#and in doing so am being unfair to myself

[uncanny-tranny]

I think it would really benefit people to internalize that mental illnesses are often chronic and not acute. Some of us will never be able to jump the hurdle of managing illness, much less sustaining a sense of normalcy. Many of us will never "recover," will never manage symptoms, will never even come close to appearing normal - and this is for any condition, even the ones labeled as "simple" disorders or "easy-to-manage" disorders.

It isn't a failure if you cannot manage your symptoms. It isn't a moral failure, and you aren't an awful person. You are human. There's only so much you can do before recognizing that you cannot lift the world. Give yourself the space to be ill because, functionally, you are.

[bunnihearted]

ཐི ₍ᐢ. ̞.ᐢ₎ ཋྀ

[mellotronmkll]

Just for fun I did this quick cover of this version of with the dark this morning because I can't stop thinking about it lately

[todayisafridaynight]

sometimes i get nishiki i really do

[theflyingfeeling]

I hate it here sm

[mutantenfisch]

Once again stuck in the loop of being stressed out about bureaucratic things that in theory should not the biggest of deals but having my brain running in panic mode because 'what if i do something wrong/piss someone off' and then not being able to do anything due to this weird kind of paralysis and now the not-so-huge bureaucratic thing has become Even Bigger And Scarier *and* other people are involved and my perceived shame and guilt over not being a functioning adult at least one fucking time in my life has made it Even Worse.

[mekanikaltrifle]

the mortifying ordeal of trying to talk to people and absolutely whiffing it

[willowfey]

starting to think maybe waking up with an anxiety stomachache every single morning and then needing to spend the entire day trying to get rid of said anxiety just to maybe have a few minutes in the evening of feeling relaxed before going to bed is perhaps not normal

[hella1975]

basically threw away £20 on my nails today so was already getting weird bc i apparently cannot be normal about money and then my paycheck came through just for my manager to have knocked off 11 hours worth of pay. so naturally i am crying in a dark room about it

[ningningkittie]

🦨

[steelthroat]

Heart-warming: Local pansexual makes the first move regardless of the fact they were almost having a panic attack from just being approached by the subject of their interests after 3 years of reciprocally languid staring contests on the bus.

[your-funky-human-companion]

lol just a small doodle of the squip

im trying to figure out a design that really fits the personality and this attempt was HEAVILY influenced by claudia cacace's version. im obsessed with their design and im pretty happy with how this came out

i think next time I want the jawline to be a bit more sharp because this face is a bit round but the squip is sharp and sleek and i think a heavy, thin jawline would match nicely

this doodle i focused on the line weight. like how the ones in the inner corner of the eyes are darker than the rest. or how the edges of it's face i tried to make pretty heavy.

i think im pretty proud of this

[running-in-the-dark]

just now realising that it's kinda weird that every damn thing I did as a kid, even accidentally, still gets dragged out all the time as proof of how mean and bossy I was.

meanwhile one of my brothers stabbed my other brother with a screwdriver and it's just so funny. one of them jumped on my back when we were fighting and hurt me so bad that I couldn't get up for an hour (and I got yelled at). one of them broke someone else's property on purpose and it's just a funny anecdote about how he and his friend had to pay for the damage. they stole cash and very expensive alcohol, so funny and cute. they got drunk all the time and started smoking at 12.

which is all fine. people do stupid things as kids. but it sucks that I'm always the difficult one, the one that causes trouble, the mean one. the worst thing I ever did was drop out of school because I was too terrified and depressed to keep going. this is somehow proof that I was such a difficult child to raise, so hard to be around. not that my parents completely failed me in every way, or anything like that.

my brother attacked me this year. but that's totally excusable because surely he had his reasons (yeah, I disagreed with him and wouldn't back down. great.) and I probably just misunderstood (how?!) and anyway it wasn't really that bad. he yelled at me for daring to disagree with him, insulted me and then grabbed me when I told him to get out. but he's just having a hard time and can't express his feelings well and can't I just forgive him?

but I'm bad for things I did when I was 15 or 10 or 5 or literally a baby. I'm bad for things that never happened. I'm bad for things that other people did. I'm just bad.

[faillen]

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[licorishh]

Most people really don't seem to understand that friendship is a two-way street.

They expect you to wait on them hand and foot as they rant about and constantly pour on you either their issues or their passions and when you finally have something you'd like to talk about you get a "Man that sucks :/" or a "Cool" in return.

Find somebody who doesn't do that. Then you'll have your best friend.

[mars-ipan]

this is gonna sound incredibly virtue signal-y i fear but i have been feeling. so fiercely protective of all the transfems i've ever met lately