#and nobody can read my handwriting lol

[ohnoitsz1m]

Uhh retooling an older concept,, if you remember the piece this is based off no you don't ok?

This is like rambling in drawing form almost . I know it is incoherent lmaono

[meichenxi]

Hanzi update (+accidental trauma talk)

tw illness, trauma, vomiting, weight loss, recovery. I didn't plan to write about this but because of what happened in the last year I can't really write about how I studied Chinese without talking about it. so. but it's mainly about hanzi lol

I've been learning how to write traditional characters with the vague idea that I'd go and study in Taiwan, and also that if I want to write Classical Chinese or Japanese they're far more useful - but the program I want to go to Taiwan for requires HSK7, which I DO not think I can achieve and have the results of before March. Who knows! Perhaps within me lies untold brilliance and dedication!!

...well, I wouldn't rely on it. (I am also busy with a job, a partner, studying an A-level course to begin tutoring it in September, and writing the second draft of my novel.)

And even if I ended up going to Taiwan with my absolutely fantastic HSK7, there's no way I could handwrite all of those words within a year. If I learn 10 characters a day, that's like 3650 characters in a year, but realistically that will never happen - and you still have to actually remember them.

I also know from my last experience where I learnt a stupid amount of characters very quickly (about 800 in two weeks) that I can technically do it, I have a very large swollen brain, but then the brain, being very large and very swollen, promptly burns out. And leaves me to not do any Chinese again for like two months. So basically - completely pointless, because after those two months of rest I had forgotten most of them anyway. I will not be doing that again.

This time around I have been slowly, very slowly, learning things on Skritter. I have about 400 characters so far. I'm not doing words but doing characters, which is a bit slower, but I figure it'll be more useful in the long run. After I have the first 1000, I'm planning to then systematically go through the HSK and TOCFL lists and check I know how to put characters together and which 'jing' is used in 'yijing' etc.

This approach is only really going to work because I know a lot of vocabulary and can read a lot of stuff already - otherwise I wouldn't recommend to anybody without that backbone of vocabulary to just learn random isolated characters, unless you're masochistic or much harder-core than I am.

As I have said in a lot of posts before, I had a very difficult experience in China last August and have basically taken an entire year off studying because in all honesty I just couldn't bring myself to face the language again. Every time I tried I had this crazy grief and nightmares and stress response. What I went through was so stressful that during those two months in China that I lost seven kilograms, as I couldn't eat much without vomiting it back up due to stress and fear, didn't sleep, and ended up having to leave for Thailand pretty severely malnutritioned - which then made me susceptible to illnesses there and I spent the next two months after with awful health, vomiting and weak and generally sick. Luckily I was with friends and I gained the weight again and my period and digestive system sorted itself out.

And I never expected that a language itself could carry trauma? Like. Nobody died, it wasn't like that, I wasn't abused or assaulted or anything but still...for just under a year, every time I spoke or heard or read Chinese I couldn't help thinking of those two months. Even now it's still hard. I'm finding my way back to it but, to be honest, I didn't expect how hard it would be. I thought I could just - move past it, because I'd already had so many great experiences in China and Taiwan and with Chinese, that they would cancel each other out or at least be aided by the huge amounts of love that the language has shown me. Alas, it was not the case.

Anyway. All of that to say - I have only managed to do about 400 characters in a year, because I essentially gave up studying completely.

Now I've just finished reviewing and re-remembering those 400 characters on Skritter, so I'm ready to start again! I don't know what's changed, I guess just time - I feel more positive, I feel curious and interested about the language again. I don't know. I'm not going to question it too deeply. But for these past two weeks, I've been having a lot of fun :)

I'll update everyone on my progress as I go! Next post - 500.

[4awny]

Sp Study Headcanons that literally nobody somebody asked for:

Kenny:-

actually listens and pays attention in class

but literally cannot study at all if cartman is there

would rather race cars and start fires than study

easily distracted

is kind of 🤷🏼‍♂️ whatever when its exam day

legs spread as far out from the desk as possible

likes to watch other people stress out from the back row

grade? B. people under estimate him

Kyle:-

disgustingly prepared

gets stressed out a lot tho

like when people won't shut up

therefore prefers to study alone

the closer he is to the final exam > the more moody he gets

permanent 😠 face

blames cartman for distracting him

i mean yeah. he does that a lot tbf

is up all night studying despite knowing sleep is just as important

fear of failure maybe?

OK I could go on here

grade? A. predictable. the hard work paid off

Stan:-

doubts himself the whole time

king of procrastination

not completely his fault, always busy doing shit for ppl

thinks he's totally prepared

opens up the first page of the exam paper

immediately forgets everything he ever knew

🤯 lost af

oh wait he does know something

comes out feeling like he let himself down

grade? C. all gd my guy

Cartman:-

this kid will not acknowledge an exam until the day before

then panics like hell

and kyle told him so too

looks over to each friend as if to say HELP ME when everybody opens their paper

obviously no one helps him lol

like? man should have listened

cannot concentrate, thoughts racing, over thinking

leads to inner meltdown

struggles to submit anything worth a pass due to the stress

acts like it was the easiest exam of his life

OK enough lore

grade D. just about.

Butters:-

surprisingly good with numbers

brings a pencil sharpener into the exam hall

and like 4 extra pencils too

is pretty confident

real cocky too. smug is the word

bc he the only mf to actually enjoy exams

looks over at cartman with a 👍🏻

gets a 🖕🏼 in return

grade B+. kid is no dumbass

Craig:-

should probably try harder

doesn't even care about grades

kinda does actually

"let's just get this over with" as he rolls up to the exam hall with his hands in his pockets

😒

pretty average student

writes 'fuck knows' for questions he doesn't know

having good common sense helped him massively

grade? B. nobody knows how he managed it either. mystery

Tweek:-

a lot of pencil tapping

relies on a lot of caffeine

...obviously

sweaty palms

forever looking around at other people

reads the question 10 times

then 10 more times

still doesn't understand so writes nothing.

goes back to the 1st question halfway through

adds ???? next to his answers

doctors handwriting. barely readable.

grade? it's a D. rip

Clyde:-

"test? what test?"

moderately studies...

for the wrong exam

writes notes on his hand before the final

chews gum throughout

It annoys tweek, who can hear it from 14 seats back

always the first to finish

because finishing first means he's better than everyone else

🤡

spends the next half hour doodling circles all over the desk

only cares about the party afterwards anyways

grade?? big fat FAIL

Tolkien:-

actually knows his stuff, bc he covered literally everything

apart from that 1 subject, but he didn't care about it anyway

reads a lot of books, loves literature

sleeps well, eats well

helps his mind combat pre-exam stress

feels pretty confident on exam day, but hides it well

doesn't want his friends to think he's a nerd or anything...

Grade? A+++++. total NERD

[indiestsnake]

moorrrrrrrrrrrre ac worldless au

a slightly more in-depth ref sheet for our favorite angular guy. sorry if you can’t read my handwriting lol, but I’ll be explaining everything on it below this lil cut soooooooo

His scarf is actually a larger piece of cloth folded inward and sewn together, leaving a small section near the end that is hollow. That’s where he keeps his tools, lockpicks, smoke bombs, extra blades. the little diamond is the piece that clasps it shut.

His scarf is also useful for hiding his hands, either for lockpicking or quietly threatening to shiv someone. his left gauntlet holds the hidden blade, so he usually drapes it over that hand so nobody notices it’s ever so slightly different from his other hand.

for the rare times he does carry a weapon, he’s got a rifle. due to some engineering and starfolk magic shenanigans, it can fire two shots before needing to reload. it ain’t much, but it’s certainly gotten him out of a few rough situations. he’s also trained in utilizing it as a close-range weapon, even though it doesn’t have a bayonet. he’s just good at beating the shit out of ppl with it. thats also another thing useful for blending in, as most assassins carry sharp weapons. also, most assassins carry weapons that are intended to be used in close combat. Rifles are, notably, neither of those, so it keeps eyes off his back.

Kinda expected motivation to flesh out this au would fizzle out quickly, but it. uh. hasn’t. so you might get an Edda ref sheet or some Aven characterization rambles in the near future. For now, that’s all. Goobye!!!

[airrika]

ok so since my arm literally got cooked and I can’t draw for a bit I’m gonna drop these cuz they been sitting in my freezer

PETRONA HCS

-she is a strong leader but it’s not natural. She had to learn how to lead

-she doesn’t want people to know this but she does care about her appearance to a decent extent

-she also doesn’t want people to know her affection. She cannot have people knowing she cares about them, oh the horror

-Nobody wants to play card games with Petrona bc she tracks cards. She knows what someone is about to put down and it’s just. not fun anymore lol

-secretly superrr competitive can’t handle losing. In any game she’ll play until she wins and then will stop immediately so she doesn’t lose again

-good dexterity, also knows more sleight of hand than you’d expect; it’s not just with cards but with coins and other small objects. It’s something she liked as a child, and because she can have a good neutral or poker expression shes skilled at misdirection, which is essential for not just tricks but..many other things

-despite being a good public speaker, she’d rather avoid making conversation. She either comes across as too hostile, cold, or apathetic, and sometimes she really isn’t trying to. She’s also unconsciously shy and there’s not much to talk abt

-only comfortable in a conversation when talking about work

-interesting in that she can’t hold a normal, non-work related conversation well but can somehow pull up with the most creative and ruthless insults when going off on somebody

-unassuming bisexual disaster, that likely leans more towards women her dessert orders being so fucking fruity is not a coincidence. But also probably can’t talk to women normally

-when she’s not stressed she’s actually a lot more pleasant (let’s be real tho when is that💀) she may not show any more emotion but she’s nicer in her words and more easygoing

-not legally blind but not great without her glasses, wears contacts sometimes but def prefers glasses

-can stay quiet for a very long time. In social settings she chooses her words carefully and often just doesn’t say them at all (when she’s not angry)

-hot days really piss her off like girl is already in a terrible mood the moment she reads the forecast or steps outside

-her voice is sort of flat throughout except when she’s yelling at someone. Tbh her yelling is also not very pitchy despite being at a raised volume

-played violin as a child and was good at it but she quit bc she got too busy w other things. Thinking of picking it back up again tho bc it was fun

-likes aquariums. Probably a combination of the dim light or the alien nature of some marine creatures (ex. Jellyfish or those ones that look like plants) but it’s a place where she feels grounded

-only herself and a few others can actually read her handwriting. She prefers to type fast anyway so she only writes when she has to, but she also likes writing fast…it’s pretty but illegible

-enjoys seafood, especially whitefish, can and will eat almost any type but oysters are a hard nope

-also has pretty high pain and spice tolerance

-she’s subjective to migraines that are rare but extremely severe to the point of hospitalization, so she always has painkillers on her just in case. Also gets motion sick easily —like if she’s not the one driving she gets kinda sick

-she is used to functioning on very little sleep but it also makes her cranky asf. at work she has literally been banned from the coffee machine because she was getting too much in one day

-doesn’t really get sick but if she does it’s always bad. like down for a week+ bad

-stature-wise she’s not very intimidating but she has this magnitude/aura that radiates authority. Also has a perfect rbf Plus the way she carries herself and looks at people conveys that she is prickly and that alone is scary af

-lonely but afraid to get close to people. She’s always been independent and worries she’ll hurt people she gets attached to bc it’s happened so many times

-book-wise brilliant, and can think on the spot quite well + pick up patterns and logistics that others might not, but not sharp with emotions. She can’t rly read when someone is hurting and assumes everyone is like her, where they keep emotions hidden. This happens when she accidentally goes too far with her words (and makes people cry) and then she stops and feels guilty for a while.

-her 💅anxiety💅 is masked by outward aloofness and hostility

-Also she has a massive fear of failure and spirals if she does fail. She has perfectionist tendencies and plans everything meticulously to make sure failure doesn’t happen. When things don’t go according to what she planned it’s literally like knocking a Jenga tower over and she goes a tiny bit insane

[thatrandomlemononyourcounter1]

CJ!

explorer academy head cannons? im taking your suggestion to ask about your lesser known fandoms and I've literally never heard of explorer academy lol

but it sounds interesting, so... thoughts? :D

ELLE!!

okay there's quite a few characters in explorer academy ;-;

so idk who to do.

I GUESS WE'LL DO SAILOR (my fav <3)

(she's getting a spin-off series, might I add. But she's getting powers so idk how to feel cause the series would've been fine without em ;-;)

I'm just going to do some basic ones cause it's been a hot sec since I read the books.

She's training to be a Marine Conservationist (I think this is canon)

Extrovert fs

She's surprisingly petty

Out of the main group of friends, she's equal parts risk taker and voice of reason

Cannot stand people talking trash about her friends

Knows obscure facts about marine mammals that you can't find unless you look them up specifically

Her fav color is blue cause she's basic :D (jkjkjkjkjkjkjk don't come for me ;-;)

Could not do a cartwheel until the tender age of 15 (me too girl me too)

Hates coffee but loves the smell of it (me too girl me too)

Her and Cruz (one of the other main characters) love to go surfing together whenever she visits him.

She has really scratchy handwriting, and if she's in a rush, nobody can read it to be honest.

I tried to keep it chill and short since you haven't read the books and this probably won't make too much sense. If you want, I can give you a rundown of the books so this might make a little more sense lol

THANKS FOR THE ASK THO <333

[chronotopes]

12.6.24

i want to get a needlessly expensive haircut so badly but convincing myself having gay little curtain bangs would fix me instead of making me worse is probably self-deluding on a deep level. i also want to buy a second cardigan thats identical to the cardigan i already own but in a different color, which is a little bit more practical and necessary. i just want to be able to ponytail my hair without hating how i look in the mirror and i hate having a Bare Forehead and i hate doing the stupid little Swoop that dates me straight to 2014. sigh. but also almost every time i change my hair i freak out jo march style and hate it. have been dealing with the consequences of the last time i tried to change something for like 8 months now. however long ago may was.

seeing friends tonight!!!!!!!! (at the very least mo + billie + rob + amara, others might show up.) seeing improv tonight, which i'm sure will have its moments and also its non-moments.

one day i need to publish an essay that isn't about stephen because right now i'm coming up on two for two. embarrassing really. if he could be around to do it he would mock my lack of range. anyway enough of that. throws up.

I'M NORMAL!!!!!

ekko astral is a good band and so is native sun and so is dim wizard even though we missed most of their set lmao

i really have no business feeling a Profound Emptiness In My Chest and Crying All The Time today i am literally seeing friends tonight and christmas is in 19 days even though were rather #peeved at jennys mom rn, and new years eve is in 24 days even though ivan and melinda won't be there and the party atmosphere will thus be rather subdued. and we're seeing another concert in the city a week from yesterday and hosting a party a week from today and making french onion soup tomorrow. and i'm rereading my favorite book faster than i've read any book all year. there is literally so much to not cry every day about. it's literally just The Agonies Of My Period lol. fucking skill issue

nobody besides me is blogging about the epic highs and lows of being rose wilder lane on tumblr.com except one of those 'have not interrogated these books from my childhood very strongly' little house people whos making wrong vibes-based claims about the little house authorship "controversy" (lol). "the style here is going rose vibes" how about the manuscript in Clearly Not Lane's Handwriting that extremely already exists. how does that factor into your feelings about stylistics. we can find the bits of the books that lane had the biggest most direct hand in because they are really obvious and, oftentimes, documented. wilder wrote and even sometimes published pieces that clearly have the little house dna. the broad shape of this collaboration is not a "mystery" that a Blogger on Tumblr needs to weigh in on and pick a side on, grow up

i wish there could be a tv miniseries about rose wilder lane. i would watch the hell out of that but i would only trust caroline fraser and the editors of the annotated pioneer girl and ann romines a team of underlings (including me, i could be an underling) to create it. there are so many riveting human stories in history and shes one of them but that doesnt stop her from being kind of a ~villain~ and it certainly doesn't make her the Secret Author of books with, once again, known and existing manuscripts that are not in her handwriting. how are you going to do stylistic analysis of two women who have extremely fucking extensive bodies of work and lived in the 19th/20th centuries. if it's shitty history when people do Authorship Controversies with shakespeare it's laughable about 20th century writers. girl the manuscripts!!!!

i distracted myself with a ~Special Interest~ or whatever the kids are calling it these days and successfully made myself less sad. yay!!!

[skitzosexual]

À la a schizoid making a blog when they can't fucking stand social media;

"Get a diary" I flex the spookiness of a dead blog more than a dead person's diary that nobody can read because my handwriting is illegible. Lol.

I don't have anything for myself except a mumbling of disdain. I've a frustration so tepid it's embarrassing. At this point, is that frustration or irritation?

Trying to act 'normal' to impress whoever; it's a full time job to talk to anyone and maintain relationships. But it isn't a 'bad job', whatever that means. It's ok.

Everything is just kind of ok. I don't see myself getting anywhere with that reasoning but my cosplay of a more 'normal' person is just ok. Everything is ok, strictly speaking. I'm in the prime of my life!

Self-loathing is fun. That's the worst part, admitting that I self-loathe and worm destructive things into my routine because it's kind of fun, haha. It feels like the only fun thing in my life, which makes me an edgy bitch. Being neutral, being just ok, it erodes the mind more than becoming the paragon of destruction. Methinks.

I'm overwhelmingly just ok. I know that is incredibly boring. I'm bored of myself right now. But I might have more to say about things that aren't me.

:p

Bleh!

[thatgingerswritings]

Sweet Notes

Will Byers X Reader

→ He/him pronouns

→ Fluff

Synopsis: As Valentine's day is approaching, you notice a few notes in your locker, and you want to know who's writing them.

Warnings: None :)

A/N: English is not my first language, don't hesitate to point out my mistake so I can get better at writing (and english in general lol). I hope you'll enjoy this fic!

!! REQUESTS ARE OPEN!!

You're staring at the folded sheet in front of you, laying on top of your books. You stood there, completely frozen, your hand halfway between the locker door and the books. 'What the hell is this?' you thought. Frowning your eyebrows, you hesitantly took it and looked both ways before slowly opening it. You stared at the messy -but still pretty- handwriting on the paper, letters forming words, then lines, you figured it was a whole letter. Again, you looked both ways before leaning forward to your locker, making sure no one could read it, though nobody cared enough to try. You began to read each line on the sheet and your cheeks grew redder and redder as you kept reading. The text was a poem about you.

You read it at least three times to be sure you correctly understood what it was about. Yes, it was a four paragraphs long poem about your eyes, your smile, your voice, your laugh...

But before you could get lost in your own head by thinking about who could have written this, the school bell rang in your ears and all the students began hurrying to their classroom. You folded the sheet again and put it in your pocket then slammed your locker's door shut. You walked to your classroom and settled down for your first period. A few seconds later, your friend Jane sat beside you and smiled to you. "Hi [Y/N]! How are you?" she asked. "Hi Jane, I'm good, how about you?" you answered. "Are you sure? You look kind of upset." You felt your cheeks heat up and looked down at your hands, "have you asked someone to be your Valentine and she said no?" she asked. You almost choked on your own saliva and took a few seconds to think of a reaction. Your actual crush was a boy, and her brother to add to that. How could you answer anything else than a heartfelt: "No!"

Your conversation with Jane got cut off by the teacher and class began. When first period ended, you moved to another classroom, doodling in your book during classes was much more interesting than paying attention and this morning was as normal as it could possibly be. Honestly, everything was boring to you today. Even your lunch. You packed your favorite meal this morning and you weren't willing to finish it, it tasted nothing special today. You moved from the cafeteria to your locker to prepare your stuff for the next classes. When you opened the door, another folded paper fell to the ground. You grabbed it rapidly like you were afraid it would burn as soon as it touched the ground. You carefully unfolded it and hid behind your locker door to read the little note. This time it wasn't a text but a messy sketch of you in class. You were the only thing drawn on this paper and the more you stared at it, the redder your cheeks got. Even if the sketch was kind of messy, it was really pretty. The artist caught every feature of your face.

As you were walking outside, you couldn't help but feel really embarrassed for that person. Your heart was already taken and you didn't want to get into a relationship with anyone else, but it didn't seem like he had a crush on you too. You sighed and looked around to see if you could find your friends. You then saw Jane's gestures to catch your attention and walked to her and Will. You sat with them in the grass.

The whole afternoon, you could feel your heart racing in your chest, jumping slightly every time someone called your name. You felt very anxious and couldn't wait for the day to end. When it was finally time to go home, you stopped by your locker to grab a few things for your homework, and when you opened it, you saw a little paper on top of your books. You took it in your hand to read it. It was small and the message was written with thick black letters, probably with a marker. It was a rendezvous. You figured you could go to at least see who it was.

You closed your locker and began to walk to the place indicated on the note. You thought you would just let them talk and then turn them down gently. Whoever it was, you hoped they wouldn't cry, feeling guilty for hurting their feelings. You walked almost ten minutes to an isolated classroom on the other side of the school. You almost got lost in the corridors since you went rarely there but you found the right classroom. You took a deep breath and pushed the door open with your shaky hands. You looked up and you felt like your heart stopped for a second.

He was standing in front of you, fidgeting with his fingers, with red cheeks and a shy smile.

Will.

"Hi," he said with a shy smile while you stood there, dumbfounded. You stayed silent for a moment, Will's smile fading away more and more as seconds passed. When you noticed, you wanted to say something to reassure him, "I... I'm surprised, uh... You left things in my locker, right?" The boy in front of you nodded, "yeah... I know it's a bit weird but, hum..."

"No it's not!" you exclaimed immediately, "I mean, not to me at least... To be honest I was afraid it would be someone else..." you nervously scratched your neck, feeling your cheeks heat up as you realised what you just said. "What..?" Will asked. "Yeah, uh, on my way here I was mentally preparing myself to reject some girl and I was already so uncomfortable-" you stopped talking and put your hand on your face, closing your eyes, "I'm sorry, I don't know why I'm saying that," you walked towards Will, sitting on a desk in front of him. "But it's you," you said with a shrug, smiling at him.

Will laughed, his cheeks reddening lightly. "Does that mean you're willing to listen to me?" You turned your head to him, "yes, I'm listening." Your friend looked at you for less than a second before deflecting his gaze. He started fidgeting with a pen he was holding in his hands, "s-so... I didn't really know how to tell you this, that's why I put the notes in your locker. But, you're the only friend I have here, and uh... For me you're not just a friend, you know? I-I like you. Like, a lot. As in I want to go out with you, a-and I want to be your boyfriend... If you like me that way too, that is..."

When Will looked at you again, he saw your incredulous expression. You were slowly nodding repeatedly, your hands on your crimson cheeks in an attempt to hide them. "... Really?" you asked (rhetorically). You couldn't believe it, even in your dreams you didn't think about Will confessing to you that way, he was significantly cuter at this instant, and you weren't sure of why. "Yes, really," you looked up to see him a bit confused, you forgot you talked out loud. "I- Yes, of course! Yes I like you that way too, and I want to be your boyfriend!" you said with a wide smile, getting up from the desk you were sitting on. You approached Will with open arms. He smiled and hugged you tightly. You could feel his heartbeat against your chest.

You tenderly kissed his cheek, still a bit unused to be this close to him. "I'm so glad it was you who left these notes."

[hughungrybear]

Tagged by @telomeke in this post. Thanks for the tag 🥰

coffee or tea – COFFEE.

As much as my GP is on my ass due to excessive caffeine intake, I just can't help it. I stopped counting how many cups of coffee I drink daily since I usually just get a fresh cup as soon as I emptied the one I'm holding����

early bird or night owl – NEITHER. I'M A PERMANENTLY EXHAUSTED PIGEON.

I am used to working until late at night (around 11pm) and waking up around 2am to work again. I have the same sleep pattern even on my off days 😭

chocolate or vanilla – VANILLA.

Only because I don't like chocolate. But if there is caramel or strawberry, then I would be down for those.

spring or fall – SPRING.

Me and slightly cool weather don't mix. 😅Plus, it's really pretty to see all the wild flowers blossom during spring.

silver or gold – GOLD.

Only because I'm allergic to silver - and no, I'm not a vampire. 😅

pop or alternative – ALTERNATIVE.

Alternative punk, to be exact. Not a big fan of teen bops. 😅

freckles or dimples – DIMPLES.

Ah well, because I have one LOL.

snakes or sharks – SNAKES.

I can't swim, plus snakes are kinda nice.

mountains or fields – MOUNTAINS.

I like elevated places better.

thunder or lightning – THUNDER.

Because thunder is safer lol. It's a loud sound vs thousands bolts of electricity, so ⚖️

egyptian mythology or greek mythology – BOTH.

I like mythology and folklore, in general.

ivory or scarlet – IVORY.

I do like reds but the texture of ivory is really something else.

flute or lyre – FLUTE.

Only because I know how to play it 😅

opal or diamond – OPAL.

Diamonds are overrated. (Plus, I'm in Australia so support our own lol)

butterflies or honeybees – BUTTERFLIES.

Never had a good experience with bees lol

macarons or éclairs – MACARONS.

Because I don't like the texture of éclairs.

typewritten or handwritten – DEPENDS.

If it comes from me, then typewritten - apparently, nobody can read my handwriting lol.

secret garden or secret library – SECRET LIBRARY.

Gimme all the books (and time to read them, please 🥲🥲🥲)

rooftop or balcony – ROOFTOP.

No, not because all good BL scenes happen on the rooftop 😅 I like hanging out on rooftops even when I was a kid. It's more private and nobody really comes looking for you on rooftops. It's like being away from the world without really leaving it.

spicy or mild – SPICY.

I'm Asian. Enough said 😂😂😂

opera or ballet – OPERA.

I actually prefer musicals, but if the choice is just between these two, then I would choose the singing/wailing over interpretative dancing. Tbf, I did try attending ballets, but it bored me to death.

london or paris – LONDON

Because it's another Australia - but wetter lol

vincent van gogh or claude monet – VAN GOGH.

Read his bio when I was still a teen and it broke me. Also, his Starry Night and Salvador Dali's Persistence of Memory are my all-time favourite paintings.

denim or leather – DENIM.

I hate, HATE how leather is so hot and inconvenient to wear on regular days.

potions or spells – POTIONS.

Because it's just chemistry in heels lol

ocean or desert – OCEAN.

I may not know how to swim but I would rather drown than die of heat stroke lol

mermaids or sirens – NEITHER.

Aren't they the same thing though (human head, fish tail)? 🤔

masquerade ball or cocktail party – NEITHER.

I don't like parties in general. I would rather stay at home lol

Onward tagging: @lost-my-sanity1, @dribs-and-drabbles, @waitmyturtles, @happypotato48, and anyone who also wants to play this game.

[oathbreakerapologist]

i think the way u decided to have gortash drive a wedge between orin and your durge (as opposed to the other way around) quite interesting. what insecurities/hangups do you think he preyed upon to make that happen? what changes did ghost notice in her, if any, and how did he respond? did he suspect gortash had anything to do with this?

ah this is such a fun question!! answer below the cut because this is a long one lol

Orin was brought up in an environment that encouraged treachery with deadly stakes; arguably her most significant formative experience was being attacked by, and then slaughtering, her own mother as a young child, and I can't imagine that was the only time she encountered and overcame a similar threat. As a result, she was primed to expect betrayal—even anticipate it—and react aggressively. After all, she earned Sarevok's favor by doing exactly that. Orin survived to adulthood specifically because she eliminated potential threats before they could eliminate her.

For that reason, then, she was ideally positioned to be turned into a usurper. She was already capable of murdering even those to whom she was closest. But seeing everyone around you as either a future victim or a possible threat leaves very little room for the sort of social bonds that humans, as social beings, tend to need.

One could say Niro was the only person Orin trusted, but really their relationship was built on a stranger sort of dependence than that: they thought of each other as extensions of a single being, the lone two tokens of one type, parts of a whole that would melt back together once there was nothing left but blood, gore, and death. Nobody else thought like her, felt like her, acted like her—he was transparent, comprehensible, predictable to her in a way other people weren't, in a way he wasn't to anyone else. She trusted him because she trusted herself.

So what Gortash had to do was force her to see differences between herself and Niro. He leaned into their differing statuses, involving Niro and leaving Orin behind whenever he got the opportunity. He concocted schemes to draw Niro away from the Temple as often as possible, and added forged letters into the mix of the barrage of correspondence Niro sent back to Orin each time he was away. The letters were easy to forge, too; he didn't even need to match handwriting, as Niro—who is blind and at this point could neither read nor write—dictated all his letters to a scribe. Those letters picked at things Gortash knew Niro loved about Orin, particularly her artistic flair (in my canon the letter you can find from the Dark Urge to Orin criticizing the spectacle of her killing style exists courtesy of Gortash). The letters didn't even need to match up with what Niro would undoubtedly say to Orin in other letters; all Gortash needed to do was introduce inconsistency, confusion, unpredictability.

Soon after Gortash began targeting Orin in this way, Niro noticed her seeking reassurance from him in odd ways, as if she'd suddenly become uncertain again about things like her artistry, her place in the Temple, her place in Bhaal's visions of a slaughtered world. But his responses never seemed to improve the situation; it was as if everything he added to the mix only perturbed her further. Then she pulled away from him, which he found deeply upsetting.

He did indeed consider the possibility that Gortash had engineered this situation, but because of his particularly low opinion of Gortash made Gortash a bit of a blind spot to him. As far as he was concerned, Gortash was useful because of his ability to cultivate alliances and develop technology of war, and just about all else the man did was, at best, pathetic. Niro did not think highly enough of Gortash to believe him capable of meddling in his relationship with Orin. Without a clear reason for their newfound strife, he spiraled, disappearing for long stretches of time to go on murderous rampages through the loosely-settled areas around Baldur's Gate in an attempt to exorcise his fear and grief. Of course, his absences only made the situation worse. There was a time that, when Orin didn't know where he was, she didn't believe him to be off plotting her downfall, but that time was long gone.

Ultimately, Orin betrayed Niro because Gortash, through a lens of falsehood and exaggeration, had forced her to confront something true: Niro was not her. He was someone else, he was someone else in a position of power, he was someone else in a position of power with the knowledge and physical prowess make him capable of doing her harm, and therefore he was a potential threat. And Orin had survived to adulthood specifically because she eliminated potential threats before they could eliminate her.

[purpleowl666]

Tagged by @llilli64 . Muchas gracias x considerarme 👉👈🥺 y disculpa la tardanza.

1. Are you named after anyone? Yeah, my great grandmother's name was Helena, wich is curious bc my grandma hated her, lol.

2. When was the last time you cried? Yesterday because I had a terrible headache :s

3. Do you have kids? No. And I don't think I could have even if I get more mature and with a stable economy. Lol.

4. Do you use sarcasm a lot? Only with ppl that can understand it.

5. What's the first thing you notice about people? How they talk, there's something in people's voices and the way they talk that I can tell if Interested in being their friends or not.

6. What's your eye color? Dark brown, like very dark.

7. Scary movie or happy endings? Uh, I guess scary movies can have happy endings so... both? 😗 But I really don't care if endings are happy or not, I think it likes me more when I'm obsessed with them for weeks and thinking about them. Oh and scary movies are not my favourite type, at least not if there's only jumpscares and zero plot.

8. Any special talents? Sleep a lot and somehow awake at the barely move or whisper.

9. Where were you born? 🇲🇽 Meeeexicoooo Meeeexicoooo te llevo en el corazoooooon.

10. What are your hobbies? Draw, painting, read, listen to music, watch movies also write to practice my handwriting because I'm terrible.

11. Do you have any pets? No 😔 there was this orange cat that I used to call "mePerdonas?" (Image/meme reference👇) it came to my yard sometimes and I used to play with it, but lately they hasn't come :( it's been 2 months, I hope they're okay.

12. What sports do you play/have you played? I used to practice ballet, otherwise I fucking suck at sports.

13. How tall are you? 159 cm 💀

14. Favorite subject in school? Physics, Chemistry, History, Literature and English.

15. Dream job? Honestly at this point of my life any job is already annoying to me, so whatever I just don't want a job where I had to talk a lot and requieres Social abilities. T. T

Tagging: (Hope nobody I tag has done it yet 😭👍) @mapesandoval @mrsgiovanna @verakujo @momokujo @yossarianirl

Of course no pressure :) love u all💕

[noxexistant]

Yesss once we're friends I just am perpetually excited to talk to you forevermore.

Im sorry I am also tired lol I stayed up too late

Oof that sucks. :/

BLINK MY BELOVED

So he is working on a poem for mush. He is worrying about his best friend. He is entertaining snipeshooter and Tumbler and teaching them tricks to sell better.he is saving up to get jack a gift.

me too! i totally accidentally stayed up until like 3am lmao, got possessed with that newsies writing fever. it’s just so much fun having people message me stuff like this, talking about their headcanons and ideas n asking for mine, and people telling me about their own newsies productions!! i love it so much, absolutely worth staying up late for

blink!!! 😭 what an absolute sweetheart

i like to think he started on the poem in his head totally by accident, just letting his mind wander while selling during the day - thinking about mush, like he very often does - but he struggled to keep it straight so started scribbling it down on a piece of paper he asked to pull from one of jack’s notebooks. his handwriting is atrocious, but he can read it just fine - he’s just worried about, when it’s finished, whether mush will be able to read it too. oh, god, blink thinks, am i gonna have to read it out loud to him?

he starts mentally going through the newsies to work out who he trusts to write it out neatly for him, and who’s also capable of keeping a secret. race has got nice handwriting - he’s well-practiced, scrawling out betting slips - but he’s also got a big mouth. maybe buttons could do it.

borrowing the paper from jack also directly influences blink’s desire to get jack a gift, because he can’t stop thinking about how much jack gives to them all and how little he keeps for himself. tearing pages even out of his notebooks that he treats like gold in order to let people draw when they want to or write when they need it. jack runs out of pages often, and ends up sketching on the backs of leaflets and stuff again until he can get his hands on more real paper. because of that, blink’s poem is only on the one sheet - absolutely chock-full of his writing, full of scribbles and blacked-out lines, crammed all snaking around the other words on the page to make more room.

and ohhh man blink teaching the kiddos tricks to sell. blink’s a good entertainer, he’s had a lot of practice, teaching himself how to juggle objects and the like because he was a little scared of the effects losing his eye might have. it’s difficult living without depth perception, he knows even after he ages out of being a newsie nobody’ll have him working in their factory - they probably wouldn’t even have him on a farm, afraid being half-blind also makes him useless - but blink is anything but useless. he shows off to prove it, and the kids think he’s tons of fun.

his eye is also a double-edged sword for selling. it earns him sympathy sometimes like any disability does - he knows other kids that wear eyepatches that don’t even really need them, just wanna pretend to earn that same sympathy, and because of that folks sometimes don’t believe him either. he’s been jabbed by people’s canes and umbrellas and squinted at, asked if his eye’s really bad or if he’s faking. and, if he don’t wear his patch, people are scared of him. disgusted. he’s had women ask to see and then scream when he lifted his patch to show his empty socket. nobody wants to buy a pape from nobody who looks like that.

so, he’s learnt the balance - the exact right space between useful and helpless you’ve gotta be as a newsie to make sales, whether they’re people buying papes to read the news or buying papes to hand a few coins to a poor kid. it doesn’t matter to blink, money’s money. that’s a big part of what he teaches the kids.

[sisterdivinium]

Hello from anon again! Thanks for posting the your handwritten notes 😌

It is in fact a little hard to read but I’m confident that it’s a resolution thing and not at all your fault. As for journaling, eh it’s a toughie when you don’t have your own space. Maybe one day when I am an old decrepit hermit living in the neighbourhood’s infamously haunted house. (It’s me, I’m haunting it.)

PS I’m definitely reading that Dr Superion fic when it’s out. I wish we had more scenes of Mother Superion and her girls. S2 kinda just glossed over all nuns from all the OCS chapters dying. I wish we got 10 episodes just like in S1. We could’ve so much more!

Hello again! First off, you will be happy to know that I have finally finished the draft to your answer, so all I need now is to revise, type it up and add the relevant screen captures :)

People who read my handwriting for long periods of time get used to it eventually (my friend who reads everything I post here before anyone else has read a whole novel written in my hand LOL), but I do think it's a bit tricky despite your charming attempt to be nice to me about it :) Even for me! I've tried focusing on legibility but I think very quickly and I fear losing something if I don't catch it on paper as soon as I can, hence the desperate scribbles!

And I get you, anon, I do. Another reason why I take so long writing stuff down is because I'm constantly interrupted by family. Still, I would be driven to madness without diaries... If it's a privacy thing, have you ever considered coming up with a code to write in? I once stumbled upon this website with constructed languages and scripts and it might offer some inspiration if that's of any help.

As for the fic, it's also coming along! Slowwwwlyyyy, given the circumstances, but surely. I just hope nobody gets too hyped up about it only to get disappointed later! What excites me might not be what excites others, after all.

It's unfortunate that we had less episodes in s2 than s1, but I can respect the story they wanted to tell. Laser-focus on one thing and the others must suffer; then again, it's also thanks to this that we get the pleasure to tinker with whatever has left us wanting more through fanfic, so it cannot be all that negative :) Often, it is suggestion and the blanks left in a work of art that instigate us the most! Would I have loved to see more of Mother Superion? Sure, but you're talking to someone who would gladly watch hours and hours of just her running the convent while nothing of note happens, really. As it is... I only hope we do eventually get a season three or a movie or something that lets the story go on so we can laugh and cry and cheer and love these characters for some time still!

[sundial-bee-scribbles]

Ollie no don't eat Piko's eyes I don't think those can be replaced- Yeah basically if you're not a cryptonloid it's likely your creators just went Fuck Around And Find Out with you (also I really like the shitposts I think they're funny) -🌟

transcript in case nobody can read my shitty handwriting lol:

fukase: we can't order any more replacement parts b/c the number's no longer in service. I HOPE YOU'RE HAPPY NOW. piko will never be able to watch anime again b/c of YOU.

oliver: oh, quit your bitching. i'll fix it, just give me a sec-

piko: ...

piko: my entire existence is a joke to you guys, isn't it?

[fff777]

reaction part 2 to dreamies' 8th year anniversary stream

辰樂今天怎麽那麽嬌 😭

why are you guys sharing secrets on live???

jisung feels the most friendship during trigger the fever, and for chenle, he feels friendship during graduation :3

mark appreciates it when they give each other advice and the members act on the advice that's been given

mark wrote his message to be like a riddle and jisung liked it a lot and jeno was like "nf brain link amirite." and i say once again: mark and jisung are the same person. jisung is always legitimately moved by the things that mark does and vice versa.

jisung: would it be faster to just show my message?

jeno: no because nobody can fucking read your handwriting

jisung has no defense

jisung: to czennies, let's meet in our next lives

jeno: so we have to die???

there was always at least three people laughing in the background of this entire segment istg

lol complimenting jisung's improved writing

haechan wrote a really cheesy confession lol

why you being so touchy feely

jaemin also wrote a cheesy confession but it was all in the delivery for him XD

the guys cracking up

jeno put stickers all over his

mark overreaction king

jaemin kept getting interrupted as he was reading and he kept glaring at folks

星星 with the 星星 cushion

gyu check

guys then checked who completed their mission

game time, they have to draw a word in a short amount of time

second word was friendship ring and the guys were laughing at haechan's clever 'picture'

jisung was laughing at chenle's picture...what's so funny boy

🤦‍♀️ i think he's beatboxing

the clue was czennie...i think haechan was pointing to the word on his message

why are they this cute...

chenle voluntold jisung for one of the extra rounds. side note...chenle sometimes calls him jisungie eh...

jisung laughs the hardest at anything chenle does

haechan was supposed to read the next line but he was trying to finish munching on his snack so jeno went ahead and read instead lol

secret santa reveal time

impromptu chenle hug. is that his mission? but also...太嬌了吧

...okay. i know. 辰樂對星星那麽主動有點驚訝也有點奇妙