#and im thinking about the guy i have a crush on and how much they mean to me

[windwardstar]

copying the tags into the post bc i can keep track better now.

#jgy would be peak 2010s transmed and respectability politics #like he would be sooo willing to throw other trans people under the bus in order to get respect himself #im a real trans person im not like those fakers please respect me#he would have so many fucked up ideas about being trans #he would be policing his gender so hard too #like he would have so much hate and fear in him #worst manifestation of the self preservation instinct #and then the stone top and refusing medical care like yeah the robes do not come off ever dude is three layers of self loathing and dysphoria #in a trench coat (robes) he just #trans jgy would have so many issues #sorry for writing a novel in the tags #i haven't gotten to writing the fic so the thoughts all came out here i guess lmao

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Prev ALWAYS write essays in the tags #Absolute hard agree on the self hate and the willingness to throw ppl under the bus (MO XUANYU!!!!!) but here's the thing I think what he #has going on is more sinister #See I don't think he necessarily has a concept of real/fake trans people; I think he considers himself to be crossdressing #for practical reasons and how ~legitimate/successful he thinks that is waxes and wanes with how legitimate/successful his claim to his#status in general is #Due to the Themes™ #Like I don't think he's a transmed bc I don't think he thinks he has a medical condition! I think it's kind of the opposite #Where especially in context of his relationship to misogyny and what he doesn't recognize as dysphoria he's out here like #''being a woman is a nightmare and no one would choose to do it given the opportunity'' #Which of course makes him even more transmisogynist. #And he is mega stealth about it for the same reason that he's mega closeted and also trying to keep all the Crimes under wraps #Like the thing is. It truly all comes down to ''JGY wants so so so desperately so many things that he isn't supposed to have #chief among them respect and social legitimacy #and he genuinely wants them and it's a really tough problem to attempt to draw lines like where wanting to be base respected as a person #bleeds into wanting power and status and so on. And crucially he is again not supposed to have any of them and he knows he isn't #and he's reaching for them anyway.'" #So like the ability to be trans is in his head the same ability as to have social mobility in general #(Guy with a normal sense of identity) #So like it's not about faking being trans it's about faking being a man in general #Which is also why the everything else. Though u are right it is definitely the crushing dysphoria also #And also again as u said PEAK respectability politics. JGY LOVE respectability politics

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Oh Hard agree on all of this. Canon JGY would absolutely just view it as crossdressing and impersonating and an act. There's no precedent for actually becoming a man only pretending to be (except for those transformed physically as reward to grant deserving parents a son, which is arguably all evidence of intersex existence. BUT he's not that, he's just him in an untransformed body playing the role). He's put on a costume and is just acting the part (except he wants to actually be the part, he doesn't want to take it off). It's What he DOES. He isn't anything except the role. He'd have so many reasons for justifying why he's doing it because he'd need to-- how else could he justify something so blatantly violating the gender boxes of society. How else could he justify the danger of it. Nobody can know he's not really what he says he is, it'll put him in danger, it'll ruin the illusion, they'll take everything he's worked so hard for and deserves (if they find out they'll make him stop). He has to be stealth and he'll guard that secret it as strongly as he guarded any of the canon crimes. He'd be such a tangled mess. The push and pull of his own desires and dysphoria with the awareness of all that he's violating and also the justifications for doing so. JGY whose quest for being recognized as JGS son is both gender and status.

(the transmed thing was more in relation to the fic i'm writing (with context of modern setting and modern concepts of gender and transness and feminism and etc etc etc). my brain's been stewing in the jgy thoughts for over a year now and they keep spilling out because i haven't actually gotten around to being able to write them out.)

STRAP GAME UNPRECEDENTED. PREY ANIMAL FEAR AT LEVELS NEVER BEFORE RECORDED. Anyway this is #mytruth and also I’m calling this my JGY birthday art Happy birthday a-Yao you transphobic transgender icon

[ywpd-translations]

Ride 774: Kiji, coming!!

Pag 1

1: Welcome, to the Emperor's throne!!

My aim is the double crown!!

Pag 2

4: Ahhh... you're fast, the two of you

I thought I could catch you for sure at 2km left

Pag 3

1: But it took me until “1km left”, yon!!

Pag 4

3: Ah!?

He

4: caught up!? Who....

Pag 5

1: who the hell are you!?

2: The two people in the lead are taking the curve and passing the sign that says that there's 1km left until the sprint line.....

Pag 6

1: No, it's three people!!

Three people passed the “1km left” sign!!

2: There's more people!? Since when!?

Wasn't it two people!?

What happened!? Who's that? That jersey-

At the last curve, suddenly-

3: It's not “who are you”....!!

Dammit!! I know!! This guy!!

Pag 7

1: There's one more person who we need to pay special attention to

2: Gunma Ryousei's third year, Kiji Kyuui

3: Ohh, Kiji? Who's that

Oi, I already told you about this in advance, Manami!! Come on, at the sea

Is that so?

4: What's your data about him?

5: There's basically no record of him in road racing

6: He's an..... “assassin” from the MTB world, huh

7: Is he aiming for the goal?

8: Yeah.... the goal...

That's right....

We should be glad

Pag 8

1: That he's only aiming for the goal

2: Hayaaaa!!

3: Dammit!! The first result.... so you're aiming for the sprint too!?

4: Since they said you were aiming for the goal I thought you were a climber like Manami!!

Pag 9

1: Let's speed up, Orange!! He'll catch up!!

2: I've seen it before!! This guy's jersey

3: That day.... he appeared suddenly on that bike with the thick tires

Pag 10

1: It's the guy who chased Onoda-san and the Hakogaku guy with the bouncy hair!!

2: Before that, Onoda-san said they were friends and that he's “strong”!!

3: He's coming to catch up to

4: mine and San-na's battle

Pag 11

1: He really is strong!!

Let's switch, I'll pull!!

Pag 12

1: Orange!!

3: They're in tune

You have amazing judgment and explosive power!!

4: When I caught up at the last curve

5: Even though they could have also accepted me and made me join them

Without making eye contact or calling out to each other, in an instant at the same time they made the decision

6: that they would “cooperate” to leave me behind!! Yon!!

You're really....

Pag 13

4: What's that

He's lowering his stance and pushing on the handles like he's about to dance....!!

5: Hayaaaa

Pag 14

1: You're really close friends!!

Pag 15

4: He lined up to us in one go!?

Pag 16

1: This guy!! Was it an optical illusion? Just now, I saw something like a cloud of dust behind me

2: Takadajou told us this

Be careful

3: I've been told that the power that a MTB rider can produce in a short time

4: is 1.5 times that of a road racing cyclist

5: This guy can match this top speed!?

8: Ah!?

9: Huh!?

Pag 17

2: In between!?

He came in between!?

Ah!?

3: You bastard, usually when one catches up he joins in the back

Pag 18

1: It's road racing theory!!

4: This guy doesn't know the theory?

5: 800m left until the sprint line!!

6: 1

Pag 19

1: 2

What's this- San-na, did this guy suddenly started counting

2: What's this

The sign for an attack?

3: 3

Pag 20

2: Alright, I recovered

5: Well then, I'll go

Pag 21

1: Ahead, yon

2: So it really was a sign for attacking!!

Who's that guy!!

[danielnelsen]

well that's just a lie

[kagoutiss]

I'm very curious, how did you get into Star Wars? Are you a returning fan or is this a new media fixation for you?

oh no it’s very new for me, lol. i mean i did see the films growing up and already knew the basic facts that inescapably pervade all of pop culture, but i never had an actual interest in the series until recently. part of it is literally just because i havent been able to play video games as much this year bc of health problems, so i’ve needed stuff i can just watch/read while resting rather than sitting at a pc, and i’ve found star wars stuff is kinda good for that because it’s. very silly and has lots of different supplemental materials, and. extremely convoluted/messy/interesting lore that has been weirdly helpful for passing the time some days. my interest got piqued from just listening to random videos about different shows & movies in the background because i never just watch tv like a normal person, and at some point i was putting on random star wars stuff bc it stuck in my head, and by then it was too late. i’m mostly just interested in the OT/prequels, but i also like a lot of the comics and some of the older paperbacks i can get my hands on, even if the contents can be weird or inconsistent (plus i just rly like the 80s-90s era cover designs…..they’re neat…)

part of me was definitely intimidated by being an uninitiated enjoyer of what is probably one of the most historied & divisive long-running series ever, but a bigger more evil part of me that somehow loves things like the zelda timeline was like ‘no, we can handle this…What Do You Mean There’s A Guy Named Salacious Crumb’ and now here i am

[nonsensechemicals]

crying whenever i talk about Cookie9 because all my friends have these interesting and unique theories on them while i take everything too literally and they all just stare at me like “dude… uuugh we r TIRED” <-they dont actually say this they are very kind to me but i can Feel It

[dirt-str1der]

That post is still pretty active so i have to scroll past that guys bloated festering corpse every time i want to see someones new reply

[loverboybrightsideghost]

"reblog for something lgbt to happen to you" at this point i'd be grateful if something straight happened to me

[thedevotionaltour]

i havent even read enough gl to justify the feelings and emotions i have about kyle i just have the lovers heart and also something wrong with me. and my projection. in my mind he's just like me. and he would have loved college vending machine frozen cheeseburger and heating it up in the microwave at 1 in the morning because he was bored and didn't want to work on a drawing assignment on 20" x 30" paper that was due tomorrow in his freshman year. he would have loved going to the club to push off finals work that's creating the worst stress known to man in his brain. and he would love to annoy the fuck out of his roommate when high and avoiding homework on a saturday.

[horrorwebs]

why are men literally the fucking worst

[moodlesmain]

What I'm Made Of (Sonic Heroes OST) 🤝 With Me (Sonic and the Black Knight OST): Final boss songs who's lyrics apply almost just as much to Sonic as they do to the villain he's facing

[eebooduh]

Up until recently I was very confident in my identity as an aroace person. However lately all of my friends have been getting into relationships and it seems like all they want to talk about now is their romance and sexlives. We used to meet up and talk about our interests and the world and the future. Now all I hear about is dates and sex. It's not bad to be invested in your relationship and its not bad to want to confide in people about it. I would absolutely not mind talking about it but I wish it wasn't all we could talk about now. I feel lonely while I'm with people I've been friends with for years because we can't connect when we're together anymore. And maybe thats selfish of me but it's not like I don't want to talk about romance and sex at all, I just want to be able to talk about other things too.

[lem-argentum]

than/rudy/raha is an interesting concept to me becauseee. th.ancred deals a lot with words unspoken. his most meaningful relationships are hurt because he focuses on action to the point of miscommunication. and meanwhile, aside from what he keeps hidden very intentionally, raha says a lot more in terms of affection. because (from his perspective) his time is almost up, and he wants to leave those relationships with the other knowing how he feels without any doubt. y’know………

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

🎟

[sokkagatekeeper]

JINZULA MY BELOVED and i want your thoughts on it!! (I have this au in my head where like. Azula hides in the earth kingdom pesants to get into ba sing se to kill the earth king, and she accidentally develops a friendship with jin, then has to betray her and everything. And its tragic bc azula found someone in her life who actually enjoyed her for *her*, just some girl, and there werent any weird obligations involved, which is smth she CRAVES. But she still ultimately destroys is bc 1) she doesnt think “happiness” is worth it, 2) the Repression of it all. Anyway). What are your thoughts on it!! I think its a REALLY fun ship for literary analysis, and i love your literary analysis so. :) thoughts?

ok love that you decided that this cute little ship that can be whatever you want should also be tragic that's so real i <3 pain & suffering. but yeah i think it's a cute ship and it does in fact make some amount of sense. i tend to think of it less in the way you're describing and more in the sense of it actually being a good, healthy relationship that happens years down the line, when azula is more stable. ultimately azula does need to be with someone who is really just some girl, as so much of her issues stem from how much being the Fire Princess has influenced her sense of self. obviously, jin does not need to be that girl (and in fact, having her love interest be a character we've already met kinda plays into ideas of fate more than would be ideal for a good relationship for azula?) but it would in fact be funny, and importantly, we know that jin has a tolerance for people she's into being extremely annoying and often rude. which is also a necessary quality in a potential azula gf.

[silverselfshippingchaos]

is it gush post time? i think it is.

[southerngothicaf]

Ohh no.