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#blood sugar has been stupidly high all day#and it makes me feel so crap#and I sometimes feel like I'm not allowed to feel bad because of this#urgh#still have to do all my tasks#I know I've been pretty negative here the last few days#but it's all okah#fuck#I should probably check my ketone levels
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Extremely specific type of brainrot
#dungeon meshi#manga that makes you hungry for real.#senshi from dungeon meshi you’re so right as always no wonder I feel like crap all the time#need a photo of him in my wallet to remind me or something idkkk lol
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T-shirt Rollo doodles were still haunting me so I mentally dragged him to pomefiore to have him get dressed better. (no way yuu has anything he'd deem as decent)
Don't mind the dagger he's just being silly
#twisted wonderland#rollo flamme#twst rollo#outfits that makes you want to devote your nights to assassymphonies and requiems#smooth untextured lineart because I like using that other brush from time to time#had artblock during the whole day and it stressed me out so much for some reason#so I stayed up late again to finish that bc I think I'd feel like crap if I didn't draw anything and rollo is a nice comfort character
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FORD AND FRILLS from TheNocturneNarrator's A Second Chance fic (chapter 15)
This scene broke me utterly so of course, I had to make the drawing. I had so much fun with Frills and all their pink colors. I also made Frills crying because idk empathy? It feels like Frills would cry with Ford. I loved how there was "a comforting presence" with him. He definitely needed that.
Ford may have been a spontaneous and impulsive jerk, but he's ready to make up for his mistakes now, I think. Probably. No telling where this fic will go, and that's one of the things I love about it!
#gravity falls#ao3 fanfic#stanford pines#grunkle ford#ford pines#gravity falls ford#stangst#frilliam#the axolotl#gravity falls axolotl#fic rec#super awesome check it out#stan gets shrunk#and he lies about it a lot#and everyone buys into his crap#its so fun and so so good#lots of emotions in the recent chapters#but its the good sort of emotions. I love this fic#ALSO ITS MY FIRST TIME DRAWING AN AXOLOTL BE NICE TO ME#I think I did fairly well. I wanted to make the eyes white for no reason.#Mostly because Frills is invisible in this scene. If he was with Stan I feel like he'd be drawn more normal#with a mouth and everything#but since he's invisible#i wanted him to be more glowly and idk spirit type deal?#eh bear with me.
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There's a disabled angel in good omens 🥺
#listen im only in episode two and i know there's some drama going down but im focusing on this lol#i love that not only do they show the angel using a wheelchair and being ambulatory#but they also visibly show them miracling innaccessibility issues so that they Can still use the chair#instead of just getting rid of the disability#part of my is conflicted bc im like... there's disabilities in heaven? and that makes Me sad bc my disability is hell and painful as fuck#But getting rid of disability in fantasy is eugenist crap and showing that god made a disabled angel is a net good thing#while it personally makes me sad to think if there was a heaven i could still be in pain all the time#not all disabilites are bad and need to be cured we're a wide spectrum and we've been fighting for disabled rep esp in fantasy for ages#it's objectively good my personal feelings about my own disability aside#part of me thinks it's cliche to say 'you were made perfect' bc they're an angel But it's not we literally havent had this type of rep lol#anyways it made me happy to see#and im so glad it's a power chair user that's ambulatory it's important for abled ppl to see that#anyways y'all keep your drama and spoilers off my post im not far in and im only talking about this shoo#oh also!! love the fantasy hover chair they use in heaven specifically too i wish we had that it kicks ass#p
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I will never emotionally recover from this
#Joplin my beloved </3#release the joplin cut!#pls bioware someone leak the details I need the closure lmao#was looking for more pictures of calpernia for her headdress and got sad :(#Imshael / Calpernia / Sten / Zevran / Isabela (properly dressed) / Dorian </3#solas agents are in this version -> so is the war with the qun!#there was a reason that everyone was excited for this version of the game!!! Devs included!#all the talent that left after joplin got canned makes me sad :(#Bioware higher ups I hope you regret choosing Anthem over this for the rest of your studios existence#i need some one to release an in-depth deep dive/article into what the fuck happened#really sad to see bioware come to this point -> they made so many of my favorite games and now they're a shell of themselves#i've made my peace with the game being crap and i'm going to ignore it as being part of the series going forwards#but i see this concept art and its sad because they had something wonderful here <3#datv just feels like this soulless product -> it treated everything that came before it so poorly and chased trends it didn't need to#datv critical#bioware critical#fuck off EA
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I don’t think I ever posted this but he’s here now about a week late 🦇✨✨✨
#my art stuff#digital art#bg3#astarion#batstarion#bat#my brain’s been auper gunked up as of late from doing sewing projects and trying to relax by indulging in things that are bad for me#and so I kept feeling too crap about everything to think this was worth posting#I also haven’t posted in so long in general so I felt like I’d forgot how to do it??#I’m feeling better rn cus I finished another really cool piece that I’m very proud of (will post it in a moment)#also another note (as per usual) that this is spawn Astarion#idk why I always feel the need to clarify that - I just do#something something A!A’s existence makes me sad so this is S!A learning wildshape#something something something something#I love A!A but he makes me way too sad to be associated with unless I actively make art about him specifically#hope y’all enjoy my cool bat with slight transparency in the wings#I’m very happy with him and love him with all my heart#please give him smooches (he deserves them)
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HEAR ME OUT-
Transformers One Orion Pax/Optimus Prime and D-16/Megatron as this song:
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The more I listen to it, the more the song fits the two characters' arc as the movie progresses.
Orion is obviously Celestia here, bright as the sun, full of outlandish ideas that stem from his genuine desire to help others around him. But he can be brash, reckless, and most importantly, flawed. So much so that, perhaps somewhere deep down, he failed to notice the growing darkness in his friend. Failed to notice the pain until it's too late.
And D-16 takes the role of Luna, reserved but dedicated to his goals. Quiet and solemn as the moon. Up until the truth was revealed. All of that anger and discontent, hidden under a veil of obedience bursts out, like he finally had enough. Desiring power to quell his need for revenge against the world who had abandoned him.
It makes sense, doesn't it, if you think about it? Please don't say I'm insane even though I technically am-
#Youtube#listen#just hear me out#like#cmon dont tell me yall dont see it if u listen thru the song#ik this may be cringe#but being cringe is being free and i desire to spread my wings no matter the cost#so here i am lol#im def gonna make my own post analyzing the lyrics and making comparisons and crap#to orion and d16 in the future#but if anyone wants to do it as well feel free#this is our precious doomed yaoi <3#transformers#macaddams#macaddam#transformers one#tf one#tf one 2024#tf one orion pax#tf one d 16#orion pax#d 16#tf one optimus#tf one megatron#tf one megop#but like platonically cause for this thing spesifically theyre friends to brothers#u can interpret them as a couple i just want to make things easier and not put romance here personally
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the neurodivergent brothers
#yakuza#rgg#ryu ga gotoku#龍が如く#kido takeshi#arai hiroaki#art#i'm reaching critical design is my passion levels#rggo lore is that arai is autistic. i'm serious#like i know i should take it at face value but also it was extremely relatable#mr. detective is just learning how to be a gangster#this is why it's so hard to get diagnosed as an adult... he's good at masking#but he's very undeniably autistic. to me#ok these are just headcanons of mine#for some reason it also makes me incredibly sad#he had to endure so much crap from the higher ups but eventually learned that orders must be obeyed no matter how nonsensical they are#when it was said that “the only person who could do such a stupid thing would be you arai” i was like. damn#this is really how it feels to#eventually he just did things his own way. just with the same outcome#a tragedy of a man who had to fit into society (both his real work and yakuza world) but eventually snapped#such an incredible and multi-faceted character but unfortunately not very much explored in the game itself
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I wish more people were normal about POC, and specifically black, characters in the MCYT fandom. I mean, for obvious reasons related to CCs and all that, but also bc I often feel like I’m doing something wrong because sometimes I’m one of the only people I know how is getting like? Stimming flappy arms excited about my favourite black characters? It’s not like I’m singling them out either I get the exact same way about my favourite non black characters?
It’s jarring to get into skyjacks and see almost equal amounts of art of Jonnit as everyone else because I’ve been in this weirdly passively racist fandom for so long. People are so weird about like CANON (silly canon but) biggri and they make them weirdly toxic when they were so sweet. If it was Scar and Grian you people would be all over it. And dude fucking whatever happened to the way people drew Ponk. And, it’s not even just black ccs and characters. Don’t get me started on the way a lot of Dteam fans back in the day (and still some qsmp fans) talk about Asian women like Tina.
#obv if you’re black your input is more important than mine#this is just important to me because a lot of my favourite characters and CCs are black and this fandom treats them like crap#and obviously??? because black people matter generally??? even if I wasn’t really into their content I still would be upset#I don’t watch tina! I don’t watch p0nk anymore! I can still feel angry about this!#and you should be too#sorry including Tina in there makes this flow weird she’s Asian oops#sorry I am. so tired
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comforting jules in these hard times :(( (with a bj ;))
summary ♡ what the request says!
pairing ♡ jules koundé x gn!reader
content ♡ 18+, smut, blowjob, (untranslated) french terms of endearment, religious undertones for some reason, not proofread, hopefully quite lovey-dovey idek this was so rushed 😭
a/n ♡ hiiii my first little snippet!! these are generally going to be short ask-based fics that are one scene/one action + i hope to share more with u guys! :D tysmmm anon for this request i hope it lives up to ur expectations!!
the copious amount of condescending headlines about his football club was creating a frenzied commotion in the world of spanish sports media and jules found it difficult to dull the noise. add on top the emotional stress of his manager’s departure from the club and it was enough to make a boy like him break into a million pieces.
yet you were like his superglue. you held him together with the mere thought of your presence in his mind and the nights spent tangled between the sheets and gasping promises of forever grounded jules to the best version of reality for him.
this night was no different, you trying your best to make it all about him (not that it was hard — you were practically devoted to the boy) after he came home close to tears, the burdensome weight of work troubles proving heavy on his shoulders. he was never one to let his professional life trespass into his personal one but you made it clear from day one that you were both a team and that yes, it may be “his problem” but you were both going to jump over those hurdles hand-in-hand.
and the first approach in which you consoled him was with the help of your lips on his bare, sweaty skin, not sure if the subtle dampness was from a session in training or the way his skin always warmed up to the feeling of your mouth; the feeling of familiarity and of what just felt right.
“please don't tease tonight, baby,” jules whispered in a tone close to begging, body writhing on the couch, his voice desperate for that same familiarity to save him from losing himself in the uncertainty that had tainted the past few days.
“not even thinking about it, jules,” you tongued at his abdomen on your way down to the waist of his shorts, fingers running inside the elastic band and skimming the part where he needed you the most. “wanna take good care of you tonight.”
a blissful sigh escaped from the parting of jules’ lips as you peeled the material off of him and cast it aside, the only thing left between you and his pure form being the pesky boxers that constrained his cock. not wanting to rush the events of the night, you go to mouth kisses on the imprint and the damn thing twitches, tip jerking ever so slightly as it leaks pre-cum onto the black cotton softness.
“what was that about not even thinking about teasing, chérie?” he whined, hips raising in demand for you to do both of you a favour and free him from the restriction.
“i’m sorry, baby… can’t help myself, it looks so pretty like that,” you put on your best, prettiest pout and ran your fingertips down his length. “promise i’ll be good for you now.”
you finally granted him freedom and the way you quickly pulled down the set of underwear had the two of you so eager, your lips immediately came to wrap around half of his cock, the engulfing feeling sending jules’ mind into what he considered a premature frenzy.
“s-slow down, baby,” he stuttered, hands gripping onto the sides of your head to pull you back to his tip where you suckled like a woman parched, unable to allow yourself to let him go completely. jules was addictive in every sense and the way his dick slid down your throat was even more so. you’d burned every part of him into your mind, making sure it was all unforgettable, all something you could never tire of.
“mm-hmm.” your response was muffled as you effectively ignored your boyfriend’s pleas, mouth taking more of him in, back and forth on repeat as the stiffness slid down your throat. it wasn’t an easy feat since the thickness of jules’ cock was siding on the extraordinary but your mouth was drenched, spit running down your chin and over the skin of your chest as the movement of your head over him became much more rapid.
jules was near to bursting, fingers gripping onto the leather of the sofa as he couldn't help but push his hips further towards you which only brought his dick further into your mouth, the weeping head barging at the opening of your throat. he wanted to grip your head in his hands – as leverage, as control, as a means to get as close to you as possible – but was scared to do so due of his iron-strong hold and the way your tongue traced that one vein on the underside of his dick, oh god, it was heaven—no, it was beyond that. you were his salvation, his saving grace, his angel come to earth; you were so, so good to him and he didn’t think he deserved you. but you were always there to shoot that idea down; it was always a collaboration with the two of you, you were always equals and you were always going to be.
“i‘m gonna cum, mon ange,” your raven-haired lover whined, back arching as you continued your assault on his sensitive dick, lips reaching all the way to his pubic bone as his balls slapped against your chin with force, head motioning up and down, down and up, any which way to make jules flood your throat with that subtly-salty fluid. “oh my god, baby, please, please.”
there was no way you were relenting now, the sounds coming from jules only giving you the motivation to bring your hands to his thighs and push your tongue out, his cock still in your mouth, aiming to caress it with the wet muscle and rip his orgasm from him in a matter of milliseconds.
and that’s exactly what you achieved; a myriad of sweet moans from your boyfriend as he came down your throat, the mixture of clear spittle and milky-white cum threatening to spill out from your filled mouth but you drank it all up with his dick still between your lips, even managing to swallow as you moved back so that only the tip remained wrapped with the swollenness of them.
“was that good?” you asked sincerely once you had pulled off of his softening length and stood up before pressing the most tender of kisses to his lips which parted in sheer satisfied exhaustion.
“good? it was more than that, baby, fuck,” he let out a breathless laugh, grabbing your face to pull your mouth to his once again, the motion more hungry than before. “you make me forget about all that’s wrong, my love, thank you, thank you…”
you couldn’t help but let out a giggle and an aww, a promise of always being there to take care of him on your lips and he was more than appreciative.
“let me take care of you now, bébé. my girl deserves it. please?”
#anon ik this is crap so feel free to block and report me 😭#i caught myself thinking hmm how can i make a bj romantic then immediately went#😳 let’s calm down u slag x#jules kounde#jules kounde imagine#jules kounde smut#jules kounde x reader#jules kounde x y/n#jules kounde x you#football imagine#footballer imagine#footballer smut#-ˋˏ✄┈ saleeba’s snippets#˗ˏˋ 💬 ˎˊ˗#˗ˏˋ ✉️ ˎˊ˗#anon
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google "how to write a character who is known within her universe for having no filter and swearing a lot (especially in the face of authority) without having it read like i graduated from vivziepop school of writing"
#this is why we have to abide by the “3 fucks per character” rule#octavia gets 3 “fuck”s 3 “shit”s and 3 “bitch”s per chapter with unlimited low level swars eg crap and damn#this is good actually cuz it makes me think of where itd be the funniest/most effective to add swears so they dont lose their bite#also if you are going to write a story where swears are used i feel like you should have at least one character with a sqeaky clean mouth#and maybe let them swear like. twice through the entire thing#(for RAA this is onion and vivica)#(vivica is only allowed to use ye olde swears such as “blast” and “great heavens” and “jesus mary joseph”)
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cinematic parallels
#what is wrong with me.#WHY AM I SO UNORIGINAL#DRAWING THE SAME POSES EVERYTIME#it feels so weird looking back at all the Deltarune (mainly Krusie) crap i made throughout all these years#it feels so strange#now that i have a new pair of best friends to hyper fixate on#I don’t know if I’ll draw Deltarune again#maybe I will but I don’t know#needed to make this post to see a side-by-side comparison
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I think we as a society need to practice playing and listening through famous actor natori shuuichi's soundtrack, kirameite te gomen, for at least 1 time whenever we feel upset and down. The sheer power that this silly and whimsical soundtrack has at cracking me up the second that it is played needs to be utilized more for our times of need 😭
#in the same vein: please do NOT play kirameite te gomen if you plan to lock in. it'll throw you off so bad you'll be laughing all day 😭🤚#natsuyuu osts are PEAK but kirameite te gomen is a whole nother league 😭 what creative juice was the composer drinking when they made this#like. i bet if you show someone who hasn't watched natsuyuu a picture of all the casts and make them guess which ost kirameite te gomen was#made for... they all can probably guess that it's for THE natori shuuichi right of the bat 😭 perfect male shoujo lead ahh ost for him#i'm so serious about this though. i was feeling like utter crap all week and my phone randomly played kirameite te gomen on shuffle#and i really needed that laugh i let out the second after i heard that swelling orchestra music lmaoooo 😭 it does WONDERS for me!!!#i hope it can brighten your day too whenever you need it! and that the composer is living a good life for making this neat elevator music 🥹#natori shuuichi#natsume yuujinchou#natsuyuu#natsume's book of friends#natsuyuu anime#natsume yuujinchou anime#kirameite te gomen
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#rough day#my dad is having a terrible time and I can't really help much without someone to help ME#so that's scary and sad#and the Christmas thing im making for my bf looks beautiful but i made a really really bad mistake#that means it is incredibly delicate to the point it will ultimately not be able to withstand things like dusting or being stored#so it has to go in a bell jar or something similar#and i will redo it completely after that#and i feel bad for making a mistake i was warned about because i badly misjudged what other artists meant by 'light layers'#i should have tried a more thorough test run but i thought there probably wasn't time and i turned out to be super right about that#i know the longevity thing doesn't matter much as long as i have it ready for my boyfriend#and everything else can get sorted later#but i am doing absolutely beautiful work on something i know won't survive and the context of the piece makes that unutterably sad#and the situation with my dad is awful and upsetting and i don't know what to do#i'm not a very good grownup i really am not and so much of what is being asked of me is crap i cannot do#or what is going to be asked of me#my boyfriend is here for me but doesn't know any more than i do and i feel very alone#anyway the thing im making may be fragile but it's still so beautiful and i think you'll love it when i share it
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been thinking about voltron legendary defender a lot and how sad slash mad it makes me when people just blindly shit on it when like. the singular defining issue, imho, wasn't even a crappy fanbase, but in reality crappy running on the shows part, with constant out right and blatant lies and pandering from the show runners, speedrunning the series to maximize binge views and word of mouth, while butchering characters and plot-lines, and making both passive and active racist choices.
voltron could have been great, all the ingredients were there to be a good series like she-ra, but the show runners were trash and took vld down with them. they didnt just embrace the drama within the vld fanbase, they fucking emcouraged it with every choice and action they did. if any series desevers another shot, I'd say voltron is up at the top. it really did have potential, were it not for the runners. and to be all 'hoohoo haha votron fandom so stoopid' without acknowledging how the showrunners played on the drama makes me so fucking mad.
#ditto rambles#voltron#vld#like dude they str8 up LIED about so many things and the contempt they had for certain characters#could be felt in every scene#they did theyre damnedest to push every season through and keep the drama pumping#without concern for the quality or heart of voltron#everything felt so MEAN towards the end#characters didn't feel like friends and all the nudge nudge wink wink jokes amd shout outs felt more like mockery than loving embrace#they didnt give a crap about the characters they were writing or the story they were telling#and if they did then they should feel ashamed of the treatment they gave them#it just#UGGGGHHH#makes me so mad#voltron didnt fail because of the fanbase#the fanbase didnt write the show#the creators were in the seat and they made poor choice after poor choice#in many ways#voltron feels actively mean very similarly to legend of korra at its worst
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