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Love Thy D!LF - T.F.
Synopsis. Yes, your neighbor is a hot, pĂ©rvy D!LF. Yes, heâs a total tease. No, you donât think your poor new bed frame is going to stay in one pieceâŠ
Pairing. Toji Fushiguro x Reader
Content. MDNI, fem! reader, older! Toji, voyĂ©urĂsm, pĂĄnty-stĂ©aling, male mast., exhibĂtionĂsm, he is so DOWN BAD, matĂng presses, marathon s, vĂbrators, oraI (fem rec.), face-sĂtting, p slĂĄpping, p talking, BRĂEDING, mentions of kids, PĂSSYDRĂNK TOJI, proposals, overstĂm, creampĂes, shĂłoting blanks, heâs a tease thatâs shĂrtless half the time, Megumiâs a real one, pet names, swĂ©aring.
Word count. 8.1k (PHEW)
A/N. Apartment building wouldnât last a week if he was my neighbor.
Neighbor (UGH): another pair of those cute lilâ pajama shorts made their way onto my balcony again, ma.
Your neighbor was a tease.
Ever since youâd stepped foot into this apartment building a mere few months ago, it seemed like everything and anything he did was to rile your poor head up into a frenzy - and, well, down thereâŠ
Because, for lack of a better term, Toji Fushiguro was hot.Â
Once your landlord had off-handedly mentioned that the occupant of the apartment right beside your own was a single father, youâd imagined a sweet older man that doted on his young son and would likely steer clear out of your way.Â
What you certainly had not expected was for your housewarming gift of a fresh batch of cookies to be oh-so-blatantly greeted by a staggeringly gorgeous man that took up every inch of the doorframe. Shirtless.
Bzztâ!
Your skin burns with the realization of just how deeply youâd been reminiscing back to that heavenly sight, hastily snapping your eyes back onto your blaring phone screen.
Neighbor (UGH): well? hurry before i start to like them too much <3
Ugh, youâre rolling your eyes at that mischievous little heart placed at the end of his text. It was absolutely embarrassing how that was enough to have a tiny squeal slipping through your lips involuntarily. Calling you flirty nicknames, flashing winks your way, lingering his hands just slightly whenever he helped carry your groceries upstairs - Toji did everything.Â
You find yourself giving your reflection a slow one-over in your phone camera - just in case. Before padding eagerly down the treacherous pathway that carried you out of your apartment and along the five steps down the corridor to your neighborâs door.Â
Heaving out a shaky breath, you knock.
And Toji Fushiguro never made you wait. He never had you standing in the hallway for more than two seconds before that heavy wooden door swings openâŠalmost as if heâd been suspiciously standing by for this.
âTook ya long enough. Heh, I was beginning to think you almost wanted me to have it, doll.â
Oh.
Oh.
Shit, you shouldâve known - and it takes every ounce of will in your body to keep your gaze locked with the forest-green eyes sweeping down the expanse of your figure. Greedily.Â
Because Toji was showing off what looked like miles upon miles of slightly-tanned, bulging muscles that were just about seconds away from ripping straight through the thin, white undershirt that stuck to him like a second skin. Molding to every curve and dip down, down, down-Â
Itâs not something new exactly, and if there was one thing youâd learned during your time here, it was that your eccentric neighbor wasnât shy to show skin.
Especially around you.Â
In one hand was grasped the soft fabric of your cotton shorts, swallowed up by his thick digits. The other propping up on top of the door to flex his strong biceps in a way that makes you gulp.Â
You notice with a jolt that Tojiâs pinkish tongue briefly peaks out to swipe over that sinful scar sitting prettily at the very edge of his smug smirk. Moving to hum cockily, âCat got yer tongue?â
He knew what he was doing.Â
God, this was already shameful enough without him making it worse. You were only grateful that so far youâd been called over for only a few sundresses and t-shirts - nothing scandalous, yet.Â
âNo-â youâre mumbling out. Trying oh-so-hard to not let your eyes flicker to the too-tight strain of his boxers around his thick thighs. Failing. âJust wondering how you probably need those shorts more than me, anyway.â
He didnât - in fact, youâd prefer him without one.
A fat thumb of his finds its way to the hem of his boxers, tugging down so tantalizingly slightly to give you a sexy flash of skin. Lined with a sharp hipbone, and a dark happy trail - âSâthat your way of tellinâ me you want me out of this, ma?â
âYou wish, pervert.â You try to swipe at your shorts, only for Toji to dangle it far, far away from you. âI just meant those b-boxers look like theyâve seen better days. Years, even.âÂ
âHah?â Tojiâs dragging out mockingly, leaning his broad shoulders against the doorframe. Heâs crossing his hands, letting your sight be obscured by the display of his strong, rippling forearms. So close now that you feel his breath fan your face, could smell every waft of his cinnamony masculine scent. Grin only widening, âMâbeing nice enough to take the time outta my day to hand over your cute lilâ pieces of laundry and this is how ya talk to me? I have better things to do, yâknow.â
Huffing, youâre ready with a quick apology on the very tip of your tongue to get this over with as soon as possible. That is, before-
âHeâs lying.â
Both of you snap your heads down towards the direction of the sullen, deadpanning voice. And you already know by the wearied sigh at the end who it belongs to.Â
âWhy, hello there, Megs-â youâre smiling, reaching out to ruffle those spikes of black hair thatâd magically manifested beside the door. Ignoring Tojiâs affronted grunts of âhe never lets me do that.â
âHeâs lying, yâknow.â Megumi blinks his eyes up at you, and you silently wonder just how it was possible for a six-year-old to look like heâs seen all the horrors of the world already. Heâs ruthless. Pointing a sharp, accusatory finger up at his father, âHe doesnât have better things to do. Heâs been giggling disgustingly to himself in front of the door for the past-â
âThatâs enough- why donât you get some homework done, my son.â Tojiâs clapping his hand immediately over Megumiâs mouth, wrangling his tiny, thrashing body over one shoulder before briefly disappearing inside.Â
âJust tell her!â
âIâm taking your iPad time away!â
Itâs just about all that you hear from inside before he makes his appearance again - shaggy, black tresses now disheveled, high cheekbones flushed, and from the corner of your very obvious staring you notice a pearly bead of sweat disappear between his cushiony pecs. Though, your eyes follow, you didnât mindâŠ
âTch- kids these days, right?â heâs gasping in a few hurried lungfuls. Planting the shorts into your open palms, his calloused pads linger on your hand. âS-so uh, I take that the dryerâs not working, yet?â
Youâre sighing, rubbing your fingers over your throbbing temples. âYeah, I told Higuruma- our landlord to look at it, but heâs still on that business trip and wonât be back for a while. Sorry about all this, Toji.â
âPlease-â heâs waving. âYou worry your pretty lilâ head too much, itâs not like mâcomplaining now. Am I?â
âYeah but-â
âBesides. Why donât I take a look at it?â
âWhat?â your brows scrunch together, and the thought of Toji being inside your home made your words tremble ever-so-slightly with- anticipation? Excitement? Want? Whatever it was, it made his dark brows raise, and youâre sure you had an utterly unexplainable look on your face right now. âDo you even know how to?â
Heâs scoffing, eyes rolling at you with practice. âAsking me if I know how to fix shit- of course, I fuckinâ know how to fix a dryer. Probably better than olâ clipboard Higuruma himself. You need to be taken care of, yâknow.â
And, yes, that might be so - but more than that came the idea that Toji had to enter your home to do so. You couldnât help but think of something else. Making you mutter out a heated, âIâllâŠconsider it.â
He smiles a smug smile, a tiny dimple digging into the very end of his cheek. âThaâs what I like to hear, ma.â
The very second that door shuts, youâre rushing back to your own apartment. Shorts clutched to your thumping heartbeat and thighs slightly weaker than they were just a few minutes ago. SlightlyâŠhotter. Ready to scramble back into your bedroom and create just a bit more laundry for tomorrow.Â
And only a few seconds later does Toji find himself doing the most pathetic fistbump behind closed doors. The beginnings of a sleazy smile on the very edges of his lips.Â
âSmooth, dad.â
âNow Iâm serious about no iPad-â
Megumiâs running back into his room before that rasping threat has even left Tojiâs predictable lips. Grumbling, heâs making his way to that godforsaken frog-cased iPad cushioned in the middle of the sofa, possibly to hide it away for a few hours.
And then, he sees it.Â
Now, one of the very reasons that Toji had rented this apartment in the first place was for that idyllic skyline winking up from over his balcony. Towering buildings, flashing lights, all overlooking his living room couch - which, unfortunately for him - or, well, fortunately more like - just-so-happened to be positioned right next to your own balcony lined with laundry.Â
So it wasnât exactly a surprise for him to catch a fluttering piece of cotton or ratty sleep shirt of yours for him to tease about later.Â
With a sigh at the flashing piece of fabric, heâs shuttering the sliding window open - ready to call your pretty self over again before-
âShit.â Toji hisses, deep baritone wavering. His brows are raising down at the stray cloth, prominent Adamâs apple bobbing with a gulp. You really wear this type of shit? Well, he shouldnât exactly be surprised butâŠ
But this?
Because wrapped easily around his long fingers was a pair of pretty, pretty lace panties. Panties. All pink and see-through enough that Toji thinks he could see his own fingerprints through that flimsy excuse of underwear.Â
All of a suddenâŠhis hands mindlessly raise up, up, up - mere inches away from his nose whenâŠfuck.
âDamn, woman.â heâs spitting, snapping back to his senses. Ignoring the tightening in his pants to speedwalk his hasty way over to his bedroom in search of his phone. Just a few clicks away from texting you- âGonna be the fuckinâ death of me I swear-â
And, see, Toji Fushiguro isnât the type to stutter.Â
He isnât the pathetic type to let anyone elseâs voice shoot a bolt of electricity down his spine - to choke right in the middle of his sentence.Â
But, you always did throw him off, didnât you?
Because heâs letting his maw slack open in a sharp gasp- no, shudder at the muffled, drawling sound from beyond the walls. Fingers loosening around his phone in sheer shock when he snaps his head towards his shared wall where your bedroom was.Â
Where he could hear your honeyed voice. Moaning.Â
And Toji gulpsâŠbefore locking the door to his bedroom.
Like an animal, heâs immediately sneaking up to press his greedy ear against the wall where it was emanating from. Aching for every tiny gasp and whine, he could just imagine the way you were splayed out across your plush mattress, fingers buried deep.
So cute.
âPlease- it feels s-so good.â Comes your cute mewl, followed by the buzzing vrrrrâ! of what he assumes to be that hot pink rose toy of yours thatâd accidentally gotten delivered to his address last week. And Toji almost snickers.
âF-fuck-â he breathes out shakily. Unabashedly listening for more, more, more- âYa canât be serious- what a treat.â
And Toji knows he should be the bigger person and stop listening, he knows he should ignore the sultry way your trembling moans were sending shockwaves down to his tight boxers. But he canât.
âNgh- r-right there-â youâre whimpering, and Toji tuts at the way he couldâve found your sweet spots much earlier. â-yeah- hah- jusâ a little more- Toji-â
His phone clatters! to the ground.
Did you just sayâŠhis name?
âFuck-â One massive hand of his comes down to clap over his jaw-dropped mouth, biting back an answering moan coming from something dangerously dark, primal from inside his heaving chest.Â
Shit, he canât breathe - he canât even think right now because every drop of blood in Tojiâs entire body was sprinting down to his heavy cock smacking down his thigh. Rock-hard. Angry. Just twitching when your voice repeats his name louder.Â
âTojiâ!â
Ah, there it was again. And with it, he can feel every shred of his sanity being thrown away. Only once- twice was enough to get Toji addicted. To have his melty mind yearning to hear it again. And again. And again and again and-
Toji feels pathetic.Â
Like some hormone-hazed, younger version of himself when his hands frantically fumble their way to hook into the elastic band of his boxers. Feeling absolutely zero guilt when he tugs-
Toji was hard. Painfully, furiously hard just from the mere sound of your voice. Swollen and sobbing. It was enough to have his fat, strawberry-pink tip smack! against his toned abs, smearing down a wet glissade of precum that makes him hiss. All but drooling at the scratch of your panties being wrapped delicately around his sensitive shaft.Â
âOh god.â heâs breathing out, thumbing over a wet glide on the bawling divot of his swollen head. Itâs pooling like a translucent little puddle, wet enough that those pearlescent beads gloss a wet trail all the way down to his wrist. And heâs popping the salted-caramel digit into his mouth. âWh-who the fuck do ya think you are ta get me this hard, ma?â
The fat curve of his thumb latches on to plug up the very ends of his cock, stopping himself from wasting a single precious drop before listening.
For anything.
âC-câmonââ Toji lets his heavy body lean against the wall after a few more sloppy squelches that pull from your saturated cunt. He could already hear how dripping wet you were. How needy. âWanna hear your hah- pretty lips talk-â
Tojiâs sinking his sharp canines onto his lower lip to hold back a groan. Because as much as he loved to hear himself talk - hearing you moan was worth more than anything. Even if it cost him his rationality to quieten down. Please-Â
Ah, his prayers are answered.
Because the wall slightly jitters with your vibrating voice once more. âOh- sh-shit it feels so good-â
âHeheh, does it?â heâs grunting, drawing a slow wetness of swirls on the underside of his slit. Hard enough to send him seeing stars. âTell me- t-tell me more, ma.â
And could you read his mind?
Because whateverâs left of it certainly seems to think so at the way that no sooner are the words spilling from his babbling lips that youâre feeding his blessed ears with a few more syrupy sweet whines. And Toji shivers when he hears the creak of your bed.
DamnâŠhe could make it break. Heâs sure.Â
The thought is enough to send his hips rutting into his fist, furiously fucking up into it like he was angry. Like he wishes he could do with you-
âO-oh-â Toji gasps out a hot, condensed breath feeling the slight massage of your thin panties at his twitchy balls. Heâs unsteadily picking its sticky cloth apart to press it even deeper into the drenched tufts of black at his hilt, down every thumping vein thatâs lightning-bolted down his length. âThis thing b-barely even wraps around my cock, doll.â
Heâs hot. So, so hot. Latching onto the hem of his undershirt with his teeth to swipe across his sensitive nipples.Â
Burning.
And, really, he didnât know what was worse for his poor self - your noises from just the other room, or the way your panties felt so good down his cock in this one.Â
âGood fuckinâ girl.â He twirls your panties around his fat hilt, meshing against the creamy pink at his hefty base. Fucking it up, up, up with pound after pound that half-leaves the poor thing in tatters. Well, he sure hoped you didnât like this pair too much. âProbably so fuckinâ oh- wet now, huh? Did I do that? Didnât know you were s-such a slut fâme.â
Every slobbering drag down his length has Tojiâs dark brows knitting together. Back and forth back and forth back and- So hard.Â
So hot and heavy. He could barely catch his breath, sweat perspires across his forehead, and Toji could almost taste the metallic tang of blood when heâs holding back every rasping ah! ah! ah! just to hear your voice.Â
It was agonizing.Â
And he couldnât help but imagine the way you were probably toying your tired fingers over your clit - the way youâd probably be so shy at how he could so clearly hear you. Killing Toji that it was the only thing he could do.
SLAM!
âShit-â Tojiâs snapping his head up at the mindless way his free hand had come smashing down onto the nearby drawer for any shred of balance. Sharp ears searching desperately for any sign that youâd heard-
âNgh- yes- jusâ a bit more-â
He breathes out a guilty sigh of relief when the saturated slurps of your cunt only continue. Filling his mind sloppily like his favorite song. Gulping in a harsh wad of saliva before spitting a thick stream right onto the very edge of his plump, reddish head. His hulking body wracks with a violent shudder as it drip! drip! drips down every tender spot on his swollen cock. Beading down to cover his heavy balls in a thin sheen of spit.Â
âLook what youâve done.â heâs spitting. Other hand coming down to rub lazy, massaging circles around his bulbous, cum-filled sacks. The sheer stimulation enough to have his head lolling drunkenly against the wall.
âMâso close-â Your voice only makes Toji fuck into his hand even harder - if only it was you. You, you, you - the only thing playing around his currently stupid mind. â-g-gonna cum ah-â
That makes him bawl out another furious wave of precum staining your panties see-through, glinting with every flutter down his raw cock. Faster. It was building and building up so close-
âC-close already?â heâs snickering, bending at the knees with how weak he was. Tojiâs biceps flex and and ache with just how wildly he was fucking up into his fist, abs rippling with each wild buck. He half-wonders if heâd be able to see that pretty frilly pattern of your panties imprinted on his cock the next day. Over and over- âI woulda m-made you cum sooner.â
Would your beautiful eyes roll to the very back of your head when you did?
Would you beg him to cum, too? To fill you up. To breed you. Shit, that had his hefty shaft twitch in his hands, electricity flashing behind Tojiâs eyes.Â
Would you moan his name - oh, please moan his name.
âP-please-â Toji finds himself gasping, and his entire body was hunched over now. Pathetic. Waiting for any second that youâd reach your high - he was a gentleman, after all. âCum fâme- ah fuck fuck fuck-â Twiddling a manicured thumb in a slow line underneath his sensitive slit, it was making him moan so dangerously loud. â-please- cum on this fuckinâ cock, ma.â
âFuck! Toji-â Comes your yelp, and it makes his mouth water. Breath held in a choked-up gasp in his puffing chest, â-mâcumming.â
He could see it already - just how pretty youâd look with your head thrown back and your back arching into his cock when you finally reach your high.Â
Now, Toji doesnât know what overtook him to drag those drenched panties up to his face - to press it thoroughly against his nose and smell your essence. Breathing it in. drinking it in. But he canât pretend like he hadnât imagined it many, many times before.Â
And it makes him cumÂ
It makes him shudder with a heavy puff of air, once. Twice. Before dumping and dumping out stringy wads of seed until your soft panties were soaked.
âOh shit- shit shit shit-â he spews out a slurring slew of profanities, painfully hard cock bursting at the end with wet splatters of cum. So much of it. Itâs making such a filthy mess that he almost feels guilty.Â
Jaw clenching when heâs forced to part with your panties with a pained gruff, sliding it along his thoroughly coated cock. Hi cum seeps through the fabric and into a milky puddle that pools at his wrist, dripping down a milky sheen across his skin.Â
âMmpfââ his mouth salivates. A low, disappointed scoff bursting at the back of his throat when your own obscene noises quieten down. He missed you already. Dewy eyes veering to the back of his head, heâs only wondering how much prettier these would look on you. Still as ruined. âYouâd be lucky to get these fuckinâ panties back, woman.â
Bzztâ!Â
From its discarded place on the floor, he can read the notification flashing across the phone screen.
Cutie-next-door: Iâve decided - can you come by tomorrow to fix the dryer, pleeeease?
---
â-ah, ya see when this vent is clogged sâgonna stop working. And so what you hafta do is-â
You werenât listening.
You couldnât.
Because Toji Fushiguro was sprawled out across your cramped kitchen - completely shirtless.
You had half the mind to turn him away after heâd knocked on your door with absolutely no sign of any upperwear - that sleazy grin plastered all over his face begging the answer to whether this was on purpose. To tease you. âCan move better this wayâ your ass.Â
But the thought of having even more of your laundry fly away, forcing you to potentially face this very same display multiple times is what had you opening your front door wider to let him inside.Â
No matter how much you wouldâve appreciated the viewâŠ
And so here you were, squirming in one corner of the kitchen while Toji worked on your dryer. Sweat sheening down his swole muscles, disappearing in tempting beads down underneath his low-hanging pants. Slight smears of grease decorate his pecs, and you have to cross your arms to stop yourself from thumbing them away. He was so handy.Â
Shit, this was why youâd dolled-up just a bit more than usual. He was so-
â-doll? Doll.â
âUh-â youâre yelping, blinking your eyes back up to meet an extraordinarily smug smirk now directed at you. âW-what were you saying?â
âHeh, I was saying you should take a picture, itâll last longer.â he titters with a slight rumble, tools clinking when heâs taking off his bulky gloves. âYa can enjoy the view later, but I was askinâ if ya had anything to dry right now to test this piece of junk.â
Urgently, youâre looking towards your empty laundry basket. âSorry, seems that I dried them all out yesterday.â
âNo pressure, besides-â You can only watch when he shuffles a hand inside one of his curiously bulging pant pockets. â-I came prepared.â
âWh-wha- where did you get that?âÂ
Because held so daintily within Tojiâs cocky clutches, dangled one of your missing pairs of panties. They looked recently washed, and youâre reaching with a yelp for it. Falling onto your knees to match his seated position - which, obviously didnât mean heâd hand it over.Â
Why would he? This was Toji Fushiguro.Â
He only throws them into your dryer, before closing the door with a dark snicker, âMore like why let them fly their merry way over to my balcony again. Honestly- you call me the tease but look whoâs talking.â
âYouâre saying Iâm the tease?â you shrill. The embarrassment was getting to you now - it was overconsuming you - and if the leering smirk on Tojiâs face was anything to go by, you were sure that it was visible.Â
âIf the shoe- or, well, panties fit.â
He was so cocky about his stupid lilâ joke.Â
You stab a rude finger right between the valley of his pecs, copping a feel of the velvety smooth skin. âSh-shut up, if you want to talk about a tease then letâs talk about who showed up to fix a dryer shirtless.â
âPart of the outfit.â he shrugs. Tilting his head up at you, and shit, it finally hits you how precariously close you two are right now. Tojiâs splayed out on your cool kitchen tile, while youâre straddling his slender waist with jittery legs, pressed up against the heated proximity of his unfairly shirtless body. Chest-to-chest. âDonât act like you didnât enjoy the view, little miss had-a-fun-time-yesterday.â
You blink, âWhatâs that supposed to mean?â
But in true Toji fashion, the closest to an answer you get is a large hand attaching roughly onto your waist. Jostling your body close enough for him to breathe out in a feverish chuckle - hot, and purposeful against your ear. âThe walls are thin. Just sayinâ.â
Oh.
Oh, shit.Â
You knew exactly what he was talking about - and so did he.Â
â...I heard you, too, yâknow.â
Ah, you can now live your life happily knowing that you managed to make the ever-confident Toji gasp. You managed to make him part his lips in a slight gape, green eyes glinting with a hint of something dangerous as they widen. His sensory digits pinch at your hips.Â
âYou mean-â
âYes.â
Uncharacteristically, Toji takes a few gulping seconds to find his voice. And when he does - the very sound is enough to send shivers down your spine and make you wonder for a split-second whether this was really him. Hoarse, pained when he muses, âYou heard me and still continued?â
Instantly, youâre trying to form excuses. âNo! I mean- yes. Itâs just thatâŠâ
âHeh, cute. You continued because of me- didnât ya?â
Your jaw drops in shock, now a slightly defensive tone bleeding in with the embarrassment of your actions. âI-I mean I was doing- it- just fine before I heard you.â
Toji cocks his head, and only says one thing - âProve it.â
.
.
.
âT-Toji this is embarrassing-â
But oh, all that Toji was wondering was whether heâd knocked his head on that goddamn dryer and gone to heaven already.Â
Because splayed out for all his pleasure on the cushiony bed was you - quivering legs straddled wide open, your back arched in such a delicious curve that makes his mouth water. Your silken sheets were disheveled and sloppy enough that youâd have to pray the dryer works now. Glistening cunt winking down at him eagerly, just begging him in cute, slurring squelches after every buzzing push of your vibrator.
And Toji? Seated right underneath your cute cunt - hovering mere inches away from sitting on his cocky smirk.Â
All heâd been imagining. As gorgeous as how heâd imagined you yesterday- no, even more so.
Tojiâs leering up at you, muscular thighs manspreading even more to show off his furiously hard erection. âShhh sh sh-â Toji hums, eyes unwavering from right between your legs. âSheâs the one talkinâ to me right now, doll.â
And surely enough, itâs almost like heâs having a conversation with your pussy. Nodding and drunkenly humming along to every slurp that resounds across the heady room. âThaâs right, make her- make her even wetter for me.â
Heâs letting loose his long pinkish tongue to catch the drops of your sweet, sweet juices that slide down his throat.Â
His breath is so steaming hot against your cunt. Feverish. You huff out a dragged-out whine, kissing up your plump clit with the very edge of your rose toy. Just barely teasing the sensitive hood, âB-but I need you so-â
âNow now, what did I say?â he tuts away your stubborn moans easily. And youâre gazing over your shoulder upon the utterly unapologetic grin that falls across Tojiâs face when he tugs down his own pants to flash you with the fat, rotund curve of his ruddied tip. Curling his fingers over the very top, âYou donât need me, remember- Let that pretty pussy talk with me or all youâre gonna do is watch.â
Except now you didnât think you could talk even if you wanted to.
Your eyes are glazing over with a fresh wall of need when they fall greedily upon the peaking sight of Tojiâs fat cock. So massive that it makes your jaw slip open, your cunt gushing out in a few gushes of slick.Â
âOh shit- shit-â his eyes widen at the sight, so thoroughly honed in. Almost as if he doesnât even realize heâs speaking to you. Doesnât even know. And a few ringing squelches is all it takes for him to throw his head back with a groan. âThat got ya wet, ma, didnât it? Made your cute ngh- c-cunt happy?â
âYes-â youâre gasping, winking away the overstimulated tears in your eyes. âB-but I want you-â
âTell me exactly what you want, doll.â
So bossy, you want to snap back.Â
But right now youâre too hypnotized by the slutty sight of him to say a word. The way he seemed so ruined. That you canât help but whimper, âI want you to hah- make me cum.â
And itâs just a split-second later when his brawny arms come wrapping around your jittery waist, hauling you over like some glorified rag doll to seat your fatigued legs down. Your dripping cunt meeting his mouth in a sultry, sultry French kiss.Â
He doesnât waste a second longer - almost as if beating himself up for all the time wasted - before dragging his tongue to open your presoaked folds. Swirling so hotly to smear them out across his lips, Toji dredges his raised scar across your most tender spots and moans.Â
Sweet.
So sweet.
âThis- this fuckinâ delicious?â He sounded like he was losing his mind, swatting aside your hand. âMove that fuckinâ hand. Y-you were- you were holding out on this? Could eat this cute cunt all the time- could marry ya-â
Proposing and proposing and kissing-
He latches down his glistening canines around your clit and pinches, almost as if a little punishment. And you could practically see the delight lighting up his dark eyes when your cunt slowly grows even more drenched. Little masochist, heâs thinking.Â
You yelp when without any sort of warning his cheeks hollow out in a sudden suck at your sensitive nub, swirling his tongue over it. âH-howâs that feel?â he giggles - giggles. âBetter than your imagination or what?â
It already was.Â
But you couldnât let his ego expand anymore than it already has, so the only thing youâre managing to do is trap a few sweat-dampened locks of his hair and drag your slobbering cunt down Tojiâs mean mouth. Partly because you needed it, partly because you needed him to shut up.Â
Choking out, âD-donât get so full of yourself, Tojiââ
âFull of myself?â heâs chuckling - face smeared with a translucent mask of glistening slick that told you exactly why he should be full of himself. It glosses over his curled lips and drips down Tojiâs sharp jawline. âFull of myself? Gimme that-â
Instantly, your till buzzing vibrator is being snatched meanly out of your hands. âSâthis what ya want, instead, ma?â
Toji didnât expect an answer.
And you canât give him one.
Because that furiously jittery probe is being bullied right between your puffy pussy lips, licking a languid line down the edge of your sloppy hole. Before heâs bullying the long end inside your eager entrance-
âDoes it feel good?â heâs taunting. Sinking down onto your clit and pulling. âOh yeah- feels great. Doesnât it?â
But itâs such a mouthful that sputtered out into your clit. The vibrations of white-hot pleasure making your spine bow like such a slut into Tojiâs ravenous mouth. And your jaw slack open in the most strained of whines, âY-yeah feels so-mmpf-â
Immediately, your mouth is being firmly shut closed with one of Tojiâs mountainous palms, and he snickers. Giving you pretty lilâ cunt a pat that has splatters of slick speckling all the way to his lips - ones that he gladly licks up. And then some at the remnant excess all over your thighs. âI was talking to her.â
âY-youâre so mean.â
At this, he pulls back and blows a heated gust of air against your puckered hole. âAnd youâre fucking drenched.â That spearing bullet is lodged firmly against a few tenderized sweet spots that make you keen. âAnd sheâs sayingâŠsânot enough.â
You were sure he was talking for himself.Â
OrâŠwas he?Â
Honestly, you donât even know - you didnât even realize what you were missing until the fat girths of Tojiâs digits shove their filthy way into your narrow opening. Already so stuffed, yet, heâs scissoring aside the vibrator into the gooey depths of your walls.Â
Either you could take him or heâll make space.Â
Whistling out in awe, âDontcha think this feels muuuch better?â As if to whittle out another one of your syrupy sweet noises, youâre being gifted with another sopping wet thwack! against the ready nub of your clit. Before Toji wraps his scarred lips around it and sucks. âLook- sheâs even fuckinâ wetter.â
You didnât even have to see to be able to know - because you could hear.Â
Toji was steadily pummeling your cunt with the most staggering smashes of the rounded curves of his fingertips into your sweetest spots. Jostling the vibrator inside, knuckles smashing it with friction to rub up against your constricting walls.Â
Honestly, it was just so much. You felt stuffed.Â
âF-feels like mâgonna explode.â you mewl at the heady thump! thump! thump! shuddering all across your body - and you didnât know whether it was because of the thundering pulse in your ears, because of the way Tojiâs fingers were crashing and thrusting against your tender g-spot. His neatly cut fingernails glide soaking wet grazes over and over in a sloppy staccato. âAh! Right there, it f-feels so good-â
âTch, you think I donât know?â Tojiâs rolling his eyes, muttering his words into your sopping slit. His free hand comes slamming down in a harsh smack! against your ass to make you lug against his face faster. âRide yourself on me, ma.â
You stumble through it - yearning for more.Â
âFaster.â
âI-Iâm trying.ââ
But it wasnât enough. Obviously.Â
And Tojiâs impatiently revolving one hand around the curve of your waist to make you press down hard in the most sultry gyrations. Around and around it had him hypnotized. âNot tryinâ hard ânough. Cuz this pretty lady h-hereâs just crying to cum, doll. Ya hear her?â
How could you not?
Itâs all that you replay in your mind. Accompanied with a shot ngh ngh ngh that was curdling at the very back of Tojiâs throat. Whispered into every graze of his tongue down your slit, you took a quick glance backwards to catch the way that he was properly fucking his fist now.Â
Long, thorough drags down his achy cock to bead out wet sloshes of precum. Only getting faster. Sloppier. Red and angry-
âShit.â youâre whimpering, hands steadying on either side of his bulging deltoids. It felt like your very bones were rattling along with the vibrator. Nails digging in to the muscle, âI th-think mâclose- think mâgonna-â
And oh Tojiâs eyes stray to the back of his head at how reminiscent this was of just yesterday. Snickering a heavy, âYou âthinkâ? I know sheâs so fuckinâ close. Can feel her. Isnât she? Gonna cum? Gonna make a ngh- mess on me, is she?â
Answeringly, heâs leaving another few smacks! on your mound that have your gooey walls fluttering, the double penetration of both the buzzing bullet and his fingers too much. Too close. You feel every delicate bundle of your nerves exasperate.Â
And itâs impossible not to mumble out drunkenly - embarrassingly. âSh-she is.â
Itâs so rough.
Both your release and the way that Toji was fucking you through it - because the very moment he hears your breath hitch in a saturated manner similar to last time, heâs tugging out your buzzing vibrator and toppling it somewhere over the bed. Replacing it with every long inch of his heated tongue-Â
Like hell heâd have you cumming on some damn plastic before his tongue.
âShit- it feels so-â Barely managing to formulate the words into coherent syllables. Your body convulses when he swiftly pecks your pretty clit with the rose toy instead. â-so good- ngh! Mâcumming mâcumming ah-â
Tojiâs fucking you through your high with the double stimulation of his fingers and his tongues spreading open your snug insides mercilessly. Ruthlessly. Wave upon wave of pleasure that had your toes curling, vision flashing white. Sensitive pussy dredging up from the very bottom of his sharp chin all the way up to his button nose.Â
Itâs adorable how tired you were already, already huffing and puffing for breath. He could almost laugh if he didnât have a mouthful already.
âYeah thaâs right-â he slurps, more than talks. Thick digits curling tight and thumbing over his twitchy divot to wall up that velvety wisp of cum from escape. Leaving kiss after kiss to have your drooling cunt ride his sexy features faster. â-give it tâme.â Greedy. âGive it alllll to me.â
But even that didnât seem like enough.
Because even after your aggressive orgasm was petering out into mere tingles at your quivering pussy, even after heâd slurped up every tiny drop of your honeyed juices - Toji Fushiguro was starved.Â
So completely ravenous when he speaks, âI thinkâŠsheâs sayin she wants ta squirt, doll.â
âWh-what?â youâre breathing - you didnât even know if that was possible.
With a surprising amount of gentleness, Tojiâs placing you to sit all prettily on his spread legs. Just slobbering your pussy lips in an innocent smooch over his hardness.Â
âHeh, what? Donât trust me?â Toji cocks his head down at you in sheer smugness, a glistening gloss stained all around his lips. It made him look so fucked-out. And he felt like he already was - but Toji wouldnât admit that. No, heâs only murmuring a wet, âOr are ya scared that mâgonna get ya ah- addicted?â
You showcase him with a slight pout that makes his riled-up cock twitch in one hand. That makes him immediately kiss it away - letting you taste him. Taste yourself.Â
Itâd already taken everything in him to stop himself from cumming just by making out with your cunt.Â
âNo sâjust that- Iâve never squirted beforeâŠâ
His words are sure. Confident. Heâs echoing them from not too long ago, âLemme take a look at that.â
And apparently Tojiâs definition of taking a look is to slide the curve of his thick thumb in-between your dribbling slit. Up and down until his lips curl in a smile, âWell sheâs tellinâ me that she can-oh shit, look at that.â Those very same fingers wrapping around the hilt of his thick cock to nudge your folds apart. âSo why donât I fix that, hm?â
God, Toji is so much bigger than he looked - which was staggering considering his sheer bulge was enough to send your mind reeling.
The curve of his fat tip bathes in a few more of your syrupy drops before bullying inside-
âO-oh my god-â Your voice wavers, sweat simmering all down your body at how dizzyingly Toji was spearheading your cunt open. Wide. So much of him that you didnât know whether to buck your hips away or down for more, more, more- âSâtoo big- shit, donât even know if I can ngh- t-take it, Tojiâ!â
âOh, say my name like that once more nâ youâre gonna ah- hafta take every inch.â he grunts out, snarling smile making your gummy walls flutter around him.Â
Youâre being fed every solid inch, Tojiâs girth making your tight circumference stutter. Gaping your sloppy hole wide open around his expanding cock- shit, just the slightest peak into your heavenly depths was enough to have his fat length swelling. Pushing into your tender sweet spots when he grows.Â
âY-you got even bigger?â you gasp, and it makes him cackle.
Throwing his head back to laugh, âOf course I got f-fuckinâ bigger when you feel like this, ma.â And two of his roughened palms glide their greedy pathway downwards to spread your thighs even further. Using gravity to his lewd advantage to help you gulp down your every mindless grind to simply fit himself inside. âW-where have ya been all my life.â
And Toji sounded like he was genuinely distraught that he didnât know.Â
He was genuinely so upset, lower lip wobbling with pure bliss once your overstuffed pussy was resting on his sharp hip bones. Giving an experimental little gyration of his hips to swirl his shaft around your walls, it makes you whine.Â
âThaâs what mâfuckinâ talking about.â
And then in a split-second, youâre being slammed onto your back and wrangled into the meanest mating press you never thought possible.Â
Itâs like Toji was out of control.Â
Feral.
A slight trickle of drool trailing down the edge of his growling lips, âShit- take my fucking cock ngh- take it all, doll. Ya donât know how long Iâve been d-dreaming of this.â
âYes yes yes-â you sputter. Edging your uselessly limp thighs to lock around Tojiâs straining neck - and if he was going easy on you before. Then oh, you werenât ready for the way this makes him snap his flexing body down to fold you in half. His sweat-beaded forehead knocking gently into yours, â-been ah- been dreaminâ of this ever since I m-moved in-â
Shit.
The thick pudge of Tojiâs relentless head careens into the bullseye of your g-spot easily. And Toji titters to himself about the pretty moans that drag from your shot throat - that is, if he had the self-control.
Because your previous words were still thundering in his pussydrunken mind, and it makes him gasp. It makes him shoot his eyes open almost comically, it makes him crash his lips into your with a sullen hiss. âGive a man a fuck- warning. You c-canât just say- things- like- that-â
As if to prove his point, heâs planting a few more heated French kisses against your sweetest spots. How he mapped them out so quickly you had no idea.Â
His feverish breath hovers over your own mouth, gusts bounding out with every pound into your cunt. Heâs bruising the circular branding of his sobbing tip down your spongy cervix, a tiny ah! of disappointment leaving Tojiâs stern lips at the recoil that had him pushing back from the very bottom of your pussy.Â
Heâs so filthy.Â
âBecause what ifââ It takes you a few seconds to realize that heâs still babbling drunkenly, flicking over a calloused thumb over your clit to get your delirious attention. â-are ya listening, woman? What- ah- what if I told ya I was the fuckinâ same. Wanted to f-fuck this cute cunt the moment I saw ya, wanted to ruin her- to breed her-â
And just when heâs heaving in such a sharp inhale. As if heâs spoken too much.
Yet, even through the way that Toji was fucking you stupid - you still manage to latch onto his words.Â
âY-you wanted to ah- cum inside?â youâre blinking up at him innocently in a way that only made his hips jackhammer against yours harder. Teasing your sensitive clit with a pinch. âTell me, Toji.â
God- you said his name.Â
Shit shit shit, didnât he tell you not to-
âYes!â Tojiâs shuddering out, hefty balls twitching and thwacking their tight, cum-filled sacks against your ass. Heâs fucking you so wildly. The mating press that he had you in let him glide a wet thrust down every single nook and cranny inside you. Every forbidden sweet spot. âWanted- wanted it so badly- ah-â
Batting your teary lashes, âHow badly?â
Two of Tojiâs mean fingers come up to smush your cheeks together into an embarrassing pout, and heâs using that cutely ajar opening of your mouth to spit. A thick, honeyed wad of saliva that purposefully splatters along the edge of your lips - because Toji had perfect aim. He couldâve streamlined it all neatly between your lips.
But you looked and tasted so sweet this way.
When he could just kiss it away filthily with a drag of his tongue, âShit- what a filthy fuckinâ mouth. Ya really know how to m-make me lose my mind, hm?â Splaying out one large palm about halfway down your stomach, heâs exploring for a lewd cylindrical nudge. A throb when his thickened head was smashing into your g-spot. âIf ya i-insist- mâgonna fill ya up until I can feel it-â Pressing down. Hard. âHere.â And now heâs running his mouth a mile a minute, heâs dazed where his cadence grows sloppy. âUntil youâre overspilling. Until yer all r-round and hngh- glowing and shit-â
God, he was flying too close to the sun.
Egging him on, he was fucking you into the bed like he was furious at you. Lurching out rickety creaks from the bedframe at his riotous slams! Teasing, âS-sâthat it?â
âIs that it? I-is that it?â heâs repeating. Over and over like a humorless mantra. âNo thaâs not- ah- fucking âitâ. Mâgonna shit- make you mine. Gonna fuck a b-baby or two into ya.â Shockwaves of electric white flashing down his spine when your gripping walls cling around him like a velvety channel. Stumbling through words, âSo theyâre gonna know- ah- th-theyâre all gonna know what I did. Hah- how I ruined yaâŠâ
You can only sob, âTojiâ mâgonna-â
Stimulating tears gather up beside Tojiâs eyelids with every pressurized ram, and he finds it in himself to rasp a drunken giggle. âG-gonna give Megumi a lilâ sibling, ma?â
He doesnât have to hear your response, he doesnât think he can. Because no sooner are you crashing into your orgasm that Toji is as well.Â
He realizes before you - far, far before you at how you were squirting.Â
Drizzling your juices in a coating gloss down his cock, his abs, some spattering up to Tojiâs lips. He took a look into it alright.Â
Your bolting waves of bliss intruded by his rummaging cock. Twitching once. Twice. Before struggling out thick gushes of sweltering hot seed.Â
Itâs splattering onto the very back of your bruised and battered cervix in a wet thwack! Oozing out the sides of your silt, you feel your gummy walls being inflated. The tug of ribbons upon ribbons of cum being fucked into sloshes inside and coats your melty walls like a second, sticky skin.
THUD!
Toji collapses onto his wearied forearms, caging you in with his big beefy biceps. Hips slowing down to tiny, subconscious ruts wrenching out the most obscene wet squelches. âTh-the heh- the fuckinâ bed.â
Only then are you batting your fatigued eyes open to realize that one side of the bed was sagging dangerously. âToji did you b-break the bed?â
âAh- so what?â And heâs scooping up your pliant body easily into his arms. Lifting you. Manhandling you. Pulling out of your split cunt for just a second to slam! you down onto your nearby work desk. The cool mahogany against your front makes you hiss, âIâll jusâ t-take a ah- look at it.â
With this, heâs pressing down on the slightly bloated area near your cunt. Gaping. Gushing out thick remnants of his cum - itâs like he was playing around.Â
The sight so heavenly that with a dragged-out gasp heâs finding his weepy cock blast out a few more wispy strands of cum. Shit.
âShit- marry me-â Tojiâs throwing his head back with a whimper - a whimper - when his jolting cock veers dangerously into the territory of shooting overstimulated blanks. âMarry me I-I swear. Gonna ah- put a pretty ring on ya, my doll.â
Which is why heâs swirling around his greedy pointer around your gaping entrance. Toying with the creamy ring of seed thatâd painted its way around his thick base. Toji pools a few creamy dredges on his fingers and shoves them into your babbling mouth. âNgh- Tojiâ!â
âNowww, letâs see ngh- already finished off th-the bed-â heâs rattling off. Counting on a few fingers of his, â-we have the ohhh fuck- donât squeeze m-me like that, ma, mâstill sensitive- this desk, the floor- the dryer.â
âThe dryer?â you mewl. âBut you j-jusâ fixed that-â
âAh, consider it a lilâ paymentâŠalong with those panties of yours, of course.â
And itâs only later.Â
Hours and hours later, with your bed frame broken on one leg, your desk absolutely shattered, and your carpet soiled with a few whiteish rivulets that youâre finding yourself seated into a tight full nelson on top of the dryer. Toji still splitting you apart inside, shooting blanks before the front door rattles with a sudden knock! knock! knock!Â
A deep voice resounding from outside, âAnybody home? Itâs Shiu Kong. Higuruma sent me here to fix the dryer.â
âFuckinâ ShiuâŠwanna let him in?â
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âHello, Shiu? How did the fixing go?â Itâs by the next day that Higuruma gets a call in the middle of his important business meeting. One that would probably stay with him for a long, long time. âWhat do you mean the dryer is broken beyond repair?!â
A/N. Hope you all have a lovely week <3
Plagiarism not authorized.
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Free yourself of your ego so you can put your nose to the grindstone and do the real work.
I see so many writers who seem to think that they're supposed to get it 100% right on the first try, and that's just not how storycraft works. Most of the books in publication today have several rounds of drafts where the manuscript is passed back and forth between the editing team and author. If your fave author needed an editing team, you're allowed to have a shitty first draft.
If it fails to meet your expectations, use it as a learning opportunity. Open the document side by side with a copy of itself and make changes on the new copy. Learn from what disappoints you.
& it's never about "failing to do the story justice", it's more often than not about a ton of other preconceived notions about writing or self-esteem/self-imposed limitations. It's often about protecting one's inner perfectionist and/or gifted kid who will feel an earth-shattering pain if something they put into the world reflects poorly upon them.
But you have to allow yourself to draft. You have to spend time with the work and form a relationship with it. You have to be willing to learn your bad habits and edit your own words. You must learn to wait a day to fix issues before you post. Leave your worries at the door. Turn your focus toward improving the skill of writing.
If you'd accept, "Oh, right, you can't paint a Rembrandt when you're just starting out - that's a really crazy expectation to have on a beginner painter", then that same understanding and grace can and should be applied to storycraft.
It's also just not that serious. The edit button exists for a reason - I went back and edited the first 115k of Long Time Running earlier this year and am about to go back and edit more, because my skill grew and I keep noticing little things I can improve.
This is not a zero-sum game: the story is something you build toward over time, not something that happens immediately.
The most frustrating experience as a writer is having a clear vision in your mind of the story you want to tell but being too afraid to put pen to paper for fear of failing to do the story justice. Iâm so scared that my actual execution will fail to meet my expectations that Iâm paralysed to even start.
#writeblr#mental health#long time running#if this sounds harsh just know that I have done a LOT of work on my ego/mental health and I was OP. I know what that feels like#I also know what it feels like to realize my story didn't meet my expectations#But I didn't let it stop me from learning from why it didn't meet my expectations
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àŒ» Stardust of your soul | N. Romanoff àŒș
Natasha Romanoff x gn!reader
Summary: Being new to SHIELD and it's agents you'd always kept yourself to yourself & hovered in the background. Yet a new chapter opens up when being invited to the compound for 'team bonding,' and it turns out another star shined just as you did without even knowing. Simply the trust to fall asleep on another's lap really does open up the deepest of souls.
Warnings: None! Just pure fluff & sentiment of how Natasha falls asleep on your lap..
Pairings: Natasha romanoff x gn!reader, sort of black cat x golden retriever (ish?)
Word Count: 3.8K
DC: cafekitsune
AN: I don't know where I got this idea from, but I wanted to get back to writing again, so I figured some soft reading of Natasha falling asleep on the reader's lap by accident would cut it! <3 Might make a P2!
(also if ppl can teach me how to get a sapphic relationship-)
Walking through the halls of the building always seemed daunting when you worked for SHIELD. It wasn't like you feared anyone there, just everyone was so equipped and skilled- they'd been there for a good chunk of time. Many beginning their journey's with SHIELD years before yourself, forming bonds and friendships.
You were merely a baby taking their first steps within the walls of SHIELD headquarters, simply learning the ropes & where to start. Still, you were eager to always take on a challenge and being accepted as a SHIELD agent wasn't something you'd expect to happen, yet changing that decision to take on the role wasn't even a consideration for you.
A simple few weeks at the headquarters was all it took for you to slowly begin to feel more comfortable with the said environment. You'd spoken to Maria Hill the Deputy Director of SHIELD and while she could be intimidating, she and yourself shared views similar making it easy to get on. Fury was a little more on the complex side but some of the other agents you'd definitely enjoyed bonding with.
You'd been called in to a meeting for god knows what, but that was the generalised idea these days. Most agents yourself included never seemed to be informed prior of your missions only simply assigned upon the day. It did albeit stress you out given your organised schedule and how you felt with being thrown into the deepest ends of the pool was stressful.
However, when you dedicated your time and complete energy and effort within SHIELD's walls and work you had to be prepared for anything, without fail. You'd found yourself being so lost in thought with how you'd ended up in this role and position that you'd realised you'd come to a halt.
Seeing the door to Fury's office was a surprise to your eyes, having not realised you'd walked all that way. Slowly bracing yourself, your hand reached for the door handle before it was pulled open and Nick Fury himself stood there in the flesh.
"Come on in," His voice that always sent chills down your spine seemed warmer than usual today.
It did strike you as odd but you hardly had the time to think more of it. Instead you simply merely nodded entering the room at a gentle pace, before your shoes caused a loud squeak of a sudden stop.
Your eyes glanced around the room to see people you hardly ever thought you'd be in the same room with. The Avengers, the actual known hero's themselves sat around a table as their eyes slowly drifted up to study you.
Tony, Steve, Clint, Thor, Natasha, Bruce, Wanda, Rhodey & Sam. All of them were waiting for your arrival.
Natasha let out a soft smile at you nodding an approving look, which didn't surprise you at all. You'd become accustomed to the redhead while at SHIELD given her status and her ability to train new recruits which yourself was in fact one of them.
You'd never quite been able to read her fully, only knowing she had a closed off position about her, including the past everyone was forbidden to know of. All the recruits and fellow agents knew that it was a road nobody dared cross, including interacting with the redhead outside of working hours.
Standing there waiting for Fury or anyone to say something felt like an agonising amount of time & it was making the clock feeling like minutes were passing by. In reality, it was most likely to be mere seconds before Fury coughed and began to fill the silent room with his voice.
"So Y/N.. There's been some form of talk amongst myself and the Avengers," he began and you felt your body froze.
Without the intention of doing so, you glanced over at Natasha with concern and worry glazed over your eyes. Nobody else would recognise the small but clear look she gave to you, it was something you'd come to somewhat understand. She gave you a curt but firm nod and her eyes softened only for a moment but that moment was enough. It was okay.
You felt your shoulders and body language relax a tad as you nodded towards Director Fury to continue his conversation.
"We feel that.. we need a new member to work with the Avengers. Think of it as a new position a higher role. One that we thought you'd fit most well into. More like a team bonding so you'd say."
You gawked at the older man before shaking your head back to reality as it sunk into your brain and your bones. He thought you were the best for the role? You as in just someone from a town that had nothing now working along side the Avengers, more specifically her.
"M-Me? What, there has to be some sort of mistake. Director I don't know if I-" You began stuttering over your words.
While you did admire your strengths and abilities, it was a big step to be working with the earth's mightiest hero's. You certainly didn't want to make a fool out of yourself, however Fury decided to interrupt you.
"All due respect Y/L/N, it wasn't really a request. We need you on the team. The mission that's required is going to need all the assets and best that we've got. It's important," he stated firmly looking around the room at the Avengers before moving his gaze back to you.
"Director I-"
"They'll be trained and ready. I'll make sure of it," you heard her voice echo through the room with determination.
Your eyes drifted around the room landing onto her, staring at Natasha in pure shock and partial annoyance. You knew your own weaknesses and strengths and didn't need anyone speaking for you.
However, she simply stared back at you with a firm all serious look showing she wasn't backing down. Why was she so fixated on having you on the team? Her eyes changed ever so slightly and only for a moment looking at you with something you couldn't quite place. However, in a small blink just a tiny moment the look disappeared and her normal stoic expression was back.
"Thank you Agent Romanoff. Anything anyone else has to add?" He asked looking around the room with sheer authority.
Nobody seemed to speak, Tony flamboyantly flapping his hands up to speak for them. Clearly they weren't against having you on the team, you must be some important asset they required. With nobody speaking, you were all dismissed and the Avengers all fluttered out of the room.
All except one. Natasha stood leaning against the wall, half slouching her gaze fixated onto you. Head tilted in an almost questioning way towards you. Mirroring the action, you stared at the redhead inquisitive facial expressions painted on both of your faces.
Natasha cracked first, shifting off the wall walking towards you with her hands in her pockets, her signifying black leather jacket around her shoulders.
"You know, you should have more belief in yourself Y/N. We both know your abilities, I've witnessed them myself," she added her eyebrow arching.
"I.. You think so?" You managed to get out slowly.
Without a warning she leaned forward, whispering in your ear causing your body to stiffen. With her being this close you could smell her perfume, invading your senses like a warm blanket alluring you and drawing you in. The proximity of her was sending heat to your face and you knew her voice was sending shivers down your body.
"I know so sweetheart, I know so," she hushed out and if the floor was made of lava you'd melt right through it and into the ground beneath you.
Natasha was like a temptress, a woman who knew how to lull people in just with a few simple words. You knew this but still felt yourself floating towards the singing of the siren.
She stepped back smirking at you sending you a wink causing your heart to hammer against your chest. It was like she was looking into the depths of your soul and you were trying not to give her the key to opening your soul.
Just before she opened the door to exit the room she flung her body around to face you at an angle. The tension in the room was intense, dancing around you in a heavy feeling as she spoke.
"Training starts at 7. Don't be late sweetheart. I don't do late."
With that she left the room without allowing yourself to respond and you felt an internal groan bubbling inside of you. She was seeing into your soul now you needed to try and allow Natasha to let you see her own.
Tossing and turning at night in your bed whilst the minutes passed by seemed to be what was happening for you. The clock was ticking yet you were significantly restless especially knowing training started at 7am with Natasha wouldn't settle your mind to rest.
Her words played over and over again in your head, on a constant never ending loop. 'I know so sweetheart.' You couldn't remember the last time you had that much confidence running within your veins, let alone someone else. Yet, her voice ran through your mind, your soul almost touched by her belief.
Turns out you must have been laying there for that long tossing and turning throughout the night you'd managed to not succumb to a single ounce of sleep. That perhaps would come back to be biting you on the ass at some point today. Especially if you have training with Natasha.
As your head spun to view the clock next to the nightstand, elicting a loud groan from your lips. It read the time of 6:15AM. That's always your luck, never helping with the concept of you being the polar opposite of a morning person. If anyone was grouchy in the morning it would always be yourself.
Flinging the covers off yourself, grudgingly, you found your legs dragging themselves to the bathroom to have a shower, the need to freshen and wake up becoming excruciatingly stronger by the minute.
The water cascaded down your body, a soft sigh leaving your lips. It warmed you up within the speed of light, relaxing your current running thoughts, muscles relaxing slightly. Taking a shower has always reassured your senses with its water-hug, warm and cozy.
As you dressed for the training, you slipped out of the room deciding to take a small detour around the compound. The passing of Agents in the corridor, seemingly more professional and adjusted to the surroundings of the compound than yourself.
It almost made you shrink into yourself, wanting to knock your confidence. However, Natasha's words from the previous day replayed in your head on repeat, warning your insides for reasons unexplained.
Almost as if by sheer luck you'd past the main lounge of the compound where a few of the known Avengers seemed to be sitting around. That included, Tony, Steve, Wanda and Clint. As if your presence was like a dark shadow lingering into the room, all of their heads seemed to twist into your direction.
One thing you despised being more than anything is being the centre of all attention, eyes gazing on you like you'd become to be on a stage you weren't supposed to take. It bought bile rising from the depths of your stomach up at the mere concept of it.
Yet, their gazes lingered in a none judgmental way, almost like the comfort of understanding, an overwhelming sense but peaceful. Steve was the first to speak up, nodding at you firmly but not with an intensity of malice.
"If you're after the training room, it's just down the hall. Natasha's waiting for you there. Good luck, just believe in yourself."
With a curt, but gentle nod you headed to the training room giving your best definition of a half smile. Though, it probably looked more like a grimace, unintentionally of course.
As you entered the training room, Natasha was working on her punching exercises. Each one better than the last. The glimmer of sweat trickling down her cheeks and side of her hair, shone like water in the moonlight. For a moment you almost stopped to admire her.
However, you'd clearly being staring too long considering, when you came out of your dazed trance, Natasha stood smirking at you. Her head was now tilted to the side, her crimson hair braided and cascading down her shoulders. Immediately you flushed, a sudden realisation you'd been watching her working out, like some puppy in awe of the smallest of things.
"See something that you like?" Her voice carried huskily, but with a hint of a smirk lingering causing your knees to weaken.
Why she was having this effect on you, you'd never know. Part of yourself wished the feeling would vanish, disappearing like particles of atoms into the air. Dust vanishing away, yet another piece of you thrilled for the unknown drawn, the tranquility you felt. It felt exhilarating, the need for an escape.
As your eyes drifted around the room you realised just how much equipment had been invested within the 4 walls. Several different types of equipment were laid out in different selections, ranging from treadmills to yoga mats, leg presser's, even a shooting target range.
"N-No sorry I-" You stuttered still trying to distract your gaze to anything but at the redhead whose smirk had now grown wider.
The pair of you trained for a while, Natasha teaching you combat, which albeit you weren't as talented as herself. Several times she's managed to knock you down and pin you to the ground. Which, just happened to always end up with you looking up at her both your bodies in an extraordinary comprising position.
Natasha, on the other hand never judged you. Her skills and assets were on a scale of unbelievable, making you feel as tiny as an ant. Yet, the redhead never made you feel smaller than herself. She always seemed to root for the best in you, causing you to admire her as the minutes passed on.
"You've got more talent than you know," her voice whispered during the last training session.
Her voice sent a small shiver through your body shooting down your spine, as though a melody yet to be sang was ready to be heard. A soft nod a content true smile painted your lips setting a thousand suns alight.
"Thank you, Romanoff," your voice responded a little stronger than prior.
"Hey to you, it's Natasha."
A soft giggle passed your lips and she smiled, a rare one you could have sworn in the short time including familiarities of SHIELD, had never seen cross her lips before.
"it's like before when you were training me isn't it?" You asked your mouth speaking before your brain.
She simply nodded with a hum, putting herself once again in a position of combat causing you to follow suit. Her hair was now slick with sweat, but yours was drenched. Almost as if you'd been training the whole day, yet in reality it was a simple couple of hours.
"Exactly like before. Just harder and with stronger combat skills and assets."
Before you knew it, the pair of you were back at it. Training like you'd done the several times previously. Your skills had improved remarkably. How you didn't know, perhaps it was her words and further encouragement. Her sense of purpose that brought tranquility to you an ideology of lack of judgment.
One minute you were slightly stumbling and within the blink of an eye, you had her pinned. It was like the world had stopped, her own eyes had widened in shock, your body freezing as though ice had embedded itself within your veins, shocking every atom inside you.
The Natasha Romanoff, had been pinned down onto the floor with you hovering over her. A huge sense of achievement fell over you, a joyful relief that you had finally believed something within your bones for so long.
She felt it too, winking with no insult or any sort of ruined pride. Natasha merely looked and presented herself in a way that ran through to the pit of your stomach.
You scrambled off her slightly embarrassed as reality began to hit you, considering the positions you were currently in. Helping her up, Natasha stood there hands on her hips for a moment analysing you, but for once no feeling of unease overcame you.
"Told you could do it sweetheart," she said wiping her head with a towel.
If words could make your body melt into a puddle, like snow in the winter. You would have right there. Like an icicle on a tree branch waiting for its calling of life that's how you felt. Glistening but melting into bliss.
Natasha headed towards the door, her black tank top sticking to her in a way that was sheer attractive to practically everyone undeniably. Her abs could practically be seen through the material, causing your eyes to look up towards the ceiling scolding every part of your brain.
"Oh and, same time tomorrow," Natasha stated her voice carrying a tinge of something unplaced that caused you to look up at her. Yet she's disappeared through the door before anything more could be thought of it.
That's how it continued. The form of relationship building between yourselves, training continuing everyday. Your combat becoming stronger, fighting harder each time, not only did your skills improve but also your mindset. It began to light up your moments like a firefly, shining thousands of miles into you lighting up a hope in the sky.
There were times Natasha beat you, earning a playful comment from her lips.
"Gotta be faster than that honey," she'd husk out in that voice of hers.
Yet, you never stopped enjoying your training moments, the building of an established unknown. The way you and Natasha formed was rare, unseen and unbecoming, but there was no regret. No simple doubt that you enjoyed the form of relationship the pair of you had formed.
One morning your alarm clock went off once more, 6:15AM on the dot. Making no time to convince yourself to fall back into a peaceful depth of slumber you headed to the shower. Getting ready fast in the morning had become the new norm for you.
You'd managed to get changed at the speed of light hopping around to get into your gym wear. Just as you were about to leave F.R.I.D.A.Y spoke up warning you.
"Excuse me Y/N, I was informed to let you know most of the Avengers got called out for an emergency mission. You were called to go on it but, Miss Romanoff debated otherwise."
Your heart sank, upset slightly about the lack of training. You'd become quite accustomed to the way of life in the morning, training with Natasha before amusing yourself for the remainder of the day. However, it sank further when she mentioned Natasha stated she didn't want you there.
Were you not qualified enough? Would you ever be? Your mind spiralled around with overwhelming and overthinking thoughts, like a tornado sweeping through miles of countryside. No, you couldn't do this to yourself again.
The entire day became yourself training practically with little to no breaks, until the very darkness of night emerged the atmosphere, clicking your brain into knowledge.
Taking your last shower felt less like a privilege and more like a burden. Something undeserving, especially when you're clearly not welcome on missions. However, you knew you needed it.
Eventually you'd changed into some warmer fuzzier lounge wear, settling on some grey jumpsuit. It allowed you to feel more relaxed. The feeling sent you into a deep slumber, curled into the couch in a content creation.
A form half leaning on your body caused you to almost jolt awake, but you heard a whisper next to you. For a mere few seconds your surroundings became an enemy, training become reality. Yet, as your eyes adjusted to the light around you an awareness grew within you.
The Avengers were sat down around you, watching some random Christmas film you presumed Sam chose considering the choice. Clint was sat a few feet away glancing at you contently.
"You'll wake her," he mumbled his voice lower than usual that caused an unprovoked raised eyebrow from yourself.
Following his gaze, your heart pounded harder, eyes widening in a sudden surprise. Natasha was lying on your shoulder, her body almost slipping towards your lap. She seemed more at ease than Natasha ever had before.
Like the weight of a thousand worlds, a thousand men had been lifted by one single sleep. No, a single person. You. Her hair was now loose, drifting down her shoulders, making her look almost incredibly soft and it melted every aspect of you.
"She seems exhausted," you murmured without thinking.
"She took the most hits. I know what you were thinking. Natasha she.. She didn't want you on that mission, because she didn't want you hurt. Not because she doubts your capabilities. All I could see was her guilt and want to be back training with you."
Clint's confession and confirmation sent a warmth unexplainable feeling through you. Looking deeper at Natasha, you noticed the cuts and bruises. The winces when the redhead shifted in her sleep. A shatter through your heart came hard, one you had no idea was possible as you glanced softly at the older woman.
She cared. Natasha stirred slightly her eyes fluttering glancing up at you. Her eyes met yours and in that moment it unlocked everything and anything possible. It's said eyes are window's to one's soul. The key to unlocking everything about a person there was to be done.
Glancing at her emerald eyes all you saw was stardust, the pain of stars shimmering thousands of light years away trying to find their way back. She smiled weakly, trying to pull away. However, instead you adjusted Natasha to rest her head on your lap.
A frozen form hit your lap, tense in shock before fully relaxing into your hold. A soft hum left her lips and without thinking you began to caress her hair, bringing her to a warmth blanket of safety.
"She's never like that, looks like you're something," Clint mumbled smirking causing you to roll your eyes.
Natasha wasn't just an assassin, nor an Avenger. Sure you had no doubt words would be interestingly mentioned later when she awoke. Yet for now, as you had previously gazed into her eyes, all you saw was the stars of light wanting a home. Stroking her hair was like touching the star's of the soul itself, no matter the distance they'd always have somewhere or someone to go to.
#natasha romanoff#kaz daily thoughts áŠ#natasha romanoff x reader#marvel fic#marvel imagine#natasha romanoff fluff#natasha romanoff fic#natasha imagine#natasha romanoff x gender neutral reader#natasha x reader#natasha romanoff x female reader#natasha romanoff x fem!reader#natasha romanoff angst#natasha romanoff x gn!reader#kaz's fics <3
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DADWC time :D How does â  i know things aren't easy right now, but i want to remain a fixture in your life. after all, you're one in mine. â for Rook/Lucanis sound?? Obsessed about this pairing rn!
Thank you for the prompt! I tried something new with this, with it being from the point of view of someone outside of the pairing Iâm writing it for. You can be the judge of how it turned out.
For @dadrunkwriting - Dragon Age: The Veilguard Spoilers
My Rook in this is Voltah de Riva, who uses they/them pronouns.
Caterina does not believe herself to be an unkind woman. Strict, perhaps, but itâs out of necessity. Everything sheâs done has been for the good of her family, for the betterment of those who have survived. Sheâs lost too much to go soft now and lose it all.Â
Part of wanting the best for her family is wanting the best partners for those who remain. Lucanis is the First Talon now and if he is to wed, he deserves the best, someone who will support him and who can fend for themselves if things turn sour. He deserves someone who will protect their standing and can provide heirs to house Dellamorte.Â
What he doesnât need is a Crow from another house grasping at power and encouraging dangerous ideas.Â
âI fail to see the problem,â Lucanis says, his voice tight with irritation he can hardly contain. âRook has done more than prove themself. They not only saved the world, but they helped put an end to Ilarioâs misdeeds, they helped save you and they stopped a ravaging dragon from destroying Treviso. What more could you ask from them?âÂ
Caterina leans against her cane, a frown upon her lips. âSurely you can not be so blind, Lucanis.â It hurts her to break her grandsonâs heart this way, but itâs far better than the alternative. âThe de Rivas want the title of First Talon. You are standing in the way of that. All it would take would be your death and thenââ
âRook would never.â Lucanis sounds offended by the very idea. âThey could not care less about my title. Their interest in me long predated my appointment as First Talon and I have no doubt that they would continue to love me if I were to lose that title entirely.âÂ
âYou must be practical,â Caterina insists. âThis is Viagoâs protege. Do you not think he has trained them well? To manipulate and deceive?âÂ
âNo more than any other Crow.âÂ
âBut they are a Crow,â Caterina reminds him. âA Crow of a lesser standing who stands to win much by building a relationship with you. That is not even to speak of the way they encourage that thing inside of you.â
âDonât bring Spite into this,â Lucanis warns.
âIt is a demon, Lucanis. One that we should be focused on removing as soon as possible.âÂ
âAs I have told you before, there is no separating us now.â
âDo you know that? Or are you simply unwilling to try?â She presses. âBecause Rook told you not to bother trying?â
The idea of a demon remaining permanently within her grandson is terrifying in its possibility. Itâs even more frightening that Lucanis doesnât seem the least bit concerned with removing the foul creature inside of him. All because a pretty face told him to accept the demon as part of him.Â
Caterina knows better. She knows her grandson is no demon.Â
âRook did notââ
âWould you give up your entire life for them? Throw away all we have worked for? For an upstart and a demon?âÂ
âThatâs enough!â Lucanis snaps and Caterina is caught off guard enough to fall silent. âEnough. Please.â His voice turns from harsh to soft in a moment, guilt bleeding into his tone.Â
She grips her cane tightly. âThese are the questions you must ask yourself, Lucanis,â she says. âYou can not run from them forever.âÂ
She leaves him to ponder her words, but doesnât stray far, listening in to see how he reacts to what she has to say. She hopes heâll listen, prays that heâll see sense and abandon this childish romance of his. She wants nothing more than his happiness, save for his survival.Â
She hears him sigh and she hesitates only a moment before following him out of the room. She sticks to the shadows, knowing from years of training how to follow even the most perceptive men without being spotted. She uses her old tricks now, trailing her grandson as he leaves the estate and climbs to the rooftops.Â
She spots who heâs meeting right away, Rookâs face lit by moonlight as they pace back and forth on the ledge.Â
They look up as Lucanis approaches, their face breaking into a grin. âSo, howâd it go?â When Lucanis doesnât respond, they whistle. âThat bad, huh?âÂ
âI donât understand it,â Lucanis says. âI thought she would see reason, but itâs like sheâs incapable of believing our love is for loveâs sake. Everything appears as a bid for power to her.âÂ
âGuess I am the power-hungry type,â Rook jokes. âI mean, itâs always been my dream to take over the world!âÂ
âRook, please. Be serious.âÂ
Rookâs smile falls and they sit on the edge of the roof, their legs dangling off the side. âWhat do you want me to say, Lucanis?â They ask. âYour grandmother isnât going to change her mind about me no matter what I do. She isnât that kind of woman.âÂ
Lucanis sits beside them. âI know.â
âThen what do you want to do?âÂ
He sighs, considering. âI know things arenât easy right now, but I want to remain a fixture in your life,â he says. âAfter all, youâre one in mine.â
Rook studies his face in the moonlight. âGood,â they say eventually. âIâm not letting you go that easily, Dellamorte.âÂ
âI would hope not.âÂ
The way Lucanis looks at his lover in what is believed to be a private moment gives Caterina a moment of hesitation. Thereâs love there, genuine and passionate. Itâs more affection than sheâs ever seen on her grandsonâs face before.Â
She hopes that love doesnât get him killed.
#dennis writes#dragon age#dragon age: the veilguard#datv#rookanis#oc: voltah de riva#ship: lucanis x voltah#caterina dellamorte#lucanis dellamorte#da drunk writing circle#dadwc#datv spoilers
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decided i'm just going to enjoy living for the simple fact that i'm here and i might as well. after all, where is it written that i need some grander purpose to find fulfillment in life?
#really returning to my roots with this one#i had the same existential conundrum when i was 19#which is a big part of why i started the journey of the past decade in the first place#this time however i am more mature and better equipped#in reality i think my return to the place where i grew up is exactly the clean slate i wished for#and so i will be building something new upon it#something more focused and refined#something beautiful#the future may look bleak in the broader sense#but there's little stopping me from carving out my own little niche amongst the apocalypse
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lets talk about heat death this fine earthly morning. heat death will occur as the last star of the last galaxy slowly fizzles out. just as every mortal life is finite so is that of the universe. The universe one day will succumb to old age and fade away and just as I accept that every person I ever loved will fade away with the passage of time, so too will every universe. replaced by new born universes , the spent husks of millions of universes pile up upon the trans-universal shoreline. In a place operating on trans-universal time. like coral they build something we can only imagine, or can we? it's difficult enough to suspend conjecture and imagine trans-universal time let alone what this trans-universal medium might be. To say IF there can be multiple universes, each creating its own individual time. Then the medium in which these exist is run by it's own time, trans-universal...... beyond what we know. if every universe is an unexplained explosion, a big bang like a match being struck and every little atom that flames over is its own universe which lives and dies in the interim time between inception and heat death. a flash to you and me but a billion years in Horton's world. And our world a flaming part of something we can't understand because we are Horton! and somewhere up there in trans-universal time some quasi-god lights his cigarette off the flaming visage of our tiny universe.
waters boiling...... teas ready. đ
#multiverse#heat death of the universe#heat death#cosmology#carl sagan#stephen hawking#albert einstein#black hole#stars#astrophysics#multiverse is conjecture but i beleive its the most probable answer#like spock the most probable answer is usually correct#ive coined the term trans universal to talk about things outside the universe#theres a larger clock ticking somewhere and we have no idea how to read it#if each universe has independant time space and gravity then they exist in something larger something trans universal#thank you for coming to my ted talk#im releasing my trans universal theory right here in tumblr notes for your viewing pleasure#This is what they call peer review
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Curtwen Week Day 6: Happy Ending
#I like to believe that there is a universe where they get to grow old together#just one#look once upon a time I read a fic that had me bawling my fuckin eyes out where they get to grow old together#I do want to say that I believe in personal growth and I think that Curt can 100% have a happy ending without Owen- where he can grow#away from that experience and where he can healthily cope with the trauma he ended up with#where he can find solace in something other than alcohol and where he can find it in himself to forge new relationships and build his#connections with people like Tatiana#etc etc#I just want to make it known that this is one of many happy endings that could happen#(amongst the several sad ones that I know also exist)#ALSO I wanted to draw the old men and I do what I want#but yeah something something if the universe is infinite /ref#maybe this is a universe where the banana incident never happened and they were able to retire together#ough#the curtwen feels are really getting me today#I adore them#also I used a new brush ive been having fun with this past week#doesnât it look cool?#I really like drawing with it and I like how it looks so#we might be seeing more of this one in the future#although 6b is still my guy#damn yâknow hypothetically- if Owen (depending on the au) and Curt lived to be in their 60s (at least) they would witness the first Pride#god can you imagine that?#At the very least Curt being around for stonewall and everything that came after that with queer rights#FUCK anyways#fun fact: a group of frogs is called an army#isnât that cute#reminds me of that one person on TikTok that raised like a thousand frogs- they had a literal army of frogs#crazy#curtwen week
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trying to decide which of any of the other books in the chrestomanci series to reread now that Iâve finished The Lives of Christopher Chant. The trouble is Iâve got mixed feelings about ALL of the others? SoâŠâŠâŠâŠâŠ.
#Charmed Life IS good but I hate Gwendolyn so much#Conradâs Fate is also good cause you get lots of Christopher and Millie but Iâm not as in love with the themes#I donât remember caring very much for Witch Week#Magicians of Caprona was inventive but I didnât really love any of the new characters (and there was too little Christopher)#Pinhoe Egg is very well-written but gets a little unrealistically anti-adult or something??#So yeah Iâve basically already reread the one I love the most#Shout out to the lives of Christopher Chant you will always be famous#Itâs got the best character development#The best interweaving of plots!#Amazing world building expanding upon Charmed Life#And the best characters!!!#Arguably the best child-adult dynamics too#I think Iâm going to go read the non-Gwendolyn parts of Charmed Life#chrestomanci#chronicles of chrestomanci#The lives of Christopher Chant#Diana Wynne Jones#Peace reads books
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Apparently I can meet my goal of roughly 400,000 words in 6 months if I just somehow write at least 2,200 words a day ghbjh... Almost 2,500 today... huzzah...
#Definitely not going to be able to stick with it just due to like... being realistic about my energy levels and etc. ESPECIALLY as we#enter the Evil Summer and it becomes hot all the time. But... one can attempt.. at least...#I'm also a very slow writer since I tend to re-read and edit while I write. and only move onto the next section once what I'm writing#seems okay. Which is easy for visual novel type stuff. since ''sections'' of a conversation are more clearly marked (like if you#have a menu option with 5 different dialogue choices. finish the character's response for choice 1 before moving onto 2. etc.)#Especially since when I'm done with a whole quest I always follow it up by playing through it and picking every option and making sure it#actually all works okay and etc. So I am already going to see it all a second time. Then I can go back and reorder a few words or remove#certain sentences that don't sound natural when I read them out loud (I always read it all outloud to myself since it is... just peple#talking.. it should sound like natural dialogue in their voice. etc). But my ''first draft'' is kind of not as first drafty since I pause t#edit a lot as I go along. So it also takes longer probably than it would take other people who I think treat a first draft as more#of a loose guideline or something. AANYWAY...#80F in my bedroom right now again... huzzah... I did end up finishing and recording that sims build video before the heat wave (or is#it really a heat wave if it's just summer..?? lol) came in.. but now... augh.. the editing... plus the costume photos and all else... Much#to do as always.. Often such a long todo list.. a giant scroll hung upon the walls of the evil hermit wizard tower..#Anyhow.. I hope I can finish getting ready for bed early in time to reward myself with a game of tripeaks solitaire whilst I snack on#cheddar cheese and some of those preserved artichokes in a jar. hrgm... I actually have nasturtiums (ultimate best flower) on the#deck again this year but I had to move them all into a corner today because the leaves were getting burnt by the sun lol.. Also am now more#cautiously weaving through social media to ignore all dragon age news. NOT bc of spoilers (I actually love spoilers/literally never play#any game until there's full guides on it I can read to plan my entire playthrough based on knowing exactly what I want to happen lol + mods#and etc.) but just because I'm so busy with my ownprojects I simply do not have the brainspace to dedicate... Yes I love to think#about elves and fictional universe lore. but no.. I pretend I do not see it. Does not exist to me actually. ghgj.. OHH also took som#cool pictures of flowers in the garden section of a store and I wanted to do like.. character designs based on the colors of the flowers o#something. but that might just be another unnecessary project to add to the pile.. I want to commit to the daunting task of dyeing my#hair again some time.. hrm.. this is all of the updates I can think of. As if a bunch of random tags make up for never posting anything for#weeks on end lol.. alas.. too warm to think properly I suppose.. .. I neeeeeed a long lost relative to leave me some million dollar#estate in their will so I can have the resources to move to a colder climate or something ..augh#.. but for now.. I shall toil away in my little wizard tower trying to write 2000 something words a day whilst sweating and such ghbj
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seeing a lot of posts making me think about it lately but i think its really important to note when you consider the ways that you accept and support the queer/lgbtq community that its critical, if you want to do a well founded and strong job of it, absolutely CRITICAL to diversify that
i know theres a lot going on right now thats noisy, and scary, and it feels overwhelming and sometimes that pressure is good at encouraging infighting or picking teams or whatnot
but like... i dont know man. step back and relax a little bit. dont engage with the live wire. go... read some stories. read or watch some history, enjoy some queer entertainment.
google terminology. watch something about the AIDS pandemic. see top ten queer artist lists and pick a few to learn more about. look at the wiki for the lavender scare. watch some musicals, learn about theater history. about drag. the holocaust, and how much they cared about whether you were gay, autistic, or jewish, and why its so important to remember who your real fight is with.
not even all at once. just throw some crumbs in with whatever else youre doing, or youre interested in. tidbits. find happy things. find mundane things. find infuriating things. find combinations, confusing things. diversify. grow yourself. give yourself time and tools in bounds. much to learn every day.
#skelly speaks#every single time i look up anything i think i know about queer history i stumble upon something new#fjdj this is absolutely triggered in part by the aformentioned diverse queer acknowledgement need but#man i wasnt even looking for these things. but i was listening to a pathology documentary#(as you do)#and it got to HIV and just... jesus christ man. that wasnt even long ago that was like the 80s#and then nobody gave a shit what else you were. if you were gay you were a Threat#you didnt even have to BE gay man people just had to have some suspicion there was a chance#and on top of all the bullshit the church was doing??? bro you know they played into that#because at the time they were also pushing their 'way of life as we know it' bullshit!#i have so many thoughts and feelings#bfjd of course this is american based thoughts but still#the echoes from these things are still deafening. people are still regurgitating this rhetoric sometimes verbatim...#i dont get it sometimes it all is so cruel sometimes#but i do my best to know what i can and just keep trying to build more understanding#anyway. aaanyway
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alright this is so annoying and disappointing because -obviously i cant know for sure, but- it feels like something happened to change their minds :/ which would be just sad
#i knowwwwwww im just being dramatic but this game is so close to being the perfect game#(well you know not Perfect perfect but.)#a good dlc + a definitive version or something would've been just incredible imo#well... i hope the patches wont stop for a good while at least </3#but still in terms of business perspective no dlc for the goty is so baffling to me it doesn't make sense in my head rn#and to think of all the content that feels like was cut but could still be incorporated into the game like#idk how to elaborate my brain is kinda fuzzy rn sorry#anyway this is my cue to finally get into divinity ig? lol#it's still exciting to look forward to new games where they can possibly build upon this system/engine but also like#it feels too early to abandon such a huge game idk đ anyway im shutting up lmao#bg3#rants
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Started replaying sonic frontiers and have been having a blast but also why is the switch version so fucked
#ramblings#the graphics......#i forgot just how bad they were. how did they fuck it up so bad for this version specifically#bc i KNOW the other versions don't look like that#it's baffling#sonic frontiers is my favorite 3ds game#i mean it's not that bad. there's worse looking games on the switch. probably#i am also playing on a switch lite#but still other games still look wonderful on my switch why is frontiers specifically Like That#sonic also feels really finicky to control sometimes but like that's a problem with most sonic games so. whatever#i might need to just adjust my settings or something#still. aside from that. been having fun :]#i needed to see sonic just interacting with his friends again#and running around the islands doing random stuff#it gets me thinking about what future games could be like. bc looking at sonic x shadow gens#it really feels like they're building upon frontiers' foundation. at least with how their making the main hub an open zone#makes me excited for when they make a new standalone game#i hope we get news for something like that soon. not rushing for them to pump out a game right after sonic x shadow gens but y'know#like an announcement that they're working on something. a teaser maybe#i wanna feel the same insanity i felt when frontiers was first teased basically#tho it might still be a bit too soon to ask for that#aghhhh i wanna know what comes next so baddddddd i wish i wasn't so impatient#wow i went completely off topic. anyway
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Isn't That Sweet? (I Guess So) - G.S.
Synopsis. Oh no! Why do your pantĂes keep disappearing? Well, maybe your hot roommate knows the answerâŠ
Pairing. Gojo Satoru x Reader
Content. MDNI, fem! reader, pĂ nty-stealer! roommate! Gojo, annoyances-to-lovers, heâs REALLY down bad, vĂrgin! Gojo, oraI (fem receiving), mĂ le mĂ sturbation, pining, face-sĂtting, jealousy (his side), fĂrst times, unprotected, creampĂe, teary Gojo, pĂ nty-gagging, HEINOUS things, pet names, aIcohol mentions, swearing.
Word count. 8.6k (whoopsies)
A/N. Hope yâall have a lovely week hehe <3
âDamnâŠâ you sigh at the glaringly empty drawer, rubbing your eyes as if that would make a difference - maybe even magically materialize a fresh pair of panties in front of you. âItâs the second time this month.â
Or was it the third?
But, alas, standing around in your bedroom on a Sunday night does not give you the answers. Or any extra underwear.
Which is why you find yourself making a beeline for the bathroom - teeth gritted, stomach flipping at how very, very exposed you felt underneath the thin fabric of your shorts. Cursing everything from the buildingâs rundown old washing machine to Gojoâs stupid smile when he took away your laundry basket.
You couldâve sworn you saw your last pair perched right on top of your pile of old clothes, all flimsy and an obscene red that stood out amongst everything else.Â
Seriously, how hard would it have been to lose that thing? Maybe you could bother him into buying a new washing machine for-
âWoah there-â Before you know it, youâre crashing face-first into a wall? Pillows? Gojo - unfairly shirtless. âNow, whatâs got your panties in a twist, sweetheart?â
The lack thereof.Â
Maybe because you canât say that, maybe because of what looks - feels - like miles upon miles of milky, sculpted skin, youâre instead settling for an extremely eloquent, âNothing I uh-â But whatever excuse catches in your chest as you raise your face - still smushed between two large pecs - up, up, up and-
Oh.Â
Itâs not like youâre seeing something new - far from it, actually, unfortunately for your poor heart.
And at first, youâd thought it was some strange habit - hell, maybe the guy just didnât like t-shirts. But it was around the fourth or fifth time heâd forgone one that you realized Gojo Satoru was just a tease. A no-good, insufferably smug tease that just loved to catch you ogling him.Â
But, well, at least the rent was cheap.
Though, you werenât exactly complaining about the view eitherâŠ
Because lo and behold stood the infamous campus sweetheart - you knew about fourteen people whoâd kill to see this exact sight. Gojoâs cloudy hair tousled, tiny droplets of water twinkling like diamonds against the bathroom light. Bouncing off his rippling abs, his strong arms circling your waist to stop you from falling backwards. Holding you too fucking close against the white towel slung low on his hips. His skin damp, smelling so delicious-
âGojo, did you use my body lotion?âÂ
âAwwwââ he whines, finally releasing his grip on you. âYou were supposed to admire me some more.â
You scoff, eyes darting over broad shoulders - partially to search for your laundry basket, partially because you really couldnât handle looking right at a shirtless Gojo Satoru any longer. âAs if. Get out if youâre done.â
âDamn, woman. Feisty.â Gojo lets out a deep chuckle - smooth and cocky - when youâre hastily shoving him away from the doorframe. âIf you wanted to put your hands on me that bad then you jusâ hafta ask, yâknow~â
It was way too late for this.Â
âHilarious.â you deadpan, though you let go of where you were gripping Gojoâs arm like it burned. Immediately stepping behind the bathroom door before he could make you lose whateverâs left of your sanity, âNext time you hog the bathroom mâgonna smash those ugly new sunglasses of yours.â
Heâs pressing his foot between that gap in the door to stop you from closing it, âOi, donât think I donât see that glint in your eyes, sweetheart.â Yeah, the glint in your eyes that told you if looks could kill then Gojo would be six feet under already. Which only makes him grin wider, âYouâre telling me you really werenât checkinâ out the most sought-after man on campus jusâ now?â
Huffing in frustration, you cross your arms, âI donât see Geto Suguru anywhere.â
â...you take that back right now. Iâm the pretty best friend.â
âAm not.â
âAm too.â
âAm not. Isnât that why youâre still single?â
âTh-thatâs not- fuckinâ Suguru? Really? Most people would kill for a look of this-â Gojo gestures at his bare torso, and once more youâre reminded that those absolutely awful protein shakes he makes every morning arenât just for show. â-and youâre getting it daily.â
You reach out a hand, Gojo chest hot underneath your touch. He seizes up instantly, ears tinging red as you muse, âYeah.â Only to push him fully out the doorway, âI just wish youâd shut up daily, too.â
With that, youâre shutting the door with a resounding slam! Feeling only slightly guilty until you hear Gojoâs squawks of protest from outside, âI really donât know whatâs got your panties in a twist.â
Right. Panties.
Something just a tad more important than recounting exactly how many abs Gojo Satoru had.
You let out a shuddering breath, clamoring to find that spare laundry basket youâd forgotten in here earlier today. Shuffling through through the soft clothes, hoping, praying to find-
Nothing. Absolutely nothing.Â
Fuck.Â
Somehow, youâre hiding away your body lotion that night.
---
âNow, listen here, sweetheart. I know you look fuckinâ gorgeous in everything but-â
âSatoru.â
âBut that-â he whirls around, pointing a long finger accusingly at the boxers youâd improvised into sleep shorts. Spitting venomously, â-that I cannot allow.â
Youâre rolling your eyes at your roommateâs theatrics, forking through your pancakes while he monologues to himself more than you. âWhy does it even matter? It was just for yesterday.â you mutter. âI didnât have any clean uh- panties for the night nâ this worked.â
Thankfully, since the fresh laundry this morning, youâd found two more of your panties - courtesy of a very smug Gojo handing off your clothes. Ah, it felt like the universe itself was smiling down on you.
But oh if you thought the great Gojo Satoru was having a breakdown before then you werenât prepared for when you lifted your gaze off the kitchen table. Only to meet his - eyes wide, a pretty pink blush coloring his cheeks, lips gawking and stuttering around what looked like a silent, âP-panties-â
You raise a brow, âWhatâs got you this worked up, Gojo?â
âNothing.â he clears his throat, âAbsolutely nothing at all. Panties? I love- er, wait no-â
âB-besides-â you bristle at the way his heavy gaze was now turning to flit between your face and down below. Dangerously. âTheyâre not even yours so I donât know why it matters.â
This seems to snap him out of his little reverie, and heâs immediately standing up straighter, brows furrowing. He continues, in a much more serious tone than before, âTheyâre his?âÂ
You stab your breakfast with a bit too much vitriol than necessary, looking at Gojo with narrowed eyes, âIf you mean the one my ex left behind then yes. Who else?â
Your ex wasnât good for much - and Gojo seemed especially hostile towards him because of his distaste for your little living situation. But, hey, at least the guy was helping you out at this time. Albeit unknowingly.Â
Heâs raising his hands in mock-surrender, shuffling back into the kitchen to work on the rest of those âworld famousâ Gojo pancakes. âNothing nothing.â he hums, and maybe it was how sleep-deprived you were - running on a few too many assignments due today and a few too little panties - but you think Gojoâs voice has a bit more bite to it than usual. Jaw clenching as he plows on, âOf course that fucker- in my- our apartment, too. Fuck-â
A spatula is suddenly mere inches from your face, Gojo brandishing it in front of you like a weapon as he declares, âWeâre going panty-shopping after Yagaâs lecture today.â
âGojo, I-â
âWe-â he cuts you off, delicately placing another pancake on your plate - a little truce. So close now that it reminds you of last night - you could feel his minty breath on your face, count every long, sultry eyelash of his. â-are going panty-shopping after Yagaâs lecture nâ Iâm paying. Thatâs final.â
And of course, in true Gojo fashion, you can barely get a word out before heâd immediately ducking out of the kitchen. You almost let your lips curl into a smile, hit with a sudden wave of endearment as you hear Gojoâs long legs padding urgently down the hallway to God-knows-where. Maybe he did know when to be-
Smack!
You jolt as youâre hit with a pair of boxers - fresh ones, thankfully, that you recognized from all the clothes youâd rummaged through last night - plopped unceremoniously onto your lap. Jaw dropping in disbelief when you look up to meet Gojoâs devilish grin.Â
âNext time-â he winks, motioning at the fabric you were poking in concern now. â-wear mine.â
The talk of Yagaâs lecture hall that morning was of a pair of burned boxers found right outside your building, everyone speculating what the poor guy had done to have his presumed girlfriend make an example of it like that.Â
For you, however, the only thing running through your mind was whether or not you could count properly.
Because surely you remembered it correctly when you counted two new underwear this morning - that gauzy black one and the deep red? Two. Definitely not the singular, sad piece of red fabric laying on your bed after breakfast today? Two. The only one you could find even after scouring through your whole bedroom.Â
So where the fuck had that other one gone?
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Do not answer (roomie)đ§żđ§ż: Hurry up ive been lurking inside that lingerie shop ya told me you liked nâ now the old ladies here look like they wanna eat me alive (Âș ⥠Âș l|l)/
im boooored, gonna stand still nâ start blending in with these mannequins if you dont hurry up istg
Hurry
HURRY
HURRY THEY THINK IM SUSPICIOUS
PLEASE THEYRE GONNA ESCORT ME OUT
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BITCH STOP LAUGHING-
No sooner are you letting out a cackle at Gojoâs rapid-fire texts, youâre looking up to see the man himself being walked outside by two security guards. Squabbling heatedly in a way that had them heaving out long sighs - which, honestly, you felt a stab of relatable empathy for.
â-I swear Iâm not a creep Iâm jusâ-â Gojoâs bickering dies on his tongue as he catches the sight of you walking closer to the commotion. Closer. Taking your sweet sweet time, eyes just barely glazing over him before- youâre walking away. âHey!â he calls out, stopping you in your tracks. âNow, donât you dare-â Before turning back to his wary escorts, âIâm with her.â
They exchange a look between each other, and no matter how much youâd like to pretend the scene had absolutely nothing to do with you - youâd rather Gojo doesnât get banned from the mall altogether.Â
âHeâs right.â you drone out, one hand grabbing Gojoâs, the other forcing his head into an apologetic bow. Hissing to the side so that only he would hear, âUnfortunately.â
The two security guards now seem more amused than anything at your strange dynamic. One of them raises a brow, muttering, âWellâŠthis oneâs certainly a handful.â Turning around to head back to their stations, âYa better keep a tight leash on your boyfriend.â
You sputter, eyes wide, âOh- heâs not-â
But itâs too late - theyâre both swiftly out of earshot, most likely more than happy to hand over the public nuisance off to you. And Gojoâs looking to you with a smug smirk, voice dropping about an octave deeper as he breathes against your ear, âSo, gonna take your boyfriend to help out with lingerie shopping, sweetheart?â
Oh. God.Â
This was going to be one long day.
âIâm only here because another one of mine disappeared, yâknow.â you hiss, rifling through all the options before you. âWhich really has me wondering why-â
âH-hey! How about this one?â Gojo interrupts, shoving a lacy set right in front of your face, his voice just a bit louder than what was appropriate.Â
You sigh, catching the eyes of a few disapproving older women around you. âNo this is-â But running a thumb over the fabric makes you bite back an insult. And for all how brash Gojo was, maybe his panty selection wasnât awful. It was a flimsy little thing, gauzy and light blue - the type youâd typically wear on a night out. You meet his boyish grin, admitting, â...not bad.â
âSee?â he laughs - eyes glinting with delight as he piles on a few more in your basket. âNâ if youâre impressed with that then youâre gonna be proposing to me when you realize itâs exactly your size-â
You quirk a brow, âHow do you know my size, Gojo?â
And this makes his body stiffen, large shoulders squaring up, throat bobbing as he answers,âUh? Experience?â
Oh, right. Youâre rolling your eyes, fighting off a weird little stab of irritation. This probably isnât the first time heâs come here with a girl, anyway.Â
And yet, despite however much of an alleged âcatchâ Gojo was, heâd - perhaps mercifully - never brought anyone over. You donât know why, but you didnât really want to question it.
âA-anyway.â Gojoâs airy voice cuts through your thoughts. And heâs plucking up a few more sets of lingerie for you to sort through, âCanât let these one, two, three- six lovely lilâ things go to waste now, can we?â At your look of confusion, he chuckles, guiding the two of you to the counter now. âSuguruâs holding a party at his place tonight, how would you like to do the honors of being my cute plus one?â
âIâd rather go with Yaga.â
Though, you really canât say no - not when Gojoâs flashing you that black card as he pays for everything in an instant. Not when all he can prattle about on the way home is how gorgeous youâd look together at Getoâs party - how youâll have to beat everyone off of him with a stick (to which you reply that youâd no sooner do that than beat him with a stick.)
Not when he sits outside your bedroom door as you get ready later that night. Insisting on keeping you company even as you slip out of your towel. Looking over your shoulder to make sure he wasnât peeking in before eagerly turning to grab at one of your new set of silky white panties- only, they werenât there.
Strange.Â
âHey, GojoâŠâ you call out, looking underneath your blankets for where you mightâve thrown them about after trying them on. Under your bed, in your drawers, anywhere. â-didnât we buy six sets?â
âHuh? Dunno, I didnât count. Just wear the blue one.â he whines, ushering you to hurry up from outside. Face burning because shit, this was you and you were inside - still wrapped up in only that sinful little towel. Oh, would the painful death really be worth it if he happened to accidentally look around? âSâpretty and yâknow what else?â
Your voice was muffled as you hastily put on your clothes, âWhat?â
âIt matches my eyes.â
Really strange.
---
Thankfully for Gojo, you didnât go with Yaga to the party - nor did you find your lost pair of panties, sadly, but that wasnât too much of a concern for him.Â
And here he was - one hurried Uber ride and about several billion death threats from you later. Wishing that youâd actually just acted on one of them because fuck at least then he wouldnât have to be watching from across the room as some bastard from the university basketball team tried to chat you up.
Gojo canât even hear the way the girls surrounding him were giggling about something or the other, alcohol making his tongue a little heavier, eyes a bit glassier.Â
Nothing like the way that other man was drinking in that polite smile on your face. Tilting your head to face forwards and- God, why wonât you just look at him instead?
Would that guy still look at you that way if he knew you were wearing lingerie matching his eyes right now?
âNot gonna entertain your fans?â Getoâs voice rings through his whirlwind thoughts, eyeing down the forgotten crowd in amusement.
âWhen have I ever?â Gojo runs a hand through his hair in frustration.Â
He lets out a knowing laugh, âYeah, you little vir-â Turning into a coughing fit when Gojo elbows his best friend straight in his stomach. âAnyways.â Geto gestures with his drink in your direction, as if Gojo hadnât seen - as if it wasnât the only thing on his mind right now. âWell, your lilâ roomie there seems to be popular, too, huh? Star player of the basketball team nâ all.Â
He clicks his tongue, slumping further against the thumping wall. âSo? Iâm taller, and more handsome.â
âAre you sure âbout that?â
âY-yeah?â he sputters.Â
âWell then why arenât you over there with her?â Geto hums, lips curling. âLooks tâme like even she doesnât like him that much so whyâre you being a pussy over here? Always sneaking around stealing her-âÂ
âShut up-â And Gojo knows heâs riling him up, he knows that Geto wants to see a little drama - maybe finally shut up his pining over the one girl heâs wanted for the past year - and couldnât have. Itâs a trap. But Gojo canât stop his head from snapping between you and his best friendâs sly smirk. Slurring indignantly, âOf course Iâm fuckinâ handsome, nâ taller. Iâd make a better boyfriend too and-â He trails off at the sight of that loser leaning in - but more importantly that tiny furrow in your brows, your hands on his chest softly keeping him at bay. â-and mâgonna go over there nâ prove it.â
âAh, that loserâs gonna thank me later.â
And, hell, Gojo could barely even walk. Barely even think straight as heâs parting the stuffy living room, ignoring whatever whispers and titters were following him.Â
âI said no-â
âHey, sweetheart.â you jump when someone - Gojo - creeps up from behind you. Large build hanging off your own when he nuzzles his face into your neck. And you could feel his toothy grin on your skin, âMissed me?â
Your face burns, âI uh-â Angling your face as dignifiedly as possible to face your roommate, âGojo, are you drunk?â
âDrunk on you, yes.â
âWhat the-â
The man in front of you pipes up - shuffling uncomfortably on his feet. âDidnât realize you were taken. My bad.â Looking like heâd rather be anywhere but under the scrutiny of Gojo Satoru. His big arms tightening around your middle - when did they even get there? âIâll just uh- get out of your way, man.â
âMhm, by the way,â Gojo puffs up his chest a bit, clearly towering over the other man - ha, take that Suguru. âNice loss against Kyoto last week, real knee-jerker.âÂ
You smack Gojoâs chest at his rudeness, to which he only smiles wider. Watching the other man being swiftly handled away by another apologetic member of the basketball team.
âGojo.â
And before you can react, Gojoâs dragging his pretty plump lips along where that light blue band of your bra was just peeking out, murmuring lowly, âLove it when you scold me like that.â Still refusing to let go of you despite the jealous looks thrown your way, âLetâs go home, my girl.â
Oh, the look on your face was priceless.Â
He just wished he could fish out his phone and record, or maybe even tell Geto to take a picture - help him make it his wallpaper. And he did - over fifteen times, in fact, as the two of you helped drag him away from the thrumming party. Geto doesnât listen, of course, and you neither do you - grumbling out a slew of profanities underneath your breath that makes the Uber driver look at the two of you weird.
And yet, Gojoâs biggest issue right now was trying to climb up these fucking stairs - not when they were trying to run away from him.Â
âI swear to God, Gojo-â you huff, chest heaving under the weight of walking - well, more like dragging - your roommate up to your apartment. Knees wobbly - maybe at the intensity of his cologne, maybe at the way his biceps were flexing on your shoulders, probably at how fucking useless he was. Damn lightweight. âYou better cover my rent for the next year for this.â
âOf course I will~â his hot breath tickles your ear, âAnything for mâgirl. Iâll take care of us forever, don't you worry your pretty lilâ head.â
You roll your eyes, but you canât deny the way your heart clenches - just a little bit. And if youâre slamming open Gojoâs bedroom door with a little more force than necessary, well, at least heâs a bit too impaired to nag at you about it.
He bounces lightly when you throw him on his plush mattress, giggling softly, âYou should just join me, yâknow. Have a little sleepover.â
âDrop dead.ïżœïżœ you monotone, not even daring to look back at him while you shuffle through Gojoâs shirts. Throwing one over your shoulder at him, âNâ wear this, I just know youâll complain about messing up your favorite button-up tomorrow morning.â
âAww, you always take care of me so well, my girl~â
That familiar little nickname makes a shiver run down your spine, and itâs all you can do to concentrate on shuffling through Gojoâs drawers in search of his shorts. Absent-mindedly reaching for the lowest drawer and-
âWait!âÂ
You jump, whirling around to catch Gojo sitting up ram-rod straight on the bed, eyes wide, hand reaching out as if to stop you. Swallowing thickly, you ask. âGojo?â
And he jolts - like the very sound of your voice is sending electricity zapping through his veins. Abruptly scrambling off the bed before resting two hands on your shoulders, gently guiding you away from the drawer. âMy shorts are uh- in my wardrobe, heh. Sorry about that.â
Furrowing your brows at the sudden twist, you squirm in his grasp to look at the drawer again. Failing - when Gojo keeps his grip steadfast, âWhyâre you acting so-âÂ
âHow about we order take out? My treat?â
And that night, tucking yourself into bed, you should be falling asleep as soon as your head hits the pillow. You should be caring less about that strange little outburst of Gojoâs inside his room. You should have realized sooner - those light blue panties youâd worn tonight were gone. No longer in your hamper of old clothes.
And there was only one thing to do.Â
---
Gojo thinks he shouldnât - fuck he knows he shouldnât. He doesnât even want to- well, that last bit was a lie.
Gojo Satoru first met you about a year ago, when youâd come knocking at his door asking about his ad for a roommate. It was more because he was bored inside this big apartment by himself than anything, really, but here you were all gorgeous and sweet, flashing him a smile that was burned into his mind for the rest of the week, at the very minimum. How could he ever say no?
And when youâd taken to walking around the apartment in those slutty lilâ shorts as a way to get back at his perpetual shirtless-ness? Thin panties just peeping out of the low hem?Â
God, it was everything he could do to not run to the bathroom with each little glimpse. He was fucked, so very embarrassingly fucked.Â
He just never thought it would get to this point - the first time had been an accident, honestly. When your laundry had gotten mixed up with his. Surely he didnât remember having such a cute pair of pink panties in his closet? And surely it didnât mean anything if he just-so-happened to stash them away, right?
At least, thatâs what Gojo told himself the first time. And the second. And the third. And shit, it was a bit of an addiction now, and within a year of rooming with you, heâd accumulated a drawer stuffed guiltily with exactly what he shouldnât be having.Â
Gojo Satoru - insufferable campus sweetheart, the dreamy first place on everyoneâs To-Fuck list - had been hoarding away your pretty panties. Like the pathetic virgin he pretends he isnât.Â
And so here he was - that dirty little drawer flung open, pants pulled down just enough, one hand flat on the flat surface to steady himself, while the other fisted desperately around his swollen cock - and one of your panties.Â
âF-fuck, sweetheart.â heâs hissing, body shuddering in lewd little tremors at that torturous drag of fabric down his length. Squeezing at his thick base, moving fast - filthy up, up, up to thumb along the end of his sopping slit. âFeels sâgood- too fucking good hngh-â
Such a pretty, wet gasp escapes him when your soaked, absolutely ruined underwear catches on his veins, tangling around his sensitive shaft. And heâs biting his lip, trying not to make a noise when he threads through the mess down below.Â
âOh fuck, yer killinâ me even when youâre ngh- not here.â he breathes unsteadily, weaving the sticky fabric around his long fingers. Tight - just how he knew you would. âSâlike you know what you do tâme with these.â
They were your blue ones, this time - the ones from just last night. The ones you were wearing not even a full day ago. And Gojo has them wrapped daintily around his rock-hard cock, stark against the blushing red at his fat head. Already so drenched in precum as he fucks his fist.Â
âYâlooked so p-pretty with these, sweetheart.â he groans over the wet fwip! fwip! fwip! Eyes rolling to the back of his head with each long, feverish stroke. âSo pretty being mine. Ngh- so pretty in my- fuck.âÂ
Slam!
Heâs hitting his palm facedown on the wood, knees buckling, eyes scrunching shut with pleasure.Â
And that ruined, utterly depraved part of Gojo wonders whether next time he should steal your bras too? Have the full set of you proudly wearing his color like some secret little slut for him.Â
Heâs letting out a ragged little laugh, oh how cute youâd look all confused. Nipples hard through your flimsy excuse of a t-shirt while you looked around for them. While you asked him for help.Â
Oh, just the thought of that has Gojoâs red, furious cock beading glossy drops of precum at his tip. Leaking a sinful, slippery sheen down his wrist. âAh.â he lets out a guttural groan when his angry dick twitches in his hand, falling onto his elbow on the drawer. Not having the strength - or the sanity - to keep himself up anymore. âLook what youâve-â Gojoâs eyes catch sight of a flash of red inside, sounding so wrecked. âLook what youâve done.â
And those obscene red panties are snatched up by his free hand in a second, not even a second wasted before Gojoâs bringing them up to his face.Â
Fuck.Â
âLook what youâve done. Look how ngh- filthy youâve made me.â he whines, muffled. Hips fucking up in quick, uncontrollable little thrusts into his closed fist. Voice a pitch higher as he spits out embarrassing little accusations, âHow pathetic. Gettinâ fuck- gettinâ off to this? Me of all hah- people like this? Canât imagine how f-fucking mad youâd be.â Â
Would you figure out it was him? Would you look in his drawer again? Teach him a lesson or two about being such a pathetic little pervert for his roommate.Â
Maybe - just maybe - if Gojo plays his cards right, gets on his knees and begs for mercy, then youâd let him keep his little treasure.Â
He throws his head back in a humorless little laugh when his aching hand slows down to languid, unforgivable tugs. He had time, anyway, your classes ended late today. Torturous - exactly the way he imagines youâd drive him mad. âHeh- wish this was you.â
Youâd be so much meaner, pressing down on that little divot at his tip, flicking teasingly like you were trying to fuck out something delicious. Youâd be running your nails down his achy veins, running your soft palms around his painful balls.Â
Youâd whisper, âThis all you got, Toru?â
âOh fuck!â Gojo moans, raspy little sounds of what sounds like your name filtering through the crevices of his fingers, your panties. âFuck fuck fuck- gonna cum.â he whines. Heavy balls smacking back into his thighs with each thrust into your imaginary hand. How he wished you were here. Heâs managing to wrench his eyes open to spy down at his sloppy cock - needing to see how your cute lilâ panties would look painted all white for him. How he wished you- âGonna-â
Oh. Fuck.Â
You.Â
âAw, why stop now, Gojo?â
Youâre leaning against Gojoâs open bedroom door, flashing him such a sultry little smirk. Your voice almost a purr when you echo, âI saidâŠâ Before taking two long steps to where he stood frozen, âWhy stop now?â
Gojo lets the damp fabric held up to his face drop in guilt - yet the other stays firmly wrapped around that hand cock of his still in hand.Â
âS-sweetheart what are you- why-â And perhaps for the first time in the twenty-something years that Gojo Satoru has terrorized this planet, heâs speechless. Worry-bitten lips sagging open stupidly, âI- this is-â
You cut him off, âSo youâre the panty thief.â So close now that Gojoâs dick was throbbing at each heave of your chest, the way you were squeezing your thighs together. Eyes sliding down his body to rest at the mangled mess of your all-new panties around his painfully hard cock. âI knew it.â
âI can explain-â
âAll those times pretending to help me?â you bat your lashes in a way that makes him gulp. Words dripping with the same tease heâd imagined in daydreams just like this. âWhen you were the pervert stealing my panties? Are you even ashamed?â
Gojo flushes an innocent pink, excuses tumbling out of those pretty lips immediately. But they sound like lies even to him.
âThis- ngh-â heâs rolling his hips forward when you slide a smaller finger down his arm, between his pecs, almost the way down to those tufts of white. âFuuuck- y-youâre not mad? Are ya the devil herself cuz youâre gonna- ngh- kill me this way.â
Humming, âClass was canceled, but of course - donât hah- stop on my account, Gojo.â
âToru.â heâs gasping out, a low moan wrenching out of him when heâs bowing his body into his fist again. Squeezing - almost warningly - at his hilt. âC-call me Toru. Please.â
And fuck he couldâve cum right then and there at that devilish little smile you give him, biting down on your lower lip - inches from his that it felt like you were biting down on his. Maybe you were, shit Gojo didnât even know right now.Â
âToru.â
Thatâs all it takes for Gojoâs lips to be crashing onto yours. Biting back a little whimper at the messy clash of teeth, of spit, because one taste of your candied lips and he was already so addicted.Â
âMmpf-â Gojo gasps, chasing hotly after your lips. Eyes half-lidded to watch the snapping of those delicate strings of saliva, âYouâre- youâre so-â And heâs way too impatient to get out his words, licking heatedly at the slit of your mouth. Over and over and over-Â âAs bad as me- ngh-â
âAre ya sure about that?â you grin, cunt clenching at your roommateâs pained grunt when you pull away. âBecause look-â
And the both of you are stuck on the way Gojoâs moving again, hips fucking up in jagged, mindless little grinds. Like he doesnât even realize heâs doing it. Like he didnât even feel the way his leaky tip was smearing along the front of your sinfully short skirt.Â
âCanât help it.â he whines, kissing down your neck. Hips urging forwards to slip up the thigh-length fabric, and when you donât pull away, Gojo drags your skirt up, up, up with his pulsing length, âYou donât know what you do to me- fuck.â
His jaw falls slack, ogling at the sight of your pretty pussy on full display for him. Already so glossy with your sweet sweet juices, needy between your restless thighs. Bare.Â
And this might be the first time heâs seen a cunt in real life but Gojo already knows - he already feels - that sheâs gonna be the death of him.Â
Sharp teeth nip at your bottom lip, tugging. âWhat the fuck-â Gojo breathes - more to himself than anything. âWhat the fuck what the-â Bringing down his free hand to run the pads of his long fingers along your puffy folds, as if to confirm whether this was real. â-fuck! Going out like this? Youâre even dirtier than me, huh?.âÂ
âWhat can I do?â Sliding your arms around his broad shoulders, palms running along the heated skin. Back arching to grind down on his hand, âSomeone stole all my panties.â
Your words fall on deaf ears, because Gojo doesnât hesitate for even a second before heâs bringing his dripping wet fingers up to his lips. Smoldering eyes looking right into yours when he pops them in his mouth. Sucking them dry.Â
âOh fuck, sweetheart.â
In a split second, youâre being splayed out on Gojoâs king-sized bed like such a slut. Bouncing at the sheer force of the throw. And it happens so fast that you almost think youâre seeing things - but, no, the way youâre bouncing against the silky sheets was real. Your skirt bunching up at your waist was real.Â
Gojoâs hazy gaze getting stuck right at the spot between your legs was real.Â
âShiiiit.â he murmurs, low and gravelly, like heâs moving through molasses. Stalking towards your trembling figure as if hypnotized, âOh, she looks even prettier this way.â
You shuffle in embarrassment, pressing your thighs together, âToru-â
But he doesnât hear you, instantly scrambling onto the bed. âNo- no no no no no-â Just wrenching your legs apart with his hands. âNo, you donât get to hide th-this from me, you donâ know how long Iâve waited for this. How much Iâve imagined-â
Youâre gasping when he runs the tip of his index between your sopping wet slit, coating his fingers in your juices once more. Teasing. âNâ so wet. This all fâme? God, canât even- ngh-â
âSo eager.â you mumble, fingers threading through Gojoâs soft locks to pull him in so close. To drag him towards where you needed him the most. âWhy donât you jusâ shut up- Nâ put that big mouth of yours into use somewhere else?â
His eyes widen, words a whisper, âC-can I?â He doesnât wait for your response before flipping the two of you so easily. Having you toppling precariously on his lap now, âCan I really? Never done this before.â
Never?
Itâs not before he lets out a shy huff, that you realize that you said that out loud. âSo what? Sâthat bad?â Two large hands groping and kneading your ass to keep you in place, âYa didnât actually ngh- believe all those stories on campus, did ya?â
Squirming at the feeling of his massive girth rubbing up against your swollen folds, âD-doesnât matter.â You grit out, âYou canâŠâ
And no sooner are you seeing Gojoâs megawatt smile, youâre already feeling it between your thighs. Being wrestled up like some glorified ragdoll, dragging your sloppy cunt all the way up to straddle Gojoâs pretty face.Â
âSo, this is what she ngh- looks like.â he whines, hot breath lapping at your quivering pussy. âShit, sheâs so wet I could almost-â Youâre gasping when the man below you simply sticks his awaiting tongue out, admiring your pussy while letting your syrupy sweet slick drip! drip! drip! down his throat. âThis all fâme?âÂ
The only thing you can give him right now is a needy little whine - which makes Gojo kiss the fat of your ass with a sharp smack! Biting his lip at the way it jiggles against his hand, âTell me, where did my feisty girl go?â
That lewd little nickname has you scoffing in pathetic frustration, your grip searing on his scalp when you force his obscene mouth closer. âY-you seriously need to-â Pulling, â-shut up, Toru.â
And oh, youâd played right into Gojoâs devilish hands. This was exactly what he wanted - to have his face stuffed between your limp legs, ready mouth meshing messily with the folds of your dripping cunt. âThere she is.â he moans, the tip of his tongue slurping up the sloppy dredges of your slick. Carding between your pussy lips, âOh- fuck there she is. Yeah use me like that- use me.â
Heâs running his mouth a mile a minute and you wonder how. Because Gojo was lapping at your cunt so feverishly, everywhere - from your inner thighs, to your folds, to just around the circles of your sloppy entrance like he wanted to taste it all. And couldnât decide where to go first.Â
âT-Toru.â you let out a honey sweet mewl of his name when the tip of his nose is rubbing against your clit. âThere. Right there-â
Eyes rolling to the back of his head when he easily locates your sensitive nub. Wrapping those ruby lips around your clit to give an experimental suck.Â
Shit, he could almost pass out from how heavenly you look on top guiding him. Your entire body jolting with each roll of his hot tongue, giving him such a pretty view of your tits up your silky shirt. Just dragging your sloppy cunt all into his mouth when he toys with your pulsing clit.Â
âOh fuck!â your hips are darting away with each zap of electricity sent down your spine.Â
Which, for Gojo - whoâs only ever dared to dream up this moment on those lonely nights - isnât enough.Â
âKnow mânew to this, sweetheart, but stop beinâ nice nâ fuckin-â Heâs pulling on the crease of your waist, dragging you to rest your entire weight on his face - his mouth. â-sit.â Youâre keening when Gojo forces you to collapse on his soft tongue, bullying past your puffy folds and into that sloppy ring of muscle. Jusâ barely dipping past the resistance, âI said use me so fuckinâ use me. Donâ care if I canât breathe - if I fucking suffocate- ngh- mâgonna die if you donât just sit.â
âFine.â You cry out when the curve of his tongue is molding into your gummy walls, pushing recklessly past. Not even fucking easing you into it before heâs fucking you on his tongue. Calculated, mean little thrusts in search of all your sweet spots. âNo half-assing then, mâkay?â
Though, you had the feeling that he would do anything but.Â
âGood, now keep still.â heâs scolding, one hand starting up again in those slow, satisfied tugs on his length. âPlease keep still.â And the other dancing between your legs to push a finger inside your snug cunt. âMmm itâs a tight fit, can feel ya clenching around me. Ngh- always wondered how itâd feel- where that would be.â
Blinking away the haze in your eyes, you look down at where Gojo was already locked on you, âTh-that?â
âThat.â he breathes into your cunt, voice reverent as he speeds up. âSâyour pussy gonna tell me where your good spot is? Gonna help me ngh- learn?â
And to your embarrassment - and Gojoâs smug satisfaction, it only takes a few more hurried strokes of his tongue before heâs nudging against your g-spot. Both the texture of his tongue and his long, cold fingers curling to assault the poor bundle of nerves.Â
Your body bows deeper as if on auto-pilot, âOh- fuck! You fucking- hnghâ
Heâs snickering at the way youâre so responsive, cock hard - and only swelling girthier in his fist with each adorable moan falling from your lips.Â
âOh yeah? There? Ya like this?â he moans, âYa like shutting up the ngh- p-pervert that steals your panties with your cunt?âÂ
Getting faster. More attuned to his feral need.Â
Lips smacking in tempo with those obscene squelches, you canât tear your eyes away from the way his cheeks hollow. Fingers still so rapid, moving to make out and toy so messily with you clit - untimed, sloppy but fuck did you love it.Â
âY-yes.â youâre shoving his mouth guiltlessly deeper. Letting his long tongue explore every crevice and inch of you. Sloppier. So, so filthy. âLove it- fuck- youâre such a fast fucking learner.â
âI know.â
There was that cocky Gojo Satoru you were used to, lips curling into a strawberry pink smile around your clit - all glossy and sweet with a sheen of your slick. Making such a mess of the lower half of his face, his chin, shit, all the way down to his jaw.Â
âMâclose-â you choke out at the sight, âMâso fuckinâ close- gonna- gonna cum on your tongue, Toru.â
âLook at you ruining me.â his words hit you hard on your sensitive cunt, sending shockwaves up your arched spine. Obscene little smacks of his lips following your barely-lucid mewls.âAbsolutely defiling me. Are ya proud of nghhh fuck- yourself?â
Itâs all you can do to manage out a strained, âYes! Yes yes yes yes- God, mâso close, Toru/ Gonna cum mâgonna-â
You donât even realize it when youâre cumming at first, just that youâre riding Gojoâs unfairly pretty face in harsh grinds - just the way he liked it. Jaw grinding against your cunt, chin hitting you with each slutty jerk of your hips, letting you use him all you want to ride through your high.Â
And his fingers are digging into your hips, stopping you from pulling away even when you were snow. Even when youâre sobbing in oversensitivity. So painfully good.Â
âNgh- T-Toruââ youâre slurring out, his name thick on your tongue. âMânot gonna cum on your dick if you k-keep hah- acting this way.â
Only then does a pussydrunk Gojo Satoru raise his bleary eyes back up at you. Giving you a strained little grunt of acceptance, before parting ways with your pussy with a lingering, wet kiss on your clit. Barely-audible as he whispers, âGonna see ya soon.â
You donât have the time to think about his newfound addiction. Because in all of three seconds, heâs plopping you back down so prettily on his lap. Purposefully feeding your sopping wet slit his weeping red tip.Â
âPlease.â Gojoâs usually-arrogant grin has fallen into such a pretty pout with one graze of his length sandwiched between your folds. âI did good, right? Please ngh- so I th-think if I made you cum then I get to hah- fuck you how I want.â
And itâs not that you didnât appreciate it before - but looking at his thick tip pushing up against your cunt right now has you recognizing that shit, Gojo is massive.Â
Fat head blushing a pretty reddish, leaking so messily down, down, down those glistening veins at his side and to the creamy ring at his base - from when heâd cum, just from eating you out, you realize with a jolt. His girth so intimidatingly thick, long enough that you know you wonât be walking for a week straight, at least. All throbbing and angry with every second he isnât buried to the hilt inside your cunt.Â
Gojo Satoru is massive.Â
âLike what ya see?â he echoes your thoughts, a soaked thumb coming down to pry apart your glossy folds. Grinning at the way your hole was already so needy and clenching around nothing. âThink mâthe ngh- perfect size for this pretty pussy?â
Through it all, you find it in yourself to muse, âOnly one way to find out. Gonna let me be your first, Toru?â
And then heâs pushing in, shallow, high little gasps bursting from his lips with each inch being bullied into your plush cunt.Â
âO-oh fuck-â Gojo canât stop himself from taking a good look at the way your pussy lips are bulging around him. Jaw dropping at the way your greedy entrance is only sucking him up more and more - trying to bite off more than you can chew with the way he was in so deep but barely even halfway in yet. âSâtoo good- oh my god- fuck I think mâgonna die. Is it sâpposed to feel th-this good?â
Youâre running a hand gingerly through Gojoâs mussed-up hair, smoothing down the sides sticking up where youâd been pulling on it. âSâalright, Toru.â you soothe, letting him grind up into you. Trying to fit more - all of it. âYouâve got it- youâve hah-â
You let out a pathetic little whine when his tip kisses your cervix, legs flexing around his toned waist.Â
âOh- ohhh fuck-â heâs barely able to string together coherent sentences now. Eyes falling till their half-lidded, body moving before his mind when he pulls yours stuck to his. âS-soo good nâ I havenât even- oh!â His voice goes a few octaves higher when Gojo finally starts moving. âHow can- it feel this good, hng-â
And shit for being inexperienced, he was fucking up into you so mean. Just in short little thrusts up like he was trying to fuck you even deeper - trying to squeeze inside more of himself impossibly.Â
âSome- ah- some more, Toru-âÂ
He listens, and the stretch - fuck. Gojo wasnât even trying yet, but his girth was already massaging your gummy walls so dizzyingly good.Â
âY-youâre so- ngh-â you graze your lips across his in what can barely be called a kiss. Too messy. Too depraved. â-so deep.â Sliding a hand about midway down your stomach to press down, âCan feel you all the way in here.â
Your words are sticking to Gojo like a second skin, driving him so fucking mad. Hips smacking up into you deep until his heavy balls were slapping your ass, sculpted pelvis crashing into yours.
âStop talking.â he spits, âStop talking stop talking stop- talking.â Each word is punctuated by a desperate, messy stroke. Pushing you further and further up Gojoâs body from the obscene impact. âStop hah- talking or mâgonna cum.â
He wasnât lying - you could already feel the twitch of Gojoâ length rubbing up against your hidden sweet spots. The furious throbbing of his veins stretching out your elastic walls.Â
And yet youâre still wailing stubbornly, âB-but Toru it feels so good.â Partially truth, partially because when the fuck do you get to see him so utterly wrecked like this. Sanity dancing away from him with each syrupy moan leaving your mouth, âYour cock is too good- ngh- feels-â
âShut up.â
Gojo can only take that much of your nonsense before heâs stuffing your mean mouth full with a flimsy piece of fabric from somewhere on the bed- no. A strangely familiar pair of panties.Â
âHeh, sâmuch ohhh fuck- better.â he beams with pride when youâre gagging and tearing up so adorably around the light blue fabric. Ramming his cock up harder - stronger, as if daring you to make a little comment about it. âShouldâve ah fuck- known you wouldnât make it easy fâme.â
As if to prove his point, he gives your ravaged clit a little smack! before teasing and rolling his thumb exactly the way youâd taught him to with his tongue.
And heâs scrambling to sit up, carrying your boneless body with him.Â
The new angle has Gojo seeing stars, penetrating your gummy walls deeper, hitting that familiar g-spot heâs mapped out by now. âHere?â he manages to cackle, a big arm wrapping around your waist. âRight here? Sâmy cock hitting th-that ngh- good spot? Yer pussy is fuuuck so much easier to u-understand than I ah- thought.â
Reeling back to bounce you on his thick cock. Crashing into it again. And again and again and-
Since you canât snap back - or even beg for more - you only let out muffled little moans through the gag in your mouth. Thighs burning as you push back in pathetic little thrusts to somehow meet Gojoâs mindless cadence.
âOh yeah?â he drags, leaning back to help you ride him properly. âYeah yeah do i-it hah- like that. Do it juuuust like that.â A harsh thumb rolls into your clit, making you stutter and grind yourself down messily. âFuck- Yeah ruin me- ngh- just like that.â
His words were jagged - uneven. Spitting out of his plump lips like he didnât even know they were every time Gojoâs fat, leaky tip was gliding across your cervix, your g-spot. Leaving possessive little bruises to claim you from the inside out.Â
âC-close.â you slur out, not even sure if he could hear over the dull slap of his balls on your ass, and the greedy squelches of your cunt. âMore, Toru.â
Yet your sinful, sickly sweet noises have him freezing - if only for a split-second. Pussydrunk eyes going wide, jaw falling slack in such awe.Â
But before you can fully appreciate this sight, heâs starting back his depraved thrusts again. Bouncing you harder - faster. Just dragging you along every ridge and bump of his swollen cock. Fingers just a needy blur toying with your poor clit.Â
âM-more?â he whines into the crook of your neck, voice breaking at the end. âMore. More?â He speaks up, like a mantra. Each word sending you spiraling down Gojoâs merciless cock, Panting, âEver since you fuck- started rooming wâme, wanted this- wanted you to hah- be my first.â Holding you in such a vice-like grip as he splits you apart on his aching cock. Harder. âYouâve ruined me-â he spits against your lips, big fat tears rolling down his cheeks. âDonâ know how many times Iâve cum to your pretty panties. Ruined me- ruined me- fuck mâso close- ruined me.â Violent, even.Â
So it only makes sense that your orgasm was the same.Â
And itâs only taking a few more unsteady jabs into your g-spot before a wave of euphoria is crashing over you. âHngh-â you spasm in Gojoâs arms, his eyes going wide in wonder when your cunt squeezes him so fucking tight- only to-
âF-fuck!â he whines, connecting your lips to his. Kissing you even with your panties still stuffed into your mouth. And Gojoâs cumming and cumming so hard he doesnât even think heâs breathing. Intertwining his tongue with yours to muffle his overstimulated moans, wrapping around your sweet slick-soaked panties in the middle. The contrast of his soft tongue with the lazy fabric of your panties only making you milk his poor cock harder. âFuck fuck fuck fuck fuck- fuck- Take it. Take it, my girl.â
You moan incoherently, going insane at the way he was filling you up with long, thick ropes of cum. Fucking deeper and deeper up into you to paint your plushy walls from the inside.Â
âSâall Iâve- ngh wanted.â he murmurs throatily, such a fucking mess now. Face flushed, eyes glassy with tears, drool dripping down the corner of his mouth with the way he was sucking lewdly on your tongue. âYouâre all I-Iâve ever wanted.â
Shit, he hasnât cum this hard in his life.
Finally having had enough of shutting up your smart mouth, Gojo slows down to deep little grinds - still moving. Still trying to hold back his moans at that creamy ring around his hilt, at the globs of seed trickling out of your poor overfilled pussy.Â
âHah- Toru-â you whine when he pries away the fabric in your mouth. Shuddering with the swipe of his finger along your clit, âC-could almost ngh- forgive youâŠâ
âThe blue one.â
âWhat?â youâre staring at him in confusion, and Gojoâs fucked-out grin only spreads wider.Â
âThat was for the b-blue one.â you gasp when his balls suddenly squeeze so painfully underneath you. Cock jerking in interest, âYâgonna have me make up for that whole drawer full of panties, sweetheart?â
A/N. VIRGIN GOJO BRAIN ROT GOES BRRRRRRRR
Plagiarism not authorized.
#gojo x reader#gojo smut#gojo x you#jjk x reader#jjk smut#jjk x you#gojo satoru x reader#gojo satoru smut#gojo satoru x you#jujutsu kaisen x reader#jujutsu kaisen smut#jujutsu kaisen x you#jjk#jjk fic#jujutsu kaisen#gojo satoru#tonywrites
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Things That May Be Causing Your Writer's Block- and How to Beat Them
I don't like the term 'Writer's Block' - not because it isn't real, but because the term is so vague that it's useless. Hundreds of issues all get lumped together under this one umbrella, making writer's block seem like this all-powerful boogeyman that's impossible to beat. Worse yet, it leaves people giving and receiving advice that is completely ineffective because people often don't realize they're talking about entirely different issues.
In my experience, the key to beating writer's block is figuring out what the block even is, so I put together a list of Actual Reasons why you may be struggling to write:
(note that any case of writer's block is usually a mix of two or more)
Perfectionism (most common)
What it looks like:
You write one sentence and spend the next hour googling "synonyms for ___"
Write. Erase. Write. Rewrite. Erase.
Should I even start writing this scene when I haven't figured out this one specific detail yet?
I hate everything I write
Cringing while writing
My first draft must be perfect, or else I'm a terrible writer
Things that can help:
Give yourself permission to suck
Keep in mind that nothing you write is going to be perfect, especially your first draft
Think of writing your first/early drafts not as writing, but sketching out a loose foundation to build upon later
People write multiple drafts for a reason: write now, edit later
Stop googling synonyms and save that for editing
Write with a pen to reduce temptation to erase
Embrace leaving blank spaces in your writing when you can't think of the right word, name, or detail
It's okay if your writing sucks. We all suck at some point. Embrace the growth mindset, and focus on getting words on a page
Lack of inspiration (easiest to fix)
What it looks like:
Head empty, no ideas
What do I even write about???
I don't have a plot, I just have an image
Want to write but no story to write
Things that can help:
Google writing prompts
If writing prompts aren't your thing, instead try thinking about what kind of tropes/genres/story elements you would like to try out
Instead of thinking about the story you would like to write, think about the story you would like to read, and write that
It's okay if you don't have a fully fleshed out story idea. Even if it's just an image or a line of dialogue, it's okay to write that. A story may or may not come out of it, but at least you got the creative juices flowing
Stop writing. Step away from your desk and let yourself naturally get inspired. Go for a walk, read a book, travel, play video games, research history, etc. Don't force ideas, but do open up your mind to them
If you're like me, world-building may come more naturally than plotting. Design the world first and let the story come later
Boredom/Understimulation (lost the flow)
What it looks like:
I know I should be writing but uugggghhhh I just can'tttttt
Writing words feels like pulling teeth
I started writing, but then I got bored/distracted
I enjoy the idea of writing, but the actual process makes me want to throw my laptop out the window
Things that can help:
Introduce stimulation: snacks, beverages, gum, music such as lo-fi, blankets, decorate your writing space, get a clickity-clackity keyboard, etc.
Add variety: write in a new location, try a new idea/different story for a day or so, switch up how you write (pen and paper vs. computer) or try voice recording or speech-to-text
Gamify writing: create an arbitrary challenge, such as trying to see how many words you can write in a set time and try to beat your high score
Find a writing buddy or join a writer's group
Give yourself a reward for every writing milestone, even if it's just writing a paragraph
Ask yourself whether this project you're working on is something you really want to be doing, and be honest with your answer
Intimidation/Procrastination (often related to perfectionism, but not always)
What it looks like:
I was feeling really motivated to write, but then I opened my laptop
I don't even know where to start
I love writing, but I can never seem to get started
I'll write tomorrow. I mean next week. Next month? Next month, I swear (doesn't write next month)
Can't find the time or energy
Unreasonable expectations (I should be able to write 10,000 words a day, right????)
Feeling discouraged and wondering why I'm even trying
Things that can help:
Follow the 2 min rule (or the 1 paragraph rule, which works better for me): whenever you sit down to write, tell yourself that you are only going to write for 2 minutes. If you feel like continuing once the 2 mins are up, go for it! Otherwise, stop. Force yourself to start but DO NOT force yourself to continue unless you feel like it. The more often you do this, the easier it will be to get started
Make getting started as easy as possible (i.e. minimize barriers: if getting up to get a notebook is stopping you from getting started, then write in the notes app of your phone)
Commit to a routine that will work for you. Baby steps are important here. Go with something that feels reasonable: every day, every other day, once a week, twice a week, and use cues to help you remember to start. If you chose a set time to write, just make sure that it's a time that feels natural to you- i.e. don't force yourself to writing at 9am every morning if you're not a morning person
Find a friend or a writing buddy you can trust and talk it out or share a piece of work you're proud of. Sometimes we just get a bit bogged down by criticism- either internal or external- and need a few words of encouragement
The Problem's Not You, It's Your Story (or Outline (or Process))
What it looks like:
I have no problems writing other scenes, it's just this scene
I started writing, but now I have no idea where I'm going
I don't think I'm doing this right
What's an outline?
Drowning in documents
This. Doesn't. Make. Sense. How do I get from this plot point to this one?!?!?! (this ColeyDoesThings quote lives in my head rent free cause BOY have I been there)
Things That Can Help:
Go back to the drawing board. Really try to get at the root of why a scene or story isn't working
A part of growing as a writer is learning when to kill your darlings. Sometimes you're trying to force an idea or scene that just doesn't work and you need to let it go
If you don't have an outline, write one
If you have an outline and it isn't working, rewrite it, or look up different ways to structure it
You may be trying to write as a pantser when you're really a plotter or vice versa. Experiment with different writing processes and see what feels most natural
Study story structures, starting with the three act structure. Even if you don't use them, you should know them
Check out Ellen Brock on YouTube. She's a professional novel editor who has a lot of advice on writing strategies for different types of writers
Also check out Savage Books on YouTube (another professional story editor) for advice on story structure and dialogue. Seriously, I cannot recommend this guy enough
Executive Dysfunction, Usually From ADHD/Autism
What it looks like:
Everything in boredom/understimulation
Everything in intimidation/procrastination
You have been diagnosed with and/or have symptoms of ADHD/Autism
Things that can help:
If you haven't already, seek a diagnosis or professional treatment
Hire an ADHD coach or other specialist that can help you work with your brain (I use Shimmer; feel free to DM me for a referral)
Seek out neurodiverse communities for advice and support
Try body doubling! There's lot's of free online body doubling websites out there for you to try. If social anxiety is a barrier, start out with writing streams such as katecavanaughwrites on Twitch
Be aware of any sensory barriers that may be getting in the way of you writing (such as an uncomfortable desk chair, harsh lighting, bad sounds)
And Lastly, Burnout, Depression, or Other Mental Illness
What it looks like:
You have symptoms of burnout or depression
Struggling with all things, not just writing
It's more than a lack of inspiration- the spark is just dead
Things that can help:
Forget writing for now. Focus on healing first.
Seek professional help
If you feel like it, use writing as a way to explore your feelings. It can take the form of journaling, poetry, an abstract reflection of your thoughts, narrative essays, or exploring what you're feeling through your fictional characters. The last two helped me rediscover my love of writing after I thought years of depression had killed it for good. Just don't force yourself to do so, and stop if it takes you to a darker place instead of feeling cathartic
#writing#creative writing#writer problems#writing advice#writing community#writing a book#writing problems#novel writing#on writing#writing tips#writing help#writers on tumblr#writers block#female writers#writers of tumblr#writers blog#adhd writer
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And, finally, dessert which I'm far too full to eat but am doing so anyway.
Basically banana cake with pineapple and maraschino cherries.
#geeky talks#geeky bakes#baking made geeky#i generally like it#i don't think enough to do again though#which in all fairness is most of the desserts i try#which is part of the fun of food#getting to try new things and you like them or you don't#or you go oh if i did this instead i bet that would be really good#and then sometimes you're right and sometimes you're wrong#but food can be so fun if you know that you're not going to like everything you make#there's something so liberating about being able to try something and just say huh don't like that#this is why it's also important to build up a group of people and/or friends you can foist foods upon#so if you make something you don't care for (even if it's technically good) you can give some of it away#(i joke that when you become my friend#you should always read the fine print#because it says that by accepting to be my friend you must let me foist food on you#no you cannot opt out that is a non-negotiable part of my friendship XD)
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I WANNA BE YOURS âĄ
pairing: logan howlett x puppy-hybrid!fem!reader
summary: logan finds you, a special kind of mutant, out on a mission. when he takes in this puppy girl, you quickly forms a bond to him. he tries to tell himself he doesn't like his new shadow or want the attention, but it gets harder to deny as the two of you grow closer.
cw: nsfw (18+), smut, p in v, oral sex (f receiving), hybrids, breeding kink, praise kink, dumbification, fluff, canon-typical violence, blood, nightmares
a/n: thank you so much to @gor3-hound and @nexysworld for beta reading <33
Adamantium strains against the skin between Logan's knuckles as his fists collide with his opponents' bodies. His claws beg to come out, to slice through his own skin and into the men he's striking. Despite causing himself pain, it would make this little struggle easier.
Regardless, he reigns in the urge and continues to fight without them. He didn't need them yet. Having a skeleton of impenetrable metal served as the only weapon he needed for right now. These guys taking him on weren't anything special, simple lackeys hired to protect a facility they didn't even understand the operation of.
His unpierced knuckles land a few strikes to one's abdomen, and he pops the other's face with his elbow. He whips his forearm around and slams the first to the ground in a finishing blow. The other man comes crashing down close behind after he connects his fist with the center of his face.
He looks at both of them crumpled up and unconscious on the ground, shaking off the adrenaline from the scuffle with a few rolls of his shoulders. He swipes the set of keys that hang off the belt of one who went down first and reconvenes with the rest of the team at the point of entrance to the next part of this warehouse.
"Did you find a way to open the doors?" Storm asks him. The white-haired woman struts beside him to the large cement doors at the end of the hallway.
Logan holds up the set of metallic keys, giving them a little jingle as his answer.
"Wow, and without shedding any blood. Impressive," Cyclops mocks from behind. Him and Jean walk a couple paces to the back of him, their eyes scanning for any potential hindrances to the mission.
"Night's not over yet, bub."
The four of them reach the door, and fortunately, it only takes a few tests to determine which key is meant for this lock. Before either Logan or Storm can push the barrier open, the door swings back under the force of Jean's telepathy.
They head inside but brace themselves for what they might see. This mission came about after the professor discovered that this building was being used as some kind of location to traffic mutants. The team had dealt with cases like this before, and they were never pretty. Often, the victims were young and struggling, picked up off the street or gathered from false mutant shelters to be sold into a life of experimentation or fetishization.
Upon first glance, this section of the building holds nothing new. The room isn't large in comparison to the others before it and looks more like a connector between the last hallway and another one. It's dark, not much light to get a good look at anything that could be hiding away.
Storm is eager to keep moving along and guides them towards the entrance to the next hallway. His other two teammates overtake him as well and follow behind her.
"I'm gonna sniff around here for a minute. I'll be right behind you," Logan says and waves them forward.
The two women spare him a skeptic glance, but Scott couldn't be more eager to part from him. They head off in the other direction, leaving Logan alone in the quiet between these four walls.
He just wanted to be sure there was nothing here, whether it be something he could help or something meaning to do them harm. Though he kind of hoped it was the latter. He never felt very good at the 'saving' part of being on this team. Let him go in a room full of threats, and he was guaranteed to be successful. He'd take every last one down in record time and not even have to think twice about it. But give him one person to comfort and tell that everything is gonna be ok, and that would have him breaking a sweat. It's not that he couldn't do it; he simply had to work at it. He didn't have to work at being a weapon.
Treading over the pavement cautiously, Logan's eyes sweep over the few vacant shelves and lonely crates. The room truly seemed unoccupied. He could probably only justify a few more feet before having to go join the rest of the team. But then he sees it.
A cage towards the back of the room, a tarp over the top. It sat near a smaller door he hadn't noticed before. He wasn't too concerned with going in just yet. First he wanted to see if anything was confined behind those thin black bars.
It was larger than a simple pet kennel but too small to give the impression that held anything monstrous. He walks closer to it. No sound came from it nor could he see any movement, but his curiosity had been triggered. He had to know why this thing had been secluded.
Once he's close enough, he crouches down and pushes away the rough white material draped over it. His fingers undo the latch and open the door so he could get a better look inside.
He peers in and is met with a pair of eyes staring back at him out of the darkness. His first instinct is to back up and get into a defensive position, but whatever's inside doesn't give him the chance.
You lunge at him and knock him flat onto his back.
He hits the cement with a grunt, and his claws cry out to him again. He could easily unsheathe them and tear whatever you were to shreds. But before he does this, he realizes that this isn't an attack. He's not in any kind of pain. In fact, nothing is really happening to him. All you were doing was... sniffing him?
He could hear your rapid inhales and exhales as your nose trailed along the collar of his white tank top. Straining his neck back as much as he can, he finally gets a good look at you. You were human - smaller than most with wide, curious eyes - but you also had floppy ears erupting from your scalp and a long tail coming from your backside that was whipping back and forth.
Even with all the different kinds of mutants he'd seen, he couldn't help thinking this was bizarre at first glance. He knew it was possible for mutations to express physically even though most were internal. For god's sake he had literal claws and knew multiple people who were straight up blue. But he'd never seen anything like this.
You looked like just a mix of canine and human. In honesty, you were pretty cute. You didn't look like the type of thing someone would shout 'freak' at from across the street. Hybrid was probably a more accurate descriptor than mutant. Either way, he didn't want you on top of him.
"Quit it," he growls before grabbing your waist and pushing you off. Based on the fact that you weren't attacking, he assumes you're a victim rather than a perpetrator. He rises to his feet to stand above you, ready to fight just in case. "What the hell are you supposed to be?"
You sit there, tail still wagging despite his rough temperament. Your eyes have that gleam that likens your appearance to a puppy even more than your ears or tail do. He realizes you might not be able to talk or something, but he doesn't get too far with that thought before you speak.
"A mutant. Like you."
His eyes narrow.
"Yeah? How do you know I'm a mutant?" he asks. He hadn't shown you his claws and you hadn't seen his skin magically stitch itself back together. Maybe you were on the other side of this mission.
"I can smell it," you answer.
That makes his eyebrow slowly raise. "Smell it?" he says.
You nod. "Mutants smell different than humans," you say.
You rise to your feet and stand next to him. Leaning in again, you smell his arm. Your head moves down his bicep and to his elbow and forearm. He pulls his limb away with a scowl, but you'd already had a chance to register the scent that'd caught your attention.
"You smell metallic too," you say.
So your canine traits weren't just physical. Logan knew you weren't lying, having an enhanced olfaction himself. He'd just never met someone else who also had that ability.
"Your mutation is basically just being an overgrown dog then?" he asks with a bemused expression, "You like playing fetch? Want me to call you a good girl?"
You can't help the automatic twitch in your tail when you hear that phrase, but your expression darkens as if a storm cloud had formed inches above those folded ears.Â
"I'm not a dog. If I'm a dog, are you like a robot since you have metal in you?" you huff and cross your arms.
A sharp puff of air comes from his nostrils at your attempted retort. "Robot isn't exactly what they call me."
You grumble and roll your eyes. Your tail had gone still behind you and hung between your legs.
He continues to stare down at you, trying to decide what to do next. Even though you were a mutant, you didn't seem to be a fighter or have any skills that would be useful in combat. He wasn't just going to leave you here, but he didn't know how big a risk it would be to let you tag along.
"What are you doing here? Did someone lock you in that cage, or is that just where you spend your free time?" he asks.
"Someone took me and locked me in there," you say, your pout deepening.
"For how long?"
You shrug. Logan has the urge to roll his eyes just as you did, but he can tell your lack of knowledge is genuine.
"You don't know how long you were in there?" he prompts.
"No. Maybe like... a couple weeks or something. I don't know. It's hard to keep track."
Of course. Just like a puppy, you had a poor concept of time. He shakes his head and rubs his hand over his face. It did look like you'd been captive for a few weeks. You weren't in the best shape and had bruises littering your body. Your clothes were dirty and torn at the hems. As annoying as he found you in the few minutes he'd known you, he knew you didn't deserve this treatment. Locking a cute little thing like you in a cage was plain cruelty.
"Alright. Well what's your name? I'm Logan," he sighs.
You tell him, but just as the last syllable leaves your lips, footsteps burst into the room from the direction of the hallway.
Scott and Jean round the corner, clearly looking for their teammate. Logan turns around to see the new arrivals and relaxes when he recognizes the man in the visor and the redhead beside him.Â
"There you are. We thought you took off or something," Scott mocks casually.
He opens his mouth to respond, but the words dissolve when he feels a thud against his back.Â
You donât recognize the people who'd just shown up, so you hide yourself behind the man who found you. Pressing yourself against his back, you cautiously tilt your head to his side to peek at Scott and Jean. Your fingers clutch the fabric of Logan's tank top so tight they threaten to poke little holes in the ribbed material.
"What- what are you doing?" he grunts and tries to look over his shoulder at you. The way you were latched onto him prevented him from turning around fully. He lifts one of his arms to see your eyes scoping out the potential danger in front of him.
"Get- C'mon get off. They're not gonna hurt you," he continues, brushing you off by reaching back and lightly tugging your hair.
You stumble to the side, and he manages to grab your shoulders and walk you in front of him. He holds you there, presenting you to Scott and Jean. The way your ears pin back to your head makes him feel a little guilty about making you confront the strangers so directly, but they weren't gonna do anything to you. Assuming they were gonna rescue you and take you back to Xavier's, you'd have to get used to prying eyes and meeting new people.
Both Scott and Jean look at you curiously, Jean with less confusion than Scott. Clearly, he had a similar thought process to Logan while the woman next to him could sense that you were a mutant and what your abilities were.
"I found her in that cage back there," he explains.
The two of them nod. They take a few more moments to simply observe you before they move closer and ask for your name. You give it just like you had to Logan. They nod again and then begin running through a similar routine of questions. Theirs are more detailed though and manage to coax more information out of you.
Your responses give them a quick little rundown of you. You fit the profile of the people they usually found on these missions. You're young, early 20s, struggling because getting a job was nearly impossible with your ears and tail. You had no family. They'd given you up after your mutation began to manifest. Everyone thinks puppies are cute, but apparently, no one wanted a human child that shared features with them. You'd been taken from the shelter you were staying at like most others who found themselves in this situation.
As you answer each one posed to you, Logan feels you subtly sinking back against him. Your back meets his abdomen like two magnets slowly being pulled together. Despite the annoyed look on his face, he doesn't say anything or pull away.
When the brief interrogation comes to a close, Scott relays to Logan that they had found other victims in another part of the facility. Storm was with them now, guiding them to the extraction point where they'd be taken to safety. The four of you just had to follow along.
Scott and Jean lead the way. Logan follows behind and you trot along beside him. He notices you're staying close to him in particular.
"Did the guys who took you say anything else about why they wanted you?" he asks. The fact that you were kept separate was still lingering in his mind. To him it didn't mean anything good.
You shrug and look up at him. "They didn't really talk to me that much unless they were being mean or spitting at me. Or kicking the cage," you say.
You say it like it's casual, but he can tell it hurts. He knows how it feels to an extent. All mutants do. Not many people will openly talk shit about a guy with metal claws, but the sentiment is still there. The idea that you're inferior. That something is wrong with you. That you don't belong in this life.
He just nods, not knowing much else to offer as comfort. "Did you ever overhear them talking about you? Any reason they wouldn't have put you with the others?"
"I think they wanted to figure out if there was more of me. Or if they could make anymore at least," you say after taking a moment to think, "Cause you know. Guys like the whole puppy thing. Makes me worth more I guess."
He cringes at the ugly picture you paint with those words.
The group of you continues walking, footsteps being the only sound in the hallway. Your tail had started wagging again which makes him feel a little better about not offering anything in terms of reassurance. But when you reach the room where the other victims had been, your tail comes to a halt and droops between your legs.
A party of men is spread throughout the area. They walk around scanning the now empty space, visibly incensed at their captives being freed. You slide yourself against Logan's back again, but you don't try to peek at them like you did with Scott and Jean. It doesn't take much to figure out that these are the ones who kept you in that cage.
They hear the team and you approaching and turn to face you. Despite your efforts to hide, they spot you before you're completely concealed behind the bulk of Logan's muscular frame. The one closest scowls at your attempt.
"I'm guessing the three of you know what happened to the things we had in here?" he says, sarcasm lacing each word.
"You could say that. And those people are long gone by now, so it's probably best you move on," Scott answers. His fingers rise to his temple in preparation to operate his visor.
The men don't seem to be threatened. The amalgamation of them tightens, forming a more crowded cluster.
"Yeah, you're probably right. But you're not leaving with that one," the same one says and gestures to you hiding, "She stays here."
"Not gonna happen, bub," Logan responds so quickly it surprises even himself.
His teammates also look interested in his seeming budding attachment to you, but they know better than to squabble in front of adversaries.
You are the only one the words don't strike in any sort of way, but that's because you didn't totally hear them. You're too busy trembling, hoping with everything you had that Logan wouldn't force you in front of him again and then kick you into the group of guys.
But obviously, that doesn't happen. There's more arguing that you don't hear because you choose to tune it out. You can sense Logan becoming more agitated and the air around everyone becoming more tense. Your body grows more rigid, your ears glued back to your scalp. You just want this to be over.
As these thoughts whirl through your mind, the arguing comes to a head, and Logan launches away from you. You feel naked without his large body shielding yours.Â
Scott and Jean aid him. Your first inclination is to turn the other direction and just try to stay out of the way. You weren't confident in your combat skills. If you could seriously fight, you probably wouldn't have gotten snatched up. You didn't want to be the reason any of these people who were trying to help you got hurt.
But then you see someone coming up behind Logan brandishing a knife. It's out of your control, the way your muscles go taut and your lip curls back. You'd only ever been in a real fight once before in your life, and you don't remember feeling this vicious. You spring up behind the man, finding where his shoulder meets his neck and biting down hard.
The cries of agony and grunts of anger seem to go on forever. The smell of blood invades your nostrils as you deal with your target. He'd fallen to the floor when your teeth sunk into his flesh. You feel him thrashing underneath you as you rip and tear, but you don't stop until he's gone still. You then pull off and wipe your mouth, twisting around to sit on the abdomen of your incapacitated enemy.
Logan also had no difficulty dealing with the men coming at him. There were just more of them, so he took a little longer. After one last thud of a body crumpling to the floor, only heavy breathing sounds through the warehouse.
Jean and Scott seem fine. They stand there checking each other over, and you see them share a brief kiss. You glance over towards Logan next and decide to return to his side.
He's alone. The sounds of panting are mostly coming from him. His body glistens, muscles lightly coated in perspiration. His scent is stronger to you now, and it only grows more overwhelming as you approach him. Men lie at his feet with pools of blood around them, presumably the same crimson liquid that stains his hands, wrists, and forearms in streaks.
You make your next move without thinking. Coming up to his side, trying in vain to avoid getting your ratty socks soaked with blood, you press your cheek against his bicep and snake your arms around his.
He then looks down at you. His eyebrows raise at the blood that coats your mouth and chin and trails down your shirt. You hadn't seemed like any type of predator before. Your presence was more akin to a puppy that'd be torn apart by wolves than anything that could do anyone harm.
"How'd you do that?" he asks.
Your finger rises and hooks under your upper lip, pulling it back to reveal your canines, sharper than a normal person's.
He nods and watches you with some mixture of curiosity, irritation, and fondness.
"Pretty good," he says simply.
You beam at the praise, blood-stained lips parting into a wide smile. He feels your tail wag harder and brush against the back of his leg.
The touch is nice. It makes him more conscious of the way you're still holding onto him, your hand curled around his muscle and your hip against his. He's not sure what it is. A silent thank you, a note of understanding, or a pledge of loyalty.
But he doesn't need a thank you, someone to understand him or devote themself to him. He's just doing what he's supposed to.
He slides his arm out of your clutches and gently pats you on the head.
"C'mon, let's get going," he says and starts walking towards the exit.
You trot wordlessly behind him, which he's grateful for. But more than that, he's just happy Scott didn't have anything to say about your sudden bond to him.
Once the jet picked you up from the extraction point, the trip back to the school was a breeze. You mostly keep to yourself while trying to stick close to Logan. He sits you next to him and cleans up your face, but you sleep for most of the actual traveling time to the destination.
You hadn't realized how tired you were until the seat hit your back and the buckles of the seat belt latched over your chest. With that manifestation of security, your eyes began drooping and your head was drifting to your shoulder like it was your center of gravity.
Logan's voice is what wakes you up. It's unclear to you how much time has passed, but that doesn't bother you. You feel him gently jostling you before unbuckling the straps across your chest. He calls your name a few times until your bleary eyes open and focus on his face.
"There you are," he says, "C'mon. We're here."
You still watch him without saying a word. Your hand rubs over your face to try and pull yourself closer to being awake. He watches you before offering his hand.
"I'm not carrying you, so you need to get up," he says in a tone you were becoming familiar with. It sounded irritated but not directly at you. Like this man was just in a constant state of being pissy about something.
You take the offer regardless and let him pull you to your feet. The two of you exit the jet together, him helping you out to ensure you don't trip on the gap between the ramp and the ground.
Once you're out, your eyes widen. You expected a boarding school to be pretty fancy, but this was nicer than any place you'd ever been. The walls stretched up the sky, crafted with bricks and decorated with large glass windows. The path there was paved and bordered with kept plants. You could see beyond that though. The large expanse of the property. So much space to run and do things.
Logan watches your reaction with amusement. "It's a lot to take in when you first get here," he says.
You nod, and your eyes continue to dart around and absorb the sight of everything. Storm and Jean lead the others who were saved off to another part of the building to be reunited with their families or taken back to their lives or even given verifiable resources. But you don't want to go with them.
You grab Logan's hand and look up at him, shaking your head.
His first reaction is to try and pull his hand free of you, but you have a tighter grip than expected. "What? What's the matter?" he asks you while still trying worm his hand out of your finger's lock.
You don't know how to articulate it because what you want is very simple. You want to stay with him. You want to stay here. You don't want to go back out to the world where people point and laugh at you or turn you away from everything. You just don't know how to say that without it seeming weird.
Luckily for you, Scott gives you a bit of help. You're not sure if that's his intention or not, but either way, you're grateful for the help.
"Maybe we should take her to the Professor. He might want to see about her mutation or ask her about that stuff back there," he tells Logan. You can tell from the way Scott speaks that he doesn't really like him too much.
Logan thinks about it for a moment before nodding. Before leading you there, he uses his other hand to pry your fingers off of him. You frown at the loss of connection and shoot him a glare. That brings an actual smile to his face.
"Follow along, pup. Don't need you getting lost," he says as he turns to guide you down the halls of the school.
The sun hadn't even risen, so not too many people occupied the common rooms. You catch sight of a few. They stare back at you, but unlike what you're used to, they don't look at you with disdain or mocking. It's simple, innocent curiosity. The only thing that seems to worry them is the bright red stain going down the front of your shirt.
Inside the room had been an older guy in a wheelchair. The professor talked the nicest out of all the men you'd been around today. When he looked at you, you felt like he understood you. He didn't even seem perplexed like Scott or Logan had. He'd merely said you were "interesting."
He talked to you for a while. He asked similar questions similar to the ones you already answered, but the third round of them got even deeper than the last two. Once he revealed that he could enter your thoughts if he wanted, that made a lot of sense.
Though he didn't really need his ability to understand you. Your experiences were written all over your face, practically sewn into the seams of your clothes.
He could see how, like every mutant, you led a life dominated by rejection. But in a different way than most others of your kind, you were vaguely familiar. Seeing someone with a tongue ten feet long or with blue skin or claws was jarring. It was weird.
But you - you look like a cute puppy. You walk the line between disturbing and endearing.
Charles can also see how you long for belonging even deeper than most. It's as if your mutation gives you the drive to seek out affection, for someone to devote yourself to. He can tell this by the way you linger around Logan.
If he moved an inch, you followed in the same direction. If he looked away, your eyes followed along. You were only settled if he was looking at you, not in danger of leaving your vicinity.
After talking to you for a while, hearing about your abilities and getting to understand your personality, he offers to let you stay at the school. He tells you it might be beneficial for you, and if you don't like it, you're welcome to leave anytime. It's only meant to give you a chance to understand your gifts and learn to control them and use them for good.
Of course, you accept. It wasn't even a question.
"Wonderful. Scott, show her to the extra rooms she can stay in and the shower so she can clean up a bit," Charles says. He watches as your eyes flit to Logan and then Scott. He also sees Scott's uncertainty as to why he was given this job.
But he nods and gestures for you to follow him, which you reluctantly do.
You trail him silently up the stairs, and he gives you a little guide to where everything is. He gestures at the direction of the student wing and the staff wing and then takes you to the latter. He points out the different bedrooms and grabs you a change of clothes on the way to the bathrooms.
He's nice to you. A little stiff, but he still smiles and laughs softly at quips he makes or your skeptical reactions to things. You want to ask him about his sunglasses, but you figure that'd be rude so you refrain. When he leaves you at the bathroom door, he tells you to just call if you need anything cause he's right down the hall.
Stepping inside, you peer around the expansive room. You'd never seen a bathroom so large. It was nice like everything else was in this place. The counter was spotless and smooth. The tile was sleek with a soft mat beneath your feet at the door and waiting for you in front of the shower.
You undress yourself quickly and turn on the water, waiting for it to heat before stepping inside. There's some products on the shelf inside that you use. You lather the soap on your hands and rub it over yourself fast. It felt really good, especially since you hadn't had a proper shower while being held captive. But you still work at a sped up pace. Although the novelty of everything had impressed you at first, you were beginning to yearn to be by Logan again. It wasn't a need that would make you lose control, just a little itch like a bug crawling up the path of your veins.
Downstairs, Charles kept Logan behind in his office so the two could talk. They briefly recap the mission before moving to the subject that was the true reason for the extended conversation.
"It seems she's quite taken with you," the older man starts simply.
"I guess," Logan responds, his voice unamused with the idea.
Charles huffs out a laugh and shakes his head. He goes to say something else, but the other man carries on the conversation himself.
"She'll get over it. She's like a little duck following around the first person she sees," he says and crosses his arms.
"I think you underestimate her intelligence, Logan. She's not a helpless animal-"
"I know that," he interjects quickly.
"She's one of us. She's formed an attachment to you for whatever reason. I would like her to stay here for at least for a little while to examine the traits of her mutation. I've never seen any that so closely mimic an already existing animal," he explains, "But I want to know that you're ok with that."
Logan scoffs. "Why wouldn't I be? That doesn't have anything to do with me."
"While she's here, she's most likely going to want to be around you. I just wanted to make sure that's not something you're wholly uncomfortable with."
"Please. I can handle it," he dismisses.
Charles watches him, ever-entertained by how hard he tries to present the idea that he's unaffected.Â
"If you say so," he says, "Just try not to scare off too quickly."
"I'll play nice," he says.
A few more words, and he's dismissed. He turns on his heel and heads out the same doors he entered. Just as he does, you glide down the stairs into his field of vision, tail wagging lazily behind you over the waistband of the sweats Scott gave you.
When you see him, it swishes a bit faster and your ears perk up. His eyes narrow.
"What are you doing down here? Didn't Scott show you where to go?" he asks.
You nod and prance down the remaining steps. Truthfully, you'd been seeking the man before your eyes, but you couldn't just say that.
"Am I not allowed to look around?" you ask.
His eyes remain hard on your face. "Aren't you tired? Mauling that guy didn't take anything out of you?"
A subtle pout forms on your lips, and you consider retreating back to the bedroom you'd been given. He clearly wasn't in the mood for you right now.
Logan sees the reaction his words brought on. He feels that little sliver of guilt shifting around inside him. Maybe his phrasing hadn't been the best... but then again why did he give a shit?
"How about we just get you back to bed? I'll show you around more tomorrow," he suggests.
You take what you can get and nod, your features slightly elevating at the form of peace he offers you. He retraces your steps up the stairs and down the hall with you on his heels. He spots the room Scott had picked for you. The door was ajar from how you'd left it to go find him.
He leads you inside but remains in the doorway himself. There really wasn't any reason to stay, so he should probably be leaving...
"Have you been here a long time?" you ask suddenly.
His eyes land on you again. You were perched on the end of your bed that was still fully made up, the comforter tucked in and everything.
"What?" he asks.
"Have you been here long? Scott said he's been here since he was a teenager," you say.
"Oh. No. Only a little while," he says. "I'm still pretty new here too."
That makes you happy, it's obvious from the hope that gleams in your eyes. "Are you like a teacher too? Or... something else?"
"What would that something else be?" he asks with a smirk, taking a few steps into the room with you, "Having a hard time picturing me teaching?"
"Well I just mean-" you try to justify before laughing a little, giving in, "Yeah. I can't really see it."
"Me neither. I'm not a teacher. I just help out sometimes," he says.
He walks even closer to you, causing your head to tilt up to look at him. Now you really looked like a puppy.
This close, he was all you could smell. You could see every individual hair on his forearm. It felt as though you could hear the strong beat of his heart. His eyes pierced into you from above, and you wondered if he was observing you in a similar manner.
"You gonna sleep on top of these blankets?" he asks.
The mention of something else besides him snaps you out of your little Logan-centric daze. You look around at the bedding and then back up at his head. The two styled points of dark hair look like he has two ears of his own mirroring yours.
"No. I'll fix them," you say and stand up to tug them free, "I don't need you to tuck me in."
"I wasn't offering to. I just don't want you getting up and trying to 'look around' again. Don't need you getting lost and wandering to my bed."
The idea brings heat to your cheeks and neck. It sounded nice for so many reasons. But the bed you had now outmatched the hard bottom of the cage you'd been sleeping on, so you weren't going to try and swing for more.
Once the comforter and sheets are peeled down, you climb back on the bed and sit against the pillows. There's a small pause. A puddle of silence pooling between the two of you. You don't know what else to ask, but you feel if you don't say anything he's gonna leave. So you pull out the first thing you can think of.
"What is your actual mutation?"
His brows rise with interest, and he closes the gap between you by sitting on the edge of your bed. Curiosity shines from his eyes onto you, silently questioning why you wanted to know.
"I know you're not actually a robot, but I can still smell the metal and stuff. What does it do?" you ask.
"The metal isn't my mutation," he says.
He raises his fist about a foot away from your face. His fingers are balled up tight against his hand. You cock your head, wondering what he's showing you.
Before you can ask any questions though, three shining metal claws emerge from between his knuckles. They come out slowly, a pace prolonged enough to be considered teasing. Your eyes widen at the sharp points and you scoot back, smooshing the pillows against your head board. All you can wonder is if he didn't take them out earlier or if you really had missed something so monumental.
His laugh rises in volume. "Relax, I'm not gonna cut you."
The claws come to a halt when fully extended. You wait just in case something else is going to happen, but nothing does. You bring your finger up and poke at the hard surface. They were so beautiful but unnatural too. You'd never seen anything like them.
"But I didn't see anywhere for them to come out?" you say softly.
He flexes his hand and extends his fingers, retracting the claws much quicker than they appeared.
"There is no place for them to come out of," he says and offers you his hand.
You frown at the little cuts the sharp rods left in their wake, but like little zippers, they close up. You blink at his hand. All evidence of his mutation was gone.
"So you can heal? And you have claws?" you say more to yourself than him, "Does it still hurt when they come out?"
He nods and watches you examine his hand.
Upon seeing his confirmation, you can't even help what you do next. You pull his limb a little closer and kiss each spot where a claw had emerged. Every phantom cut gets a soft smooch left where it would soon reappear.
"What are you doing?" Logan asks, her arm tensing up on instinct.
You glance at his face before releasing his hand. "Oh... sorry," you say and shrug sheepishly.
To your surprise, he doesn't scold or chastise you, doesn't get up to leave in a hurry. He simply pulls his hand back and gives you another look before saying good night.
"Get some good sleep. Like I said, I'll show you around tomorrow," he says.
You slip down in the bed, resting your head on the plush pillows and pulling the blanket up over your form. He heads out into the hallway, closing the door behind him.
A deep exhale leaves his lungs. He shakes some of that tension loose. What had he been doing? It almost felt like some different person had taken over him in there. Another version of himself that didn't have to be reminded to 'play nice.'
The few weeks you're supposed to stay at the school stretches out into a longer timeframe. It'd now been a few months since that day he found you in the cage and set you free. Though that month or so you'd spent locked up turned out to be worth it because you now had a place that made you happier than anywhere you'd lived before. You had a family.
You had Jean and Storm who were helping you train so you could one day go on missions with them. You had the Professor who taught you more about yourself than you had ever thought to ask. Scott was there too.
And of course, you had Logan.
Logan. As much as he tried to seem reluctant, to appear uncaring and nonchalant, he had grown to enjoy your company more with each passing day that you followed him like a shadow.
It was irritating at first. Before, he'd been able to drift through the school relatively unnoticed. Now, every single place he went, he was trailed by whoosh whoosh whoosh. The sound of your tail going back and forth. Anything he tried to do was accompanied by the feeling of two glimmering eyes trained on him. He'd tried to brush you off, but you didn't waver.
"Don't you have anything better to do than stalk me?" he'd ask, shooting a side eye your way.
"No," you'd respond.
"Well, find something."
"I don't wanna."
And who was he to argue with that?
In a way, the bond you seemed to have formed with him was flattering. It seemed like he could do anything, and you'd never view him as anything but the greatest creation to grace this earth. So he just lets you follow him around. He assumes after a while, you'll see him for what he is and lose interest, or you'll just grow bored of him and find something else to be the object of your obsession. Though so far that day hadn't come.
After a while of you always at his side, he started to cave and include you in his little routines.
One day he was doing sit ups at the foot of his bed while you sat nearby. His body rose and fell, abdomen kissing his thighs in regular intervals. But every time he came up, he found himself looking over at you.
"Hey, pup," he said, the nickname he developed for you coming out effortlessly, "C'mere for a second."
Your ears perked up. You weren't usually involved in what he was doing. You scoot over to him and kneel at his feet, awaiting a command. You could be so obedient sometimes it nearly made him feel guilty.
"You wanna help me with something?" he asked. As he expected, you nodded right away, so he continued, "Just hold my feet down. These only work if your feet stay flat. So just make sure they do."
You gave him another dutiful nod and got in position. Your hands held his feet down as he worked out just like he asked. Each time he came up off the ground, you looked at him with a big goofy smile.
That was just the first thing. From then on, the two of you actually did stuff together rather than just going about your things nearby one another. He'd help you train, and you'd help him clean Scott's bike when he finished using it.
Tonight, exhaustion aches in your bones after running around all day. On top of that, you'd had so much stuff to do yourself that you'd barely even seen Logan all day.
When the sun's finally down and the students have all retired to their bedrooms, you find him in the living room. He's leaned back into the couch, nursing a bottle of something. You assume it's not beer since you're at a school, but with how often he lamented about that limitation, you wouldn't put it past him to sneak one in.
You hop over the arm rest and curl up on the opposite side of the couch from him. He looks over at you, not displeased with your presence.
"There you are. I thought you finally got tired of me and found someone else to bother," he teases.
"I could never do that," you reply with the same playful cadence. You scoot a little closer. "I was just super busy today. The Professor was having me talk to some of the students, and then Scott needed me to grab something for him from the shed. It was really hard to find, so it took a while. Then I had to do my own training, and Jean made me try on some sizes for my suit..."
As you chatter on about your day, Logan finds himself nodding along, even occasionally reacting to what you say. He's not rolling his eyes or telling you to leave him alone. It's weird, but he can't say he wants to feel differently.
"Sounds like they're working you like a dog," he says when your story has reached an end.
Your face darkens like it had on the day he met you, shooting him a quick glare as a reminder not to say the forbidden d-word.
"Right, sorry," he corrects, "It just sounds like they're running you ragged. Don't let 'em work you too hard. Scott can get his own shit."
He still didn't understand your hang up about that word. He could call you pup, puppy, or any variation of that, and you'd react with nothing but joy. But utter d-o-g in your vicinity, and he felt like he was at risk of getting his throat chomped on. Luckily, it only takes his small apology for your normal demeanor to make its return.
"It's ok. I don't mind helping. I like having stuff to do," you say and shrug.
"I thought your 'stuff to do' was watching over me," he jokes and leans forward, placing his bottle down on the table.
You're not sure why, but you take that as an invitation to scoot even closer to him.
"I thought you wanted me to find better stuff to do."
"Fair," he chuckles, "Maybe this is one of those things where I'm not gonna realize I miss something until it's gone."
He brings his hand up from the back of the couch to massage the base of one of your ears. The soft fluff feels almost luxurious against the rough pads of his finger tips. He knew you loved the sensation. It had been an accidental discovery, something he did one time as a joke. But the way you melted into the touch had been more than just funny to him.
You lean into it now and nuzzle his palm.
"It was just one day. It's not like a permanent new routine."
"For now. Then soon enough, I'm gonna catch you trailing somebody else with hearts in your eyes," he says and gently tugs your ear.
You laugh at the tug and the stupid words. "You will not. Plus, I don't have hearts in my eyes for you."
"Oh really?" he teases. He leans in, his face hovering a couple inches away from yours. "I think I can see some now."
The two of you stay locked in a stare for a few lingering seconds. He'd never been this close to you before. You'd never heard his voice lower in that way, sounding almost desiring. Heat starts to crawl up from your belly through your chest to your neck. Before it can reach your cheeks, you turn your head to face the tv.
"Shut up," you huff, choosing to play the interaction off as a joke.
Out of the corner of your eye, you see his grin. He chuckles and his arm returns to its place behind you, above your shoulders. Quiet blooms between the two of you, kept from being total silence only by the hushed noises of the tv set across the room. It doesn't feel awkward though even with the sudden shyness he'd brought over you.
You angle yourself and lean in so that you're sitting against his side. No words come from him, he simply lowers his arm to sling around your shoulders and keep you there. His thumb idly pets back and forth over the smooth skin of your forearm.
The heat of his body radiates from his side and into you. Makes you feel safe and comfortable. Like you're where you're supposed to be. It's easy to sink into him further and tilt your head to rest on his chest. Before long, your eyes feel a little droopy. Blinking feels sticky, and your mind just wants to retreat to the soft embrace of sleep.
Logan can tell. He's not sure of the feeling this knowledge brings him. Pride? Contentment? Affection? Instead of thinking about it harder, he just pulls you a little closer and lets you drift off. He considers saying something, letting you know he doesn't mind and that you don't have to try and stay up. But nothing comes from him and the quiet continues.
He watches you slowly slip away. Your neck loses the wherewithal to stay upright, and your breaths soften, blowing in and out in a thoughtless rhythm.
The feeling that flows through him takes him by surprise. Pure endearment towards you, not a hint of anything else. He lets you sleep there for the next hour or so. When you're still out cold after that time has passed, he's unsure of his next move. He doesn't want to wake you and shatter the peace that had settled over the room, but he had to head to bed himself and wasn't going to leave you stranded on the couch in the common room.
The light of the tv glows across the two of you as he mulls over his options. When he finally decides, he grabs the remote and shuts the device off, cloaking the room in darkness, spare the distant blinking lights that could be seen through the windows. He rises from the cushions that had molded to cradle his weight, making sure to keep a hand on you to prevent you from slumping over.
This time he doesn't shake you or offer a hand. He reaches around and tucks an arm under your legs. His other supports you across your shoulder blades as he lifts you into his arms. He traverses the furniture with caution, making sure to avoid bumping into a stray corner or tripping on a catch in the rug. Then he moves up the stairs. Your limp body bounces with each step.
He nudges the door open to your bedroom and takes you inside. Your scent seemed to fill the entire room. Every time he took a breath, he got a lungful of the heady smell. Your bedroom was so you now. The way you'd decorated it and splashed your personality over every inch, it'd be hard to believe that just a few months ago it had been so sparse.
What had been a blank bed, covered only by a plain duvet and thin pillows, now held your extra fluffy cushions, a nest of blankets, and your steadily-growing collection of plushies. Trinkets lined your shelves and tables, and you even displayed a few posters over the walls. It was you, all around him.
He walks the few paces to the edge of the mattress before laying your body down on the foamy surface. He drapes a nearby blanket over your form. Even though he's technically accomplished what he meant to, he doesn't leave yet. He lingers like he can't seem to help doing around you.
You're still fast asleep, unaware of the change in locations. He watches a haphazard swallow move through your throat before you settle into the familiar setting.
He finds himself not wanting to go back to his room. He'd been at the school longer than you and never made his own so nice. Really, he didn't think he could make it as nice. But that was just because nothing about him was as nice as you.
When the resolve to leave finally surfaces in him, he reaches out and rubs the base of your ear.
"See you in the morning," he murmurs. Unlike before, the rest of what he wants to say doesn't get tangled up in his throat. "My little puppy girl."
That night won't leave your head for the next week. It almost feels like a dream. You'd woken up in your bed the next morning, assuming that's what it was. The undeniable change in location was the only thing that made your mind accept it as reality.
In the following days, things stayed the same for the most part, though you would have sworn, Logan acted a little less grumpy around you. Only by a microscopic degree, but enough for you to note the shift.
Nothing that big happens though. You don't even repeat the cuddling incident again. You kind of just assume that it was a one time thing. A nice experience, but not one to be repeated.
The memory of it floats through your mind often though. The pulse of his heart beating against your cheek, how you could hear it in your ear clear as day. Your stomach flutters at the thought of him actively pulling you closer, wanting you that close. You can feel your dedication to Logan blossoming into something more. It was already rooted so deep inside you that you didn't think it was possible, but you could feel it. The branches of reverence spreading in your chest and growing into something closer to adoration.
You could feel it now, sitting next to him on the bench in the school's spacious yard. He'd been tasked with watching some of the students for the afternoon, so of course, you tagged along. Shade speckled his face with alternating blotches of sunlight and gray. The stray beams of light made his eyes glow, and his hair shine all pretty. The sounds of the students practicing their abilities clouds the background of your focus, and they become even more distant when he suddenly turns to you.
"You're staring," he teases with that little smirk of his.
Your eyes flutter at the accusation. "No... I was not."
"Yeah you were. Even worse than usual."
"I just was thinking and zoned out," you defend, turning to face forward.
He hums in acknowledgement, obviously not believing your excuse. "Were you thinking about me?"
"You wish."
"I don't have to wish, puppy. You're not a very good liar."
You really weren't. Your tail swished with each beat of this little back and forth. Your ears pinned back to your head, folded over by the guilt of being caught. Everything you were feeling was made apparent by your supposed 'gifts.'
"Well whatever. Even if I was, it's none of your business," you say. A smile pulls at your lips. Your tells weren't solely from your mutation.
"If you say so," he taunts, one last jab before he returns his attention to the kids he was supposed to be supervising.
Nothing he said hinted at anything more than playful banter, but the way he spoke had them wrapped around your heart like unbreakable restraints. The way he said them made you feel like he wanted it this way. Wanted you to hear that smug cadence in your mind for the next few days. Maybe he found you entertaining. Maybe your emotions were a new game he discovered he liked to play with.
Hours later, you're curled up in your bed, by yourself as per usual. Everyone in the school had gone to bed, you and Logan had parted a while ago yourselves.Â
Sleep weighs you down to the mattress, but your ears perk up automatically when they register a distant sound of distress. It's faint. If it happened alone, you would've just assumed it was part of your dream and not done anything else. But more follow it.
Your eyes crack open, still glazed with drowsiness as you come to. You listen for the sounds that disturbed you. For a moment, there's nothing. Just the gentle breeze outside your room and the crickets chirping in the cut grass in the yard.
Then it happens again. A normal person wouldn't be able to hear these sounds. They were reserved for you with your enhanced senses. It sounds like grunting and groaning though you can pick up the pained undertone of fear. The worst part of it to you is that immediately you know it's coming from Logan.
You swing your legs over the side of the bed, freeing them from the fleece warmth of your blankets. Padding out of the room, you cross the hall to his. You open the door in the specific way so that it doesn't creak and then shut it behind you. Your feet are gentle on the hardwood as they bring you closer to the source of the noise.
Once you're in, it's no mystery. Logan lays on his back in the center of his bed, shoulders twitching in agitation. He mumbles to himself, different words you can't make out. Your head cocks at the sight.
Approaching the side of his bed, you just watch him for a few more moments. When he doesn't wake up, you feel the urge to intervene. It felt wrong watching him suffer. Something pulled at your insides to help him.
You reach out and nudge his bicep. There's no effect. You do it a few more times but still nothing happens. Finally, you actually grip his shoulder and shake him gently, whispering into the darkness a simple "Logan."
That wakes him. No mistake about it. He gasps and snaps up. His claws come out from his hands without a second thought and slash at you. You hop back right away, tripping over your own feet and crashing onto the ground.
Your pulse thunders in your ears. The adrenaline coursing through you wasn't so much out of fear but rather confusion. Your mind was still a bit bogged by sleep itself, and at this moment, you're less concerned with Logan's reasoning and more so the logistics of a potential fight with him. Even though you had been training for the past several months, you had absolutely zero belief that you'd be able to beat him in a fight. Or even really compete for that matter.
Fortunately for you, it doesn't come to that. His eyes recognize you not long after his fists took the swing. You watch as his face morphs into a handful of different emotions in the span of about five seconds.
"I- what- how- I didn't-" he starts before getting a handle on his ability to speak, "I'm sorry."
Your body starts to come down from the brief high when it's clear he's not going to attack. You feel less wound up and let out a sigh. Your eyes remain inquisitive while gazing at him though. What did he dream about that made him freak out like that?
You guess it's not the best time to ask, so instead of pushing your luck, you push up off the ground and get your footing back. You step up to him at the edge of the bed and stand between his thighs. You plan on asking him if he's ok, but his arms reach out and yank you to his chest before you have the chance.
His hold is tight on you. The little half-hugs he'd given you a couple times before didn't compare at all. His arms were locked around you like they never intended to let go. You could hear him panting in your ear, and you could feel his heart thundering against both of your rib cages like it wanted to be released from its chamber.
"You're not hurt, are you?" he whispers.
You shake your head and wrap your arms around him too. The gesture relaxes him a lot, you can feel the tension seep away.
"Are you ok? I didn't mean to bother you, you just sounded like you needed help," you say at the same volume.
"You didn't bother me. I'm ok. I'm sorry. You don't have to worry about me like that."
His skin is warm and clammy against your own. You gently pat his back as some form of silent reassurance. Even if he wasn't as distraught as he had been a few minutes ago, you could tell the events that occurred were gnawing at him.
One of your hands drifts up, and you thread your fingers in his hair. It's like pulling a lever. He exhales deeply and pushes his face more against your neck.
"I'm sorry, pup," he murmurs.
You nuzzle the side of his head, and your heart nearly stops because he reciprocates this gesture with a few of the softest kisses you've ever felt, placed on your throat.
"I'd never hurt you on purpose. You know that."
You nod. Of course you knew that. And you would never say this to him out loud, but you felt so deeply for him, you weren't sure that your perception of him would have changed had his claws landed the strike on you.
Pulling back your head a little, you nudge his so you can see him. Both of your eyes connect for a moment before you lean in and kiss him. His lips are softer than you'd expected. His scent permeates your senses, but it's not one of booze or the brand of cigars he smokes. That's there, but your nostrils sense deeper. You could smell his essence. The way his blood runs hot as your tongue swipes into his mouth.
The kiss grows deeper. No words are said. Neither of you need them. Your fingers tighten on the dark locks of brown hair, and you climb into his lap. His hands land on your hips almost instantaneously. The only sounds between the two of you are sharp exhales and shallow inhales.
"What are you doing, bub?" he murmurs against your lips, breaking the silence. Despite his questions, he wasn't stopping you. Not at all. His fingers dig into your flesh and pull you a little closer.
"Wanna make you feel better. And show you that I know."
You weren't sure what you and Logan were after that night. Boyfriend-girlfriend, friends with benefits, or maybe simple companions. You didn't really care because regardless of the answer, you were happy.
Kissing was the only thing that transpired that night, but that was ok with you. It didn't dampen your outlook on your relationship with him in the slightest. You'd made out for a while, tangling up with each other and the sheets before he pulled back. He didn't want to go further when you both were coming down from all that emotion. And you agreed. You didn't need more. You felt elated from receiving that much affection in the first place. Your tail whacked against the mattress as you curled up to his side and put your head on his sternum to rest.
The next morning though, he had been ready for more. Once he fell back asleep, his dreams had been much more pleasant. He woke up stiff and aching for you, and you were more than happy to provide some relief.
You alleviated that throbbing between his legs multiple times that morning, and you'd been taking care of it at least once a day every day since then.
The team could tell something was going on between the two of you, a deeper bond than your initial affinity for Logan. You walked with a faster wag in your tail, and he seemed less jagged at the edges. Others were less likely to get cut now if they reached for him the wrong way.
Each of your steps also came with a small jingle now since Logan had given you his dog tags. You'd been lying against his side, basking in the afterglow of one of your escapades when he dangled the metal chain between the two of you.
"Want you to have these, pup," he rasped.
You'd looked at him with curiosity swimming in your eyes. Excitement mingled there too though.
He chuckled at the look before boosting your head so he could put them on you.Â
"I know my pretty puppy doesn't want to wear a collar for me yet," he teased, getting a pout out of you, "I just want you to have something of mine. You don't even have to wear 'em if you don't want to."
You'd worn them every moment since he gave them to you. Wouldn't take them off for anything. The physical representation of your attachment stayed secured around your neck at all times. The way it made you feel had you thinking a collar would be a pretty nice next step.
It'd been just over a month since you became something more with him. Your tail zips back and forth as you clean up the training room, thinking all of this over. A little smile rests on your features too. Jean helps out nearby, laughing gently at your mood.
"You have it bad," she teases.
Your head turns, and you grin, exposing those elongated canines. Shrugging, you prance over to help her finish the area she was tidying up.
When the two of you get everything back into shape, you head out into the sleek hallway back towards the main part of the mansion. Your shoes squeak against the tile as you bound towards the doors.
Entering the primary floor from the rooms below always brought a bit of adjustment for your eyes. The lights downstairs shone bright, fluorescent white. Coming back to the soft lamps of the common rooms had you blinking while your pupils scanned the room for Logan.
You catch sight of him standing near the two large doors that acted as entrance to the school. Right now, you can only see him from behind, but you spot Charles next to him. It looks like they're talking to someone, though the former's bulky frame prevents you from seeing who.
Your legs carry you over to the pair. You come up on the side of Logan that Charles doesn't occupy. Tucking yourself under his arm, you look up at him first before your eyes land on the other person speaking.
The sight of her makes your head tilt to the side just the slightest. Every feature on her embodies beauty. Her red hair, similar to Jean's in color, sits slicked back on her head. Deep blue coats every inch of her body. Seductive yellow eyes flit between the two men she's conversing with, and now that you had appeared, they cast to you as well.
You'd seen her before around the mansion once or twice, and you didn't really trust her. She didn't seem like a bad person, but she worked opposite the team. Even though Logan had assured you she was just offering some information about a common goal, you didn't feel confident that Mystique's motives were of such pure intent.
Still, you don't interrupt the in-progress discussion. You stay quietly pressed to Logan's side, tail coasting against the back of his leg. He doesn't wrap his arm around you as tight as normal or rub between your ears like he often did, but he gives you a little pat on the shoulder to acknowledge your presence.
Mystique finishes listening to Charles' point before directing her full attention to you.
"I knew you all wore uniforms, but you two didn't tell me your team had a little mascot too."
You bristle at the comment but try to remain composed. You were better than a thoughtless animal that snapped at a little poke. Charles hadn't even noticed your presence. He looks over at you and realizes what Mystique's quip referred to. He introduces you briefly.
"She's new to the team and is still training, but she's not a mascot," he concludes.
"So more like a stray then? Cute. I never would have guessed you wanted a pet," she says to Logan.
Tension creeps up your spine, and you stand up straight, pulling away from Logan's side.
"I'm not his pet," you huff and look at her. Your pouty way of asserting yourself probably didn't do much to project the image of independence you wanted. "I'm-"
You go to continue, but she cuts you off.
"You really should teach your dog not to bark, Logan. It's not polite."
That sparks a small growl in your throat before you can shut it down. Her eyes widen in amusement which only makes it feel worse for you. The most humiliating part is that you know all of this is inauthentic. She's doing it for the purpose of riling you up, getting you upset and making you feel bad. You know this, but your reaction gets the better of you.
Before you can do anything regrettable, Logan's hand curls over your shoulder. He keeps you rooted where you stand, quelling the flames of conflict before they have a chance to spread.
"Back off," he says, quick and curt with Mystique. He turns to Charles next, still keeping his voice firm. "You don't need me to hear the rest of this. I think I'll let you wrap it up."
Charles nods, knowing it would be better for him to focus on removing you from the potentially volatile situation instead of being another observer for some intel.
Logan guides you away from them, hand moving from your shoulder to the back of your neck as he takes you upstairs. The anger inside you melts away with the growing distance between you and Mystique. Only the stain of embarrassment remained.
"I'm sorry," you say. Your words sound compressed, the weight of your shame hanging off them.
"Don't be. You didn't do anything wrong. She wanted you to get upset, so that's what she got."
The pair of you move through the rest of the hall without another word. You go into your room. Once the door is shut and it's just the two of you between the four walls, you stomp over to the bed and flop down onto the mattress.
Darkness clouds your vision while your face rests against the blankets. Your tail rests against your thigh limply. You hear him coming over and then feel his hand rubbing your leg near the lifeless appendage. The mattress dips as he sits next to you.
"C'mon. You're ok."
You shuffle around so your head is resting in his lap. "I looked pathetic."
He sighs. One of his hands rubs your back while the other pets your head. "You did not."
"Yeah I did."
"No. You didn't," he says, "You didn't do anything that bad. No one's gonna think less of you cause you got a little mad about someone talking shit to you."
You know he's right. Everyone here had an experience like that. It's how most of them ended up here, reacting even worse than you had. It still doesn't make you feel any less dumb. A deep exhale seeps from your lungs.
"I just don't understand why everyone looks at me like that. We all get it bad enough from humans, but then some of the others look down on me too. I'm the same as all of you. I don't say Mystique looks like a smurf cause she's blue, so I don't see why I have to get called a pet," you huff.
He smiles a little and scratches your ear, letting you vent.
"Even you guys looked at me different at first. I know you did. I'm not the only mutant with physical stuff. Why does it have to be a whole thing with me?"
"You're just a little different, bub. You confuse people, but it's not your fault. Nothing about you is less than any other mutant. Mystique doesn't even think that. She was trying to get under your skin."
"Yeah..." you say with a little dejection in your tone, "I still just wish people would treat me like normal. Or at least normal for a mutant."
"I know you do, baby," he hums and pats your arm.
By this point, you're far enough away from the harshness of what happened downstairs. You sit up and scoot closer to him crawling into his lap. He wraps his thick arms around you and rubs your back.
"There's my girl," he murmurs and pecks your temple.
You nuzzle him like a puppy seeking more affection from its owner. Your backside rests on his lap, your arms snug around his abdomen.
"I'm just curious though, pup. What's the big thing with being called dog? It's not that different than puppy," he says, a hint of caution in his voice. He figured now was as good a time as any to ask. He knew it was the main part of what Mystique said that set you off.
You don't react with anger or defensiveness which pleases him. Instead, you shrug.
"Cause. Puppy sounds cute. Dog is just so... bleh," you say, "It makes me sound like a gross animal that someone has to wrangle."
His eyebrow rises. You can see the amusement in his eyes, but he successfully kills his laugh before it leaves his throat.
"Mmm. Makes sense. Can't have anyone thinking you're gross."
"Exactly," you say and kiss his cheek, "You get it. I just... I don't wanna be your pet, I wanna be yours."
You breathe out the words and push yourself closer on his lap. He appeases your desire for less space and pulls you to his chest.
"You are mine. You don't have to worry about that," he says.
"And I still wanna be your little puppy."
He chuckles. His head ducks down to your neck to lay a few kisses there. One of his palms drifts down to gently knead the dough of your ass.
"You also are my little puppy. My little puppy that follows me everywhere. Mine to hold and love on. Mine to play with. Mine to deal with when she gets bratty."
The last word comes out teasing and brings a happy sound out of you. "I wasn't being bratty before. She started it," you say, playing along.
"Hmmm, you're right. Maybe fussy's a better word," he mutters and nips at the soft flesh of your neck.
"Nuh uh. I was being totally normal," you say and nudge at his face with your nose, getting a little squirmy on his lap.
He responds by flipping you over onto your back. The mattress creaks with the bout of pressure and a squeal leaves your throat. You can feel his length against your hip, half-hard already from how you had wiggled on his lap.
"Oh please," he says, "Why do you think I brought you up here? I can tell when my pup needs to calm down. And I know just how to do that, don't I?"
You whimper and nod. He grins before returning his lips to your neck. He nips a few love bites onto the delicate area, drawing little whines from you. His hands hold you in place and move with your body's wriggling. He gropes at your hips and waist, paws at your tits, and slides them around to massage your ass.
"Such a good girl. So responsive for me," he coos.
The condescending affection sends a pulse down to your clit, and your hips roll up to meet his. One of your legs hooks around his waist to pull his body closer.
"Logan. Don't tease," you pout.
Your whiny plea doesn't garner any sympathy from him though. He laughs against your neck and pulls back to smirk down at you.
"My little puppy needs to learn some patience. You think if you don't get my dick in seconds that it's teasing," he taunts.
You whine again and press your leg down on him. He doesn't make any move to pull his cock out though. One set of his fingers comes up to your jaw, directing your lips to an angle where his can land on yours. He kisses you nice and deep, swallowing up any bratty urges that were springing around inside your head. His tongue is warm and soft, gentle against yours.
Meanwhile, his freehand does start to slide down below. It travels beneath the waistband of your bottoms. His warm fingers glide over the plush skin of your pelvis and slot between your lower lips to find your swollen nub. He flicks at it, instantly getting a mewl from you.
You can feel his smug smile against your mouth, but you don't have much time to react to it before his middle finger starts swirling around your bud. Your leg releases his body as it squirms with your other on the mattress. You moan into his mouth and boost your hips into his touch, wanting more of that blissful friction.
"Sweet girl," he coos. The words are muffled by your skin, but you could pick those syllables out of any lineup. "That's your favorite spot, isn't it? Always gets you wriggling for me like a little puppy."
"Mhm," you whimper with a faint nod.
Your heels dig into the mattress to give you some leverage to push your hips up so he can tug your pants off. He takes the opportunity and flings them off the bed. With you bare to him like that, he leaves your lips and moves down. He pulls your top off next and smooches between your breasts and over your tummy before landing between your legs.
He kneels on the floor at the edge of the mattress. His hands hook around your thighs and pull you in his direction.
"C'mere, baby. Give me that puppy cunt. Gotta get it all wet, so it can take my cock."
With that, he buries his head between your thighs. You gasp and throw your head back. Your hands fly to his head to grab at the two dark points of hair.
Logan gives his all to the task of pleasuring you. Whether it was his cock or his mouth, you were never getting anything less than his best. That's obvious right now as he eats you out like it's all he has to live for. He laps at your poor little clit before sucking it into his mouth. It gets some good suction from his lips before he pulls away and licks a broad stripe over your cunt.
He prods his tongue at your entrance, pushing the soft appendage against your hole. You whine more, and he feels your heels dig into his back as they had the mattress. Little expletives float from your mouth into the air as you experience such a rush of euphoria.
"Taste so good, pup. So fuckin' sweet," he mumbles. His lips open and close over your pussy, making out with it.
You rock your hips back and forth, essentially humping his face. He groans and only works harder. Your cute reactions only spurred him on. He twists his tongue just how he'd learned you liked and uses the perfect amount of pressure to get you gushing for him. Your arousal begins to coat his chin, his dark facial hair glistening with your wetness.
"Nice and wet. I'm just gonna slide right in, huh baby?"
"Yeah," you pant. Your hips buck when his nose bumps your clit, but he keeps you held in place.
He kisses your clit before dragging his tongue over you anymore. The soft touch pulls a whimper from you. Your brain starts to get all muddled and hazy. The dreamy feeling always took over when he had you like this. He knows it's coming on too. He can tell by the sudden softening of your movements. You're less jerky and more fluid in how you fidget.
"Oh, that's it. I think my pretty puppy's ready for me," he says, voice smooth on your ears.
He wags his tongue over your little bundle of nerves a few more times before standing to undress himself. His shirt comes off first, dropped to the floor with your garments. His pants are next to go, crumpled on the ground and kicked off his ankles.
Crawling back on top of you, his larger figure boxes you in on the soft surface. His cock is fully hard by now, red and angry, leaking desire from the tip. He guides it to your center and rubs it through your soaked folds.
A soft grunt leaves him as your nectar coats his shaft and drips onto his balls a little too. He only slides it against you a couple times, not wanting to waste the stimulation humping when he could be nestled deep inside.
He brings his tip down to your hold and pushes it in. Your walls accept the familiar intrusion and he groans at the comfort of your velvet walls contracting around him. He pushes his length in all the way until he bottoms out.
Then, adjusting himself and gripping at your hips, he starts to thrust. The motions start as gentle rocks. Taps of his pelvis against your ass. You flutter around him. Moans leak from you, and he smiles at the obvious pleasure coursing through your body.
He fucks you deep, just how you always asked for it. You weren't concerned with whining for harder and deeper right now. This was enough. The feeling of his cock buried in you soothed you like nothing else. Your eyes roll back and puffs of air come from your nostrils.
"Fuck, honey. Feels like I can barely last with you," he grumbles.
"Can't even think when I'm with you," you babble.
Your arms come up to pull him closer, and he lets you. He presses his body into yours, in-turn, shoving his cock as far into you as physically possible. You cry out with the pressure. It was the best kind. Deep and satisfying. To the point that you can feel it in your tummy every time his belly pushes on yours.
"You may not be my dog, baby, but one day you're gonna be my perfect breeding bitch," he grunts.
Your jaw goes slack, eyes drooping with lust. Your head tilts back and he leans into yours more.
"Gonna have you full of me forever. Always gonna be mine."
You can't even respond. Your mind isn't coming up with any coherent response. All you can do is whimper and whine like the needy pup that you are.
"This is what you need sometimes, puppy. Need me to stretch you out on my cock. Get all those thoughts out of your head. Cause puppies don't have to think. Not when you have someone like me taking care of you."
Your thighs start quivering, a sign you were reaching your peak. He knows this and drills into you harder. His balls slap against you every time he pistons his hips. His heated skin rubs against yours. He occupies all your senses, overloading you with him.
"Logan... gotta... gonna cum," you whine.
"Then cum for me," he mumbles simply, "Cum all over my cock, and I'll be right behind you."
You nod. Your back arches up. It takes you a little more, but when you get there, you crash into the throes of release. A sharp yelp bursts from you. Your feet kick a little and your legs press against his sides in an attempt to shut him out.
You get so fucking tight when you cum. Your hole clenches around him, calling out to him to spill every drop of his seed inside your wanting orifice. He growls and drops his head in your neck. He feels it building between his hips. The pressure grows until he can't take it anymore. It snaps and the flood gates open.
He bites at your neck, not hard enough to break the skin but with enough need to leave a little mark. Hot, sticky cum shoots out of him in thick ropes. Warmth fills your insides and you feel like you're sinking into the mattress below you. Both of you are panting with the intensity of the high.
You've already come down by the time he's starting to. After he nuts, Logan tends to get a little sappy. His arms pull you in tighter and he pecks at your neck a few times more muttering something unintelligible about his baby puppy.
"So what do you think?" you ask and twirl into the room, showing off your new outfit.
It matched his. Black leather snug on your body, lined with the same gold on the seams of Logan's. The bold X that shown on his belt could be found on the zipper of your top, dangling against your chest.
He smiles at you, standing from the bed to walk over and get a better view.
"Looks pretty good," he says upon approaching, "Seems a little tight though. You got room for your tail in that thing?"
You laugh at his joke and spin around again, showing the back where the suit had accommodated for your tail to poke through. It whips back and forth before you turn to him again.
"Just perfect for you then," he says and pulls you close, patting your ass and kissing your forehead, "Look at you. An official member of the team."
You nod and struggle not to bounce all around the room with the excitement vibrating through your cells.
"We're gonna be like so totally cool together," you say.
"Yeah. Totally," he imitates affectionately. He cups your jaw, watching your cheeks squish in and your lips puff out. Leaning down, he puts his mouth on yours in a soft kiss. "You're gonna do great."
The words come out as a whisper against your lips. One of your canines slips over your bottom lip as you take it between your teeth. But the display of timidity only lasts a second.
"I know," you beam.
Locking your fingers around his palm, you drag him to the door and out into the hall. Your arm makes his swing as he walks along behind you. He rolls his eyes lovingly at your confident display, but he can't keep his gaze off your happy self. He lets you pull him without resistance.
Now it would be his turn to follow you.
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