#and start crying all over again
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My mum came to my room just now and was like what time did you sleep I was like oh my head was hurting so yeah … I actually slept quite late ngl but I was pretending to sleep bc I was still crying LMAO and my mum is really mean to me when I’m upset or stressed let alone full on crying so like PFFTTT
#good thinking on my behalf I’m smart sometimes#dora daily#every time I’d start crying then stop for a while then laugh at some dumb thing or dahlias one message then remember what I was crying about#and start crying all over again#repeat this process a few times LOLLLLL#but now my eyes hurt and my head hurts and I feel as though I can only fix how bad they hurt by getting dottore to operate on me#I don’t need eyes or a brain ! I just need them to stop hurting sm 🥲#I haven’t cried like that since march when I was trying to stop talking about Kaveh and alhaitham bc I felt like I was bothering everybody b#by yapping abt them 24/7 but when I would try to do that I literally felt like I was suffocating myself from being able to say anything bc#ppl tend to get judgemental when I hyperfixate on things and talk bad abt me for liking them so I felt embarrassed#but when I DID try to stop I started crying out of nowhere yk that cringe ass line where they go I didn’t even know I was crying#IT WAS EXACTLY LIKE THAT AAAHAHAHAHA LIKE I was sad as one usually is but all of a sudden I was like huh what am I ACTUALLY crying rn …#OVER KAVEH AND ALHAITHAM AND TALKING ABT THEM HELP MEEEEEE#I’m soooo stupid this is soooo funny
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You know, whenever I see the discussions around Jack Marston possibly getting drafted in world war one, I can't help but physically ache at the thought of it.
Jack Marston, born into a gang that honoured freedom above everything, forced to sacrifice everything he has left for war.
Jack Marston, a boy who read about knights and soldiers, now forced to become one in another fight he never asked for.
Jack Marston, raised to be away from a life of violence, but now the world has found a way to drag him back in.
No matter what happens, Jack would have to face a really tragic dilemma. Does he go to war and sacrifice the legacy of freedom he was raised with? The life his family died for? Or refuse and be labeled a criminal, putting his parents to shame and repeating the same cycle his father went through?
It just tragically mirrors the struggle he’s always had - trying to find his own identity outside the legacy of John Marston, and the violence that came with it. But he's being pulled back in, no matter what he chooses.
He was never made for the violence that shaped his parents' life.
#he's just a boy who loved books and animals and picking flowers and fishing he doesn't deserve to be a product of war again#it makes me cry thinking about it#he was a child full of joy and whimsy. then a young boy who preferred reading over hunting. then a young man who had just lost his parents#and he was all alone#and forced to make a choice that denies him his autonomy#watching jack lose his spark over the course of rdr2 and rdr1 as he grows up eats at me#and when people mistake him for his father in rdr1 I actually start sobbing#oh jack#i'm so sorry#mick squeaks#mick thinks#rdr2#red dead redemption 2#red dead redemption#rdr1#jack marston#john marston#abigail roberts#arthur morgan#red dead redemption community#red dead redemption 2 spoilers
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i have this fic series i'm still working on where mihawk sort of becomes rayleigh's kid and spends ages 11-17ish on the oro jackson.
shanks and buggy imprint on him (bugs considers him a sort of older brother figure/sparring inspiration and shanks has a crush that eventually turns into full-blown love) and this is how i imagine they're like on the day mihawk sets off on his own haha.
#fic recs#dracule mihawk#akataka#mishanks#buggy#buggy the clown#shanks#akagami no shanks#red haired shanks#one piece#one piece fanart#op fanart#clearly my workaround to 'i should be working on my deadlines instead of doodling mishanks' is to finger-draw on my phone instead#on the plus side i'll never be tempted to go and fully render what was supposed to be a sketch#on the minus side i'm wondering if drawing with my finger takes up the same amount of time anyways.........#smh#anyways in this au i have this part planned where after shankd and buggy get into a fight over the chop chop#shanks comes crying to mihawk all devastated and annoyed and mihawk who is 16 and absolutely doesnt want to deal with a crying 12 year old#decides to fix things himself by showing buggy the pros of his devil fruit via forceful and incredibly harrowing sparring session LOL.#makes him see right away how much of a boon it is to never be able to get cut by a blade. it turns into an actually fun sesh#'cuz mihawk starts enjoying the challenge and the creativity and control and buggy starts wielding his knives in flying hands.#ends with mihawk berating him on how he treats his brother and how mihawk never wants to have to deal with shanks like that again#and also lowkey encouraging buggy by saying he's a resourceful kid and he's got people if he cant do things himself.#at this point in time shanks kind of wants mihawk to be his knight in shining armour so he's happy to hear what mihawk did#but mihawk is Fully Over bunking with two 12 year olds. ray please can he just set out on his own now. he's done it before. come on.#he is not a babysitter!!!!!!#tho these fics will focus mostly on hawk & ray jsyk#i digress
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I'm devastated...
#pls .. ...#i thought i was over one direction and not a fan anymore and moved on#but every two seconds my tears start rolling... i cant stop crying....#this is awful#what do you mean theyre only four now#what do you mean.....#a nightmare... and i can't take it#reminds me when my mom passed... and i kept hoping she would walk thru the door again and it all would be not real#i just keep saying he will come back and post and it all wont be real....#i know he wasn't the best... but it didnt have to be like this...#liam payne#one direction#louis tomlinson#....
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Jackie died. Jackie died and I'm devastated. I will never be the same person again
#I had to pause the game to bawl my eyes out#I WAS SO INVESTED IN HIM ARE YOU KIDDING ME#I think I get what you're trying to say to me game. is it worth it to put yourself in danger#and destroy yourself for a chance at a fame that you probably won't even get to enjoy#because you won't be there to see it?#is it worth it to break the hearts of the people you love in this pursuit? the people who'll grieve you?#I mean it's part of the first question that dex asks you when this whole thing starts and the last thing he says to you is also about that#about whether you wanna live a peaceful life or. go out like this#I get that. if that's what it's going for I get that. it gets the point across I'm not angry. but also#THAT WAS MY FRIEND#JACKIE MY FRIEND JACKIE 😭#WHAT DO YOU MEAN HE DIED OF BLOOD LOSS THIS IS BULLSHIT#I'm never getting over this#sleep.txt#cp2077#jackie welles#OK OK HOLD ON I have more to say. I wanna expand on that jdjfkdkf bc I have Thoughts. especially playing corpo v like#I think the whole thing hit me even harder as corpo bc you get to see a sort of parallel situation with your v#where you had all this renown and respect but it came at a great cost. so great it nearly killed you#and then you go through that again and now you're dying and your friend is dead#and it's all in the pursuit of fame and money#that scene in the car when they're heading for the hotel reminded me so much of that initial scene with v#when you get in your fancy car and sip your fancy champagne#and like 10 minutes later nearly get killed by people from arasaka#I think there might be a point to be made there. about jackie heading towards the same kind of life just with a different coat of paint#being seduced by the same things we were seduced by while accepting the cost without fully understanding it#and then when you're faced with it it's. well it's heartbreaking and life ending#self destruction in the pursuit of something that makes you wonder if it was even all that worth it to begin with#viktor vektor is probably the happiest person I've met so far and that's saying something#anyway rant over. ty for your time I'm gonna go cry over jackie in the corner excuse me
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Thinking about a Cora lives AU where Law just. Doesn't get sick after Amber Lead Disease. He takes good care of himself and generally his immune system is pretty solid (and he avoids his crew members if they have smth contagious like the flu or a stomach bug). But eventually his good luck runs out and he catches a cold, just a minor one that makes him a little feverish and gives him the standard cough and runny nose. Bepo notices him swaying on his feet and immediately sends him to bed (even tho Law protests like a stubborn brat).
When Cora finds out Law is sick he flips his SHIT. Literally he falls flat on his ass and catches himself on fire. Then he rushes all around the Polar Tang grabbing medical books on how to treat colds and preparing a compress and shouting at the cook to make hot soup for Law and digging into the cabinets for medicine and then he's hauling ASS to Law's room
Law wakes up from a nap and looks over to see Cora sitting at his bedside looking at him like this
And he has to reassure him no Cora-san I'm not dying, it's just a cold, yes Cora-san I'm going to be okay. You worry too much
(But Cora's paranoid bc he's only seen Law sick once before and that was when he was dying, literally days away from succumbing to the poison eating at him, so of course there's trauma there, of course he sees Law cough one time and thinks the world is ending 😭)
#One Piece#Donquixote Rosinante#Cora#Trafalgar Law#One Piece Cora#Law#It takes Law a little bit to realize bc he's still kinda out of it#But when Cora starts crying out of sheer RELIEF he KNOWS something's wrong#Cora: It was like I blinked and you were thirteen all over again and I was going to lose you and--#Law: Cora-san...#Cora; sniffling: Please be okay#Law: I'm okay#RAGHHHHH TEARS OPEN MY SHIRT#WORRIED DAD CORA IS WHAT I'M HERE FOR NOW AND FOREVER#Shima speaks
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being hormonal sucks so bad I'm the most depressed guy alive, I'm a vessel to all the world's problems, wallowing the pit of sorrows I've seen the face of god & I killed him with my bare hands
*sees snow falling gently on a fruit tree*
love is real & it's me *bursts into tears*
#leafie speaks#this shit just happens every month and it's like that part in bloodborne#just started crying all over again because I saw a video of a puppy seeing snow for the first time#fuck my stupid baka life
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That whole scene where MK activates the crown to prevent Wukong from sacrificing himself is always hard to watch, especially once Wukong is rendered helpless as MK walks into the pillar, but I came to a realization that made it even WORSE when i was rewatching ep 9.
So each time the crown was activated before, it would only glow for a few moments and stop, still taking Wukong out of the game for a bit due to those short moments it was on.
But when MK did it during the fight, it was glowing the whole time when he stopped Wukong and walked into the pillar, which is also why Wukong was screaming out as much as he was.
My man was in literal pain, emotionally and physically, begging him to stop all the while...
I'm just -,
#i mentioned this in a LMK discord I'm in and everyone started to cry all over again XD#but i am still unwell about it#i know Sean's throat is unwell after all of that too XD#lmk sun wukong#lmk wukong#monkie kid wukong#monkie kid spoilers#lego monkie kid season 5#lego monkie kid sun wukong#lmk#lego monkie kid
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I took this letter to a memorial but wanted to share here too.
"Thank you Liam so much for being in my life and shaping so many childhoods. Thank you for giving us love, support and encouragement through your and One Direction's music during the hard times and highlights of our lives.
You were a kind, generous and charitable person who encouraged so many to follow their dreams and be as kind as you were. You had the kind of smile that shone in your eyes, brighter than any star, and gave us so much comfort.
Thank you again so much for the music that helped me get through everything life threw my way.
I don't want to say 'goodbye' but instead see you later. Thank you for everything. You made me strong.
Rest in peace, My Angel
I can't say thank you enough, but truly thank you for everything Liam. I can't believe you're gone. I've lost count of how many days its been, but each morning I keep waking up expecting the news to change, but it doesn't 💔.
I keep saying each night "I'll see you tomorrow. Things will be different tomorrow.", just so I can sleep and have hope for tomorrow, but the news still doesn't change 💔. But one tomorrow, we all will see you again.
Songs I keep revisiting whenever I miss you tons is You're Beautiful by James Blunt and Drops of Jupiter by Train. I think they capture the type of person you were, beautiful inside and out. An angel. And at peace now. ❤️
Whenever I need reassurance, I'll look to the sky, because I know that's where you are now.
Rest well
#rip my angel#the way I started crying all over again 😭#how im usually one of little words but had more to say :(#liam#I am so grateful for the memorial we had because I have no idea how I or anyone could grieve alone 🥹 i felt so lonely without it#thank you also to everyone here and being such an amazing community 🫂#if anyone needs to talk i'm also here^^#omw to feeling like i need to puke again I just wish he'd come back :((((((#thank you liam#remembering liam payne#liam payne memorial#thankyouliampayne#rip liam payne#thankyouliam#RememberingLiamPayne#payne#how long it took me to hit “post” bc I don't want to ever “finalize” him being gone :(
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(COUNT)DOWN TO DAWNTRAIL — day four: shadowbringers
atlas my old friend I found some people want to lend a hand carrying the weight of the world
#ALWAYS crying about d'alia and thancred but especially over their growth in SHB#ha ha what if we were both stubborn people who always try to be a pillar for others to lean on and hide behind a façade of strength#and both internalizing guilt over the same woman we love; sister to one and (former) lover to the other#because she died to save a world and now it's on us to finish what she started#except now the warrior of light/darkness is a heap on the floor and perilously close to transforming into a monster in her efforts#with all the brunt of responsibility to take on the light and fresh guilt of losing the battle with it on her shoulders#and all you can do is carry her half-conscious mumbling body down the mountain and swear she'll see her family (sid + rielle) again#because she never left you alone in all her needling to support *you* and you will return the support even this much#learning to rely on each other……..#(count)down to dawntrail#dani plays ffxiv#game: ffxiv#oc: d'alia liveq#ch: thancred waters#lavampira poses#ffxiv gpose#gposers#miqo'te#shadowbringers spoilers
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the way i just keep drawing despite being exhausted is crazy
#progress update for my favorite community of deranged people#to cover him in blood or to not cover him in blood. that is the question#literally woke up at 5am this morning so i could draw for a little over an hour before school#got home from school#started drawing again#rewatching this film was either the worst thing i could’ve done for myself or the very best#feeling so insufferable over them lately#(does this look anything like alex at all?)#(<- don’t answer that or i’ll cry)#wip#art#like minds#alex forbes fanart#drawing#murderous intent#art wip
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don't mind my self indulgence but uhh Touya being healed with the combination of rapidly evolving technology, healing quirks and Endeavor's funding to the point it's like the fire on Sekoto never happened. he looks in the mirror and doesn't recognize the person that looks back at him. the burns were such an intrinsic part of him, even before he became Dabi, even before he woke up sixteen years old with stitches all over his face, back when he was a child and trained his fire with the parts of his body that he he could easily hide under his clothes.
it's nothing like when he woke up from the coma and looked in the mirror for the first time, seeing something his mind struggled to comprehend as himself, the too-old boy with desperation in his eyes and a garish smile cut directly into his face belonging in his worst nightmare that has come true. accepting it back then was easy, the wretched feeling of brokenness following his every footstep since he was four years old. the outside matching his insides was a relief, in a twisted way, as much as it hurt to imagine his family looking at him and not recognizing Touya, as sorrowful as it was to live through that fantasy.
this- just feels wrong. he doesn't see himself in this new, unfamiliar face. what he sees is rather a mosaic of his family's features: his mother's soft white hair, his father's eyes, Fuyumi's eyelashes and Natsuo's stubborn eyebrows. the combination of so familiar but foreign features combined into a mask that was plastered on his own ruined face.
he hated that forlorn looking boy's picture sitting on his altar and he hated thinking that that's how his family remembered him. it's the very same boy's older face that he sees in the mirror.
Touya was never this pitiful, desolate boy. he was always burning, even when the others couldn't see it. being stuck with this hurts worse than being faced with the consequences of his reckless self-abandoning training.
and worst of all, he knows that if he ever starts using his quirk, the cremation process will start all over again.
#idk man i just like the imagine of healed touya dissociating for hours any time he sees his reflection#the dabi identity has become so intrinsic to him even outside of the plane of villainy#this boy has been slowly and inevitably cremating himself from the moment he got his quirk#going out in a blaze of glory was his plan#and instead he is stuck with the choice between never using his quirk#which has always been an integral part of his identity#or starting the cremation process all over again#i think he would cry about it... a lot#especially if they healed him after the battle when he was unconscious#without him giving his consent or even being aware of the procedure#he would be Mad mad lmao#ok bye#bnha#dabi#todoroki touya
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post-canon every single member of kimcom likes to spoon kim dokja. nonsexually. it's just nice to know he's alive and there and feel his chest rise and fall within the circle of your arms. try to do something stupid now asshole. oh you can't? because of my octopus impression? that's right. take THAT. however i will make one exception for yoo joonghyuk. yoo joonghyuk may want to spoon kim dokja, but he never gets the opportunity because kim dokja wants to spoon him more. so the sleeping arrangement is yjh>kdj>all other kimcom members on rotation. actually i take it back there's one other household member who doesn't want to spoon kim dokja and it's yoo mia, but that's fine because she's one of the only people (besides kim dokja) who yoo joonghyuk would be comfortable spooning. so there's probably times when it's yma>yjh>kdj>today's lucky winner.
incidentally this is also the order for the doing-each-other's-hair train because while yoo mia WILL allow other people to do her hair, no one wants to because she always compares their skills unfavorably to her brother's. and she's really articulate about it. just utterly scathing. one time her criticism was so devastatingly, accurately incisive that she made lee hyunsung cry. yoo joonghyuk spooned him that night to cheer him up and yoo mia was so mad about it that lee hyunsung had to leave the country for a couple weeks. the household learned a valuable lesson that day. it's best not to disturb the delicate spooning/hair-train balance.
#i love how often the webtoon shows people giving their injured teammates piggyback rides#like yeah that is way easier than a bridal carry. good weight distribution#but also it means when they go into Spoon Mode they're like. hey this is familiar!#anyway kimcom totally has a schedule for who gets to spoon kim dokja because otherwise shin yoosung and lee gilyoung would#resort to murder#also han sooyoung was hogging him and pretending it didn't count because it was her clones doing it#(classic excuse. it wasn't me. it was my clone! my clone stole the cookie from the cookie jar! my clone ate my homework!!)#kim dokja figures out that there's a schedule but he thinks it's like. a chore for them instead of something they're fighting over#because he is an idiot 😎👍#the other sleeping arrangement is kim dokja lying on his back and one person on each side cuddling up to him#that's the default when yjh isn't around for kdj to spoon. which doesn't happen very often#if anyone asks no i did NOT start crying the last time someone spooned me because i was incredibly touch-starved. utter lies#totally untrue and also completely irrelevant to the matter at hand#orv#omniscient reader's viewpoint#my posts#f#kdj#orv spoilers#i guess??#kimcom in the situation room trying to strategize how to turn him back into a squid so they can all have a tentacle to cuddle#kim dokja only has two hands and like ten people who want to clutch him to their bosom...but what if he had MORE than two hands?#he has before and he can again. as god is their witness
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I've been rewatching the first two seasons of The Bear so I can watch the third season that just came out and man the character writing in this show makes me froth at the mouth it's like some of the best arcs I've ever seen in a TV series
#little infodump in the tags bc no one I know is watching this show so I need to spill all my thoughts somewhere LOL#Richie is my favorite he makes me go ballistic especially in the episode Forks#just rewatched that episode and it always makes me cry when he has his moment where he finally Gets it#he's such a shit stain of a guy I would probably hate him if I knew him in real life lmfao but as a character he is so fantastically writte#I also really love Marcus but he hasn't had as big of a development as Richie has#Sydney is awesome but she's. so much like me in the way where I cringe at her sometimes LMAO#when she's acting super sarcastic and holier than thou I can't look directly at it it's too much like me when I'm at my worst DHF;LKDFH#god I hope Marcus and Sydney get together they are so cute#unusually good chemistry for a straight ship LOL /hj#I also love Tina but my only complaint with her is that I kinda wish her arc in the first season took a little more time#bc she started off as a real asshole just like all the characters did but she had a much more sudden switch#but I guess it makes sense for her now that I think about it bc she's shown to be a very sweet and compassionate person#it's just that she doesn't trust Sydney at first so once she gets over that then she's sweet with her too#excited to learn more about Ebra he reminds me a lot of an old coworker#also obvs no spoilers for season 3 please I haven't got there yet#lyla's talking again
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Day #6000 of falling in love with them all over again
#I’m so sick for them#my heart and soul are dedicated to them#don’t send help I like it here#god sometimes they just make me start crying all over again for no reason#good omens#crowley#david tennant#aziraphale#Michael sheen#Aziracrow
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@pscentral event 22: 2023 wrapped
↳ DISNEY CHANNEL IN 2023
#disney channel#pscentral#disneyedit#disneychanneledit#dcomedit#disneynetwork#userjessica#userzackmartin#usergif#usersource#usercreate#userrobin#userkraina#tuserheidi#tuservaleria#usershreyu#rogerhealey#tuserkit#smallscreensource#*edits#this gifset took me way too long bc i had to do so much maths to figure out the size of all the gifs and i kept getting it wrong#and also i kept messing up the order of the dates so i'd have to rearrange the whole thing and do the maths over again#generally got so frustrated i'm over this set here just have it#so please don't tell me if i missed anything bc i will in fact cry <3#also the chibi birthday short didn't actually come out on the 18th that's just the day of the anniversary#and hamster and gretel started last year but had new episodes that lead into this year but were still part of s1#and i didn't know what date to do so i just did the finale don't question it i had to include it somewhere or someone would complain#ANYWAY i hope at least one person who isn't me cares about this bc i spent way too much time on it
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