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radioroxx · 5 months ago

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hmmmm mal du pays thoughts tonight

#radio rambles #i should go to bed but. it is on the mind #isat spoilers #<- for the . wall of tags to come #imm wondering what most people hc mdp to like. be #i know its most popular to see it as siffrins sadness. i do think thats p neat #and probably the intention #but im. juggling around the idea of? siffrin system moment? mdp as a headmate? if yall see that vision?#most inspired by that ‘do u hc this character as a system’ post abt siffrin #and i voted no then but now im like genuinely changing my mind JFKFKF #it makes sense in a way. and into my mdp hc that it. wouldve split while sif was very young #splitting due to stress which leads to a lot of. gestures vaguely. mdp’s whole thing #a mix of stress but also this sense of longing to. belong somewhere. to not be alone #many years ago it was about the loss of their home. and much later on became more related to its feelings towards their family #mdp is a scared child to me . idk about yalls hcs for it but thats what im sticking to #a scared child who maybe grew up a little alongside the body. but still Young and Scared #its not as often or eager to front as siffrin is. i can imagine it being much more hover-y or . POSSIBLY. cohosting if its feeling up to it #uhm. ok well #so i typed this out and now im actually really sad about mdp jgkdkf where is mdp recovery #now im kinda thinking about it fronting for once to properly meet the party and. and receiving comfort. and and and #wow christ im upset #also also glancing over at marias sibling au for character dynamics here….. sillies…..#ps not relevant to my mdp thoughts but fyi im imagining siffin in headspace looks very much like their body #the difference being. much darker clothes. more stars etc. maybe different hair #think like how a lot of ppl style their human loops. thats kinda how i imagine sif in headspace #SPEAKING OF LOOP #i think given the time he spent with them it woulf make sense if they split a loop as well #and ofc other members of the party jgkfkf #im not gonna get into my hcs there because ill b taking away from my mdp hc post BUT #thinking. always thinking

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papermint-airplane · 6 months ago

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Oh my God this save is ridiculously wholesome! The papergirl just randomly pulled a teddy bear out of her bag and started cuddling it. 🥺😭🥺😭🥺

#sims 3 #ts3 #sims 3 gameplay #mine #just horsing around #i was thinking i'd play uriah's save tomorrow #but idk this save is so cute i kinda wanna play in it more now #i have a lot of saves i'm juggling #so get used to my now signature unfocused random gameplay lol

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hoardlikegoldenirises · 2 months ago

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some drawings of TJ as a kid and also as a Troubled Teen. He had a rebellious streak, but, you know, it's difficult to be a teenager with ADHD while also grieving and then get your medications taken away for not being well-behaved enough trying to deal with it all.

I plan to do a part 2 to this showing his 20s and 30s, including a brief buzzcut (lol) but figured i'd post the first part

#also yes those cigarettes are supposed to be long like that i know what cigarettes look like lol. his mom smoked 120s #tj's mom dad and grandma all smoke(d) so he was kind of cursed to inevitably be a smoker #even if they try/tried not to do it around him.#nadiart #not fanart #rough art #scratchverse #tj masterson #i will be real TJ's mom probably called him тортик as a kid since he was kind of chubby and also her cute little boy #cakelet...#tbh his grandma probably still calls him that LMAO #but i think tatek and tachik/tatchik are also in frequent rotation #ftr romeo isn't just like ignoring tj's need necessarily but it's tough to suddenly juggle being a single dad who works full time #with a teenage boy who fights everything and locks himself in his room all day etc. and refuses to eat or talk to you #they fought a lot when TJ was 17/18... when TJ is ~28 and not an angsty teenager they get along much better lol

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aroaessidhe · 1 year ago

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2024 reads / storygraph

Walking In Two Worlds & The Everlasting Road

YA sff set in the near future where an opensource augmented reality is commonly used like social media, and there’s also a completely virtual fantasy game version

follows an Anishinaabe girl who who’s the top player in the VR game, and is constantly fighting to keep her place against the misogynist neo-nazi group in second place

as well as her real life, dealing with being a shy and self-conscious teen growing up on the Rez, and her brother having cancer

and a Uyghur boy who’s moved to her community from China after finding acceptance in an online community (even when he doesn’t agree with their more extreme views) - but when he gets to know Bugz, he has to decide who truly deserves his loyalty

great mix of sff and culture, the future while also very real community traumas of the past (and present)

#walking in two worlds #the everlasting road #wab kinew #aroaessidhe 2024 reads #This has some REALLY interesting and important concepts!#I just think it could have used some more development… Obvs this is YA and I’m an adult I know I’m not quite the audience!#There’s a lot of depth in the setup of the characters but I feel like it skips a lot of the progression #I think there could have been space for more development in a lot of places to make the story feel more dimensional #- but also has so many plot threads that maybe that would have bulked it out too much #It does also jump around quite a bit between the different parts but I think that makes sense with how juggling with irl / online life.#she’s got a lot of internalised fatphobia at the start (and the love interest going “I don’t think you’re fat!!” when people call her fat..#then in book 2 suddenly she’s okay about it - again I wish there was some progression!#her brothers cancer journey is. basically all offscreen lol mostly as set up for plot in book 2. so it doesn't have the emotional impact it #could have..#I liked the way it integrates her culture into the game in a really cool way (though I would have liked more detail there)#also having auto language translators but they regularly don't translate quite right / still run into issues - realistic!#the parallels drawn between his being taken from his family and put in a state education school and Indigenous residential schools #the way that a future world will never be as separate from the past as ur average sff future often portrays #but yeah anyway lots of good ideas execution not so much for me..

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ambrosiagourmet · 7 months ago

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Siiiiigh... I didn't want to do this until the next chapter went up, but I've been writing without a buffer for months now and that has been wearing on me quite a bit. I think it's better to just acknowledge when I need a break, rather than push through and post something I might not be totally happy with.

SO: NRBTS (my post-canon fic) is going on pause! I'm not setting a hard date for it to come back, because the deadline is honestly part of what I need a break from. I need some time to write without one, to write out of order, and to delete things without feeling like I'm "wasting time." I also might want to write some other stuff and not feel like I have to focus all my energy into one place! I think it will be good to ease up and remember that I'm doing this for fun 😅

I'm not going to post more until I have at LEAST two chapter finished, so that means probably at least two months, maybe three. ♥️ sorry it's an unexpected and kinda long break, but I'd rather eventually have a thing I'm proud of than rush to complete a thing I'm only sort of happy with.

#nrbts #I've honestly been pretty in my head with the last two chapters and I think it's because writing against an update deadline #instead of having a buffer #is pretty exhausting for me. at least with the chapter length and pov juggling and the other things about this fic that require #pretty extensive planning ahead #so I'm hoping to be a little less stressed about like 'aaah is this secretly terrible'#or 'will this somehow ruin my future plans for the story three chapters from now'#and in the meantime maybe I'll actually write some of that pac rim au I'M STILL THINKING ABOUT IT A LOT #anyway ♥️#thanks for the patience I'll still be around but fic readers I'll see u when I see u o7 #but I WILL see u again I promise

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holydramon · 28 days ago

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legitimately feel tri would have been way better received (and honestly just a legitimately better series) if it didn’t treat the 02 kids like that

#sorry watching the first couple scenes knowing the context of what they actually did with them??? does in fact frustrate me a lot. it really #felt like they chose to build up a mystery of what happened to the 02 kids but the thing is like. they didn’t get rid of the 02 kids because #it would be interesting or they had a good idea around it. they did it because they just didn’t want to deal with them. and you can just #kinda TELL by how sloppily they were handled.#and like legitimately I do not envy their position because I do think discarding the 02 kids was the RIGHT decision because it’s already #hard enough to juggle all the original 8 and the movie characters but it’s just. man. MAN.#I will forever think that they should have gone with the option of the chosen genuinely believed the 02 kids died like a few years ago or #something. especially because I think that would actually HELP inform the way they did choose to handle the characters.#I know a lot of people hate how they made taichi a bit unsure… less steadfast… and the implication they go with in tri is just that as he #grows up he becomes more aware of collateral damage and danger. and I guess that’s FINE but. why not give him a better reason? I feel people #would be far more forgiving of how they wrote taichi if his hesitance was born from the fact that some of his fellow chosen have DIED. the #danger has always been there. he’s always had to deal with brushes with death. he has already experienced the loss of many good digimon but.#I feel like this would hit him different. the fact that his sister and Takeru would have died too if they hadn’t been busy that day… it #still haunts him. he knows fighting is what’s right but it’s becoming harder to ignore the danger everywhere - he doesn’t necessarily care #what happens to him but… what about everyone else?#I think also in general it would drive a bit of a wedge within the chosen - the ones who think they still need to fight no matter what -#that it’s their DUTY - and the ones that are unsure. the ones that are losing their confidence that it will ever end. the ones who want a #normal life.#THAT’S MY FEELINGS AT LEAST.#I definitely need to rewatch adventure and 02 to fully gauge how accurate I feel this thought process is but. this is my current thoughts #for how I want to handle tri and the 02 kids in YAoYD. if I ever actually. write it.#dramon thoughts

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ame-to-ame · 5 days ago

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#i think it's a little fucked up but a little funny that my mental state is currently at such a bad point where it's like.#any stress sends me into emotionally constipated panic. where it doesn't really show through for the most part. for the most part i seem ok.#and then if you crack me just even a little bit it's like that one modern art piece can't help myself #where im trying my best to juggle and maintain the facade of being fine but you can tell im tired and one deviation away from crumbling down #but can i cry? haha no. instead i just panic. everything sends me into silent panic. and i just think about really dramatic responses.#i hold my breath and worry that if i do anything wrong everything I've worked so so hard for will just come toppling down #because it has before. something you've poured your heart into. something you've cared so much about. can just be. so. out of your control #and you lose your voice and you lose your agency and you lose your will to fight and you lose a little bit of yourself #I don't know if i will ever get it back. it's been a while. I don't know if i can ever regain my confidence back. i miss who i was sometimes #i used to be warm. i used to be sure of myself. i used to carry hope around like a small star. i miss her. the person i was.#someone who could light up a room without trying so hard. someone who could make others smile without giving it too much thought.#someone who could make others feel good about being there and being alive. i barely feel good about myself these days sometimes. somehow.#I don't know how to be that girl anymore. everything feels a little forced. it shouldn't have to feel this hard. it used to feel natural.#i have moments where i feel like myself again. happy. confident. and then im brought back to reality almost immediately.#i feel guilty for feeling good. i feel guilty for being confident. and then i go hating myself again. it does weigh on me. what she said.#im sorry that i used to like myself. im sorry it made you feel bad about yourself. see. i hate myself now. do you forgive me now? hehe #I'll get over it one day. I'll get over it soon. i hate feeling like this. the overwhelming ego death. it makes me feel really shitty.#i hate this hehe i want to run away so badly but i know running away never solves anything you come back and the problem is still there #so i will go through it and i will fail and i will fall and i will stumble and hurt myself and feel humiliated and terrible throughout #but it will be fine. but I'll get through it and realize it wasn't that bad. I'll get through it and try again and again until i get there.#i need to stop seeking validation from people who won't give it. stop seeking comfort from people who won't give it.#stop hanging with people who make me feel worse. and stuff like that. it's like quitting an addiction hhhh i don't get it #i have friends who treat me really well. i have friends who i love and love me a lot.#i just can't quit certain people. part of it is bc im scared of change and part of it is bc i don't want to be more reliant on others #especially the people i do really care about and love and who love me bc. i think. if i have one more abandonment. i will actually. mm.#i think i would fully lose my ability to love new people haha like. romantically and platonically. haha.#but anyway that's the trauma speaking i will overcome it I won't let it control how i live haha #i will be ok i will be ok spring will be here eventually it's just the seasonal stuff #tw health #delete later

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ceramicbeetle · 20 days ago

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kind of astounding how innocuous conversations with my younger siblings can make me feel like dogshit... what are the good things about being the oldest kid supposed to be again??

#N posts stuff #two of my siblings are currently in college and they both talk about it in ways that. hm.#my sister did an accelerated program to graduate high school and go to college Early so she's got kind of an...#'i am the most put together teenager on the planet' attitude a lot at the moment. so. she talks shit about her peers like #'if she'd stop spending money on Product and just Grow UP nd get an apartment and move out of her parents' house already'#and she's like. ragging on a kid who's only Maybe 20 years old and i'm sitting at the table at almost 30 still here like '......'#and my brother has been picking my brain lately about the shit i did in college and how the classes benefitted me and all #bc i went to art school for illustration and he's getting a music degree so it makes sense #but he's like 'was college challenging for you?' and i'm like. trying to figure out how to talk around the fact that i didn't necessarily #have trouble with the Classes but was trying really hard to juggle like. being in so much pain i couldn't walk or like..#trying to do homework while in the midst of a psychotic break or having meltdowns in public restaurants like. that kind of stuff #i don't really like talking about that stuff explicitly bc. idk. it doesn't really go anywhere good. not Bad necessarily #or no worse than overhearing my mom talking to them about the validity of my autism DX behind my back at least.#but i don't talk about it. no one really takes me seriously already so. no need to exacerbate that.#i might crack jokes about it in passing but i don't Talk About It. idk what any of them think about like. any of it. or about Me i guess #idk it's weird. it's Weird bc like.. in a very general sense i feel liek i'm Doing Good. not Fantastic but better than i used to.#and like. OK w the day to day of my life; like i could Keep doing it and have A Future even if i still can't figure out what it'd BE exactl #but then idk. sometimes i hear them talk and it feels like it's just. highlighting everything that i Can't do and it just. feels ugly.#like idk where to put it. idk how to reconcile feeling stupid and small for how i live my life with the fact i otherwise feel like #generally pretty Good about my life. i spent my whole life from elementary school to like. 24 thinking i'd be dead by 18.#and it's like Just Recently i'm like 'oh i actually have a Whole Life ahead of me and thats a Good Thing' but.#like idk how to phrase it. i don't feel Bad about it but it's like i guess i'm stuck wondering if i Should be. is it Bad that i'm content?#like i can't ask the question 'is there something wrong with me' in earnest bc Yes there is but. idk #it all feels like puzzle pieces that don't fit together. 'lets see you take a crack at it wise guy' idk what i'm doing or feeling rn lmao

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seventh-district · 2 months ago

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it’s the last Sunday before Sunday’s banner ends so i suppose it’s about time for me to finally boot up HSR and pull him home… wish me luck

#i’m gonna need it bc i haven’t rlly played much since 2.3 so my savings are.. not Great #honkai star rail #hsr sunday #viddy game stuff #Seven.txt #it’s not that i don’t Want to play i just haven’t made the time to do so lately #i’m trying to juggle 4 live service gacha games at the same time and i am dropping all of the balls constantly 😔#i don’t feel like i’m doing much more than i used to but for some reason i seem to have a lot less free time for gaming lately #idk it’s probably just my time management getting worse #Anyways so yeah i haven’t played much since the Boothill hype. and i haven’t pulled a single new 5 star since his release #but i also haven’t played much at all during that time so i’ve only got 54 pulls saved :)#and if that’s enough to get me Sunday and his LC i’ll lose my fucking mind bc ain’t no way i’ll get that lucky #i Do have a good luck streak with Light Cones but i’ve only pulled for 3 so that’s not that impressive #i got Acheron’s on a won 50/50 at 14(!!!) pity and Aventurine’s on a won 50/50 at 22 pity so those were kinda insane to me #but then i don’t remember how it went for Boothill’s LC and i didnt log those pulls so i couldnt tell ya if the good luck streak continued #so anyways yeah probably gonna have to whale a lil bit but that’s ok bc it’s christmas time #i allow myself to whale (or. more like Dolphin perhaps) guilt-free on these games a lil bit on my birthday and christmas as gifts to myself #i used it on Xilonen and her sig weapon back around my birthday and now i’ll use this one on Sunday #ain’t no way i’m letting him pass me by when he’s the one that really hooked me into HSR in the first place #i was halfheartedly playing for a while but as soon as i saw the first hint of him on that livestream Penacony teaser i was Obsessed #don’t think i’ve ever been that excited for a character that i knew next to nothing about aside from a lil chibi avatar -#- and some line about him being malevolent. and i don’t even like the chibi style At All so that speaks to how strong his design was #or maybe it just shows how i see an angel coded character with weird-cool-head-wings and a halo and my brain worms start raving #well it’s 1am here so Technically it’s Monday now but shhhhhh it’s still Sunday in my Heart ok? and that’s what matters #and it’s still kinda Sunday on the American server bc the daily reset isn’t until like. 3am for me #but it’ll still probably record it as me having pulled him on the 23rd :/ oh well can’t turn back time #i guess i Could wait until Christmas morning but i don’t wanna flirt with the deadline so closely #this is close enough for me to count it as my Christmas pulls #and we spent Too Damn long without confirmation of his playability (though i always had faith in the leaks 😤🙏🏻) so i deserve this lmao #i mean i’ve waited longer. i waited for Scara! i waited for Baizhu! but still. all the ‘he wont be playable’ fearmongerers can kiss my ass

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ornstein · 2 months ago

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Another platinum into the pocket it goes :]

#this one makes it the 7th of my platinums #I miss when older games used to be a lot easier to get 100% since you didn't have to juggle around to get near-impossible achievements #when a game demands speedrunner level of skill to get 100% it's mission impossible baby #ac2 #assassin's creed #assassin's creed 2

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binders-and-beanies · 3 months ago

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Not being able to vote makes me extra sensitive to discussions of the election tbh like. People who don’t have to fight super hard to vote don’t see the value in it, *because* their vote isn’t suppressed. So I wish that people who do have that privilege would use it to help out those of us who can’t (both within and outside of the US). But instead eligible voters just yell at us for even *trying* unsuccessfully to vote blue. Like are you happy? Are you satisfied about marginalized people not getting to vote? What is the result you’re hoping for

#I have so much going on today/this week in my own life that I don’t even have time to be scared about the election #but I Am scared tbh. if you don’t want anyone to be voting can you at least not make me think about it all day #I’m glad you’re not affected enough to care but some of us are juggling a million problems while also terrified abt election results #and like. whats more upsetting abt this election than straight up trump voters #is the amount of people who consider themselves leftists and essentially Want Trump To Win #its the feeling that no one around me cares abt my rights #and the feeling that most of my loved ones could feasibly be very upset with me bc of how I feel abt the election #not even for how I Vote! bc I can’t vote!! ppl can’t even be mad at me for voting blue #which makes it all the more infuriating. like ok so I’m a bad person bc I would if I could?#and like it helps that I Do see ppl encouraging others to vote #but that makes me feel tension too bc I know a lot of ppl closest to me think that’s a bad thing #it just makes me feel very. alone in the anxiety abt this #I don’t have time to even realize how scared I am. but it does affect me #to the point I almost had a panic attack in response to my partner talking abt it #and I have to just get back to work. the things making me too stressed to cope w the election in the first place #mine #txt #vent post

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viridescenttemple · 2 years ago

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OK IM BACK, IM POSTING ART IN A BIT HOWS IT GOING GAMERS, I HEARD TUMBLR CHANGED THEIR LAYOUT FOR A BIT BUT IT LOOKS THE SAME TO ME SO IDK IF IT CHANGED BACK

#vi.txt #BACK TO BEING INTO YUME 2KKI AND MO4 #MY INTEREST ARE JUST BEING JUGGLED AROUND IN MY BRAIN #YOURE GONNA SEE A LOT OF ART OF THAT MF WHO HAS A FISH ON HIS HEAD HERE AGAIN

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the-ultimate-imagine-blog · 5 months ago

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Request for Morag, Brighid, Zeke, and Pandoria: Zeke and Pandoria ask Morag and Brighid's S/O why they seem so calm around danger lately. The S/O then jokingly says that "when you date Morag and Brighid for long enough, you realize that they are far scarier then some monsters."

Zeke and Pandoria certainly took notice of your calm behavior as you all were helping clear out monsters. Nothing seemed to have fazed you. You were awfully calm. And when you all continued your adventure, you still remained calm no matter what happened! The two would talk to each other about it. Then they decided to ask you one day while you were sitting at a table in the inn.

"Say, chum, why are you so calm around danger lately?" Zeke would be the one to ask. You stared at him, gave a smile and responded.

"When you date Mòrag and Brighid for long enough, you realize that they are far scarier than some monsters."

...What... What was that supposed to mean? Were you serious?

On one hand, they were scared to ask any further. However, they were also intrigued. Especially Zeke.

They definitely can be scary, but they can't be that scary, right? Right???

He can always find out for himself.

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obstinaterixatrix · 7 months ago

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also asking for a reference did get me chatting with ex-coworker again which is nice, we’re gonna restart our weekly chats so we can keep up with each other

#my ramblings #I feel like I’ve been juggling a lot with relationship maintenance #but it’s easier when people express interest and make themselves available #it’s like x friend is usually free around these hours and up for random calls during this time #y friend likes being invited over so I can make plans with them #z friend want to do this activity so they’re receptive if I suggest it #AND if timing doesn’t work out they’ll suggest an alternative which means I won’t lose motivation to keep in touch #speaking of I need to remember that a pal wanted to talk this week so I need to see when works for them #also ex coworker’s bday is in a couple weeks and I coincidentally picked something up for her earlier #so that would be a nice gift to drop off #she’s also usually down for me to visit it’s just a long drive 😔

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hiding-in-the-vault · 2 years ago

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your no man's land au is singlehandedly keeping my dreamxd obsession alive btw. just so you know. your art is so scumbly screembly i want to eat it, so much so that you're like 75% the reason im on this platform at all. 10/10 you are a wonderful person with beautiful art

Waaaaaaaa 😭😭😭 THANK U ANON THATS SO SWEET ;-; whaaaat the heck

Scumbly screembly is the Goal, you have no idea. Best compliment I could receive 💚

As for NML, I was working on the next part yesterday!! Been procrastinating something fierce because of one of the panels, but I have gotten past that! Update this week, Mayhaps?

#vault asks #💚💚💚💚#i wish I was faster but I juggle too many hobbies around work sigh #it’s fine tho #I’m excited for the next section of nml!#also 75% is a lot Wowie !

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humming-fly · 2 years ago

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WHAT IS UR ARTFIGHT I WANT TO ATTACK PRISIM IM DOING KIRBY OCS SPECIFICALLY THIS YEAR

pfdsKLTKL well I'm Humming-fly over there as well so not too hard to find~ :P

Here's prism specifically if you're looking for her, and fayre as well for good measure haha- Have Fun!

#godspeed friend #hoo boy i gotta finish up some attacks too #trying to juggle that and getting cosplay junk done for sdcc #plus at work we have a big meeting literally the day before my ticket OTL #busy busy month #reply #id-f87 #artfight #doodles #this is an old doodle but idk if i ever posted it lol #actually a Lot of doodles of these idiots floating around in my files #plays with them with my friends like dolls #bounces them like basketballs #ahh

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