#and one of my worst ships comes from that show 🥰)

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there was just a guest on FBI: MW who was in syfy's Van Helsing, the show where i first saw* Missy Peregrym, and i was so sad when i realized it was MW and not FBI, and that he wouldn't actually meet Maggie, it would have been so much fun to see them together again

*read: fell in love with

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Unforeseen Reunion | TP Ratchet x Drift/Deadlock | NSFW 18+

Word count: 7000+ 😲

Warnings: Smut ( valve and plug interfacing ), mentions of violence, near death experiance and angst. NSFW 18+.

Notes: So yeah, I lost complete control of myself. Holy crap, I'm impressed with myself. I decided I wanted to go with Prime universe as that's what my hyperfixation went with. I didn't completely focus on canon just so everyone is aware. I had way too much fun with this and I'm so obsessed with these two. Enjoy this work of art you beautiful sinners. 🥰

The crash landing was the sign that his luck had run out. Deadlock had been travelling for far too long, isolated in his barely hanging on ship without contact, that's until he managed to receive a transmission from decepticons. He should've been pleased, yet he didn't feel it, just emptiness.

It wasn't until he hit the earth's atmosphere that his ship decided it had enough, power shut off and he came plummeting towards the earth. He tried gaining control but that failed so he tried contacting the decepticons requesting assistance, but even that was a deadend. No help was coming for him.

Bracing for impact he thought he might have a chance but the rough landing was much harsher than expected, throwing him around and a sharp piece of metal punctured through him, slicing his fuel tank and severed a fuel line. Terrific.

Deadlock manages to get himself out of his piece of scrap ship and take a few steps forward, only to collapse onto the ground with a pained grunt and look down at his servo that held his wounded area to see a lot of energon was leaking from him. He can't help but let out a vented chuckle, convinced this was going to be it for him.

Only managing to get a short distance away from the crash site he couldn't walk anymore and slid his back down against a tree, venting out heavily as if a pressure was lifted from him. He knew though, his systems were struggling, warnings flashing before his optics, it won't be long before he shuts down and slowly offline from bleeding out. One more time he tried making contact but got nothing in return. Either his com links weren't working or they didn't care about him.

There used to be someone in his life who was very dear to him. He saved his life after getting himself hooked up on circuit boosters, gave him a chance, and he stayed with him. He loved him with all his spark, then the war started and that's where it all went wrong.

Eventually he would make choices and every choice has a price. Whether it was worth it or not, Deadlock never wanted to answer that himself.

He was one of Megatron's favourites. He's the one who gave him his new name and grew from that back on cybertron. He thought he was making the right choice, but he was wrong, and he's had to live with that all this time. He became emotionless, making him willing to kill when needed or ordered, leaving a trail of horrors behind which was enough to make any autobot and decepticon worst nightmare.

Now, he was dying, alone. Just as he deserved.

Leaning himself against the tree all he could do was observe his surroundings, take in what might be his last memories. Everything grew weaker, more burned out as his fuel tank pumped harshly to get energon through him, only for it to leak out.

His audios managed to pick up some sounds of a ground bridge. Had they finally decided to show pity and come for him? He onlines his hazy optics only to be met with the end of a blaster and an autobot symbol.

"Oh just my luck." Deadlock manages to say between harsh vents. "An autobot gets to watch me die in my final moments....or, you can take the shot, put me out of my misery?"

"Is that what you want?" Arcee keeps her guard up and weapons ready, not wanting to give him any chance to attack if he was faking.

"Does it matter what I want?"

"No, it doesn't." Bulkhead comes up behind, forcing Deadlock to move his helm up to look at him.

"Well you're a big one." He casually smirks through his pain. "So, what's it going to be? What's the...autobot thing to do?"

Arcee and Bulkhead had been sent to investigate the crash sight after it made impact. They knew it was a decepticon shuttle but weren't sure if it was occupied. Upon arrival it's confirmed. Neither wanted to let their guard down just in case he had any tricks or if the decepticons might show up.

"What do you think?" Bulkhead asks Arcee, unsure what they should do. Letting him die without them helping didn't seem right, but he was a con.

"Let's call Optimus, see what he has to say." Arcee answers.

Deadlock heard the autobot leader's name causing him to let out another vented chuckle. "Your big boss is here? Huh. Alright, call him, see if he has mercy on a filthy con." He was just talking, it's all he can do for his final moments.

While Bulkhead makes the call Arcee keeps her optics on him with her blaster still drawn. "You got a name?"

The big ask. "If I told you...you're going to wish you pulled the trigger." He decided to not say his name. If she found out, she might just pull the trigger on him without hesitation, not that he cared.

"I don't recognize you. You're not someone I've bumped into before, and I remember every bot I have. So who are you?"

"How about you tell me your name first?" Deadlock manages to tilt his helm to the side as he meets her optics, letting out a smirk when all she gives is silence, his pearly white dentas and sharp fangs pressing over his bottom lips. "Yeah...that's what I thought."

Deadlock notices Arcee say something else but it all goes deaf to his audios. He's lost a lot of energon and he knows he's in trouble as things in him start slowly shutting down. He manages to activate his audios again and this is when he hears more voices and steps coming closer. If he was to survive, he wasn't even sure what he'd do next, not anymore.

A part of him did want to be offline. It'll end everything for good, and perhaps give him some peace of mind, not that he deserved it.

"Hey, you still with us?" Bulkhead taps the top of his helm to bring him back, causing him to let out a groan and online again.

"Sort of..." Is his only honest answer.

"Well, today is your lucky day con. Our medic is going to come and patch you up. Try to remember this moment that we helped you." Bulkhead adds firmly for him to think about.

"I'm jumping with joy." Deadlock chuckles dryly, a little energon drops from his mouth as he tastes it flooding in his intake. Yeah, he felt it was too late.

"Drift?"

That voice.

He manages to move his helm back up and his amber optics flickered as he meets the gaze of the ghostly familiar figure standing before the ground. Ratchet. His Ratchet.

"You know him?" Arcee was surprised to hear Ratchet say the decepticons name. But Ratchet couldn't answer, he was frozen, as if he was petrified or enthralled by the very sight of what he thought he lost those years ago.

Deadlock, his given decepticon name, lets out a softly dry laugh that lingers longer with a smile, disbelief and sadness overwhelming his struggling processor. He finally found him.

"Perhaps I am lucky." He says with his wide smile, sharp dentas glittering in under the sunlight. "It's good to see you Ratty."

Under Optimus' orders Ratchet came to patch up the new decepticon before sending him on their way. He was a medic, he treated the wounded, but treating a decepticon was different. He's done it before of course, but not often. Ratchet felt his servos shake as he stood there. Hearing the old pet name made his vents hitch a little and his own emotions boiling up, completely deaf to Arcee as she questions him.

It's not until Deadlock slumps against the tree that Ratchet finally acted. Hurrying forward he came to his side and started to work on him. His wounds were bad, he knew this already just simply looking at him from afar.

"How do you know him?" Arcee repeats coming to the medics side.

"Later." Ratchet's focus was on him. "Let me work."

Neither Bulkhead or Arcee have ever seen Ratchet like this before. Sure, they've seen him sad, angry, annoyed, happy, but this is different.

When he feels his servos against his frame Deadlock lets out a shutter, both relief and pain. He tilts his helm up to get a better look at Ratchet and manages to hold a soft smile that feels foreign to him, he hasn't smiled like that in a very long time. There was a deep history there, and the two went through a lot together, right before he hurt his Ratty. He didn't deserve to be saved, or given a chance. Damage was done.

"Saving your life, again." Ratchet mutters mostly to himself, his own emotions rattled. "Reckless. Stupid. All this time and you're online, still. I'm out of my mind. I should hate you, no, I do hate you, but my spark is aching for you." His voice is low as if he's whispering to himself but Deadlock hears it. "Why did you....How could you...." His words break apart and that hits Deadlock hard.

"I'm sorry." Is all he can whisper, touching Ratchet's working servo and gaining his attention. "I'm sorry....I'm so sorry." Apologising won't fix the past or his choices, but it's the first time he's ever said it to him.

As much as Ratchet is hurting he knew he couldn't lose him again. Whatever happens next will be whether it was too late or not.

"Kids, stay back." Bulkhead hurries through the ground bridge first and warns the kids all hanging around the raised platform along with Agent Fowler and June.

"What's going on?" Raf asks curiously, noticing his worried expression.

"Optimus, he won't listen. Can you talk to him? This is crazy!" Arcee is next feeling enraged about Ratchet's decision.

Ratchet comes through next, carrying a badly wounded Deadlock in his arms with strength no one else had seen him with for a long time.

"You brought a Decepticon back here?" June raises her hand over Raf and makes sure the kids stay behind her. "Ratchet the kids are here!"

"Don't like it, find the door." Ratchet barks back, taking many of them off guard. He ignores everyone and places him on the medical berth, quickly gathering tools to start stabilising him.

Deadlock was hanging close over the edge, everything in him hurt and his processor was swimming wildly. He had no idea where he was, only that Ratchet was with him, and that's all that mattered.

"So cool." Miko comes closer to get a better view. Jack tries to stop her.

"Miko-"

"No way I want to watch!"

Optimus comes closer but stays out of Ratchet's way and stares at the decepticon brought in, his optics widening a little as if something clicked in his processor, and Arcee notices this.

"You know him too. Ratchet called him Drift. Who is that?"

Optimus is quiet before looking at his comrades. "Ratchet knows him. Let him work."

"But-"

"Please, Arcee." Optimus knew just how sensitive this would be for his old friend, and can't imagine but he must be feeling right now.

Arcee finally backs off but that doesn't mean she was alright with this. Most of everyone wasn't. Miko sits on the edge of the lower platform as she watches Ratchet do his magic on the decepticon, a fascination. June only manages to keep Jack and Raf away, still not liking that a decepticon was near the kids base.

"Prime, is this safe?" Agent Fowler questions him quietly. "I get that he's a friend of Ratchet's, but that doesn't change he's a decepticon."

"I understand your concern. But please, I'm asking you all to let Ratchet handle this." Optimus didn't want to explain everything in that moment, respecting Ratchet and hoping everyone will follow the same.

Deadlock was in and out of it for a bit, gold optics flashing repeatedly as Ratchet tried to stop the bleeding and keep him stable. Everything hurt through him, but not as bad as the ache in his spark that throbs with grief for his Ratty. He was saving his life yet again, trying to at least.

"Are you still with me?" Ratchet's tone is more gentle as he hovers over him once he manages to stop the bleeding.

"Ah huh..." He manages to say between heavy vents.

"I need to repair the damage and get energon running through you again. Try to keep still, you're at the start of a long road recovery."

Before he could say anything else, Ratchet had gone to get a few things. Deadlock tilts his helm a little to the side and through his flickering vision he spots something, or someone. The pink is what catches his attention first and gives himself a moment to adjust his vision before it clears up almost.

"Well, you're tiny." He manages to say softly through a short chuckle.

"I might be small, but I can rip your spark out." Miko doesn't hold back.

"I better...stay on your good side than. What are you?"

"What am I? I'm human. The names Miko. You've never seen a human before?"

"Nah, you're the first, Miko."

"What are your first impressions?"

"Well...you did threaten to rip my spark out...so I'm fearful of you." He only meant it as a joke and Miko knew this, and she gave a small smirk at him. She didn't like cons, but this one seems different.

Even Ratchet didn't seem bothered about his interaction with her. June slowly comes closer, Jack and Raf right behind her, still being careful.

"You're Drift, right?" Miko leans her chin against the railing feeling a bit more comfortable to stay.

"Yes." It's Ratchet that answers quickly before Deadlock could. He understood. Meeting his gaze there was that firm and serious blaze he knew all too well from his Ratty. It meant there was going to be no further mention about it.

"Yeah...I'm Drift." Saying the name again after so long felt weird, but guess he'll adjust to it again.

Suddenly, he jolts and groans in pain through clenched dentas as Ratchet wields something into place. It hurts a lot, but at least it doesn’t last too long.

"Could you give me a warning next time?" He vents once it stops.

"Nope." Ratchet answers simply.

He understands.

"How do you two know each other?" It's Raf that bravely asks, mainly both of them.

"We...go way back." Drift answers, optics shifting at the medic at his side. "Ain't that right Ratty?"

"Hm." Ratchet doesn't answer much after hearing his old nickname.

"Ratty?" Miko can't help but smirk at the medic.

"Only he is allowed to call me that." He tells her. No one else ever did.

"He hates it, but I get away with it." Drift smirks lightly before wincing again. "Frag..." Optics manage to cast over at the other autobots standing together outside the bay and staring, most of them looking not too happy causing him to vent out. "Stop."

Ratchet does but only because he's confused. "What?"

"Just...stop. Just...you shouldn't be helping, you know?"

"Do you want to be offline?" Ratchet hits his tool against the table causing the humans the jump and gives an intense stare at Drift. "Do you just want to give up?"

"Your friends don't want to waste resources on a filthy con...I don't deserve it. You...you shouldn't be helping me."

"Well, too bad. You don't get to have a say in what I do, we're well past that. Perhaps you're right about not deserving to be saved, but the only one that gets to decide your fate is me." Ratchet leans closer to Drift, optics burning, before he erupts. "The only way you will be offline is if I allow it, because I'm the only one who has every right to let you bleed out right now! You don't get to decide your fate! I do! Is that understood?!"

His outburst is heard by everyone. Even the humans shrink away a little, never seeing Ratchet this angry before. Something deep was there, but no one knew just how deep.

Drift doesn't flinch. He takes it, accepts Ratchet's rage. He's right, only he has the right to decide what happens next. All he can do is let him do what he wants, he is no longer in control of his fate.

"Understood."

Ratchet lets out a heavy vent and goes back to work on him, only to look up when he feels everyone staring. "What?" He snaps, bothered that everyone was just staring.

"Everyone, let's give them space." Optimus finally says. "Ratchet has work to do." He'll give that privacy to his old friend without distractions.

June leads the kids away and Miko follows to let Ratchet work. Only Optimus understands what Ratchet must be feeling, he knew what Drift meant to him, and knew just what they've both dealt with over the years. The others all had raising questions but at least they weren't hammering either him or Ratchet with them to get answers, and respected what Optimus had said.

It is a long recovery for Drift. Weeks go by, but he is doing better. Ratchet worked hard to repair the damage he received from the crash and make sure his fuel lines were pumping correctly. He worked his magic and did a good job on Drift, never giving up.

"Alright, follow my digit." Ratchet was doing simple tests, everyday he did them, and Drift obeys as his optics follow the moving digit in front of him, clearing and without struggle. "Good. Better today."

Drift was feeling better, both physically and mentally. After being by himself so long it was going to take time adjusting to have others around.

Not the autobots, mainly the humans kept him company. Drift was curious about these organics. Sure, he's come across them before, but not humans. He doesn't mind them.

"Does this mean I'm off bed rest?" Drift asks as he straightens his back. Ratchet shakes his helm with a short chuckle.

"Yeah right. You're clear when I say you're clear. Just because you look and feel better doesn't mean you're fit for duty."

"Duty?

Ratchet stops and looks at him, optics unreadable before venting softly. "You're staying, right?"

It hasn't been something they've talked about really. Drift had no idea what to do next honestly. Since finding Ratchet he didn't want to leave him behind, not again.

"You're here, so I'll stay. Don't think your friends are going to like that though." He didn't think they would welcome him into team prime. "Does that mean I've got to become an autobot?"

"Don't worry about them, I'll handle it. They don't know your decepticon name, yet. I don't want to hear that name ever again. And yes, you'll become an autobot, because I said so."

Drift understands. "Alright." He was willing to do whatever Ratchet wanted. All he wanted was to have him back in his life again, to not throw away his second chance.

"Good. Now, let's have a closer look."

Drift feels Ratchet's servos touch both sides of his cheek platings, examining him further and making sure he didn't miss anything. But Drift slowly leans into the touch, purring, and reaches up to touch them both under his own. The action gets Ratchet's attention and they both stare at one another, the fondness slowly growing as the medic's optics soften.

Ratchet does like the purrs Drift makes, he always did, and hearing it again makes his knees feel weak. Such a strange effect it gives, yet so addictive. It's been so long since he last heard them, causing his feelings to stir wildly. As much as he hated him for his choices, he never stopped loving him.

Neither did Drift. He has a lot of regrets, but the one he'll always carry is he hurt Ratchet. He'll always carry the weight of that.

Leaning closer, Drift presses the front of their helms together, savouring the moment for as long as he can as his optics shutter closed. Ratchet doesn't lean away and lets it happen.

Drift wants to kiss him, and he tries to do this by leaning closer towards his lips, but Ratchet stops him. The moment is gone.

"It's too soon." Ratchet can only whisper, trying to keep his emotions from pouring out. "You left a deep wound, one I could never repair."

Drift knew he deserved that.

"Your injuries aren't the only recovery you'll be going through. There's a lot....between us, that needs time to heal. Won't be simple, but I need time to adjust to this, to trust you again."

"So there's a chance?" Drift held onto that hope.

Ratchet vents softly and caresses his servo against his cheek plating again, running his digit under his optics gently. "I hope so."

That's all Drift needs. "Take your time then."

Optimus gathered everything, even the humans, so they can all listen to what Ratchet has to say. Drift was resting and took this moment to explain some details to his friends. They've all been very patient.

"How's he doing?" It's June that asks, the only one who was kind enough to ask about Drift.

"Doing better. Still recovering, but he's making good progress." Ratchet answers.

He looks up at everyone who stares at him, all focus and attention. His optics glance over at Optimus who was there for him through this. It's time to reveal it.

"Drift and I have a long history, all the way to the time before the war started on cybertron. He hasn't made the best choices in his life, which is why things are messy between us, but he wants to change, make better choices. I'm willing to give him that second chance."

"I understand your concerns." Optimus then jumps in and speaks to everyone. "We both do, but I trust Ratchet to take charge of him, and I believe there's hope for Drift, to become better."

"So he's becoming an autobot?" Jack asked curiously.

"He will. It's a lot to ask but it would be a great help if everyone treated him fairly, so he can settle into this life. He's been alone for a long time without contact, it has affected him, but with time he'll adjust and do better." Ratchet explains.

"Is he like your best friend?" Raf asks innocently.

The medic gives himself a moment before finally saying it. "Drift is my conjunx endura."

"What?' Arcee quirks quickly in surprise.

"You never said you had one!" Bulkhead is just as surprised while Bumblebee lets out a bunch of whirls and beeps along with them.

"Ah, sorry, humans are confused here." Agent Fowler raises his hand. "What's a...conjunx endura?"

"Well, for humans to understand, we're married." Ratchet clarifies.

"What?!"

Ratchet knew this was going to be a shock to everyone, and he'll silently admit he was trying to avoid this moment, but knew that wasn't going to last forever. They had a right to know what Drift meant to him, and what happened.

"Drift comes from a troubled life. He got himself addicted to circuit boosters, drugs for humans to understand, lost himself, and Optimus found him, or at the time he was Orion. He brought him to me where I had my own medical centre, doing what I could for those who were considered lower classes. I saved his life there, and I saw just how lost he looked, so I gave him a choice to stay and help me out, or he could leave. He got clean and stayed, few of the smart choices he's ever made. Over time we grew fond of one another and...well, we ended up together for a long while, fell in love, things were good and we were happy." Ratchet remembers those fond memories with him before he close his optics.

"Than the war started. Megatron approached me, offered me a position as his head medic officer, but I declined. I thought that was it, but I was very wrong. Megatron got to Drift, manipulated his mind, gave him false hope, and he fell for it. The next time I saw him he wore the Decepticon badge. He was already convinced I was going to join him, but I refused. I got angry, expressed my disappointment loudly. The Drift I grew to love left that day and he became stone cold. Megatron gave him the order to destroy the medical centre and he did it, leaving me in ruins. Megatron gives him a new name..." Ratchet went quiet. He couldn't say it, and looks at Optimus, who understands

"Deadlock."

The name rings through the autobots. They all knew that name all too well. The horrors they've heard, the carnage left behind by the same bot that was now in their base.

The humans all take notice of their reactions. "You've heard of that name?"

"The very name that a lot feared." Arcee says to them, voice full of dread. "I never bumped into him, only heard what he had done, and it's nothing good."

"Drift is Deadlock? The very con that Megatron favoured?" Bulkhead struggled to process this.

"Why did Megatron favour him?" Jack sounds worried.

"Because of his lack of emotion, no empathy, and did as he was told without hesitation." Ratchet adds through a shaky vent. "But...he's coming back around, the Drift I know. After what happened, I joined Optimus to try to do what I could for the autobots, all the while trying to silently mend the damage done to my spark. As much as I hated Drift, I never stopped loving him, and always held on some hope he might come back."

"And he did." June says softly, moved by the story he told everyone to have a better understanding of what just happened. Though they were concerned about his past with the decepticons, they understood what Ratchet must be feeling to get his lover back again after so long.

Ratchet lets out a shaky vent and looks at everyone. "I'm willing to forgive for his mistakes, because that's my choice. I need to ask you all to respect our privacy, our past, and for there to be no further questions about Drift's time with the decepticons. Please, don't shut him out, give him a chance, get to know him. He might not be the smartest, and he's made terrible choices, but there is good in him."

"I don't like cons, but he seems...different." Miko perks up, looking over at Bulkhead. "I've gotten to know him a little, he's not so bad. Just have to ignore that history part with the cons."

Bulkhead groaned in displeasement but knew there wasn't really going to be any other way around this. Drift was going to become one of them, so they might as well start opening up to him.

"We'll do that." Arcee then says through a soft vent. "For you Ratchet, we'll give him a chance."

Ratchet feels himself relax a little hearing this. He had a pretty good team here. "Thank you."

Drift is up and walking. He then finds himself facing the autobots and humans, all looking at him as Optimus and Ratchet approach. Least they didn't have weapons drawn on him, it's a start.

Optimus is first to speak. "Drift, we've all talked to one another and Ratchet has informed the others about your bondage with him. It is Ratchet's wish to give you a second chance, for you to leave behind your past with the decepticons and to become one of our own. I ask for you to have zero connections with any decepticon and to prove yourself among our team here."

Drift looks at Ratchet who gives a simple nod at him. This was his chance to fix what he tore apart between them, to show he could be something better. He wanted that.

"Thanks, Optimus. I'll do whatever Ratty says, I don't want to let him down again, or anyone for that matter."

"Ratty?" June can't help but repeat through a small smile.

"None of you are allowed to call me that." Ratchet points at everyone with a firm glare.

"Only I can." Drift sends him a smirk knowing he was right about that.

"I'm going to lay down a few things as well." Ratchet starts as he steps closer towards him. "You'll follow our rules, our ways, no arguments or whining about it. You'll treat everyone here with respect and you'll be treated the same in return. Everything is going to be stripped, your model, colours, nothing that will give any decepticon a hint who you used to be, a complete new look. Understood?"

Drift listens and doesn't hesitate to nod. Like he said, whatever his Ratty wanted. He was in his control now. "Sure, alright." He gives a smile, sharp denta's lightly exposed.

Ratchet stares before pointing. "I'm removing those modified dentas." Drift's smile slips and goes to say something but Ratchet raises his servo. "Nope! They're going. They look ridiculous on you."

Drift vents heavily. Complete new look. "Alright...whatever you want."

"Wow, who are you and what have you done with Drift?" Miko asks the completely new looking robot sitting in the medical bay. She had just arrived with the others. It seemed Ratchet was very serious.

Drift sends the girl a soft smirk, sharp dentas now back to their default model along with most of his amour, colours neutral grey, ready for a new scan and colour.

"Ratchet wasn't kidding." He answers through a gentle chuckle. "But hey, I think it will be good to have something different."

"Something calm." Ratchet points out as he sets up some programs for Drift to scan and choose from. "Soft, nice, you know? Nothing dramatic."

"Ugh, such a control freak." Miko comes up onto the ramp along with the others.

Drift can't help but snicker. He liked humans. They were different, had a lot of character, he grew to like them very quickly in his short time there.

"What colour, Ratty?" Drift asks as he looks through some models.

"That's for you to decide."

"I want what you want."

"I want you to pick yourself. I'm sure you can't mess up on that." Ratchet doesn't mean for that to sound harsh, but it did. Drift shifts his amber optics at him, looking like a wounded feline, and Ratchet vents softly, lowering his voice. "I didn't mean-"

"It's fine." Drift doesn't want him to apologise, so he forces a smile. "I'll pick myself." He says trying to sound positive.

Ratchet nods and leaves him to it.

"Ouch." Miko whispers while hanging over the railing.

"Are things alright between you two?" The youngest Raf asks kindly.

"It's not simple, but it's progress." Drift answers honestly.

For a moment he scans through the new designs before looking up at Ratchet talking with Optimus. His optics scan over him and he smiles. He's picked a colour. Adding the program he scans the new look, his armour shifting colour and shape right in front of the kids to watch, astonished by the change happening before it finishes.

Drift looks at his reflection and smiles more. He looks good, very good. He now holds a very similar colour matching with Ratchet.

"It's a good look." Jack praises.

"You and Ratchet got matching colours now. That's cute." Miko beams.

Drift shifts his optics at Ratchet who is looking at him now, a lingering enchantment holds in his optics as he stares at Drift. They both do indeed share the same colours, a similar design, with Drift only being more slender framed.

"It is cute." Drift sends Ratchet a wink.

Ratchet has to try to cool himself when he sees Drift. He wouldn't say it, but he feels himself heat up at the sight of his long lost mate looking like that. He likes the new look. Clearing his vocals, he nods simply. "Very nice."

Drift doesn't miss the pink hue at his white cheek plating.

Laying on his berth in his given room Drift finds himself staring at the ceiling and letting his processor run over everything that's happened. He was now an autobot, one of team prime. His servo runs over the new symbol over his chest and lets out a soft vent.

It's not that he was disgusted by it, but it does feel foreign still. All this was going to take time to adjust, to move on from his troubled past and do better for him and for Ratchet.

All that time ago, when he hurt him, he lost himself. He became something dark, horrible, one of Megatron's favourites because he did anything he was told. All those memories will forever haunt him, but he hopes he can move past all that and start over with Ratchet. It's all he wants.

The sudden knock at his door jolts him out of his thoughts and goes to open it. He stares at Ratchet who stands on the other side.

"Did I wake you?" Ratchet asks through a soft tone.

"No, recharge is...it's not easy these days." Drift admits.

Ratchet nods lightly. "Can I come in?"

Drift feels his spark thump rapidly as he nods, allowing him to enter and closing the door behind. He watches as Ratchet turns to face him, and there's that struggling look he held, when he wanted to say something but couldn't find the words.

Drift comes closer, calmly stepping in front of him and trying to look into his optics. He can feel the heat radiating from his charris that he wants to touch, but holds back.

"I wanted to see you." Ratchet manages to say. "I...I just want to be with you." Hearing this makes Drift smile, only for it to slip away hearing his next words. "But I'm scared you're going to hurt me again."

"I know." Drift knows he hurt him badly, he'll never forget that. "And...I'm scared you're never going to stop hating me."

"I don't hate you. I'm just trying to trust you again."

"What can I do?" Drift doesn't know himself. "Tell me what to do."

"No." Ratchet shakes his helm, face hardening. "I want you to decide for yourself, not what I or anyone else tells you." On his own free will, not in control.

Drift gets it now. So, he does that. He touches his face plating, running his digits across and savouring the warm feeling, before closing the distance and kissing him gently.

The kiss is simple and short, but it's what Drift wants, what Ratchet wants. It's broken for just a mere moment before Drift dives in again, slowly deepening it as he slides his servos across Ratchet's shoulders and running behind his neck. Without holding back anymore ratchet consumes the kiss they share and backs him back against the berth, leaning over and pressing himself between his thighs as their lingering heated moans fill the room.

"I've missed you." Ratchet manages to whisper between kisses. "Primus...I've missed you so much."

"I'm here, I'm right here, and I'm never leaving you." Drift says before he retracts his panel, revealing his already soaking valve and the housing opens for his spike to throb out. "Please, Ratty, I need you inside me."

Climbing up over him, Ratchet retracts his panel and his throbbing spike emerges from its housing. He rubs himself against Drift, sliding between the lips of his valve, catching his sensitive node with each thrust. Drift throws his helm back against the berth and wraps his legs tightly around his waist, tugging him close and eager to get him inside.

Finally, Ratchet sinks in, groaning lowly as his spike fills Drift, feeling every ridge running against his inner walls, all the while Drift arches his back as he's filled so perfectly, mouth open as he mewls lowly. He missed this, he missed Ratchet.

Ratchet holds himself up as best he could over Drift before he sets a pace, thrusting his hips against Drift while grunting and venting heavily.

"Ratty, so good, so fragging good!" Drift chants as he holds onto him, clenching his valve around his thickness while running his servos along Ratchet's arms.

However, Ratchet makes a blunt noise, as if he's trying something but is struggling, right before he stops moving and lets out an annoyed heavy vent.

"What's wrong?" Drift vents densely as he feels Ratchet's hesitation and tries to avoid his lingering stare, removing himself from his valve as he backs up. "Hey, hey, Ratty, talk to me. D-did I do something wrong?" He touches his face plating and watches as Ratchet's optics shutter closes and leans into his touch.

"No, no, you did nothing wrong. It's me."

"What do you mean?" Drift shifts closer, placing his other servo over his shoulder and listening to whatever he might want to say.

"It's embarrassing." Ratchet rolls his helm a little. Though he knew Drift wasn't going to let this slide, the concern hanging over his face causing him to vent once more. "I'm old. My stamina isn't what it use to be."

Realization hits Drift. So that's it. He can't hold back a smile.

"Don't you dare laugh." Ratchet warns but this only causes Drift to giggle lightly. "It's not funny."

"I'm not laughing." Drift only fails as he continues to giggle.

"Stop that, you're still laughing."

"I'm not, I'm not." Drift forces himself to calm down and bit back his smile before caressing his face. "Ratty, it's alright. Don't worry about it." Leaning close he kisses him gently. "How about you let me on top? Let me take care of you."

Drift gently pushes Ratchet onto the berth and has him lay down before straddling his lap, thighs trapping against his waist while his exposed valve rubs along Ratchet's throbbing spike, causing soft moans to leave from both of them. Drift hovers closer towards Ratchet's face with a tender smile.

"You always took care of me, now it's my turn to take care of you." Leaning closer, Drift kisses him, letting it linger before gently pushing his glossa inside, coiling with Ratchet's.

Positioning himself he sinks back down onto Ratchet's thick spike and starts to ride him, rolling his hips slowly, rocking himself and riding his spike slowly.

Ratchet moves his servos to his waist, gripping his digits into his soft armour while keeping the kiss deep between them, letting out short moans and feeling more comfortable like this.

Drift vents softly into the kiss, letting out short muffled moans as he sucks at Ratchet's glossa, clenching in sync with his movements as he rides him. He moves his servo between them and he starts to stroke himself, rubbing his tip gently before pumping his servo over, arousal and pleasure quickly boiling between them.

"Drift...Primus....you're so tight." Ratchet gently praises between heated moans against his lips.

"Ratty, oh Ratty! I feel so full, filling me so good." Drift presses his forehead against Ratchet's, keeping close while riding his thick spike buried deep in his valve, rubbing against his ceiling node while Ratchet takes over to stroke Drift's cable then.

Moments like these were dreamed between the two over their time apart from each other. So much war, hate, and now reunited, lost in the moment as if nothing happened.

Drift holds a firmer grip, throwing his weight down over again more firmly, clenching around the perfectly ridged spike throbbing in his valve and rubbing against his inner walls. Moans grew more feral between the two as Ratchet kept his moving servo around Drift, feeling ever twitch and transfluid coating his digits and along the length, wet sounds growing more louder as fluids start to build and pool

Tossing his helm back, Drift lets out a louder mewl, crying out in bliss as he rides Ratchet's spike more densely. "Frag, Ratty, frag, I won't be able to hold it back!"

"Do it, let yourself go." Ratchet gives the all clear between heated vents, because he too wasn't too far off from overloading either. "Let's do it together, same time."

Drift beams warmly through the intense pleasure boiling through him as he grinds himself down over again, venting and gasping sharply, soon muffled as Ratchet kisses him firmly and feels his spike suddenly erupt deep within him, thick ropes of fluids coating his inner walls with some dripping out. Within a moment he bites his lips and gasps out sharply as his own transfluids coat between him and Ratchet, a pink glow covering over Ratchet's digits as well.

Taking his servo, Drift lifts it up to his mouth and sucks at his digits to clean to fluids, tasting himself and letting out a delightful hum around each of them. Ratchet is always heated and flushed, he didn't think it would be possible to be even more, but he was wrong when Drift did this.

"So beautiful." He whispers, allured by the delightful sight as his cooling fans kick in along with Drift's.

"You're just as pretty." Drift whispers through a luminous smile. "I love you, Ratty. I never stopped loving you. My spark will always belong to you, my beloved."

Ratchet feels his very spark jump at his words. "I love you too, Drift. Always have and always will. We'll make this work, I promise."

Drift ends up snuggled up against Ratchet, tangled under his embrace as he purrs gently against his charris. Ratchet missed that purr, a soothing vibration and sound he always cherished.

"We'll be alright, won't we?" Ratchet asks as he caresses the back of Drift's helm.

"I believe so." He hums lightly, giving him a gentle nuzzle. "You've never loosing me ever again."

"Good."

Neither will ever be apart again.

[nevereverthem]

Gotham : Season 1 Episode 1

I fell upon the character of Jerome Valeska a few weeks ago and got an obsession over him. Then Jeremiah, Oswald Cobblepot, Edward Nygma (Nygmobblepot 🙄💕)... I watched videos, read fanfictions, followed Tumblr posts...

Today I'm FINALLY WATCHING THAT SHOW!!

I'm 5 minutes in and...

Selina is SO COOL

Bruce just experienced the worst night of his life DAMN! (By the way, leaving the boy alive is a stupid move... But I suppose there wouldn't be a story otherwise 🙄)

Jim Gordon!? I beg you pardon!? HOT AS FUCK!

Then, at the crime scene :

Jim is so soft talking to little Bruce. 🥺

The "There will be light" bit! 😭

"I should have done something. I was too scared." BOY! You couldn't have done ANYTHING! You would have just been killed in the lot if you'd moved.

"You can be STRONG." Hum... Thanks no thanks Jim. "Be strong!" Fuck you let him be a second. X) I get it huh, but damn it man. Boy just lost both his parents!

Bruce RUNNING TO ALFRED!! 😭😭

💥 INTRO TITLE 💥

OMG the Café! I only know it because of the soup scene with Jerome. 😭😭

Bullock pisses me off a little there but I get where he's coming from... Jim (the "new guy") so much wants to do his best!! 🥹

Renee Montoya... I'm forced by my brain to be reminded of the Harley Quinn movie. 😍

Do I have the right to say that Crispus Allen is an asshole?

At the station :

"She said you had to keep me huh?" JIM 😍🤣

"This is not a city, or a job for nice guys." OH MY... I just... He's right. Fuck. 😭😭

The compilation of arrestations & interviews with the music in the background is 🔥🔥.

EDWARD NYGMA!! I'm hyperventilating!! His first appearance, his freaking SMILE!! I... AAHHHHHHH!

His FIRST RIDDLE ❓and Jim immediately answering it!... Is it okay if I ship them a little for now, after 10 seconds? It is. What's the name of that ship? OMG. 🫶

Fish Mooney being a "last resort". 🤣 Btw, BEAUTIFUL 😍🎉

OSWALD COBBLEPOT 🔥😍🥰🐧☂️ Little umbrella holder... Btw, the way he ENJOYS watching the man being beaten up... Yeah... 🙄🙃

"If you let that hair go frizzy, you will be!" 🤣🤣🤣🤣 PLEASE

Oswald that BITCH 😭😭 He's like a soft little umbrella boy... And then he beats the shit out of the man already on the ground I can't!! I mean I know he's a villain but damn in the beginning he's like "Oh, I can beat him up too? Thank you that's so sweet to let me." *hit - hit* He's (I suppose) throwing his lack of confidence in the blows...

Harvey and Fish so casual, friendly... Jim *UTTER CONFUSION*

Jim already can't with their bullshit!! 🤣🤣

"Yeah, take it easy, Penguin!" - "You know I don't like to be called that!" Babyyyy 😢🐧

Butch is... I... 🤣🤣

"Drop the bat" - *Drops it proudly* 🤣🙃🐧🙄

"All in fun" Oswald... He sounds like a little boy and he's supposed to be 29 (as said on Google). I like his voice, but it's the way his says the sentences. Boy tries to sound all innocent, I can't.

"No problem. Fun." Says the guy kneeling on the floor with blood pooling in between his teeth...

"You're the new guy, huh? How do you like Gotham so far?" I mean... 🙄🤣🙃🥲

The exchange of looks between Fish and Jim...

Barbara Kean

"Talk to me." and he DOES. Jim, one point on the green flag side.

"You don't want to talk to daddy. (...) He's mean." 😭😭😭😭 Little girl.

The wife is terrified for sure and lying so that she doesn't get beaten up by her supposed to be husband. 😭😭😭😭

Bastard tryna escape. 😑

Jim is at his 100% 😮 Man's risking his life, only his fists to fight with...

Jim baby fighting for his life (and for Bruce)... Meanwhile Harvey *shoots once*

Case solved... I suppose. 🤔

Oswald and THE GLASSES 🫠🫠😍😍

"... framed by Fish Mooney and the cops." OMG Harvey what did you... Just to close a freaking case!?

And, Oswald, you're giving informations to Montoya and Allen? Oh MY! Fish is gonna "frizz" you for real 😮

"That poor orphan boy picked my conscience." NAAHHH 🤣😭

Bruce baby 😭😭 the funeral

Oh, Selina! She's a freaking cat from the start. 😌

"You kept your promise." Nnooooo 😭 but Gordon doesn't know. That's not his fault. 🥲

Barbara & Renee?...

Oh... Former friends, lovers? 😏

James doesn't know. He's not privy to that BS!

James going back to the house to search for the truth himself!! 😮❤️

No shiny shoes, NONE.

"Forget about it" NUH UH!

Oswald BABYYYY

James!

OH MY. Does their weird friends/ship/frenemies whatever relationship starts here? 😍

Fish : "You think I'll tell you the truth?"

*Two henchmen walking in*

James : "You just did." 🔥🔥🔥🔥 MAN!

OMG, James beating the two guys... But obviously Fish knocks him out from behind. 🙄

How did Harvey think she was gonna let that go?

Oswald SWEATING 🤣🤣

"Won't you be a sweet boy and rub my feet?" SHE KNOWS!!

The zoom on the foot though x)

Oswald thinking "Yeah... I'm the one who's gonna take over one day!!" 🙄

"Only you saw me with the pearls. No one else..." AAHHHHHH RUN, RUN FOR YOUR LIFE!!

Immediately puts the blame on Gilzean!? What a way to make more enemies... 😅🙃

"Prove your loyalty, my little Pen-guin." The shift on Oswald's face!! 😮😮

The man on stage in the background though. 🤣

Oswald BABYYYY 😭😭😭😭 beaten up.

OH! Falcone. Here we meet. Damn. At least saving James & Harvey.

"You can't have organised crime without law and order."...

Who killed the Waynes then!?

What!? OSWALD IN THE CAR TRUNK!?

"Please. Please, I beg of you.." 😭😭

Falcone wants Jim to do WHAT!? AAAAHHHHH

Ok, Oswald is gonna survive. Man's here 'till the end of season 5 but still...

Harvey calling Oswald a "scumbag". X)

I like the rapid talk about war!

Hurting Oswald's bad leg while shoving him out of the car. 🥺

Baby betrayed Fish and is supposed to be killed, but he's now begging for mercy. Like... what did you expect, dude!? 😭

THE WALK 💕🐧

"Please Mister Gordon. Just let me live. I'll do whatever you say. I'll be your slave for life!" (OMG I WANNA READ THAT FANFICTION 🔥🤣) But it's so sad like Oswald's so used to being a servant/slave.

His shiny eyes. 🥺

"I'm clever that way. And I can help you. I can be a spy for-" aaahhhhh

James is so... He doesn't want to... but he knows he has no choice but ah!

"Don't ever come back to Gotham." *proceeds to shoot in the air, then shoves Oswald in the water*

First, MAN, LOVE YOU!

Then, He will come back. 🙄

"Oi! Master Bruce! Get your bloody ass..." How Alfred talks to him is just so... 🤣🤣

"Fear tells you where the edge is. Fear is a good thing." 100% AGREED.

Jim planning on cleaning the whole police department!! DEDICATION.

Bruce shutting Alfred up. Damn.

Bruce giving James his badge back... The symbol!

Selina!! You have a stalking problem girl. 🤣🤣 Love the "steam punk glasses whatever I don't know the name" though. 💅

Oswald resurfacing from the water. Take a deep breath buddy. x)

You just slit the throat of a random stranger to steal his sandwich!? I cannot condone that life choice man. A bit much truly.

Okay...

That's only episode 1!? Are you kidding me!? Fuck... That's gonna be a lot... That's gonna be FABULOUS. 😍😍

I think I might write a little reaction post each time.

Like if you're interested.

You can also loose your shit with me in the comments.

See ya. 🫶

[scarletttries]

My lovely @kendallroyenthusiast Kelsey, thank you so much for your sweet message and I loved hearing the details of your wedding! I'm obsessed that you wore a black dress, I think that's so badass and I bet you looked like an amazing vampire queen 🥹 Also between Horror films and making excessive playlists we have so much of the same taste! 🥰 I ship you with.. Lukas Mattson!

- Lukas Mattson can't believe it when he's forced to accompany an aging Logan Roy to hospital after he collapses at another one their supposedly gentle business strolls. He's never liked being in a hospital, always associating them with the worst days of a person's life, but his mind very quickly changed on that when you appeared as Logan's emergency department nurse. Your calm professional demeanour, mixed in with a few dark jokes at Logan's expense would have him falling for you hook line and sinker, considering pushing Logan over more often so he'd have an excuse to come back and see you.

- Instead he decides to ask for your number, offering you to take you out to a small local concert with a very famous band that only a few very rich people in the know get to attend. You'd spend the night swapping stories over beers in between sets, and jumping along to songs you know, a huge smile plastered on Lukas's face from the second he picks you up to the moment he returns you safely to your front door, calling it a good night with a kiss on the cheek rather than risk overstepping.

- It would become tradition that whenever Lukas was in town he'd take you out; dinner, shows, aquariums, museums, galleries. Half the time he'll hire out the whole place so he doesn't have to share you with anyone else, making the most of the precious moments you get to spend together.

- He'll miss you more and more in the time he has to spend away, asking you to make him playlists that are the full length of his journey home to you so knows when he hears the final song that you're almost back in his arms. As you get more comfortable together, he starts to fly back into town more and more, growing to really appreciate the quiet nights in too, laughing maniacally at your sarcastic commentary of horror films, enjoying the way you fit perfectly leaning against his chest because of your height difference.

- One day he simply cannot bring himself to get on his flight away from you, and that's the day he decides he has to propose, to do something to cement your relationship so even when he's away you know he's only thinking of you.

- The next time he's back in town he takes you out to one of your favourite museums as usual, but for once you realise that you're not the only people there. As you walk through the main entrance you bump into a friend from the hospital there on a date too. And then across the foyer you see one of your family members you swear you haven't seen in years. Just as you start to think this is just the absolute strangest coincidence, Lukas leads you in the main exhibition hall and the breath in your lungs stills as dark flowers fill every space, candles lining an aisle on the floor, at the end of which is all the close friends and family you could imagine. As you turn to Lukas to ask what the hell is going on, you realise he's dropped to one knee, presenting you with the most intricate diamond ring you've ever seen. His eyes tear up in front of everyone as he tells you how you've become his home, and he can't imagine being away from you for a second longer.

- The wedding is surprisingly traditional for two less than traditional romantics - an enormous church with almost floor to ceiling stained glass windows, covered in the same flowers and candles as your proposal. Lukas in a classic Tuxedo, waiting down the aisle as you float down in your stunning white dress, his hands trembling as he carefully lifts your veil to seal your union with a kiss in front of all your friends and family.

- The party is held at a five star hotel Lukas has rented for all your guests, the wait staff bring drink after drink of the finest wine as you eat a delicious meal that your guests will be dreaming of for years to come. When the dance floor finally filters out to just you and Lukas, he'll make a big show of carrying you bridal-style to the lift, a penthouse honeymoon suite awaiting the two happy newly weds.

[the-kr8tor]

The worst thing, in my opinion, is growing up in a household where fighting and screaming is common. Especially when it induces fear on the child. cough cough hint on a young hobie hc soon?? cough cough Daily Hobie HC! Inspired by the song Treehouse by Alex G- TEEN HOBIE>:) Hobie met you at school, when you had offered to buy him something in place of him giving away his lunch to someone else. As he struck up conversation while you two were waiting to buy, you two just seemed to click. You and Hobie were practically glued to each other, so much so that even teacher's began to notice and change the seats so that you two would sit together, since they had determined that you both wouldn't be so chaotic together. Whenever one of you guys was absent, for example Hobie if he got sick, the teachers would ask you on where he was and when he would most likely be coming back. It was always Hobie and you to everyone else, and the two of you were proud of it. Hobie would always go to your place. It was like a second home for him, where he could hang out with you afterschool and play around with your pets and talk. A few times Hobie had remembered that you haven't seen his house much, and with a lot of begging, he would invite you over for sleepovers or just hangouts. Eventually, Hobie began to get a really warm feeling in his chest whenever you were around, but simply dismissed it as just a really secure friendship with you. One time, he had wanted to show you the new treehouse he got, with the two of you immediately climbing into it. However, you paused when you had read 'DO NOT ENTER!" in scribbly, red handwriting, to which Hobie quickly reassured you that you were the only person with an exception. You hugged him tightly, and he hugged you just as tightly in response, before entering into the small, cozy treehouse. There was even a small balcony, where Hobie made his way to show you the specific noisy bird he always complains about. No doubt, you both spent hours in the treehouse. Talking, laughing, being unhinged, cuddling, talking some more. Mainly the 'teenager stuff', as your mother would put it sometimes. As night fell, before you got picked up after dinner, Hobie wanted to show you a meteor shower that was supposed to be visible tonight. After an hour of waiting, Hobie was getting impatient as you two waited on the balcony. Eventually, the meteor shower came, with Hobie immediately dragging you to the corner of the balcony where the sky was most clear, his head flopping down into your lap as you two watched, which was a common position for the two of you to be in. At school whenever the teacher put something on to watch, either Hobie would have his head in your lap, if they could sit wherever they wanted, or with your head leaning on his shoulder if you had to stay in your seats. Most of the time, whenever your head leant against his shoulder, he would always lay his head against yours, ignoring the teasing 'ooohhh's of classmates around. Hobie's eyes drifted to yours as you gazed up at the sparkling meteor shower, his smile softening as he admired the meteor shower from your eyes, completely unaware of the concept of a crush (before it's too late and he's already head over heels for you) -🐦‍⬛

Uh oh angst for the next daily hc 😨

Daily Hobie HC ‼️‼️‼️

Oooh I love that song!

Aisbjwdbhwjsb they're so cute!!! I can imagine this is how TTN! Hobie and R acted during their younger years! Like they're so attached to the hip every one ships the two of them!

The treehouse!!! Oh I always wanted one when I was a kid!

Not Hobie catching feelings 🤭 Love that for R

The meteor shower 🥺 I bet Hobie secretly has a Polaroid of you looking up at the sky during that brief moment 🥰

[distant-screaming]

predictably asking about never let me go for the ask game ✨️

WOOOO DID SOMEONE SAY NEVER LET ME GO I HAVEN'T TALKED ABOUT THEM IN AGES (read: a day) YIPPEE THANK YOU ARCHER <3 as always I yap a lot so most of it's under the cut :)

Favorite Male Character

I love most of the characters in the series for how interesting they are but like. come on palm is my brand and everything he's my silly little skrunkly (guy who has faced a thousand horrors) <3

Favorite Female Character

I absolutely adore Maggie, she's so cute and just <33 but I think my favorite is Nueng’s mom - she's very maternal and soft towards Nueng but that doesn't detract from her girlbossery in the slightest!! and she tries her best to be a good parent so that's a major win in my book 🙂‍↕️

Least Favorite Character

hmmmm probably chanon? the other nlmg characters I dislike are at least complex and interesting but chanon is just... he gives me absolutely nothing to work with so I don't like him much

Favorite Ship

palmnueng 💖🎀🥰💞🧡🫶‼️

Favorite Friendship

I really adore chopper + nueng’s relationship!it's so interesting and complex and nlmg is a romance show so it focuses on the romance but I would love to just see like three whole episodes of these two!! (honorary shout out to ben + palm, who have the opposite of a friendship going on. incredibly hilarious no notes)

Favorite Quote

hmm I've never thought about it before. I don't really remember quotes as such from shows? [...] okay upon going through the eps really quickly, I think I have an answer! ep 8 4/4, from nueng: "I've never been in love before. But when I wake up, I want you to be with me. When I fall asleep, I want you to be next to me. I want you to be with me every moment. If that's what people call love, I love you."

like. hello. me and who. it's so in character and sweet and to me love is a very nebulous big thing so to define it with an action like waking up and sleeping is just!!!!!

Worst Character Death (if any)

mam. GAH. I wasn't the biggest fan of her initially but she grew on me and then she DIED protecting her son(s) and it was such a gut punch because I was like surely no one will die right. and p'jojo was like joke's on you and I just had to sit there and deal? mam's death devastated me :(

This made me so happy you have no idea Moment

many. many scenes. made me extremely happy in nlmg. if I had to pick one that's less obvious (ie kiss scene, any of the beach scenes etc etc) then... okay so I really love the fight in ep 3 because I love when characters go feral and start biting people because of their Person, but the part after where palm returns the necklace to nueng and helps him put it on... it's just. so good. I love it so much. it showcases their current dynamic so well, and both of them are already falling for each other and it's so tender and soft and I think this is kind of the. like. they just sit there and talk. and to me love is something that can definitely happen at first sight and with little things but I think the characters have to really know each other before being head over heels in love, you know? and this scene kind of sets up the stage for that a little bit? and it's just. yeah <3 I love it

Saddest Moment

okay I know the general answer would be the palm getting shot bit in ep 12, and don't get me wrong I was literally flabbergasted when I first watched it, but! the saddest scene to me is for SURE the end of ep 9/beginning of ep 10 - where nueng leaves palm in the motel room and goes back to bangkok alone. this entire section is so softly devastating and it kind of, it plays on both palm and nueng’s worst insecurities and it's so good and if anyone wants me to elaborate I will but this is already longer than I intended so I'll stop. that section makes me so incredibly upset every time. 10/10

Favorite Location

aesthetics wise, absolutely the island with mam, the setting itself is gorgeous and palmnueng look gorgeous there too. in terms of more story based, I really like the. backyard? backforest? at nueng’s house! lots of subtle flirting moments and it's very gorgeous as well <3

[gillianthecat]

SOTUS ep 3

ignoring context, i do love a good battle of wills between current enemies/future lovers

this I AM SPARTACUS scene 🥰 Rebel Alliance leader Kongpop, my beloved.

Arthit continues to speak absolute nonsense and I can't tell whether or not we're supposed to take it seriously as "wisdom"

"I think... you like me." Kongpop, light of my life, heart of my heart, I adore you. I can't believe he came out and said this already. This show is smashing together one of the most amazing characters of all time and one of the worst characters of all time. And honestly, Kongpop's amazingness is spilling over onto Arthrit a little bit and making him just a tad more appealing. If someone as forthright (to steal @bengiyo's word) and self-possessed as Kong sees something worthy in Arthit, it makes me believe that there is actually some there there, you know?

although again, is this genuine or weaponized flirting at this point? I'm not sure.

I'm keeping @clairificusrex's headcanon that Arthit is neurodivergent and ace in mind as I watch, and, as long as he isn't actively being a bully, it does help me see the character in a more nuanced light. I'll buy it.

big fan of these wide neck,deep v shirts they keep putting Kong in.

my girls! I still love them even if they're talking about crushes on our main boys. idk, something about them feels much more complex and real to me as compared to the university girls in a lot of other Thai BLs I've seen. it could be something as superficial as their makeup and hairstyling, which feels more "casual college kid" as opposed to "tv star" to me.

and look! we have a reference to the inciting incident of My Love Mix Up!

Arthit free and vulnerable in his own room! It was a wise choice to put them in dorms opposite each other so that Kong (and us) and see Arthit in a new light and become endeared by him. And for some reason, Kong is totally endeared by this bully grumpy cat. Ok, I admit it, I too am a bit endeared by Arthit sleepily hanging his laundry up.

Aw, poor May, she's got a big ol' crush on the boy who's nursing a crush on the bully grumpy cat. I hope she gets a good story in these 15 episodes of show. I have faith though.

I'm kinda thrilled that Hew was chosen as class president instead of Kong. I do love a good subversion of tropes.

oh there are adults at this university after all. and they'll intervene in this one case of a medical emergency, and yet are prefectly fine with this overall culture of hazing. that's the part of this show that actually pisses me off to be honest.

but I guess we have to keep putting Arthit in situations and making him all sad and pathetic if this romance is going to have any chance to take off. or at least any chance to earn the viewers' support.

oooh. the infamous pink milk appears! i did not realize its first(?) BL appearance was in the service of a conversation about masculinity, effeminacy and queerness. fascinating.

Kongpop, just what exactly do you see in this bully? As soon as I start to think maybe I could ship these two together, Arthit does some more petty tyrant shit. I do however love how Kong keeps flummoxing Arthit with basic politeness and courtesy. I approve of flummoxed love interests.

Well. I plan on continuing the show, but I feel like three episodes is the maximum dose for binging at any one time. That was a very high rate of power trips per hour.

*basically all i know about other people's thoughts on SOTUS comes from comments on this post by @waitmyturtles

[sesamestreep]

20 Questions for Fic Writers

thank you @philtstone for tagging me! 🥰

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

22, apparently 😇

2. What’s your total AO3 word count?

223,131 📝

3. What fandoms do you write for?

super indie small fandoms like Star Wars and Marvel, with a side of some Sorkin shows (🤧) and the occasional Natasha Pulley novel with three fans and a paperclip as the reader base.

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

and never ever watch the ten o’clock news (Rogue One, Jyn & Bodhi BFF fic/Psych AU, no one is more shocked than me this is my number 1 fic but it’s also my oldest one on AO3, so there’s something to seniority??)

don’t think about it all too much (Rogue One, Jyn/Cassian, The Newsroom AU)

how many acres, how much light (Rogue One, Jyn/Cassian + Crew as Family, Everybody Lives type deal that I wrote for my darling @philtstone so thanks buddy 😊)

i know the kind of home we’d share (Rogue One, Jyn/Cassian, North & South AU, another shocker on this list tbh but also an oldie)

of all the strangers, you’re the strangest that I see (Rogue One, Jyn/Cassian, Medieval-ish Arranged Marriage AU)

RIP TO MY OTHER FANDOMS I GUESS??

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

Yes, always, even though sometimes it takes me a while (big time executive dysfunction around these parts). I’m generally the worst when it comes to leaving comments on fic I love because I get nervous and can never come up with something sane and/or worthwhile to say, so I try to show my appreciation for the lovely people who leave me (the unworthiest of cads) lovely comments by at least replying and saying thank you!

6. What is a fic you've written with the angstiest ending?

I guess that would be under the light of a lonely star because it ends on a sort of cliffhanger and one half of the pairing still doesn’t know the other person’s name (which commenters have pointed out was cruel of me and they’re right). I do hope to continue it someday and make it into a full series of some kind but I’m not sure when that will happen. Runner up is damned to pining through the windowpanes, but it’s maybe more wistful slow burn vibes than pure angst. I leave it to the reader to decide.

7. What’s a fic you've written with the happiest ending?

most of them are pretty happy, though I do think I like to leave characters on the precipice of happiness rather than like…on their wedding day or whatever with everything wrapped up perfectly. For argument’s sake, and because I doubt I’ll get to shout it out elsewhere, I’ll say fast forward and we’re taking on the world together because it’s a series post-script about how great the characters lives became later on, which is pretty darn happy.

8. Do you get hate on fics?

Nope! I’m very lucky. I do get some (maybe not intentional) backhanded compliments here and there but commenting etiquette can be a tough line to walk sometimes, so I try to imagine people are trying to be nice overall.

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

Not that I’ve published. It just hasn’t been something I felt drawn to write so far. I have some WIP fics that might be classified that way, though… 👀

10. Do you write crossovers?

I write a lot of AUs but not crossovers, if we’re defining it as “characters from property A interact with characters from property B, and their universes are not canonically connected at all.” It’s just not my jam to write, though I’ve certainly enjoyed reading it in other people’s work!

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Not as far as I know!

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

I don’t believe so!

13. Have you ever co-written a fic?

Yep! I co-wrote summer came like cinnamon, so sweet with the talented amazing showstopping @firstelevens this past summer after I bullied her into letting me write some stuff for the bake-off AU and it’s my pride and joy and the most fun I’ve ever had writing a fic.

14. What’s your all-time favorite ship?

I think from a purely numerical standpoint, it’d have to be Jyn/Cassian but…. I don’t really have a favorite?? There’s a ton of ships I love that I’ve written long fics for and tons I’ve written random one off prompt fills on here that I’ve never posted to AO3 and tons that I love that I’ve never written for, either because it has never occurred to me or because no one’s ever asked! So yeah, deeply bisexual answer, but I cannot choose.

15. What’s a WIP you want to finish, but doubt you ever will?

For stuff with already published installments, I would love to finish my Graceland series some day, add to my Cloak and Dagger AU some more like people have asked, and figure out where to take follow me like the moon eventually, but…my motivation for Rogue One fic has significantly decreased for a variety of reasons (none of which are lack of reader response because god, rogue one fans are the best readers out there, they always show up for the creators in the fandom)

My even more real answer is that I genuinely never expect to finish anything I start 🙈 [bruce banner voice] that’s my secret, cap…

16. What are your writing strengths?

Dialogue, I think? It’s my favorite thing to write so maybe that’s just vanity. I also think I’m good at pastiching different styles, which is helpful since I write a LOT of AUs. Also, recently I’ve been taking a lot more risks in terms of format and style in my fic and I do think I’ve proven more successful at it than I expected to be!

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

Uh….follow through??? 🫠 I get very distracted easily and tend to have like 200 WIPs at a given time, and maybe if I could focus more or impose any sort of structure on my brain, I would finish more stuff but I am doing this for fun so I believe in following my bliss to an extent. Also, research and world-building are VERY difficult for me and so I avoid writing anything where I’ll have to do a lot of either…

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic.

I don’t think people should be afraid to do it when it’s important/adds value to the story BUT I am also very scared of doing it, haha, so I’m a hypocrite. It’s never come up as a necessity for me yet and I speak very few languages anyway, so…yeah, I don’t have strong opinions on this one, besides be nice to authors who do it and try their best! Fanfiction is free!!! We’re all in this for the love of it!

19. First fandom you wrote for?

UH????? First published fanfic was for Rogue One/Star Wars, but I might have a WIP/draft of a fic for The Newsroom that’s older…

20. Favorite fic you’ve written.

I already said I had the most fun I’ve ever had writing summer came like cinnamon, so sweet with @firstelevens and I just think it’s a perfect rom-com of a fic! But also, sometimes I re-read come and get your honey to cheer myself up because it’s a very light and silly established relationship fic (which fandom generally hates, just looking at kudos/interaction levels, but I adore and I will DIE ON THIS HILL!!!) 🍯🐻

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tagging @carolinepenvenens @incognitajones @flythesail and anyone else who might want to do it!

[my-lovely-hyperfixation]

I finished listening to it :3 These are the summaries of each song based on how I heard it:

Overture — idk uhm… kinda blanked out during this one 😅

Chorale — intros of the peoples

A Head Without a Heart — Aphrodite vs Athena; who should we choose and who should we piss off?

Straight Ahead — Full Speed Ahead: Paris Addition; Cassandra, shut the fuck up, the gods won’t get mad at me, you’re crazy😒; Nothings gonna stop me cuz I’m heading straight ahead!!!

What Could Go Wrong? — what could go wrong?; seems even the gods~ must be smiling at me :D; EVERYTHING COULD GO WRONG; PARIS COME DOWN; PARIS!!!!!

Perfect Stranger — oops, Paris seems like he’s gonna die; who lives, who dies?; he’s just a man; he’s~ some perfect stranger~ 🤭; Paris meets Helen and they fall in love while Paris is fucking dying 🥰

A Long Time Coming — Helen’s marriage is shit, it’s loveless, I don’t like it 😔; it’s been a long time since I fell in love

Business — I hear we share a common enemy, known as Troy; I never forget about… Agamemnon~; nothing but business; its business 😒

The Leader — roll the dice!! I’m nice 😏; WHO CARES HAHAHHAHAHAHHAHA

Paris in Court — GET OUT; so… who is this, Agamemnon?

Any Fool Could See — IM NOT APHRODITE; GET OFF YOUR KNEES; PARIS, LISTEN!; we must leave, before it’s too late; BRING ME HIS HEAD

Thief in the Night — Kidnapped and caged by a bloody-handed bandit… from TROOOOOOYYYY 😡😡😡; she was my light ☺️, but some thief in the night has taken her and left me blind 😡; the Trojans will RUE THE DAY THEY STOLE MY WIFE 😡😡😡😡

Thoughts of Love — we were meant to be, Helen~; STOP THIS! PARIS I BEG YOU; YOU CAN’T TRUST THE GODS; IM A MURDERER, A TRAITOR!

Trust in Your Heart — trust in your heart~ to show~ the way~ to go; I’m sorry… I can’t guarantee happy endings 😔

Welcome Home — Helen, look! It’s Troy!; welcome home!!; back home so soon~ Odysseus wishes he could get home that fast; oh by the gods… 😒; Paris calls Helen a goddess again; YOU TOOK THEIR QUEEN, PARIS?!?!?!? YOU FUCKING IDIOT, TAKE HER BACK!; no, never, I love her

Hell or High Water — she holds my heart now~ please don’t make me take her back 🥺🥺🥺; YOU LED THE ENEMY RIGHT TO US; BUT I LOVE HER 😣😖

No Turning Back — we don’t stand a chance; there must be a thousand ships!; BUT THEY ARE MEN, THEY CAN BLEED AND DIE; there’s no turning back 😠😠😠😤😤😤

For Better Or Worse — I love you…~ no matter what they say~; Helen and Paris in love 🥰

10 Years On — just instrumental; really nice though

The Greek Camp — DAMN IMMEDIATELY CALLING A SLAVE GIRL A WHORE DAMMMN; ACHILLES PUT THE DAMN SWORD AWAY; is our greatest warrior simpering over a WHORE?; THAT’S IT, IM OUT! FUCK YALL

What Price a Friend — Agamemnon, stop your bitching 😒; Achilles… the blood-stained killer; idk what happened, I zoned out and this guy started talking about murder when I came back 0-0

Love Has Power — through the PASSION and ANGER; LOOOOOOVE HAS POWER; why are all the things that bring you pleasure also bring you pain, wtf man 😔

Two Titans — are you ready to DIE, Hector?; epic music and sword clashing; now I’ve got you!; AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH; you murdering bastard 😡; don’t let him treat my brother with such detain~; yes… yES… YESSSSSSSSSSSS!!!

The Beggar — what do you want? 😒; ugh, go away; if blood were a currency, you’d be a rich man today!!; you’re no… beggar… 😑; he’s just a stranger~ he is not threat to me; he is nothing… just a stranger; please… let him live…

Ulysses Prayer — I’ve never believed in MAGIC~!; Athena… if you’re really there~ answer this mortal’s prayer…; banger instrumentals; EACH AND EVERY LIVING TROJAN WILL RUE~ THIS DAY!!! RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH; the goddess Athena has shown her hand~; Athena, do your worst. I don’t care~

A Horse With No Rider — this horse with no rider… shall carry us all, Agamemnon; YES! This is a prize that they’ll never resist!; how would you like to spend some time in a horse?; hurry up and get drunk.

Inside Outside — hoho; whose idea was this??; now you’re on the inside~ like inside… of the inside!; waitin to get inside!; we’re scared half to death! 😊; yeah it sounds like suicide!; the accents are so good omg 😭

The Balance Shifts — when will they learn?; you sound saaaaad little princess~; let’s see what happens… when we set it on fire 😈🔥🔥; WE’VE WON!!!; look! They got us a gift! It’s so nice; just what is this thing?; what thing?; THAT thing; OHHHH, the horsey! It’s an offering, of course! :3; I REJECT THE GODS!!! I CHALLENGE THEM!! RAHHH

Oh Paris — oh Paris…; your love was too high a price to pay…; oh Paris… open your eyes…; you should’ve known better 😔; YOU SHOULD’VE KNOWN BETTER!!

Finale — “THE GODS MUST BE… ANGRY WITH ME!”; you THINK?!; WE HAVE NO WHERE TO RUN!; we can’t stay here…; GO!; OWWW—; PARIS!!! GET UP!! YOU CAN’T DIE!!! PARIS NOOOO!!!; I never guarantee… happy endings… I love you…; THERE HE IS!!!; blood and revenge 😈😈; the pride… of a fool; I CAN’T EVEN FIND THE WORDS TO CONSOLE HER; HELEN!; if only I… knew…; sleep now…; my prince… my strength… my love……. my love………… love…; oh, Paris…; aw no, Paris… :(

JUST FOUND OUT ABOUT PARIS THE MUSICAL

LISTENING TO IT WHILE I WAIT FOR THE EPIC LIVESTREAM

[tammyisobsessedwith]

Name a Song for Your LI

Thanks for the tag @crimswnred @banirareiko @rebelrayne 🥰

Tagging @mrsbsmooth @i-boop-you @willkimura @mercedesdecorazon and anyone else who wants to join!

I might’ve taken this way too seriously and I have a huge list of LIs 😅

Noah - Cruel Summer, Taylor Swift

Said, “I’m fine,” but it wasn’t true / I don’t wanna keep secrets just to keep you / And I snuck in through the garden gate / Every night that summer just to seal my fate (oh) / And I screamed for whatever it’s worth / “I love you!” Ain’t that the worst thing you ever heard? / He looks up grinning like a devil / It’s new, the shape of your body / It’s blue, the feeling I’ve got / And it’s ooh whoa oh / It’s a cruel summer / It’s cool, that’s what I tell ‘em / No rules, in breakable heaven / But ooh whoa oh / It’s a cruel summer / With you

Will - This Love, Taylor Swift

Tossing, turning / Struggled through the night with someone new / Baby, I could go on and on, on and on / Lantern burning / Flickered in my mind, only you / But you were still gone, gone, gone / Been losing grip on sinking ships / You showed up just in time / This love is good, this love is bad / This love is alive back from the dead, oh oh / These hands had to let it go free and / This love came back to me / This love left a permanent mark / This love is glowing in the dark / (…) Your kiss, my cheek / I watched you leave / Your smile, my ghost / I fell to my knees / When you’re young you just run / But you come back to what you need

Bobby - Teenage Dream, Katy Perry

You think I’m pretty without any makeup on / You think I’m funny when I tell the punchline wrong / I know you get me so I let my walls come down, down / Before you met me I was alright / But things were kinda heavy / You brought me to life / Now every February you’ll be my Valentine, Valentine / Let’s go all the way tonight / No regrets, just love / We can dance until we die / You and I will be young forever / You make me / Feel like I’m living a teenage dream / The way you turn me on, I can’t sleep / Let’s run away and don’t ever look back, don’t ever look back

Bruno - 3 Wishes, Dave Thomas Junior

I could say I wanna fly / But that would get old after a while / A million things that I could do / But they’d mean nothing without you / So I can’t think of anything / If you had three wishes / Do you know what they’d be? / Would one get saved for a rainy day / Or for someone more in need? / If I had three wishes / I’d tell you what they’d be / If I had three wishes / You would be all three

Lucas - Love on the Brain, Rihanna

And you got me like oh / What you want from me? / And I tried to buy your pretty heart, but the price too high / Baby, you got me like oh mm / You love when I fall apart / So you can put me together / And throw me against the wall / Baby, you got me like ah woo ah / Don’t you stop loving me / Don’t quit loving me / Just start loving me / Oh and babe I’m fist fighting with fire / Just to get close to you / Can we burn something, babe? / And I run for miles just to get a taste / Must be love on the brain / That’s got me feeling this way / It beats me black and blue but it fucks me so good / And I can’t get enough / Must be love on the brain / And it keeps cursing my name / No matter what I do I’m no good without you / And I can’t get enough / Must be love on the brain

Tim - imagine, Ariana Grande

Knew you were perfect after the first kiss / Took a deep breath like ooh / Feels like forever, baby, I never / Thought that it would be you / Tell me your secrets, all of the creep shit / That’s how I know it’s true / Baby, direct it, name in the credits / Like the movies do / Click click click and post / Drip-drip-dripped in gold / Quick quick quick, let’s go / Kiss me and take off your clothes / Imagine a world like that / Imagine a world like that / We go like up till I’m asleep on your chest / Love how my face fits so good in your neck / Why can’t you imagine a world like that?

Gary - Call It What You Want, Taylor Swift

All my flowers grew back as thorns / Windows boarded up after the storm / He built a fire just to keep me warm/ All the drama queens taking swings / All the jokers dressing up as kings / They fade to nothing when I look at him / And I know I make the same mistakes every time / Bridges burn, I never learn / At least I did one thing right / I did one thing right / I’m laughing with my lover, making forts under cover / Trust him like a brother / Yeah, you know I did one thing right / Starry eyes sparking up my darkest night / My baby’s fit like a daydream / Walking with his head down / I’m the one he’s walking to / So call it what you want yeah / Call it what you want to / My baby’s fly like a jet stream / High above the whole scene / Loves me like I’m brand new / So call it what you want yeah / Call it what you want to

Angie - Stuck With U, Ariana Grande & Justin Bieber

I’m not one to stick around / One strike and you’re out, baby / Don’t care if I sound crazy / But you never let me down, no, no / That’s why when the sun’s up, I’m staying / Still laying in your bed singing / Ooh ooh ooh ooh / Got all this time on my hands / Might as well cancel our plans, yeah / I could stay here for a lifetime / So lock the door and throw out the key / Can’t fight this no more / It’s just you and me / And there’s nothing I, nothing I can do / I’m stuck with you, stuck with you, stuck with you

Henrik - Linda, Projota feat. Anavitória

(Ô linda, o que é que você faz pra ser assim, tão linda? / Quando se olhar no espelho, diz assim: to linda / Não sei o que dizer pra te ganhar ainda / Mas o começo pode ser assim / Avisa geral que já era, não to mais sozinho na pista / Avisa pra elas que eu já fui, pra zoeira dei has ta la vista / Só quero uma casa no mato e uma boa razão pra sonhar / Um cachorro, um gato, comida no prato / E uma cama pra gente quebrar / Tava perdido aqui, cê veio me salvar / Eu sou um eterno aprendiz, você me dá uma aula / É uma canção da Adele, me acalma / Eles querem coisa de pele, a gente tem coisa de alma)

Hey beautiful, what do you do to be like that, so beautiful? / When you look at yourself in the mirror, say it: I’m beautiful/ Don’t know yet what to say to win you over / But it could start like this / Tell everyone that it’s over, I’m no longer alone on the dance floor / Tell them girls I’m gone, gave the party days an hasta la vista / I just want a house in the woods and a good reason to dream / A dog, a cat, food in the plate / And a good bed for us to break / I was lost here, you came in to save me / I’m an eternal student, you give me a lesson / It’s a song by Adele, it calms me down / They want that skin deep thing, we have something that’s soulful

Kassam - If I Can’t Have You, Shawn Mendes

I’m in Toronto and I got this view / But I might as well be in a hotel room yeah / It doesn’t matter ‘cause I’m so consumed / Spending all my nights reading texts from you / Oh I’m good at keeping my distance / I know that you’re the feeling I’m missing / You know that I hate to admit it / But everything means nothing if I can’t have you / I can’t write one song that’s not about you / Can’t drink without thinking about you / Is it too late to tell you that / Everything means nothing if I can’t have you?

Youcef - WOW, Zara Larsson

And you make me feel so fucking pretty / Take loving me to a new extreme / If I can’t have you, I don’t want no one / I don’t want no one / As you make me dance in the middle of the street / On the hardwood floor, we should be asleep / If I can’t have you, I don’t want no one / I don’t want no one, want no one, want no one / Baby, I’m not even in a gown / I’m just in a t-shirt on the couch / The way you want me makes me want you now / The only thing you have to say is wow / Make your jaw drop-drop / Saying my drop-drop-drop / Make you say “oh my god” / My drop-drop / Make your jaw drop / Make you say “oh my god” / And you never felt this type of emotion

[witchthewriter]

Hiii love thank you for this opportunity ❤️. I choose level 4 .

Also , I didn't know about the shot out so I made you a moodboard on Eddie Munson 😅 . Hope you like it 🥰 ( I see he's your bias ...it's cute ☺️)

Nevermind , I'm just copying my previous ask 😅

Personality :- I'm a very down to earth person with a tint of fierceness. I'm an Aries afterall 🤌. I kind of had a rbf . I can be sweet as honey and bitter as bittergourd. Depends on how the other person treats me . I can be your biggest supporter and best friend if you treat me right but if you backstab me then be ready to face your worst enemy . Haha I hope I didn't intimidate you too 😅. Yeah basically this .

Hobbies :- Reading ( I'm a harry potter fan since 2 yes old hahaha) , dancing , researching , Acting , listening to music ( I can't live without it ) , cooking and eating .

Pronouns :- She / Her

Fandom :- PEAKY BLINDERS , HARRY POTTER , GRISHAVERSE

Want one? Here be the rules 🦋

Thank you!!! I love it <3 Okay so I wasn’t sure if you wanted me to ship you with someone new or do more headcanons with the people you were already shipped with so I did a mix of both for each fandom. Love ya!

Also I do apologise that my headcanons are all over the shop - I jump from when you are in a relationship to before, to really later on. So yeah I do apologise xx

What your ships have in common:

⋆ Aren’t afraid of much ⋆ Intimidating ⋆ Courageous ⋆ Loyal ⋆ Tragic backstories (they really do??)

𝐏𝐞𝐚𝐤𝐲 𝐁𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐝𝐞𝐫𝐬

𝐷𝑒𝑠𝑐𝑟𝑖𝑝𝑡𝑖𝑜𝑛

I ship you with with Arthur Shelby!! I think you two would get along so well. Definitely friends > lovers > soulmates. You would be so good for him, it would be a healthy ASF relationship.

𝐻𝑒𝑎𝑑𝑐𝑎𝑛𝑜𝑛𝑠

・  Calls you ‘dolly,’ ‘sweetheart,’ ‘pumpkin.’ He isn’t afraid of showing PDA either, neither is he afraid of calling you sweet names

・  I think you guys met because he was a constant visitor of a shop you worked at. Maybe you worked for your family, or family friends? He noticed you there a lot and would strike up conversations. 

You didn’t know he was a Shelby until months later. But still, you weren’t intimdated.

・ You like that Arthur is a man who wears his emotions on his sleeves. And I feel like you wouldn’t be the type of person to take advantage of that. (You’d be surprised by how many people DO.)

・ Making each other tea, sitting by the fire. You would definitely have a rocking chair and I can see you taking up knitting omg (remember this is the 20s or whatever so basic hobbies would be popular and common)

・ I can also see you guys living on a farm with cows, chickens, a rooster who wakes you up at 6am. Oh and heaps of dogs, barn cats etc. (Aw I want to come live with you guys....)

𝑇ℎ𝑒𝑖𝑟 𝑓𝑎𝑣𝑜𝑢𝑟𝑖𝑡𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑎𝑏𝑜𝑢𝑡 𝑦𝑜𝑢

How calm you make him feel. Because of your down to earth nature, even just your presence makes Arthur feel at ease. Not many people take the time to listen and actually care about what he feels, so he knows he can feel at ease with you. Rather than be shouted at by Tommy or riled up with John. 

𝑌𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑏𝑒𝑠𝑡 𝑓𝑟𝑖𝑒𝑛𝑑

Polly! I think you two would be such a fun pair. Listening to the stories about the Shelby’s growing up, childhood memories. You would definitely have tea together and hang out for hours and hours

𝐆𝐫𝐢𝐬𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐬𝐞

𝐷𝑒𝑠𝑐𝑟𝑖𝑝𝑡𝑖𝑜𝑛

I already shipped you with Kaz, you didn’t say your sexuality so I would ALSO ship you with Nina! I think you and Nina would be chaotic, messy and absolutely wildfires together. You would definitely take on the world and everyone would know who you guys are. 

With Kaz, I definitely you aren’t scared of sir dirty hands (is that his nickname I literally cannot remember for the life of me!) He is taken aback when you don’t shudder or show your fear of him. 

𝐻𝑒𝑎𝑑𝑐𝑎𝑛𝑜𝑛𝑠

・  Buys you ALL the stuff, and/or steals it. Jewellry, clothes, scarves, weapons, art etc. 

・ The relationship would take time ... slow burn ... he doesn’t want another liability ... doesn’t want to care about another person. 

・  But you make it so easy to love you. And he can’t stop himself

・  So he falls. And he just hopes you’ll catch him

・  When he falls in love. HE. FALLS. IN. LOVE. LIke you will be his WORLD; if anyone touches you, or even breaths near you, he’s like “What, WHAT DO YOU WANT,” and would totally hit them with his cane (I am NOT being overdramatic at all...)

𝑇ℎ𝑒𝑖𝑟 𝑓𝑎𝑣𝑜𝑢𝑟𝑖𝑡𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑎𝑏𝑜𝑢𝑡 𝑦𝑜𝑢

Your fierce nature. He is astonished by you and how much passion you possess (Aries coming out there). 

𝑌𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑏𝑒𝑠𝑡 𝑓𝑟𝑖𝑒𝑛𝑑

inej! I think you two would totally be badass together. Train, tell each other stories about childhoods and be real. Always have each other’s backs in a fight and the loyalty ... man oh man ... she would take a bullet for you

𝐇𝐚𝐫𝐫𝐲 𝐏𝐨𝐭𝐭𝐞𝐫

𝐷𝑒𝑠𝑐𝑟𝑖𝑝𝑡𝑖𝑜𝑛

I SHIP YOU WITH SIRIUS BLACK <3 I was going to say Draco, but I actually don’t really like Draco that much. Too me he’s a bit of a piss baby - but pls don’t be offended if you do like him. I just don’t know when to keep my mouth shut. ANYWAY- 

I think you would be so good with Sirius. He’d tease you, rile you up and secretly you’d love it. He’d always keep you one your toes, but be real with you. I think because of your particular traits such being either really sweet or really bitter (I’m taking that as you either really like someone or really hated them) it would be such a good ass match man.

𝐻𝑒𝑎𝑑𝑐𝑎𝑛𝑜𝑛𝑠

・  You guys have your own song, movie, radio station. Like I think relationships were based on you and Sirius - like you’re the blue print. Everyone looks up to you guys and wants to be like that. 

・  Play fighting - you guys definitely wrestle for fun. I can so see you flipping him onto his back, and he’s like, “WHAT. Show me how you did that!” 

・  Definitely best friends and everyone was like, “that’s an old married couple right there.” And it just naturally shifted into something romantic

・  Pillow fights as well. Not too rough tho!!!

・ Would absolutely do ANYTHING for you. I mean it. He’s like a lovesick puppy when it comes to you. Protective like you’ve never seen before dude

𝑇ℎ𝑒𝑖𝑟 𝑓𝑎𝑣𝑜𝑢𝑟𝑖𝑡𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑎𝑏𝑜𝑢𝑡 𝑦𝑜𝑢

Your loyalty. He only has a handfull of friends, but those people - he would die for. So his favourite thing is your ability to feel that same passion and care. 

𝑌𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑏𝑒𝑠𝑡 𝑓𝑟𝑖𝑒𝑛𝑑

Lily (if Marauders era) or Molly (if present). Both are kind, motherly and would do anything for their children. Loyalty, compassion and empathy are big parts of your friendships. 

[i-am-become-a-name]

002 for five and Tegan!!

I am 🥰🥰🥰🥰

When I started shipping them: gosh, 2008 or so? maybe ‘07? (13-14) back when we had to watch modern who as it came out so I turned to Targets and Teaspoon for more content.

My thoughts: absolutely feral. they’re the only constants they both have (apart from the TARDIS) - the other companions come and go but for 90% of his regen five has Tegan. And I go on and on about that they get as furious as each other and Tegan is just more honest about it. They’re kindred spirits, leaving their homes to travel and explore - even if being an air hostess was the only way to do it.

What makes me happy about them: that they do have each other. there’s so much pyrrhic victory in five’s run (the audios too) and I think Nyssa and Adric are too young or too alien to necessarily understand how events would affect Tegan and Five, (and Turlough too cynical and uuhhh self-interested) so they have each other to talk it through with (the basis of all my five/tegan stories on teaspoon so far, yay!)

What makes me sad about them: that it ends so badly. that she comes back just as the TARDIS is dematerialising, and that in both the show and the audios Five won’t say goodbye.

Things done in fanfic that annoys me: hmmm when their relationship skews either way - either it’s based just on hate and taking it out on each other, or it’s all love and they don’t bicker and there’s no real frustration with events.

Things I look for in fanfic: it’s a rarepair, I’ll try it all at least once. 🙃🙃 But yeah, I’d prefer it’s within or related to an adventure (whether it’s a canon or author made up one) and sans the skewing mentioned above.

My wishlist: Please write/create more fivetegan content, my beloveds. Also more BF audios where they have such soft moments as Nightmare Country.

Who I’d be comfortable them ending up with, if not each other: I am not gritting my teeth, everything is fine, it’s all good. not fiveturlough or five/master or tegannyssa they’re just weird and icky to me.

My happily ever after for them: they don’t get one. :( She was right in her choice to leave, and while I wish that (audio spoilers ahead) she went with him at the end of the Gathering, it also makes a lot of sense that she didn’t. So my happily ever after for them is those quiet moments between adventures on the TARDIS, and the wonder that it is to look out on new worlds and stars and the relief in their voices when they find each other after being split up and imagining the worst in audios.

[samwpmarleau]

tyler lockwood

2. When I think I truly started to like them (or dislike them, if you’ve sent me a character I don’t like)

I watched TVD initially when it was first airing forever ago, but IIRC I started liking him around the time the show meant us to — when we watched him learn about the werewolf thing. And that was that 🥰

3. A song that reminds me of them

Honestly, the show hit it on the mark when they chose Matthew West’s “Family Tree.” At least, until they ruined it for no reason at all. I also like “I Will Survive,” by Stephanie Bentley.

4. How many people I ship them with

Other than Caroline, I like the idea of Bonnie. They both deserved better, and I think they could’ve been good together, especially once he lost his hybrid status and became mortal again so he wouldn’t have to outlive her.

5. My favorite ship of them

Caroline 😭 Though the person she became later on was totally unworthy of him. You know and share my thoughts on this lmao

6. My least favorite ship of them

I’ll say Liv simply because the first time around I stopped watching mid-season 4 and on rewatch I couldn’t get past mid-season 5 so I didn’t really see them together. Or Vicki because he was very shitty to her.

7. A quote of them that you remember

He has a lot of good ones! One in particular I remember and like is shortly before he goes through his first transformation where he says he’s scared. The narrative had presented him sympathetically before that, but I think that really showed he was no longer a douchebag jock, but rather a 16-year-old kid facing a truly horrifying experience. For him to not only admit he was scared, but admit it to Caroline then break down was so sad.

12. Sexuality hc!

Oh gosh, idk. Haven’t really thought about it, honestly, and could see it going a few different ways. I’ll go bi (with a preference for women), because those scenes with Jeremy in early season 2 had vibes 👀 Definitely open to other interpretations, though!

13. Your favorite friendship they have

No one was really his friend :((( Matt at least cared when he died, though, so Matt.

14/15. Best/worst storyline they had

His werewolf one was the best, by far. Worst was DEATH.

21/22. When do you think they were at their happiest/lowest?

Happiest was probably the summer between the season 2 finale and through 3x01. He was so light and his relationship with Caroline was in my opinion at its closest and most wholesome. His lowest moment ... do I have to say it? Early-mid season 5.

23. Future headcanon

I DON’T CARE HOW, BUT SOMEHOW HE GETS RESURRECTED. And then proceeds to live his best life and Caroline comes back with an adequate apology and they live happily ever after.

26. When do you think they were being “themselves” the most?

His softest moments. That softness really is at the core of his character: He has such a big heart and — as he says himself — he doesn’t want to be the guy he was at the beginning of the series, the guy his father shaped him into. He shines in season 2 and beyond when he can unashamedly be a mama’s boy, sweet and lovey with Caroline, and (for better or worse) do anything for the people he cares about.

28. The most unnecessary thing they ever did?

This was the show’s fault, not the character’s, but I hated that he was made to leave so many times. That said, the first time he left I’d say was the most unnecessary because unlike later when his absences were caused by Klaus, this one was his decision. I can understand why he did it, and I’m glad he was able to learn the ropes with people who knew first-hand what he was going through, but I felt there was a better, less isolating way to go about it.

29. How do you think they would be as a parent? (And if they are a parent, how do you think they would be if they weren’t?)

HE WOULD BE SO GOOD. Between the natural kindness he has in him I mentioned from #26, he also would want to be absolutely nothing like his own father. I’m sure he would be insecure af about it, but he would be great and it’s a travesty he’ll never get to experience it.

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send me a character and some numbers! [x]

[insomniactalks]

Many ppl in this fandom care the most about their ship and they will go to the end of the world to support that ship. Right now I am a Portwell, but my priority is always a good storyline that doesn't do a disservice to the characters. If they do any of these characters dirty this season, especially EJ and Gina, who are my favorites, I personally won't watch this show anymore. To quote Ben from The Umbrella Academy: "I'm out, b*ches" (that scene really cracked me up and I also saw the actor's reaction to that scene and it was hilarious). Coming back to hsmtmts, one thing that will definitely stop me from watching the show would be making EJ or Gina cheat. Like if they do that, I'm out... The EJ and Gina I know would never do that... I saw the leaks and I personally don't have a pb with Rina if it's written well and they don't do EJ dirty (or Gina and Ricky with a cheating plot). But I can't see a scenario in which these leaks don't make any of these characters dirty, since the timeline is so short (two weeks... like Gina gets over EJ in two weeks (less than two weeks, bc in the first eps we know they're still together) and falls back in love with Ricky (even worse if it turns out she never got over him and EJ will seem to be a rebound AGAIN, bc of the SAME guy (IDK HOW SOME PPL ACTUALLY LIKE THIS IDEA. The twitter fandom is the worst.))). Also, the idea of making Ricky a rebound is horrible. Can they just not do that? 

 Now, how I see the all EJ-Val and Gina-Ricky situation (ignoring the "leaks"), to me it gives Troy-Sharpay and Gabriella-Ryan vibes. In the second movie, Sharpay and Troy had many scenes together (like EJ and Val seem to have). I don't think Val will be like Sharpay at all, but she will cause drama. Also, I think that Portwell will parallel Troyella in hsm2 and Mitchie and Shane in the second movie (Troy being focused on his future/Mitchie with saving the camp/EJ spending a lot of time with directing the play considering the "high stakes" vs Gabriella/Shane/Gina wanting a happy summer where they spend more time with their love interest and getting to know them better). Like, the parallels are there, Portwell parallels all the main couples in ALL the movies (I won't talk about Anna and Kristoff since this topic was talked about a lot around here). If the writers really screwed this up and the leaks are true... oh well... I will be mad disappointed. 

Note 1: About the "high stakes" part, I have a theory that I don't think will turn out to be true, but what if they go with the camp rock 2 plot with the camp being closed (but it is kept a secret to not put that much pressure on the campers). Just a thought. Anyway, the "high stakes" part will definitely put a lot of pressure on EJ since he is the director and I think this will cause some drama between him and the wildcats (esp with Ricky who, from the trailer, doesn't seem to take the play seriously. Watch this being their actual conflict this season and not the love triangle part :))), that only being a misleading). 

Note 2: I love that EJ and Gina got so much focus in the trailer!!!! Also, EJ plays the guitar!!! They finally let him play it (an eternity later)!

^THISSSSSSS! (I was laughing at that Ben scene LOL😂). You captured my thoughts perfectly, anon. ❤ Only thing I'll add is that there's no narrative point in repeating S1's storyline with the love triangle unless there's different results this time (as in EJ being the priority for someone for once. Nini couldn't give him that and that's okay. I have faith Gina will. 🤷🏽‍♀️) PW will continue to just talk about their problems and be honest, I reckon. That's really important. Totally agree about the "high stakes" putting a huge amount of pressure on EJ (like Troy and Mitchie 🤔). But it seems he will talk to Gina about it (thankfully!)🥰

Sidenote: I've gotten a lot of asks about the "leaks," which I plan to address at some point this month but July is really busy for me so it'll be a long long wait, probably. 😅

[elven-child]

xfiles for the ask game

Favorite Male Character

Mulder <33333 but skinner is a close second like to slap his bald head

Favorite Female Character

Scully unironically is so important to me and I love her so much!!!!! im gonna start throwing things she means so much to me!!!!!

Least Favorite Character

Krycek oh my god. also Diana like why was she there. also CSM can choke and die

Favorite Ship

i mean come on MSR is the only choice here

Favorite Friendship

I loooove the MSR relationship before it became romantic, also Scully and Skinner's friendship is chefs kiss. also I generally enjoy seeing Doggett's interactions with both Scully and Reyes. ALSO SCULLY AND THE LONE GUNMEN

Favorite Quote

ohh that's a tough choice. honestly I think my favourite one may not even be from the show, but instead it's something one of the creators (Frank Spotnitz) said about it: "you can't get the truth. you can't. there's a larger truth, though: that you can't harness the forces of the cosmos, but you may find somebody else. you may find another human being. love is the only truth we can hope to know, as human beings. that's what mulder and scully found after nine years. and that's a lot"

Worst Character Death (if any)

the lone gunmen. I haven't even seen it yet but I already hate it

This made me so happy you have no idea Moment

every time scully appears on the screen hope it helps 🥰

Saddest Moment

it's not even saddest per se it's just the most bittersweet but when Mulder learns Samantha was dead the whole time................ and later in the episode when her ghost hugs him.............. I cried actual tears

Favorite Location

their shitty little basement office with mulder's "I want to believe" poster my beloved

[writingwife-83]

My Sherlolly Self Interview 2021

Hello there! First of all, thank you to @sherlollyappreciationweek for organizing this event! I’ll do a quick intro and then get down to business and answer some questions.

I’m a wife and mom in my late 30s and live in the New England area of the USA. I’ve always loved to write fiction as a hobby, but for most of my life it was original fiction. I’ve been a BBC Sherlock fan since 2014, and that was really what introduced me to the world of fandom and fanfic. I shipped sherlolly since the very first moment they were on screen together and once I discovered the world of fanfic for them, I think it was only a matter of days or weeks until I decided I wanted to try writing for them as well. The rest is history!

I’ll put the questions under the cut since this is going to get loooong lol!

Ok so first up, @mizjoely asked- Sherlolly was your first fandom that you started writing for. How does it compare to the Reylo fandom? What are the best/worst parts of writing for each?

An interesting question lol! This is something I’ve definitely thought a lot about since, like you said, sherlolly was my first fandom and it was all I knew until I stepped over into reylo as well. To compare, I think I’ll just jump into listing the best and worst about each, because that’ll sum it up.

I’ll start with Reylo. The best part is 1- the ship itself, because I absolutely flipping love them to pieces and Idc what anyone has to say about it lol. 2- my little “fandom of three,” as Lexie and darthsydious and I tend to call it. And 3- the fan works for that pair are so incredibly varied and it opens up a heck of a lot of options for creating. I think the less there is in canon, the more opportunities for exploration among the fandom, so that’s pretty fun. As for the worst, 1- The frequent low response to fics. I get that I started creating very late, it’s an enormous fandom where you can get lost in the shuffle, and there’s also a high demand for the kind of fics that I don’t write. But no matter the reasons…it just sucks. 2- there seems to be a bit more squabbling among the shippers about details of the characters and how they’re portrayed in canon. Seems a waste of time to me when we could just be having fun enjoying the same ship. And 3- again, the ship is just so BIG lol. I absolutely prefer the small fandom experience. That said, let’s talk about sherlolly…

The best things are 1- sherlolly of course, because they’re freaking amazing and I love them. 2- the relatively small size of the fandom, particularly when it’s down to the small bunch of us who are somehow still invested nearly 5 yrs later lol. And that allows us to be so incredibly organized too! *cough* sherlollilists *cough* 😉 3- the way I was so warmly welcomed and appreciated right from the start. It didn’t matter that I started writing when we were 3 series into a 4 series show. I got feedback and validation that I never could have imagined. And 4- the way we tend to rally around negativity or someone is being mistreated. I’ve seen this ship turn negativity around in the best sort of way imo, which is by canceling it out with positivity. As for the worst things? Those are harder to come up with so…I don’t think I’ll list anything. 🥰

Next up I have a bunch of questions from @miniherodesktales and I’ll answer them divided up by the two asks- I hope it's okay if I ask several questions. 1.) What's your favourite fic that you've written? 2.) Are you a fan of the canon or is it just Sherlock for you? - I've noticed that you seem to like period fics, so wondering if you blend elements from original canon with BBC Sherlock? Plus, I'm always hoping more Sherllolians will join me in enjoying some of the older Holmes adaptations as there is a lot of fun ones out there I think people would love.

As for my fave fic, I think it might be too tough to choose just one lol. I think my top 3 would have to be I Told You So, Zephyr, and maybe also my newer one For the Best. All for their own reasons, but I’m just generally happy with how those turned out and really enjoyed the writing process.

I’m definitely a big fan of the BBC canon, yes! In fact, for close to my first year in the sherlolly fandom, I wasn’t interested in AUs at all lol. But you’re right, now I do enjoy period AUs a lot. I think it’s just a fun way to enjoy new things for the ship. Sadly, I admit I have very limited exposure to the original ACD canon. I’m not against the original canon, it’s just that for me BBC Sherlock is my Sherlock. That’s basically how I was exposed to the character. I might explore more here and there, but for the most part I enjoy BBC Sherlock and I’m kinda happy to stick to that.

And- A second ask - sorry!  1) Do you feel a need to shape your interpretations of Molly and Sherlock so that they are unique to you and differ from the show and other Sherlolly writers? Same for your Star Wars fics. 2.) Is it something that just happens naturally and not something to worry about? 3.) How do your craft your stories and plots? 4.) How important is writing to you?

This is an excellent question, and for me the answer is no. Imo, good fanfic is about the characters feeling like the characters in canon, in whatever situation they’re in. So I have no desire to create a Molly or Sherlock that is nothing like the ones we see on screen. And the same would definitely apply to my Star Wars writing. My clause to this is that people interpret characters differently. So what feels in character to me might not feel so to someone else.

It has come more naturally over time I feel, but I am still definitely very conscious of my characterization. When I write I try my best to hear the dialogue in my head and decide whether it feels believable for those characters’ canon voices. So in a way, yes it’s something I worry about. Because I’d hate to have someone read my fic and feel like they’re pulled out of the moment due to a wording or tone that doesn’t feel right.

My honest answer to how I craft my stories is that when I either get or am given an idea, I pretty much immediately consult my fandom and real life besties @thisisartbylexie and “darthsydious” and I share with them what I’m thinking and/or ask for their input. It’s rare that I concoct a fic 100% on my own. It usually involves a lot of squealing and plotting with them lol.

Writing is moderately important to me. It’s certainly not in my top list of priorities, but I also consider it a healthy hobby and creative outlet, and I think we all need something like that. When I have free time, I do think it’s a nice thing to use my time for.

@englandsgray asked- Hey hey 👋 Is there a moment or line somewhere in the canon which you think is underrated? Have you already written about it, if so? Or is it something you’re yet to explore? Thanks! Enjoy the self interview ❤️

That’s a really interesting question and I had to give it some thought! I’m going to go with the line in ASiB where Molly says of John going to visit his sister- “Sherlock was complaining- saying.” It’s not like this has never been talked about, but perhaps not quite as much as some other line. I do find it interesting because this is canon evidence that Sherlock is with Molly behind the scenes and without John present. That could be at Bart’s, but it could also be elsewhere. It’s just another little tidbit that reminds us of something that I believe Louise Brealey said after s4, which was that there’s clearly so much “off screen” between those two that we don’t get to see. I guess I haven’t explored that line specifically, so who knows, maybe someday!

And finally, I got this ask from @dlrconlicense- Are there any characters that you don't like writing or feel the most difficulty with when including them in your works? (Could be from any fandom)

Boy, this is a tough one. Tbh I feel pretty comfortable with the main characters I write at this point. But I think some characters take a little more work to write than others. John Watson, for instance. Martin Freeman is such an awesome actor, but his facial expressions are a big part of that. There’s a lot of subtle things he conveys and it’s sometimes hard to translate that perfectly into words. That’s just one example of how it can take a little extra thought to write certain characters.

Thank you so much to the four who asked me questions and I hope it was enjoyable for you guys and others to read. And to anyone who has read this far and gotten through all my ramblings, you get a really big 🍪 lol!