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the-black-dragons-den · 2 years

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my week got better

monday: mold (this mold is my Broken Window see tags)

tuesday: suspected bed bug

wednesday: walmart account hacked

thursday: it wasn’t a bed bug, we don’t have bugs

( @datasoong47 - thank you for your reply, I’m sorry you’ve had to deal with them before! I have not yet, but have heard horror stories, and I have real bad sensory issues with bugs, and a massive pride of my clean living space so the mortification of having bed bugs alone would have wrecked me, not to mentioned the feeling of the need to get rid of every bit of fabric I own. I’m so SO SO SO grateful that it wasn’t bed bugs!!!)

friday: mold will be fixed on monday

future days: walmart will release hold on $160 from fraudulent purchases and bank will refund $16 for an internet purchase in December that never shipped and the website refused to resolve

bless bless bless bless thank you universe thank you thank you

#lemme tell u a secret abt the mold #it's been there for a loooooong time #i have tried and tried to clean it away without damaging the paint #i did end up damaging the paint and not clearing the mold #i live in an apartment and theres a whole mold addendum in the lease that made me feel like if we reported it after having tried to clean it #that we would be evicted immediately #i am a highly anxious person so this was my worst-case brain in panic mode #i just ..... couldn't deal with it .... so i didn't #and instead i lived with CONSTANT anxiety like doing errands and thinking about mold #going to work and thinking about mold #and i do understand the health risks too #i've altered my hygiene habits because of this #shower a lot less and clean up other ways instead #haven't had a bath in sooooooooooooooooooooooo long and i LOVE baths #shower with the door open as possible to let as much steam out as possible which is VERY HARD FOR ME because #i get cold like cold shock response cold at the drop of my hat because of my shitty thyroid #this mold has been a constant dark shadow hanging over my head for so fucking long because #i was so scared we were just going to get evicted right away because of the mold growth and paint damage #but recently they did apartment inspections and somehow just missed our unit and then we went on vacation for a week #so when we got back from vacation we sent in a work order like heeeeyyyyyyy we've been gone for a week and came back and now there's mold...#idk it was just inspected last month how could this have happened #and they called and were like hey we looked at it and we're going to fix it we just cant get to it until monday because #someone's water heater fucked up and we have to fix that first so sorry it would have been today but is monday okay?#i don't care that we have to wait until monday i don't even care if we do have to pay for the paint damage in the long run this is #this is so many hours and days of worry and stress slowly fading away #do you know there were times last year when i thought #the only thing wrong in my life right now is that mold that is my only issue right now #and it's a GREAT EXAMPLE of the Broken Window story because I could have saved myself all that trouble and guilt and stress and worry just #by dealing with it right away or any time within the past however long its been #we're not getting evicted idk we may get a bill or something but we're not having to find a new apartment at the drop of a hat right now

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