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he's been talking about space for 45 minutes.
#regret to inform you that I have Started Making Rarepair Content :tm:#to compensate for the general lack thereof#when you have no idea what the fuck a nano electrokinetic propulsion system does but at least he's talking at a normal volume for once#this is some point during the war#idk when#i know nothing about the war yet#except for a few 5 second clips#but assume there were quiet moments#and this is one of them#i can't draw people kissing so this is as close as i'm going to get#it's like the hayes code but edo era#i feel like zura would enjoy space#he'd be all wide-eyed and amazed by everything in that easily entertained way of his#and sakamoto would get to be the smartest person in the room for a change (apart from mutsu obv)#monk draws#sakazura#gintama#tatsuma sakamoto#katsura kotarou
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ARE THOSE COOKIE RUN COSTUMES??!!
Floor 176: Face the Trial!
Beach episode...
#regret-delivery#mod melon 🍈#postal-vator#regretevator lampert#regretevator infected#yes they were smile. thank you anon for the opportunity to do more :]#based on langue de chat and cappuccinos: tropical escape and sunburnt surfer respectively#i dont know a lot about ovenbreak specifically but DAMN do thoes old men look gay as hell#anyway if you want cookie art. follow my art bog im insane (tm) over there#skaterlight
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(softly) I forgot Freedom Wars Remastered was today I'm so sorry...
#freedom wars#did i remake my exact sinner as i had on vita? did i ???#yes but i changed her name lmao#did i regret and weep that they removed the stockholm panopticon option? yeah ... i miss my stockholm alliance#sinner adam eden#accessory salmon#GRANTED I do not have the code level to actually name him yet but Soon TM he shall be named Salmon#let me rescue my girlfriend! RATTLING MY CAGE BARS GIVE ME MY GIRLFRIEND#also i love my burnt marshmallow hair ....#salmon is still just a tall guy but i changed his hair from slicked back to the above#and i think originally on vita i just gave him red eyes but i cant fully recall??#but on this i gave a red and a pink like adam has#anyway im sorry i asked for the reqs yesterday to draw one today and then got absorbed in fw remastered#it was unintentional and i will draw one of the suggestions tomorrow ! hopefully ...#someone in my house is possibly sick and i get sick easily from others so i have to pray i dont get sick
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can we talk about leon being "demonically" possessed by plants again, that sounds fun
a lichen, even. fungus and algae working together to turn leon feral
a fun part of this is envisioning leon attacked by a plant. via exploding seed pod. fungal spore bloom. gets a little too close and whoops, that shit's all in his sinuses and mouth and lungs now. good luck, blondie!
too distracted by the whole choking thing to properly get the sos call out and thunk, on the ground, out cold! a big feast for them funky lil cyanobacteria. or algae. or fungus. or all of the above.
#leon whump ideas#whump#leon s kennedy#leon's reckless enough to misstep and stick his head into the Hole of Do Not Put Your Head Inside Moron tm#and get blasted with plant nut#okay maybe not that stupid but he didn't listen to hunnigan in the death island comic that she couldn't open that door#once it closed#and then got all ??? when she couldn't open it#and the whole diving head first into a dumpster thing#and the sewers and#he's a think later kinda guy sometimes isn't he#i think he'd probably try to take a peek in somewhere and regret it#careful and calculating sometimes but not most times hajnbhjfmnd#the thought “hey what if there's something in here that'll attack” doesn't cross his mind#just “hmm i need a better look at this”
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Teruko and the bad bitches she pulled by being autistic
[DO NOT REPOST] i will hunt you for sport
#teruko tawaki#danganronpa despair time#drdt fanart#drdt#mai akasaki#xander matthews#min jeung#eden tobisa#david chiem#charles cuevas#rose lacroix#hehe can you tell who is who :3 ?#first time ive ever posted my art online#hope i dont regret this#my art tm
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okarun and momo in ep1 going through their respective situations:
#dandadan#momo ayase#okarun#ken takakura#they went in think it was gonna be all silly goofy but shit went sideways real quick lol#you fuck around and you find out....that includes losing your balls#sis almost got sa'd by aliens and had a forced hysterectomy naurrrr#i bet momo was regretting everything in that chair ...thankfully the powers kicked in#like how were they supposed to know aliens and spirits were freaky and/or extremely sus#my pookies were going through it#wow anna said something#anna's shitposts#every great romance starts with not knowing shit abt each other then being#forced to be in a situation(TM) with each other no one else would get#and devolping an unbreakable bond by realizing u actually match each other's freak#*thinking#This is when they met in the UFO sksksksjsjsjsj
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Unyeilding Avalanche - Blaze a Trail -
(Timelapse under the cut)
#kaiju no.8#Ichikawa reno#I'm burning through my ice-related vocabs at this point#Figured out instead of drawing 10+ pics of similar compose I should just stack all personal favorites(tm) into one pic#strained veins check focused glare check#freezing effect check power suit check...also fin funnels and somewhat ruined city#rip breaktime i have no regret#faldrawskn8#kaiju no. 8 spoilers#kn8 fanart#kn8 spoilers#reno ichikawa#“Hey maybe I should pull those tubes...”#thats a prompt for later i guess#....no way out of this hell and I'm okay
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hhhhhh I need to properly reread Percy jackson again. This post brought to you by the fact I was about to make a post about a scene I very vividly remember of Will Solace trying to convince Pollux not to keep fighting with his good arm broken before Percy manages to convince him not to bc he promised Dionysus, then thought to myself "huh maybe I should fact check that- I mean I did also convince myself that Travis stoll died in this battle when he actually just went to college." And guess what? That scene ✨️didn't happen.✨️ Pollux was trying to convince Percy to let him rejoin the fight very half heartedly, while propped against a tree, and Percy was just like "hmmmm... no"
#Can you blame me tho.#SO much was going on in that book. It was literally JUST that battle and over the course of like 3 days#Here's some I found while skimming my copy of tlo for the scene in question:#Nico trying to rescue/ speak to his mum ft. Hades being a really shitty person (& shittier father)#Rachel's family helicopter almost crashing#Percy having a conversation with may castellan#Luke very belatedly realising “hm maybe I shouldn't give complete control of my body and mind to kronos”#This one random half-asleep demigod Percy runs into at one point that might’ve been Clovis? The demigod was said to be 12 tho-#So maybe his brother?#Prometheus shows up and gives Percy Pandora's jar#Percy getting thrown in prison by Hades and STRANGLES NICO FOR BRINGING HIM TO THE UNDERWORLD????#nico sends the guards to sleep tho so yay dream powers from his dad#And then Achilles's ghost shows up and basically just goes “are you fucking stupid or something. Why would you want my curse”#Chiron brings the party ponies to fight (they got drunk on rootbeer instead)#I think literally the only things from this book I accurately remembered were#1. Michael Yew convinces Percy to destroy a bridge while he's still on it#2. Annabeth moves to protect Percy's weak spot before she even knew where it was#3. One of Silenus's brothers dies and grover gets to be part of the council#4. Silena regrets being a spy and steals clarisse's armour to fight a drakon#5. Clarisse is PISSED that she did something so stupid and kills the drakon with her father's blessing#6. The fact Percy and Luke actually managed to converse during the Final Battle tm and Luke told Percy his weak spot#7. Ethan is a character who existed and then died. He was the son of Nemesis#Hm actually that's a lot more than I thought#But again there are Things happening in this book and there are Many Of Them and most of them are pretty fucked up actually.#anyway#pjo#Something something how is this a kids book etc
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ultimate autism moment: i got a hoodie in november that i ended up really loving and i wear it all. the. time. comfort hoodie 100%. but when you wear a hoodie a lot you have to be careful not to dry it too much (i started letting it hang dry instead) so the design doesn't crack and the fuzzy part of the fabric inside doesn't, like, mat or pill. anyways i wear it enough that the second it came back in stock on line (like a week ago), i ordered the exact same hoodie. so now i have a duplicate and i'll be keeping it washed + in my closet for whenever/if ever the first one dies, lol
#anya shush#my only autism regret is that i never got a duplicate of my Autism Blanket (tm)#that thing is 10yrs old now and is only getting more and more worn
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Josh Berry my beloved who has been wrecked by Austin Cindric a handful of times but is still so happy to hang out with him... they are besties your honor
#See I literally cannot hate Austin because he's just a big sweetie#you can't hold a grudge against him#sobbingggggg#Austin confidently eating a grasshopper and instantly Regretting It(TM) while Josh laughs his ass off#that video lives rent free in my head
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ough. here i go again !! (making an original iteration of a thing i'm obsessed with based on my own personal neurotic fixations + a hybridizing of other more official versions of it, one of which includes a very popular kids show that was animated by flying bark productions)
#nnstuff#teenage mutant neglected turtles#jttw#lmk#rambling#i dont have a name for the jttw iteration yet. i might call it 'better than you left it' but thats kind of long#not any longer than tm(n)ts tag but i regret that being so long everrryy day#shoutout lmk and rottmnt#both very good shows which i pull from but do not rely on exclusively to guide my own canons#oADn
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winston my quant of billions
#''😒''#corned beef#winston billions#& green of all things; drew it in purpley pink & being like whoa hey is this too much deliberately breaking out this Rare Coloring#minty fresh....been funny to be rotating the villainy of; let's say; bsol & xmas & then thinking about billions' whole other world there#& its completely different take where of all things winston is like. treated as a villain in a way its sicko My God central men aren't#(who are also quite different from iconis villains but yknow with the very fundamental differences in general what else is a surprise)#axe? prince? alive & well & billions does mean to be commenting on that like yeah sure#but winston? gotta be humiliated & violated & attacked / killed (if figuratively + just by assumption Oh He's Fiiine)#as well as basically truly dead to everyone but in a Never Existed / Spontaneously Shunned way. nobody thinks about him ever again#including when non wretched central men characters are getting these silver linings Benefits from their sabotaging a central man#not winston though maybe; the writing has forgotten him / sees no worth in bringing him up unless At His Expense; not gain#didn't get background randos telling prince or the like to go fuck himself at any point. open contempt reserved for winston there#better to have Objective Entitlement to power over / access to people & then; hey what the; be an asshole about it???#than to not just Have that entitlement & not expect it & not try to use it & be friendly & minding your own business as much or more than#any other characters like good lord what a Loser. the queerness & disability of this inferiority? just some jokes (at winston's expense)#& we will be killing him like nobody even considers for central men takedowns. those are polite & we all have Some regret it came to this#better to abuse people than. be so unepic (different from Normal white cishet 50some men who love certain media)#& on that note you're never gonna guess what's Good to do to the unepic people who bring it upon themselves....yeah haha. abuse#you're never gonna guess but power difference is a given & also good if an epic person has that power. & on that note#what can they do with it but keep unepic people in their place? what other hope do we have? winston may try to say a pun. or speak at all :#anyway while there's the absolute joys of Any Good Bastard over in a wildly different oeuvre it's like well yknow#while winston is already Ruining Things as more a Wretched Sicko Evil Asshole for seeing himself as a person & others as people#instead of himself as an inferior who has to apologize for existing & initiating any interaction vs only ever doing as he's told#unlike the best heroes who know they're superior & will use others & mess with their lives however they feel is justified; you're welcome#like well if winston's such an exceptional dick(tm) around here that he has to be introduced w/discussion / explanation around this#great let him be even bitchier & more ''difficult''....& billions would never & that's why [sorry to all the characters trapped in there]#the slightest glimpses of like & The Quasirival Weirdo Duos Are Kinda Being Cunts b/w usual parallels riawin & taylip#what comes of that? oh nothing. but as ever these are at least glimpses of a little more liveliness & range for making room for this a sec#anyway imagine getting so niche that your other kinda just as niche thing is like. less niche. but not really. wheee yayyy fr lol My Whimsy
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Today I was like I Suddenly Crave Fast Food Burgers
So I indulged and ordered Fast Food Burgers
And then partway through my first burger my stomach as like, Actually No Thanks This Does Not Feel Good
And then I was like damn this used to be no problem. Is this what getting older feels like...
#YukiPri rambles#food#fast food#burgers#it's worse than just 1 burger too#bc i order delivery like once every other month at most i was like ok gotta make the most of this#so i ordered 3 and fries and onion rings and chiken nuggies and a milkshake#all for me alone#(over the next 2-3 days)#Regret TM#i shoulda just. idk. bought a salad or something...
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i usually like my dragon age love interests to contrast my characters somehow and yet the desire to romance emmrich as a fellow academic... would it be weird if he peer reviewed my papers before. would it be unprofessional
#dragon age posting#for now besides mourn watch i'm looking into veil jumpers and shadow dragons...#maybe i can settle with a rogue but i'll be forever sad i can't be an ORB MAGE#idk#i went with a human mage in inquisition and regretted it immediately it was so boring#oh yeah i'm a nobleman (ew) coming from a tame circle where nothing really happened (how exciting)#conversing with vivienne is like the only time i felt connected to my character and had anything meaningful to say about his experience#being a circle mage in dao is my favorite thing#being an apostate in da2 is pretty cool i'm just like my dad :) i feel so brave navigating this templar-infested city#but inquisition... maybe it's better if you're a dalish first tm#don't suppose they did anything cool for all the implications of a qunari mage either#i know the inquisitor's whole thing is for their own identity to Not Matter but you know it would be cool to have something to work with#to really feel it when it's taken away
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“Intervention time! You need a job.”
Sasha hops onto the couch as he makes this surprise attack. He crosses his legs under him.
Raffa raises an eyebrow at the sudden addition of weight, not pausing to look up from their lesson plans.
“Good morning to you, too. I have a job, what-“
“No, not a work job. A job.” He raises an eyebrow back. “Babe, you haven’t stolen something in like five-ever.”
“What if I have?” they mutter defensively. “You wouldn’t know.”
“Then something else is wrong. And we’d talk it out.” He waits a beat. “And I totally would know. I’m very observant.”
Of all the things that could, that is the phrase that gets their attention. They look up to meet his eyes. “Remember that time-“
“Hey. Nope. So observant. I’m practically the Mayor of Observation City.”
“And this is a commentary about unqualified political leaders.”
“And you are deflecting.” Sasha kicks their shin. “Talk to me or agree to crime or something! You’re freaking me out.”
They slump forward at that, mumbling incoherently into their palm. Papers flutter to the floor, inevitably to be forgotten for a while. He hopes. He really wants to fix whatever’s wrong.
“Dust! Get in here!” Sasha calls. He’s done enough living with Raffa to know how to read them (and therefore how to get them to open up), but they’re in a combative mood right now and Sasha’s a little too hungover for this. He needs backup.
“Sorry, I was definitely training for Olympic Qualifiers,” Dust says as he strolls in from the hallway.
Raffa says nothing. That’s only a little bone-chilling.
“Yeah, you got a sec?”
“Sure.” He leans against the arm of the couch. “What’s up?”
“Raff’s gonna tell us what’s up with them.”
“Oh, finally.”
“What do you mean, finally?”
“It’s been a week,” Dust and Sasha chorus. Dust whistles appreciatively.
“Mind meld.”
“Hell yeah, my guy.”
They fist bump over Raffa’s head.
“I’m glad you’re both having an excellent time,” Raffa sighs.
“Babe.” Sasha slings his outstretched arm around their shoulders. “We are here for you. Right now. Look. Me? Here. Dust? Here. Deep truth time.”
“This is great for Dust, who just loves to tell the truth.”
“I tell the truth all the time,” Dust agrees.
“Definitely.”
“Definitely.”
“Yes. We’re all on the same page.”
Raffa eyes Sasha warily. This is normal practice for when Dust is being Dust, but the tiredness behind their eyes is far more intense than usual. Sasha reaches out from behind Raffa to pull at Dust’s wrist.
“Come sit,” he invites. Slowly, Dust shifts so that Raffa is sandwiched tightly between the two.
“Up close and personal, hm?” Sasha teases, knocking his head against theirs. Dust lays his head against their shoulder. Something twists in Sasha’s chest as they all slot together seamlessly. That ever-present (slightly embarrassing) thrum of “family” settles deep in his bones as he looks at two people he’s annoyingly fond of. For a life of wrong decisions, conning his way into this apartment was a right one.
“How is this helping?” Raffa murmurs back.
“We’re here. And you’re letting us hold you.” To emphasize his point, Sasha tugs the two closer, ruffling Dust’s hair in the process. “Figure out the rest later.” He uses his free hand to grab theirs, squeezing it tightly.
“You’d think you were still drunk,” Raffa snarks. But there’s not a single trace of heat to their voice. Rather, it’s soft and unsure. “Idiot.”
“Hey. I don’t have to be drunk to care about you.”
“Yeah, same,” Dust pipes up. He’s being genuine now, mindlessly tracing patterns into Raffa’s other hand. “It’s not far-fetched that people like you, Raff.”
Shit. When Dust tells the truth, he does it well.
“Who said it was?”
“You did. Maybe not outright, but there’s something in you that assumes you don’t deserve to be cared for. That no one in their right mind would want to.”
Sasha nudges at their cheek with his nose. “And that’s bullshit.”
“You two are, arguably, not in your right mind.”
“Stop making excuses. We are two people who love you, Raff. You’re it. I don’t know how else to get through to you.” Dust is on a roll now, his words quick and his voice shaky. “We wouldn’t have it any other way. You’re good. Inherently. And you’re here. And that’s why we’re here.”
Sasha nods. “Damn, Dust.”
“It was deep truth time.”
“I mean, yeah man. Got it in one.”
“Hey, no,” he prompts. “Your turn.”
“Oh, gladly.”
Sasha squeezes Raffa’s hand again before they have a chance to protest, taking a moment to formulate his thoughts.
“You don’t have any obligation to tell us anything. Or any need to put your guard up. There are more options. Like Dust said, we’re here because we want to be. But you call the shot. If that means you keep this to yourself, that’s fine. If you share, that’s fine. We just want to have you right now. If you can make that choice, the choice to let us stay with you while you take a minute, that’s more than enough.”
“Sometimes the deepest truth of all is the truth left unsaid,” Dust supplies.
“What does that mean?” Raffa asks.
Dust smiles sideways at them. “I’m letting it go unsaid.”
Sasha nods slowly. He gets a look from Raffa, who presses into him a little more firmly. There’s something to read behind their gaze. Sasha doesn’t quite catch it in time.
“You two don’t have to worry. I’m an adult, I can handle myself.”
“We’re not worried about that,” Sasha protests gently. “All we care about is that you know Deep Truth Time is being extended to you however you see fit. Take the reins, mama.”
“Are you capable of saying a normal sentence?”
“Jury’s still out.”
Raffa huffs a laugh at that, tipping their head back. “You’re insane.”
“You’re insane. Need I remind you about the peanut butter-“
“Do not start-“
Dust chuckles. “Or the lizard incident-“
“Not you too-“
“How could we forget the lizard incident? The house smelled like hotdog water for a week because-”
Raffa slaps a hand over his mouth. “We get it. We were all there.”
“That was gross.” Dust wrinkles his nose.
“Exactly. Let’s not think about it.”
“Fair. What’s the call?” he asks softly. Raffa slowly lowers their hand from Sasha’s mouth.
“I really don’t want to talk about it. But. Stay for a bit.”
Sasha wipes away a fake tear. “Mama took the reins.”
“Begging you to shut up.” But, despite their exasperation, they rest their head on Sasha’s shoulder and close their eyes. Dust scoots impossibly closer, starting to trace patterns into Raffa’s hand again. Sasha angles his head so that his mouth hovers closer to Raffa’s ear.
“Hey. Love you, riffraff.”
“Yeah. You too,” they whisper back. They catch Dust in the ribs with their elbow. “Both of you.”
Dust nods frantically. Somehow, his lack of words means significantly more than if he echoed the sentiment aloud. “Dust is nodding,” Sasha narrates. Raffa cracks a smile, keeping their eyes closed. The crease between their eyebrows lessens.
It’s something short of a miracle to watch the tension melt away in real time, to feel them relax. A week of stress left unresolved is being worked through right now. Dust seems to sense the same thing Sasha does, because he stills, properly lacing his fingers with Raffa’s and squeezing tight. They squeeze back.
The silence speaks volumes. Really, it doesn’t say anything. But that ever-present (slightly embarrassing) thrum of “family” starts back up. It fills the empty space. Sasha honors it like an old friend, and lets the sunlight melt the rest away.
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helloooooo the roomies are bad at vulnerabilityyyyy but they love each otherrrrr
some of you may be in the “they would not fucking say that” camp for this one. to that i say: yes they would. i have Explanations
(Hope you enjoyed 🥳)
#what is this you ask?????#who’s brave enough to find out?????#on this!! the day of trickery!!!#(you should click read more you won’t regret it)#mountport ttrpg#the roommates tm#roomies 💃🏼
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Sorry if this might be a rude question but why don’t you just make a seperate account for your nsfw fics?
not rude, it's a valid question! tbh it's a combination of a couple reasons.
i started posting anonymous dead dove batcest fics long before i had the balls to make a tumblr. at first i was content to just leave them unassociated with each other because i didn't really care about them being tied to me. i made this blog to actually show solidarity to my partner who wanted to make a sideblog for Sandman comic stuff so we could cheerlead each other and be brave together, since i've wanted to make a batcest sideblog but i've been nervous about actually having to get it going. (mal ik you're reading this go be brave and actually make your blog so i can cheerlead you damnit-) only did it dawn on me then that i should probably mention the fics i've written on the blog after like, three of them were posted anonymously. and it would've annoyed me to have half of them anonymous and half of them not, because notifications for them would've gone in different places. i could go back and take my fics off anon if i wanted to, but i can't switch the account they're on without taking them down entirely and that'd fuck over people who have them bookmarked already.
which, ties into my second reason, if i made an entire second ao3 account it'd be harder for me to see notifications, reply to stuff, and post things for both accounts because i'd have to constantly switch. and honestly i'd be terrified of accidentally posting on the wrong one on a brain fog day. posting fics is always the most tedious part of writing them for me lol. it's easier for me to stay logged into one account and have all of my stuff in one place for me and just use the anonymous collection when i feel like it. if ao3 pseuds worked like tumblr blogs, where you can't see all my side blogs but i can, i would've used pseuds, but since you can see all pseuds on an ao3, i felt it was a moot point.
and the last reason is i just feel more comfortable being anonymous on ao3 because of the rise in anti culture. on tumblr it's very easy for me to just filter that out and find the people i want to follow and block the people i don't. i don't mind getting hate, on tumblr or on ao3. but i think, for whatever reason you want to blame it on, there's been a massive boom of antis on ao3 who are very entitled about how they read on ao3. i tag extensively, but i just feel safer from getting targeted attacks if everything i write on ao3 isn't attached to one profile. if people like a fic i wrote, want to find more i always link my tumblr in the notes, but if an anti wants to get huffy with me, they can't easily track down my other things. they definitely could if they wanted to, but being anonymous on ao3 just makes me feel more secluded, in a weird way. it's like saying "if you want you can come find me but on here i'm just a weird faceless guy throwing stuff in the void". i've used ao3's anon feature a lot, actually, i used to be a hydra trash party dumpster kid back when that was in it's prime.
i also used to be vaguely popular on a different tumblr blog and my main ao3 and while i think it'd definitely be cool if i got a decent chunk of followers on this blog too, i don't really miss having fanfiction do so well i got targetted hate on all of my fics from the same people, i had my fics stolen, etc. it was really exhausting for me. i have 120+ works on ao3, not counting what's anonymous, and that level of exposure tires me, even when i use my main ao3 to post things that aren't trashy. it's just a weird feeling knowing so many people are subscribed to you on ao3 and what if you post something they won't like because you jumped fandoms again, or you're posting something niche, or you don't think it fills enough fandom tropes to be well-liked. i used to obsessively think like that, and it made me not write the things i wanted to because i cared about numbers. and i don't want to slide back into that hole. writing on anonymous is mostly to remind myself i wrote this for me, and if other people like it, they can come find me, but i don't have to perform like that anymore. if i get a really weird fucked up idea, i can write the really weird fucked up idea. at the end of the day, just makes me more comfortable! but i get it's a super confusing set up from an outsider perspective so, i really don't mind the question, thank you for asking!!
#necrotic festerings#batcest#pro ship#necrotic answerings#tbh asking the question gave me the chance to explain it so ty!#might link this in my about me or my masterlist for ease of access#i don't want to like. overstate how big i was on an old blog bc i was not like. a celebrity by *any* means.#but i had a ship-specific blog and i was certainly a “big name fan” for that specific rarepair#and it like. took over my life when i was a teen#i look back on it fondly now but i really regret that i would obsess so heavily over numbers and what made a fic do well#my favorite fics to write were htp back then bc for htp culture writing on anon was normal since that was during the dreamwidth days#and i just. liked that veil of anonymity and i think i defaulted to that when i decided to finally start posting batcest stuff#(all of this makes me sound so old i'm only 22 i just started fandom really fucking young which i don't recommend)#and when i say one fic got big. i mean it. i have found that fic on instagram and pinterest and tiktok and even. facebook.#do you know what it's like when your fic gets reuploaded to facebook without your permission and you see what boomers think of it.#that was so mortifying.#funnily enough the boomers were actually really nice i was just shocked to find it there scrolling one day.#it was instagram that was super mean to me and traumatized my ass. man ppl dug into me for the tinest things. do not miss that.#anyway the point is#i've tasted vitality and niche fandom status(tm) and i hated both. and i just cannot do that to myself again#ergo#anon on ao3 and a blog to post my thoughts when i have them.#it's a nice system for me#i have some stuff on my main ao3 that toes the line of like. dark dead dove trash.#and i had antis get mad at me bc their fave fluffy fic was written by. gasp. a proshipper.#and yeah that soured me to existence on ao3.#getting into the rise of anti culture is a whole other discussion that'd have me going on for hours but i will shut up now.#wow this got long. i like to fucking talk don't i.
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