#and it's tragic and we all cry

[softiedingo]

✅️ new character

✅️ think about him 24/7

✅️ fall completely in love with him

[calicos-clones]

I don’t think people realize how freaked out fanfic readers get when their favorite author(s) doesn’t update their ongoing schedule ON TIME.

And it’s not cause we want the chapter…it’s cause we’re so fucking worried about the Author.

Like— OMG ARE YOU OKAY? YOU’VE BEEN GIVING US THE TRAGIC UPDATES OF YOUR LIFE IN THE NOTES THE PAST 10 CHAPTERS?! WHY STOP? ARE YOU DEAD? DID YOU GET STUCK IN THE WALL LIKE YOUR CAT?? HAVE YOU EATEN?? HAS YOUR BRAIN EXPLODED??

Readers no longer care about the story when they don’t get their usual update. We panic and flag S.O.S as we track down our wayward author who has been both blessed by the universe with a creative mind and cursed all the same with the worst luck.

So any authors who are reading this please understand— when we comment “hey are you okay?” in your comments. No, we are not asking about the chapter.

We are legitimately concerned for your wellbeing. Do not force yourself to shit out a chapter just to appease other ppl when you yourself are not in the mental state to enjoy it or even write it to begin with.

TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF DAMMIT

[casebasket]

while all the deaths are tragic in their own way (except morally depraved julian lol but that tracks so i love it) and all pretty well done and shown to us in bits and pieces so we can fill it out ourselves which i FROTH - i think the captain's reveal hits the most because of everything that came before it. 5 series of build up, showing us how he's by the book, a strict adherence to schedule kind of person, with a deep, almost fanatic respect for the military and its rules and ranks and files to the point it's a huge part of his identity, and then - spoilers - we're shown that he died defying all of it, breaking in to an esteemed veteran event, stealing the rank of some other officer to blend in, lying about his valor, just to be close to the person he loves, placing himself in a situation so personally, intimately, individually custom-catered to be as mortifying as possible for him that it literally killed him. and he wasn't even able to say the one thing he wanted to say before death took him. he died, and now he grips the baton his love gave him forever, wearing the badge he stole that serves as a reminder of his deceit that fateful day, eternally on the edge of confession. his name revealed to us finally from the whisper of his beloved.

[holyshit]

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[katakaios]

been thinking so much on the trailer and castorice honestly just saying 'i want to be a normal person' and immediately phainon is just so distraught but seething just as much because why shouldn't castorice be allowed to be a normal person ? the fact that her being normal and a person she considers a 'wish' when it's a right every person should have makes phainon both apalled and seething with fury and anger that the world won't give it to her; that it won't fulfill the wishes that are just normal wants of his fellow heirs who he considers to be his second family.

when aglaea says she wants to open a tailor shop and aglaea, selfless and never thinking of herself as millennia went by and she lost so much of herself, yet never strayed from her beliefs, her drive for helping humanity regardless of how it mistreated her, regardless of parts of her slipping away, the core parts of her remained and were not unnoticed, he's just as silently heated, in a quiet yet firm kind of way (joshua's delivery in particular) saying simply without hesitation on his wording, 'it wouldn't be bad to live for yourself. '

and it's ironic because in this trailer castorice dies for aglaea, when in canon, aglaea herself staged her death for the flame-chase journey and for phainon's success as the one to inherit her leadership role and wishes just as with each patch, phainon is constantly receiving the wishes of others, in short, he's a vessel of wishes and desires for humanity, which leaves room for him to back his own words almost...ironic? contradictory given the deliverer can't really have wishes.

he hears his fellow heirs wishes, and as the deliverer, as the person who has the hopes and dreams not just of the common people but his own comrades on his shoulders ( ignoring their 'prophecies' or not ), and a part of him is genuinely furious that the world has been so cruel that they think of their wants as wishes when everyone should be born to want and feel it's alright to want, which is a contradiction for phainon, ironically, who feels he cannot want himself.

this is shown a lot with his brief flashback with anaxa in aedes elysiae's wheat fields, ' phainon of aedes elysiae, what is your dream ? ' and i think a lot of people consider this, and given phainon at his core, while complicated and full of humanity and contradictions, is simple in his wish, but in the trailer for 3.4 / his release, we don't see him able to even answer it before the images switch from farmland to flames.

' in truth - i just want . . . ' but we never hear phainon's wish, but we can see an inkling of what it may be in the images and memories he has of those around him, those he loves and those he works to protect.

and he never has an answer, but we see him and unsurprisingly most of his wishes involve the other chrysos heirs and innocent civilians and children, we see him among the people, we see aglaea, mydei, children eerily resembling castorice and polyxia, we see people that aren't suffering and in pain, we see people safe and happy.

we see no endless loss and tragedy or death; and i think that's the most complicated yet simple wish a person could have - which fits and aligns with phainon's character as a whole. a complicated and troubled character with simple desires that are so out of reach that they have become more myth than normalcy, and not just something phainon alone struggles with, but all of the main characters of amphoreus.

that happiness and natural human want has become a fairy tale to those he loves, that is what makes phainon seethe and hurt. and if the 'deliverer' is a vessel of humanity's collective wishes, prayers and hopes for not just salvation in a ruined world, but their own lives finding happiness and safety, things you shouldn't have to beg for, then that fury and quiet he keeps well concealed burns all the brighter in him.

he wants people he loves and those around him to live safe, happy lives where wants are not so farfetched that they are considered a luxury or a 'wish' but a common day occurrence, something they had a right to ever since they were born. that people are denied this because of the tragedy of life in amphoreus and 'fate' as a whole, something phainon clearly wishes to crush underfoot if it causes nothing but heartache - is an endless source of fury to a long kindling spark and flame.

basically phainon at this point is a powderkeg, a spark near a bomb, he's so many things. he's rampantly insecure beneath a veneer of confidence, he's terrified of losing anything dear to him and out of a genuinely good nature and equal measures desperation to not see more lost, he works himself without care for himself to the point of borderline fatal abandon, he utterly has no regards for himself and sees himself more as an object of other's hopes and desires than someone who can have his own desires.

something he seems all too easy to be content with in contrast to the others. he's a walking contradiction of concealed anger, trauma and rampant grief warring versus a good nature, a kind heart, and like aglaea says spot-on, a deep sensitivity to the people around him, a deep empathy for their suffering, something made more potent given his role as the 'one who bears the world'. the one meant to save amphoreus, the one meant to hold the desires of all save for one: himself.

he is so many things, and he is so painfully human and flawed, and it's these things that will ultimately determine how his story and the word 'fate' which he so vehemently wishes to defy and deny, turn out. in either victory or futility. that tenderness and goodness and fury can all co-mingle together with fear and courage, each good 'trait' phainon has is also given a very human flaw .

and i'm sure phainon has and had plenty of wishes. but if there's one thing absolutely certain is that he wants everyone to be able to live happily and without suffering if it can be helped, without war and grief, without duties and having to abandon one's self.

'if suffering has an end, then i will become the deliverer. '

and if it doesn't, it's all about who phainon means to become no matter how many times he has to defy 'fate'. / personals / non-rp blogs please don't reblog <3.

[01432853]

Xiaoyao...

Lost You Forever (2023) - EP 25

[grraveryl]

another thing that makes me bonkers abt ryoko is how much she's connected to sentinel no.14: ida assigned it to her, she doesn't want anyone else piloting it, and in the end how to pilot her sentinel is the only constant memory she has - alongside ida being the one to give it her

it's just so fucking sad, even after everything ida put her through, there's a part of her that remembers him fondly, as the person who gave her the means to fight back against the kaiju

she trusted him as much as to put the new "code" into ei's sentinel, believing it to be for the greater good and to make ei realise that ida was right, when in reality he saw her as disposable, manipulating and gaslighting her before and after her nanomachines got infected

god ryoko my poor girl I need to put you in a petri dish to study you

[your9thsymphony]

Posting my favorite panel from every episode of Purple Hyacinth because I miss it severely

Day 37: Episode 36

[trevination]

pony and johnny duetting on stay gold will always make me wanna throw up

[ashmp3]

not a day passes without me fantasizing about getting killed but not by my own hands ofc i just have a perfect scenario where i’m just dead and everyone is like :’((( 🕊️ fly high

[hochmvt]

↠  an a-typical 𝐜𝐥𝐨𝐬𝐞𝐝 𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐫𝐭𝐞𝐫 for @mossworn

Dear Addie,

Greetings from Stanley Lake! It reminds me a lot of Corbin here, couldn't help thinking last night in my cabin how we watched Toy Story on the TV at your parents' house and I knew then that you would love it here. So of course another lovely postcard had to be sent your way. Stanley Lake is a glacial lake (funfact!), the Sawtooth Mountains look like ancient titans, like something out of a heroic saga or something. It's all so cool here, I wish you could see it all for yourself. I'll send you the photos as soon as I've developed the film. Oh yes, and the sunset yesterday was really beautiful too, so classic with red, orange and pink. I could stay here for eternity, I'll tell you how it is.

I'm here because there are stories about lights over the water. Of course, the astute podcast host knows that these are mostly just decaying plants releasing methane gas that glows when coming in contact with oxygen. BUT that would somehow take the magic out of my research and somehow I have to justify to myself that I'm here. Otherwise I won't be able to deduct it from my taxes, haha.

I hope you're doing well. It's kind of strange that I don't know whether you'll reply to this or not. If you do, I'm sure mom is happy to have so much to read from you. The whole Pines clan would certainly like me to say hello to you. I miss you and look forward to hearing from you soon!

All my love,  Isaiah

Dear Addie,

I hope you're doing well in Corbin. Can't wait to have some updates on the coolest city in the east (just because you're there, OF COURSE). I'm sitting in the middle of nature (kind of a recurring theme when I write to you) in Stonewall Gap. The valley is really beautiful, the mountains in the background reach high into the sky and the sun casts long shadows on the valley below. It's really peaceful here.

I met some great people here. It reminds me a bit of the summers back in Corbin—how easy it was to strike up a conversation with strangers and suddenly it feels like you've known each other forever. But I think that was largely because of you. Everything somehow felt easier with you. Sometimes I still find it difficult to approach people, unless I know that they're somehow my interview partner or something. Somehow I hope you don't know that. The feeling. The last few days have been kind of lonely. But maybe I'm just going through a melancholy phase. 

I miss you. It's been far too long since we've seen each other. Maybe I should come over again and I'll just take all the immune boosters on the over-the-counter market beforehand. What do you think? I'd love to sit down together again and tell you everything in person instead of just writing it. And first and foremost just to hear what's going on in your life.

Take care and be safe. I look forward to hearing everything. Isaiah

Dear Addie,

This time I'm writing to you from Ohio (as the postcard indicates, my brain is mush today, sorry)—specifically from Schoenbrunn Village State Memorial (AS THE POSTCARD INDICATES). You may have wondered why I'm sending you a postcard that doesn't feature “endless expanses and mountains and glacial lakes and untouched nature” Haha. It's a small, reconstructed village from the 18th century and I'm doing research for the podcast. Certainly nothing new. Anyway.

Did you know that this was the first Christian settlement in Ohio? Missionaries and Lenape families lived here together, which was pretty unusual at the time. During the American Revolutionary War, the residents were forced to leave the village and most did not return. There are reports of burial sites that were never found, and I wonder if there is still something hidden out there somewhere. Kind of exciting, isn't it? Maybe I'll find something here. There's definitely enough material. I have two interview appointments tomorrow and I've used my photoshopped and very fake press ID to gain access to the city archives.

So... when I'm done here, I'd like to finally see you again. Like, for real and not like on Discord or in Minecraft or something. I could really do with a few days off and I'm curious about that coffee you're always praising at the Frog & Finch. Would you like that? It's fine if you don't feel like it. I'll bring cake too. Unfortunately not the famous strawberry cake from Mom, but the second best thing, I promise.

I'm really excited to see you soon (if you feel like it, please don't feel pressured)! Isaiah

[pynkhues]

https://www.tumblr.com/pynkhues/767632359463026688/httpswwwtumblrcompynkhues767608836778573824?source=share

Technically Louis seems to be drinking from him in 1.6, right? Though that's so brief/blurry that it doesn't fully count, maybe

You're so right, anon, but we kind of hear it more than we see it, haha:

[cakemoney]

just. like. i know I'm not saying anything that hasn't already been said better somewhere by someone smarter, but like! the pay offs in this series are just so good. we've known all along that the story is being told in second person because gideon was standing just behind harrow's shoulder, but when she finally steps into frame, when she finally EXISTS in the story again, it's such incredible relief and heartbreak. we have been waiting for her for so long, harrow has been aching for her for so long, but harrow isn't here to see it. we've been watching harrow's false version of events, knowing that it's a performance for harrow's broken brain, knowing that the actors in it know something that harrow doesn't, but the reveal isn't of harrow's insanity, it's that all this time, her insanity was grounded in some version of reality. that the people weren't just hallucinations but ghosts, who although dead are the actual living versions of themselves that we never got to know, and who decided to stay with her of their own free will. that all this time, harrow wasn't as alone as she believed she was. i don't even know how to explain except by pointing emphatically at it. we know the story is tragic, but then execution manages to be so full of hope. but we know there was hope for a kinder outcome, so the story feels all the more tragic

[cloudbends]

IM ACTUALLY IN TEARS . WERE GETTING THERE

[hogans-heroes]

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[cosmama]

i don't know when it happened because i don't check the sm wikipedia pages but i happened to be on usagi's page for something and chibi-chibi / sailor cosmos was listed in the section under her forms lol