#and im too lazy to edit the tags on everything X)

[ivestas]

bro,,,your last ghost one,,,,head full, big thonks

what if hound!reader never went looking for simon because she thought he was dead?? or better yet, she DID look, so vigorously in fact that her superiors at the time maybe misinformed her of his death, even going as far as planting fake evidence??👁👁

also im thinking about old nicknames..,.,hitting him with the "si-guy" or "'mon-mon the man" or smth 💀

can’t say goodbye to yesterday

PART TWO TO ‘HEARTS ALIGNED’

Summary: You were deceived by the same people you fought for. You discuss it with Ghost. 

Tags: soldier!fem!reader (call sign “hound”) x ghost (2022 version), childhood friends, smoking, canon divergence of both the game and the oneshot, barely edited, death, lowkey konig x reader

Word count: 1.4k

Notes: anon, you're genuinely such a GENIUS!!!! those thonks fr are gold bc now my head is full of thonks too hehe---this post will hopefully extend those clever thonks and added more??? 

You were sitting against the wall while Ghost was laying in his cot. The night had grown old, but you refused to leave him—that won’t happen again, not now, not ever. 

You were on your third cigarette, the smoke having long since coated your mouth in a thick layer of cheap tobacco and newspaper. Ghost didn’t seem to mind, laying on his side, watching you with tired eyes—more so watching the cigarette. 

Extending it forward, your head tipped to the side. “You sure you don’t want one?” 

“No. I should be sleeping.” 

“You’re eyeing my cigarette though.”

“Just lost in thought.”

“About smoking a cigarette?” 

He huffed. “No. Just...” he sat up now, the cot straining under his movement. “You’ve changed. And you also haven’t—and you haven’t told me why you didn’t search for me.”

You frowned.

“Jus’ tell me that. Tell me why. I don’t give a bloody fuck if you were just too lazy too—”

“Smoke with me and I’ll tell you everything.” Your voice was strained. 

Emotions were high, tension was thick, maybe it was foolish to think that would just dissolve by planting yourself in his room. You weren’t kids. This wasn’t just a blow-up about something dumb, and you hated it. Because at least when you were kids, the arguments were insignificant, the worst that could happen is you calling him a ‘booger-brained idiot’. 

This was real. This brought true hurt.

You were thankful when Ghost finally nodded, getting up and sitting across you on the floor. Despite sitting criss-crossed, he was huge. He towered over you. König would often shimmy away, giving you a little space—he’d bend his body downward in a vain attempt to dwarf himself.

But Ghost sat tall. He stared right at you and lifted a hand. 

You gave him the cigarette. 

You watched as he lifted the balaclava a little, setting the end at the bridge of his nose. It was just a small sliver of his face, but fuck did it strike you right at your heart. 

His face was all firm lines—carved and rigid, with the lightest scar running along his lips. 

Simon—smaller, younger Simon—had a round face. Soft cheeks, a crooked smile, unscarred.

You looked away to the side at the hard concrete wall, back pressed against it. 

A waft of smoke hit you, then a finger lightly tapped on your hands. 

You turned. Ghost was lifting the cigarette to you. 

Taking it, you murmured a quick thanks before taking a puff out of it yourself. Ghost tugged down the balaclava once more. 

“Why didn’t you search for me?” 

“I did,” you responded simply. “It was when I was younger. Naive. More trusting. You know, I searched for you every moment I got—thought you still went by ‘Simon Riley’. Even went as far as to go to the superiors and ask all nicely—told them, ‘he’s the son of that piece of shit drunkard, the one who you constantly kissed up to.’” You laugh though it’s devoid of any humor.  

Ghost only watched, listened, eyes flicking between the cigarette and your straying gaze. 

“They—they told me you were dead. That’s it. Nothing more, nothing less. ‘Simon Riley was killed in action a few years back’ one of them had told me, all sad-like and frowning. ‘He was a good soldier.’” You scoffed. “No fanfare, no tricks, they just—they said you were dead. Showed me a document or two, I hardly fuckin’ remember, I just... I tried to forget. Not to care.”

Your hands were shaking. You didn’t know why. Your heart was silent, so was your mind, but your body—it was moving on its own. As though shedding a deeper feeling your own mind couldn’t process. 

“So can you imagine my surprise when, just a few months ago, a man named ‘Ghost’ happens to be registered as ‘Simon Riley’ in their files? I couldn’t believe it, thought there was another Simon Riley whose from the UK, but I was curious. So... yeah. I ended up in KorTac ‘cause I heard rumors 141 was gonna come along and do some mission together.” Again, you laughed. “Then I saw you—and fuck, did I tell you how much you’ve grown? You look so different—actually can I say something weird?” 

“Yeah.” His eyes met yours. 

An unfamiliar smile formed on your lips. “It... it makes me happy, seeing you with that Scot, all grown, and... it’s hard to put into words, but it makes me feel proud. And it also hurts like a bitch.”

He hummed. “Could say the same.” 

“Then say the same. I want to hear it, Simon.”

“It makes me feel proud, and it hurts like a bitch.” 

You snorted. “Ass.”

He reached for your cigarette. You handed it to him. “So... does that clear things?” 

“Yep,” he tugged his balaclava off this time, pushing the cigarette between his lips. He’s handsome. “Shoulda guessed you’re too much of a gullible dumbass to find me.” 

“You piece of—keep talking shit and I’ll kick your ass!” You reached for the cigarette. He moved away from your reach, a shit-eating grin now plastered on his face.

“You kickin’ my ass? I’d like to see you try, pipsqueak.” 

“Don’t test me mon-mon.” 

He glared. “Mon-mon?”  

“Sorry, wait, mon mon the man—my bad, nearly forgot the whole damn title.” 

“Keep callin’ me that and I’ll be the one kicking your ass.” 

“Not gonna listen to a guy named si-guy.” 

“Shut. Up.” 

You laughed. It was dumb and childish—not even that funny, frankly—but something about Simon frowning all seriously brought it out of you. 

A moment later, the frown disappeared, and Simon handed the cigarette back with a  little smile.  

Bonus headcanons (post oneshot):

When you two were kids, you often took the role of the mature one to reign in any dumb ideas that Simon schemed, though you’d participate in them moments later. 

The roles have reversed now: you are the dumbass and Ghost tries his best to keep it under control. 

The moment you’re near Ghost, a little layer of your cold exterior melts a little and you allow yourself to drop your guard a little and be loose-lipped—though, in public or with the guys, you tone it down a little and still address him as Ghost. 

In private though? The names are everything except for Ghost. 

Si-guy, mon-mon the man, syphilis, Simon says, se-si-so-fum (fe-fi-fo-fum), etc. 

Half the time the names just don’t even correlate with his and he quickly just got used to it. 

No one really notices the change between the two of you except for Soap, who takes note of the small glances the two of you exchange like it’s a secret language that could only be communicated between you guys.

He even noticed the small brush of your hand against Ghost’s shoulder after a particularly difficult mission and he returned it moments later. 

He has no idea if your friends, lovers, or just like?? Related maybe?? even if it would make ZERO sense for that to be the case.

In regards to König, Ghost would be protective. 

He wouldn’t be shy to voice his thoughts against the relationship because he’s seen how monstrous König could be on the battlefield and worries that he’s just hiding that ‘true persona’ of his for whatever reason. 

Also because he’s possessive; he’s convinced himself he’s just looking after you but he doesn’t like the idea of you straying away again but this time for some other guy. 

He also doesn’t know if he likes you romantically or not: he likes you, but he has no idea if the strength comes from a romantic pull or if it’s just platonic. He just wants you close. 

Also, both of you know each other’s tells; old habits die hard, and the tells you both had of discomfort from childhood still exist to this day.

Simon would go quiet and have a very specific stare that just kind of... glazes over. It’s dissociative.

You’d gently pry him out of that state with uncharacteristically soft words, making random observations or jokes. 

Whenever you're in a similar state, he'd just sit beside you and kind of lean in—he might just straight up grab your hand and squeeze if no one is nearby.

Overall, to any outsider, you guys would just appear to be comrades with the same layers of cold and bile, but in reality, you guys have history.

Despite the time that had passed, you'd still call each other the best of friends.

You're satisfied with that, but Ghost is unsure if he wants something more.

Until then, he'll just shoot König glares until he figures out what he really wants.

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Masterlist

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[strangeswift]

The end of the year is near! Give a shoutout to your favorite blogs and tag them to spread positivity before the year ends! (from: a secret anon)

This list is gonna be hella incomplete but my excuse is I am very sick and my brain is literally cooking itself <3 if i forgot u I still love u I promise. Also these got aggressive which i also blame on my high fever

@elekinetic is the best in the world, the only screenwriter ever. Read their scripts in their pinned post or i will kill you. Also she has edits that are fucking amazing, watch the brutal edit or else you suck. And. Check out her playlists too. And you guys don't even appreciate her enough because she's the best and sometimes i want to grab you all by your faces and say APPRECIATE ELLA MORE! Like. Her scripts are actually insane. insane. INSANE. Anyway whatever read them now.

@eightieslesbian makes the best gifsets in the world and she is literally everything to me so if you are NOT following her then you and i have a problem which can only be resolved by you following her. She has a link to her work in her description so check it out and reblog them all ok.

@finalgirlbyers sierra loveqbrl madcleradin finalgirlbyers is the blog ever and you need to follow her immediately or else you will have bad luck for 7 years. Every take is based, every post a slay.

@astrobei is the fanfic writer of all time ever and you should read not all the prayers immediately because it is my favorite fanfiction of all time and i am not exaggerating. It is emotionally devastating but you should read it anyway and if u don't just know that i am mentally kicking your shins so hard SO hard

@andiwriteordie hmmm the best? The best. Her fics are just 💖💘💞❤️ and she is literally so smart, comes up with the best ideas. The CEO of Taylor Swift x Byler. If you thought it was me, you're wrong. It's her. But I'm like.. idk the CFO or maybe her assistant

@quinnick best friend moot. Check him out on ao3 and at @nickquin for art things. And follow him. He is fun, the nicest sweetest person ever, has great takes. Follow him or else i hate u

@ratt-duffer CHECK OUT RATT'S FUCKING ANALYSES AND EDITS THEY ARE SO GOOD im tired of u people you all suck, ratt deserves more appreciation

@chiquitablanquita is an amazing writer and amazing person. Check her out on AO3, Things I Can't Say is soo fucking amazing and she just put out the first chapter of her Spidey Will fic!!

I probably forgot many people plus i am lazy and tired rn ok <3 byeee

[celianascended]

funny half life video hours

hell yeah it is!

[starry-kin-cafe]

~ intro ~

welcome to my cafe!! here i give out a lot of things to anyone and everyone! i refer to this blog as starry cafe and everything is cafe themed. this blog is mainly for those who kin from the media i do orders for. please read through everything before interacting! 

the rest of the post is under the cut!

im mod alex, and im a trans demiboy that uses he/they pronouns! i am a neurodivergent minor and am currently the only mod working on orders. i may not be able to deliver orders for some periods of time due to school, and i apologize in advance!

you may call me starry or lati if you’d prefer to!

you may also call me by my kin names too! 

current kin name list: sorbet, hunter, koto

~ dni criteria ~

do not interact if you are:

racist

ableist

a p\dophile/MAP

lgbtq+phobic (homophobic, transphobic, etc.)

anti neopronouns

anti xenogender

transmed

a terf

a nazi

kinphobic/anti kin

“super straight” or anything similar (the identity is inherently transphobic) 

a proshipper/anti-anti

a nsfw and/or kink blog

inc/stual or support inc/st

just here to troll/spam the ask box

if your name is tyr, i would prefer if you use a different name

~ sources ~

main sources: 

danganronpa (localized games only)

cookie run: ovenbreak

doki doki literature club

the owl house

animal crossing

bug fables: the everlasting sapling

other sources: 

(i may have to deny requests for these due to limited knowledge)

danganronpa 3: end of hope’s peak academy

danganronpa zero

genshin impact

my little pony: friendship is magic

undertale/deltarune

steven universe

~ blacklist ~

h/ji towa

monaca x nagisa shingetsu (danganronpa)

despair!junko enoshima x anyone (non despair is okay! i have separate non despair junko sprites i can use) 

boscha x willow (the owl house) 

pre-timeskip spike x any adult character (examples: any of the mane 6 x spike will not be done) (mlp:fim)

~ the menu ~

edits:

icons (can have multiple characters, specific themes, and/or lgbtq+ stuff!)

backgrounds (phones and pc only)

aesthetic/mood boards

ship edits (only if the characters have fullbody or halfbody sprites i can use)

minor sprite edits (danganronpa, cookie run, bug fables, and ddlc only) 

art/writing:

doodles (mainly sketches, i will not accept requests that are too complex or have more than 5 characters in them)

headcanons/small write-ups (they might be called something else but im not sure. ill basically do a bulleted list of how i believe the character would react) (these will take longer to come out and can only be done for main sources)

misc:

kin help (basically what other blogs would call kin assigning. i take kinning to be very personal so i am uncomfortable with assigning people kins, but i can recommend some characters for you to consider!) (please specify which sources you’d like for me to pick from or ill default to my main sources) (this is not for canon calls, all asks in that style will be denied)

meme edits/doodles (please specify the character[s] and specify the meme. i can edit videos as well, but those will be a lot more simple)

opinions/personal headcanons (ask for my opinion for anything from any source, includes fandom specific things as long as they dont have things that are on the blacklist)

~ other important things ~

you will have to like a post if you use anything in it. reblogs and credit are also encouraged and appreciated!

i have a main blog mainly for my art and ramblings. it is undergoing some rebranding so i cant link it rn!

if i use my art in any of my edits, credit is required

the blog is currently cafe themed so tags and such will have that theme. i will be referring to requests as orders and anons as customers and other terminology that has not been decided yet  

i use tone indicators when i feel they should be included

i use they/them for chihiro fujisaki 

i use he/they for sorbet shark cookie (i will try to use they but im a dumb kinnie that self projects way too much so i will slip up sometimes sfhhdfjg) 

i may use they/them for mukuro ikusaba (when im in a mukuro shift i get uncomfortable with mukuro being related to things that could be perceived as feminine, which includes her canon pronouns [she/her]) 

~ outro ~

that’s it! im sorry for such a long introduction post, im too lazy to make a carrd haha

i hope you enjoy your stay at the starry cafe!! 

[yandererubix]

Yandere ABC’S

featuring keith and yan pico :D

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 Affection: How do they show their love and affection? How intense would it get?

Believe it or not, all this boy would do is just snuggle, or maybe watch a movie. You bet your ass it can and will get very intense, and it makes them both thankful of the lack of neighbors.

Blood: How messy are they willing to get when it comes to their darling?

Jesus christ, Pico went through enough trauma to not be affected by blood anymore. He would blast that fucker through the head quicker then you can hide, yet if its with his friends he’ll be a bit more hesitant, choosing instead to have a little ‘talk’ with them. He would kill them if he felt he had to, though. edit: poor gf would definitely be the first to die

Cruelty: How would they treat their darling once abducted? Would they mock them?

He might try and dehumanize Keith a tiny bit, if not just to make sure he doesn’t escape. He does it all in a teasing manner, of course, because why on earth would he try to hurt him? At least, that’s the excuse he uses every time.

Darling: Aside from abduction, would they do anything against their darling’s will?

That’s a big yes, and sometimes not even knowing. Probably mainly for punishments, say Keith tried to escape? There’s no way he’d take that without some form of lecturing.

Exposed: How much of their heart do they bare to their darling? How vulnerable are they when it comes to their darling?

About average, enough to feel ‘safe’ around him but not everything, such as the shooting. Keith’s aware of the incident because news exists, but he doesn’t know what really happened that day, like most.

Fight: How would they feel if their darling fought back?

Oh, he’d take the challenge heads on, ‘teasing’ back with a dangerous glint in his eye. However, if he wasn’t in the mood, he would definitely tie him down, or simply hold Keith closer, tighter. He doesn’t want to break him, after all.

Game: Is this a game to them? How much would they enjoy watching their darling try to escape?

You can bet your right arm it is. More often then not he gets a thrill from playing their little game of cat and mouse, and its even more rewarding when he finally catches/

Hell: What would be their darling’s worst experience with them?

When his darling tries to strike back when he’s vulnerable. etc. after sex, sleeping, things like that. There would probably be the tiniest bit of blood drawn, often ending with a sobbing Keith ‘snuggling’ up with him.

Ideals: What kind of future do they have in mind for/with their darling?

He hasn’t really thought about that. He’s content with how things are now, so, go figure.

Jealousy: Do they get jealous? Do they lash out or find a way to cope?

Is this even a question? For coping he’d probably go on a weed massacre or beat the shit out of whoever held Keith’s attention, until said person is nothing but a bloody piece of rotting meat.

Kisses: How do they act around or with their darling?

Can get very affectionate, which could be quite dangerous varying on the levels. Otherwise, he’s just Keith’s usual flirty boyfriend.

Love letters: How would they go about courting or approaching their darling?

Okay, lets be honest. After a while of waiting he would just pin him to the wall then drag him away to the ✨cold hard future✨™

Mask: Are their true colors drastically different from the way they act around everyone else? For sure. Around his darling, he’s flirtatious and very hands-on, but in public he’s quite cold to anyone who so much acknowledges him. Around him friends, although similar, he does genuinely try. God knows what for.

Naughty: How would they punish their darling?

Sexual, dehumanizing, or neglect. There is no in-between. Sorry, Keith.    ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Oppression: How many rights would they take away from their darling?

As mentioned in many other letters, he can be quite patronizing and take away quite a few rights. (name-calling, sometimes he won’t clean up the cuts after punishment if he’s really angry, so on.)

Patience: How patient are they with their darling?

Impatient most of the time, but that’s neither of their faults, its just in Pico’s nature. He does make an effort most of the time, but no judging if he snaps.

Quit: If their darling dies, leaves, or successfully escapes, would they ever be able to move on?

Let’s be honest, he would just shoot himself and they’d be together again. Next one, please.

Regret: Would they ever feel guilty about abducting their darling? Would they ever let their darling go?

First question, a very small percent of the time. He’s definitely delusional, so even though he’s painfully aware of everything, it’s fine. Their together now.  Keith’s only pretending to hate him and call him all those horrible things because he’s too shy to admit he loves him back, right?

Stigma: What brought about this side of them (childhood, curiosity, etc)?

do with this question what you will. its 10:40pm, people, give me a break.

Tears: How do they feel about seeing their darling scream, cry, and/or isolate themselves?

He’d obviously feel bad, but try not to let it show. Keith won’t acknowledge his presence? Fine. Then he won’t be in his presence for lets say, five days? The problem is, both of them are stubborn as a mule, and that just might be the reason K dies one day.

Unique: Would they do anything different from the classic yandere?

gun gun gun gun gun gun gun gun gun gun gun

also the fact he can get reaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaallllllllllllllllllllly jealous. All of the goddamn time.

Vice: What weakness can their darling exploit in order to escape?

im 👏pa 👏tient 👏 also, the jealousy. If Keith suddenly pays super extra affectionate randomly back, it might soften up restrictions.

Wit’s end: Would they ever hurt their darling?

how many times have i wrote about the blood tho

Xoanon: How much would they revere or worship their darling? To what length would they go to win their darling over?

Very far lengths, mental wise. Such as killing someone Keith was talking to while he was talking to them, just as a teensy reminder of his love.

Yearn: How long do they pine after their darling before they snap?

As mentioned this boy is pretty impatient, so I imaging some time after week three he would finally snap. He was just so excited from finally being able to duel him like that, don’t scold him!

Zenith: Would they ever break their darling?

He might accidentally, depending on how strong K’s will is. Pico obviously doesn’t want him to become despondent, he loves him too much, and besides, it’s so much fun for them both when they play their little games of tag or hide and seek.

uurrrghhhhhhhhhhhhhn its now 10:50pm, enjoy i guess and expect more, gremlins.

(sorry if any mistakes, too lazy and tired to care. adios!  ✌️

[tiffersthenerdyficrecs]

*Problematic* DekuMight Lemon Fics

give me the power by orphan_account

Rating: Explicit Archive Warning: Underage Relationship: Midoriya Izuku/Yagi Toshinori | All Might Characters: Midoriya Izuku, Yagi Toshinori | All Might Additional Tags: this is my first time writing smut lmfao, i just needed to get this out of my system, anyways izuku is FOURTEEN!!!!!!!!, and all might is...old, all might is a LITTLE ooc towards the middle?, but i just think he gets intense during sex, Oh also, all might has a big dick, like A HONKING BIG ASS COCK, not edited bc im lazy, Smut, Dirty Talk, all might calls izuku a slut, bc i wanted him to, THIS IS ALL SELF INDULGENT OKAY Summary: My Hero Academia in which everything is the same except in order for All Might to pass his quirk onto Izuku, he has to come inside of him.

Indulgence by A_Fallen_Fate

Rating: Explicit Archive Warning: Underage Relationship: Midoriya Izuku/Yagi Toshinori | All Might Characters: Yagi Toshinori | All Might, Midoriya Izuku, Shinsou Hitoshi, Bakugou Katsuki Additional Tags: pornstar!All Might, Anal Sex, Desk Sex, Porn With Plot, Shameless Smut, Fluff, Shinsou is the best wingman, possibly continuing as a longer series, Kinky, cheesy porn dialogue is the best, heed the tags, All Might fucks Izuku to be clear, Izuku is 15 in this, Bakugou Katsuki Swears A Lot, Shinsou Hitoshi is in Class 1-A, shameless!Shinsou, All Might was never injured, Midoriya Izuku is a Nerd, Age Difference Summary: In a world with quirks but not heroes, how else were people supposed to make a living?

A story where All Might was a world-renowned pornstar, Izuku; his biggest fan, and Shinsou just wanted to hook a buddy up. A love story.

HeroFiction by Animillion

Rating: Explicit Archive Warning: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationship: Midoriya Izuku/Yagi Toshinori | All Might Characters: Yagi Toshinori | All Might, Midoriya Izuku Additional Tags: Fanfiction, Daddy Kink, Riding, Mentor/Protégé, Anal Sex, Sex Summary: Izuku rediscovers his old All Might x Reader love. Then he discovers DekuMight. All Might discovers it too.

Autumn Boys by GoBeyondProblematic

Rating: Explicit Archive Warning: Underage Relationship: Midoriya Izuku/Yagi Toshinori | All Might Characters: Midoriya Izuku, Yagi Toshinori | All Might Additional Tags: Teacher-Student Relationship, Underage Sex, First Time, Plot What Plot/Porn Without Plot, Dead Dove: Do Not Eat, Pining Summary: On a chilly October night, Toshinori invites his student up to his apartment for a cup of tea.

Idol Worship by bh6addict

Rating: Explicit Archive Warning: Underage Relationship: Midoriya Izuku/Yagi Toshinori | All Might Characters: Yagi Toshinori | All Might, Midoriya Izuku Additional Tags: Love Confessions, Teacher-Student Relationship, Dirty Talk, Anal Sex Summary: Izuku has always admired the number one hero. Maybe even more than he should...

[bardovelho]

3rd Habitversary in 2019

Today , April 14th, I celebrate my 3rd year Habitversary. The second one was skipped, forgotten along with all my tasks and Habitica itself, by the time I was experiencing my longest, hardest, and most teaching burnout of my Habitican life!

I learned that burnouts happen to me when I take too much pressure on myself and have too many difficult Dailies that I can't face. So, I faced not a single one instead of trying to do the best that I can, by avoiding Habitica almost completely. The magical key to break this bad vicious cycle is to Rest in the Inn WHILE doing the Dailies that I feel like doing, with no pressure. Then, I will only leave the Inn when I'm able to reach one Perfect Day, maybe 3 to make sure. This way, I'll still be leveling up, building motivation, but with no stress. Because Habitica is not about adding all the tasks that I can remember and doing as much as (im)possible; it's a tool to build motivation, which will generate progressive productivity. It can be like a muscle\battery of will power (as I read in The Power Of Habit), if well designed and oiled.

The (other) problem is that I'm now noticing that each task is unique, and it only stays without change when I don't evolve in it. So, it's a good thing to constantly adapt (at least, the most important) tasks title and description accordingly to my evolutions and consequent adaptation of new techniques that I'm building. This means that I need, with great awareness, to periodically check if each task is working as it should, and edit it accordingly to how it should be right now, specially Dailies and Habits. I'm thinking about adding a monthly revision about this. Adding monthly summaries instead of only the weekly ones helps a lot, too.

I'm now facing 20 dailies and more, the double of what I could do in the past, and challenging my comfort zone every day, without breaking the Perfect Day streak (I'm amazed with myself every day!). The Big Mountain of ToDo's is still to be conquered, but I'm managing it slowly: I'm using a dedicated Trello board to manage this, but it needs a serious update.

Priority monsters of the past (that is, during 1st Habitversary): I'm getting much better with my passive-aggressive behavior (thanks to a dedicated Habit), and avoiding conflict like a stealth ninja. But the world is a mess, so I'll still find opportunities for better training. I'm also understanding others better, but there will be always room for improvement on this topic. Plus, I'm building positivity and optimism behavior. These all might look like simpler things nowadays, but after reading my 1st Habitversary, I noticed how I was really struggling with these. Evolving on these issues made my life significantly better.

Tools: Forest has become a game changer for my Pomodoro Technique: I now have a tree code: Starry Tree and Rainbow Flower - Frogodoro (priorities) Moon Tree and Ghost Mushroom - Work after midnight Cactus and Ball Cactus - Avoiding priorities, but working Scarecrow and Pumpkin - Procrastinating Treehouse, Rafflesia - Domestic tasks (previously Habitica Tasks) Nest - Nap Ginkgo and Sunflower- Professional Wisteria - Writing, paperwork Mushroom - Plan Still working on it (specially the tags), but these ones will probably stay. The rooms are specially motivating, since I can invite someone else to work at the same time as me, helping me to share the burden and avoid laziness. I have now a LOT of Forest friends, and I'm very happy that some of those are Habiticans. Some conclusions: The 1st Pomodoro of the day is always the hardest. Frogodori make the day easier and easier. Habitica public challenges improve my Pomodoro dedication.

Duolingo is my go to App to start learning a language, and I'm in a streak with more than 100 consecutive days. Anki is now also used for affirmations: very useful! Trello is used for several projects that involve several tasks, and I find this very organizing, especially when I add specific quality tags to each board. IFTTT adds some cards. RescueTimer is still running on the background, but I haven't checked it for months. OneNote has more detailed notes about how I play Habitica: after this big burnout I struggled a lot to remember what each symbol and task meant, so now I have a dedicated section with everything that I'm doing regarding game mechanics (plus extra notes from specific tasks), because I can't trust my memory every time. Stylish is my permanent eye saver companion when using Habitica site (added some personal styles too), and the Chrome\Firefox extension Dark Mode (#4 (pitch dark)) is very useful, also. WunderList is not perfectly configured and I'm lazy to make it work, but will probably be using it again. Productivity Challenger and Toggl are the only two tools that I stop using since my last celebrated Habitversary.

Future ideas (brainstorming): Hard Mode: Forest in Hard Mode (every second I lose a little bit of focus, a tree dies). Try first: tree dies after 2nd or 3rd distraction. Wardrobe limits: Thinking about paying GP + a negative medium Habit every time I want to change a piece of battle equipment. I'm always using the best equipment for the best Habitica points, and because now I can beat this strategy, it's probably making the game too easier, and less dynamic. Timeclock: if I don't do a Daily by x hour or x hours after waking up, press a specific negative Habit. Offline experiment: Going back to Wunderlist, or use another extension that syncs to Habitica Dailies (shouldn't be Habits because they don't have 21 streaks). Try other extensions to improve game mechanics, automation and time spent on managing Habitica tasks. I need to reduce the time that I spent with habit tracking: although it's giving me great results, it's also probably consuming more energy and time than it should, I suspect.

Other notes: Depression and anxiety still attack from time to time, but now I have tasks and list of routines that I can do to prevent and recover from it faster than ever before, and healthier! Adding the Morning and Go To Bed Ritual is being very difficult, so instead of risking to lose the Perfect Day streak, I prefer to use my second account to get familiar and test this new routine. I inserted a limiting cheat system for Dailies: to skip a Daily, I have to pay 100 GP for each 1000 GP that I own, I can't do this more than 3 times per day, I also have to press 3 negative habits, and a £ marker needs to be added as a checklist item. A Daily cannot have more than 3 £ markers, and every time I want to remove a marker, I have to pay the same penalty as before. This makes me delay the Daily (and pay a penalty) instead of really skipping it, and if a Daily has 3 markets then I know that I really have to spend special focused time on it! I also added a -£ option, for when I do twice as much of that Daily than I should on that day. This helps me to keep doing my daily goals around the time that they need to be done, instead of EXACTLY at the time they need to be done. It brings more flexibility to the daily routines, and helps me to not avoid them, because I delay them instead of skipping them. It also makes me be focused on several Pomodori for a specific task instead of a single one per day.

I'm now (30/04/2019, updating and revising this text) on my 3rd Adventure, at level 103. I'll make a better resume of this 3rd Adventure In the beginning of next month.

P.S.: I just now realized that I haven't published the Report of my second adventure yet! So that's why I was delaying this Habitversary update… Oh well, I have to deal with it next month too. More to come!!

[princeyitz]

[ loner | family oriented | lazy ]

GET TO KNOW ME TAG why r there so many questions </3

@viiavi​ tagged me(and mayb someone else??? i dont know tumblr notifs are awful)

uhhhmmm i tag @ratboysims​ @felicitum​ @bullsim​ @keysims​ @bratsims​ and uhhmmmmm any1 else that wants to do it just say i tag u

also here’s a bad edit of my simselfs outfit its cute and basically what i wear everyday gotta wear those nikes get some good ass arch support u feel me

1. WHAT IS YOUR FULL NAME? byrd

2. WHAT IS YOUR NICKNAME? byrdie, b

3. BIRTHDAY? june 3rd babey

4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE BOOK SERIES? harry potter

5. DO YOU BELIEVE IN ALIENS OR GHOSTS? ye s

6. WHO IS YOUR FAVORITE AUTHOR? i dont think i have one. picking faves for literature has always been hard for me

7. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE RADIO STATION? i listen 2 podcasts

8. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE FLAVOR OF ANYTHING? ummm dark chocolate or mango

9. WHAT WORD WOULD YOU USE OFTEN TO DESCRIBE SOMETHING GREAT OR WONDERFUL? awesome

10. WHAT IS YOUR CURRENT FAVORITE SONG? thank you next look its a good song ok

11. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE WORD? ridiculous but how my mom says it like a harry potter spell

12. WHAT WAS THE LAST SONG YOU LISTENED TO? ummmm something by halsey i think

13. WHAT TV SHOW WOULD YOU RECOMMEND FOR EVERYBODY TO WATCH? im binge watching greys anatomy so that i guess but also my fave show of all time stargate

14. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE MOVIE TO WATCH WHEN YOU’RE FEELING DOWN? moana

15. DO YOU PLAY VIDEO GAMES? yea

16. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR? failure

17. WHAT IS YOUR BEST QUALITY, IN YOUR OPINION? i give good cuddles

18. WHAT IS YOUR WORST QUALITY, IN YOUR OPINION? i have no patience and i worry too much

19. DO YOU LIKE CATS OR DOGS BETTER? yes(dogs)

20. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SEASON? fall

21. ARE YOU IN A RELATIONSHIP? yes! we’re getting married next october :-)

22. WHAT IS SOMETHING YOU MISS FROM YOUR CHILDHOOD? no responsibilities!!! no bills!!!! also my moms cooking

23. WHO IS YOUR BEST FRIEND? her name is lauren but also my fiance and my dog

24. WHAT IS YOUR EYE COLOR? dark green

25. WHAT IS YOUR HAIR COLOR? brown

26. WHO IS SOMEONE YOU LOVE? my fam, my fiance, my dogs, my close friends

27. WHO IS SOMEONE YOU TRUST? my fiance 100%

28. WHO IS SOMEONE YOU THINK ABOUT OFTEN? my parents i worry about their health and also my sister bc she’s in a new relationship

29. ARE YOU CURRENTLY EXCITED ABOUT/FOR SOMETHING? my sisters dog just had puppies so im excited to see them

30. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST OBSESSION? hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm rn sims

31. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE TV SHOW AS A CHILD? probably rugrats and also x files

32. WHO OF THE OPPOSITE GENDER CAN YOU TELL ANYTHING TO, IF ANYONE? my dad

33. ARE YOU SUPERSTITIOUS? hell yes big time

34. DO YOU HAVE ANY UNUSUAL PHOBIAS? well i still cant drive so like. driving i guess

35. DO YOU PREFER TO BE IN FRONT OF THE CAMERA OR BEHIND IT?uhhh behind i hate when others take pics of me lol

36. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE HOBBY? writing and simblr i guess

37. WHAT WAS THE LAST BOOK YOU READ? actually i think it was the adventure zone graphic novel does that count

38. WHAT WAS THE LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED? the crimes of grindelwald

39. WHAT MUSICAL INSTRUMENTS DO YOU PLAY, IF ANY? i can sing

40. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ANIMAL? owls

41. WHAT ARE YOUR TOP 5 FAVORITE TUMBLR BLOGS THAT YOU FOLLOW? i feel like im on the spot ummmmm @felicitum @keysims @smart--milk @surreysimmer @hesitantpixels

42. WHAT SUPERPOWER DO YOU WISH YOU HAD? u ever seen heroes? remember how peter was like a sponge well i wish i could do that but with like, normal knowledge/skills. like if i met someone who was a carpenter or dr i could shake their hand and i knew everything they did about that and could learn new languages that way too. i wanna b a sponge

43. WHEN AND WHERE DO YOU FEEL MOST AT PEACE? in my bed w my fiance and dogs in a cuddle pile

44. WHAT MAKES YOU SMILE? when we ask blu if she’s a sleepy baby and she tilts her head

45. WHAT SPORTS DO YOU PLAY, IF ANY? none bitch

46. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE DRINK? water all day every day im a camel hi

47. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU WROTE A HAND-WRITTEN LETTER OR NOTE TO SOMEBODY? uhhh probably recently at work

48. ARE YOU AFRAID OF HEIGHTS? as i get older yes

49. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST PET PEEVE? when people talk down to me because of my identity or age

50. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN TO A CONCERT? yea!! the last one we went to was p!nk im pretty sure

51. ARE YOU VEGAN/VEGETARIAN? no

52. WHEN YOU WERE LITTLE, WHAT DID YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GREW UP? a cardiologist

53. WHAT FICTIONAL WORLD WOULD YOU LIKE TO LIVE IN? hmmmmmmmm probs harry potter tbh

54. WHAT IS SOMETHING YOU WORRY ABOUT? money!!!!

55. ARE YOU SCARED OF THE DARK? yes and no

56. DO YOU LIKE TO SING? yup!!! i dont sing as often as i used to tho its sad

57. HAVE YOU EVER SKIPPED SCHOOL? no

58. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE PLACE ON THE PLANET? i really love big bear and catalina island

59. WHERE WOULD YOU LIKE TO LIVE? doesnt really matter as long as its not a big city and relatively close to family

60. DO YOU HAVE ANY PETS? we have 2 doggos

61. ARE YOU MORE OF AN EARLY BIRD OR A NIGHT OWL? tbh i am a mix of both now, tho i used to be a night owl

62. DO YOU LIKE SUNRISES OR SUNSETS BETTER? sunset

63. DO YOU KNOW HOW TO DRIVE? no :-)

64. DO YOU PREFER EARBUDS OR HEADPHONES? earbuds sometimes headphones hurt my ears esp bc i always wear glasses

65. HAVE YOU EVER HAD BRACES? yes and im getting war flashbacks

66. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE GENRE OF MUSIC? pretty much anything besides hardcore rap, country, and religious music, also nothing too poppy

67. WHO IS YOUR HERO? probs my mama

68. DO YOU READ COMIC BOOKS? ye

69. WHAT MAKES YOU THE MOST ANGRY? when they only brew decaf at work

70. DO YOU PREFER TO READ ON AN ELECTRONIC DEVICE OR WITH A REAL BOOK? both

71. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SUBJECT IN SCHOOL? i really loved english

72. DO YOU HAVE ANY SIBLINGS? i have two brothers and two sisters

73. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU BOUGHT? flowers for my mother in law

74. HOW TALL ARE YOU? 5′7″

75. CAN YOU COOK? yes

76. WHAT ARE THREE THINGS THAT YOU LOVE? coffee, purple flowers, the lil potbellies that all puppies have

77. WHAT ARE THREE THINGS THAT YOU HATE? decaf coffee, peas, when people say my name wrong

78. DO YOU HAVE MORE FEMALE FRIENDS OR MORE MALE FRIENDS? uhhh i guess just bc thats who im around more

79. WHAT IS YOUR SEXUAL ORIENTATION? gay af my dudes

80. WHERE DO YOU CURRENTLY LIVE? i live in southern california

81. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TEXTED? my mom i think

82. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED? a while ago 

83. WHO IS YOUR FAVORITE YOUTUBER? garrett watts is fun

84. DO YOU LIKE TO TAKE SELFIES? sure

85. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE APP? digit it saves me money

86. WHAT IS YOUR RELATIONSHIP WITH YOUR PARENT(S) LIKE? im super close with my parents and relatively close w my fiances parents as well

87. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE FOREIGN ACCENT? hmmm probs middle eastern

88. WHAT IS A PLACE THAT YOU’VE NEVER BEEN TO, BUT YOU WANT TO VISIT? seattle

89. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE NUMBER? 3

90. CAN YOU JUGGLE? lmao no

91. ARE YOU RELIGIOUS? not really

92. DO YOU FIND OUTER SPACE OR THE DEEP OCEAN TO BE MORE INTERESTING? both but i tend to lean more towards the ocean

93. DO YOU CONSIDER YOURSELF TO BE A DAREDEVIL? not at all im a chicken

94. ARE YOU ALLERGIC TO ANYTHING? nope

95. CAN YOU CURL YOUR TONGUE? y...es

96. CAN YOU WIGGLE YOUR EARS? n o?

97. HOW OFTEN DO YOU ADMIT THAT YOU WERE WRONG ABOUT SOMETHING? when i am wrong lol i dont care too much about being right

98. DO YOU PREFER THE FOREST OR THE BEACH? forest 100%

99. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE PIECE OF ADVICE THAT ANYONE HAS EVER GIVEN YOU? trust your instincts

100. ARE YOU A GOOD LIAR? yes

101. WHAT IS YOUR HOGWARTS HOUSE? hufflepuff

102. DO YOU TALK TO YOURSELF? sometimes

103. ARE YOU AN INTROVERT OR AN EXTROVERT? v big introvert

104. DO YOU KEEP A JOURNAL/DIARY? no

105. DO YOU BELIEVE IN SECOND CHANCES? kind of

106. IF YOU FOUND A WALLET FULL OF MONEY ON THE GROUND, WHAT WOULD YOU DO? pick it up and return it to its owner

107. DO YOU BELIEVE THAT PEOPLE ARE CAPABLE OF CHANGE? yes but they have to believe in it too

108. ARE YOU TICKLISH? yes but u cant tell nobody knows ok thanks

109. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN ON A PLANE? yeah they’re cool

110. DO YOU HAVE ANY PIERCINGS? my ears and my septum

111. WHAT FICTIONAL CHARACTER DO YOU WISH WAS REAL? sam carter from stargate shes smart

112. DO YOU HAVE ANY TATTOOS? yeah i have 10 i think

113. WHAT IS THE BEST DECISION THAT YOU’VE MADE IN YOUR LIFE SO FAR? opening up to people

114. DO YOU BELIEVE IN KARMA? 110% yes

115. DO YOU WEAR GLASSES OR CONTACTS? glasses

116. DO YOU WANT CHILDREN? yeah i want 5 but i dont think i can afford that many someone start a gofundme for my future babeys

117. WHO IS THE SMARTEST PERSON YOU KNOW? my best friend

118. WHAT IS YOUR MOST EMBARRASSING MEMORY? i told my middle school crush that i liked her and then she told everyone and thats the story of how i repressed me sexuality until i was 20

119. HAVE YOU EVER PULLED AN ALL-NIGHTER? many times

120. WHAT COLOR ARE MOST OF YOU CLOTHES? black

121. DO YOU LIKE ADVENTURES? yes but carefully planned and well thought out adventures where i have a checklist and a binder of all the information i need listen i am v anxious everything is scary

122. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN ON TV? when i was a baby i was on the news lmao

123. HOW OLD ARE YOU? 25

124. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE QUOTE? to thine own self be true wow super lame and cliche thanks im tired is this done yet

125. DO YOU PREFER SWEET OR SAVORY FOODS? savory i dont have much of a sweet tooth

[purge-that-urge-rhackathon]

Heya purge! I saw in one of your tags that you’d been consuming fic for around 20 years! That’s like my whole life. Mind telling us how things have changed? I’m sure places like ao3 have changed things a lot. I’m just really curious in fandom and fanfic culture! :3 x

Ao3 is a fucking godsend let me tell you. I won’t make a lot of the same points and stuff that fannish history folks have already documented (how it literally changed, and all the fic we’ve lost that isn’t backed up on floppy disk somewhere… I’d say we’ve lost an equivalent to the digital burning of alexandria honestly) but i can tell you my experience :3

I’ll stick it under a cut cuz i kind of rambled… but i had fun doing so ahahha xD sorry you unleashed the tiger from the cage xD

We all make jokes about ‘being there’ when stuff in fandom history happened, but i’ve been around since all the major purges (LOL my name is so fitting in retrospect ahahha). ff.net’s various purges (and the whole anne rice suing fanfic writers and shit… i never DID agree to their new terms of service haha), geocities sites going down, obviously the more recent shit too, but like I’ve been around even for the creations of certain, older fanfic sites too (one of the oldest slash forums for lord of the rings fics for example… I was there, Gandalf LOLOL!!… and now that i check the date on that i feel old as balls thanks anon xDDD and wow my one fic is still up there PFFFFT) but like, I come from an era where you took your floppy disk and copy/pasted shit from online (once it even loaded) for later reading, and also so you could find it again, because also before ff.net it was hard to find stuff. I’m pre-google ya’ll xD You dont UNDERSTAND the horrors of trying to find anything pre-google. Ya’ll have it so fucking good D:

There was never an abundance of content like there is today, and so you can bet your shit we were grateful as fuck for what was out there, let alone for someone with a decent command of writing and storytelling. Everyone commented on everything (once that was something even implemented… it was email lists before that, and comments sent in that way… i still have my e-mailed comments from fic readers haha), and it was (and still is, in my honest opinion because people entitled as FUCK now) one of the GREATEST faux paus you could do to be reading a fic (esp. multi-chaptered) and not comment. The indignity of not giving back a little (and it still is a little, which is why i get so damn fired up on this subject) for aaaaaaaall the words and story and everything you just read was a serious sin against fanfic writers. I still think its seriously fucked up not to comment (and again, i’ve mentioned that if you dont got the spoons, thats obviously different) but like, the entitlement that runs rampant today did not even exist back then. Yeah, you still had the assholes whose comment would literally consist only of “where’s the rest?” with ZERO actual thanks or input while expecting/thinking they deserve more (and THEN you could remove chapters or stories, cuz god giveth and damn does she taketh away xD), but it wasn’t nearly as prolific as it is today.

The commenting culture today and the backlash against writers wanting comments on their work in return for providing said free content makes me mad enough to wanna curb stomp some people. I’m a bartender, I don’t put up with shit HAHA xD But the entitlement especially now and people who act like writers are being uppity for wanting a small return on their craft are disgusting. Same type of entitlement as art thieves (we all know the type). We didn’t put up with that shit back then. People acting like little bitches wanting free stuff for literally nothing? We’d pull the whole fic. And the community would handle it and it usually turned into a teaching moment about how damn important it is to comment and just how much freaking control writers DO have over their media. We’d pull it from public view unless amends were made (whether that be a private note from someone entitled finally paying their fucking due with proper humility, or reaching a comment count when you had hundreds of people reading but not commenting). Damn i miss taking away fic xD We played hardball back then xD

That was the fucking worst and people were rightfully denied access to fic if hits didn’t coincide with comments. You could publish a chapter and then decide to remove it from view (either for editing, or hostage taking for comments…. which i miss dearly AHAHAH it forced people to learn to be proper commenters and interact with those whose media they were consuming). It’s a big part of what I miss because just like a proper community, people kept each other in check and made sure everyone played nice. You enjoyed a fic? You sure as hell let that writer know. Now though…. the entitlement drives me up the fucking absolute walls and makes me wanna put stuff behind a paywall sometimes…. everyone is lucky im lazy as shit tho AHAHAH and im usually fine after venting xD

But yeah, fanfic culture in general has shifted in a major way to constantly consume and NEVER give back, either in comments, or creating new content yourself to also add to the community (for example as i’m sure we’re all aware, like ALL the people who bitch about certain ships or ‘why ship this when you can ship THIS?’…. Like, instead of bitching that ‘WAH WAH this author doesnt WRITE the ship I LIKE why can’t they write THAT??’ people came up with the radical idea of CREATING the content they wanted to see :| And if weren’t that good of a writer/artist to do so? Well then you SUPPORTED the writers/artists you enjoyed by leaving comments on their shit OR getting a commission… Goddamn i remember when even ‘commissioning’ people was a wild concept… Ya’ll dont know ahahah xD

I do believe that this is a huge source of where Anti-shipper behavior has stemmed from; entitlement gone berserk. And public schools and shit are still largely full of my parents’ generation who were not computer-literate either in function or courtesy, so even as internet social skills are not being taught correctly (or safety; they scared the SHIT out of us back in the day and now everyone has all their shit and pictures online haha) so there’s also a huge disconnect socially which i think has impacted online fandom spaces and what is considered acceptable or not. People also turn into fucking swine when they think they’re anonymous online (and boy do they change their tune fucking quickly when you out them) and i think the whole anonymity thing is also a factor of this whole entitlement issue in fandom spaces; making demands without giving ANYTHING back. Like I’ve mentioned in the past, I don’t put up with that shit, and it’s not a coincidence I was going to work for the CIA after I just left Japan about 3yrs back (thank fuck I didn’t cuz FUUUUCK this administration) cuz people are dumb as shit and basic tracking skills to call someone out on their bullshit has been my bread and butter since i was like 12 haha. You act dishonest and entitled, and it’s gonna come back to you in some shape or form. You’re going to reap what you sow. That was the motto back then and I still believe in it today.

Hell, it has shocked the FUCK out of me the few times i’ve had people tell me ‘omg me and my friend were talking about your latest update!’ and i’m just like O_O????? because also back in the day, ‘fanfiction’ was kind of a taboo word. You never said you were into fanfic in mixed company. You more or less NEVER discussed it publicly (I’m not even talking dirty stuff, just normal, sfw fanfiction) because it primarily existed only online (for me; i’m post-fan magazines but pre-internet fanfic sites LOLOL). Hell, I got my college english professor into fanfiction. She didn’t even know what it was, let alone that something like that existed, and I had to explain it to her my first year of college kind of with a red face xD She was a writing-professor too so like, let that date the culture a bit. Like, if that was literally her major field of expertise and she didn’t know about it, that should tell you how not-mainstream fanfic was.

I’m kind of out of touch with that myself. Do kids (ya’ll are kids to me okay? xD) mention fanfiction as a reading/entertainment medium in normal conversation? Like, you could mention, without getting weird looks, ‘oh i enjoy reading fanfiction’ or (and i’m like internally gasping at the idea here) being able to say ‘yeah i enjoy writing fanfiction’? Is that a thing? I sure as hell don’t tell my peers that I write fanfic, let alone that i’m approaching 1million words for borderlands stuff alone AHAHAH It’s STILL taboo and seen as a lesser writing medium to folks my age. If you weren’t in a ‘geek’ circle (and i mean, i had friends who played D&D at lunch, and one friend who we mentioned fanfic together with) then culturally, as an art form, it wasn’t acceptable to discuss. Like, i’m STILL in that mindset that fanfic is not something to be discussed off the internet with people and it makes me very very uncomfortable to do so unless i know 100% I can speak discretely with someone. That’s what the offline culture was. I know its way different in some respects, like me and my youngest sister are 10yrs apart and her experiences with fandom are wildly different, but the idea of people actually talking about someone’s fic together with friends absolutely blows my fucking mind.

So, it’s changed in good ways too xD I just fucking HATE people who think they’re entitled to never comment or give back to the community sooooo i tend to get stuck on that issue, ESPECIALLY, again, as a writer approaching 1million words. *salute* doing my duty to the fandom community LOLOL or polluting the fandom community if you’re an anti AHAHAH antis can suck my entire ass and i’ll go on to put another million words of what they HATE into the world and they cant stop me ;3 spite is a fabulous motivator xD

The tools back then were a lot more crude, abilities and functionality was limited (but also better in some ways; moving fic to the ‘backroom’ so to speak), and even finding stuff was hard and relied on the hushed whispers of friends, but damn the community was better. So much better. So much more positive and accountability made people decent. So like, I do LOVE a lot of what we have now, but we have lost SO much. Both in terms of content and sense of community. I wish people would put more positivity into the content they’re consuming and lift up others. It’s why i try my damnedest to leave commenting tags on EVERY SINGLE THING i ever reblog here, because i *know* firsthand how much it means. To scream your art into the silence and only get the equivalent of stares back is maddening.

So yeah. Stuff has changed. Capitalism and censorship are running especially rampant hand-in-hand right now, and lord forbid we come full circle where there are no more places for us. I mean, if we have to go back to email lists, hell I’m already ready and an old veteran to that system anyhow. I’d miss all the content we all have access to…. but then there’s also that 90% commenting rate you get with that kind of system so HEEEEEY let it all fall down! bahahah xD

[sttrawberries]

11 questions asked and answered (skam edition)

I was tagged by @capelli-di-merda, thank you!<3

1. Always repost the rules

2. Answer the questions given to you by the one who tagged you!

3. Give 11 questions

4. Tag 11 people

1. How did you find out about skam?

I remember that saw some posts about isak and even on twitter, I was curious about it but I didn’t do anything. A couple of months later I searched videos of them on youtube and ended up watching the whole show in two weeks (it was over airing by that time). Later on, I saw some people talking about the fact that there was going to be remakes of it and I wasn’t so sure about it I ended up watching all of them and now my life is 95% skam remakes

2. Which character (from the remakes) deserves its own season and why?

Daphne and Viri! I was so sure we will get daphne’s season but maybe, considering all of the thing they showed us, we will get it after arthur’s. And I’m definitely sure we will get at some point Viri’s season, they gave us way too many clues (but I have to admit I want Nora’s season first)

3. Some of your favorite songs that you discovered while watching skam?

A lot of them, but I’m going to check the playlists and write one of each remake, otherwise the post will get too long

They have no particular order whatsoever and they are not necessarily my first favourite from every remake

1.  human again by carl louis (feat. ary) -> skam og

2. last dance by scratch massive -> skam fr

3. jungle by tash sultana -> skam nl

4. getting older by anni b sweet  -> skam esp

5. ich will dass du mich brauchst by rin -> druck

6. self control by raf -> skam it

7. when i was older by billie eilish -> wtfock

8. no devotion by tender -> skam austin

4. Is there anything that you would like to change in any of the seasons?

I really want them to change the noora x yousef storyline in skam italia, I feel like they would waste all of the changes and progress they’ve made so far

5. Favorite version of Noora and why?

Eleonora oh what a surprise! It’s the one I feel most related to, I love all of the changes they made, I love how ele’s personality was portrayed, I love the fact that they choose to be her the one telling what happened to edoardo, I love the fact that they showed that she was the victim in that story and they didn’t made her apologise, I love every little small thing of it. Despite the fact that I think we could have got more content, I loved and I aprecciated the one's we've got

6. Favorite version of William and why?

Edoardo, I love every change they made in him, I loved that he apologised for thinking about what happened with her brother instead of how she was feeling , I loved how respectful he was, I loved when he asked her if she was ready, when he cleaned her room(?), I loved when he confessed so their friends won’t get in trouble, the fact that he went looking for her to apologise, I loved the fact that he listened to her and he didn’t interrupted her and he told her that he wouldn’t hurt her instead of the classic ‘’im here now so everything is better’, among other reasons i’m just too lazy to write

7. Top five moments from the og?

Again, they don’t have a particular order

1. noora’s panic attack scene

2. the clip where isak comes home and even is playing video games with linn

3. the party clip on eva’s birthday in s4 (also william’s comeback, but i love the part where everyone was having fun)

4. the morning clip in s1, after the girls came to eva’s house and they thought vilde was pregnant

5. william and noora’s slow-mo at s4

8. Which skam characters would you date in real life?

Probably Edoardo or Alexander, Isa or Mia

9. Would you want for the og to have more seasons?

Vilde, I’ve been curious about it after her POV clip in the last episode of s4

10. Your favorite character from the skam universe and why?

Eleonora, for the reasons I wrote before

11. Best girl and boy squad in the skam universe?

girl squad: skam nl, skam españa, wtfock

boy squad: druck, skam fr and skam it

My questions:

1.  To which character do you feel most related to?

2. Do you watch all of the remakes?

3. Did you see the og while it was airing?

4. Name 3 facts you like about every remake (or the ones you’ve seen)

5. Have you tried to convice some of your friends (or anyone) to watch skam? Did you succed?

6. How did you find about out skam?

7. First impression and what do you think about it after watching it? (it can be about any character, season or remake, you choose)

8. What did you think when you found out that there were going to make remakes of skam?

9. Favourite speech? 

10. Favourite version of every character from all of the remakes? (or pick three if you don't want to write much)

11. Favourite room from all of the one’s we’ve seen?

I tag: @air-bison-yip-yip @incantsava @ayellowcurtain @aelingalathyniux @contrabbandieri @ciaoragno @joondlxnx  @nori-sava @incantieleonora @edonori @walkingandpanicing

(do it if you want to! even if you haven’t been tagged)

[savory-n-sweet]

Why?

YEET this is the race angst i was talking about the other day

also special lil thanks to @timesarehardfornewsies and @newsboystrike for hyping my ass up

Pairing: Racetrack Higgins x Reader

Warnings: divorce, arguing, swearing

Word Count: 1.3K

Modern Era

Edited | Not Edited | Skimmed

Lowercase intended (i wrote all of this on my phone and im too lazy to fix it)

enjoy !!!

you had always been afraid of dating. the thought of letting someone into your life, letting someone know everything about yourself, scared the absolute shit out of you. every since your parents separated, at least. they were supposed to be in love, but your mother cheated on him. they had a child together, and she was still unfaithful to him. she cheated because he didn’t satisfy her in bed.

but here you were, in the apartment you shared with the boy you loved. he was working late like he has been, every night, for weeks. he hasn’t been coming home until around one in the morning. you were worried until he came home smelling of another woman one night. you refused to believe it, so you stayed.

you were on your couch, reading a book. it wasn’t unusual for you to stay up late, but it wasn’t your favorite thing. you were tired, barely able to keep your eyes open. you needed to speak to race more than you needed sleep, though. you just wanted to talk to him, to set things straight.

he came into the apartment. he was sober as can be. he was very smiley. his blazer was thrown over his shoulder and his white dress shirt was untucked. his curly hair was messier than usual.

“where were you?” you asked, returning your focus from him to your book. your glasses were slowly slipping off your nose but you really didn’t care.

“working late,” he replied, his smile falling as he locked the metal door.

“until,” you glanced at the cable box across the room. “one o’clock in the morning?”

“yeah, new clients,” he threw his blazer on the kitchen chair next to him. then he undid the already loose tie, tugging it over his head and throwing it on top of the jacket.

“really?” you looked up at him, meeting his gaze. you took your glasses off and closed your book. “they’re really calling at one in the fucking morning? where were you?” you raised your voice a little bit.

“can we talk about this in the morning? god,” he muttered, unbuttoning his white shirt.

“no, anthony! you’ve been coming home late for weeks! what’re you doing out there?” you slammed the paperback book on the coffee table, making the lamp shake.

“would you relax? you're so controlling!” he shot back at you. you raised your eyebrows at him in disbelief.

“controlling? i just want to know where you are, if you’re okay!” you got off the couch and crossed the room to stand in front of him. “i’m sorry, hi i’m (y/n) and i worry about everyone, especially my boyfriend. nice to fucking meet you,” you grabbed his hand and shook firmly shook it. he retracted it, sighing. “where were you?”

“at the bar!” he shouted at you. you were taken aback, but that’s when you noticed a dark spot on his neck. you didn’t need to move his shirt collar to see it. it was there, clear as day on his pale skin. a million thoughts ran through your head, most being questions you didn’t want answers to.

“how many girls?” was the one you brought yourself to ask.

“just one,” he mumbled, barely audible.

instead of speaking, you went the kitchen sink. you took a plastic cup from the cupboard and ran it under the sink. you brought the plastic to your lips slowly, almost too nauseated to even drink water.

“who was she?” you softly spoke, placing the cup on the counter beside you. race walked over to you, blocking your view of the window across the room you were focusing on.

“does it matter? it’s over and it won’t happen again,” he took your hands in his. you avoided eye contact, knowing that if you looked at him, you’d break down.

“yes it does! who was she?” you looked at his shoes, then his pants, then finally his blue eyes. you tried your hardest to suppress any emotion that bubbled up.

“i can’t tell you,” his voice was small and gentile. you took your hands from his, grabbing the cup. you only made it to the table before slamming it down.

“why not?” you finally yelled at him. he flinched, surprised at your outburst. “because you’re too scared to hurt me? i’m already fucking hurt, anthony! i feel like i’m going to fucking vomit! who the hell was she!” your tears burned your cheeks. your whole body and voice were shaking with every uneven breath you took.

“no, i don’t want you to hurt her,” he leaned against the counter. you furrowed your eyebrows, racking your brain for who she could’ve been. everyone knew you were dating race. no one wanted to hurt you like this, at least to your knowledge. then it hit you.

“you cheated on me with casey?” you shouted at him. your neighbors were most likely awake and listening to the fight.

casey was your best friend up until recently. you had trusted her with your life. she was with you when your dad finally decided to leave. she knew everything about you. one day, she just changed into a different person. she stopped talking to you for no reason, then blocked your number and on social media platforms. she still followed your friends, which is how you assumed she knew race and you were together.

“she came onto me! i know it doesn’t excuse what i did, but it didn’t mean a thing to me, i swear,” he looked at you with sad eyes.

“anthony, you made a conscious decision to have sex with someone else. you fucking knew i wouldn’t have been able to handle that, but yet you did it anyway!” you laughed through the tears. your voice was forced and hoarse.

you moved from the kitchen to the window. you rested your hands on the cold windowsill, taking deep breaths. race exhaled loudly in the kitchen. he was pacing, probably running his fingers through his hair then dragging them down his face.

“why?” you spoke softly while looking at your hands.

“i don’t know,” he replied just as soft. that made you only made you angrier.

“you’re telling that you put yourself inside of another woman, just because?” you finally turned to look at him. you could feel your face and ears heating up. when race didn’t respond, your heart broke even more.

you walked to your shared bedroom, pulling a suitcase from your closet. you tossed it on the bed before roughly opening your dresser drawer.

“what’re you doing?” his voice was soft, almost a whisper. you could feel him watching you from the doorway.

“i’m leaving,” you said.

you managed to get a few articles of clothing into the suitcase before he came up behind you and put a hand on your shoulder. the contact made you instantly start crying. the whole time, you thought you were dreaming or something. the contact brought you back to reality.

“please don’t,” his voice was even softer than before.

“i have to. i will not let you cheat on me repeatedly. i will not look like a fucking idiot because i was too fucking blind to see it,” you spat. you closed the case, locking it. you put it on the floor before walking out of the bedroom.

“i’m nothing without you.”

those words made you stop dead in your tracks. “don’t say that to me. you don’t get to say that. go be with casey because i’m obviously not good enough for you! if i was good enough, you wouldn’t have cheated in the first place!”

“we were drunk, (y/n)!” he shouted. “we had a little too much to drink and then she threw herself at me!”

“really? were you drunk tonight? you don’t look it, or smell it,” you laughed again. “tony, you cheated on me. i don’t care if it was just one time, you still did it. i can’t let that slide, i’m sorry.”

“please,” he choked out as you unlocked the door.

“no, i’m sorry,” you opened the door.

“i thought you loved me.”

“i do, you just don’t love me.”

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[holland-ish]

That Sounds Weird  [ T. Holland ]

Request: rip im too late for the 10 requests but I did requests awhile back when your requests were open an imagine where tom x reader during a lazy sunday and reader has tumblr acc and they spent the day reading tom fics and was wondering if you remember that or? love your acc xx :)

Word Count: 824

Warnings: I didn’t do a very good job writing this, language

A/N: For reasons unknown, I found myself struggling to write this? Idk, just not very happy with how my writing turned out in this one. The idea was really cute though and so I still wanted to post it! Also, I kinda took the piss out of myself in this asdfghjkl

Masterlist

“There’s nothing on my blog that’ll be interesting to you, Tom,” you chuckled, scrolling through your dashboard and stopping to reblog a photo of a small coffee shop with a cute looking garden just outside it.

“Untrue,” Tom murmured into your hair, his chin resting atop of your head. Your ear was pressed against his chest, the sound of his steady heartbeat helping to relax your mind and muscles. “Everything you do is interesting to me.”

“How about we do something else instead?” Your blog didn’t necessarily consist of anything you didn’t want him to see. It just wasn’t something you had wanted to share, for no other reason than the fact that it was personal.

“Fine,” Tom rolled his eyes, smiling and placing a small kiss on your forehead. “I have an idea.”

“Mm, what is it?”

Tom pulled the laptop from your lap so that it was situated between the two of you, half on his thigh and half on yours. He typed his name into the search bar, grinning as he hit the enter button and waited the few seconds for the page to load. You chuckled, leaning into him and resting your head on his shoulder.

“Is that a-”

Before he could even finish his sentence, you nodded with a grin. “It’s written by, uhm, her url says Holland-ish.”

“Do you think we should read it?” Tom raised an eyebrow in question, hovering the cursor over the ‘keep reading’ option.

“Sure,” you shrugged, playing it off nonchalantly. In all honesty, you were pretty curious. Nowhere near as curious as Tom was, of course, but you were still very curious.

Tom snickered when he clicked on it. The two of you had already read the title and short (and very vague) summary so you did have an idea about what it was that you were going to read.

“This is stupid.”

“Shut up, Y/N,” Tom snickered. “We haven’t even started reading it.”

“There’s a fucking-”

“Watch your bloody mouth, love.”

You shook your head at Tom, smiling at him before reverting your eyes back to the screen. “Are you going to read it out loud or am I?”

“I want you to read it,” Tom mumbled. “I like hearing you read. Your voice sounds nice.”

“Alright then,” you replied, nodding your head and taking a sip of water from the bottle that was sitting on the table beside the bed.

“Thanks,” he said, letting his head fall to rest on your shoulder. His soft curls tickled your skin but you didn’t seem to care at all.

“There was a comfortable silence that filled the air in the small coffee shop that was sitting empty at the corner of the street. It wasn’t uncomfortable thanks to the patter of rain hitting the roof and the gravel outside-”

“That sounds weird,” Tom muttered, his voice muffled in your neck. “I’m no expert but the way she used the word ‘comfortable’ and then ‘uncomfortable’ sounded weird.”

You shrugged your shoulders once more, giggling as Tom grumbled when the action moved his head in an awkward way. “Should I carry on?”

“Yeah, sorry,” Tom said. “I was just saying.”

And so you did carry on. Tom’s lips were curved into a smile as he let his eyes fall shut, the sound of your voice a soothing break from other noise. The two of you giggled here and there, stopping yourself short of sentences for a kiss when Tom really needed.

Soon enough, you were over halfway through the little story. “I just didn’t think it was fair for a pretty girl like you to be sitting here alone,” you read.

“I would never say that,” Tom scoffed, holding back the urge to let out an ugly laugh. “That’s horrible. I wouldn’t say that, ever.”

“I don’t know,” you teased. “I think you may have said it before, even.”

“Lies.”

You didn’t say anything in return, laughing and returning to reading. It was finished rather quickly and you let out a sigh once you could finally stop reading. You clicked back to the search results, deciding to read another one with Tom.

But before you did that, the two of you took a minute to scroll through and admire the other posts that were tagged with his names. Tom smiled at the text posts and laughed at the jokes, grinned at the photos and complimented the moodboards and edits. Another half an hour had passed by quickly and you found yourself reading aloud once more. This was written by someone different and Tom smiled as he listened to it.

“This one is much better!” Tom laughed, tightening his grip around your waist and pulling you closer to him. “I like this. We should do it more often.”

[artiowyvern]

Tagged an eternity ago by @nyxielchildofthemoon and @yukikinomiya x) 

Rules: Answer the questions you’re given, write 11 of your own, and tag 11 people. 

Questions by @nyxielchildofthemoon

1. What is the one thing you have always wanted to do? Dyeing my hairs 

2. If you could have any appendages what would it be? Wings would be great ~ 

3. Favorite YouTuber and why? Hum... I have three xD all french tho x) DirtyBiology, it’s a very well made science channel with interesting subject, a great editing and an overall really good quality. Le Fossoyeur de Films, talking about movies and genre cinema in particular with fiction at some point, very cool, well made with interesant point of views. Karrim Debache, talking about movies too with his team, kind of hard to explain everything but again editing, fiction, quality on top, interesting point of view as well and omg so funny !

4. If you could change your name what would you change it to? Like real name ? Artion lel :)

5. If you could have any book character come to life, who would you pick and why? Any ? The Copper/RuGaard from Age of Fire because 1/ I want a dragon friend lol 2/ He deserve better

6. Would you be friends with your oc (if you have one)? Sure !

7. What would be the theme song of your life at this moment in time? Hum... not sure sorry

8. Child of the sun or child of the moon or child of the stars? I would say Sun but I have a bit from the moon too 

9. Stuff animals? Yes or Nah. Yes ;3

10. Favorite Flowers and why? Snowdrops/Galanthus, isn’t that amaizing such a small flower can make its way trought the snow to blossom ? 

11. Favorite crystal if you have one? Just being the geology student I am there x) I like fluorine 

Questions by @yukikinomiya

1. How do you overcome a bad monday? Good question lol

2. What’s your favourite place at home and why? My room, the feel-safe-place :) Everything in it is part of me in some way lol

3. Tea or Coffee? Hot chocolate ;)

4. What would be your ideal vacation? Hum... Going to visit Japan with closests friends, visiting monument and popular places, meet people... ~~

5. How do you start your day? Blood sugar check xD

6. Three songs to describe your life so far? Not sure again lol 

7. If you would have found your dream job, what would it be and where? Paleontologist ad anywhere is fine lol, since it’s a researcher job you move a lot and meet a lot of people outisde the pure researching job so yeah anywhere is fine ;). 

8. Ebook or Book and why? Book, paper feel good :) Books have stories, not only the ones written in them ;)

9. If you could live in a fictional world, which one would you choose and why? Hum... Any sf universe where you can explore the space and meet other spicies, it would be so interesting ! Or a fantasy cause I want my dragon friend lol

10. Star Wars or Star Trek? Star Wars but I don’t know Star Trek so much (just saw the newest movies) 

11. What would you do on a day off? lie down on bed and spend the day on YT x)

Sorry I won’t tag anyone or make question bcs Im lazy but I have a great time answering thoses <3

[wildchildfreecs]

Me and some friends came up with a Really Awful (GREAT) au, where things hurt and Gon turns dark side. I’m posting the partially edited chat log instead of summarizing ‘cause I’m lazy af, but this will be added to my Verse’s list. I just have to think of a tag

If you’re interested in RPing something from this sorta AU, please hit me up, I’d absolutely love to.

gabriel the gondad - gon is the PERFECT example of someone who could have ended up REally, REAALLLY dark but didnt, out of sheer luck of his upbringing 

can -  yeah, and if he went to hisoka for training oh my gosh

Café con Leche -  ^^ OMG i'd love to read that

can - the poor boy would do a 180

gabriel the gondad -  c h r i s t please? ? ? henckin??? ohhh man fucknign please i LOVE hisoka corrupting gons morals i love gons morals being corrupted but i love hisoka doing it even more chefs kiss and Poor Killua watching his light turn black and ugly

Café con Leche - omg yes it would corrupt him so much cain what if he tries to kill Hisoka

can - and that would make killua go back to his family

gabriel the gondad -  O h h h h

can -  omg

gabriel the gondad -  oh this is good

can -  WHAT IF HE CORRUPTS GON SO MUCH THAT

Café con Leche -  OH MY GOS

can -  GON STANDS IN BETWEEN THEM TO PROTECT HISOKA

gabriel the gondad - DFDF

Café con Leche - WHAT IF

gabriel the gondad -  GUCK

Café con Leche -  YES BUT ALSO lISTEN what if Hisoka completely fucks killua up And Gon walks in and just looks at him

gabriel the gondad - and doesnt care

Café con Leche -  all bloody on the ground YES

can -  YESSS

gabriel the gondad -  "You did this to yourself, Killua."

Café con Leche -  And Killua weeps and reaches out for him

gabriel the gondad - and gon Leaves

can -  And then cue illumi like "see this is why i said assassins dont have friends"

Café con Leche -  Illumi saves him

gabriel the gondad -  C H RI ST

Café con Leche -  and Killua goes back home clad in darkness AND OMG WHAT IF FUCKING ALLUKA TRIES TO PERSUADE GON

gabriel the gondad -  C H R I S T ALLUKA NO oh o h n o what if killua makes a wish

Café con Leche -  OOOH oh my god what if his wish brings Gon back but gon realizes what he's done

gabriel the gondad -  gon still REmembers and he wont forgive himself

Café con Leche -  and he can bear to live with himself BUT he has to save killua

gabriel the gondad -  ooooooooo c hrist c h r i s t the Drama the Pain I Love It

Café con Leche -  and hisoka and illu just keeps trying to keep tem corrupted them* and gon sees killua again and killua is just ice cold, dead in the eyes

gabriel the gondad -  WHAT IF.... KILLUA.. yes Y E S

Café con Leche -  and gon knows its all his fault it's like kite all over again f uck

can -  and hisoka is like, "this is why you shouldn't put your faith in other people~ only live for yourself and your own pleasures"

Café con Leche -  Hisoka whispering in Gon's ear how it's all his fault and he should just accept it

gabriel the gondad - this is,, So Good im eating my own fist OK BUT LISTEN CONSIDER hisoka telling gon "this is your fault. this is why you should live for only yourself" and gon turns around and punches hisoka in the face with as much nen as he can muster and says "if i live for myself, I'm killing you first." bc hisokas the one. that did this to him

can -  hisoka would be LIVID And all hisoka has to say once Gon is dead is "Pity~ He wasn't nearly as ripe as I'd hoped. Such a waste."    

Café con Leche - Imagine if killua just watches Gon and Hisoka    slowly but surely once he sees Gon near death he's returning to some of his consciousness and he cant live without his light and Illumi fucking loses it

gabriel the gondad -  c h r i s t ohhh my god

Café con Leche -  illumi tries to kill hisoka gabriel the gondad - im Suffering ok but illumi would win b/c hisoka would already be injured from his fight w gon

can -  Hisoka would retreat after that he aint dumb

Café con Leche -  illumi would chase after him

gabriel the gondad -  illumi wouldnt fuckn Let Him

Café con Leche -  make it his life mission to kill him jesus this got dark

gabriel the gondad -  YOU DONT SAY

Café con Leche -  imagine Ging seeing his son so messed up

gabriel the gondad -  o h IMAGINE MITO

Café con Leche -  mito would blame ging it's his fault he wanted to be a hunter his fault he wasnt there for him

gabriel the gondad -  ffffffffuuuuuck ok but, where gon doesnt die he beats hisoka in his fight

can -  "Kill me, and you'll be just like me~"

gabriel the gondad -  and he takes killua with him, and they leave, and they go to ging, and gon says "please help me, i dont know what to do any more" gon doesnt kill him hes Very Particuar about that breaks both his legs, rips an arm off, whatever it takes but doesnt Kill him illumi can have that right, if he wants it

Boopi -  oh

gabriel the gondad -  HI BOOPI WEVE BEEN. PLOTTING

Boopi -  plotting about wut- e.e

gabriel the gondad -  plotting about corruption

Boopi -  corruption- i- see- exiTS

gabriel the gondad -  BOOPI NO COME B A C K

Boopi -  corruption and alluka can not be within the same conversatioN-

gabriel the gondad -  listen alluka is the one who fixes everything shes still pure and wholesome

Boopi -  okay so what i understand is gon is all dark and moody and killua is suffering more gon x hisoka new evil double duo illumi and killua bonding and alluka flies down from the heavens as an angel to fix everything and re-create killugon

gabriel the gondad - she tries to recreate killugon but you cant erase the past so its still all fucked up and moody

Boopi -  does trying make it w orse cause what a twist

gabriel the gondad -  i meannnn,,,, define worse

Boopi -  dang is this au that dark

gabriel the gondad -  :^)

Boopi -  if everyone is gonna be dark/angst/whatever this is i am perfectly okey with this sad/wise alluka ftw

gabriel the gondad -  if by worse you mean it hurts, because one of the possibilies is gon and killua die but also the possibilty they win the fight against hisoka and have to deal with the fallout of all their decisions and wrongdoings or would worse be they never speak again, and both continue along their paths of killing and being perfect imitations of hisoka and illumi

Boopi -  omg allu's stuck in-between

gabriel the gondad -  :^) i, personally, think that killua would make a wish to fix everything but nanikas power isnt omnipotent all she can do is get gon to realize where he fucked up and from there, its up to him to try and fix it (whether or not he can is a completely different story.)

Boopi -  okay so how would alluka act with everything's different? shouldn't she be affected by it too

gabriel the gondad -  THATS. ALSO SOMETHIN I WAS WORRIED ABOUT

can -  i mean

Boopi -  maybe not nanika, but allu

can -  she probably will lose her brother and get locked up again

Café con Leche -  AND KILLUA DOESNT CARE AAAAAAAAAAAAH

gabriel the gondad -  yeah, unless she escapes she'll prob get locked up again

Boopi -  if killua doesn't care then illumi is free to do whatever

gabriel the gondad -  id say its possible that,, killua does what he can to free her so he can still have one light in the world like, before he goes back to the family, he hides alluka away  

can -  if killua calls her something bad like

Boopi -  "it"

can -  "that thing isnt apart of the family"

Café con Leche -  Illumi: So Killua, what do we do with "it"? Killua: .. Do whatever u want jesus but yes i hear u gabe¨

Boopi -  can you even imagine a dark alluka

gabriel the gondad -  n o

Café con Leche -  ALLUKA

gabriel the gondad -  not my gentle sweet sunshine

can -  y es

gabriel the gondad -  n o N   O

Café con Leche -  gets corrupted cuz she loses HER light

can -  she will giggle when she kills ppl

Boopi -  just an alluka that's lost hope and enjoys the killing

Café con Leche -  omg omg boopi what if Alluka get's corrupted and starts killing because she wants to be useful to Killua

Boopi -  alluka or nanika? or both

Café con Leche -  both

Boopi -  bOTH

Café con Leche -  Alluka tells Nanika to kill people and then asks Killua to pat her head aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah

Boopi -  just imagine Alluka's holding [insert character name]'s head here "Killua... Pat my head and tell me I'm a good girl..." and she just creepily smiles while walking towards him with the head casually omg i srry

Café con Leche -  omg what if one day she's like "Killua... Want Gon to die?"

gabriel the gondad -  O H

Boopi -  cHILL wi dark alluka refers to herself like she's an object t h o

can -  O H M Y GOD

Café con Leche -  ......... oh my go d

can -  "I'm an object that you can use, big brother~"

gabriel the gondad -  this got a w f u l l y dark

Boopi -  "Do not worry over my feelings, big brother. I feel nothing. It feels nothing." geebus christ

Café con Leche -  imagine kurapika's roll in this

gabriel the gondad -  O H pika watching gon turn into the exact type of person he despises just like the troupe trained by an ex-troupe member killing for sport, just to get stronger, just to prove he can kill them

Café con Leche -  oMG

gabriel the gondad -  OH WHAT IF.... HISOKA..... TELLS.... GON.... TO... kill his old friends

Café con Leche -  kp is a maffia boss right.... What if Killua get's a mission to assassinate him..

Boopi -  nO not the friends pls

gabriel the gondad -  LSTIEN GON KILLING LEORIO

Boopi -  NU

can -  AAAAAAAA

Café con Leche -  yas

Boopi -  NOT THE OREO

gabriel the gondad - walks Right Up to leorio, nen out and boiling like it was with pitou and oreo, poor oreo, laughing, trying to understand whats wrong

Café con Leche -  Gabe gabe gabe even worse he crushes his hands, makes him unable to ever become a doctor

gabriel the gondad -  hmmm good angst, but also, i feel like, gons goal would be to Remove leorio as a tie

Café con Leche - Sasuke style

gabriel the gondad -  i never watched shippuden :0

Boopi - sasuke tried to sever all his old bonds i think

gabriel the gondad -  yeah basically that kill everyone who was important to you,  so they cant be used against you gon, punching a hole through leorios ribcage, becase he doesnt have killuas technique of ripping the heart out so he just obliterates it instead leorio dying and looking up at gon and saying "i forgive you”

Boopi - stop you're hurting me

gabriel the gondad -  leorio WOULD forgive him tho this got really out of hand, really fast

[natural--trash]

Tag thing, wanted to do it for some time but now im at my comp and stuff so uh yeah anyways

Rules: once you’ve been tagged you’re supposed to write a post with eighty-two truths and then tag twenty-five people

I was tagged by @fluffyliontae

Name: tsu (just call me that, or susu or smth yknow)

Blood type: A-

Nickname(s): susu, mym

R/s: single

Zodiac Sign: libra

Pronouns: eh whatever, on some days its he > she > they but it can also be a diff order so yeah seriously whatever floats your boat

Favorite TV Shows: W - Two Worlds (same), a Persona 5 anime could be one of them but there’s none

Long or short hair: long

Height: 162cm or so

Do you have a crush on someone: romantic none, aesthetic ones? squishes? hoo boy

What do you like about yourself: my eyes, that cute scar on my hand

Right or left handed: right

List of three favorite colors: too many, i mostly like colour combos, but light blue, black and #540003 i guess

RIGHT NOW

Eating: nothing, i had brownie ritter sport a bit earlier tho

Drinking: water

I’m about to: draw

Listening to: Believer - Imagine Dragons

Kids: 0

Get married: nah

Career: I want money

MOST RECENT

Drink: water

Phone call: i think my uncle??

Song you listened to: before Believer there’s Bonfire on my spotify playlist but rn its Queen by History

HAVE YOU EVER

Dated someone twice: nah

Been cheated on: thats a long story

Kissed someone and regretted it: dont think so

Lost someone special: hmm

Been depressed: yeah

Been drunk and thrown up: never drunk alcohol

Kissed a stranger: nope

Had glasses or contacts: yeah

Had sex on the first date: nope

Broken someone’s heart: not that im aware of it

Turned someone down: kinda??

Cried when someone died: yeah

Fallen for a friend: im aro, that doesnt work

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU

Made a new friend: yes

Fallen out of love: no

Laughed until you cried: yes

Met someone who changed you: mhhh dont think so?

Found out who your true friends were: kinda (I’m sorry that I’m always answering like this omg)

Found out someone was talking about you: cant remember

Kissed someone on your fb list: i dont use fb

WHICH IS BETTER

Lips or eyes: eyes

Hugs or kisses: hugs

Shorter or taller: taller

Romantic or spontaneous: platonic

Sensitive or loud: sensitive

Hookup or relationship: friendship

Troublemaker or hesitant: hesitant

FIRST

Best friend: have conatct with both or them but we’re not as close? although I still don’t mind lying/rolling around on his floor

Surgery: does removing my wisdom teeth count? (does it?)

Sport: swimming (I wish I hadn’t stopped)

Vacation: Turkey

DO YOU BELIEVE IN

Yourself: depends on the day (same)

Miracles: yeah

Love at first sight: i dont rly believe in romantic love, but other than that yeah has flashbacks to when x impulse bought a ps vita

Heaven: i want to

EXTRAS

How many people from your fb list do you know irl: i still dont use fb

Do you have any pets: i used to have a duck

Do you want to change your name: yeah kinda i’d prefer something gender neutral

What did you do for your last birthday: i played video games at home bc i have no friends

What time did you wake up today: idk, fell asleep again

What were you doing last night at midnight: internet

Something you can’t wait for: when i move out

Last time you saw your mom: some minutes ago

What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: how my brain is sometimes

Have you ever talked to a person named tom: yeah, had a classmate with that name

What’s getting on your nerves: loud noises in the morning, often ppl i dont consider as friends

instructions: You can tell a lot about a person by the type of music they listen to. Put your music on shuffle and list the first 10 songs, then tag 10 people. No skipping.

(should i do the whole thing?? ok lemme get my phone pls note that i havent gotten the p5 ost yet)

Obtained a Berry! - DP OST

actually there comes some more Nintendo OST

Awake -BTS

Young Forever (unplugged ver) - BTS

crow tit (jpn) - bts

Mein Block - Sido

We don’t talk anymore - Jungkook

a song i do not remember what it was

Faint - Linkin Park

La la La - naughty boy

i think its time to make a new playlist bc i dont listen to some pop songs anymore

so uh yeah the whole thing it is

5 things you’d find in my bag:

tissues, a shit ton

wallet

probably some paper

charger

phone

5 things you’d find in my bedroom:

desk

clothes

stuffed animals

bed

my computer

5 things i always wanted to do in life:

Travelmore

Get a job i love

Own a cat

Get a life I like

Have ppl I’m close with that are not far away

5 things i’m currently into:

video games

persona 5, fire emblem heroes (they deserve their own point)

kpop

art

ummm edgesthetic?

5 things on my to do list:

go to a BTS concert

get a part time job

learn Japanese and perhaps Korean and get better at French

visit all the countries I still want to go to

get better at drawing

5 things people may not know about me:

I would love to study video game development but I’m too scared of what’s after that plus there’s no way I’ll get accepted hahaha

i love min yoongi and his mixtape bc he idk he helped me think that maybe not everything in my life will be shitty later and that maybe I’ll be able to be happy one day

I’m currently in a more down phase

i have problems with my sense of reality

i have a cute scar on my hand

Top 10 BTS Songs Tag:

  House Of Cards (Full Length Edition)

  House Of Cards [OUTRO]

  Good Day

No order from here on

4. I NEED U (Japanese Ver.) 5. FOR YOU 6. 쩔어 (Dope) 7. 등골브레이커 (Spine breaker) 8. 24/7 = Heaven 9. Blood Sweat & Tears 10. Not Today

I have time

10 groups/artists you like besides Kpop/liked before Kpop:

nqrse ❤︎ ❤︎ ❤︎ ❤︎

Fall Out Boy

Panic! at the Disco

DAOKO ❤︎ ❤︎ ❤︎ ❤︎

Casper

Die Ärzte

I think that’s it

DAT ADAM

uhh I liked Abingdon Boys School at some point

idk the old Sido songs aint bad?

10 favorite non-kpop songs:

ダイスキ - DAOKO

BANG! - DAOKO

Das Grizzly Lied - Casper

パラサイト(Parasite) - nqrse feat.まふまふ,luz  

ECHO - まふまふ (mafumafu) feat.nqrse

p much any song sung by nqrse im sorry im trash hmu and ill link you some good stuff

Believer - Imagine Dragons

Bonfire - Felix Jaehn, ALMA

Die Vergessenen 1/2 - Casper

omg i totally forgot about OSTs Toberu Mono from The Last Stiry, too much from Persona 5 liek Beneath the Mask, Last Surprise etc

10 favorite movies:

i don’t watch enough :c

10 favorite tv shows, including anime & cartoons:

W - Two Worlds

Acchi Kocchi

Psycho Pass

I’m giving up

10 things you enjoyed before kpop/enjoy besides kpop, that won’t fit in the lists above:

music

art

video games

esp atlus n nintendo games!!

cute soft stuffed animals

flight rising

sarma

collecting cute key charms

collecting cute things in general

dancing

ten tag last movie you watched: i dont know

last song you listened to:  that one song mentioned above by Daoko

last show you watched: I Hear Your Voice

last book you read: Der Vorleser by Bernhard Schlink, don’t read it

last thing you ate: chocolate

if you could be anywhere in the world right now where would you be: Tokyo

when would you time travel to: itll be spontaneous

first thing you would do with lottery money: buy a loft

character you would hang out with for a day: P5 Protagonist

time right now: 23:52

the ‘or’ tag

build a snowman with v OR have a snowball fight with j-hope

get coffee with suga OR get ice cream with suga

go to the cinema with jimin OR the amusement park with jungkook

do a dance cover with j-hope OR sing a duet with jin

kiss rap monster OR cuddle suga

babysit with jimin OR dogsit with v

meet j-hope’s family OR have v meet your family

film a commercial with j-hope OR film a sketch with v

hug jimin OR hold hands with jungkook

go to paris with jin OR go to london with suga (sorry been to paris already)

film a drama with jin OR do a photo shoot with rap monster

attend an award show with rap monster OR wear couple t-shirts at the airport with jungkook

spend a lazy day with suga OR explore a city with j-hope

fall asleep next to jimin OR wake up next to jungkook

make up a silly rap with v OR a silly choreography with jin

have a fun picnic with j-hope OR a fancy date with jin

have jungkook serenade you OR have v sing you to sleep

have a dance party with j-hope OR sing karaoke with suga

go camping with jimin and v OR go to the beach with rap monster and suga

cook with jin AND bake a cake with jimin

have a sleepover with the hyung line OR a birthday party with the maknae line

celebrate halloween with jungkook, suga, v and j-hope OR christmas with rap monster, jimin and j-hope

rules: answer the questions with the first letter of your name, then tag 10 people. If the person who tagged you has the same initial, you must use different answers. you cannot use the same word twice.

What is your name? - Tsu

A four letter word? - text

A boy’s name? - Tom

An occupation? - tailor

Something you wear? - t-shirt

A color? - turquoise

A food? - tomato

Something you find in the bathroom? - toilet

A place? - Tokyo

A reason for being late? - traffic

Something you shout? - yells

A movie title? - something that starts with “the”

Something you drink? - tea

An animal? - turtle

A type of car? - tesla

Title of a song? - Tage wie diese - die toten hosen

I’m,,, maybe later @mama-kisu @metroid-fr (you can do the non kpop stuff) eh whoever wants i guess

[lovebtob]

tagged by  @mtvkris thank u bby ♥♥♥

this is crazy long so

instructions: You can tell a lot about a person by the type of music they listen to. Put your music on shuffle and list the first 10 songs, then tag 10 people. No skipping.

Sign // GOT7

Let Them In // PVRIS

Back 2 U (AM 01:27) // NCT 127

Lying to You // Keaton Henson

You Were beautiful // DAY6

History // EXO-K

Kingdom (Kor Ver.) // B.A.P

Everything’s Alright // To the Moon OST

Don’t Threaten Me with a Good Time // Panic! at the Disco

Ribs // Lorde

5 things you’d find in my bag:

wallet

keys

pads

lipstick/balm

charger

5 things you’d find in my bedroom:

my bed

posters

a tv

soft toys

laptop

5 things i always wanted to do in life:

travel (europe especially but everywhere)

get a house w my friends

make it through uni

actually get a job as a writer ??? that would be cool

learn a language

5 things i’m currently into:

kpop

strong woman do bong soon

writing (????)

tolkien (always)

sleeping

5 things on my to do list:

get a job

do absolutely nothing for the next day or so

maybe try to start my assignments before the end of break

do the dishes

make food

5 things people may not know about me:

im v introverted and idk why a lot of people find this surprising

im currently studying 2 languages at uni (french and japanese)

i want to get into screenwriting

i get to see got7 in just over a week

im a hoe for scented candles

NONE IN A PARTICULAR ORDER

Top 10 BTS Songs Tag:

Cypher pt 3

House of Cards

Baepsae

Blood Sweat and Tears

I Need U

Dope

Satoori Rap

Run

Am I Wrong

Spring Day

10 groups/artists you like besides Kpop/liked before Kpop:

Ed Sheeran

Jhene Aiko

Hayley Kiyoko

Halsey

Lorde

Mumford & Sons

Panic! at the Disco

PVRIS

Hozier

does Hamilton count bc it’s amazing ???

10 favorite non-kpop songs:

Is There Somewhere // Halsey

Happier // Ed Sheeran

House of Memories // Panic! at the Disco

Golden Days // Panic! at the Disco

Sleepover // Hayley Kiyoko

Pretty Bird // Jhene Aiko

Glory and Gore // Lorde

10am Gare du Nord // Keaton Henson

Gravel to Tempo // Hayley Kiyoko

Foreigner’s God // Hozier

10 favorite movies:

lotr: fellowship

lotr: two towers

lord: rotk

stardust

star wars: the force awakens

treasure planet

moana

logan

deadpool

ca: tws

10 favorite tv shows, including anime & cartoons:

a:tla

in the flesh

hannibal

fmab

death parade

goblin

steven universe

miraculous ladybug

strong woman do bong soon

mr robot

10 things you enjoyed before kpop/enjoy besides kpop, that won’t fit in the lists above:

the raven cycle (books)

all for the game (books)

percy jackson (books)

the song of achilles (book)

aristotle and dante discover the secrets of the universe (book)

fall out boy (music)

lotr (books just bc i love them as much as the movies)

assassin’s creed (video game)

six of crows (books)

hamilton (musical)

last movie you watched: stardust

last song you listened to: sleepover // hayley kiyoko

last show you watched: goblin

last book you read: crooked kingdom

last thing you ate: stir fry

if you could be anywhere in the world right now where would you be: ,,, w my gf tbhhh

when would you time travel to: can i go to the future?

first thing you would do with lottery money: look into getting my own house/apartment/living place idc what just something that’s MINE also like probably plane tickets to see my gf

character you would hang out with for a day: ronan lynch

time right now: 12:15pm

the ‘or’ tag

build a snowman with v OR have a snowball fight with j-hope

get coffee with suga OR get ice cream with suga

go to the cinema with jimin OR the amusement park with jungkook

do a dance cover with j-hope OR sing a duet with jin

kiss rap monster OR cuddle suga

babysit with jimin OR dogsit with v

meet j-hope’s family OR have v meet your family

film a commercial with j-hope OR film a sketch with v

hug jimin OR hold hands with jungkook

go to paris with jin OR go to london with suga

film a drama with jin OR do a photo shoot with rap monster

attend an award show with rap monster OR wear couple t-shirts at the airport with jungkook

spend a lazy day with suga OR explore a city with j-hope

fall asleep next to jimin OR wake up next to jungkook

make up a silly rap with v OR a silly choreography with jin

have a fun picnic with j-hope OR a fancy date with jin

have jungkook serenade you OR have v sing you to sleep

have a dance party with j-hope OR sing karaoke with suga

go camping with jimin and v OR go to the beach with rap monster and suga

cook with jin OR bake a cake with jimin

have a sleepover with the hyung line OR a birthday party with the maknae line

celebrate halloween with jungkook, suga, v and j-hope OR christmas with rap monster, jimin and j-hope

rules: answer the questions with the first letter of your name, then tag 10 people. If the person who tagged you has the same initial, you must use different answers. you cannot use the same word twice.

What is your name? - Beth

A four letter word? - bird

A boy’s name? - Ben

An occupation? - baker

Something you wear? - bracelet

A color? - blue

A food? - bread

Something you find in the bathroom? - basin

A place? - brisbane

A reason for being late? - broken

Something you shout? - bitch

A movie title? - Brave

Something you drink? - beer (if u hate urself)

An animal? - beluga

A type of car? - bentley

Title of a song? - baepsae // bts

on shuffle (kpop edition)   rules: put your music library on shuffle and list down the first 10 songs and tag 10 people.

healing // seventeen

ace // temin

i miss you so bad // ikon

ready or not // monsta x

why so serious // shinee

don’t recall (hidden vers) // kard

moonster // exo

rush // monsta x

21st century girls // bts

hey // got7

kpop - firsts rules: list five or ten of your favorite kpop boy / girl groups. put your first bias of each group and the name of the mv you first saw them in.

bts - jungkook; dope

nct - ten; 7th sense

got7 - jaebum; girls girls girls

btob - sungjae; insane

bap - jongup; skydive

blackpink - lisa; boombayah

mamamoo - hwasa; piano man

monsta x - all of them; all in

shinee - taemin; lucifer

exo - sehun; i think it was call me baby ???

random k-pop rules: go to this website: www.random.org/lists/ and pick 15 of your bias/faves.

mum/dad: changkyun

sibling: yoongi

grandma/grandad: lay

haunts you: yongguk

boyfriend/girlfriend: bobby

your ex: zuho

your best friend: lisa

proposed to you: ten (BOI)

your boss: ilhoon

random person you meet at a bar: chanyeol

rival: mark tuan

first kiss: sehun

drunk and singing karaoke: jinyoung

played 7 minutes in heaven with: taehyung

gave you your favorite dessert: wonho

im too lazy to tag anyone lmao but if u wanna do it go for it~