#and it's gotten to the point where they just dislike me and think i'm lazy and i'm so far beyond the point of communicating anything because
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how are you supposed to communicate with people who don't understand what adhd does. because i've tried to explain and i just get met with "well you just have to find a solution. tell us what we should do" i literally don't know is the thing
#🦔#sighhh#and it's gotten to the point where they just dislike me and think i'm lazy and i'm so far beyond the point of communicating anything because#it literally changes nothing#i know the answer is when i move out (its my parents) but fucking hell#really upsetting that my shitbag sister who doesn't contribute anything and constantly reminds us she hates us is considered more valuable#to the family because she happens to currently have a job#she steals my moms stuff and leaves the house filthy but i'm the one who gets warned that i won't always be allowed to live here#i'll be fine it's just annoying.
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Oh that mental image of him breaking down and his Dragonite gently holding him until he's ready to hug back--crying in the club fr I wanna write this scene so much
Another personal hc that I have is definitely one that has a lot of self-projecting onto it. Mostly from the throw away line of 'my knees are creaking' and how the other E4s run to the end of the arena while he takes his sweet time. Couple that with lines on how he fell asleep and is always just resting at the club, a part of me likes to think that he's got some health issues. Maybe joint pain or something that causes chronic exhaustion.
Drayton isn't all too bad with his classes schoolwork wise but he fails primarily on his lack of attendance. Maybe it's partially from days where getting out of bed is hard, or when he can't pretend that everything's all fine and dandy. Sitting down often because standing or walking too long causes his knees to act up. Napping when he can cause he's just low-key tired all the time.
Perhaps he wouldn't have gotten the reputation of being lazy and a slacker if he just spoke up about it but no. He gives me the vibes of someone who dislikes pity, having a level of pride where he prefers to handle stuff on his own. He's got a system with his Pokemon where they help him on bad days. Shame that's how people saw him but it's not like he's making an effort to dispel it anyway. He'd hate it if those displeased looks turned to pity instead
But I'm also a sucker for days where he just can't summon up the energy to pretend around people, and while most just chalk it up to him being lazy again, maybe his friends can tell and help make things a little easier.
(Again, that's just my personal hc with a healthy dose of self projection. I just love putting him through situations haha)
Omf cndmcndm yeah yeah I get that I understand that that hit me right at home lmfaooo
No but, imagine if the reason behind that too is bc how grueling the training of Drayden was. Cause I also have this small hc that Iris really tried to keep up w Drayden's 10k push ups, sit ups, and squats during their training too (so she's a bit built thanks to that lmfao), but Drayton couldn't keep up w that, he tries but he couldn't, his body wasn't frail to say the least, but he wasn't built like Drayden or Iris, his body was a bit weaker compared to theirs, so when he tries, even when he did warm ups beforehand, it'd still leave his body quite sore
That plus the lil hc I have that he always waits for Iris to come back home most nights, so he stays up late most of the time too, making him tired the next day
But yeah, with his pride, he always refuse to get help, to the point he conditioned himself that there really is nothing wrong w him, but there is y'know, and sometimes he can't handle it anymore. There was once his body just needed rest that he didn't go to school at all, it resulted in his fam telling him if he's that lazy then he should just stop going to school and just help around the house, after all, he isn't trusted enough for the gym, wasn't motivated enough to do any kind of work, not even w school, so what's he gonna do
Anyways yeah, this I canon in my heart anon, just let the boy sleep in he deserves it
#i do love how the rest of the e4 notices maybe#amarys is always the one who notices it first#then she goes to tell crispin#who then tells lacey#then lacey just up and sometimes forces drayton to take a break#w dray really just going 'well cant say no to a break'#other students would often just question the bb e4 bc drayton is already a slacker he doesnt even do much why are they giving him a break#but the e4 knew better than to share. it wasnt their secret to tell#they know how grueling it was for him to keep up w his family so while sometimes they disagree and argue on things#they do really care abt each other#even their resident slakoth drayton#oughhgh new unova kids#pls now i wanna make hcs abt the four of them ncmdnd#plus kieran maybe bc hes also cool and he and crispin seems close hahah#pokemon hcs#an ask and an answer#anon#edit: also anon!! if you do write it tag me or send it here too i would love to read it!! hahaha
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Answer all of it, all 99 questions
1: Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed?
I don't have a closet as in a separate space,but I don't keep my wardrobe open either.
2: Do you take the shampoos and conditioner bottles from hotel?
I haven't slept in a hotel for a long time,but I'm pretty sure my family does have the habit of keeping the toiletries.
3: Do you sleep with your sheets tucked in or out?
I don't sleep under sheets or blankets in this climate.
4: Have you ever stolen a street sign before?
I haven't,but on the year I graduated from secondary school I was attending a New Year's Eve party with some friends and we decided to walk to our school at night for reasons. We didn't remove anything from the school grounds,but I turned off some lights and moved signs around.
Then when we got back to the party I got a call from my mom saying the house we were living in at the time was broken into. So that's ironic.
5: Do you like to use post-it notes?
No,but I do have a reminder on the home screen of my phone.
6: Do you cut out coupons but then never use them?
I don't use physical coupons,but I probably have a few in digital storefronts that have yet to be used.
7: Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of a bees?
The swarm of bees seems more manageable and also not carnivorous to humans...usually.
8: Do you have freckles?
I do not,only acne.
9: Do you always smile for pictures?
Often,yes.
10: What is your biggest pet peeve?
When people think that pointing out grammatical/spelling errors is a meaningful response to their social/political opponents like "good" people can't be bad at spelling and grammar too.
11: Do you ever count your steps when you walk?
I don't recall having such a habit.
12: Have you ever peed in the woods?
Probably.
13: What about pooped in the woods?
Probably not.
14: Do you ever dance even if theres no music playing?
A little.
15: Do you chew your pens and pencils?
I do not.
16: How many people have you slept with this week?
None in any definition of the term.
17: What size is your bed?
The bed I currently sleep in is queen-sized.
18: What is your Song of the week?
youtube
19: Is it okay for guys to wear pink?
Yes,but it's better for guys to wear nothing at all.
20: Do you still watch cartoons?
I don't watch TV and barely follow any kind of serialized media most of the time.
21: Whats your least favorite movie?
I can't think of any movie that I have watched and particularly dislike to call it my least favourite.
22: Where would you bury hidden treasure if you had some?
I would put it in a safe instead of burying it.
23: If you’re a girl, bra size? If you’re a guy, pants size?
I do not wear a bra. My pants size ranges from 35-38 inches depending on material.
24: What do you dip a chicken nugget in?
I do not often use sauces on food.
25: What is your favorite food?
I often like anything that prominently uses eggs as an ingredient.
26: What movies could you watch over and over and still love?
A.I. Artificial Intelligence makes me cry every time.
27: Last person you kissed/kissed you?
My mom,which is to be expected.
28: Were you ever a boy/girl scout?
When I was much younger,I tried to get into Royal Rangers,which was a church thing for a bit,but never did much with it.
29: Would you ever strip or pose nude in a magazine?
I wouldn't say no,but it'd probably take a lot of practice.
30: When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper?
I don't remember,I don't like writing by hand.
31: Can you change the oil on a car?
Yes,"my" car is falling apart and often requires simple maintenance.
32: Ever gotten a speeding ticket?
Probably not.
33: Ever ran out of gas?
Yes.
34: Favorite kind of sandwich?
What comes to mind is a Subway meatball sub with BBQ,mayonnaise,and thousand island sauce.
35: Best thing to eat for breakfast?
I like fried eggs/bacon/sausage,so on. Cereal is fine too. But most days we just eat bread.
36: What is your usual bedtime?
11-12pm
37: Are you lazy?
Yes.
38: When you were a kid, what did you dress up as for Halloween?
No such thing here.
39: What is your Chinese astrological sign?
I was born in a year of the Pig.
40: Are you horny?
Yes.
41: Do you have any magazine subscriptions?
I haven't for a long time.
42: Which are better legos or lincoln logs?
I'm more familiar with Legos.
43: Are you stubborn?
Some people think I am.
44: Who is better…Leno or Letterman?
All I know about one of them is that Jay Leno once built a car out of a tank's engine,which is pretty great.
45: Ever watch soap operas?
Back when I used to watch TV,I did watch a fair bit of that kind of show.
46: Are you afraid of heights?
A fair bit. It's the falling that is scarier.
47: Do you sing in the car?
Sometimes.
48: Do you sing in the shower?
No.
49: Do you dance in the car?
It's probably ill-advised.
50: Ever used a gun?
Not a live firearm,but something close to it. In any event,I wasn't selected for national service (which was quite poorly managed in this country anyway),so I haven't received that training.
51: Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer?
Probably several years ago,when I needed an ID to begin attending college.
52: Do you think musicals are cheesy?
Often,and that's a good thing.
53: Is Christmas stressful?
Not particularly,as my nuclear family unit does not celebrate it.
54: Ever eat a pierogi?
It's basically a wantan/dumpling,so yes.
55: Favorite type of fruit pie?
McDonalds' apple pie is fine.
56: Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid?
The first ambition I had as a kid was to be a doctor,which is fine. When I got a bit older,circumstances in my life gave me an admiration of lawyers? Which I've certainly missed the boat on pursuing.
57: Do you believe in ghosts?
Maybe there are beings that we can't easily perceive,and maybe some of those beings come from dead people. I don't think a lot about such things however.
58: Ever have a Deja-vu feeling?
Sometimes.
59: Take a vitamin daily?
Used to be a habit for my family,but not recently.
60: Wear slippers?
Not in the house.
61: Wear a bath robe?
I do not.
62: What do you wear to bed?
Usually just my shorts.
63: First concert?
Never been to a large live concert before.
64: Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart?
Aeon.
65: Nike or Adidas?
I've probably seen more Adidas branded things in my life.
66: Cheetos Or Fritos?
Cheetos are okay.
67: Peanuts or Sunflower seeds?
Peanuts are easier to open.
68: Ever hear of the group Tres Bien?
I have not.
69: Ever take dance lessons?
Back when I was in school,a bit.
70: Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing?
The person I love most hasn't settled on a profession yet.
71: Can you curl your tongue?
Yes,I can.
72: Ever won a spelling bee?
No,but I've won medals for other academic contests before.
In my last year of school,I joined the choral speaking group because they practiced during some classes,and we went on to win second place in a district contest out of a field of like 40 other schools.
73: Have you ever cried because you were so happy?
I don't think I have.
74: Own any record albums?
I do not.
75: Own a record player?
I do not.
76: Regularly burn incense?
Might be nice to make a habit of,but not currently.
77: Ever been in love?
Often and abundantly.
78: Who would you like to see in concert?
I don't particularly care to attend concerts.
79: What was the last concert you saw?
None.
80: Hot tea or cold tea?
Milo.
81: Tea or coffee?
Still Milo.
82: Sugar or snickerdoodles?
Something made with sugar is probably better than plain sugar.
83: Can you swim well?
I cannot.
84: Can you hold your breath without holding your nose?
However,I can.
85: Are you patient?
Most of the time.
86: DJ or band, at a wedding?
Either,it'll be interesting to see their setlist.
87: Ever won a contest?
I don't remember.
88: Ever have plastic surgery?
I have not.
89: Which are better black or green olives?
Both are fine.
90: Can you knit or crochet?
I can sew.
91: Best room for a fireplace?
The room where things may need burning.
92: Do you want to get married?
I might,but it is unlikely that I will be legally allowed to do so in my lifetime.
93: If married, how long have you been married?
I am not married.
94: Who was your HS crush?
I had a few.
95: Do you cry and throw a fit until you get your own way?
I sure hope not. (But sometimes I wish I could.)
96: Do you have kids?
No.
97: Do you want kids?
I do not think I could raise them the way they may need.
98: Whats your favorite color?
Blue,always.
99: Do you miss anyone right now?
No one in particular.
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you don't have to at all but can you write something about thick thighs, ass and a chubby stomach? I'm just feeling insecure :(<3
Of course I can <3 I have em’ too.
Every body is a beautiful body and I think that we all deserve to imagine ourselves being praised. If your body type doesn’t reflect this do not feel poorly plz <3
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Harry loved touching her.
It was like he couldn’t stop, his hands always wandering as she got close to him in any capacity- but it was a real problem when it came to her bottom half.
There was something about the softness. The plush thighs and the way it felt under his hands, the smooth skin and how warm it was. His hands wandered over her ass whenever she stepped close enough, moving it in his palms and flexing his fingers over the curve of it. There was endless praise always ready to pour from his mouth whenever she didn’t swat him away.
“Baby, I can’t stop.” His rasp was in her ear as she laid next to him, hands trailing over her body. Whenever she wore one of his shirts, it was more of a crop top on her. It was so fucking hot to him, seeing her walk around with it on and her soft stomach and thighs displayed for him, ass covered in panties instead. He loved her body for every bit it was, and it was an obsession.
“I know.” She laughed as she felt his body molded against hers. One holding her lower stomach and the other running over her thighs. His face buried in her neck, pressing baby kisses against her warmth. “I hear it every day, H.”
“Just want t’make sure you know how much I love it.” He sighed. “Love the way you move. S’like art. All of those statues in the museum… look just like them, but better.” The vibrations could be felt on her skin. His fingers trailing the softness of her skin and loving every bit. He didn’t mind any fold of skin. Every inch was her, the woman he adored, and he found her to be modern art. “Just want t’love on you, yeah? Let me do that today.”
Harry had days where he was exceptionally needy, but when she wore a shirt of his and walked around? It was one of those things that set him off. He gently pushed her to lay down on the couch, moving to be between her legs. Laying himself down, he began to press kisses over her thighs. Hands splayed put on them, squeezing lightly as he sighed into the skin. They were thick and easy to hold. Even better was biting and bruising them with his affectionate bites and sucking, but he was genuinely loving on her right now. Moving between each thigh and only ever giving a gentle love nip here and there before moving up to her stomach.
It was there that he nuzzled into the softness. Curves were a weakness of his but he had gotten it all with Y/N. His appreciation for her larger thighs, her generous ass and her stomach. It had been an area she had at one point disliked being touched, but with how gentle and genuinely affectionate Harry was with it? She didn’t mind him loving on her. It wasn’t like he ever disliked a woman’s body before. He had been with people of all shapes and sizes- but something about being able to sink his fingers and teeth into her skin and how warm she was really got to him. How she felt against him. The rounded curves and how they moved when he touched her.
“Love your stomach.” He said muffled against the skin, holding on to her. “S’so soft. Warm. And s’gonna have my baby in there eventually.” She could feel his smirk against her, giving a gently tug of his hair to ‘scold’ him for the remark. It was too early to discuss children but he seemed to like the idea of it. “Perfect body f’me, cause it’s yours. I love it so much. I hope you know that.”
“It’s a bit hard for me to forget. You can’t keep your paws off.” She laughed, shaking her head as his hands snuck under her and hugged himself to her body. Face pressed against tummy, sighing happily with another lazy kiss against it.
“And I won’t. You’re mine and you have me permission so… I will worship you any chance you get. I will return to it after my nap. My favorite place.” He hugged himself closer, hiding some of his face under the shirt and wiggling to get comfortable. He placed her thighs around him, feeling warm and snug with her surrounding him. He wouldn’t change a single thing.
“Brat. I thought we were gonna watch bake off?” Her laugh ran through again making him blow a raspberry into her stomach, furthering her giggle. His favorite sound, his favorite place, his favorite girl. “Is that how it is? Using me for my soft stomach and my warm body? Just a pillow to you??” She taunted, feeling him grumble.
“No. Shhh. We can watch n’discuss later. It’s.. nap time. Counting sheep. Never allowed to wear shirts unless they’re mine again.” He made a lump under the shirt where it covered his eyes from the light while the rest of his face was exposed, letting her pinch his cheek. His words slightly slurred in his sleepy time induced tone. “If you’re a good girl I’ll wake you up with my tongue in your pussy. Jus’ let me catch up on some sleep. Wore me out last night.”
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No drive
When I was a teen I took driver's ed, just like everyone else. I hated it. I hated driving, I hated being behind the wheel, I hated being in theoretical control of a two tun hunk of metal that could kill me, my passengers, or innocent bystanders if I did something wrong. I was in a constant state of high-stress vigilance whenever I was driving. I could concentrate ONLY on driving. No radio, no conversations, just driving.
Practice lessons with family members were... not good. The few times I managed to relax enough to think I was doing okay I'd go to make a turn and my family member (mom, dad, or sister) would slam their foot on the floor and clutch at the door handle. I was not speeding. I am incapable of speeding. I have enough trouble getting up to the speed limit.
Needless to say, I never got around to getting tested to get my license. I've managed okay without it. Family and friends were happy to drive me around and buses are great. I've received a lot of condescension, insults, and disbelief over the years, but I've managed to mostly ignore it.
However, my mom is getting older and it's harder for her to get around. She's reaching the point where she's uncomfortable with driving, herself. There is a SIGNIFICANT amount of increased pressure for me to get my license even though I haven't been behind the wheel of a car for almost 30 years. The comments from other people (not my mom) have gotten more frequent and more hostile. I've been told I'm not "pulling my weight" to help my mom in her time of need. It doesn't matter how much I DO do for her, I don't drive and that means I'm a useless deadbeat mooching off my mother's goodwill.
The guilt and shame are eating me alive. I have considered trying to get my license, but what was a severe dislike as a teen has turned more into outright fear now. The thought of driving makes me nauseous. I don't know if I'd be able to do it without throwing up or bursting into tears. I haven't ruled it out, but I haven't ruled it in, either.
AM I a coward? AM I being lazy and parasitic? I help out a LOT around the house, do all of the cooking, do computer stuff for my mom and help her remember stuff, and have taken up some of the chores she used to love like filling the bird feeders and bird bath and fetching the mail. Just not driving.
It isn't like there aren't any other options. One of my sisters literally lives right next door and is desperate to be helpful. Mom has friends who have volunteered multiple times to drive her around or do errands for her. Of course that would make it seem like she needs help and might inconvenience someone, so it's to be avoided, but still. Should I- as someone recently told me- just put on my big girl panties and step up or is it okay that I hate driving and don't want a license?
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When Kurt made his religion (I checked and it fits the definitionof a non theistic one), I was mega confused on how nobody told him how BAD it would go. Like pause for a second and bare with me: This is the first mutant religion ever. Made on a mutant only island by a ruling council member. The likelihood of it getting mandated by Krakoa for every mutant is pretty high. The mutants with a religious background usually don't allow for more than two systems of beliefs: Where do you think it'll go?
This just proves that writers and espically Hickman don't know anything about Kurt and their idea of a Mutant religion coming from him is one of the laziest bits of writing that required no thought into how it actually would play out. I get it writers, it's cool to shake things up then drop it if it doesn't work, it's only comics right? (By the way I really dislike how people always use this "it's only comics" line to justify why writers can be lazy/give out bad work and we just have to accept it.
You know? If we had gotten other mutants like Sooraya's thoughts on this subject it could have opened up a really interesting read into personal choices/religion etc.
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Kurt's writing has, for a very long time now, been sub par and most of it has to do with writers who keep pushing the religion angle on him. Religion was never supposed to be the entire thing about Kurt's character however even if they did take a very pointed emphasis on it, you really think that Kurt, a character who is known for his kindness, good heart, and acceptance of others would be like "I'm gonna disrespect your beliefs to your face and be a real puritan about it" even the whole make more mutants thing was so badly thought out and I really dislike Way of X for saying Kurt would try to stop safe sex practices from happening.
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F.A.Q./Tags
Why do you go by Scum?
It’s just a nickname that I like! I don’t like my real name and would rather not go by it online. If calling me straight up 'Scum' is uncomfortable, you can call me 'Scummy'.
Do you write for ships?
If I like the ships in question, sure! Sometimes I might not if I think one character is too hard to write for, though.
Why don’t you write fantasy themes?
I am, not that creative, to be blunt HAHA. I get that Ikevamp is fantasy technically, but hard fantasy is something I can’t do. 'Realistic' fiction is my strong suit.
Why do you screenshot replies?
Sometimes I'd like to open more discussion on what is being talked about if it's game related, with tumblr's new feature of being able to change which of your blogs can reply to a comment now, I don't need to screenshot replies as often as I used to.
This is a side blog?
Yeah, I don't talk about my 'main' blog often since I'll occasionally reblog horror art or similar uncomfy things, and I honestly don't use it much.
My main is @strawberry-scum, and my likes/follows come from that blog. If you want to block me properly, you'll need to block that blog (and this one!). If you only block my writing blog, I can still interact with your posts from main and I won't be able to realize you have me blocked!
I tagged you in something and you didn't respond...
Sometimes I don't get notifs for tags! I have realized Tumblr has added a feature to where if OP has me blocked, or if I have OP blocked, I don't seem to get notifs when I am tagged on their post and I can't reblog them!
But also, I tend to forget to respond to tags at times. I enjoy them!! I am happy to be tagged! I am just a scatter brain and forget to respond later.
Tags for folks who may wanna blacklist them:
‘Replies’- This is for the posts where I reblog/ screenshot replies to my posts.
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‘Spoilers’- On the off chance I reblog anything containing some spoilers, I’ll be using this tag. It also applies to any recent routes/events that are either ongoing or relatively new, and jp spoilers.
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looking at the gifs from the last episode ball with kate in the orange dress dancing with edwina I can't believe people really write analyses and fics where the two of them keep fighting and hurting each other. they're family, the point is that they love each other even if they unintentionally hurt each other. kate loves edwina and that's why she forgives her the half sister comment and everything, and edwina loves kate and that's why she forgives her the dishonesty. I'm fine with fics where authors prolong their fight a little and don't make their patching things up seem as easy and quick as it seemed in the show and do more in depth into the hurt they felt and caused, but total cold shoulder, mean and insulting to each other is just baffling. otoh, the post about how they're not fighting about anthony but their own issues with each other - I don't think that it quite came across like that in the show and that's why I think many people dislike that plot. I think we can see that's what the writers may have intended, but I don't think they quite succeeded in conveying that. I can't pinpoint exactly where they failed, whether it the pacing, or directing or frankly subpar dialogue in episodes 5-6 or whatever else, but IMO the show comes short of making it clear it's about two women and their sisterly conflicts and not the man both have some sort of relationship with. ideally for me, the writing simply would not have gotten as far as the wedding and edwina would have her reaction (at some point) after the sheffields dinner and I think the "I didn't ask for this" line would come across better in the sense of societal pressure on debutantes and the pressure she felt to marry well from her family and lady danbury. edwina would still find out about kate and anthony obviously, I don't have specific ideas how lol. as much as I don't mind the featheringtons side plots and other subplots, spending a little less time on all that and a little more on the main story would definitely improve everything.
I KNOOOOOOW. Like it wasn’t perfectly written or executed but at the end of the day they reconciled. Sorry if some people aren’t happy with that? And yeah extending the fight/reconciliation makes sense since it wasn’t properly fleshed out in show but I agree that making it so that they cut each other out of their lives or are cruel and not understanding? Again I have to ask what show are you watching? Lol.
But yeah the show definitely in the weakest way possible tries to hit the points that I brought up but they definitely fail. I think I’ve said it before but the show doesn’t ever take a clear stance on anything. Everything is so muddled and poorly written or paced out so that the end result is what we’re getting in fandom: truly wild takes on literally every aspect of the show.
I don’t mind the getting all the way to the altar but that’s just cause I like mess. But yeah the way the fallout was handled/written was craaaaazy sloppy. That speech Edwina gives in the church is so valid for a good chunk of it but it literally does not make sense in the context of the episode. Lol. And since the show ends up pushing the ‘sisters fighting over a man’ narrative more to an anything cause they’re fucking lazy it makes that whole speech about her life and the role Kate has been playing in it about Anthony WHEN IT IS LITERALLY NOT.
#*insert old man yells at cloud pic*#I was worried you wouldn’t come back anon#bless you#I’m a freak and can’t share my opinions unless asked lol#otherwise I feel annoying
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Oh man I think I typed that out directly after opening my eyes and then rolled over and went back to sleep 😅
@tatjana-fantasy you made me think about how the lead creative for Man of Medan also made the devil in me and how that's important in showing how they've learned and grown over the anthology and every bit of good from the devil in me is a direct reflection of the quality and improvement of the whole anthology and how specifically important it is to the legacy of man of medan being that they started and finished with the same creative(maybe there really is something to tdim's creative vision/art process themes in regards to where MoM and the quarry stand)
@delurkr I'll admit that I haven't gotten into a lot of the other things he's worked on but Jason Graves music for until dawn and the anthology just set the tone perfectly and make them feel even more interconnected, on top of all that the way music in the devil in me bleeds into general sound design with the score complimenting the diegetic music and how the line between the two blurs in some intense moments is amazing
It's safe to say I have zero doubts about directive 8020 and all the future dark pictures titles
@badideaart also 100% "popular gaming channels stop hate playing the dark pictures with zero intention to do anything other than crap on it to their giant audiences with little regard as to how that effects the games public reception" challenge, impossible apparently!
I don't care who it is if their low to no attention has them missing the point and then spreading the idea that they're cheap, lazy, shallow titles to their audiences who are more invested in their personalities then the actual content of what's happening on screen, then I'm not touching it. The way some people were about previous entries sealed the deal for me not touching their tdim run and I'm only making slight exceptions for people who are like that with everything(for humour) and there for the audience gets that it's not an accurate representation of the game
But yeah it's really easy to not play a game you dislike, it'd be one thing if they played man of medan after liking until dawn and then went "oh this isn't for me" but four games over 2019-2022? No bodies forcing them if they hate it so much
And to end on a slightly more positive note, I must commend how amazingly they did on a much smaller budget, it's hit after hit and they aren't stopping anytime soon
i think i really like the dark pictures anthology because they put. so much freaking effort into every aspect of these games.
yeah the mocap is a little janky, yeah there are glitches, but they're working with what they've got in terms of funding and technology. it's the WRITING, man, that blows me away. what a (super)massive undertaking that must be!! the script writer for until dawn said in an interview that he used microsoft excel to keep all the branching story beats straight, and it was only after the game's release that the studio developed their own program specifically to write this flavor of game. so so so cool, are you kidding me??
until dawn gets so much love and deserves it, but i want more people to talk about dark pictures too. these games are just so earnest about what they want to be, and the creative integrity shown by the studio is refreshing compared to the majority of media that's designed to appeal to the widest audience possible. each story is completely unashamed to emulate a specific horror subgenre, and you can just tell the devs had fun when coming up with the plot, mechanics, and visuals.
and on top of that, they put in the extra thought and effort necessary to give these stories genuinely meaningful themes; in little hope, dealing with self-forgiveness in the midst of grief, in house of ashes, an anti-war stance that a lot of studios wouldn't touch for commercial reasons, and in the devil in me, commentary on art of all things. they could have totally just done a simple saw trap route a la josh's maniac setup in until dawn, but instead they made the overarching story about the artistic process, especially relating to macabre subject matter like true crime. of course there are still plenty of ridiculous saw traps and genre-typical cliches, but there's MORE to it than that, and the game probably would have sold just as well if deeper themes hadn't been included. if they don't know supermassive, people are most likely playing the game for the saw trap stuff, but surprise! this game has a really cool story too! it has fantastic execution of branching storytelling, brilliant atmospheric tension, and a mystery with the curator than spans over multiple games! i could say similar things about each of the other entries, that they go far beyond their gimmicks and deserve your attention.
i see the dark pictures games and think to myself, "yeah, these are where supermassive's creative passion really lies." say what you want about the quarry, but it felt dryer, less inspired, more phoning-it-in storywise compared to until dawn and dpa. it's still a cool game, but compared to dpa i just don't think it was supermassive's favorite project to work on. i almost wonder if some of the artistic commentary in the devil in me is a projection of the development staff having to split their time between dpa and the quarry, given the fact that both games were 2022 releases.
i don't really have a point here, except that the dark pictures anthology is a very cool and innovative flavor of horror media and i love it to bits. i can't play it, because i'd have a panic attack, but i sure do wish more people talked about it. and i'm SUPER excited to see what supermassive does next with dpa in directive 8020!!
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ING! I'm so happy with what you have done with my previous requests, so can I ask something else? Ok, so what if reader is L's wife and they "adopt" Near, Mello and Matt, I mean L's still a detective and wammy's boys are still a bunch of smart ass geniuses but I just want to see them feeling they have something else besides solving cases. Thanks love xxx
So, since it'sNovember 1st and I am officially inChristmas mode, I made this a little bit Christmas themed aha.
Enjoy, my lovely! x
Mello, Matt and Near never had a goodChristmas.
Christmas just wasn't something theyparticularly enjoyed, ever. They saw it as a kind of trick. Anillusion. Hand the world something happy to mess with for a day, andthey seem to forget about all of the bad in the world.
It was a day wasted. Putting up atree in the corner and showering undeserving people with gifts didn'tmake the crime rate go down, and it certainly did nothing for yourIQ. It was pointless.
All three of them sat with you now,though, discussing just how much they disliked the holiday, and youcould hardly believe your ears. You hadn't grown up in an orphanage,forced to study for 24 hours a day, but you found it hard to believethat anybody disliked the idea of Christmas.
You guffaw for a moment as Mattfinishes off his sentence, saying the only good thing he got out ofthe holiday was a lie in.
“That's – wow,” you mutter,placing your hands flat in front of you to make it seem like youweren't completely freaking out on the inside. “I didn't – That'san interesting way to look at it.”
“Yes,” L, your husband, says frombeside you. “It seems like Roger really did do something bad withyou lot once I left. Not even I'm that much of soul-sucker.”
You roll your eyes at your husbandsnickname for the smaller kids in front of you. They had become likefamily to you, and you found yourself growing more and moreprotective over them as the days went on.
It suddenly made you want to prove tothem that Christmas was a happy time of year, a time for a rest, atime to relax. They of all people needed it.
“Have you ever gotten gifts forChristmas?” you ask.
All three of them shake their heads,Mello adding in a scoff of disbelief at the mere suggestion. Youcrinkle your nose up and sigh.
“Well, do you want anythingfor Christmas?”
“A lie in,” Matt says. “That'sall I want. This whole 'getting-up-at-the-crack-of-dawn-thing isreally affecting me. If Kira doesn't take me out, my exhaustionwill.”
“No, no,” you hiss, shaking yourhands vigorously. “I mean, anything physical. A new game youwant, or a toy or a damn – whatever it is you do, Mello.”
“Cadbury Dairy Milk Oreo Bar,”Mello hums, licking his lips.
“We have twelve of those in thefridge,” Near points out. “Please, no more.”
You flick your eyes between the threepeople in front of you, and your stomach clutches a little bit insadness. They had never experienced a true Christmas before – theyhad been turned against the idea before they had even gotten thechance to enjoy it. It seemed like a long-shot, trying to get them toenjoy a day they had been turned against, but it was worth a try.
You couldn't leave them like this.December 25th couldn't pass without you at least tryingto get them in the Christmas spirit.
The next few days pass and theDecember days get colder. Snow begins to coat the ground, making yourtreks back and forth from work ten times more difficult than theyneed to be, though you would never take the car. L's irrational fearof somebody cutting the breaks had you walking the short distancefrom your home to your job as a bakers assistant.
It wasn't the best job. It paid wellenough to keep your bills paid and food on your table, but it was Lwho brought in most of the money. He had offered to pay foreverything, allow you to quit your job to become some sleezy couchpotato, but you had declined, the mere idea enough to make you wince.
Today, the shop was almost full evenas you walked in the back doors for your morning shift. Yourco-workers bustle around one another, cranking out pies and Christmascakes for the long line of waiting customers which slowly begins toget shorter and shorter as you get to work.
Even as you work, though, the thoughtof Matt, Mello and Near still plagues your brain. You had spent thepast three days searching for things they would like, only to come tothe realisation that they didn't really show much interest inanything bar their studies and the Kira case. They had no hobbies –unless you counted Near's hoarding of dominos and Mello's obsessionwith chocolate. Matt had games, but he played everything. There wasnever any game that you would look at and think, Matt would lovethat.
Something hadto be done, though. You had to get them something, and maybe itwouldn't be too big or too meaningful to them, but it would besomething. Maybe it would be the one thing that could kick off theirchildhood again, give them a little slice of what they had beenmissing out on all these years.
“Is my wifehere?” you hear from the front of the shop as closing time dawns onyou. The December nights became longer, meaning it was only 6:00pmand pitch black outside.
You wipe yourhands on a towel and head out to the front, surprised to see Lstanding over the counter, pointing at a Christmas cake he had takena liking to.
“Made byyours truly,” you grunt, making L look up.
He smilesupon seeing you, a sight which lifted your exhaustion just a littlebit. “Ah, finally. I've been waiting for you for a while. Were youbusy today?”
“Yep,”you reply. “How are Matt, Mello and Near?”
“The same.Helping me with the case, arguing like children. Nothing new.”
You pout,pressing a napkin to your cheek. “I'm really stuck on this wholeChristmas situation, L. I don't know what to do for it.”
L frowns,your words confusing him. “We have a Christmas situation?”
“I wantthem three to have Christmas this year. I was gonna go out and buythem stuff, but they're so – so stationary thatI don't even know where to start with them. What would they like?”
L looks atyou for a moment, confusion etching his features. You keep your eyestrained on him, trying to decipher whatever it is he is thinking,hoping and praying that he has something useful – an idea of whatto get them. Something thatwill start you off on your gift-buying journey for the only familyyou had had these past few years.
Finally, heshrugs and reaches a hand over the counter. “Why don't we go look,huh? The shops are still open, and I'd love to go and look at theChristmas lights with you.”
And so youand L shop. You shop until there are no more open shops to lookinside of, hand-in-hand almost the entire time. You are reminded inthis moment just how much you adored the man at your side. Just howgrateful you were for him and all the little things he did to helpyou live a safe life.
The nightends, a shopping bag in each of your hands, with your head layingagainst the detective's shoulder. The two of you are sat on a benchin the dark, the only light being the tiny bursts of colour comingfrom the Christmas lights above you – and the sight is peaceful.Peaceful in a world full of hatred, a world you experienced firsthand being with L Lawliet. You came face-to-face with some of thevilest criminals, got knee deep in each of their cases, and yet rightnow there was a theme of serenity.
It was justyou and your husband and the Christmas lights, and you wanted nothingmore.
December25throlls around all too slowly. You anticipate it long before it's uponyou, blasting Christmas music as a way to get the three younger onesout of bed, jumping around the living room in fluffy Christmas sockswhilst rigging your Christmas jumper to light up so you can be thatlittle bit more extra in the Christmas month.
You weren'tusually so festive around Christmas. The odd Christmas movie andChristmas song would suffice, but this year had to be different. Youhad to show Mello, Matt and Near everything Christmas had to offer.
“It'sChristmas Day!” you yell on the morning of December 25th.You had woken L up in the exact same way, and now you were busytrailing him down the hallway to the younger ones room.
“They'renot gonna be happy you woke them, Y/N,” L grunts, stumbling intostep beside you. You don't pay him any attention as you burst throughthe door of Mello, Matt and Near's room, immediately putting All IWant For Christmas on blast on your phone.
You singalong to the words at full pelt, letting L's hand drop from your ownas you busy yourself with making the biggest ruckus you possibly can.Mello barely moves, but Matt and Near sit upright almost immediately,looking at you with lazy and tired eyes.
“It's stilldark outside,” Near points out. “Get out.”
“-DON'TWANT A LOT FOR CHRISTMAS!” you exclaim, falling to your knees onMello's bed. He grunts, attempting to kick you off of it but youquickly grab his foot, pulling him off of his own bed in one quickmotion. Near and Mello both giggle as Matt falls against the carpetedfloor, quickly bundling himself into a ball in an attempt to go backto sleep.
“Come on,Mihael,” you holler, landing beside him and pulling him up. “It'sChristmas Day. We've got presents to unwrap, food to eat. Come on,come on, come on!”
“Presents?”Matt questions. “You got up gifts?”
“We bothgot you gifts,” you say. “Now let's go and open them before I dieof old age.”
You and Llead the three of them downstairs, you and L hand-in-hand. The livingroom is lit up only by the lights from the Christmas tree and thewreath on your fire place, and you leave it like that. It has a niceambience to it, and there's just enough glistening light that youdon't need to watch your step whenever you move.
It means youcan make a straight B-line for the sofa, where you sit yourself downto watch on in excitement at the project you had been working onsince the start of December.
The presentsline the wall, wrapped up with pretty bows on them with each of theboys names on them. The Christmas decorations enclose them, givingthe room an aesthetic you had only seen on Pinterest and stupidFacebook pages you had been forced to follow to make all of thiswork. The cookies sat on the other sofa, Mello lazily biting into achocolate chip one as his eyes trailed over the gifts lining thewall.
“These arefor us?” Near says, and his voice comes out so small and innocentthat it breaks your heart a little bit.
You smile andnod, gesturing for them all to dig in.
You wantthem to enjoy themselves. You want them to know that there's more tolife than just criminal cases and studies. There's a whole other sideof life that is blissful to live in if you just open yourself up toit enough.
Matt is thefirst one to start unwrapping the presents, searching through thearray of gifts for the ones with his name on it. That starts it all –soon, all three of them have fallen to their knees and are laughingat every random present they unwrap, placing them in individual pilesso they know whose is whose.
You watch onfondly, one hand on your chin whilst the other messes with L's hair.He sits beside you, looking on just as fondly at the three boys whoare laughing away and messing with each other, using their presentsto hit each other every now and then.
“They'rebeing kids,” L whispers to you, finally. You turn to him, raising abrow in question. “Wammy Kids don't get the chance to be children.You're giving them that chance.”
You feel asense of pride swell in your stomach as you turn back to look atthem. They look so happy. They look so – so childlike,and you realise, as you watchthem, that they had never held such a sense of innocence before inthe time you'd known them. They were so firm on being these badassdetectives, successors, always in competition to one another, thatthey hadn't let themselves be innocent and vulnerable.
It was arare, and lovely sight to see.
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shit I'm lowkey worried bc a lot of these apply to me and idk if I'm just making a big deal out of nothing or I truly have ADHD.
for example, it's really, truly, difficult to do something I dont want to do. as in, anything outside something I definitely want to do is hard. my dad just calls me lazy and then I end up beating my self up abt it for a while and then cycle repeats bc after I feel bad abt it I dont wanna do anything and etc etc etc
I sometime have trouble saying the words that are in my mind. just today, I was trying to say "sunday" but i ended up saying every other day than Monday before i finally spat out "sunday." again, my dad got really mad at me.
I feel the need to fidget with something, especially when I'm under stress. not just jiggling my knee; if I can, I disassemble and reassemble a pen while trying to focus on what's happening. and what a shocker: my dad totally hates it.
I overanalyze everything a person near me does. even if I'm just walking past them, I'll note their eyes, their facial expression, their body language, before I feel like I'm staring and they think I'm a total weirdo.
I dont know anything abt my limbic system, but it sometimes takes several repeats for me to understand what a person is saying. like i said earlier, my mouth doesn't rly cooperate with my brain when I'm trying to speak (especially with numbers)
I get into these long periods of low self esteem, where I distance myself from my friends a little and say at most two words to my family (not that we speak much anyways). I feel like everything I do isnt up to par and I constantly point out to myself my errors. that is, when I'm not mentally exhausted, which is like 5% of the time.
my codeswitching is extreme and I dont know how to control it. I'll act like a badass in front of one person and not be able to act like a normal human being, cuz I'll literally start screeching "for fun" but then later I'll feel like shit bc of how I acted so weirdly.
the time thing only kinda applies, but only for the long term things.
im hella impulsive. I've climbed over the fence of a baseball diamond, the one the separates the diamond and the bleachers. I've climbed 30 feet up into a tree even though I had no idea how to get back down. I ripped up those squishy toys my friend gave my for my birthday because I wanted to. god the list goes on.
my parents are conservative Indians, and they dont believe in mental illness. my brother was diagnosed with serious depression and they sent him to a fucking yoga class. I dont know how to get help, bc school just ended and I dont know how to handle this kind of thing and I need to talk to a counselor or something. I've only barely started high school and I got a C in my math class both semesters bc I couldnt get myself to ever do my homework. I probably would've gotten at least a B+ if I actually did it. my self esteem is hardly ever normal. I finally feel happy with myself after months of disliking who I am.
what the hell am I supposed to do
Adhd things that need to be talked more about (because adhd is more than just not being able to focus)
Short term memory loss. Seriously, I forget things that are said to me 5 minutes ago or will forget I opened a soda and will have 3 open cans by the end of the day with none of them finished. A lot of people don’t know about this, and so they think that I don’t care enough to listen to what their saying (which I do!!! I just can’t remember it) or that I’m lazy because of all the things I don’t end up doing because I forgot I had to do them.
Lack of motivation. Listen, I honestly can’t do anything on my own for the most part. I have to have someone else tell me to do something or have them set goals for me because it’s so damn difficult for me to do it myself. Again, I’m not lazy, I just have trouble doing things on my own
Language processing difficulties. Sometimes, English and words in general don’t work out in my head. Reading or even listening to someone talk can be extremely difficult for me to understand because my brain just won’t work. Why? Can’t tell you 99% of the time! It’s not that I need to focus, it’s that my brain is just buffering.
Needing multiple forms of stimulation at all times. I have a tin of putty that I keep in my book bag and a smaller one I keep in my purse at all times because of this reason. If I want to learn anything at school, I have to be able to look at something, hear something, and have something to do with my hands. Otherwise, it’s probably a big nope for me. What’s frustrating is that since this isn’t talked about enough, I often get called childish or get looked down upon because I have to play with silly putty in a highschool class.
Hyperfixation. Adhd can mean not being able to focus, but it’s also focusing too much on something! This can mean anything from a certain interest someone is in to at that moment, to something like a song that has been stuck in your head for a week. People seem to not understand this and think that we’re boring and have nothing else to talk about or that we’re annoying because we keep bringing the same things up over and over again but that’s not the case. Trust me, I’m annoyed with the hit or miss song too, but at least it’s not playing in your head constantly like it is for me
These are all the ones I can think of right now, but it’s really important we talk about this stuff more. All of these things that come with adhd can be very frustrating for those around us because they don’t understand that we can’t help it. To an outsider, it may just look like a person with adhd is just lazy and doesn’t care, when it’s actually just how our brains are wired. None of us want to be frustrating to others!! In fact, all of this frustrates us too!! But since adhd is just known as “not being able to focus”, people don’t realize what all comes with it and how it can really fuck everyone over.
Please add more if you can think of anything else!! I’m horrible with lists lol
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