#and it’s fuxking awful
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Also never forgetting that Sokolov twins can have the most sadistic state of mind where they take incredible pleasure and delight in making someone they dislike suffer through either physical or psychological trauma or driving them to absolute insanity. Victor prefers more physical trauma, but Zarina wants to ruin another person’s mind.
#mobile.#( to be erased. )#they’re both sick.#and it’s fuxking awful#it’s scary how they can show that side of them when you don’t expect it#with Zarina it’s better known but Victor is … more openly sadistic than Zarina#and he’s ruthless when he wants to lash out as fire#and it’s scary. it’s scary but he blows up and then calms down#Zarina prolongs that type of torture she drags it out and it’s sick.#it’s simply and plainly sick#both of them for their reasons#either of them can come up with various ideas on how to make someone suffer#someone they dislike someone stronger someone who is their way#never weaker tho. never someone who cannot give them a fight back or who hasn’t actually done anything to them#they don’t like senseless torture it’s not fun for them#❄ ― RAMBLINGS & SCREAMS. ╱ discussions of life and the beautiful under the sun.
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Y'all send me the good vibes my migraine is a bitch who can't quit
#fuckin auras man#listen I can work through the pain#but not being able to see from half of my vision#bc it looks like a fuxking kaleidoscope?#awful. hate it. 0/10
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If I have another breakdown at work tomorrow like I did the last time I worked a Saturday I'm going to kill myself because last time I screamed in the hallway and cried so hard I was shaking because of how stressed I was.
#working at the movie theater sucks I hate people so much#I also hate that the movie theater was the best I could do even with a fucking degree because I've never had a job before#and I haven't even been there a month and I'm already the most fucking competent usher we have#i have to do fucking everything and I'm the only one keeping us on track every fucking day#also the only other ushers I actually like aren't the ones I consistently work with and tomorrow I have to work with the one that I hate#they literally do not pay me enough for this shit#anyway I'm back to considering opening art commissions becauae as I said they don't pay me shit and I really do need the extra money#also another reason I'm pissed about working tomorrow is that I have to miss christmas cookie baking at ny grandma's and that's one of-#-my favorite traditions every year. I'm actually very upset about it I might cry about it at work tomorrow.#alao they're making me come in at 10 am when all the other ushers don't start coming in until like 12 and the first theaters don't let out-#-until like 11:40 so there's literally no point in me being there that early other than to just piss me off#I'll take the extra like fuxking 20 bucka those 2 hours will get me but fuckibg seriously? I know I'm technically available-#-which is probably why but all it's gonna be is me making sure our usher cart is stocked then sitting around for an hour and a half#fuck everything#I fucking hate that this is my life this is awful#I can't have literally anything can I?#abby after dark#abby's having a crisis
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(wip) Party and Ghoul doodle that might turn in a scene in the comic I'm making but who knows
originally kinda made this for the cringetober prompt 'niche interest' but I liked the scene enough that I wanted to spend more than a day on it lmao
#my side profile for party is soooooo goddamn inconsistent#also Ghoul's saying 'No; man; that's-'#(with the ; as commas)#party's hair's a little too cowlick-y but hey it fits the scene in context#idk why I keep talking about the comic idk if I'm even gonna post it#God the hands are so bad. baby steps baby steps#I really need to do hand studies#FUXK I FORGOR A COMMA#aw well 👍 Ghouls just kinda rude now#does anyone even read these tags?#paper looks more textured than normal cause I actually got under good lighting for once#need to learn how to do more like. composition shit#idkkkkkk so much to learn so little skill#party poison fanart#my art#traditional art#art wip#danger days#ttlotfk#ddttlotfk#fun ghoul#fun ghoul fanart#danger days fanart#funparty#funpoison#<- idk which is actually their ship name but w/e#love drawing Ghoul speaking afrikaans#spiritually healing#ek is soo lif (?) vir him sy's soos my net beater#if there's any mistakes in that shhhhhh I'm tired
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ive nkt eaten lroperly for the last 2 days bc kts boring ass food at home and im on my periods and want good food but my mother wont let me fucking make myself fold even if i do eat whatevers been cooked LIKE I CANT EVEN HAVE IDLO WTF I HAD UR STUPID FUCKING SAADHAM AND UPMA EASE IM HUNGRYET ME MAKE MYSELF NOODLES OR A SANDWICH
#like i did have some beead yesterday and some cake today#but like my brother ate all the noodles yestersay#and when i got angry amma just told me to suck it up and eat fucking rice when i was alr tired from coaching#I KNOW FOR A FACT THAT if i hadnt left anything for my brother she widve been pissed#but Ugh#i just wanna have chocolate and good fucking fold man#im tired of awful tasting vegetables and rice for breakfastunch and dinner#LIKE I HAD RASAM SAADHAM AND FUCKING BEANS CARROT CURRY FOR BREAKFAST#i cant stomach rice in the morning and my mother knows this#BUT DOES SHE CARE#NO#BC WHY WUD SHE IM FUCKING STUCK HERE KTS JOT LIKE I HAVE A CHOICE#and when shes on here periods im supposed to en considerate#but she does not give a flying fuck anout the fact that i feel like shit#fuxk thos#methinks mesays.
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PAINTING?
painting pretty boys friday (and other such related holidays)
(prints!)
#undescribed#art!!#holy fucn#this is fuxking gorgeous#op i am smooching your hands like a royal in awe#thank you
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hmm maybe I make a matcha and try to draw something for freak week
#I feel bad for not drawinggggggggggg#Me when I’m too tired to draw#Aw fuxk it I’m going to draw#sparrow speaks
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Oh no
GET AWAY YOU CAN DO SO MUCH BETTER I AM FUCKING BEGGING
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just realized how many times i’ve gone:
“if this world-building/campaign idea is that great i’ll remember it” and tossed out the scrap of paper it was written on…. and just forgot, a really good idea
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Ugly as shit but that's your problem now :3
#actias posts for once#trying to. embrace my shittiness#cuz yeah#long distance gf is meeting me soon and im kinda just.oh fuxking god i just remembered i looked awful and i let myself get worse for 16 yrs!#but unfortunately#thats his problem now#:3
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I listen to the Polyphia discography once and ive been possesed by a pholosipher>
Human connecton and thought is so beautiful and facinatingly imperfect, we can never fully understand anyones thoughts and experences but that doesnt stop us from trying constantly! We make such an effort and have the desire to understand what we never fully can just to see the joy it brings to anotehr person, we dont undrestand why one person cares about this one thing but we understand and know the joy a simple thing can bring to someone as we have our own lights that are important to us! And we make so much effort to take the time to engage with others about their important lights because we understand how overwhelmingly joyful it is to talk about them because of our own experences! Even if we ourselves arent the most interested in their lights, we do anyway because of the joy it brings them!
Its so easy to forget that none of us experence things the same way but making the effort to listen and try to understand someone else is the best feeling in the world, conversations about the little things in our head that bring us joy is one of the most human and fundementle things! I may never care as much about a thing that y friend adores cus its their thing but i dont need to! All i need to do is want to connect with them and listen about why they care about this thing because i care about them! And I may want them to love the things i do but at the end of the day they dont need to feel the same way about a thing that i do to connect through it!
i am mildly sleep deprived but FUCK HUMANS ARE SO COOL AND WONDERFUL AND WE ALL CARE SO MUCH AND TRYING TO UNDERSTAND ONE ANOTHER IS FLAWED AND YET WE TRY AND ITS SO BEAUTIFUL THAT WE CARE ABOUT ONE ANOTHER SO MUCH AS TO ACCEPT THAT WE MAY NEVER KNOW EVERYTHING BUT WE SPEND ALL THE TIME WE HAVE TO EXPLORE THOSE THINGS.
#Im pretty sure people take drugs to think like this#jokes on them it came as a pre-installed setting on me#Ive been possesed by a philosipher and boy im so jazzed about human experence rn you have no clue#this is so full of spelling errors but it doesnt matter and gerts the point across that human connection is beautiful#Im just so in wonderment and awe#we are so cool#and i wanna learn about the things my friends care about!#AAAA!!!#HUMANS ARE AWSOME AND THOUGHTS ARE SO COOL!!!#Man the autism is hitting different today#have i re-read everything before posting? absolutlly not you get my unedited thoughts#fuxk im tired but everyone needs to remember how beautiful life is#original post
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fhrrrerrhrhghrgegheehehewehthete5eg
#AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA#im so fucking frustrated!;!!!_;$+-_647757⁵7#im mad and annoyed and angry and tired#and i cant even do anything about it its all fucking hopeless#like im tired cause i had to watch the stupid fucking kids from the moment they woke up to the moment they wnet to fucking sleep#LIKE IM NOT THEIR FUCKING PARENTS I DIDNT HAVE FUCKING KIDS I FONT WANT TO WATCH THEMM ALL FUCKING DAY#i watch them furing the day because i babysit and km fucking paid to do it but nope now i have to watch them all fucking fayt#and the only reason im not gonna today is cause i have to go to my second fficking job because my sister wont ficking pay me#and even if she did its basically no money#and i cant rven be frustrated im not allowed to yell and scream like i need to#because the alternatove of my screaming is beating the literal dhit out of myself THE OTHER OPTION IS LITERALLY SELF HARM#BUT NOPE SCREAMING AY NOTHING TO RELEIVE ANGER ISNT ALLOWD THATS WHAT FIVE YEAR OLDS DO AND THATS BAD OR WHATEVER#and i csnt fucking tell any of this to my mom cause it doesnt help me this only ever hurts me#oh im tired because i have eork well everyonr is fucking tired and mom works 18 hours so shut up#literally cant tell my mom cause i say im looking for a therapist and thats fucking hard and then shes just like it doesnt take six months#which FUXK OFF I HAVE BEEN DOING OTHER THINGS AS WELL AS FINDING A THERAPIST AND ITS NOT FUCKING EASY SO SHUT UP#MAYBE IM STRUGGLING TO FIND ONE AND I NEED HELP THINK OF THAT JNSTEAD OF JUST MAKING DIGS AT MY INABILITY TO DO THIS#MAYBE I SHOULD JUST GET FUCKJNG HOSPTALIZED FOR SOMETHING REALLY AWFUL AND BAD AND IT WOULD ALL BE BETTER#MAYBE IT WOULD BE FUCKING BETTER IF I FUXKING DIED OKAY#BUT NOPE IM THE VILLIAN IN THE HOUSE#MY BROTHER HATES ME FOR BEING TRANS AND THINKING THAT HUMAN DESERVE RIGHTS WHEN HES THE ONE THAT STARTS THESE ARGUEMENTS IN THE FIRST PLACE#MY SISTER HATED ME FOR HATING MY DAD BECAUSE HE WAS AWFUL AND FOR 'NOT HELPING AROUND THE HOUSE'#WHEN I LITERALLY CLEANED THE ENTIRE FRIDGE AND FREEZER ON SUNDAY AND I DO THE DISHES AND SHIT WHEN MY BROTHER DOES NOTHING#HE DOESNT EVEN PHT HIS FUCKING CANS IN THE RECYCLING OR HIS PLATES IN THE FUCKING SINK HE DOES NOTHING BUT IM THE PROBLEM#AND NY MOM FUCKIN HATES ME FOR BEING ME SHE SAYS IM DIFFICULT TO LIVE WITH AND HATES THAT I AM DISABLED AND AUTISTIC AND FAT AND TRANS#BUT I CANT SAY ANY OF THIS AND THERE IS NO SOLUTION TO ANY OF IT#I JUST WANT TO BE DONE WITH LIFE BUT IM SO FUCKING SCARED OF DEATH IRONICALLY#SO INSTEAD I JUST WISH FOR AWFUL THINGS TO HAPPEN TO ME MAYBE I CAN BE DONE WITH IT#soap spoilers
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Me about to throw hands with multiple 13 year olds because they’re being very mean to my lil sister
#Gos help me not to be a bitch I will go for their parent’s heads if this continues after today#I hate puberty I hate the teenage years but more than anything I hate to see my lil sister doubt herself so much and take such awful treatme#FUXK GHIS I’M SO STUPID ANGRY RN FR FR#WE ARE NOT DOING GOOD TODAY LADS IT IS NOT A GOOD DAY#Ani Rambles
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WHY IS RIDING THE PUBLIC TRANSIT IN THIS CITY SUCH AN UNPLEASANT EXPERIENCE!!!!!
Tldr fuck this shithole village pretending to be a real city, i am moving to a different country in 6 months and hopefully leaving sooner i genuinely cant take it life here is so miserable
#literally every single time i get on i get thrown around like fucking potatoes in a truck bed i hate hate hate the asshole drivers#fuck this city its literally so shitty i Do Not Understand how it gets voted so high for quality of life#there are NO labor rights NO OSHA and they constantly lie to foreigners about the law to avoid paying them benefits#the weather is god awful#and the people are fucking assholes#and also ugly. im just Really not into tall blonde and all with the same face#its literally all the same face here!! and its identical to the fucking museum portraits!! how inbred and closed minded can you get!!#my guest living in madrid literally commented that they all have the same fucking face here#ty for the validation but holy fuxk i need to leave#another friendwas texting me just now that he got off of work and was heading to the supermarket...#babe its 6:30pm on a saturday. Nothing is open anymore#holy fucking fuck i hate living here so so much and i hate the shitbexcuse for a uni i need to get out of my lease and get tf out of here
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The pharmacist was laughing while asking me this because I’m a man and I guess she thought it was utterly hilarious to ask a man with a beard and deep voice if he can be pregnant
If trans people treated cis people this way it would be all over the news and cis women everywhere would be screamcrying and wailing and shrieking that we’re all misogynists and abusers and hate them all
But because I’m a disabled tranny, to them, its actually perfectly ok to dehumanize me, make light of my medical conditions, and then literally laugh AT me in front of a bunch of strangers because my existence is too hard to comprehend
So I can pick up my psychiatric meds, pain killers, nerve pain meds, and muscle relaxers no issue. These are teratogenic and cause fatal fetal abnormalities. But on the 120th time I pick up my T, they ask if I could be pregnant.
First of all, fuck no. I’m not a fucking idiot. I’m on birth control, T is not birth control.
Secondly, why the fuck would it matter? Are you afraid of me being on T and causing a fetus (NON life threatening) endocrine issues at birth?
…But not afraid of the 10 other medications I take that would 100% of the time cause fetal abnormalities, deformities, and a painful slow death in a state where abortion is illegal?
Are you fucking kidding me right now? Who the fuck wrote these rules and can I rip their fucking head off?
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visca madrid | max verstappen x sainz! reader
summary: a football rivalry would usually push people away, but for max and y/n, it just pushed them closer together.
fc; amanda diaz
warnings; not a safe space for culers other than max and lewis❌❌❌🙅♀️🙅♀️ ( jk )
notes; el classico is a term for the matches between spanish football clubs barcelona and real madrid! the rivalry is huge and goes way past football, pero anyways hala madrid, and in honor of our 5-3 derby win🤪
masterlist !
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ynsainz: back home 🤍
location; estadio santiago bernabéu
carlossainz55: que partidazo! [what a great game] would’ve loved to join you! hala madrid 🤍
ynsainz: 4-0 is such a perfect score!! but hey, once the season is over right? 😁
carlossainz55: claro q si! [of course]
username: when she’s pretty and a madridista >>
username: sainz genes good asf wow
maxverstappen1: oh!
ynsainz: stay bitter we’re better 🥱 #L #yousuck #halamadrid
maxverstappen1: wait until we play you in 3 weeks then we’ll see who is laughing 🤣
ynsainz: yeah me bc we’ll win😁
maxverstappen1: yeah, sure!
username: max and y/n😭😭
username: i live for maxs and y/ns football rivalry moments
ynsainz uploaded to their story !
[caption 1; pre match lunch n selfie w yourbestfriend ] [caption 2; ready for el classico! hala madrid!🤍]
maxverstappen1 replied to your story!
maxverstappen1
cute but we’re winning 🤣
ynsainz
LMFAOOO in your dreams pretty boy!!
maxverstappen1
we literally won the league last season🙄
ynsainz
who gaf abt last season, we have jude bellingham🤩🤩
maxverstappen1
he won’t do anything 🥱🥱
ynsainz
come back to be once the game is over! i bet you madrid will win😌
maxverstappen1
if barca wins, you have to go on a date with me but while wearing the barca jersey 😁
and if madrid wins, then it’s up to you
ynsainz
a public post about loving real madrid and wearing their jersey
and go on a date w me while wearing the glorious jersey 😁
maxverstappen1
won’t happen but deal !😁
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maxverstappen1: hala madrid , i love real madrid! the best club in the world 🤍
tagged; ynsainz
ynsainz: VAMOSSS 2-1!!!!
maxverstappen1: yeah yeah😒
ynsainz: WITH 2 JUDE GOALS HA!!
ynsainz: white is your color 😉
maxverstappen1: i think red and blue are your colors🤔
carlossainz55: no.
username: bro won a race and posted this instead
username: this sounds forced….
maxverstappen1: yes it was.
ynsainz: no it wasn’t he lovessss madrid
username: are they dating??
username: i shippp
carlossainz55: best team in the world 😁
maxverstappen1: haha yes!
ynsainz: sound more enthusiastic 🔫🔫
maxverstappen1: duhhh best team itw !!
ynsainz uploaded to their story!
[caption 1; trying to show off his jersey🙄🙄] [caption 2; oh!]
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ynsainz: i guess i can put rivalry aside for this dork , just until the next el classico
tagged; maxverstappen1
maxverstappen1: oh it’s on for the next el classico, mijn liefje [my love]
ynsainz: it’s at home, amor, we’re so winning
maxverstappen1: i love you despite your team❤️💙
ynsainz: aw i love you despite your team too!🤍🤍
username: I FUXKING KNEW IT
username: me n who fr
username: wonder how carlos feels abt this
carlossainz55: as long as he makes you happy, hermanita [little sister], but a culer [name for a barcelona fan] ??😬😬
ynsainz: i’m shocked too, i love my culer he’s a dork😞😞
username: me n who??
username: this is funny af icl😭😭😭
username: HALA MADRID!!
username: VISCA BARÇA!!
username: more like visca madrid
[caption 1; still wearing white on purpose months later to prove a point, even on vacation…] [caption 2; my pretty girl 🤍] [caption 3; you make me go ‘visca madrid’]
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