then as a perpetrator when he finds himself letting claudia down#claudia who left but then came back and stayed and then tried to leave again but was sacrificed in his name#lestat not knowing how to let go but then doing it in the worst of ways and armand lying through his teeth for decades just to not be alone#i love them all so dearly#beloved complex characters
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let the light in
I finished 猎罪图鉴2 and I think at least 10% of shen yi's problems could be solved by not living in a concrete dungeon, so I’m using my art powers to home-ify his house (see tags for more rambling)
(no reposts; reblogs appreciated)
#actually du cheng let himself in but anyway#my art#artists on tumblr#fanart#under the skin 2#猎罪图鉴#猎罪图鉴2#shen yi#du cheng#tan jianci#jin shijia#aaand its another kitchen painting! bc i think good things happen in kitchens#and my favorite characters deserve good things#for those who dont know this is from a police procedural cdrama about a genius sketch artist#so no surprise why i like it (im going crazy about it)#downside is the english speaking side of this fandom is rlly small compared to what im used to#and the thought of dusting off my 10 yrs of mandarin education to read fic at turtle pace pains me#this is all to say as soon as i figure out how to draw these two consistently i'll be unstoppable#unfortunately it might take a while bc tan jianci is so hard to stylize#character wise he's playing this soft sleepy guy who gives insane monologues and talks down serial killers#and facial structure wise I know he looks like That but its hard to pick out super defining features#besides like. eyes that stare into ur soul.#aka its a struggle to balance the soft + sharp angles of his character#shen yi would be able to figure it out LOL#finally im too shy to say this outside of tags but user lunarriviera if you see this TY FOR WRITING ASYLUM + S2 META <3
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That's it? You're just gonna end it there?
#iwtvedit#interview with the vampire#iwtv#armand#this has been in my drafts for ages but i'm giving up on linking it into a coherent larger gifset#an interesting moment on its own#something about the way armand will start telling stories about himself and then simply Stop when he comes to a painful enough point#his silences and the things he leaves out speak volumes#he doesn't even try to wrap it up coherently. he just takes a centering breath and fucking stops.
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Thinking about having menstrual cramps while in the dream world (because time moves on even when you’re under dear OB!Mal’s spell) or you get transported to the past without your pain meds, can you imagine the pain?
Just staring at General Vanrouge’s magearm and wondering if you can just borrow it for a second, it’ll be quick, just to take out your damn uterus!
General Vanrouge wondering why you are staring at the sharp weapons so intently…before you get tackled to not do anything stupid. You weren’t. Probably.
They shove a potion down your throat to help you with your pain. (You forgot that was a thing in your haze of pain lol)
Bur if any of the Silver Owls were to find you while you were in pain? Or no one had time to give one to you?
The Silver Owls are quaking in their boots as you find the nearest weapon. No one in your path is conscious once you’re done with them.
General Vanrouge: *thinking*
Baul Zigvolt: No, we are not using them as a secret weapon.
General Vanrouge: I didn’t say anything.
Baul Zigvolt: You were thinking it.
#listen if malleus draconia himself came to me and told me that he’ll give me happy dreams AND take away this hell on earth? pain?? I will#take his hand no question asked!#general lilia Vanrouge fury is nothing on the pain and anger of someone on that time of the month#tw menstruation#tw menstrual cycle#general lilia vanrouge x reader
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9-1-1 : LONE STAR S05E07 "Kiddos" : Owen & TK Strand.
#THE WAY HE LOOKS AT HIS BOY 🥺#their relationship being centric is truly everything to me#him telling TK to still love the enzo who raised him wasn't really him just taking the high road#he really doesn’t want his kid the carry a pain that doesn't make sense or get scars from someone he trusted and was taken care by#owen might be a walking dumpster fire with his coping machanisms all duct taped to it at the same time but he knows that at least and he#knows the right thing to do because he loves deeply and he'd talk sense into those he loves about things he wasn't really good at himself#:'))))#911 lone star#911ls#owen strand#tk strand#kiddos#5x07#911lsedit#father and son#the strand boys
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Had the thought/realization that regardless of if the Dream Master approved or disapproved of Sunday pursuing you, Sunday would still choose not to.
There are just too many factors that prevent him from doing so. A lack of time, for one. Sunday’s duties keep him on his toes constantly; he can’t find a moment of rest even in his sleep. He foresees his negligence of your relationship, and though unintentional, it still wouldn’t be fair to you.
His status as Oak Family Head would be another problem. How would you fare under the overbearing pressures that come with being his lover? Penacony is a planet of lights, glamour, and gossip. All eyes will be on you as soon as your relationship is publicized. You will be held at standards far higher than ever before, and the other Family Heads will be expecting nothing less. Sunday couldn’t possibly bring himself to burden you with all of this.
And of course, there’s his grand plan for Penacony.
I think that he’s been anticipating his sacrifice for a loooong time. Sunday acknowledges that he’ll be hurting you by leaving, and if you were in a relationship, then he would be hurting you even more.
You will be furious with him, surely. You’ve always chastised him for his self-destructive work habits.
But the image of you eternally safe and sound within Ena’s dream is enough to lay any rueful feelings to rest. He hopes that one day you’ll find it within yourself to forgive him.
#one might even say that…#… Sunday sacrificing himself to create a new world where he knows you will be forever safe with no shortage of comfort…#… is the deepest profession of love he could ever impart#sunday x reader#hsr x reader#honkai star rail x reader#pain!!! yayyyy!!!!#He thinks of you when he’s falling from the sky— wrapped tightly within his sister’s embrace#His plans have been foiled#the Dream is over#and he distantly wonders if this is the universe giving him a second chance at his love#If he’ll take that chance is the real question#(probably not)#(esp if he’s joining the stellaron hunters)#(he doesn’t expect to see you ever again)#(I think he’d also be too ashamed to face you after everything)#yeah#slow burn but like the relationship is in cinders and in hell
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cw// implied character death, double life nonsense
because you are love itself.
#my art#trafficblr#double life#divorce quartet#<-- insane about how scott killed pearl in limlife.#this comic has been sitting unfinished in my files for a good month its def not finished to my usual quality but god it needed to be done#so uh scott... yeah. i like villain scott but not pure evil scott. i like a scott whos scared of being loved and manipulates others to spar#himself the pain. i like a scott who ditched pearl because their friendship was actually becoming real and when the server gods confirmed i#with DL he freaked out a bit and ran off.#ofc u can interpret this comic however u want but i was just thinking way too hard abt smajhor#i feel like often ppl get divided into scott did nothing wrong vs scott is pure evil alot of the time#which is understandable cus like i said with fanart/fic u only have so much space to show someones personality#but idk i like him all angsty. like i know im a bad person but to keep myself safe i need to keep being like this.#hes so blorbo *puts him in a blender*#i hate him *wraps him up in a blanket and takes him home*#cw implied death#cw implied violence#scott#pearl
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