#and so on and so forth and blah blah blah idk where i'm going with this either

[krystella-shifts]

Everything is clicking for me y'all!!! ⋆⋅☆⋅⋆ Part 2 lmao

If you need help with: • how to stop reacting to the 3d • stop looking at 3d for validation & be ur own validation • how to manifest shifting/shift using loa • manifest FASTER cuz you won't be wavering anymore • ALL OF IT CAN BE ANSWERED FOR YOU IN THIS POST

First of let's take a example ✨

Manifesting money example ★*'•

let's say you Affirm for money, you script it or whatever you do and you get movement. You see signs or hear about a promotion at your job or idk hearing your parents talk about giving you sum cash lol BUT THEN you check your bank account and it's the same amount or you didn't see anything, you didn't hear anything else from your parents and you get discharged like "oh wtvr. Didn't work. Nothing is happening" blah blah

If you're not a shifter you don't have to read this.

Shifting ⊹ .° ୭̥

as a shifting blog (yes it is 😭) let's take a shifting example & explanation for understanding and applying in shiftings case.

So you were trying to shift to your dr and you felt all the symptoms, lights, emotions and sensations that you are there, you affirmed,you did the method, you felt like you ARE there but you were still nervous to open your eyes, unsure if you shifted but you finally did open your eyes.... And it was your bubble reality (I call this shiz bubble reality deal with it 💀) THEN YOU GOT FRUSTRATED AND PUT LABELS ON THIS ATTEMPT AS A "FAILED ATTEMPT" AND ROLLED OVER AND CALLED IT A DAY.

My honest reaction if you've done anything like that:

First of all- why're you "TRYING"?? you're the one deciding here, you're the creator of your reality. No matter what kind of reality you're experiencing, you 🫵🏻 created it. Yes you did. And all those symptoms, yeah tbh it's fun to feel symptoms but they're just the effects on body and your body is NOT the one shifting so don't focus on it too much, use it as a placebo effect rather. if you get symptoms believe that they mean you're shifting/have shifted. You did all that affirming, visualizing and felt it, you were almost certain you shifted.. but the thing is you need to be FULLY certain instead of almost certain. No matter what you see, you keep having it in your mind/imagination. HERE'S WHY YOU DO NOT LOOK AT THE 3D FOR VALIDATION... CUZ IT IS LOOKING RIGHT BACK AT YOU RIGHT IN THE FACE FOR VALIDATIONNNN. you're the validation here.

4d is above 3d for a reason. Why we call it more real reality is because it is the one creating. Imagination is the creative mode, like a factory where it's all made. Physical world is just a reflection of it so what's more real bruh? A mirror? Absolutely not. So why would you look at it for validation. It's like wanting to put on mascara but you're putting it on the mirror and asking why it's not working. Cuz YOU ARE THE ONE WHO NEEDS TO CHANGEEE. if you are not even changing then don't even be upset that the 3d is still the same pls. Ofc it is cuz your core beliefs are still the same as well!

You don't look outside of you for validation when you're literally creating the outside from the inside (your imagination.)

It's like reading yesterday's news paper and expecting today's news.

A very important thing that clicked for me was when I Affirm/visualise/script wtvr, it's inevitable that I'm gonna get what I want so there's ABSOLUTELY NO REASON ON GOD'S GREEN EARTH TO CHECK THE 3D BRUH. it clicked for me that 3d is so ducking powerless 😮‍💨 unless ‼️ YOU give it power. It's ONLY a reflection of who you are, what you're being/your state. Idgaf, the law doesn't gaf. whatever you assume IS true.

So why are you letting 3d decide if you have it or not? If you shifted or not? If you stick to the fact that you do have it, NOT for the 3d to confirm, cuz that's inevitable, but for YOU. do it for you bro, do it for you. And OBVIOUSLY it's gonna be reflected in the physical IF YOU ARE STICKING TO THE NEW STORY. Don't go back and forth with "oh I have it" "no i don't FML" "i am in my dr" "when will I shift from this reality? It sucks" YOU CAN'T SERVE TWO MASTERSSSS

So stop looking at the 3d for validation cuz you're the one who created and is creating it. Even if you open your eyes here- no you didn't. No you DID NOT. You're literally in your DR, wtf are you talking about? You're literally slaying. I am in my dr cuz I said so. Idgaf what 3d says.

TMI: my wallpaper literally says "Go within, everything you need is there" No matter what it is, it's gonna happen if you have it in the 4d.

[irrevocablecondition]

i have been CONSUMED by gilderoy and pete and i need to put forth this scenario where like,,,,

they had a brief fling at school when peter gets paired with lockhart for "tutoring" (lockhart bullshitted his way into being a tutor ofc). and it's such an interesting dynamic of this really conceited guy and this really insecure guy trying to fit together, maybe lockhart makes peter feel appreciated, maybe peter makes lockhart find comfort in being simply Adequate not incredible etc etc - interesting dynamic, blah blah blah backstory stuff they eventually split up because everyone fucking hates lockhart let's be real

AND THEN IT'S post-betrayal, peter is "dead". lockhart is in his element okay.

he's doing interviews for the daily prophet, he's really bigging up this relationship to be something more significant than it was. he's talking about how he's the reason pete was so courageous like "when i first met him, he was a shell of a man! he had no confidence! he was a fumbling wreck but through our years of passion and love, i found the true pete. he died a hero, and i'm thankful that i played the biggest part in that happening". he's proper out here dilvuging because who's going to correct him? james? dead. sirius? imprisoned. remus? idk probably drinking. HE HAS FREE REIGN TO DO THIS !!!

and then pete (as scabbers) is sat on the table whilst the weasleys eat breakfast, and arthur puts the paper down and,,,, it's been YEARS! YEARS i tell you! and lockhart is STILL dragging this out. and scabbers reads this like,,, what the FUCK am i looking at? none of this is true?!

and it could either go:

1) peter is still in his Villain era and he's so annoyed at the fact someone else is taking credit for his work (which yk,,, that's lockhart's whole thing) and THAT'S what triggers his return. pete finally did ONE thing off of his own volition (whether moral or not), he is notttt about to let someone else take credit for it no no no. he's not thinking straight, he reveals himself, chaos ensues -> peter arrested.

OR:

2) lockhart goes too far with one of his exaggerations/lies that it doesn't match up with the story. sirius didn't get a trial, no, but some people know the vaguest details. maybe remus spots the inconsistency in a desperate, drunken haze to prove it wasn't sirius, maybe dumbledore spots it, maybe it's such an outlandish lie that EVERYONE knows he's lying -> boom, sirius trial ! boom, lie low at lupins ! BOOM ! BOOM !!!!! everything is fixed -> peter arrested

so, ironically and hilariously, either way? why did peter get revealed as the true murderer?

lockhart is actually the hero. he actually fucking did something for once 😭😭😭 (he makes the front page again)

[yasministration]

loooooove, I am! I'm absolutely interested in u sharing ur fics idea! I'm absolutely am!

so we can discuss and other things hihihi

loooooove uuuuuuu

i love every single one of yous who let me live out my full yap fantasties. anyway, buckle up because this is is long and doesn't even include requests

GUYS DEADASS IDK WHY I HAVE TO SAY THIS BUT IF ANYONE STEALS A SINGLE ONE OF THESE IDEAS, ILL CHASE YOU WITH A KNIFE

WIPS

the black siblings about the soldier, the king, the poet. sirius is the king, regulus the soldier, reader is the poet

george weasley smut...

reader who's known for her powerful magic and particularly her patronus charm can't seem to produce a patronus after her brother's death

harry x vampire!reader who basically starves herself by refusing to drink blood

sirius black wasn't always the most experienced boy at hogwarts. but after spending a summer with you, his childhood best friend, things change.

IDEAS

Remus Lupin with a fancy girlfriend. She’s super elegant but isn’t afraid to get her toes in the mud for him

sirius and reader loved each other and always wanted to get married but her parents decided for her to marry another man and she wasnt strong enough to say no. her and sirius see each other idk how long later and they fuckkkkk. she tries not to make noise but sirius says ‘let everyone hear just how well i fuck a married woman’ and her husband can hear everything

remus lupin x gf with super curly hair and hes amazed at the shrinkage

pt of mind blowing kisser where her and remus kiss// he tries to impress her with what he knows

both the black brothers rebelling in grimmauld place with their duties and expectations, but then you come along and introduce yourself as their new neighbour, and their parents are like blah blah blah potential wife. and they both immediately feel the need need to impress you

reader and bsf called up to duel in DADA bc they cant stop giggling and everyone thinks its gonna be done in 2 secs because they never take shit seriously but they go on and have the most impressive, elegant duel. neither of them speak - it’s all non verbal spells, going back and forth. they have blank facial expressions, and when r! finally does some spell that hits her friend, she adds a cushioning charm to break the fall. marauders all fall in love instantly??

An unlikely friendship between slytherin!reader and hermione granger forms, and also brings her closer to the boy who lived.

harry x lestrange!reader who inherited her mother's kind of manic personality. she has a wicked laugh, and is a careless rulebreaker. but, don't be fooled, she's not evil or cruel. but her personality makes people think she's a bully, even tho she doesn't even speak to people who aren't her friends. she proves them wrong

There’s a reason Hopper wants El’s door open at all times, but he doesn’t expect her to reciprocate the rule to him, especially when he has a lady friend around

suspect!reader whos super chatty and gossipy so when whoever interviews her, she’s giving all the gossip info with ten backstories when aaron is interviewing her and he's like??? but also the backstories are all super helpful (based on my real life drama?)

emily and reader on a case sharing a room. ‘its okay were both girls’ type of thing and so they dont mind changing in front of each other…

emily and questionably young reader? (THE WAY THIS IS ALL IVE WRITTEN FOR THIS IDEA LOL)

ex!spencer. comes over to reader’s bfs house (but he doesn't know) bc hes a suspect and she opens the door. when she realises it’s him, she slams the door shut and hotch and emily are like???

spencer sees an old friend from uni at a bar and derek immediately falls for her.

Nervous, nerdy, virgin, Peter Parker always seems to have his eyes fixed on you whenever he stays on the bleachers 'reading his book’, so you decide to confront him after practice, but it goes a little differently than you’d expected.

wolverine in that scene where he breaks the old couple’s sink. but their daughter catches him and she's like?? he ruins more things in that bathroom...

when tashi tells art she’ll leave him if he doesnt win then goes to meet with patrick and art wakes up at night - he calls r!, who comes over and holds him until he falls asleep, whispering sweet things and saying how much she loves him until he falls asleep. in the morning, she’s still there, encouraging him as he gets ready and tashi walks in. she sees how happy they are, r! glares at her, and when art wins, he goes to r! and not tashi

making patrick and art play a game against each other. winner gets to fuck you.

... not gonna share my outsiders fic ideas because i want to write them all asap

[fitzjamesbulletwound]

For the ship ask: *looks both ways* HICKEYJIRV ‼️‼️

hickeyjirv huh... never heard of them...

:3

anyway lmao. yessss i ship them!

what made you ship it?

idk if there was one single thing or moment, i've always been a little obsessed with jirving so all ships that involve him intrigue me but hickeyjirv really snuck up on me, it was like one day i woke up insane about them?? reading everything on ao3, watching their scenes in the show together a million times in a row whenever i rewatch etc. lol. they have one of the most fascinating dynamics in the show to me so that probably helped.

what are your favorite things about the ship?

oouugh so many things... i think that how jirving interacts with hickey tells us a lot about him as a character and i'm a big fan of when two sides of a ship bring something hidden or complicated out of each other. also to me! they are a little bit cunt4cunt lmao. hickey for obvious reasons but jirv is also way more of a bitch then we give him credit for and if they got to interact more I think it would be a lot of sniping back and forth in a way that's funny but also very compelling to me idk. i also like to think about what hickey would get out of them fucking or interacting on any kind of intimate level because we see and can speculate a lot about what jirv gets out of it and what he feels about hickey and himself in relation to hickey but it's fun to think about hickey's side of it. like would he like the attention? would he get offended by jirv's indecision and "oh we can't do this it's a sin blah blah"? the scene where hickey's talking to billy about watching john at sunday service and he says "there are worse things than being lashed" is so interesting and iiii like to speculate that he could've meant that repressing the shit out of yourself and denying your own nature like jirv does is worse than living openly despite the danger and that is such a fascinating thought to explore in terms of what intimacy would look like between the two of them?? if that makes sense?? i could go on lmao. last but not least, i just think hickeyjirv as a ship is really hot idk i'm just on my fujo throne Watching them ya know?

is there an unpopular opinion you have on your ship?

idk if this is unpopular, it's just not something i see talked about and explored as much but i don't think it's that out of the realm of possibility for them to genuinely have/show a little affection for each other, mostly because jirv is starved for connection and hickey is a lot more softhearted than he appears on the surface. i don't think they could ever be like a "fall in love" type ship but a small amount of tenderness and care between them is what really pushes their dynamic over the edge for me. to me. in my mind :3

[bettertwin1]

Hi, old follower here from before you had 100 followers. I've got a semi serious question for you.

When I first followed you, I got the impression that you were a RP blog, in the case where you would RP with your "brother" (bettertwin9000), so I followed the rules as such. But later on it seems that this blog is your persona? In terms of everything said to this blog is a personal question to you? It's a weird situation where people asking those intrusive questions make sense for a RP blog, but in a normal blog situation it makes it intrusive.

Tldr, I think many are confused if this is an RP blog or you having Leo as your persona, so can you confirm what this blog actually is?

OMG HI LONG TIME FOLLOWER!!

And, for the sake of things making a little bit of sense, as much as sense as we can manage, keep in mind that we have OSDD, we're a system-

PUTTING IT UNDER CUT CAUSE IT'S LONG 😅

At the start of the blog <- in which we were advertising it as a roleplay blog, it was being run by our host and partially by me though I had no clue what I was doing at the time and bettertwin9000 was being run by our partner <- (which btw, made for some strange asks)

We continued advertising it as a roleplay even when we began suspecting and having full breakdowns over the idea of being a system due to some little things and some big things and lots of research and therapy and blah blah BUT we kept going back on it cause tbh DID is a hard thing to accept and we didn't want it <- still don't

SO now I was trying to run the blog more all the while trying to keep us grounded, IGNORING the possibility of DID and thinking, nah, this is just a really bad cause of delusions and we NEED to get reality checked NOW.

But I ALREADY KNEW i'm not REALLY Leo from rottmnt, but I am him, I was formed from that guy, created? Idk. He made me in his own image type reference audio. WOW IM NOT EXPLAINING ANYTHING 😭😭 did I mention we have a tendency to overexplain <- but specifically for me in the case of explaining things that are hard to explain, ANYWHIZZLE.

We kept going back and forth, confirming and denying the conclusion "we have osdd" cause that's terrifying and while this was happening I was still trying to force us to post and interact and involve ourself in arcs for the sake of distraction from EVERYTHING happening irl and the blog kind of made it worse but in a light hearted way cause suddenly the asks became really gross, and I felt really gross.

Sure, maybe someone who was roleplaying Leonardo would have no trouble answering asks about dead relatives or near death experiences or villains that have physically harmed you and your 'siblings' or about my crippling inability to speak about feelings and whatever else people diagnosed me with on here but I was having trouble answering it, I was getting uncomfortable and I was feeling genuinely overwhelmed because everything that definitely would be great material for a roleplay account was making me just feel, bad. <- which wasn't great considering at the time, feeling bad was not something i could have been affording to do

SO at some point, I started putting boundaries, didn't explain why, just continued under the guise of hey, roleplay guy here, the intruvsive invasive asks about my family and my mental health and my anatomy is making me want to die so please stop andbonly ask fun stuff like idk, if i put salt in donnie's coffee sometimes and everyone was like, yes leonardo in unison.

Then I slowly started getting more adamant on pushing the narrative that I am LITERALLY Leo from the show cause pushing that seemed to really help with the questions, and then the roleplay blog became more like. A personal blog for some dude who happened to be a ninja turtle alter and it'd unfortunately gotten so out of hand that explaining this now kind of made us even more exhausted cause oh man, we might get fake claimed huh <- we had worse things to deal with, internet drama didn't need to be added to this.

Anyway, if you read through all that junk, i'm sorry 😭, but i think it helps explain why the impression of the blog is so confusing cause it was being run by two ppl, a host and an alter who were constantly trying NOT to be those things until pretty recently when we started accepting the fact that we have Osdd

SO TIMELINE.

The blog starts off as an rp blog by our host and I unbeknownst to us both

The blog is fun and we start gaining traction

We also start gaining more mental health problems and have a full breakdown multiple times on many different social medias

We push through to cope

We talk to the other blog runners who are systems <- (Mikey, Raph and at the time when their account was apart of this, April) and they kindly answer and guide us through some things

We start adding boundaries for my sake

We talk to other systems on other social media and they help us with more stuff

We talk to our therapist

We do a ton of research on top of old research we'd apparently already done before <- suddenly we have a long document with so much information

We tell no one about the discovery when we start accepting the possibility

More funny stuff ensue and personal life things happen <- #ONLYTHEREALONESKNOW!

The only announcement I ever make that i'm an alter are one off comments in tags or answers that I never address again until I make an intro post that says I'm an alter in a system

The blog is what now?

The blog is still a roleplay account. Sometimes, canceled arcs that we would have done would have been considered roleplay <- a canceled christmas arc. But usually, this is just a blog. Like, this is just a blog I use to entertain people and to get some of my thoughts out like a singlet would. It's both i guess, it's whatever I want it to be and whatever you guys consider it to be.

The blog is just, my blog, I don't know how else to explain it 😅😅

Also, Bettertwin9000 was pretty much going through the same thing at the time and fun fact, he is actually my "brother" cause he's a Donnie alter <- (yay!)

Shoutout to the host who has their own blogs that they never really post on! couldn't have done it without you! <- and the many kind individuals who gave us their research material and links and answered our questions and stuck w/ us through the most confusing part of OUR LIFE

Srry again if this didn't answer your question like at all by the way, i THINK it at least explained some things but you know 😭 SORRY IDK

[melishade]

Number 92?

This ask game

Oh, you went over 93. I thought you were gonna go backwards now.

Idk if this would be canon or not but I thought it would be funny.

"So...you were dancing at a party?" Megatron snapped the holoform head back to Hanji. The smug Commander was sitting atop of their desk, swinging their legs back and forth.

"The fox told you," Megatron sneered.

"Possibly." Hanji shrugged with a sly grin.

"You know full well what will happen if you tell anyone," Megatron warned them.

"Oh you'll rip out my guts, smear my insides, blah, blah, blah." Hanji hopped off the desk before walking behind it. Megatron was aghast at the sight of Hanji picking up a gramophone and placing it on the table. They placed a record on the gramophone and spun it before placing the needle on the track. Hanji clapped when the music began to play before turning to Megatron and holding out their hand.

"Dance with me," Hanji said.

"Absolutely not," Megatron declared.

"Coward," Hanji jeered.

"No." Megatron punctuated.

"Why not?" Hanji challenged, "Scared?"

"I'm not demeaning myself to this again," Megatron declared.

"Then shall I blackmail you into dancing with me?" Hanji smirked.

"...what's with the sudden insistence on this?" Megatron demanded. There has to be more to this.

"I'm just curious," Hanji answered, "Not that long ago, I had danced with Optimus and he is a terrible dancer."

Megatron snorted at that.

"I just want to see how the 'Mighty Megatron' would fair, since Kiyomi seemed to be swept off her feet when the two of you danced together," Hanji explained, "I want to make the comparison for science."

"I'm not entertaining this-!"

"Do you not trust me to keep this a secret?" Hanji asked, "I thought that we were starting to get along."

"This is crossing a boundary that should never be crossed," Megatron declared.

"You mean besides the fact that you've probably never had a luxury like this and you're afraid of trying it out of fear of messing up," Hanji shrugged.

"...I assume Optimus told you about the caste system," Megatron concluded.

Hanji nodded. "Just give me one minute. I promise I won't bite and I won't tell anyone."

Megatron stared at the extended hand before sighing to himself and taking it. Megatron hated the way Hanji looked all giddy as they pulled him forward. Megatron immediately planted his feet into the floor while Hanji placed a hand on his shoulder.

"Look at that. Already better hand-eye coordination than Optimus," Hanji remarked.

"Make your minute count," Megatron ordered them.

"Done!" Hanji extended the hand holding Megatron's own to the side and began guiding him around their office. They noticed the way that Megatron's footwork was fluid and swift. He didn't trip over them and seemed to be stepping with the music. Hanji found that Megatron was guiding them instead of the other way around. It was genuinely impressive.

"Have you heard this song?" Hanji asked.

"Maybe once or twice," Megatron answered honestly.

"Ah, that explains it." Hanji hummed a little, "Still, you're a much better dancer than Optimus."

"Flattery will get you nowhere," Megatron informed as he raised their arm upward and spun them around.

"Is it really that hard for you to take a compliment?" Hanji asked him.

"I was coerced into this," Megatron reminded as he wrapped an arm around Hanji's waist and dipped them backwards.

"Well I can see why Kiyomi was smitten." Hanji yelped when Megatron let them go and dropped them to the floor.

"Your minute is up." Hanji rubbed their back as Megatron crossed his arms.

"Well thank you for dropping me on my ass," Hanji winced as they stood up.

"Stop trying to blackmail me," Megatron ordered before deactivating the holoform. Hanji sighed before walking over and lifting the needle from the record. It didn't matter. They got what they wanted.

(Well that was fun. Non-canon, but fun. It was a reference to that one ask where Kiyomi snitches on how she met Megatron. The rest of the prompts are free game.)

[trippinsorrows]

I don’t understand wheres the satisfaction in bullying and making people feel bad, what is wrong with these anons?? i just noticed that my-roman-empiree has deleted their account and to know that one of the reason are these fuck ups is truly sad. I just wrote this for you and other roman/wwe related accounts to not pay them any mind and to always put your mental health first! ❤️❤️

yes, i don't either. it made me genuinely say to see her delete her account too, because it was so undeserved. idk what it is, but the past week in the fandom has just been blah. the negativity is exhausting. the back and forth. the indirect posts.

honestly, it's giving me some ptsd from the black panther fandom fallout, and if you were around for that, you know how awful that was.

it just sucks because i made this account because i wanted a fresh start, to be away from all that, all of the drama and division. i don't want that over here. i'm not naive to think everyone has to get along or like each other, of course, lol. but, it just sucks.

i do try to have positive vibes over here and be nice to everyone. i don't bother or mess with anyone. and i didn't want to have to unfollow or even block accounts if i don't have to, but i see that may be a necessity for my own mental health if i'm gonna stay on this site this time around.

it's truly not worth it, as you stated. this is just tumblr, at the end of the day. i just wish more people realized that, ya know? smh

anyway, thank you so much for the kind words. they go a long way. ❤️

[panelshowsource]

i agree that the podcast really is so interesting — and imo it's a lot of plain gossip and tv criticism masked as "professional insight", which i live for lmao — but there are times she is really too much... she often mocks or eye-rolls things in a way that, again, doesn't feel constructive and comes off as very rude. mean girl energy. it also bothers me how she will talk at richard instead of engaging in a back and forth, and sometimes that turns into an episode in which she speaks 80% of the time. then again, as content cycles throughout the year, sometimes what's on/hot atm is just more in her wheelhouse than his, so we just have to wait for new taskmaster, new bbc comedies, new doctor who, whatever interests him, and then hopefully he'll have even more opportunities to shine... i do cherish when he gets a chance to speak lmao

but fr take a shot every time she says "a friend of mine who works at _______ told me blah blah"

i'll work on tracking that down!! it would be fun to watch more of them 😋

aren't they too much? i was just thinking how amazing would it be if they were a pair on pointless celebs ...........

you know how once you notice an actor then suddenly you start to see them everywhere? (especially on uk tv which is not as big a pool as you'd think it would be...) that was me and charlotte ritchie! it was like wow this girl is everywhere!

anyways, i'm not sure what her aims are atm... she's done quite a bit of comedy but am i the only one who thinks she would body a crime series? or something like broadchurch?

glad you got a chance to catch my response and watch some fun things! i was thinking a little more about what else to recommend, and i think if you enjoy the quirky nature of repertoire then you should check out huge davies, and if you enjoy the storytelling format like greg davies typically does then you should try out dara ó briain and russell howard (maybe the 2021 lubricant special to start) :) enjoy!!

hahaha this is funny... it's a good question 😅 there are a few reasons... he's good bantz! he doesn't take himself too seriously, laughs at himself, can be teased, isn't mean spirited. people really appreciate that. plus, he represents a lot of people who aren't otherwise on tv — not primetime bbc, at least. there starts to be an issue when he just...doesn't try, doesn't contribute. he's fallen asleep on like three different shows? didn't he just...not show up to the second-half of his bakeoff special? often he's got nothing to say? mo really carried the convos on his talk show, his teammates carried him on bfq, and so on. he just doesn't seem to have the interest or perhaps the stamina (orrr perhaps the respect) for long records 😅

anyways, he was being pushed for a little while, but that appears to have stopped. he's hasn't been around too much lately 🤔 (tho ngl idk what he's up to!)

yesss this is a great video and i'll link it here in case anyone wants to check it out! it reminded me that i really need to seek out his celeb hunted episodes hahaha

when the news came out he would be playing an 'egon spengler type' i was like yep lmao

he and ed mention quite often how many auditions they go to, especially james, for big movies like wonka and ghostbusters — no surprise to me imo! especially since it seems he's focused on films over tv 🤔

can't say i saw ghostbusters tho i'm sorry 😭

WELLLL now that it's out how have you been enjoying it? 😊🥰 where is your review, anon !!

susie dent gifs are high on my list, working on those for this week for sure!!! it's just...how to choose...she's just too pretty....

but i love ALL of your suggestions, duly noted 😍

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[noonaishere]

OH MY GOSH I THINK I KNOW WHO THE STALKER IS!

This is long! Please don't post this if I'm giving things away. There's still a ton of story to go and I don't want to spoil anything if I'm right! But I had to share my thoughts with you! 😁

So for awhile now, I've been going back and forth between either Keeho or Yeosang. It's obviously someone close to her. Who is pretending they AREN'T a stalker. I even made a little chart of screen names at one point trying to pinpoint who was and wasn't around and for how long. Stalker KNOWS her. These two just seem like they're juuust shady enough, or background character-y enough to be the stalker. But…. Something didn't quite fit. Keeho because he was involved in the move and choosing the apartment, no one would suspect a beloved idol of stalking, maybe he wasn't stalking but trying to scare her into keeping him company in Seoul, etc. Yeosang because he “happened” to live in the same building, “happened” to know Wooyoung, “happened” to randomly show up at her cafe, has a stand up job as a responsible adult/teacher, etc. I had more evidence for Yeosang than keeho, but somehow it makes sense that the stalker is someone close and was more involved in her move/daily life than we know. At one point, I remember thinking, “I should call it now, it's yeosang isn't it?” I mean the guy got her to trust him enough to give him a key? I know, long history, good friends, blah blah… but idk. I love Yeo but he seems fishy.

Anyway. Now here we are, I'm reading chapter 68. And it hit me. Like a ton of bricks and my stomach literally dropped. Omg I hope I'm wrong because this would be horrible!!!!

So, it seems that we have multiple stalkers right now. Or at least y/n isn't equating “online harasser” as possibly being “cafe stalker”. If this is two different people, it's concerning. How does someone end up with an online stalker/harasser who knows where they used to work, their true identity online, etc, AND an in person stalker too?

I'ts likely that that person knows who she is in real life, so it's likely she knows who they are. So it seems that cafe stalker CAN'T be Online Harasser because yn doesn't recognize him and isn't even thinking that he knows she's a streamer.

However. I propose that they are the same person. Online Harasser IS Cafe Stalker, who is the original stalker.

It's Quack. Omg, it's fricken Quack.

Who was the one who originally discovered that Online Harasser (who donated the crazy amount of money) was a guy with her cafe posted on his social media? Quack.

Who was the one who DIDN'T share the supposed guy's name or social media handle with yn? Quack.

Who is the one who is responsible for banning every harassing screen name, and making sure the messages get dealt with/seen or not? Quack.

Who is her only mod, unt she added Namhae? Quack.

“QuackIsWhack✅: Sometimes I can’t even tell if they’re fighting, and I’ve been Cat’s mod since she first needed a mod”

🤔 I wonder how she came to the decision she needed a mod? Did Quack suggest it?

Who is overprotective of yn during streams? Exhibit 7642:

A🌲SurroundedBy🌷s: Tits out for Morn

QuackIsWhack✅: *Whose* tits, Tree?

A🌲SurroundedBy🌷s: My own 😤😤😤

A🌲SurroundedBy🌷s: They’re my tits and I’ll display them if I want to

QuackIsWhack✅: Understandable. As you were

(Side note: this kind of comment from Quack isn't creepy if she's another female who is standing up for her long time friend. It IS creepy when it's a rando from the internet who is a man in his 30s and probably in his mom's basement… you aren't her boyfriend, bro.)

Who didn't need a replacement mod when Namhae aka San didn't mod for a month? Quack.

When did the harassing messages online start again? When Namhae was out and Quack was the only modder on duty.

Ugh! And ALL of chapter 50?! Quack called the chats to her attention on purpose so she would know someone was calling her names?! Oh please!

Who doesn't she know in real life? And we have never talked to except over typed chat?Quack.

She moved to Seoul, on keeho's advice, into a building based on keeho's recommendation. And who told her to talk to Keeho about the creepy social media post she hasn't actually seen? Quack. Maybe keeho is involved.

Chapter 66. Cafe Stalker says to San, “She’s never said anything about having a boyfriend–”

OH WHAT? YOUVE TALKED TO HER BEFORE?

Which brings me to the current, stomach dropping moment in chapter 68. Yn texts Quack to tell “her” that she can't stream tonight BECAUSE SHE ISNT AT HER APARTMENT. Yn tells Quack where she is, and Quack wants her GPS data! She's going to give the stalker her GPS data! Oh my god. Quack isn't stopping or blocking the stalking or threats. He's manufacturing the online threats so she's scared and Quack can be the white knight and/or bring it all to her attentikn and watch her panic. Stalkers/psychopaths love to see the effects of their work. Quack is the stalker.

In his own words, Quack is WHACK!

So first @rachs-words, I have to say:

Because I'm not going to tell you if you're right or not, since I don't want to spoil it for you or anyone.

I will say, it didn't occur to me that I had made so many Red Herrings, but that's probably just because I know who it is, so I wasn't paying enough attention to what readers could have thought about all the characters... (and here I thought that the spreadsheet I had to make with character's ages for a book series was complicated 🤣)

Whoopsie. Definitely a learning moment for if I ever wanted to write a Mystery lol

I am super flattered (🫶🫶🫶) that you went through all the trouble of making a chart in trying to figure out who the stalker is, and I really love the thisness of this ask:

(I'm including San because I remember someone said they thought it was him early on)

It's just so that^^^ and I loved every second of it lol.To all of your effort, I say:

I have been dropping hints about who it is, but now I'm wondering if they were too subtle. The answer does have to do with the screen names, though, that's all I can say.

The only thing I'll maybe push back against, is: I was a mod for a streamer for a month or so (after I finished the fic actually, and it was funny to me how right I ended up being about most of my guesses of what it would be like lol) and there were a lot of moment's like Quack's that you quoted, where chatters would start to get a little wild and we'd have to be like "excuse you?" In particular, they'd randomly start calling the streamer "daddy", which made him uncomfortable, so we'd have to be like "everyone be cool or you're getting timed out," and then hide all their messages so they didn't show up in the stream. One Horny On Main person in particular had to be timed out at least once because they were just not listening lol. Like... everyone's looking at you in real time, are you not embarrassed? lol.

Should I do a Q&A after the fics are over? I feel like there's going to be some questions that people need answering and I don't mind answering them after it's over lol

[hospitalterrorizer]

diary463

1/1/25

wednesday

suddenly tired.

why is it i feel like i get tired so suddenly! it always hits me, out of nowhere. disturbing. what if something is wrong? i doubt it, but it just entered my mind:

what if something is wrong.

of course, nothing is wrong, i just have thoughts like that, i have worse ones like that a lot, generally. and then i have to prove it or put it out of my mind or something, so i guess something is wrong but it's not that i'm going to imminently die it's that i'm going to die slow with all the thoughts like that like how do i know i'm not going to do something awful or die or xyz, blah blah blah. oh well, really i feel okay but i guess i feel so tired that i'm in the 'preserving every thought i have' mode of diary-keeping. keep it then toss it into the void, i suppose.

here's something i learned about today, the brocades of the tujia people in china, they are around hunan, i believe, i really love these... they're so pretty and i guess for obvious reasons are nostalgic, or not so obvious maybe, but these kinds of textiles and designs always bring to mind how kikiyama used pixel art to reinterpret/explore this kind of art... though they were clearly/we now know they were absorbing a lot from andean textiles specifically, which is silly, either way, to feel nostalgic for these kinds of textiles and forms of art when i have no relation to their source really, i think, or not silly but it's come via such an odd pipeline that what they mean and how they feel to me is so different compared to anyone who comes up around these, i was vcing with a friend when i learned about them, he said they reminded him of undertale and i was like wtf that is crazy...they remind me of yume nikki which is better since that's a better game, and he said i'm crazy, and i think i am crazy, but i've thought about yume nikki too much in terms of being actual visual art rather than a video game so it's couched in all the dadaist stuff and neoprimitivism kikiyama seemed to be working through and blah blah blah i am crazy because i was sort of an annoying cunt about it, but here they are:

of course, as they are produced in china where buddhism is prevalent, some of the symbols/images on them contain the swastika, i also find these pretty but it feels either odd to not acknowledge it or i feel like i have to because i'd feel wrong to not or something. i don't know. is that a kind of cowardice? i'm not sure.

i really love the colors in all of these, the violent-feeling vibrancy of them, and i think this is where that distortion i was mentioning appears, where to me their vibrancy is pretty because it has this kind of excess to it, and its brightness also brings forth something almost grotesque, like a kind of vision of the world suffused with nausea and the radiation of headaches, as well as dream-visions and so on, idk, it's super duper pretty to me and i love that kind of thing, and in these i think the animal figures are very cute, as well as the people in the first one i posted, pretty and cute. but i wonder if to people who are around these kinds of things, if what i see as gesturing towards some kind of excess is merely because of my being conditioned to see that sort of brightness/exuberance as in league with a sort of decadent art, as well as the work of surrealists, or is that something they want in their work, a kind of field where anything may appear, in this super flat way. idk. it's something i will probably never grasp fully, or that i will never be someone who knows it intimately or as a normal thing, though i imagine most people will never know these things so intimately, even some people nearer to them.

these also brought to mind the samplers i found on flickr and archive.org, these things where i believe young girls in christian schools in america mostly had to create a textile showing they could create letters and images and a message:

i think primarily the similarity comes down to the limitation of needlework and how the construction of images must be done, it really does resemble kinds of dot art because it's all arranged on a grid which means things end up being straighter than how they might be drawn and stuff. however i think you can see a difference between these samplers and the tujia brocades in that the needlework of the samplers i think, when dealing with images, tends to desire things of a higher fidelity or have a sort of discomfort with some of the flattening which occurs, and instead use more clever ways to create something more 'full' looking, at least in a couple, while a couple here do relish in the flatness of things i think. i also like the maze-like nature of some of them, they seem like abstract places to wander around almost.

but, aside from learning about this today, mostly i just vced with a friend for a while which made me really happy, at one point in the call, a mosque nearby him started a prayer call i believe, it was loud and i'd never heard it before, and he said, they must be doing it because it's a new year, new them.

also in the vc, i found this tourist website about somewhere in hunan, here are some photos from its news portion which i think is really interesting, fluff from other parts of the world sometimes feels elucidating in an odd way, stuff about a river where giant salamanders might be, or the area having a place to keep them safe, local winter contests and so on, i went as far back as i could, to around 2009/10, i think whenever i am rather bored i should go and continue on over the years, i made it up to 2012 or so, a very active year, here are some images:

i wrote a little bit of something, too, but now that little thing i wonder if it ought to be cannibalized into a story i was writing about one thing, maybe make it about 2 things now, but idk how to make them complement one another rather than just be 2 odd simultaneous things in one's head. we'll see. it was going to be nonfiction but i'd rather create a story from it.

no drawing today, too tired... bad of me... no reading either. i think tomorrow we might do some errands? i should get better rest for that, so i think i will close this off here tonight,

so,

byebye!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[prentissluvr]

EXCUSE MARI BUT I THINK YOU HAVE TO PAY FOR MY THERAPY (if I actually went to it lol)

who gave you the fucking audacity to write something so heart-wrenching and something so canon that if you told me that this happened in the show, i'd believe you.

you have sam's characterization and mannerisms down to the T and I will be in constant awe and in love with how you write him.

GOD AND YOU WROTE HIM WITH SZN 5 IN MIND AND IM ACTUALLY GONNA START CRYING (idk if you're planning a follow-up) THINKING ABOUT HOW IF THEY DON'T MAKE UP BY THE TIME THAT SAM JUMPS INTO THE CAGE AND DEAN TELLS THEM

OH IM FUCKING DEAD AT THAT

MARI YOU CONSTANTLY RAISE THE BAR AND I WILL ALWAYS AND FOREVER BE YOUR NUMBER ONE FANGIRL FOR YOUR SAMMY FICS 😩🙌

BESTIE IF I COULD I WOULD (also therapy is the best highly recommend if you're able fr <33 love that shit)

uhm yeah idk i guess the person who requested it gave me the audacity ??? i truly don't know where it came from, i'm just as stumped as you bUT THANK YOU UGHHHHH i am constantly just so so so glad that you think i write our boy well enough to think this would fit canon you're so sweet <3

i'm going back and forth about a follow-up because i don't think they would make up any time soon without it feeling forced or like reader is like a pushover lowkey HAHA but!! maybe years later?? but no i have thought of that for real because like.. i was going through the logistics of if they had worked things out and sam wasn't a complete and utter idiot and i was like DAMN THAT WOULD SUCK A LOT because then sam would fall into the cage and then come back soulless and then definitely not be good to reader during that time. so like i don't know if i'd jump back into it maybe until like sam realizes that this sort of "i'm cursed blah blah blah" mindset is bullshit which he does in the later seasons (end of season nine not sure if you're there but i don't consider it a spoiler or anything; dean just says something similar about that "i'm cursed i always hurt the people around me" and you can just tell that sam knows it's suchhhh bullshit anyways yeah!!)

basically not sure about a follow up but it is something i'm thinking about!! and yeah it would be suchh an angsty thing for reader to get told about all that shit fr

BUT UGH THANK YOU BESTIEEEE JUST HAVING FUN AND DOING MY BEST LOLOL THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR BEING MY NUMBER ONE FANGIRL I'M YOUR NUMBER ONE FAN TOO BESTIE <333

[chaoslynx]

I see you a a great parent figure

I will never tell you who I am but you are slay

Damn y'all really need better adult role models huh? Standards are LOW out here.

Starting to feel like that trope of the disgruntled old man who keeps accidentally adopting teenagers. Like I am BEGGING other adults to tell the kids in your life that you're proud of them. Please. Do it for my sake. I can't keep adopting teenagers!!

(This is all lighthearted and I am absolutely here to help y'all in whatever ways I can!)

BUT. That being said. Please try to understand that like ... me saying I'm proud of you, or letting you infodump, or giving my honest experience on something in an age-appropriate way, or WHATEVER the hecking fuck I did to make you think this? Literally the bare minimum you should be seeing from the adults in your life.

Like ... to be frank, I know there's a reason that a lot of you (especially the kiddos) are drawn to Banana Fish in particular, and also that there's a reason you're spending so much time in fandom spaces online, etc. etc. But just ... please know that you deserve better? Even if it's not feasible for you to actually HAVE better right now.

I'm not saying that every adult has to like kids or whatever. But I AM saying that ever person has to treat others with the respect that they deserve, and that kids and teenagers deserve exactly as much default respect as adults -- and that that respect is to be delivered in a way that is age-appropriate, but not inherently Less Than.

This turned into a bit of a ramble and idk where I'm going with it honestly. I'm honored that you think I'm slay, but just. know that you deserve better than a 25-year-old writer on the internet who is Trying Really Hard

Honestly like ... I'm sorry that a lot of y'all ever had to turn to my writing -- or to canon bfish -- to begin with. If you're just here for the stories, that's amazing, and I'm happy you're here either way. But if you're finding yourself in them, like ... I'm sorry.

[diamondcitydarlin]

talking about Jack again bc ofc how can you not, but there's something really freeing about having a villain again that is not only indisputably evil and morally bankrupt, but avidly delights in being awful, and even has an air of twisted whimsy to him, like it's almost a crime this guy didn't get a Ratigan-style musical number at any point in the film, I can almost hear it in my head lol

ymmv and i'm sure there are exceptions, but it felt like we entered this era for the past decade, 15 years or so where main villains had to be more complex than just 'mwahaha i love evil' and that often led into a more morally grey kind of situation that allowed for back and forth discourse about whether or not someone was really evil and blah blah blah and that's fine and all but....

I can't help but love this horrible pink-haired monster of a man that proudly proclaims his intention to shoot a puppy in the face and just "agree to disagree" that he doesn't deserve ALL the magic in the world and no one else gets any because obviously he does, IDIOT. Fucking love that for him and me lmao

That's not to say, as I've pointed out before, that he isn't without depth. Like, I kind of suspect he was lying about having a wealthy childhood considering his flashback of himself (which is decidedly a more reliable narrator than what Jack says happened) and maybe his acquisition of some kind of magic was the catalyst that propelled him into wealth and power and I think there's more to explore there. I think there's more to explore in his subtle shame at admitting he's only from a nursery rhyme and not a fairy tale proper. I think there's more to unpack in his description of 'little Jack' just being a loser baker's boy with no magic.

But at the same time none of it excuses or muddles anything he does as somehow justified, and that's great bc I'm really just ready for a villain that gets to be evil, to delight in his evil, to know he's evil and selfish and either not care or think it's a cool way to go or whatever like idk I missed that go off king!!!

[crescentcircus]

ya'll want more of my headcannons? Too bad!

This time: the Four Hero's or Yore and their relations to the main four

I think each of the four hero's will correlate to Kirby, Meta Knight, King Dedede and Bandana Dee in some way. The dream team is kinda like their successors in a way because of that. Also keep in mind I'm basing some things on my astrals headcanons because I certainty have a brain somewhere in there but idk where I put it

SO. Let's get the obvious one out of the way, Galacta Knight = Meta Knight. Need I explain? Strong masked astral with cool wings and the title of strongest warrior in the galaxy? Meta Knight literally summoning him the first time we see the man? Both knights? This is the easiest one so far.

Next will be a litter more challenging, and is based absolutely nowhere in cannon but I think Elfilis was one of the four heros and I think that Elfilis = Bandana Dee. FOR STARTERS, Bandana canonically fought them with Kirby, both use spears. That's it. That's my reasoning that doesn't go into headcanons with no basis in reality on Elfilis.

The third and forth are completely unknown unless you wanna say Galaxia was one of the hero's, but I'm not sure how that would fit into this, or you could go with my crackpot theory and say Morpho Knight = Kirby because blah blah world eater astrals blah blah appeared in Kirby(character) lore gold mine game blah blah. Unlikely. But I'd like to hear what others think is going on with the four heros, I am very interested in this bit of Kirby lore myself

[light-me-on-pyre]

I'm up to s2ep18 and I've had a few things to say but not really worth blogging per episode so here's my thoughts sprung forth from ep11-18

One thing I've been noticing is the show itself is actually really well made in a lot of little moments. Specifically, there's the scene where the brothers are talking to the conspiracy theorist who is basically on top of the shapeshifter but is calling it the mandroid and thinks the government is covering it up blah blah conspiracy theorist. The brothers share a look like they're on the same page, they've been doing this for awhile, they're perfectly in sync, then Sam stands up and goes, "you stupid dumbfuck you have no idea what you're talking about. We're the fbi give us your illegal tapes." (To paraphrase) and Dean gives the look of "dude wtf"

Idk I just notice little character moments like that it makes it a better show. (And then they take that character development to the extreme with the trickster guy and I guess that's good even if that episode itself felt like it was beating the message into you instead of letting you simply see it for yourself but whatever)

I went into this thinking people obsessed over it in the "I said it was my favorite show not that it was actually good" kind of way and I have to say I am pleasantly surprised to keep finding ways that is not the case.

Anyway seperate point,

Are the brothers ever going to get their names cleared from the law or are they going to get their asses hounded everytime a shapeshifter shows up. Not complaining, it's a good source of drama. But the fact they have an actual fbi man after them it makes me cringe everytime they don't wear gloves to an active crime scene I don't care they wipe their prints down on occasion they're not getting all of them and prevention with gloves is the best way to not get tracked by the cops (or other hunters they managed to piss off). Like Dean would object to a pair of leather gloves. And then Sam would say leathers not his vibe and would instead steal a few boxes of actual latex gloves you would use at a crimescene, and they could bicker about how dorky Sam looks and how disposable gloves are bad for the environment(sarcastically) and sam would say they're sterile and also they're black so they're slimming and just as cool as leather and around and around you could get seasons worth of bickering out of this. You could probably find an excuse for Sam to call dean a butch again because I'm sure that didn't fan any flames when that happened the first time.

Or they can just leave their fingerprints everywhere. Eh.

I liked the episode where Sam got possessed. It was bound to happen sooner or later. I liked that they reused the entrapment circle in that other hunter's house. I can't wait for that demon to bypass the charms just as easily as the trap.

I liked the timeloop episode. I should probably go back and see what she interacted with if anything at all. I know ghosts can interact with things but it would be a nice touch for the mystery if she never actually interacts with anything the other ghost wasn't directly involved with. It's nice seeing benevolent/misunderstood ghosties.

I liked the movie episode. Dean's so much fun with this one. It's holding hands with the tulpa episode. It would have been fun to see the not-really-ghosthunters antagonists from that episode show up here and recognize the brothers or something but oh well.

I just started watching Supernatural because why not and

The shape shifter episode?

The shape shifter episode.

The entire episode was giving me whumpflies. The premise is a shapeshifter turns into the husbands and boyfriends of the women he tortures and kills and the real guys take the fall for it. And I just

The situation from the women's prospective. The "please don't hurt me any more" to the real husband.

Imagining a whumper who tortures like this but doesn't kill. The victims testimony means the real guy goes to jail for sure even when no cameras. How does he convince her it wasn't really him? Even if it ends with a reveal and exoneration like the episode, how can she trust him? How does he grapple with the fact she believes, with good reason if emotion driven, that he's capable of that?

I just

Oooooh I see why people like this show.

[mysmorgasbordoffantabulosa]

taboo discussion here... but i go back and forth about who i think tops and bottoms with taekook. I personally think tae is either a top or power bottom. And jk is a bottom or soft top.

so many people see jk's muscles and tattoos and assume he's definitely a top all the time. but i don't see that as being 100% true. i can see jk sometimes topping, but not for those reasons.

tk confuse tf out of me because they both exhibit signs of top/bottom energy. so i guess the easiest way to phrase it is that they switch.

also, after watching how inflexible tae is during those yoga episodes and how flexible jk was...idk made me wonder lol

i know it's none of my business, blah blah, but i'd be lying if i didn't think about it sometimes.

But the one thing I will touch (hehe) upon is your notion that flexible = bottom...

My dear, we (bottoms) are not all porn stars who can do the splits or bend of backwards or touch our toes. Flexibility does not equate sexual position.

Regarding the other stuff, I have touched (hah, hah) upon this before...

Where I've looked at how we perceive their physical actions which people then translate into sexual positions (tattoos, muscles = top etc) and how we should see things as personality traits:

Also, briefly touched upon this in another ask recently too:

But in the end, it doesn't really matter who sticks their train into the tunnel.

Because all our speculation could be for naught and we're all wrong and Taekook are both asexual and don't do the horizontal tango at all...