#and someone on there tagged '15. only a few days ago but yeah' and OP reblogged the tags being like 'Sorry but this is so funny'

[anothermonikan]

Y'know I come across like, self-deprecating stuff in my archive and I think about deleting it and I'm deciding against it because it's kind of a reminder of how far I've come y'know? From the 13 year old who didn't think she'd make it to 16, to the 15 year old who got so depressed they didn't think they'd make it to 16, to the 16 year old who thought he wouldn't make it until 18, to me now, 19, being excited at the prospect of being 20! Hey Andy!!! Things got better like people said they would!! Isn't that so cool?? You found your name, your friends, what you want to do, what you enjoy doing, you want to live more than anything now. You're doing your best and I know it's hard that no one seems to recognise it but you're gonna make it through no matter how bleak it all seems!! You're doing good, and you're going to do better. I do not miss being you.

[fonulyn]

20 Questions for Fic Authors

thanks for the tag @thebrandywine 💖

answers under the cut.

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

268 works.

2. What is your AO3 wordcount?

1,256,253 words.

3. What fandoms do you write for?

RE. and still have the urge to write Gears but lol if you thought nivannedy was a rare pair...

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

nobody's perfect (TOG, pretty gen)

now drunk on lust I drown in you (forever within I'm lost in you) (RE, Chreon)

and who's to find the way right through you (RE, Chreon)

scattered fragments of time (that's all we are) (RE, Chreon)

how to accidentally get adopted - a guide by Piers Nivans (RE, Piers-centric, also background Chreon)

5. Do you respond to comments?

always! i know i missed a couple, sometimes i take ages, but i do always try to respond bc i love and cherish nice comments.

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

the bad endings on three words to last forever. i still like the angstiest one the most :'D

7. What is the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

lmao like everything else idk i want them happy. i've written loads of fluff idk how to quantify which is the happiest.

8. Do you get hate on fics?

only ever got a few nasty comments thankfully, so no, not really.

9. Do you write smut? If so, which kind?

yeppp. idk what does 'which kind' mean? anything that feels inspiring lol.

10. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest crossover you’ve ever written?

not really. i did start a few back in the day but i didn't really finish them. i am not really into crossovers tbh i don't even read them 99% of the time.

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

yeah. someone was selling it on amazon pffth.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

a few. apparently five on ao3 lol but i think there was one or two back in the lj days too. might be wrong tho :'D

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

lol loads. at one point in life like... fifteen years ago, most things i wrote were co-written with a friend. and i've done it a couple of times after that too. i really like co-op stuff tbh but haven't found people to collab with lately.

14. What’s your all-time favorite ship?

right now i would sell my soul for nivannedy. might already have.

15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

ehhhh at this moment i doubt i'll ever finish anything. maybe the lifeguard au? i was red-hot for the idea at first but then it kinda... fizzled out. kept changing. got ruined by pushy ppl lol. but maybe i'll get back to it one day bc i would love a nivannedy summer romance tbh.

16. What are your writing strengths?

uhm. characterization. dialogue. emotional shit? idk i think i do best when i have intimate moments with two people. tiny everyday moments and mundane shit. like that. if i get going writing sometimes flows super well and i think i can get consistently readable stuff done in one go. but that'd require getting going lol.

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

action. i suck at action. i also suck at it in the way that i can't actually make myself start writing. i got way too co-dependent when i still had people excitedly participating in the process and now i sit here sad doing nothing :'D but anyway. writing action and having some self-discipline lol.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

depends very heavily on the context. in general i do think it should be all in one language for readability but there are exceptions. i've done it too lol but it was only like a line or two in finnish :'D

19. First fandom you wrote for?

diru, twenty years ago lmao, it's like a different lifetime. i only learned of the existence of fanfic at the ripe old age of nineteen lol but yeah it's still been so long now.

20. Favorite fic you’ve written?

asdjfngkn i can not choose between all of my children c'mon. uhm. am just gonna say the self-indulgent series bc it truly was so important to me for so long and i'm still devastated it ended. sigh. now i made myself sad again :'D

[superhusbands4ever]

The Chain - Chapter 4/15

Chapter 1 | Chapter 2 | Chapter 3 | Chapter 4 | Full Work | AO3 Link

Fandom: The Bad Batch (Star Wars)

Characters: Crosshair, Hunter, Howzer, Rex, Wrecker, Tech, Echo, Omega, Various Clones

Relationships: Crosshair & Howzer, Crosshair & Rex, Crosshair & The Bad Batch, Crosshair & Omega, Hunter & Rex, Hunter & Omega

Additional Tags: Redemption, Angst, Hurt/Comfort, Humor, Found Family, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Graphic Violence, Eventual Happy Ending, Angst with a Happy Ending

Summary: One year after the events of The Bad Batch, Crosshair struggles to reconcile his choice with the harsh truth of the world around him. He finds enlightenment in the most unlikely of places and realizes he may have made the wrong decision. But is it too late to do something about it?

Two years after the events of The Bad Batch, Rex reluctantly agrees to allow Hunter and his squad to help him rescue a man who's been captured by the Empire, an Imperial double agent who's cover has been blown. What Hunter thought to be a simple extraction ends up having far greater consequences for their squad than he could have ever anticipated.

Chapter Warnings: None

Right actions in the future are the best apologies for bad actions in the past.

Tryon Edwards

Rex never struck Hunter as the type to let his nerves get the best of him. That one attempted fist fight with Crosshair when rescuing Echo notwithstanding, Rex was always calm and level headed when they worked together in the past. Skako Minor, Anaxes, on Bracca - it was clear why Rex was the Captain of the famously wild Torrent Company and essentially the de facto commander of the infamous 501st Legion. His calm and steady presence along with his cool confidence made him exactly the kind of guy people naturally gravitated to, naturally turned to for leadership.

Which is why it was weird that Rex seemed fidgety in a way he’d never seen from the man before. Anyone who didn’t know him wouldn’t notice, but Hunter could see the way he kept fiddling with the buttons on the controls needlessly. He could hear the leather of Rex’s gloves squeak as he clenched and unclenched his hands periodically. And only Hunter would be able to hear the way Rex kept consciously making an effort to unclench his jaw and stop grinding his teeth.

After the fourth time in as many minutes that Rex flexed his fingers, Hunter finally spoke up.

“Are you alright, Captain?”

Rex glanced at Hunter, hands deliberately stilling in his lap as he sat up straighter.

“Yes,” he said. “Just restless, I suppose.”

Hunter nodded, staring out at the streaking blue and white light of hyperspace through the viewport of the freighter’s cockpit.

“This operative of yours,” Hunter said after a moment, “you two are close?”

Whatever response Hunter was expecting from the other man, it wasn’t for him to laugh. Even Rex seemed startled by the response, looking sheepishly over at the sergeant.

“Sorry,” Rex said, rubbing a hand over his head. “I just- I certainly never expected to be, but… yeah. Yeah. I suppose we are.”

“You don’t get along?”

“We didn’t at first,” Rex said, crossing his arms across his chestplate. “ Manda , I used to hate the guy. But… he’s a good man. The more I worked with him, the more I spoke with the people he helped, I realized that. He’s done a lot for our brothers.”

Hunter nodded slowly. “How did you two meet?”

“Oh, uh—“ Rex twitched again as he went to fiddle with the pilot controls. “We met back during the war.”

“You served together?”

“Ehh,” Rex hedged, “Only a couple of times towards the end.”

Hunter waited for Rex to elaborate but the other man was silent, continuing to mess with the controls. The ship was on autopilot, so he wasn’t actually doing anything. He listened as Rex’s heart rate slowly started gaining speed.

“So… who did he serve under? Maybe I’ve heard of—“

The navicomputer beeped and Rex’s shoulders slumped nearly imperceptively.

“Why don’t you go back and check on the others?” If Hunter didn’t know any better he’d say Rex sounded… relieved? “We should be arriving soon and we still need to rework the plan now that you all are here.”

Hunter frowned. Rex studiously avoided his eyes. He wasn’t ignorant to the fact that Rex was purposefully trying to get rid of him - the man was apparently as good at lying as Wrecker - but he wasn’t sure why.

Finally Hunter nodded. He tapped his bracer against Rex’s pauldron and made his way out of the cockpit.

Rex mumbled something under his breath as the doors slid shut, but the hydraulics were too loud over the man’s voice for Hunter to be able to make out what was said.

He found everyone in the hold, Tech, Wrecker, Boil, Echo, and Omega sitting around the floor in a circle, with Gregor on a bench in the corner cleaning his blaster. He walked in just as Echo laughed at whatever the reg had said.

“Still, I’m glad to see you,” Boil said as Echo’s laughter died down. “Cody mentioned that Rex had found you, but I didn’t get the chance to reach out before… well…”

Echo smiled sadly, resting his flesh hand on Boil’s shoulder.

“It was always entertaining to listen to Rex rant to Cody about all the shenanigans you and Fives got into.”

“Yeah,” Echo agreed, voice gruff. “Though from what I hear, you and Waxer certainly kept Cody on his toes.”

Boil laughed.

“True. Usually it was Waxer making the plans. I somehow always ended up getting dragged along.”

“Yeah, I know how that goes.” Echo sighed. “I’m sorry, by the way. I read about Umbara. I can’t even imagine--”

“Don’t be,” Boil sighed, rubbing at the red scar on the side of his shaved head. “It felt unbearable at the time, but… sometimes I… sometimes I’m almost relieved? Force, that sounds horrible but it’s true. Sometimes I’m relieved he was gone so he wasn’t forced to become monsters like we were. Sometimes I can’t help but wonder if they were the lucky ones.”

“You’re not a monster, Boil,” Gregor piped up from the corner. “Whatever the chip made you do wasn’t you. You had no choice.”

Boil nodded slowly, fingers lingering on his temple.

“I still did it, though.”

“I know what you mean,” Wrecker said quietly, eyes on the ground. “When my chip activated I nearly killed my squad. If Rex hadn’t been there to stop me, I would have.”

Omega scooted closer to Wrecker and grabbed his hand, leaning her head against his shoulder. He smiled down at her.

Boil looked sympathetic. “It’s a good thing Rex was there, then. Rex was the one who picked up my ship when I left Corellia. I wish I could say I was surprised to see he’d made it out, but I don’t think I was, really. Cody always believed Rex would survive all of this.”

“Did you…” Echo trailed off, rubbing his neck awkwardly. “Did you… work with Cody while--”

“No,” Boil said firmly, shaking his head. “The GAR structure reorganized surprisingly quickly after the order went out. The 212th was recalled back to Coruscant and was divided up after that. Ghost Company went to Grand Admiral Tarkin while Cody and the other Marshal Commanders were sent to work directly under Palpatine. I haven’t seen Cody since we arrived on Coruscant after Uptapau.”

They were all quiet after that, heads bowed in remembrance of both their fallen and lost brothers. Besides Omega, everyone in the ship had worked under Cody’s command at some point and respected him for the great leader and big brother to all clones that he was. To imagine the strong willed, compassionate, selfless man under the direct control of someone like Palpatine was almost too much to bear.

It was thanks to Cody that Hunter and the others had even been allowed off Kamino. He’d been able to pull rank and convince Nala Se and the other Kaminoan scientists and trainers that the Unit 99s, of which Hunter, Crosshair, Tech, and Wrecker had been the last of, could be useful in the war. If it weren’t for Cody, they would have spent the rest of their days toiling around in Tipoca City, completing test after test until they were finally deemed too “defective” and decommissioned like the others in their unit, or put on janitorial duty like 99.

“What about you guys?” Boil’s quiet voice sounded overly loud in the solemn silence of the ship's hold. “How did you survive the order? Did the Commander get you guys out too?”

“No,” Tech said, adjusting his goggles. “Our chips were never activated. They malfunctioned due to our deviant nature from the other, regular clones.”

Boil cast Wrecker a sidelong look.

“But I thought—“

“His activated later as an effect of repeated head trauma to the chip’s implantation site.”

“Well, I’m glad you guys didn’t have to experience that. Though, I imagine it must have been a very difficult situation for you surrounded by everyone else.”

“Heh, you could say that again,” Wrecker grumbled under his breath.

“We’ve essentially been on the run from the Empire for the last three years,” Echo said. “The vod’e pretty much attack us on sight.”

“You said the Commander helped you escape recently?” Omega piped up from under Wrecker’s arm.

Boil nodded slowly, gaze trained on the ground.

“I’ve only been on Yavin for about a day and a half,” Boil said. “The Commander got me out just a few days ago”

“And then he was discovered,” Tech said succinctly. Echo smacked his arm.

“Yeah,” Boil said quietly, running his hand over his hair. “Extracting me was a risk, from what Howzer said.”

“It was a different op than the usual extractions,” Gregor said from the corner. “Typically he just gave us foot soldiers that he could say were killed in action on missions. Two or three at a time, buried under flimsiwork and red tape. He’d splice the system and mark them as KIA. Apparently the Empire doesn’t care much if they lose one or two rank and file clones.”

“I was higher up in the command structure, though,” Boil added. “I was a lieutenant on Grand Admiral Tarkin’s security team. He was attending some diplomatic event in Corellia and I was assigned a protection squad. The Commander caught me as I was coming off my shift and took me to some tiny infirmary in the hotel. Stunned me and took my chip out. I barely knew what was going on when he told me that he was getting me out of the Empire and we needed to hurry.”

“A natborn Imperial officer helping clones?”

“No,” Boil shook his head, “he is a clone.”

Everyone was silent and Hunter frowned. A clone commander working from within the Empire?

Gregor paused his cleaning and looked up at the group, eyes flickering from them to Hunter, who still lingered in the doorway.

“A clone spy within the Empire?” Tech asked skeptically. “Without his chip?”

Boil nodded. “I wasn’t sure at first, either. He never took his helmet off and he didn’t sound like any clone I’d ever met. But he understood what it was like when I woke up freaking out, asking questions, getting angry. He talked me down, told me that he knew it was disorienting to wake up suddenly in control of your own body after so long but we didn’t have time for an existential crisis so I needed to get myself together.

“So what has he been doing?” Echo questioned. “Just… pretending his chip is active?”

“I guess so. Howzer confirmed it later. They’re pretty close, I guess  - I thought Howzer was going to lose it when the distress signal went off.”

“How did the Commander get his out?”

Boil shrugged. “I didn’t ask.”

The room fell silent at that.

Something about the situation prickled at the back of Hunter’s mind. Maybe it was just the similarities to their own brother. Crosshair had chosen to stay with the Empire as well, even when out from under the chip’s influence - though there was no denying that Crosshair’s motivations and this Commander’s motivations were extremely different.

Crosshair chose to stay, to leave the team, their family, behind for selfish reasons - ego and power and a place in the new galactic order. This Commander chose to stay not for himself, but to help those who couldn’t help themselves.

The knowledge burned something inside him, but Hunter buried it down.

This is who I am. .

“We all thought he was crazy when he reached out to Rex,” Gregor piped up, his blaster discarded on the bench next to him. “The whole thing was his idea. We warned him it was suicide, but he didn’t care. Rex thought he’d be dead within a month, but he’s been helping clones get out for nearly two years now. Howzer kept telling him it was time to get out before he got caught, but he wouldn’t listen. Now here we are.”

“I tried to get him to come with me. Told him if they found out what he’d done, they’d kill him.” Boil snorted. “You know what he said to me? He said ‘ stop being a noble di’kut and get in the ship before I stun you and put the chip back in. ’”

They all frowned at the threat, Gregor giggling from his place in the corner.

“I’m glad to be going back for the Commander,” Boil said. “Obviously I wish it were in better circumstances. I know it was his decision to stay behind, but it still felt wrong leaving him there, you know? Colt always said we never leave a man behind.”

“Yeah,” Echo said quietly, eyes meeting Hunter’s across the room. “I know the feeling.”

Hunter held Echo’s gaze, same as he always did when the topic came up over the last two years. And same as every other time, in the face of Echo’s admonishment, Hunter said nothing in return. There was nothing to say that hadn’t already been discussed at length.

Repeatedly.

Loudly.

Wrecker and Tech glanced at each other over Echo’s head while Omega averted her eyes to the ground.

The ship shook as it dropped out of hyperspace and Hunter took that as his que to get moving.

“Rex said we’ll be touching down soon,” he said, stepping fully into the room. “We should start getting ready.”

As the others moved over to Gregor to begin gearing up, Echo stood and held Hunter’s gaze a moment longer. Hunter shook his head and Echo sighed before moving to join the others.

He had a feeling they’d be having that discussion once again once this mission was over.

Hunter felt a hand in his and he looked down to meet Omega’s eyes. She smiled sadly at him, squeezing his hand. He squeezed back, but couldn’t quite drudge up the willpower to smile in return.

“C’mon,” he said instead, “let’s gear up.”

She nodded and walked over to the group, helping Echo loop his pack over his scomp arm. Hunter watched them all and tried not to think about the weird feeling lingering in the back of his mind.

~

“Alright,” Rex said as the ramp to the ship lowered. They’d landed in the forest, hidden at the bottom of the mountain the same as they had last time. Gregor helped Tech and Rex navigate the ship to an area below the mountain where there was a hidden entry point similar to the vents they had escaped through last time.

“Echo, Hunter, Tech, Boil, and Gregor - you’re with me. Wrecker, stay with the ship.”

“Wha- oh, come on!” Wrecker said, slipping his helmet up to stare at Rex with wide eyes. “I can help!”

“You will help,” Rex held his hands up placatingly, “we need someone to stay with the ship that can meet us at the exit. I get a feeling we’re going to need to make a quick get away.”

“Aww, why can’t Tech do it?”

“We need Tech to help Gregor and Echo hack the systems,” Rex explained calmly. “This is a stealth mission, Wrecker, and those aren’t your, uh… strong suit.”

Wrecker groaned, pulling his helmet off and slunking off to sit on a crate. Omega patted his hand.

“Sorry, Wrecker. But I just can’t take any risks with this.”

“Nah, I understand,” and to Wrecker’s credit, he did sound like he meant it.

Rex nodded and gestured for the others to follow him off the ship.

Before Omega could get far, Hunter grabbed her elbow.

“Omega.... I want you to stay on the ship with Wrecker.”

Omega frowned.

“Why? I can help!”

Hunter sighed. She stood with arms crossed as she leveled a glare at Hunter and her eyes filled with that stubborn indignation she’d been showing more and more since she’d reached her teenage years.

As she got older, every time she glared at him like that she looked more and more like--

“We’re walking straight into an Imperial base,” Hunter said, trying to keep his tone as even as possible. “You remember what happened last time.”

“It was my idea to help on this mission.”

“It was,” Hunter conceded. “Though, you didn’t exactly talk it through with us before offering.”

She had the grace to look a little chastised at that.

“This is dangerous, Omega. High level stuff, not what we usually do. I don’t want you to get hurt.”

He trailed off and the fire seemed to go out from under Omega with her disappointed sigh.

“Fine,” she said. “But I don’t like it. If you get caught again, we will be having words.”

Hunter chuckled. “Noted.”

Her eyes searched his face a moment longer before she flung her arms around his waist, burying her face in his chest.

“Be careful.”

“I will,” he rested his chin on top of her curls. “I promise.”

Hunter’s commlink beeped and Rex’s voice filled the room.

“Hunter, let’s move out.”

Omega pulled back and crossed her arms as Hunter pulled on his helmet. She waved to him as he walked down the ramp, her and Wrecker both watching as the group started making their way toward the base of the mountain.

Hunter stared up at the mountain as they worked their way through the forest, his mind jumping back to the last time they had been on this planet, attempting a rescue from this exact base. Hopefully this time went better than the last. Hopefully no one was captured again. Hopefully they could get in and out without alerting anyone, though his squad was never that lucky.

Hopefully Crosshair isn’t here, Hunter thought as they climbed into the vent shaft. They hadn’t seen nor heard from Crosshair since the day they left Tipoca City. The Empire was large and the Galaxy even larger, so the chances were slim. He hoped. He really wasn’t in the mood to deal with a family reunion today.

[iampikachuhearmeroar]

sometime in this last week, or this week coming, my blog has turned/turns 10. god. a decade old. a whole ass chunk of my life i’ve spent on this hellsite. when i began on here, i was a kid. a lost, lonely, depressed and anxious 15/16 year old kid. a kid scared of her future. a kid confused about her future. what to do for uni. to change schools or not??? to do drama/acting at uni or english/philosophy or to move 8hrs away to another regional uni to “escape” her “washed up, dead end hometown” that was so typical of all the pop-punk music that she was listening to at the time.

she was a tad overdramatic, loud, “funny” (as described by her school friends) and terribly forgetful in regards to homework and school assignments. she was angry at the world, most especially the catholic school she was fucking sick and tired of attending. but she was convinced that since she was the so-called “funny girl”, that she simply couldn’t be depressed or anxious. she believed herself unloveable because she didn’t look like a weird mixture of hayley williams and emo-pop queen lights. but now, i no longer believe that i have to look like the women that i looked up to in the ~emo scene~. fuck beauty standards. i am loveable.

in the years since joining tumblr, i’ve managed to get through business college, my undergrad degree and, well, failed out of postgrad due to obvious burnout and health issues amongst other things. although i’ve lost many friends irl and many followers/mutuals online on here. for those who’ve stuck around to see me get through all of this, thank you. to all the friends/casual mutuals that have since deactivated or only followed me for a short time then unfollowed; thank you.

like obviously i was never/have never been a massive popular blog on here, like thebootydiaries or vampireapologist (who has since deactivated a couple of months ago) with tens of thousands of followers. my follower count is still close to the 8,000 range at 7,892. obviously that’s still a lot of people (and of course, porn bots lmao and many, many non-active blogs), enough like one super old post from like 2012 tumblr pointed out, enough for a small to medium sized city or town, or something like that. i don’t know how many people i’ve really reached. i really don’t know how i actually amassed this small army of people.

i am aware though, that on other platforms like snapchat (lmao does anyone even use it anymore in 2021???)/instagram/youtube/tiktok etc, i’d PROBABLY be considered as some type of ~micro influencer (🤮🤮)~. hell, i actually had a bot slide into my notes about being one on here on this hellsite back in 2019. i don’t know if i’ve ever actually ~influenced~ anyone on here with my shitposts (when i started making some) or my personal posts. i don’t know my reach. even though, now, i do occasionally get featured on buzzfeed listicles (although pay me buzzfeed along with the OPs of those original embedded posts), i still don’t know how many people i’ve reached… and even with my very occasional checks of google analytics lmao. on top of this, grappling with the loss of followers at times is much, much easier than it was when i began on here and the first few years following that. i know that my follower count doesn’t determine my worth and stuff.

but over these 10 years, i have grown. i turn 26 this year. back in 2011, 15/16yo me never thought she’d be here. she was partially down the suicidal thoughts hole, with things about ~picturing her funeral and wondering who’d bother to turn up. if only she could pretend to be dead for a day to see who’d give a fuck~ and 16-18yo me was defs down it with her HSC hellscape thoughts in 2012/2013. that 3rd floor tafe/tech women’s bathroom window drop and the thought of scarring her class for life (and that cool dude from catholic school that she crushed on who ended up at tafe with her) with jumping out of it onto the concrete below. instead, she just posted on fb about ~being a failure~ etc which ultimately did lose her a bunch of facebook friends lmao. it was practically the same thing. her mental breakdown after the end of her hsc, where she let her earrings go green and get infected in her ears because “fuck self care, bc what the fuck is it??? i’ll never get better! let me fucking wallow in my self loathing bc it’s the only thing that i’m fucking good at!!!” so i no longer have my ears pierced. oh! it was just all too fucking much!!

i am happier today. i no longer have those semi-suicidal thoughts. hell, i almost died in 2020 from a fucking bowel aneurysm, after my stomach tumour excision surgery. that forced me to put things into perspective. i appreciate the little things . i appreciate the very few friends that i actually have. yes. i’m still depressed and anxious. some days are still shitty and hard. but nowhere as hard and shitty as they were back when i began on here 10 years ago.

how the fuck last 10 years have gone past, with my ass on here; clearing out my blog and caring more about doing that than my uni work (lmao whoops); having made some lifelong friends both internationally (from the US) and long distance domestically in australia, it’s been a long ride; i honestly have no fucking idea. obviously over these past 10 years, i’ve debated with myself over and over and over again whether i should delete/deactivate this account or not. would it make me healthier??? more than likely. but then when i have meltdowns or just inner ramblings i have to get out somewhere, where else to post??? on fb?? obvs not. it’s “attention seeking” or the like on there. no one will read them. no one will resonate. but on here??? even if i got/get one “like” in the notes or one “yo i feel this” response in the tags or replies, it feels like i’ve reached someone??? okay yeah. i know this place IS NOT therapy and i’m not using my followers as amateur (or probs even actual professional) armchair psychologists…. which is a thing i think people need to stop doing internet-wide: but that’s a whole other post that i reblogged a few days ago lmao. i really need to get another therapist, actually lmao.

but it’s the community i’ve found hard to leave. i have what feel like friends, when i’ve never been employed (still as of yet); and when all of my irl friends/acquaintances are working and doing the whole ~adulting~ and ~grown up life~ thing right. it’s also the frenzied rabidness of spite with hating staff’s godawful ideas. the memes. oh the memes. and also the RaWrInG 20s XD emo scene reemergence on here that’s kept me here. the messy petty drama from time to time of big blogs fighting it out.

this place really is bizarre and fun sometimes. and also the fact that i can still hide behind the ridiculous “roaring pikachu” URL that i made all those years ago. i am anonymous. it’s freeing. but on fb it’s all like “WHY WONT YOU ADD A BANNER IMAGE AND TELL US 20 FUN FACTS ABOUT YOU!!!!!???? LET PEOPLE WHO HAVENT SPOKEN TO YOU IN 10 YEARS KNOW EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU BECAUSE WE’RE ALL FRIENDS HERE!!!” and the same goes for Corporate Hellscape Facebook™️ (linkedin) but in the professional sense instead. y’all know fuck all about me really. besides my posts. and i love that and live for that. okay yeah. y’all know more about my mental health than my fb feed obvs… which is probably a terribly unfortunate thing. but still.

over the last 10 years then, my superiority complex for being ~so original and intelligent~ or whatever the fuck i had in high school, has all but ebbed away. i’m not that smart just because i went to uni. hell, i literally did NONE of my in-class work and none of my philosophy readings in uni….. so i have fuck all idea of how i got through undergrad like that lmao. i’m not original when so many people can articulate the same thoughts that i have, but like, sometimes better, on a post (even though sometimes/most of the time the Tumblr User Hot Takes Tuesday™️ takes on here are fucking awful lmao). but still. originality is not something i really have anymore. or really had in the first place lmao.

so will i deactivate after these 10 years, like i’ve been saying for so, so long??? i honestly have no idea. but just know. thanks guise. have a nice gpoy selfie day XD. grab your wands. your tardises. grab your war paint. grab your whatever the fuck other fandom specific stuff that was one that hella cringe post from 2011 til 2015 random tumblr. that relic is as old as time itself. just as this mysterious roaring pikachu is for someone whose too loyal to leave this W E B B E D H E L L S I T E that’s just as much of a train wreck as she is. lmao.

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i was tagged by the always lovely @keiraknightlcygf and i'm tagging: @startingthecase, @jammeke, @brontes, @faslaidir, and anyone who wants to do this tag! 💌

1. Why did you choose your url?

it was years ago when i just switched my major to english in undergrad and i was really excited about it and wanted to get hyped and fall in love with the subject that i cared about on here too and it just stuck ever since! but i'm always thinking about changing it and never taking the plunge....... maybe one day...... one day

2. Any side blogs?

yeah! i have a multifandom blog, a reference blog, and a gradblr and i barely use any of them but they're still there!

3. How long have you been on tumblr?

oof since 2011 and now it's 2021 and i remember making it in like? august? so 10 year anniversary is coming up! and i never thought i'd be in grad school.... still on this site.... but wow the passage of time!

4. Do you have a queue tag?

nope! i tried using my queue a few times but i really just prefer reblogging one or two or a million things at once and then disappearing

5. Why did you start this blog in the first place?

i moved blogs bc a bunch of irl people were following me on my original one and i just didn't feel comfortable reblogging what i wanted to so i moved and i'm always glad i did that!

6. Why did you choose your icon?

it's lizzie bennet from 2005 p&p with the cutest background and i love her your honor i don't think i'll ever change it!

7. Why did you choose your header?

i just reblogged a pretty art piece and i thought "i could make a mobile theme around this color scheme" and then i did which is how my normal thought process for mobile themes goes

8. How many mutuals do you have?

oh no clue— is that something you can track? i know loving mutuals is the Thing now but i just like everyone i follow tbh otherwise i wouldn't follow them

9. How many followers do you have?

more than i'd ever thought would follow me! and i'm eternally grateful and totally shocked every time i look at it! i'm actually about to hit a milestone soon so i'm even more shocked that anyone would want to follow me! thank you all for being here and always being so kind! 💛

10. How many do you follow?

622! i went through and unfollowed a few inactive blogs but i know it's quite a lot lmao i like having a fast dash and i watch a variety of media so i like having new recommendations of things to watch

11. Have you ever made a shitpost?

yeah and none of them are funny but they make me laugh in the moment!

12. How often do you use tumblr a day?

pretty often since it's the only social media i actively go on— any time want to scroll through something i go on here

13. Did you have a fight/argument with another blog once?

i don't think so? i hope not! i really don't like hurting others or being mean or confrontation so i can't think of anything

14. How do you feel about ‘you need to reblog this’ posts?

i really dislike them bc usually those comments are from other people and i feel like they either derail or detract from the op's point or just encourage a passive activism that remains in a performative realm rather than actively researching or wanting find out more about a certain topic or issue

15. Do you like tag games?

i do! i like the thought that someone would tag me and i think they're fun but i'm always bad at doing them bc they tend to disappear from my notes or i just get swamped with work and forget fjsnkfdsjnf

17. Which mutuals do you think are tumblr famous?

ooo no clue there might be some but i genuinely don't care bc if i follow you it's bc i like the things you reblog or post and that's what matters not how popular or "tumblr famous" you are which is why i like that you can't see how many followers someone has it takes a lot of the pressure off of you and you can just enjoy the things you reblog instead!

18. Do you have a crush on a mutual?

all of them i adore you all and wish nothing but good things to happen to you!

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Post-Op Care

Pairing: Jensen Ackles x Fem!Reader

Summary: Dr. Ackles is off duty as he brings his wife to the hospital for an appendectomy. He takes care of her post surgery and helps her through the recovery.

A/N: Feedback is always welcome!!

Words Count: 1830

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It was a tense few hours for Jensen. He spent it pacing around outside Y/N’s hospital room waiting for an update. She had gone into the operation room two hours ago. Her appendix had ruptured and she had to go into immediate surgery.

It all happened so suddenly. Y/N came home from work in a rotten mood, and suddenly she collapsed in pain clutching her stomach. Jensen freaked out when she yelled for him and rushed her to the hospital. The doctor part of his mind knew exactly what was wrong, but the part that loved her to bits was freaking out. It didn’t help that Y/N was crying. She panicked even more when she found out that she had to go into immediate surgery. He reassured her that it would all be fine.

It was a simple procedure, but it was taking longer than expected. He was worried something had gone wrong. He knew he should’ve fought harder to be the one performing it. But the stupid policy said that you couldn’t perform surgery when you’re too damn close to the case. In this case, it was his wife. So he could do nothing but pace around and feel helpless, a feeling that was quite scary for a surgeon.

He finally saw the elevator doors opening and Misha and a couple of nurses rolled her out and into the room.

“She’s fine Jensen. There was a small complication, but we handled it. She’s just fine.” He reassured his friend and went ahead to explain in detail. After everything had been explained and sorted, Jensen was alone in the room, sitting by her bed waiting for her to wake up.

30 mins later Y/N woke up with a small gasp, sending Jensen into a frenzy. She was having a minor panic attack. A nurse rushed in to help, but Jensen was having none of it. He knew his wife and knew what would help her. It wasn’t her first panic attack.

“I got this!” He said, a bit harshly to the nurse, and she left understanding his intentions. “Baby, calm down. You’re okay. You’re just fine, honey.” He tried to calm her down. After 15 mins of holding her and whispering sweet words, she managed to calm her breathing. A couple of tears escaped down her face and Jensen wiped them away. The nurse brought in a glass of water with a straw and he helped her take small sips to ease the pain in her throat.

“J-Jay…” She whispered. “What happened? I couldn’t breathe.” God he hated how small and weak her voice sounded.

“There was a minor complication, but Misha handled it. The surgery went fine otherwise. You just had a small panic attack when you woke up, sweetheart. Your emotions were all over the place before you went into surgery so your mind focused on the last thing it remembered before the anesthesia took effect. You’re fine now.” He said, placing a kiss to her forehead.

Misha came in to check on her, and by the time everything was done, it was evening and Jensen got something to eat from the hospital canteen while Y/N took a nap.

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An hour later, Y/N woke up from her nap, “Jay, I need to pee.”

Jensen gave her a small smile and removed the IV tube from her hand and helped her up. She hadn’t tried walking yet and she was nervous. “I got you, baby.”

“My legs are so wobbly” She chuckled lightly.

“Yeah, they’ll be that way for a day. It’s because of the general anesthesia. It’ll get better as it wears off.” He explained gently. He led her into the bathroom and gently lowered her onto the toilet. Once she was done he helped her to the sink to clean up and then led her back to the bed. He raised the bed slightly so she was sitting up instead of lying down.

“Jay, you do realise that there are nurses to help with my bathroom needs right?” Y/N said amused. Jensen was busy fixing her IV back and massaged her hand as she flinched a little.

“Well lucky for you, your husband is a surgeon in this hospital and you get top notch service for post-op care.” He grinned at her cheekily making her giggle.

“How long do you have off?”

“As long as it takes to get you better, Sweetheart. Misha has got someone to cover my shifts.”

“Bless him. We should invite him and Victoria over for dinner sometime. Oh Jared and Gen too.”

Jensen chuckled at her, “Baby let’s first focus on getting you better before we throw a party.”

“Yeah, good idea.” She smiled tiredly at him.

“Sleep, sweetheart. I’ll be right here.” He smiled softly at her, caressing her cheek with the back of his fingers.

“You don’t have to stay here Jay. That bed looks far from comfortable.” Y/N frowned at the bed.

“Hey you just worry about healing. I’m not leaving you alone, Y/N. I’m going to be right here.” He said pecking her lips softly. He watched a soft smile come on her face as she soon drifted off to sleep.

Jensen stayed awake for a while. Misha came to check on them and they chatted for a while before he had to get back home. He then watched TV for a bit before climbing into the too small bed. Just as he was about to sleep he heard a small whimper from Y/N. He quickly went to her and saw her face scrunched up in pain.

“Y/N what’s wrong?” He whispered, gently waking her up.

“My hand” She said, wincing in pain, “The IV hurts Jay. I want to take it out.”

“Oh baby, just two more days” he said, frowning, “It’ll be over before you know it.”

Y/N always had a low tolerance to pain. She did anything possible to not feel it. And watching her even in slight pain had Jensen worried about her. But now with the surgery and the horrible day she had, he knew she was emotionally exhausted too. He pulled up a chair and sat beside her bed and placed her hand on the bed and began massaging the area around the IV tube with one hand. He was gentle so he wouldn’t move the needle in her veins. He saw her face slowly relax at that.

“Is that better, honey?”

“Y-yeah, it is.”

“Sleep, Y/N. It won’t hurt anymore. I promise. I’m right here.” He said, still massaging.

��I’m sorry I’m such a wimp.” She said sniffling.

“You just had surgery and you’re in pain and exhausted. You’re not a wimp. You’re dealing with this like a champ, sweetheart.” He said, stopping for a minute to wipe away her tears. “I’ve got you, love.”

Jensen massaged her hand until she fell asleep and then placed a gentle kiss on her head before going to bed to himself. He wished she was never in pain in the first place. It hurt him to see her like this even if it was a simple procedure. She’d gone through enough pain for a lifetime.

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The next day was much better. Y/N was recovering from the surgery. She was beginning to walk by herself now and that was exactly what they were doing at the moment. Jensen was helping her take a round on the floor they were on, bumping into colleagues and old patients. Y/N’s mood had improved greatly as she got used to the stitches on her abdomen. The IV tube in her hand was much bearable during the day since she had a lot of distractions.

Jared, Gen and Victoria were a godsend. They spent the afternoon entertaining her and occasionally Misha would pop by and make sure everything was going smoothly. But things got a bit tense after they left. A nurse arrived asking Jensen to leave so she could give Y/N a sponge bath.

“Dr. Ackles, please understand that it’s policy. You know this better than anyone.” She said pointedly when he refused to leave Y/N alone.

“But I’m a goddamn doctor here! I can do this myself!” He glared at her.

“Jay, please” Said Y/N tiredly. She was getting annoyed with his overbearing behaviour. It was one thing for him to take her to the bathroom, but to give her a sponge bath in the hospital? Married or not she ain’t letting that happen!

“Y/N, I just want to make sure you’re fine.”

“How can I not be fine with a nurse, Jay?”

“But-”

“Dr. Ackles, I promise to take good care of your wife. Now please let me do my job.” She said sternly.

Right then Misha walked into the door, “What’s going on here? I was walking by and I heard arguing.”

“Mish, I’m just trying to take care of my wife! I don’t want anyone else giving her a bath!” Exclaimed Jensen.

“Misha, please tell my husband that he’s being an absolute idiot and take him away.” Said Y/N rolling her eyes.

“You heard her Jens, come on, out you go. Doctor’s orders.” He said, smirking a little.

“You can’t order me, Collins! You’re not my boss.” He glared at him.

“Well, right now you’re just the husband to my patient caz you’re not on duty. So I can tell you what to do, Ackles. Move it, let Arya do her job.”

Jensen glared at Misha and very reluctantly left the room with him. He didn’t have a retort to that because he knew Misha was right. He was just being over protective. It wasn’t that he wanted to be this overprotective husband. But everything about this whole situation was bugging him. It was just highly emotional and the anxiety levels for both of them were high. It was his job to take care of his wife and as a doctor he felt the need more than anyone. Misha patted his back with a smile and left in a hurry to go about his business.

After what felt like an eternity, the nurse left. Y/N, now freshly dressed in a new gown looked much better. Jensen too had calmed down considerably.

“How’re you feeling, honey?”

“Much better, Jay” She smiled at him.

He carded his fingers through her hair as she closed her eyes in bliss.

“Wanna take a nap?”

“Only if you take one with me.” She scooted over, making space for him.

“Y/N…”

“Please, Jay. I just need you here.”

He tried really hard to resist, but he just wanted her to be comfortable and happy. So he climbed in next to her and she put her head on his chest and they both fell asleep tucked into each other. As long as she was in his arms everything was going to be fine. He’d make sure of it.

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EVERYBODY’S PICKIN’ UP ON THAT FELINE BEAT, PART 36

I came back to work on this a little and realized that I had enough to post.  And yes, I am still working on this, slowly but surely.

Part 1.  Part 2.  Part 3.  Part 4.  Part 5.  Part 6.  Part 7.  Part 8.  Part 9.  Part 10.  Part 11. Part 12.  Part 13.  Part 14.  Part 15.  Part 16.  Part 17.  Part 18.  Part 19. Part 20.  Part 21.  Part 22. Part 23. Part 24. Part 25. Part 26.  Part 27. Part 28. Part 29. Part 30. Part 31. Part 32. Part 33.  Part 34. Part 35.

Title: everybody’s picking up on that feline beat Author: Sorrel Fandom: Fallout 4 Rating: Mature Warnings: None Relationships: Deacon/Female Sole Survivor Series: Part 3 of everybody wants to be a cat

  It’s late when he gets back.  A few hours after sunset, probably, though he's not exactly sure how many.  His time-sense has gotten all out of whack lately.  He always gets confused at the tail end of summer, when the days aren't the length they're supposed to be, and he's gotten used to having a chrono on-hand, as it were.  Even if it's not his hand.

  There's just enough moonlight coming through the skylight that he can navigate his way through the dark, empty atrium, picking his way past the bodies they left where they fell.  If the Institute comes looking, they'll find a den of raiders that took advantage of their distraction to steal their chemist, and a bloodbath that followed when a Brotherhood squad came through to clean up the mess.  As far as anyone would be able to tell, they were never here at all.

  His knees go a little weak when he spots the short, lumpy shadow of the packs at the base of the steps.  Both packs.  She's still here.  She waited for him.

  He's not sure if that feeling in his chest is relief or terror.  Maybe both.

  His head aches as he climbs the steps to the second floor, moving dreamy and slow, like he's underwater.  He hasn't slept since yesterday afternoon.  Apparently it shows, based on how hard High Rise lobbied for him to crash in one of the spare rooms, but Deacon just dropped off his report and headed out with a smile.  There were one too many curious looks, people wondering why he was on his own.  Too many questions he wasn’t prepared to answer.

  There's a door open at the end of the hall: their makeshift bedroom, the one with no external windows and a minimal amount of blood on the walls.  It's where they slept before, waiting for the op, and it's where Whisper's sleeping now: curled up in a little ball on the stained mattress, with one hand on the knife under her pillow and the other tugging her too-big coat up over her shoulders like a blanket.  Her face seems hollow and strange in the faint greenish light of her Pip-boy, sitting on the upturned crate she's using as a night table.  She doesn't usually leave it turned on when she's not wearing it, says it runs down the battery.  She only leaves it active like that when she's trying to keep her comms line open.  She must still be wearing her earpiece.  Fell asleep waiting to hear from him.

  Ah, fuck.

  He's not sure if she heard him coming up the steps, but she doesn't move when he comes in and sits down on the end of the mattress, so he knows she's awake.  He waits, staring silently at the gang tag spray-painted on the wall, for her to say something.  Yell at him, maybe, for running off.  Demand what the fuck he thought he was doing.  Hell, even make a joke—it'd tear at his insides, making light of this, but what the fuck, right?  It's what they do.

  But she says nothing, and that's when he knows what he has to do.

  "When I was young," he says to the wall, "a hell of a long time ago, I was… well, scum."

  She stays silent, but he senses movement, quickly arrested.  When he sneaks a glance at her out of the corner of his eye, her eyes are open and fixed on his face.  He looks quickly away.

  "I was a bigot.  A very… violent bigot.  I ran with a gang in University Point.  We called ourselves the U-P Deathclaws."

  "Catchy," she says, her voice hoarse from the clinging remnants of sleep.

  "I know, right?  That's what happens when you let teenagers name things."

  "No taste at all," she agrees.  Her heavy-lidded gaze is watchful.  "So what'd you do?"

  "Oh, the usual.  Drank, stole shit, took inadvisable amounts of chems, kicked around trash cans—you know, the same shit hooligans always do when they're trying to make themselves look tough."

  "Sounds familiar."  She hauls herself to a sitting position, arms wrapped loosely around her knees, her back to the wall.  Her face is fully clean; she must have found some solvent to scrub off the last of the grease paint.  The green light from her Pip-boy gives her face a gaunt, somber cast.  "We all make mistakes when we're young."

  "A mistake or two, yeah.  But what I did…"  He takes a breath, lets it out slow.  "One of the older boys, he had a real mad-on about the Institute.  His mom disappeared when he was a kid—everyone figured she just took off, but his dad swore up and down the Institute must've taken her, and we all believed it.  So when we thought someone might be a synth, it just seemed right, y'know? We'd make their lives hell, and it was just.  It was fair.  The Institute took from us, so we sure as fuck were going to take back from them.  Any fucking way we could."

  From the look on her face, she already knows where this story is going to go.  But he tells her anyway: the whole sordid story, piece by excruciating piece.  She doesn't say anything when he tells her about the beatings, and doesn't say anything when the beatings graduated to a lynching, and she keeps on not saying anything when he tells her about getting out, starting over halfway across the Commonwealth.  The only time she makes a sound is when he tells her about Barbara—he hears a quick intake of breath when he says her name, so quiet he wouldn't have caught it if he hadn't been listening.  But when he looks over, she's just watching him, her face and body arranged into perfect, doll-like stillness.  Giving him nothing.

  "And that's when I got approached by a recruiter from HQ," he says, finally.  "I guess they figured I'd be sympathetic, seeing that I'd lost my wife.  And, well."  He shrugs, a short minimalist roll of his shoulders. "What I did afterwards."

  "They didn't know you used to run with the Claws?"

  It's the first time she's spoken in a while, and the familiar pitch of her sleep-roughened voice tears at his throat like a feral's teeth.  Deacon looks down at his hands, the fingers twining restlessly together.  "It'd been a few years, and I using another name. And I'd just killed everyone who could recognize me from that life.  Still.  Think I spent the first year, at least, waiting for the other shoe to drop."  Until the Institute almost wiped them out, anyway.  Then it was too late.  "Never did.  Nobody ever figured me out."

  "You are good at what you do," she says, neutrally.  She's not wearing her shades, but she might as well be, with how little he can get off her face.  "So that's how you ended up with the Railroad?"

  "Yeah.  That's me.  The best con I ever pulled, after getting Barbara to marry me.  Not like I was any more honest with her than anyone else."  He stretches his legs out in front of him, studies the toes of his boots so he doesn't look at her face.  "That's who I am, you know.  A liar.  You think I'm like this because of the job?  Hell, no.  I'm a fraud right down to the core.  Always have been, always will be."

  Out of the corner of his eye he sees her open her mouth, but keeps going before she can say anything.

  "I mean, why do I even lie anymore?  Who could possibly give a shit? But I do.  I can't stop. Everyone—Tom, Dez, even that asshole Carrington—they deserve to be in the Railroad.  You?  You're a fucking hero.  You belong here.  I don't.  I'm everything that's wrong with the whole fucking Commonwealth."

  "Deacon-"

  Her voice is shredded.  There's a shine of tears in her dark eyes, and he holds up a hand to stop her, panic scrabbling inside his ribs.  "Let me finish, okay?  I had a whole speech here."

  She opens her mouth, and then closes it again, very deliberately.  He sees her twining her hands together, as if to keep herself from reaching out, and has to look away.

  "You're my best friend, you know?  Probably, uh.  Probably the only one, since we're on honesty hour here.  You're… you're pretty much all I've got.  So."  He takes a breath, feels it rattle anxiously in his chest when he exhales.  "I know I don't deserve for you to be okay with this.  And, hell, I'm not even asking for it.  I just…"  He stops. Clears his throat.  Tries, and fails, to bring himself to look her in the eye.  "I just figured you should know."

  Whisper says nothing—and keeps on saying nothing, for so long that he eventually, inevitably, has to give in and sneak a glance back towards her.  She's still watching him, with that steady, assessing expression: the same way she studies raider dens and mutie camps and every stupid, gullible mark that wears their heart on their sleeve, like a lever just waiting to be pulled.  She's never looked at him like that before and he hopes she never fucking does it again, because right now he feels more naked than he's ever been, fully dressed and wearing his shades and still stripped to the bone by the brutal clockwork efficiency of her regard.  Whatever dusty fragments of honesty he managed to pry up for her ruthless inspection, in that moment he knows that she's observed and cataloged a dozen things more he didn't even notice.  He's taught her too well for her to do anything else.

  When he finally manages to nerve himself up to catch her gaze, however, she still doesn't say anything.  Just rolls up to her knees and shuffles down the length of the mattress, tapping the earpiece of his shades with an inquisitive expression.  Gut churning, but basically unable to tell her no to just about anything right now, he nods and slides them off, tucking them into the front pocket of his shirt.  She meets his gaze, makes sure to hold it, and then kneels up and swings one leg over his thighs.

  His hands come up automatically to to steady her, then drop away to the mattress like they've been burned.  She shakes her head and settles more firmly into his lap, clutching his sleeve for balance, and he reaches up again, tentatively, to cup around her hips.  She smiles, a little sadly, and then leans down to press a kiss very precisely to the middle of his forehead.

  Deacon closes his eyes against the stupid, inexorable prickle of tears, and she kisses each eyelid, light as a butterfly.

  "You do what you gotta do to survive, D."  Her voice is a low murmur; intimate, almost confessional.  The kindness in her dark eyes detonates in his chest like a frag mine.  "That's all there is.  You take one step, and the next, and you tell yourself whatever you have to to keep moving, because if you don't you'll fall down and you'll never get back up again.  I know.  I know."

  "Whisper-"

  "And you don't have to apologize to anybody for it," she continues, relentless and beautiful with the same steely determination that takes out raiders and muties and Kellogg and anything that gets in her way.  "Not Dez, not Carrington, not me.  Especially not to me.  Okay?"

  There's really only one thing he can say.  "Yeah, okay." It takes a moment to remember how to move, but when he does he slides his hand up under her hair to cup the back of her neck the way she likes.  "Copy that, partner.  Loud and clear."

  Relief flashes across her face like a lightning strike.  "Good. That's- yeah."  She leans into his grip, breathing a sigh he feels down into his bones, and closes her eyes.  "That's good.  That's exactly what I needed to hear."

  They sit together for a while after that, just the two of them in the quiet.  After a bit Whisper shifts so that she's sitting sideways in his lap, her head tucked into the curve of his shoulder but determinedly keeping her grip on his sleeve.  He wraps his arms around her, rests his chin on the top of her head, and closes his eyes, gratitude a hazy burn at the back of his throat.

  He doesn't know what the fuck he did to deserve this, but damned if he's going to look a gift horse in the mouth.

  Eventually, she stirs, nuzzling a haphazard kiss to the underside of his jaw.  "We should sleep," she murmurs into his neck, and he shivers at the hot wash of her breath against his skin.

  "Probably a good idea," he agrees, but he doesn't move until she does, lurching out of his lap with a grunt.  He subtly stretches out one leg, and then the other, trying to shake away the tingles as blood goes flooding back, and then drops next to her longways on the mattress, not bothering to take off his boots.  She immediately rolls over and fits herself against his back, wrapping one skinny arm around his middle and fitting her knees up behind his like silverware in a drawer.

  "Thank you," she says, into his shoulder.  Already half-asleep, he grunts something that might have been an interrogative, and she sighs and nuzzles against the knob of his spine.  "For coming back.  For telling me.  For being here.  Just. Thanks."

  His jaw works for a moment before he can speak.  "Anytime, partner," he manages, and then she flicks off the light on her Pip-boy, and there's nothing but silence.

~*~

    He would have thought he’d sleep for shit, given everything that went down last night, but when he wakes up the next morning he feels almost refreshed.  He's not sure exactly what time it is, their room being distinctly lacking in windows, but there's a hint of dampness to the air slipping through the leaky siding, a breath of fog the sun hasn't yet had a chance to burn off.  Still early, then.  They probably weren't out more than four, five hours at most.

  They shifted positions sometime in the night, and Deacon lies there for a while, staring up at the ceiling and enjoying the warm, heavy weight of Whisper sprawled across his front.  She's breathing quietly into his collarbone, not quite a snore, and he'd love nothing more than to let her stay there forever, but they do, after all, have somewhere to be.

  "Whisper," he murmurs, running a hand down her back.  "Whisper, hey.  Time to get up, pal."

  "Kill you," she mumbles indistinctly into his shoulder.  "To death."

  "Wow, that's rude."  He sets his chin on top of her head and hums a jaunty tune, some old pre-War ad jingle that never fails to get a rise out of her.  Right on time, she makes an annoyed grunt and digs her chin into his collarbone.  "Ouch! Here I am, trying to make sure you enjoy the fruits of your labor, and you can't even muster some basic civility."  Nothing.  "C'mon, gorgeous, it's a beautiful morning out there.  The sun is shining, the birds are singing…"

  "So shoot 'em."  She makes a spirited attempt to burrow down into his ribcage, tucking her face defensively under his collar.  "They're probably Watchers anyway."

  "You're such a pessimist," he says fondly, and tweaks one of her curls.  "I'm serious, partner, time to rise and shine. Daylight's a-wastin', and you wanted to be across the river by lunchtime."

  She finally deigns to open her eyes, tilting her head back just enough to look at him in muzzy-eyed confusion.  "I did?"

  He smiles down at her, helplessly affectionate.  "You've got to pick up Valentine for his procedure, remember?"

  "You make it sound like he's going to the vet," she says automatically, but then comprehension filters into her eyes.  "Oh.  Shit.  Already?"

  "They say time does fly when you're having fun," he agrees.  "And as much as I'd love to keep the party going, we do have an appointment to keep.  You know how much I care about punctuality."

  "I believe your exact words were 'for suckers.'"

  "Exactly!  So no one will expect us on time.  It's all about keeping 'em off their toes."

  "If you could just dial down the cheer like, at least thirty percent, that would be just great."  She hauls herself into a vaguely vertical position and then just hangs there, elbows on her knees, staring resentfully at the wall.  He nudges her in the back and she grunts. "What? I'm up, leave me alone."

  "You're lying," he says, very kindly.

  "Takes one," she grumbles back, but puts a hand on his thigh and squeezes in wordless acknowledgement.  That's when he knows: she's not going to bring it up, ever again.

  God.  He really doesn't deserve her.

  "Sticks and stones, Livvy-love," he chirps, and grins when she levels him with a death glare.  "What?  I'm just getting into character."

  "I hate that you're a morning person, just so you know," she informs him, and stumbles out of bed.  "If you don't have coffee ready by the time we leave, there are going to be consequences."

[courage-a-word-of-justice]

One Punch Man 13 (S2 Ep 1) | Afterlost 1 | RobiHachi 1 | Kimetsu no Yaiba 2 - 3 | BSD 25 - 26 (S3 Eps 1 - 2) | King of Prism - Shiny 7 Stars 1 | Shield Hero 14 - 16 | Double Decker! EX 3 | Sarazanmai 2

The shows that have made it this season will be getting their tags...soon. Because I fell behind early in the season, trying to read ahead is nastier than it really should be...

Update: I forgot to roll out the tags...! Sorry about that.

One Punch Man 2 1

This season’s name…sounds counterintuitive, to say the least.

I love how Genos is carrying a box of hijiki (which looks like hair) and Saitama’s wearing a shirt that says “hair” (in kanji) all over it. It’s funny for a bald man and his “work of modern art”.

I never knew Genos was so blunt. Maybe because the last season was a good 2 – 3 years ago…and was by Madhouse and Shingo Natsume, and so this feels slightly different.

Oh, Sonic…! I didn’t realise how much I missed you! (Not to mention, you look hot with the off-the-shoulder shirt, y’know?)

“Enoki” is a type of mushroom.

Oh, Garou!...Oh wait, there isn’t much more of the episode left, is there…?

Afterlost 1

Oh great…this is the second time the subs don’t work on my device of choice. Then again, it seems to be a problem with the ad blocker and not the video…Okay, fiddling with the ad blocker worked.

Let’s play Spot the Main Character Amongst All the CGI Guys! Yay! (obviously sarcastic)

Without the volume…this OP is, to not put it lightly, s***.

Shoumetsu means “extinction”, not “lost”.

And the reward for Jankiest CGI this season belongs to…

Okay…this is stupid…if it f**ks up even more, I’m out of here!

I know the horned owl is your mascot, but that doesn’t mean you needed a real owl.

Waittttttttt…how did the scientists know Yuki’s father was responsible for this stuff anyway?

I feel like Takuya was shoehorned in. I mean, there’s a better example of this character type in Naofumi (Shield Hero).

This guy’s name, as we know it, is Geek. Wow (sarcastic). Also, I find it funny Takuya has a “ta” on his licence plate.

“…she’s just a package.” - Welp, you don’t get any more blatant than that for female denigration! I think Anime Feminist had a field day with this one.

Come to think of it, I saw some helmets back at Geek’s place but Takuya never seems to use one…

You had one job, Takuya…*sigh*

I swear I said a few previews ago I don’t like 1st person cam…no one ever listens to me, do they???

Not dis shitto agen!

Okay, enough complaining. It seems Yu-no wasn’t bad enough, so they had to produce something like the Chaos Dragon and Seisen Cerberus of old…

RobiHachi 1

It’s Takamatsu being Takamatsu again. Also… I forgot to mention this earlier, but…Taiga Umatani seems to be related to Kurari Umatani (who is credited for Boueibu), so…I wonder if it’s a collective writer’s name for Studio Comet, like Izumi Todo for Toei? The only thing that goes against that is the fact “Kurari” existed during the Diomedea days of Boueibu. Also Isekandar seems to be related to Yamato’s Iscandar (which Takamatsu seems to like, based on the fact he once used Matsumoto metres as a shorthand for being in space). If you don’t understand, Yamato’s endgoal contains a place called Iscandar and that’s by Leiji Matsumoto.

Okayyyyy…what are these rabbit creatures…? But yes, it does smack of Boueibu simply because the episode layout’s the same.

Hmm…? So Robby seems be En (the do-nothing life) in spirit, but Kinshiro in background, but also he runs away from his fortune. “Hmm” indeed.

Oh! That’s what this string of misfortunes reminds me of! The monsters of the day from Boueibu.

Acrymalide.

Hatchi is a Kinshiro in looks but an Atsushi by being a goody-goody.

Hmm…they actually bother to show girls now…apparently Takamatsu went to a boys-only school, which is why his original works focus on dudes (as in, you can pick out when Takamatsu is adapting someone else’s work because it has a heavier focus on girls as supporting characters).

Mechs and spaceships are probably two of the only ways I accept CGI…and you, Takamatsu sir, have just done it (the latter)!

Aw! Lookit his (Hatchi’s) face light up like a Beppu’s! It’s cute!

Hatchi getting out the hatch…lame, but still somewhat effectve on me (because that’s my wordplay game you’re playing, Takamatsu…!).

LOL, it’s a transforming mech. It seems my words from a few comments earlier were basically foretelling the future.

Kimetsu no Yaiba 2

Yikes, “Sakonji Urokodaki” has a lot of strokes…

My Little Sister Lives For Headpats…hey wait, don’t all anime kid sisters do that(?)

For some reason, I know the “Don’t Lose Your Way” meme from Kill la Kill and yet I’ve never…watched KlK…?(!)

I swore that was Giyu (it’s the haircut, I swear), but it’s a random demon…

When all you have is a hatchet…use your head. (LOL)

Ooh, nice eyecatch!

This is really black comedy, in a sense. (I remember this demon fight from the manga which is why I say that.)

Hmm…this wispy stuff wasn’t in the manga.

Come to think of it, I don’t know how Tanjiro got his scar…

If you squint really hard, you can see CGI Urokodaki and Tanjiro…

He probably has no footsteps because of his shoes. Or the fact he’s a ninja. Were there ninja in the Taisho era…? Update: Tanjiro has the same kind of shoes…oops.

Come to think of it, Daisuke from DN Angel had to dodge traps every day before he became Dark…(thinking of this because I reread the first volume of DN Angel recently)

Oh! Manga panel preview! That’s quite fun, really.

Kimetsu no Yaiba 3

I just really like how Tanjiro’s eyes grew larger with what was clearly resolution before he closed the door.

Why do the non-descript hunters look like Giyu too…?

I’ve never seen KnY so comedic…and that’s coming from someone who thought the Head Demon fight from last episode was funny.

Welp, this is…kinda interesting (<- says a fan of Touken Ranbu).

This letter writing…it reminds me of Kekkai Sensen somewhat.

This realistic water…it’s beautiful, but it looks like it came straight out of Niagara Falls. Is that…too realistic for anime?

“No matter…”

It’s a fox version of Speed of Sound Sonic! Then again, the real Sonic is around this season and probably won’t be happy about that comparison…

Is “that guy”…Giyu? Or the demon who slaughtered Tanjiro’s family?

Spider lilies! I didn’t mention it last time, but the symbolism of the spider lily makes the ED real cool.

Bungou Stray Dogs 26

I’v read the wiki page for Chuuya enough to know the next few eps involve the LN Fifteen, so even though I haven’t read a translation of the source material, I know some of the ins and outs of it already.

Ooh! Kitty! (If you’re a manga reader, you’ll know the cat’s significance.)

I think at this point in time, all viewers are used to Dazai’s bulls*** by now.

Is it just me…or did Bones use CGI for the city? It actually looks kind of good…! Sasuga Bones!

I have a fic that predates Fifteen and could be set in the same period (the fic’s vague enough that it could’ve been them at 15, 18 or even 12)…and basically the only thing I got wrong was the fact Chuuya doesn’t have his hat (because I wrote Chuuya as having his hat in the fic). Also, the banter is tenser than I imagined it, but that’s subjective and something only I, the fic writer, can compare.

I wonder who the yellow-tinted Ability holder is…? Update: That’s Randou. Spoke too soon.

There was a box in the subs…I wonder what symbol that might’ve been.

“…closest to the explosion.”

BSD 3 2

Oh, so that’s what Randou was for! I see now.

Chuuya may be OP, but he’s one heck of a fun character…also, he’s not as OP as Saitama, so…yeah.

Oh, the ED from last time is the OP. I should’ve known.

I like the almost storybook-style of this episode!

I thought Dazai was faking releasing the hostages…I was wrong.

Face-stealing aliens return! (They were around last ep too, I think, but they were harder to see then.)

Again, watch for the cat!

Well, with only one suspect (or 3, if you count the Sheep kids), it was quite easy to figure out one of them was behind it. I kind of suspected Randou, anyway, considering what I’ve learnt from all the mysteries I’ve read.

Because I was watching this episode with the volume down low (so I could hear the OP and ED), the volume really did work wonders for the plot this ep…!

King of Prism – Shiny 7 Stars 1

This is the final debut of the season, so basically how this and Shield Hero perform will decide what will stay and what will go. Oh, yeah…apparently this is the companion to a movie, but the movie and TV series have slightly different content.

This dude’s (the one at the very start’s) so grumpy.

…welp, I didn’t expect it to be that much CGI.

This chunk of exposition…makes me feel like I missed something. It was probably in the previous movies, come to think of it…

Basically, this is…uh, Makura no Danshi or Room Mate all over again??? I’m noping out of here…! Bye!

Shield Hero 14

I’m putting this on the chopping block…just so you know.

…uh, age gap romance? It’s hard to tell at this stage, but they (Filo and Melty) sure act like it is romance.

Welp, this survived the chopping block. “Raphtalia backstory” is a good enough reason to stick around for, isn’t it?

Double Decker! EX 3 (FINAL)

I always miss the OP when I’m not watching Double Decker, but I miss the ED even more…

I can’t believe they tried to get away with a Spirited Away parody…!

I can’t believe I get to see Dr Apple all buttered up like this…

I love how Kirill is censoring himself. (At least he can prove he’s not a girl, unlike Valery/Milla, whose entire shtick is the confusion between genders.)

Oh! I think I know the answer to the case already! It was Kirill’s soap, so Doug is the “killer”. But then…why is it Derick, of all people???

LOL, the angles were so reminiscent of Detective Conan…

Underwear-stealing sextuplets…? Why does that kind of sound like Osomatsu-san…?

Ahh…I really am going to miss this ED. See you next time!

Shield Hero 15

I never thought Raphtalia would be so angry…that’s Naofumi’s job.

Okay…it’s the age-old question: do demis listen with their animal ears or their human ears? Do they even have human ears??? (That’s 2 questions, isn’t it…?)

Uh…CGI dinosaur, much?

Shield Hero 16

…and of course, the Queen is a loli. Of course (<-sarcastic).

“Why’d I even have to feed this KFC farm?” – LOL, but I wonder what it sounded like in Japanese…? (i.e. I didn’t listen to it and when I try to do that, there’s always something over the top of it…)

Sarazanmai 2

I wonder if I’ll ever get used to watching Ikuhara on a weekly basis…?

Kappamaki…geddit?

Wait…y’mean, Keppi’s breath smells like cucumbers? Uh…okay, TMI.

Enta’s Japanese house kind of looks like the one in Mawaru Penguindrum.

Wait…why does the Japanese word for “Fish Buffet” (Osakanazanmai) end in –zanmai? Does that mean Sarazanmai is…Dish Buffet?! (LOL)

Notably, one of the signs said “Union” in katakana. It must be an English play on words…y’know, trade union and union = connecting with each other? I’m surprisingly enjoying myself a lot with Sarazanmai, by the way. I didn’t think I would, but I am!

I think that might be Irohassu water. Or Dasani. I saw both those brands in Japan, but I don’t remember which had the green flowers.

Oh…my goodness! Nekoyama (Cat Mountain) Mokichi (written with kanji for “hair” and “luck”). It’s a Boueibu monster! Frick, I’m laughing too hard!

It’s very small and very thin, but the word next to the cat in the eyecatch is neko.

“…Meow God!” – It’s a pun on “Oh, My God!” but with a “meow” in it. It’s pretty forced, but it does get the nuance of the joke across…

Why the heck did the subbers choose “herb” as the word for weed in this? “Weed” is sufficient, right? Right…?

Well…if that spurt of water wasn’t symbolic…I don’t know what is.

The title translates better as “…but I want to steal”. Y’know, add a little force into it.

The two As and the “sara” below it seem to make a zombie face, huh?

Ooh, that ending…

[evakuality]

So @folerdetdufoler tagged me in this roughly a million years ago but the last two weeks have been ... well, they’ve been and they can stay in the damn past because they were dreadful.  But.  Now it is now and I have a teeny bit of energy so let’s have a go at this, shall we.

rules – answer 21 questions and then tag people who you want to get to know better

nickname(s): I don’t think I have one anymore.  And I hated my high school one so I’m never breathing a word of it to anyone.

zodiac sign: Aries

height: 159 cm.  No idea what that is in feet.  I keep getting told random different numbers.

last movie I saw: Captain Marvel

last thing I googled: Ummmm???? I don’t remember ????  I google so much every day.  probably some word for someone in a class.  That’s what it usually is.

favourite musician: I don’t have one.  I tend to just go through phases of one person after another in a cycle so it’s all old as hell.  I don’t even have a person in my current phase, more of a genre.  Last person i went through was Adam Lambert

song stuck in my head: The 'I have a theory’ song from the Buffy musical episode because some asshole put it into my ear today and I can’t get rid of it.

other blogs: Nope

following: Roughly 100.  I think maybe 107?  I don’t remember.

followers: Somewhere around 1000, but I think 99% are bots that I was too lazy to eradicate and am now too lazy to wade through.

do I get asks: Yeah.  But usually when I ask for prompts (I am so getting onto those; I promise!).  the times when I get an actual not-begged-for ask are just lovely though.

amount of sleep: 5-6 hours?  Sometimes.  But then I crash one night and get like 10 and then start over again.

lucky numbers: 12, 15, 74

what I’m wearing: my work clothes.  Black pants, a multi-coloured top and an orange jacket thing.  Because orange is fabulous.

dream job: Being paid to write and/or read fanfiction.  And/or exotic hotel quality-control visitor.

dream trip: Brazil (again, because I loved it), China (to see my brother and his family), Norway (to visit Skam places and meet all my friends), with maybe a quick blat to Greece and Italy because I loved their history when I was a youngling.

favourite food: potatoes.  Pretty much of any kind and cooked any way.

instruments played: Nope

languages: Really only English with any confidence.  Though I pretend I speak more than a few words of several others.

favourite songs: See question on musician.  I don’t really have any.  Whatever I happen to love in the moment.

random fact: I don’t like hugs personally though I do love the concept.  Other people hugging: wonderful.  Me hugging: awkward tension, leaning away.

aesthetic: chaotic mess pretending to have everything under control.

Not tagging anyone, because I think everyone already did it.  But if you wanna have a go, feel free to jump on in here.

[okita-senpai]

TAGGED BY: @oiivkawa, @tsuyuake, @dicennio, @kmuiyato & @krshima ! thank you lovelies! <3

TAGGING: @aizawashoutta @atsushisnakajima @misakarose @levizs @todorokih @todorokiih @dekuzs (only if you guys want to! n o pressure, since i know you’re all busy <33)

RULES: ANSWER THESE 85 STATEMENTS AND TAG 20 (however many) PEOPLE

THE LAST

1. DRINK: water 2. PHONE CALL: my dad 3. TEXT MESSAGE: my dad LOL 4. SONG YOU LISTENED TO: nier automata’s soundtrack 5. TIME YOU CRIED: a month ago i think? 6. DATED SOMEONE TWICE: nope 7. KISSED SOMEONE AND REGRETTED IT: nope 8. BEEN CHEATED ON: no 9. LOST SOMEONE SPECIAL: yeah... 10. BEEN DEPRESSED: a few days ago~ It’s always on or off haha 11. GOTTEN DRUNK AND THROWN UP: never (i have a fear of throwing up OTL)

3 FAVOURITE COLOURS

12. salmon pink 13. light blue 14. red

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU

15. MADE NEW FRIENDS: yes 16. FALLEN OUT OF LOVE: no 17. LAUGHED UNTIL YOU CRIED: yes 18. FOUND OUT SOMEONE WAS TALKING ABOUT YOU: yes (relatives are such a pain sometimes :))) ) 19. MET SOMEONE WHO CHANGED YOU: no 20. FOUND OUT WHO YOUR FRIENDS ARE: yes 21. KISSED SOMEONE ON YOUR FACEBOOK LIST: no GENERAL

22. HOW MANY OF YOUR FACEBOOK FRIENDS DO YOU KNOW IN REAL LIFE: like 97% of them LOL 23. DO YOU HAVE ANY PETS: yes I have two cats :3 24. DO YOU WANT TO CHANGE YOUR NAME: naah, I like what my parents named me :) 25. WHAT DID YOU DO FOR YOUR LAST BIRTHDAY: Got treated for sushi & went skating with friends <3 26. WHAT TIME DID YOU WAKE UP: 11am 27. WHAT WERE YOU DOING AT MIDNIGHT LAST NIGHT: ...playing enstars & love live / reading fanfics c: 28. NAME SOMETHING YOU CAN’T WAIT FOR: To meet my best friend I haven’t seen in forever.  29. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU SAW YOUR MOM: 1 min ago xD 31. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW: fma op- again 32. HAVE YOU EVER TALKED TO A PERSON NAMED TOM: no actually, omg 33. SOMETHING THAT IS GETTING ON YOUR NERVES: the us president & the people who follow him... 34. MOST VISITED WEBSITE: tumblr, twitter, youtube 35. HAIR COLOUR: brown (it was supposed to be purplish brown but it didn’t come out that way LOL) 36. LONG OR SHORT HAIR: medium?  37. DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH ON SOMEONE: I think sooo orz 38. WHAT DO YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF: I can empathise with some people??? c: 39. PIERCINGS: ears (i only have two but i want to get one more :3) 40. BLOOD TYPE: tbh idk lmao 41. NICKNAME: n/a 42. RELATIONSHIP STATUS: single 43. ZODIAC: pisces 44. PRONOUNS: she/her 45. FAVOURITE TV SHOW: brooklyn nine nine 46. TATTOOS: i wish :( 47. RIGHT OR LEFT HANDED: right 48. SURGERY: n/a 50. SPORT: swimming, skating & soccer 51. VACATION: japan! or europe~ 52. PAIR OF TRAINERS: ...3?? I think lmao

MORE GENERAL

53. EATING: peanut butter sandwich 54. DRINKING: water 55. I’M ABOUT TO: play more enstars help 56. WAITING FOR: my parents bdays bc we’re staying at a hotel! c: 57. WANT: a ps4 pls      58. GET MARRIED: sure, but i’m not in any rush  59. CAREER: idk cries graphics maker for ads?

WHICH IS BETTER

60. HUGS OR KISSES: both! 61. LIPS OR EYES: both 62. SHORTER OR TALLER: taller 63. OLDER OR YOUNGER: older 64. NICE ARMS OR NICE STOMACH: nice arms......... bc someone showed me some light ;))) ....but both are good too omg 65. HOOK UP OR RELATIONSHIP: relationship 66. TROUBLEMAKER OR HESITANT: hesitant (but a bit of a trouble maker)

HAVE YOU EVER

67. KISSED A STRANGER: nope 68. DRANK HARD LIQUOR: nope 69. LOST GLASSES/CONTACT LENSES: yes 70. TURNED SOMEONE DOWN: no 71. SEX ON THE FIRST DATE: no 72. BROKEN SOMEONE’S HEART: I don’t think so?? 73. HAD YOUR HEART BROKEN: yes 74. BEEN ARRESTED: no 75. CRIED WHEN SOMEONE DIED: yes 76. FALLEN FOR A FRIEND: yes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN

77. YOURSELF: not really LOL 78. MIRACLES: yes 79. LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT: no 80. SANTA CLAUS: no 81. KISS ON THE FIRST DATE: yes 82. ANGELS: yes

OTHER

84. EYE COLOUR: dark brown 85. FAVOURITE MOVIE: atm it’s deadpool, that movie was awesome :’)

[kxowledge]

i know i have a been tagged in a few things and eventually i’ll do them all, for now i want to tackle this 85 question tag, since @thecynical-idealist & @devil–in–suit & @baeronism tagged me (thank you all!). so here’s it, in case anyone want to know pointless and random things about me, even though i failed to provide detailed answers and instead often oped for monosyllabic ones

the last

1. drink: water 2. phone call: a friend  3. text message: a friend 4. song you listened to: Hallelujah 5. time you cried: can’t remember exactly, though proably not many months ago 6. dated someone twice: no 7. kissed someone and regretted it: uh yes 8. been cheated on: not that I know  9. lost someone special: my gran 10. been depressed: too many times  11. got drunk and thrown up: yes

3 favourite colours

12. burgundy  13. black 14. millennial pink

in the last year have you

15. made new friends: yes 16. fallen out of love: never been in the first place 17. laughed until you cried: yeah probably 18. found out someone was talking about you: uhm no?  19. met someone who changed you: every person I meet/talk to has an effect on me 20. found out who your friends are: already knew before, but I suppose now I have cut out more people from my life 21. kissed someone on your facebook list: what

general

22. how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life: the only reason I have facebook is to always be updated on the campus events and to learn what the fuck were the names of the people I talk to because I am shitty with names 23. do you have any pets: yes, two cats (one lives with my parents, one with my grandparents – I split my time between both) 24. do you want to change your name: I’d love to add a second name, purely because it’s sound more academic 25. what did you do for your last birthday: it was a Monday, I went to class, went to a conference and probably did everyday stuff, but I remember I was happy 26. what time did you wake up: 8am 27. what were you doing at midnight last night: reading 28. name something you can’t wait for: going to Bath! classes starting! 29. when was the last time you saw your mum: two weeks ago 31. what are you listening to right now: 32. have you ever talked to a person named tom: yes 33. something that is getting on your nerves: back pain and people shouting at me instead of talking. the rest is easy to ignore and deliberate ignorance is pure bliss 34. most visited website: google and gmail according to my statistics 35. hair colour: brown 36. long or short hair: long.  37. do you have a crush on someone: lol no 38. what do you like about yourself: i can always manage to be liked by everyone and not cause any problem 39. piercings: none 40. blood type: 0+ 41. nickname: I think each of my friend calls me in a different way, but usually it’s Dori(s), though lately most people call me by my full name 42. relationship status: don’t want one 43. zodiac: taurus 44. pronouns: she 45. favourite tv show: im currently only watching Game of Thrones 46. tattoos: none and I don’t think I’ll ever will get one 47. right or left handed: right

first

48. surgery: never had one 49. piercing: ears 50. sport: gymnastics  51. vacation: Slovenia 52. pair of trainers: not sure? Probably Nike?

more general

53. eating: prickly pears (oh my gosh, I didn’t know this was how they were called in English, how peculiar that it’s pears when in Italian it’s figs) 54. drinking: still water 55. i’m about to: piano practice 56. waiting for: death 57. want: wine 58. get married: one day 59. career: the only job I’ll be able to keep while following classes full time is tutoring

which is better

60. hugs or kisses: hugs 61. lips or eyes: lips 62. shorter or taller: taller 63. older or younger: older 64. nice arms or nice stomach: ? 65. hook up or relationship: I’m going to say hook up simply because I don’t really want to be in a relationship right now, but I suppose that it’s going to depend on the person 66. troublemaker or hesitant: me? Hesitant

have you ever

67. kissed a stranger: yes 68. drank hard liquor: yes 69. lost glasses/contact lenses: never 70. turned someone down: yes 71. sex on the first date: no 72. broken someone’s heart: yes 73. had your heart broken: no 74. been arrested: no 75. cried when someone died: yes 76. fallen for a friend: no

do you believe in

77. yourself: somewhat 78. miracles: I wrote an entire piece on how fate and miracles in ancient greek history are simply terms used to explain random events so 79. love at first sight: no 80. santa claus: what 81. kiss on the first date: possibly 82. angels: I don’t think it’s something in the realm of the things I can possibly know

other

83. current best friend’s name: Lucia 84. eye colour: hazel (which is not green for fuck’s sake) 85. favourite movie: don’t have one but lately I have been rewatching movies about expanding the capability of our brain (Lucy, Limitless, Inception), which I find quite amusing even though they are all predicated on the 10% myth

[eloarei]

Tagged by @chocochipbiscuit to post my current WIPs. Thanks, Choco! (lol this is going to be self-indulgent and painful XD;)  (As with Choco, I also have more bits and blobs and ideas than I know what to do with, but I’ll focus on the ones that have a remote chance of ever getting finished.)  Active WIPS (I have at least opened the document in the past month and I honestly intend to finish them this year.)  In order of recently modified: OP CM BB -- "One Piece, Cobymeppo, Beauty&Beast" I mean, it's kind of what it says on the tin: it's vaguely a Beauty and the Beast AU. (Factoid: this is at least the 3rd or 4th fanfic I've written based on friggin' B&B. It's my favorite fairytale and I'm weak.) Currently at 12.5k (when did that happen?!) out of, I dunno, 18k? I honestly never intended to write this. It just sort of happened-- and kept happening, which is the weird part. I'm liking it though. Factoid #2: there are a lot of dogs in this fic. JD LLW -- "Jak and Daxter, Love Like Winter" 100% inspired by the AFI song, I won't lie. I've been meaning to write this for at least 7 years. I have a lot of thoughts and headcanons about the Jak and Daxter series, and this incorporates my hardcore favorite: Daxter is a Precursor. It also uses a couple tropes I love: reincarnation cycles, and fated lovers. As with any song, I can't say what it's actually supposed to be about, but I always heard it as the story of, well, reincarnation and fated lovers. "I met my love before I was born", and then switching between he, she, and then back to he. The story became very vibrant in my head! And this format especially allows me the opportunity to explore Jak/Keira as well as Jak/Daxter, because while I'm not a huge fan of Jak/Keira, I don't like just ignoring canon if I can avoid it. Currently at 7k out of... maybe 20k? It was supposed to be a lot shorter, but I'm only on chapter 1 out of 3, so less than 15k is probably not happening. Factoid: I think a lot of people only know this series second-hand, so I feel the need to mention that Daxter does, in fact, have a human form. XD FO4NV -- "Fallout 4, Nick Valentine" A very creative document name! XD; The story will probably eventually be titled "Same Heart" unless I come up with something better. It's a Fallout4 AU(ish) centering around Nick having been recaptured by the Institute, getting a memory wipe, and then living there during the years when Shaun is being raised there. Eventually, he and kid-Shaun break out to explore the Commonwealth and try to find Shaun's parents. I swear it'll be a Nick/Nora story if I ever friggin' get to that part, but right now it's mostly a Nick&Shaun story. Currently at 30k out of, I dunno, 70k to 100k? It's on chapter 7 out of 17, I think. I have this one planned out pretty well chapter-by-chapter, so of all my fics it has the best chance of actually happening. (Aside from the length, which sort of counts against it. It was supposed to be shorter, but I apparently couldn't shut up.) I'm thinking about focusing on this one for my NaNoWriMo, since it has about 50k left to it. Factoid: I get more emotional about parental relationships than I do about romantic ones, despite the fact that I LOVE romance. Stories I write about parent-child relationships always end up being my favorite. BttF On Track -- "Back to the Future, On Track" The only one I've actually started posting. I feel bad because I meant to continue writing this through December and January, but I got lazy and distracted, so it didn't happen. The season is just about right to jump back into it though (Fall is a more BttF season for me), so I HOPE to finish it this year. Currently at 18k (holy shit, seriously?) out of probably 30k. Chapter 3 (out of 6 well-planned chapters) is aaalmost done, but I might have to go reread some of IrisBleuFics stuff to get back into the mood of it. (Or maybe Rae's or Edgebug's.) Factoid (actually a question) : does anyone else have seasonal fandoms? Inactive WIPs (there are lots of these, so I'll put them under a cut for you. Still, these are only the ones I’ve worked on in the past year. Again, from most- to least-recent.) 

HP GOtG -- A silly Harry Potter/Guardians of the Galaxy fic I have like a page of. I was mentally explaining the concept of fanfic to someone and this... happened.

HPCM Ways to Live -- Another One Piece Cobymeppo fic, and AU (or UA) about if Luffy had never met Coby in ep.1 and skipped right over to kick Morgan's ass in Shells Town. tldr Coby and Helmeppo become pirates.

FFXV parents AU -- I was REALLY into this one for a while, got a couple thousand words and a good plot outline on it. It's Final Fantasy 15 AU (or, as usual, a UA) in which Noctis is only a baby when the empire attacks, and teenage Ignis and Gladio have to run away with him, and end up raising him on their own. I 100% intend to finish this one, but it's not top priority at the moment.

A modern prometheus -- A magical-world retelling of Frankenstein. Probably gay.

FO4 WFM-- "Fallout 4, Waiting for magic" On the day the bombs drop, Nora's husband is still at war, while she's several months pregnant and working on her legal cases from home. Her friend Nick Valentine has come to give her some documents and check on her when they're suddenly ushered into the vault and frozen. AKA the romantic adventures of Nick and a heavily pregnant Nora out in the Commonwealth. (Inspired by an Ace of Bass song)

Fo4 Sky-- "Fallout 4, Skyrim" Basically a riff off the previous story, but not the same at all, somehow. Set in Skyrim, Nora is essentially sleeping beauty. Wait. Snow white? Er, yeah. Magically frozen in a coffin, yeah. 

MEA Avi -- "Mass Effect Andromeda, Avi: a sci-fi ghost story" REALLY thought I was gonna finish this one, but I got distracted from MEA altogether. The story of Avitus Rix and his SAM unit, which has begun to think it is the late Macen Barro, its previous owner/partner, and Avitus' longtime boyfriend. Still can't decide how sad I want it, but it'll be pretty gloomy even if I go with a happy ending.

DCo side story AU -- A modern mini-fic about my DamselCo characters going on a double date, except Addisson and Hunter are both late so it's just Ellery and Isabelle being kind of awkward.

FFXV Dear Fellow Traveler -- AU, Prompto was raised in Niflheim and meets Noctis and the others on their (very long, winding) trip to Noct's engagement. Promptis, no war.

FFXV mermaid AU -- More Promptis. Noctis fishes up mer-person Prompto. They have adventures. Ignis has to go looking for Noctis later and meets mer-person Gladio.

OW Sagittarius  -- Eheh, posted the first chapter of this in January and then just gave up. XD;;;; I feel so bad. An Overwatch teenage McHanzo AU, where Jesse is a centaur sold into slavery to the yakuza. Trained by the Shimada clan, he falls in love with the heir, Hanzo, who then helps him escape. Many years later, they meet again in Overwatch. I have a GOOD plot outline for this, so I really have no excuse for not finishing it. It's on the to-do list after the first few.

FFXV Firstborn son -- Question: is a person still consider a trans-person if they're born female, but both raised as and identify as male (because patriarchal bullshit)? If so: trans-Noctis, Promptis fic.

FFXV Mirror Sword Shield -- Yet another FFXV AU, obviously inspired by that one Coldplay song that I love. Hundreds of years ago, Noctis defeated the darkness, but was sealed away inside the crystal, only to return when he needed to do it again. Prompto, Ignis, and Gladio have trained as his guardians all their lives, for the slim chance that he does return. (I really like this idea, but if I write this one, it'll only be after I finish the other FFXV fics.)

OW BB -- Guess what? Another "Beauty and the Beast" fic, Overwatch flavored. Except it's really more like, "the beast and also another beast". McHanzo, of course, featuring a snarky dragon spirit that constantly taunts Hanzo about his guilt.

BttF Ashes -- Hot damn I gotta write this fic some day. I have a GREAT plot outline for it, following a chiptune song called Ashes. I love it, it makes me cry. It's a Back to the Future AU, about Doc dying when his house burns down. Years later, ghost-Doc teams up with Marty to finish the time machine, and then (spoiler alert) Marty goes back in time and saves Doc, pulling his corporeal self into the future ala The Mediator and they live happily ever after the end. XD

PacRim Redefined -- Another one I feel bad about, because I have posted most of what I have written, but I don't know if I'll ever finish it. It's a far-future semi-AU about Newt and Hermann. TBH it's one of my favorite fics I've ever written, but I'm a loser and can never finish anything. Hopefully next year??? I've got much of a plot outline, so.

Bttf Dino prompt -- Braincoins prompted me last year to write a fic about Marty and a dinosaur, and I started to! But then I had no idea where I was going with it, so I stopped a few pages in. ^^; I'd like to figure out an ending to it that isn't both boring and bleak.

Bttf Solving for X -- A series of short AUs about if either Doc or Marty (or both) were women. I'd like to maybe work on this one again sometime.

HxH AU Laughter Lines -- A Hunter x Hunter fic that makes me cry when I think about it XDXDXD Based on the Bastille song of the same name, it's an AU in which Gon is like... a tree nymph. A little hard to explain, it's a sad little Killugon fic, and it should be pretty short, so I ought to just sit down and write it one day.

BttF Thirst for Romance -- I love this idea! Why haven't I written it?! In his 30's or 40's, Marty is a nurse at a convalescent home/ hospice, where he meets Doc, who loves to tell wild stories. He tells Marty stories about adventures that the two of them had in the 80's and with time travel. Everyone assumes Doc is just very creative and lonely, and they love his stories. He and Marty become close, and when Doc passes away, he leaves his meager possessions to Marty, including a mysterious set of keys which unlock his old garage, and a strange old car inside... (Really want to write this one eventually!) (Based on the song of the same name.)

BttF Hell Valley -- A sad AU, taking place in the Hell Valley timeline from movie 2. Marty has run away from his abusive step-dad and finds himself living in Doc's garage. They're just two broken people trying to get by. Marty wants Doc to run away with him, someplace far away, but Doc has a better idea, if he can get it to work. (Inspired by the song Fast Car, the sad-sounding Jonas Blue version. "You got a fast car. Is it fast enough so we could fly away?")

BttF SG fusion -- and last and possibly least, yet another BttF AU, but a fusion with Steins;Gate, because time travel is not complicated ENOUGH, I have to make it WORSE. In this story, Marty is raised in the dystopian future with the goal of going back to the past to kill Doc Brown before he can create time travel. I liked the idea a lot, but to be honest I think I even confused myself with it. I'd sort of like to keep writing it, but it'll take a lot more effort than I can foresee me wanting to put in any time soon. Tagging: (if I can remember which of my friends write) um... @braincoins, @nomadsky, and, uh... I know that more of you are writers, so just... take it and pretend I tagged you! 

[anotheruserwithnoname]

85 Statements Tag Game

Rules: you must answer these 85 statements and tag 20 people.

I was tagged by @universe-on-her-shoulders​

I’ve tagged a number of people repeatedly so rather than coming up with 20 specific names, in honour of my having just passed 600 followers, I’m going to tag anyone who has followed me in the last week.

Putting in a break here because, well, 85...

The last…  

1. Drink: hot chocolate.

2. Phone call: my dad.

3. Text message: Haven’t texted anyone in a year so can’t remember.

4. Song you listened to: Razzle-Dazzle, Bill Haley And His Comets

5. Time you cried: A while ago

6. Dated someone twice: What’s dating?

7. Kissed someone and regretted it: Does my brother’s amorous Pomeranian count?

8. Been cheated on: N/A

9. Lost someone special: My mother, July 2013

10. Been depressed: Sort of ongoing for me.

11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: I’ve never gotten drunk, mainly because if I get tipsy #10 kicks in, so I avoid. As for the second half, I got some pretty nasty food poisoning from McD’s in the spring of 2012. I remember this because it was the same day (but fortunately hours after) the Calgary Comic & Entertainment Expo where I got autographs from the likes of Summer Glau.

Favourite colors

12. Orange

13. Black

14. Red

In the last year have you…

15. Made new friends: Yes

16. Fallen out of love: Neither in nor out.

17. Laughed until you cried: Happened last Saturday

18. Found out someone was talking about you: Yes (fortunately not in a bad way)

19. Met someone who changed you: I think so.

20. Found out who your friends are: Sort of, with regards to certain things.

21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: N/A

General

22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life? 100% because the only people I have on Facebook are people I already knew or are family as I’m not involved in Facebook culture. In terms of Tumblr friends, I’ve yet to meet any of them in person but I am in communication with a few of them constantly.

23. Do you have any pets? No, but my dad has a cat and my brother has three high-maintenance dogs.

24. Do you want to change your name? Nah.

25. What did you do for your last birthday? Worked. But the day after got Peter Capaldi’s autograph and a photo op at the Calgary Expo.

26. What time did you wake up? 6:30 a.m. At least that’s when the alarm was set.. 

27. What were you doing at midnight last night? Watching Game of Thrones.

28. Name something you can’t wait for: Second season of Victoria. John Rhys-Davies at the Edmonton Comic and Entertainment Expo in September (I’ve been a fan of his since Shogun).

29. When was the last time you saw your mum? The day she passed away in July 2013.

31. What are you listening to right now? Construction noise in the alleyway outside.

32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom? I work with a guy by that name. He’s sitting about 10 feet behind me as I type this. And he literally spoke to me just as I was typing that last sentence. And he’s talking to me again. Guy won’t shut up! 😂

33. Something that is getting on your nerves: I’m going to hold my tongue on that. People who know me know.

34. Most visited website: Tumblr and Jenna Coleman’s Instagram and Twitter pages

35. Hair colour: Dark brown

36. Long or short hair? Short.

37. Do you have a crush on someone: A few people, plus Jenna Coleman

38. What do you like about yourself? I have a reputation for keeping my head while everyone else is losing theirs.

39. Piercings: No, and I won’t be getting any, either.

40. Blood type: I used to know. One of the regular ones.

41. Nickname: None I want to make public. On Archive of Our Own I’ve adopted The Saddleman.

42. Relationship status: Me, Myself and I. And we’re always arguing.

43. Zodiac: Taurus. Yes, I am indeed full of bull.

44. Pronouns: he/him/hey you

45. Favourite TV show: The Prisoner, Doctor Who

46. Tattoos: No, and I won’t be getting any.

47. Right or left handed: Right.

48. Surgery: Not yet, thankfully.

49. Piercing: Still don’t have one.

50. Sport: Not big into sports, though I used to do 5-pin bowling in the 1990s. That said I’ve always admired baseball. And Stompin’ Tom Connors’ “The Hockey Song” is one I often listen to, but that’s because I’m Canadian and they passed a law back in 1976 that requires every Canadian citizen to listen to that song at least twice a year. 😇

51. Holiday: Stayed at a cabin in the mountains just west of Revelstoke, BC, in May.

52. Pair of trainers: Don’t wear trainers.

More general

53. Eating: Yes, I have.

54. Drinking: Not when I’m driving.

55. I’m about to: end my coffee break at work.

56. Waiting for: A phone call.

57. Want: Money.

58. Get married: Doubtful it’ll happen at my age if it hasn’t already.

59. Career: Communications, though if I could ever get a full-time job writing Whouffaldi fan fic, I’ll be in there like a dirty shirt.

60. Hugs or kisses: Depends on the person.

61. Lips or eyes: Eyes.

62. Shorter or taller: Depends on the person. Jenna Coleman being only 5′2, I certainly have no problem with those of a lower altitude.

63. Older or younger: I often feel I have more in common with people younger than me than those of my age or older. 

64. Nice arms or nice stomach: Doesn’t really matter.

65. Hook up or relationship: Relationship.

66. Troublemaker or hesitant: Depends on the topic. In recent days I’ve gone from the former to the latter on my blog. In real life I’ve seem to have gone in the opposite direction.

67. Kissed a stranger: No.

68. Drank hard liquor: A few times. Not a fan, though I do find Johnnie Walker Blue to be tasty. Given the cost of Johnnie Walker Blue, it’s not something that will be a regular part of my diet...

69. Lost glasses/contact lenses: I wear glasses and have (other than a brief misplacement at home) never lost them. The first time I wore contacts while driving, they fell out. That was the last time I wore contacts!

70. Turned someone down: Never had anyone ask.

71. Sex on the first date: What is ... nah, I’ve done that joke too many times already this post.

72. Broken someone’s heart: Doubful.

73. Had your heart broken: Oh yeah.

74. Been arrested: No. But the day is young.

75. Cried when someone died: Yes.

76. Fallen for a friend: Yes. See #73. And #68.

Do you believe in …

77. Yourself: I try.

78. Miracles: I’ve seen some odd things happen.

79. Love at first sight: Yes.

80. Santa Claus: The concept, yes.

81. Kiss on the first date: Depends how the date goes, I suppose.

82. Angels: The concept, yes.

Other

83. Current best friend’s name: I’m going to not answer that in part because I’m not really sold on the “Current” part of that question.

84. Eye colour: Blue

85. Favourite movie: Casablanca. (Yet another movie that I think Peter Capaldi and Jenna Coleman would rock doing a remake of.)

[bisexualrhee]

rules: answer these 85 things and tag 20 ppl

i was tagged by @thecolormagicmakes thank you!! i hate tagging people so literally anyone who wants to do this, feel free to do it!

THE LAST 1. drink: water 2. phone call: i think it was when i called my brother to ask him if he was coming over to our dad. 3. text message: my friend texting me and wondering where we are gonna look for pokemon tomorrow lmao 4. song you listened to: with ears to see and eyes to hear live by sleeping with sirens 5. time you cried: today lol ops 6. dated someone twice: no 7. kissed someone and regretted it: nooope 8. been cheated on: no 9. lost someone special: i lost my uncle a few years ago. 10. been depressed: i am 11. gotten drunk and thrown up: nope

THREE FAVORITE COLORS 12. blue 13. gray 14. black

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU 15. made new friends: yeah? kinda 16. fallen out of love: nah 17. laughed until you cried: yeah 18. found out someone was talking about you: yeah 19. met someone who changed you: no not really 20. found out who your friends are: oh yeah definitely 21. kissed someone on your Facebook list: yup

GENERAL 22. how many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: out of 256 friends i probably know like 240 in real life 23. do you have any pets: no :(( 24. do you want to change your name: maybe, i’m not sure 25. what did you do for your last birthday: me, my mum and my brother went to a resturant 26. what time do you wake up: when it’s school the next day i wake up at like 7/8 otherwise i wake up at like 11/12 lmao 27. what were you doing at midnight last night: i rewatched the sander sides videos for the 12th time 28. name something you can’t wait for: sws’s and avril’s new albums 29. when was the last time you saw your mom: 5 hours ago  31. what are you listening to right now: ghost by katy perry 32. have you ever talked to a person named tom: yeah 33. something that is getting on your nerves: a certain fandom ;D 34. most visited website: tumblr 35. hair color: black 36. long or short hair: short FTW 37. do you have a crush on someone: not at the moment 38. what do you like about yourself: i don’t know...i like my personality? is that okay to say? 41. nickname: emmi, em and emz 43. zodiac: pisces 44. pronouns: he/they but if we’re closed i’m okay with any pronouns 45. favourite tv show: ......the walking dead 46. tattoos: i want tattoos yes but i don’t have any atm 47. right or left handed: right handed 48. surgery: nope 50. sport: i don’t know her 51. vacation: TAKE ME TO SAN FRANCISCO BY BOAT AND I’M YOURS 52. pair of trainers: idc

MORE GENERAL 53. eating: i’m not eating anything atm, if that’s what you’re asking 54. drinking: water 55. I’m about to: sleep 56. waiting for: new usic from my faves 57. want: healthy chocolate that doesn’t taste like shit 58. get married: nah, it depends 59. career: i have no idea

WHICH IS BETTER 60. hugs or kisses: huuuugs 61. lips or eyes: eyes for the win 62. shorter or taller: i want to be taller 63. older or younger: younger 64. nice arms or nice stomach: aaaarms 65. hook up or relationship: relationship 66. troublemaker or hesitant: hesitant

HAVE YOU EVER 67. kissed a stranger: no 68. drank hard liquor: nooo 69. lost glasses/contact lenses: nooope 70. turned someone down: yeah the guy, the only person that i have ever kissed, was together with my friend in like 4th grade and then in 5th grade he was like “ey emilia do you want to be together” when they had broken up and i was like “lol you wish”.  71. sex on the first date: dude i’m ace how about no sex at all yes plz 72. broken someone’s heart: i hope not??? 73. had your heart broken: yup 74. been arrested: no 75. cried when someone died: yes 76. fallen for a friend: i guess yeah

DO YOU BELIEVE IN 77. yourself: i wish 78. miracles: yeahh 79. love at first sight: kinda....idk 80. santa claus: .........yes? 81. kiss on the first date: idc 82. angels: yup

OTHER 83. current best friend’s name: my best friend irl is called mikaela but everyone calls her mika 84. eye color: blue 85. favorite movie: bridge of terabithia

[drink-n-watch]

  It might actually finally truly be summer here. I get paid by the adverb! But it really is a rather nice weekend. Sunny and bright but not too hot. The type of weekend that makes you want to just be lazy and not do a ton of paperwork. I have a lot of paperwork to do… I have been putting it off. But I absolutely must get this review out first. Right? Right! How are you doing Crow? Everything good for you?

  I am doing mostly fine. It’s getting very summerly here (we’re splitting the adverb bounty, right?). Did you know it takes a week and a half to get the replacement valve that feeds refrigerant into my air conditioner? I just learned that myself. It arrives Thursday. The joys of homeownership…

We are now at episode 8 and going into the final arc. Unless My Next Life as a Villainess: All Routes Lead to Doom! Is planning on getting another season, we should be starting off the denouement right about now. Any thoughts before we get started?

I’m really curious to see what you thought about this one. I had fewer notes, but it’s taking a lot longer to process. And poor, poor Mary! I’m glad Maria was… Well, I don’t want to get ahead of ourselves…

Because the school year is nearing the end, Catarina is studying for her exams but she soon decides to take a little break and change things up, by doing some gardening. I was always fairly good at studying and absolutely horrific at gardening. I’m just a notorious plant mass murderer. It was a very upside down notion for me to have Catarina actually choose shovels over books. Like my brain had to adjust.

I grew up on a farm, so I had to make sure fields of plants lived or we had no income. It wasn’t easy, I can tell you! Fortunately, I just had to plow, disc, and cultivate. More experienced folks applied the nitrogen and other dangerous chemicals. Then the plants would not have been the only ones in danger!

In the garden, she runs into Alan and spying on them s from the school windows, Mary gets the wrong idea gets very worried and decides to go interrupt them. 

She’s my favorite. I think that’s why I felt so sorry for her even through the after credits scene!

At this point we get the OP. I’m not sure if I’ve ever gotten a chance to mention it but I really like the opening song, for what it is. It’s quite bouncy and puts me in a good mood whenever I hear it. I think it really suits the series quite well. The visuals are fine but not that interesting all things considered, but when you pair them with the music, everything seems to come together so well. It’s sort of a nothing special really but solide and fun OP. 

It’s a very uplifting song. Apparently, the artist is named angela, and Crunchyroll did a writeup on her. Very interesting video, by the way!

Fortunately for Mary, Catarina was in fact just going in, and the two meet up right away and go to the student council room to study for a bit. I quite like the squiggly writing they use. It looks a bit like drunken sanskrit. Sirius is there and they exchange a few words. Do you like his voice actor?

You know, I didn’t really give his VA any thought until this episode — and I thought that he’d done a particularly good job. Toshiki Masuda managed to sound friendly and helpful while giving off an ominous vibe! 

At this point, the two girls (Mary and Catarina that is) decide to switch over to the library and start heading that way. I just wrote a post on anime libraries so this was very topical for me. On their way the first run into Geordo who decides to invite himself much to the chagrin of Mary. She really is not very good at hiding her emotions and her disappointment at losing her alone time showed on her face perfectly. Geordo teased a bit about it but was generally a very good sport about someone with romantic aspirations trying to spend alone time with his fiance. He’s impressively not jealous which you would think would be a big part of his archetype. 

I wonder how this library compared to the ones in your post? About Gerald, though, he’s really surprised me. He has every right (socially speaking) to be upset that everyone’s horning in on his fiancée, but he’s generally been very patient! 

Next, the tree of them ran into Keith who immediately decided to join in as well.  From there, a series of quick vignettes showed all the main characters in turn decided to tag along, namely Maria, Sophia, Alan and finally Nicol. I really loved how Nicol was basically just a still shot of him without any dialog and the next scene was him walking with the group. That made me giggle. The entire little montage was fun.

The group finally makes it to the library which is surprisingly cozy, or maybe this was an offshoot or something. The room they were in only had one table and it was just big enough for the 8 of them. 

Yes, it looked comfortable. But I thought it was awfully suspicious that neither Mary nor Catarina (okay, Mary…) had heard of the library when Sirius mentioned it. I wonder if he knew what was going to happen… 

I think it’s at this point that I realized that I would probably like this show more if I was binge watching it. It’s great as is but I do think it loses a bit of its momentum having to wait a week between episodes and the repetitive nature of the narrative stands out more. It’s so light and airy I would probably have blown through an entire season in a day or two and have been left in a good mood for the rest of the week. What do you think Crow?

You know that I look for moments to celebrate, and I love the characters so much that I’ve been trying to ignore it. But, in all honesty, you’re right. As you said, it’s nothing against the show! Catarina’s Baka side is part of its charm. But it might flow more smoothly viewed all at once.

It seems that being part of a group does help Catarina focus on the books, but only for a short while. As she starts to get fidgety the Maries (that’s what I have decided to call the duo of Mary and Maria – it’s sort of a misspelling of both their names so no one can get mad. That makes just perfect sense) Where was I? I got lost in my own parenthesis. Oh yeah, seeing Catarina getting distracted! The Maries figure it’s a good time for a bit of a break. Maria decides to get them some sweets she made while Mary makes the tea. Both of them would make good maids.

No argument here!

Catarina jumps on the occasion to do something else and peruses the shelves next to the table when she spots a specific book that seems to glow for a minute. When Catarina she opens the book out of curiosity it glows a LOT more and we find out her voice stress has an impressive set of lungs on her. I was watching the show with my windows wide open and I’m sure my neighbours got a little worried there.

At this point, everyone in the library disappears, apparently having been sucked into the book, leaving behind the Maries. Maybe this will be their chance to save the day and redeem themselves after doing nothing but almost killing Alan last week!

This was the Bakarina moment for the episode, I think. I mean, if a book went all glowy for you, would you open it right in your own face? Especially if I couldn’t read the title (which I doubt Catarina could read).

Mary garbs the book and starts looking through it. Fortunately, it doesn’t also suck the two of them in for some reason, and they can sort of see what’s happening in the book’s universe through the pictures. Or maybe those are illusions? In any case they cannot seem to directly interact by touching the pictures. I’m not sure why they didn’t try writing something in the book. This whole idea is a little meta, Catarina getting sucked into the universe of a storybook from the universe of an otome she got sucked into….

I love Re:CREATORS. This is almost normal for me! Seriously, though, it is delightfully Inception-like! Or maybe I should say Paprika-like… 

For some reason, Catarina is the only one who seems to realize something is amiss. Maybe because she comes from a different world to start off with? The Maries get to briefly watch a scene that seems to be taking place right after Geordo and Catarina’s wedding as the two of them start their first evening as husband and wife. Understandably, Geordo is eager to romance his one true love now that they are legal and after a 15 year courtship (I’m not actually sure how old they are but they seemed older than they are now and they have been engaged for a long time already…) but since for Catarina she was in the library a few minutes ago, it’s a bit of a shock. Nevertheless she doesn’t seem that opposed to it. I was looking through my screencaps of the scene and it ends on her smiling face. A visual I missed when reading the subtitles I guess because  though she was a bit more hesitant than that expression seemed to indicate.

The scene gets to be a bit much for Mary and she slams the book shut not wishing to see her beloved Catarina with someone else in a romantic way. The Maries talk over what they have just seen and decide to open the book again not knowing what to do.

Honestly, I felt bad for Mary in this episode. It had to be very difficult to her to have to watch others acting on their romantic desires for Catarina! 

I got a similar vibe from Catarina and Geraldo. She seemed more surprised than anything. Maybe from his perspective, his imagination had experienced the wedding ceremony. But she was still fresh from the library, so the scene was a complete surprise to her.

The next time Catarina is at her desk in her room, trying to study, with Keith standing over her shoulder. Except Keith looks a little weird. Like he got lip injections or something. Then he sort of flirts with her and tries to feed her a cookie. Which he immediately succeeds in because Catarina has never said no to a cookie, but before she gets to taste it, the book slams shut agan and Mary is  exasperated. We learn that the book feeds on desires and we are actually seeing the characters deepest desires realized.

I laughed at Catarina’s reaction to Keith: “he’s giving off an oddly sexy vibe…”

I have to say, I can see it for Geordo. He is very much in love with his fiance and has worked hard for years to be the proper companion for her. I can see him really looking forward to their wedding night. I also figure he would be the type of guy who sees himself as debonnaire and smooth. But Keith’s scene was a bit baffling to me. 

Sure Keith likes Catarin a lot, that’s no secret. And I completely believe that his deepest desire would involve her. But I can’t see him wanting to be a sleazy playboy type. Wouldn’t he have been horrified if not slightly repulsed by that version of him? It seems much more like what we are told game Keith is like rather than what the Keith we have come to know would fantasize about. This felt like they lost sight of the character a bit.

Unless the book is acting more on the characters based on their normal game routes? Nah, that’d be too subtle. I always saw Keith are more earnest and straight forward. I could see him helping her study, and getting closer and closer to her. But doing the who “open wide” thing? I’m with you on this one.

I don’t remember if this is where Alan comes in. His sequence is extremely short. We just see him playing piano next to a standing Catarina before Mary slams the book back shut, obviously not wanting to even think about it. I believe we are meant to understand that Mary also cares about Alan. It bothers her way more when he is with Catarina than when anyone else is and it’s not like Catarina shows him any favour.  Think it may have hurt her feelings just a bit that she wasn’t any part at all of Alan’s desires.

Her eyes were completely blank. It’s like that was the last straw for her. I loved how Maria kept trying to comfort Mary. They worked well together in this episode!

The next scene was Sophia’s, and it was rather sweet. I like little dreams. Sophia and Catarina were in a library again but not the same library. This was Sophia’s private library and Catarina was really impressed by the wealth of romance novels available. She even mentioned wanting to live there which stirred up something in Sophia. The latter reacted by pinning Catarina to the wall with her arms on either side, all aggressive boy in a shoujo type. It was pretty funny to watch, especially as Sophia is markedly shorter. I’m not sure if they were going for actually romantic feelings here or a very strong friendship but either way, it was cute. Cute enough for Mary to slam the book shut again.

That library was probably too small to qualify for your list, wasn’t it? I agree that Sophia was just darling in this scene. She loves her time with Catarina, and the idea of the two of them living together with a stocked library seems to be a dream of hers. 

Finally, we get Nicol’s fantasy sequence that was my favourite of the bunch. First, it really looked like an old school Sailor Moon episode with Serena fantasizing about Tuxedo Mask. In case that sentence didn’t make it sufficiently clear somehow, it looked amazing! Second, it was hilariously ridiculous. It seems even in his own desires, Nicol is pursued everywhere by a veritable army of swooning fangirls. I like this openly conceited Nicol. Second, he has the imagination to pretty much forgo realism. Unlike the others, his sequence wasn’t something that could happen and it made it all the better!

Leaping off the balcony into a gondola; sweeping Catarina into the air to bound from building to building, then telling her he’d love for her to be in his arms forever with the moon as a backdrop — yeah, he’s the most imaginative! 

Mary is starting to get really worried about Catarina and how hungry she must be by now. Staring longingly at the sweets, she mentioned that Catarina hasn’t eaten in a while. At this point, the Maries suddenly remember that the magical book that feeds on people’s desires will let them go if their desires are fulfilled somehow. Unfortunately since they don’t really know what to do about it they decided to just open the book again and check on Catarina’s own desire next.

I really loved their teamwork this episode. Maria also showed that has a shrewd, inquisitive mind. Very cool!

I have to admit, the Maries seemed to believe that sweets were Catarina’s deepest desire (a reasonable guess), but I was sure that she would put them all to shame and they would see a scene with absolutely everyone, themselves included and realize that Catarina’s deepest desire is for everyone to be together and happy. 

Catarina’s sequence opens with her walking alone through a grim looking forest and complaining about being hungry when she suddenly chances upon a life sized gingerbread house just like in the Hansel and Gretel fable.  Of course, she goes right for it and starts devouring the walls. Soon the house turns into a tornado of candy which a rapidly fattening Catarina more or less vacuums up. The scene goes out of control quickly and the Maries try to shut the book again but something is going wrong as it distorts and bubbles. Suddenly everyone explodes out of the book.

We are told that because the book candy wasn’t real, Catarina couldn’t get full no matter how much she ate, so her desire just kept getting bigger and bigger until the book couldn’t handle it anymore. I’m not sure what they did with the book next but everyone was happy and they had tea and snacks. Too bad the Maries didn’t get a chance to do anything in the end. 

I think I’d be at least a bit curious about the book — and why it decided to get my attention! It was interesting that they said it was one of the 7 mysteries of the school. Put me in mind of Yamada and the 7 Witches. 

I’m not sure if I’m understanding this right, but if Mary had just let anyone’s scene play out, they would all have been freed from the book right away. Like it’s not really a trap. You get sucked in, it plays out your deepest desire and when it’s fulfilled, it lets you out. That sounds like a pretty sweet deal to me. I wish I had a bunch of those books lying around. Last week, Crow and I discussed potential My Next Life as a Villainess: All Routes Lead to Doom! Merchandise. I’m saying a fully functional desire book will make them all millionaires. I hope someone is working on that! Oh man, I would spend every second I could in anime worlds… probably watching anime…

My luck, no one would open the book, and I’d be trapped! Bit of a downside, there… But with the appropriate safety equipment, it could be a complete blast. There’re several worlds I wouldn’t mind visiting! As several I’d very much want to avoid…

Does anyone need to open the book?

Finally, the after credits scene showed a broken hearted Mary watching what she believes is her long time fiance betraying her with her best friend and not so secret unrequited love. It stops a bit abruptly so maybe it’s a lead in for the next episode?

I wondered for a moment if it was part of the book fantasy! But it doesn’t look like it. I thought Catarina might be more interested in Nicol! But that moment in the tree seemed so comfortable!

Crow, how did you enjoy episode 8 of My Next Life as a Villainess: All Routes Lead to Doom!? Are you looking forward to next week?

Yes, I did. Your earlier comments about some of the situations being repetitive was spot on, but I like the character so much that I’m really looking forward to the next episode. I really don’t want this comfortable, supportive group to change, though I know it has to! It’s just so rare to see a group like that being good to one another!

         My Next Life as a Villainess: All Routes Lead to Doom! ep 8 – Simple Pleasures It might actually finally truly be summer here. I get paid by the adverb! But it really is a rather nice weekend.

[courage-a-word-of-justice]

Sacred Beasts 2 | Astra 2 - 3 | Given 1 - 2 | DanMachi II 1 | Demon Slayer 15 - 16 | Dr Stone 2 | Fruits Basket 14 | Cop Craft 2 - 3

Rolling out the tags soon.

Sacred Beasts 2

“Sissy” always pissed me off as a nickname for your sister. It’s clearly meant as a term of endearment in some cases, but it also is the equivalent of “wuss”, y’know???

I’ve seen mushroom soup out of a tin…that don’t look like mushroom soup in that case.

Uh, random question…she has th same surname as Will, but is Schaal herself adopted???

Y’should’ve followed Hank, Nancy…(is her name Nancy or Schaal? Schaal is her middle name, yet she seems more commonly referred to as Schaal…hmm.)

*sees synopsis* - No one mentioned Nancy’s hometown was called Livletwood Village…

I pause my shows a lot to get down these notes…then Crunchyroll or my internet (or both!) cursed me with regular buffering (that can sometimes play video and subs through it, but generally sets down a few seconds after unpausing and lasts for a minute) and made it a pain in the butt to make these notes. But you do realise I basically have notes for almost every show I’ve ever watched under this system? These notes are special to me, which is why I put up with the buffering. It also means impactful scenes lose their impact, meaning well-paced shows get favoured in my picking process on CR these days.

Astra 2

Yup, the 2nd time we talk about how to scavenge for food this season – gotta remember this…in case I ever get into a situation like that. You never know! (creates “The More You Know” star with hands)

I-awwwwwww…I never thought I’d see the day where the Luca Javelin would get animated, much less Astra as a series. Dang, is this a dream???

Eyyyyy. Nothing like endangering your little sister to really understand why you love her…much less understand that you love her in the first place. (partially sarcastic)

Given 1

This is my second rodeo with BL anime (I’ve only read one BL manga and it was pretty darn mediocre, but the one BL game I tried was okay)…hopefully it’s good.

Was there the ticking of a clock in the background???

…and cut to OP. Yay! I can predict when the OP happens now…(It only took me years of training…okay, I’m kidding.)

I think this OP is like a music video…and I think that’s the point.

Kaji??? Is this Eva (LOL)?

I’m no band person – I was merely a solo pianist in my time with music, although notably I did have to sing for one of the musical pieces – but “Thom Yorke” and “Keith Richards” sound familiar. Why???...Okay, so it seems Thom Yorke is part of Radiohead and Keith Richards is part of the Rolling Stones. I’m familiar with those bands by name, at least.

Lemme guess…this guy (Ritsuka) sucks at improv.

I had to go back and find out what Yayoi said a few lines ago…and  love her already because she’s like “You suck”…she’s just like me, to be honest.

Early husbando predictions say Haruki is my dude of the season.

Seeing manly dudes act like blushing schoolgirls is great…!

Yushiro-who???...Okay, Yushiro Ishihara is apparently that’s a singer that’s already passed away, but has a bit of a rep behind him.

Is it just me, or is Ritsuka basically a lesser Bakugo…?

Come to think of it, it would be hard for me to teach someone piano now that I haven’t properly played since the end of 2014…almost 5 years. Geesh, that’s a long time.

Welp, that was…actually pretty good. The only thing that sucks is that this ED isn’t rock, to go with the rest of the show.

DanMachi II 1

Another counterintuitive name for a sequel anime season…this is my last premiere before I wrap them up, or at least until Machikado Mazoku (or whatever) land on CR.

…and of course, it’s back to Big Boobies (aka Hestia). She’s probably the worst part of the show for me.

Why does Bell need an advisor anyway…? I never thought about it when watching s1.

Who’s this Naza-sama, anyway…?...Okay, it seems she’s a doctor from the Miach Familia. I don’t remember her from s1, really.

I’ve forgotten who Asfi is as well…Oh yeah, that blue-haired woman from the Hermes Famlia. Hermes seems like a bit of a loose cannon – the sort who wouldn’t have a Familia if given the chance – though.

I think we saw Freya in s1…just scheming behind the scenes…

Hermes looks like a sleazebag half the time he’s on screen…

I forgot how much I loved Miach’s character design in s1...and to a lesser extent, Takemikazuchi.

Demon Slayer 15

…Zenitsu is annoying again.

I didn’t think Tanjiro was scared of anything…excpt maybe losing Nezuko again.

Oh! I just realised Natagumo has a hint in its name…The “gumo” can be read “kumo”…as in cloud or spider, but it’s given with the kanji for spider so it can only be a spider-related problem on Mt Natagumo.

I’d hate to have Smellovision on this show…(What’s Smellovision, you ask??? Here, read up on it…at least, I was thinking of the Google variant, so read up on the Google version.)

Ukogi appears to be a type of plant known as eleutherococcus and ukogi rice is rice with ukogi leaves.

Dr Stone 2

Episode 3’s title is like “Weapons…of SCIENCE! *cue Bill Nye the Science Guy theme song*”

Ooh, nice angle! (on Senku and petrified!Yuzuriha being protected by Taiju…and not just because Yuzuriha’s butt is showing…)

“You can eat lion?” – No duh, Taiju!

“I want to give thanks to the circle of life…” – Sorry, but can I interrupt with a meme here? *cue ululations that ae meant to imitate the iconic song from The Lion King, y’know, the one that goes “Ahhhhhhh zee bun yah… (etc.)”*

Tsukasa’s frickin’ tall, man! Look at him tower over Taiju and Senku…

Having read the manga before, I just realised Tsukasa is mighty suspicious when he says Senku could be able to rebuild civilisation from scratch. That was harder to recognise in manga format though, I think.

I also didn’t realise, but the shell tale is talking about Tsukasa! Hmm…interesting.

Dr Stone’s ED…never in my life did I think it was going to be a rap song. Unless, of course, it’s a science rap…(There’s hydrogen and helium and lithium, berrylium…uh, I don’t remember the words after that…)

Oh, that next-ep font takes me back…it reminds me of the 90s, where terrible WordArt font like that was everywhere and I had to get by on Lucida Calligraphy.

Fruits Basket 14

Oh, crab meat…these CGI cars look absolutely terrible…

Pay attention to the relationship between Kyo and Kyoko…you people who don’t know about manga!Furuba are in for a real revelation on that front.

Wow, the effects on the flowers are really pretty for the ED…

Cop Craft 2

That OP is just so good…*swoon*

Well…they spelt “Unknown” wrong…on Kei’s phone.

Hmm…I think the insert song was in English.

Astra 3

Oh…something didn’t make sense. It turns out the word the subber is using is “attitude” when it should actually be altitude…

Given 2

Ooh, Haruki does coffee in the OP! I didn’t notice that, since I had to skip it…there’s some kinda suckish buffering on CR, which is why I have to skip as much as I can.

Welp, I’m a pianist. I’m as clueless as any other non-guitar player when it comes to guitars, so I don’t mind the lesson but also don’t need it.

Given this is a BL/yaoi (no pun intended), I think Akihiko and Haruki should pair up…but maybe I’m just going nuts with the shipper glasses here.

“You’re going to have to do something about that soon.”

Aye…I relate, Mafuyu. When you’re younger, you can beg your parents for money, but equipment, books etc. really costs some hard cash. I remember having to go to Hong Kong to find a pearl pink metronome on the cheap…the poor thing isn’t getting much use now. (But still, I think the more I watch and see Haruki in action, the more I like him. Not necessarily as a husbando, but more in the sense of that one cool dude you gravitate towards.)

It randomly cut to Salon Harusame…don’t tell me this is how Haruki gets his money???

I think the comment that said “lolol” actually had 超 in front of it, so that would be “super lololol” or, in my personal way of saying it, “major lololol”.

Oh, so that’s what was in the OP!

I swear Uesama (LOL) should just get a job as a guitar tutor to little kids…well, that would work if he were in college/uni, maybe.

Hey, a girl! Didn’t expect one in a BL work…(LOL, my standards are so low for BL/yaoi, eh?)

Hmm…I get the feeling amateurs get their hands on acoustic models instead. I know a guitar player, y’know (although again, that doesn’t mean I know the first thing about playing a guitar).

I love how the show turned green all of a sudden. The colours match the mood, basically.

Demon Slayer 16  

This episode’s titlecard only has a wave pattern…I probably know what the pattern is called, but I’ve…probably forgotten that name.

Hey, a Demon Slayer girl! (My standards seem to have been lowered in regards to seeing gals in leading or even supporting roles…It’s more acceptable for Demon Slayer, given its historical setting, but still, how sad it is to not see many girls…)

(TW: abuse) Why…for some reason, this feels like an abusive household, specifically where the father does evil things to the mother…but this time, the son’s part of the problem.

I find it funny Zenitsu just calls Inosuke “Wild Boar”. To be fair though, I don’t think Inosuke introduced himself to Zenitsu, way back when they were meant to.

This scene where Zenitsu is crying and has his back turned to the “camera”…they clearly used a CGI model for him.

It’s a BODY! Holy s(BLEEP)!

“Chu-Chu chuuuuun!” Oh my glob, Ukogi is so adorable~!

Hey…where was Ukogi hiding before he chose to come out again?

Another CGI model when Zenitsu walks away from the camera. It’s so dark, nobody can see Ukogi…I don’t think he has a CGI model and that’s good.

I had a weird thought, but…I think Tanjiro would be a good breakdancer, if he were living in 2019.

Inosuke, you did it! But I wonder if those stats are correct and Inosuke’s going to call his name properly at climactic moments…?

Cop Craft 3

Brother Kenny…you’re just lewd.

“…O or V or A.” – Aside from OVAs, hmm…O would be (CENSORED), V I don’t know about and A…I don’t know either, but I guess it’s (CENSORED).

Kei Manoba (sic).

Doreany seems to be humanity…Did they already introduce that? I forget.

This show looks pretty bad, but the story makes the stay worth it.