#and knowing I have a backup helps

[teaboot]

Due to a long history of [REDACTED] I have a chronic anxiety of doing something “wrong” and having [INSERT ANY PERSON HERE] get “mad at” me, and in trying to get over it I have developed a calming method that has worked rather well in extreme flareups if you don’t mind appearing a little unhinged

Step 1: Get a scrap of paper

Step 2: Consider the thing you are about to do

Step 3: Write down what you are about to do and why it makes sense

Step 4: Put it in your pocket, tape it under a desk, in your bra, wherever- Somewhere nearby so that it will be there when you need it

Step 5: If someone DOES “get mad at” you, retrieve the note and give it to them

Whether the “angry” person is reasonable or not, you can rest assured in the evidence that your actions made sense and were the best you could do with the information you had at the time.

Also, because it is always very very funny to have a handwritten response to something very specific that a person hasn’t even said yet, you may find your anxiety lightened by the possibility of pulling off an excellent bit, so even if the bad thing DOES happen, you’ll still have something to laugh about later

*I am aware that this is a trauma thing. Yes, my clothes are full of paper. No, I don’t intend to stop. Yes, it has happened. No, they don’t always laugh. Yes, it’s still very funny every time

[daisybell-on-a-carousel]

"Jason was the happy robin" this, "jason was the angry robin" that. Let's all be fully honest here Jason was the lonely robin

[bigcats-birds-and-books]

y'all!! i'm doing it!! i'm reading a charted pattern with NO TEXT BACKUP, and a baby shawl is being born!!

[breadandblankets]

thinking about different ways you can be nocturnal in relation to bats ya know, like you could go to sleep at dawn and wake up mid afternoon or go to be during the afternoon and wake up at dusk etc etc

so ive started classifying bats into morning bats or afternoon bats lmao:

Morning: Alfred, Jason, Steph (school), Cass, Bruce, Damian, Kate

Afternoon: Tim, Dick, Steph (during breaks), Babs, Harper

[c3rnunnos]

Gonna be a downer tonight and say that as much as I love the opportunities to learn and to meet new people that technology has given me, I still hate it more and more the older I get.

This is kinda weird coming from someone that seems to be always on Tumblr, but I really.... Really am coming to hate technology with a passion. Nothing seems to work. Everything has to update or else. You could be using your computer in the way that you always did and suddenly boom, your antivirus decides a problem is happening even though you didn't do anything. Corporations steal my information and I have to always be connected. "oh we don't use that app for videocalling, can you download this one?" "oooh we need you to sign up for this, or else we will deny you service!" "oooh there are sudden damaged files in your pc, make a scan to fix it!" how about I cry instead.

I am becoming increasingly technophobic, yet I rely on technology to keep in contact with loved ones and do my hobbies, and I just wish i could stop, or that all of this continuous updating could stop and tech companies would finally optimize their damn products instead of releasing wildly unoptimized and vulnerable shit into the world. I am currently so full of rage and anxiety because my pc gave me and alert and I will not be able to sleep tonight. Thank fuck my dad is there to check things with me and hold my hand as I scan stuff, and I dread the day when he will be gone and I won't have his calming presence beside me as I do yet another scan or try to download a program.

This is depressing, and anxiety inducing, and I'm so done with technology and cannot let go of it. What the fuck.

[buttercup-barf]

Under the cut are mostly self-insert doodles of decreasing quality. Again, not much directly tied to Team Fortress 2. Might as well toss these out while I have no access to my puter. Much yapping under the cut and in the tags incoming.

Another self-insert, this time less of a "here's me as a tenth class" and more of a "here's my game experiences translated into the class I would take the place of". The Cleaner. Although I guess they could still be wearing either suit. It doesn't matter that much.

That one Convict's Case taunt with Backup would be extremely funny, because the man would be on the verge of a breakdown (he does not want to go to jail so bad you have no idea). The second image- I owe no explanation. You know what I am. You see the pattern with my favourites.

The duality of the man. Resting face versus "just heard you express interest in religion/Russian folklore" face. He's not that hard to make friends with, when you pull him away from all the explosions.

Some doodles of trying to figure his face out. Unfortunately, the more I stare at him, the more I worry that he looks like A Certain Guy With The Last Name "Kazarin", and the fear of never being original in my life caught up to me.

Don't look at me, don't perceive me, I refuse to explain any of my actions to you.

[treely-ruly]

It's so hot at the moment, and I woke up in the dark morning to someone screaming outside our house??

I ended up going to ask if she was ok, and then got her a glass of water and some food. She thanked me and told me not to help people and also to watch out for aliens and reptiles and hospitals

Idk maybe it's foolish to be getting out of bed and talking to randoms in the middle of the night, but I like... Watched her for a bit from my doorway to see if she seemed violent, but all she was doing was trying to light a toy dog on fire with a lighter, and like... It must be fucking awful to be out overnight in this weather. She poured half of the water on her head and then gave back the glass and I went back to bed

[obstinaterixatrix]

(this is fine bc neither friend is on tmblr) was trying to get together with a friend who can have a little social anxiety and a friend who’s chill with whatever, and also, am sick of my friends being behind on severance, and also, never compromise never surrender, (and also light social anxiety friend tends to be a bit flakey) (usually because of extenuating circumstances but I’m probably gonna wait like a month before trying to make any plans so I can have a cooldown period) (listen. things happen plans get cancelled And Also we haven’t seen each other in like half a year and every plan I’ve made so far has been delayed/rescheduled/cancelled on her end) (so I’m gonna need some time before I’m willing to, once again, Take The Active Role, again, without reciprocation) but anyway I had it planned out for IF everything went according to plan I’d have the severance watch group come over sat morning and kick them out at 3, IF lightly socially anxious friend cancelled but chill with whatever friend came then tell the chill friend she can come early and kick no one out, IF both friends cancelled then it’s just gonna be a severance day, option 2 happened

[transsexula]

Every year for the month of October I make a movie calander- one horror movie a day, every day, for the entire month. My problem now, is that after three years of doing this- I'm starting to..... well, run out isn't the right way to put it... but it's starting to feel like I've seen most of the big hitters.

So the question I'm throwing out there is:

Fans of horror, what movies would you reccomend for this year's October watch?

I'm looking for anything and everything. I will watch silent black and white films. I read subtitles and I'm not opposed to hunting down a niche foreign horror/thriller. PLEASE DO NOT GIVE SPOILERS I would like to go into the movies blind (trigger warnings are very welcome, though)

[illfoandillfie]

The results are in! Countdown to Christmas won by a single vote! I'm hoping to get a fair bit written this week with the way my work will be (thank the lord for staff week) At the end of the week I'll do a lil check in about where I'm at and give you an idea of when things should start dropping.

[nobodybetterlookatme]

Mad at my professor again lmao

[rubberduckyrye]

Getting my playlists sorted for the big Move to....... my iphone......

Ick!!!

[sysig]

I’ll be fine, I just have to get it all out of my system (Patreon)

[shdwtouch]

nothing quite like the rush of confidence and empowerment you feel when paying all your bills for the month, maxing out those adult responsibility points, quickly followed by the gut-deep anxiety as you check your bank account to make sure the payments came out and watch the $$$ disappear

[autism-corner]

guy is bleaching his hair and so so scared

[edenwolfie]

I am going to FUCKING SET MY COMPUTER ON FIRE FUCKING HELL