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Any wip really I like most the fandoms you write in but specially arrow wich I binged
I'm not sure I'll return to the Arrow fandom. It won't be soon, if I ever do, but I did start a WIP that I never finished, so I'm sharing that. Who knows if it'll ever become a complete fic that sees the light of day xp
Thank you so much for the ask! I hope you enjoy :D
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“What are you doing here?” he asks. He’d hoped his voice would come out cold, a threat back to tell Slade he isn’t just going to roll over. However, his voice sounds fragile, so very fragile and filled with an awe like hope.
Slade’s eyes widen slightly, before his brow furrows. He looks to be confused at the tone of voice, which Oliver gets. He didn’t intend to sound like that.
However, this is Slade. Slade who might be the only person alive, who understands what he’s been through on that island. The closest thing he has to someone who shares his experiences, who knows who he’s been forced to become, who is like him.
Sure, Sara gets it, but not entirely. She gets being turned into a monster, not wanting to come home, because who could love you after all you’ve done in the name of survival? But she doesn’t understand Lian Yu, she doesn’t fully grasp the kind of survival that place requires.
She’d only been there for a small bit of time, never had to make it through a winter with three people to feed and a limited amount of animals and plants. She didn’t huddle up with him alongside Shado in an attempt to keep all their toes, didn’t give Oliver the biggest piece of the rabbit while pretending she wasn’t, or keep him alive through the worst part of his life, later exploits be damned, those first two years were the worst. Those years forcefully reshaped him, so that taking on the rest was easier.
Slade made his life easier.
Now, he’s standing in front of Oliver again, miraculously returned – and he tries not to think too much of the miracle he knows enabled it – and yet he is a total stranger.
Instead of a friend, Slade is confused by the small bit of softness still left in Oliver that is happy to see him, despite what he has been doing in his city. Hell, he probably assumes its another one of Oliver’s lies, made to manipulate him, or whatever his brain concocted on the Amazo.
Moira thinks he’s being rude. She always thinks the worst of him these days. The son who she wished would return for her, only to return and be a bother instead of the unifier he used to be, the bridge between her and his father, keeping everything together.
She starts her sentence about a sizable donation to her campaign, before suddenly falling still and cutting herself off. Her voice is laced with confusion and distrust as she says: “Oliver, dear, why are you crying?”
It’s only then that Oliver even realizes he started crying, his hand still holding onto Slade’s. He should probably let go. Stop crying too while he is at it. Neither of those things happen. Letting go of Slade feels too final, too definitive.
He needs to say something, anything, to salvage this whole situation. The blurriness of the tears start to impede his vision, but it’s not sadness. A whirlwind of complex emotions are lodged in his chest and the only thing he can think of is that Slade hasn’t ripped his hand from Oliver’s either.
#rr ask#arrow#green arrow#cw arrow#arrow ce#arrow 2012#oliver queen#slade wilson#moira queen#arrow season 2#sladiver#im not yet sure if i wanna go just friendship or shippy vibes#i honestly didnt ship them at first#but i love lian yu era fanfic#so you kinda have to read it if you want to have those fics#and now theyve grown on me
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#ill b real i had no clue how to do this one and i thought they were kinda ugly at first but theyve grown on me i find em a lil cute now#art#my art
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I realized i think i never posted these here, so in honor of zelda news🤲🏻🤧
#loz#the legend of zelda#link#zelda#zelink#these r from 3 years ago now😐🫣#i didnt like them when i made them but theyve grown on me#doodles
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Im sosorry to say this and it's maybe the sleep deprivation but your art looks like RCDart. I'm so sirry
hi
i used to get this a lot when i was in high school bc i had an oc with hair that looked like how they drew a characters hair, and i could see it
No It Doesn't. Actually.
#skunk mail#Anonymous#i actually refuse. not even in a ''oh man now im worried it does! i see it!'' way#like no sorry. it doesn't!#if it werent severely overused now i would *extremely loud incorrect buzzer* you#this feels like bait ask with how hard it made me roll my eyes upon seeing it bc what other reaction cld you possibly expect when#sending this to someone LMAO but whatever#<- YKWIM??? its less ''what a horrible comparison!'' bc i know it doesnt look like that...its more like idk#why are ppl still using em as fodder for stuff like this what was the goal! its weird to either party!#there's also smthng to be said abt like. idk i hope theyve grown and changed on the actually harmful views#but their art looks different now last i saw...#i wish them the best what with comments like these + transphobia and such following them around forever; if they have grown and changed
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still haven't moved on from zane in this episode (aka I hit tag limit again and am unhappy about it)
#alek insanity#not gonna main tag this but prepare for a tiny rant#home is actually really good zane characterization and its super cool to me how it holds up to this day#s1 characterization is very specific to me because the behaviors displayed by the ninja there (mostly) isnt bc thats how they really are but#its due to societal pressure. cole originally being more 'stone faced tough guy' -> 'down to earth' -> 'really sensible easy to talk to guy'#is because hes always been a sensitive guy... but he felt he couldnt express that true version of himself. thats the whole thing behind his#true potential. jay going from s1 -> s6 -> now is less of societal pressure and more teenager figuring himself out but it still applies. ish#seeing how much the ninja have changed or grown from then to now is amazing because back then they all wore masks. they didnt know each#other all that well. but theyve gained that comfortability with each other and also have grown and matured as people#some seasons / eps characterization for certain people im not a fan of (lloyds random misogyny arc in s13) but i mean the overall trend here#and then there is zane. zane in home was pretty dead on to how he behaves now (at least... when it comes to his faults?) and i dont want to#say people skim over that but i am the sf proclaimed n1 s1e2 fan and overthink every scene. zane's early characterization is some of my fav#for him period. he also goes through a ton of traumatic stuff and a ton of bad writing bouts but why he acts so 'weird' or 'distant' has#always been a thread sewn in. he changed so much he stayed the same in a way... if that makes sense. -> ohhh the ninja get mail and he#doesnt? oh he has no family? he quite literally walks away from that situation. oh the ninja are yelling in his face and asking whats wrong#with him? he literally walks away from that situation. he says its to follow the falcon but seeing how he apologized to them by not only#baking a ton of pies (cough... the food fight is what led to him leaving at first) but he also found them a whole entire new house.#zane is unable to truly value what he does for others. insert him in s11 saying he 'tried' to fufill his goal of protecting others.#everything he has ever done still isnt good enough. then the ninja tried to apologize and he didnt really... let them.#that one post about characters putting on facades and that facade being how people really see them. even in fandom. thats zane to me#the guy who lies about being upset and avoids his problems ran away after being yelled at? and he said he wasnt really mad? that is a lie!!#him being a ~360 when it comes to his character development is neat to me because he never hid behind a mask in the same way the others did#cole wanting to seem tough vs being really soft? kai wanting approval so bad he starts being selfish? kai isnt selfish usually!#he is self centered but that is a whole different thing. just wanting to fit in and breaking free of that. zane's true potential came in the#form of 'i finally know why i am not normal' instead of 'i will be my true self'. zane never pretended to not be weird#(instert book) states he literally didnt know why people got mad at him. he just existed and it was 'wrong'. the mask he hid behind was#avoidance. he was pretty open about how he actually was (most of the time). when he was upset he would audibly sigh and walk away lol#but for him saying he wasnt upset / saddened by the ninja... it felt like a moment of selflessness. if that makes sense. he blamed himself#for the monestary burning down. so he didnt deserve the apologies (ish) in the virtues of spinjitzu zane is shown as the generous one iirc#he puts the needs of others over his own. he will bear whatever burden he needs if others are happy. at that same time he doesnt allow
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its funny to me because ive been making more cosmosdex ocs the past few days (not strictly fortuna-based) and this one dude who functions as another representation of me feels like such an opposite compared to eggtart when i put them side-by-side
Eggtart is overall a happy creature who loves to speak with people and have fun, loves physical affection and generally having a nice time. doesnt get very upset or angry often and usually itd just be in a playful sense
Bornite (that oc i mentioned) is pretty monotone in speech and doesn’t actively attempt to be around other people, and physical affection just weirds him out a bit at best. not usually grumpy or people-hating or anything just enjoys a very solitude lifestyle, though is far more likely to experience more negative emotions and behaviours than Eggtart could
#I just want to talk about my ocs who i havent even shown yet sorry. scurries off into My Pit#but it was completely accidental for him to be based off a “me” at first#but i just consider him another sona now. hes my “im mentally ill and neurodivergent and also disabled” guy#I havent shown Bor anywhere yet. but soon. maybe#but if i had to catergorize them both eggtart is a “creature and beast” while bor is a “thing and being”#maybe you could fit in “critter” too but it entirely depends on what you enjoy in characters LOL#also hes a (shockingly partially-stable) hybrid between a smeeper and tegyp. because i love smeepers and tegyps. shocking i know#(well smeepers isnt a surprise but tegyps might be.. theyve grown on me a bunch i love them a ton)#im personally putting Bor in a blender and making a slurry out of him hmmmm. Mmy yummy wool and stone juice.
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i might dye my hair on tuesday..................for the FIRST TIME
#like im NOT sure yet and im not dying the roots bc my mom will nooot let me lol#but i can do like highlights or stuff w the tips#and im thinking reddish ... I DONT KNOW#im going to get my layers cut anyways bc theyve grown out and now my hair is flat and my curls are looser#so we will see..#z.txt
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“are you okay lin” no bitch im thinking about blame and bryce
#not in a ship way#that would be weird#but their dynamic is so underrated and i miss them#i wish they had more time together in blame the hero#just like one more episode.#bryce began to genuinely care about him and nobody talks about it#obviously she’s still her usual heartless self#but for someone who’s been shown time and time again putting herself before anyone else (at least in this timeline)#her sacrificing herself to protect blame from bobby and allowing him to escape? that’s huge for her dude#now we have the new timeline where theyve never crossed paths and probably never will#GRRRRAAAAAAAHHHHHHH. sad.#fuck it canon cant stop me#thats her grown ass adopted bastard if you tell me otherwise i will be very CROSS#blame finally adopted real#i wish. i fucking wish.#bryce tankthrust#blame hernandez#blame the hero
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hey actually what was up with the artemis fowl series suddenly pivoting to make the grown adult woman a love interest for the teenage boy. like I’ve blocked everything after the first 4 books from my mind bc I hate them for many reasons but like. genuinely what the fuck.
#made worse I think by the new movie making Holly a child as well I think#(I don’t know I didn’t watch it and I’ll never watch it out of spite)#artemis fowl was one of The most influential book series for me personally I loved them dearly#(again. only the first 4 tho)#I HATED 5. it’s the only one I do not own. bc I disliked it that much.#but seriously pivoting the relationship between a literal child and a grown adult woman to be even kind of romantic is weird right#i knowwwww in the book where they kissed she’d been time bullshitty aged back down to a teenager too but like. my god#sorry I’ve had these grievances for nearly a decade now#anyway. I doubt anybody cares about this series lmao#also I must say I’m a niche butch Holly/transfem Trouble t4t lesbian truther it needs to be said#(i am the only correct person about artemis fowl thanks)#.doc#actually I must continue. I loved holly that was a real blow to her character. also no adaption has ever done her right.#theyve always made her too feminine. she’s got SHORT SHORT hair and brown skin and a hooked nose and literally nobody ever depicts her as s
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Yay! I'm finally getting a new cat friend tomorrow!
#rant#she's 6 months old#and has sadly been pregnant/had kittens already#now theyve grown up and shes been fixed#so she can start living her own life!#it makes me sad: as she is still so tiny and young to have gone through that
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I'm reading the transgender issue and ive just remembered in 2016 when a group of grown ass educated adults blamed me for the fact that two of my friends "thought" they were transgender because they thought I was influencing them.
#and then again when my friends mum threatened to cut them off if they moved in with me#despite the fact that theyve been out for almost as long as i have#because she thought i was going to medical transition him#the fact that fully grown adult people genuinely believe that I am contagious and insidious just for being trans is insane#im 21 now but people have been treating me like this since 13!!!#people who fucking well know better have been telling me that its my fault and my influence#my peers also blamed me and my friends for everyone who came out as gay in school#as though its a bad thing and there needs to be blame#its just insane#and fucked me up in terms of growing up feeling violent and predatory just for existing#but also how much would it fuck up a kid to be told no you actually have no agency in self identification#youre being influenced and you dont even know it because you dont know yourself#why do we not just fucking kill these people!!!#coming out young makes you not just a target from children but from adults! who are supposed to be looking after you!#you are seen as putting other children and risk and confusing them#as a threat#I wasnt a threat i was a child!!!!!#al is talking
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anyway finally finished girls to the front. obviously had a lot of opinions about it. i have a lot more respect for the day-to-day lived realities of riot grrls and the underground community fostered. but like. man. is the music so secondary. my main critique of riot grrl is it took many of those bands growing out of the movement amd growing up to hit something truly, artistically great (music-wise).
#i think about marcus calling dc punk like. musically rigorous (in a way she was implying was 'macho' to a degree)#and how (1) most of the dischord stuff was still very much diy it was just naturally growing more experimental in a posthardcore landscape#but also (2) i dont think thats inherently.... a bad thing???? i guess i just dont see practicing a lot nd being passionate about your craf#as unpunk or some chauvinist methology that keeps girls out#like yes. allowing women the space to be imperfect. important! bc women arent allowed to play annoying shitty juvenile music#but that doesnt mean naturally developing as a musician and valuing tenchique and theory spits in the face of that#also of course sara marcus' perspective is pretty wack its easily the drawback of the book#she makes a lot of snap judgements and incorporates odd grudges that make me not trust her wholeheardly#lots of heroworship too.#the jessica hopper stuff is the most wild bc ive now become invested in hoppers like. career and shit#and even as someone who disagrees woth hopper on a lot i thought the book went Out Of Its Way#to shit on her in a way that kind of directly ruins her reputation as a music critic and such#and its so disheartening bc theres no grace given at all.#like again these were young girls and women- im willing to imagine theyve grown and changed and evolved#but marcus doesnt really care#or at least never interrogates that in the text itself#anyway! still positive experience to have a concise timeline and such#my posts
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well, i found something good about the slip arc. it’s the idea that homesickness in the future will be a physical illness that manifests in those especially who will never have the chance to return to earth. cause im gonna be real i wasnt paying attn because i didnt want to but the way i understand it people on new kinshasa weren’t affected by this, people in the upper echelons of sarasvahti (ie people who had money to spend and lives to lead by doing so) weren’t affected by it: only Brahma pests and those too poor for earth to ever be a dream in their hearts were ailing with a homesickness so potent and concrete that it led to physical symptoms.
and i fucking love that. i love that so much, i think theres this divide btwn ppl who would love to go to space and who love the idea of aliens and whatever and then you have those who get sick thinking about the idea that for years the planet has existed with a certain number of souls less than it’s supposed to have because theres always been people on the space station and i FIRMLY belong to that second category so like... this is SO good to me, it’s so fucking real
#penumb#again .... im gonna mention the sacred text this is getting embarrassing but idc its why i love that jet & rita are from earth in ambrosia#and i love the inclusion of second cit in there just on the basis of the fact that it melds so well and i love it#but also because i love how earth has grown and evolved and done so in a pretty insular way all things considered??#because its now considered backwards and old school and wht have you and obviously this isnt canon bc it wouldnt mesh with the homesickness#and also its not canon bc it just isnt but in ambrosia earth has sort of evolved beyond capitalism because theyve had to#bc they are living with the direct results of what human technologies have done in those ghost dinosaurs#and because at least how it comes across with the jet storyline it seems that earth has become a glorified parking lot#an in betweeny for dark matters to park their spaceship when looking for the unnatural disaster#i dont actually know if its canon that jet is from earth i feel like we've not heard jack about earth ever except for that illness#but like to me jet will always be from earth because it explains ... so much to me#this idea of natural disasters which im sure exist on other planets (i mean hello venus global warming) but they still all come back to#us and the way he's so self contained and self controlled seems to have something that for me resonates with earth too#idk. anyway idk if that author even knows what theyve done to my worldview with that fic its unreal
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ian flynn talking about sonic and amy being friends in the latest bumblekast yippee!
#‘‘they have moved onto a point where they are mutually trusting and appreciative friends; the tension is mostly dissolved’‘ :]#(this isnt me ignoring his larger point about their dynamic btw i just like hearing how theyre friends)#serena.txt#i def agree w him that trying to revert their dynamic back to the whole tropey thing of amy chasing after him and being all overbearing and#stuff and sonic being uncomfortable around her and annoyed by her is not the way to go#i think its nice that theyve grown from that kind of dynamic and amy has sorta cooled off now so that they can actually really be friends#rather than sonic treating her as a nuisance that he has to avoid or walk on eggshells around#cause like as much as the gay sonic truther in me likes seeing him completely reject her advances in older stuff (lol)#it does result in them. not getting to really be friends bcuz she comes across as crazzy and obsessed#and he comes across like he hates her guts ToT#so i very much like that now they get to just actually be friends :)#even if that is laced w ship teasing and stuff man i dont rlly care lol#it used to get me real riled up back in the old days but ive mellowed i think they can be cute. i dont ship them like at all#but carry on s0namyers i respect you guys. as long as you arent weird about it#ive grown very attached to aro amy but like if they end up ever actually getting together or having more explicitly romantic moments and#stuff i rlly wouldnt mind lol
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see I get its abt repression and letting that bury u alive but theres still time it doesnt have to be like this etc !! and it does that powerfully. but I've just. never been repressed or closeted in that specific kind of sense. dysphoria has never manifested like that for me... I kind of feel like social pressures esp gender related ones didn't exert the same force on me growing up that they did on a lot of ppl I know (and still don't now) bc I never fully understood them or was excluded for various reasons. but man. fucking rough for ppl who did/do still feel that way 💔
#just sitting trying to unpick how i feel abt the film cuz my alarm is out of battery so i gotta charge it before i sleep....#like i didnt have an easy time as a kid or teen and yeah i was still very much affected by social constructs n attitudes around me#but it was difficult in different ways.... i dont knowww. i do have my own repression but not in a way ive ever seen represented#or that other ppl seem to understand unless they have a similar set of experiences to me#just too autistic to get it LOL#ive always been myself even before i had the language to understand what that meant. n the resistance to my self expression hasnt ever#trumped my ability to express myself#i think this kind of relates to how like. ive never had the need to 'come out' like its never been important to me personally#and i can understand why it is for some ppl. but as soon as i found out what lesbianism was n saw myself in it that was that#and the same w realising my understanding of my gender was different like i just immediately incorporated it into my life#and yeah i havent 'come out' to my parents which used to be bc they were kinda homophobic but theyve grown n theyre not anymore#but i just dont need to like its not relevant to our relationship???#if i had a long term partner i would introduce them. and that would probably be the only way id explicitly acknowledge it to them#they likely already know by this point bc ive never made much of an effort to hide it n virtually everyone else has known for 8+ years#im not dependent on them anymore so it doesnt really matter if it damaged our relationship. like that would be on them if it did#sorry this sounds cold. idk ive never believed in unconditional familial love in my experience there are always conditions attached#i care abt them a lot dont get me wrong.. ah im explaining badly im so shattered....#my alarm is probably charged enough now so im gonna sleep now otherwise ill be getting less than 6 hrs sleep sigh..#im just rambling..... goooodnight muah#.diaries
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character bingo lets doooo shinjiro and fuuka. curious
I love shinjiro so much and honestly I have only grown to love him more and more... His whole character in Persona 3 is amazing and I really adore his and Castor's designs (and how castor's mythology ties into him). He's always been in my top 5 persona 3 characters but he's kinda close to taking spot number 3...
Fuuka is another character who I've really grown to love, she really is the glue of the team and despite all the bullshit in p3 she is so KIND hell look at how she and natsuki turned out after everything the latter did to her... Fuuka girl you are everything
#asks#houndfaker#ty quinn 🥰🥰🥰#shinji and fuuka are honestly some of my favs eheh#theyve both grown on me immensely especially fuuka#fuuka needs more love tbh#oh the fandom one was specifically about her voice actress i never thought it was TAHT bad#it certainly wasnt great but u know ive heard worse#less of a problem now thanks to her new voice (which is. the best new voice imo shes phenomenal)#and yeah shinji has a big red coat which im learning is a character design I really like so 💀
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