#and in a few days i'm totally fine
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every month, i think to myself, my god, i really do need therapy, don't i? and then i check my calendar and realize, oh, actually, i'm just one week away from my period. this is only temporary insanity, not the long-term kind.
#and then i write an angsty tumblr post i leave in my drafts#maybe some sad poetry if i'm really in it#and in a few days i'm totally fine#wtf are bodies anyway?#little meat sacks that fuck with you#don't worry i'm all good just struggling from severe decision fatigue#gonna go watch my comfort show and eat snacks
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pov! you're me, considering signing up as a participant in a new challenge, but as you're reading the rules and requirements you notice that they've straight up pasted in several sections of copy you wrote for a challenge you founded and have been running for the past seven years (and they didn't ask permission or provide credit!!!)
#hoooo boy this pisses me off lmao#at first i was like... am i imagining this?#but i made a point of going through it#and there's several sections where they've flat out just thesaurus'd in a new word and switched ''pinefest'' to their challenge name#and to be clear if people want to use rules from pinefest *as a template* for their own challenge rules that's totally fine by me#like i've spent seven years ironing out the kinks and it runs pretty smoothly these days#so i'm more than happy for other challenges to take inspiration from how we run things#but to lift entire sections of the rules/requirements/posting guide i wrote#only changing a couple of words and shuffling the order of a few things around but keeping large chunks of text and formatting#all without bothering to provide credit or even just ask!!!#is so damn rude!!!!!!#like for crying out loud the pinefest askbox is open my askbox is open the pinefest email is listed on our page#i've shared ''how to build your own challenge'' guides here and on twitter through the challenge account#and have publicly offered help and advice on getting started when people have asked#like i've made a point of being extremely approachable wrt this stuff!!!#because i want to help people set up challenges! having well-run challenges makes fandom better!!!#but passing off other people's hard work as your own does NOT make fandom better!!!!#and yeah writing copy for a challenge IS hard work#also i have deliberately not mentioned the name of the challenge publicly and i'm only going to mention it to my co-mod#though if the people running it see this and feel like reaching out they are welcome to do so#like legit no hard feelings if they were using our rules as a guide and somehow published our stuff in their rules by mistake#i'm just super heated about this because i've put so much work into pinefest over the years#like huge amounts of time and energy and thought dedicated to contributing to the fandom#so to have someone take a bunch of that work and pass it off as their own feels pretty damn shitty!#it's especially frustrating because other parts of their rules have clearly been written by someone who has a distinct voice of their own#like evidently they're capable of writing their own stuff so why didn't they just do the rest of the work?#wank adjacent#...but is it really wank when it's being pissed off for legitimate reasons? who's to say
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#regan.txt#i'm fine i'm normal i'm not experiencing anything out of the ordinary i'm cool i'm chill i'm gonna be totally fine over these next few days#(delusional)
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my dust allergy has gotten a lot better thanks to immunotherapy, but sometimes I'm reminded just how annoying it used to be and damn, it really sucks lol
I just rearranged our board game shelf (it's a 2x4 KALLAX shelf, so not huge or anything) - it took maybe 15 minutes tops. we haven't played any of the games in a while so there was a looot of dust.
and yeah my arms and face are itching so badly now 🙃 but at least I haven't sneezed once yet! and my nose and eyes feel fine! so overall it's not too bad.
#I don't know how I lived like this every day for over 20 years#my skin is only mildly itchy. it's totally tolerable#the nose and eyes stuff was what really bothered me and that's like. 95% gone#and usually if I know I'll be around a lot of dust I'll just take allergy meds and it's fine. this was a spontaneous thing so I didn't think#to do that#but I'm sure it'll be over in a few minutes#but yeah damn it used to be like this ALL the time. not just when I was around a lot of dust#I know it's not a very serious allergy or anything. but it does kinda suck when dust is just EVERYWHERE lol#personal
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does anyone else ever get really weirdly depressed after whatever your watching/reading ends
#not always just like#for some reason it kinda fucks me up after finishing going through some stories#it's not like for any tangible reason either#so I can't really feel better except just waiting until it passes?#idk it's weird I was jsut thinking abt it again recently#extra context; there's no rhyme or reason to it either#like I can be extremely attached to a story and be jsut fine when it ends#like I was totally fine after finishing xenoblade 3#but then other times even w stories i'm not as attached to#I'll just be fucked up and sad for a few days after I finish#I don't get it
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are you going to make gifsets of each semifinal's entries? or have you already posted something similiar?
I'm planning on making a few gifsets/edits for the semi finals but I'll probably only post them near the contest date
#I am not very ahead for the countdown series because I was away for a few days for a little vacation#so if I can do those faster I can also start on other things#the good news is that I'm gonna have more time to do them and to enjoy eurovision in general#the bad news is that my free time is because I'll be unemployed after next week yay#that was fun to find out after coming from vacation!#to be fair it would be equally or more fun (lol) to find out before so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯#and ''it's gonna be fine'' because in theory I have ''potential to do better''#very annoying to be told that tbh my potential has led me nowhere of note#why do I even have to fulfill my potential anyway would that even make me happy#the science world doesn't need me!#I really don't need a high skilled job to be happy#(I wasn't let go because they weren't satisfied with my work my position will just cease to exist)#(which isn't totally surprising because they've been trying to phase it out for over a year now)#and now I have to find a new job?? in this economy??#what if the people are Bad#what if there isn't a cool middle-aged single woman for me to desperately want to befriend#and now I'm supposed to stay at home with my mom all day?? doing chores?? cooking lunch every day for my dad and brothers?? 🤢#I'm sorry rasmusiscute this is not the information you asked for#I will be making gifsets for the semifinals at some point#I'm not sure of anyone else has done already but I'm sure others will too
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about to go the absolute hardest on gag farming friday. GFF + recovery all star booster + 2 club gag boosters + gumball machine boosters + maxed kudos playground + invasion. i am going to max trap and drop in the next 24 hours or die trying
#then i can finally grind dave without feeling like a burden to my teammates since it's such a trap+drop fight<333#i did my first 6ish dave fights with the same team who were grinding it and they were really nice and totally fine with my trap+drop#but for teams with randos?? i want to max it to make their lives easier. Yes fighting dave is literally my entire motivation for maxing#i have wrecking ball and big weight rn 💀 but assuming all these boosters stack appropriately.... this'll be a walk in the par#my last 2 tracks to max as well :)#the club boosters are useful but i'm like the only actually active person in my club...#the people who invited me are the sweetest people i've met on this game but it's just me online most days 😭#it makes me feel more justified in using our club coins for boosters but also we have few club coins because it's just me earning them#i turned off the club nametag for myself so maybe someday someone from a really active club will invite me to theirs... :(#original
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you know every other time I've tried ritalin in the morning I've hated it and I think this explains why. I just can't mix it with caffeine or it makes me viscerally uncomfortable and gross feeling
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biometrics appointment is booked holy fuck
#reed.txt#i shelled out the money for priority too#i would more than likely be totally fine with the standard#but i'm an anxious person so if i can find out SOONER i would like that#now if the university would fix their housing application which has been down since JUNE#like 50-ish more days and then i'm outta here and i become england's problem >:)#hopefully forever but for at least a few years for SURE#i wish not to talk about how much money i have spent in the last 3 days please it's so much
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Catch-22 AU, Ladybug as Milo, Adrien as Yossarian. 100k slowburn
#I'm at the middle of the book no spoilers please!!#will this be looking good for them? I cannot tell but we will figure it out in a few days#miaing#also I'm obsessed with Milo okay#the way he directs that whole thing? showstopping#like yes from a moral standpoint he would totally be down for NFTs but he would also be smart enough not to buy them so I think we're fine#I'm gonna keep him in my pocket :3
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hello i will be taking a break of unknown length (like. a few days probably. ill have to be back for tti. actually i could have just not said anything. anyway) due to sha-mental health sha-problems i cannot be here rn <3 think of lightning for me
#mod posts#will elaborate somewhat in tags if u are for any reason interested#...........................................................................................................................#its so weird like i was fine and normal a few days ago#but then the most minor of minor things happened#and now my brain is doing a thing it hasnt done much since i was a very mentally ill teenager#i am a grown ass adult what is GOING ON !!!#anyway i may end up deleting this acc who knows#its just i know that i will be sad when someone else takes the url#i guess i could just abandon it#but i think people would be mad at me for keeping the url and not using t#anyway#i'm hoping some time away will make me normal#and if ur reading this thank u for caring#i know i am just some rando in the total drama tag#and recently ive felt like i dont have a place in the fandom at all#like ive just shoved myself in a place i dont belong#i know thats just the hellbrain talking#anyway ANYWAY what i was saying is#thank you for listening to a rando u barely know talk to himself#xoxo gossip girl#i havent even seen gossip girl
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Is anyone else's immune system just total and complete trash since covid
#like i can't even get a cold now without it turning into a whole Event™#it's not FAIR#i have SHIT TO DO#and i swear i used to be one of those people who rarely got sick#or if i did i would bounce back really quick#now i'm down and out for at least 4 days#i hate it here#especially bc my useless optometrist wHO JUST CAME OFF ALMOST 3 WEEKS LEAVE#had a cough on friday#and had the audacity to say to me#his boss#'oh i might have monday off... you know... to rest'#and i said#no❤️#because how convenient that tuesday is a public holiday and it's become A VERY VERY NOTICEABLE PATTERN#that he does this shit#anyways what i rly said is we'll see how you're going over the weekend like mATE#so now i'm purely showing up to work tomorrow just to spite him#LMFOSMSOWMSOSKSKSKSMOSEJKDKEKDKE#i'll do a few hours and leave early it's fine i'm not a total workaholic#⬅️ me when i lie#anyways#what was the point of all this?#oh right#I'M SICK AND I HATE IT#it was barely a sore throat and the LIGHTEST cold symptoms#and now i'm 😴😴😴😴#dying a little#but it's fine#i basically just ate a whole lemon smothered in garlic and shit LNFODMSOEMDKD
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i am losing my fucking miiiiind
#i have a new years eve 'party' with a few friends tomorrow and I made the mistake of mentioning to friend N that I was gonna make cookies#and fudge to bring because. you know. i like cookies and fudge. duh. self-explanatory. i want to bring cookies and fudge.#and N (who i stg needs to be With Her Friends at least six days a week or she will die or something) was like 'we should bake them#together that morning!'#and i knew i couldn't say no because any time I say no or that I don't want to do something or that I don't like something it becomes#a fucking interrogation so i was like fine. whatever. we can bake them together.#except THEN she said that she doesn't like fudge!!! so let's not make fudge!!! oh but actually she has a gReAt cookie recipe from her#baking class last semester! we should use that! and we should make cupcakes too!#and i'm like GIRL????? THE WHOLE GODDAMN POINT WAS THAT I WANTED SOME MOTHERFUCKING FUDGE????#so fine. whatever. i just made fudge and I can cut it up tomorrow and bring it like i'd planned#because i knew if i said i really wanted to make fudge with her she'd get all pouty and 'pretend she's fine' but not really#and i didn't want to deal with that. i know how to make fudge. i can make my own fudge.#and then she mentioned that she didn't really like vanilla cupcakes but hey we can totally make both vanilla and chocolate cupcakes!#which is great because i like both! so that works out really well!#well i offered to bring the vanilla cake mix and guess what.#no come on guess#you'll never guess#she said i didn't have to worry about that because she doesn't really like vanilla cupcakes :D#GIRL??? WE HAD THIS CONVERSATION????#AND she said she'd buy the ingredients and waited until today and then had a panic attack and didn't leave the house SO that's gonna cut#into our baking time tomorrow. which honestly I would be thrilled about if her two solutions were either I meet her at the store at#baking o'clock OR she goes shopping first thing and then we still meet at her house at baking o'clock#like no! go buy them! i'll meet you at baking:30#I'll meet you at baking + one hour#i lack the mental capacity for this I stg#i wish she had more than three friends because she's the only friend I see on a regular basis and it's still not nearly enough for her#OOOOH FRIEND H WITH THE CLUTCH! SHE SAYS SHE PREFERS CHOCOLATE CUPCAKES SO WE'RE MAKING BOTH NOW#you know. if we have time. since we have to buy the ingredients first.#it's gonna be a trainwreck i already know it#we baked together one (1) time and that was my birthday cake (and I tried to say I didn't like x flavor and she was like 'but whyyy it's so
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i had to make a solution for this for myself, mostly because of depression, but it makes a nice How To for folks who are low on spoons or could use some help in the kitchen.
Fortunately i was a professional cook for over a decade. UNfortunately the first post i made explaining it was suuuuper long. Let's see if i can do better
So you select any protein that you can cook in a frying pan -- chicken breasts, ground beef, pork chops, sausages, steak, chicken thighs, whatever. You also select one or two types of veggie (mushrooms or tubers also work, i just did this with potatoes and carrots for dinner tonight).
[i like cooking for vegetarians, but this is how i cook for myself when i'm low on spoons - perhaps i'll do another post for meatless meals]
You'll also need some kind of oil, and a sauce or two of your choice in a bottle. All cooking gear is a large frying pan with lid (i prefer non-stick) a spatula, a cutting board, and a knife.
You cut the veggies into bite size pieces, cut up enough for two meals. One kind of veggie is fine, or you can do mix two or three
Put frying pan on medium heat with a little oil. Tubers or mushrooms or go in the pan a few minutes before the protein. 2 portions of the protein goes in the pan, about 5 minutes with lid (don't worry you can still get a good sear on both sides)
Now flip your protein if it's flip-able and add normal veggies, put the lid back on another five-ish minutes.
Take your protein out and put it with one portion of the veggies in a microwave safe container. That's going to be your lunch tomorrow. Put the other portion of protein on a plate to rest (you have to let a cooked protein sit a couple minutes before you serve it or when you cut into it all the juices run out and it goes dry - the liquids thicken as it cools, preventing this drying out if you let it rest, the goal is to serve it very warm but not hot hot)
While it's resting, pour some sauce from your bottle in the pan with the rest of the veggies and turn up the heat. A single sauce/bottle is fine, i like to get fancy and mix a couple. Two examples of personal favorite mixes are 1: bbq sauce and a hot sauce like sriracha 2: roughly equal parts low sodium soy sauce and worcestershire (makes something similar to a teriyaki sauce) A swallow of wine is almost always a great option if you want to add that to your sauce too, just add it to the pan before the other sauces so the alcohol has time to burn off.
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Here is the important bit. While your veggies are finishing, wash your cutting board and chef knife. Then when you dump your veggies and sauce over your protein on the plate, while it is still too hot to eat, you wash your frying pan and spatula before you eat. Now the only dishes you have left to do are your plate and fork. Maybe a steak knife.
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The whole thing takes about 35 minutes even with washing the dishes, and that includes your lunch for the next day- just pour a different sauce on and stick it in the microwave for a couple minutes (or five minutes back in the frying pan) and you have a full healthy lunch with a different flavor
You can use this technique every single meal and it yields hundreds of combinations, from pork and potatoes bbq, to salmon and broccoli teriyaki, to chicken and zucchini in a soy glaze.
It will keep you down to less than an hour of kitchen time per day total for both lunch and dinner including all dish clean up, uses the least dishes, the least effort, requires the least technique, and is, depending on what you pick out, very affordable
here are a couple more examples from this month; i didn’t take pictures of the salmon i did recently, but you get the idea
it's not super fancy, but it is easy, affordable, quick, and any flavors you want. Hope this helps some folks
Happy Cooking!
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It's so fun when you want to listen to CJ's newest song but can't because the dude who's frontstuck at the current moment in your system is sourced from the game he made the music about and you don't want to reopen old wounds of his </3
#this is sarcastic and silly btw i'm totally fine with it and time has been mentally rotating arianna grande in his head for the past 4 hours#i'll just hope time is able to toddle off in a few days so i can listen to all of cj's zelda songs
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If you know anyone who seems really chill to the point of being virtually indestructible, like nothing could ever bother them in any way, could get hit by a train and just shake it off and be totally fine, laughing it off as soon as they've dusted themselves off and stopped bleeding, but who occasionally just randomly falls apart to complete fucking smithereens with seemingly no cause nor warning, only to get back up again a few minutes/hours/days later like "ok yeah I'm fine again that was weird lmao", and you've ever wondered what the fuck is up with that:
They are actually not ok and most likely are not ok at any point. The whole "hardiest person you know who just collapses randomly sometimes" thing isn't a deliberately constructed façade, as a matter of fact it might be something that they actually personally believe themselves to be. But in reality this is somebody who's either unintentionally learned or has been deliberately trained to hide negative emotions and mask symptoms at all costs, as the #1 priority that goes over any other survival needs.
So even though it may look like they go from 1 to 100 completely at random and unpredictably, and then swing right back again to being totally fine, you have no way of knowing how long they've been at 95% before the last line of defense broke down and the system collapsed. And once they flip back up, odds are that they just managed to scrape their shit back together again just enough to get their backup masking systems running. The "check engine" light never turned on because the wire was clipped years ago.
If this is you, this is your callout to seek some sort of help. I'm telling on everyone in this room including myself.
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