#and it was fun for me to think about!

[cantuscorvi]

[rambling, was thinking of this asshole's character and i want to smooch your brain rain;

raum is so strange. in all of your deep dive post about him i always see that one thing about him always popping up. 'he needs/craves control' 'his view of intimacy is always at arms length'

it just shows that the life he's lived and how he carries himself is so stiff. his attitude, his humour is so just for him that it's hard to view him as humane. which i doubt he'd like as a descriptor in the first place but forget that.

it just makes me wonder; what is is like to be around him when he's put down to his most base layers. i wonder if him being anything but what he's mostly known for makes people side eye him. because there's always going to be that one off putting thing about him but you can blame it on his 'i deserve the best and only the best' vibes but when he's not that;

does it just feel wrong to see?

i want to know so much about this coco bird]

[also hiiii, excuse my askbox infiltration :'3]

@sovereignxfae

Kyu I feel so flattered to receive a message from you like this. And I’m gonna do my best to give you an answer that makes sense although this is complicated as hell so forgive me, i'm holding you to your final sentence lmao

You’re right! Raum is very self-focused. He is living every day with his me!me!me! mindset, and he doesn’t care if that makes him seem like a bad person. It definitely makes him rigid in a lot of different ways. He is purposely disagreeable and uncompromising. And at the end of the day, he would probably argue that he is only doing what a lot of people wish they were able to, instead of having to please others or be pushed around. He is being true to himself — or so he believes.

Is Raum pretending? Not really. He is definitely hiding things, definitely lying, but he doesn’t create a character he can’t live up to. Does he change when nobody is around, reveal some other parts of himself? Also not really — but there is a clear change when he's in company. Raum thrives under extraordinary circumstances, and when he can draw other people’s eyes. When he is alone, facing the mundane parts of life, there is a sense of emptiness, boredom, and often loneliness. It grates on him to be kept in the cage of normality. It’s why he is always seeking out new experiences, situations, and people, to alleviate that sense of restlessness.

As for his base layers, I guess the answer is not very simple — because Raum is a classic example of someone able to believe their own self-delusion. He has made this ‘perfect’ persona, and it’s one he has stuck to for so long that it became a part of himself. In a way, it has started to feel more real, and certainly more comfortable, than anything else remaining behind it. It’s grown into less of a mask and something a bit more organic, something with hundreds of sticky threads and layers that are hard to separate from the other parts of himself.

So of course, when you begin peeling back those layers and cutting those threads, you start to discover things that don’t seem to match up. And depending on which sides of Raum you’ve experienced so far, it can definitely start to feel strange, or like you’re seeing something you’re not supposed to when these things happen. It can be scary to see him go from someone stoic to someone pretty fucking unhinged if you do/say the right things.

Just like any other person, he has fears, traumas, and things that make him upset. There are little things that make him smile or laugh. Things that drive him crazy with hatred or passion, and things that bore him to death. If you spend enough time with him, they will start to be revealed. And perhaps they will not be what you expect! He is ALWAYS hiding something. But it’s part of the fun.

If you removed ALL of his pretences, you would really find something quite unpalatable in the end. It would be such an undecipherable mess that it doesn’t make sense. He doesn’t understand himself at all — like he has never bothered to look at himself deeply. It’s someone with ugly thoughts and feelings, violent impulses, cravings for attention and adoration, someone who wants to own the things they love but not be owned in return. Someone who wants to take everything possible and twist it into what he wants. Someone pointing a knife at the throat of the world, because oh look, who left this unattended, i guess it's mine now, just like i thought.

Funnily enough ‘I deserve the best no matter what’ is one of his base layers, it’s a cornerstone of his personality. So unless something happens to him that totally rocks his core and changes his worldview, it will remain through thick and thin. Raum could be a tiny monkey living on a desert island and still believing he deserves the biggest coconut. It’s just how he is. Self-love king, or whatever.

[badolmen]

People against piracy fail to realize that no, I can’t just ‘buy it.’ They stopped making DVDs and Blu-Rays. They’re barely offering digital copies for download. I am not spending money I could use for food or bills to pay for a subscription service just so I can always have access to a beloved piece of media. Especially not when the service will remove media on a whim without concern for how the loss of access to that piece will make its artistic conservation nigh impossible.

For example, I recently learned that Disney+ had an original film called Crater. It’s scifi, family friendly, and seems cool - I would love to buy it as a holiday gift for my little brother! But: it’s exclusive to D+ and THEY REMOVED IT LITERALLY MONTHS AFTER ITS RELEASE.

The ONLY way I can directly access this film is through piracy. The ONLY available ‘copies’ of this film are hosted on piracy websites. Disney will NEVER release it in theaters, or as something to buy, and it may NEVER return to the streaming service. It will be LOST because we aren’t allowed to purchase it for personal viewing. If I can’t pay to own it, I won’t pay for the privilege of losing it when corporate decides to put it in a vault.

So yes, I’m going to pirate and support piracy.

Edit: if you are able, use $5 you would otherwise use for a streaming subscription to donate to a GazaFunds campaign.

[leavemebetosleep]

when I was a kid for some reason I thought Lola Bunny's last name was "Rabbit" and that she was actually Jessica and Roger's daughter. And the reason she wasn't in the original Loony Tunes is just that she wasn't born yet

I mean can you blame me. Look them and look at her. She's got a good blend of both of their features.

[fox-mulder-gets-pegged]

I just wanna say bc I KNOW you're somewhere on tumblr, to the teenage girl who attended Take Your Kid To Work Day at an office building in Ontario, Canada circa 2013 and had a conversation with a middle aged woman in which you showed her your Black Veil Brides fanart and fanfics and ship content and told her about different fanfic tropes including a/b/o verse bc she happened to know who Panic! at The Disco and Fallout Boy were and thus you felt the need to show her your bandblr ship art, that was my fucking mother and I had to clarify all that to her including looking my mother in the eye and trying to explain a/b/o verse without sounding like a lunatic.

It's been 10 years and I still regularly sent evil energies in your direction. Since you'd be probably two years younger than me and thus legally an adult now, please know if this post reaches you it's on sight.

[lgbtlunaverse]

Nothing will dispell the "the curtains were just blue" myth faster than writing something yourself, because the amount of pretentious symbolism i am putting in my silly little fanfics is ridiculous. I mean SO much with these words, literally every single one of them. This fic has twenty five typos and zero correct uses of punctuation but if there's curtains you bet your ass I put thought into what colour they were.

[keymintt]

a comic/zine about coyotes

[batbabydamian]

*you opening the love letter* what does your damijon look like, pls pls pls pls pls pls pls, i know it would be so cute, i just know it 🙏🙏🙏

here you go! thank you for the ask, this was a lot of fun to do! they're working on a case together ^^

[apollos-olives]

before october 7th this blog was a meme page btw.

[egophiliac]

(looks at upcoming card releases)

I'm in danger :)

[ruporas]

trigunned the hades or hadesed the trigun (id in alt)

[spielzeugkaiser]

Being on the nostalgia train this week really helped stretching my artistic legs again. So here, have some old things and some new! For now I'm done with this.

[akanemnon]

We didn't even get an answer, and we never will (at least it's not determination)

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MASTERPOST (for the full series / FAQ / reference sheets)

[barghest-land]

first 10 days of jurassic june! i'm slow with it but still going ;__;

[lilybug-02]

Final Bug Fact:

The world NEEDS bugs. They keep the soil healthy, pollinate, control pests, and contribute to the worlds' ecosystem. By the end of the century, it is estimated 40% of insect species may go extinct due to habitat loss. Yes, that is very scary. But with even one beetle spared, one caterpillar rescued, and one Hollow Knight comic of all things, things will change. Because I know there's a lot more Dewi's out there than most people realize. Stay curious.

Thanks for going on this adventure with me. ♥︎

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Comic Thoughts and Pictures Below!

I wanted to put here how amazing and sweet everyone has been with this comic. I finished a 75 page comic in 3 MONTHS. I am at a loss for words. That sounds crazy and it IS crazy. But man was it fun. Even on days were I wasn't able to draw due to fatigue or business, I loved working on it from start to finish. And guess what!? This is my first ever FINISHED comic :D I'm so proud of myself. I know there's some things I want to change and the art is wonky in most places...... but I'm content to let it be. What an amazing summer adventure!

I'm hoping to post the full comic on another Comic website. I may or may not edit some of the art ^w^ So I'll let y'all know when I release it.

Interested in learning what you could do to help your local insects? This is the basic stuff. Maybe make some Insect Hotels if you have the time!!! And never forget to spread the word about bugs. They need our help just as any animal on earth.

Still Here? Well you can look in the tags for little lore dumps if ur looking for stuff like that ;)

[phereshift]

personal opinion but. the reason tiktok’s ‘zepotha’ isn’t doing great isn’t because of a lack of cohesion or poor reasoning behind it (although I’m sure these would’ve contributed). It’s because when I was first introduced to Zepotha it was as a fake movie concept. And when I was first introduced to Goncharov it was as me spending the entire morning trying to figure out why Tumblr was obsessed with some random movie.

[inkskinned]

i love when words fit right. seize was always supposed to be that word, and so was jester. tuesday isn't quite right but thursday should be thursday, that's a good word for it. daisy has the perfect shape to it, almost like you're laughing when you say it; and tulip is correct most of the time. while keynote is fun to say, it's super wrong - i think they have to change the label for that one. but fox is spot-on.

most words are just, like, good enough, even if what they are describing is lovely. the night sky is a fine term for it but it isn't perfect the way november is the correct term for that month.

it's not just in english because in spanish the phrase eso si que es is correct, it should be that. sometimes other languages are also better than the english words, like how blue is sloped too far downwards but azul is perfect and hangs in the air like glitter. while butterfly is sweet, i think probably papillion is more correct, although for some butterflies féileacán is much better. year is fine but bliain is better. sometimes multiple languages got it right though, like how jueves and Πέμπτη are also the right names for thursday. maybe we as a species are just really good at naming thursdays.

and if we were really bored and had a moment and a picnic to split we could all sit down for a moment and sort out all the words that exist and find all the perfect words in every language. i would show you that while i like the word tree (it makes you smile to say it), i think arbor is correct. you could teach me from your language what words fit the right way, and that would be very exciting (exciting is not correct, it's just fine).

i think probably this is what was happening at the tower of babel, before the languages all got shifted across the world and smudged by the hand of god. by the way, hand isn't quite right, but i do like that the word god is only 3 letters, and that it is shaped like it is reflecting into itself, and that it kind of makes your mouth move into an echoing chapel when you cluck it. but the word god could also fit really well with a coathanger, and i can't explain that. i think donut has (weirdly) the same shape as a toothbrush, but we really got bagel right and i am really grateful for that.

grateful is close, but not like thunder. hopefully one day i am going to figure out how to shape the way i love my friends into a little ceramic (ceramic is very good, almost perfect) pot and when they hold it they can feel the weight of my care for them. they can put a plant in there. maybe a daisy.