#and it’s all kind of hitting me rlly fucking hard

[emberunderscore]

guys im going crazy with the edits over here (im sure this has been done with this song before but idc i wanted to)

also guys im going to include the rambling in the actual edit post this time because i actually cannot contain myself . (i went on and on for this one i had a lot of thoughts )

OK BIG ONE COOL ONE WHEN IT SAYS "I'm a worthless human being" there is an overlay during the word "worthless" of the prison scene and the word worthless is layed over sherbert's forehead, think of it like the word worthless and failure going hand in hand because icarus doesn't belive they are worth anything if they are not useful and they cannot be useful if theyre a failure which they wholeheartedly believe they are THATS IT THATS MY FAVORITE PART OF THIS EDIT (not really but shshshshs)

ok back to being in order

"I had left you" and "I forgave you" being right next to each other is SO PERFECT because that part is referencing the cave obviously and immediately after centross dies icarus is like 'get the fuck away from me why did you do that, holy shit you were gonna kill me' and then he tells them he can bring centross back and they immediately forgive him (and its not rlly great editing wise cause obviously theres not much contrast between the clips but the sacrifices we make are very small)

"I forgot you" this line is kinda hard to understand how ive coded it cause centross is on the screen so it kinda makes it seems like im saying they forgot centross but NO! they forgot about fable, they were so focused on bringing centross back that they completely lost sight of fable and his actions and how that hurt everyone around them

then the "said you loved me" I LOVE PUTTING VOICELINES IN EDITS CHAT. I LOVE IT SO MUCH AHHHH. i love when the words and they go together and theyre similar and i go crazy . im knawing at the bars of my enclosure

(i was going to put a voicline of fable's 'you will not survive' from cathedral of war in this part, but only chose not too cause it made the audio too chaotic but its still the clip from when he said that so just KNOW) i really love the "said you'd kill me" part. it just looks really cool to me, please appreciate my work thank you goodnight <3

THE WHOLE NEXT PART. THE BEAT DROP IF YOU WILL.

the text is all shaky, the way ive always imagined this part of the song in my brain is like full mental breakdown, hands pulling at hair hitting at your head . theres something inside of you and you want it OUT and you will hurt yourself to makes that happen . so thats kind of the vibe i wanted to portray, however . im not that skilled and capcut only has so many free text effects so . we make do. i also couldn't put that effect on all the text because for it to look right i couldn't use an 'in' animation for the text so having all of it just appear looked kind of weird so i had to comprimise a little

also the font is called "honest" which . if you know me i love putting subliminal messaging in my font usage when i can which i managed to do a couple times in this edit actually. the font is very jagged which fits for the idea of someone who's reaching their breaking point and all the rotation and bold and italics are all just thrown around there. making em all look interesting . for *flavour*

the other font that's got a cool title and this one i actually only picked because of the title and that's "innocent" its used in a lot of frames like "you possessed me", "you controlled me" and "or he'll hurt me" all times, the word 'me' uses the innocent font, because with the song it sounds like icarus is trying to remove any of the blame from themself, it was fable's fault because he manipulated me i didn't do anything wrong. so they see themself as 'innocent' which is also why that text is yellow cause its about icarus. i wouldn't have used that font if not for the title icl. but it also makes the times when that font isn't used all the more interesting, this can be seen most notably in "said you'd kill me", and both of the times in the "he's still speaking, speaking for me" parts , and i will let you cook on that cause not everything needs to be explained in great detail as much as id like to do that

most of the fonts at this one were just me throwing shit at a wall and seeing what fit the vibe ill be so fr, i knew i wanted a lot of variation cause its a chaotic sounding song and the colours also have very little thought when it comes to the difference between white/yellow/red for the most part . green is for fable and purple is just whatever the fuck i felt like .

final thing i'm going to say when it goes "i'm a [worthless human being" there is no text on that part and i just want it to be known on the record that it wasn't an accident and it was an aethetic choice and i can't come up with a bullshit important reason for why there's no text on the screen for that SINGLE PART and honestly it just looked so shit with text there but it also looks so out of place with it being the only part but im sure many of you didn't even notice there wasnt text there before i pointed it out so . i can also point out all the slightly off timings for you if you wanna see my creation through my critical self-loathing eyes /silly

[sadlazzle]

i think i might wait until the new mh dolls at smyths go live n then buy all three cause i feel bad still :(

[pupyuj]

god couldn’t have made g!psakura real because he knew i’d be on my knees 24/7 365 days full time NEVER stop

g!p kkura... 🤤🤤🤤

thinking of g!p kkura being your toy 🥺 every time you come home from work, even more stressed than yesterday, kkura has to prepare to be up all night bcs you will literally not allow her to do anything else but fuck you until you were satisfied... you can be pretty cruel with it too :(( kkura would be crying and begging for you to let her stop bcs she would be so exhausted after coming inside you for what seems like hours and hours :((( but like as tiring as it was, kkura will still try her very hardest to pleasure you, which explains why she doesn't mind being used by you like this.. 🫣

kkura would like being used better if she were equally as horny... letting you put a collar and a leash on her bcs she's rlly just ur pet! her whining against your pussy bcs you refused to let her put her dick inside you until she was able to make you come using her mouth :(( pleading eyes looking up at you, so desperate for some praises and while she really was doing well, you're so mean that you shake your head and push her further down to your cunt,, getting so close to your climax bcs kkura was literally eating you out but not giving her the satisfaction of actually making you come so you tug on her leash and pull her away from your pussy,, "forget it. fuck me." and why would kkura even think to refuse???

aaaaaa making her pound you from behindddd 😵‍💫😵‍💫 her thick cock stretching your tight pussy in all the right ways, hitting all those spots and making you see the stars with each thrust... kkura moaning and whimpering, head thrown back as she moves her hips in a relentless pace, never having enough of your warm pussy no matter how long or hard she fucks you,, her nails digging through your hips, getting faster and faster that it gets messy...

"f-fuck, kkura..! just like that... good pet.. fuck!!" mmjsgjndk your screams only bringing her closer and closer to cominggg 😩 pulling on her leash again to bring her face down to yours, "faster. ruin me, sakura. do it." shiiiit she could've come right there!! 😳 sakura having to hold onto the bedsheets bcs she just starts slamming her cock inside you to the point it hurts but christ, as much as you berate her, sakura was actually so criminally good at fucking you 🤤🤤🤤 letting go of the leash and holding sakura's hand to ground yourself :((( her kissing your shoulder as she fucked you?? whispering sweet things in your ear even though you've been mean to her all night...

one more thrust and sakura came inside you. a lot. her warm seed filling up your womb as it should,, see... sakura really shouldn't be surprised after you flipped your positions and sat on her sensitive cock,, wrapping the leash around your hand and tugging on it lightly, pulling her up and pecking her forehead,, since sakura's always so kind to you, it makes sense that you reward her for it!! and what better way to do that than ride her until you break her?? 😳

[ediewentmissing]

some of my eddie munson headcanons

1. loves liquorice.

i know a lot of you guys probably HATE liquorice, but something about him screams ‘i am a liquorice lover and proud of it!!’. and he doesn’t like the strawberry kind.

2. races to press the button in the elevator

“MOVE OUT OF THE WAY, YOU LITTLE SHIT!” “EDDIE, IT’S MY TURN!”

3. was rlly short before he hit puberty

eddie has obviously been subjected to a hell of a lot of bullying over the years, and just to add to that pile of angst, we have the idea of short eddie. gareth went through the same thing, except he didn’t grow as much. “how’s the weather down there, munson?” “fuck off, tommy.”

4. he’s either really hot or really cold

he’s wearing 3 layers half the time, and as little clothing as he can the other half. freezes during winter and sweats his ass off during the summer.

5. gets sensitive teeth

this is because he’s made himself eat a basket worth of lemons just to brag about it later on multiple occasions

6. enjoys watching b movies

those shitty low budget films? oh, yeah. eddie loves them. for one reason; he cackles the whole time over how crap they are. a great pick-me-up.

7. chews on things when he spaces out

the inside of his cheek, his lip, a pencil, and you can’t forget that one time he chewed on a pen for so long that all the ink spilled into his mouth and he was gagging in the middle of class

8. had a major crush on princess daphne from dragon’s lair

definitely fought over her with his friends. he was incredibly jealous of dirk the daring.

9. doesn’t like trying new foods

he’s attached to foods from when he was a kid (macaroni and cheese, cereal, mini pizzas, grilled cheese, and dishes from his mum) and refuses to branch out - unless you ask him to

10. swears he only listens to metal, but doesn’t

he wants to keep his ‘scary ‘music’ reputation, but it’s hard to do that when robin finds eddie’s abba and wham! tapes tucked away in his room

“i thought you were a, and i quote, ‘strictly metal-only’ guy, but i guess you were just a big pop fan this whole time” “quit it, robin”

he also doesn’t mind the country music wayne forced onto him when he was younger

11. twirls the phone cord around his finger

when he’s talking to you over the phone, you swear you can picture him clear as day; big sly grin plastered on his face, and his ringed finger wiring around the phone cord connected to the wall

12. graffitis

but only in the school bathroom cubicles and the hideout bathroom cubicles. occasionally you’ll go to one of his gigs, and then you’ll go to the toilet and there’ll be little drawings on the wall. a guitar, eddie the head, and the occasional shameless penis

13. used to ride bikes everywhere

USED to because he fell over while riding it when he was 9 and scraped his knee and declared he would never ride a bicycle again (thought that declaration broke in 1986)

14. loves roller coasters

specifically ones that take pictures of you - he loves to act all calm and collected while everyone else is screaming their heads off

“eddie, this is a terrible photo” “no, it’s a terrible photo of YOU. you look like you’ve shit yourself, and i look cool as ice”

15. thought babies hatched out of eggs

safe to say that when he learnt how babies are REALLY made, he was flabbergasted and very, very grossed out

[prettyboykatsuki]

what do uou mean sae is easy to get into a relationship but hard to make him stay.. that literally gave me the ick what the fuck man

JDKSHFKJ NO NO HE WILL STAY BUT U WONT WANT TOO RLLY

its easy to confess and date sae he just agrees on a whim and he finds u pleasant but tbh he's kind of a shit boyfriend at first LMAOOO. and it's not that he can't be a good one but he just??? does not put the necesary effort in at the start. he treats the relationship TOO lightly. he never breaks up w u tho and he's not even like ???? IT'S NOT THAT HE'S NEGLECTFUL. u just dont think he like really cares

to me u like break up and make-up w sae quite a few times bc he just sucks. he realizes too late that he actually is really in love with you and u kind of have to make him grovel and pine and suffer so he gets his shit together and expresses himself better. he's weirdly stoic?? like u think rin is the stoic one but that man is SENSITIVE LMAOO his nonchalance is fake

sae is acc nonchalant tho so even though he's not the worst bf ever u just get a very mixed signal from him. dating him when he's being decent is easy but he just. sucks sometimes. doesn't text enough, postpones dates, doesn't do well w boundaries and doesn't listen well.

but then he has moments where he is extremely thoughtful and romantic and kind and you just wonder like bitch why r u not like this all the time. and that's a damn good question!!!!!!!

he gets there i promise bc once it hits you're the one he is does a total 180 but he just like. idk. takes for granted your genuine love for him. he's always had rlly shallow relatiomships before u so he assumes you'll be the same and doesn't realize how untrue that is. u just genuinely like him as a person - not as a famous soccer player. he has had hard times w that before.

BUT HE IS AN AMAZING BF ONCE U MAKE IT TO THE OTHER SIDE LMAOOO

[ninyard]

Nicky: yeah he slept with a chair in his room and a knife nearby so we think he’s just insane

Neil: ……

No but rlly, no matter how you feel about Nicky, on one hand I am an outside observer so reading this exchange I’m like “oh ffs obviously that’s not why! That makes no sense!” But then I think about it more and it’s actually probably really realistic? Nicky doesn’t know what andrew went through, he probably didn’t think his life in foster care was that bad, that kind of abuse just isn’t on his radar bc he’s had different experiences and exposures, so the possibility of anything else just doesn’t cross his mind, plus he’s already biased to think andrew is just naturally “like that” bc that’s the assumption he’s already been operating under, plus the natural inclination of ppl to not want to see awful things. It makes sense for him and Aaron that that’s the conclusion they come to, and that makes me so mad at the world for reasons I can’t quite articulate

Sorry for hitting you with this out of nowhere I actually meant to say something else but idr what bc I clicked the ask button and this is what came out instead xD

Oh 100%. I GET it. I understand why everyone has this perception of Andrew that he’s, in their own words, a monster. That he’s a loveless, emotionless sociopath. Imagine Aaron, excited to meet the twin he didn’t even know he had, and the first thing he says to you is fuck off, fuck you, leave me the fuck alone?

Imagine you meet the cousin you didn’t even know you had, and for some reason you don’t know about, he’s been in your house for how long? He’s been there for how long before he’s made an enemy out of your father, out of your aunt, he won’t talk to the cousin you did know about, he’s angry and depressed and he keeps knives under these arm bands he refuses to take off? He’s like Aaron in a different shade, like the dark version of a person already dark and destroyed. But he won’t talk to you. Why won’t you talk to us, Andrew? And all you get in response is a knife, or a blank stare, or a fuck off, fuck you, leave me the fuck alone?

Then your aunt is dead, and he’s alive, and the cousin you did know about is grieving and angry, and you, Nicky, who has fought so hard to keep the peace in your household, are now surrounded by negativity, and anger, and past problems that nobody fucking wants to deal with?

I get it.

Then they’re at Eden’s, and he hears it over his shoulder, the shouted slur. And then Andrew, who barely even talks to him anyway when they’re out drinking is on top of this stranger in a flash. And there’s blood, and the stranger stops fighting back. But Andrew’s fists keep coming back, and keep coming back, and keep coming back.

He nearly kills him. He nearly kills him. He nearly kills him. For you. Because you don’t know that he’s gay. You don’t know the weight of the word shouted your way. He’s protecting you. He’s protecting you.

You’re scared of him. He gets locked up. Whatever the timeline is pre-tfc. You’re scared of the cousin you didn’t know you had.

I get it.

But imagine being Andrew. They don’t ask what happened. They take the courts word for it when they say you’re a danger to society. They take the courts word for it when they say your depressive episodes are a danger to yourself. You tried. You tried to tell someone, but it’s a misunderstanding, and god’s intention, and your fault. So why bother trying again?

You spend all this time on this medication that makes you feel worse than anything you’ve ever been on - you spend years of your life in this haze, a mixture derealisation and constant and unending mania. You’re sick without it. You’re sick on it. You don’t remember who you are without it. You don’t want to know who you will be without it.

And imagine being Andrew, and it takes being violated in your cousins childhood bedroom, or just a room in his childhood home, for them to finally get it? Your autonomy stolen from you. Your secrets exposed without permission, again. Your consent is never your own choice. It never has been.

Oh and then let’s think about Nicky. And all that’s in his head is ANDREW IS WORSE WITHOUT HIS MEDS.

Maybe he hears the laugh from the bottom of the stairs. Maybe he only hears Neil talking about it. ANDREW WAS LAUGHING. HE WAS LAUGHING. HE WAS VIOLATED AND DESTROYED AND COVERED IN BLOOD AND HE WAS LAUGHING.

And this has happened before?

And Drake was not the only one?

Does it make sense now?

Is he a sociopath or was he made to be that way? Is he crazy or was this someone else’s fault? Does he protect his family because nobody protected him?

Why didn’t he tell me? Why did this happen under the roof of my family home?

In theory I hate how they don’t know what Andrew is really like. How they’re afraid of him off his meds. But it makes sense why. I get it. Why the fuck would they not think that?

But I think they understand how wrong they were eventually. I think they see how he might not smile anymore - but he is much happier now.

[bootyquaker9000]

Future! Rise! Leo N$FW headcanons

ROTTMNT

🔞‼️N$FW

For everyone who is feral and down horrendous for this man😭 not proofread btw

- breeding kink 🤭 not even in like a he wants to get you pregnant way (he might tho), I think cumming inside you is his way of claiming you yk yk (and ofc respects if you don’t want him to)

- the moment you beg or ask him to cum inside you, he is. so fucking much. buckets. OMG he would pass out if you ever told him you love his cum

- size kink??? 🤭 perchance

- brat tamer but still gentle he doesn’t want to hurt you

- He HATES condoms. Honestly might not even own any. I can imagine that mutant genes are pretty weird so like idk if he can impregnate you anyways (and obviously if you don’t have a uterus you don’t have have to worry about that anyways)

- Switch. He can play both dominant and submissive roles perfectly, but prefers to be top

- but if his partner is on top he’s such a brat

- LOVES vibrators. Could and does use them on you for hours (inside you, on your clit/tip, on your nips)

- ^ and hey, if you wanna use one on him he’s not gonna complain at all

- ^along with that, this man WILL overstimulate you until you’re crying and begging your whimpers just make him so hard

- wouldn’t really be into is degradation or humiliation. he only wants to give praise and be praised. Would only degrade his partner if they REALLY wanted him to but after he feels really bad and lowkey embarrassed

- It turns him on so much and he could genuinely cum just from hearing his partner moan (or scream 🫣) his name

- very open minded to trying different and new things in bed

- He’s so fucking loud 😭 grunting, groaning, moaning (+ whimpering if he’s bottom)

- ^ he’s always loud, but he’s SO much louder when his partner is on top. especially when he’s getting head

- BIG INTO ORAL giving and receiving. will tell you how good you taste.

- FACE SITTING. After a long day of training and working all he wants is to come home and have you sit on his face.

- has THE dirtiest mouth 😭 praising tf out of you, telling you how tight you are, how good you feel, how hard you make him, etc.

- but he can also be rlly sweet w/ it too if he feels like. ex.: telling you how beautiful you look when you cum for him

- he is a FREAK in the freakiest way

- definitely at LEAST above average in terms of size

- steals your underwear

- god he is such a fucking tease 😭 loves to edge you until you’re practically in tears begging him to let you cum. he just wants to watch you squirm

- tying you up

- ^ will tie your hands behind your back with his mask while he’s hitting it from the back

- “I missed you so much” whispered to you as he slides it in after not seeing each other for a while

- UGH CALL HIM ‘SIR’ and he’s gonna bust right there

- riding his thigh 🤭

- ^ honestly just riding him in general drives him crazy

- Isn’t into slapping or any kind of pain really with the exception of you ass. it doesn’t matter if you got a fat ass or not he’s smacking that shit. leaving handprints on it fr

- He will fuck you in public with absolutely no shame even if you get caught

- ^ he could dick you down in the middle of Pizza Hut and be unfazed

- Quickies 🤭

- Really into roleplay

- He’s rough in bed but makes sure he’s not hurting you

- Holds your hand 🤭

- His heat/mating season is ROUGH. Both metaphorically and literally

- Cockwarming fan!!! specifically with you in his lap or while spooning

- MELTS if you tell him how good it feels, when you beg for more, really any kind of praise at all

- An ass guy all the way, but (if you have them) he also loves your tits

- loves watching you struggle and tells you how well you’re doing

- REALLY, really good aftercare

Things he would say in bed:

“You can take it.”

“For me?”

“That’s it…”

“Such a good girl/boy.”

“You’re doing so well…just a little bit more.”

“Hm? Use your words, baby.”

“Look at you…Poor thing. So needy.”

“Yeah, you like that? Bet you wanna cum so bad, huh?”

“I know you need it…just hold on a little bit longer.”

"That's right, baby. Just enjoy my cock."

"Too much? You love it, don't you?"

"You're mine, aren't you?"

“Stay just like that, beautiful.”

"You make me so hard just by being near you."

"You did so well, baby.”

“You feel so good.”

“Feel how much I love you?”

“Feel how much I need you?”

“Fuck, I’m gonna cum so hard for you.”

[tachiharastanacc]

Heyyyy love your posts

I thought about this after I read someone else’s post ( I think they called him tragic little f@ck? Not sure)

Imagine after hd reveal, port mafia starts to think back of all tachi’s behavior and words, then it hits them holy fuck this kid has some issues.

Like, there was a time when he tried to ignore his bleeding leg because ‘we got a mission and that is much more important nee-san!’ Or he was very scared of medica examination and when it ended, he asked so baffled ‘..that’s it?’ And I’m fairly sure he at least once said ‘orders make me who I am’ in front of others-probably gin of hirotsu-and they were just like oh, he’s very loyal. But now that they know how young he was when he joined the hunting dogs, they can’t help but feel bitter about that sentence. I think the reason tachi is desperate to follow orders are not only because government shaped him into perfect soldier, but he was desperate for love, affection and approval. Like, his parents told him they wished him dead instead of his brother! That is something sure will leave a scar on a CHILD.

I rlly want tachihara to learn how to be human again with the port mafia. Black lizards and chuuya probably will be the biggest help because, tachi is closest to black lizards-I think hirotsu will be able to be a father tachi never had-and chuuya has been through this. He knows how he’s feeling. Black lizards will be his family, his emotional support. And chuuya will be there, guiding him through the little things-that is normal as breathing to others but so, so foreign for him(them)-and tachihara feel so understood.

(Whoops rambled..if this does not make sense, pls don’t be mad!)

I’m furious actually /j

No, I just completely forgot I had an inbox lol. But yes!! I agree!!

I think the idea of them questioning everything they knew about him also is super interesting. Because they all saw him one way (reckless, brave, a lil dense sometimes), and everything is different when he comes back.

There’s a level of ‘was this all an act’ that takes a bit to get over. But at the end of the day, it’s still their Tachi, just a different side of him. Personally, Hirotsu specifically wouldn’t mind the quiet if he wasn’t worried out of his gosh darn mind.

Also, he 100% picks up on just how much telling Tachihara he’s proud of him affects him when Tachi isn’t trying really hard to act unbothered and cool.

Chuuya just assigning him self reluctant older brother even tho it was fully his idea. Verlaine’s kinda there too, but he doesn’t really know how to approach him in a way that won’t scar him for life (again) so he kinda just follows him around occasionally like some kind of depressed French cryptid.

This is 100% more terrifying than if he just approached him bc Tachihara fully is aware that he’s been stalking him and is convinced he plans on assassinating him.

Please always ramble to me abt Tachi and his families please lol

[bubblegyu00]

ZB1 LEGAL LINE AS FRAT BOYS

a/n : i lost the ask 💔

tw : mentions of drinking, drugs, sex (?), suggestive content, cussing, nsfw

mdni !!

• jiwoong

- the biggest asshole out of them i don't care fight me 💔

- will obsses over you at basically stalker level until you sleep with him cus he's delusional

- but the minute he gets you in bed he'll act like he doesn't even know your name — or he genuinely forgets a day later

- he probably doesn't remember half of the times he's ever fucked anyone cus it's not a big deal to him he was just horny

- has multiple girls thinking " guys i slept with jiwoong last night i think we might get together!! " but he's doesn't even remember what you look like 🙁

• hanbin

- a literal girl magnet

- like he could just sit there drinking and he'd get like three girls numbers in the span of an hour

- has a girlfriend for everyday of the week ( @lunicho is friday 😛 )

- he just has this certain charm to him that all the girls want a piece of him

- he's not as outgoing as the others, but he gets a good fraction of the girls

• zhanghao

- born to be valedictorian forced ( by ricky ) to be a man whore 🙁🙁

- no but frl i don't think he knows how insanely attractive and alluring he is — which is hard cus he lit has one girl on his lap, one girl under each arm, and like six other girls in the room wanting to talk to him ??

- but zhanghao is also rlly wanted because he is a man of mystery

- once you get into his pants ( which is a rlly hard thing to do — you go girl ) he's never speaking to you again

- like the minute he cums, he won't even look at you. like he'll literally go make a sandwich or something ??

- but out of all the ( 7 ) girls he's slept with, they say he's they best they've ever had. so now EVERYONE needs to experience zhanghao

• matthew

- DONT FALL FOR HIS TRICKS ‼️‼️‼️‼️

- has fucked the most girls.

- he likes to trick people with his sweet and caring demeanor, but really just wants his dick sucked 😛

- i feel like he'd be the only one to actually take you out on a date before he fucks you and then ghosts you 🥰 ( my standards are low..... )

- he's the most heartbreaking one cus he actually seems like such boyfriend materiel before he leaves you on read until he wants head again 💔

- but the girls always come back because he's literally in watch mojo for top 3 pussy eaters in the world

• taerae

- HE DOESNT GHOST YOU AFTER YOU FUCK 🎉🎉🎉🎉

- oh but he does fuck like twenty other girls while he's " dating " you

- he dates bunches of girls at the same time and they're all aware, but at least they're one of kim taerae's girlfriends ⁉️

- will take you on really good, perfect dates, but he's doing it to nineteen other people so it's not special 💔

- basically rotates girlfriends every two months, so that's sixty girls he's dating per year... you go rae 🥰

- his schedule is honestly so serious for him so the minute the two month mark hits you're cut off.

- but he's a good guy besides all that 🤗

• ricky

- is basically the leader of the fraternity like idk 🗣️🗣️

- the longest he's gone without taking a girl home is like.... three days ( i was last tuesday 🥰 )

- has fucked like every girl on campus like it's not even an exaggeration at this point

- kind of an asshole but it's okay i love when they're hot and toxic 🥰 ( can you tell i have relationship trauma )

- SUCH AN ASSHOLE WAIT CUS NOW IM THINKING..... he'd like flex his rolex while taking a picture on his family owned yacht that his rich ceo mom bought for him while wearing gucci....

- he's honestly such a smooth talker?? like he could def get you to sleep with him in under ten minutes of speaking, that's how good he is

- professional frat boy 😛

• gyuvin

- he's actually insane

- like he's going around snorting cocaine from girls' tits kind of insane

- he's the person everyone is chanting " CHUG! " for like ??

- LIFE OF THE PARTYYY

- if you show him any signs that you want to fuck he'll pull you into the nearest closet cus he'll buss it down anywhere

- NO BUT THE THING IS, HES SUCH A GOOD STUDENT NO ONE EVEN TRIES TO REPORT HIM FOR DOING DRUGS CUS THE TEACHERS WONT BELIEVE IT

- he's honestly the nicest cus he's actually such a fun guy to have around

[weirdogirl888]

hii i’m the same one who did the masochism ask… ngl it could go both ways but me personally i’d prefer it to be the reader 🥹🥹

donnie x masochistic!reader

y’all arnt ready, also i wrote this as headcannons but changed it into a one shot cuz i kept yapping so it’s not as good as i could’ve done but i hope u enjoyed

tw: smut, spitting, slapping, choking, mentions of anal, this is rlly bad i’m sorry

you and donnie have always been in agreement that sex was used to take out the frustrations you both had in your lives into each other during sex. you both thought it made the sex way better and also you felt better the days after.

donnie always was curious whenever you made his hand grip your neck and would lead you to smile and roll the eyes in the back of your head. you couldn’t have enjoyed that, could you? what about being cut off from a source of oxygen was making you turned on? donnie had tons of questions, and whenever the thought of you being into the pain ran by his mind, an erection and a smirk immediately followed

one time before sex donnie asked if he could be rougher with you than usual, and you literally dropped to your knees and stared at him in full seriousness “i’m your doll, use me”

at first it began with donnie slapping and pinching your tits which let out a pathetic moan from you and a light bulb turn on from him. he started getting rougher, he’d spit on you and say such sweet things in your ear that almost acted as if he wasn’t treating you like dirt right then

“your so pretty acting like my little slut for me baby. all mine to abuse, right?”

“all yours donnie” you whined with closed eyes

“yea thought so” he said before flipping your ass in the air

one time your parents were out of town so you guys decided to watch a movie in the living room. donnie really wanted to keep watching but you kept grinding on him so he couldn’t focus whilst spooning you and decided to teach you a lesson.and that’s how you ended up naked, ass up in the air and the top half of your body around the arm of the couch while donnie, fully clothed, had a perfect view of your ass and running pussy.

“is this what you wanted? to be played with? why do you crave my attention that fucking badly?” he said delivering another hard smack to your ass, which was already so fucking red from the previous 20 whole minutes.

you whined in response your hole sat wet and achey. donnie thought you’d have enough punishment and plunged his digits into you, causing you to moan loudly from the unexpected insertion. he always felt so fucking good. you completely let go of any support and just let your body hang over the couch, the arm pushing into your stomach

“you look so hot at my disposal, bet i could do anything to you right now” donnie’s thumb rubbed your asshole implying something you never even imagined, you moaned in terror

“i’m just kidding doll, maybe when you’ve been really bad i’d fuck you that hard. but wouldn’t you like it? being my anal princess.”

“is my pussy not enough for you?” your voice muffled

donnie laughed “got me there, speaking of” in an instant , he pulled your entire body only the couch do your back hit the soft cushions

“how’d you like another kind of didget to fill you up?” he said smiling.

[jojo-the-puppy]

ur little brother posts fucking drive me up a wall,, idk,,, the idea of tying ur big sis up and cockwarming her,,,, she begs,,, she struggles as you tie her ,, she tries anything she can to ask you to please, please don't do this all while she's as hard as a rock and dripping. even before you've even sat down on her lap you can feel the fear, the shame, the arousal,,,

she whines, struggling with tears forming in her eyes as you sit down on her, yet despite her protests you feel her cock throbbing and pulsing inside you. she's probably thought about you for a very long time,, even if she couldn't ever bear to admit it to herself. what kind of big sister would she be if she acted on such gross, perverted, sick thoughts??? but now she's trapped, she can't help herself as her little brother presses on those feelings she's tried to keep buried for so so long,,,

godd,, the idea of feeling her break slowly while you're inside her,,, despite all her self control she can't help it but unconsciously start thrusting against you,, her little brother just feels too good,,

muffled protests turn into whines and moans through sobs,,, she can't keep those gross thoughts buried anymore, not with what you're doing to her,,

goddd,, feeling her break, feeling that shame mix with the arousal of one of her darkest, grossest,, most private fantasies coming to life,,, you don't know if you've ever felt someone this hard before, nor this desperate either,, you could tell she's thought about you for a very long time. and oh how gross she's felt about such feelings....

woah i got alot more carried away than i thought i hope this isn't too weird lol. anywags idk as an oldest sister those posts hit something rlly rlly specific they ffucking rule,, the idea of little brother using his big sis , perv enabling her despite her protests or whatever,, making her feel so so gross and ashamed but so so turned on,,, ggod rlly turns me on, anywags hope ur having a good one ur posts r awesome

YOU, you get it!!

[nqify]

I mean I don’t rlly like the sadistic Quaritch. I feel like yes he would be rough but not that much, he wouldn’t slap you or choke you bcs he would be scared of hurting you ( I mean look at him he’s so big ) but I feel like he’d be praising A LOT, rlly enjoying the size difference and just admiring you

Pls do 😙

no but YES!! cuz he’s so huge he doesn’t want to hurt you omg soft dom!quaritch!!! AHH!!!

soft dom. — miles quaritch ☆

pairings. na’vi!miles quaritch. fem!reader

content warnings. fluffy smut kind of??. daddy kink ofc.

note. for the softies out there!! I SEE YOU AND HEAR YOU!! we all need a soft dom!quaritch in our lives so I had to write this!! MILES SOFT DOM SUPREMACY

miles is massive, this dude is 9’5, basically towering over you. He doesn’t want to hurt you, ur just too small and too cute for him. he’s practically aweing at ur size difference.

let’s say you like following miles around base, always falling behind due to his large steps, so miles says, “hold my hand baby, gotta keep you close” AAHHH!!! your whole hand fits around his pointer finger. and he loves it.

bro is so scared of hurting you, he’s so careful with you. Whenever he picks you up he’s so gentle with his touches, making sure your as comfortable as he is.

so during the naughty time this MAN IS ON HIGH ALERT!!, “you okay baby??”, “you alright with this mama?”

it could be your first time taking him, like FULLY taking him in. he’d have you in missionary, back arching off the bed sheets as you grab miles’ shoulders for support. he’d see you struggle to take him in and FEEL SO BAD!!

miles would pull away from you and look down, his hands would travel to your stomach and put pressure on it, “baby cmon, I know you can take it all, be a good girl for me yeah?” and ur just nodding, anything to make him happy.

when you finally take all of him in HES SHOCKED!!! he’s praising you ALOT, “that’s my girl, taking me so well aren’t you babygirl?”

cuz he’s so vocal he’s praising you 24/7, even without the devils tango. You could be doing smth for him and he’d come behind you and say, “look at you baby!! making me so proud” he’d leave little kisses on your head.

when u r a brat to him he TRYS so hard to punish you. But he just can’t. He’d try overstimulating you but your constant whining and whimpering makes him feel bad for his baby, “I’m sorry ma, you gotta take this for me okay?? gotta learn ur lesson alright??, you can do that right? just for daddy??” yes ofc omg.

after his done punishing you he’d hold you close, “good girl, took it so well” and then BOOM your gonna get the best sex ever.

he’s def a passionate lover!! he loves feeling you close to him!! loves positions like missionary, cowgirl or full nelson. he sees sex as an important thing in a relationship, it builds connection, soul tying even.

he just loves hearing you get all flustered when ur about to cum. Cuz u guys are so close to eachother he can tell just by your sounds that your going to release, “you gonna cum princess?? cmon baby, cum for me, cum for daddy, make him proud”. you cry out and flutter around his dick, causing him to groan in your ear.

lemme elaborate on the full Nelson position!! full Nelson is when your partner is practically picking you up and fucking you. He’d have your legs spread open, his hands holding your thighs for support as your back hit his chest.

your hands would be finding the back of his hair to pull. and oh lord, he’s loving you in this position. your so vulnerable and so so small my god.

“mama, u look so fucking good rn. u take this dick so good don’t you?? yeah you do. my girl makes daddy feel so fucking good s-shit” he’s moaning and groaning in your ear babe!!!

hes being so gentle with you too!! being careful not to dig his nail into your poor, aching thighs. or being super careful with his thrusts. he doesn’t want to hurt his baby!!

whenever he wanted to go a little rough he would always give u a heads up, “baby Ima go a little harder okay?? you alright with that??” YEA U R!!

hes fully pounding into you, always double checking at your state to make sure okay. He’s going in deep, reaching all the right places!! that’s when he hits your g-spot

you cry out, AND HE KNOWS HE HIT IT. “shit, baby, this the spot right?? this the spot that’s gonna make u scream my name, yeah mama??” 100% yes.

he just keeps hitting it over and over again. “s-so close, m-miles pls!! lemme cum pls!!” your begging and whining for him. HIS POOR BABY!!

“such a good girl for asking, fuck baby, need you to cum, cmon, need it so bad” you could feel him get close too. He’s twitching in you. You whine his name when u orgasm, causing him to buck his hips.

“fuck, princess, gonna cum, shit, gonna take this load right?? I know u can baby, you can do that for me mm??” ur nodding your head. “pls daddy!!! cum in me!! make me yours” GIRLLLLL HE IS CUMMING FOR SHRE

he moans ur name, slowly bucking his hips. First thing he does is check up on you. He’d lay you down and rub your thighs with his thumbs. “you okay baby?? I didn’t go too rough on you??” you’d shake ur head no, coming back to reality. Your shaking and twitching. “mama, ur shaking”

“that’s a good thing miles, that means u did it well” HES SO PROUD OF HIMSELF!! EGO BOOSTED. he’d smiled at you with his little fangs, wagging his tail.

“give daddy a kiss mama” MWAHMWAHMWAH ur smooching all over him cuz HE IS PRETTY AAA!!

just saying again requests will be closed later today so send as many stuff as you can now!!!

[blackdollette]

hi i haven’t seen too many rory fics so i was wondering if u could do one where he’s getting ready at 7 in the morning for an interview and reader wakes up to him in the bathroom getting ready but she’s like extremely horny (like morning wood but for girls ;)) but she’s also like extremely tired cus it’s rlly early

and rory sees her and is like really sweet and goes to kiss her head say gm and give her a hug but when he tries to pull away he realizes that she’s like gripping him not letting him go and he’s like “babe i gotta finish getting ready” but she’s just holding onto his waist and rory’s all confused until she like looks up at him with eye bags and red shot doe eyes (but rory still thinks she’s beautiful ofc ;)) and is like “can you help me?”and rory’s confused at first but then realizes what she means when she slowly starts to take her panties off and then he’s like “you’re so tired tho” kind of laughing at her neediness but she’s like begging like “please?” with doe eyes n shit basically still half asleep but he gives in but is like “we hv to go quick cant b late” and he fucks her good and hard and like he’s holding both her legs up giving her a so much pleasure from the angle and he’s a little rough with her like grabbing her face and choking her and whispering dirty things into her ear and she’s like so tired but she’s staying up thru it and right after they cum she like falls asleep and he finds it really cute and is like “gn baby” and gives a her sweet goodbye kiss. :3

(dis is so much im so sorry)

ask & you shall recieve :))

"i need you." | rory culkin

off to the races. - lana del rey

female!reader x rory

word count: 747

contents: unprotected sex, p in v, creampie

p.s. i didn't write this with the intention of directing any disrespect towards rory's relationship :))

you rolled over as you felt the morning sun hitting your face. you slowly opened your eyes, letting them adjust to the light. you glanced at the alarm clock on your bedside table. it read 7:02am. you got out of bed, slipping on your robe and stumbling to the bathroom, seeing rory getting ready through the crack in the door.

you opened the door and walked in, wrapping your arms around him in a tight hug. he gave you a soft kiss on the forehead before trying to brush you off, but you kept a tight grasp on him. you were so sleepy, but all you wanted was to be with him right then. you’d woken up feeling so needy for pleasure, so you weren’t ready to let him leave.

he looked at you, still trying to get you off of him. “i’ve gotta get to work, baby. i have an interview at 8 and i don’t want to miss the train.” you put your head on his shoulder and groaned. he lifted up your head and made you look at him, looking into your eyes. it was clear that you hadn’t had the best night.

your soft was soft and a little raspy. “i need you, baby. please. don’t go yet…” you looked at him, your big pleading eyes staring into his soul. and he noticed how your hips were just slightly grinding on his legs. he looked at your body in your robe, seeing as it revealed some of your cleavage. he looked down as you fiddled with your lacy panties, and he knew exactly what you were getting at.

you were making his mind wander. he surely couldn’t go to work without settling this matter, so he sighed as he reached his hands down to his belt, unbuckling it quickly. he pulled you into a passionate kiss, running his hands down your body as he picked you up and set you by the sink, helping you take off your robe. 

he tossed it onto the ground and stared at your body for a moment, fully taking in your beauty. he pulled himself into you, starting to kiss your neck softly as he took off your soaked panties. you ran your fingers through his hair as your body grew warmer. your tongues started dancing together as he slowly rubbed your clit.

you whined as he teased you, but you both knew that you’d have to be as quick as possible. so he lined up his cock with your entrance before pushing it in. you moaned loudly. it felt so good to finally be filled up like this. he wasted no time thrusting into you. you wrapped your arms around his body as he pushed himself in and out of you. 

deep groans were coming out of him. it was clear that he’d wanted this too. he kept your legs apart and circled your clit with his thumb. the room filled with your noises, them surely being loud enough to wake up the entire neighbourhood.

he gently grabbed your face and started speaking to you in between groans. “you feel so good, baby. just wanna make you feel good…” he started going faster with his movements, syncing his fingers with his thrusts. you were a moaning mess, tugging at his hair and feeling yourself losing control.

you started bucking your hips into his touch, feeling your body finally getting the relief that its been craving. he made sure to hit that perfect spot everytime, feeling as your pussy clenched around him. his groans became raspier the more frequent he got. you were both painfully close to such a satisfying orgasm.

his chest heaved up and down with each breath. “cum with me, baby… ” and that was all you needed to hear before completely letting yourself go, releasing all your cum on his cock. he looked down at the white ring around his length as precum started shooting from his tip. with one final thrust, he came inside of you. there was so much that when he pulled out, you were connected by a thick string of cum.

time was running short, so he didnt have to time take care of you like he usually did. so he carried you back to bed, you almost instantly falling asleep as your head hit the pillow. he smiled and pressed a loving kiss to your forehead. then he walked to the door and walked out without a sound.

author's note: this has been sitting in my drafts for a while. so sorry for the delay but i hope you enjoyed it :))

[your-queer-dad]

parents and school and everything is getting a hell of a lot more dangerous for me way fast I’m trans in Florida with a fuck ton of disorders I send stuff here to vent a lot never sign my shit so you probably don’t recognize me by my situation or typing cause a lot of people here vent about similar stuff but I said before things are dangerous I don’t have safe spaces or people but there’s this new kid in class and our schools hella bigoted the kids were joking about nazi shit again and this guy was like dude why are y’all so racist and stuff and it was such a shock hearing someone else say somethin when I first went to this school I tired reporting kids and talking to them and explaining etc nothing worked they don’t care teachers are worse then the kids etc and I got rlly nervous about it cause I get assaulted and bullied alot and they all made fun of me and said I was paranoid it’s just jokes I have my head up my ass and I’m like truamadumping by explaining why bigotry is bad not even using my experiences!! so after a couple months I stopped talking but this one new guy just completely called it out in the smoothest way possible and then when everyone tried making excuses he was like nah that’s stupid actually anyway my parents are getting more dangrous and I’m struggling with my health and trying to get them to actually make appointments with the fucking doctors so my medical shit doesn’t catch up to me and mess me up more and I still don’t have a job or drivers license I’m seventeen trying to get hours for the license and trying to get medically ok enough to put effort towards the hours and a job and getting my homework done that a whole thing I’m in so many classes this year and it’s to much work and the classes are at the same time so no matter what I have to miss a lesson etc anyway I’m so stressed everything’s going to shit basically but this one kid is nice lowkey and mentally I’m doing better I used to be a lot worse due to stress but I stop blaming myself and proriize my health and manage to make things slightly better with my routine by fighting for years with my parents and it finally paid off sort of it’s really weird now things are so much more dangerous and I’m the most scared ever but also mentally clear the most I’ve ever been I can actually feel lonely and hungry and thirsty and process the emotions I couldn’t do that before and I’m in less pain generally my plans are paying off years and years of planning and working and just like locking in and trusting my gut no matter what anyone does to me I’m happy I was right I would eventually meet someone who wasn’t racist and I did and even if things are more dangerous now and everything’s gone to shit at school and home I have what I need to really flip shit around I just need to rest and get a little more energy to pull it off

also there’s a whole thing with like my parents putting me in situations wheee they knew I’d get hurt and assaulted then they leave me to it I’ve almost died a lot because of medical neglect I need to be like not put through extreme stress assaults intense sports and getting threatened to get killed and etc but hey that never stopped them new schools new intense extra curriculars with people who hurt me in every kind of way and leave me to die being put in places that work against my mental disorders leaving me to fail and then blaming me when it happens or when I try to get out or talk my way out or go to the bathroom so I can calm down from panic attacks and getting ducking assaulted just to be followed in the bathroom and assaulted there to :/ and when I tell my parents I get hit with the “well high school is hard for everyone” not even a full talk just that sentence then I get ignored again also I’ve also been assaulted by my parents so that’s fun/sarcastic “but it’s ok because it’s just family and just roughhousing and just a joke and no one means anything by it this is just what family family is allowed to get touchy does but don’t tell anyone because you know how people are” it really is the home stretch now everything I’ve worked for is paying off and I have the tools to get what u need to leave and get support I just need to stick it out and figure out the specifics and then actually go do it things feel weird physically and mentally I’m dissociating less so I process more and by body feels all different I feel emotional when people are mean to me and lonely to and there’s so much but also when I hit my limit I can’t tell because it doesn’t hurt like before cause I’m not like fatally fucked over anymore it’s weird

anyway I love you dude you’ve really helped being listened to is hella validating thanks dad 🫂

Hey kiddo, gosh I am so so sorry you have to go through all of that. That's awful and you don't deserve any of that. You don't deserve to be treated like that, by your classmates or your parents. And I wish I could take all that pain away from you. I know it sounds cliche but I promise you things will get better. You're seventeen, you're almost there I promise you please hang on til it gets better. There is hope and you deserve all the hope and happiness in the world. 🫂🫂🫂

- dad x

[saberst]

//   (  paul mescal  .  cis man  .  he/him  )  .    ⸻  fletcher  o'bryne  ,  an  twenty - eight  year  old  ,  has  survived  another  day  in  red  creek  where  they  have  lived  for  eighteen  years  .  the  fallen  angel  is  known  for  being  compassionate  and  violent  and  is  often  associated  with  a  rosary  gripped  tightly  in  bloody  hands, the  sins  of  the  father  fall  to  the  sun,  &  a  journal  bloated  with  ink .  in  a  small  town  where  they  work  as  the  owner  of  white  pine  auto  garage  word  travels  fast  .  it’s  hard  to  keep  a  secret  ,  and  it  looks  like  the  boogeyman  knows  that  redacted . (  link ,  26  ,  mst , he/they  )  .

written by link. tw for the following under the cut; abuse, smoking, general crime, cheating, catholicism, & internalized homophobia (rlly small rlly not intense).

full name: fletcher joseph o'bryne nicknames: "fletch" by basically everyone, "sketch" best friend wc, o'bryne birthdate: april, 7th 1996 birthplace: boston, MA family: father- dominic o'bryne (MIA), mother- rosemary o'bryne, two younger brothers, three younger sisters, three older brothers, one older sister (wc? hit me up if interested lol). sexuality: bisexual. heterosexual... he's figuring things out residence: the upstairs office of white pines auto garage. appearance: always messy curly brown hair, an unshaven face, excessive body hair, single pierced ear with a silver hoop, a gold gaelic cross necklace, crooked nose from multiple beaks, hands that are never seen without grease. notable features: heart with an arrow through it with the word "mom" across it on his right shoulder, the virgin mary on the left shoulder, cross on his ribcage with the years his sibling were born at it's side

inspo

characters: matt murdock, dean winchester, dodge mason (panic), ryan atwood, dallas winston (the outsiders), jon snow (asoiaf), elliot stabler (l&o:svu) aesthetics: catholic guilt, a fucked up family, grease covered hands, the black sheep in a family of wolves, overfilled journals, new england accents, daddy's least favorite princess, rosary gripped tightly in bloody hands, the sins of the father fall to the sun, a journal bloated with ink, wasted dreams, soft heart with hard hands pinterest: here

history

born in boston, ma- fletch lived there for the first 10 years of his life. there his dad owned an auto parts shop/garage. buisness was shockingly good. the family had a number of vintage cars in the lot that dominic o'bryne took care of better than his own hoard of children

ABUSE TW. dominic "nic" was the least likable man in boston. he had a violent temper that was famous in the neighborhood. if nic was mad, the whole town would know it. none knew it better than his own family. none of them could escape it at the time. (i won't go into further detail, but you get the picture)

ABUSE TW. fletcher would end up getting the worst of it, even when he was the smallest. nic hated how soft fletch would seem. instead of wanting to spend all his time in the garage like the rest of the boys, fletch enjoyed laying and looking up at the sky- drawing the birds in the trees, and the geese that ran through boston commons. whenever anyone dared question what was going on with that boy, nic simply stated "he's got brothers, mind your damn business"

fletch was forced to toughen up. so he did, but it also made him take no shit. fletch was nearly thrown out of school for fighting multiple times. though he never started the fights, he did most certainly end them all.

CATHOLISM TW. the whole family sans nic would go to church every sunday, and if possible every wednesday. every single o'bryne has been confirmed in the catholic faith. fletch still follows the faith, but struggles with it deeply. what kind of god would put his family through all they've been through.

the garage had always been a cover for nic's shady dealings. when his boys became old enough, they all had to be included too. nic would send a group of his buds to go and steal car parts for them to fence and sell or put in customer's vehicles. this continued even after being run out of boston by a bigger and meaner outfit.

the move was devastating for nic. now all his work became 10x harder. sure more parts were made in MI, but red creek was miles away from anything. what used to be a job he could knock out in the night and still get fucked up at the local bar, now took him till dawn. his family now had to deal with an even more pissed off nic.

CHEATING TW. though nic had been unfaithful the whole marriage, it only became worse when the move to red creek happened. when nic wasn't working, he was chasing tail at the bar. so when nic disappeared without a trace, nobody thought he might be connected to the murders/disappearances, they all just thought he ran away with the hot young thing he had been chasing.

everyone was shocked when instead of passing the family business to his loyal and devoted older sons, nic left a written and signed paper with the request of leaving the family business to his least favorite child; fletcher. and ever since the older part of the family has essentially excommunicated fletch. he hasn't been allowed to see or talk to his family since the disappearance of his father. his one way of communication is sneaking them hand written letters whenever possible.

fletcher now has to sleep on the couch in the upstairs office of the white pines. he doesn't think anyone knows this, but its easy to see his bag of clothes peaking out from behind the desk

fletcher is doing everything possible to be nothing like his father. so all shady dealings have stopped at white pines, but this has caused a lot of strain on the business. though he doesn't let his employees know this

hcs!

thick thick boston accent. real true new englander to his core. most of his older siblings have it too, but the younger ones seemed to have lost it in favor of the midwestern accent

would have loved to gone to art school, but instead went to trade school at 15 (he lied about his age) so he could work in the garage at the behest of his father. he draws mostly with ink, still life. if he really loves you, your face is going in one of his millions of journals.

speaking of journals, fletcher will put anything in them. his thoughts, his art, things he wants to say but cant. they're deeply deeply personal and he doesn't share them. he carries one around in his pocket at all times

doesn't own not stained clothes, unless it's his church clothes.

still goes to church every sunday

CATHOLISM TW. hasn't dated seriously in a long time. has hooked up once or twice, but catholic guilt eats him up abt it so i'm sorry he's probably ghosted you

INTERNALIZED HOMOPHOBIA/ CATHOLISM TW. is most assuredly bisexual, and has def hooked up with guys, but deep deep catholic guilt mostly abt lying to himself and others abt it... so that's some closet shit he's dealing with

chain smokes. like he's going through nearly 2 packs a day on a good day.

such a fucking old man literally acts like he's 80 years old does not understand cell phones

cat dad! there's a shop cat that he feeds and makes come up to the office with him at night. he says its for the mice, but he babies that thing. former tomcat with big ass cheeks

wcs

siblings! - if anyone is interested in joining this shady fucked up lil family let me know and we can come up with something (: especially interested in an older brother who was most certainly nic's favorite first love - met and fell in love fast, fletch was probably ready to propose after just a month. however life and his family made him think better. he ended things abruptly after being together for awhile, then not long after that fletcher's dad disappeared. they probably haven't talked since then best friend - they're an odd pair. it's shocking to see them together, but they have a lot of things in common, and just a deep deep love for each other. fletch tells this person just about everything in a way he's not really known for doing generally: former hookup he ghosted, friends, exes, sibling surrogate, found family

[sourbinnie]

title -> alight genre -> angst turned into fluff pair -> jisung x gn!reader plot -> crushing on someone is easy (but anxiety and jealousy don't think so) warnings -> cursing + one mention of anxiety words -> 1421 lowercase intended

i'm so obsessed, i go to bed i get undressed i lie in bed, look at the ceiling and i find you in my head yet again, i wash my hair, i tell myself that i don't care about the girls you find appealing or what's under what you wear.

alight / ninajirachi

thoughts running a marathon in my head as i get home from minho(e)'s party. my glitter still hangin' and my mascara is intact but i still feel a heavy weight on my heart as i start to take it off completely. how pathetic can one be? to see the boy you like for so long, talking to another guy/girl and feeling that immediate weight on your shoulders, those bad thoughts crawling back and that heavy heart that won't be fixed with nothing but a confession. minho(e) is gonna kill me for leaving but i did not care, i needed to be alone in my room with my anxiety & emotions like a tsunami in me.

i knew i wasn't the perfect candidate but i always had hope we would be something more. when i first got introduced to him, i fell so hard, it hit me like a wave and i just had to be friends with him at least. now movin' on two years later and i'm still hanging on a crush (that's clearly not a crush anymore) and on a friendship (that i wanted it to be more) and all of my friends saying "you should just tell him!" (ehem, minhoe, ehem) but it's not that easy isn't it?. as i looked at myself once again in the mirror i realized that i was nothing like the guys/girls he used to have a crush on and i have so many flaws. this is where chan comes in and tells me "everyone has flaws" but if i hear that speech one more time, i might kick his ass back to australia. 

i wasn't crying this time, just staring at the ceiling and waiting for the messages of "where are u" to pop up. first one from minho(e) obviously, then binnie, then chan and lastly jisung. god he didn't even know how much a message from him turns my world around and my attention just draws back to him. but then i remember that pretty guy/girl he was chatting with, their long hair, their flirting...

yeah i was screwed wasn't i?

sung<3

fuck why did you leave

you know i can't do these kinds of things alone

that was at 1:38 am and the second message was true, i was just like him. parties were never my cup of tea but i dealt with them mostly fine if i had my friends by my side, today wasn't one of those days. as much as i tried to get as pretty as i could to impress (myself & someone), all of them seemed to have better business and that was probably getting a hook up to go home to. i was never the hook up kind so i was just left all alone as i observed the other people in the house. but as soon as it hit 1:00 am, i decided that it would be better to head home. kind of dangerous to just walk to my home in the middle of the night but my heart felt so heavy as i tried not to picture jisung kissing another person.

sung<3

can i come over?

i rlly wanted to talk to u

oh god, my worst nightmare was about to come true. i will have the impulse to confess and this night is gonna end more terribly than it already has. i debated whether i should pretend i was sick but i could never do that, they always see right through me so i just responded "sure" and tried to dress presentable. if i knew i was seeing him again i wouldn't have taken off my makeup but barefaced it is. it didn't take him too long since i wasn't that far from minho(e)'s house and i left the door opened. there he was in all of his glory with his beautiful squishy cheeks and his hair getting blonder day by day. i'm not drunk, just hopelessly in love with an idiot. which reminds me, why is he here? why isn't he with that guy/girl i saw him earlier? oh god if i ruined his chances of getting laid he will kill me.

"(y/n) hi." ok this is odd, he never calls me by full name but i'm gonna play along.

"han jisung what do i owe you the pleasure to?" i ask as i look at him from the living room. i didn't even bother to move since he opened the door himself and i was just too fucking broken over stupid shit to care anymore. "thought you would stay longer at the party."

"i got bored without you there." he said and i could tell he was being honest, his eyes never lie as he moved next to me and sat down on the couch. "i thought you would stay longer too but you didn't even tell anyone you were going."

yeah that was a bad move on me, one message would've been enough but when you get so fucking lost in sadness, you don't really care do you?

"i know, i'm sorry about that." i pouted and he just shook his head as he gave me that little smile of his. god i was so head over heels for this idiot and i don't know how much longer i'm gonna last with these feelings until i burst. "you shouldn't have left though."

"why not?" he asked and i could feel his hand on my thigh as he looked at me puzzled. i immediately blushed at the sensation and just didn't know what to say but i found a way to send my words out.

"i just thought you were having fun like chan, minho(e) and bin." i said and i wasn't wrong to think that. he walked in with the person and stayed with them most of the night. god what if it was his significant other? and i was just being an asshole? panicking is the only thing i know how to do. 

"me? not at all, just spent the whole night trying to think how to approach you and failing." ok that was also weird, why would he need to think how to talk to me? we've been friends for 2 years. "i'm sorry i didn't, i'm just a coward at the end of the day."

"what do you mean? you're not sung and definitely don't need to think of ways of approaching me, we're friends right?" i ask and he sighs, i felt like i said the wrong words immediately. i want to get inside his head just to see what he's thinking so much about, i wanna know what he's feeling and what he's saying, especially since i seem to not be getting anything at all.

"that's the problem, god how the fuck do i say this? i'm the worst with words." well that's also a lie since he's the best freestyle rapper i know (don't tell bin) and somehow he's more nervous than i am about this situation. i felt more calm in his presence which is something he always tend to drive me to. i love talking to him because it feels easy and like nothing's gonna bother me anymore when i'm with him. "can i do something? you can punch me in the face later but please just once".

"you can do anything sungie and i wouldn't punch you ever." i said and his trembling hand found it's way to my cheek, caressing it softly. i felt like i could melt right then and there as he just closed his eyes and i did the same, feeling a pair of my lips fitting right in with mine, it wasn't the perfect kiss but it was definitely more than perfection to me. it didn't get heated and it wasn't just a peck but it was so beautiful that i had to make it last. that's when all the doubts went away and i truly felt like i was floating. 

as we split away, i could only feel my hand on my lips as i looked at him and he just smiled again. his full on smile made me blush crimson red as i tried to hide from him but he just took my hands away from my face and whispered softly.

"i am so in love with you since i first met you".

i felt everything come into place just with those words as i responded.

"i've been dying to hear that since i first saw you."