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nataliamaximoff · 5 years ago

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i was tagged by @romanoft and @gamoora to answer the following 73 questions, thank you so much, lovelies! ♡

on a scale of 1-10, how excited are you about life right now? 5

describe yourself in a hashtag? #underroverachiever

if you could do a love scene with anyone, who would it be? today’s mood is tom hiddleston but usually it’s seb stan or dylan o’brien

if your life was a musical, what would the marquee say? “nowhere to go but up for this vaguely interesting young lady!”

what’s one thing people don’t know about you? nothing, i’m an open book, maybe i’m repressing something but it could be anything

what’s your wake up ritual? check my phone, snooze button, get up, go to the bathroom, get dressed, be a zombie

what’s your go to bed ritual? lay in bed on my phone for 2 hours before finally falling asleep exhausted. must have toes and shoulders covered and no fan on, completely dark room, no light

what’s your favorite time of day? 5pm

your go to for having a good laugh? scrolling twitter, celebrity interviews on youtube, or talking to my discord friends

dream country to visit? italy again

what’s the biggest surprise you’ve ever had? can’t remember any

heels or flats/sneakers? sneakers

vintage or new? new

who do you want to write your obituary? my friend or boyfriend

style icon? timothée chalamet, zendaya, taylor swift

what are three things you cannot live without? iPhone/laptop, food, my friends

what’s one ingredient you put in everything? black pepper

what 3 people living or dead would you want to make dinner for? anne hathaway, taylor swift, kaya scodelario

what’s your biggest fear in life? illness/infection

window or aisle seat? window

what’s your current tv obsession? the society still, but newly atla

favorite app? discord or twitter

secret talent? cartwheels and handstands

most adventurous thing you’ve ever done in your life? 2-week trip to france after graduating high school with my high school french class and french teacher. was so great and had many new experiences there, it was lovely.

how would you define yourself in three words? introspective, understanding, obsessive

favorite piece of clothing you own? a pink and grey striped sweater

a must have clothing item that everyone should have? exercise shoes

a superpower you would want? invisibility or reading minds

what’s inspiring you in life right now? quarantine tik toks

best piece of advice you’ve received? work towards your future

best advice you’d give your teenage self? put yourself out there, people aren’t as scary as you think

a book everyone should read? harry potter series or the book thief

what would you like to be remembered for? having integrity

how do you define beauty? truthful radiant being

what do you love most about your body? hair and skin

best way to take a rest/decompress? literally sleeping, reading

favorite place to view art? museums

if your life was a song, what would the title be? towards the grand design

if you could master one instrument, what would it be? guitar

if you had a tattoo, where would it be? would literally never have a tattoo, i hate them. if i had to, i would probably hide it on my inner arm or finger

dolphins or koalas? dolphins

what’s your spirit animal? a sloth

best gift you’ve ever received? that trip to france, it was my mom’s graduation gift to me

best gift you’ve given? anything i’ve painted for someone, i once painted a watercolor fox for my friend who loves foxes

what’s your favorite board game? carcassonne

what’s your favorite color? pastel pink

least favorite color? orange or brown

diamond or pearls? pearls

drugstore makeup or designer? i don’t know what this means but since i never wear makeup i guess drugstore

blow dry or air dry? air dry

pilates or yoga? yoga

coffee or tea? tea because bubble tea

what’s the weirdest word in the english language? idk there’s a lot, maybe “gibberish”

dark chocolate or milk chocolate? dark chocolate

stairs or elevators? lol elevators, i’m lazy af

summer or winter? summer

you are stuck on an island, you can pick one food to eat forever without getting tired of it, what would you eat? apples

a dessert you don’t like? any fruit pie

a skill you’re working on mastering? time management, still

best thing to happen to you today? i finished my work at a reasonable time, so now i can play sims and do tumblr!

worst thing to happen to you today? my eyes were all dry when i woke up

best compliment you’ve ever received? i can’t think of a specific one, but i love when people make me feel valued

favorite smell? coffee or rain

hugs or kisses? hugs

if you made a documentary, what would it be about? library architecture around the world

last piece of content you consumed that made you cry? watched Survive on Quibi, starring Sophie Turner. i cried at the end

lipstick or lipgloss? lipgloss, but really lip balm cause my lips are CHAPPED

sweet or savory? savory

girl crush? phoebe tonkin, kaya scodelario, gemma chan, sophie turner, saoirse ronan, elizabeth olsen, zendaya, taylor swift

how do you know you’re in love? when you feel held by him, and he feels like home to you, instead of screaming with grief in a swedish commune

a song you can listen to on repeat? angel of small death and the codeine scene by hozier (or teenage dirtbag by wheatus lmao)

if you could switch lives with someone for a day, who would it be? spiderman or gemma chan

what are you most excited for/about this time in your life? paying off my credit card debt by working lol

tagging: @bvcks @nancybyevs and anyone who wants to do this!

#tag game #about me #long post #text post

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theundergroundwoman · 6 years ago

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I was tagged by @red-venom, thanks!

1. Nickname: Galka

2. Zodiac sign: Sagittarius

3. Height: 183cm/6ft

4. Hogwarts house: Ravenclaw

5. The last thing you googled: “The Congress of Paris”, apparently

6. Favorite musicians: I really love the group Muse

7. Song stuck in my head: Angel Of Small Death And The Codeine Scene by Hozier

8. Following now: 753 blogs

9. Followers: 1,378 lovely grandchildren

10. Do I get asks: yes, and I’m always happy to answer them

11. Amount of sleep: around 5 hours

12. Lucky number: 6? maybe 12?

13. What I’m wearing: boots, jeans and a dark blue shirt with light blue flowers

14. Dream job: historical reconstructor/librarian/writer/archivist/local mage

15. Dream trip: Russia 🇷🇺

16. Favorite food: sarma, probably

17. Instruments: none

18. Languages: Serbian, English, a bit of Spanish and Latin, some Russian

19. Favorite songs: oof many, I’ll write a separate post about that

20. Random fact: as a child I wanted to be an alchemist when I grow up; still kinda do

21. Aesthetic:

summer thunder showers, dewy grass, sunlight breaking through leaves, white embroidered dresses, the sound of heels on marble, long empty hallways, abandoned places, Pre-Raphaelite paintings, dark academia, the sensation of not being quite there; dreamlike.

I tag: anyone who wants to do this can say I tagged them

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ofxgrabba-blog · 6 years ago

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BASIC INFORMATION.

Full Name: Donald “Donnie” Lewis

Nickname(s): To Dertosa, he’s Grabba. To the rest of the world, he’s known as the TrapGod “The Don.”

Age: Twenty-Nine

Date of Birth: April 20th, 1988

Hometown: Dertosa, California

Current Location: Dertosa, California

Ethnicity: African-American

Nationality: American

Gender: Cis-Male

Pronouns: He/him

Orientation: Hetero (romantic and sexual)

Religion: He was raised Episcopal, but he doesn’t practice it.

Political Affiliation: Leftist, but no real political affiliation.

Occupation: He’s a singer and rapper, but now he’s mostly just a middle man to Heroin’s drug trade as he’s taking a hiatus from his music.

Living Arrangements: He lives in a large, modern home in the Jade District. (x)

Language(s) Spoken: English

Accent: He doesn’t think he has one, but he definitely has some sort of rap-influenced twang to his voice.

PHYSICAL APPEARANCE.

Face Claim: Michael B. Jordan

Hair Colour: Black, kinky curly hair but now he dons a buzz-cut with a fade so you don’t see the curls as much, but he definitely has the waves in his hair. He used to wear his hair long when he was more of a singer, like this. And then when he started getting more into rapping, he had played around with braids for a while, like here and twists like here. Eventually, he just decided to cut it all off and that’s how he’s had his hair for a while, as seen here.

Eye Colour: His eyes are dark brown, and he has really long, curly lashes.

Height: 5′11 and a half, so he often rounds it up to 6′0.

Weight: 155 pounds

Build: He used to have an average build, but he starting bulking up a lot more and now he’s definitely more muscular and lean.

Tattoos: His favorite tattoo was actually his first tattoo, the shape of Africa with The Eye of Horus in it. It’s on his left shoulder blade, as seen here. He also has his entire right sleeve covered, as pictured here. (Let’s pretend it’s real ok)

Piercings: He only has the standard lobe piercings.

Clothing Style: His daily clothes are definitely more a boujee-street style, but he certainly knows how to clean up and dress the part when he needs to. (Daily style: x, x, x || Event style: x, x, x)

Usual Expression: Donnie is usually very outgoing and charming, so he’s often got a smile of some sort on his lips. Otherwise, his expression is usually neutral.

Distinguishing Characteristics: His full lips, curly lashes, impressive physique.

HEALTH.

Physical Ailments: N/a

Neurological Conditions: I’m sure some degree of narcissistic personality disorder, as a product of being constantly spoiled and adored as well as him becoming so big in the music industry.

Allergies: Fish, pollen.

Sleeping Habits: Donnie hasn’t had a consistent sleep schedule in years. He was used to running his body into the dirt and completely exhausting himself, often relying on coke to re-energize him throughout the day. For years, he had gotten used to getting 5 or less hours of sleep a night, often staying up late in the studio or going out ‘til morning to party, and then performances and work-related stuff only harmed his sleep. Now, he wakes and sleeps as he pleases, not necessarily worried about deadlines for music or performances as he’s taken an indefinite hiatus on his “journey to recovery.” But really, he’s just been partying and occasionally making music. He usually sleeps around 7 hours a night, which is definitely a boost for him, but it takes a long time for him to fall asleep.

Eating Habits: He tends to eat really healthily, taking fitness and physicality very seriously. However, since he does smoke a lot of weed, he often satisfies his munchies with unhealthy foods.

Exercise Habits: Though he does partake in drug usage, he still takes very good care of his body. During his transition from singing to rapping, he began working on his body a lot more; he decided that in order for him to be taken seriously as a man in the industry, he had to look and feel the part. He goes on an hour-long run every morning, and five times a week he hit the gym with intensive training and plans on taking on MMA and boxing.

Emotional Stability: He would probably rate himself about an 8/10, given the struggles he deals with with his sobriety and his self-hatred for the accident. However, he doesn’t seem to recognize his issues with his personality. Like perhaps, his inflated ego, or his intense strive to be the best of the best. Really, he’s probably like a 6/10.

Sociability: While he definitely does require time alone, whether it be merely for his thoughts or for his work, Donnie is a very sociable and outgoing person. He tends to make friends wherever he goes, just because of his fun nature, but he often does it as a form of distraction for him. If he talks to and meets a bunch of new people, he doesn’t have to think about all the people in his life that he’s lost, hurt, or those that have hurt him.

Body Temperature: Pretty average, leaning more on the warmer side.

Addictions: Cocaine, Xanax, Percocets, codeine.

Drug Use: Cocaine, Xanax, Percocets, codeine, pot, and the occasional psychedelics for musical purposes. He smokes weed everyday, and his cocaine usage has cut back significantly compared to when he was actively performing and stuff, but addiction is hard to break, God dammit. And he doesn’t necessarily want to break it yet anyways — it feels good. Everything else, he does semi-regularly.

Alcohol Use: He enjoys drinking, but not as much as he enjoys his drugs. However, he is a regular drinker — anything was better than nothing.

PERSONALITY.

Label: The Trap God || The Lost One

Positive Traits: ambitious, confident, charming, creative, generous, intelligent, versatile

Negative Traits: arrogant, compulsive, greedy, indulgent, quick-tempered, selfish, vain

Goals/Desires: To be the best, to be respected, to do whatever the fuck he wants. He ultimately just wants to be happy with his life.

Fears: To fail, not getting the respect he deserves, disappointing his parents, losing everything.

Hobbies: Running, doing drugs, having parties, flirting, exercising, making music, sex.

Habits: He has a habit of breaking into a free-style rap, or singing/humming harmonies. He also tends to tap along to beats or make his own using his fingers. He bounces his feet a lot, usually one at a time, and he often looks at his reflection.

FAVOURITES.

Weather: Summer for sure — seeing all those women sundresses are the best.

Colour: Black, olive green, or taupe.

Music: Genres // Rap R&B, trap, soul. Artists // Drake, Future, Travis Scott, Bryson Tiller, Kehlani, Brent Faiyaz

Movies: Genres // Crime, action, comedy, horror, admittedly some chick flicks Movies // Scarface, The Wolf of Wall Street, Kill Bill, The Hangover, Clueless

Sport: Football, basketball, MMA, boxing, fighting in general.

Beverage: Hennessy, beer, or water.

Food: His favorite meals are definitely his stoned creations, but he tries to eat healthily for the most part. He genuinely enjoys chicken caesar salads.

Animal: Wolves, bulls, lions.

FAMILY.

Father: Gerald Lewis (57)

Mother: Vanessa Lewis (54)

Sibling(s): N/a — he was an only child and a miracle baby for the Lewis’

Children: None... That he knows of.

Pet(s): He doesn’t trust himself to take care of a pet, but he really does want to get a Rottweiler.

Family’s Financial Status: Upper middle class/Lower upper class.

EXTRA.

Zodiac Sign: Taurus

MBTI: ENFP (The Campaigner)

Enneagram: Type 3 (The Performer)

Temperament: Sanguine

Moral Alignment: Chaotic Neutral

Primary Vice: Pride and Gluttony

Primary Virtue: Liberality and Kindness

Element: Fire

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yvvaine · 7 years ago

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tagged by: the very lovely @lehsnherr rules: list 10 songs that you’re currently obsessed with and tag 10 other people ***For fun I’m going to give little descriptions / aesthetics of the songs :)

1. I Will Never Die - Delta Rae / the song witches of the wild plains listen to as they walk dramatically, clouds ready to storm above them, a tornado gathering in the distance, their sheer black robes billowing in the wind behind them and a walking stick made of oak in their hand

2. Mercy - Jacob Banks / the soulful pain of the civil rights movement that still lives in urban cities; a 2am subway ride in a train thats almost empty, going nowhere on purpose, just sitting there watching the tunnel go by as the back of your throat burns for a drink or ten

3. Angel Of Small Death & The Codeine Scene - Hozier / a passionate affair that you both want to live in forever but know wont last the week; dancing around in your underwear on a lazy morning, soft touches, an artistic drag of a cigarette, a mattress on the floor, half-finished sketches he drew of you while you weren’t looking, sweet melancholic sighs, and flippant, carefree laughter

4. Shoop - Salt N Pepa / dirty jokes, eating drive through food in the car with your friends, pretend grinding, the golden age of cartoons, inside jokes, getting away with it, deadpool (?)

5. Kings - Tribe Society / wild, fantastical quests filled with magic and murder, danger and love, heroes and villians, kings and queens; the stuff of stories

6. Devil’s Backbone - The Civil Wars / persephone singing to hades, only reborn in the wild west, as she laments for her outlaw to come home rescue her, take her with him on the run; it doesn’t matter what the world thinks

7. Problem - Natalia Kills / Unapologetically baddass bitches who fully embrace it, a girl squad that would murder for each other, stacks of 100 dollar bills in the shape of a throne, six inch heels, fur coats, getting pulled over only to seduce the policeman out of charges with a smile

8. Get Down Saturday Night - Oliver Cheatham / disco fevers, lowcut jumpsuits, pulling of a grand heist and looking groovy doing it, club-hopping to the point you don’t know where in the city you are, pulp fiction, literally *that* song from Ex Machina

9. Look Out Young Son - Grand Ole Party / the devils daughter sharpening her knife, leather jackets and thigh high boots, pretty red lipstick curled in a snarl, motorcycle bars that go silent when you enter, punching a douchebag good, shining your shotgun calmly as you wait for him to get home, and sweetest of all: getting your well-deserved justice

10. Bang Bang - Will.I.Am / gatsby-cool summers, large hysteric parties, flapper dresses, raining confetti mixed with raining bills, grinding jazz, body shots, gold capped teeth, skin and glitter, delirious fun

I’m tagging @undomielle @goodqueenalys @qinaliel @jonsasnow @ourgraciousqueen @lostlittlesatellites @ophaeliia @hatefulwoman and anyone else that wants to do it of course! <3

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aslimyartist · 4 years ago

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Welcome to Camp! Part 1

It was the first day of summer as we see a young hedgehog get ready to leave for her summer camp as she had got dressed in her usual burgundy sweater and her skirt she had been waiting forever to leave her house for the summer and now she will finally get to leave as she rushed down stairs to eat breakfast much to her surprise she seen her parents weren't there just a note saying.

Dear Hedgehog, Sorry something urgent came up at work so we had to come handle it but don't worry we asked mr.Leroy to take you the docs today just make sure to be prep and dominant break their fucking will with your gaze make sure none try to push you over and don't make friends make business deals and partners as well and since you're gonna be gone for a while I guess try making one friend as well and only one.

P.S. We Acknowledge your feelings with our regards Enjoy your summer honey

Love Mom & Dad.

(Hedgehog POV)

Well at least they left me a note I guess I'll just eat some breakfast before mr.Leroy gets here then

What shall I make tho Pancakes,Waffles,Toast,Eggs,French Toast does sound good. Mann they're all good I know I'll make a bowl of cereal because I don't know how to cook well now where's the bowls again ah hah here we go now for the cereal and it's bland as hell bleeeehh but it's something so let's eat.

8:00 a.m.

Argh where is mr.Leroy the boat leaves in 30 minutes I now I can make it if I run but that's a long way

But I refuse to stay home for another summer let's go....yahhooooo.

8:30a.m.

I made it sorry mr.Le-

*Ring Ring*

H-Hell-

HEDGEHOG WHY DIDN'T YOU PICK IT UP THE FIRST TIME IT HAD RANGED AND ALSO WHY DID MR. LEROY YOU COULD'VE BEEN KIDNAPPED OR SOMETHING.

did she pick up?

Yes!

Oh thank god!

Anyway Hedgehog we just wanted to call you before you left remember wh-

Wha- The Not- Said-

Mom I have to go the boats are coming and plus there's a bunch static for some reason

Oh ok remember make acquaintances and be dominant

Yeah love you too! Mom

I acknowledge your feelings as well hedgehog.

Phone hangs up

As I got on the boat I seen that most kids were with their parents looking around and some were sitting down enjoying the ocean smell.As I looked at the city it looked so small from that distance and I might as well take a good little nap till we get to our destination but I'm still a little curious why summer camp is so far *shrugs shoulders * I'm just glad not to be home this summer.

But before I could close my eyes I seen a flash next thing I know I was knocked out.

(End of Hedgehog's POV)

As the boat was sailing through the sea to the island with all its passengers knocked unconscious as three girls flew on the boat and took control of it making sure everything went according to plan and as they put small tablets in the parents mouth.

???-are you sure this is right I mean won't they want to know their parents and where they came from as well.

???-oh you worry to much besides I already have taken that to mind as soon they get back on the boat. (snicker).

???-oh yeah that snickering is so not suspicious at all

???- uhh guys the boats is in the islands view I think it's time to go now.

???-Alright! That's all of them let's go.Hold on why are their two adult elephants where's their child...hmmm...oh well don't care to much anyway.

And with that they flew to the island getting the preparations completed.

————On The boat————

As everybody woke up to the sound of the whistle or horn on the boat telling them there here. As soon as they docked all of the kids ran out onto the beach and as hedgehog was leaving she seen two very concerned elephants looking for their child

?!-Don't worry I'm sure he's just down there with all the others having a good time making new friends that's all.

Sue-I guess.

?!-why don't you go give him his hoodie I'll wait for ya because I know how you two will just be there forever with the goodbyes.

Sue playfully elbows him in the gut.

Sue- Alright I'll be quick.

As The Elephant walked towards one of the counselors.

Oh hello there my name is Susie I'm one of the counselors here

Sue- oh wow my name is Sue! I'm just here to give you my special little guy's hoodie you know this is his first time being far from home try to help with his anxiety if ya can.

Oh what's his name?

Sue-It's Oscar Peltzer!

Oh well thank you then I'll make sure he gets it then have a safe trip back

And as she left and got back on the boat she started to feel light headed and sat down with her husband so as they sailed off her light headness became worse as blood started to come from her nose and as her husband tried to help her up he started to feel it himself he started to vomit As he looked at the other parents were screaming in pain most of them were wailing in their own blood while from the island view it sounded like they were saying goodbye but they're crying because they know that this will be the last time that they will see their children. As sue got up and said (WE ALL GOTTA LEAVE SOMEDAY ITS ALLRIGHT TO CRY SOMETIM-) more blood is coming out of her nose as starts to lose consciousness she uses the strength to crawl to her husband as they locked their hands and closed their eyes for the final time. Every adult on board has passed away

(Oscar we love you so much enjoy your summer make friends okay!)

As the boat sailed off into the distance the three counselors knew what they had done and agreed to never say anything till the time comes as they transformed back into their witch clothing and as the inhabitants of the island revealed themselves.

Alright babies you thought you were coming to a normal camp you are sorely mistaken this is a magical camp for beings that are magic themselves and though were your counselors don't come crying to me about your dumb little baby problems especially that mommy's little boy.

Susie this speech gets scary every time I hear it don't scare them now

Oh relax they love it. DO YOU WANT TO SEE YOUR CABINS BABIES

YEEEAAAHHH!!!

Told ya!

As she took the kids to their new homes hedgehog stay behind to take it all in that were she is right now and since she calm now she's gonna to her new cabin inside it was a bunch of cool stuff she had a tv, and a bookshelf, her bed was so soft that she felt like she would sleep for two days straight as she started to unpack a small hand grabbed her foot it was transparent monster

-Woaaaahh

Don't be dramatic darling I'm only here to tell that this room is mine and I will not give up easy.

Uh...okay

And just so you know under the bed is my space and only my space if you come under here I will kill you and leave your bones to dry.

Gee I get it you don't have to be a jerk I'll just put my shoes by the door then

That's what I thought

2 hours later

Finally done it took me two hours but I'm finished

Attention all campers since it's the first night of camp we want you all on the beach for a little get together now hurry it up.

Well might as well I need to make some friends my age anyway( i might even get a summertime love.) I can't wait

Oh honey you need too.

Shut up you

As she left her cabin the monster went and read her diary

How dare she I'm gonna read her diary just for that...oh...my I'm just like my father aren't I.

As he looks at one of the accessories they nodded at him

Yur father did not I repeat did not respect secrets at all.

Oh...well at least he was a good man thanks grandma

Yur welcome child

Back to Hedgehog as she got closer she started to see more kids come out of there cabins but she waited and just waved at most of them as she was walking one kid named Max came up to talk with her since they were going to the same place anyway.

Hi I'm max

Oh hi I'm Hedgehog

(He's kinda cute)

Is this your first time coming to a summer camp

*Gasp* How did you know

I have SUUUUUPPPPEERRR PPPOOOWWWEERRRSSS!

She laughed at him as if anyone could have super powers as they got closer to the beach they seen the whole camp all dancing and enjoying their time together even the counselors were getting into it as well I started to run so I can get in there and do the same and the little d.j. Put on a song that caused everyone to go crazy.

I do not own this bitch I'm a fanfic writer Fuck! Enjoy Bitches

33 by Polo G

Yo, ayo

High off ecstasy and that codeine what I'm sippin' (What I'm sippin')

This new Glock got .33, Scottie Pippen (Scottie Pippen)

Bitch, all of my niggas bangin' C's

Like we Crippin' (Like we Crippin')

Girl, you got what I need, what I been missing (What I'm missing)

Let's take that chance, want you to see that I'm different (Oh)

Back then, tryna find myself

I couldn't believe how I was trippin' (Oh)

No neighbors in the mountains, palm trees

That's how I'm living (That's how I'm living)

Every time that I pop out

Bustdown VVs, designer drippin' (Designer drippin')

Bitch, I'm from Chiraq, when it get hot, they bring them TECs out

Better watch your back or you'll be on that corner stretched out

Quick to change a nigga standin' tall with his chest out

And they like headshots, it won't make sense to bring a vest out

Shit be devastatin', you find out your homie checked out

Parents lose control, don't know her daughter havin' sex now

Niggas hatin', I'm gettin' paper, that's what they pressed 'bout

Went down the wrong path, switched it up and chose the best route

I ain't used to have it all, I used to feel left out

'Member I was broke, ain't have a dollar, I was stressed out

Now I'm tryna get richer, like Blast, let's bring the jets out

Bitch, I need like ten bathrooms up in my next house

High off ecstasy and that codeine what I'm sippin'

This new Glock got .33, Scottie Pippen

Bitch, all of my niggas bangin' C's like we Crippin'

Girl, you got what I need, what I been missing

Let's take that chance, want you to see that I'm different

Back then, tryna find myself, I couldn't believe how I was trippin'

No neighbors in the mountains, palm trees, that's how I'm living

Every time that I pop out, bustdown VVs, designer drippin'

Got a baby .40 with a new extended clip inside

For any problem, bitch, it's .22 up in this clip of mine

My peoples lookin' up to me, so no, I can't be victimized

I got so much pent-up anger, I just wish a nigga tried

You gon' die before you blink, yeah, that's gon' be a quick demise

The world be so fucked up, that shit'll have you sick and tired

1 1/2 hour later...

We were all sitting round the camp fire telling stories , making s'mores, and I'm pretty sure the younger ones are probably asleep already it felt right and good this is what I've been missing all my life this is amazing...no exhlirating I've never had so much fun in my life and this is only the first night.

Susie- Alright babies listen up it's getting dark so return to your cabins for the night. Tomorrow you lots will be introducing each other got it.

(All): Awwww c'mon

That's Unfair

Yeah why do we gotta go to bed

It makes no since

Really

*yawn*I guess but still not cool tho.

Auuugghhhh

Susie- Oh Shut Up!

They all had shut up

Susie- Betsy! Alice! Can you take care of them I have some business to take care of. (Summons her broom)

With that she flew off on her broom with something blue like in her hand as hedgehog wondered what it was she was magically picked up and being taken to her cabin just like everyone else just as she was in front of her cabin the magic poofed away making her fall on her tush.

Hedgehog-Oww that hurt couldn't you be any gentler maybe.

???-hey are you alright.

Hedgehog-huh oh yeah just a little mark but I'll be fine.

???-oh well see ya.

Hedgehog- w-wa..wait I don't know your name

???-oh well I'll tell you tomorrow then but right now I'm very sleepy so yeah uh goodnight.

As the girl left hedgehog just shrugged and went in her cabin to sleep and when she went in she had seen a box and a letter in a envelope it said

Dear Hedgehog,

My apologies I have been informed to tell you this but due to a terrible accident happening at a workplace environment it has taken the lives of your parents. We are terribly sorry please forgive us we understand if you want to sue us once you return you have our regards.

Hedgehog-T..Th..this c-can't...be h-h-appe...nni...nng please god this has to be a nightmare please just let me *hic* w..wa..wake..*cough* up...please.

Oh Hedgehog dear I'm so sorry I'll just let you have sometime to grieve honey.

And with that he left and never came back

She wasn't the only one either everyone has gotten one as well but different deaths

Murdered

Suicide

Hit and Run

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lastmidnight · 7 years ago

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30 Questions about me!

I was tagged by the ever wonderful @alaskasberet and @biadoreee

Rule: answer the questions and tag 20 blogs to get to know them better!

Nickname: Soph

Gender: *Woman by Kesha plays*

Star sign: Taurus

Height: 5’7

Time: 5:57pm

Birthday: May 16th

Favorite bands: Oh god too many but First Aid Kit, Mumford and Sons, Arctic Monkeys, Blink 182

Favorite solo artists: Laura Marling, Hozier, Kesha, Lady Gaga

Song stuck in my head: Woman by Lesha cause I just made that joke before

Last Movie Watched: I double featured Greatest Showman and Pitch Perfect 3 two days ago

Last Show Watched: I’m watching CBB as I type this

When did I create this blog: Originally in like 2012, but it’s been dead since 2015 and I revived like 5 months ago

What do I post: Pretty much just Drag Race and then anything else I find funny

Last thing I Googled: A website to watch CBB on

Do you get asks: eh not really. Very occasionally

Why did you choose your URL: I spent 20min trying to come up with a drag adjacent URL and I dunno this one just popped into my mind

Following blogs: 369

Followers: 413 (I dunno what miracle made this happen)

Favorite colors: Yellow and red at the moment

Average hours of sleep: My body wakes me up at 6:30 every morning no matter what 🙄, so depends on when I go to sleep, anywhere from 10 to 3 hours

Lucky number: 56 because when I was 7 I won a raffle on that number and 72 I dunno why I just like it

Instruments: I played cello for three years in school and I tried learning guitar for half a year but I can’t really play either of those any more tbh

What I am wearing: Comfy grey t shirt and gym shorts (I just got back from work and the dress code is comfort)

How many blankets do I sleep with: It’s summer right now so just a sheet and my duvet but in winter I add two or three more

Dream job: God this question stresses me out, unrealistic dream is an actor, and I wish I had a realistic dream one but I’m struggling with that at the moment

Dream trip: Going all round Europe, and also a road trip through the US (oh and Hawaii cause a girl I follow on insta is there right now and fuck I wanna be there)

Favorite food: Chocolate, can’t get enough

Nationality: New Zealand 🇳🇿

Favorite song right now: Angel of Small Death and the Codeine Scene -Hozier

Pretty sure most people have been tagged by now so I’m not gonna tag anyone, but if you wanna do it I tag you!

#this took far longer than i thought #about me

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icharchivist · 7 years ago

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Do you have a leopika playlist? Or just songs that reminds you of? Always when I listen to "13 Beaches" from Lana Del Rey they come to my thoughts.

Heyo nonny!!

I tried to find the song on youtube but apparently the original one had been removed, so I tried listening a cover and reading the lyrics. And I get what you mean! This is a really pretty song and it would fit them well!

As to answer your question about if I have a Leopika playlist….

*coughs*

Now not all of them are fitting perfectly, a few are generic lovesongs I just really love in that context, and even a few are more songs I associate more to one or the other. So if I was to make a list, i’d be shorter than this.

…… And if you’re curious I can post most of my playlist.

Before going under the cut with more song, I will first mention probably the most important Leopika song I have in my playlist and that is Angel Heart by Keiji Fujiwara, Leorio’s Seiyuu.

It’s a song for his character, Hughes in Fullmetal alchemist 2003, but look at the lyrics:

making a phone call in a place that has no answer your quiet back seemed as though it had been cryingand the pain you intend to hide well, I know it all I made a promise, didn’t I? (..)I softly kissed your sleeping face buried in the sofa so that you won’t catch a coldthe thoughts I send to you are angel heart but I’m troubled, in reality, you were my angelif it’s a time when sadness pierces your chest believe in your strength, I’ll become a transparent shieldLike a miracle, we met in the corner of an intersection where rain was falling I’ll become the umbrella for my beloved

(the rest of the translations is in the comments of the video I linked, please do yourself a favor and go listen to Leorio singing sweet love song about people not answering the goddamn phone)

Now if you want there’s a little more under the cut because I love my playlist and if any songs might inspire you, this would be neat. Hope you’ll like it! (although i’m sorry my musical taste is all over the place)

Take care!

(and now songs under the cut - alphabetic order, songs with a * are generally those i really love and associate with them.)

(… Also I may have more angsty songs that happy ones that fits them a lot. I feel bad about it. But the happy ones are super generic so…)

Oh and I made a playlist over those songs on Youtube if ever someone wants. It’s 50 songs long (see when I said I cut some of it).

Under the cut the details ;O Take care!

*-After Dark - Mr. Kitty

The moment you hold me, I missed you, I’m sorry I’ve given what I have, I showed you I’m growing The ashes fall slowly as your voice consoles me As the hours pass, I will let you know that I need to ask before I’m alone How it feels to rest on your patient lips to eternal bliss I’m so glad to know (..)My patience controlling the question I won’t speak We’re telling the stories, our laughter, He knows me We’re leaving, We’re talking, You’re closer, it’s calming

*-All the Same - Sick Puppies

I don’t mind where you come from as long as you come to meI don’t like illusions, I can’t see them clearlyI don’t care; no, I wouldn’t dare to fix the twist in youYou’ve shown me eventually What you’ll doI don’t mind, I don’t care, As long as you’re here Go ahead, tell me you’ll leave again, You’ll just come back runningHolding your scarred heart in hand, It’s all the sameAnd I’ll take you for who you are now, If you take me for everythingDo it all over again; It’s all the same

*-All You Wanted - Sounds Under Radio

I am the fold, in the wake, watch me push her back and breakI lose all my friends, and wash away all the fractures I’ve displayedBut we still, hold on. Cause it was all you wanted and all I neededBut all I gave up, now…. Could you hold me tighter? When worlds collide, Just hold me down right now(…) Pull me in, drown my fears. Could you hold back another day knowing that I’ll come back?

*-Always - Panic! At the Disco

When the world gets too heavy, put it on my back, I’ll be your levyYou are taking me apart like bad glue on a get well card (…) I’m a fly that’s trapped in a web, but I’m thinking that my spider’s deadLonely, lonely little life, I could kid myself in thinking that I’m fineIt was always you, Falling for me. Now there’s always time, Calling for meI’m the light blinking at the end of the road Blink back, to let me knowThat I’m skin and bone, Just a king and rusty throneOh, the castle’s under siege, But the sign outside says ‘leave me alone’

*-Angel of Small Death - Seafret (originally Hozier)

No more alone or myself could I beLooks like a strain to the arms it were openNo shortage of sordid, no protest from meWith her sweetened breath, and her tongue so meanShe’s the angel of small death and the codeine sceneWith her straw-blonde hair, her arms hard and leanShe’s the angel of small death and the codeine sceneFeeling more human and hooked on her flesh I lay my heart down with the rest at her feetFresh from the fields, all feeder and fur tiresBloody and raw, but I swear that it’s sweet

-Annie - Neon Indian

Annie, don’t run away where I can’t find youThe game has gone too far, talking, I’m out of talkPlaying telephone, 20 city blocks*Annie, they have a dossier, the investigation’s already underway(…) Annie, I was closing it, But it’s clear the numberI’m walking in the rain to go down the hall to sit until you callAnd I try to sleep, but all I can hear is the beepJust your answering, answering machine(Why won’t you come and find me?)

-Back to Me - All American Rejects

Hey you, So you never really found your wayStay true, Did you ever make it through today? I know that when I think about a day without it, everyday’s the sameYou wish that you could find someone but I’m the only one to blameCan’t you see? I beg and pleadCause when your eyes light up the skies at nightI know you’re gonna find your way back to me(…) Soon when I get you I won’t let you goOh if I let you, You can take away all that I thought was wrongAnd if you hear me there’s not much to say, There’s gotta be a better way

-Bated Breath - Tinashe

What if I told you that it was all in vain? Would it still hurt you?Would you still feel the same? Said its impossible-possibleBut you’re still waiting on the moment breath is batedI wish I could hold you, I can’t take it, Tell you all my secrets I’m too fadedPraying that tomorrow I’ll be braverMaybe I can tell you, maybe we can do thisKisses on my forehead we can fall into itLove you like the rain, falls much fasterLiving in a piece of ever after

*-Better - Tom Baxter

Our love has changed, it’s not the same, And the only way to say it is say it, it’s betterI can’t conceal this way I feel for all the times we spend togetherForever just gets betterSeem what I’m try to say is, You make things betterAnd no matter what the day is, With you here it’s betterI stand by you if you stand by me, I think it’s time that I reveal it‘Cause I believe it, it’s better Oh, the more I talk to you, I’m falling in love with everything you do

-Bombshell Blonde - Owl City

I see danger, when I look in her eyes.She’s so foxy, she could lead to my demise.So I’m running, ‘cause I’ve run out of time.She’s a bombshell blonde, wired up to detonateI’m James Bond, live to die another dayBombshell blonde, high explosive dynamiteShe’s all I want so I, I’m on a mission tonightHer love is a drug laced with ecstasy, And her charm is spiked with a spell.A hot mess in a dress gets the best of me. She’s ice cold, but she’s making me melt!

-Breathe Me - Sia

Help, I have done it again. I have been here many times beforeHurt myself again today and the worst part is there’s no one else to blame(..)Ouch, I have lost myself again. Lost myself and I am nowhere to be foundYeah, I think that I might break. Lost myself again and I feel unsafeBe my friend, hold me. Wrap me up, unfold meI am small, I’m needy. Warm me up and breathe me

*-The Calendar - Panic! at the Disco

Feel like an ambulance, chase her away, pray I could replace herForget the way her tears taste, oh, the way her tears taste(..) Don’t wanna call it a second chance, But when I came back, it was more of a relapseAnticipation’s on the other line, an obsession called while you were outYeah, it called while you were out

-Campire - Satellite Stories

It’s 7am and the letters I send won’t follow you home.it’s too late to goWaited all summer to get to youcampfire outside we fell and kissedthere were only few words I said to yousun shade, this lake, one to cherishDolorean, saw your name on the sandDolorean, make me understand.

*-Chained - The xx

Separate or combine, I ask you one last timeDid I hold you too tight? Did I not let enough light in?If a feeling appears, If your mind should sway, It’s not a secret you should keep. I won’t let you slip awayWe used to be closer than this …. Is it something you missed?Winged or chained, I ask you would you have stayed?

*-Closer - The Chainsmokers & Halsey

Hey, I was doing just fine before I met you, I drink too much and that’s an issue but I’m okay (…)I know it breaks your heart, Moved to the city in a broke down carAnd four years, no calls, Now you’re looking pretty in a hotel barAnd I can’t stop (…)You look as good as the day I met you, I forget just why I left you, I was insane(…) I know it breaks your heart, Moved to the city in a broke down carAnd four years, no call, Now I’m looking pretty in a hotel barAnd I can’t stop

*-Come Home - OneRepublic

Hello world, Hope you’re listening. Forgive me if I’m young, For speaking out of turnThere’s someone I’ve been missing, I think that they could be the better half of meThey’re in the in the wrong place trying to make it rightBut I’m tired of justifying, So I say to youCome home, 'Cause I’ve been waiting for you for so longAnd right now there’s a war between the vanitiesBut all I see is you and me. The fight for you is all I’ve ever known(… ) Well hopefully the hate subsides and the love can beginIt might start now, Well maybe I’m just dreaming out loudUntil then: Come home

-A Day’s Pay For A Day’s Work - Darkstar

Clocks tick, Seconds fall, Minutes and hours then days and weeks go byI never cared so much for losing touch. I know what happened. I chose to sacrifice something else in lifeNow the night lays, Daytime closes, Still the night’s made It disposes of the hours and all their gloryWhat was ours now I hope only…As the evening crawls in on me, and her telling words I’m passingNow I fall to slow emotion though that moment sleep approaches

-Dial my Number - Rick Astley

If you ever wake up feeling blue, You know there’s always someone who’ll be right here for you.If there’s any little thing that’s gonna get you downDon’t be afraid, I’ll always be aroundPick up the phone, and dial my number, that’s all you have to doI’ll be over in a while, so just you hush now, child, I’ll bring my love to you(..)Giving up my time for something that I’ve heardI need to hear those words I’m in love‘cos I love you, I need you, I want you, I’m so in love with you

-Epilogue - The Antlers

In a nightmare, I am falling from the ceiling into bed beside youYou’re asleep, I’m screaming, shoving you to try to wake you upAnd like before, you’ve got no interest in the life you live when you’re awakeYour dreams still follow storylines, like fictions you would make (…)In that hospital bed, being buried quite alive nowI’m trying to dig you out but all you want is to be buried there together (…)I’ve woken up, I’m in our bed, but there’s no breathing body there beside meSomeone must have taken you while I was stuck asleepBut I know better as my eyes adjustYou’ve been gone for quite a while now, and I don’t work there in the hospital(They had to let me go)

-Every Little Things She Does Is Magic - Sleeping At Last

Though I’ve tried before to tell her of the feelings I have for her in my heartEvery time that I come near her, I just lose my nerveAs I’ve done from the start (..)Every little thing she does is magic, Everything she do just turns me onEven though my life before was tragic, now I know my love for her goes onI resolve to call her up a thousand times a day, And ask her if she’ll marry me in some old fashioned wayBut my silent fears have gripped me, Long before I reach the phoneLong before my tongue has tripped me… Must I always be alone?

-Falling - Florence + The Machine

I’ve fallen out of favour, and I’ve fallen from graceFallen out of trees, and I’ve fallen on my faceFallen out of taxis, out of windows tooFell in your opinion when I fell in love with youSometimes I wish for falling, Wish for the releaseWish for falling through the air to give me some reliefBecause falling’s not the problem when I’m falling I’m at peaceIt’s only when I hit the ground It causes all the grief

-Find A Way - Safetysuit

You know I’m gonna find a way to let you have your way with meYou know I’m gonna find a time to catch your hand and make you stay(…)And if I was running, you’d be the one who I would be running toAnd if I was crying, you would be lining the cloud that would pull me throughAnd if I was scared, then I would be glad to tell you and walk awayBut I am not lying, I am just trying to find my way in to you

-First Floor People - Barcelona

Some may say, the world looks, The same through red eyes, no wayCovered in dirt off the floor, I’m seeing straightDon’t be scared if you know, Help me to explain myselfWho am I to fool now if you’re gone, you’re goneIf I am found below the ground, I’m searching, desperate

*-Forgiven - Within Temptation

I watched the clouds drifting away, Still the sun can’t warm my faceI know it was destined to go wrong, You were looking for the great escape to chase your demons away(..)You gave up the fight, You left me behind…. All that’s done’s forgivenYou’ll always be mine, I know deep inside… All that’s done’s forgiven

*-Ghost Town - Radical Face

‘Cause all my life is wrapped up in today, No past or future hereIf I find my name’s no good, I just fall out of lineBut I miss you, But there’s no comin’ home with a name like mineI still think of you… But everyone knows: If you care then let it go(…) But all this time, I’ve been chasin’ down a lie, and I know it for what it is, But it beats the alternatives, So I’ll take the lieI still miss you…. There’s no goin’ home with a name like mineI still dream of you… But everyone knows: If you can, let it go

*-The Glass Parade - Cary Brothers

I found you in a reflection you didn’t want me to seeI will give you all I have, Just look up, break down and believeThis is a glass parade, A fragile state and I am trying not to breakAnd the stars are shining, the moon is rightAnd I would kill to be with you tonightWish you told me all the truth, so afraid to face an absoluteAll the fights you had to lose, All the fear was put upon youI found you when you were broken, Too many cracks of deceit

-Gold - Sir Sly

What did you say back to me? I’m dreaming of maybach cruisingMaybe talking crazy, but I want it, a hundred thousand ways of choosingWho the hell is out and who’s in trouble, maybe I’m too subtleMouth made of metal, Pocket full of yellow, Pocket full of goldAnd I hope you find, I hope you find your dreamAnd darling never settle, Chasing down the devil, Chasing down the godsAnd I hope you find, I hope you find your dreamI’m living like a silent movie, Shut your mouth and see straight through meFinding that you’re hiding in your moneyI got a million ways of losing, But nothing in my life worth provingChasing, all my time is wasted

-Hands - Koda

There’s a light out in the dark,So take my hand. I learned to stand,You learned to fall harder,So take my hand,I’ll take you much farther.

*-Helpless/Bloodline Part II - Sir Sly

It’s not that I’m lost, I know exactly where I amI’m in the middle of a mess that I don’t understandWhy does it feel like the world’s stealing every single thing that I have?I only got the air in my chest and even that won’t lastWhat do I do here? What’ll I do if I lose you? What do I do here? What’ll I do?I feel helpless (..)Everything I know is finally gone, The things I had, the ones I love… AgainAll the words that I had once believed. I’m not sure we’ll ever meet again

-Hold On - Chord Overstreet

Loving and fighting, Accusing, unitingI can’t imagine a world with you goneThe joy and the chaos, the demons we’re made ofI’d be so lost if you left me alone (…)I pull you in to feel your heartbeat, Can you hear me screaming “please don’t leave me”Hold on, I still want you. Come back, I still need youLet me take your hand, I’ll make it rightI swear to love you all my life

*-Honeythief - Halou

Sometimes I doubt the path I chose, Sometimes my dreams feel all on holdThere’s no doubt that this will make me strongBecause it’s the hardest thing I’ve ever doneDespite this cruel world, And all my best efforts, You surprise me with just how perfect you areEven with all my flaws, and my bad examplesYou surprise me with just how perfect you areAnd when I’m lost, You search for meAnd when I doubt You’re my beliefI’m suppose to be the stronger oneYou always seem to prove that theory wrong

*-Hopeless Wanderer - Mumford and Sons

You heard my voice, I came out of the woods by choiceShelter also gave their shade, but in the dark I have no nameSo leave that click in my head, and I will remember the words that you saidLeft a clouded mind and a heavy heart, But I am sure we could see a new start(..)I wrestled long with my youth, We tried so hard to live in the truthBut do not tell me all is fine, When I lose my head, I lose my spineSo leave that click in my head, and I won’t remember the words that you saidYou brought me out from the cold, Now, how I long, how I long to grow oldSo when your hopes on fire, but you know your desireDon’t hold a glass over the flame, Don’t let your heart grow coldI will call you by name, I will share your road

-I miss you - Blink 182

I miss you I miss you. Where are you? and I’m so sorryI cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight, I need somebody and alwaysThis sick strange darkness comes creeping on so haunting every timeAnd as I stared I counted the Webs from all the spidersCatching things and eating their insides, Like indecision to call youAnd hear your voice of treason, Will you come home and stop the pain tonight?Don’t waste your time on me You’re already the voice inside my head (I miss you, I miss you)

-If You Ever Come Back - The Script

Now they say I’m wasting my time ‘Cause you’re never comin’ homeBut they used to say the world was flat, But how wrong was that now?And by leavin’ my door open, I’m riskin’ everything I ownThere’s nothing I can lose in a break-in that you haven’t taken(…)There’ll be a smile on my face and the kettle on, And it will be just like you were never goneThere’ll be a light in the hall and the key under the mat, If you ever come back

-If You Only Knew - Shinedown

If you only knew, I’m hanging by a thread, The web I spin for youIf you only knew I’d sacrifice my beating heart before I lose youI still hold onto the letters you returned, I swear I’ve lived and learned (..)If you only knew, How many times I counted all the words that went wrongIf you only knew How I refuse to let you go,Even when you’re goneI don’t regret any days I spent, nights we shared, or letters that I sent

-I’ll Follow you - Shinedown

You can have the money and the world, The angels and the pearlsEven trademark the color blueJust like the tower we never built, and the shadow of all the guiltWhen the other hand was pointing at youYet the first step is the one you believe in, The second one might be profoundI’ll follow you down to the eye of the storm, don’t worry I’ll keep you warmI’ll follow you down while we are passing through spaceI don’t care if we fall from grace, I’ll follow you down to where forever liesWithout a doubt I’m on your side, There is no where else I’d rather beI’m not about to compromise, Give you up to say goodbyeI’ve got you through the deep, I’ll keep you close to me

-Miracle - Shinedown

Say it once, tell me twice, Are you certain I’m alright?Just a sign, to remind me that tomorrow’s worth the fightEver changing the storyline that keeps me aliveSo make a wish, and say…Give me life, give me love, Scarlet angel from aboveNot so low, not so high, Keep it perfectly disguisedEvery changing the storyline that keeps me aliveTake another look, Take a look around, It’s you and me, It’s here and nowAs you sparkle in the sky, I’ll catch you while I can, Cause all we are is all I amI just want you to see, What I’ve always believedYou are…The miracle in me

-A Night to Remember - Shalamar

When you love someone, it’s natural, not demandingAnd that’s one thing I’m proud to say I’ve found in youI’m so glad we’ve reached an understandingNow I know my heart is safe with youSo now my love to you, baby, I surrender

-Out Of Touch - InnerPartySystem

I’m out of touch with all my friends everytime I see them againAll the days I’ve been away… Would it be different if I stayed?You’re losing me, you’re losing me, you’re losing me, againDriving on the empty road… I forgot I fell in love back homeI start to wonder if I changed, I start to wonder if youEven if you, even if you, Even feel the same

*-Pick Up The Phone - The Notwist

You know this place, You know this gloom? We’ve been here before.When life is a loop, You’re in a room without a door.Pick up the phone and answer me at last.Today I will step out of your past.“Trouble that we’ve come to know will stay with us”,With every step it slowly grows. Rub off the rust.Pick up the phone and answer me at last.Today I will step out of your past.

-Point of No Return - Starset

There’s a memory of how we used to be, that I can see through the flamesI am hypnotized as I fantasize, Forgetting lies and painBut I can’t go back. The ashes call my namePouring the fuel, fanning the flamesBreaking the habit and melting the chains, Embracing the fear, chasing the fightThe glow of the fire will light up the nightThe bridges are burning, the heat’s on my faceMaking the past an unreachable place(…) I know, this is the point of no returnIt’s uncontrollable, such a beautiful desireThere’s something sinister about the way it hurtsWhen I watch it burn, Because I can’t go back

-Retrograde - James Blake

You’re on your own, in a world you’ve grownFew more years to go, Don’t let the hurdle fall, so be the girl you loved.I’ll wait, so show me why you’re strong. Ignore everybody else, We’re alone nowSuddenly I’m hip. Is this darkness of the dawn? And your friends are gone, When you friends won’t comeSo show me where you fit

*-Small Hands - Keaton Henson

Miss your teeth dug in my shoulder, As we rolled in early morning,Miss your arm dying beneath me, As I lay there simply yawningPlease forget me, you were right dear, I am cold and self-involved,And though I’ll miss you, recent lover, I am weak and therefore fold(..) Close my eyelids, hide my eyes,I’ll be idle in my ideals,Think of nothing else but I. I, and I…. And I,I hope for your life, You can forget about mineJust forget about mine

*-Through the Ghost - Shinedown

Speak of the devil, Look who just walked into the roomThe guilted and faded notion of someone I once knew.All the perfect moments are wrong, All the precious pieces are goneEverything that mattered is just a city of dust covering both of usDid you hide yourself away? I can’t see you anymoreDid you eclipse another day?I used to wake up to the color of your soulDid you hide yourself away? Are you living through the ghost?Did you finally find a place above the shadows so the world will never know?The world will never know you like I doSo many silent sorrows you never hear from againAnd now that you’ve lost tomorrow, is yesterday still a friend?All the bridges we built were burned, Not a single lesson was learned(..) The world will never know you like I do. Like I still do

-Too Far Gone - Sir Sly

I’m stuck inside of these lines I drew, I didn’t speak it but I always knewThat I was too far gone. Can you ever be too far gone?Never mind the things I said before, I overstated and I shouldn’t have swornThat I’m too far gone, Can I ever be too far gone?For you to save me(…) Can we start from the beginning now?It feels like I’m really living nowThey always preached it was black and whiteSo how come somewhere in the middle feels rightAre we too far gone? Can we ever be too far gone?Am I arrogant, should I not assume That the answer’s mine, it can’t belong to youAm I too far gone? Can I ever be too far gone?

*-Transpose - Bad Suns

And I can’t stop even if I wanted to, Up top, maybe I’m simply deludedThat’s right, maybe I’ve been wasting my time, All my timeAnd it’s hard to justify what you can do. I’m so sick and tired of falling throughAnd it’s true, maybe I’ve been wasting my time, All this time, Come creeping, no one can hear you now, Listen so you can show me how something that I’m missing hereSoftly, stab my evil dreams, Faster, help me fall asleepNo one knows, that’s how it goes, All the thoughts that we transpose

*-Who are you Really - Mikky Ekko

So you’re feeling tied up to a sense of controlAnd make decisions that you think are your ownYou are a stranger here, why have you come?Why have you come, lift me higher, let me look at the sunLook at the sun and once I hear them clearly, sayWho, who are you really? And where, where are you going?I’ve got nothing left to prove, Cause I’ve got nothing left to loseSee me bare my teeth for you. Who, who are you?Now you’re moving on and you say you’re aloneSuspicious that this string is moving your bones. We are the fire, we see how they runSee how they run, lift me higher, let me look at the sun

*-Wish You Were Here - Florence + The Machine

I’ve tried to leave it all behind me, but I woke up And there they were beside me. And I don’t believe it but I guess it’s true, Some feelings, they can travel tooOh there it is again, sitting on my chest, Makes it hard to catch my breath, I scramble for the light to changeYou’re always on my mindAnd I never minded being on my own Then something broke in me and I wanted to go home to be where you areBut even closer to you, you seem so very far.And now I’m reaching out with every note I singAnd I hope it gets to you on some pacific windWraps itself around you and whispers in your earTells you that I miss you and I wish that you were here

*-You - Keaton Henson

If you must wait, Wait for them here in my arms as I shakeIf you must weep, Do it right here in my bed as I sleepIf you must mourn, my love, mourn with the moon and the stars up aboveIf you must mourn, Don’t do it aloneIf you must leave, Leave as though fire burns under your feetIf you must speak, Speak every word as though it were uniqueIf you must die, sweetheart, Die knowing your life was my life’s best partAnd if you must die, Remember your lifeIf you must fight, Fight with yourself and your thoughts in the nightIf you must work, Work to leave some part of you on this earthIf you must live, darling one, just live.

*-You Could Be Happy - Snow Patrol

You could be happy, and I won’t know. But you weren’t happy the day I watched you go And all the things that I wished I had not said Are played on lips till it’s madness in my head Is it too late to remind you how we were?But not our last days of silence, screaming, blur Most of what I remember makes me sure I should have stopped you from walking out the door You could be happy; I hope you are You made me happier than I’d been by far(..) More than anything I want to see you go Take a glorious bite out of the whole world

I didn’t put everything I have and i’m bothered bc I think my playlist isn’t up to date and I have more, but I will come back to that when i’ll have more time.

Meanwhile take care nonny!!

#Anonymous #ichareply #*coughs* sorry I got carried away #but you asked me for my fav thing to do ie brag about my playlist #shh #ichashipping leopika #leopika #lp playlist #yay #ichafantalks hxh #ichablogging music

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thatcookingfat · 7 years ago

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Extreme Makeover: Dizzy Edition!

So we left Dizzy and Dotty about to embark on an adventure. Which is a diplomatic way of saying we were to battle bureaucracy, encounter homelessness and discover what a complete ass the law could be!

(Dizzy has asked that I keep real names out of the blog, she’s happy being ‘Dizzy’ or ‘Dotty’s mum’, but doesn’t trust this internet thingy and wants to remain incognito!)

The first night of our epic journey was spent at Mum’s friend's flat! I was thrilled, this was going to be just like a Blyton blockbuster! In reality, I should have realised that the smell I woke up to the following morning would sum up the experience! Anyone who has ‘experienced’ the aromatic. ammonia ridden, ambiance of a baby’s morning nappy can never ‘unsmell’ the eye watering, gut wrenching stench!

Excited that I wasn’t going to school for the foreseeable future, it was like the summer holidays, but just for me! All my friends would be in assembly by now, I was just getting up! I was going to be spending the next few days, weeks, could even be forever playing with this baby and school was done! And to top it all, Mum and I were going into town (which usually meant, Mum’s gonna buy me something) Haha, it was like Blackpool all over again, the reality was a far throw from the dream!

The trip into ‘town’ turned into a day of drudgery sat in ‘The Council House’ and then ‘Social Security’. I had never experienced boredom like it and bored kids make bratty kids! We then had to walk, what felt like a million miles, in gale force winds, driving rain and sheer misery. And just to top it off, we arrived at a guest house that made flea pits look like a 5 star hotel, even the cockroaches were leaving! We had one single bed and one blanket for the two of us! Mum, back then was ‘wholesome’ shall we say? A size 18 lady and a child ain’t meant to sleep together in a 3 ft bet. So, huddled, sorry superglued together, scared to move in case the blanket moved and the arctic air blasted away any hint of heat, we spent the first night of our ‘adventure’.

Waking up the following morning, I discovered mum was already up. She didn’t have to get dressed, all we had were the clothes we stood in! And whoop whoop, I didn’t have to clean my teeth, ... we didn’t even own a toothbrush! Well, I say mum was ‘up’, i discovered years later that she hadn’t slept! Once I had drifted off, she had gotten up. Without her body mass in the bed, she had been able to tuck the blanket in, ensuring I was warm. She then sat in the single chair in the room, leaning over onto the desk and had managed minute naps that were punctuated with gnawing cold. Ain’t nothing like a Mother’s love for her young!

Tantrum number one came when I realised that this guest house ‘didn’t do breakfast’ I was STARVING. Tantrum number two followed when I discovered it was going to be another day at the council house and social security. And I finally pushed mum to breaking point when I realised we were going back to the guest house again that night! As an adult, I don’t blame her for the good hiding I got. She had no money, no home and didn’t know when we eat or sleep again. The only way she could ensure that I had a bed for the night and food in my stomach was to sit it out at these offices for hours on end and all I could do was ‘spit my dummy out’. It was the only time I saw the feet paddling frantically below the water of this gracious swan!

This daily routine of waking up cold and hungry, battling arctic weather to ‘prove’ we were homeless continued for weeks; because the family ‘home’ was in his name, the council were powerless to force him to allow us into the flat. Mum couldn’t afford a solicitor, hell she couldn’t even afford food for herself, so she grabbed the first offer of Legal Aid assistance she could get! With hindsight, describing her solicitor as “as much use as a chocolate teapot” would he unfair on chocolate teapots! There was so much frantic paddling going on with this graceful swan it was unbelievable. In a time when the education system was very ‘open plan’ and laissez faire, mum was being threatened with legal action for keeping me away from school! It didn’t matter that she was given a daily allowance to feed us that was only enough for one meal in a cafe (my meal). Nor did it matter that to get me to school would take a four mile walk, each way, as the daily ‘allowance’ was gone on feeding me, there was nothing left for bus fare! A compromise was reached, my cousin was at the same school, so she would bring home work for me, which was passed to Nan & Grandad for me to collect on a Sunday, when Nan insisted we stay for sunday dinner! I then had a week to finish the work, for her to return to the teachers! Years later, she apologised to me for, “putting me through it,” but she had no choice. If I wasn’t seen to be in the guest house every night then there would be NO assistance, NO daily allowance, basically NO help for us!

The only good night’s sleep I got was on the eve of my 9th birthday. Nan didn’t give Mum a choice, “That wee waine is gonnae wake up on her birthday, with her family” Oh my goodness, that was the BEST birthday present ever! Clean sheets, so many blankets I couldn’t move under the weight and I could take my arms from under the covers without the fear of frostbite! And the luxury continued, bacon and egg sarnies for breakfast (with gallons of tomato sauce), ‘Stovies’ for lunch and a full roast dinner for tea! I genuinely don’t remember what presents I got, I just remember the heat, comfort and the experience of my first ‘Food Coma’!

I don't remember falling asleep or being carried up to bed, but I do vaguely remember being woken up with a strange man leaning over me! I also remember feeling like an elephant was on my chest and I was hotter than I’d ever felt! It turns out, the strange man was a doctor and hot elephant on my chest was in fact Bronchitis! The next few days were a blur, I just remember waking up coughing, being given this sweet syrup, spoon fed chicken noodle soup or stovies and drifting off into another drug induced slumber! My first experience of ‘Codeine Linctus’ was like “WOW MAN, this is goooooood shit!”

Whilst I was being spoilt rotten by Nan, mum was back to the daily drudge of the council house and social security! Armed with a note from the doctor, I was given a temporary reprieve, but there was no respite for mum! At least, whilst I was gone, she was allowed the luxury of the single blanket and 3 ft of bed space! Honestly, ‘the ambassador was spoiling us” (Sarcastic? Moi?). She battled on and eventually, with the assistance of the NSPCC and a Probation & Welfare officer, Chapter One of our nightmare ended. We were going home! I was going back to MY bed, MY books, MY toys and MY beloved puss cat, Smokie Charlie! If you haven’t guessed by now, my dreams were nothing like reality, my middle middle name should be JONAH!

So the first night at ‘home’ began! Dotty ‘Lucky Jonah’ discovered she no longer had her own room! The past few weeks had taught me to be grateful for what I got, I was still silently pissed off though! For a change, I was going to be sharing a room with Mum! At least this time it was double bed and there was an electric blanket! And I was allowed to rescue my Famous Five collection, I would be able to read myself to sleep again! Haha, Cue Chapter 2 of the Nightmare!

Sitting there, Smokey Charley making up for weeks of being unloved, the awkward silence was broken. Now what do you think a ‘father’s’ first words to his daughter would be? “Sorry?” “I’ve missed you?” or even, “How are you?” ... Go on, have a guess ... .... .... ....

Did you get it? 10/10, gold star and go to the front of the class if you guessed,

“You’re going into care and that cat is being put down!”

WOW! Please step forward Father of the Century!!!

Mum ‘lost it!’ All size 14 of her (Yup I said 14, not 18) landed on his lap, fists flailing in all directions and language her Scottish relatives would have been proud of, she finally released some of the pent up anger and frustration she’d endured over the past few weeks! I just ran out of the flat in panic! I must have been making a helluva noise as the next door neighbour came rushing out of their door. Although all she heard were loud wails and sobs, she somehow realised there was something wrong and flew into our flat. Feeling safe with another grown up, I followed her in. I have impeccable timing! I saw his fist hit Mum’s jaw and she slid down the door, unconscious! It was his signature move, Mum’s jaw was dislocated AGAIN! The neighbour just picked me up, (I was stood stiff and silent, as if the ‘pause’ button had been pressed) and bundled me into her flat.I will be honest, I don’t remember what happened next, my next recollection is waking up in Mum’s bed, with all the lights on and an almighty row going on ... for a change! He’d dragged her out of hed and was going for round 2! My high pitched screams must have halted him, the next thing I remember was being cuddled up to Mum, it was dark and the only noise was the involuntary sobs that continued long after my tears had dried.

Not surprisingly, I didn’t return to school the next day, as had been planned! That evening, Round 3 began! Apparently Mum had stolen his wallet!. Unfortunately for him, his luck had run out! As I had failed to return to school as agreed, the authorities had been called! We were unaware at the time, but I had been put on the ‘At Risk Register’! And, as I ran out of the flat in fear again, who should be walking up the stairs but the Probation & Welfare and the NSPCC officers! Demanding the police were called, for the theft of his wallet, he couldn’t understand that his raised fist to Mum was wrong! When they asked him where he last saw his wallet, he nonchalantly replied, “In the freezer, where I left it!” Yes, dear reader, I said the FREEZER!!

I’m not sure if it was because they HAD to or out of sheer curiosity, but they emptied the freezer! Loe and behold, there was the wallet, wrapped in a plastic bag and hidden in a bag of frozen peas!! Stop rubbing your eyes ... you DID read, the wallet was in the FREEZER, wrapped in a plastic bag, hidden in a bag of frozen peas! You couldn’t make it up, could you!

He was given two options, leave the flat for the evening or spend it in the cells! He tried to negotiate a third option, Mum leave and I go into care! Oh this ‘man’ was a ‘real catch’, wasn’t he? Now the Probation and Welfare Officer was his nemesis, a woman AND she wasn’t even considering option 3! He threw a tantrum that even a two year old would have been proud of! Clearly a mother, she knew the best thing to do was ignore the tantrum! Eventually, he was able to comprehend, that this woman was ‘not for turning’ and he left the flat. Mum was told to call the police if he returned that evening, and I was going to be driven to school the next day!

Good to her word, I WAS driven to school the next day and so was mum! I was greeted like a long lost relative by my friends and I experienced something new! For the first time, I didn’t understand ‘the work’! I was used to sitting at the Top Table, diligently getting on with my work. That day I was STILL on the Top Table, but I was lost! Our table had always been competitive, to finish first was more important than getting the answers right! I set myself up for ridicule, because I regularly finished first AND got the answer right! And, as any parent knows, kids can smell weakness from a mile away! The hunters were enjoying circling and toying with their prey! Already raw with emotion from the last few weeks, I experienced another ‘first’ ... RAGE! I ‘flipped out’ It was MY turn to release some frustration and anger! I was picked up by my ‘giant’ of a teacher and taken into the reception area and he just held me tight! As much as I tried to move, he had me in a death grip! The angry tears merged into sobs, loud, heartfelt sobs! I couldn’t stop, the floodgates had opened and there was no holding back the tide!

I was unaware that Mum and ‘The Officer’ had been in the Headmistresses’ Office discussing the ‘situation’ and, on hearing my meltdown, had come rushing out! My teacher, apparently, put a finger to his lips to silence mum, as I struggled with my emotions. The sobs silenced and I was back to the involuntary sighs that a body does after a ‘good cry’! Apparently I started snoring, yup I had cried myself to sleep! Needless to say, the Top Table left me alone after that. I worked so hard to catch up and was soon finishing first, with the right answer again! OH YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!, Normal working had been resumed! (sorry, it’s a term I’m used to, from my railway days, basically everything was returning to normal, with any disruption improving)

At the end of the last post I explained that I had a choice of going with Mum, or going to my Aunt’s across the road from the school. My Aunt, HIS sister and guess where he went to live ... Yup, you got it, honestly I’m not making it up! It was amazing how often he was, ‘just walking down the road’ at hometime. Soon,I was leaving school via the office again, being escorted home by my cousin (from Mum’s side of the family) to avoid confrontation. Monday’s were always a good day for me. I only did ‘half a day’! My Probation and Welfare Officer, (I’m going to call her ‘Hannah’ from now on, it’s quicker to type) would pick me up for ‘lunch’. We would go to a local cafe and have tea and cake! OMG, I was soooooo grown up! It was her way of ‘softening me up’ to open up. it worked for a couple of meetings, only I soon realised that the quicker we stopped talking, the quicker I was taken home, and there’s nothing like being at home when you’re classmates aren’t! I was authorised to ‘Wag It’

It must have been such a scary time for Mum. She’d swapped a bossy dad for a bastard, so she’d never been in control of her own life! She’d believed for as long as she could remember that she was stupid, useless and a lost cause! And it took her LONG time to discover that she was a very strong and clever lady. OK, so she couldn’t read or write, but she’d had a more valuable education! She had graduated with Honours for the School of Hard Knocks, completed her Masters at the University of Life and she was a Doctor of Resilience! Mum was now a very ‘svelte’ size 12, she’d discovered make up and, when she could scrape the money together, she would treat herself to a trip to the charity shop for new clothes. A very talented, self taught, seamstress, she could turn a potato sack into an evening gown. So whatever she bought, bore little resemblance to the outfit she would wear.

Things seemed to be calming down, I was back to being ‘Top of The Class’ at school, thanks to my Minder Cousin there were no more ‘accidental’ meetings and Mum & I settled into a new routine. Money was tight, pocket money even scarcer, but there was peace, something I had learned to cherish! You’ve probably guessed that it wasn’t going to last, whereas I had been lured into a false sense of security, ever the optimist!!! To begin with I was unaware of a ‘visitor’ at the front door. But having the living door closed on me and told not to open it, I became inquisitive, I was learning Mum’s favourite childhood word, “WHY?”

Like many flats, there were two exits from the kitchen, on which was next to the front door, the other accessed from the ‘other’ living room door that led to the bedrooms. So I learned to sneak out the ‘other’ living room door, silently open the second door to the kitchen, and eavesdrop! I couldn’t hear much of what was being said, but I knew the voice, it was the voice that told me I was going into care and that my cat was going to killed! He was back! Mum’s told me a lot more since I learned to ‘Adult’ and apparently he kept coming back in the hope Mum would forgive him! Like many of us, he could see the ‘Ugly Duckling’ transformation happening before our very eyes! What we couldn’t see was the new invisible ‘lodger’ The one that told her she was still fat, she was ugly, the one that taught her that the only control she had in her life, was the control she had over her eating; her new best friend Anorexia. And her, soon to be, ex-husband found himself in a position he was alien to, he was powerless ... and a powerless abuser is a dangerous abuser!

Next time, more about Dizzy and her transformation. How ‘He’ managed to turn my thinking around and how we all coped with a HUGE change. Enter stage left, ‘MR RIGHT.’ The man, that no matter how much I pushed him away, pulled me closer. The man, who’s life I made hell. The man that after a long hard battle, finally wore me down. The man I am proud to call my Dad, my boys’ Grandad, the Man that showed me what a REAL Dad was! ... Call the plumber, the eyes have sprung another leak!

Until next time, Dotty x

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ambientradiation · 7 years ago

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Reviewing Mr Andrew Yelland: Top Surgery

So, I promised myself I would wait for things to fully heal before posting a review of my surgeon but my recovery is taking longer than it is supposed to and things are mostly healed so here it goes. Putting in a read more to spare my followers.

Forgive me for not including photos. I’m still not comfortable with photos of my chest existing at all.

FYI: I got a double incision mastectomy and nipple grafts.

First impressions of Mr Yelland (Not Dr, I see a lot of people referring to him as Dr Yelland yet he doesn’t have this title) were very good. He comes across as very confident, very proficient, very laid back. He was amicable and very respectful in our consultation. Any contact he had with my chest was very professional and brief. And he encouraged me quite strongly to choose to have my nipples grafted back on rather than forgo this and tattoo them on. At the time, I had no concerns (he’s the professional right) and I hadn’t been planning to tattoo them on so I was happy with that. The pre-op tests were carried out very smoothly and efficiently and Nuffield Health in Brighton is a delightful facility to be treated in overall.

Surgery day was straightforward. The nurses and healthcare assistants were all stellar, experienced with trans-patients and their good moods seemed to have no limitations. All the staff were very respectful and answered all of my questions in detail and were very patient with me.

I was discharged the day after surgery in relatively good health with painkillers. They don’t always give out painkillers but I wasn’t doing great so I was on paracetamol AND codeine. Thank god because the easiest thing for me for the first few days was getting to sleep sitting up. I’m usually a picky sleeper but codeine is good shit.

And this is where the issues began. I experienced swelling on my left side. We called the hospital as we were encouraged to and we did this a few times actually. Each time we got: “some swelling is normal”, “some seeping is normal” “it’ll ease up, it’s fine”.

8 days later I returned for my post-op. Turns out, I had developed a haematoma which had to be “evacuated” as it couldn’t be drained. I then had to wait 4 more days to undergo this procedure. In all fairness, this was the soonest window, I underwent the pre-op tests the same day as my post-op appointment (I barely had to wait 20 minutes for that to be arranged) and I was first on the list for operation on Monday. AND I even got to leave the same day feeling very well indeed.

I then (3 days after the second procedure) leaked serous fluid for 3 days straight. A lot of it. I had to go to A&E there was so much and it was making me feel very poorly. And again, no direct failure on Yelland’s part. He was readily available as I emailed him about advice over this issue. I was actually able to redress myself (with my partner’s help) after the initial A&E appointment (although we got conflicting advice from various members of staff at Nuffield Brighton).

So we get to 10 days after my second procedure. I walked out of there with no dressings, very comfortable. Swelling gone. “You should be fully healed in 4 weeks”.

It has been 8 weeks, the swelling returned a little on the left side (and is still going down), I have a LOVELY scab under my left armpit which is taking forever to heal and my left nipple has finally emerged. Well... what’s left of it.

I want to stress here that I followed all of the advice and recommendations given to me by the hospital, my nurses and Mr Yelland throughout my recovery. That said, I have been unable to wear the tape given to me to support the scars as the summer heat cased it to peel off my skin and make me bleed. But in all I am a good patient. And I am really quite happy with most of my chest. I’m disappointed about my nipple, yes (and the other one has some discolouration). Not heartbroken but disappointed as it’s just another issue after a long long line of issues. I plan to seek a tattoo artist to help me with fixing my nipples.

So, while I don’t think Mr Yelland or any of the staff who treated me did anything wrong. They were really outstanding in most respects. And I am positive that anyone treated by him who doesn’t meet with any complications recover swimmingly well. I am sure they do! However, if you DO have complications you are left in the lurch quite a great deal. I am almost certain that if Mr Yelland cooperated with his patients’ local GPs to give the patients interim appointments to check up on their recovery THROUGHOUT their recovery (not simply pre-op, surgery, post-op with Mr Yelland) so nobody is being left up to 10 days without professional care and advice. I believe all of my issues could have been avoided if only I had been able to see somebody for a check up more often.

If you are somebody prone to health complications, maybe seek another surgeon. And if you’re not sure about nipple grafting vs tattooing and you can afford the tattooing, think about it a little longer. It gives you control of the placements and there’s no chance it’ll heal to only leave you 1/3 of a nipple.

In Yelland’s favour, It was nice to not be stuck with a drain at all. And it was nice being able to go home so quickly and wonky nipple aside he’s done a pretty tidy job of it.

This isn’t a recommendation. But nor is it a warning. I just hope my account can give you more information with which to consider your options. If you have any questions don’t hesitate to send me an ask.

#andrew yelland #top surgery #ftm #double incision

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whatshehassaid · 7 years ago

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Fave Lyrics in Songs

Life on Mars - David Bowie [x]

But the film is a saddening bore For she's lived it ten times or more She could spit in the eyes of fools As they ask her to focus on Sailors fighting in the dance hall Oh man, look at those cavemen go It's the freakiest show

Space Oddity - David Bowie [x]

This is Ground Control to Major Tom You've really made the grade And the papers want to know whose shirts you wear Now it's time to leave the capsule if you dare "This is Major Tom to Ground Control I'm stepping through the door And I'm floating in a most peculiar way And the stars look very different today For here Am I sitting in a tin can Far above the world Planet Earth is blue And there's nothing I can do

Hotel California - Eagles [x]

Mirrors on the ceiling, The pink champagne on ice And she said, 'we are all just prisoners here, of our own device' And in the master's chambers, They gathered for the feast They stab it with their steely knives, But they just can't kill the beast

Mr. Watson - Cruel Youth [x]

They spend the summer getting clean But September comes and they fall like leaves Oh what would I do without you? What would I do without you?

Grapevine Fires - Death Cab For Cutie [x]

The wake up call to a rented room Sounded like an alarm of impending doom. To warn us it's only a matter of time. Before we all burn Before we all burn Before we all burn Before we all burn.

Hurdy Gurdy Man - Donovan [x]

Thrown like a star in my vast sleep I opened my eyes to take a peek To find that I was by the sea Gazing with tranquility'Twas then when the Hurdy Gurdy Man Came singing songs of love Then when the Hurdy Gurdy Man Came singing songs of love

White Winter Hymnal - Fleet Foxes [x]

I was following the pack All swaddled in their coats With scarves of red tied 'round their throats To keep their little heads From fallin' in the snow And I turned 'round and there you go And, Michael, you would fall And turn the white snow red as strawberries In the summertime

Howl - Florence & the Machine [x]

The fabric of your flesh, pure as a wedding dress Until I wrap myself inside your arms I cannot rest The saints can't help me now, the ropes have been unbound I hunt for you with bloodied feet across the hallowed ground And howl

The Psychiatrist is In - God Help the Girl [x]

I was an ace when I was young I learned to dance, I didn't have to learn I was a case when I grew up A case of hope crashing to the ground I learned, I hit the skids And I woke up me, myself, and I was a different person

Heart’s a Mess - Gotye [x]

Love ain't fair So there you are My love Your heart's a mess You won't admit to it It makes no sense But I'm desperate to connect And you, you can't live like this

Hold Me Down - Halsey [x]

I sold my soul to a three-piece And he told me I was holy He's got me down on both knees But it's the devil that's tryna Hold me down, hold me down Sneaking out the back door, make no sound Knock me out, knock me out Saying that I want more, this is what I live for

Young God - Halsey [x]

He says, "Oh, baby girl, don't get cut on my edges I'm the king of everything and oh, my tongue is a weapon There's a light in the crack that's separating your thighs And if you wanna go to heaven you should fuck me tonight"

Colors - Halsey [x]

You’re dripping like a saturated sunrise You’re spilling like an overflowing sink You’re ripped at every edge but you’re a masterpiece And now you’re tearing through the pages and the ink

Angel of Small Death & the Codeine Scene - Hozier [x]

I watch the work of my kin bold and boyful Toying somewhere between love and abuse Calling to join them the wretched and joyful Shaking the wings of their terrible youths Freshly dissolved in some frozen devotion No more alone or myself could I be Looks like a strain to the arms it were open No shortage of sordid, no protest from me With her sweetened breath, and her tongue so mean She's the angel of small death and the codeine scene With her straw-blonde hair, her arms hard and lean She's the angel of small death and the codeine scene

Soft as Chalk - Joanna Newsom [x]

Milk - Kings of Leon [x]

Molly’s Chambers - Kings of Leon [x]

Off to the Races - Lana Del Rey [x]

Body Electric - Lana Del Rey [x]

When We’re Fire - Lo-Fang [x]

The Stand - Mother Mother [x]

American Woman - Muddy Magnolias [x]

Cherry Tree - The National [x]

In the Aeroplane Over the Sea - Neutral Milk Hotel [x]

Holland, 1945 - Neutral Milk Hotel [x]

From Blown Speakers - The New Pornographers [x]

Did It On ‘em - Nicki Minaj [x]

All Apologies - Nirvana [x]

Something in the Way - Nirvana [x]

Bathwater - No Doubt [x]

Champagne Supernova - Oasis [x]

Shady Lane - Pavement [x]

Moonsea - Phildel [x]

Rome - Phoenix [x]

Lisztomania - Phoenix [x]

Wish You Were Here - Pink Floyd [x]

Black/White - The Ravonettes [x]

Church on White - Stephen Malkmus [x]

Well I Say... - Trevor Hall [x]

Wolf Like Me - TV on the Radio [x]

Cape Cod Kwassa Kwassa - Vampire Weekend [x]

Train Song - Vashti Bunyan [x]

Venus in Furs - The Velvet Underground [x]

Pale Blue Eyes - The Velvet Underground [x]

The Man With No Soul - Wax Tailor [x]

I’ll Believe in Anything - Wolf Parade [x]

Sex Yeah - Marina & the Diamonds [x]

Oh No! - Marina & the Diamonds [x]

Paradise By the Dashboard Light - Meat Loaf [x]

Sex & Candy - Marcy Playground [x]

I’m Good, I’m Gone - Lykke Li [x]

Ramble On - Led Zeppelin

Black Dog - Led Zeppelin [x]

I Am the Walrus - The Beatles

I Want You (She’s So Heavy) - The Beatles [x]

Hold Up - Beyonce [x]

6 Inch - Beyonce (feat. The Weeknd)

Bachelorette - Bjork [x]

Blue Velvet - Bobby Vinton [x]

#music #songs #long post #i'm bored sorry #I DIDN'T PUT FAVE LYRICS FOR ALL OF THEM CAUSE I GOT SUPER TIRED LmAO

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