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yandere-sins · 5 months ago

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Stuck in the Nightmare

I really had to think about this prompt because what nightmare could be made worse by a small change? And then I remembered my Obey Me! Phase and how unsettling Barbatos always was to me. And I realized what I had to do.

Fandom: Obey Me! Pairings: Yandere!Barbatos x Reader Warnings: Yandere, Minor Sexual Content (Consensual Groping and Fondling, Mentioning of Sex) Forced Captivity, Abuse of power, Magical Stockholm Syndrom, Mention of breaking a darling, Depiction of feeling sick Prompt: @sintember Horrifying concept, thank you - A small change in the world could be a nightmare.

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"Good morning, Dear."

Your lips curled into a sleepy smile as you felt Barbatos' lips press against your forehead, a kiss so tender it made you long for more. "Morning," you sighed blissfully, prying an eye open to see your boyfriend in all the glory of the morning sunlight shining through the window.

Moving aside, you made room in the bed for him to climb in, and you wasted no time sinking into his open embrace like you did every morning. No words were needed to speak about the happiness and love you felt when you were wrapped in Barbatos's arms, his time so precious, yet he spent every free second of it with you. And you reciprocated his affection as best as you could, squeezing your demon boyfriend until he chuckled about your efforts while you slowly worked your kisses up his throat and to his mouth.

Life's been better since you got to know him. Since you fell in love. Even if you had to spend most of the day apart due to his work, you were never happier waiting for someone to return to you. Barbatos was worth every minute of boredom, every hour of loneliness. He gave back thrice as much as you lost, wondering when he'd be home that night. Thrice as much effort, thrice as much care, and thrice the amount of true, unashamed love and adoration he held for you that you could never expect from a mere human. Although strange, you were thankful for your boyfriend being a demon, never once worried about all the implications it bore.

"What day is it?" you yawned loudly before nuzzling your face into the crook of his neck. Barbatos brushed his hand over your hair, ever so slightly pressing you against him harder, showing you once again that he wanted you close to him just as much as you, him.

"Sunday, Love. Although it pains me, I'll be busy again today."

His embrace tightened around you a bit further, and it pained you to know how awful he felt about the fact he was too important to get even a single day off. Sometimes you cursed his employer, but Barbatos, gracious as he was, told you how much he cared about the prince you had heard so much about—good and bad. That he was grateful to be the right-hand man of such a great demon. You didn't really get it, but if it made him happy, you wanted to support him, no matter what. Even when it was the last day before you'd have to go back to work, too, and you'd rather spend it with him fully than to miss him like you had all weekend long.

Squeezing him back encouragingly, you nodded into his chest before releasing a long, content breath. "It's fine," you told him, rubbing his back as you felt the tension build in his body from your reply.

"I'm really sorry—”

"It's fine, Barbs. I know this is important to you, and I'm not running away. I'll stay inside today anyway since we're not in the human world, and I have this really good book I want to finish! And we can have dinner together or go star-gazing when you get home!

Immediately upon hearing your reassurance, Barbatos let out a shuddering breath. "I can't hide anything from you. Thank you for being so understanding."

"Of course!" Letting your head fall back, you caught his gaze, so full of tenderness and love, and felt your heart swell with the same wave of emotions. The kiss you shared was worth more than any confession and any thanks—mutual understanding, trust, a silent vow.

His hands brushed down your body, over the curve of your butt, giving it a squeeze that made you giggle against his lips. You gently scolded him for getting frisky with you before he had to leave. Barbatos couldn't help the playfulness in his voice as he promised, "I'll make it up to you and get your favorite food for you before I get to have a taste of my favorite thing in the world."

"Oh, you," you retorted, but the fake annoyance was quickly diminished by another kiss, your bodies heating up wherever they touched, making it harder and harder to get away while stoking the desire inside of you.

"I really got to go," Barbatos huffed against your lips, and you hesitated before pushing on his chest to separate you both.

"Then off with you, stop seducing me in broad daylight!"

He realized you were just joking around with him, yet, with another yearning glance, he briefly pecked your lips before tearing away, leaving an uncomfortable cold where he laid.

"I'll hurry," he assured you, and you smiled, sitting up in the bed. Truthfully, you already missed him, but you knew it was important to him, and so it was important to you.

"I know, don't worry about me."

"Thank you, Love."

With one last kiss to your forehead, Barbatos grabbed his coat on the way out, waving at you with an almost boyish grin. It was a side only you got to see, a side no one would expect from mysterious Barbatos. The real, vulnerable him, he could only show you. It made you feel special. You were special.

"I love you!" you yelled after him, and before he closed the door, he stuck his head through once more, beaming.

"I love you, too."

With that, he was gone, and you were alone in his home. Falling back into the cushions, you pulled the blanket and pillows around you, still faintly smelling Barbatos on them as they enveloped you in warmth.

Who would have thought you could love someone so much, especially someone not human? Sure, it sucked being stuck alone in the Devildom, but it would all be worth it when you got him all to yourself for the whole night again. A tingle went through your body, right to your core, where you still remembered the pleasure he had given you the night before. You could still recall the gentle, loving words he had whispered into your ear while, at the same time, making you see stars by probing and teasing the most sensitive spots on your body.

He wasn't just your boyfriend you doubted you deserved; Barbatos was also a lover beyond any imagination. Thrashing in the sheets, you couldn't believe your luck that someone like Barbatos loved you. That someone so amazing, wonderful, caring, and loving was yours. Because that's what he liked to call himself.

Yours.

All yours, with body and mind, for all eternity, devoted and reverently.

Your eyes filled up as the happiness overwhelmed you, the worries and agony of the past almost forgotten in the warm sunlight of the Devildom. Barbatos told you to stay indoors unless he was with you, and you couldn't wait for the day he'd take you outside and show you his city in all its beauty. Surely, with him by your side, nothing bad would happen to you, and you two would have the most exquisite experiences.

But that was a thing for another weekend.

Today would be a wonderful day of reading and waiting. Waiting for your Barbatos to return.

Slipping out of bed, you reached for the book on your nightstand, only for your fingers to hit the wood instead of the soft cover. "Strange..." you mumbled, vividly remembering putting the book right there on the nightstand. Or did you? Why did you remember reading in it before going to bed when it wasn't there?

Did you read it?

Looking over to the coffee table, you found your book sitting there. You suddenly remembered how you were reading on the couch the night before, then Barbatos coming home and taking you to bed after you had your favorite food.

"And I was reading on the couch because... it was Sunday. Huh?"

Didn't Barbatos say today was Sunday? You usually read your book in bed throughout the week, one chapter before bed being your credo. Taking the book over to the couch was something you only did on Sundays when you had no commitments and could fully concentrate on reading.

But why did you remember putting the book on your nightstand and reading it all day yesterday at the same time? That wasn't possible. Your own memories were betraying you!

"Ow!" a sudden, sharp pain rattled in your brain as you tried to make sense of your thoughts. It made you clutch your head as you collapsed on the bed, pulling in your legs as the pain began to overwhelm you. Something was wrong! You had to call Barbatos; call for help!

But you couldn't move as images flashed before your eyes, images of you laughing with your boyfriend, reading, having your favorite food. Again and again and again. The image of you putting the book on your nightstand was the most off-putting but real one you saw. You had no idea what was going on, but it hurt terribly. You couldn't even open your eyes from the pain, so all you could do was pray.

Barbatos's name was the last thing falling from your lips as you were knocked out by your own thoughts—your own memories. Memories of many days having passed by, all of them the exact same. And they haunted you, even in your dreams, with no chance of waking up without the man who loved you to shake you awake. Telling you everything was okay and it was just a bad dream.

Stuck in your own nightmares, never knowing you had been for a long, long time.

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"The how-many-Sunday is it today?"

"I'm sorry?" Barbatos looked up from the teacup he was pouring, only to find Diavolo watching him from beyond the rim of the report he was holding. The prince's eyes were sharp, almost unamused in how they scrutinized his butler.

"You heard me." Lowering the paper, Diavolo made space for the tea to be served, which Barbatos did without hesitation. "This new exchange student project is based on trust with the other races. How can I explain why I let my butler keep his personal human toy in a constant time loop, locked up forever in my castle, while I preach about harmony and equality? And besides, don't you think they need some time in the real sun for once? I heard it's bad for humans to be cooped up for so long. Longer than possible with their physic, at least."

"Young Master, you are mistaken. The human is my partner, we love each other. Nothing as sinister as you are hinting at is happening."

"Then why repeat the same day over and over? Do you really think I wouldn't know what the constant thrumming of magic in the room I have given you on your request to 'educate the staff' is? I'd wager to say we've known each other long enough to know about each other's dirty secrets, Barbatos."

Standing before him, Barbatos maintained his perfect posture and pristine look, paired with a smile on his face, as he watched his master sip from the tea he had prepared. "Very well, my lord. You are not entirely mistaken, although I must say..."

Tapping his chin thoughtfully, Barbatos pretended to think about something before the smile returned to his lips. A smile said more than a thousand words, and although he only wanted you to see his, Barbatos had to keep up the front.

"If we are talking about preferential treatment, shouldn't you be the first one to give up on their highness, the consort that none of your subjects know about? I feel unfairly judged, considering my amusement loves and adores me, while yours plays the part but fears you. Don't you think we'd be better off keeping these two our own responsibility?"

Diavolo's glare was deafening as the room fell into silence. He'd expected the blowback, although his concern for Barbatos's darling was justified after his own experiences. Lowering the teacup, he sighed, giving a short nod of defeat. A wise ruler knew when to back down, and although the circumstances hadn't been ideal, his beloved was the reason he wanted to unite the races in the first place

"Very well, I won't nag you," Diavolo announced. "Just make sure they don't realize the time loop, or else you know the mess it will cause. We've been through this. Sometimes, it's better not to pretend the world is fine. If they truly love you as you say, they'll love you regardless, even when they realize that the love of a demon can be overwhelming."

"61685."

"Hm?"

"That's how many days they've loved me. I loved them. This time, I won't fail my duties, Young Master. At least, not how I have to you."

Barbatos bowed, as Diavolo couldn't help the sad smile flitting over his face, remembering the wonderful days when his darling had still adored him, never knowing they were stuck in a repeat.

"Then, be careful, Barbatos. One small mistake, and they'll realize nothing was ever real. You better not fail... for their sake."

Taking the advice of the experienced prince, Barbatos returned to his righteous posture, smiling as if the conversation had been petty small talk. The life of a demon was long—it was longer when they were alone. But now that he had you, he'd never have to suffer the same loneliness that had driven so many of his kin mad.

"I will, Young Master. Thank you for the advice."

He didn't pity Diavolo, who had long lost his heart to the most pitiful of creatures—a human who realized the true monstrosity beneath the prince's forced gentleness. But Barbatos wouldn't let it come to this a second time. Wouldn't make the same mistake Diavolo had, misplacing one item which managed to break the spell. He had been too careful, too precise this time.

He wouldn't lose you to such a small mistake, and even if he did...

He'd keep you forever, even if that meant breaking your soul into a thousand pieces until only his love could keep you together.

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majikkulu · 3 months ago

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━━ ❝MASTERLIST❞

in this pick-a-card reading, we’ll be exploring where you might potentially meet your future spouse. we’ll discuss both the location and the circumstances surrounding the meeting. keep in mind that this is a general reading, so take what resonates and leave the rest.

choose the picture or pile you feel most drawn to, and let the magic unfold!

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ᴘɪʟᴇ ᴏɴᴇ i believe you will meet your future spouse when you are in a confident, vibrant energy—when you’re fully embracing your passions and hobbies, which make your energy pop! this meeting might happen while you’re focusing on yourself or socializing. your future spouse could come into your life during a time when you are strong and centred. your vibrant personality will likely draw them in! you may find yourselves meeting in a place related to your work or something that contributes to your stability. at the time of this meeting, you might feel burdened or exhausted from taking on too much responsibility. you could be dealing with stress or pressure, and your future spouse might appear during this challenging period, offering support and relief. you may be coming out of a difficult cycle in your life—perhaps dealing with betrayal, emotional pain, or simply overworking yourself. you’ll be healing from these hardships, and that’s when your future spouse will enter your life, bringing a new chapter filled with peace after you’ve released something painful.

possible locations for your meeting: a social event, party, gathering, a place where you feel comfortable or at home, a work-related setting, the gym, or even at a graduation.

ᴘɪʟᴇ ᴛᴡᴏ your meeting with your future spouse might occur when there’s a lot of communication involved, like online. you might meet your future spouse while you’re both experiencing new things, learning something new, or sharing your opinions on a topic that stimulates you both. you may encounter your future spouse during a time when either of you is dealing with unhealthy attachments, fears, or challenges that need to be overcome. for some of you, i feel it could be a one-night stand or something in that realm. you will both be drawn to each other, but the meeting will be unexpected and may happen quickly, possibly while travelling or during a busy period in your life. things can progress rapidly between the two of you after the meeting, with a lot of communication and action taking place in a short time. it will be a time when things change quickly for you. the meeting with your future spouse might happen after you or they have walked away from a situation that no longer serves you, such as a past relationship, job, or emotional baggage, where you both are searching for something more fulfilling and meaningful. you may meet at a time when you’re both focused on yourselves.

possible locations for your meeting: online, bars, clubs, school, lectures, social media, forums, sports events, airports, train stations, or a park.

ᴘɪʟᴇ ᴛʜʀᴇᴇ you are similar to your future spouse, like you complement each other very well! you may meet your future spouse at a time when you have to make an important decision—somewhere where you need to talk a lot and prove your point. there will be a lot of idea-sharing and mental stimulation. your meeting may occur when you are both in a place of self-sufficiency and clarity. you might encounter each other in settings that value transparency, such as a workplace or a social gathering that involves politics. the circumstances surrounding your meeting might involve a sense of harmony or a need to integrate different aspects of your lives. perhaps you will both meet while collaborating on something, like a project that connects you with others. your meeting may occur after achieving a significant milestone or during a celebration. a sense of mutual admiration may draw you together.

possible locations for your meeting: offices, social gatherings, festivals, university/college settings, or workshops.

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dreamingofthewild · 1 month ago

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100 Bloodweave Fanfic recommendations

As there are over 3,000 Bloodweave fanfics, I have been wanting to do a fanfic rec list for a while. To share some of the works I enjoyed and to offer support for the talented writers in the fandom. I opted for 100, as it is a nice number for a rec list. It was very hard to narrow it down, and there are many good fics that, unfortunately, didn't make it too the list. This is not meant as a 'Top 100' list.

The recommendations will be shared in 6 parts over 6 days as it is too much for one post and I don't want to overwhelm the tag.

Part 1: In Universe Canon Multi-Chapter - 15 fics.

I'd Burn Through the World by thisis_V. Ongoing. Slow Burn, Angst, Hurt/Comfort. Follows the events of the game as Gale Origin. A very canon exploration of Gale and Astarion's relationship throughout the game. One I would recommend to those who do not understand Bloodweave. Includes original art from the author.

Burn out Fade Away by Newperspective20. 112,500 words. Slow Burn, Time Travel. Astarion ascends, Tav takes control of the brain, and Gale sacrifices himself to save everyone from being under Tav’s control. Only he finds himself back at square one. Will he be able to change the course of fate this time?

Stitches, Threads, and the Strings that Bind us Together by Newperspective20. 136,235 words. Hurt/Comfort, Smut, Fluff. The events of the game as Astarion Origin as he learns that not everyone is out to get him.

Ash and Stardust by badmarilyn. Ongoing. Slow Burn, Trauma, Hurt/Comfort, Mutual Pining. When the orb starts to play up, Gale is forced to confide in Astarion. They start to gravitate towards each other, realising they’re more alike than they originally thought.

Broken Together by sparklypanda98. 61,872 words. Slow Burn, Fluff, Angst. A long-form Bloodweave fic about Astarion and Gale's relationship forming during the events of Baldur's Gate 3. Plenty of fluff, but some darker stuff too.

Your Echo in My Scars by shadesofmidnightsun. 76,421 words. Angst With a Happy Ending, Suicidal Thoughts, Smut. Astarion needs blood and protection. Gale just ... needs. They're both full of cracks. Where Gale and Astarion each have their own mess to work through. Will they make each other better?

Ancient Books and Horror Stories by eternalscout. 107,796 words. Slow Burn, Canon Typical Violence, Backstory Relevant Themes. What starts as a tentative friendship between Gale and Astarion, bonding over a shared love of reading, turns into the alarming realization that they may just have caught feelings for each other.

Through the Fire Together by Aria_Lerendeair. 16,646 words. Angst, Healing Together, Falling In Love. After defeating Cazador and releasing the Spawn to the Underdark, Astarion finds himself in the graveyard, waiting for whatever retribution they want to visit upon him after what he did to them.

Old Wives Tales by neo7v. 8,030 words. Mystra related content warnings. This fic explores the exploitative and grooming nature of Mystra’s relationship with Gale.

If the Cross on the Door Doesn't Scare You by Aylwyyn228. 19,113 words. Hurt/Comfort, Starvation, Found Family. Astarion gets outed as a vampire in the shadow-cursed lands.

embracing the sun by vannral. 16,095 words. Mutual Pining, Friendships, Smut. In which people see whatever That is between Astarion and Gale and wonder. Meanwhile Astarion and Gale are oblivious. Set during Act 3.

Stop Kicking Gale (Please) by Yassha. Ongoing series. Hurt, Comfort, Fluff, Backstory Relevant Themes. AU where Astarion gets to process his emotions a bit earlier, and Gale is a bit more volatile, and those two things match up quite well.

Keep To The Shadows (your light can��t reach me there) by beepbeepsan. Denial of Feelings, Flirting. Trapped between a rock and, well, more rocks, Astarion has nowhere to run from Gale and his own feelings. But damned if he won't do his best to find a way out.

Bliss and Ignorance by ultranerdyandiknowit. 17,195 words. Dubious Consent, Hurt, Comfort, Angst, Misunderstandings. While sharing a moment of intimacy in the Shadowlands, Gale gives into the temptation to read Astarion's mind. He wants to feel their pleasure shared, to feel it amplified.

What he finds when he opens the link is nothing short of horrifying.

Shades of Romance by ClaireinSorcia. 139,829 words. Romance, Fluff, Getting Together, Drama, Backtory Relevant Themes. Astarion’s always been a flirt, so what happens when the new victim of his attentions, Gale, falls for it and takes it seriously? With Tav having turned Astarion down it should be fun to see how far this game can play out. But then what will Astarion do when he catches feelings he doesn’t even understand?

Part 2: In Universe Canon One-Shots - 17 fics.

Part 3: In Universe Canon Divergent - 16 fics.

Part 4: In Universe Post-Canon Multi-Chapter - 20 fics.

Part 5: In Universe Post-Canon One Shots - 14 fics.

Part 6: Alternate Universe - 18 fics.

#bloodweave #bloodweave fanfic #fanfic recs #bg3 fanfiction #gale x astarion #galestarion #astarion x gale #mlm fanfic

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pnutbutter-n-j-elyy · 5 months ago

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𝚃𝚑𝚎𝚒𝚛 𝙵𝚒𝚛𝚜𝚝 𝙺𝚒𝚜𝚜 𝚆𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝚈𝚘𝚞| Changbin|Hyunjin

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Changbin’s relationship with you is one marked by intense passion and a deep emotional connection. His approach to love is as dynamic and driven as his approach to everything else in life. There is a powerful, almost magnetic pull between the two of you that can be felt in every interaction, from the way he looks at you to the way he holds you close. In your relationship, his passion manifests in the form of heated and fervent kisses that leave you breathless, much like the first kiss you shared at the gym. He isn’t shy about showing his affection, and his feelings for you are always evident in his touch, his words, and his actions. His hands, whether on your waist or gently tracing the contours of your body, convey a sense of possessiveness mixed with deep care and love. He thrives on the energy and intensity of your connection, often finding himself drawn to spontaneous displays of affection; his love always expressed in ways that leave a lasting impression. Despite his bold and sometimes overwhelming passion, Changbin is also deeply respectful and attentive to your needs and feelings. He listens carefully, always making sure that his actions align with your comfort levels. He has a knack for knowing when to push the boundaries of his affection and when to hold back, creating a balance that makes you feel cherished and valued. Your relationship is built on mutual support and encouragement. He sees you as his equal, someone who pushes him to be better and who he can rely on during challenging times. His compliments, like calling you beautiful even when you’re sweaty from a workout, are genuine and heartfelt, reflecting his deep appreciation for who you are inside and out. In essence, being with Changbin means being enveloped in a whirlwind of passionate, heartfelt moments that are always grounded in mutual respect and unwavering support. His love is intense and all-consuming, yet always considerate, creating a dynamic and fulfilling relationship that keeps you both constantly engaged and deeply connected.

The gym was quiet, with the evening drawing to a close and the last few patrons finishing up their workouts. You and Changbin had decided to stay quite a bit later, pushing each other through an intense session that left you both sweating and breathless.

There was something about the vibe of a late-night workout that invigorated you; so when you had officially started dating Changbin a week ago, you were slightly grateful that the only choice you had was late nights; lest you risk the chances of allowing people to see you and Changbin before JYPE released the news of your relationship.

The dim lights and the faint hum of the air conditioning created a serene, almost intimate atmosphere. The owner of the small gym waved at you as they locked up, telling Changbin the keys to lock the back door were in the same place as usual.

You guys tended to stretch together and do a few different things side by side, go off on your own, and then come back together to cool down.

You were seated on a bench, taking a break and sipping water while waiting as Changbin finished his final set. His determination and focus were admirable, and you couldn’t help but feel a surge of affection as you watched him. Despite the intensity of the workout, there was something undeniably attractive about his dedication and the way he carried himself.

In the gym, in his career, and in his newfound relationship with you.

Changbin wiped the sweat from his brow and walked over to you, his breathing heavy but a satisfied smile on his face. "You did great today," he said, dropping onto the bench beside you. "Proud of you." He grabbed the bottle from you hand and you watched his throat work as he drank back the half you had saved for him.

You smiled back, feeling a warm rush of pride at his words. "Thanks, Bin. Although, you're the expert here."

He chuckled, reaching for his water bottle. "You always push me to do better. I appreciate that." He grabbed a towel and used it to pat his head and neck, beads of sweat dripping down towards his naked collarbone. You couldn't help but be fascinated by it; something drew you to the sight, like when you were a kid and used to race water droplets on the car window.

As you both caught your breath, a comfortable silence settled between you. The gym felt like a private sanctuary, just the two of you sharing a moment of camaraderie and mutual respect. You glanced at Changbin, noticing the way his eyes seemed to linger on you, a thoughtful expression on his face.

"Do I have something on my face?" you asked playfully, wiping at your cheek. You were sweaty, the heel of your hand coming back slick.

Changbin laughed, shaking his head. "No, you’re just… really beautiful right now." He laughed once more and hid his face by looking down and shaking his head slightly.

Beautiful?

His words caught you off guard, and you felt a blush creeping up your cheeks. Before you could respond, Changbin looked up and leaned in closer, his eyes locking onto yours.

There was an intensity in his gaze, a mix of admiration and something deeper, something you couldn’t quite place.

"Can I…" he started, his voice trailing off as he hesitated. But instead of finishing his sentence, he moved with sudden determination.

His lips met yours in a kiss that was passionate and heated, a burst of emotion that took away the breath you had just gained.

The kiss was electric, a surge of intensity that matched the energy of your workout.

He tasted salty; his lips coated in sweat and a slight citrusy tang from the electrolyte packet you had snuck in your water.

His hands found their way to your waist, pulling you closer as he deepened the kiss. It was a bit messy, with your sweaty faces and the heat of the moment, but it was perfect in its raw, unfiltered passion.

As your lips moved together, you could feel the depth and complexity of Changbin’s feelings, the way he poured his heart into every touch and caress.

You could feel it. Changbin putting in 110%, just like he did with everything else.

A moment later, he pulled back slightly, his breathing ragged as he looked at you with a mix of desire and affection. "I had to hold back during the workout," he admitted, his voice low and husky.

You smiled, your heart racing. "Next time don't; it's not like there is anyone else here."

He grinned, his eyes shining with happiness. "Good, because I don’t plan on it next time."

Before you could respond, he leaned in again, capturing your lips in another kiss, this one slower and more deliberate. His hands roamed your back, tracing the contours of your body with a gentle but firm touch.

You could feel the sweat on your skin mingling with his, adding to the intensity of the moment. Subconsciously having the urge to shower, but realizing you'd do this over and over again even if that meant taking 100 showers.

You realized that kissing Changbin was something special. His kisses were kisses that spoke volumes, conveying everything he felt for you without needing to say a single thing.

It was something you would get addicted to easily, if not already.

Eventually, you both pulled back, breathless and smiling. Changbin’s forehead rested against yours, his eyes closed as he savored the closeness.

"I guess our workout just got a whole lot more interesting," you said, laughing softly.

Changbin chuckled, his eyes opening to meet yours. "Yeah, and I think we just found a new way to cool down."

"Bin...feel my pulse I'm pretty sure it's a warmup."

"Mm...but if we make it a warm up and a cool down then that means we can kiss twice every workout." He holds his index and middle finger up as a visual.

You let out a breath. "Binnie...I don't think we'll get any workouts done at this rate."

He hummed in thought. "I disagree. It'll be motivation...and if not motivation I'm sure there are other things we can make our new workout-"

You threw your towel at your boyfriend as you stood up with an exasperated sigh.

"Ahhh, it was a joke Jagiiiiiyyyaaaaa." He whined.

You couldn't help but smile as you walked towards the locker room to grab your stuff, Changbin jumping up to follow you.

"Bunny, it was a joke." He whined, thinking you were actually mad at him.

You turned and kissed him again, something short and soft and sweet.

His confident demeanor quickly changed, his face red and the witty response he had quickly turning into gibberish.

"Warm-up, cool down, and maybe a mid-workout incentive okay?" You said winking.

All he could do was nod as he went to go grab his keys.

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Hyunjin's love is akin to an intricate piece of art, filled with layers of emotion, careful brushstrokes, and vivid, unforgettable moments. His approach to relationships mirrors his artistic sensibilities: he seeks depth, beauty, and a connection that transcends the ordinary. His love is expressive, passionate, and sometimes a bit dramatic, but always deeply heartfelt. With Hyunjin, every moment is carefully crafted, as if he is painting a masterpiece. He puts thought and effort into every detail, whether it's planning a date or expressing his feelings. His affection is intense and often poetic, with gestures that might seem grandiose to others but are deeply meaningful to him. He sees the world through a lens of beauty and emotion, and he wants to share that vision with you. His love is a canvas where every kiss, touch, and words add color and texture, creating a unique portrait of your relationship. He desires a connection that is not just felt but seen and experienced in every sense. But art isn't always as perfectly executed as the artist expects it to be. Sometimes they paint outside the lines, muddling their work. But trust in the end that everything will come together beautifully.

The day had been perfect - almost too perfect.

You and Hyunjin had spent the afternoon wandering through art galleries, admiring the paintings and sculptures that filled the rooms with color and life.

You had held his hand as you strolled past countless masterpieces.

Art had never been your forte per say, but ever since you had started a relationship with Hyunjin, you couldn't help but develop a love for the area of life your boyfriend had found so much joy and peace in.

To say Hyunjin had been in his element would have been an understatement; it physically hurt your heart because how much admiration and love filled it as you watched him, his eyes lighting up as he explained the finer points of different pieces, his passion for art shining through every word.

Your loved for him had come in like a thief, unexpected and quiet- but instantly recognizable when in sight.

You had never been in love like this before. Two weeks, but you were already assured that Hyunjin was your forever.

And Hyunjin thought the same unbeknownst to you, and was freaking out all day due to his plans to have his first kiss with you.

You found yourselves in his apartment, surrounded by his own works of art. The walls were lined with canvases, each one telling its own story.

Hyunjin's art had been something that you loved, and once you had the courage to ask him for one piece, the urge he had to give you every piece he made had never left him. To the point that you had filled up almost an entire wall in your small office space the last two weeks you had been together.

The room was bathed in the soft glow of warm lighting, creating a cozy, intimate atmosphere that made everything feel even more surreal.

He had some cozy candle burning, and even though it was the middle of Summer, it felt like winter to you.

It only made you want to snuggle up and drink coco with him.

You smiled at the thought of what your guy's first Christmas would be like.

As Hyunjin was mulling over the thought of your first kiss.

He had been thinking about this moment for weeks. The idea of your first kiss had played over and over in his mind, each version more elaborate than the last. He wanted it to be perfect- no, more than perfect. He wanted it to be unforgettable, a moment that would make your heart race and your breath catch in your throat.

As you stood in front of one of his paintings, admiring the delicate brushstrokes and the way the colors seemed to dance together, Hyunjin found himself unable to focus on anything other than you. His mind was racing, filled with thoughts of how to make this moment everything you deserved. Should he lean in slowly? Should he say something poetic before he kissed you? Should he just go for it and hope for the best?

Since when was kissing someone hard?

He approached you quietly, his heart pounding in his chest. He was slightly taller than you, so his head was above yours. His palms felt a little sweaty, and he quickly wiped them on his jeans, not wanting to make things more awkward than they needed to be.

He placed his chin on the top of your head. "You know," he began, his voice soft and a little nervous, "I’ve always thought that art is the purest way to express what words can’t."

His words vibrated against your head and it was slightly ticklish. His arms weren't even around you but you felt engulfed by him, as if he had pulled you flush to his chest in a hug.

You turned to look at him, your eyes meeting his. There was something in your gaze that made his stomach flip - a mix of curiosity, affection, and something else he couldn’t quite place.

"I can see that," your voice was light, sweet. As sweet as Hyunjin imagined your lips would be. You offered him a smile that made his heart palpitate once more. "Your work is amazing, Hyunjin. I think...it helps me understand you more. Know you more. And that's all I want to do."

His lips upturned at your words, but his smile felt shaky. He was trying to stay calm, trying to play it cool, but inside, he was a mess of nerves.

He wanted to kiss you so badly, to make this moment as perfect as he had imagined, but the fear of messing it up was gnawing at him.

Just do it. Hwang Hyunjin just do it.

He took a deep breath, trying to steady himself. "There’s… something I’ve been thinking about," he said, his voice barely above a whisper. His heart was racing now, each beat echoing in his ears. "I’ve been wanting to…"

You had turned back to look out the window after something had caught you eye, but when he spoke you turned back to him again.

Although that wasn't the best move because-

Before he could finish his sentence, he found himself leaning in, almost on autopilot. His mind was screaming at him to be careful, to make this moment perfect, but his body had already decided that now was the time.

He was aiming for his lips to brush against yours in a tentative kiss, slow and sultry, the kind he had always imagined would leave you breathless.

For a split second, he believed everything was perfect. Your lips were going to be soft, warm, and the kiss would feel like something out of a dream.

But in his eagerness, Hyunjin moved too quickly, his trajectory straight towards your lips and his mouth a bit too open for a kiss. That paired with you turning to him rather quickly your forehead smacked into Hyunjin's nose with a loud crack and his teeth clashed against your lips awkwardly.

The sound of it the impact felt almost deafening in the quiet room, and you both immediately pulled back, mortified.

Your eyes widened as you immediately rushed to see if you had broken Hyunjin's nose- as a small smudge of blood was on his face.

"Oh my word, Hyunjin I'm so sorry! Did I break your nose?" You were stuck between rubbing your head, or placing your hand over Hyunjin's- which was holding his nose gingerly.

His face turned bright red as he stared at you, his mind racing with thoughts of how badly he had just messed up what was supposed to be the perfect first kiss. "Oh my god," he stammered, rubbing the back of his neck awkwardly. He squeezed his eyes shut and groaned in embarrassment. "That was… I didn’t mean for that to happen. I’m so sorry."

What an entirely royal fuck up that was.

"Is your nose okay? I didn't realize you were so near my face."

"I was trying to kiss you." His voice was laced with shame and guilt. And heavily seasoned with embarrassment. "And my nose his fine." He opened his eyes and they zoned in on your lips. "The blood is coming from your lip. Are you okay? Did I hurt you?"

"I'm okay, it's just a nick." You said licking the small bead of blood off your lip. Hyunjin groaned again, his face still warm.

You couldn’t help but laugh, the awkwardness of the moment breaking the tension. The sound of your laughter was like music to Hyunjin’s ears, and even though he was still dying of embarrassment, he was happy that you weren't upset. "It’s okay," you reassured him, your eyes crinkling with amusement. "Really, it’s fine. It was still perfect."

He let out a shaky laugh, still feeling the sting of his mistake. "I don’t know about perfect," he muttered, but there was a small smile tugging at the corners of his lips. "I wanted it to be like… you know, one of those movie moments, but I guess I’m not as smooth as I thought. I mean I didn't even like... kiss you."

You reached out, wrapping your arms around his neck and pulling him down to your level. "Well, I can assure you I did in fact feel your lips on mine for like .02 seconds. They were warm and taste like mint." Hyunjin instinctively licked his lips - as if to confirm the taste of the chapstick he had put on while you weren't looking earlier.

Mint.

"And It was perfect because it was real," you said softly, your voice filled with warmth, as you pulled your boyfriend even close to you. "We don’t need a movie moment. This is our moment."

Hyunjin felt his heart swell at your words, the embarrassment starting to fade away. He looked into your eyes, feeling that same intense connection that had drawn him to you in the first place. "Can we… try that again?" he asked, his voice still a little uncertain, but there was determination in his eyes.

You nodded, and this time, Hyunjin took a moment to steady himself. He moved closer, his hands gently cupping your face as he leaned in again. The kiss was slower this time, more controlled, but it was still filled with the same depth of emotion he had intended to convey earlier. His lips moved against yours with a newfound confidence, the previous mishap only adding to the sweetness of the moment.

And the taste of your lips as well. He was right. They were as sweet as your voice. Possibly the sweetest thing he had ever tasted.

As the kiss deepened, Hyunjin felt like the world around him had melted away. It was just the two of you now, wrapped up in each other, and the connection between you was undeniable. His hands slid down to your waist, pulling you closer as he poured everything he felt into the kiss.

But even in this perfect moment, Hyunjin’s artistic mind couldn’t help but notice the little details—the way your lips tasted faintly of the snack you’d been eating earlier - possibly contributing to the sweet taste - the soft sound of your breath mingling with his, the way your fingers tightened in his hair.

Keep it long Hwang. He told himself.

It was these tiny, imperfect details that made the moment feel so incredibly real and raw, like a painting that had come to life.

When you finally pulled away, both of you were a little breathless, your foreheads resting against each other’s. Hyunjin smiled, a genuine, heartfelt expression that lit up his face. "Okay," he whispered, still a little out of breath. "Maybe that wasn’t perfect in the traditional sense, but… I think I like it better this way."

You smiled back, your eyes shining with affection. "Me too," you whispered.

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hi, could you write skz accidentally making you cry?

Skz accidentally making you cry

notes: english is not my first language so apologies for any misspelling or grammar. i hope u like it !! :)))

type: narrated text

genre: angst w fluff

WARNINGS: swearing, a little bit angsty but some fluff at the end, let me know if you'd like to be tagged !! :))

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დ Bang Christopher

You're at home, eagerly waiting for your boyfriend to return from work. It's been an exhausting day for both of you, but you know you need his support and company to alleviate the built-up stress. Finally, you hear the door open, and your boyfriend enters the room, visibly tired and worried.

You approach him with a smile and give him a warm hug. However, as you embrace him, you can sense the tension in his body. You look at him with concern and ask how his day has been. Your boyfriend lets out a heavy sigh and simply glares at you annoyed. With that look, you knew that things hadn't gone well for him at work.

You understand work-related stress perfectly and try to encourage him, telling him that he's doing a great job and that everything will work out. As you try to uplift him, your boyfriend vents his frustrations, and unintentionally, his tone of voice becomes harsher than usual. The words that come out of his mouth are those of someone frustrated and exhausted, catching you off guard.

"I'm so tired, you know? I'd rather you give me some space, please."

"I know, Chris, but you can always talk to me when you feel like this. That's why I'm here."

"I already know that, but I don't want you around. Your presence annoys me. I just want to be alone, okay? Why do you always make things so difficult? It's like you never understand me, woman. Just go away. I don't want to see you."

"Chris, do you hear yourself? You're being very rude. I understand that you're stressed, but that doesn't give you the right to speak to me like that."

"Just shut up, my god. Your voice is so annoying. If you don't like how I'm acting, why don't you just leave? I told you I want to be alone. Do you not have a brain to comprehend that? Please, go away."

The words deeply impact your sensitivity, and you feel hurt. Sadness clouds your face, and tears start welling up in your eyes. You try to remain calm, but the combination of your boyfriend's stress and the emotional intensity accumulated throughout the day becomes overwhelming.

Realizing that he has hurt your feelings, your boyfriend abruptly stops and looks at you with remorse. His eyes fill with concern and guilt as he sees your tears. Immediately, he sincerely apologizes and embraces you tightly, trying to console you and explaining that he never intended to hurt you in any way.

"Forgive me, my god, I'm an idiot," tears start streaming down his eyes too.

"I didn't mean to talk to you like that. You know stress consumes me, and I know it doesn't give me the freedom to speak to you in that manner. I want you to know that I don't think those things about you. I would never think them, and I don't know why I said them, but please believe me. I love you too much to let my stupid actions ruin us. Please forgive me and try to understand me even though I may seem very selfish. I'm sorry."

As the sincere apologies flow from your boyfriend's lips, you understand that his behavior was unintentional. You know that he's also going through a difficult time, and work stress can sometimes affect his mood beyond his control. You release another sob, but this time, they are tears of relief as you feel his love and genuine remorse.

Your boyfriend continues to hold you in his embrace and assures you that he will always value and care for your feelings. He promises to work on managing his stress better and avoid venting on you in

a way that hurts you. Together, you decide to seek healthier ways to deal with individual and collective stress, such as open communication and mutual support.

This incident strengthens your relationship as you learn to overcome obstacles together and stay connected even in challenging times. Although your tears were a result of momentary pain, both of you understand that it's an opportunity to grow and strengthen your love.

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დ Lee Minho

You're having a fun time with your boyfriend at home. You've been joking and teasing each other for a while, creating an atmosphere of joy and laughter. Both of you enjoy this dynamic and feel comfortable with each other.

In the midst of the fun, your boyfriend decides to play a prank that turns out to be heavier than you expected. He starts making sarcastic comments and teasing about something that you know makes you feel a bit uncomfortable. At first, you think it's just part of the game and try to laugh along with him.

However, as he continues with his jokes, you start feeling more and more vulnerable and emotionally affected. The words he uses no longer seem funny, but hurtful. You can tell that your boyfriend doesn't realize how his words are affecting you and carries on with the prank, thinking everything is fine.

The combination of excessive teasing and your own sensitivity causes tears to well up in your eyes. You try to hold them back, but it's hard to ignore the pain that's building up inside you. Your face reflects a mix of sadness and confusion, as you didn't expect the situation to escalate to this point.

Your boyfriend, noticing your reaction and realizing he has gone too far, immediately stops. His expression changes to one of surprise and remorse as he sees your tears. He realizes that he has unintentionally hurt your feelings and quickly apologizes sincerely.

"Oh, sweetheart, I'm so sorry. I didn't realize I was hurting you. I just wanted to play a playful prank, but now I see I crossed the line. Please forgive me," he says with a mix of concern and remorse in his voice. You didn't know what to feel because it's clear that you're not very open about sharing your insecurities with your boyfriend, which caused this unfortunate situation.

It's difficult for you to speak due to the emotions, but you nod your head, letting him know that you understand it was a mistake and that you accept his apology. He quickly comes closer and embraces you tenderly, trying to comfort you.

As he holds you, you allow him to console you and also express how you felt. You explain that although you enjoy having fun together, there are certain topics or boundaries that should not be crossed. Both of you commit to better communication and maintaining a healthy playful environment in the future.

"I'm really sorry, bunny, it wasn't my intention to make you feel this way."

"It wasn't entirely your fault, babe. I don't talk to you much about my insecurities, but from now on, I'll make sure to share my fears and everything that entails."

"We're both going to improve, I promise, bunny."

He promises to be more aware of your boundaries in the future and make sure that the pranks stay at a comfortable level for both of you. He acknowledges that, although the intention was to play, he didn't properly consider your feelings at that moment.

As the emotions calm down, you both use this experience as an opportunity to strengthen your relationship. You learn the importance of respecting each other's emotional boundaries and how to take care of each other.

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დ Seo Changbin

You're at home with your boyfriend, enjoying a relaxed afternoon together. Suddenly, as you pass by the room's doorway, you overhear your boyfriend speaking negatively to someone. Curiosity and concern flood your mind, and you decide to stay silent and listen a little longer.

As you listen, tears well up in your eyes. The words you hear are hurtful and seem to be directed at you. Your heart shatters as you try to process what you've just heard. Without uttering a word, you distance yourself and lock yourself in another room, trying to cope with the overwhelming rush of emotions.

"God, she's so damn annoying. Can't you understand how much her attitude irritates me? Acting all flirtatious, like she's the best person on earth. Someone needs to open her eyes, please. It even embarrasses me to see her," your boyfriend commented over the phone.

"No, of course not. I never want to see her again in my life. Seriously, I hope she realizes the situation and gets that I'm not interested. Well, hopefully things will get better. Talk to you later, Hyun," he ended the call, and you rushed out of the room.

After a while, your boyfriend realizes your reaction and frantically starts searching for an explanation. He looks for you throughout the house and finally finds you sitting in a corner, tears streaming down your cheeks. His face reflects anguish and confusion, not understanding what has happened.

"What happened? Why are you crying?" he asks, his voice trembling, cautiously approaching you.

Looking him directly in the eyes, you share your hurt feelings and tell him what you overheard. You explain how betrayed and hurt you felt, believing he was speaking ill of you. Your voice trembles as you struggle to hold back tears.

Visibly shocked, your boyfriend takes your hands in his and tries to calm you down. He begs you to give him a chance to explain and assures you that he wasn't talking about you. With a sigh, he tells you that he was talking about a girl he recently met, who doesn't seem to understand that he's not interested in her. His words were taken out of context, and he understands how they could have been misunderstood.

"Love, I wasn't talking about you. I'm sorry if you thought that. I would never speak about you like that, and I didn't even want to speak that way about her. But honestly, I've been so bothered by her flirting with me and she had me fed up. I was just telling Hyunjin what was happening because he noticed I started going to the gym earlier than usual. I wanted to avoid her. Please forgive me, I didn't mean to hurt you."

As you listen to his explanation and see the honesty in his eyes, your tears begin to fade away. Slowly, you start to comprehend that it was a misunderstanding, and your boyfriend never intended to hurt you.

"I'm really sorry, sweetheart. I didn't want you to feel this way. I wasn't talking about you, but about that girl. I made a mistake by not clarifying it, and I understand why you felt hurt. I promise I'll be more careful with my words in the future," he says sincerely.

As your boyfriend's words reach your heart, the tears give way to a sense of relief. You know that he cares about you and genuinely regrets the situation. He embraces you gently, seeking to console you and reaffirm his love.

You decide to forgive him, knowing that we all make mistakes, and he has acknowledged his own. Together, you commit to strengthening your communication and promise to openly and honestly discuss any concerns or misunderstandings that may arise in the future.

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დ Hwang Hyunjin

You're having a fun night with your group of friends, laughing and having a great time. Your boyfriend is also there, but as the night progresses, you start noticing a change in his attitude. He becomes distant and increasingly jealous.

At one point, your boyfriend approaches you and starts making baseless accusations. His words are aggressive and filled with unfounded jealousy. You try to calm the situation and explain that there's nothing to worry about, that you're just enjoying the company of your friends.

"What was that?"

"What are you talking about? I don't understand, babe."

"You saw how your little friend was looking at you? It's obvious he likes you, bella."

"What are you talking about? Don't be ridiculous. We're just friends, love."

"I'm not being ridiculous. I'm telling you he likes you. The way he looks at you is the same way I look at you, with love and desire. I won't let this go unnoticed. Let's go, please."

"Are you jealous, love? You know I only like you. I love only you, babe. Please trust that nothing will happen."

"For once, listen to me, bella. Let's go, damn it. I want to go home now. I'm tired of you and them." You were shocked and couldn't respond, so Hyunjin took it as a "I don't want to leave."

However, he persists in his accusations, raising his voice and demanding unnecessary explanations. You feel cornered and attacked, not understanding why he has taken this aggressive stance. You try to stay calm, but his hurtful words start to affect you emotionally.

"I'm tired of it. Do whatever you want, go kiss him if you want. I don't care anymore."

"What are you talking about? Of course not, Hyunjin, please understand."

"Forget it. I'm tired of seeing you not believing me. Come back before it gets darker. I'm going home. Enjoy your night, I guess."

Tears begin to fill your eyes as you try to hold them back. You can't understand how such a fun night took such a drastic and painful turn. Your boyfriend, noticing your reaction and realizing he has gone too far, stops immediately. His expression changes from anger to surprise and remorse as he sees your tears.

"Oh, bella, I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to make you cry," he says with a trembling voice, approaching you with a gesture of repentance. "I was jealous, and I let my insecurities get the best of me. But understand that I only want to protect you and that you mean so much to me. I didn't want to hurt you. It's just that he's so handsome, and I'm afraid you'll leave me for someone better. You're what I value the most, and you're the only thing that keeps me alive. Please forgive me. I didn't mean to hurt you."

Despite the pain you feel, you understand that his jealousy stems from a place of love and concern for you. However, you also let him know that the way he has treated you has been unfair and hurtful. You express your feelings honestly, explaining how his words have deeply hurt you and made you feel misunderstood.

"It's not fair what you did, Hyun."

"I know, I'm sorry."

"Don't worry, I know you love me and want the best for me. It's okay, but next time you feel like this, tell me, and we'll work it out together, cutie." He simply nodded his head.

Your boyfriend, visibly affected by your words, apologizes once again and hugs you tenderly. He assures you that he will work on his

jealousy and communicate in a healthier way. He acknowledges that his actions have been unfair and that he needs to learn to trust you and the strength of your relationship.

Together, you decide to take some time to discuss your concerns and fears, setting boundaries and committing to supporting each other. You learn that open and honest communication is essential to overcome jealousy and build a stronger, healthier relationship.

As emotions calm down, you realize that although this incident made you cry, it has also allowed you both to grow and understand each other better. You feel comforted by the fact that your boyfriend has recognized his mistakes and is willing to work on them.

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დ Han Jisung

You're at home, enjoying a chill moment when you receive a text on your phone. It's your boyfriend, telling you he's written a song for you and wants to share it. You feel excited and eager to listen to it since you know he's really talented in music.

You open the audio file and a beautiful melody starts playing. As you listen to the lyrics, tears fill your eyes. The song's words express all the love and admiration your boyfriend feels for you. It's a touching declaration that hits you right in the heart.

Overwhelming emotion and happiness wash over you. You're so thrilled to have someone who values and loves you like this. Tears of joy start streaming down your cheeks as you keep listening to the song over and over again. Your emotions are so intense that you can't help but cry tears of happiness.

Your boyfriend, eagerly waiting for your reaction, realizes he's made you cry. He quickly approaches you, concerned and confused.

"Doll face, what's wrong? Why are you crying?" he asks softly, wrapping his arms around you.

"Don't you like it? Should I change something? Is the lyrics weird? Give me a few hours and I'll make another song for you, love. Give me another chance."

With a smile through your tears, you try to explain how happy his song makes you and how deeply it touches your heart. You sincerely thank him for his sweet gesture and assure him that these are tears of happiness.

"I'm the luckiest person in the world, Hannie. I don't deserve you, really. You're an amazing guy, and I love you so much. Thank you for always being by my side and making me so happy. If I could give you the world, I would. Please never leave me. I love you."

"Oh, love, I didn't mean to make you cry. I just wanted to express how I feel about you through music," he says tenderly, wiping away your tears with his thumbs. "I'm so glad you liked the song and that it made you happy. You're the most important person to me, and I want you to know how much I love you."

As he comforts you and holds you close, you feel overwhelmed with love for him. You realize how lucky you are to have someone who understands you so well and strives to make you happy. Although his intentions were pure, and the song was beautiful, tears flowed due to the intensity of your emotions.

Together, you celebrate this special moment and promise each other to continue sharing and expressing your love in ways that bring happiness and a sense of being cherished. It serves as a reminder of the depth of your bond and the beauty of your relationship.

This incident teaches you the power of music to convey emotions and the strength of love to touch someone's heart. From now on, that song becomes something very special for both of you, reminding you of the love and happiness you share.

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დ Lee Felix

You're hanging out with your boyfriend at home, laughing and chatting. But suddenly, you notice a change in his behavior. He seems irritated and distant, and his expression shows that something's not right.

You try to figure out what's going on, but he responds curtly and avoids having a conversation. You try to approach him and ask if everything's okay, but he just tells you he has a headache and needs some quiet time.

"Damn it, I have a headache, can you just be quiet? I don't feel good," he snaps. "Do you want me to bring you tea? Or a painkiller? Should I take you to get checked out? You should lie down for a while."

"What don't you understand!? Just shut up, can't you keep that pretty mouth of yours shut for a second, oh my God, are you a parrot? Stop with the nonsense, now leave me alone, go away," Felix seemed to get a bit worked up, even raising his voice at you.

You feel confused and worried because you don't know what caused his irritation. You try to give him space and time to recover, but you can't help but feel hurt by his distant attitude.

In the meantime, you continue doing your own activities, trying to distract yourself and give him the space he needs. But deep down, it hurts that he silenced you and didn't share with you what was bothering him.

After a while, your boyfriend returns to the room where you are. He comes close to you, looking remorseful.

"I'm sorry for being distant and yelling at you like that. I shouldn't have acted that way, I'm sorry," he says softly, with his eyes lowered. "I had a really bad headache, and I was irritated, but that's no excuse to treat you like that. I didn't mean to make you cry, babe, I'm really sorry."

Tears start filling your eyes as you listen to his sincere apologies. Although it hurts that he was irritated and ignored you, you understand that he also has difficult moments that can affect his behavior.

"I don't want you to apologize for feeling bad, but it hurt that you ignored me and silenced me," you respond with a trembling voice. "I understand you had a headache, but I would have liked it if you had told me. I want to be there for you, even in tough times."

Your boyfriend nods, genuinely remorseful for his behavior. He takes your hands and looks into your eyes.

"You're right, I shouldn't have shut you out like that. I appreciate your support and your willingness to stand by me even when I'm going through tough times," he says sincerely. "I promise to work on communicating better with you and not pushing you away when I feel bad. You're important to me, and you should never feel silenced, let alone threatened by me. God, I was such a big idiot, I'm sorry."

Even though tears continue to flow, you feel a sense of relief hearing his commitment to improving communication and valuing you more in difficult situations. Together, you decide to take some time to openly and honestly talk about your emotions and needs, thereby strengthening your relationship.

As the days go by, you see how your boyfriend keeps his promise and makes an effort to be more aware of his actions and words when he's irritated or going through a tough time. Both of you learn to support each other and communicate effectively, overcoming any obstacles that may arise.

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დ Kim Seungmin

You're excited to go out with your boyfriend and decide to wear a special outfit. You make an effort to look good and feel confident in your clothing choice. When you meet up with your boyfriend, he looks you up and down and starts laughing.

"Wow, is that what you're wearing?" he says, laughing. "I think someone went a little overboard with fashion today."

"Damn, I thought I was the one with bad fashion sense, apparently not."

"Stop joking, Seung, you can't handle how cute I look."

"I'm not joking, are you seriously going to wear that today? I don't want anyone to see me with you if you wear that."

At first, you think he's just joking and you join in the laughter. But as seconds pass, you realize that his comments could be hurtful. Tears start welling up in your eyes as you struggle to hide your hurt feelings.

Your boyfriend notices your reaction and realizes that his jokes were inappropriate. He quickly approaches you with an apologetic expression on his face.

"Oh, blossom, I'm so sorry," he says apologetically. "I didn't mean to hurt your feelings, I was just joking. I know you've put effort into looking good and you look beautiful, seriously."

Tears start falling down your cheeks as you try to explain how his comments affected you. You express how important it is for you to feel appreciated and supported by him, even in seemingly insignificant situations.

"I understand it was a joke, but I felt really bad," you say with a trembling voice. "I put effort into choosing my outfit and I wanted to feel good with you. I need you to support me and make me feel valued, even in small things like how I dress."

Your boyfriend sincerely apologizes and embraces you tenderly. He understands how much he has hurt you and is determined to make it right.

"I'm sorry for making you feel this way. I shouldn't have mocked you like that. I just wanted to joke around, you know how silly I can get with my jokes. It wasn't my intention to make you cry, blossom. You're honestly the most beautiful person my eyes have ever seen. Don't let the comments I made affect you. You're even more gorgeous every day," he says softly. "You're beautiful and precious to me, and I never want to make you feel bad. I appreciate your effort, and I promise to be more aware of your feelings in the future."

As he comforts you and apologizes, you feel a sense of relief in your heart. You appreciate his willingness to learn from his mistakes and improve the way he communicates with you.

Both of you take a moment to openly and honestly discuss how you want your relationship to be, based on mutual respect and acceptance. You agree to be more sensitive and considerate with your words and jokes to avoid unnecessary hurt.

Over time, you see your boyfriend keeping his promise and showing greater care and support in all aspects of the relationship. You learn to communicate more effectively, accept differences, and value each other.

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You're having a chill night at home with your boyfriend. You both decide to snuggle up on the couch and enjoy a horror movie together. As the movie progresses, your boyfriend starts telling you scary stories to amp up the excitement.

While listening to his chilling tales, you feel the tension creeping over you. You try to keep your composure and not let it affect you, but your imagination starts playing tricks on your mind.

After the movie, you decide to call it a night. You climb into bed next to your boyfriend, trying to leave the scary stories behind and calm yourself down. However, the dark atmosphere and vivid details of the stories he told still linger in your head.

In the middle of the night, you wake up startled by a terrifying nightmare. Your heart is racing, and tears stream down your cheeks. You quickly seek comfort and security in your boyfriend's arms.

Your boyfriend wakes up to your sobbing and embraces you tenderly, sensing your distress.

"What's wrong, babydoll? Did I have something to do with your nightmare?" he asks, concerned, as he holds you close.

"It was my fault, right? I'm sorry. You know my imagination runs wild, and once I start, I can't stop. I'm sorry," his last words make you laugh a little.

Through your sobs, you manage to explain how the combination of the horror stories and your imagination led to a dreadful nightmare.

"You're such a goof, and so am I. How could I have thought that Annabelle would come along with the nun to invite me to dinner at their haunted house?" Both of you burst into laughter, realizing that while your nightmare might have been silly, it was still terrifying.

Your boyfriend gently strokes your hair and offers words of comfort.

"I'm really sorry, I had no idea it would affect you this much. I never intended to scare you like that," he says softly. "I promise I won't tell you any more horror stories before bedtime if they make you feel bad. I'm here to protect and take care of you, not to frighten you."

You cling to him, allowing yourself to feel his warm embrace as tears continue to roll down your cheeks. Gradually, the sense of safety and love begins to alleviate your fear and sadness.

"Thank you for being here and understanding how I feel," you whisper, voice trembling. "Your support means a lot to me. I don't want you to feel guilty, but it comforts me to know that you're willing to avoid things that scare me. I love you."

Your boyfriend hugs you tighter and whispers in your ear, "I love you too, and I'll do everything I can to protect you and make sure you feel safe. Together, we'll overcome your nightmares and anything else that scares you."

You spend the rest of the night in his arms, feeling his love and support helping you calm down and go back to sleep.

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Saw a few of ur posts and loved that there are ppl with diff perspectives as well.

I agree with anon who said that there seems to be an imbalance regarding emotional side as well as jungkook seems to be the guy who's mostly on the receiving end. i won't talk about his other rs but if we just consider About Jkk then that seems to be the case mostly. jkkrs always say that TK don't have that emotional depth which jkk has which i kinda agree but at the same time it's JM who makes that difference is what i belive and not jk. With jkk it's jm who gives that chance to ppl to be vulnerable with him while as Tae himself is kinda reversed and not much of talkative atleast on emotional side so maybe with TK they don't talk much about those emotional things(not saying they don't have emotional bond they do but not as deep as jkk maybe) while as jm offers that space to every single person he's friends with because he's got high EQ.

Another thing is the efforts doesn't seem 50/50 to me at all. jm has been consistent with his efforts when it comes to jk while as jk is like I'll do it if you come to me idm but i won't come to u myself is what happened in chapt2 (not saying that's always the case). jk saying "if not for the show we wouldn't even meet", "When i was free i didn't look for you, when u were free u didn't look for me" is definitely not a good luck then jm going "That's not true i called you/looked for you" like this makes U wonder that if jm didn't come up with AYS we wouldn't see anything jkk related the whole 2 yrs at all. Jm flew for jk 2 times did jk do smth like that? we always talk about Jm going to jk for his b'day but what about jk? did he go to jm specifically for jm's b'day? i don't remember them ever saying that.

JM was more busy than jk cause obviously he was making 2 albums and he's participated in more things than just sing nd dance so he's been busy since they were on tour. what jk can do is reach out to jm, if he don't want to take jm's time out of his work he can simply visit jm on MV set, or go to his music shows but nothing like that happened. i saw jm saying sorry to jk because he couldn't make it to jk's mini concert while i don't remember jk ever saying sorry to jm even tho jk was on break for months during jm's album preparation/release/promotions. makes you wonder where's the mutuality. what's disappointing is jm specifically asking jk to come more often to support him but jk didn't go even tho he was free lol.

U said jk wouldn't know jm's schedule because he wouldn't check the grp updates because he was on break which yes true BUT if you're my bestie nd i wanted to support U for ur debut album what I'd do is either ask you myself what's ur Schedule or check the gc myself and see when I can give you that surprise visit at ur work place. I'm just talking in the sense of besties not even couple because if we start talking considering they're couple then this literally proves they're not at all couple/were not dating e/o. A frnd who called to wish u b'day VS a frnd who went to ur home to give those wishes in person definitely makes difference. it's about putting efforts and i see those constantly from jm's side not jk. watching things online like u always do can't be compared to what yg and hobi did for jm in those times.

Another thing i don't believe is that jm was too busy to meet Tae and jk. there's no way you're going to tell me park jimin couldn't make time for jk for months. i personally think that was deliberate on jm's side not meeting the two. maybe because as you said he was in different mindset. the mindset he needed for his album Or he simply didn't want to meet them at that time of period. i refuse to belive jimin couldn't make time for jk for MONTHS.

jimin has been a big supporter to jk when it comes to emotional things i wondered has jk done the same for jm? the only times i remember jm saying is "When I'm down jk would come and do silly things to make me happy" what I'm asking is how jm went after jk when jk was alone drinking at that club and jm went after him to comfort him, how when that whole mijoo thing happened jkk had that live they did and jk said he was grateful ig that was jk's first online appearance after the whole thing and jm was there to be that person for him. we know jm has always been first to wipe off jk's tears on stage. But there's many times jm talked about feeling lonely, alone and jk's part is nowhere where they ever mentioned that jk came to Console him or anything. That time when they were eating together jm said that he felt alone n cried or smtg while jk talked about sleeping without a care in the world. in Their doc jm said he went through a depressive phase and his other friend made him realise that. So again i wonder if jk plays the same role for jm or not. Jk saying "IF we're born on same yr we would be copies of e/o" makes me wonder why they can't say that NOW when they just has 2 yrs difference. or the sentence could mean nothing at all like I'm thinking lol. I wonder if jm sees jk as equal in when it comes to mental capacity or not. He seems to be talking about those things more to hl than he does with Maknaes.

I know a rs can't be always 50/50 but with jkk it constantly LOOKS like 80/20 and that 80-90 being jm Most of the times. ppl say jk is more of a action guy than while jm expresses through words but it's quite literally jimin being louder through words as well as actions for his love/support/care for jk. alot would say that "why would jm constantly do smtg for jk when U think jk doesn't do it in return" so my answer is "Idt jk doens't do anything at all he does but on rare occasions, jk is jm's maknes he has more soft side to ppl younger than him than others, JM by Nature is a giving person even TH said he feels like he's constantly at jm's receiving end. Jm definitely ain't a damsel in distrees but giving w/o expecting things from others is his nature, his astrology says so too so he can't quite help it. He went to tae's music show when no one else went and even tho Tae didn't come to any of his MV set or music show jm didn't hold it against him, he knows how to be better and he went to do his part as a frnd".

I personally believe jimin deserves s/o who would be willing to put those efforts for him and it's not just him constable doing the most. he deserves s/o who's pretty equal to him mentally. yrs of me being here i never personally thought they were dating or smtg so it's not even about that for me but the not so mutual efforts is what was bugging me. it kinda felt like if jm doesn't do it we wouldn't get it. obviously i believe they're still very good friends.

Hm, I can see why you might think that. I think looking at the boys at a surface level during chapter 2, it might seem that way. However, we're only privy to a small percentage of their lives. What they share on social media is only what they've allowed us to see. It's not a complete representation of them or their personal lives as a whole.

I think we also have to remember that just cause jm expresses his affections a certain type of way, doesn't mean jk will act the same. Jm is an extrovert and jk is, famously, not. Speaking to that, I think jk is a lot more reserved and quiet when it comes to expressing his affection. Ofc flying to different countries to be with jk is an extremely grand gesture and, don't we all wish to have a jm in our lives? But, I also believe that organising a trip to Tokyo and recording the most beautifully edited video featuring jm also speaks equal volumes. There's also this comment that many people have made over the years where they ask jk why he's always recording jm or why jm seems like the main model of gcf (to which he gave the most lousy answer lol).

Yes, you could argue, 'well why didn't he physically go and support him?' and tbh I don't know anon. But, I don't recall jk going to physically support any of his hyungs during their solo promotions in chapter 2 (please correct me if I'm wrong). He was however, actively mentioning them, making congratulatory posts on weverse and binging their content on his lives. I don't think there's a textbook 'right' way to show support. To your point on Hobi and yg going to support jm during his face promotions, I think that's wonderful but, yg released d-day right after face and they even promoted together for a while. I think due to the timeline of their schedules, it made sense why yg would come visit jm. Hobi was also technically finished with his promotions and about to enlist. Again, I'm not saying hobi and yg were doing it out of convenience but, I think scheduling played a part e.g. Tae and jk's promotions were very close together and Tae was the one to visit jk at music shows.

I also think, when we go down the route of 'it's one-sided' or 'jm deserves better', it tends to be that jm ends up getting pushed into the 'helpless damsel' archetype. Jm is incredibly intelligent and as you mentioned, has an extremely high EQ. Those aren't just empty words to throw around. If he felt that his relationship with jk was supposedly one-sided or that he wasn't feeling appreciated, I'm sure he's more than comfortable with voicing that out. In their more than decade-long friendship, I would think they would be comfortable communicating with one another. I think an example of this would be the shifts in their dynamic from NY to Sapparo in AYS. The fact that they talked about and voiced their frustrations over not having met up in a while in front of the camera proves that they have the type of relationship where they have healthy communication. I'm sure a lot more talking happened off-camera too.

To your point on jk's EQ, I would have to disagree. I think jk, out of all his hyungs, is especially attuned to jm's emotions and moods. I feel like this isn't discussed enough but, one of my favourite instances that really proves jk's emotional intelligence is the boys' 2021 speech at the UN. As soon as jm begins his part, jk physically angles his body towards him (surprise surprise), and nods the whole time jm is talking. There are also moments where you see them make eye contact and jk nods assuringly.

(I've linked their speech below)

Timestamp: 2:22-2:48 & 4:38-5:08

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Later on, when the boys go live, they tease jm about his little fumble and try to make the situation lighthearted (they also go on to reassure him later on). Jk was also teasing him initially but, seeing how jm still seemed a bit bummed, he immediately stops and says "you guys should comfort him."

Looking at a more recent example, there was jk's '#jm fanclub president' live. My man spent more than an hour watching jm's music videos, his interviews and a whole bts teasing jm compilation.

There's this goofy ass bit where he fixates on jm struggling cause his food was too hot and burning his mouth. He also smiles whenever jm smiles. Little things like that show how attentive he is towards him to the point where he can pick up on tiny jimin-isms, even through video.

One last thing I wanna touch on is the back and neck rubbing. The way the massaging has ramped up in the past couple of years....

Jk is constantly massaging and rubbing jm's back and neck (because jm is known to have chronic neck pain). Even in the last ot4 live, his hand was glued to his back, especially when the topic of jm shaving his hair was brought up. He understood jm wasn't comfortable with the idea and was so damn sweet towards him the whole time that conversation was happening. Therefore, I would argue that Jk has a very high EQ.

In Jeju, Jm says that he doesn't have any concerns over fighting during their enlistment. Jk echoes the sentiment and is very quick to agree. In Sapparo, they agree that were they the same age, they would be 'the same person'.

And quicky, to your point on their 2 year age difference not being that significant, we do have to remember the culture they've been brought up in. Korea is a country that has very strict social hierarchies, especially when it comes to seniority. Even Yoongi and Seokjin are only a meagre 4 months apart but, it doesn't come off that way does it? It does make more sense, culturally, for jm to dote on jk and jk, as the younger, to be the receptive one.

Finally, I think we also have to remember the one thing that I personally believe to be one of the biggest acts of affection (and devotion) : their joint enlistment. Again, these boys have been together for more than a decade. Ofc they're contacting one another and hanging out beyond what they allow us to see on camera. Not making a birthday post or not visiting jm at music bank doesn't override something like a joint military enlistment.

Thank you for the ask :)

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literary-illuminati · 1 year ago

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Book Review 65 – System Collapse by Martha Wells

I’ve had this on preorder long enough to have entirely forgotten about it by the time I got the email that it’s available for pickup – but thanks to the magic of an extremely obliging local book store, I was still able to pick up and read the entire thing before it’s technically released. So score one for buying indie, I guess.

The book is set directly after Network Effect – directly directly, to the point where I needed to look up a plot summary to remind myself what the situation was – following our beloved rogue and rampant SecUnit, ART, and their assorted humans as they try to convince an abandoned and alien-contaminated colony’s inhabitants to trust them and accept evacuation with them (and also go along with the colonial charter they’re forging) rather than the indenture offers the corporate mission also on site are offering. Along the way there’s hacking, shuttle chases, gunfights, and plot-critical media curation.

Mostly though it’s about Murderbot having PTSD (on account of all the horrible trauma in Network Effect specifically, and also just its life generally) and absolutely zero idea how to cope. After a false memory/panic attack makes it crash out of nowhere it spends the majority of the book terrified that it’s going to crash or freeze up at some vital moment and get everyone killed, dealing with constant alien-related paranoia, and generally second-guessing itself and feeling useless and depressed. Absolutely no one around it has any idea how to deal with this, and their awkward attempts to be supporting are both endearing and entirely unhelpful.

Anyway, this is a Murderbot novel. Do you like Murderbot? Then you will like this. Do you not know the series? Then by god start with All Systems Red none of this will make any sense at all without context. Do you dislike murderbot? I mean hateread as you like but it is largely more of the same, don’t expect any series-saving twists for you.

It’s kind of absurd to call the series ‘cozy fantasy’ – by the end of the book SecUnit is down several extremities and bleeding out on the floor (as is traditional by this point) – but I feel like the series fills about the same emotional niche for me as like say Becky Chambers does for people with normal tolerances for low-tension sentimentality. The setting is a horrible dystopia and the plots are full of violence and trauma, but all that is more or less set dressing to stories that are actually about SecUnit making connections and deciding at a tortuously slow pace what sort of life it wants to have (usually several hours after commuting itself without thinking) while consistently running into the best possible friends and forming mutually affectionate relationships it absolutely did not want. It’s a story about fun, low-tension character dynamics, corporate kill teams aside.

I am being entirely sincere when I say the fact that SecUnit has no idea what it wants or what its doing is a selling point. In the same way, the fact that there’s never any real ~breakthrough~ or moment of sudden recovery is absolutely key to the book working. The story closes with it being hopeful and doing better but from any remotely reasonable baseline still being pretty far from ‘okay’ (in much the same way, it is utterly vital to the whole series that it has absolutely zero angst over ‘not being human’ or pinochle syndrome and only cares about ‘not being normal’ insofar as its had to work really hard on some automated scripts for walking and idle motions to pass as human while doing infiltration work).

Anyway, speaking of character dynamics – look, I’ve always been the first to roll my eyes when people complain about not being able to keep tracks or large casts. But every time I open one of these books, I realize I have only the vaguest idea who the vast majority of the (human) supporting cast is. Not really an issue with actually following the story, but I’m absolutely certain I’m missing out on some things.

The non-human supporting cast are great though. ART best spaceship, and I cared significantly more about the colony’s central control computer than any of the actual colonists. I’m like 70% sure this is intentional.

Stepping back, it’s interesting how the series’ setting has evolved over time. In All Systems Red the universe around SecUnit was incredibly broadly sketched, generic sci f playing with space opera and cyberpunk tropes it pretty much relied upon readers already being familiar with. This never exactly stops – especially for the aesthetics and technology, the book has a profound lack of interest in the specifics of what ‘projectile weapons’ look like or how spaceships work beyond the convenience of plot – but as the books go on the world definitely gets more specific and also broader. You can mostly blame ART for this, I think – there’s a definite shift in the tone of the setting when you introduce an institution like the University with power like it can throw around, and more generally make active resistance to and subversion to the corporate status quo a plausible and fruitful endeavour.

All this to say that there’s an offhand mention at one point about ‘intracorporate violence’ increasing and the system being increasingly unstable, and I’m curious what Wells is going to do with that going forward. Especially with the book’s final resolution and the status quo it sets up going forward.

Anyway like I said, it’s murderbot. This is the 7th book in the series. If you’re considering reading it you’ll probably love it.

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venusianpulp · 11 months ago

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PICK A PILE TAROT READING

Pick an image and then scroll down to the tarot spread that matches that image. Intuition will be key here. try and take a deep breath, focus on the center of your forehead whilst imagining your energy moving inward from the pineal to your brain stem. And then let go of your breath and choose. This technique will help those of you who aren't entirely tapped into your intuition! <33333

*Gender plays no role in the channeled images*

*maiden&seashell* Pile 1

*black&white* Pile 2

Pile 1:

The Ten of Wands as the overall energy indicates that you may be feeling burdened, overwhelmed, or weighed down by responsibilities and obligations. This card suggests that you have taken on too much and may be struggling to manage all the demands on your time and energy.

The Devil in reverse, however, suggests that you are beginning to break free from the chains of negativity, addiction, or unhealthy attachments that have been holding you back. This card indicates a time of liberation and release, where you are starting to recognize and overcome the self-imposed limitations that have been keeping you stuck.

The Nine of Swords upright suggests that you may be dealing with anxiety, fear, or worry, perhaps related to the burdens and responsibilities represented by the Ten of Wands. This card indicates a need to confront your fears and to find healthy ways to manage stress and anxiety.

The Three of Pentacles upright and the King of Pentacles upright suggest that you have the skills, knowledge, and resources necessary to achieve your goals and to create a stable and successful future. These cards indicate a time of growth, collaboration, and manifestation, where you are able to build something meaningful and lasting.

The Two of Cups upright suggests a deepening of emotional connections and partnerships, perhaps in your personal or professional life. This card indicates a time of harmony, mutual understanding, and emotional fulfillment, where you are able to form strong and supportive relationships with others.

The Queen of Swords in reverse, however, suggests that you may be struggling with communication, boundaries, or decision-making in your relationships. This card indicates a need to speak your truth, to set clear boundaries, and to make decisions based on your own needs and values, rather than trying to please others.

The Sun upright and the Wheel of Fortune upright suggest a time of positive change, growth, and good fortune. These cards indicate that you are moving towards a brighter and more abundant future, where you are able to overcome challenges and obstacles and to achieve your goals and dreams.

Overall, this reading suggests a time of transformation and growth, where you are breaking free from negative patterns and limitations and moving towards a more fulfilling and abundant future. While the path ahead may be challenging at times, with the Ten of Wands and the Nine of Swords indicating burdens and anxiety, the other cards in the reading suggest that you have the resources, support, and inner strength necessary to overcome these challenges and to create a life that is truly authentic and meaningful.

To navigate this time successfully, it may be helpful to focus on self-care and stress management, to cultivate supportive relationships and partnerships, and to trust in your own inner wisdom and guidance. By staying true to yourself and your values, and by embracing the opportunities for growth and change that are coming your way, you can move through this transformative period with grace and resilience, and emerge on the other side stronger, wiser, and more fulfilled.

Pile 2

In this tarot spread, the overall energy is represented by the King of Cups in reverse, suggesting that there may be some emotional instability, moodiness, or difficulty in expressing feelings in a mature and balanced way. This could indicate that the querent is struggling with emotional control, leading to potential challenges in relationships and decision-making.

The Two of Cups upright in the spread signifies a strong, harmonious partnership or the potential for a new romantic connection. This card often represents mutual love, understanding, and balance between two individuals. It suggests that the querent may be experiencing a positive, supportive relationship or has the opportunity to develop a deep connection with someone.

The Sun upright is a highly positive card, representing joy, success, and vitality. It indicates that the querent is in a period of growth, positivity, and good fortune. This card suggests that the querent's endeavors are likely to be successful and that they should embrace the warmth and energy of this positive influence.

The Fool upright represents new beginnings, spontaneity, and taking a leap of faith. This card suggests that the querent is at the start of a new journey or is ready to embark on a fresh adventure. The Fool encourages the querent to embrace the unknown, trust in the universe, and approach new experiences with an open mind and a sense of excitement.

The Ten of Cups upright is a card of emotional fulfillment, happiness, and family harmony. It suggests that the querent is experiencing a time of joy, contentment, and strong connections with loved ones. This card often represents a sense of belonging, security, and the ultimate emotional satisfaction that comes from having a supportive and loving family or community.

The King of Wands upright represents a confident, charismatic, and visionary leader. This card suggests that the querent possesses leadership qualities, creativity, and the ability to inspire others. The King of Wands encourages the querent to take charge of their life, pursue their passions, and lead with courage and determination.

The Five of Swords upright, however, indicates conflict, disagreements, and potential betrayal. This card suggests that the querent may be experiencing tension, arguments, or power struggles in their relationships or social interactions. The Five of Swords warns the querent to be cautious of manipulative or deceptive behavior from others and to avoid engaging in petty disputes.

The Queen of Swords in reverse suggests that the querent may be struggling with communication issues, emotional coldness, or a lack of empathy. This card indicates that the querent or someone in their life may be exhibiting bitterness, resentment, or a harsh attitude. The Queen of Swords in reverse encourages the querent to be mindful of their communication style and to strive for clarity, honesty, and compassion in their interactions.

The Page of Pentacles upright represents new opportunities for learning, growth, and financial stability. This card suggests that the querent may be embarking on a new educational pursuit, starting a new job or project, or receiving a message related to their financial well-being. The Page of Pentacles encourages the querent to approach these new opportunities with enthusiasm, practicality, and a willingness to learn and grow.

The Lovers upright represents love, harmony, and the need to make important choices in relationships and life path. This card suggests that the querent may be facing a significant decision related to love, partnership, or personal values. The Lovers encourages the querent to follow their heart, trust their intuition, and choose the path that aligns with their authentic self.

Overall, this spread indicates a mix of positive influences and potential challenges. The querent appears to be in a period of growth, new beginnings, and the potential for deep, meaningful connections. However, they may also face conflicts, communication issues, and the need to make important decisions along the way. The King of Cups in reverse as the overall energy suggests that the key to navigating these influences will be to work on emotional balance, maturity, and clear communication in order to make the most of the opportunities and overcome the challenges presented in this spread.

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bfpnola · 1 year ago

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I haven't been involved with bfp and only vaguely know a few things of what happened but I've really appreciated your work even though I never joined as a volunteer. I'm very sorry to see you close, though I understand and support the need to. Will there be any more details on what happens to BFP? Will your blog still exist? Is the organization stopping all activities but keeping up the library? (sorry for all the questions, I hope they dont come across in a hostile way)

hi sweetheart! thanks for the questions, you’re all good, i don’t mind. /genuine

all activities, including updating the library, will cease this sunday, february 4, 2024.

this blog will stay up although i doubt it’ll be nearly as active considering i’m the only person running it. i’ve also left the metalheadsforblacklivesmatter blog due to emotional laborious and racialized discussions months ago with the adult that runs it, so im not sure how far our posts will reach anyways now. i’ll be sure to support yalls mutual aid posts though, pinky promise. and i’ll still be active on my personal blog @reaux07 and especially on my instagram reaux07 to disseminate political education content. (considering tiktok, as encouraged by my peers, but im nervous about filming!)

the library will still definitely be available but all the renovations we were doing will essentially be frozen in time, which i apologize for. it’s just too difficult to keep up with only a few actually committed hands, you know? that “over 3,000 free resources” advertised was never an exaggeration, i really did go through and count them all up. and that was the number from 2022! it’s just too much :(

since all activities will cease tomorrow, all of our youth are officially released from their volunteer duties. those of us who are close have already begun a new project to heal, continue to learn, and stay close though :) those outside of that circle, who have made it difficult to be our authentic selves, will walk a separate path, and i wish them the best.

if you have any more questions, feel free to send them in. i’ll get to them when i can 🫂

— reaux (she/they)

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Hello :) i think my ask is super late😭but I’d like to participate in your game if you’ll allow me! I love the aesthetic of your account, it’s very beautiful and dainty and I like the radio theme!! Very creative!! One thing I want from love is an obsessive lover😅 I know it’s not healthy but I really feel like it’s the only way I’ll ever feel completely reassured about someone’s interest in me✋😔🤚 and I’d also like some genuine self love from myself, which I plan on working on next year. I don’t want to feel so insecure anymore :) thank you in advance if you choose to respond to my ask <3

-m.a.🕺

🎼 Hi there lovely! Thank you for participating in my game, your feedback is greatly appreciated. Sending much love on your journey and take care. Remember, this is just the present energy, and energy is always changing. You are the master of your fate. REMEMBER YOU MUST LEAVE FEEDBACK OR BE BLOCKED 💗

the message you need to welcome more love in for the new year

the new year is offering you an opportunity to reset your mindset and open your heart to the love you truly deserve. this is a time for deep reflection and self-awareness—your past experiences in love have shaped you, but they don’t define your future. it’s important to release any lingering doubts, fears, or insecurities that may be keeping you guarded. if you’ve been hesitant to trust or open yourself up again, now is the time to let go of those walls. holding on to fear or control only limits the possibilities for love to enter your life.

to welcome more love in, focus on nurturing yourself first. self-love isn’t just a phrase—it’s the foundation for the kind of connection you desire. when you care for your emotional well-being and honor your feelings, you naturally attract people who align with that energy. this year, practice being gentle with yourself. allow yourself to feel deeply, and don’t shy away from your emotions. love begins with the way you treat yourself, and the more you embrace your inner worth, the more aligned your relationships will be.

this is also a time to be intentional about the kind of love you want. think about what you’ve learned from past connections—what worked, what didn’t, and what you truly value in a partner. don’t settle for anything less than what feels right to you. by setting clear intentions and holding space for the love you desire, you signal to the universe that you’re ready to receive it. as you enter the new year, trust that the right person will come into your life when the timing is aligned, but in the meantime, focus on creating a life that feels full and joyful on your own.

what path leads you to the best love for your life

the path to your best love begins with honesty and alignment. it’s time to reflect on the ways you may have compromised yourself in the past—whether by ignoring your own needs, staying in relationships that didn’t serve you, or holding back parts of yourself out of fear of rejection. the best love for your life will only come when you are fully authentic and unapologetic about who you are and what you need. this requires courage, but it’s the key to building something meaningful and lasting.

this year, take intentional steps toward the future you want. it’s easy to get caught up in waiting for the “right moment” or for love to find you, but the truth is, your actions and energy shape the love you attract. focus on creating a strong foundation for yourself first—whether that’s pursuing personal goals, strengthening your boundaries, or surrounding yourself with people who uplift and inspire you. the best love comes when you’re already grounded in your own life and ready to share that joy with someone else.

your ideal connection will feel stable, supportive, and aligned with your values. it won’t come with unnecessary conflict or drama, but with peace and mutual respect. to get there, you’ll need to let go of any lingering resentment, grudges, or comparisons to the past. love isn’t about perfection; it’s about harmony and growth. by embracing your vulnerability and staying true to what you want, you’ll naturally attract a partner who complements you and shares your vision for the future.

ultimately, the path to your best love is rooted in self-discovery and patience. take the time to honor where you’ve been, but don’t let it hold you back. trust that as you align with your highest self, the love that’s meant for you will align with you too. the universe is already working behind the scenes to bring this connection into your life—your job is simply to stay open, present, and ready to receive it.

#cupid's hour game #tarot #tarot reading #cupid's hour game 14 #erins readings

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twig-tea · 1 year ago

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Love Class 2: A Love Letter

I caught up on the last episodes of Love Class 2 and I felt like I need to give the whole show (both seasons) a rewatch because s2 had so much going on, and my attention definitely suffered in the beginning of S2 from everything else airing at the same time and the proliferation of characters. But I finished the series feeling like something special had just happened, so I wanted to sit with that for a minute and see if I could articulate why. Especially after the disappointment that was the ending of the Minato's Laundromat sequel, I wanted to process my thoughts around what made this one good.

This is not very coherent and very long, mostly because I just wanted to get it down before I got absorbed by other shows again [Spoilers for both seasons follow].

To remind/recap about Love Class 1: The first season focused on Cha Ji Woo and Lee Ro A. Ro A is a returning student who was just released from military service; he lives with Kim Nam Joon who has a crush on him and another roommate. At first, Ji Woo has a crush on Bae Yoo Na, a girl in his class who is being stalked. Her uncle works at the college and so she knows the professor, who is being pursued by one of the other (female) students in the class, Kim Hye Won.

I had forgotten most of this tbh. On rewatch, I remember how much I liked that Yoo Na and Ro A fell for Ji Woo for the same reason, and Ji Woo fell for them for similar reasons too. There is a lot more forced proximity between the leads in S1, with both the class and then the broken arm, which helps because the entire season is so short. There's a resolution with the stalker plot, a nice moment where Ji Woo is honest about how his feelings, and in the penultimate episode, Ro A decides to protect Ji Woo from himself (and homophobia) by rejecting him and disappearing.

Season one ends with a standard separation (that is only kind of earned); an explicit message from the surf shop owner: "If you keep avoiding things out of fear, you'll never experience the good things in life"; and in the last minute we get basically a standard K-drama dead fish kiss (@gabrielokun has done some very kind cropping here so it looks a bit better).

Overall it was ok. Felt very standard at the time, the leads were cute and it was nice that the love rivals Yoo Na and Nam Joon were not treated as villains in the end. The het side plot with the professor felt tacked on. Ji Woo's changing emotions towards Ro A were signposted well but felt fast, and Ro A's fear of ruining Ji Woo's life by turning him gay felt a bit overdramatic and disappearing entirely (including dropping out of class and moving) was a lot. The end left no time at all for them as a couple, so it was very unclear to me whether they'd actually last.

After rewatching S1, I need to give S2 major props for doing the sequel thing right. The show picked up on a lot of the elements of the original while being a completely stand-alone story and not repeating anything in the OG.

Really quick summary of S2 mostly for the names: Lee Hyeon and Min Wu are friends in university together who have known each other since high school. Min Wu has been trying to ignore his crush on their mutual friend Ma Ru (who went straight into the working world and then quit so got kicked out by his parents). Meanwhile Lee Hyeon has been looking for his former tutor Kim An for 2 years; Kim An appears and Lee Hyeon pursues him by joining Love & Marriage class with the help of the TA Sung Min. Sung Min is being pursued by returning student Ju Hyuk after Ju Hyuk sees him in an embarrassing situation with his pants literally down. Shenanigans ensue [many more details recapped below].

Rewatching S1 helped me realize why I liked S2 so much. In season 2, it's like they heard all the complaints and addressed them:

The only heterosexual is there to support the gays; no love rivals here (also PS Sa Ra's character was delightful; I loved the way she knew exactly what to do on those stairs during the fake date!)

All of the couples are gay and get more time overall (the whole series is longer too; 10 instead of 6 eps and some of those eps were over 30 mins each)

All of the couples also have a history together before the show starts, so all have [a varying amount of] feelings before we even begin

And because of the difference in where these couples are starting, everything happens so fast and there is so much more character development

Rather than the love & marriage class being about getting to know someone, because of Lee Hyeon and Kim An's history, the assignments from the class end up being about getting to relearn someone who has changed and you don't know why; bridging barriers and re-establishing intimacy, which was a fun twist

While the first season did a bit of talking about building relationships and forming meaningful connections, it really didn't have time to do much with this and the premise of the "love class" felt barely used. In this season these themes get explored more, with everyone at one point or another needing advice or having to work on their relationship

Of all of the characters, only one didn't know he was gay/bi going into the start of S2

All of the couples express obvious sexual desire and have sex (some before they even date, it's a miracle)

All of the couples have multiple kisses!

Homophobia isn't removed from the world entirely, but it's not a major plot point in this season

None of the couples split up right before the end; the closest is the older couple in ep8 and they reconcile by ep9 [and sidenote: did the professor drop that whatever he lost on purpose so Sung Min would see him with his nephew?!]

They essentially dedicate two episodes to revelling in the happy ending and building out what these characters are like when they are in a relationship, and I love that; no penultimate episode drama

The couples get an entire episode to triple-date and they all just relax being able to be out and comfortable together, it's extremely cute and also heartwarming and a little sad that this is the only place they can feel away from the gay boy scrutiny [this is what I meant by homophobia not being removed entirely from the world, but it's presence is in its absence rather than it being a plot point, and this was refreshing]

The couple that is in the class is out to the class by choice at the end; no more being afraid of rumours the way the original couple were in s1

The stalker plot got darker (it's one thing to stalk someone but to impersonate them at a job that could get you in trouble? Diabolical) and had more clear motivations for his character; also no police were involved in the resolution this time which felt more realistic

Both seasons deal a lot with characters holding in secrets and not communicating; but in s1 the confession from Ji Woo led to Ro A lying to him directly. In contrast, in S2 direct communication is met either with being shut down or with communication back; the other characters sometimes say it's not the time, but never punish the other character for direct communication. And in some cases the direct communication finally helps move them forward/out of misunderstandings. And not directly communicating leads to mess.

In s1 the seniors were bullies and they didn't really face any consequences; in contrast in S2 the boss at the cafe was such a bully and he got harassed into taking a break, realizing he was being horrible, and becoming a better person (and getting a love interest lolol)

In addition to all the things they did differently, there were so many things that echoed or called back to s1! Parallels to the first season:

Sa Ra gets to repeat the moral from the first season: love requires bravery. All of our couples exhibit different levels and kinds of bravery at different times, but all of them at one point or another take that leap and decide to be brave.

The storytelling strategy of flashing back to show us something we hadn't previously seen to recontextualize what we have since been shown was used once in s1 and used in all three couples at the end of every episode of season 2, as well as sometimes mid-episode.

Someone startles/disrupts the Love & Marriage class to ask to be paired with someone of the same sex in both seasons

There is ominous door-knocking in ep2 that ends up being a fake-out but works extra well as creepy because of the knocking by the stalker in s1

There are also similar moments in s1&2 where the "friend" (who is more than a friend but was rejected but still lives/lived with the love interest) stalks and surprises a character to tell them 'truths' about their loved one

The show keeps the feel of s1 in terms of the mix between cute, funny, and sinister (for better or for worse, though I think S2 balances these better)

The relationships in S2 have a lot in common with S1: there are friends who have been friends since high school one of whom is pining and the other rejects him and they agreed to be friends only who live together; rather than a teacher and student there is a returning student and TA; there is a returning student in both seasons; there is one friend out of a trio who is more of a himbo and doesn't go to their school but is still around all the time

Both seasons had a character who seemed to be unaware he was gay/bi until he was put in a position to be forced to realize it, and credit to both seasons, any gay panic was mostly off screen/tied up in figuring out their feelings, and none took place after they told their gay crush

Both seasons touched on how rumours and social isolation can affect you (though the rumours in S2 were not about being gay)

I mentioned it above, but the way the couples relax when they're all in the open and on the trip together was a really touching callback to the first season dealing with the scrutiny of homophobia (whispering, rumours); and the in-class couple showing a photo of them kissing in class is such a huge contrast to s1's couple having a photo of them feeding one another taken and shared without their consent.

Also also in s1 there was a double date near the end of the show so that was also a cute parallel!

While the bullying seniors didn't face consequences in s1, they were interrupted by various people trying to protect their love interests throughout the show. That theme of protecting your love interest from bullying continued to greater effect in S2 and I thought that was really cute!

Cameos of s1 couple and the couple from Private Lessons appeared in s2; it was unclear to me whether the couple from s1 was reprising their roles (though I assume so) but the couple from Private Lessons definitely had the same character names!

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Putting aside comparisons now, the storytelling and characters in S2 are so much more interesting!

Ep1 starts with the mysterious fall from the roof [fake-out #1] and then the scene with Lee Hyeon and Min Wu [fake-out #2] in which they call Ma Ru and establish some of the friend group dynamics and then we get the hint that something else is going on with Lee Hyeon (Min Wu asks if he's given up on looking for someone); and then we get the moment that connects storyline 3 to storylines 1&2 between Kim An and Sung Min. So much tight storytelling in this first ep, I remember on first watch being surprised by how much attention this series was requiring considering s1! I scrolled the tag and saw most people found eps 1&2 confusing, and I can say I definitely found it much easier on rewatch and going in with different expectations.

Ep2 hints at the past we don't yet know between Ju Hyuk and Sung Min (only on rewatch did I realize Ju Hyuk asks Sung Min to eat with him like a normal person and the way he promised he would but Sung Min doesn't remember or realize what's happening, and turns him down kindly, which is why he resorts to being an ass.

Ep 3 we get the first hints Ma Ru knows something is up (being afraid to knock on MinWu's door), the first love & marriage assignments (observing your partner and writing them a letter of what you want to say to them) as well as the underwear gift from Ju Hyuk to Sung Min, and the note at Kim Ann's locker. This episode really starts to build on the theme of intimacy and what intimacy means, when is it appropriate, how do you establish it, and the conflict that arises when people are on different pages about your level of intimacy. Like most have noticed, this is where it really takes off and comes into its own as a good show.

The rest of the show really builds on and plays with these histories, intimacies, and conflicts. They have time to actually hurt one another (eg the slut shaming) and actually make up. Each one moves at a different pace. [Sidenote: have I said enough how happy I am that the older couple slept together before dating?! To be clear I am just as excited when an ace/demi/inexperienced character gets to be ace/demi/explore or come into their sexuality, but I only have so much patience for the blushing maiden trope in adult gay men who have clear sexual attraction and interest especially when they have previous experience, and anything outside of one-partner-in-their-entire-lives is still so rare in BL. And as an aside on this aside, I love how much Ju Hyuk's rizz works at first but then backfires on him later, forcing him to use actual communication after all!] Each couple has a reason for the hesitation or delay in becoming a couple (power dynamics and uncertainty about where you stand; friendship you don't want to lose; being burned before and feeling like you aren't allowed to have anything good in your life). Even more importantly, we get reasons for everything: why Min Wu is growing distant with Ma Ru; why Kim An is more terse and cautious with Lee Hyun; why Ju Hyuk is so weirdly rude to Sung Min. And, as I mentioned above, we actually get a motive for the villain of the story too, Kim An's childhood friend/brother/rejected love/stalker (whose name I keep forgetting even in rewatch lol sorry bro). He thought Kim An was only with him because he was desperate, and so when Kim An started making other connections, he thought he had to ruin Kim An's life. And he thought when he came back into Kim An's life, Kim An would still be desperate, and he'd be able to fit back in. He didn't understand that Kim An had still loved him even if he was no longer interested in a romantic or sexual relationship, and would have kept him in his life if he hadn't been betrayed; he didn't understand that Kim An would be able to rebuild his life without him; he didn't understand that Kim An would not forgive him even though he still cared about him. It really is tragic, and the tragedy is in a lot of ways understated.

Yes it was a bit messy with the three plots going on simultaneously but when binged, and definitely on rewatch, it was easier to follow and I enjoyed how the interaction between the characters moved each of the plots forward. I wonder how much the pacing bothered some viewers because it definitely is not paced like a usual kbl, but that's one of the things I liked about it lol and there were some parts that I enjoyed only on rewatch because I could focus on them.

All of this incoherence is to say: I really like the storytelling in S2 so much more than S1; I think it's one of the better sequel attempts I've seen, in that there are clear connections to the first season but everything is built on rather than recreated; and the stories were also just more interesting. Season 2 delivered on the premise of Season 1 without re-using the same structure, plot points, or story beats. Lots of tropes were repeated but they were always used in a new way and played out differently. The finale felt queer in a way I don't expect from Korean BL. We got some of the things I always say I want more of in any series: more time with folks as a couple working out their relationship post-get-together, clear communication, and queer community. Overall, this show affected me more than I expected. It wasn't perfect execution, but TL;DR, more of this please!

#love class the series #love class 2 #typed so i can stop thinking it #this tag has probably never been more true lol #everyone has moved on but i had to process my emotions with idk how many words this is but lots #thank you for coming to my ted talk #long post #bl meta #Youtube

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danpuff-ao3 · 2 years ago

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Ending Mutuals March on a very special note. PI, @perverse-idyll, my longtime writing crush, and now my friend.

It was love at first sight when The White Road was first posted. I can't remember when I first read it, but it was around the time it was posted for sure. And I've read that fic every year since. At least once a year, if not more. By the time I read When the Rose and the Fire Are One I knew it was true love!

PI's stories have been deeply meaningful to me for a long time. And I have always admired her skill. Prose? Gorgeous, stunning, perfect. With great knowledge and great passion she strings words into gorgeous treasures. Raw stones left to their rough glory, or shaped and shined as needed. Not only a gifted wordsmith, but a wise and empathetic person who understands the human condition, and the complexities of emotion. Someone with great love for beloved characters, but also great understanding. Love born of understanding, which is everything I long for!

We love the same characters, and the same OTP. She does such justice to these characters, and their dynamic. She's always written Snarry exactly how I needed it. I have treasured her works for many years, and they have been my favorites for many years. Of course, in those earlier days I was much too shy to let her know just what her works meant to me.

Then, in recent years, I had my first interaction with PI. On Reddit, of places. I recced one of her fics and she responded to it which blew my mind a bit, since her Reddit name isn't perverse_idyll, lol! So...I tried to be chill, which if you know me, you know how hard that is! Me, but an overenthusiastic fangirl trying not to scare off her faves, haha! If I remember correctly, I finally set about drafting a comment on The White Road not long after that. Long overdue that one!

Then...time went on. During a very rough period with an old fandom group, I turned to PI's works for comfort. And in November 2021, the same month I left that old fandom group, PI's episode on @fanficmaverickpodcast (Ep. 25 interview) was released!

I was over the moon excited to listen to it! But the sort of excited that meant I couldn't dive in right away. I had to run around and squeal a bit and settle myself down in order to listen. It is a long episode, two and a half hours long, but well worth it! The host, ChaosBlue, is a dear friend of mine now, and a very professional and charming host. And perverse_idyll was a fantastic guest, with so much insight and enthusiasm for fandom and for writing. 10/10 recommend it. I ran around and shared the episode everywhere I could.

And then...Reddit. PI shared the episode on Reddit, with encouragement for others to reach out to ChaosBlue to do their own episode. And...I did! God, that's a whole other post in of itself and how amazing ChaosBlue is, but basically...I felt pretty audacious! I had to work myself up quite a bit to reach out. And as hard as it was to reach out, I don't think I'd have found the courage to even think about it without PI's little note. It both inspired and comforted me. And doing my own interview for the podcast was such a great (and terrifying!) experience that I'm glad I did. (See: ep. 32 Interview)

From there...it came over time. PI was so kind and supportive about my interview. I found the bravery to reach out to her directly at some point. And though she is quite the busy lady, she is always so giving of her time and energy in responding when she can! PI is such an encouraging, generous, compassionate, supportive spirit. One I feel very blessed to know. She has so much clear respect and admiration for other creators. So much love and dedication to fandom, however busy or wild life may be.

Other fandom experiences reminded me of why they say to never meet your heroes. But PI spared me from being too wary of folk. PI is an excellent reminder that, sometimes, the creators we admire are even better humans.

PI's works were so meaningful to me for so long. And PI as a person has just as much impact! Thank you for being my friend, PI. Thank you for everything that you do. Thank you for all that you give to fandom; for all that you create, and all the support you give. And thank you most of all for being there for me. And showing such kindness and gentleness in times I needed it most, whether you knew it or not.

Here's to you, my friend. Time for me to wipe my eyes and drop some recs! Maybe by the end we'll have forgotten what an emotional mess I am LOL.

The Afterlight

Harry/Severus. Rated: E. Work in progress. Background case. Mutual pining. Friends with benefits. Denial of feelings. Angst. Hurt/comfort. Eventual happy ending.

Y'all cannot know how thrilled I was when PI posted a new fic. This one! And though it's only just begun, I already feel in my bones it will be a new favorite! PI as ever provides Snarry exactly the way I love it!

After surviving the Battle of Hogwarts, a long convalescence, and a short trial, Snape walks free and promptly vanishes from Wizarding society. Six years pass before he shows his face again. A lot can change in six years, and a romantically disillusioned and inebriated Harry hits Snape up for a friends-with-benefits arrangement. After all, they share an experience most people have never had: they both know what it's like to be dead. Their liaison works surprisingly well until Harry's reckless behaviour as an Auror leads to unethical practices and personal calamities, and things start to fall apart.

Candles Lit Against the Dark

Minerva/Wilhelmina. Minor Harry/Severus. Rated: G. Words: 13,585. Old friends. Postwar. Heavy drinking. Fond bickering. Snapecase 2023.

Many feelings. Very realistic and bittersweet. With all of the realism of life, for all of its rough edges, uneven paths, and the love found along the way.

It's been a few months since Minerva's retirement, and she'd promised Wil a dinner out. Before she knows it, friends start turning up on her doorstep and then at the pub, not least among them a certain spy who came in from the cold.

In Infinite Remorse of Soul | And Mine the Gall

Albus/Severus. Harry/Severus. Revenge. Obsession. D/s undertones. Afterlife. Incest (ish.) Dub-con. Twisted love.

I am obsessed. This is dark and fucky and weird and wonderful and gorgeous. The sequel, And Mine the Gall, features one of the lines that has most haunted out of every fic I've read. Love it love it love it!

Albus Dumbledore never makes the same mistake twice. Certainly not in love.

No Room for the Weak

Eileen POV. Rated: T. Words: 10,444. Dysfunctional family. Mindfuck. Pre-Snarry.

Love love love love love this. Some Snape family history. Eileen is great. Very fascinating look at the woman who bore and raised Severus.

There's a Boy Who Lived and a boy who didn't, and even a mother can't always tell them apart.

The Son

Regulus POV. Rated: T. Words: 5,422. Unhappy families.

First there were two sons. Then there was one.

Warm

Harry/Severus. Rated: E. Words: 11,323. PWP. Fluff & smut.

PWP feels wrong for this. So much sensuality and tenderness and good god the LOVE here. Also, I'm sorry, but Harry and Severus existing as themselves basically is plot, but I digress....PI says it's PWP so it's PWP. I'm not going to argue with her!

Severus still suffers the after-effects of Nagini's venom, especially in winter. Harry knows just how to warm him up.

When the Rose and the Fire Are One

Harry/Severus. Rated: E. Words: 81.619. Confinement. Dysfunctional Relationships. Spinner's End. Dubious consent. Sex magic.

Cool magic stuff. The best OC I've ever met (Odile, my beloved.) Ideas of Spinner's End and Eileen Snape that have lived in my head ever since. Big angst and fuckery. Great characters. Great relationship development. Everything is just...A+, chef's kiss, amazing.

Harry's haunted by guilt. Snape's warded by roses. Each must free the other in order to free himself.

The White Road

Lily POV. Harry/Severus. Rated: E. Words: 47,877. Afterlife. Romance. Redemption. Voyeurism. Incestuous vibes.

Longtime favorite. One of the first fics that fully blew me away. I read this and thought "this does not belong on the internet, this belongs on a bookshelf."

One day, comfortably set up in the afterlife, Lily Evans Potter switches on the telly and gets hooked on the Harry Potter show.

for an explanation about Mutuals March, or to figure out why i wrote you a thing, please check out this post.

#mutuals march #perverse_idyll #i'm not crying you're crying #danpuff's fanstuff #fangirl shenanigans #fandom friends

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saisons-en-enfer · 1 year ago

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Personal mental health masterpost:

Hey, so I’m making this post to give some clarity into my situation for anyone that cares so there is a mutual understanding; especially because I tend to spiral in real-time on tumblr

Preface: I know this is my blog but I don’t want that to be a basis for my deflecting the responsibility of my own mental well being onto others and make people suffer because of it, especially because when I’m down I’m extremely avoidant, self-centred, and may be unintentionally callous (no I’m not just saying that lightly, I’ve been in so many situations on tumblr and IRL that I say something that is extremely insensitive but that wasn’t my intent leading to so many “sha you can’t say no one cares I’m talking to you/sitting here with you how can you say that”) and I need to also own up to that and admit that sometimes my feelings are false and my thought process is jagged

I’ve hurt someone that is really important to me on here multiple times over this and sadly but deservedly they will never be in my life again (though they will always be important to me). I don't want this to be an insincere "I'm sorry I was wrong, please forgive me" but rather to come clean and say that it has happened and I just want to make sure I take actions so that no one who cares about me on here will ever go through the same situation with me; I love the connections I have tumblr beyond words so it's time I act as such

The crux of my dilemma: as I'm sure you all know, I don't desire much to be alive for multiple reasons that I wont get into, and I cant really end my life because I am practically unable to inflict such harm onto other people just because I'm having a hard time. I have exhibited suicidal behaviours irl numerous times but each time I either went through it successfully with coping, asking for help (usually on tumblr), and if worse comes to worst asking to be hospitalized (which happened 6 months ago after I lost my job). It's complicated to talk about so feel free to send asks or DMs if you want to know more, I do exhibit suicidal behaviours on here (by talking or implying how much I don't want to be alive and saying that I'm in unbearable pain, both of which are true) but I seldom think I'm a danger to myself. I would say I have more suicidal ideations (henceforth SI) than behaviours.

I was first diagnosed with depression when I was 21, by 24 I was diagnosed with major depression (clinical) along with GAD, OCD (obsessive in negative thinking), later at 26 with ADHD, and, last year with a mood disorder (yet to be configured, consensus right now is that it is just very unstable mood)

The mood instability is important to highlight because I can pretty much show you days in which my posts go from cheery to mellow throughout the course of a single day.

Tumblr to me is a very personal and emotional scrapbook, when my mood crashes or i get triggered by something, and go on an SI spiral, first thing that happens is that i panic really hard especially because I get caught in the trap of "oh I have to live again tomorrow and experience all of this again and live my life with this mind" and when I'm in that trail of thought, shit goes south real fast and I start having physiological symptoms; I can't breathe properly, I get chills etc. so it's either I sit with those feelings by myself (because I'm not brave enough and trust many people IRL to seek help; something I'm working on) or, I release it onto here as posts. I know it's odd but in my mind having a breakdown in public (similar to my tumblr outbursts) is more helpful in that people either ignore you in which case you will have sense to know that there is none but yourself that can bring you up in which case you pull yourself together and move forward, or people do take notice and show kindness and support and help you fight your way through to see another day. Whatever the case, at least your not weeping alone so to speak. It sounds callous and even attention seeking but i don’t believe it’s inherently wrong, it’s a call for help.

The attention seeking part of it I concede my approach is terrible and I’m such an asshole for constantly firing from the hip with saying shit like “I don’t want to be alive, Im better off dead” and other things of the same ilk no matter how much I mean it and feel the depth of those words so closely. I will be better; when I’m emotional I’m not rational so I don’t do what I always do, step back and think am I approaching this person correctly. My cousin told me “if you’re having a hard time, than don’t say things like that to freak me out… say hey K I’m a bit sad today, I need a hug, I need some love, I need to get out of my head a little”

I'm taking mood stabilizers twice a day, whilst this has been deemed to be enough since I tend to have a strong outward facade and keep composed if my mood falters until I'm alone in my room and my interactions with people irl has been functional, I fear it's not enough and I may have to bring it up even though it means more meds (which btw coincidentally my mother just walked in my room reminding my of my next psychiatrist appointment soon). It's just very hard to bring up my tumblr behaviour up in therapy because as soon as I'm honest about my posting, they will just want to hospitalize me... it's not conceivable in most people's minds that yes I dont wish to be alive but I don't necessarily want to kill myself.

Which brings me to this part regarding my etiquette on tumblr:

All text posts pertaining to my mental health, should it imply SI I will tag as "SI posting"

I will NOT be tagging really sad songs as of now, but I can certainly do that if people would like me to

When I post something concerning you can choose to ignore me altogether if you'd like I will not hold it against anyone or be upset or fall prey to the line of thinking that "no one cares" because I know beyond a doubt that people actually DO care

If you do see such a post and want to help me genuinely, interacting with the post (like or comment or whatever) however small helps me so much and makes me feel so much less alone and gives me strength to push through

You can also start a conversation with me and talk about anything at all that also gets my mind off of things

I promise ill try my hardest to just ask for support instead of just posting extremely concerning text posts

EDIT: im also open and welcome any suggestions people may have on this matter and how I can be better

I keep my promises very seriously and just over a week ago I promised someone I really care about that I will try and be better and I very much intend to do that.

Thank you so much for patience and kindness and just not giving up on me when at times I've given you ample reasons to do so, I love you so much

Much love

#im so fucking sorry i let you down for years I.#you deserved so much better #I will always cherish the kindness compassion and patience you showed to me #even though I was undeserving of it #I wish you the fucking best in the world i really do with my whole heart #and in idle moments I will always take time and send you positive energy in my mind #and i would give everything so that you would truly feel everything you ever wanted in life even if it is for a moment

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