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Hello! I love what you write itâs amazing! â¨
Can I request an Eddie Brock one where the reader is her neighbor and they are pretty close and sheâs in love with him but heâs still obsessed with Anne, and one day she sees him really sad (about Anne) and invites him to see her band and she starts playing (The one- The Warning) and idk something interesting happens:0
Take A Chance On Me
eddie brock x younger fem!reader
summary: being in a relationship with eddie is a bliss! except for when he mourns his ex relationship with anne, which unfortunately, seems to be pretty much all the time. in the middle of all that sulking, you come up with an idea. will you be able to make him choose you this time?
warnings: 18+ (minors dni), age gap, smut, situationship lol, so angst!!, sunshine!reader x grumpy!eddie (he's still mopping around), hurt/comfort, exhibition kink, fingering, oral (f. receiving), p. in v., riding, creampie, you can tell i've been listening to ABBA ijbol, no venom :(
word count: 4,394 words
side note: hi, tysm for requesting! since this request is very specific lol but has similar themes to my previous eddie work i decided to make it as a follow-up in the neighbours au; not a series yet but it was an interesting idea to add to their dynamic!!! hope you like it <3 in case you wanna read the previous part for context as to where this two are it's here
Ever since that night, your relationship with Eddie has grown. Hell, you may say you're a day away from being official any time.
And there are time's when you're so sure of it, like when he stops by your apartment and kisses you like there's no one else in the world; to later make you come hard with the lights off (hey! you gotta start a tradition or two).
But there are other times when you knock on his door and he doesn't open, only for you to use your spare key, finding the room scented with empty bottles, your neighbor mumbling something like Anne through his sad pouty lips.
Yes, Anne. A name that makes you seethe like it burns; a ghost that haunts the spaces of silence where Eddie seems to doubt what the hell is he doing: why is he thereâwith you.
Your heart feels heavy, and it feels sort of pathetic that it's his hurting what hurts you the most. In the end, things are like this: you love helping people, your empathy may be infinite and you're sure you've never loved anyone like you love Eddie Brock before.
So it's this combination of things that makes you take the following decision, hoping to make him pass the page, so whenever he gets drunk again, all his lips will ever whisper is your name over and over again; that his sadness belongs to him, and not the only person that seems to be keeping you away from your happy ending, even if they don't know about it.
To Eddie, you're the sweetest thing in the world. Nobody kisses like you do, hugs with the tightness you do, loves as much as you do, fucks as good as you do or bakes killer cookies like yours.
That list does nothing but grow, as he is constantly mesmerized by every new little thing he learns about you: your favorite movies, the new recipes you try (he's more than happy to beta taste them for you), the way you sing (you do have a good voice that made him squirm at the other secret talent you had) and your kindness, which has done more hurt than good lately: because Eddie can't fathom the idea of you, taking care of him during his sad drunken mopping nights, while listening to everything about Anne on repeat.
He knows it hurts you, that he's starting to create creaks in your relationship, the hope slowly fading away from your eyes each passing day, doubts creeping up your smile, erasing that shiny beautiful light of yours; it's the only thing stopping him from calling you his girlfriend, and still, he can't stop.
It's like a vice at this point, and he wonders if he'll ever sober out of it.
So today he knocks on your door, hoping to set things straight even if a part of his heart still beats for Anne. It may be selfish, but after you came in his life, he can't imagine it without you.
But when you open up, he's at loss for words.
"Why are you wearing that?"
You scoff. "Hope it's not an offense, judging by your tone"
His eyes roam over your body, and even if you tend to be more on the confident side, you can't help but feel shy. After all, he's never seen you like this before: all glam.
It's a jacket, well his jacket, a small black top and black very short shorts. You surely are playing the part tonight, switching your usual pink and sunflower bubbly style to something more... rock.
"Why?" is all he asks, and you feel obligued to answer. Besides, you were going to knock on his door after getting out, not expecting he did it first. The surprise is ruined, but his incredulous eyes suffice for now.
"So, my friend has this band" you explain, "and they just got sick. The thing is, they had a gig today in a bar where they're regulars, so naturally, cancelling at last minute is not an option"
"And?" you love how oblivious he can be sometimes.
"And, I found a replacement" his face remains blank, so you sigh a little dissapointed but deliver with chirp, "me!"
"You?"
You roll your eyes, "is there a problem?"
"No!" he corrects hastily, "I'm just surprised, that's all. I know you like to sing, and have a good voice! But there's a huge gap between that and well, playing in a gig"
"I know, but I used to have a band when I was in highschool; I'm used to this things"
His mouth falls a bit, and maybe his head starts to cloud with ideas of your clashing new style and angel like voice; or maybe it's you wearing his jacket, a garment of his for you to bear in public: a first. It's a bit stupid and too daydream-ish for his liking, so he blurts:
"I didn't know that"
Your laugh is so light, it feels like wind blowing across a field.
"Oh, Eddie baby" he blushes at the pet name and endearing tone, your voice dropping like it does whenever you want something he's more than willing to give you, "there's a lot you don't know about me"
In the end, you convinced Eddie to join you, who, if you're being honest, didn't need that much convincing.
He was sold just with the idea of seeing you sing, which intrigued him. There's a huge difference in your drunk karaoke nights that annoyed your neighbors and playing live in a gig. Eddie wants to see what you have to offer, and as for you? Well, this is your plan: your plan to make him forget about Anne once and for all.
It may be silly and immature but hey, you're young! It's okay to be wrong and possessive sometimes, and your friend just did you the favor of faking an illness to give you a spot to shine and put that voice of yours to use, that's a bit rusty since your highschool days. So, no pressure! Your potential boyfriend is on the crowd and ruining this would cost your kind friend their job. Good thing your optimism doesn't seem to expire, because Lord! Your hands are trembling and sweaty when you hold a microphone again for the first time in a little more than a decade.
"Hey" you exit out of the curtain, and the dim lights now bright up a little, directing themselves towards you, "good evening"
You hear a bit of muffled voices that sound confused, asking for your friend, and you can tell the crowd are regulars. Yikes.
"I'm here on behalf of Isha. They're sick, so I'm covering just for tonight" you decide to go for a little jokey joke to light up the otherwise judgemental room, that seems to be testing youâlike they know all your weak spots; smell your nerves. "So don't like me too much, as I'm a one time thing"
Eddie laughs, but covers it with a cough when he realizes the room is awfully quiet.
"Okay, uh, for tonight's set, I've got a few things prepared" you fumble a bit with the papers where the lyrics are (you've always liked to be a bit old fashioned), like you're clumsy and it's your first time, not reflecting the fact that this idea has been simmering for a whileâevery song rehearsed and planned. "Songs, I mean, I've got a few songs prepared"
You start with something smooth, which makes people divert their attention back to whatever they were doing. To you, that's a bit dissapointing, but as long as they don't judge and Eddie keeps his eyes on you, you think you can make it.
But what where you really thinking? Being optimistic means you're often let down, as your pink bright ideas end up crushed by the real gray world. And you can handle itâas you're no weak, but resorting to singing a song that feels oddly specific about the situationship you're currently living in hopes of making Eddie forget his ex fiancĂŠe and get whooped by your mesmerizing voice is actually kind of crazy!
But yeah, now you're nearing the end of the set list and almost everyone's eyes are on you. Of course, Eddie is the most attentive, taking every word that pours out of your melodic mouth like if he's thirsty, and your voice is the only thing that can help him. He never leaves your silhouette, and it may be you dreaming, but there's something like guilt and love behind his eyes; torn. Yeah, you do feel like you're dreaming, and it's been so long since you felt this alive; you kind of forgot how happy singing made you.
As the crowd is engaged, you find it fitting to make a pause and announce the next song. You know your voice comes out as shaky, but hope people think it's about tiredness and not nerves. Why are you nervous, thought? People love you! It's because this is the final part of your plan: singing this song you used to be obssesed long ago, but now seems to perfectly sum up those raw, angry and vulnerable feelings fo yours you're simply not used to; they say music helps us put a name to that we can't, and that has never been more true.
"For the next song, well, our last song" a few booing echos in the crowd, and you can't believe you made it this far. Maybe Isha did lost their job, "it's called The One, by The Warning. Hope you enjoy"
Eddie's had such a blast tonight, he hasn't noticed the past of time, completely lost when you announce the last song. Among other things he's forgotten, is the fact he was supposed to talk today with you about the future of your relationship.
It's kind of your fault: how can he remain focused with such display in front of him?
The band begins playing, and soon, your voice fills the air:
I'll do anything to make it happen
Tell me your secrets, what are you hiding?
Some people sing along the lyrics, while others just listen attentively. You make it to a part of the song that sounds like:
Can you explain to me what's this feeling?Love it or hate it, it's never leaving. Want to believe, that you feel it too.
Oh, Eddie feels nauseous. The lyrics hit a bit too close to home, and he fills called out in the room of oblivious people.
He can hear your vocals breaking a bit, as raw as he's never heard before. He feels so bad, he's about to make the most ridiculous thing of his life and jump onto the stage to hug you, but he can't interrupt you. So he sits there, palms sweaty and nerves tense.
He's been dumb, but like, really dumb. Of course you know it: how can you not? He swears every morning after, his hangover unbearable, your kindness hurts more than his headacheâbecause there's pain behind your eyes, and he knows you remember more what happened than he did. He feels undeserving of your compassion and all the care you give him, even if you know Eddie's still hung up on Anne.
There is no reason to even doubt it. Please, understand that I am not lying. My heart is true, it beats for you.
How can you still love him? Still root for him? How can you give him your heart knowing a part of his still beats for Anne?
Fantasizing that something might happen, always wishing that I was the one.
He feels torn, because he knows it's you he wants to be with. You're the reason his days have been brighter ever since he lost everything, the reason he smiles whenever his door knocks and why he isn't alone in this sulking anymore. So he hates the fact that he can't heal faster and move on, because that's all that's really stopping him from just being him and you.
Give me something I can feel, I'm too afraid to ask. What is it I need to change, for you to love me back?
He's done mourning but he knows grief doesn't pass in the blink of an eye. But he's sure of it already.
Say that you will really never hurt or leave me. Say it and it will come true. Hold me like you really love me: tell me that you do.
Those three words he's been holding back: afraid of feeling too much in such little time; afraid of thinking he would ever feel his heart beat for anyone else, the confession dripping from his eyes but not past through his sealed mouth.
And I know that I'm not the one on your mind. But still, I will be the one.
The song ends before he's registered, and amid the applauses, you leave the stage, almost running behind the courtain. The band bids goodbye and Eddie finds himself leaving his table and moving onto where the small improvised dressing room is.
He's done pondering. You will be the one.
You didn't plan to rush backstage like that, but tears started to burn in your eyes and it was getting harder to contain them infront of the crowd.
They loved your show, but you feel empty, even if a little relieved. There was a pressure before and now it's gone, but there's a thing that hasn't gone: the doubt.
You wonder if Eddie understood the words you feel like a coward for not voicing, the feelings that threaten to spill like a hot cauldron, the rage burning your throat when he talks about her, like she's all there is in his mind. Then comes the sadness; you can't help but wonder if he will ever choose you.
Tonight, perhaps, is the day all those what-if's will be answered, and their possible answers won't hunt you anymore.
It's like he read your mind, because there's a knock in your door and it's like you have memorized a bit too much of Eddie: the traces of his faceâwith wrinkles that mark the gaps in your relationship, the loud way in which he eats, the sounds he makes when he rides his bike, especially those when you wrap your arms around his; even the way his knuckles call for you through the door.
You clear your throat, trying to hide your broken voice. "Come in"
Eddie's face pops up, and all you can offer him is a weak smile. "Did you like the show?"
He tries to measure what he's about to say, because he doesn't know where to start, but the glow in his eyes betrays him, so he excitedly says: "It was great! I didn't know you had that in you, baby"
Even the pet name doesn't make the smile reach your eyes. Oh, he's screwed up for sure.
"Thanks" you mutter, small. You hate feeling like this: the last time you did, you were still in middle school. Your kindness was taken for weakness, and you promised yourself you would never let your heart be taken and used again. Yet here you are, hope planting a seed inside of you that's grown into a rose with thorns that pierce your sweet heart whenever it beats for Eddie. But you can't stop: the roots are too deep in you, and you can't find yourself to kill the flower that's bloomed out of this one-sided love.
"Listen, y/n" oh, he's serious. No petname or nothing. Maybe he's finally opened his eyes and realise this fooling-around-thing you've got going on isn't going nowhere; that your new isn't as exciting as it was before, and his heart will never be yours. You'll never be the one.
"Y-yes?" you can't fake it. Your voice cracks, so you avoid looking at him, "tell me, Eddie".
He shouldn't start with that, seeing the way your face fell and body shakes, even though you're sitting.
"Fuck. Baby, no" he coos, getting closer and dropping on his knees, forcing you to look at him by taking your face softly by the chin, "look at me".
When you meet his eyes and they're already glossy, he feels like he deserves a higher punishment than what any physical one could ever accomplish.
"No, no. Shit, I'm sorry" he tries wiping your tears with his thumb, but you keep on crying more. "Ah, fuck"
"Are you done with me?" you ask on a shaky whisper.
Funny saying that when you weren't even a thing. But you can't help and yearn for it; said what first came onto your mind.
"No!" he corrects, so quick and loud it startles you. "What made you think that?"
"The song-" you start blabbering, "No, I'm sorry Eddie, it's my fault. I shouldn't put on a show that's m-more like a tantrum if we're being honest. We're adults and we can talk, for God's sake! That was so immature of me. Let's just forget this and- I don't even know what to do or what to say, just, spare me from walking out or taking the elevator at the same time I do because it's just gonna be so embarrasing- please, if you're gonna break up with me, do it quick-"
He didn't want to, but he feels the need to interrupt your little rant by now.
"Y/n, stop" you feel even more embarrased now. You start to drift a little and begin considering to move out of the country and change your name. "Who said anything about breaking up?"
Ah, you feel stupid. Stupid, but hey! How can you not come to that conclusion? It's both of yours fault.
"Y-you didn't" you whisper, "but-" you try to reason yet the anger and embarrasment is a bit too much.
"I didn't yet I can understand why you'd feel that way" he sighs, "but let me explain, please"
With a nod, you motion him to continue.
"I'm the only one who should be saying sorry. You did nothing wrong, baby; in fact, your little solution to talk out your feelings surprised me a lot. In a good way! You know I love your voice. But anyways, as I was saying, I'm sorry about everything. It's just... it's not fair to you: you've been nothing but sweet, loving and the best girl I've met ever. I feel like I don't deserve you, and after tonight, if you choose not to stay with me, I'll get it. You're worth of much more than a sad, older and bitter nobody" he ends his sad little man speech, and you can't help it but leave your sit and wrap your arms around him, burying your face on his shoulder as you whisper lovingly on his ear:
"I know, Eddie" you stroke his hair gently, "but I'm not leaving you. Never"
He lets himself sink into your embrace, the perfume and sweat such an intoxicating smell, he's drowning in your scent already.
"Good" his voice turns husky, dropping an octave. The hard on his jeans doesn't go unnoticed, "because I wanted to give my rockstar a reward"
You laugh, and he feels better seeing you smile.
"Seriously, Eddie? How can you go from vulnerable to horny?"
"Both are states of vulnerable!" he defends, "besides, tell me that you don't want it" he motions for you to stand against the dresser, your back against the mirror, goosebumps in your skin when it touches the cool surface.
Eddie grips the flesh of exposed skin your shorts show, leaving a trail of kisses against the bare tights. He pulls them off, and you gasp out a contained moan.
"Someone c-could find us, Eddie"
He growls, his head in between your legs, the panties blocking him from your pulsating cunt. "Let them" he pronounces it so deliciously, you find it hard to resist the panic of being found; Isha will kill you if they found out, but hey, the plan was to get back with Eddie so in the end, it worked, right? Can't get mad at that.
The panties come off with a yank, and you can barely ask if he locked the door before his tongue gives the exposed dripping folds a generous lick. You arch your back at the pleasure that runs through you.
"Mpmh, Eddie" you groan, feeling his slow but steady movements. Your breathe comes out ragged, more when he uses his thumb to caresses the sensible zone with fast circles, making you cum with a cry, yet it muffles inside his mouth that captures your lips in a kiss.
You can taste yourself in his lips, but let him devour your mouth.
"Want more?" Eddie groans against your mouth, his fingers going inside you, softly touching the entrance. You moan against his lips, moving your hips greedily in response.
"Yes" you moan out, making him chuckle.
"Seems I'm not the only horny one here, baby" he mocks, "are you that needy?"
You huff out, annoyed at the accusation.
"Don't worry, you and I both know we love to help each other out" his voice is soft, "besides, it's been a stressful day for us, hasn't it. Let me make you feel better, baby"
His hand travels inside you, his middle and forefinger sliding lazily into you. You tense up, feeling him touch your clit, his fingertips stroking over sensitive tissues. He can see the mirror fogging, and if he didn't have his head in between your legs, he'd probably see his face full of your juices.
"Shit" his voice comes out of his chest, sounding rather gutural and animalistic. "God, how wet you feel, baby"
You mewl. But it's not enough, his fingers falling short: you need to feel all of him. Now.
"Eddie" you beg in need, "please".
"Please what?"
Your hands travel to his pants, undoing his jeans. His large palm stops you before you can reach his underwear.
"Say your words, baby" he taunts, and you hate the way your neediness leaks from in between your tights.
"Just... I need you, Eddie"
He gets rid of the jeans by himself, and you stroke his member covered by the fabric. You get rid of it too, and the next thing is your mouth saying: "I want to ride you"
Even in his haze, he reacts a bit, looking around the room.
"There" you point the chair you were sitting previously on.
He sits down, obeying without a word. You come close, gripping his member firmly in your hand. You pump from the bottom to the top, making him roll his eyes and throw his body back from the pleasure.
His eyes go blank as you sit over his dick, already leaking with pre-cum. Eddie grabs you by the hips, the veins on his arms more notorious, some tattoos popping up like they are 3D.
"You're beautiful" he mutters, and you feel like giving him a reward: so you grab his dick with your hand as his grip gets tighter.
He presses his tip against your fold, side to side, like if he was painting your tight walls with his juices.
He pushes the first centimeter inside, and as soon as you stretch out for him, he starts thrusting, getting a whimper out of you.
"Fuck" he curses, deep inside you. His body shakes, and you feel every single vibration provoked by the friction. You feel dizzy as you go up and down, the rhythm delicious. He keeps moving, his hips doing a circle, all to feel more of you.
"You feel so good, baby" he praises, in ecstasy. You keep moving up and down, covering his long. You bite back a moan, "might end up helping me more than I was going to help you"
He's fucking you silly, and your mind goes blank, so after the thrusts and his confession from before, you dizzy out:
"Everything is for you, Eddie; just for you. You're the only one who can make me feel like this"
"How does it feel?" he asks in a whisper against your ear, his thrusting getting sloppier.
"Feels so good"
"As good as you feel" he moans out, his breathe whistling through his gritted teeth. Your ads bounces against his tights, the sound of skin clapping in the tiny room a very obscene echo. "C'mon, baby. Make me cum"
You tighten with the plea: tights, stomach and ass. Your core is swollen, burning with each new thrust. Eddie keeps you tight as profound as his strong arms can; there'll be a bruise tomorrow.
He pushes all his length inside, keeping you open so he can bury himself deep in you, with strong thrusts against your shaky cunt. His jawline tenses, painfully close to his orgasm.
Your voice comes out muffled, "Harder".
It's funny how no one has even checked the room. No knock, nothing. You suppose they all went out their way when they saw you about to burst in tears, to give you space, a space you're pretty thankful for now.
"You're mine" he rests his forehead against yours, "say it"
His hips shake as you pronounce, "only yours, Eddie"
You can't contain it any longer. There's relief after the intense orgasm that shakes every bone in your body, overestimulation when you feel him cum inside of you, thick shots painting your swollen walls.
You let yourself fall into his arms, the chair creaking with all the weight. Sweat glistens as you try to get your breathe back, your heart beating so fast you fear you'll have a heart attack.
"Tell you a secret?" you hum tiredly against his shoulder, resting your head in it as his long thick fingers comb through your damp hair. You can't believe your plan made it this far, but since you're still in the haze, you can only nod and hum.
He gets closer to you, his hot breathe tickling your ear.
"You're the one, y/n" your heart beats even faster, and you hide your face against his hot skin so he doesn't see the new tears that are forming in your eyes: they're happy tears. "I love you"
Is this is a signal to sing and not voice out your problems? Who knows, maybe next time, if you sing Money Money Money by ABBA, you won't be so broke.
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So Iâve started writing a fic where itâs going to follow James and regulus falling in love but only there nights in the astronomy tower, I donât know if Iâm going to upload it to ao3 yet so I thought Iâd test it out here first, also I havenât edited it or anything to if thereâs spelling mistakes or grammar mistakes or anything no there isnât, hereâs the first chapter
Regulus sat on the ledge in the astronomy tower with his feet dangling over the edge, he was content here, he always felt content when looking at the stars.
He found Sirius first, he always found Sirius first, he knew the sky like the back of his hand and he knew exactly where to find Sirius. He took a deep breath in, held it and released it, his brother always brought up a range of different emotions staring at sadness all the way to a full rage and he didnât have the energy to deal with that tonight.
He was just about to take another breath when he heard to door open, he held his breath begging it to be someone at least slightly tolerable but he didnât have such luck because none other than James potter walked through the door.
âOh sorry I didnât realise anyone was up hereâ James smiled sheepishly
âClearlyâ Regulus scowled
James walked further in and sat down beside Regulus
âWhat are you doing?â Regulus snapped
âIâm sitting,â James replied with a grin that could brighten the whole world
Looking at James felt the same as looking directly at the sun, it was beautiful and you wanted to look but look for to long and you damage your eyes, Regulus wasnât about to let himself be any more damaged than he already was.
âWhy?â Asked Regulus
âWell I came up here to look at the stars and the best way to look at them is to sit hereâ Jamesâ smile never faulted, it stuck like a piece of gum at the bottom of your shoe but that was James potter wasnât it, a piece of gum stuck to the bottom of your shoe, you can never seem to get rid of him.
âOk well be quietâ Regulus sighed in defeat
âThat I can doâ James replied
They sat in silence for about fifteen minutes before James started tapping his foot against the wall below them
âPotterâ Regulus snapped
âI thought you wanted silenceâ James smirked
âItâs a bit hard to have silence when your foot wonât stop banging on the wallâ Regulus snarled
âOh right, sorry: James replied sheepishly
They sat in silence for another twenty minutes before James started tapping his hand on the metal railing in front of them
âPotter I swear to Salazarâ Regulus fumed
âWhat am I doing nowâ James whined
âThe tapping, stop itâ Regulus spat
James stopped and they sat in silence for the next ten minutes before James started humming
âPotter!â Regulus yelled
âAre you obsessed with me or somethingâ James laughed
Regulus groaned and put his head in his hands
âYou really are insufferable, do you know that?â Regulus groaned
James merely smiled that dazzling smile of his and jumped up onto the ledge
âWhat are you doingâ Regulus asked
âCome up here with meâ James responded
âNo thanks I donât have a death wishâ Regulus drawled
James jumped back down and did a little spin, it took every inch of Regulus self control not to laugh, he was not about to give James potter the satisfaction of making him laugh.
âDance with me Regulusâ James whispered
âAre you insane, what single part of this interaction has made you think Iâd dance with youâ Regulus uttered.
James then continued to dance around the astronomy tower, he was flailing all his limbs around without a care in the world, he looked a bit like a spider with all his limbs moving so fast it looked like there were double.
Before Regulus could help it a giggle bubbled up out of him, he slapped his hand over his mouth to hide it but the damage was done, James had heard it and he stood staring at Regulus with an awestruck expression on his face.
âDo it again,â James begged
âNot if my life depended on itâ Regulus bit back before standing and storming out of the astronomy tower and back to bed.
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holy fuck I love poetry. I love poetry deep in my soul. it cradles me like my mother should. holding me in its arms when I cry. or when I dont. when I feel hollow and cold. warm spreads through me with my words.
#one day#I will become#famous#for my words#my beautiful#words#I will#publish books#and it will all be obsessive and sad and beautiful#it will be okay#I will be okay#I will be happy#also side note#ive been listening to#aurora#recently#and she's really good#shout out to her#following#for you#for you page#following page#poetry
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LotR Ladies Pt.2 đâ¨
#a special thanks to @fishing4stars for the lovely pattern brushes!#i used them excessively for these designs but iâm obsessed with them <3#this lineup is dedicated to all the dead/fridged moms and those mentioned in passing#(plus elanor because sheâs a sweetheart and also only shows up post-lotr)#belladonna is specifically inspired by her cameo in the extended editions of the hobbit#primula looks like a female version of frodo because why not. sheâs cute and sad :(#dis is a combination of several fanon interpretations iâve seen floating around - general consensus is dark hair and blue eyes#celebrian my beloved is a silver beauty all in pastel purple and sparkles since i love her so much#finduilas and gilraen also resemble their sons very closely in terms of aesthetic and colour palette#elfhild was a bit tricky since we donât get any description of her (?) but i wanted her to exude sunshine#and theodwyn is basically a carbon copy of eowyn. strong and cold but beautiful#i wish weâd had more time with all of these ladies. they could be so interestingâŚ#tolkien#lord of the rings#lotr#female characters#belladonna took#elanor gamgee#primula brandybuck#dis#gilraen#celebrian#finduilas of dol amroth#elfhild#theodwyn#art#fanart#my art#merilles
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they say the captain goes down with the ship...
#fobedit#patrick stump#fall out boy#fob#what a catch donnie#anni edits#i'm literally so obsessed with sad beautiful sea captain patrick god#he looks so gorgeous and sad and beautiful in this video in his little outfits#my fav sad boat man... beautiful don't cry you're the most gorgeous creature on all of earth#god why does this vid make me so emosh actually. the seagull he tenderly nurses back to health#is pete the sad seagull w the broken wing that patrick patches up#and laughs with and has to let go?? anyway god idk stan what a catch video
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Betty is so relatable I would do the same shit for my wife
#simon petrikov#original#at#the moment where she declares that she's jumping into the future to save him. just pure save-husband impulse#and maybe she made the wrong choice but I felt the emotion in my gut and that's good tragedy baby#I would do the same thing and then be in the future and realize I probably fucked up but also what else could I do but#devote my entire life and sanity to saving her after I have destroyed every other option??#it's not healthy necessarily but a fucking apocalypse happened and her wife is in eternal torment. what else could she possibly do??#I'm just obsessed with the attitude she has towards saving him and how it turns from joyful heroism to unhealthy obsession#I have a much healthier relationship with my wife. but also she's never been driven mad by a magical crowd for a thousand years!#and Betty did it!! y'all can argue about whether Ice King was better than Simon and I think he must make peace with every part of himself#but it is extremely consistent in the original series that being Ice King is basically this existentially horrifying Eternal torture#so the fact that someone who loved him decided they would save him from that at all costs is very sad and very beautiful#beautiful because no one deserves to suffer forever. tragic because she was far to willing to take his place if she had to.#betty grof#fionna and cake#golbetty#golb#*driven mad by a magical crown#you forgot your floaties#edit: upon rewatching every episode with betty in it i will say i don't think i would be so hellbent on murdering the person she had become#betty does act selfishly and it makes her character more compelling#but i like to think if my wife went banana-pants ice-king-level bonkers i would be able to love that version of her too#but who's to say whether this story would be the reason I responded differently?#it's a good story
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say what you want about the honkai star rail community, but honestly the best thing to come out of it is just straight up Argenti and his fan base.
like, originally I mained him because he is useful for physical damage and his ult is very fun to use.... but man does he speak like some medieval knight who is so excited about the modern era he's in instead of being freaked the fuck out.
also mostly because of this one meme I have realized how much he literally just acts like this:
I can never see him in a bad light than being far too willing to 1v1 people needlessly. he's just oddly chill and helpful once you convince him of something.
#ymir sketches#'ymir aren't you an argenti main?' yeah. but as I said I didn't realize how drama kid medieval knight he was until my friend pointed it out#I just let him go all out. and just went 'okay knight of beauty. you go say things' and shit.#obsessed with how he just seems to be fairly excited to do anything you ask if he trusts you tho??? like a fucking dog??#sir?? sir??? sir where is your mistrust?? where is your sense of some nihilism?? do you have any???#I am sad he never had other times of bread than HARD?? DO YOU UNDERSTAND HOW THAT FEELS AS I LOVER OF BREADS??#TO GET THAT?? WHILE GOING TO DO A STORYQUEST FOR A FRIEND IN A VC?? TO JUST BE FORCED TO READ THAT?#hoyoverse#honkai star rail#<- the most tags you'll ever get out of me rn
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I am seeing so many of my lovely mutuals on here feeling down about the fandom, their content and other stuff
and I just want to grab you all by the face, look you in the eyes, and tell you how fucking fabulous you all are, and don't you EVER STOP WRITING, or doing what you love. Because you are fucking amazing and you bring so much value and joy to this fandom, just by being a part of it.
#i love you all so so so much#and you all are the reason why I enjoy coming back to tumblr after 10 years#interacting with yall and screaming at yall over our obsession#you are all beautiful and worthy of being on here#I wish I could do more to help these feelings#but I just want to spread the love to everyone :(#and it makes me sad to see my mutuals sad
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â¨When you get this, list 5 songs you like to listen to, publish. Then, send this ask to 10 of your favorite accounts (Positivity is cool)!!đśâ¨ /nf
AHHHH CAITIE âšď¸â¤ď¸ thank u for thinking of me âšď¸â¤ď¸ u are the awesomest ever 𫶠choosing just five songs was very tough !!! i ended up just choosing 5 of my all-timers :)
#maybe 5 of the best songs ever made#engine notably was my post-grad song this past spring#like i listened to it constantly while pre-grieving all my friends moving off campus and out of town/state đ#itâs so excellentâŚ#sun bleached flies is maybe my fav off preachers daughter??? but itâs very hard to choose#every song is insanely good on there#album of all time#my biggest flex is iâve been listening to ethel since 2019#like iâm obsessed with her#i can and i will another post-grad song another song of all time#searows is so underrated everyone should listen to him#his music is so beautiful and he has like no bad songs#sex the 1975 is just like. one of my top 3 of all time.#i think matty healy needs to either become a recluse or die#but god damn#he has made some great tunes#and fatal !!! my fav song ever probably#she and i have so much historyâŚ#miw has been one of my fav bands forever they really carried me through middle school#and fatal is their best song and itâs so underrated it makes me so sad#anyway#thank u caitie !!!#not self ship#rye responds !
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One day when I have a partner and weâre adults weâre going on a stargazing date this is beautiful
#stars#pretty like the stars#I say Partner I mean a romantic relationship#if ever#we all know Iâm sad and single and struggling#but it could be really fun#weâd wear like warm clothes and it would be really clear and weâd have tea or some hot drink#and weâd be in a field or a park in the middle of no where in the middle of the night#Iâd love that so much#well hey ho now Iâm crying out my window while listening to music because Iâm perpetually single#I spent two hours obsessing over a random lesbian on TikTok because she was funny and rather attractive so thatâs how my love life is going#damn using the tags as my life story is so fun#Iâm shivering now and my toes are going to fall off but THATS OK#come with me by chxrlotte is playing#itâs such a good song to listen to it#Iâm done with the multitude of tagging now#HAVE A GOOD SUNDAY#I Take that back the tagging is coming back#I look like one of those Pinterest pictures of people sitting on their windows gazing wistfully at the stars#which is what Iâm doing I suppose#theyâre so pretty though stars are beautiful#aesthetic Pinterest picture goals guys take notes#aside from the shivering this is good#my current existential crisis
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Having very strong feelings about Dead Boy Detective's rn
#Dead boy detectives spoilers#I... need to re-watch it#I'm so obsessed with Charles' and Edwin's relationship both in a platonic and shipping way#Ngl slightly sad Niko x Crystal not a thing#that sprite glow had lesbian potential#anyway I must go because I miss Charles' face#He is so beautiful it's overwhelming#I knew I'd like him but I didn't know HOW MUCH#Honestly I do just love them all though
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i hate my uni sm lol i dont want to be heeeeere let me out let me out
#motherfucking dance classes. we have the exam in two weeks and the choreography's not ready.#we gotta meet up in our own free time without the professor and practise on our own and try out if something works or doesnt. on. our. own.#bitch like what are you getting paid for lol#i hate it here so much i didnt come here to dance#and i leave every rehearsal on the verge of a panic attack and with red welts down my arms from scratching myself to calm tf down lol#(ask me again why i became obsessed with the white haired beautiful princess with a disorder in record time lol I GET HIM)#its fucking mental torture to me lol#anyway now im getting passive aggressive comments in the groupchat because they suddenly decided that we need to meet#for another rehearsal. today in two hours. like bitch????? sorry that i have earlier plans??????#i gently suggested that we should try to set the rehearsal plans earlier#and i even put a sad emoji at the end to show that im not trying to be a bitch lol#and now a girl im like actually friends with goes all 'thank you for your input jagoda im waiting for you to suggest something better' like#girl?????????? lol#but like it's whatever. apologised immediately ofc like why bother#anyway BASTA
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red flag: someone says that copper in minecraft is useless
#mc#my post#minecraft... the building game.... having materials primarily used for... building.... unheard of#they probably think banners are useless too. and end rods and purpur and#decoration IS A USE. its a building game. not everything needs to only be used for tools or combat or redstone whatever#im mostly heated about this because i knew someone who was obsessed with old and very much utilitarian ugly ass tech#and they would DIE on the hill that copper is completely useless#YES they were the type to just dig a whole in a hill and that was their base. no fancy spot or pretty walls#literally just a dirt hole in the first place they decided to stop for the night#and the only reason it would become more than a sad bedroom was for whatever tech mod stuff theyd mess with#and yes the tech mod stuff wasnt build satisfyingly either#this was a mf who couldnt appreciate art even if they were looking at the most beautiful piece in the world i swear#at a meetup with them and some other friends. the mall we went to had a store that was entirely the type of tech this person loved#and let me tell you my brain was rotting from the boxy blacks and greys of it all. not a single thing in that store to stimulate my brain#but they were running around like a child in a candy shop#no hate to literally anyone else who likes that stuff. but this particular person sucked just in general. so i like shit talking them#i got very off track#i should make a meme wait#minecraft
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Fat Man on a Beach (HTV, 1974)
"I'm going to read some more poems now. Erm. It may be that if you want to go and have a cup of tea, this would be a good time. I know that's what you masses are like. The mention of poetry and off you go."
#fat man on a beach#b.s. johnson#classic tv#documentary#htv#michael bakewell#aled vaughan#a frankly incredible and truly unique piece of television. according to Johnson's biographerâ the novelist Jonathan Coeâ this film was#described in tv listings at the time as a documentary about Porth Ceiriadâ a rather beautiful beach on the Llšn Peninsula in North Wales#it.. is not that. i can only imagine the baffled reactions of an idle audience tuning into HTV in 1974. trueâ this is entirely filmed at#Porth Ceiriadâ but any element of travelogue (or even really of documentary) is dispelled almost immediately: the first lines heard are#those of an unseen narrator who tells us we are about to watch a film about a fat man on a beach. 'Do you really want to watch that?' he#asks incredulously. it's a challengeâ the first of several from Johnsonâ who spends the next 40 minutes variously pottering about the sands#mugging to the cameraâ reciting poetry (his own and others; literary and dirty) and baring his soul. I've never seen anything quite like it#I'm not sure that much has been made that is quite like it tbh. Johnson was a fiercely originalâ brilliant mind; he was a novelist#a poetâ a critic and a filmmaker. he was alsoâ when this first aired on uk tvâ dead. a few weeks after completing filming on thisâ his#final workâ he sadly took his own life. i mention it not as a grim factoid but because it is a vital contextualisation of this film; the#play has been described before (and play is not the right word) as a sort of loose form manifesto from Johnsonâ a laying out of his own#peculiar philosophies and interests in a disjointed mannerâ peppered with asides and distractions and filming mishaps (all kept in the#final product). for meâ the feeling was inescapable that this was like viewing a suicide note. whether Johnson had already come to some#conclusion on that front or notâ the fact is that his own obsession with morbidityâ with the spectre of death and of decay (it runs right#through his workâ particularly his work in film) transforms this into something almost confessional. there's a section of the film where#the author recalls witnessing the aftermath of a traffic accidentâ a motorcyclist thrown through wire fencing and sliced like cheese#the absurdity of the comparison is lingered onâ Johnson almost stalls and appears to lose his train of thought (briefly discussing instead#the modern mass production of cheese) but he also seems clearly affectedâ delivering the tale in a haltingâ reverent tone#not that this is all darkness and gloom; it's just as often funnyâ or surreal (the film frequently cuts away to a bunch of bananasâ only#later explained by one of Johnson's biographical recollections) and includes visual punsâ bad jokes and a few moments of physical comedy#the writer doesn't seem distressed. ratherâ he seems... if not at peaceâ then as though he has come to terms. confident in his own beliefs#and ideals. but perhaps that's reaching too farâ or reading in what the viewer wishes to read in. the sad fact is that Johnson took his own#lifeâ but he left us with a body of work unlike almost anything elseâ and which is still being celebrated and analysed today. rip bsj
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more bullshit
#this is such a good way to spend my time Im so fucking busyyyy#this also actually made me realise that its the second time ive drawn denmark as patrick/christian bale and its like. well its true but im#insane also#ive been wanting to do the fernanfloo meme for 50 years though because that most litearlly is already his outfit#but well anyways i got to give him a spiffy alternative fancy outfit that im kind of obsessed with#it may be that he doesnt have his stupid headband for 5 minutes or the bullet wound swagger but well i like him#litearlly no body is going to understand the context of the first meme until like. 6 volumes of my comic come out im crazy#well whatever. its for me ok.#i should have been working on my berserk drawing but instead.#my ranting#do you guys understand how long it took me to find the christian bale image without the goth bugs bunny i wanted to kill myself#then all i had to do was google ''christian bale so cunty'' and the second image on google was the fucking post...like goddd#''why is denmark in heaven'' well because the inbetween is all clouds so the backgrounds always are white please pleaspelaplseplease#i know i backed myself into a cornerrr thereee but pleaseee#Pleaseee#with that logic he should also be wearing completely white clothes unless theyre his normal outfit but i figured that would look Really Wei#Weird so i didnt do it#im aware no one cares and im inflicting these rules upon myself ok well the illness#...which is why i also tried to fit kyles binder beneath the dress which he would never wear bc of the dysphoria but i figured ok well. idk#the binder was built into the dress or something idk idk dont think about it too hard#''dont think about it too hard'' is the hardest thing 4 me. well i will think about it soo hard unfrotuantely#its 5 am#my art#kyle batillo#denmark newman#kar#it feels really weird to draw the 2 of them without ilya there. its like going to a hotel without the cuck chair.#like wheres my beautiful third wheel scowling in the background#cady will you tell him his hair looks sexy pushed back OK SORRY i should rewatch meangirls. for the millionth time#sad you cant see his giant gauges bc hair is covering but just remmeber theyre there k drew them.....
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God. Television is back
#finally watching⌠louis uour beautiful sad eyes are deranging me#CABARET required watching â!!!!!! Ben Daniels4MC!!!!!!!#cabaret final shot panning around the kitkat club⌠you are all complicitttttttt#FACE PRESSED UP AGAINST YOUR LONGING!!!!!!#on their ducking mopeds. obsessed#ALSO. soundtrack fucks I love it#interview with the vampire
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