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#and our older cat hates the kitten and im worried the stress is gonna kill him because hes fucking 19
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Fml. I have mental illnesses for real fhat arent just garden variety anxiety and depression <- sorry it turned into a vent/rant in the tags. The perilous poster
#THIS IS NOTHING IM FINE !!!#i just had to remember earlier that sometimes i dont get to be myself#and i drove through my ahit moms town for no reason#and we got a kitten and of course i feel like the only one reasonably concerned#so idk if my concerns are valid or if im overreacting and i dont know how much of my worry is justified#what if im just being a party pooper?#ANDDDD on top of that i dont know where the kitten is rn. and its fine. ots fine#but my mind keeps flashing me images of him stuck somewhere or hurt or somethinf#and i was supposed to be watching him but i left to make food#but my family keeps going 'oh lets do a small trip' so i dont add anything to the list#and then they get a bunch of bs and i dont get any food#WE DONT NEED COSMIC BROWNIES MAN I NEED TO EAT A REAL MEAL THAT MAKES ME FULL PLEASE GOD#and our older cat hates the kitten and im worried the stress is gonna kill him because hes fucking 19#agghh aaghhhhhhh and i cant keep up with everyone and im overwhelmed and i think im just like#upset because i havnt had real food but fuck man idk what to do about that#i coukd bike down to the store and get a sandwich#but my stupid brain keeps going 'if you leave the kitten will die and its your fault'#even though thats not fuckong correct#and i just. aaghhh. aaghhhhhh#and im overheatinf rn but i cant go to my room bc aforementioned kitten desth prophecies#and i. just. aaghhhh ghhhhrrhhhh ghrrrr#im fine im fine i just need to complain i need to be a bitch#ANDDD im tired cause i coulsnt sleep which isng helping#god ive been having a bunch of panic attacks lately too i stopped having them so much after quitting school
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Satisfied, Part 54
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The lady’s watch beeped.
Marinette grinned as she pushed herself off of the couch. She dug into her bag and handed over a wad of cash. “Thanks, Linda.”
“Of course.” She watched the woman count it and then put it in her pocket. “I’ll see you next week.”
“Nah, I’m going to see my better therapist.”
Linda rolled her eyes. “Harley lets you give in to unhealthy coping mechanisms, that doesn’t make her better.”
“Lalalalala! Not listening!” Said Marinette, ducking out the door.
“Right! Don’t forget your homework! Five more good things about yourself!”
“Oh nooooooo you’re too far away I can’t hear you!”
Linda groaned. “Ladybug, please.”
She sighed and stopped. She turned around, flashing a small smile. “Fiiiiiine, I’ll do it.”
“And they can’t have anything to do with how you help others.”
Marinette cursed. “I should have kept walking.”
“Too late! Have a good week!”
She spun on her heel and threw a wave over her shoulder. “You too!”
“And tell Red Robin to stop by!”
“Will do!”
She hummed lightly and ducked into an ally. “Spots off,” she said. She opened her jacket pocket and let Tikki fly in. She’d stopped using her purse to hold the kwami a few years back when a guy had attempted to steal it and she’d nearly given away her identity trying to get it back. Besides, she never had to open her pocket, so there was no stress when she was paying for something.
She pulled a normal yoyo from her pocket and started playing with it as she walked out the other side.
Marinette glanced up and grinned as she spotted the familiar yellow and black outfits. Signal, Orphan, and Queen Bee had recently started doing daytime patrols. Crime had dramatically decreased since, and Bruce was more than a little bitter that he hadn’t thought about it.
She gave a tiny wave and grinned when they sent some of their own. Marinette had given up on trying to keep the fact that she was friends with pretty much every vigilante in Gotham a secret. It turns out you don’t have to worry about people coming after you to hurt your powerful friends when they are, in fact, afraid of said powerful friends.
She heard her phone go off in her pocket and grinned. Also, the publicity was amazing for her business. That was also good.
~
She grinned and opened a portal under herself, dropping into the Siren’s living room.
“Hey, darlin’,” said Harley, who was far too used to this by now to even blink.
“Kid’s here?” Asked a Catwoman from the kitchen.
“No. I was talking to the plants,” said Harley sarcastically.
Poison Ivy glanced up from watering her plants. “Hilarious. But please do, they grow better when you talk to them every day.”
Catwoman sighed. “Whatever. What do you want to eat, kid?”
Marinette plopped down on the couch. “I’m not a kid. I wasn’t even a kid when you met me.”
“Oh?”
“Yes!”
“Then why don’t you tell us your identity to prove it?”
She rolled her eyes and stuck her tongue out at Catwoman. “Do I look like I’m under eighteen?”
“Do I look like I’m older than thirty?” Catwoman retorted. When she saw the small smirk forming on Marinette’s face she quickly cut her off: “Don’t answer that.”
She huffed. “Think about it. It’s been ten years, do you really think I was eight when we met?”
“Who knows. Human kids all look the same to me.”
Marinette groaned. “I’m not -- you know what? I don’t care anymore.”
“You do, though,” cooed Harley.
A scowl made its way onto her face. “Whatever. Can I use the misty-thingy?”
Poison Ivy handed it over and Marinette spritzed Catwoman. The woman hissed and batted it away.
“I’m choosing dinner,” she said dangerously as she disappeared to the kitchen.
Marinette fought between the instincts to laugh and curse, handing the spritzer back to Poison Ivy. She rested her head on Harley’s lap and smiled to herself as the woman started to braid her hair.
“We still on for that raid on Sunday?” Asked Poison Ivy.
“Sure. I’ll see if I can get Red Hood to go.”
Harley laughed. “I’m sure Batman wouldn’t be too happy about that.”
“Has that ever stopped him before?”
“True, true.”
Catwoman emerged with what looked like a burnt brick. She dropped a plate of it onto Marinette’s lap.
“Eat up, kid.”
She went a little pale as she stared at the food in front of her.
“Well, you see, about that...” She opened a portal under herself and disappeared.
~
She heard a click from her earpiece and flicked it on.
“Right, found one. Looks like a normal mugging,” said Jason.
“Location?” Asked Damian.
Jason gave his general area and sighed. “Right. I’m heading in.”
She listened in on the fight as she hopped from rooftop to rooftop.
Ever since Dick had taken up the Batman mantle (Bruce had, for the most part, retired), he’d made a few changes to patrols.
The first thing he’d done was make it mandatory that they communicate when and where they were getting in fights and transmit the audio. There had been the usual amount of backlash that arises when the bats are asked to do something for their own good, but they’d stopped complaining that it wasn’t necessary when Tim had walked into the manor for coffee with a knife sticking out of his side.
(She was pretty sure that he’d done that on purpose, but whatever.)
Next, he’d set up rotations so people actually got sleep some nights. They switched between two teams. The first (and best) was made up of Jason, Marinette, and Damian. The rest of the time it would be Dick, Tim, and -- occasionally -- Bruce. Most criminals opted for nights with the second team. She never could figure out why --.
They heard the click of Jason’s gun and Dick’s voice cut in: “Don’t kill them!”
Jason scoffed. “What’re you gonna do if I do?”
“I… Mari, tell him not to kill them.”
“Jason --,” she began.
“I’ll buy you a coffee.”
“-- is a grown adult who can make his own decisions.”
She could practically feel Jason’s smirk as Dick cursed.
“Damn, why are you so easy to buy? I’ll... um…”
Bruce cut in: “I’ll build a starbucks in the room next to yours.”
Her eyes widened. “Jason, if you pull that trigger I will never talk to you again.”
“You wouldn’t be able to stay away.”
“Try me.”
There was a short silence and then the click of a safety turning back on. Jason mumbled about how it wasn’t fair, along with a lot of other colorful things.
Marinette, however, was grinning.
~
She slipped into the house and yawned.
Damian looked up from where he was petting Chaton on the couch.
She raised her eyebrows. “Not even gonna detransform?”
He sunk into his hooded jacket. “It’s comfy.”
Marinette rolled her eyes. “Whatever, give me my cat back.”
“He’s our cat.”
She huffed. “He’s my cat. Give him back.”
“Why don’t we let him choose?”
She scoffed lightly and crossed her arms over her chest. “Not while you’re still Kitten.”
“I told you to call me BatCat!”
“And I told you that I’d rather you beat me to death with a spoon.”
He stuck his tongue out at her and detransformed. They set the cat between the two of them and made cooing noises.
Chaton went to Damian without even sparing her a glance.
“Traitor,” she murmured.
Both of their phones went off and they checked them.
Ah. The Thesmartones chat. It included Riddler and every bat except for Dick
The partners both groaned and opened the chat.
Riddleboye: Can one of you test my new escape room?
Her phone blew up and she glanced at the different chat. Whohastodoriddlersriddlethistime.
Queenbee: Not it
Therealdamianwayne: Not it.
Bruecbrucewayne: not it
Redhoodiewastaken: not it :)
Brucesfavorite: not it
Coffeeismygirlfriendmarinetteismywife: Not it!
Imsurroundedbyidiots: Not it
She groaned when she realized she was the only one who hadn’t done it yet.
Notsleepingwasaconsciousdecision: i hate you all
Damian had the audacity to laugh. She sent him a tiny glare and kicked him in the side. He cursed and she was only saved from his wrath by the cat currently resting on his stomach.
She went back to the original chat.
Notsleepingwasaconsciousdecision: im free monday night
Riddleboye: Thanks!
Notsleepingwasaconsciousdecision: its fine see you then
~
She raised her eyebrows as she stepped into the room and saw Tim awake, clicking away at his laptop. This wasn’t exactly new (far from it, really) but it was still sometimes, somehow, surprising.
She changed into her now well-worn hoodie and crawled into bed. She picked up her newest project, a new costume for Red Hood, and started stitching.
He wrapped an arm around her and drew her close so he could type.
She rested her head against his chest. She stitched in time with his heartbeat.
Her eyes glanced over his screen and she sighed lightly. “No information yet?”
He shook his head. “Nope, still don’t know how to help lower his cortisol levels back to normal. There’s nothing on it.”
“Yeah, it’s almost as if no one else on Earth has Scarecrow’s problem.”
This earned an eye roll. He closed the many tabs on cortisol inhibitors and pulled up a spreadsheet for work. “It’s always ��reduce stress!’ and ‘take fish oil!’ and other things that we’ve already tried.”
“Yeah, but there’s nothing else we can do. We just have to hope that his therapist can help him work through it.” She blinked. “That reminds me: Linda said that you need to see her.”
“But I don’t have to see her again until Wednesday!”
She rolled her eyes. “It’s Thurs -- actually…” She checked her phone. “Friday. It’s Friday.”
Tim cursed. “So, that’s what I forgot.”
“What, the week day or the therapy session?”
“Both.”
She rolled her eyes.
He pulled away slightly for a second to grab his drink and then handed her a coffee. “Behold. Just the way you like it.”
A blush rose to her cheeks as she took it from him. “Oh, sweetie, you shouldn’t have!”
“Don’t worry about it. I was already making some for myself and yours isn’t hard to make.”
She grinned. “It’s going to be easier to get from now on. I told you I could get Bruce to buy us a coffee shop.”
He huffed and rested his chin atop her head. “Shut up.”
“Eloquent.” She teased. “Anyways, I think I’ve achieved favorite kid status.”
Tim laughed. “Please, bean. You’re not even his favorite daughter. Remember that time he bought Cass an entire police station’s equipment?”
She rolled her eyes and set down her project so she could cross her arms over her chest. “Shut up.”
“Eloquent,” he said, a cheeky grin on his face.
She laughed and tipped her head back to press a kiss to his lips. “I’ve decided I’m getting a divorce.”
He finally set his computer down, wrapping his arms around her waist and pulling her onto his lap. “You wouldn’t. You love me.”
She smiled and reached up, cupping his cheeks in her hands. “I do.”
Marinette pulled him down for another kiss.
~~~
Holy shit. It’s over.
Right, I’m going to get sappy for a minute so if you don’t want that then I would like to just thank you for reading! You can stick around if you’d like and if not then I hope you have a good life! <3
Okay, now for the emotions stuff.
For context, I’ve been writing a book for the better part of three years. Writing a book is... hard. Shocking, I know. But, in all seriousness, I’m not even halfway through.
I was getting really burned out on writing, and one of my creator friends suggested I do a ‘break project’. I didn’t want to jump into another book but I wanted to keep writing, so I said ‘fuck it I’ll go back to my roots fanfiction it is’.
I’d been reading a lot of Daminette lately, so I decided to put my own spin on the ship and write a cute fluffy fanfiction of around 30k words. Ha.
But, seriously, this project has been really therapeutic for me. It’s showed me that I can actually write a decent story, that people enjoy my writing, that I don’t need to go back and change things constantly...
This was kind of supposed to be a one-time thing and then I was going to disappear, but I found myself actually enjoying writing fanfiction. 
I don’t know.
The plan is now to continue. I have another fic that I’m currently plotting out. It won’t be daily uploads, because each ‘chapter’ is going to be an arc in itself and I don’t want to rush that. I’m not going to give too much of it away, but it’s another mlb x dcu crossover so stick around if you want some of that.
Since I’m still in the planning phase and all the chapters are going to take ages, I’m opening up requests. Feel free to submit a prompt. Or ask me questions if you’d like. I’ll answer in 2-3 business months.
With love,
‘Olivia’
~
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