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justhere4thevibez · 11 months ago

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every month, i think to myself, my god, i really do need therapy, don't i? and then i check my calendar and realize, oh, actually, i'm just one week away from my period. this is only temporary insanity, not the long-term kind.

#and then i write an angsty tumblr post i leave in my drafts #maybe some sad poetry if i'm really in it #and in a few days i'm totally fine #wtf are bodies anyway?#little meat sacks that fuck with you #don't worry i'm all good just struggling from severe decision fatigue #gonna go watch my comfort show and eat snacks

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ratcandy · 22 days ago

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accidentally interrupted Whisk post-molt I need to be tossed into the sky

#so like. Ok.#I was gone for about a week. When I came back I found a molt in Whisk's vial so I thought she molted.#Moved her to new enclosure and she made a burrow beneath a leaf. For a few days she didn't come up to eat.#I got a bit worried so I gently lifted the leaf. Saw her chilling. Adjusted the leaf thinking maybe she was somehow stuck under it #thinking to myself ''huh she looks weirdly light-colored.'' only to see the molted carapace right behind her #and immediately went OH SHIT and quickly put the leaf back. she's still hardening after a molt and i PEEKED on her #i saw her NAKEY #so i guess that molt i found when i came back was an old one??? because it'd be way too soon for her to molt again #would explain why she was acting so lethargic when i moved her too. she was in premolt. and i'm an idiot #wellp. She should be fine even if I peeked on her. She was already totally out of the molt and I didn't like. Touch Her #but I feel bad :( i looked in on her while she's fresh and nakey :(#clamtalk

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emometalhead · 13 days ago

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#just a little mental health check in mostly for myself just to write it down #I'm in a weird place #in some regards I've been doing really well lately #I've been more social which always does wonders for my mental health #on the other hand a couple weeks ago I was home alone for a couple days and I was so stir crazy I almost couldn't handle it #I've actually been happy with my body for the last few months and I haven't had any anxiety about food nor have I attempted any restrictions #that's been a big bonus #I'm having a lot of trouble with decisions lately. I'm second guessing everything to a stressing degree #I feel like a bad person for reasons I can't totally pinpoint. like I think I'm manipulating everyone but to what end I can't tell #and there's a part of me that knows this is irrational but I can't shake it #it's so weird being aware that I'm doing so well in many regards #but I'm also able to feel myself slipping into types of paranoia that I know I'm suseptible to #today's been better but for the last few days my heart rate has been noticeably high (which says a lot because it is generally high)#it's caused unease #I don't know if I really have a point to typing any of this out #I'm feeling fine overall. I'm happy with my life right now. I have plenty of things to look forward to in the near and further future #I can just tell something is a little off and I think it might be beneficial to my future self to write this out for sake of timeline #I really need to start tracking my period because it totally might be that. or you know. I have OCD and anxiety is just a part of my life #who knows. it could be a mix or nothing or everything #I don't think anyone's reading this whole thing lol but if anyone does I do want to leave the reassurance that I'm fine and I'll be fine #like I said. just keeping an eye on myself.#oh I thought of another positive thing! I've been way less freaked out about chemicals lately! that's a nice note to end this on!#ashley rambles

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thevegetablewhichnoonedaresname · 2 months ago

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i unraveled half a dishcloth about 3 times because i was having a toxic man-refusing-to-ask-for-directions moment and kept telling myself "nah you've knit stacks of these and it's literally the easiest pattern" and ignoring the fact that i've been crocheting for 3-4 years and could really spare 5 seconds to google a pattern as a refresher

#pickle pontificates #i was overthinking it and doing like. stockinette stitch. like hm this is probably fine #and you know it is fine but not for the pattern i was trying to do #which is why it took me so long to realize anything was wrong #and the conclusion of the story was that yeah. it did take about five seconds to look at the pattern #and NOW i can go back to knitting without thinking about it #would have been nice if I'd done that in the first place #the other thing I should really be doing is manifesting beano... found some leftover fabric so I could totally start that now #also I started midnight burger this morning. i've listened to 4 episodes and it's really fun so far #seems up my alley!#some of the acting is a teeeny bit stilted but totally enjoyable still #definitely within quality podcast range #i'm also right at the beginning #and i'm also acknowledging that I'm coming off of improv to a scripted thing so it probably stands out more #although the last two before zyxx were scripted and i was raised on audio dramas with slightly awkward voice acting so #who knows how my calibration compares to other people's #those radio characters are freakin funny and probably the most instant favorites #''married couple who's super into it'' is one of my favorite bits that i don't see enough #hopefully that doesn't age poorly for any reason. we'll see in a few days #and i'm interested in finding out more about all the characters and exploring the world. promising start!

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silverselfshippingchaos · 29 days ago

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so there's this character. i always thought he looked kinda stupid and i never found him attractive. but, uh....

... has he always been this handsome?!

#ash rambles 💚#AM I COOKED?!#and so what if we have the same favorite flower? so what if he plays video games like i do?#and so fucking what if he loves superhero movies and comics like i do?!#please no please tell me this isn't happening rn... no no I'm not gonna develop a crush on him NO!!!#i already have so many f/os from y.akuza! i don't need another!!!!#he's totally not my type!!!!!#... his voice is nice..#i bet cuddling him would feel good...#...#ASH NO #it's 2am. i need to sleep. yup. surely this is just me being sleepy and stupid. I'm too embarrassed to say who it is but. stupid idiot guy-#I'll be fine when i wake up. surely.#... I've been saying that for the past two days...#i refuse to develop a crush!!!!!!!!!! i already have a thing for s.eonhee and n.anba. i don't need another y.akuza LAD character goddamnit #i don't want him i swear #i just... don't remember him being so easy on the eyes is all....#also earlier today i took a nap. it was such a good nap. but uh.........#hopefully it was just a coincidence that i slept so well only after i talked about him to my friend...#I'm gonna go to bed. please leave my mind you damn idiot! i just... he's just.... more handsome than i thought......... that's it!!!!!!!#i already have like 10+ y.akuza f/os! I'm done! no more!!!!#if you saw me rbing shit of him on my main a few days ago no you didn't!!!! this is just a phase surely!!!#and i mean come on i haven't played his games yet!#i do find his lookalike in y6 very hot but come on! shirtless guy who runs a sex club? is rich asf? plenty violent? of course I'm into that!#he's so fucking hot omg. UGH AND THE EPIC THEME SONG?? hehe i was giggling so much when he made that comment about how he knows damn well #that ladies love a man covered in blood and then started fighting... hehe.. i know what club I'm spending all my money at...#but this other guy that happens to look just like him? he's just a silly nice guy that likes his video games (ignore the crimes) I'm not #about that!!!! the other one is way hotter!!! and surely i wont fall for this guy!!! I'm gonna play y.akuza 7 and 8 and be normal about him #i just... he's... easy on the eyes! thats it! okay! goodnight!!!#like a flowing wind 🔳

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camellia-thea · 1 month ago

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did a massive clean up today and my room suddenly feels livable again. shocking.

#fell massively behind in second semester last year and just. let it sit. i meant to clean it back in mid december and then had an insane #amount of coursework then christmas business happened and it kept sitting #but now my desk is almost clear i have clean sheets clothes are away (need to wash the rest (try for a load a day for the next few days?))#i've lit a candle i got for christmas and it smells. interesting? it's fine just not what i expected (meant to be sandlewood and amber #but has a sweet fruity thing going on? smells kind of like my french pear candle)#i want to get back to my filofax so i'm sorting some printing to do tomorrow morning #will need to do some fine tuning as i haven't used my printer very much (aka it's printed three pages total) and i don't want to print righ #now because it backs onto partners' room and i would like not to wake them

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tjerra14 · 2 months ago

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hm. likely got exposed to Covid earlier this week and feeling off now, I don't like this

#i stg if i get another round of this #last time took me 8 months to fully recover so i am NOT keen on it #plus i have holiday plans with the family i'm actually somewhat looking forward to (food AND cats the rest could go either way)#and idk. while staying home could be nice too i'd rather do it NOT sick and choosing to #the coworker in question was off for a few days getting down her overtime #came back healthy and motivated but said her family once again had it #next day she had a runny nose and didn't feel great so at my request we all masked up in an attempt to minimise harm #and the day after that she was totally fine again #all the time not testing positive but y'know #i barely tested positive when my pcr was very much positive so i don't give too much on a negative test tbh #ugh

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thevioletcaptain · 2 years ago

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pov! you're me, considering signing up as a participant in a new challenge, but as you're reading the rules and requirements you notice that they've straight up pasted in several sections of copy you wrote for a challenge you founded and have been running for the past seven years (and they didn't ask permission or provide credit!!!)

#hoooo boy this pisses me off lmao #at first i was like... am i imagining this?#but i made a point of going through it #and there's several sections where they've flat out just thesaurus'd in a new word and switched ''pinefest'' to their challenge name #and to be clear if people want to use rules from pinefest *as a template* for their own challenge rules that's totally fine by me #like i've spent seven years ironing out the kinks and it runs pretty smoothly these days #so i'm more than happy for other challenges to take inspiration from how we run things #but to lift entire sections of the rules/requirements/posting guide i wrote #only changing a couple of words and shuffling the order of a few things around but keeping large chunks of text and formatting #all without bothering to provide credit or even just ask!!!#is so damn rude!!!!!!#like for crying out loud the pinefest askbox is open my askbox is open the pinefest email is listed on our page #i've shared ''how to build your own challenge'' guides here and on twitter through the challenge account #and have publicly offered help and advice on getting started when people have asked #like i've made a point of being extremely approachable wrt this stuff!!!#because i want to help people set up challenges! having well-run challenges makes fandom better!!!#but passing off other people's hard work as your own does NOT make fandom better!!!!#and yeah writing copy for a challenge IS hard work #also i have deliberately not mentioned the name of the challenge publicly and i'm only going to mention it to my co-mod #though if the people running it see this and feel like reaching out they are welcome to do so #like legit no hard feelings if they were using our rules as a guide and somehow published our stuff in their rules by mistake #i'm just super heated about this because i've put so much work into pinefest over the years #like huge amounts of time and energy and thought dedicated to contributing to the fandom #so to have someone take a bunch of that work and pass it off as their own feels pretty damn shitty!#it's especially frustrating because other parts of their rules have clearly been written by someone who has a distinct voice of their own #like evidently they're capable of writing their own stuff so why didn't they just do the rest of the work?#wank adjacent #...but is it really wank when it's being pissed off for legitimate reasons? who's to say

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inkfox · 2 years ago

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AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

#regan.txt #i'm fine i'm normal i'm not experiencing anything out of the ordinary i'm cool i'm chill i'm gonna be totally fine over these next few days #(delusional)

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running-in-the-dark · 1 year ago

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my dust allergy has gotten a lot better thanks to immunotherapy, but sometimes I'm reminded just how annoying it used to be and damn, it really sucks lol

I just rearranged our board game shelf (it's a 2x4 KALLAX shelf, so not huge or anything) - it took maybe 15 minutes tops. we haven't played any of the games in a while so there was a looot of dust.

and yeah my arms and face are itching so badly now 🙃 but at least I haven't sneezed once yet! and my nose and eyes feel fine! so overall it's not too bad.

#I don't know how I lived like this every day for over 20 years #my skin is only mildly itchy. it's totally tolerable #the nose and eyes stuff was what really bothered me and that's like. 95% gone #and usually if I know I'll be around a lot of dust I'll just take allergy meds and it's fine. this was a spontaneous thing so I didn't think #to do that #but I'm sure it'll be over in a few minutes #but yeah damn it used to be like this ALL the time. not just when I was around a lot of dust #I know it's not a very serious allergy or anything. but it does kinda suck when dust is just EVERYWHERE lol #personal

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kos-mos · 2 years ago

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does anyone else ever get really weirdly depressed after whatever your watching/reading ends

#not always just like #for some reason it kinda fucks me up after finishing going through some stories #it's not like for any tangible reason either #so I can't really feel better except just waiting until it passes?#idk it's weird I was jsut thinking abt it again recently #extra context; there's no rhyme or reason to it either #like I can be extremely attached to a story and be jsut fine when it ends #like I was totally fine after finishing xenoblade 3 #but then other times even w stories i'm not as attached to #I'll just be fucked up and sad for a few days after I finish #I don't get it

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arabela25 · 2 years ago

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are you going to make gifsets of each semifinal's entries? or have you already posted something similiar?

I'm planning on making a few gifsets/edits for the semi finals but I'll probably only post them near the contest date

#I am not very ahead for the countdown series because I was away for a few days for a little vacation #so if I can do those faster I can also start on other things #the good news is that I'm gonna have more time to do them and to enjoy eurovision in general #the bad news is that my free time is because I'll be unemployed after next week yay #that was fun to find out after coming from vacation!#to be fair it would be equally or more fun (lol) to find out before so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯#and ''it's gonna be fine'' because in theory I have ''potential to do better''#very annoying to be told that tbh my potential has led me nowhere of note #why do I even have to fulfill my potential anyway would that even make me happy #the science world doesn't need me!#I really don't need a high skilled job to be happy #(I wasn't let go because they weren't satisfied with my work my position will just cease to exist)#(which isn't totally surprising because they've been trying to phase it out for over a year now)#and now I have to find a new job?? in this economy??#what if the people are Bad #what if there isn't a cool middle-aged single woman for me to desperately want to befriend #and now I'm supposed to stay at home with my mom all day?? doing chores?? cooking lunch every day for my dad and brothers?? 🤢#I'm sorry rasmusiscute this is not the information you asked for #I will be making gifsets for the semifinals at some point #I'm not sure of anyone else has done already but I'm sure others will too

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lvllns · 2 years ago

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biometrics appointment is booked holy fuck

#reed.txt #i shelled out the money for priority too #i would more than likely be totally fine with the standard #but i'm an anxious person so if i can find out SOONER i would like that #now if the university would fix their housing application which has been down since JUNE #like 50-ish more days and then i'm outta here and i become england's problem >:)#hopefully forever but for at least a few years for SURE #i wish not to talk about how much money i have spent in the last 3 days please it's so much

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miabrown007 · 2 years ago

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Catch-22 AU, Ladybug as Milo, Adrien as Yossarian. 100k slowburn

#I'm at the middle of the book no spoilers please!!#will this be looking good for them? I cannot tell but we will figure it out in a few days #miaing #also I'm obsessed with Milo okay #the way he directs that whole thing? showstopping #like yes from a moral standpoint he would totally be down for NFTs but he would also be smart enough not to buy them so I think we're fine #I'm gonna keep him in my pocket :3

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total-drama-takes · 2 years ago

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hello i will be taking a break of unknown length (like. a few days probably. ill have to be back for tti. actually i could have just not said anything. anyway) due to sha-mental health sha-problems i cannot be here rn <3 think of lightning for me

#mod posts #will elaborate somewhat in tags if u are for any reason interested #...........................................................................................................................#its so weird like i was fine and normal a few days ago #but then the most minor of minor things happened #and now my brain is doing a thing it hasnt done much since i was a very mentally ill teenager #i am a grown ass adult what is GOING ON !!!#anyway i may end up deleting this acc who knows #its just i know that i will be sad when someone else takes the url #i guess i could just abandon it #but i think people would be mad at me for keeping the url and not using t #anyway #i'm hoping some time away will make me normal #and if ur reading this thank u for caring #i know i am just some rando in the total drama tag #and recently ive felt like i dont have a place in the fandom at all #like ive just shoved myself in a place i dont belong #i know thats just the hellbrain talking #anyway ANYWAY what i was saying is #thank you for listening to a rando u barely know talk to himself #xoxo gossip girl #i havent even seen gossip girl

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omgchloe · 2 years ago

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Is anyone else's immune system just total and complete trash since covid

#like i can't even get a cold now without it turning into a whole Event™#it's not FAIR #i have SHIT TO DO #and i swear i used to be one of those people who rarely got sick #or if i did i would bounce back really quick #now i'm down and out for at least 4 days #i hate it here #especially bc my useless optometrist wHO JUST CAME OFF ALMOST 3 WEEKS LEAVE #had a cough on friday #and had the audacity to say to me #his boss #'oh i might have monday off... you know... to rest'#and i said #no❤️#because how convenient that tuesday is a public holiday and it's become A VERY VERY NOTICEABLE PATTERN #that he does this shit #anyways what i rly said is we'll see how you're going over the weekend like mATE #so now i'm purely showing up to work tomorrow just to spite him #LMFOSMSOWMSOSKSKSKSMOSEJKDKEKDKE #i'll do a few hours and leave early it's fine i'm not a total workaholic #⬅️ me when i lie #anyways #what was the point of all this?#oh right #I'M SICK AND I HATE IT #it was barely a sore throat and the LIGHTEST cold symptoms #and now i'm 😴😴😴😴#dying a little #but it's fine #i basically just ate a whole lemon smothered in garlic and shit LNFODMSOEMDKD

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