#and just idk i spent a lot of time on my twitter account!

[ofmdee]

god i'd love to consolidate my social media accounts but the problem is:

twitter: +supports gifs up to 15mb, +allows nsfw, -but it sucks there

tumblr: +supports gifs up to 10mb, -no nsfw allowed, +better vibes than twitter

bluesky: +great vibes, +allows nsfw, but -no gif support

😔

[longagoitwastuesday]

This is the piece (and the sketch) I was talking about yesterday in the tags of that one other drawing in my previous reblog

[tinystepsforward]

What do you think the chances are that Mud Pit is gonna be ousted by the people who need Automattic to have good will in the eyes of the community to actually get anything out of this site and wattpad

I know it’s probably low but the fact that he’s acting like a poorer Elon Musk is making my skin crawl and making me hope that a second lawsuit hits the company

ok here's the thing. he is meant to be on sabbatical. automattic gives employees a three-month paid sabbatical every 5 years, so that they can have a break from the product they work on and come back rested and with a new perspective.

matt has never taken one before now. he spent the entire leadup to his sabbatical posting increasingly wild shit in public channels at the company (like the chess thing, or trying to get people to buy a friend's product, or the entire fracas with taking over the wordpress.org twitter account. wordpress.org is an independent non-profit that he is not the ceo of).

i mention this because people were hoping (including me) that he really would actually log off, have a chill time (or, idk, whatever kind of time CEOs who go off the grid bc they got flooded in at burning man like to have), and let the interim CEO get a chance to do a better job. that would help the board make a decision based on data.

he was very clearly spiraling before he even left, and then within the first few days of Company Sanctioned Log Off Time he's pulled multiple Classic Matt things on multiple parts of the company before showing up here. this whole thing is so deeply unfunny but it also is a bit of a tom and jerry or looney tunes bit, where i can only imagine HR or Legal is chasing him around the various accounts/platforms with a comically large inflatable baseball bat and he's just evading them.

he can't do that in person, but he still gets a lot of leeway generally. at the last division meetup (irl meeting for employees, flown from all over the world) he showed up twitchy and exhausted and hyped in a way that was very familiar to me from flatmates who used to steal and snort my adhd medication, then proceeded to drink so much over the course of an evening answering questions from his employees that he had to be firmly babysat off the stage and walked back into the lobby of the hotel to sober up.

i made eye contact with him that night, before he dropped his head back into his hands. two people relatively high up in the company were sitting with him, silently watching him as he struggled to sober up. it wasn't the first drunk shenanigan of his i witnessed at one of these, and this is purely opinion but i have to assume that his current behavior is the result of suddenly having time on his hands to have the world's longest bender and post through it.

back to your question: i do not know if what he's done is enough to get the board to remove him. i wish it didn't have to come to this to hope that they will. but we'll find out.

[sl-ut]

even more streamer!ellie hcs

part one | part two

ellie is not at all embarrassed to admit that a large portion of her own fame was largely due to her connection to y/n

like ofc she was already fairly popular on twitch but its not like the average person who didn't watch streams would recognize her

she ends up making a new priv instagram bc she gains like 50k new followers in a month

she only has like maybe 100 followers on the new one and basically just posts random photo dumps, family photos, and especially the literal cutest and/or horrendous photos of her gf

posts a LOT on her ig stories on both accounts

her main pfp is deffffff some screenshot that she took of their happy little sim family or like their little minecraft guys standing side by side lol

ik i said before that she loves playing like the sims w her gf on stream, but she also LOVES playing roblox together

starting drama in dress to impress, causing havoc in bloxburg, making friends and enemies galore in tdi

her avatar is definitely so dumb like its probably the hamster or squirrel or like the most basic ass starter avatar with a shirt that has her gfs face on it

and her username is def like "y/nstan420" or something

when she's streaming alone she's more focused and serious (but still her silly little self) but when she's with others, esppppp if her gf is on with her, she defffff gives weston koury vibes like im actually giggling at this so hard

they both make tiktoks of each other

y/n once did the "watch my gf for me" trend and she came back to find ellie holding the phone and ranting about something so random like she was probably explaining her favourite theory about how the dinosaurs went extinct or something about planets and space idek

ellie doesn't really follow trends as often, instead just posting videos of her scaring her gf or pranking her or maybe even like mukbangs or something

loves to post fit checks before they go out to do literally anything

also likes to lipsync to dirty audios

the video always ends as she's about to get smacked upside the head

idk if i ever actually gave much backstory???? but here we go anyways lol

i think we've established that y/n is an up-and-coming actress

they met through a friend of dina's, who was a costume designer on the set of y/n's first big film

dina visited her friend on set on the last day of filming and she ended up getting an invite to the cast/crew party that night

jesse was tooooo busy to hang out with his bombshell gf ig???? so ellie got to go with her

she already knew who y/n was since she was starting to gain popularity and was immediately adopted by lesbian twitter

she was so nervous when she clocked her on the other side of the room

spent the whole night shuffling around the room to gain the courage to go talk to her

also spent all of that time trying to come off like the coolest chillest most confident masc ever like she wasn't constantly wiping the sweat from her palms lmaoooo

she finally was forced to lay on the moves when y/n came over to join in on the convo with her castmates

ellie made her laugh and vice versa

she shocked herself when she offered to grab another drink from the kitchen "for the pretty lady"

she immediately considered throwing herself off of the impossibly high deck

was even more shocked when the girl only laughed and hopped up to join her, fingers curling into her bicep

she totally wasn't flexing the whole time

dina was wandering around looking for her, way too drunk to be there much later considering that it was almost 2 am and had to work a ten hour shift tmr :(((

she didn't have much luck bc she never thought to check the upstairs guest bathroom

ellie constantly be fighting them uhaul lesbian rumours

but she actually was ready to upheave her entire life to follow y/n around the world

reposts any and all posts of her gf on her story

adds little hearts and stars and little taglines that earn her a scolding

like that one time she wore a tight-fitting corset on the red carpet that had the girls lifted to the heavens

she captioned it "i <3 my gf('s boobs)"

fights with haters in her gf's comment section

wears her gf's merch

omg the way she SCRUMPT when she saw the paparazzi pic of her girl wearing ellie's merch out on a random thursday

they hadn't even made it official yet

flirts with her gf in random comment sections lol

like y/n comments on dina's selfie and ellie is instantly replying to her

"u come here often?"

they have def been caught in compromising positions soooo many times

like by their friends, cast and crew members on set, y/n's manager, even the paps

ellie felt so boss when tmz posted a pic of her pressing her gf against the wall outside of the club they'd gone to on ellie's bday

els had her tongue down her gfs throat and both of her hands jammed up the front of her top, very clearly grasping and squeezing her breasts

they got a stern talking to from y/n's pr team but ellie actually didn't care

she def has phantom dick disorder in literally all aspects of her life

lets not forget that this version of ellie does not have experience in fighting and has not lived through an apocalypse so she's contextually less tough than normal ellie

but that doesn't stop her from mouthing off to assholes three times her size

don't get me wrong, she can hold her own and still works out on occasion, but she fr looks like a chihuahua barking at pitbulls when she gets yapping

speaking of, stoned!ellie absolutely loves when her gf be yapping

i love the dynamic of ellie doing a chat stream w her gf where ellie's got her in her lap, leaning back with droopy eyes and a dopey smile, still giving her gf all of her attention while her gf ends up being more of a "alert and yappy" stoned and is rambling about strangely philosophical topics and answering questions in chat

ellie is just sitting there just giggling and when her gf turns to her she just goes "ur so smart baby" and "u look so pretty rn"

omg omg omg i luv this pairing im never gonna stop writing them like

bonus: this is the vibe of the ck campaign i mentioned in the last part

[queertwilight]

Under threat from my sister @awkwardlysarah I have been forced to return to this hellsite in the middle of a delirious long day to post what she has informed me is the best idea she has ever had. please share and show her some love so that she thinks i’m a cool older sister and not just a tired grad student with a nostalgic affection for this series. Seriously she’s really excited about this post and I love her so make her happy or else :) Without further ado:

The Cullens as Different K-Pop Fans

Disclaimer: this is all my @awkwardlysarah head canons not my sister’s @queertwilight. I decided to combine my love for K-pop with my sister’s love for twilight. My qualifications are that I’ve been listening to K-pop for 6 years, so I kinda know a lot. Also no hate to any of the artists mentioned, you can have your own opinions and I’ll have mine. Silly little post enjoy!

Edward:

-exclusively listens to K-drama OST’s

-mainly for the instrumental and piano

-listens to the Best KDRAMA OST: of all time playlist and ranks them by instrumental

-secretly does watch K-dramas but claims its to help “appreciate” the music, has cried to almost every drama he’s seen

-Does not understand the appeal of K-Pop groups, prefers what he believes to be the classics

-Though, Alice once showed him RM’s album Mono and is now his biggest fan

-“No, you don’t understand guys if I met Namjoon we would get along perfectly. We could go on a museum date together and talk about life.”

-Loves RM’s newest release Indigo and locked himself in his room to reflect on the lyrics in the album.

-He too, mourns the loss (of what would have been) his 20’s

Rosalie:

-she is such a baddie with her K-pop taste

-mainly a 2nd gen girl group stan, but dips her toes in 4th gen (mainly AESPA) because Emmett showed her a couple groups

-also loves soloists-mainly IU and BIBI and DPR

-BIGGEST 2NE1 and 4minute stan there is (prays on YG and Cube’s downfall)

-if the songs are about being bad bitches then Rosalie is listening to them

-she can low key body any rap by CL

-has her more mellow moments when listening to Girl’s Generation and IU

-overall supports her girlies

-will fight trolls online that try to discredit any of the girls’ careers (

-has made multiple accounts deactivate because she proved them so wrong they could not show their faces online again

Emmett:

-OH BOY

-when Emmett discovered K-pop it was like opening up a portal that could no longer be closed

-he had casually stanned 3rd gen groups (since Alice listened to them)

-but then he found LOONA and other girl groups

-Rosalie low key curses this day btw

-became the biggest Orbit and Chuu stan

-“Emmett we have to go save Bella, she’s in danger.”

“Idk, maybe if she stanned LOONA this wouldn’t have happened.”

-is a photo card collector (Rosalie put a stop to this after he spent 3K on a Chuu broadcast photo card and getting scammed trying to buy other pcs)

-when I tell you he was so devastated that Chuu was kicked out of LOONA

-he didn’t have the strength to go hunting for DAYS

-helped boycott BlockBerry Creative #freeLOONA

-he does also dabble in boy groups; mainly Enhypen because he thinks they are actual vampires. (No one tell him it is just a concept it would break his heart, he streamed Bite Me for days because he felt SO seen).

Alice:

-MY MULTISTAN QUEEN!!!

-she knows everything about every group (obvi) and knows which groups are unproblematic

-runs an undercover KPOPpredictions twitter account where all her visions go

-Loves groups mainly for lore/storyline purposes

-like TXT, BTS, ENHYPEN, ATEEZ, EXO, etc. she LOVES a good storyline

-does theories on her main stan blogs about what she believes the MVs mean for the overall story

-always has people commenting on her theories about how right she is.

-is also a K-pop dance/lifestlye influencer

-give her 10 minutes and she WILL know the entire dance-will upload and edit it almost instantly

-has been featured in KCON dream stages and has been able to dance alongside some of her fav groups

-love planning her outfits for concerts and giving people inspiration on her social media platforms

“You need help coming up with vampire themed outfits for Enhypen’s upcoming concert, say no more I’ve got just the looks for you!”

Jasper:

-some of y’all may be a bit mad about this one…

-he’s the problematic K-pop stan

-like his playlist is CONTROVERSIAL

-liked sticker when it first released (believed the flute is what tied it together)

-low key a Jay Park stan on main

-…and a super junior apologist

(what did you expect he literally was a confederate solider)

-If a group has a cowboy concept he will be all over it tho, “takes me back to my roots.”

-will start shit online because he knows in the end he can control their emotions

-loves those unpopular k-pop opinion videos

-Alice does try to get him away from the problematic side of K-pop and it does kinda work, but like quitting human blood it takes him some time

-not a big stan, he’s kinda in it for the drama and to be an instigator

[ihatedean]

ik i share tiktok screenshots and whatever but like if 90% of your presence in fandom is just laughing at and criticizing people earnestly enjoying something literally what even is the point of you being in that fandom. when are you having some healthy fun and not making both yours and everyone else's experience miserable. especially Yours!! i used to scroll on anti twitter accounts to point and laugh at How Dumb they were and how They Don't Get It and that's time i could have spent doing something productive. like enjoying my friends' art and sharing some love to them or creating something. or literally just focusing on work and studying lmao

it just sucks. especially in places like these where we're already being treated like shit and blocked by everyone. why are you trying to alienate people even more just because they don't have time to read 20k words on why their interpretations of a ship or the media itself are Wrong and yours are Right— which, by the way, why would anyone want that ever. some people headcanon stuff and make their AUs and they might not make sense to how you view canon, but if they put the effort to write it or make fanart or collages or edits it clearly means something to them and they wanna share it and it costs nothing to let people play with their dolls, even if you're screaming on the inside at how ridiculous you think their point of view is. don't treat them like they're less than you because you're both here Caring.

idk i get it and ive done it A LOT to side-eye someone who has me blocked and says something i don't agree with or literally insults what i like and i share screenshots of tiktok comments that make me roll my eyes, but why hate on someone on this same space who literally WILL see it just because they differ from you in the tags. am i insane for thinking this? do i just not get this fandom and should be throwing tomatoes at my friends for seeing the show differently? like seriously, is that where the fun is?

i guess im used to smaller fandoms where everyone knows each other, and that does build a different vibe compared to here. you don't really mind that they have different perspectives because at least you agree in Something, whether it was shipping the same characters or viewing the show in a different way than the rest of the fandom. like you really hold on to that and eventually get over their weird headcanons. but maybe those differences matter here a lot more, and again, i might just not built for this lmao

im talking mostly about ship stuff but my god sometimes people here love to feel smarter for turning the same dialogue or subject in their heads over and over so that they open their Third Eye or something. of course people might not agree with you they literally watched the show once why would they care about the Subtext and the Layers.

(and i don't mean people who just analyze the show and have their own fun by doing that i mean the "you're stupid for not getting This" people)

[3416]

hi again my favourite mitch scholar! i have a quick question. what line did mitch used to play on in his drbut year? and the few years after and how did the progression to him getting to play on auston’s wing looked like? thanks :)

hi there! disclaimer: i wasn't a fan way back when and it's actually pretty hard to find the lineups before about 2019, but from the couple things i've looked up here... this is the lineup from january 1st, 2017, which is about halfway through his first season.

he spent a lot of time playing with jvr and bozak if what i've read/remember is right. his average toi during 16-17 was a little under 17 minutes, and he was fairly productive, esp as a rookie.

for the 17-18, here's a few lineups i could find.

still playing quite a bit with jvr and bozak, and sometimes getting elevated (or demoted) but babcock really hated playing him with auston like...... ever, lol. even when things went stale, like they never played on the same line. you can go through @1634archive for things back from 2016/2017/2018 and see where they got to be on ice for goals at the same time whether they were out there for a shift or a powerplay, but there's not a TON that aren't warmups bc they rlly didn't play together much despite wanting to. you can also look through this thread i made on twitter about all of the goals they've combined on.. though there are zero their first year in the league bc they legitimately were never out there together.

it seems like the first time they were actually put on a line together on purpose was late january 2019 bc the lineup had gone THAT stale that babcock caved, lol. here's snippets of auston and babcock media availability about them getting to play together.. and also here's a radio interview (@3:30ish) auston did around that time too where he says he liked that he was put on a line with mitch and reiterates that he played w him virtually never at 5v5 the first 2.5 years.

the fact that auston even makes a comment about how much babcock doesn't like it is just so...... telling to me, lol. either babcock hated the fact that auston had a preference or opinions about the lineup and was sticking it to him by never giving him what he wanted or... he hated mitch or both or SOMETHING. they clearly had problems... p sure there are even reports babcock literally flew to arizona to smooth things over with him at some point... babcock was a really stubborn and hardass coach who thought a lot of demented shit so lol ANYWYA.

even after that first time they were allowed to play together.. mitch finished out the 18-19 year on jt's wing and started the 19-20 year on it too.

babcock was fired 23 games into the 19-20 season after they went 9-10-4 and were on a 5 game losing streak. here's an article about it. it only came out later about the making a rookie mitch rank his teammates list but just validated the firing even more.

and here we are into january of 2020 after sheldon keefe takes over and mitch gets back from an injury, lol. he immediately was willing to give them a shot and ever since, it's been something that's always on the table when lines need a shakeup.

there are a lot of conclusions you can come to with all this information i feel like, but i hope it was helpful!! this is why it drives me nuts when people act like mike babcock was valid to "keep them apart" aka literally never play them together for years no matter how stale and bad the lineup got like... it got his ass fired, lol. no it was not a valid way to be with two exceptional players. i'm not saying a coach should just listen to their players wishes 24/7, but the inability to accept feedback or take into account preferences is wild and will get you nowhere. i wasn't around for all that, but knowing what we all know about mike babcock now.... idk, i appreciate sheldon keefe's ability to adapt more. people can think what they want about him relying on parts of his lineup as "crutches" but realistically, we don't know about his relationships with the players and 1634 are consistently the best and most dangerous part of the lineup year after year these days.

mitch and auston put up career numbers playing next to each other, and both of them know it and have wanted it since they developed their little warmup routine as literal rookies, and they're hopefully gonna get to play together for a long long time like elliotte said. :)

[pbpsbff]

20 Questions (for fanfic writers)

got tagged by @fieldsofview :)) (and probably someone else. i have a draft of this from november. oops.)

1. how many works do you have on ao3? 47 as of yesterday:)

2. what's your total ao3 word count? 190,927

3. what fandoms do you write for? i've bounced around a lot of fandoms since i was like, 10, but since august 2022 i've been strictly writing for mcu spider-man (technically more leaning toward irondad, but. u know). with this in mind however, i have a couple 9-1-1 wips and am about one bad day away from writing big time rush fanfiction

4. top five fics by kudos: Peter Parker's Guide to: Texting, Twitter, and Tony Stark (2,110 kudos)

Everything's Coming Up Potatoes (439 kudos)

Is That a Potato in Your Pants, or Are You Just Happy to See Me? (422 kudos)

If You Give a Guy a Potato, He's Going to Ask You on a Date (401 kudos)

be mean to me (if you need to be mean) (331 kudos)

5. do you respond to comments?

...

i try my best. i genuinely have no idea how it's gotten this bad (if i ignore your comment please don't take it personally—i forgor)

6. what is your fic you wrote with the angstiest ending? oh god i don't have anything w/ a sad ending posted LOL i'm too much of a sucker for a happy ending. (i do have mcd in my drafts tho!!!)

maybe 15. There It Is Again, That Funny Feeling? It's more of a hopeful ending, but considering the context of the story entirely, it's pretty sad.

7. what's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending? every single fic in the series All's Fair in Love and Potatoes. this series is my happy place amongst all the death and despair on my account

8. do you get hate on fics? besides the hate i receive from sapoteylx? no

9. do you write smut i do! it'll never see the light of day but i do!

10. craziest crossover: i hate crossovers sorry guys. on my old ao3 tho i wrote a heathers au hamilton fic and that's probably the closest i'll ever get to one (unless we're counting r&r? since it's technically twd universe?) also this one time (i was 11. keep this in mind) i read a fic that was tagged jacob sartorius/bob duncan and i think about it daily

11. have you ever had a fic stolen? i hope not???

12. have you ever had a fic translated? NO but that would be so cool. i have some regular commenters that tend to comment in spanish and i'm always wondering if it would be easier for them if i had it translated but i only speak engish. idk fic translators are gods gift to writers i fear

13. have you ever co-written a fic before? i cowrote a hamilton chatfic in 2018. next question

14. all time favorite ship? every peter parker ship ever (excluding all the minor/adult ones). big sambucky and pepperony fan too tho

15. what's a wip you want to finish but doubt you ever will? i have this wip that's like, peter agrees to go undercover for a mission because they need info from some big bad guy and peter is obviously the least recognizable of the bunch, but he gets kidnapped and all that good stuff. idk if i'll ever get around to finish it, because it's like 9 planned chapters and that is SO ambitious for me.

also my cellist!peter au? i've been trying to write it but the words haven't come to me idk

16. what are your writing strengths? ooooo i think i'm good at realistic dialogue and character dynamics—i have spent hours of my life on fandomwiki looking at different character's quotes and watching videos of their interaction with other characters because that's something so important to me.

i think i'm good at balancing angst and humor too?? idk the walking dead really shaped my writing style because u can have a silly scene and then 2 seconds later someone is dead on the floor. hope to carry that vibe through everything i do.

17. what are your writing weaknesses? i am so bad at describing settings and character actions. i can always see the scene in my mind but on paper it turns into they are at a house. peter sits down in the chair, and is sad. and it gets to a point where i just give up on trying to fix it

18. thoughts on dialogue in another language? ough if i ever write dialogue in another language i'll be consulting someone who speaks said language (which is what i actually have done!!!! i have a fic coming out soon w a spanish title and i asked aster-argent for help:)). or doing the thing people do where they just put the text in italics and write ," he said in spanish or some shit.

idk for the most part i stay away from it (ignoring the throwaway, casada harley joke i make in my parkner series) because at the end of the day i am a white girl who learned how to count to 10 in spanish because of dora and took 3 years of german.

19. first fandom you wrote in? ok so. i was 11 and on quotev, writing a chatfic about the bands twenty one pilots, panic at the disco, my chemical romance, and fall out boy. the fic is still up and it makes me nauseous to think about

i think technically i had an ldshadowlady fic out on wattpad before that but it was a blatant ripoff of another fic so. i don't count it

20. favorite fic you've written? i think this answer changes every day, and will change when i get my next group of fics out, but as of right now—

i'll put down my roots when i'm dead i'm just so proud of it idk. first time i've ever really met a deadline and probably the most passionate i'd been about getting a fic out since r&r began? i just love the whole thing.

Is Close the Closest Star? this one is definitely a tie with the several other angst oneshots i put out around the same time, but idk something about this fic is so special to me. it's like 6 months old and i know my writing's improved since then, but i'll always go back and reread

okok last one sorry ur making me pick my favorite child. Unrotting Your Insides, Unrooting Your Limbs i am such a sucker for recovery fics sorry. i've written several fics about bulimia but this is my fav because it's just. so soft.

tags

oh god i don't have enough writer friends uhhh @norahdevore. if u have not done this already. i am holding a gun to your head and making you do this (and anyone else reading this. please guys)

[deustux]

Okay so I need to get this off my chest but I have a massive issue with people making accounts to shit on others for critism. Like just an account dedicated to being an anti to someone for stupid reasons. The ONLY reason you should need to make an anti account is for someone who is genuinely causing harm and doing harmful shit to people.

Example being Jk Rowling. She has created a very bad environment for trans people and keeps spouting harmful and dangerous shit about them which is making the trans community more indangered as she is fear mongering. And is talking utter BS about them creating a terrible narrative of trans people to people who don't know about the community or already have a bad opinion of them. That's a good reason to make an account exposing the terrible lies and harmful narrative She's created.

BUT creating an entire account to hate on someone like idk Vizziepop is just pathetic. You can call out the stupid things she has said and done in the past but to make an entire account on her and taking every little thing she has said and done is just horrible especially when the male Co writer has said a lot worse. (Seriously I love Brandon Rodgers but just hating on vizziepop for the things she's done when he has more offensive content on YouTube vs Vizzie who posted on twitter where its harder to find her tweets than Brandon's very public and very famous channel is so weird.)

Jacksfilms did a good example of this since with his channel he made VALID criticism of sssniperwolf without bringing in any of her old drama to prove that he's not out for blood or to cause issues but to show her what she's doing wrong. He makes videos to give credit to the creators she's stolen from and even gives criticism on her editing. He never is rude about her looks and he never insults her personally but just critise her work.

Ofc making an anti account of Ssniperwolf would be good as she's done horrible Shit. Such as lying about someone being a sex offender cause he critised her work, ignoring a dying fan when she promised the mother to facetime her but kept making excuse but happily spent an hour on twitter defending her self when that time could of been used on the child.

She made children twerk for her on omegle saying she'd show them her tits if she did, she also got a teen girl to show her tits to her. Been transphobic and sexist to other women. Happily put down women for their looks. She's been arrested for assault and armed robbery (You can find her criminal record as proof I'll put it down here when I find it.) And much more.

TLDR: stop making anti accounts for stupid drama and critism. Only make anti accounts for people who are actually harming people and communities such as: Jk Rowling, Andrew Tate, Sneako and Sssniperwolf.

[theradiojunkie]

I feel like we all know that there are a lot of people in the world and the small group in comparison we get to call our friends or even just aqaintences is crazy luck. Like out of idk- 8 BILLION people I got to meet you. But let me put it into a perspective of time, because I feel like time spent is something that I've found easier to conseptualize?

Say you have like 5 close friends yeah? 5 people that you know, it would only take less than a week to spend just a day with each one yeah? Easy? Now thinking of aqaintences, or lovely mutuals you have maybe, close family members, friends you rarely talk to, but you love all the same. Say you know like 70 of them? It would take over 2 months to spend just one day with all of them. Think about that, spending 2 while months with a different person every day-

Which now this paragraph I'm trailing off, but its crazy that the average follow count for a stan account on say twitter is like 300, and thats on the "small" side which is insane bc that's so many people! Why do people think that's a small number? Thats almost a whole year full of people! It would take years to have one day dedicated to each one of mutuals on twitter. Which slightly saddens me, but this is supposed to be a positive post-

Anyways back to the point- there is NO WAY to spend just a day with everyone on earth. That would take like 22,000,000 YEARS. Thats a whole lot of people! The point is that the chances we have of meeting that friend we cherish so much is low and awesome like, I could have met anyone else, I could have spent my days with anyone else, but it was you. And thats so awesome!!! Like I love my besties!

[theeeveetamer]

Yesss Omg im glad im not the only one whose kinda left out of fandom cause of Twitter.

Like I can't handle twt at all. I've never really been on it. I made an account cause all the artists are there and then never touched it again.

It's just overwhelming. Maybe I just need to acclimate to it ? I dont know... but now Elon musk has taken over so what's the point?

Sadly FE feels pretty dead cause I'm only on tumblr lol

🤝

Don't worry anon, I'll still be here on Tumblr even if no one else is. Unless, IDK, Mastodon develops a real obvious fandom presence and Tumblr goes down in a blazing dumpster fire of glory. I do think there's less content here for 3H than there was during FE Fates, but also we're in the lull between games right now so there's not a lot going on with FE anyway (beyond teaser stuff, which I imagine a lot of people are ignoring so as to not be spoiled)

I'm sure that if I were forced to I could, eventually, find a way to make Twitter work for me, but other than fan art being over there I really don't think the platform would work for what I like to do. I generally love creating long, involved HCs and stories, which is really hard to do with less than 250 characters. And the experience is greatly diminished when I can't bounce the ideas back and forth with other interested parties. Like, one of my favorite 3H experiences was when me and a then rando (now mutual) spent like two days riffing a Lambert/Rodrigue fic back and forth

Also, the only time one of my tweets "blew up" it caught the attention of a group of Literal Nazi furries, and that was weird for me. I would have preferred if that never happened. I had to block a lot of people that day. With Elon Musk now in charge I imagine I'll be in a lot more Nazi Furry situations so you know what, I'll pass

[dreamingalto]

Why can't the gayest be the best?

Alright one of the things we dont have in these notes quite yet for either side is an essay/propaganda as to why the ship should be considered "The Best RPF" Here is some quick Phan History propaganda for those stumbling upon this who are only vaguely aware of Dan and Phil and why they might qualify for the best ship. (Subjectively in my opinion, it also depends on your definition of 'Best')

So to start, Phil has had his Youtube channel since 2006. By 2009, he has a pretty decent online following on Youtube and other online platforms such as MySpace and Dailybooth.

Dan has had a Youtube account and has been online browsing forums and watching Youtube videos for years. Idk when he stumbled on Phil's videos, but he became quite a fan of Phil's videos to the point where he left comments on lots of his videos and also started tweeting at Phil after making his Twitter account around May 2009.

At somepoint, Phil replied to Dan on Twitter and sometime in summer of 2009, they started directly talking to each other. With mutual music and nerdy interests such as Final Fantasy, they hit it off pretty quickly and started interacting more and even started Skyping each other for hours at a time. As Dan quotes in Basically I'm Gay (2019), "Its so lucky to just find someone you can be that compatible with..."

Within these months of communicating online, Phil helped encourage Dan to actually create and post his first Youtube video, something he had been wanting to do for a while but just didn't. Phil supported and helped Dan kick off his channel and Youtube career publically by promoting his videos and sending his already built following over to check out Dan's videos which gave his subscriber count a bit of a boost that most people didn't have.

On October 19th, 2009, Dan and Phil met in person for the first time. This initial trip was also the trip where the two filmed the very first Phil Is Not On Fire, a video that is now sitting at just shy of 9 Million views as of today.

As to not lengthen this and going into too much of the nitty gritty, following this inital trip the two constantly made trips to visit each other after that, all the way up until Dan officially moved to Manchester (where Phil was living at the time) for University and unofficially moved in with him. In the 2022 AmazingPhil video, Dan is leaving me, they actually revealed that since they first met in person in 2009 up until Dan's solo tour in 2022, they have only spent at most two and a half weeks physically apart. Which, personal note from someone who had an almost decade long relationship that I only this year properly moved in with that started as an online relationship, honestly fuck them for that. Like yeah we get it you two couldn't stand not being in the same physical place as one another and made sure you were in the same place as one another as much as possible for like 13 years alright.

Anyways, beyond the fact that they ended up being compatible with each other and decided they wanted to be physically together as much as possible, their career together and what they have accomplished both seprately and together is groundbreaking for Youtubers/online influencers in general.

The two of them managed to get a special Christmas radio show together on BBC Radio 1 in 2011 with them proceeding to having another Christmas show in 2012 and eventually their own weekly show in 2013. Beyond that, while they were writing their first book together in 2015, they decided to also create a theatrical stage show that they could tour around the country and eventually the world with. Problem at the time of that though was that no other Youtubers had done anything like it previously. The Amazing Tour Is Not On Fire (TATINOF) was literally groundbreaking in the industry and is still noted along with their second tour, Interactive Introverts, as some of the biggest live touring events put on by Youtubers. They also did so many other things together such as create a board game, a mobile app, directed/edited the filmed versions of their tours. All this while still making Youtube videos on both of their personal channels and their joint channel, DanAndPhilGames.

Even when focusing on their solo projects and individual stuggles in life, the two are still very much intertwined in their support of one another. This is especially documented during the launch of Dan's solo book, You Will Get Through This Night, and Dan's solo tour, We're All Doomed (WAD). While Phil didn't have direct involvement in either of the projects, he still heavily promotes Dan and publically states how proud of him he is and how much he enjoys Dan's solo work. A notable example is Phil in I TRY TO GIVE DAN A HAIRCUT (capitalization is accurate to Youtube title) especially at the end where he inserts a clip to further promote Dan's book without Dan knowing. Along with that, Phil is also credited in the filmed version of WAD as "Remote Crisis Manager" implying that even while they were apart, Phil was supporting Dan and helping him however he could.

There is so much anyone can go on about Dan and Phil, like this is barely scratching the surface. But these two are the definition of commitment and dedication. They have been through thick and thin together and are still here being undenialbly themselves and undeniably supportive and grateful for one another, their career, and their lives. And if that doesn't make a Best Ship, then I don't know what makes a best ship.

I am 100% open to hearing and reading any J2 essays btw if any yall want to send them over. But I figured I should add a quick breakdown of Phan history to these notes for anyone unaware or curious.

Best RPF Ship - Round 6 Match 1

[frzngrapes]

30/07

My dear Keycie,

I spent the night unfollowing eating disorder and self harm related blogs on here, I logged out of my edtwt account and I deleted my thinspo Pinterest boards. I deleted MyFitnessPal, my weight tracker app and my fast tracker app. I came across a lot of triggering content at once and it was very long but it was necessary.

I have 500 followers on that twitter account, which isn't a lot but is more than my main Instagram's follower count. So it technically used to be my biggest social media platform. I started it two years ago and I don't think I logged out for more than two or three weeks ever since then, but now I'm gone for good. I'm not deactivating it even though I know I should, I feel there are too many important things there. It was like a diary to me, and I would share literally everything. Sometimes looking up words like "friends" "mom" or "crush" on it is fun, because I can find all kinds of different and contradictory stuff I posted during the past two years. I just feel like I should keep this archive.

Also it's a kind of "box situation" like I wrote about some time ago. I know a few months after writing about this I opened the box again. And it's still somewhere in my room even if I don't feel like using it at all. Maybe I'm just not strong enough to completely let go... But I think not having the account and the tumblr tags and the calorie counting apps on my phone is a good first step. I hadn't done anything as significant for my recovery as this in the past two years. Which, come to think of it, is a bit ridiculous. I've attempted to "recover" in the past, but never deleted the weight loss related apps from my phone before, maybe without admitting it to myself I was kinda lying about being dedicated to getting better. But maybe this time is the one right time where everything works out and I heal for real. The day I wrote about in my first ever blog post under the cherrysletters✿ tag.

I was listening to music when unfollowing the edblr accounts and Teen Idle by Marina came on and I fucking cried. Because it hit me, the fact I was suicidal, making myself puke and phased out all the time at age 16. I should have been, idk, having fun. Why did this all happen to me ? This was all so unnecessary. I remembered the fact I didn't think I would turn 17. I went back to what I wrote on here on my 17th birthday and I cried. It's not often I feel sorry for how I treated myself, but rn I really do. I guess I finally really snapped out of it. Not saying I will never be destructive to myself ever again, or that I am completely cured of whatever problem I used to have... It's just that I somehow only now realise I'm not sixteen anymore. And that me proudly fueling my ed was a long time ago, me actually planning on taking my life was a long time ago and now I'm eighteen and this is pretty much over, so I can sit back and think "Shit, that was a lot".

My mother being abusive towards me is over as well. Two months ago she apologized, admitted it was all very unfair and that I didn't deserve it. This is such a huge change in my life, feeling comfortable at home. Because since I started high school, I think what made me cry the most was my mother's word to me, or remembering them or remembering that she used to hit me. And I cried in front of her for it, a lot, from when I was 15 when I started realising it was messed up, to not long ago. But she never apologized before that day. In conversation I brought up the fact that the first time I opened up about being suicidal, she told me to go ahead and kill myself, and she said she didn't remember saying that. It really sent me spiraling I snapped yelled and cried and told her everything I had on my chest, and later she told me she was sorry for everything.

It brings me a huge sense of relief, for her to admit that she did something wrong, just like when during the 2021 gay pride some guy from my high school I seemingly didn't know came up to me and apologized for bullying me. It's like- a proof it actually happened and actually was wrong and not just me making shit up in my head.

I'm saying all this because now that I don't feel pain at home, don't self harm and try to eat normally, I can almost say I'm finally free ! "Almost" because I don't want to jinx it, and because I know my wellbeing works in waves of ups and downs. But like for now I feel like I can enjoy life without having to worry about a big dramatic thing. And I guess that gives me the space to reflect on what life was like not long ago, and that's why I cry. I don't have to cry about whatever's happening right now so get to cry a bit about how hard high school was, then I can move on and be happy for a bit.

xoxo, cherry 🌸

[lunaluvvy]

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i fully agree. social media has always felt like a bad habit i could not quit growing up. 10 years on twitter. 9 on Instagram and countless media profiles on sites that have come and gone and come and gone over the past deacade.

Even on my smallest of accounts i couldn’t help feeling validated by the first like on thought i spent all day trying to remember verbatim. i’d imagine the person on the other side giggling at my observation or feeling the compultion to scroll further down my page and conclude that i was worth looking out for, as this is the kind of joy i brought to their timeline and more importantly their day. it took me a long time to realise that nothing on social media is for you. …well, some things but never you that is posting in the now. you may want to look back and relive the excitement of the moments carefully curated in that one photo dump but to post or not to post. what is really the difference in the moment? it still happened. if one person sees and that person is you it’s still valuable.

i feel as though sometimes that like4like mindset established in the early days of intagram is the only thing hold together a lot of my social media relationships with people i once knew in my daily life. i think to myself “let me like this and drop a comment so when I’m ready to post they will do the same.” and it’s honestly whatever i guess but it becomes mechanical and i feel like this unspoken exchange is a performance we agree to participate in to appear like a lot of someone’s give a fuck about who we are and what we are doing and that we are beautiful. when i look back at my social media do i value the “happy birthday xxx” comments on a post from 4 years ago like i value the handwritten card a secondary school friend made me, nowhere near.

i want to do this blog/website/media presence thing in a way that feels valuable to me right now. that article really made me stop and think about what feels good to do online and what feels like a must.

how long will this blog exist in the bubble of me and my thoughts? idk but i like that i can feel and be honest right now without the interested and ever-watching eye of a follower.

just a thought

luna

[mindofmaya]

Yes, I Feel Bad for the Mrs.H Windsor, but....(and Other Friday Musings)

I have technically had this blog for a number of years but I revived in after deleting my Twitter account with the hope that I would spend less time absorbing others’ thoughts. Unfortunately, I kept Tiktok and my reliance on that darned clock app has increased exponentially. Last week, Tiktok and I spent 244 hours together... that’s an entire day. I spent the equivalent of an ENTIRE DAY of my week JUST on Tiktok. Do I remember any of the videos I watched? Not really, but they provided me with that dopamine I needed at the time. I’m terrified of what the app will report back to me this week. If anyone has tips to break free from a Tiktok induced dopamine addiction, let me know please!

Another thing! Everyone is talking about the Meghan and Harry documentary on Netflix. I only watched about 2 episodes myself before I turned it to Wednesday, but I honestly believe that it was very well organized and a good watch, if you’re into the (ex) British Royal family or you’re just nosy. I lived in London last year, and I think seeing a lot of the places where I was very clearly depressed brought up feelings that I am not ready to face soooo Jenna Ortega kept me company instead (and she killed it)!

London depression aside, there was something else that bothered me a bit: the role Black people played in their story. This is not to say that Meghan is not Black, because not only is her mother Black, she is also my goodup goodup Jamaican auntie! But, whenever the doc showed Meghan’s friends from around the time she met H they all looked the same, and they didn’t look like me! I hope that it is just that her Black friends from that period were not available or it is just edited awkwardly (I Pray to God actually) but it seems like before the UK, more specifically the HRHs and UK Press labelled her as “Black” she did not really engage with the Black community. While watching I just felt like there was a lot of emphasis on the fact that “you wouldn’t know she was Black unless she told you” which is valid, but made her Blackness seem more like a “quirk,” like a fun fact she could tell at her KKG meetings for brownie points. Even when the aforementioned described their first interactions with the rest of the family, it seemed like Meghan was not shocked because she understood how the family felt about Black people, but they could not accept her even though a member of their family was marrying a Black girl. Her shock more along the lines of “why are you treating me like this” as if she was usually absolved from her Blackness. Again, I really hope that I am just reading into this too much because it would be very disappointing that the Black community rallied behind someone who couldn’t really be bothered with us until we were the only people willing to stick up for her, you know? Anyways, she is still super cool and I appreciated that she was in the middle of her Hot Girl Summer when she met and married a literal effing Prince. Give me the platform lmao!

In other news, I tried the Panera supercharged lemonade today, it is so good! the caffeine may not be the best though. I will say, I used it as my pre-workout and I was not exhausted after my workout like I usually am with my current pre-workout. I am also thinking about starting a fitness Tiktok but idk...

**Live footage of me 12 hours after this drink 

That’s all for now! More soon from the Mind of Maya :)

xoxo

[jonathanslms]

Here's what I missed on ! Tumblr !

It's pretty weird to return to this site after so long. (I'm not exactly a "Twitter refugee" as they seem to be called lmao, more like someone who, because of the whole Twitter stuff, realised that there are still people on Tumblr? And apparently the site stopped their weird filtering/post banning system bc they now allow porn again? Anyway,) I don't remember when I was last active on Tumblr because I deleted my old blog some years ago, but if I had to guess I was probably active from around 2013 to 2015/16 at the latest? And boy, there's so much new stuff...

Firstly, the quality and functionality of themes seems much higher? Maybe that's just because I'm older now, but there are just so many original and innovative themes and pages that, like, are so interactive?? And such a broad variety as well!!!

Adding on to that: Javascript is sort of forbidden?? The work-around is pretty fast and easy (just ask support for permission basically), but still, that sucks lol.

Then there's the whole "you can have an account but no actual blog"-thing?? Idk if I really like that. A lot of people seem to use the site like that, so it's apparently at least somewhat popular. But as a Tumblr-conservative (as in conservative about Tumblr, not a conservative on Tumblr) I must say that having a blog and customizing it was sort of the whole Unique Selling Point of the site, so... interesting choice. (As long as that's still possible I'm still happy either way, I think)

The whole Dashboard experience in general is just so different now. For one, there are ads? I'm not a fan of ads (shocking opinion, I know) and I'm sure had they done it right Tumblr could have become like Ao3 and not even needed them. Still, I don't mind them too much (haha certainly not bc I use adblock :) idk what that is, sounds very morally wrong to me) and I read somewhere that the premium version is only 40€/year, which isn't a lot a lot, but still unfortunate.

I can't even tell which features are new and which aren't most of the time (except for the replying to posts? and THE CHAT?? now that there is one I can't help but wonder why there wasn't one from the start?). I think there's a lot of stuff Tumblr implemented that used to only be possible through xkit before.

Speaking of which: xkit! There's a new version - xkit rewritten - and it's incredible. I didn't even think about re-installing xkit until I stumbled upon a post that mentioned it. Now that I am aware of its existence again, god have I missed it. Being properly on Tumblr without it just isn't the same, man...

Pretty sure the search and follow tags/trending/etcetc stuff is completely revamped as well, but I don't think I used that very often back then anyway. Once I followed a big chunk of blogs I just found new ones through snowballing.

The last thing I can think of that noticably threw me off was the slang? Like wtf is a blorbo? (I actually think I get that one now) What are those other scrinkly, scrumblo, beedy weeby words? Why do I feel several generations older all of a sudden? I can feel the immediate and visceral impulse of disgruntled rejection welling up inside me everytime I see people use any new slang word (or meme, looking at you old scorsese movie that doesn't exist) whose invention I wasn't there for. (please if you've been (back) here for a while, feel free to educate me on the new tumblr etiquette, memes and slang words, I'm curious, I wanna know)

Though that being said, the overall vibes have not changed much. It is still a site that embraces its nerdy lameness and unnecessarily deep deep-dives into ANYTHING. And after the last few months to years of seeing people attacking anyone and anything, and feeling angry/depressed every time I spent some time on my social media site of choice, I think this is a very nice change of pace.