#and it was fun for me to think about!

[cantuscorvi]

[rambling, was thinking of this asshole's character and i want to smooch your brain rain;

raum is so strange. in all of your deep dive post about him i always see that one thing about him always popping up. 'he needs/craves control' 'his view of intimacy is always at arms length'

it just shows that the life he's lived and how he carries himself is so stiff. his attitude, his humour is so just for him that it's hard to view him as humane. which i doubt he'd like as a descriptor in the first place but forget that.

it just makes me wonder; what is is like to be around him when he's put down to his most base layers. i wonder if him being anything but what he's mostly known for makes people side eye him. because there's always going to be that one off putting thing about him but you can blame it on his 'i deserve the best and only the best' vibes but when he's not that;

does it just feel wrong to see?

i want to know so much about this coco bird]

[also hiiii, excuse my askbox infiltration :'3]

@sovereignxfae

Kyu I feel so flattered to receive a message from you like this. And I’m gonna do my best to give you an answer that makes sense although this is complicated as hell so forgive me, i'm holding you to your final sentence lmao

You’re right! Raum is very self-focused. He is living every day with his me!me!me! mindset, and he doesn’t care if that makes him seem like a bad person. It definitely makes him rigid in a lot of different ways. He is purposely disagreeable and uncompromising. And at the end of the day, he would probably argue that he is only doing what a lot of people wish they were able to, instead of having to please others or be pushed around. He is being true to himself — or so he believes.

Is Raum pretending? Not really. He is definitely hiding things, definitely lying, but he doesn’t create a character he can’t live up to. Does he change when nobody is around, reveal some other parts of himself? Also not really — but there is a clear change when he's in company. Raum thrives under extraordinary circumstances, and when he can draw other people’s eyes. When he is alone, facing the mundane parts of life, there is a sense of emptiness, boredom, and often loneliness. It grates on him to be kept in the cage of normality. It’s why he is always seeking out new experiences, situations, and people, to alleviate that sense of restlessness.

As for his base layers, I guess the answer is not very simple — because Raum is a classic example of someone able to believe their own self-delusion. He has made this ‘perfect’ persona, and it’s one he has stuck to for so long that it became a part of himself. In a way, it has started to feel more real, and certainly more comfortable, than anything else remaining behind it. It’s grown into less of a mask and something a bit more organic, something with hundreds of sticky threads and layers that are hard to separate from the other parts of himself.

So of course, when you begin peeling back those layers and cutting those threads, you start to discover things that don’t seem to match up. And depending on which sides of Raum you’ve experienced so far, it can definitely start to feel strange, or like you’re seeing something you’re not supposed to when these things happen. It can be scary to see him go from someone stoic to someone pretty fucking unhinged if you do/say the right things.

Just like any other person, he has fears, traumas, and things that make him upset. There are little things that make him smile or laugh. Things that drive him crazy with hatred or passion, and things that bore him to death. If you spend enough time with him, they will start to be revealed. And perhaps they will not be what you expect! He is ALWAYS hiding something. But it’s part of the fun.

If you removed ALL of his pretences, you would really find something quite unpalatable in the end. It would be such an undecipherable mess that it doesn’t make sense. He doesn’t understand himself at all — like he has never bothered to look at himself deeply. It’s someone with ugly thoughts and feelings, violent impulses, cravings for attention and adoration, someone who wants to own the things they love but not be owned in return. Someone who wants to take everything possible and twist it into what he wants. Someone pointing a knife at the throat of the world, because oh look, who left this unattended, i guess it's mine now, just like i thought.

Funnily enough ‘I deserve the best no matter what’ is one of his base layers, it’s a cornerstone of his personality. So unless something happens to him that totally rocks his core and changes his worldview, it will remain through thick and thin. Raum could be a tiny monkey living on a desert island and still believing he deserves the biggest coconut. It’s just how he is. Self-love king, or whatever.

[badolmen]

People against piracy fail to realize that no, I can’t just ‘buy it.’ They stopped making DVDs and Blu-Rays. They’re barely offering digital copies for download. I am not spending money I could use for food or bills to pay for a subscription service just so I can always have access to a beloved piece of media. Especially not when the service will remove media on a whim without concern for how the loss of access to that piece will make its artistic conservation nigh impossible.

For example, I recently learned that Disney+ had an original film called Crater. It’s scifi, family friendly, and seems cool - I would love to buy it as a holiday gift for my little brother! But: it’s exclusive to D+ and THEY REMOVED IT LITERALLY MONTHS AFTER ITS RELEASE.

The ONLY way I can directly access this film is through piracy. The ONLY available ‘copies’ of this film are hosted on piracy websites. Disney will NEVER release it in theaters, or as something to buy, and it may NEVER return to the streaming service. It will be LOST because we aren’t allowed to purchase it for personal viewing. If I can’t pay to own it, I won’t pay for the privilege of losing it when corporate decides to put it in a vault.

So yes, I’m going to pirate and support piracy.

Edit: if you are able, use $5 you would otherwise use for a streaming subscription to donate to a GazaFunds campaign.

[leavemebetosleep]

when I was a kid for some reason I thought Lola Bunny's last name was "Rabbit" and that she was actually Jessica and Roger's daughter. And the reason she wasn't in the original Loony Tunes is just that she wasn't born yet

I mean can you blame me. Look them and look at her. She's got a good blend of both of their features.

[inkskinned]

she's singing in another room and my dog is asleep at my feet. my grandma asked me why i haven't found a man yet and i laughed. oh, you know. i like my house clean.

my girlfriend is also my man is also "my partner" if i'm in a professional setting. yesterday we went to a ren faire and a man mimed at me - you're together? and at my delighted nod, his baffled, you're gay? made me laugh. a woman with rainbow hair said i love the two of you together. you're both so beautiful it's absurd.

my dad introduced my partner as my "..... friend. or whatever" the other day. he knows we're dating. in the same way, i was never able to get my sister's husband to stop saying that's gay like it's 2008. he still uses the word fa***t, and my sister's defense of him has always been well, he's just kidding.

my lover and i dance to old music in a tiny kitchen. we judge new music together and take food critique very seriously. we watch love is blind before we fall asleep and agree that if they had a queer season, it would be bloody but also make for excellent tv. of fucking course queer people would know someone for only 2 weeks and agree to get married. what are you saying.

at a bar with friends, a man puts his hand on my wrist. got a boyfriend? and yes, i do have a boyfriend, she's amazing. i am texting her while i wander around a gas station named after geese. i am visiting a swing state for a wedding. in the candy aisle i overhear: she's actually like a lesbian it's disgusting. two teenage girls with packaged sandwiches in their hands, giggling. no literally, like. i'm not, like. okay with her being there while we're all, like, naked and changing.

my girlfriend and i tailgate, drink gin and cider out of cups. from the frat group beside us, a man corrects himself with one of his friends: bro, i mean, nonbinary entity, and it makes everyone around him laugh, myself included. he razzes his friend the same way i would have killed for at 19 years old - like nothing happened, he continues: you apply sunscreen like an alien. he does a little sassy (and fairly accurate) dance interpretation of the motion. his friend is laughing so hard they're crying.

i am lucky, i live in a safe neighborhood in a safe state. my masc passenger princess comes up from DC. i drive her for an hour to where all the leaves are a violent arrangement of color. we walk along the trails, letting autumn into our blood. in this part of the state, there's a lot of pickup trucks and trump signs. when we chastely kiss before getting into the car, i accidentally make eye contact with a woman holding her child's wrist. she looks disgusted. she looks fucking pissed.

two hours later my girl and i are eating dinner on a patio, soaking in the last warmth of new england sun before the chill of winter sets in. we are giggling and trying to talk through plastic vampire teeth. at another table, i see a young woman sit up straighter. i watch her watch us. she blushes and takes her partner's hand from across the table. shy, like the taste of evening has just become something deeper.

it's worth it for this moment, i think. my lover is still humming the same song she's been singing for four days straight and i don't want to kill her for it. her guitar is beside my bed. her toothbrush is in my bathroom. in a few moments i will make us lunch. we are lucky enough to have found each other. it is lucky enough to be in love.

[fox-mulder-gets-pegged]

I just wanna say bc I KNOW you're somewhere on tumblr, to the teenage girl who attended Take Your Kid To Work Day at an office building in Ontario, Canada circa 2013 and had a conversation with a middle aged woman in which you showed her your Black Veil Brides fanart and fanfics and ship content and told her about different fanfic tropes including a/b/o verse bc she happened to know who Panic! at The Disco and Fallout Boy were and thus you felt the need to show her your bandblr ship art, that was my fucking mother and I had to clarify all that to her including looking my mother in the eye and trying to explain a/b/o verse without sounding like a lunatic.

It's been 10 years and I still regularly sent evil energies in your direction. Since you'd be probably two years younger than me and thus legally an adult now, please know if this post reaches you it's on sight.

[lgbtlunaverse]

Nothing will dispell the "the curtains were just blue" myth faster than writing something yourself, because the amount of pretentious symbolism i am putting in my silly little fanfics is ridiculous. I mean SO much with these words, literally every single one of them. This fic has twenty five typos and zero correct uses of punctuation but if there's curtains you bet your ass I put thought into what colour they were.

[chimchiri]

gideon & harrow OR rd and sf as cowboys please please please

It's the cowgirl necro and her gunslinger cav! Who is so damn extra she's got three guns: one left, one right, and one in pole position! (She swears the ladies love it!)

[keymintt]

a comic/zine about coyotes

[batbabydamian]

*you opening the love letter* what does your damijon look like, pls pls pls pls pls pls pls, i know it would be so cute, i just know it 🙏🙏🙏

here you go! thank you for the ask, this was a lot of fun to do! they're working on a case together ^^

[apollos-olives]

before october 7th this blog was a meme page btw.

[egophiliac]

(looks at upcoming card releases)

I'm in danger :)

[xxplastic-cubexx]

something about first impressions idk

bonus:

[ruporas]

trigunned the hades or hadesed the trigun (id in alt)

[spielzeugkaiser]

Being on the nostalgia train this week really helped stretching my artistic legs again. So here, have some old things and some new! For now I'm done with this.

[akanemnon]

We didn't even get an answer, and we never will (at least it's not determination)

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[barghest-land]

first 10 days of jurassic june! i'm slow with it but still going ;__;