#and reys lesbian ass oh god i miss her

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please remember that luke skywalker adopted rey and fin a few years after marrying din djarin and and opening his jedi school on mandalor with their green rat son.

[rynliadon]

notes I took during my second viewing of tros (on my phone in the theater because I'm that asshole)

Warning: many a spoiler for the rise of skywalker ahead. if you haven't seen it this post will ruin the whole movie

kylo ren is a nasty ass emo boy with gross hair but adam driver's voice? god tier

what are they doing with Palpatine in this why wouldn't they just leave him dead

goddammit my dad figured out the big twist in the first five minutes

JJ ABRAMS IS A LIL BITCH FINNPOE WAS RIGHT THERE BUT HE GAVE POE SOME FUCKIN RANDOM ASS HETERO LOVE INTEREST OUT OF NOWHERE

cannot emphasize enough that kylo ren is gross

"I'm just... not feeling myself." -rey skywalker, 2020

okay is it nighttime or daytime make up your fucking mind

hold up the sith have their own goddamn LANGUAGE

wait who tf is rose. didn't she die last movie

my assholery is really showing as I spoil the movie for my family

leia: "never be afraid of who you are." rey: does the exact goddamn opposite

okay darth vader wannabe

the festival scene was actually really cool

rey you're too good for ben, he's a freaking douchebag. don't take his hand blergh

a thought: polyamorous rey x finn x poe

way to make an entrance lando

what is disney's thing with bloodlines?? WHO YOUR PARENTS ARE DOESN'T FREAKING MATTER 90% OF THE TIME. WHO YOU'RE RELATED TO DOESN'T MAKE UP YOUR PERSONALITY TF

they fly now? seriously?

yep. star wars would definitely kill all the important people a third of the way into the movie /s

I know they did their best because Carrie Fisher died, but all of her scenes fall flat. she barely talks and when she does it's ridiculously vague.

are the sith a nation? do they have their own planet? lore? are they ALL bad?

yes I just healed the snake thing with my magic, what about it

now we know what the baby yoda healy thing is ig

is Finn force sensitive? could he become another jedi?

just the IDEA of facing ren is giving rey a panic attack but sure reylos they're meant to be

how the fuck is kylo even ALIVE what the FUCK

they both be vibrating doe

POLYAMOROUS REY X FINN X POE THOUGH

[leaves to refill popcorn]

what is a spice runner? why is that significant?

zory's alright but I just HATE that they gave pie a hetero love interest

they gotta stop killing characters just to bring them back

jj abrams is still a lil bitch

how did they remember what 3PO said? I IMMEDIATELY forgot

ngl poe damaron is kinda hot. my inner bi is showing

oh what your girlfriend never tried to kill you before?

oh what your boyfriend never tried to control you by making him your only option?

oh what your girlfriend never stabbed you in the gut?

oh what your boyfriend never pinned you down and almost murdered you?

I miss han solo

okay tbh, Ben had potential for a redemption arc. there just wasn't enough of it there, and too much violence against his supposed love interest and everyone else.

the sith robe people don't seem real. neither does palpatine tbh. they just feel like ghosts.

why can't we explore the jedi and the sith as valid, opposite parts of the force. just like mistborn and avatar the last airbender. they're both necessary for balance.

yessss finnpoe the cogeneral boyfriends

tbh the lesbian kiss at the end pissed me off. I'm glad they know at this point that representation is important and including the gays gets them a wider audience of people who don't hate them but it pisses me off that they'll do the bare fucking minimum and praise themselves for it. a 2 second lesbian kiss, one unnamed gay man, both cut out for international audiences.

the sith audience served zero freaking purpose. they were just. there.

oh so the sith formed a choir huh. between the murdering and the evil they practice ominous harmonies

ow I ate too much popcorn

that lightning shot looks really cool

can't really see it but it's super badass

I'd be mad if they did kill someone I care about but I'm also mad they didn't. where are the stakes

They're blurry but I got a pic of the lesbians

I hate that reylo kissed but GOD the look he gave her when they pulled away.... watch me start to cry. adam driver you're incredible

I'll take this as confirmation that my rey x finn x poe ship is sailing

oh shit is it illegal to take pictures? woops

what happened to tatooine though? it's completely empty

"rey who?" *TEN HOURS LATER* "rey skywalker."

why the fuck does rey have a gold lightsaber? when did she even have time to make it?

jj abrams is still a lil bitch

You're welcome that was my commentary

Review

I liked the glimpse into Poe's past, but if I were in charge I would have made Zory an ex-boyfriend, and instead of Poe asking "can I kiss you?" it's Zory, and Poe says something angsty about being in love with Finn. I enjoyed the continuation of Finn pining after Rey, but I wish that he'd realized there was no hope and started to move on a bit. (with poe obviously.)

This is a bit of a we'll-never-be-happy-with-anything commentary, but I wish that an important character died without warning. they kept killing but bringing back characters (chewie and 3PO) and magically getting characters out of ridiculously dangerous situations (skimmer on water, climbing around the death star, about to fall off the star destroyer). I'd be mad if a character died, but I'm mad none of them did, if that makes sense.

I think that the Rey and Ben force diad thing whatever and their entire relationship had tons of potential, but they executed it terribly. They made kylo ren an unlikable character when he killed han solo for one, and the fact that they kept trying to kill each other made it impossible for me to root for them as a ship. However, I loved the ending they had, standing together against Palpatine. (side note- making Rey a Palpatine was GENIUS. big fan.) also adam driver and daisy ridley are incredible actors.

Main takeaway-- it could have been better, but I'm really happy with it. Overall I enjoyed watching it, which is the #1 priority for any movie, the twists and character arcs landed well to me, it had a satisfying ending to the trilogy. I'd watch it a third time. jj abrams is still a coward bitch but I can look past it.

[ichangemyhairevery2weeks]

Not Your Friend ( Original Story by Veikka Lozano )

Hey guys, I’m starting a new story, tell me what ya’ll think :) 

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Chapter one :  Xinjiapo ( Singapore )

" Hahahaha, nice try Jason, "Jess smiled at the camera as her brother tried to take a stolen photo. Jason shrugged and pointed the camera at their mother, who was busy frantically looking for her phone.

 Click. Another camera stole Jess's attention. About ten feet away from her stood a familiar face with a smile on his lips, in his hands, an expensive Canon camera. Jess's eyes widened. She looked away as fast as she could, but it was too late. The well known stranger was already within arm's reach. " Hi. " He said with a  slap on her back. " What do you want, Rob? " Rob chuckled and waved to Jess's mother, who took a minute to recognize him, then smiled back.

" I haven't seen you in a while- you got hot, Mojo" Jess rolled her eyes at her old nickname, from the Powerpuff girl's famous villain, " I almost didn't recognize you". Jess looked to where Rob was standing and saw more familiar faces. His well known squad. If they were on a T.V show, it would be Gossip Girl, and Rob would be Chuck Bass - the one from season one that you hated, not the season six heartthrob, and Jess would be that girl that went to the school that no one really remembers.

" What are you even doing- " She rolled her eyes. " Vacation with my friends, duh". Rob had that habit of not letting her finish. " I mean talking to me, dumbass. What are you even doing talking to me? " Rob smiled again. Damn, he's even cuter than before , Jess thought. " I don't remember ever getting along with your shit face". She continued. Rob fiddled with his camera before answering;" Well, you were fat and ugly, now you're hot, so I'm talking to you". Years ago, Jess probably would have ran away the very moment she saw him, but this time, she was different, certainly not the pure little angel he loved to bully.

" So, you're just trying to get in my pants, then? " Rob grinned with surprise.  He looks impressed. " Aww, my little angel's trying to be naughty," He teased, stroking her cheek. " Why don't you spend the day with us?"

Jess looked over at her old acquaintances, each flashing her a smile and a wave. They were always nice to her, but it was exactly that that got her into trouble back in high school. They were the Senpai group, two years ahead, and Jess was the awkward new girl that they were surprisingly nice to. Which made Jess's classmates very fucking jealous - basically the typical Hollywood high school thing. Jealous enough to get her thrown in high school hell. Think Jenny Humphrey caught up in a Waldorf  take down. And just like Little J, Jess got her revenge behind the scenes, only she never got the recognition for it, just the satisfaction, which was more than enough.

" What's with all the thinking? C'mon, I'll ask your mom for you," He didn't give her a chance to resist. By the time her mouth opened to speak, Rob was already with her mother. Jess watched her mom smile and nod at the son of a friend. Real world Chuck Bass jogged up to Jess, holding out his hand. " C'mon, aunt Eve said yes, she'll tell your dad when he gets back, " Right then, her heart raced. A day with the Suicide Squad, God Damn. She rolled her eyes with a smile, ignoring Rob's hand, but following his lead to the rest of the crew. She took a glance at her mom and brother They're such tourists, it's adorable, when she turned her head forward, her gaze was met by John, the nicest of them all, kind of a rich Dan Humphrey, or a straight Eric V.

" Long time no see! " John pulled Jess to an awkward hug, laughing after pulling away. " Rob thinks you got cute". " Yeah, he told me". Jess said, glancing at Rob. Among them was Gab, Jess's cousin, they weren't really close, but they saw each other at family events. Gab gave her a nod as everyone else remarked on how much she'd changed.

There was ; Jeff, the joker,Rey, the Serena Vanderwoodsen, Serena, the nice Blaire Waldorf, Erick, Serena's older cousin that was in the same grade anyway, and Vince, the one voted most likely to go to Med school but is going to Law school instead to prove people he's not the nerd of the group.

" Oh my gosh, Jess, you really changed so much! I love your hair now. " Rey said, stroking Jess's hair. Don't cringe don't cringe. Her hair had changed so much, from the short, dull, and frizzy, to butt-length, wavy, and silver. " I kinda miss talking to you". Serena wrapped her arm around Jess's, forcing her to walk along with them. " I mean, I know we didn't talk that much, but whenever we did you were so cute! "

Almost exactly like Gossip Girl, these young adults had personal transportation in a foreign land. Jess, took a seat between Serena and Rey in the white van Serena's family owned. " So, where are we going? "" " ION Orchard. " said Serena. The driver maneuvered through the road with ease, unlike back home, the same trip would have taken half a day from traffic.

" So, Jess, how's it been? " Serena asked. Everyone's eyes seemed to be glued onto Jess. Her stomach slightly turned with her awkward smile.

" Well, I've been doing well... actually, ever since I left I felt so much better- " Oh no they're gonna think I hated them " -I don't mean that I didn't like the place- it's just I- " " Hey-hey, no need to explain yourself. We get it, there was a lot of bullshit back then, we get it". Jeff reassured her. " Different topic then, where's your boyfriend? " Rey grinned. I wish I had one. Jess faked another smile. " I don't have one, never have" " You're not lesbian, are you?" Fuck you Rob, fuck you. " Shut up Rob, of course she's not- not that there's anything wrong if you are, but I know you're not, right? " And the heaven's shined upon Serena. Serena I love you so much . " No, I'm not, I've just never really... gotten one.. " Jess shrugged.

The mall looked like a disco ball on the outside, and inside was like a zoo of rich people in their natural habitat. Not long before entering, Serena, Rey, and most of the others went their separate ways, leaving Jess with Rob, John, and Erick. Let the torture begin Satan!

" How long are you gonna be here? " John asked. " Oh, we're leaving tomorrow, at noon". John stopped dead on his tracks and turned to face Jess. " You're already leaving! We just saw each other and you're already leaving?" He stated over-dramatically. Jess nodded. " It's not like I planned to see you here. To be honest, if Rob hadn't come to talk to me, I probably would have just ignored you guys". John furrowed his browns and frowned. " But, I thought we were friends? " Jess felt churn in her stomach. Kinda guilty now. She faked a smile, trying to recall their last interaction, but to no avail. " I guess we got along fine for the first few months I moved to the school, but we never really talked after that. We had like zero interaction since tenth grade, which was like.. uh-nine years ago, I guess? " He bit his lip while his eyes searched for invisible words. Rob draped his arm around her shoulders, weighing her down a bit.

" Awww, Johnny misses Mojo. " He laughed. " Why did people call her Mojo again? " John asked. " Because she was ugly. " Erick chorused. Jess almost forgot he was there. Little bitch. " We never really hung out, but now I remember. You were an asshole, " Jess rolled her eyes at him, " Wait, I mean, still and asshole". Erick smiled, poking her stomach. " You were fat, too". Well, this is going to be a fun-ass day- cue eye roll.

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Fuck it & Answer all of them!

oomg ok! this will take forever so i’m gonna take breaks in between and then come back1.if someone wanted to really understand you, what would they read, watch, and listen to?they would read my journal, watch any of my favorite docs/films that relate to my mind and my life the most, and if someone wants to really understand me they’ll have to communicate with me, listen instead of just hearing me. they’ll have to want to understand.2.have you ever found a writer who thinks just like you? if so, who?oh yeah plenty 

3.three songs that you connect with?this is hard as hell cause i have a million songs i connect with, but just off the top of my head: Why - NFHelp - Papa RoachHonor Roll - BulowMyself - Layton Greenthat’s four but whatever4.would you have sex with the last person you text messaged?no that girl is like my sister lol

5.have you taken someones virginity?someone’s lesbian virginity6.how many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust?zero, i can’t see that ever happening. i’ve never fully trusted male figures.

7.if you could, would you take back your last kiss?noo

8.who would you like to see in concert?not counting anyone i’ve already seen,NF, post malone, paramore, ariana grande, billie eilish, kane brown, and a million more

9.what was the last concert you saw?i think it was demi but i feel like i seen someone after her who i’m forgetting

10.would you ever want to swim with sharks?maybe. if i’m totally safe doing so haha11.do you think you’ll change in the next 3 months?i fuckin hope so, i’m making it a mission

12.what was the last thing that made you laugh?whatever random shit me and angie were talking about tonight when i seen her13.a song you’d listen to during soft/slow/passionate sex?i have no idea, fire on fire - sam smith 

14.have any pets?4 kitties

15.do you want to have kids? How many?i don’t know honestly, it’s something i think about and flip flop with. i’ve always said that if i want to have a child, it’ll be before i’m in my 30′s and if it decide to, my plan forever was to have a sperm donor. but i don’t know if i can raise a child tbh. i have too many fears which i’m sure everyone does when thinking of having a baby. i can’t picture myself pregnant either lol. but i would want it to come from me if i had one.

16.do you have piercings? How many?my nose, vertical labret, and my ears are stretched

17.do you miss anyone from your past?i miss friends from my childhood and middle school who’ve moved away or drifted, family members who are gone now, and versions of people before they’ve changed due to addiction, struggles, etc

18.what are you craving right now?a shower cause i just got home

19.have you ever broken someone’s heart?yes not intentionally 

20.have you ever been cheated on?yes

21.have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry?yes when i finally walked away, it bothered me a lot to make someone cry, but it really had to be done.22.do you believe in true love?yes

23.favourite weather?summer & fall!

24.do you like the snow?yes it’s pretty to look at, but i only like when it snows maybe once every winter cause i can’t deal with the freezing cold

25.do you wanna get married?as of today my answer is no26.is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby?yes only if i like them or are dating them. when random ass people call me that i hate it

27.what’s an inner joke you have with your friends?my mind is totally blank right now when i try thinking of any, i do have some though

28.go google a weird space fact and tell us what it is!“space can alter your DNA.”

29.what’s your favorite pasta dish?chicken alfredo pasta or just regular pasta with tomato sauce & meatballs

30.what color do you really want to dye your hair?i think i might change my hair to dark brown in the summer but i don’t really know cause whenever i change it from black i immediately miss it or regret it

31.what’s your favorite eye color?all eye colors are my favorite

32.talk about your favorite bag, the one that’s been to hell and back with you and that you love to pieces.i had this bag with hearts all over it in middle school and i carried it everywhere with me and it seen some dark shit man.

33.are you a morning person?i used to be, i want to be

34. what’s the weirdest place you’ve ever broken into?no weird places. i think i went to some abandoned places with friends when i was younger. we didn’t “break” into anything though, but we trespassed. 35.what are the shoes you’ve had for forever and wear with every single outfit?my converses or vans, i used to wear my combat boots EVERYWHERE people used to think i was crazy cause i’d wear them in the summer when it was like 90 degrees.

36.what is your opinion of socks? do you like wearing weird socks? do you sleep with socks? do you confine yourself to white sock hell? really, just talk about socks.i. fucking. love. socks. fuzzy socks.

37.tell us a story of something that happened to you after 3AM when you were with friends.ummm idk i walked my best friend home to the next town at like 2-3AM and we smoked weed prior, and as we were walking some dude was yelling out to us asking if we know where to get crack rock, and all i remember is us running because we were scared lol 

38.do you have a favorite coffee shop? describe it!i used to got to starbucks a lot but not anymore. i usually just make coffee at home or go to DD or wawa.39.who was the last person you gazed at the stars with?fuck if i know. i think my boyfriend at the time in the back of his truck.

40.what was your biggest fear as a kid? is it the same today?always had the fear of abandonment or my mom dying since my dad died when i was 8. i would send myself into panic attacks whenever my mom would leave me home alone for hours or if i came home and she was gone i would automatically think she was dead and would cry hysterically. and yeah i have that fear still but i don’t cry like that anymore, just feel a lot of anxiety.

41.do you like buying CDs and records? what was the last one you bought?yes, it’s been a minute so i don’t remember42.think of a person. what song do you associate with them?i just texted angie so that’s who i thought of,yoho - blood on the dancefloor lmfao don’t ask

43.what are your favorite memes of the year so faroh god if i could i would post them, they had me dying.

44.do you like poetry? what are some of your faves?yes poetry is pretty45.what’s the stupidest gift you’ve ever given? the stupidest one you’ve ever received?never given or received a “stupid” gift46.what are some of your worst habits?here’s three: catastrophizing, ruminating, self-sabotaging47.describe a good friend of yours without using their name or gendered pronouns.they’ve been here for me since day one, always. proven through their actions that they genuinely care about my well being and my feelings and want the best for me. has my back through everything and is more than a friend, i consider them family.

48.tell us about your pets!stella: alpha cat of the housecookie: she isn’t the youngest but she is the baby of the cat fam and is super needyiris: badass and fears nothingno-name: literally unbothered by anything 

49.is there anything you should be doing right now but aren’t?showering, sleeping. i’ve literally been working on answering this for an hour.

50.are you in the minion hateclub or fanclub?don’t hate them, just not a fan. 

51.what’s one of the cutest things someone has ever done for you?honestly just treating me like a fucking human being

52.describe one of your friend’s eyes using the most abstract imagery you can think of.eyesss like honey 53.what’s some of your favorite album art?lana del rey’s album born to die has nice artwork and that album is one of my favorites 

54.are you planning on getting tattoos? which ones?i have one currently. i plan to get more. i want midna from twilight princess on my upper arm or skull kid surrounded other things from the legend of zelda correlated into the tattoo turning it into a half sleeve, certain quotes or lyrics i have in mind, a tattoo dedicated to my dad, etc.

55.do you like concept albums? absolutely

56.what are some movies you think everyone should watch at least once in their lives?into the wild57.list some songs that resonate to your soul whenever you hear them.pieces - red58.if you were presented with two buttons, one that allows you to go 5 years into the past, the other 5 years into the future, which one would you press? why?i wouldn’t press either of them. everything in my past happened for a reason and i wouldn’t want to skip into the future because that freaks me out to skip time where i could have done something in those 5 years missed.

59.what do you do when you’re sad?either a negative or positive coping skill depending where my head is.

60.what are some things you do when you can’t sleep?think too much, listen to music all night, binge watch something on netflix or youtube, talk to someone, take a lovely walk to the refrigerator

61.what was the best (non-romantic) night you’ve had?nights full of positive vibes with friends, laughing, having good talks, good food, music, just chillen. going to seaside, having bonfires, going off-roading in the woods, etc

62.who is the last person you told a secret to?i really don’t have secrets, i’m an open book if you ask me anything. 63.what’s the best piece of advice you ever received?i wouldn’t say advice, but i’ve received amazing guidance from my fam back at my old outpatient program when i was in therapy. i wish i could still remember most of the things i was told but i know it really helped me when i needed it most.

64.what’s your favorite food?sushi 

65.what’s your secret dream?i don’t have a secret dream

66.three songs you were recently obsessed with.straight to my head - you me at sixno ordinary love - memphis mayfirefire on fire - sam smith67.three songs that remind you of the person who sends this onei don’t know the person who sent me this

68. three favourite old songssome of my favorites that throw me back to when i was in middle schooldon’t matter - akonleave, get out - jojoi miss you - blink 182

69.three last songs you listened towe belong together - mariah careylithium - nirvanaheart-shaped box - nirvana

70.worst possible time to get horny:a funeral

71.have you ever had a friends with benefits?it depends what someone considers a friends with benefits relationship to be. i’ve hooked up w a friend years ago like twice, but idk if that would be considered fwb? since it wasn’t an ongoing thing. there was no strings attached, so i guess? any type of ongoing relationship i had with anyone after that there was always feelings.72.do you believe in soulmates?i wanna believe that yeah73.Is there anyone you would die for?i’m sure there is 74.who was the last person you cried in front of?my ex like over a year ago. i don’t cry in front of people, i fight it and i hate feeling emotionally exposed like that. it takes a lot for me to actually shed a tear in front of anyone out of pain. but happy tears are different though.

75.do you give out second chances too easily?lol more like 50 

76.is it easier to forgive or forget?it’s easier for me to forget cause i just repress shit subconsciously. i forgive easily for things that aren’t a big deal. but detrimental/trauma type shit takes me years to process through and forgive 

77.is this year the best year of your life?this year has been better compared to the last few years. it wasn’t great, but a lot of good things happened even though a lot of terrible stuff happened too. but it def wasn’t the best year of my life lol.

78.do you have trust issues?yeah like the rest of the world

79.who/what was your last dream about?

lolol was driving in a car with a friend